10 HABITS I HAVE BECAUSE OF BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER
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- Опубліковано 24 бер 2023
- Hope you enjoyed this video explaining 10 habits I have because of BPD!
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I was learning how self sabotage can be a from of protecting ourselves because anyone being nice can be a trigger because of past trauma from narcissism ( the good things/times came at a cost). Learning how to work through it and change those beliefs that we are worthy and deserve the best life for ourselves.
I too have the self sabotage issue, how did you learn to overcome these obstacles please or which form of therapy have you engaged with?
It does feel like someone’s sitting on my chest. Honestly, I’m so tired of myself. It’s like I was born with this never ending curse.
Congrats on not self harming! Been over a year for me as well!
I can relate to you so much I have BP disorder PTSD extreme anxiety!!!!! And OCD
I love that you touched on the small but important part about the inner child. I JUST read/listened to an episode about healing your inner child! Wild. And the emptiness... Girl.... It's a constant struggle.
Thank you for this video!
@3:50 means your sensitive. You're also self-aware and introspective, which is amazing. That's not BPD, those are blessings of talent and skill.
Stuff like impulsive behaviour (impulse buying, hypersexuality) and splitting are those things you're working on that are from BPD. But, don't think the sensitivity, self-awareness, and introspective stuff needs to be toned down... its just a sign that you are a loveable human with good and traits that show me your valuable.
Keep going!
Have you ever had a severe low trigger your own smear campaign that you can't pull yourself out of? I'm pretty sure they're related?
Most females on the Spectrum are falsly diagnosed with BPD …. 💜 all the best to all if us 💜
I always appreciate everything you say, but I especially appreciate this video. Thank you for still doing videos about these things, you have no idea how much you've helped me in my process. Love you girl 🫶🏻
A fellow BPD (PTSD, anxiety, ED etc) here, I salute you! Great that it’s 1y4m not selfharming🎉🎉
And I relate in every step.
You are great! ❤ much love from other side of the world
Lady we can grow and fix whatever we can foe those we love n ourself. I am happy we are trying. You are a light keep posting please we need your gift of inspiring us to fix our selves
Definitely relate to a lot of these. Thankfully, consistent awareness, accountability, self-compassion, and striving to empathize with others in a way reflecting unconditional love really helps.
I still have a lot of my BPD traits, like self harm, emptiness, extreme moods swings and rage but my hypersexuality left in 2020 and now I don’t want to have sex with anyone. I use to think about sex all the time, want it all the time and my partners couldn’t keep up. Now I have the low sex drive and now I’m celibate because I just don’t feel the urge. Not sure what it is or what happen but I’m actually so happen because being hyper was so much and bothersome.
sabotage is because you would rather break your own heart than having to deal with the pain of another betrayal ❤imo
Yes please talk about hypersexuality
Thanks for sharing with us, I can relate to a lot of these. I appreciate your videos and the fact that you help others (including myself) learn more about BPD! 💛
I know what you mean about the heaviness. Well actually all of them relate. But the emptiness is like a void so deep you can’t shake it. BPD turn up ❤
It’s so unbearable 😪
Great video! Congrats! I'm glad your self harming has improved so much! You've done a great job with it! You're loved by so many!
Hello everybody 😊
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You-re doing a great job. Just remember your partner is not a perfect person either, even if he doesn't have BPD.
After yrs of mental health psy. Said I have bpd. I also have bipolar. I know the feeling of emptiness an frustration. It feels like nobody gets it. I get migraines as well. Im on so much meds so that at least I can say I don't need a hospital anymore. But it effects my living. Im getting the botox for the migraines
Maybe you could look into that.
I was upset when i seen the diagnosis for bpd but it explains alot why I have been the way I am. I do always wanna shop to make myself happy. Rather do that then hang out with people. Only time I was happy around people was when i was younger and drank or smoked weed. Don't do either anymore anyways just figured i let you know your not alone.
Glad you're back Sammy! ❤️
Thank you for being vulnerable with us
I admire how strong you are and determined to manage the symptoms! I have dont have bpd but have adhd and sometimes feel like its so tiring battling my brain, even with meds and supportive people around it can be so bloody hard! Sending you all the best and honestly you are a beautiful warrior! ❤
I love you! You’re amazing! You’re not alone! I’m going through it too. ❤❤❤❤❤
Love you so much!!!🫶🏼💘
Hey beautiful, great video!
I just need to know what lipstick you're wearing 😅 it is gorgeous!
You should do a makeup video ❤
I can def do that! Haha I do have a make up video up and I still use all the same products😅 the lip liner (retractable) is nyx cosmetics in “nude”!
