Fentanyl Addict interview-Frankie
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- Опубліковано 9 тра 2022
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Frankie, a fentanyl addict in North Hollywood, California.
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I hate the fact that this guy purposely had a child knowing he’s addicted to drugs and knowing his girlfriend was going to leave the second his daughter was born. And now she’s being raised by her grandmother. I understand he lost a baby and wanted another one but he went about it in the absolute most selfish way possible. Putting himself first over the needs of his daughter. I also get that he’s a drug addict and doesn’t think rationally but Jesus Christ there’s almost a 100% chance that little girl is going to messed up from the childhood that was knowingly forced on her.
All addicts are selfish.
@@awesome_comment Being a former Heroin addict for 4 years and now sober/clean for 4 years, I can personally attest this statement is 100% true whether we like it or not. We can be some of the most selfish people as addicts.
Absolutely
He kept saying he used drugs to forget about his daughters death, but its an excuse. He was an addict before she was born. All I heard from this dude where cop out excuses, and envy about what other have. He gave me the impression that he should be handed anything he wants without having to work at all for it, and its Gods and everyone elses fault that he doesn't have the things he wants. If he and his girlfriend wernt addicts, then his child wouldnt have been born addicted, and she wouldnt have been taken away, and possible may not have passed away. Its not the foster mothers fault she didnt know anything about addiction. Its you and your girlfriends fault, you decided to have a child even though she was addicted to heroin.
It’s starts off as a choice. But it becomes a disorder. Are babies selfish when they kick and scream at 3am because their brain will not let them rest until they get that comfort and milk? Most addicts and I include myself in this, hate how selfish their reality is. Addicts cannot help how they are genetically programmed to react to shit that happens to them. I hated and did not want to live in the selfish reality I created and I would seek help just as much as I would seek the drugs that would provide a modicum and temporary relief from the pain and anxiety and restlessness and it wasn’t until I found the right help after 15 years of seeking that finally pulled me out of the selfish self absorbed hellish reality I existed in. Selfishness is a symptom and not a personality trait.
You’ve lost one child and can’t see you’re losing another. Your daughter was brought in to this world to solve your problems; now she’s been forgotten. Use that pain to be a good person for Autumn.
Yes, did you hear that? This guy is unbelievable. Thoughtless
So true. That is the reality a lot of people are not aware of. The children are brought in to serve as the parent of their parent. It is called Parentified child. It is horrifying if humanity continues on in that cycle.
He basically normalizes it with no plan of being able to help her understand herself and her surroundings.
The entire society is devoid of empathy. If broken people feel no empathy, and the entitlement is handed down.....
This is the result.
If they receive empathy, then maybe.
I understand him, if society only shames guilts and rages at people, people no longer know how to have reason and rationality.
They no longer have the train of thought to think along the lines of the future for children.
At least he admitted jealousy of not being able to go back and get a re-do. That was huge. That was a very good moment without an ego. The baby boomer gen, which is full of jealousy, and also craves going back to get a re do, could never be as brave to admit jealousy. The only boomer i wver heard admitting jealousy is Joni Mitchell. She coupled greed with jealousy and she talked about the devastating effects of greed and jealousy.
I agree. It was selfish to even have a child knowing you can not nurture this child, guide this child and provide for this child. Parenting is far beyond what you can do/give as an addict. This is the kind of story that infuriates me. Lastly, you set your child up for failure.
@@finolaomurchu8217 He's repeating the life he lived. It's not rocket science
I will listen to this again when I feel sorry for myself. He taught me a lot. I don’t want to be anything like him.
I quit drinking in 2012 because I recognized I was going down my dad's addictive past. The genetics connection is very real. I got control before it controlled me. I was 17 when my father quit drinking. He really helped me see my errors. He was an awful father but my kids have the best grandfather anyone could ask for! This June 12, my dad celebrates his 30 year AA sobriety anniversary and it's my 47th birthday. Recovery is possible but it's a day to day choice not to use. He tells me even thirty years sober, he wakes up every single morning making the choice NOT to use THAT day. It's too overwhelming for him to think further than one day at a time.
Great!
It's not that black and white man. I'm happy for your dad and for your family. But it's not always choice like you think.
@@tcoker0416 no, it took my dad at least five failures. If the addict is READY, then, yes, there's help and hope for recovery. There's absolutely NOTHING "easy" about staying sober. But it's always possible. I completely understand nobody chooses to be an addict. But it is a choice not to get help when addiction is literally destroying you.
@@GenXfrom75 based
Congratulations to you for breaking the cycle! That’s a powerful gift you’ve given to all future generations and I really commend you! ❤️
Using a dead baby as an excuse to get high is pretty awful. He was an addict before she was even born! And I’m a recovering addict. So I’ve been there, but that I just can’t agree with.
I agree with u 100 %
Every story is a different one... :(
Exactly !
Great for you to give your perspective. It helps to hear from those with lived experience
A safe place to do drugs? That's probably not what was meant by giving you housing. This is sad in a lot of ways but it boils down to his decisions or lack of good ones
it's different for him, its in his genetics...he has no choice, he must smoke fentanyl...you can't understand so don't judge him
@@grifyn882
Lmao I really hope you’re trolling. And It’s in my genetics too, but guess what? I got clean and I don’t do anything anymore. Because no matter how much something is in your genetics, you can deal with it. You can outwork bad genetics. Your comment seems real and if it is you need to give your fcking head a shake.
Making bad decisions and lack of good decisions. Like having a child with a woman he knew was going to leave. This dude is a mess and purposefully had a baby knowing she was going to be passed off to someone other than the parents. When I was using prescription drugs, no matter how bad I ever got I always knew if I had a kid then it would’ve been the worst decision of my life. I got clean 10 years ago, met my wife and now we have a 6 year old boy that’s literally my best friend. A kid needs their parents. Of course things happen but to purposely have a kid knowing she was going to be abandoned is one of the most selfish things I’ve seen in a while. I feel bad for this guy because he obviously has issues but he also needs to grow tf up and get his shit together. You can only blame genetics for so long. There are a lot worse addicts that have gotten clean.
