@@enisarifi6878 so what? this guy has made such an amazing video with lots of genius lines and quotes, and your just gonna sit there and shit all your negativity over it? Jesus...
This is my third time watching this, and I just realised that this story is presented in the PAST TENSE! This means that he has remembered, and is recalling what happened!
My grandma passed away this week, not too much older then yours. I was okay till the dedication at the end. I haven't been able to cry about it yet, and you've gave me freedom to do so. She experienced wars, and her husband going off to war, and her the fear of her son's being drafted. She experienced famine, and drought, and plague. She nursed the sick back to health and she mourned the ones that she couldn't help. But she also experienced peace, and love, and community. She lived to do crafts and arts and coloring books with me and my siblings and cousin. We baked cookies and read books and watched movies. And she loved my family, she loved her children and grandchildren, and even got to live to meet her great grandchildren. She never raised her voice, or got upset. She never didn't have candy to sneak to the kids. She was always knitting, and making gifts and cards for Christmas and birthdays. She was strong, and wise, and she had love and kindness to give to everyone she met. She took care of strangers even in her old age until they had to take care of her. And in all of my 20 young years of life she didn't miss my birthday once. I love you Grandma. And I hope I'll be able to see you again someday.
this is one of the greatest works i’ve ever seen - a pure, deep illustration of dementia & age and the art & prose conjurable by the human mind - truly amazing
I’m rewatching this for like the 10th time over the years and just noticed that at 11:58 you referred to the ones who waged war as “empty heads” the way the “main character” was called at the beginning, alluding to the twist at the end. Such a great video
@@wutaeworld I'd say "don't advertise your videos here" to you, but given exurb1a literally got his name because his main acc "exurbia" got banned for self advertising on r/videos I think you get a pass.
@@JM-kj3dh brub he is an ex-CS pro,it's natural for him to be great at Valo. And hmmmm,I believe that his playstyle is currently the the highest tier in Valo. It's weird considering that he is from NA. Same with Brax and Shroud
For poetry, I cannot write. But every night I take battle And every morning I fight The same war as my every kin And though repeated, I never win Through this existence, I cannot take solace The beginning, middle and end are all a terror As each one feels like an incredible error. In search for answers, I retire shaken and tired No original thought can bring the peace I desired And so, I return to your perception of life For poetry, I cannot write.
I was absolutely crying by the end. My grandmother has dementia and lives in a retirement home so this hit me really hard. I want to be there for her like this as she grows older.
By age the moments we´ve spent grow faint and dull, for i wished you where still bright and tall. I know your true face however time´s tooth is unforgiving for it will make you loose it all. Dang I wish to never grow old and get dementia in any way, i fear of loosing myself and becoming something i wish not to be.. I miss my grandmother like she used to be...
My grandmother had dementia too before she passed away, she forgot her home, her life, her being. But the one this she remembered was me. As she lied on her bed I was the only one she could recall, but as I was a child I was not there when she wispered my name then pass away as she did so. Though life has treated me harshly, and faded my emotions, this is the only memory that makes me cry. I wish you the best pantalimon, and remember; only the things no one remember, truly dies.
Yeah it's really hard. Dementia is a bitch. My grandmother had it the last 10 years before she died, gradually worsening. And I spent three years looking after the elderly, it's one of the most horrible diseases to witness. Don't forget her, go and visit her. So many families avoid going because they can be crazy and difficult, but it will make her day every time. Until she forgets who you all are... :/
I just had a wholesome thought about this story. Like pretty much every single time when I'm bored I recited The Rememberer in my head to the extent that I remembered it. Now, a moment ago I noticed it was written in the past tense and in the first person perspective from the grandfather's view. So what I got from that is that he remembered the whole thing. Since the story ended in him remembering poems and the old days together with his grandson I made this theory that they decided to write down all that happened that day, for the grandfather will have to return to the nursery at some point. So that would mean they remembered the day they had together and wrote it down so the grandfather could look back at that day and make sure until his last days he will at least remember he had a grandson. We just got to read that text they both worked on together, which, in my opinion, is a pretty wholesome thing. Maybe this was just really obvious and you people got all that immediately but well. It also took me about three rewatches to even understand what is happening ^^
You've remembered the rememberer to the extent you can recite it... Even just bits and pieces would be to much for my brain i can't even remember the words to my favorite song or piece which song is playing until the coarse comes in and even still the name of the song is out of reach for me i envy what the human brain can do and wish so deeply that I could remember if I could I would recite this daily but I've watched this video on repeat and come back to it every so often and cant rememeber even the name of the video if it wasn't saved in a playlist I made I fear id forget it ever existed I once remembered that it does exist but couldn't find it and panicked I felt empty and upon finding the video again had a heart touching moment only comaprable to a rebirth through religion my entire heart was clenched as if i had never seen this video pior but bits and pieces struck me as if they were lyrics in a song i had once heard passing by and to this day I come back to this video and cry my eyes out because I will never remember my heart breaks daily knowing that I know so little about my own surroundings and where I stand on this forsaken land I wish I could commit something to memory I sit here now knowing all I know could be lost tomorrow except for a few unforgettable things such as my love and the language I speak i once knew a good bit of Spanish but that has long since passed as did the memories of a younger me I'm 20 but my oldest memory is from when I was 15 its vague but thats when I met my love and so much had changed since then I should know but placing what haven't a clue I wake up and all that I know is i have a job and a love and family but id forget I have friends if they didn't text me id forget I like music if other people didn't play it sometimes if forget there's a world of wonder if someone didn't show me and ID forget the horrors of the world if I didn't see the news everyday the world I live in is so vastly different from anyone else's that my heart breaks when I remember that other people remember things when I hear someone singing from memory I feel envy jealous sadness and sometimes a weird sort of joy as i get to here that song for the first time again and again... I want to be a creator but I fear that I cannot make it muscle memory as they remember more than my brain does I want to make music art something that had a positive impact on the world but I feel negative towards even remotely trying to because tomorrow I will forget I even tried to tomorrow I will forget today and I simply cannot remember or even fathom how someone else can I cant process that people live in a entirely different world than I do it breaks me down and the only thing I have to build me up is hope and love and a dream that one day I won't have to remember anyways I can just exist and be free to forget as time passes and loved ones die and o forget they existed I can just sleep and forget and one day die
@@potatobros3347 You could try capturing your feelings and memories in drawings. In case you forget and want to refeel them or just simply remember them. Keeping a diary could also be a nice idea. Write a few lines every time you feel like it and it's done. By the end you'll have a tapestry of all your life from this point and you'll be able to go back to whenever whenever you like. The earlier you start the more of it you'll have in the future.
