The Internet's Favorite Hijacker: The Tragic Tale of Sky King
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"Yknow i was kinda hoping that was gonna be the end of it yknow" bro didnt even plan on finishing the barrel roll.
Cleared the water by 10ft... Had to be the biggest high, immediately followed by one of the most crushing weights of reality.
Man was prepared to go out in style and just barely didn't. At that point I think I'd have just given up the will to die and gone with a landing.
@@insanospaz Guts moment.
@@insanospaz There's something morbidly beautiful about this.
I really feel for this man. RIP Richard.
he planned on going down doing this sick ass move lmao
Modern flight sims and numerous test flights excerpts have taught me: You may be an idiot, and you might try some outlandish maneuvers... But a Boeing 7X7 (727, 737, 747, 757, etc) will barrel roll happily, and has enough brains to prevent most crashes and stalls.
His words "Just a broken guy, got a few screws loose" still haunt me.
Breaks my heart man
Oh that part too! Sorry I haven't watched the video through but I was in Washington when the news dropped and remember watching it a bit.
"I'll just go nose down and call it a night" got to me more than being broken with screws loose.
I think we've all been there once or twice.
I think what makes those words so haunting to me personally is what he says after "Just didn't realize it until I was up here." The fact that he had a moment of clarity enough to realize that he was in too deep and this choice had no going back in his perspective is what makes it painful.
You forgot to mention that the Orca was carrying her dead baby for 17 days grieving. The day after Beebo "wanted to see them guys" she moved on from her deceased baby. Gives me chills
Did we watch the same video? Im so confused lol
@@Justadonkey At one point he mentions to the F15 pilot that he wants to go and see the Orca that was in the News few days ago, allegedly carrying her deceased baby around grieving for multiple days. Maybe you skipped that part in the video or you didn't pay too much attention to it. i think it lasted like 20-30 seconds in the video.
@@Justadonkey24:35
@@Justadonkey I know that sometimes despite what the video is titled people can still talk about even the smallest things in the video. I've had this exact mindset until I understand the original comment.
@@sr.fluffulsyea dude like those weird YT meme posts and the comments are just random yappers left and right 😂
The fact that he was able to pull off the barrel roll without crashing or having the plane disintegrate is absolutely mind blowing
and the fact he kept the plane intact without a wing shearing off from force and gravity is incredible
@@WinterDutchie That's exactly what Twilight said lol
“I’m sorry about this, I hope it doesn’t ruin your day” spoken as a man who knows he’s about to take his own life is so unimaginably sad. RIP Richard Russel.
RIP
He literally ruined their days. He ruined a lot more than the day. Why is everyone so empathetic to this guy? He killed himself and caused utter chaos for ground crews in a random manic episode that he clearly didn't regret and his family clearly didn't care much either.
Not to mention the cost of an airplane. Which I'm positive his family will not be reimbursing.
This isn't sad or quirky to me. It's just weird. Why would he do it? Why is he remembered/revered for it? He's just a random loon who had a bad day and decided to make it terrible for everyone else, too
@@trite4654get some empathy dude.
@@daltonbedore8396 I feel for his family. I think he was either an idiot, or severely ill.
@@trite4654spoken like a person who never had any issues in their life 🤡. That man needed help desperately but of course as usual the mental health of our men is scoffed at idk I'm the type of person when I see something like this I'm not like look at this jackass I'm like Jesus Christ to do all this this man must be fighting some real demons and sadly he lost he wanted a hoora before he left
I can confirm, I was glad you mentioned the two fighter jets were F-15 Eagles.
Bruh, What the hell is The Top Dawg of Millergrove Heights doing here?
Did they have that horser on them?
Always keep that horser on you
What is the Top Dawg of Millergrove Heights with his horser doing here?!
@@chrise8275he can’t be no top dawg of Miller grove, if he let some chiefs fan take his wife and kids because he “can put a ring on her finger” have fun buying a new TV opti 😂😂 L BOZO
Beebo was a personal friend of mine during his time in Oregon, and I always had a lot of respect for him. When this happened, it just felt so different from the way I remembered him just a few years before, but I also could hear flashes of the personality I remembered in a way. As an avid flight simmer, I was doing a sim flight from Portland up to Orcas Island a few years after this happened, not even thinking about what happened with him (I mean, it legit wasn't even on my mind when I took off), but then when I got to the part where I was sim-flying up the coast of Puget Sound I looked around and saw the mountains he talked about, and it hit me...
Granted, I was only seeing the FSX representation of the mountains rather than the real-life ones, but that still hit me pretty hard. It's true what they say, that you never know when grief will hit you or what will bring it up in your mind.
I hope you are doing ok and not letting the media dictate who he really was. I of course never knew of him let alone met him, but I know that the media and internet can be really tone deaf.💜
I think Sky King's story resonates with a lot of people because most people hate what they do and wish that they could do and be more than what they are. And in his last moments, Sky King became more than just an airport employee.
Yeah, he became a criminal, a bad husband and a weak pathetic man
There’s also this defeatist attitude about the future. I wouldn’t end myself because I believe I always have potential.
But some people don’t think that way and it’s very tragic because everybody has potential to do something meaningful without ending their own life
"Im sorry. I hope I didn't ruin your day." I've said that before. Right after bindge, drinking myself at a bar, I passed out in the bathroom, and the bouncer had to come get me. Lost a buddy of mine to suicide a week before probably the lowest I have ever been. The bouncer took me aside and just talked to me for a while. I told him about my buddy, what he did in the military, how close I was, and the loss, and he just listened. I haven't ever done that since, and honestly, my heart still twitches a bit when i hear someone say that, and I try to do the same for them that one bouncer did for me that night. Just listen, it's all someone needs sometimes.
Hope you're feeling a little better now. Thats a tough spot to be in.
Fuck man. I’m tearing up. Keep doing the same for other people, that’s all we can do. I hope you’re taking care of yourself these days.
@Melissamms much better thanks to friends and family
@@churchthatoneguy That's great to hear.
Hey man, hope you’re doing alright.
23:35 Where he says "Damn it Andrew - People's lives are at stake here!" I dont think he was actually upset or in an unstable state of mind (at least in terms of the situation already).
I think he was making a joke about how dramatic the situation is, like it was a character in an action movie yelling over the radio.