@@Jay-hp6pu very well said! & congratulations on your sobriety & little boy ☺️
@@grifyn882 genetic behavior can be modified look at all the recovery stories. You don't know what I understand either so don't judge me
I think watching this video would be a prime don’t do drugs video for kids. The delusion of this man is mind boggling. He’s so far removed from reality he makes no sense.
Maybe u should stop eating so much. It’s not healthy, and ur delusional if you think it is.
Your a punk for saying that. This guy's a mess and does not deserve to have custody of his child.
Crazy how this guy blames the foster mom for the baby’s death. So sad.
Do a little research and digging into CPS corruption. It’s literally a horror for so many parents. I didn’t feel he was shifting blame … his own shame and guilt are quite clear… he simply said his daughter was set up to fail which when it comes to our current ‘system’ running the game so to speak … we’re pretty much all being set up to fail. It’s a complex reality … try not to judge though. Judgment literally cripples us all … it’s what holds this reality back from change and keeps us in fear of one another. My words come from the heart… I hope you read them that way 💜
I thought the same thing. I really doubt that they hand babies over to foster families who are not familiar with infants born with drug addiction
U.S foster care is kinda fucked from what i hear so its very possible either way you look at it. The baby did have a heavy dose before birth so it’s also possible there wasn’t any chance of long term survival, too
@@serradojapi Which means he is not ready to quit yet.
Bthny You’d be wrong. The foster system in the US is really F’d up. They give kids to people who’ve already abused children. Most kids get placed in 20 different families before 18. A heck of a lot of foster parents see these kids as a paycheck and that’s the only reason they foster them. There are a lot of genuinely good foster parents, but seeing what happens in the foster care system and the group homes is my main reason for being pro choice. If you wanna know something really F’d up it’s those states that have banned abortion have also been giving private prison companies contracts and funding to build and run their own group homes and private foster agencies. Private corporations care solely about profit. They will cut corners on safety and services for these kids. They will do even less follow ups in the childreb’s situations and we’ll being. They will be even less caring about who they give kids to.
Not sure what he means “blessed” two months of not paying bills and everything I have would be gone? This man is perfectly content where he is.
You have to want to help your self ! Too many enablers out there !
@@mikeheaton8424 👍I can attest to that,my friend
He is literally putting everything on everyone else even god. He doesn't take responsibility for shit smh
@@mikeheaton8424 That's a big factor also.
Exactly this guy is a waste of space
The daughter was set up for failure because she was born to two heroin addicts. Not because of the hospital or the foster mother. What a horrible comment.
This one was tough for me. I usually have nothing BUT empathy and compassion for the interviewee. Sadly, not so much here. I just kept thinking, “What a whiny little . . . . “ I’m going to rewatch and remind myself that your life doesn’t have to be filled with excruciating trauma and pain to be vulnerable to addiction. Wish me luck. 🤞🏼
I'm glad I'm not the only one that feels this way...I think this guy is just immature and needs to straighten up his shit and grow up and not look back
Good luck bc I can’t find any empathy for him; I see right through his BS as a recovering addict myself. No accountability at all, excuse after excuse and NOTHING is his fault. I’ve been clean since 2011 and it takes one to know one. Hope he figures it out before it’s too late.
same
It's sad, I kinda feel the same way but I keep trying to remember that I have been told that addicts stop growing emotionally when they start using. It makes me wonder how old he was when he started. I hope one day he takes some accountability and gets clean 🙏.
youre not the only one. he seems real dumb and selfish. really trying to be compassionate but hes deflecting too much
The nerve of this man blaming the hospital and the foster mother for his daughter’s death is sickening. You and your “baby mama” killed her.
Somebody has to say it!
I don't want to defend this Frankie. But I find it more than odd that he becomes a target. Many prostitutes and drug addicts portrayed here have children who continue the tradition of their parents and grow up in foster families. Frankie's story illustrates very concretely and frighteningly vividly what the consequences are for a newborn, for example, to be born addicted to drugs or, like the second child, to be released for foster care. But while other drug addicts and prostitutes crying into the camera, unable to take care of their parenting duties because of their addictions, are eulogised as a beautiful souls or strong personalities to pray for, this Frankie becomes a sin. I find that hypocritical
Well if the selfish hospital would have given him his child he could have given her the perfect amount of heroin to keep her alive.
@@helenaneumann1872 I can understand what you are saying. When I scrolled down the comments for a few minutes I saw more negative comments about Frankie than I normally see. Maybe it’s because it didn’t feel like he took any accountability for some of the things that has taken place because of the choices he has made. For me, all I really heard was him blaming this or that on another person. I personally didn’t hear him ever mention anything he should or could have done differently but maybe I just missed it somehow if he did.
@@helenaneumann1872 This comment reminds me of when I reprimand my small child, they will say “well little Johnny said a bad word too”.
For all the "moms" who raised their children as best they could and sent them on their way only to have to step up once again and raise their child's child; bless you and thank you.
The problem is the moms that raised their kids and end up raising their grandkids are usually a huge part of the problem, and why their kids weren’t good parents in the first place. Of course there are other factors but most of the time the parents are the start of the issue.
@@Jay-hp6pu EXACTLY. Many people overlook this part.
Why are you thanking them for failing the first time around?
to make it worse its not even her child. she had to raise her nephew and grand nephew.
Yes it's not easy. They never get their own life. It such a sacrifice. It helps to show appreciation to those raising their grandkids to ask them and see if there's anything they need for themselves because they often don't do anything for just them.
So let me get this straight, your baby dies, and neither one of the parents are arrested. This just makes me so angry, people are blessed to have a baby and the mother can’t stop using drugs….
This is one that I have no empathy whatsoever for.
You reap what you so.
"My daughter was set up for failure..."
By you and your wife, yes.