@@potatobros3347 about that music thing, make your memories into songs. But as far as i can tell you know enough to do your work and all that is to do with English. So my thinking is that you tell yourself you don't know, but actually do remember, in case you didn't know, believes can shape the perception of your surroundings and since you believe that, your ability to remember is self sabotaged, after some time it becomes self reinforcing. Get some medical help because that is not normal, even people with dementia remember stuff, just not learn new things.
Instead of drinking milk as infants, we now drink alcohol the same way as adults. Unquenchably, as if for sustenance. All to alleviate our yearning feeling.
@@gentlydown41 @MiraculousMed Same as UltimateKyuubiFox said already, they changed the means, not the behavior. This reflects how today's adults are mere affection and care-dependent as a child would be, only that the adults changed the way they are coping with the issue, not necessarily how to fix it or get over it. I think this really hits in everyone's adulthood because the one thing that should have been properly educated and which would've helped with today's problems is emotional resilience/intelligence.
I personally think that they're keeping the bottle to store alcohol since they feel that they no longer a child and now they don't need the milk anymore
Exurb1a, I hope you know that in spite of all the memes filling the comments, us viewers really deeply appreciate what you do. Your poetry, creativity...sometimes I really do forget you're not some mythical being telling stories from the ether. Thanks for making this video (even if you had a hard time). Hope you're doing okay with this virus havoc.
Love this message because it's everything I wanted to say but was afraid I'd repeat someone else's words. Best of luck to you and your writing! Take care.... and your grandma as well :)
Between five thousand other comments I'll see mine buried and forgotten, but I have to put to words what I now feel. You, man, are the greatest content creator I have seen, your videos make me feel things no other can, every time I watch you, my mind is blown apart, and then I have some time to recuperate until another one goes out and I'm back here to have it blown again, it's like a drug now. But above all, thank you, because you put this out here for us to see, because you share this part of you with us without expecting anything, and for that, I thank you. Thank you.
I felt the exact same about him... Until I read this. It's sickening. I'm sharing it not to ruin your joy, but because people deserve to know the truth. www.google.com/amp/s/www.photoandgrime.com/blog-1/2018/10/11/pieke-roelofs/youtuber-exurb1a-exposed-sickening-truth-about-an-abuser1%3fformat=amp
Can’t stop crying starting from 23:00 till the end. This reminds me of my grandfather who has recently started to lose his memory and barely remembers me. But i do remember him and all the things he did for me. I love my grandfather and I remember everything for the both of us.
I woke today, not expecting To find myself so deep reflecting On another man’s accepting Of our people’s grand exception Nor did I expect to find Countless others of my kind Freeing poems of the mind In this UA-cam comments section But that’s the beauty, is it not? That despite our world’s persistent rot We can exult, our rampant lot In a world we won’t live to see For when I fall, to time or blade And must pass through golden shade I shall do so, unafraid If only they remember me
When Watching these in misery A friendly soul calls out to me With passion in his poet words He hits me deeply to my nerve I had a gun put to my head The hand that held it almost dead But his wise words did stir in me Memories of being free The dying man who's hand is mine Decides instead to come alive To kick addiction in the teeth And be the man I aught to be Seeking freedom from the drug The Turtle's words feel like a hug And though he knows not who I be He will always have a friend in me
@@Ignirium Its a 30 minute story with some twists and lessons. It didn't really make sense till the final twist for me, I then started crying. I highly recommend watching the whole thing instead of just the first 2 minutes.
@@juniper2739 I just found that it's about a "fear of ageing." I use philosophy(even art/music) to find understanding about meaningful and difficult subjects about life. I have criticisms about the utility of Poetry to convey meaning; mainly how it can communicate anything concisely, concretely, explicitly. I don't find Poetry useful for that reason, It works a lot like "Music" which allows its meaning to penetrate a person deeply, but i still don't know what it means... If the truth about the subject matter was easier to find in bedded within its communication, i'd like it, i can't find it so easily with poetry.
