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Oh, I told everyone. They didn't believe me. Then when I got to the "can't get out of bed" stage, they still didn't believe me and called me a leech. I got a new everyone.
Your old everyone are worthless. I did have a friend tell me get over it because she didn't understand. I gave her the benefit of the doubt bc she had been a considerate and supportive friend otherwise for yrs. After I brought it up later one day and explained how bad it made me feel, she apologized. Never happened again in past 20 yrs friendship
Sometimes going through something hard in life it shows you who your friends truly are or simply the reality that those friends are not for you. I complete understand! I respect you for being aware and making the healthy friendships you need and deserve in your life 👏🏻
As someone who my brother quoted to his therapist saying, "Well life isn't supposed to be fun. It's just getting through the day, every day, until one day it's finally over" when I was 16.. yeah... Been feeling this my whole life.
I think this is how most people live and have always lived. Life is hard for most people. It's a relatively new and western concept that life is supposed to be easy and happy, and we should breeze through it with ease. I think it's a lie, and if we can't live up to the social media version of life, we failed and then we get depressed. Of course, as the family unit has been under attack and practically destroyed, it is no wonder that everybody is lonely and depressed nowadays.
@@accaeffe8032although I agree with your view I have to add that it's many times not so simple. One may suffer due to childhood adverse experiences (I'm 49 and just got to know about these a couple of years ago, and it was like an eye opener to finally understand why I'm the way I am). I def know that life's not a Hollywood happy movie but as I've said, sometimes the issues are more complex. I hope that whoever reads this will look into the subject of ACEs and Childhood Emotional Neglect. These two alone without any other things can affect ones self immensely. Maybe if you're alone you will cope and live "quite well". The bigger problem comes when you've got kids and you just can't be there for them the way a parent should be. I don't like the term of Childhood Emotional Neglect cos it gets a lot of stigma and blame towards the parents by some therapists on UA-cam. They are missing the fact that these very parents themselves were victims of the same neglect or abuse or just that "tough love" upbringing (like my mum's case, she's a after WW2 child) The generational passed down trauma continues in silence with every new generation until some tragedy strucks and you ask yourself "How?". Edit: just read again your comment. The material aspect of a hard life is tough but tbh what is even worse is the emotional side.
@@accaeffe8032 No, life isn't this hard for most people most of the time. I know life is hard and there are super trying times for all people. That's still very different than chronic depression. I can go through hard times and still have peace and be happy most of the time. I'm resilient and have my sense of humour when not depressed. When I'm depressed though, each day is just scraping by, even if on the surface there is nothing obviously wrong. I feel so bad for others going through this too.
This was done beatifully. I have dealt with depression for the last 8 years or so. Even on my most depressed days, I have to pick myself up and move on with the day because I cant tell anyone im suffering
I always feel like no one really cares anyway, because they don't know what to do to help you, so they try to remain detached by either doling out useless advice or phrases, or brushing it off with "everyone gets depressed sometimes" or just distancing themselves from you. Or, just not believing you. So telling anyone doesn't help anyhow.
It’s not really the shame of being depressed, it’s the fact that whether you tell someone or not, those expectations of you won’t change because you’ve been “high-functioning” all this time.
Yes!! I know the feeling all too well. BUT ☝️ I must say... I think is our fault to make it normal (of course we had our reasonable reasons), so it's our job to turn things around so this stops happening. Tough truth. Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries!!😅 I am still working on this, but now I am not waiting for anybody else to make this easier for me. I have expectations only for myself.
It's not your fault or our fault. No blame or shame. Do what you can and let it be enough. Manage your symptoms and get help if you have a suspicion that you need it. These are three lessons I've learnt as someone who is diagnosed with bipolar spectrum disorder which is the rapid cycling, treatment resistant form. When on medication my "normal" mood is depressed. Blessings, Dot
@@dotcassilles1488hi Dot, hope you are well. I've been a crybaby since i was little... It has brought me much shame and i have saught out even more shameful ways to cope. I'm a Christian now so i am at peace moreso than ever however i work in a very draining job and i have gotten to this point now where i am feeling like a shell of myself and the tears come when im alone but i can no longer comfortably share the pain. Its hard to turn to loved ones when you know they cannot understand. I get serious anxiety attacks but i have to supress them for my job and it comes out through other symptoms of stress. I think a lot. I analyse the therapists 😅 i am a sensitive soul who is stuck in a cruel world. We can just appriciate the good days more because of that. Much love from South Africa 🇿🇦
This is where counselling comes in and can help you understand which expectations towards you are justified and which aren't and to monitor the available resources to lower the over all workload.
Suddenly my eyes become teary..she told the words which I couldn't pick up from the emotions of mine .... it's like I couldn't give a term to what I'm feeling lately ... atleast someone said it , thank you
It's hard to not be understood. It sounds like you might have dysthymia, which is a chronic low level depression. Where you're not debilitated, but you're never really happy and can't really feel joy.
@@matulich77 It's true that if they can still maintain a cheery face and no one knows, then they haven't hit the depths. Still it sucks to not be validated. If that is dysthymia she has though, that is chronic and so insidious. Dysthymia will stay w/ people for years and just gnaw at you, even if it isn't the depths. I have an aunt who has that, and it's no picnic either. We all have to practice gratitude though. I can only see that as being my number one tool out of this, or at least dealing w/ it.
@@matulich77Just because you have not hit the depths yet, doesn't mean you should. Your advice would directly lead to burnout and more depression. Please stop.
I have been suffering from depression for many years since my parents divorced. It's just that when I knew I needed therapy and had to go see therapist. My parents especially my dad told me "You are not depressed. Mental health doesn't exist". Worst part was that he made me READ clinical articles just for him to justify and manipulate me saying that I don't have these symptoms. That is why I told myself I will stand by my ground and NEVER be a victim to people's words EVER AGAIN!!
High functioning depression is when you show everyone your ok even though when your alone you just wanna die or gwt out of wherever you are. They see the smiles you put on for them, not the scars or open wounds whether physical or emotional. Then you feel trapped and silenced. It's all too familiar.
@@bbbbbbb51 fair. I personally would say its not but your depression could be my high functioning depression. People are different, we just gotta accept them for whoever they are and whatever they are going through
This made me cry. I've tried to tell my mom that it feels like i'm putting on a mask whenever I go out, because I dress up, look after myself and make myself look good because i'm almost constantly afraid of being judged. I was doing well mentally but at the start of this year, I just completely turnt into a wreck, and i've still been 'high-functioning', but inside I get even more hopeless and I just want to give up. It feels like everyone in my family at my age is way ahead of me, and I just feel like such a loser and that they're constantly judging me. They don't know what I experience, I have to keep things secret, and only my mom knows but she struggles to understand.
What you're going through is normal, expectations of being a particular type of person. You meed to accept that you're pace is different and work on finding purpose and happiness. Do noy bother comparing yourself to others.
I bet if you opened up, or got some of them to admit the truth, they probably feel just like you at times. It sounds like you're doing well though, all things considered.
Thanks guys, just looking back at this comment, it was a vent tbh on how I felt at the time, but thank you for the kind words 🥰🥰. I know its normal at my age to feel this way, I had a reminder when I had work experience that almost every adult there was telling me that i'm only 18 - I forget because I try to be grown up too fast
It strikes me as though there are similarities between how mental health and neurodiversity are dismissed. "High functioning" is no longer considered an acceptable term for neurodiversity, but the concept of if you're seemingly doing ok (usually by masking, i.e. pretending to act "normal" or the way others do automatically) at least in public then you're perceived to be fine. People in both camps are underdiagnosed or not believed (even if they are diagnosed) by people who think that inward struggles need to be visible to the world for someone to be genuinely struggling. That's probably part of the reason why mental illness is so prevalent amongst neurodiverse people - the mental exhaustion of masking, combined with people not believing.
Sometimes, it's not shame, you want to talk about it, but you are so neglected that no one really cares, but you have responsibilities like kids, a job etc, so you just go on with life in some auto pilot mode while crumbling inside
Yes...I've felt like walls rising higher and higher around me...the light gets smaller and further away. It's not a matter of seeking help. There is simply no help visible to ask for.
I learned very recently thru therapy that this is the kind of depression that I have... It's strange to understand it now but learning really is the first step to healing
Yes this made me very isolated over the years and i still not open to make any new friends. I am more comfortable alone than feeling all alone because nobody cares to understand. I am glad i went to therapy to talk about it and taken seriously for my struggles
I lost my two dogs this year. They were my rock, and the reason for existence. Everything makes me cry. Ive been in this MDD episode for months. Some how I am holding down 2 jobs, and eatting properly. But sometime soon, its all going to give. To anyone else fighting this battle, know your not alone. We will get through this.
Loosing pets is so hard! I am so sorry for both your losses. Sending you loads of positive energy. Some days are a bigger challenge than others...I know it's not easy but get out there when you can and keep putting one foot in front of the other. 💞
So true. Friends told me it's all in my head..snap out of it.. So I just stop telling them. It's not easy like you can delete it from a click of a button.
Odd. I've had a similar experience with soldiering on through depression, yet everyone I've told over the past year has completely understood it. My closest friends, my brother, and even my parents. They all had questions and I obliged them with answers, but they absolutely got it. Most people go through depressive periods, so they can relate in some fashion which aids in understanding as best they can. My advice? Pick better friends and have better people around you. I'm smiley, a good laugh, outgoing, yet deeply introverted, and everyone I've told had good reactions to me finally opening up about it after a decade of feeling and operating this way. Choosing good friends is an invaluable life skill. They'll stand the test of time, won't need maintenance, and will truly listen to you when you have something to say. It's worth the effort to learn how to both spot the right people and foster the right relationship with them.