Throughout almost the entire conversation he says tongue-in-cheek comments and jokes. In fact, immediately after saying this in a dramatic "action movie" voice, he completely switches back to his joking lighthearted voice and jokes about the air traffic controller "whispering sweet nothings in [his] ear".
Ditto. I hear echoes of “Damn it, Jim…” from Star Trek or “You’re too low, damn it” from Airplane. He was simply trying to inject a little levity into an otherwise stressful situation, I think. ✌🏼
Naw definitely, I think the low Oxygen was getting to him and he was memein something you would hear in a movie. Then the sweet nothings remark seems like him saying he wants to keep chatting to someone and doesn’t care about what.
Exacto
He was def just messing around
@@RileyE. I don't think so. I tried to find the data but failed, maybe someone else can confirm but I doubt he spent much time over 10,000ft. He performed the barrel roll around 5,000ft.
At 10,000ft most healthy people can breathe just fine and it's the level pilots will bring a craft too after depressurization (since there's a limited amount of oxygen supplied by those masks).
22:37 he's quoting a film called 'Chronicle', coincidentally a film where the main character - Andrew, spends his last moments flying in the Seattle area, albeit without the plane. Great film
Wouldn't flying without a plane just be falling?
@@justinwatson1510 No, if you know what the film is about.
@@justinwatson1510 Chronicle is about people with super powers
Oh yeah, I think I saw that movie!
23:37*
This story reminds me of the study that was done with people who survived their attempts on the Golden Gate Bridge. They all said that about halfway down, they realized their problems had solutions, and they did not want to die.
It sounds like when the adrenaline wore off, Richard had that “halfway point” where he realized that he had people who loved him, would miss him, and he didn’t want it to end like this. But, tragically, he must have felt that he was committed and couldn’t get out. Such a sad story, but covered professionally and sensitively. Thank you ❤
I remember the story of the CHP officer trying to talk them out of it. "There's always light and hope at the end of the tunnel", he said.
One of his first ones, guy asked him "But what if you reach the end of the tunnel and there's nothing there? There is no light and all hope is gone. What am I to do? What am I going to do?"
CHP officer didn't have an answer for him. Guy saw it in his eyes; he knew CHP officer was telling the truth. Both he and the CHP officer knew he'd come to the end of the line.
He went over the side and finished his life's story.
@dellanorosy4730 yea that's the thing once your brain is convinced there isn't a way out it's hard to convince it otherwise... I have a pretty good life personally but it all just seems so pointless most of the time even with success, healthy relationships and all that. It just doesn't really feel like it matters to me.
@mitch5944 I hope you find your light again. Take care.
Eyes locked shut but peek to see the view from halfway down
@@mitch5944 Similar situation here too. On the world's stage, I've had it better than some. Nowhere near am I rich, but it seems like everything is draining the life out of me.
No time or opportunity to enjoy life on my terms. Half my life expended, the other half is sure to provide pain, misery, suffering unlike anything I've ever felt before in my first half.
Some problems can be solved; others can't. The human body doesn't last forever, but pain is as real as it gets. Live one week or 134 years, it doesn't matter. Penciled in for a meeting with the Grim Reaper, when your time's up, it's over.
he's like an older brother who doesn't talk to his younger siblings often but whenever he does it's always about obscure thing that you probably haven't heard of
edit: for clarification i'm talking abt wendigoon not the guy the video is about🙃
That's Autism my friend
Not one for small talk but always leave a story to remember. Sounds like a guy I can chill with.
This is so funny because it’s so accurate to my older brother
Like when I tell my preteen sister about Project Blue Beam.
it’s like when my brother comes home from college 😭
RIP Skyking. He could have done so much damage, but he chose to do a loop. Fly high brother.
Man didn’t wanna hurt anyone besides himself I guess.
@@TR13400 Very bad take
@@TR13400L take. Bozo
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@@notpaul3378he’s just mad because the event exposes how racial biases can effect people one thing the media doesn’t tell you about this is how Sky king felt discriminated against, even most outlets that reported on the even cut the part where he says “nah they probably wouldn’t (give me a job) I’m a straight white guy.”
I work at SeaTac today with Alaska Airlines in a similar position to Richard as part of the ground crew, though I joined a couple years later. He’s still talked about in the company, but typically with a great deal of reverence and sympathy. People really seem to miss him. Rest in Peace dude.
Please don’t pull a Sky King 2: Electric Boogaloo
@@Ken-fh4jc
please DO more like, wagie cagie.
This story always brings me to tears... The idea that there's so many people that can just understand why, without being told why makes my heart ache... I hope he's found peace, wherever that may be, and however that may look.
Cap
I hate the comment saying cap that's all i know to say
It makes me sad to say I understand why he did it. I just can't hurt the people around me.
Yes, it's crazy to hear a story this crazy, but think "Yeah, I get that".
Most men live lives of quiet desperation.
My father took his life with his plane. In November 1995, David Burley took up his cesna and brought it down outside of wadsworth, OH. The impact of Richard Russel's story is not to be understated. My father dealt with many psychological issues, as did Richard. He was just a broken guy with a few screws loose. Thank you, Isaiah for covering this. Fly high, Sky King.
I’m so sorry you lost your father to such terrible circumstances.
Sorry for your loss brother. Never thought I'd see wadsworth brought up on youtube
Sorry for your loss man
I'm so sorry for your loss. Being a victim of it myself, I feel your pain. I hope you're doing alright ❤❤
Shit, I'm from Ohio, I remember my mom talking about this I think? Sorry man, we can talk about it if ya want? Just sayin.... anyway hope you've grown a lot in good ways since 95. Love ya man, we can talk one day soon. @cameronmiller5592
Local news had a very tone-deaf piece on the aftermath of this event.
Did they focus on what lead Richard Russell to this point and how his family has dealt with it since? No instead it was a piece on the "suffering" a wealthy trust-funder was going through while dealing with cleaning up the crash site on her property. Property she was gifted, didn't live on, and a clean-up she wasn't even having to pay for since it was handled and paid for by Alaska Airlines.
Wow, that's fucked.
UA-cam won't let link the video, but it's on YT if you search for "King 5" and "Sky King"
Par for the course in “our” society. Truly sickening honestly. The media, politicians, and the rest of the status quo are more focused on finance and their own well being rather than what to them is just a random male of European heritage who gave up on the hamster wheel they foster and created.
As some one who lives in wa, the media frequently victim blames and favors the rich.