What a valuable and amazing video Sammy. I relate to every single point. Thank you very very much and am super excited for your next sharing ♥️
Can relate to everything but never had a diagnosis. Your videos have definitely made me more self aware. Constantly working on myself and strive to be a better person. Thank you❤
Hi Sammy, I've watched a lot of your videos yesterday and today. I've relate to all of your 10 topics, and it's so hard, most of people don't understand how heavy it is. I have a boyfriend too, and it kills me to see how this affect our relationship, even when he does everything to make me safe and happy, it feels like it's not enough, and then we feel so guilty for being ungrateful. Thank u for all of theses videos. I don't have friends and family, and your videos make me feel not alone. ❤ Love, Barbara.
Im a Leo rising as well 😊. Thank you for sharing this video, i have the spending and the eating issues with hating my body, thinking everyone hates me, abandon me or hurting me..
You are a warrior to fight. Always remember the bad feeling pass. Hold on!
Your hair looks Amazing! Love you ❤
Please look into attachment styles. It’s sooo helpful to help me feel more secure and less distrustful. I still sabotage too
1000% this. Irl therapists never helped me as much as online courses about attachment therapy and trauma have
I can relate to a lot of what you're saying but symptoms wane as you get older. We also tend to isolate in later years and don't have people to trigger us. In my 50's now, I don't feel the emptiness but lots of anhedonia and fatigue. Still have splitting. No self harm, I didn't do that much. Also have ADHD and C-PTSD but I'm doing OK for the most part. No meds, only ADHD meds. In my own home, studying at university, kids are grown. The wife is long gone unfortunately but can't win em all.
i love your hair, you're gorgeous ❤ and i can totally relate to everything you said
We want every video of whatever you wanna tell us about BPD 😘
ThNk u for your courage to share the realities of BPD, I have it and it’s been a decades long journey to stability but I also humbly realize I can relapse very easily also
This gives me hope.
I was just diagnosed as a 33 yr old, divorced mom of twin girls, with bpd. I saw your interview on medcircle. I am in shock of how much I relate to you. I might be doing TMS along with dbt. I have misdiagnosed with anxiety disorder, manic depression, and ADD. I have been on medication my whole adult life. I would love to know what treatments or therapy you first went through when you were first diagnosed. I was diagnosed within about 10 mins of talking to my, now, Physciatrist.
@laceyfitch4429 did you go through with tms therapy?
This is really helpful, tfs. I need to learn more about self-harm, maybe that will lead me to a path of managing my dissociation.
I find your vids so interesting.
Back in the days they would not say someone has BPD, but they were passionate. The point I thought this is over diagnosed, especially with women, when my DBT therapist told that everyone has a bit of BPD, and he constantly was moaning about that his parents put him in a boarding school. I know not 1 person, who went in boarding school, who became a mentally healthy person, although it’s not a reason to diagnose so many with this incredible hard disorder. Unfortunately doctors tend to put this label on domestic violence victims, rather than CPTSD, also ADHD cause emotional disregulation and that wasn’t researched properly, neither taken in account as diagnostic criteria, even it is a huge part of the condition. The problem with this attitude that the therapy not going to work, if they treat the symptoms and not the root causes. Take care!
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@@EMILYHERRERA thank you to highlighting the fact I didn’t check the grammar before posting. Autocorrect knows better sometimes what I want to write. Not. 😆
Is that a new hand tat sammy??? 😮😍❤️❤ beautiful and love it!
I have depression and when I’m at my lowest low it is like a dark endless pit in my stomach. It is physical as well as mental.
❤hugs to you, thanks for the video, it has helped me understand BPD even more - try some magnesium supplements for those migraines
SLAYYYYYY with that leo rising
Great video
I'm going to suggest that what you can and should accept is that not everyone is going to want to deal with the 'mistakes'. Yes you're going to have them, but you're not entitled to forgiveness. If you get that gift, you better appreciate it
Yes I do relate to most of these symptoms. I love when you post a video because we’re so alike!
Aw yayy! Thank you and so happy you relate!!💘
6:53 Very honest and self aware... You must be feel more in control. That's great. We have to see the problem to fix it. You mentioned earlier or in another video that no one else will tell you usually. 👍
I’m so glad I’m not alone
Wow how amazing you sound and look without being on meds..altho u did this with your doctor and all. I remember the difference. Your older vids. Omg i loveth you lol super human
Yes I relate to this so much
Can you do a video on how and why you got off meds?
I find it so bizarre that we have the same disorder when you're the polar opposite of me.. you seem normal, pretty, straight forward and kinda "emotionally blunted".
I'm more spiky and strange. I think I am "Auta-line": A word I invented which means borderline and autistic combined.