This one was hard to watch. I have 0 empathy for him other than the fact that a childs life was lost. Its all about choices you make. No one elses fault but your own.
He's giving away all of his stealing stores. Hope they aren't watching
Why do I feel like he’s proud of himself? Is it the continuous smirk?
He gives off that vibe. He says he's stuck and using drugs to numb. Stealing affects us all for those paying for products that prices are being driven up above what can be afforded unfortunately
Rather earn an honest living or take care of your children, force others to do it for you with a smirk? Gross. This guy has no shame, a proud leach of society. He blames what happened to his 1st child on the system instead of himself and the drug-addicted mother. Absolutely no accountability for anything in any way. This guy does not deserve the comfortable home and everything he steals. He's ruining lives like a tornado. I've been watching this channel since it started and I've never said anything negative about anyone but this guy really irritates me. Being a junkie is understandable but this guy is entitlement embodied, everything wrong with society.
I agree. Typical mentality of his hipster generation.
Same! He seems very proud of what he’s done and what he’s doing. No remorse but wants you to feel sorry for him if he gets caught 🥴
Welcome to the new generation. It’s embedded in all types of cultures. Just look around at the amount that aren’t addicted but just don’t want to work.
@@mwloos1 and who's fault is it? The generation who raised us.
I hope he finds accountability
After watching all your videos I am beginning to think that addiction is 70% childhood and environment, 20% hereditary and 10% masking problems. I hope watching these issues can help addicted parents to make the right decisions or maybe not have kids in the first place
I would say 90 percent environment. I drank everyday for 8 years. I moved states and haven't drank in over a year and a half.
Your childhood is part of environment.
@@markmower1746 absolutely what I meant.
The government must do something to stop this cycle
@@classicwhitebread good on you!!! Well done and keep up. 👏🏿
@@lualih the government? You want the government to control and think for you?! You're a problem.
I've learned not speak on anything I don't know about. It's easy to judge, it's easy to hate, however we only judge what we don't understand. Personally I've judged people in my past; only to end up telling their story as my own. Now, I meet people where they're at, love them, and know each one of us has a journey in life, some of us learn lessons very quickly, other's take longer because they're not ready to receive the lesson. Nevertheless, we are all here learning from one another, I believe we can learn something from everyone.
❤
For sure good way to put it we never really know what's going on inside another. People can portray as being one way and not express what may have happened to them or what they are dealing with. I've seen this often in autistic adults. May seem to not appreciate and say thank you, but there's other things at play
The whole thing about drug users not getting sick is true. I was on a high dosage of opioid pain medications when I was ill due to a tumor and had tons of pain for about 3 years. I BARELY got sick of anything. The only time I got sick was when I ran out of meds and got dopesick, which was worse than a flu, cold, etc. I am a lucky statistic and got off all prescription pain meds and a morphine pain pump once my tumor was removed, but it took me a solid year to get off of narcotics. It was one of the hardest things to do, but I had enough will power and a good support system at home to do it. I wish others had that same support system as I did, so they could actually stand a chance against detoxing. I don't wish the experience on anyone.
Yup, I found that too. But as soon as I stopped, I got so Ill. I've got auto immune disease, loads of little niggle, semi-serious stuff like that. I know a few other people that happened to aswell.
I'm hearing him talking about a baby withdrawal. And now she's died. And I want to punch him In the face.
Good to hear your experience and hope
I'm beginning to see people wising up and not using this"I was born that way" crap as in the past.
People aren't going to move forward unless they stop buying into that train of thought.
it's different for him, its in his genetics...he has no choice, he must smoke fentanyl...you can't understand so don't judge him
But he said it’s in his genetics and that he didn’t choose this multiple times. Even if it’s in our genes everything is a choice.
You are born with genes that make you far more susceptible to becoming addicted. Your friends may try a substance once and they can walk away. In an addict, that same one time use essentially "turns on" the genetic switch. The best thing for anyone who knows their addictive heritage is to never try a substance to start with ... In the real world, you see these addictive substances all around you. It's a tough thing to avoid. No one WANTS to be an addict.
Many people can't move forward in life and do what they want to do due to commerce. Fact. Have a nice day.
@@grifyn882 you're so dim
Frankie, self awareness and accountability are sorely needed and if you try it, it can lead you to tremendous growth. There's still time.
I watch a lot of these videos… this guys why many people make a distinction between “suffering addict” and “junkie.” The romanticism of fentanyl and excitement in the way he describes the ability to live in a tiny home and do drugs all day speaks volumes!
he is being 100% honest and realistic, not full of BS like the others
Yeah the vibe is very weird here. Hope he finds a new perspective
I have a younger brother that has never worked, has spent a lifetime using drugs, had 2 children taken away from him and their mother and has told me he is happy with the way hes lived his life.
He has been jealous of me our whole entire life. He makes comments about the things I have, and the fact that I have a family of my own, and we are able to experience things. It really pisses me off when he makes these comments, like its my fault he choose to live the way he has. I let him live with me, and supported him financially and he payed me back by stealing from me.
He has this way of trying to guilt you into giving him something you have that he wants. It drives me crazy and really pisses me off. Its not like I didnt try to steer him in another direction for the last 20 years. He made the choices that got him where he is. So when he says things like I wish I had a nice car or do you have another so and so I could have, I just want to smack him and tell him exactly how I feel about wheres he's ended up in life.
Some people know exactly what they are doing and exactly where it leads. Dont get jealous of what others have because you dont have the same. You could have chose to work hard and have the same things others have. Like a house and a car, and a family. You cant go back and change the past bit you can start at any minute you want in life and change your future. I understand addiction. I am in recovery myself. Its a lifelong process that demands your attention and demands hard work. Nothing in life worth having comes easy. But you have to want something bad enough to make an effort at obtaining it. This video was super triggering for me. It was like listening to my brother only it was a different person talking.