Yeah this is exactly it. My counselloe has stopped calling and checking in on and it makes me feel like my feelings arent bad enough. She stopped months ago.
Then you should try to work on that This is what i have used when i have come depressed to recover from it and become better untill you feel better and happy again and no longer depressed You also need to find out how to express your emotions healthily and control your emotions without suppressing them and find ways to express them healthily and goodly Friends spend time with people you love it's a primary source of hapiness Finding our to calm down be at peace and stop worring Love yourself and that means self care too know when to take breaks and know how to keep yourself healthy Exercise exercise makes you have better health and makes you way happier W The main things to living a amazing and happy life are Loveing and caring for your loved ones that includes good communication spending time with them being physically and or mentally affectionate to them depends on which one they love more and typically doing stuff you both enjoy together Loving yourself Keeping a good level of ego Around the range where you can be proud of yourself and think your amazing but not too much where you think everyone else is worse thats called narcism Keeping it physically and mentally in shape by physical exercise meditation breathing exercise And having a diet where you eat stuff you enjoy but not too much un healthy food enough where your body feels happy but not sick These 2 are the most important and equally important The rest are still very important tho those 2 determine about 49-70% of your happiness Physical exercise Learning how to calm down and relieve stress deep breathing exercises and physical exercise help alot with this How to control your emotions and express them heathily without suppressing them Long term goals And always trying to improve more as a person and the skills that make you happy and essential life skills And also knowing when to take a break to prevent burnout Doing anything for way to long can cause even doing something you absolutelyblove with all your heart can still cause burnout you should always find room to take a week off every 3-5 months so you can maintain to enjoy jobs and stuff you enjoy in life so you can enjoy it your entire life
@@richardward2469 thats good Become better I know you can do it I have done it before so I know it's possible and I know you can Sometimes it might be hard and sometimes you might need to force yourself to do things like work out ask out your crush or take some risks for a better life but you can do this Richard(what your real name is) I know you can
I always saw depression portrayed as not being able to get out of bed. Now looking back at myself in high school, I was the worst I’ve ever been mentally, but kept telling myself “o you’re not as bad as what depression is supposed to be”. If you do not feel like how you’re feeling is normal, do not accept it as normal 💜
I used to be one of those people not believing that I could ever get depressed. And only recently, after a lot of lows, I finally had to admit to myself. Your words hit hard and I wish I had a good therapist to help me just to get through
Thank you for sharing your experience. It takes strength to acknowledge our struggles and seek help. Remember that it's never too late to reach out for support, and a good therapist can make a significant difference in your journey toward healing and well-being. You're not alone, and there are resources available to help you navigate through this. 💙
I'm in the opposite situation. I've had depression for most of my life and thought I'd never escape it. Now, it's less like drowning in an ocean and more like standing just offshore, occasionally being knocked down by waves and standing back up again. I'm doing things I've dreamed of since I was little and thought I'd never achieve. You can learn to overcome it, and I hope you do ❤️
I’ve had depression for almost half my life and I’ve tried so many therapists and just doesn’t help. it does feel like an ocean but I’m still drowning and I can’t get out.
Find Jesus and He will be your support and loving Healer. He loves you so much He died for your chance to gain life everlasting. Prayers for all suffering deppression to find comfort, love and healing.
I have two people in my head, original and unnamed, the original is my trauma, my flaws, my depression, my anxiety, my anger and my frustration. Unnamed is the part of me that I show everyday, so original only comes out when I’m alone or when it’s night time
I don't think many people realize how dangerous it can to struggle with high functioning depression. I have healed a lot now, but there was a point that my depression was extremely bad. However, I was able to do everything I needed to do and even seem happy. Only one person in my life noticed that I was not okay and confronted me about it. That friend is the reason I'm still here.
I have high functioning depression as a fun side effect of the PTSD and ADHD. Some days are better than others. And those other days start and end with the struggle to find the strength to do more than breathe. This is a perfect description of what I feel and why I still have the depression. Yes, I work, cook, shower and function. But it's all a way to mask the unending and gnawing ache that depression brings. It makes it hard to eat or sleep.. and it drains energy and drive. But the push I feel to not let others down is what gets me to keep going.
I still am working on my depression, but it's much better now than a few months ago. Your channel helped me so much to understand how I felt at the time and it also helped to realize that I wasn't just a little stressed, but that I was depressed. Thank you for your good work ❤
I have experienced a traumatic event and I am worried that I need to make sure I get things together so I can live well in the future. In the past this was achieved through intimacy. Having close intimate relationships is like sitting on a rock. But I have moved to the USA and I have never experienced a rock like sense of intimacy and community here.
This is so me. I have what people call perfect daily routine I wake up very early in the morning, read, do some stretches and exercises and then study, eat balanced and do fun stuff with my friends and in everyone's eyes I'm doing amazing. There's even a few of my friends who envy me and actually always ask me on how to build and maintain a routine while in reality I deep inside am not satisfied and truly happy with nearly anything. I feel some kind of way that I don't want to feel, despite all the good things this particular feeling makes it strange and unable to feel satisfaction in the end of the day when I put my head on the pillow. I just realized that in sake of not having to deal with my thoughts and emotions I always overwork myself to the point where I start falling asleep at my desk (which I did this night too lol I gave up and and decided to sleep) I have a university entrance exam which is probably the main reason of all my sadness and stress but still I don't know I wish I could go to a therapist I just feel like I want to talk to someone who really does understand and has knowledge about this stuff because I can talk to my friends or partner - luckily I have a lot of supportive people around me - but because most of us are going through the same thing and don't know how to properly deal with it the best we can say to eachother is to hang on and don't give up, I know that I can do these but I want to do whatever I'm doing happily. I have no idea what I'm talking about right now I'm so sleep deprived I hope I didn't talk bs excuse me for talking this much it's not something I usually do actually I don't even comment often but I just felt like doing so. Also I like your channel very very much, it's very very helpful and I could feel some peace and warmness inside of me with just opening it, without watching anything. Sending all kind of love and appreciation I love you so much have a great great day 💗
Sounds like you're feeling numb. It's our brains coping mechanism. Blocking out emotions and feelings is our brain's way of dealing with intense, hard emotions. Your source of unhappiness seems to be coming from your university entrance exam. That is a big deal. Btw, you should process your emotions & thoughts in a safe space. Maybe journal everything? Or meditate. Meditation helps us feel grounded, connected & be aware of our emotions. Tc 💗
You explained exactly how I have been feeling. I have always felt that no one believes me and the shame associated... it is so much tormenting to not know because you don't have a textbook definition.. it's like a slow poison
I tried to tell myself I've been ok, because so many people rely on me. I've always been the one people say can handle anything because I don't usually show my fears and sadness to people. But deep inside (specially this past year more than others) I haven't really felt myself. This video pretty much describes me to a T
@@hassanahmed3606I'm sorry you feel this way too. All I can say from my personal experience is to find a little support from some where. I have been going through multiple changes in my life this past year, and after a sever set back in my mothers health, i finally hit a point of not being able to hide my emotions. Before this one incident I would only break down once I was home and alone at the end of the day. I would break down into uncontrollable fits of crying, and praying for signs to lead me through in the right direction and for strength, not just physical bit emotional and mental strength. After this incident with my mother though I could no longer completely hide my fears. A coworker one morning just asked me the simple question they had asked every morning... "how was you mom last night?" I couldn't even answer, the tears just came and for once I couldn't stop them. I felt embarrassed to be crying at my desk at work, but my coworkers God Bless them where there for me. They told me it was OK to cry, it was ok to be feeling lost with all the changes I was going though at work, home and my mother. One of the therapist I work with even told me any time I need to talk she was there to listen (I work in a mental health office). They were actually surprised at how well I had been holding everything together for months, they had no idea how overwhelmed I had been feeling, that's how hard I fought to hide my emotions. But now that I have a few people I can talk to every now and then does help. And they are always there to remind me to practice SELFCARE. Now don't get me wrong, I still have my demons, and I am not saying I'm 100%. I am still a work in progress and still find it hard to not hide. I wish you all the best, and hope you to are able to find even a little support. Cause a little support can go a long way. Hang in there, and remember you are someone special and you matter too.❤ P.S - sorry for the long novel of a reply
I'm sorry to hear that. I just prayed for Jesus to guide you to find peace and comfort and a way to move forward. May you also find a trusted confidante to share your inner thoughts with.@@hassanahmed3606
I had high-functioning depression for years. I was able to excel at school and work while being hollow on the inside. Eventually, it slowly clawed away at me, breaking me down to the point where I quit my job and just refused to get out of bed or my home. I am now finally trying to get my life on path, but yeah, don't let it go untreated.
This was me 9 years ago. After many years of hard things (Mom’s death, loss of job after 19 years, financial struggles, and more) I was at the end of my strength. This first time I had to tell someone that I had severe depression and anxiety and that I was getting treatment, it felt so hard. Everyone thought I had it all together. I did not. But after talking to several people about it… it became easier and I found that many people are struggling too and were so relieved to talk to someone who understood what they were going through.
I tried to share my thoughts with others to decrease my depression but they treated me like I am a looser.Its been 11 years still to this day I regret sharing the information with others which bothered me and bothering me. I am planning to meet a psychologist.
@@rt-qe9xwtrust your emotional compas with the signals who you want to talk to it about.. ive been doing better since i check this one out first. Also implies to the mental health wprkers. Everytime my radar felt something of the person, later on, turned to be not a good fit for me. After all you have to live with you, so learn to trust your signals (maybe learn to read them better aswell)
@juttadapraveen569 I should get my things diagnosed, but kinda similar for me. 😅 There are only a few people in my life that I feel comfortable talking about my problems with. A couple freinds, myself, and one of my counselors. I have cousins, and little ones that look up to me, so I have to seem happy..