Which is precisely the type of thing which made him do it. Vindicating really.
I'm not sure what's more sad; Richard's story, or the fact that without asking a single question, every one understood.
this story is so tragic but that part about sonic the hedgehog got me, i’m glad you included it. back in 2018 ironic memes were kinda the Thing like “i have crippling depression” and shit, people would use irony as a way to vent their real feelings without making themselves feel vulnerable. that’s my take anyway. also thanks for just humanizing richard in this video, i’ve watched other sky king videos that treat it as a spectacle and “wow what a wacky weird event” while kind of ignoring his humanity. he really was just a regular guy like the rest of us and that ATC call breaks my heart every time. fly high sky king ✈️
double lariat moment
what freaked me out the most was when he said "I've got to stop looking at the fuel because it's going down quick." the fuel being basically the ticking clock counting down his life. must have been a frightening realisation.
He definitely came to his senses during the flight. What a shame.
What freaked me out the most was wendi omitting, "im just a white guy".
that took me out too @@ploxjump5825
@@ploxjump5825 yall really picking out the line that "oh could possibly sound the worst" god damn just appreciate the video
@@ploxjump5825he didn't
Also the quote he was remembering at the end 42:09 is from the Cowboy Bebop dub, before the main character goes to the final fight and says "I'm not going there to die, I'm going to find out if I'm really alive"
See you space cowboy…
omg omg yeah I remember !!! ahh I love cowboy bebop one of my favs
@@mohesm1 The real folk bluesss
@@mohesm1 this hurt my soul 😭
You're gonna carry that weight
He lived more in an hour than most who lived a lifetime.
Rest in Peace, Sky King.
Fly High, Sky King
Cap
He put innocent people in harm's way. Rest in shit
Cringe @@yungsinnxr5397
I can tell you as previous studet pilot the answers are not up there but you do get another prespective in live. TBH the skies are just as regulated as the land and and you soon come to realize your still in the prison even when nobody else is around.
Man the fighter pilot guys just going "badass" too his barrel roll had me in such a series of emotions. Badass barrel roll dude. Fly high sky king.
I once told a coworker about skyking and he told me he didn't believe it and thought I was fooled by an Internet hoax story. I told him we have audio, video, us military involvement and an FAA report and he still didn't believe me. Boggled my mind. Showed him the footage, he still thought it was made up. I still don't really get it
lmao why would someone even make this up? your coworker sounds odd
Sounds like major cognitive dissonance and npc behavior.
I want to know that man's thoughts on AI
You made up your coworker
My co worker SWEARS he has the shazaam movie with cedric the entertainer at home. Still hasnt brought it.
Gosh, I started tearing up at the part about him realizing the view wasn’t what he thought it was. I feel that way about life in general recently, it’s such an impactful statement.
Even Richard said it's beautiful in a different context. The beauty was suppressed by his want to end his life. Find that other context!! Most people that reach the point of no return and survive typically have the same response, they realize they want to live too late.
If anyone has thoughts of hurting yourself, seek help please!!
@@justinb1488yeah and don't make it other people's problem or put them at risk like this racist criminal pos
Cap
It's sad when he says, "I think im going to put it nose down and call it a night."
But you can hear the professionals in awe of his maneuver when he barrel rolls that aircraft.
One thing he said that keeps getting left out and seemingly censored is when told he’d get any job he wanted if he landed the plane was “nah I’m just a white guy they wouldn’t want me” The NY Times and many other places censored that.
I think that’s one of the reasons why he was so relatable to so many people. A lot of young white men feel marginalized in today’s society. It’s cool, accepted and promoted to be anything except a white man and if you are all the worlds problems are placed on you.
If we really want to deal with mental health this feeling needs to be addressed instead of censored.
I was digging through the comments to see if someone else mentions this! It's such an integral part of his story and every video leaves it out, even one as detailed as this. Dude felt marginalized , young white men are made to feel guilty and are overtly overlooked/rejected for jobs and schools. It's the central core of this story
@@DragonZombie2000 Dankula's video thankfully mentioned it. I was kinda shocked Wendigoon didn't mention it
LOL
What's tragic is that after he admitted, he hadn't found the peace he expected in the sky, he does something absolutely outrageous, hoping that it would take him out. Finally, after he admits that he wished it had, he gains the courage to take himself out.
There's nothing courageous about "taking yourself out"
The ability to do something that frightens you.
This guy wanted out so badly that he did the unthinkable and fought against our base instinct to survive, it's sad, but he's incredibly courageous
@@connorpidcock8328It's not courage. It's stupidity. It's literally cowardice. It's called "taking the easy way out" for a reason.
@@moneyfornothing85 I think we lack a word accurate for the specific type of mental fortitude required to actively and intentionally end one's own life. It's a remarkable emotion for a reason, an unnatural emotion, one that overrides the animal instinct to live as a result of agonizingly inhuman conditions. In lieu of an apt word for this emotion, "courage" must suffice, but it's a courage we should not celebrate, bur rather, we should laud the courage it takes to remain alive with intention in the face of crippling pain and crushing pressure.
I was at an aeronautical school when this happened and there’s already a gallows humor among pilots but there was a deep reverence for him, an understanding and an acknowledgment like “we’ve all thought it”
you've ALL thought it???? i'm never flying again. omg
nah bro 💀💀💀💀💀🙏
Everyone gets intrusive thoughts... Only SkyKing lives them through...
@butterstamp3767 on an empty plane? Bro chill and stop acting like a drama queen.
Real talk either delete this comment or change your channel name bro, if any company does a background search and sees this comment ur done 💀
Kinda nice how everyone involved acknowledged how impressive the barrel roll was. Dudes just rock. RIP Sky King. Never heard of your story until but I’m happy I have.
I'd like to add about the barrel roll, I heard at some point that an engineer said "Had I been asked if I thought such a thing is possible I would have laughed." He did not believe the plane was capable of a barrel roll.
The way I looked at it. He was a man who felt so wronged by the world, but instead of lashing out. He took to the sky. That in of itself is kind of admirable. That's why I always give him a salute, he isn't a monster, just a man with a few screws loose. Check on your loved ones, make sure they're doing good. Life is short.