My father died on April 23rd, 2020 and my mother-in-law died on February 11th, 2020, the two most important people in my son's life next to his mother and me. My father told me he was feeling unwell on April 1st, went into the hospital on April 3rd, and died 22 days later. I could not see him before he died. My son is only 10, so he's not ready for this--not their deaths, not this art. I was not ready either. The Remember came up in my feed when it released but I couldn't bring myself to watch it until tonight when I heard the words "grandfather" and "empty head" and thought about my son and my father, how he teased my son about knowing so much and so little at the time. My father was a mathematician, but he got lost along the way and found himself bored on the isle of 6 with many shells and too much time--too little as it turns out. I want to say thanks for this. To exurb1a, to the people who don't have imaginations like exurb1a such as me, but can still pay attention and listen to such a unique mind. This work, and all of your work, has truly been a gift to me, and to my son, I hope, eventually, said he.
I try not to go through the comments section too often as I'm frankly concerned about reading damning criticism I'll never be able to get out of my head, but messages like yours keep me sane. From the very bottom of my heart, thank you enormously. I'm so, so sorry to hear about the loss of your father and mother-in-law. The timing is absolutely horrendous, I can't even imagine how difficult it must be. I hope you and your son are doing well nonetheless, and thanks so much for the kind words. All the love in the world, and thanks again!
The twist at the end hit like a bus and explained the whole 'Empty head' letter (y'know, cos of the dementia) I was awestruck by the end, such a beautiful ending nonetheless. I hope your grandmother is doing good, 99 and 3/4 is fucking -old- young. Thanks for your magnificent, existential (yet oddly calming) stories Much love, from Australia.
This is the modern poetry of the 21st century. We look back on old poems like ‘Charge of the Light Brigade’ and ‘In Flanders Fields,’ but I do hope that in the future, these are the types of poems that will be for our generation.
videos are the modern medium of story telling, so it's likely that a lot of the famous poetry that gets passed down will be in video form. Although the poetry that we study now is really just the most famous poets, not necessarily the best.
Probably preaching to the choir, but uh... have you read his ebooks? I highly recommend the Fifth Science or the Prince of Milk. Bloody marvelous, both of em. Not quite sure which I love more, but were a gun to my head, I'd probably go with the Fifth Science.
This just makes me think that the only reason to perpetuate the human species is to tell each other more stories, it seems to be the only worthwhile thing we do, inventing things in our heads that aren't out there.
This is a fucking masterpiece. I was never one for poems but this has aspects of humour, sadness, hapiness, plot twists and was probably the saddest and happiest 30 minute video I've ever watched. Also the power of music setting the mood PERFECTLY. It's almost like the sensation of nostalgia.
"and then we'll be okay" feels like a sequel to this, the new gods are the ones who left on the spaceship, leaving the old to revert back to base instincts, and the women from the story is one of sebastions grand children, this may be a stretch, but it feels like they fit together a bit too seamlessly
So I'll gladly tipsily admit that was totally where I was hoping to go with this. I really wasn't trying to build a shit version of Middle-earth, but that was secretly the plan
Oh my god man, this is incredible. I'm genuinely speechless, I've been attempting to put together the words to say just how blown away I am every time I watch one of your incredible videos for a good while now, and I can't. You push the boundaries for the quality of these every time you upload, and that's not something I can say for any other person creating art, whether that's UA-cam, music, drawing, writing, anything. You turn my world upside down every time I see one of these, and you inspire me to no end!
here's a couple other amazing channels dude brew, KURZGESAGT in a nutshell, apeture, LEMMiNO great ones similar in style to this channel other great ones are jon bois , Kreal Tube, Code bullet, GradeAUnderA, The Thought Emporium, summoning salt, Micheal Reeves I did a thing. check them out i swear every singe one of those channels is worth at least watching one of those videos but especially the first ones if you like that style a lot you probably no in a nut shell but still hope u enjoy
BeepBoopboi while all of the channels you mention do create top tier content, none are as emotional or brilliant as exurb1a’s content. The only thing that comes remotely close is The Egg by kurzgesagt but that ones just a mindfuck.
My dad's passing was hard. Demntia made the final years of his life a malaise of melocholy miasma. The struggle to retain the thoughts of inspirational rhetoric he bestowed unto me was made harder each day, yet something during this time of caring for him happened... I ended up being the one to inspire. When I brewed his daily coffee, when we sat and talked, I patiently awaited for the waxing clarity of his waining mind to be brought forth. Sometimes I'd get to have my dad back for 5 minutes... those were the happiest days I could ever get. Sometimes he'd be gone behind the fog, and my hopes that he would return again kept me going. It's those short moments of talking to the real version of my father that made caring for him worth it. And though he never told me, I knew behind my father's eyes that he was always proud of the man I had become. I was fortunate enough to have my dad's " true moment of clarity" a full hour in which he dispelled nothing but the love he had for me and the lack of fear he had for going to the other side. I feel that whatever awaits him, must be better than being trapped in a vessel where the lights are dimming.
Dementia is evil, everything that makes them who they are being removed slowly over time, until one day, this new person has replaced the mother you once knew and you can't remember what her voice sounded like anymore. It doesn't steal her personality or her memories, but it steals yours too. I'm so sorry for your loss. 💔
For such a small amount of years, In my whole life living in rears, Never have I encountered such a beauty, such endeavour That made me hypnotised, fall in tears. Thank you for the best thing I have watched on UA-cam. I love your work, mate.