Hits close to home. Having keeping it to myself for 7 years, finally I had the courage to see psychologist, diagnosed with anxiety disorders which resulting in panic attack. So happy I finally know what's wrong with me, and even more happier after able to talk it out with my mom about my struggle. Hopefully my way for recovery will be smooth ❤
Honestly, I needed this. So many people do not understand why I'm having a difficult time doing a job that was so easy for me before. Doing the simplest task gives me anxiety so I don't do it or I push it off for the next day, then the guilt settles in. I find myself crying for "no reason" and it's affecting my work, my life, everything. I don't want to socialize anymore. It's exhausting to pretend like everything is ok. I don't take pleasure in anything anymore. The ONLY thing that got me out and made me do things I didn't want to was my dog of 14 years. She recently died and now I feel so lost. It's been about 2 1/2 months now, but I still feel the same amount of grief that I felt when I put her down. The amount of guilt I feel for killing her eats away at me even though I know she needed to pass on. I feel like i failed her. I feel like Im failing myself. I'm failing at everything and i want it to stop. My work was initially good with me but now I can tell they don't understand and it's affecting my job so that's not good. I don't know what to do.
I don't know how much my words will help you, but I absolutely understand the pain that comes from losing up beloved animal. I've often questioned the process putting down an animal, wondering if it's even my place to choose if my pet should live or die, questioning if I am playing god with my pet's life. But ultimately, my logic always circles back to the reason why I choose to euthanize my pet, and that's because their quality of life was too low, and they were in too much pain to continue enjoying life. Giving them death is simply a way to give them a painless existence. This way they don't have to suffer for no reason. I lost a cat on the twelfth of July this year, and he was only four years old. I was expecting another roughly ten years was that little bean, and I still miss him so much. I am fully grown man and still cry at the loss of my cat, and while I did not have to euthanize him, there have been others in the past that did have that choice made for them. My point in all of my rambling is simply that I understand your pain, and I wish to reassure you that you did not murder your dog. I recognize and respect that you did what you had to to protect her from unnecessary suffering. You loved her enough to let her go when she needed you to do so, and trust me when I say that she will be eternally grateful for that choice and that her soul is free to run and play as she waits for you to rejoin her. You did not put her down out of cruelty or malicious intention, so please, try not to blame yourself or feel guilty for her body growing old. I understand that emotions can be heavy and difficult, and your emotions are completely and perfectly valid, but remember that you are not to blame for helping your precious dog find peace when she was hurting with no cure. I support and respect your decision, and I offer you all of my love and positive vibes that I will be sending your way. I know that my words are merely pixels on a digital screen, but from one fellow internet stranger to another, I truly wish you the best and hope that things can improve for you.
I would say seek therapy. Ive dealt with high functioning depression for years in the Army. Then right as I was about to retire, my mother passed away and everything all came crashing down at once. I found after her passing and retirement I couldn't even get out of the bed most days. I realized that isn't where I wanted to be nor would my mother approve so I sought mental health treatment. I greatly appreciate having someone neutral in my life to explain my feelings to who can give me professional feedback. I also take medication, pray and read my bible every day. Growing my relationship with the Lord has helped me with finding peace as well.
Thank you for sharing your experience and advice. I'm truly sorry about your mom and all that pain you endured. Im happy that you had support from someone and the Lord:) i know you are good and so much stronger now. I think the problem anyone who suffers from this kind of depression may not be aware they are going through it, so they just push through ignoring how they feel over time. That's what i really wanted to know. How does anyone with HFD even treat it if they are not aware of it?
@@prettyyybizarrrewhen you say meditation do you mean antidepressants? I thought it had been concluded that they don’t work. Please reply. I don’t know whether to take them or not
@@prettyyybizarrrethank you so much for sharing your story. I too suffered very similar circumstances with my mother ... it was brutal for me behind closed doors. I turned everything over to The Lord and received some counseling. I'm a Nutritionist so slowly I've treated my symptoms with food supplements and with patience it's working nicely but wouldn't have worked without prayer 🙏 God Bless everyone 🙌 💖
Everytime I watch videos like this, I need to constantly remind myself not to self diagnose but it's so relatable that it's getting harder and harder not to do
What everyone sees about me is how I go to work every day, care for my eldery and disabled relatives, volunteer, do social activism, go to social gatherings, find ways to educate myself, do creative stuff like writing, drawing, etc. What no one sees but my cat is when I get home, I often forget or refuse to eat, clean, shower and otherwise care for myself. I do it when necessary, so that no one would notice - and suffer when they in fact don't. I care for my cat, because I love her. I sometimes don't care for myself, because, well. You can take a wild guess. This channel is like a thin, hopeful ray of light. Maybe one day I will follow it. Maybe, it will lead me to peace.
You should follow it lol. Btw do you know what the root cause of your depression is? Depression is our body's & mind's way of signalling to us that there is something wrong. And depression symptoms is a weird way to cope with stuff. Like not eating because digestion requires energy, and not eating or sleeping too much is body's way to conserve energy.
I struggle with depression in fifth grade after years of trying to live up to my parents expectations never feeling like I am enough and just feeling like a burden. I just wanted to hide and not be here. My friends helped me become happy and finally see the joy and life and now I am really fighting hard to have what I wished for
It took me hearing voices in my head calling my name constantly for months for me to realise that being a straight A student was breaking me from the inside and to finally admit that I might have a problem. On the flipside, it also took me partly destroying my perfect life and refusing to get out of bed for weeks for my family to finally admit that I might have a problem and allow me to see a psychiatrist.
I had this situation actually. Thanks god I was able to cut off the negative things, specially my work and was able to move to a different City and I started feeling better as time passed.
Thank you, this is so validating. I'm mostly past the depression stage but now I'm high-functioning with anxiety instead which is... not really better. It's so hard to explain to people that yes, I look normal, I act normal on a day-to-day basis, and the idea of reading my emails terrifies me to the point of wanting to vomit. I have breakdowns over the simplest tasks, but always, carefully, at home so no one sees except my husband. Luckily my supervisors try to be understanding most of the time, they just don't really get it on a personal level. It took several jobs to find one that didn't just fire me once they found out.
I remember empathizing with people with depression and suicidal thoughts like "I'm not like that, but I can imagine what that's like and it must be so hard". In reality, though, I WAS like that deep down; that's why I understood. I just didn't realize it yet. For several years I had high functioning depression, and I kinda knew (though I had never heard the term "high functioning" at that time). But I didn't really want to face it. I thought: "I can still work, so I must not have depression". Until I couldn't work anymore. I had more and more sick days. I would say I had a headache or some other lie and then have a guilty conscience for lying and think I was playing truant. The truth is: I was drinking to cope with my emotional pain, and I was beginning to realize that NOW, I "couldn't get out of bed". (Some days because I had been drinking the day before, but some days also when I had not had a drop of alcohol beforehand). Please, to anyone reading this: Go to the doctor before it gets to that. And remember that anti-depressant medicine is not the devil that it is sometimes made out to be. It may have side-effects, and some of it may not be for you. But without it, I would probably have been dead.
My depression at this point is mostly energy and motivation based after I worked through the emotion problems, and it’s a wild ride with it ontop of my late diagnosed ADHD as the two decide who’s going to take charge that day or if they decide to f me over and hit me at the same time
@_Cursed_Queen_ Oh God🤦🏼♀️ me too, I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD until 11 years ago, even though I’d been seeing a psychiatrist for 6 years prior & admitted myself into a Private clinic. You know it’s bad when you have no energy to even lift the duvet off you… Sadly, I checked out after 2 weeks as the Clinics psych literally said "You’re too happy to be suffering depression, you’re always smiling & polite to everyone - so why are you really here?!! Hmmm 🤔 it’s called HFD with ADHD = My mind is a freaking circus or painfully numb! You described it perfectly, which is why I thought I’d reply & I’m sure you know what happened 🤡 lol!
It’s also important to remember that a lot of life is suffering regardless of whether you have depression. Accepting that none of us have perfect lives and that pain is an inevitable part of the human experience can go a long way towards thwarting the spiral into deeper depression. As the old Buddhist saying goes; pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. I do agree with Dr Julie however, that asking for help when we recognise that we are struggling is a great way to begin healing. But also remember that healing psychologically is similar to healing physically. We have to eat nutritious food and sleep ‘almost’ every day to repair the damage done to our bodies through the simple act of existing. If we don’t, we die relatively quickly. Unlike our bodies however, our minds (in general ) are infinitely more resilient. ‘Most’ people’s minds are still functioning very well when their bodies degrade irrevocably and can no longer house them in old age and death. Such is the power the mind and spirit have to heal………….just food for thought 😊 wish you all blessings on your life journey ❤
Welp I definitely have that. Some of my ex friends bullied me about my trauma a year or 2 ago. They said it was not real and I was lying and I just wanted attention. They said I didn’t deserve anything good that has happened to me. That was the night I almost killed myself. Luckily I had some friends to stop me
Its not shame for me, its neglect..trust me, ive tried to even best of friends, but its always brushed off.. im in 7th grade n a 'nerd' but my state never matters.. i started defaulting in work sometime back n noone cared to ask "are u okay?" But they did ask "what has happened to you? Im disappointed".. the only thing helps is ur vids, some personal interests n crying.. though dont hate my friends, they're quite immature- they dont understand much rn.. im still grateful for them, bcoz the rare moment when i cry in school, they support me, they mke me laugh, they know how to make me happy even for a moment even if I'll be sad as soon as i reach home, they make me centre of attention smtimes n that makes me feel gr8, they're just always bubbly n happy n encourage me to be to.. ig thats the prob.. i feel so happy around them so i dont feel like bringing it up but as soon as i reach home its bk to the depression.. i think its my fam thats the prob.. all the trauma as a child really scarred me n my teenage harmones..