I agree my younger brother did the same thing had 5 kids lived off the system and other people. I joined the army in high-school to get out of the projects. Chose not to have kids but its my fault he doesn’t have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out. We live 2000 miles apart on purpose I tried to establish a relationship with my nephews only they’re just like their dad I need this I want that I need this. Using the kids to try to get money out of us it’s really sad
he wasn’t raised that way. And I didn’t do all the right things I too had to deal with an addiction. Getting off opioids is difficult but entirely possible but it takes responsibility for your actions or you’ll never get out. Except by jails, institutions or death. 🤷♀️🙏🏻
@@theresekirkpatrick3337 you are exactly right. I was addicted to painkillers. So I know what it feels like. I also know I wanted better for my life and family, more than I wanted to continue being addicted. My brother is only 60 miles away. And I try to have a normal relationship with him, but he gets bittwr and nasty, like you said, its my fault he chose what he chose. I cant stand when he starts whining about how his life is over and theres nothing left to look forward to. Still to this day I try to tell him, he can make a choice right now, to go another direction. But the problem is, he doesnt want to put forth the effort. He wants someone to hand it to him. He gets angery when my family or 1 of our siblings goes on vacation and we dont take him. I went to texas 2 summers ago to visit our father and he got pissed because I didnt tell him or ask him to go. Its crazy, I have 2 kids already. I dont need another adult child to feed and buy cigarettes for. And god know what illegal crap he would have in my car around my kids. Its like he feels like I'm obligated to take care of his ass. When I caught him stealing from me, our relationship changed and has never been the same. He smoked cigarettes in my house when no one was home and burned a hole in my sofa, and he didnt understand why I was so angry. He has no concept of how much something like a couch costs because hes never worked or bought anything valuable in his life. He didnt understand that he had just cost me 1000 bucks. Sorry for the rant but this video has me on one.
Some people are just users unfortunately. Some are just envious too. It's hard to bear that people especially family can be this way. Thank goodness your personality didn't turn out this way. You can't let anyone ruin your family no matter how bad you want to help. We fall into this rescue fantasy unfortunately. I've been there and still struggle with it. You will get sick yourself and possibly relapse from the stress. Put you family first and hopefully your brother learns from your example and learns he can't manipulate you for his gain. It's a hard lesson but sometimes it's necessary for a person to fall flat on their face in order to change
This guy talks about stealing as if it's OK, even though it's a crime. It seems like the city is supporting his criminal lifestyle, including providing a "safe place to use drugs." I don't see how this solves homelessness, or helps anyone.
I agree, it seems as though it's becoming a lifestyle.
Commerce is evil. It keeps people from having the basics and opportunities to live life to the fullest. If you can't understand that then oh well.
It's a haven for theft there. Unbelievable
I know there’s so many vets out here that are not addicts that deserve these tiny houses. So many addicts have said they have to hit rock bottom to realize they need help. Giving addicts a roof, 3 meals a day, showers and a safe place to do drugs WHY WOULD THEY GET HELP??? He will never get over the death of his daughter until he accepts responsibility and stops blaming GOD!
And what if a vet is a drug addict, are they ok for being given an tiny house then? The irony of your comment.
so your basically saying its not right to give drug addicts a roof over their head, and 3 square meals a day?
Garbage take. So drug addicted veterans like myself don’t deserve help? Former USMC rifle platoon commander with two tours in Afghanistan and I use drugs because otherwise all I think about is how immoral it was to kill other people and how the buddies I saw die did so for absolutely nothing. So don’t lump all veterans together in one group. We’re all doing the best we can with what we’ve got. I’m trying to do better every day, but sometimes you need help.
@@thematriarchy2075 thank you for your service. Welcome home.
Most definitely. I don't think he ever learned anything about God who actually hated death. I pray someone teaches him that gods most dominant quality is love and he has a plan to get rid of evil and has a time set to do that. Yes the bible was written by men but inspired by God just like a secretary writes a letter for their boss. His humility let him get the bible written through the eyes of men/women who are imperfect but he sees their potential and plans to fix this crazy situation called life.
Pisses me off these two had a child. He seems to have no remorse for his child dying. First interview I actually disliked.
I hope he isn't what we are seeing here
He's the epitome of Self Pity!!! Bs addiction is somewhat a choice! I'm speaking from experience, until he takes full responsibility and understand life is now about his daughter and others he won't get far. Prayers ❤️
As a former addict, you should have more empathy. I know for a fact you didn’t get clean in the very first chances you had. You had to get your mind right & find your footing in the journey. The high horse you rode in on turn out to be a donkey. Lower yourself.
@@1LoDeezydotcom High horse? Absolutely not sir If I would have gotten real with myself years ago and let go of All of my SELF PITY, GUILT, HOPELESSNESS, SELFISHNESS, ALONG WITH OTHER BULLSHIT I wouldnt have missed out on so many years!!!! I also wouldn't have out my first daughter through 3 years of pain and my other daughter through 9 months of pain!!! So don't you come on here and tell me I'm on a high horse, it's people like you that make makes addiction Easy to live through! Yes it's a disease just like any other but it's also a choice
@@1LoDeezydotcom OH and Ill Never use the term Former Addict bc I'm still an addict just in recovery the monkey still tried to jump in my daily I make a choice daily to keep it off
@@1LoDeezydotcom Mind right and find his footing? Lol smh if he waits for that he will be dead! In active addiction we're Insane so I'm not sure how he will get his mind right until he gets real...prayers for you also ❤️
@@deidrahall1428 “can’t get his mind right until he gets real” so like I said, he has to get his mind right. You just contradicted yourself & proved my point. You don’t become clean 2 minutes after you decide to become clean. It’s a process. It’s a journey. You have to know where to start. You have to get your mind right & make a decision. Everybody’s journey not yours. You don’t dictate the timing someone gets clean. Ozzy did a boat load of drugs for years. He’s clean now.
You people have a false sense of hierarchy because you are no longer an addict. Well guess what, you dumb ass dis shot to become an addict. You are no better than anyone who is/was an addict.