I know you probably wont see this but back in september of 2019, shortly after you released you video titled "Sleep is just death being shy" my best friend, a huge fan and long time follower of you, took his own life. This video gave me so many emotions im crying while writing this, thank you for being a part of his life, and shaping him to be the person i knew, even if for a short while.
i really wish i could write something more helpful or comforting or time worthy, but i'm just young and cant even imagine your experience. i just hope you're doing alright with all my heart, stay safe
Noah, I can't even begin to imagine what that must've felt like. I hope you and their family are in a better place now, and if you're not, take every little thing he or she has taught you, utilize it, and think to yourself "See, ______? I did the thing." You can do the thing, and the day you are gone, I hope you can tell them that you did it
His videos are truly remarkable, nontheless this fascinating community with people like him and you who share close to poetic messages gives (if no one else) at least me chills... On how percious the little things in life can be. My condolences buddy
They lock up demented people under the waves for deeds done but the few in the name of collective guilt. Sounds quite a bit more like a vindictive cult society.
9:45 “how does one blow up a moon? By being smart enough to build technology that can do so, and simultaneously stupid enough to use it.” This part was so impactful to me, and has been since the very first time I listened to this. I have shared this with friends and teachers alike, but the way it has changed my life is unmeasurable.
The path of humanity currently to lead to two destinations from my knowledge -either we stay on the path we are on right now till its point of no return, refuse to learn to look at where we are going and choosing to stay in the illusion of what we have in the present. Money, fame, that useless thing you bought off amazon the other day, they will be gone eventually. However, it isn't looking like we are seeing this. Most of the people who rule us and run this 8 billion gear clockwork we call society (and a lot of other people who do not have that responsibility) have proven to be some of the most incapable and close minded people (Ironically, the people in power who do the best job using it normally have the smallest share of power). Their is only a few years of that oil, and I doubt we will be liking the end result of its depletion. Where this path of ignorance and self destructive selfishness will lead to? Probably destruction and chaos. -However, Their is another path. If we allow ourselves to look to be successful in the long run of civilization on mass and treat power and control over society as a responsibility and put people of responsibility, intelligence, resourcefulness, determination, wit, bravery and good intentions for that task, we may thrive as a society and be known as the species who defied our own grave fate made by our elders hands, override our mistakes for the sake of a better world that could last for millennia or (if we nail this well enough) eons We have more power than any species that came before had. We can either chose to take that responsibility and improve our world to help the generations of tomorrow. Or we can choose to take the path we are on now, either killing ourselves suddenly, or slowly descending into madness chaos. Every day, every hour, every second of your life, your parents lives, your neighbors lives, your friends lives, your girlfriend or boyfriends lives, your coworkers lives we go farther towards the event horizon of our own fate at our own hands. We can still change it, as long as we don't pass that point, but every second that passes this change to the second path requires more power, more will, more determination, which all at once is becoming a scarcity among our world. The clock is ticking ladies and gentlemen. Every soul that takes up the will to defy our own ignorance is a slight push against the tide leading to destruction. with enough determination, wit, bravery, resourcefulness, responsibility and intelligence, we can reverse this path entirely and build a world beyond our wildest dreams. We just need the manpower I am writing this at 11:08 PM after beating Deltarune Chapter 2 Because my ADHD wanted to get inspirational and philosophical for no apparent reason
I got so far without crying this time....but "Yes," said me. "I remember ye upon my knee and from the elm tree sat ten starlings deep, and I'd read you till you fell asleep." had me weeping. Your channel is seriously underappreciated
"What is it, may I ask, that you remember?" "Ah, I know all the shows on cartoon network. And in all my years and places I've been, that little pickle man was the funniest shit I've ever seen."
my grandmother passed away last month, and it really hit hard as i hadn't been able to see her in months due to quarantine. She was wise, and she was kind. She had dementia, and i remember how cold i felt when she couldn't remember who I was for the first time. But she continued to bring joy into my life, even then. This video reminds me of her. Thank you turtle dude
I'm so sorry to hear that Laura - dementia is just awful to watch someone going through. I really hope you're on the way to feeling better. Big love, hope you're all right
@@Exurb1a @Laura...it's hard yeah. My gran passed away in the middle of my B-school final papers. I had never left her for a day since I was born. Only few months before the finals but luckily I was back for the exam. I sit here as I type this where she breathed her last. It's been so many years, but I still can feel her. She had dementia that went in to Alzheimer's. It was so hard. Especially when she wouldn't remember us. And the tiny second of short circuit in the brain when it would come back to her was so overwhelming and cute. The joy in my mom and my eyes was beyond words when she knew it was us. I loved this video. Have I said that enough already.... Oh, God...so touching...and so beautifully crafted. ...thanks...
@laura. My dad too. A dementia type disease-progressive supranuclear palsy. Slowly descending into darkness he went. My best friend in later life Full of wisdom and love. A stern word when needed but all done with my future in mind. I hope I can be half the man he was
You know, I always boast about how "I never cry", like the literal child that I am: not to shitty dramatic movies, not to stress or anxiety... hell, I didn't cry at my grandfather's funeral. But this video hit something deep inside of me, a visceral feel of nostalgia towards everything that ever happened and was lost to the ages, everything that will happen and that I'll miss, and everything that could've happened, were humans a little bit kinder. Lately, with the whole quarantine thing, I've been talking with my father a lot, hearing his stories about the 70's, the 80's, even stories he's heard from his father about the war, the 40's, the 50's. It occured to me how, even with everything we know about the past, we really don't know shit compared to what actually happened since this little thing called Man started existing, and the few events that we remember are wars, killings, all the damage to our planet, fucking Bananacoins and such. Sure, it's important to remember our mistakes so as to not repeat them, but with everything we've done, the fact that people like you can still have a (relatively) optimistic outlook on the world and on what humanity can achieve really moved me to tears. As I've said in the opening, I'm a cynical bastard: I don't care if people die, I think nothing matters, I don't "relate" with anyone to be completely honest... but everytime I watch your videos I feel that these great accomplishments (immortality, space travel, the fucking galactic empires that you love so much) really are within our reach. So, even remembering all the awful things we've done, my faith in humanity grows a little bit stronger. Thank you, exurb1a, for making me cry like a baby. Also thanks to whoever's reading this whole things. I'm one of those "romance language" posh homosexuals, so my English is all over the place. Hope it's good enough.