I suffered w chronic major depression my whole life since my earliest memories. I did not find appropriate treatment until my 30s. Somehow I managed overcome poverty, get a college degree and a law degree (with many many setbacks) before treatment. Instead of looking bavk amd thinking about what might have been if I had access to proper treatment, I am so fucking proud of myself for overcoming so much and accomplishing much more than most mentally healthy people have!! Get relief if you are suffering from mental illness. Everyone deserves to feel wonderful!!❤❤❤
😢so at the present scenario mostly many are suffering from high functioning depression... Surely I guess you are the mission to help them... Taking inspiration from you mam to do the same 😊
OMG Dr. Julie, you finally said this, I'm actually going through such things after the pandemic situation and long lockdowns, I just can't fit myself on my previous life and my parents keep telling that everyone is going through this but they don't complain! But I'm still struggling sometimes...
What about failing scares you? What will that failure lead to? I'm afraid of failing a test, but earning my degree in the end is worth it. It will lead to better job opportunities. Im afraid to go ice skating because I don't want to fall and get hurt. But if i dont go at all im not really missing out on anything. Missing out on a great careerr, great job opportunities, fixing my leaking roof one day, all those things are worth the risk of failing a test. I hope that makes sense. If the reward is worth it, the fear and risk of railing is worth it. Everyone fails. That doesnt make you a failure. YOU are worthy of happiness.
Fear is just a feeling and it is you who chooses whether it paralizes you or moves you forward. If you think about fear positively, it can change the way you act on it for the better. Think of fear as an indication of challenge and opportunity. Always ask yourself "what's the worst thing that can happen?" Your answer will be trivial compared to your opportunity. All you need is 20 seconds of insane courage and they might change your life completely. The disaster is not when you fail, it's when you stop trying. Failure is a part of success. One cannot succeed without the experience acquired from failure.
Just think, what if you don't fail? Even if you do fail you will know that you have tried. And so, when u try again you will have understood better and fix the things that went wrong the first time. Now, what if you do not try? The what would've been could've been will stay with you for long and later when its too late you may regret it.
I managed to dig myself out of the worst multi year depression a couple years ago, but its still there. It just doesn't stop me from catching up with my education and maintaining work, but it still effects my self care
I'm pretty sure I have it and I had asked my parents if I could see a therapist and now instead of trying to fix it, I have found out I have a lot more wrong with me like apparently I have Social Anxiety. 💚
Deoression, it’s worse than you could ever imagine. Social Anxiety plus depression, imagine internally cutting yourself to pieces after you do or say anything then feeling stupid and horrible even if you did nothing wrong. That’s the tip of the iceberg.
Slipping from high-functioning depression into a crippling, debilitating state is the worst. For me, that realisation came when I started getting fired from work-my bosses perceive me as lazy, satirical, and unmotivated. I didn’t care enough to go in, and while being fired has been a devastating feeling, even that no longer penetrates deep enough to elicit a response. Depression is enough work as it is-it’s a full time job to tackle every task it lays its weighs on. And no one gave you the instruction on how to lift it.
Thank you. I am living with this and had a period when I couldn't get up from bed. My mother told me that I don't have problems and I am just wasting my time on nothing, while she is the one who should whine. Therapy is really expensive in my country and I didn't have money to help myself. I was very lucky to have supportive friends and boyfriend who helped me to get through this. Now I have a full-time job and saving money to get to the specialist. Good health to everyone who is reading, take care of yourselves
I’ve been suffering from this for years. Didn’t see it as an issue. I do now. Thank you. At almost 64, with ADHD and autism with PTSD. I’m finding the right therapy I hope. 🌬️🕊️
I was high functioning for years... until I wasn't. I finally got the help I desperately needed last year and I have people in my corner. If you're reading this, know you are loved and there is hope. I hope you make it through this.
i’m almost grateful for my depression, in a sense, because it truly shows me who is genuine and loves me unconditionally vs the people using me for something. i had to isolate myself for a few years as i suffer from multiple forms of depression and ptsd. i was unable to leave my bed for most days without having a panic attack. i lost a lot of people, but remain close to the ones who bothered to understand me or who truly listened when i said “i just don’t want to live anymore”. if someone is genuine, and truly likes you for you or wants to be in your life for the good reasons, you will know at the time you need people the most.
God this hits too close to home. For maybe 3+ years now, I've always kind of felt like I was going on autopilot doing what I had to done, but I had no motivation or care about any of it. Still feel that way. I have never been able to see a therapist despite wanting to so badly. I don't know if what I feel is normal or if I've just been suffering for ages now. I tried talking to someone about it, be it my sister, mom, anyone who might give me even an ear, but the reaction is always the same. After awhile, it stopped feeling like anyone cared so I stopped talking about it altogether. Everyday feels like I'm just doing what I need to to either scrape by or seem useful...
Thank you so much! Now i can show this to my familly who loves me but doesn't understand how i now have so little energy i can't do anything when i used to be able to do a lot everyday, even if it felt absolutely life-draining already. I keep getting questions or words that are hard to answer and makes me feel bad because i do not find a satisfying way to make them understand what im going through and why, instead of causing them confusion and sometimes even indignation.
I don't have depression, but dealing with social isolation is brutal. I am grateful i can trust that I'll be ok and that one day I'll get the connection i need.
had high functioning depression from grade 5 through 12 (+2 years as i had to go to the mental hospital twice and thus had to repeat two school years, plus i was in therapy for years). It was sh*t, i felt horrible, had no energy and could barely get out of bed, but i knew i had to be there for my family, that's all that kept me from ending it all. Now that i'm out of school it has gotten much better, i'm more social again and actually feel energetic and great. I have the energy to meet people again and to do my hobbies. My boss(moreso a coworker at my workplace, as we still do the same stuff) is helping me greatly to stay level and supports me through my now much shorter depressive phases. Getting help is not shameful ❤ you'd get help for a broken bone, so get that help for your mental wellbeing ❤
I only got help on the day when I started crying on my way to school, barely keeping myself from just finally giving up - even though I had been very happy just the previous day, week, month and even year, but my mind just always decided to make things sad on just a normal day. This managed to explain why I seemed like just a happy normal child all the way at 9 years old, but my own mind was pressuring me more than anything else.
Yup. Very difficult when you're running a business - leaders with depression is a huge taboo. We spend so much time ensuring employees are doing ok, but it's lonely at the top, and no one wants to know if their boss is ok, it's just expected. So smiles, keep going, keep the shop afloat, and die inside. Therapy saved my life.
Hope everyone is doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people available. Sending support and hearts to all. ❤❤❤
This hits hard because recently I had an anxiety attack because I was contemplating how no one would believe me if o told them how I felt and so I would never be able to get anyone's help.
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Your videos help me a lot. Could you make some more about coping skills please?
But what does it feel like? I can't tell if I'm depressed or not.
Should be called highly masked depression. The concept of high and low functional needs to die off
It was almost 30 years on high functioning and it's been almost 5 years on burnout, is it getting better any soon?
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Oh, I told everyone. They didn't believe me. Then when I got to the "can't get out of bed" stage, they still didn't believe me and called me a leech. I got a new everyone.
I love this comment
Absolutely amazing 🤩 🎉
Your old everyone are worthless. I did have a friend tell me get over it because she didn't understand. I gave her the benefit of the doubt bc she had been a considerate and supportive friend otherwise for yrs. After I brought it up later one day and explained how bad it made me feel, she apologized. Never happened again in past 20 yrs friendship
I got a new everyone means?
Sometimes going through something hard in life it shows you who your friends truly are or simply the reality that those friends are not for you. I complete understand! I respect you for being aware and making the healthy friendships you need and deserve in your life 👏🏻
As someone who my brother quoted to his therapist saying, "Well life isn't supposed to be fun. It's just getting through the day, every day, until one day it's finally over" when I was 16.. yeah... Been feeling this my whole life.
I assumed this is how it is for the 99% lol what a d*ck thing to say to a child or anyone!
And its not going away so, it is what it is. I know the feeling too.
I think this is how most people live and have always lived. Life is hard for most people. It's a relatively new and western concept that life is supposed to be easy and happy, and we should breeze through it with ease. I think it's a lie, and if we can't live up to the social media version of life, we failed and then we get depressed. Of course, as the family unit has been under attack and practically destroyed, it is no wonder that everybody is lonely and depressed nowadays.
@@accaeffe8032although I agree with your view I have to add that it's many times not so simple.
One may suffer due to childhood adverse experiences (I'm 49 and just got to know about these a couple of years ago, and it was like an eye opener to finally understand why I'm the way I am).
I def know that life's not a Hollywood happy movie but as I've said, sometimes the issues are more complex.
I hope that whoever reads this will look into the subject of ACEs and Childhood Emotional Neglect.
These two alone without any other things can affect ones self immensely. Maybe if you're alone you will cope and live "quite well". The bigger problem comes when you've got kids and you just can't be there for them the way a parent should be.
I don't like the term of Childhood Emotional Neglect cos it gets a lot of stigma and blame towards the parents by some therapists on UA-cam. They are missing the fact that these very parents themselves were victims of the same neglect or abuse or just that "tough love" upbringing (like my mum's case, she's a after WW2 child)
The generational passed down trauma continues in silence with every new generation until some tragedy strucks and you ask yourself "How?".
Edit: just read again your comment.
The material aspect of a hard life is tough but tbh what is even worse is the emotional side.