Instead of lashing out he ruined his family's life and caused millions of property damage, people really like to romanticize and put this guy on some sort of pedestal, he was just a sad guy that offed himself in a way that caused a lot of damage to a lot of people, he really doesn't deserve any respect imo
@SerechII fair 100%, but that barrel roll was also sick as hell
@@SerechII people who are praising him means that the society has failed us, he doesnt deserve respect, maybe, but he was not in the fault
@@SerechII🤓
only a cishet white guy would get this kind of forgiveness and praise for something like this lmfao
one of my friends worked with sky man at the airport and got a tattoo of the model of plane he flew. He told me how nice the guy was and how he was always smiling and making jokes, which made working on some of the rainiest windiest days feel a lot less miserable.
the sky king?
@@highdefinition450 in the pnw we just call him sky man
That's what's so sad. How much pain can be behind a smile 😢
@@XWoodbineXI know I deal with my own intrusive thoughts. Not so much for what Sky King did, not anymore (I did as recently as 2020), but I can tell you a couple people who I opened up to about the pain I was in were caught off guard because I seemed like my usual self.
The truth is, a lot of us who have depression or other issues, we try to make others feel better because we know exactly what it is like to feel like there’s little to no hope, and not only do we don’t want anyone else to feel like that after how much it hurts, we’ve seen the view from the edge of the abyss, and know that sometimes all it takes is someone sitting on that edge with you and listening to you to stop you from taking that final plunge and regretting that choice when you’re halfway down.
I was suicidal when Richard took his last flight. He pulled off a barrel roll on his first flight ever, then after that magnificent feat, he still chose to end it. I haven't done anything as noteworthy or remarkable as that, but I chose to live and I'm still here. I'm content with my life now. I was stubborn enough to give it a chance and I'm glad I did, and I wish Richard had tried to give things a chance.
To be fair you have no idea how many times he gave it a chance before he finally couldn't take it anymore.
I have a weird respect for Richard.
He went out of his way to make sure no one else was hurt that day. But he was out. I get that. He did it his way.
I’m split on it on one end fly free sky king but at the same time what about his wife
I live within 2 miles of where he crashed. I heard the boom when the plane hit the island and smelled the trees burning, and then came the sirens. It was surreal, and I remember thinking that something so tragic and important as someone losing their life shouldn't just smell like a simple campfire. It seemed wrong somehow.
At first I didn't realize what was happening, because fighter jets around here are not that unusual, and I assumed it was a practice run. My child was outside playing with friends. I am forever grateful that he didn't hit one of the neighborhoods around here, but I am so very sad for him.
ETA: even though I was in one of the populated areas he put at risk, I bear him no ill will. I just wish he could have found what he needed to be okay.
Hey you know, I think he would like his final moment to be compared to something cozy and familial, like a campfire. Seemed like a stand up guy that felt like he was going nowhere.
You are a good person for thinking about him like this. He really didn't seem like someone out to kill anyone besides himself and I'm glad he at least succeeded in not hurting anyone. I'm also sad he like so many others didn't get the help he needed before he got to this point. I've seen this happen before and it's never getting any easier.
@@DieAlteistwiederda Richard was literally the anti-Andreas Lubvitz
the part about the campfire being too simple for something as important as losing a life - that really hit home for me I think. I'm so grateful you and your family are okay. as someone that has struggled mentally as well as lost a friend to suicide, his story definitely leaves many complicated emotions in its wake. I hope that out of everything, the story keeps giving folks a chance to reflect and talk about their struggles instead of bottling them up.
"This is probably a lot of jail time. At least, I hope it is."
What an absolutely BASED statement.
What is “based” about that?
completely missed the point
@@User-gd5unThat if you're going to do something illegal, do something that is the MOST illegal, or not at all. And when it comes to the punishment, you either face it head on, or you take punishment on yourself.
He was so young. I wish he had held on awhile longer... he would've realized that it DOES get better. 😢
@@hSquaredSunshine I mean, not always.
He was able to give his own eulogy; something out of a movie, which hardly ever happens in real life. This is a dark dream, but still fulfilling. I will never forget you Sky King.
"Man i'm sorry about this i hope this doesn't ruin your day" what a total chad. Also imagine chilling in your cabin on an island of 17 people and a plane just crashlands in your backyard after completing a barrel roll
I had to laugh at the second part of your comment 😂
As a plane enthusiast, I am glad you mentioned that the chasing jets were McDonnell Douglas F-15C Eagles
Went looking for this comment:)
Ooooo I didn't know that, man I love the f 15
@@jimbothegymbro7086actually it’s the other way around, the soviets made the mig25 and the Americans shit themselves so they made the F15 only to realise the mig25 wasn’t all that
Fun fact, the F-15A was the first and only fighter to shoot down a satellite in the 80s
Another fun fact is that the F-15 has a air to air K/D ratio of 104-0.
... and another fun fact, an F-15E Strike Eagle shot down a helicopter with a guided bomb in the early 90s
I live near PDX and can always hear Eagle 1&2 take off for training but on this day they were a bit more aggressive and shook my house. Made insane time.
I'm reminded of a quote/meme that goes something like "You were raised to live in a world that no longer exists". It's hard to not see Sky King as one of the people to fall between the cracks of the new world and decided to leave it on his own terms.
Well said.
This touches on how I thought of it. This world doesn't work for us, it's hard to do anything meaningful or ethical and get somewhere. I find my peace in resistance and altruism, but I think that sometimes people get tired and just want to leave. He did so on his own terms, doing it his way. He's like chuckling into the void, at the end of *his* world. I can appreciate that, but clearly when reality set it, he realized that even his death isn't what it was cracked up to be.
This is not the world that God prepared for us.
The world you were born in no longer exists
Time is aways moving gotta try to help form the times or they'll form you
August 10th, 2018 was my 21st birthday. I wonder what I was doing while he was in the air... I wish he hadn't decided to end his life. Rest in peace Sky King. Perhaps in another reality you landed safely, and there you saw our love, and there you became who you deserved to be. It's wishful thinking, sure, but perhaps somewhere out there he's still flying planes, this time without anyone chasing him.
Just tried a few days ago...I don't expect much from this comment honestly I just wanna say that I doing better and that it doesn't work...turning off the switch SUCKS when it doesn't work...and it's not worth it. I just wanted to put into the world that I'm doing better. Thanks Wendi for this.
I’m sorry that happened but I’m very glad you’re still here and are doing better ♥️ remember you can do this - you already are! so keep it up man proud of you 😊
I know I'm just text on your screen but I'm glad you're still here bro.