You want to know the best thing about thinking that nothing matters? That fact doesn’t matter either. All meaning is subjective, so when you decide something is important there isn’t a damned person in the universe who can tell you you’re wrong and be right.
I cried because of all the reasons you described, but when thinking "why am I crying?" I condensed it all to just "all of this story and what it means is so beautiful, and thank God I am not alone in my ways of thinking about the world and how divine our efforts to apply meaning to this Thing can be". Thank god for exurb1a and his will to share his creations. P.s. I don't believe in god btw, just a figure of speech
“How does one blow up a moon?” “By being smart enough to build technology that can do so, and simultaneously stupid enough to use it” Ah, there you are, existential/depression/galaxy turtle.
This video is literally my adult bedtime story when I can't fall asleep at night. This story gives me peace as I play it while trying to drift off. I've come to this web address many a slumber. Thank you, Exurb1a.
@Danglie tbh i like the idea of him not putting the video up for monetization. To show that the video wasnt for money. But for a gift for his grandmother. Really sweet in my opinion
Not to disregard artistic value of this treasure found among the UA-cam trash pile but it is (mostly) written in couplets which is essentially a big compilation of rhymes between two sentences
I seriously feel sad for the people who haven't experienced the complex cocktail of emotions that come flooding through our brains as we listen to this masterpiece. Seriously, this hasn't even been viewed a million times but deserves to be listened to over a billion times.
I wish you’d get more recognition than this, not just as a UA-camr, but as a philosopher, writer and much more. I want you and your stories to be remembered for generations to come. Everything you write is amazing and brings me (and probably everyone else) to tears every time.
Just clicking "like" feels really insufficient in the face of this genuine and heartfelt content... On the surface it seems dreary and dry, yet I could not tear myself away. Could not stop watching and listening, like hypnotized. Also, I love the visual style. Kind of like the visual equivalent of a Shepard tone.
When I first saw this was half an hour long I thought "No way, I have 2 history DBQs i have to finish today I'm just gonna watch the first 5 minutes then leave..." 25 minutes later and I realize the video is almost over, and I'm sad, and I have no idea how to express my reaction to this video, it definitely deserves more than a like.
Oh shut up you don't seriously believe this will go on for longer then a few months (or, in the case of wave two, perhaps half a year) I get it, everybody wants to feel all important and go down in history rn, grow up.
I was looking for a distraction I found a poem so beautifully crafted You'd think the author was grafted Now im ashamed of my action This made me feel some sentiment The ones you feel once a year Made me think in dreadful fear All about the nature of the dent Our house, our planet And the more we crave and crave The more we are filling up that grave Time is slowly passing Soon enough you might not remember anything Not your dad, not your sister, not your husband All because of one bad bastard The one who makes us forget The ones you meet, the ones you met All the more the worse it will get So I must thank them for evertything That doesn't exclude you or anything Thank you for your effort I'll then pat you for your endevour Every posting you might present I shall share it with my friend Thank him for his devotion You made me feel real emotion ❤
I want you to know, no, DEMAND YOU to know you have saved a life. More than once actually. With this video and tho I dont know you or anything about you, but all of your videos have moved me in ways that, on 2 times for certain, gave me some bit of light that hit just right top remind me that ik not alone. Misery, one day, will be "was". The way you do the thins you do is something.....other. idk. You've unintentionally saved my life multiple times and I want you to to know that so you can feel the pride you deserve for being an endless source of "getting back up, dusting myself off and putting one foot in front of the other tomorrow. Had I not heard your words, that tomorrow wouldn't have come. 2017. I am forever in your debt. Thank you.
Hi there friend! As someone who has felt similarly, I encourage you to see it as Exurb1a and his art giving you pause and strength to save your own life when you needed it. It allows him to create without feeling necessarily responsible for human life (which can be pretty stressful), and acknowledges the strength already inside you. Much love 💛💛
Here’s the thing though. We are all, necessarily, responsible for human life. That’s why inaction causes one to feel such sorrow. Deep down we *know* we _are_ guilty of not doing all that we should be. It’s a heavy burden but it is what it is. And if we don’t lift ours, certainly no one else will. @exurb1a thank you for carrying your load. I trust you will continue in faith because it does matter. Everything does.
PossumKing 〰 Yes. The only truth is that of absolute meaning. The existential meaning we apply on our own, because by our very nature we are imbued with the right and authority of ourselves to give meaning to ourselves and anything else we see. Or at least, so it is for me.