@@accaeffe8032 No, life isn't this hard for most people most of the time. I know life is hard and there are super trying times for all people. That's still very different than chronic depression. I can go through hard times and still have peace and be happy most of the time. I'm resilient and have my sense of humour when not depressed. When I'm depressed though, each day is just scraping by, even if on the surface there is nothing obviously wrong. I feel so bad for others going through this too.
this hits hard, i understand how it feels to have depression where i’m still almost forced to complete tasks as normal
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I feel u
I feel u
Agree
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This was done beatifully. I have dealt with depression for the last 8 years or so. Even on my most depressed days, I have to pick myself up and move on with the day because I cant tell anyone im suffering
Please tell someone you are suffering. It increases suffering to have to bear it alone.
Yup I know the feeling
I'm so sorry. I understand how you feel. It's hard to convince yourself to talk about it. Even though you know you should 😢
I always feel like no one really cares anyway, because they don't know what to do to help you, so they try to remain detached by either doling out useless advice or phrases, or brushing it off with "everyone gets depressed sometimes" or just distancing themselves from you. Or, just not believing you.
So telling anyone doesn't help anyhow.
It’s not really the shame of being depressed, it’s the fact that whether you tell someone or not, those expectations of you won’t change because you’ve been “high-functioning” all this time.
Yes!!
I know the feeling all too well. BUT ☝️ I must say... I think is our fault to make it normal (of course we had our reasonable reasons), so it's our job to turn things around so this stops happening. Tough truth.
Boundaries, boundaries, boundaries!!😅
I am still working on this, but now I am not waiting for anybody else to make this easier for me. I have expectations only for myself.
It's not your fault or our fault. No blame or shame.
Do what you can and let it be enough.
Manage your symptoms and get help if you have a suspicion that you need it.
These are three lessons I've learnt as someone who is diagnosed with bipolar spectrum disorder which is the rapid cycling, treatment resistant form.
When on medication my "normal" mood is depressed.
Blessings, Dot
@@dotcassilles1488hi Dot, hope you are well. I've been a crybaby since i was little... It has brought me much shame and i have saught out even more shameful ways to cope. I'm a Christian now so i am at peace moreso than ever however i work in a very draining job and i have gotten to this point now where i am feeling like a shell of myself and the tears come when im alone but i can no longer comfortably share the pain. Its hard to turn to loved ones when you know they cannot understand. I get serious anxiety attacks but i have to supress them for my job and it comes out through other symptoms of stress. I think a lot. I analyse the therapists 😅 i am a sensitive soul who is stuck in a cruel world. We can just appriciate the good days more because of that. Much love from South Africa 🇿🇦
Sooo right
This is where counselling comes in and can help you understand which expectations towards you are justified and which aren't and to monitor the available resources to lower the over all workload.
Suddenly my eyes become teary..she told the words which I couldn't pick up from the emotions of mine .... it's like I couldn't give a term to what I'm feeling lately ... atleast someone said it , thank you
Too true!!! I've been told "you can't be depressed!! You're always smiling and happy!" 😢
It's hard to not be understood. It sounds like you might have dysthymia, which is a chronic low level depression. Where you're not debilitated, but you're never really happy and can't really feel joy.
If you're able to still do those things you have not hit the depths. Be grateful.
@@matulich77 It's true that if they can still maintain a cheery face and no one knows, then they haven't hit the depths. Still it sucks to not be validated. If that is dysthymia she has though, that is chronic and so insidious. Dysthymia will stay w/ people for years and just gnaw at you, even if it isn't the depths. I have an aunt who has that, and it's no picnic either. We all have to practice gratitude though. I can only see that as being my number one tool out of this, or at least dealing w/ it.
SAME AS ME OMG SO SAD😢
@@matulich77Just because you have not hit the depths yet, doesn't mean you should. Your advice would directly lead to burnout and more depression. Please stop.
I have been suffering from depression for many years since my parents divorced. It's just that when I knew I needed therapy and had to go see therapist. My parents especially my dad told me
"You are not depressed. Mental health doesn't exist".
Worst part was that he made me READ clinical articles just for him to justify and manipulate me saying that I don't have these symptoms. That is why I told myself I will stand by my ground and NEVER be a victim to people's words EVER AGAIN!!
High functioning depression is when you show everyone your ok even though when your alone you just wanna die or gwt out of wherever you are. They see the smiles you put on for them, not the scars or open wounds whether physical or emotional. Then you feel trapped and silenced. It's all too familiar.
thsi hits too hard
You're not alone in it guys, remember that. If anyone ever needs a place to vent or anything you can always come back here. You can get through it!
No. That's just normal coping with depression and not wanting to bring down others with your own problems.
@@bbbbbbb51 fair. I personally would say its not but your depression could be my high functioning depression. People are different, we just gotta accept them for whoever they are and whatever they are going through
Yes anyone who has dealt with it knows. Glad I’m not alone.
This made me cry. I've tried to tell my mom that it feels like i'm putting on a mask whenever I go out, because I dress up, look after myself and make myself look good because i'm almost constantly afraid of being judged. I was doing well mentally but at the start of this year, I just completely turnt into a wreck, and i've still been 'high-functioning', but inside I get even more hopeless and I just want to give up. It feels like everyone in my family at my age is way ahead of me, and I just feel like such a loser and that they're constantly judging me. They don't know what I experience, I have to keep things secret, and only my mom knows but she struggles to understand.
What you're going through is normal, expectations of being a particular type of person. You meed to accept that you're pace is different and work on finding purpose and happiness. Do noy bother comparing yourself to others.
I bet if you opened up, or got some of them to admit the truth, they probably feel just like you at times. It sounds like you're doing well though, all things considered.
Thanks guys, just looking back at this comment, it was a vent tbh on how I felt at the time, but thank you for the kind words 🥰🥰. I know its normal at my age to feel this way, I had a reminder when I had work experience that almost every adult there was telling me that i'm only 18 - I forget because I try to be grown up too fast
@@mishiak I remember wanting to grow up too fast too. I think most of us do that. Hope you're doing well.
It strikes me as though there are similarities between how mental health and neurodiversity are dismissed. "High functioning" is no longer considered an acceptable term for neurodiversity, but the concept of if you're seemingly doing ok (usually by masking, i.e. pretending to act "normal" or the way others do automatically) at least in public then you're perceived to be fine.
People in both camps are underdiagnosed or not believed (even if they are diagnosed) by people who think that inward struggles need to be visible to the world for someone to be genuinely struggling.
That's probably part of the reason why mental illness is so prevalent amongst neurodiverse people - the mental exhaustion of masking, combined with people not believing.
Sometimes, it's not shame, you want to talk about it, but you are so neglected that no one really cares, but you have responsibilities like kids, a job etc, so you just go on with life in some auto pilot mode while crumbling inside
Yes and no one is actually looking after you as you are always looking after everyone else and its expected of you anyway.
They don't care that you need help and even ask for help. They just want to suck you dry until nothing's left, then walk away with no concern for you.
Very true indeed.
This actually explained it better then the woman did.
And it's true to the core.
Yes...I've felt like walls rising higher and higher around me...the light gets smaller and further away. It's not a matter of seeking help. There is simply no help visible to ask for.
I learned very recently thru therapy that this is the kind of depression that I have... It's strange to understand it now but learning really is the first step to healing
the worst part of it is when no one believes you even when you're being brave enough to speak up about it to your closest people. it absolutely hurts.
My ex best friend: "you don't have a right to feel sad"
Less than a year after I was graped :,)
That is the worst part. I agree! Getting disapproval from parents is the worst thing ever
Yes this made me very isolated over the years and i still not open to make any new friends. I am more comfortable alone than feeling all alone because nobody cares to understand. I am glad i went to therapy to talk about it and taken seriously for my struggles
Yes!!!
I told it to someone but they apparently didn't understand that is exactly why I'm not doing good 💀👍
I lost my two dogs this year.
They were my rock, and the reason for existence.
Everything makes me cry. Ive been in this MDD episode for months.
Some how I am holding down 2 jobs, and eatting properly.
But sometime soon, its all going to give.
To anyone else fighting this battle, know your not alone. We will get through this.
Loosing pets is so hard! I am so sorry for both your losses. Sending you loads of positive energy. Some days are a bigger challenge than others...I know it's not easy but get out there when you can and keep putting one foot in front of the other. 💞
Trying to explain this to people around me, for years so I don't bother any more. Thank you for your video. Truly appreciate your content.
They can never understand and they won't listen, either.
So true. Friends told me it's all in my head..snap out of it.. So I just stop telling them. It's not easy like you can delete it from a click of a button.
@@ty-bf4ws ❤
Odd. I've had a similar experience with soldiering on through depression, yet everyone I've told over the past year has completely understood it. My closest friends, my brother, and even my parents. They all had questions and I obliged them with answers, but they absolutely got it. Most people go through depressive periods, so they can relate in some fashion which aids in understanding as best they can.
My advice? Pick better friends and have better people around you. I'm smiley, a good laugh, outgoing, yet deeply introverted, and everyone I've told had good reactions to me finally opening up about it after a decade of feeling and operating this way. Choosing good friends is an invaluable life skill. They'll stand the test of time, won't need maintenance, and will truly listen to you when you have something to say. It's worth the effort to learn how to both spot the right people and foster the right relationship with them.
Yeah this is exactly it. My counselloe has stopped calling and checking in on and it makes me feel like my feelings arent bad enough. She stopped months ago.
I can’t work anymore, I don’t trust people anymore..