Don’t pray for me because you have soiled & sour energy. Pray for yourself. I rebuke you prayers or anything you speaketh about or towards me.
Ive really hoped by watching these it would help me be more empathetic. This one i can't. You have no idea what love is. Using is all you know. People, drugs, assistance. They're all just disposable commodities. God damn you bringing a child into your mess not once but twice.
I have to say I agree. The self centered delusion he is living in is so sad. I hope he gets into treatment
I am very judgmental. I can’t forgive him. I don’t know if there is something wrong with me but I get angry that they basically tortured a baby. He is just a criminal. And that we tax payers have to pay his bills. He blames addiction and god… he has only him self to blame! At least he knows that the mind is powerful and if he really wants to stop he can do it!
He's immature as F*k and needs to get his shit together and grow up, bluntly put as harsh as it sounds.
...that's what I had to do. That's what a lot of us had to do. You just wake up one day and say, Allright, here we go, let's do this thang👍
no, he didn't blamed god...but he blames his no-choice "genetic addiction behavior",
iam always empathic, being myself an addict, but the way he tells his "story" is very upsetting
@@grifyn882 yes it is, like I want to reach through the phone and slap this man,I'm also an addict but his story is making me mad
@@deannalawley53
I empathize with these guys no matters their situation for a number of reasons. But this guy, lol, this guy needs help so he can help himself. He needs to want to help himself. I believe he's immature as hell, and makes excuses (I used to do the same BS in my 20s) I'm very clean these days, and looking back, I can see a lot of things this guys saying and doing is what I used to do...he needs to step up like I had to. Like any of us had to, to get somewhere in life. It's sad as hell.
@@wesleyalan9179 so so true!!
Thank you for making these videos and allowing all of these precious lives to have a voice. You're allowing some to tell their story for the very first time ever. We all need someone to just sit and care enough to listen.
It almost seems like a child is viewed as a pet or a toy that you can take out and play with... Where's the thought and responsibility that comes with raising a family?
Yikes…his parting words are “all drugs aren’t bad” You have to WANT to get better and change your life, it’s not going to be easy but it’s definitely going to be worth it
what would you say if i told you ive been taking opiate pharmaceutuicals for about 10 years , i never go on the nodd, i work in sales of software for a fortune 500 company, own my own house (only non married guy that owns a house on my street all by myself,) 2 cars, enough savings to live like a king for 5 years or so wihtout making another dollar (not counting my non liquid assets), beautiful girlfriend who doesnt do drugs and has no idea i do, i dont smoke weed, i drink a tiny bit of wine but thats it.....and i concurr not all drugs are bad.....now that ive taken you out of your comfortable "look at that scumbag" point of view , what would you say now? dont be so obtuse brother :)....p.s i m 40 years old, but still get hit on by 25 year old women and get asked for ID almost daily when tryin to buy cigs, most ppl say i dont look a day over 30.
people have been using drugs for centruries, in places like afghanistan 60% of male population use heroin at some point in their life, i live in North America btw
Without consequences, nobody gets clean. Nobody. Denying addicts consequences is basically sentencing them to a slow death.
I hope Mark looks after himself after listening to all these people telling such awful things 🙏
He helps a lot of people too financially. He’s a good dude.
@@reefk8876 Hi he really is a good guy, I watch all his videos its certainly opened my eyes to so much I wasn't aware of. A social study in human behaviour is fascinating to all of us.
Absolutely, I can see it being mentally draining. He is a great listener.
@@GiGi_to_3 yes I agree, he's been through so much with these people. I think he's brave I would be too scared to do what he's doing.
I was thinking the same because this one was extremely hard to watch.
I'll remember this story the rest of my life.
I can't imagine sitting next to this guy listening to what he's telling.
I couldn't have done this one.
All the pimps, prostitutes, addicts so far, even the people who have molesterd others I could do but not this one.
this is one of my favorite recent uploads. thank you mark. I dont know if you realize it but you are basically providing therapy with these videos. I cried listening to this a few times. I feel this guys pain so much and he seems so strong and almost numb. I cried for him when he fought back the tears. Im on day 27 off of almost daily ketamine use for three years and Id love for you to interview me. listening to these addiction interviews really are eye openers.
Lol this dude is a whiny baby who takes no accountability.
We watched two separate interviews
He seems to be content where he is, and almost seems proud of it by his tone. There are so many other outlets and HELP other than doing drugs to "forget" about your problems.
Yes. Lots of resources out there. Hope he chooses to get help and takes responsibility for his child. Kids need their parents. He's blaming god for life and death. God never invented death, the Devil did. God promises to wipe it out forever. The time is coming that he's going to act.
It’s crazy he had that aunt who did so much for him to try to save him. And his attitude about life is “woe is me” and that it’s inevitable that he was going to suffer this fate. Not true, man. You could have done something. Can’t blame it all on genetics.
Mark is such an incredible guy with an amazing purpose in life. His interviews are the best!
Zero accountability! This guy was trying to blame everyone but himself and girlfriend for the death of his first child. Then to have another child, only for her to be immediately raised by someone else....... SELFISH!
The best thing he could do for his daughter at this point would be to remain absent.
I hope for both of their sakes he changes. Kids not knowing their parents love are left with an empty feeling. Grandparents aren't parents but thank goodness they step in.
Honest and Selfish.
That's right Jan☘
@@finolaomurchu8217thank you, have an Irish lucky day!
Hard to get clean when you make a crap ton of excuses for what basically boils down to bad choices.
Also, no disrespect, but if he was devastated by losing a child born addicted to drugs, did he intentionally have another under the same circumstances? Did I miss something?
Yes, I thought I was hearing things myself.
Daydreamer, you're absolutely right
Nope. Don't bring babies in if you aren't capable of supporting and loving and being stable for them. Think first.
Please do some more interviews with people that may not be fentinal addicts. Not to take away from this guy and what he has to say but you’ve showed this channel can be and is much more.