I hope you're doing better, just remember one day at a time.
Hope you're okay.
Please don't try again. Love you
Glad you're still here - and I hope every day can be a little bit better than the last.
'Prodigy in high school' usually translates to "He picked it up too quickly and didn't learn to break their limits", which will then mean the 'prodigy' hits the first roadblock in college, and people are usually less supportive in college, cause you are supposed to be an adult.
And it's all a result of the "no child left behind" nonsense. Some people aren't smart enough to do well in life. Rather than ruin the lives of smart people later on, we need to make the stupid rise up as best they can early on.
I'm all too familiar 😅 it really sucks
Child prodigies generally end up seriously screwed up in one way or another. I just saw a video that said flatly that “gifted” children should be considered “special needs”.
as a local I got to say, it's also because Wasilla High's football team still sucks. always has
@@anna9072FACTS half of the "gifted" kids are just good at keeping up with homework/tests and the other half have needs that are absolutely not being met in the program and should at LEAST have IEPs
I remember my dad seeing this on the news and in his classic habit of out of pocket jokes, remarked that this would be an amazing advertisement for the plane's capabilities. Regardless of whether you hated him or not Richard was one cool mofo.
The aircraft wasn't certified as capable of doing that maneuver...not until Sky King just went and looped 'er anyways.
If you hate this man, fuckin do better
He was a sad chump undeserving of any respect or praise, ruining a family and causing millions in property damage is not "cool"
@@SerechIIProjection, thy name is SerechII
@@SerechII imagine crying in every comment about the “loser” who’s still substantially more well liked than you 😂. You act like he ruined _your_ family, Crimson Chin.
You seem bitter. What, envious that when you eventually reevaluate your life & off yourself, that nobody would even bat an eye…? That you have zero legacy to be remembered or written down? Stay mad all you want, wont stop all that from being true. Ppl’re still gonna see Sky King as Sky King.. while youre but a speck of lanky dust. Lmfao. Get a job or smtn instead of commenting. Good day.
26:47 "People on the ground saw the plane behaving sporadically which they thought was weird"
People witnessed the plane being a good boy from time to time and they thought that was odd
I’m so glad I was out walking the dog as I listened to it. While wendigoon related that while the story is so relatable, it was clear he didn’t find the answers up there, I was able to look up and see the blue sky, hear the chirping birds, and pet my dog to see her wag her tail. I feel down at times and I get sky king, but there’s a lot of beauty in the world and I’m glad I’m here.
As someone who suffers from depression, this story really hits at my heartstrings because I know how it feels to not want other people to know what you're feeling, not wanting to be a burden to them. It's horrible the things your own brain can say to you, and it never goes away, you just either learn to live with it or it becomes too much. I feel for Richard, broken with a few screws loose. We just do the best we can. Fly high Sky King
Im in the same boat and share how you’re feeling. Im happy you’re here and you’re doing great
I'm proud of you ❤
You are your brain.
I feel bad for my subconscious thats just trying to keep me alive
Wueeeeeeeee! “I’m just a teenage dirtbag, babby” 🎵 😂
in the same boat, or i guess airplane 😅
When I first saw the video of Sky King, I couldn't stop thinking about the air traffic controller. He seemed to genuinely empathise with Richard, and at times seemed to get through to him. Can't imagine how it felt when Richard took his own life. The whole situation is so sad. Fly high Sky King.
I think he would've gone down if he didn't know he completely fucked up any chance at a future with this antic. I believe he says as much at some point of their interaction.
In standard English, “when” is a conjunction meaning “at the time that” something happens or “as soon as” something happens, while “whenever” is a conjunction meaning “every time that” something happens.
Former ATC weighing in here. Man, the "Sky King" transmissions give me chills even now. It's an ATC's worst nightmare to be in a situation that you know is going to go bad and nothing you do or try will save it but you still do and try everything because that's the job. I feel for the people talking to him while this was going on.
Also, Wendigoon, come on man. "Behind the wheel"? Of a plane? Come on man.
As a pilot, this story is so polarizing in the aviation community. Many praise him, many go sober due to the medical nature of the accident (although he wasnt a pilot, mental health is a hot topic and isnt handled well in US aviation), many get upset at the glorification of him due to the sheer danger and stupidity of it.
It's a complicated issue, but for me, knowing someone so despondent got to taste the freedom of flight in the most raw way possible, makes me think he had peace. I don't think it was a victimless crime, but nobody directly got hurt, so I can't be too mad. Also, that barrel roll rocked.
For an untrained baggage handler to take a Dash 8 into the air and barrel role it is incredible, the Guys a Hero, he knew he would never get a chance at being a pilot because all the slots were reserved for Women and Diversity hires not those with the most merit, he went out with a bang with a huge middle finger at this ridiculous corrupt Anti-White system.
Yeah. I think it's better than other ways to go that drag strangers into it (like jumping in front of trains, etc) there's at least a positive element here, where someone who without a doubt was feeling very miserable for a while, got to feel joy before the end. Like, yeah, maybe not something to glorify but judging it as a one time thing, it's more of just a "good for him" deal for me.
I was a fan of his story and bringing more awareness to mental health until I found out he had a wife and kids he left behind. Suicide is always a selfish, cowardly act, but when you willingly abandon kids it's adds alot more weight. The barrel roll was pretty tight tho.
Having once nearly been a USAF aviator but disqualified for mild, totally treatable, and basically remitted depression, and having subsequently served for 24 years in other capacities (including 13 years active) I can confirm mental health is basically stigmatized to the point of complete denial in the military and in aviation. In a culture where even admitting to _any_ sort of mental issue is a kiss of death, is it any surprise that people hide it and deal with it ineffectively? We can do better
@@LoganB113anyone that claims suicide is selfish and cowardly has not been in a situation where it felt like the only option
Did a report on him for college, absolute tragedy, this man didn’t want to hurt anyone he just wanted to experience joy in his final moments
Was it joy he wanted to feel or an intense thrill and feeling of control that modern life wouldn’t offer him? Either way, deeply relatable.
I wonder how this story would end if there are some or a lot of people that he killed on that crash? Will internet still glorify him?
@@greatveemon2Yes, the internet will still glorify a murderer and it’s really sad.