Me too😢
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Then you should try to work on that
This is what i have used when i have come depressed to recover from it and become better untill you feel better and happy again and no longer depressed
You also need to find out how to express your emotions healthily and control your emotions without suppressing them and find ways to express them healthily and goodly
Friends spend time with people you love it's a primary source of hapiness
Finding our to calm down be at peace and stop worring
Love yourself and that means self care too know when to take breaks and know how to keep yourself healthy
Exercise exercise makes you have better health and makes you way happier
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The main things to living a amazing and happy life are
Loveing and caring for your loved ones that includes good communication spending time with them being physically and or mentally affectionate to them depends on which one they love more and typically doing stuff you both enjoy together
Loving yourself
Keeping a good level of ego
Around the range where you can be proud of yourself and think your amazing but not too much where you think everyone else is worse thats called narcism
Keeping it physically and mentally in shape by physical exercise meditation breathing exercise
And having a diet where you eat stuff you enjoy but not too much un healthy food enough where your body feels happy but not sick
These 2 are the most important and equally important
The rest are still very important tho those 2 determine about 49-70% of your happiness
Physical exercise
Learning how to calm down and relieve stress deep breathing exercises and physical exercise help alot with this
How to control your emotions and express them heathily without suppressing them
Long term goals
And always trying to improve more as a person and the skills that make you happy and essential life skills
And also knowing when to take a break to prevent burnout
Doing anything for way to long can cause even doing something you absolutelyblove with all your heart can still cause burnout you should always find room to take a week off every 3-5 months so you can maintain to enjoy jobs and stuff you enjoy in life so you can enjoy it your entire life
@@JoelMcCary I’m trying bro,im really trying.😳💖💖💖
@@richardward2469 thats good
Become better I know you can do it I have done it before so I know it's possible and I know you can
Sometimes it might be hard and sometimes you might need to force yourself to do things like work out ask out your crush or take some risks for a better life but you can do this Richard(what your real name is) I know you can
Holy! You just described what I’m going through. Stay strong everyone, much love!
I always saw depression portrayed as not being able to get out of bed. Now looking back at myself in high school, I was the worst I’ve ever been mentally, but kept telling myself “o you’re not as bad as what depression is supposed to be”. If you do not feel like how you’re feeling is normal, do not accept it as normal 💜
Society has made us think differently😢
Yes...for the passed 2 days I was at my worst...not wanting to get out of bed...but I told myself...this is not normal...and I went to seek help
At school, I was always told ‘You can’t be depressed, you’re smart!’ and it just made me fall deeper down the rabbit hole.
I used to be one of those people not believing that I could ever get depressed. And only recently, after a lot of lows, I finally had to admit to myself. Your words hit hard and I wish I had a good therapist to help me just to get through
This is exactly me I never thought I would get depressed but here I am
Thank you for sharing your experience. It takes strength to acknowledge our struggles and seek help. Remember that it's never too late to reach out for support, and a good therapist can make a significant difference in your journey toward healing and well-being. You're not alone, and there are resources available to help you navigate through this. 💙
I'm in the opposite situation. I've had depression for most of my life and thought I'd never escape it. Now, it's less like drowning in an ocean and more like standing just offshore, occasionally being knocked down by waves and standing back up again. I'm doing things I've dreamed of since I was little and thought I'd never achieve. You can learn to overcome it, and I hope you do ❤️
I’ve had depression for almost half my life and I’ve tried so many therapists and just doesn’t help. it does feel like an ocean but I’m still drowning and I can’t get out.
Find Jesus and He will be your support and loving Healer. He loves you so much He died for your chance to gain life everlasting. Prayers for all suffering deppression to find comfort, love and healing.
I have two people in my head, original and unnamed, the original is my trauma, my flaws, my depression, my anxiety, my anger and my frustration. Unnamed is the part of me that I show everyday, so original only comes out when I’m alone or when it’s night time
This made me tear up. I felt like this resonated with me so much, like I couldn’t deny it
This is literally exactly how I felt, I even teared, up lying my head back against my wall….
Thank you Dr Julie! Your messages help me so very much! Bless you! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I don't think many people realize how dangerous it can to struggle with high functioning depression. I have healed a lot now, but there was a point that my depression was extremely bad. However, I was able to do everything I needed to do and even seem happy. Only one person in my life noticed that I was not okay and confronted me about it. That friend is the reason I'm still here.
Wow.
I have high functioning depression as a fun side effect of the PTSD and ADHD. Some days are better than others. And those other days start and end with the struggle to find the strength to do more than breathe.
This is a perfect description of what I feel and why I still have the depression. Yes, I work, cook, shower and function. But it's all a way to mask the unending and gnawing ache that depression brings. It makes it hard to eat or sleep.. and it drains energy and drive. But the push I feel to not let others down is what gets me to keep going.
I still am working on my depression, but it's much better now than a few months ago. Your channel helped me so much to understand how I felt at the time and it also helped to realize that I wasn't just a little stressed, but that I was depressed. Thank you for your good work ❤
I have experienced a traumatic event and I am worried that I need to make sure I get things together so I can live well in the future.
In the past this was achieved through intimacy. Having close intimate relationships is like sitting on a rock. But I have moved to the USA and I have never experienced a rock like sense of intimacy and community here.
@@jesseleeward2359 Good luck on your further journey
Amen and Halalujah!!!👏👏👏😀
Thank you so much for being here literally just being here because im actually crying right now the fact that someone understands
This is so me. I have what people call perfect daily routine I wake up very early in the morning, read, do some stretches and exercises and then study, eat balanced and do fun stuff with my friends and in everyone's eyes I'm doing amazing. There's even a few of my friends who envy me and actually always ask me on how to build and maintain a routine while in reality I deep inside am not satisfied and truly happy with nearly anything. I feel some kind of way that I don't want to feel, despite all the good things this particular feeling makes it strange and unable to feel satisfaction in the end of the day when I put my head on the pillow. I just realized that in sake of not having to deal with my thoughts and emotions I always overwork myself to the point where I start falling asleep at my desk (which I did this night too lol I gave up and and decided to sleep) I have a university entrance exam which is probably the main reason of all my sadness and stress but still I don't know I wish I could go to a therapist I just feel like I want to talk to someone who really does understand and has knowledge about this stuff because I can talk to my friends or partner - luckily I have a lot of supportive people around me - but because most of us are going through the same thing and don't know how to properly deal with it the best we can say to eachother is to hang on and don't give up, I know that I can do these but I want to do whatever I'm doing happily. I have no idea what I'm talking about right now I'm so sleep deprived I hope I didn't talk bs excuse me for talking this much it's not something I usually do actually I don't even comment often but I just felt like doing so. Also I like your channel very very much, it's very very helpful and I could feel some peace and warmness inside of me with just opening it, without watching anything. Sending all kind of love and appreciation I love you so much have a great great day 💗
Sounds like you're feeling numb. It's our brains coping mechanism. Blocking out emotions and feelings is our brain's way of dealing with intense, hard emotions. Your source of unhappiness seems to be coming from your university entrance exam. That is a big deal. Btw, you should process your emotions & thoughts in a safe space. Maybe journal everything? Or meditate. Meditation helps us feel grounded, connected & be aware of our emotions. Tc 💗
Genuine, honest, authentic therapy in 1 minute. I know I've taken a lot of therapy in life. Thank you Dr. Julie. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You explained exactly how I have been feeling. I have always felt that no one believes me and the shame associated... it is so much tormenting to not know because you don't have a textbook definition.. it's like a slow poison
Same for me. Thank you.
This made me cry. It’s so hard to find someone who understands me. I truly appreciate your content. ❤
I tried to tell myself I've been ok, because so many people rely on me. I've always been the one people say can handle anything because I don't usually show my fears and sadness to people. But deep inside (specially this past year more than others) I haven't really felt myself. This video pretty much describes me to a T
hope you find a way forward
I am suffering like this, what can I do 😢
@@hassanahmed3606I'm sorry you feel this way too. All I can say from my personal experience is to find a little support from some where. I have been going through multiple changes in my life this past year, and after a sever set back in my mothers health, i finally hit a point of not being able to hide my emotions. Before this one incident I would only break down once I was home and alone at the end of the day. I would break down into uncontrollable fits of crying, and praying for signs to lead me through in the right direction and for strength, not just physical bit emotional and mental strength. After this incident with my mother though I could no longer completely hide my fears. A coworker one morning just asked me the simple question they had asked every morning... "how was you mom last night?"
I couldn't even answer, the tears just came and for once I couldn't stop them. I felt embarrassed to be crying at my desk at work, but my coworkers God Bless them where there for me. They told me it was OK to cry, it was ok to be feeling lost with all the changes I was going though at work, home and my mother. One of the therapist I work with even told me any time I need to talk she was there to listen (I work in a mental health office). They were actually surprised at how well I had been holding everything together for months, they had no idea how overwhelmed I had been feeling, that's how hard I fought to hide my emotions. But now that I have a few people I can talk to every now and then does help. And they are always there to remind me to practice SELFCARE.
Now don't get me wrong, I still have my demons, and I am not saying I'm 100%. I am still a work in progress and still find it hard to not hide.
I wish you all the best, and hope you to are able to find even a little support. Cause a little support can go a long way. Hang in there, and remember you are someone special and you matter too.❤
P.S - sorry for the long novel of a reply
I'm sorry to hear that. I just prayed for Jesus to guide you to find peace and comfort and a way to move forward. May you also find a trusted confidante to share your inner thoughts with.@@hassanahmed3606
I had high-functioning depression for years. I was able to excel at school and work while being hollow on the inside. Eventually, it slowly clawed away at me, breaking me down to the point where I quit my job and just refused to get out of bed or my home. I am now finally trying to get my life on path, but yeah, don't let it go untreated.
This was me 9 years ago. After many years of hard things (Mom’s death, loss of job after 19 years, financial struggles, and more) I was at the end of my strength. This first time I had to tell someone that I had severe depression and anxiety and that I was getting treatment, it felt so hard. Everyone thought I had it all together. I did not. But after talking to several people about it… it became easier and I found that many people are struggling too and were so relieved to talk to someone who understood what they were going through.
I tried to share my thoughts with others to decrease my depression but they treated me like I am a looser.Its been 11 years still to this day I regret sharing the information with others which bothered me and bothering me. I am planning to meet a psychologist.