@@Exurb1a, I don't know you, I don't know your name, I don't know your life story, but you're my favorite artist. Ever. With any medium. I truly truly mean that
@@Exurb1a It was random recommendations of UA-cam the way I found your channel, the first video universe in 4 mins and next and next. Never had listened such literature such creativity I was fan from the day one and I found you in the lockdown period, my greatest gem. From that day I continue to listen your videos like I'm addicted to it. It help me to complete my essay in essay competition from 'thoughts about writing' later came castrovitity that was too good. Then, in perspective of seeing world thank you for everything. Handling myself in tough times with your videos, the humour, the deep meaning like picture of lady in the border of line of understanding everything is just perfect. I had even posted in Facebook "thoughts from deadbed". Currently I am a student studying but its been a bucket list when I will be independent I will be your galaxy patron and explore and read all your books,I will one day and if possible may we will meet one day. That would be cool, that would be a treat, One day. Thank you exurb1a 💜💜💜 Much love than you expected from Nepal 🇳🇵🇳🇵🇳🇵
One of the things that haunt me the most in this world are reddit meme format youtube comments, It pains me mentally that I may have to see these everytime I peer into the comment section.
This has brought me great puddles of tears as my grandma had died so close to its premiere. I love the way the new gods talk; It is a reminder for strange ways cultures evolve. The plot twist was great. The message was clear. I should've spent more time with her before she disappears. I love you for everything you have made, Exurb1a. You've saved me from death and warded away my fears You've helped me on levels in life I could not clear. This masterpiece rivals "and then we'll okay" and "Sleep Is Just Death Being Shy" And such philosophy and stories are why you may be the best fucking thing that has helped me through life. Thank you, Extensialist Turtle. Best Wishes to your Grandmother, hopes she lives longer and happier than the oldest person to have ever lived.
May we learn to treasure what we have, before we see that it is gone Give your mothers a hug today and every day, so then there will be no regret in Heaven But should we make it to the isle of Nine, let us hope that when we have our unlimited rice pudding we'll say "Misery was" And thank our lucky stars that our wheel of future history didn't land us something shitty. But anyway, for now, Happy Mothers Day Until we may meet again
Two years ago, when my birthmother died, I started following exurb1a. His poetry has the power to turn misery into melancholy and to find beauty in that. A week ago, my stepmother has passed and here we are, collectively crying to a story celebrating the beauty of memories and treasuring the legacy of your elders. And while we we cry of painful loss, there's tears of hope as well, motivating us to strive for the Ninth Isle and the Garden beyond.
@@watermomantic4828 wait, srsly? Can someone make a timeline for this? Edit: so upsilon dies backward is the first one right?, then uh..this one then what the last one is we'll be okay? The island that the narator and sebastian made? Im confused? Help? Does agatha and oliver still alive? What happened to the zeus? What the hell happened in the trilogy? WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?!
I clicked on this by random chance yesterday, the day that my grandfather died. He was 98 and 3/4 years old, his birthday a mere 2 months away. He was every one of these things your grandmother was to you, and he was the last of a generation. I am currently crying and I just wrote what I felt. Thank you for this, I didn't realize I had all this feeling in me since I'm still numb at the moment. I love you granddad, you never gave up on me, and because of that, I don't think I'll ever give up on me either. Not because it's what I'd have done, but because it's what you no doubt are still doing. Thank you for believing in me, for telling me how proud you were of me every single damn day that I saw you, and for blessing me with story after story and knowledge and wisdom and care and love and joy and remembrance and all these things I can now only realize I took for granted. I will find the words to speak at your funeral, and I will muster the courage to stand up and do so, because ill be damned if its hard or if ill fall apart, because you were worth it all from the start. I was born into a family that loved and cherished me, headed by a man with the utmost dignity. And while I sit here a blubbering mess, crying and thinking of all that I missed and the days together I'll no longer get to have with you and the memories of your voice speaking my name that will only ever exist in my mind from now until forever, do I find some semblance of the words I wish I had told you. I love you granddad with all my heart, you were not just the head of our family with a big heart, but a friend and father that chose now he would part. I hope you're with grandmom up in the clouds and feel safer and warmer without a care in the world. I hope you two dance into infinity together and happy at last, no longer by the world now beneath you. You've given rise to a family that loves you deeper than ever and that feels broken but able to carry on your legacy. And as one of the only two children left with your name, my brother with the same, will I carry myself into the future with pride and with dignity that only you could have given me. I am afraid of the world but know that I can because I've had the best damn family in all the land watching me carefully and guiding me gently with a kind tender hand that I could always feel softly. So thank you for the life you've given me and the blessings of your words. Thank you for letting me travel with you and talk your ear off till the sun sets and the night takes the sky. Thank you for being my biggest fan and for loving me always, and for believing in me when the world seemed to have nothing left for me. Thank you for seeing the possibility and willing to bet it all on me, so you just watch from up there in the sky cuz I'm gonna make you damn proud. I fucking love you granddad. I'll see you when I see you, and thank you for having a birthday.
I found this today and didn’t know what it was, I started listening to it. Somewhere in the middle of the poem, my mum called me to lunch and told me that my grandmother had passed away about 90 minutes prior. I called my girlfriend and talked to her about it, afterward I finished listening to The Remember, which took on a whole new significance to me. My grandma had given me her car and I’m in the process of getting my driving license. She seemed so excited for me to be driving it but in the end it never happened while she was alive. Worse still, I don’t live in the same country as my grandmother, neither does my mother. The COVID travel restrictions have made it impossible for us to visit her and in the end she died alone, in bed. The last thing she said to me (via FaceTime) was to make sure she doesn’t get cremated while wearing her nice clothes, and to not spend her money on nonsense. I don’t know where I’m going with this, but this video (and especially the timing) hit hard for me. Thank you for making this and I hope your grandmother is doing alright
Wherever she is, she's proud of you, mayhaps it be in Xanadu. Or everywhere, with nothing there, the infinites of open air. A love letter to love herself, an obituary from death himself, a memory of life itself, which timeless artifacts remain, an imprint of the human brain, will live on forever.