I realise each persons story is theirs but it’s really just the same plot with different characters. Your interviews that branch out away from this well trodden path are the best in my opinion.
Thanks for literally giving everyone a voice though Mark this is definitely the most interesting channel I’ve seen.
So this young able bodied man has been given a free home where he can do drugs all day lol
Better to let them rot in hell, because addiction is all their own fault. So they deserve to suffer and not be treated like humans?
The US should start with health insurance for everyone regardless of income, that is a start. Everything is a business in the US. Rehabs costing an ridicolous amount of money. A for profit prison system and medical system. Good luck!
@@thematriarchy2075 sounds great BUT who’s paying for all of it?????? The reality is our country is broke but we keep handing out benefits like candy. It will end and it won’t be pretty.
@@kaypayree3 The government could afford it all, if they spent a few percent less on the military.
@@thematriarchy2075 who is “the government”🤣🤣🤣 so clueless
@@kaypayree3 It's the one that you give your tax money. It keeps you unhappy, so something must go wrong with your tax money. Skid rows in every major city in the US, so something must go wrong.
yeah this is one of the videos where old mate is just shit on a personal level.
When I called the ambulance I was in a lot of pain and they gave me fentanyl I can say within secs the pain went but I was drowsy and didn't know what was happening around me I went to sleep ,I would absolutely hate to be in that state everyday and not to be in control of my body. It's really powerful stuff. I really think addicts should not have kids it's so unfair. It's so selfish.
They give fentanyl in American hospitals??!!!!
@@gx9954 I'm in Ireland I don't know what they give in the USA, just to remind you there is more countries than the US you know. Anyway yes they gave me that and it's mixed with something else too. The paramedic told me.
@@beastyboyBlue As far as I know in the U.S. fentanyl is only given to people who are already dying. Like end stage cancer. or people who have chronic pain and have been on opiates so long that nothing else works
Lots of avoidance and denial here, due to him having a very self-centered view of life. He’s hurting a lot more people than he realizes. Sad.
Bruh y'all set the baby up for failure not the hospital
I could hear from Marks grunt, his disgust that this guy decided to bring a child into the world under those circumstances
Always someone else’s fault. What a shame
"I love fentanyl. I have a lot of friends who have died of it."
Do you hear yourself? If so, you should listen.
I love cars. I have friends who have died of 'm in accidents.
@@MarkGelderland Not one car lover would advocate driving one off a cliff.
@@bigdogpete43 Nor would a fentsmoker OD on purpose
Sad. Choosing to allow the pain of losing a child eclipse the pleasure he could have investing in and being present for the child who’s living. Heredity’s component in addiction does not eliminate the component of choice.
As a 10+ year opiate addict, one paycheck away from losing everything for years, pawned all my possessions, stole from my employer, lied to my wife, drained our bank account, relapsed, almost got my car repossessed, almost arrested for no liscence, insurance or registration, you can change. I am 4 years clean, have 3 bank accounts with over 10 g in savings, a retirement fund, just purchased a new house, brand new, and re built my credit. It pissed me off to hear the same old sob story. Once my kids were old enough to see shit was bad I made a change, even at my worst I never missed a baseball game or school event. There's help out there, you just have to ask. You have to want to change. Suboxone is one option, and to everyone that says it's replacing one addiction for another, you clearly have no fucking idea what is like. I wish I could be on this channel as a good story. A story that's still be written but compared to 5 years ago, night and day.
You should be proud of yourself. It sounds like you are really changing your life for the best reason - for yourself and for your children.
I saw a person addicted for 30 years get on suboxone he now has a life.i never dreamed he would ever stop.the change is just unreal.
I deal with people like him every day stealing from the store I work in. They often have wepens and don't hesitate to use them. So boosting from a big store isn't a victimless crime.
Free housing for thief
Don’t blame anyone but yourself. You made a choice!
Yes
Junkies treat children like a new pair of shoes, and it’s disgusting. After he talked about having the second baby, I watched the rest with a scowl on my face
He's got self-awareness, now he just needs to pull himself out of this hole. It easier said than done but I honestly hope he gets through this. A lot of other junkies I've seen come on the interviews tell a "woah is me" lifestpry but it's good to see someone acknowledge where they went wrong.
Idk if I’d call what this man has self awareness but fair point regardless
There’s something about this guys tone....He’s proud of his lifestyle, excuses , excuses..... talking about how his child was basically detoxing! He couldn’t take it! ??? 😭 Making a deal..... ? Have ANOTHER child ugh!!!! So many wonderful couples ( women ) would do anything to have a child........I don’t get it! Bye! Government!? Disgusting
Reminds me of my dad. I remember when he checked himself into the hospital to get off opiates. He was nervous and I think he has always a felt a serious weight of shame. I don’t know if he’s back on them or not though. He brought my mom down with him when she wasn’t a user most of her life. I have no relationship with them… although all of their 4 kids are living happy productive lives. In that way I thank them for shielding us from their problems… and staying clean enough to teach some important principles for life. Without that - I would have been a mess. I still would have been but met my husband young. He has zero addiction issues and seeing someone live a life that is “awake” and not partly sleeping lulled through life really opened my eyes. I always knew I wanted to live soberly in every way… the more I learn the more I thank God to have not gone there. & to not repeat my parents mistakes. You can be all set up off dependence etc. yet if they don’t deal with the core of their hearts… there’s not a lot of change. My dad also had no father and his mother was abused in every way. My dad was physically abused too. I think he’s done a lot of bad things … so the shame is over his head. It’s excruciating. It’s like - they have to admit their wrongs to some degree because humans need reconciling. My dad believes in God - I remember a time where he sought after Him for several years. He changed so much & it was my favorite time of life. But I think deep inside there were undealt with issues. I don’t think he knows how to talk about it. I’ve said over and over and my mom too… he needs therapy & processing in a safe and supportive environment. He needs people to mourn alongside with & also accountability. He sees so many thing wrong. Like this guy - boosting sounds not too bad right? Always a way to validate wrong actions since at the end of the day it serves the addiction. My dad always considered bad things ok if it benefitted him. Stealing, pirating, spying, lying, etc it’s all wrong no matter how you cut the cake. Render unto Caesar what is Caesars. Life is much better when you treat every aspect with honest work. Because you can sleep better at night knowing you aren’t actively doing wrong things (that you are fully aware of at least).