I have tried to talk to others but I don't feel understood at all.. intact this has increased my depression
@@rt-qe9xwI understand this.
@@rt-qe9xwtrust your emotional compas with the signals who you want to talk to it about.. ive been doing better since i check this one out first. Also implies to the mental health wprkers. Everytime my radar felt something of the person, later on, turned to be not a good fit for me. After all you have to live with you, so learn to trust your signals (maybe learn to read them better aswell)
@juttadapraveen569 I should get my things diagnosed, but kinda similar for me. 😅
There are only a few people in my life that I feel comfortable talking about my problems with. A couple freinds, myself, and one of my counselors.
I have cousins, and little ones that look up to me, so I have to seem happy..
Hits close to home. Having keeping it to myself for 7 years, finally I had the courage to see psychologist, diagnosed with anxiety disorders which resulting in panic attack.
So happy I finally know what's wrong with me, and even more happier after able to talk it out with my mom about my struggle. Hopefully my way for recovery will be smooth ❤
Honestly, I needed this. So many people do not understand why I'm having a difficult time doing a job that was so easy for me before. Doing the simplest task gives me anxiety so I don't do it or I push it off for the next day, then the guilt settles in. I find myself crying for "no reason" and it's affecting my work, my life, everything. I don't want to socialize anymore. It's exhausting to pretend like everything is ok. I don't take pleasure in anything anymore. The ONLY thing that got me out and made me do things I didn't want to was my dog of 14 years. She recently died and now I feel so lost. It's been about 2 1/2 months now, but I still feel the same amount of grief that I felt when I put her down. The amount of guilt I feel for killing her eats away at me even though I know she needed to pass on. I feel like i failed her. I feel like Im failing myself. I'm failing at everything and i want it to stop. My work was initially good with me but now I can tell they don't understand and it's affecting my job so that's not good. I don't know what to do.
I don't know how much my words will help you, but I absolutely understand the pain that comes from losing up beloved animal. I've often questioned the process putting down an animal, wondering if it's even my place to choose if my pet should live or die, questioning if I am playing god with my pet's life. But ultimately, my logic always circles back to the reason why I choose to euthanize my pet, and that's because their quality of life was too low, and they were in too much pain to continue enjoying life. Giving them death is simply a way to give them a painless existence. This way they don't have to suffer for no reason. I lost a cat on the twelfth of July this year, and he was only four years old. I was expecting another roughly ten years was that little bean, and I still miss him so much. I am fully grown man and still cry at the loss of my cat, and while I did not have to euthanize him, there have been others in the past that did have that choice made for them. My point in all of my rambling is simply that I understand your pain, and I wish to reassure you that you did not murder your dog. I recognize and respect that you did what you had to to protect her from unnecessary suffering. You loved her enough to let her go when she needed you to do so, and trust me when I say that she will be eternally grateful for that choice and that her soul is free to run and play as she waits for you to rejoin her. You did not put her down out of cruelty or malicious intention, so please, try not to blame yourself or feel guilty for her body growing old. I understand that emotions can be heavy and difficult, and your emotions are completely and perfectly valid, but remember that you are not to blame for helping your precious dog find peace when she was hurting with no cure. I support and respect your decision, and I offer you all of my love and positive vibes that I will be sending your way. I know that my words are merely pixels on a digital screen, but from one fellow internet stranger to another, I truly wish you the best and hope that things can improve for you.
Thank you Dr Julie
So how does anyone with high functioning depression heal, get over the shame and conquer it?
I would say seek therapy. Ive dealt with high functioning depression for years in the Army. Then right as I was about to retire, my mother passed away and everything all came crashing down at once. I found after her passing and retirement I couldn't even get out of the bed most days. I realized that isn't where I wanted to be nor would my mother approve so I sought mental health treatment. I greatly appreciate having someone neutral in my life to explain my feelings to who can give me professional feedback. I also take medication, pray and read my bible every day. Growing my relationship with the Lord has helped me with finding peace as well.
@@prettyyybizarrreHappy for you :)
Thank you for sharing your experience and advice. I'm truly sorry about your mom and all that pain you endured. Im happy that you had support from someone and the Lord:) i know you are good and so much stronger now. I think the problem anyone who suffers from this kind of depression may not be aware they are going through it, so they just push through ignoring how they feel over time. That's what i really wanted to know. How does anyone with HFD even treat it if they are not aware of it?
@@prettyyybizarrrewhen you say meditation do you mean antidepressants? I thought it had been concluded that they don’t work. Please reply. I don’t know whether to take them or not
@@prettyyybizarrrethank you so much for sharing your story. I too suffered very similar circumstances with my mother ... it was brutal for me behind closed doors. I turned everything over to The Lord and received some counseling. I'm a Nutritionist so slowly I've treated my symptoms with food supplements and with patience it's working nicely but wouldn't have worked without prayer 🙏
God Bless everyone 🙌 💖
Everytime I watch videos like this, I need to constantly remind myself not to self diagnose but it's so relatable that it's getting harder and harder not to do
How I love this particular video each n every word. cant express
Danke, Dr. Julie - ich finde, dass Sie das wunderbar erklären! und ihre sanfte Stimme ist sehr angenehm...
What everyone sees about me is how I go to work every day, care for my eldery and disabled relatives, volunteer, do social activism, go to social gatherings, find ways to educate myself, do creative stuff like writing, drawing, etc.
What no one sees but my cat is when I get home, I often forget or refuse to eat, clean, shower and otherwise care for myself. I do it when necessary, so that no one would notice - and suffer when they in fact don't. I care for my cat, because I love her. I sometimes don't care for myself, because, well. You can take a wild guess.
This channel is like a thin, hopeful ray of light. Maybe one day I will follow it. Maybe, it will lead me to peace.
You should follow it lol. Btw do you know what the root cause of your depression is? Depression is our body's & mind's way of signalling to us that there is something wrong. And depression symptoms is a weird way to cope with stuff. Like not eating because digestion requires energy, and not eating or sleeping too much is body's way to conserve energy.
I struggle with depression in fifth grade after years of trying to live up to my parents expectations never feeling like I am enough and just feeling like a burden. I just wanted to hide and not be here. My friends helped me become happy and finally see the joy and life and now I am really fighting hard to have what I wished for
I could relate what you say. We love you Julie .. thank you for helping
It took me hearing voices in my head
calling my name constantly for months for me to realise that being a straight A student was breaking me from the inside and to finally admit that I might have a problem. On the flipside, it also took me partly destroying my perfect life and refusing to get out of bed for weeks for my family to finally admit that I might have a problem and allow me to see a psychiatrist.
I had this situation actually. Thanks god I was able to cut off the negative things, specially my work and was able to move to a different City and I started feeling better as time passed.
Always put yourself first. You can't help anyone if you are not there.
Thank you, this is so validating. I'm mostly past the depression stage but now I'm high-functioning with anxiety instead which is... not really better. It's so hard to explain to people that yes, I look normal, I act normal on a day-to-day basis, and the idea of reading my emails terrifies me to the point of wanting to vomit. I have breakdowns over the simplest tasks, but always, carefully, at home so no one sees except my husband. Luckily my supervisors try to be understanding most of the time, they just don't really get it on a personal level. It took several jobs to find one that didn't just fire me once they found out.
I remember empathizing with people with depression and suicidal thoughts like "I'm not like that, but I can imagine what that's like and it must be so hard". In reality, though, I WAS like that deep down; that's why I understood. I just didn't realize it yet.
For several years I had high functioning depression, and I kinda knew (though I had never heard the term "high functioning" at that time). But I didn't really want to face it. I thought: "I can still work, so I must not have depression". Until I couldn't work anymore. I had more and more sick days. I would say I had a headache or some other lie and then have a guilty conscience for lying and think I was playing truant. The truth is: I was drinking to cope with my emotional pain, and I was beginning to realize that NOW, I "couldn't get out of bed". (Some days because I had been drinking the day before, but some days also when I had not had a drop of alcohol beforehand).
Please, to anyone reading this: Go to the doctor before it gets to that. And remember that anti-depressant medicine is not the devil that it is sometimes made out to be. It may have side-effects, and some of it may not be for you. But without it, I would probably have been dead.
Finally admitting you need help, is the time things start to change ! Wishing everyone here a better today than yesterday
My depression at this point is mostly energy and motivation based after I worked through the emotion problems, and it’s a wild ride with it ontop of my late diagnosed ADHD as the two decide who’s going to take charge that day or if they decide to f me over and hit me at the same time
@_Cursed_Queen_
Oh God🤦🏼♀️ me too, I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD until 11 years ago, even though I’d been seeing a psychiatrist for 6 years prior & admitted myself into a Private clinic. You know it’s bad when you have no energy to even lift the duvet off you… Sadly, I checked out after 2 weeks as the Clinics psych literally said "You’re too happy to be suffering depression, you’re always smiling & polite to everyone - so why are you really here?!! Hmmm 🤔 it’s called HFD with ADHD = My mind is a freaking circus or painfully numb! You described it perfectly, which is why I thought I’d reply & I’m sure you know what happened 🤡 lol!
Info that needs to be widely shared. Thanks for posting❣️
It’s also important to remember that a lot of life is suffering regardless of whether you have depression. Accepting that none of us have perfect lives and that pain is an inevitable part of the human experience can go a long way towards thwarting the spiral into deeper depression.
As the old Buddhist saying goes; pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.
I do agree with Dr Julie however, that asking for help when we recognise that we are struggling is a great way to begin healing.
But also remember that healing psychologically is similar to healing physically. We have to eat nutritious food and sleep ‘almost’ every day to repair the damage done to our bodies through the simple act of existing. If we don’t, we die relatively quickly.