Washing the dishes with headphones on, I leave my phone on the counter. I'm half way done as the video comes to an end, I have tears in my eyes and an odd sense of clarity, the video ends, and... Silence. I'm left to my thoughts until my task is done. What an unexpectedly strong experience.
I can't describe with speak noir writing but the conclusion was intense. Now I'm crying alone in my bed, and the tears burn immense. Thank you for this work of art. Even though it feels like everything is falling apart.
Imagine how incredible this would be if it was movie. The jaw dropping sets, the masterful twist, and the wider road to write with themes and foreshadowing. This would be incredible.
This was an absolute masterpiece!!! I can't imagine how much effort was put into the insanely tight writing!! And the concept was the product of an insanely creative mind! And making a 30 minute long poem is insane especially one that was able to bring tears to my eyes! Man I really appreciate your work! Keep it up this is creativity in it's purest state! No jumpcuts or trends to make people click, no 10 minute duration in hopes of having the algorithm favor you, just pure art! Fantastic!! So glad I found your channel!
"Who lives there?" "No one he said . Or the remains of the dead, The legacy of our forefathers who would rather blow up a moon, Than two teams agree on some tune... They would peaceably dance to." Damn.
This made me feel a certain way That words will not portray I've been good with language since my youth But I forget that I lie , not lay But though I lie , I'm not a liar , for I speak the truth I and you both desire that life will treat us good Treat us well is the correction But now rhyming's my intention And correction's wrong as well Irony is fun as hell This is not a comment , but an entry A long way to say " I like poetry"
Yet for I am only a teenager So young and stuck in my own desires Not wise enough to make my own stories, And no stories to tell I still find myself listening. For there is one man Sitting a whole world away, Who writes to me, and everyone a few times a year Sharing glamorous stories of snakes, And those of Science-fiction, and war. But as inexplicable as it may be, His stories stick with me. And perhaps one day when I've explored the world, Love, And true hate.. Will I be able to make the same mark on someone else, as you did me. Thank you, my space-turtle friend.
I see this comment in the sea. That quite relates to me. And as I read with agreement and awe. I think in these moments. How this comment merits more recognition.
Hey man I know that we don’t know each other and this may come off weird and out of nowhere. But I had started watching you videos back at the end of last year and it was just a really dark time for me. I had found your videos, just the way you made a smile on my face all while pushing a little knowledge in me, you had talked about things that I had questions for years about how people think and honestly man some of your videos brought me to tears. Just keep doing you man if you ever do see this thank you
Tears my dude, exurb1a is one of the few persons who brings me to tears. His work is beautiful and unlike many say doesn’t give me existential crisis, but infact inspires me to work harder for my own future, the future of the ones dear to me, for the future of humanity (maybe not yet :P )
On his second channel he made a video about saying this, and why you should tell your favorite... whoever how much they mean to you. He has made EVERYTHING.
@mytoenails I think this is referring to Aristotle's way of describing how conception works where he said that semen curdles inside the womb and form a baby much like how rennet is used to form cheese from milk. From the line 'ditching the milk' I'm thinking that the people in the story are infertile. They can have sex but won't get pregnant. That's what I got from this line.
@@mdsalimshahedshajid you may be reading slightly too deep into it. The ones and twos are just old enough that they are no longer children/babies in their world's eyes, and also they drink alot. Referring to him as aristotle is just a cheeky jab and a clever rhyme imho
@@DistantSon.2 Agreed. I read it as them having ditched the milk in that they're no babies suckling on their mother's teet no more and that they replaced it with debauchery & booze like one (mostly) does as a teen. And as you said, Aristotle was a seeker of answers, much like the protagonist in the story, so it's just a witty jab in line with the rhyming scheme of the story.
The Monty Python ‘philosophers drinking song’ - “ Aristotle Aristotle was a bugger for the bottle, Hobbs was fond of his dram and Rene Descarte was a drunken fart, I drink therefore I am”.
I’m going through the process of accepting losing my own grandmother now, at 94 and most of the 95th. The timing made it feel so relevant, but even that aside, this is beautiful, sad, happy and compelling. Thank you for making it ❤
@@Exurb1a Right? War is sucky, without even experiencing it but only seeing it, it makes me feel numb and lethargic like I don't even want to move if war ever happens
@@Exurb1a war is an inevitability, there will always be people, cruel and clever, to take charge and cause chaos, therefore there is always a need for those, kind and wise, to take charge and stop their madness, whether it be a bloody war, an economic war, a political war, or a social war, there will always be war, for if there isn't, the world will suffer.
Took me so many tries to make a comment I felt summarised my feelings on this. My grandfather struggles with dementia. It's always so sad to see that he's forgotten me. He doesn't remember what he had for breakfast, but he will talk about his youth for hours. It's always the same stories, but he lights up every time and that makes up for it all. Thank you for the video, and good health to your grandma.
I'm really, really sorry to hear that. I've watched it happen to another grandparent, and it's godawful - I hope you're doing okay. We can only try our best to make them comfortable really. (So, there've been some amazing results from music therapy in dementia patients recently, mainly from playing them songs they loved in their youth. It might be worth looking into if you haven't already. All the best! www.dementiauk.org/music-therapy/ )
Bi-Polarbear quite the same, my grand father is exactly the same. It is absolutely scary to watch. I am « lucky » I wasn’t too close with him (he wasn’t the best person possible let’s say) but still it makes me scared that it happens to my 3 other grandparents (who I am really close with).