I remember hearing that he would casually ask a pilot friend of his, "what's this do, what's that do." The friend would tell him, thinking he was just interested in aviation. Not realizing he was giving the guy the info he needed to get the plane off the ground. Did that come up in your report? I didn't hear it in Wendi's re-telling so I'm curious if it's true.
@@greatveemon2 I don’t believe so, but then again the internet glorifies the Unabomber so I wouldn’t be surprised. The point is he never meant any harm to anyone and luckily no one else was injured. It truly is a tragedy though
Always thought this story was bizarre, but to me always conveyed just how devastating mental episodes can get, and how ignoring these types of problems always end in never forgetting about them, because they typically end with tragedies.
As a note, I work at an airport. Ummm they don't do the mental health screenings at all so.... maybe just that airline or maybe that airport now does it.
I love that despite the negatives of the story, his legacy as sky king is held up by the coolest barrel roll maybe in history. Fly high Sky King
Only barrel role you'll ever seen in a commercial airplane, so it is the greatest period.
@@TotallyNoCat Never heard about the Boeing 707 barrel roll? A test pilot flew one back in the day as demonstration.
@@TotallyNoCat pilot here in Brazil did one on a fully packed commercial plane (737) back in 88. He was trying to shake off a hijacker. See VASP 375 for more detail
@@Voodoo_One
Yeah, from a PILOT.
@@TotallyNoCatslight correction: The only barrel roll from a commercial aircraft that the manufacturer said should have been impossible to do.
The "damn it andrew peoples lives are at stake" thing sounded like a joke about like the movie trope of the mission control guy stressfully advising the protagonist over the radio
Seemed like he made a lot of nervous, goofy jokes.
And honestly I probably would have too.
That made it so much more real
Yeah for real it always just sounded like sarcasm to me, he's clearly hamming it up for brevity
My thoughts exactly 😂
he literaly said he was just joking. he was busting his balls, yanking his chain.
It seems like a wierd thing to add, but i really have to be thankful that you put the sponsor BEFORE the upsetting content.
Speaking from experience of being shocked, when a youtuber puts a War Thunder Sponsership right after talking about how The Japanese Experimented on Chinese civilians. Like what the hell man...
So thanks!!!
Something interesting about this man Wendigoon. He doesn’t say “please subscribe” or “hit that like button” he simply says “thank you for watching” at the beginning of his videos, I respect that.
I've felt suicial before, it's an awful feeling. Thank you for treating this with such kindness and empathy.
God is with you, He will never leave you. You can do this.
@@brunobucciaratiswifesticky fingaz
Wendigoon is a nice guy
I hope you never have to feel that feeling ever again, in your life.
@angelofgrace96 I know thaty feeling too. Thank you for still being here, you beat the darkness one more day. GOD is with you,just call out to him, seek to be closer to him. you made it this far. you have the strength to keep going. brighter days are ahead.
He wasn't a broken guy, he was just living in a broken world. Fly high, Sky King. RIP
he was defenitly a broken guy. Killing yourself is not a good thing and is a spit in the face of God. Your body is not your body it belongs to God and by killing yourself you disgrace that with no means of repentence.
He had brain damage.
@@lithium1770 yapping levels : CATASTROPHIC!!!!
@@lithium1770GOD😂
@@lithium1770holy mother of yap
I remember this still like it happened yesterday. I live a few miles due south of the airport and can basically see the airport and Seattle skyline from my bedroom window. Will never forget seeing that many airplanes lined up on the taxiway (after they started grounding everyone) and thinking “man something bad must’ve happened…”
hearing "i wasnt planning on landing it" as an air traffic controller would make me feel an extreme sense of dread lol
I rocked a "puget sound flight club - fly it like you stole it" patch on my helmet when I flew for the Army. RIP Skyking
Noice!
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amazing
If it was prior to 2018, that was for Colton Harris. What the hell is going on in the NW? I lived in the area when Colton, the Barefoot Bandit, was active. He was another folk hero. Suppose he’s still in jail.
@agnostic1247 it was post-2018. The patch has a dash 8 on it as a direct reference to Richard Russell.
I know somebody who has that same patch
As someone who has had and has suicidal tendencies, an untreated mental disorder and moderate to severe depression, I feel him soo much...
You're doing OK.
I used to be a janitor at the airport, and gotta tell ya. There really ain't much security for employees, besides badges and the no piggybacking through doors and stuff. I was able to walk right up to planes and didn't have to have a buddy. This was at PDX in 2022 btw.
6:58 76 passangers ≈ 90 people (76 passengers + 14 crew [pilots,attendants,snake wrangler,etc])
Thanks for the clarification 👍
how could wendigoon forget the 11 snake wranglers needed to start a plane?
Could also be seat configuration.
@@SerechII those mf snakes...
@@Idntgt On this motherfuckin' plane...
A lot of us are just a bad day away from something similar. That's what makes him so lovable. He wasn't sticking it to anyone, he didn't even want to inconvenience anyone, he just wanted to be free, like all of us do. Unfortunately, he failed to find that freedom and he hurt people, just like most of us do.
The jonkler
When he said “maybe we’ll blame this on minimum wage, try to get some gears greased” as if he’s hoping some value can be made of his death? It’s pretty crushing.
speak for yourself
Yeah no, don't generalize being screwed in the head, if you are a bad day away from this seek help immediately, if you feel like offing yourself is "freedom" seek help, it's pretty cynical but I believe you are just being edgy for the sake of it but that's the same reason I find this guy to be completely undeserving of any amount of respect, much less celebrating or putting on a pedestal, he was just a sad guy that decided to ruin his family's life and cause a whole bunch of property damage, if you see yourself in this guy, get help
@SerechII true but the barrel roll was kinda cool tho
As someone who has had massive depression and had THOSE thoughts almost every day
I really wish this man could have got the help he needed
What could make a beaten down person feel more free than literally defying gravity
wendigoon should make an internet’s favorite series
Ooh, an internet favorite iceberg?
I agree
let him finish the cryptid one first
Obligatory “wHeRe cRyPtId IcebErG” comment.
He’s obviously doing that dog
This is why your channel has become so popular. You have a fair take, say it honestly (while avoiding certain UA-cam keywords), and can still point out the humorous absurdness while still understanding the person was a human being.