I have so much shame about having this that I don't allow myself to laugh about it. Because of how much stigma and shaming I've recieved from the very doctors who have been supposed to help me. I'm afraid to be honest with anyone about my true emotions because it leads to being told I'm "too much" and people abandoning me, so now I don't express my true feelings to anyone in my life. It's super lonely, and I turn to the internet for closure.
My self-awareness only came after a positive relationship with a man who was honest with me, and kind. The majority of my exes before him were only abusive and blamed me for their poor treatment of me.
Even knowing this about myself, still I struggle with internalised shame due to the ways pyschiatrists have spoken to me over the years, like they're blaming me or saying I caused my own disorder. I shit you not, these are some of the things I've heard from pyschs:
"You're a liar" (I was telling the truth)
"You're acting like a brat"
"Just go and get a job and then you won't feel like offing yourself" (IIM NOT JOKING, a female GP said this to me a week out of hospital after my first and only serious OD)
and many many more. Feeling looked down on and over-sexualised by male clinicians because of my diagnosis creeps me the fuck out. I feel like I can see them sizing me up like sexual prey.
Obviously this is trauma but I just don't want to be seen as a "bad, dirty, unfixable woman" by authority figures. Especially male ones.
Thanks you for your help in this video you do go through. I feel like i might have eating disorder . I also have been through bullying in all my school years. I also deal with my parents divorce . I also been through self harm . 😢 Im going through so much . Do you ever suffer from anxiety panic attacks?
I used to “scratch” not cut then I went to scratching my face with my nails now I’m on hitting myself like smacking my face I’m healing a black eye rn
That’s literally where I’m at because I don’t want to break things around me. I want to smash thing but that can lead to people calling the police 😅.
@@roxywyndham it’s so frustrating
can you do a video on your partner perspective I just recently was in a relationship with someone who has BPD.
#4 I do that, but then.... If 1 is good, more must be better. Drinking and eating. The only thing I have control over is my weed consumption, which is weird I think. But it's what I use as medication after getting off the benzos. Now I just have a seroquel if I need to knockout for a day.
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I get #2 also. Yup
Thanks so much for this helpful video. I am truly trying to understand the person in my life who I believe has BPD. Can you give some suggestions regarding what a person can do when they are the subject of the splitting? I find it extremely distressing and feel that it is just about impossible to do or say anything that will help.
Don't say anything. Just listen. I promise that will make a huge difference. Ask the person if there is something they would like to talk about and ask them how they feel and why they feel that way. Just listen. Don't judge or criticize them and don't try to change them. Let them know that you hear them and that you accept them.
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I enjoyed your interview on a psychology show a few years back and would be interested to see you talk with Jesse Lee Peterson as well.
2:49 I hear we think we think we aren't deserving of good things or good people or their time. I feel unworthy alot. If the conversation is going good, I also feel that it's time to leave before it gets bad.. Bacause I assume it's only going to go downhill from there. Mic drop, leave on a good note... but now I leave too soon and seem rude I feel after I get home. Bad cycle. LOL
You lovely girl❤❤❤
Would like a vid on hypersexuality as im in a similar situation and dont know much about it
Wow i literally have all these 😖😖I never realized that not eating was self harming💀💀And i also split with my boyfriend 😖😖
4:20 yes, we would like to know details about ALL items on the list, which is why I imagine most people are watching the video, to learn about each of the habits..... - Another one I was going to ask about, when you say you sabotage relationships, what does that usually look like for you? I've heard this a lot from different people, but could you provide examples?
no problem! theres a way of asking this without being condescending but i have a video about hypersexuality on my channel, you were the only person that requested me to film another video on it! typically, i have to be really strategic about what i post and how much i talk because ppl wont watch the full video and it takes down my retention rate (you can google it if you dont know what that is) I recently just uploaded a designated video all about self sabotaging on my channel if youd like to check that out! 💕💕💕
I know what you mean baby!!!!
1 fact Jason Todd have also bpd
9:38 Dad and twin bro killed themselves... yep. abandonment. check. Makes sense.
Condolences. Sorry for your loss.
@@The-Oneness11 oh. I must've been bummed. Thanks for condolences. Was almost a year ago I made thr comment.🤗
@@DeanofSmoking Glad that you're doing better now.
@@The-Oneness11 🤗👍
Your Leo rising 😍😍😍😍
What are the rest of your signs.
I have a lot of Scorpio and feel like it stems from there. Anyway I would love to give you a chart reading. ❤
would really like you to talk more about hypersexuality. i don't know if my ex was a narc or had bpd or hpd. no idea. sex was great when we had it but she'd be on and off, yet she was into kink/bondage clothes and toys and 'instruments'. maybe she had a madonna/whore complex. i just don't know.
thank you, Sammy