So they had one baby that they did drugs through the whole pregnancy and she died, then have another one to abandon with the aunt? Jesus
How do u put out such great videos so frequently? You must work 24/7…thank you for sharing your amazing work with the world ❤️
You’re super smart you’re putting your whole deal on UA-cam right now super smart
History Doesn't Repeat Itself, but It Often Rhymes - Mark Twain -
This guy needs to own up to his problems. He’s in denial that his life is his problem. Honestly this guy pisses me off. Go take care of your daughter. Get sober.
Babies aren't bartering tools JFC
Did you hear him? Very few people in commentary picked up on that. He made a deal to have a replacement baby.
@@finolaomurchu8217 with no consideration that the baby would be born addicted & have neither parent to raise them. What a horrible start in life 😔
ETA I'm talking about both parents. Neither showed any respect for the life or well-being of that child. So sad
"we lost our baby, so lets replace her while still f*cked up on drugs" both him and his gf are.....vile
I thought I had a pretty good understanding of addiction after watching these videos but to hear about a parent (the mom) who would allow herself to have a child born addicted is absolutely gut wrenching and I start to wonder how someone could be so evil. I am not blaming the mom. I am not blaming the dad. I don’t know where blame lies. It’s unimaginable. So many questions. Praying Frankie finds peace
Yeah it’s super unfortunate, my mom sees babies every day who are screaming for all hours of the day , going through terrible WD they have to wean the babies off meth , H , fent , or any other drugs . That shit really is awful to see , I can’t explain it but drugs really do take over peoples whole existence .. very sad to come into this world with a taste for Somthing that’s so powerful
The blame definitely goes to the dad and mother. It seems you’re trying to be nice, but he doesn’t deserve it and the fact is they did that to that baby because they chose to.
The fact that he said “I’m going to kill myself” and the only solution was … oh let’s have a replacement baby. I would have said - your life is your responsibility … not mine. To bring another child into the world just to serve you… no. It’s egocentric. Many addicts - are egocentric to a brutal fault. It continues to loop them into destruction - because their personal cravings for satisfaction involve things that physically and mentally harm them over and over.
@@AJ-xy5ji agreeable
Your kid absolutely was set up for failure, by you. You’re a grown man and won’t go through withdrawals but you made a newborn do it. I hope you smoke more than you can handle sooner than later.
I don’t want him to die but he’s definitely a pos for doing that and then having another kid with the same woman, knowing she’s going to leave. He’s set 2 kids up for failure at this point and doesn’t even realize it because he’s a selfish little ass hole.
Agreed
100% I thought it was just me and I was being an asshole. But once I read the comments and realized they were not the normal words of encouragement other videos get, I understood that I wasnt the only one that felt a certain way about this guy.
Gee... how about getting off the junk for the daughter who didn't pass away.
That's exactly right
That’s so heartbreaking. I wish you the best to heal from your painful memory. Stay safe.
Happy to be a dad so why did his addicted daughter go to a foster home?
I’ve never disliked someone on this channel so much
The baby was set up for failure by the parents, not the hospital or the foster mom. I´m sorry, but this man needs to grow up. I had to stop listening after 8 minutes.
this is a really good one! ❤️❤️
This is the first one I’ve turned off before it was finished. I usually watch them all the way through. But I couldn’t with this dude. Thank you mark for the reality check
Mark, your last few interviews have been heart wrenching....and incredible: Jake, Sean and now Frankie....I hope this guy finds the right way...I will pray for him.
Growing up as a young woman, The thought of having kid's didn't really intrest me as I couldn't see myself as a parent. Now at the age of 41 I would do anything to be able to have a child of my own and become a mother and it kills me that I most probably have missed my chance and here you have a beautiful little girl, who's waiting for you, who needs you and you've chosen drug's over HER ?? I personally know what addiction is like, it was hard and extremely uncomfortable but I would gladly go through that hell again a million times over just to have a life with my child. If you have to put any thought process in your decision...... it's extremely fu**in sad
im early i just hope everybody has a great day and stay blesses
Right on! You do the same!
💜😁🤟✌
I hope he finds peace. he seems like a sweet soul. just wants to be loved and accepted, he focuses so much on the bad.
It was the summer of 1995, towards the end of the war between the once two fraternal lands now hostile, I never understood the war. but I realized that sometimes war is just a robbery spree, propaganda and madness.
But I found myself in the middle of it as a 17-year-old, since my family loved ones had a military history I volunteered and turned on with and got my AK-47, at first I didn't even get protected from senior soldiers and I didn'tI went through a lot of action and killing, except while driving around and transporting food for the hungry and bandages and cures for the wounded sometimes through the window the truck I would see those killed lying on the side of the road sometimes the dogs would eat them because the animals were hungry too. I remember the fear, the constant fear, whenever our truck was stopped, maybe they were Serbs? Fortunately we managed to beat out these monsters, but long story short, one night we were in a small village. There was a military unit of volunteers like me, only they were in action.
I remember the smell, and the bright candles. They cooked heroin, I knew it was allowed and command allowed or turned its head on it. but there was heroin, even grandmothers made teas traditionally from heads of poppy opium tea. to spend days more easily especially the days when the adrenaline gives way and the mind begins to process. then one night in the corner and I wanted to try, we had one needle, heroin was cooked in big spoons like a pot. So in a way heroin chose me because I fell in love right away. this love duo lasted, because of this love I was in prison many times, but I said goodbye to love, when my daughter was born. I've been clean for nine years now. anyways just wanted to share a bit with you. It means a lot to me.