Unlike our bodies however, our minds (in general ) are infinitely more resilient. ‘Most’ people’s minds are still functioning very well when their bodies degrade irrevocably and can no longer house them in old age and death. Such is the power the mind and spirit have to heal………….just food for thought 😊
wish you all blessings on your life journey ❤
I feel like you are the only one who can understand my feelings and what am going through. I teared up after seeing this
Welp I definitely have that. Some of my ex friends bullied me about my trauma a year or 2 ago. They said it was not real and I was lying and I just wanted attention. They said I didn’t deserve anything good that has happened to me. That was the night I almost killed myself. Luckily I had some friends to stop me
You're information is SO EXTREMELY helpful and easy to understand, thank you so much!❤
Its not shame for me, its neglect..trust me, ive tried to even best of friends, but its always brushed off.. im in 7th grade n a 'nerd' but my state never matters.. i started defaulting in work sometime back n noone cared to ask "are u okay?" But they did ask "what has happened to you? Im disappointed".. the only thing helps is ur vids, some personal interests n crying.. though dont hate my friends, they're quite immature- they dont understand much rn.. im still grateful for them, bcoz the rare moment when i cry in school, they support me, they mke me laugh, they know how to make me happy even for a moment even if I'll be sad as soon as i reach home, they make me centre of attention smtimes n that makes me feel gr8, they're just always bubbly n happy n encourage me to be to.. ig thats the prob.. i feel so happy around them so i dont feel like bringing it up but as soon as i reach home its bk to the depression.. i think its my fam thats the prob.. all the trauma as a child really scarred me n my teenage harmones..
I suffered w chronic major depression my whole life since my earliest memories. I did not find appropriate treatment until my 30s. Somehow I managed overcome poverty, get a college degree and a law degree (with many many setbacks) before treatment. Instead of looking bavk amd thinking about what might have been if I had access to proper treatment, I am so fucking proud of myself for overcoming so much and accomplishing much more than most mentally healthy people have!! Get relief if you are suffering from mental illness. Everyone deserves to feel wonderful!!❤❤❤
Thank you. You don't only deserve help when it's visible to others.
😢so at the present scenario mostly many are suffering from high functioning depression... Surely I guess you are the mission to help them... Taking inspiration from you mam to do the same 😊
I agree.
OMG Dr. Julie, you finally said this, I'm actually going through such things after the pandemic situation and long lockdowns, I just can't fit myself on my previous life and my parents keep telling that everyone is going through this but they don't complain! But I'm still struggling sometimes...
Advice on not being able to try something bc you're scared to fail?
What about failing scares you? What will that failure lead to? I'm afraid of failing a test, but earning my degree in the end is worth it. It will lead to better job opportunities. Im afraid to go ice skating because I don't want to fall and get hurt. But if i dont go at all im not really missing out on anything. Missing out on a great careerr, great job opportunities, fixing my leaking roof one day, all those things are worth the risk of failing a test. I hope that makes sense. If the reward is worth it, the fear and risk of railing is worth it. Everyone fails. That doesnt make you a failure. YOU are worthy of happiness.
Fear is just a feeling and it is you who chooses whether it paralizes you or moves you forward. If you think about fear positively, it can change the way you act on it for the better. Think of fear as an indication of challenge and opportunity. Always ask yourself "what's the worst thing that can happen?" Your answer will be trivial compared to your opportunity.
All you need is 20 seconds of insane courage and they might change your life completely.
The disaster is not when you fail, it's when you stop trying. Failure is a part of success. One cannot succeed without the experience acquired from failure.
Just think, what if you don't fail?
Even if you do fail you will know that you have tried. And so, when u try again you will have understood better and fix the things that went wrong the first time.
Now, what if you do not try? The what would've been could've been will stay with you for long and later when its too late you may regret it.
I managed to dig myself out of the worst multi year depression a couple years ago, but its still there. It just doesn't stop me from catching up with my education and maintaining work, but it still effects my self care
I'm pretty sure I have it and I had asked my parents if I could see a therapist and now instead of trying to fix it, I have found out I have a lot more wrong with me like apparently I have Social Anxiety. 💚
You're just Ashley
That's what they do. Just don't take their pills. They don't know what they're doing. It's all guess work. You know you.
Deoression, it’s worse than you could ever imagine. Social Anxiety plus depression, imagine internally cutting yourself to pieces after you do or say anything then feeling stupid and horrible even if you did nothing wrong. That’s the tip of the iceberg.
@@nataliereid3105 I do that
I love how you explain things! Keep it up!
Depression is sadness when you suppress it, for a long time even deep mourning can bring this up when you lost a child and someone you love
This is my life. Thank you for your words.
Slipping from high-functioning depression into a crippling, debilitating state is the worst. For me, that realisation came when I started getting fired from work-my bosses perceive me as lazy, satirical, and unmotivated. I didn’t care enough to go in, and while being fired has been a devastating feeling, even that no longer penetrates deep enough to elicit a response. Depression is enough work as it is-it’s a full time job to tackle every task it lays its weighs on. And no one gave you the instruction on how to lift it.
This is exactly how i feel, pretending im ok on the outside while my head hurts and my stomach is in knots with worry and stress.
You just made me tear up and cry.
This means i have at least a year before i completely shut down! Thank you so much!
This is actually really helpful, an easier way to explain what im going through. Though its always a toss up what kind of depression i have.
You really just described what I’ve been going through better than anyone else has.
Thank you. I am living with this and had a period when I couldn't get up from bed. My mother told me that I don't have problems and I am just wasting my time on nothing, while she is the one who should whine. Therapy is really expensive in my country and I didn't have money to help myself. I was very lucky to have supportive friends and boyfriend who helped me to get through this. Now I have a full-time job and saving money to get to the specialist. Good health to everyone who is reading, take care of yourselves
You just spoke my life in just 60 seconds. Thank you ❤
omg this is so true and the shame and misunderstanding from everyone else is so real
I’ve been suffering from this for years. Didn’t see it as an issue. I do now.
Thank you.
At almost 64, with ADHD and autism with PTSD.
I’m finding the right therapy I hope.
🌬️🕊️
I was high functioning for years... until I wasn't. I finally got the help I desperately needed last year and I have people in my corner. If you're reading this, know you are loved and there is hope. I hope you make it through this.
i’m almost grateful for my depression, in a sense, because it truly shows me who is genuine and loves me unconditionally vs the people using me for something.
i had to isolate myself for a few years as i suffer from multiple forms of depression and ptsd. i was unable to leave my bed for most days without having a panic attack. i lost a lot of people, but remain close to the ones who bothered to understand me or who truly listened when i said “i just don’t want to live anymore”.
if someone is genuine, and truly likes you for you or wants to be in your life for the good reasons, you will know at the time you need people the most.
Idk, after hearing this and your calming voice wanna make me to cry... thank you.
God this hits too close to home. For maybe 3+ years now, I've always kind of felt like I was going on autopilot doing what I had to done, but I had no motivation or care about any of it. Still feel that way. I have never been able to see a therapist despite wanting to so badly. I don't know if what I feel is normal or if I've just been suffering for ages now. I tried talking to someone about it, be it my sister, mom, anyone who might give me even an ear, but the reaction is always the same. After awhile, it stopped feeling like anyone cared so I stopped talking about it altogether. Everyday feels like I'm just doing what I need to to either scrape by or seem useful...
You can explain those topics very good! I also love your book it helped and helps me a lot! So thank you Julie!
Thank you so much for that description.
Thank you, Dr Julie, you have just described my life
Thank you so much! Now i can show this to my familly who loves me but doesn't understand how i now have so little energy i can't do anything when i used to be able to do a lot everyday, even if it felt absolutely life-draining already. I keep getting questions or words that are hard to answer and makes me feel bad because i do not find a satisfying way to make them understand what im going through and why, instead of causing them confusion and sometimes even indignation.
I don't have depression, but dealing with social isolation is brutal. I am grateful i can trust that I'll be ok and that one day I'll get the connection i need.
Idk what it is but I feel like the way she pulled the “have something satisfying to watch” so we’d listened and yes, I’m all for it. Keep it up
had high functioning depression from grade 5 through 12 (+2 years as i had to go to the mental hospital twice and thus had to repeat two school years, plus i was in therapy for years). It was sh*t, i felt horrible, had no energy and could barely get out of bed, but i knew i had to be there for my family, that's all that kept me from ending it all. Now that i'm out of school it has gotten much better, i'm more social again and actually feel energetic and great. I have the energy to meet people again and to do my hobbies. My boss(moreso a coworker at my workplace, as we still do the same stuff) is helping me greatly to stay level and supports me through my now much shorter depressive phases. Getting help is not shameful ❤ you'd get help for a broken bone, so get that help for your mental wellbeing ❤
I only got help on the day when I started crying on my way to school, barely keeping myself from just finally giving up - even though I had been very happy just the previous day, week, month and even year, but my mind just always decided to make things sad on just a normal day. This managed to explain why I seemed like just a happy normal child all the way at 9 years old, but my own mind was pressuring me more than anything else.
Yup. Very difficult when you're running a business - leaders with depression is a huge taboo. We spend so much time ensuring employees are doing ok, but it's lonely at the top, and no one wants to know if their boss is ok, it's just expected. So smiles, keep going, keep the shop afloat, and die inside. Therapy saved my life.
Worst part is when people refuse to believe because they take it as a personal insult that they made you depressed 😔
Hope everyone is doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people available. Sending support and hearts to all. ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing this 🥺
I just started crying watching this
I can underline each single word And it’s levelling up with achieving more and more „perfection“
This hits hard because recently I had an anxiety attack because I was contemplating how no one would believe me if o told them how I felt and so I would never be able to get anyone's help.
Just wanted to say how satisfyingly perfectly timed the hourglass was 😊
I learned something new today and thank you !