He's memeing a meme that memelords love because it lets them feel less like basement dwellers and more like ordinary people. Read the freaking room. The people here praising "sky king" are all complaining about severe depression and suicidal ideation. Think about what you're supporting, here. Literally committing suicide, theft, property damage, etc. Take a damn step back from the meme and think about the reality of what you're promoting in reality. Think about the lives you're affecting. This kind of horrible crap only appeals to severely deranged people.
Wendigoon is genuinely the only person I can watch on UA-cam who covers this stuff; everyone else sensationalizes and demonizes the subjects and/or situations, while Wendigoon approaches everything with an almost clinical level of respect, while acknowledging the weight of the circumstance(s). I haven't found other channels that go over this specific variety of content with near as much care as he does.
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@@Critter_Farm exactly!
Such a sad story, and listening to Richard's communication with air traffic control, it broke my heart becaude he sounds exactly like one of my coworkers, who is always smiling and joking with people.
I think he figured he didn't have a choice after he stole the plane, if he lands safely he gets arrested and goes away for a long time, so to him crashing the plane was the only option at that point.
I lived right next to Ketron while this happened, and my dad was in line for the ferry as Richard did his barrel roll and crash. I remember him calling me frantically about a plane flying dangerously low with jets tailing and him yelling that the plane cleared the ground by just a few feet. Still one of the craziest things to happen in the area, and the people on Ketron were pretty upset that the feds were poking around for so long to collect all the plane pieces. The people on Ketron have cameras pointed all along the beach and don't like strangers on the island so they really hated having the feds around.
Tbf I don't think ANYBODY likes having feds around.
I don't blame them.
When you said, “he wanted to see how big the sky was.” I usually see myself as a happy man, who gets through life happily. Just hit me, man. I want to see what’s out there. Not like Richard. But travel. See the sights. Life is short, but I want to live to the fullest. Thank you Isaiah.
Do it bro. I am. Life is really short, and you might not make it till retirement. Why wait?
Go! Go now! That thing you think is so important you can't leave and go now. It's not important, you can get another one. If you can't get another one take it with you. But GO
Another example, too, of why proceedure and attention to detail is so important. The guy just acted natural, like he was supposed to be starting the plane, and nobody really noticed until he was already underway.
As Three Days Grace once said, "The end is not the answer," that line has helped a lot.
There’s a lot of us that have had those thoughts without acting on them. I think that’s part of why Richard’s story resonates with us. It honestly breaks my heart. I wish the best for his family and friends, and hope Richard is at peace.
Pieces
Two years ago I tried to attempt, I ended up calling 911 after I tried and was sent to the hospital. I stayed in the ER for about a week before being moved to a psychiatric facility. During that week the only thing to get me to sleep and relax was your iceberg videos. To see you so empathetic and understanding about the topic really means a lot to me. Thank you.
❤❤❤
Hope your doing good
I had a strange sense of calm wash over me the second I got my bed on my ward, each and every time I've been. It's weird but getting myself out of the environment I was in, even though the environment wasn't the problem, helped get me out of my head a bit. And it took off any pressure to go to school or work the next day, which helped in the short run.
@@J3Wbacca it’s been a long time since then and I’ve improved a lot, I’m very happy that I called when I did.
@@saltiestsiren that was definitely my reaction too! The reset it did to my mind gave me a lot of time to think and relax and get caught back up with my hygiene routine
I worked at an aircraft mechanics shop and I can say there was nothing stopping me from stealing a plane. I had no security screenings and nothing saying I could be there but I routinely fetched and taxied planes from one end of the airport to another and was even taught the basics of how to control flight surfaces, engines, and avionics because part of my job was to help test them during maintenance
An Alaskan airlines plane with a malfunctioning passenger door? Sounds like King tipped us off to this issue several years before hand.
The amount of warmth he spoke with while doing this was beautiful. The "i get it"... ive failed at attempt and now only here bc i know i dont have the right to take my kid's momma away from him... that sentence gave a comfort feel. People never say "i get it" when discussing someone leaving the game by their own choice. Thank you.
And anyone else struggling to keep your breathing subscription active, i hope you find peace and can stay 💚
Glad you’re still here ❤
“breathing subscription active” is a nice way to put it lol
I hope you continue to find the ways and reasons to stay, too. I definitely get it as well. Firsthand. ❤ glad you're still here.
Im so SO glad you’re here!!
…but this touched me real deeply. I see you.
Especially the “have no right to take a kids mama away from him.”
Bc I am on the other side of the coin. I _am_ the kid. I was diagnosed with a few anxiety disorders & depressive. I have been stuck in that dark space for so long that its taking my childhood & young peak years away from me.
I’ve thought ab it so many times. & even had dad’s gun ready before. But then my mama called while at her (very short, that she wasted just for me)break on 24-hour shift work, constantly busy as a 911 dispatcher, & said she was stressed & just wanted to hear her babies voice. I told her nothing ab the gun. After we hung up, I cried myself to sleep. I could not do it, but I wanted to. & im such bad child to her for it.
& your comment is making me cry…bc Ik my death would absolutely break my mom. I just CANT do that to her, she is the reason I’m still alive. I feel i have nothing else to live for.
& im just so scared bc if anything happens to her, idk what I would do. I would be just destroyed & would never be okay again.
But, it still got worse anyway. Im not even sure I will be here in 2025 regardless. Im not strong & brave enough like you.
I understand Sky King so much too…I just wanna be free, man.
Its different when youre a parent tho.
Cuz you _are_ so strong, & awesome & stuff & like self-less, putting your kid first & not doing that to him. He needs you more than you know.
Always think of your kid whenever you get to that point.
Sry, I just wanted to thank you for helping me see a new perspective & stuff. Sometimes I just need to read comments like these to reevaluate things.
You are a great mom, no matter how hard you are on yourself.
I get it.
Yeah, it's such a simple statement, but it's also probably the most supportive and meaningful thing that anyone in that position can hear. I guess it's just one of those things where, if you know, you know...
I remember when this happened. I live close to Seattle and it was breaking news over the radio of the restaurant my parents and I were at. I don't remember feeling scared, but looking back, I'm kicking myself for not thinking that critically about it.
Rest easy, Richard. I hope you're at peace now.
I lived near where he crashed. It was a wild experience.
I was living in Portland at the time that this happened, and recall hearing about it on the local news just shortly after it had all concluded.
The exact sound of his voice on those radio transmissions is something that has since haunted me.. The strangely optimistic tone of a man who has resigned from this life, as if he expects whatever is on the other side to be more peaceful.