Don’t give up Frankie! 💙
Everyone he interviews boosts. Can you imagine how much money we are paying for this. And he blames the hospital and foster care for his child’s death but not him or his girlfriend who are at fault.
Dont disagree or agree.. im shocked this is what compassion you got out of his pains. On a real note to replying back Tampons should be free it's essential
Compassion? He purposely made a drug addicted baby who DIED because of it, and then decided to TRY AGAIN, just to make himself feel better, then make someone else pay for and raise it.
Zero compassion.
@@AJ-xy5ji you understand without compassion the world will keep rotating but on a worse level... he said his fucked up inner truth and tbh we all got shit that stinky some more then others
@@xoxoxok toilet paper is essential. Food is essential. Drugs are essential to an addict. When does it stop?
Frankie goes to North Hollywood
Haha
Grow up ,get sober ! Your wasting your best years ! Addiction is a choice !
It's true, when you start withdrawing, for me anyway, one of the first things that made me notice was all the pain from trauma, emotional pain, it felt like I was being crushed and it was all dumped on me like a damn broke and I was drowning in them. Its intense. I was still depressed and sad and my counselor made a point, she said, at the time the drugs were how you stayed alive, how you kept going, your tool to get through these traumas. But now they're not helping and they are harming you.. it's not always so black and white. I hope you can figure out what path to take I know its too easy to get stagnant and stay "high" really it's just staying well and functioning like a normal person but it does dim your light. Just remember the power of your choice. It's up to you. We all need help sometimes.
You set her up for failure
You say that you don’t steal from people personally, but yeah you do! Who do you think will have to pay more at these stores because of theft & the insurance for sure goes up. Yes u are repeating what your birth parents have done. Giving your daughter to your Aunt to raise. So your girlfriend had another baby for you & you gave her away. I get that you have an addiction, but from your answers on this interview you don’t seem to even want to try to get off of that garbage. Seek help to get clean & never go back, so you can enjoy the daughter you do have.
This man is unbelievable. Him and his gf actually are responsible for their babies death. This man is just pure selfish and probably only person I Don have hope for
Most of these interviews really shine a light on the sickness that is addiction. This guy has no shame, remorse or any sign of trying to make his life better.
Therapy and a great out patient program could really help this man. I pray he finds his way out of the darkness so his daughter can have her father.
he first needs to accept responsibility otherwise therapy is pointless
@@angelofdeath275 yes, but I doubt he will even be able to see his responsibility in all this without help.
Your baby went through that same withdrawal… your not as strong as your tiny helpless baby? Who btw had no choice but to go through it smh 🤦♀️
BS every excuse you can think of…”if only people would understand”. Worst case of denial I’ve ever seen. I could talk circles around your trauma, but I’ve spent 30 years in programs and therapy. Wake up Buddy you just don’t want sobriety or responsibility. There is help out there if you want it badly enough.
I just can’t wrap my head around losing a child and speaking in depth about the pain it has caused you but then purposely having another child and not taking care of them 🙄. And yes it was your choice to do drugs regardless of your genetics, you made the original decision it’s not like someone forced you to do them, take some accountability for it. Speaking from someone who also has an additive personality, we make choices everyday. The fact that you said you love fentanyl makes me think you haven’t hit your rock bottom but I hope you get the strength to get through the withdrawals, maybe get on methadone to be there for your daughter.
How do any stores in LA survive with all these boosters.
How does Walmart and Home Depot survive you mean? They’re not some little corner stores that are being robbed. And they survive by jacking the prices up so everyone else makes up for this little clown taking things. He really said places like CVS and Home Depot don’t deserve our money. What about people wanted to but things they need and don’t want to steal? The whole word is against him in his eyes and nothing is his fault. I cast stand people like him. No matter how messed up I ever got in the past I always knew it was my choice. Not “my” genetics as he wants to claim.
@@Jay-hp6pu preach!!!
So you blessed your mom with another baby. And the taxpayers blessed you with a house to live in.
I need some blessings!
She made a deal w you over the life of a child. I can't even wrap my head around this madness. When my girl got pregnant she made a deal w me too....get your shit together or your not going to be involved in our lives. You'll see her, but that's about it, And plus we'll be through. I put my self centered drug addict behavior to the side and decided that I wanted to be an amazing dad to this child. I wanted to give all of me this kid and you can't do that addicted it's impossible. 10 years later me and my chick are still together plus 2 more kids. I'm a certified welder with a well paying gig, she works in the health care industry. My point is if the child can't make you want to be better nothing will. Of course she says she loves you now, but what happens when she gets older and can think for herself, without the influence of your aunt. She's gonna realize you wernt there for her, and that a drug stood between you and the child you made. Change your life man. If you don't love yourself enough to change than change for your child. She going to grow up and Resent the fuck out of you for not raising her. For leaving her fatherless. It's not a job for an aunt, she needs the love, care, and discipline of a dad. Dude... change your ways before it's too late. God bless. Take care
Well said. Coming from the daughter of a Dad who always chose the drug. I hope he gets it!
And congrats to u! So happy for u and yr fam!
@@mysticmama740 thank you very much. That means alot. I hope God heals the pain you endured due to your father's sickness. Bless you.
I love the swivel chair. If it had a generator attached, it could make free energy or wind your clocks. Try setting playback speed to 1.5X.
2:00 how he giggles about this shows where he stands in life.
It's not funny,dude.
Wat up Wes. Yeah this guy ain’t right. I don’t care about the addiction and boosting from big corporations….whatever. But when he explained that he basically extorted his ex for another baby in exchange to leave her alone or to stop threatening suicide. That’s pretty damn F’d up. Even with the making her have another kid she didn’t want, threatening suicide to get people that care about you to do what you want is F’d up to begin with with. I think it’s called emotional extortion or something like that.
@@myeyeswentdeaf6213
Exactly, bro..I feel the same way about it too🥲
Crazy times we live in indeed. Well, i hope you're having a good day so far, my friend ✌