Personally, I believe that to be a culturally insidious and false idea, one that has allowed events like this to shatter countless lives; and perhaps, the eternal existences of innumerable souls. It's an idea that seemingly few people, even those of faith, ever truly reckon with.
@@dean1543What happened after he crashed?
Why do you kick yourself over "not thinking critically about it"? What is there to think critically about?
Rest easy sky king!
"You are really dangerious and threating everyone on the ground... but the barrel roll was sick!"
While I can't condone the theft of the aircraft,and potential harm Richard could have caused, as you said, I get it, too. And if nothing else, he went out on his own terms. Agree or not, there is something to be said for that alone. RIP.
Sad but true 😇😇😇
You didn't mention the craziest thing about that barrel roll. After this happened I'm pretty sure I remember De haviland coming out and saying that roll should not have been possible in that model of aircraft.
It’s not impossible, just about any aircraft can do a barrel roll with enough altitude.
@@andreahighsides7756 but he wasn't nearly high enough nor was that aircraft rated to do that due to structural stress tests, like it should have caved in on itself or the wings should have collapsed or something.
This is a core memory. I was working in an upper level food stand at a mariners game. I was facing south toward the airport, and I remember the constant flow of planes just stopped. I overheard a customer say that someone hijacked a plane, so I checked my phone and sure enough. It was all we talked about the rest of the night.
yes
"MINIMUM WAGE" was thought to have been brought up because there had recently been a base RAISE to Minimum wage, that ONLY effected workers who were stationed INSIDE the airport. It left out the people that worked OUTSIDE, people like Richard. 😔 And those workers weren't happy about it!
Can't say that I blame them. THAT is why he said it was a message to the
"Higher ups".
I do not believe this is why he took the plane. In my opinion he was indeed just a "broken guy" he decided to go out with a bang. Maybe causing some major inconveniences, but not wanting to hurt anyone on his way out. Very sad. Condolences to his family and friends, because it seems to many that they lost a charming, witty, caring man.
🕊RIP SkyKing🕊
I was working as a Decoy for Tacoma PD K9 team at the time. We were training about 5.5 miles away on JBLM. We heard the jets, but had no clue until the explosion rocked across the area. Then the calls started filtering in through the Police radios. I can't believe that was 2018... damn....
"Nothing was worthy enough for the paper." really gets me. So many emotions and feelings and thoughts going through his head but like many how many men feel, you just decide to keep it to yourself because you feel its not worth talking about or that no one is really going to care anyways.
There something sad about the fact he still felt like he needed to keep things light hearted and silly and avoid talking about himself in a serious way even as his final hour was approaching.
Richard without realizing it, became a symbol of the Every Man. We work and provide for those we care, even when we are fighting demons everyday.
I'm confident that Richard could have landed that plane. It's just that, he decided he was done fighting. And that's okay, May God rest Richard's Soul.
Long Live the Sky King!
your inability to talk about your feelings is a skill issue
@@moonsigil and unfortunately some people's experiences cause them to avoid talking about feelings. It's common in Hispanic cultures. There are many factors at play
@@moonsigilWhat a disgusting thing to say, grow up
@@Craglicious idec. turn that 1.5% into a 100%
This was a flurry of emotions, I laughed when the clips of him just flying around while the call was playing, I felt bad when he started regretting it, I cheered when he did the barrel roll, and I felt sad and wished he would have landed relatively safely when it was over.
It's also pretty dark as a guy who used to feel like this that the reaction of the public wasn't "why did he choose to do it?" It's "whoo! He went out like a gigacad!"
Well when his other option was getting a game over without doing anything, yes going for a fly and doing a barrel roll and not hurting anyone with the plane is going out like a gigachad
@@kathrineici9811I think they are saying something more along the lines of “it’s sad that we focused on how cool his suicide was and not what led a man to commit suicide” they glorified his death as opposed to talking about the issues that led to it. He did go out like a gigachad, but the more important thing is that he did NOT have to “go out,” at all.
no you didnt
@@bigdiggle5036
No one ever feels emotionally invested in anything.
@@bigdiggle5036 hit the gym tiny.
I love the way you tell these stories. I've been hooked since the first Mandela Catalogue video you made, and man am I glad I took the ride. You keep getting better and better at naratting and retelling these - on the grand scale of things - unpopular stories, and I'd love to hear more.
As a fellow Key West, Florida-born male currently dating a woman named Hannah and not too happy with how things are going, this story hits a little too close for comfort...
Anyway, I do hope he found peace in the end and I truly wish his family and friends the best too. As Wendigoon mentioned, taking one's life is never the answer to finding clarity. My personal recommendation is to find enjoyable hobbies no matter how silly they may seem to others and basically try to stay busy like what you're doing now, watching a video like this for example. Find satisfaction in life even when things go wrong, they are the most powerful moments for learning something new, and like the song "Pennies from Heaven" (by another fellow named Bing), we can only truly cherish when things are going well by having gone through "stormy weather". Whenever I ask elders what they find to be the true purpose of life or what a young person should pursue to find happiness, they almost all say; Do what you love to do and surround yourself with good people! And with that advice, I wish you all the best. Good luck out there fellas!
The phrase you said, “I get it” says it all. With all the context every man in working class or lower can relate. “I get it” says all that needs to be said. Fly high richard
22:18 "i played videogames before so i know what i'm doing" that's such a badass movie quote, one better than the line "step aside i played mario kart" when in a random movie from the 2010's a kid manages to correctly drive a van
i guess the reason his story is so impactful for me, is that in the end he's a guy like many of us, who just, even for a moment; wanted to be truly free. Rest In Peace, Fly High Sky King.
as someone who has dealt with my own anxiety, depression, and struggles for many years, the part where he says "I'm sorry about this, I hope it doesn't ruin your day" really hit home with me. That sense of wanting to do one last thing and get out, but also not wanting to inconvenience anyone with your departure - it's such a difficult feeling. and as someone who has lost a friend to suicide, that questioning and wishing things had gone differently feeling never goes away either. I think the fact that he spoke on not finding clarity he was looking for is vital. he needed to share that to remind us that our emotions (especially those connected to depression) are far more complex than black and white. all that said, one thing is certain - many folks were able to hear his story and reflect on their own struggles and talk about them, instead of keeping it bottled up until it worsens, and that's incredibly impactful and important.