You know those times when you find a piece of literature or art and think, "Man, I hope the future generations remember this." Thank you for gifting this video, nay, this entire channel to us. Listening to your thoughts has been a journey I hope goes for a while longer.
Wartrix I guess so.... Maybe more bitersweet than bright or cheery. It still pains me that family or paradise ended up being a binary choice. That is the way I like it though, no exurb1a video is complete without at least a little pain.
That was the most beautiful piece of art from you..it's like a continuation of' And then we will be okay'. can't believe it's been an year since that video was uploaded. Also Your book ' the fifth science' is a masterpiece. waiting for more :) Much
Every story seems independent, but I see where you're coming from. Kind of like the same timeline, but a different perspective... but then again, this sort of timeline is nothing new for Exurbia
3 minute video when he dies to decompression sickness :(
this is truly a moment of all time :(
Had my headphones on and my mum thought I was crying to a stock photo slideshow
Chet Faker this is the best comment I’ve ever seen
Lmao
I mean technically-
And, submitted for the Academy's consideration, my nomination for best comment of 2020...
I'm into this comment
"You've been honorably discharged of being dishonorably in charge"
-Exub1a 2020
That was smooth
I am definitely stealing that quote
Vishnu's arse!!!
Is this the future "ok, boomer"?
Dayne Coveyou Yes.
Yes, twas.
Never has Exurb1a not left my mind melting after one of his videos.
double negative? My mind melts also :)
Do we watch the same videos?
Kimochi (~+~)
I realy do not know why or how, but this video managed to make me cry
da pancake you could have made it rhyme, just by switching how and why. Like in the video
I don't have the words to describe how this made me feel. Fortunately, you do. Thank you.
Lmao, you too?
Thankfully.
I just Listening to this video and "insane"
in succession and it was great.
same
“You have been honourably discharged for being dishonourably in charge”. Genius.
Seriously that was such a killer line. I had to pause the video to admire it for a moment
The best
@@enisarifi6878 so what? this guy has made such an amazing video with lots of genius lines and quotes, and your just gonna sit there and shit all your negativity over it? Jesus...
@@enisarifi6878 So what? Even so it's a good line despite the writer.
@@enisarifi6878 Go find it you cynic.
The wise turtle has returned to the realm of mortals
Yeah this guys a bro
*depressed turtle
@@liamkarmasine8793 Creativity comes along with depressing many times especially in art.
@cornyhiptsogt love your profile picturw
How did you write that an hour ago when it came out 38 minutes ago.
“We ditched the milk but kept the bottle so ask away young Aristotle” that’s a bar
For real!
*intelligence... say it aloud smart ass🤐
Every line could be analized and it would even be annoying like literally analysis
Im gonna be that guy yea i kno it i wanna see the world burn in hate.
Im gonna do it.
I'm the 421st like shower me in your tears
Mate I said the same
This is my third time watching this, and I just realised that this story is presented in the PAST TENSE! This means that he has remembered, and is recalling what happened!
He might be regaining his memory, perhaps one day his generation might gain forgiveness.
Omg it is
ohhhh, I'm on my 3 time past 2 years, but think i need to rewatch just to get that perspective
thank you for noticing and sharing, this gives me a lot of hope
@@miajar Hope??? lol
"You have been honourably discharged from being dishonourably in charge"
This is what I'm here for
A chiastic structure as well
Is the result "in charge" or just "honorably discharged?"
Honorably discharge is the result, being dishonorably in charge is the causation. 21:31 btw for anyone looking for it
thank you ass cheecks
My grandma passed away this week, not too much older then yours. I was okay till the dedication at the end. I haven't been able to cry about it yet, and you've gave me freedom to do so.
She experienced wars, and her husband going off to war, and her the fear of her son's being drafted.
She experienced famine, and drought, and plague. She nursed the sick back to health and she mourned the ones that she couldn't help.
But she also experienced peace, and love, and community. She lived to do crafts and arts and coloring books with me and my siblings and cousin.
We baked cookies and read books and watched movies. And she loved my family, she loved her children and grandchildren, and even got to live to meet her great grandchildren.
She never raised her voice, or got upset. She never didn't have candy to sneak to the kids. She was always knitting, and making gifts and cards for Christmas and birthdays.
She was strong, and wise, and she had love and kindness to give to everyone she met. She took care of strangers even in her old age until they had to take care of her.
And in all of my 20 young years of life she didn't miss my birthday once.
I love you Grandma. And I hope I'll be able to see you again someday.
My grandfather passed recently too, also not much older than his as well
Funny how a video so niche can touch so many people in the exact same way
Sorry to hear that.
May she rest in whatever lands she so desired
Zach Erickson My grandmother died last year, we went to see her grave today. May they both Rest In Peace.
Rest in piece
R.I.P. Thanks for sharing.
Not even gonna lie but this was an incredible poem and story
No more likes sorry I took the last one
I've learned so much, but I can't verbally explain
Kevin Sinram I’ll like yours instead
English teachers
this is one of the greatest works i’ve ever seen - a pure, deep illustration of dementia & age and the art & prose conjurable by the human mind - truly amazing
Listened to it more than 5 time. I always cry because it makes me think of my father and my late grandfather.
Though dementia is dominant in the story but it's used as a metaphor to explore multiple themes
Beautiful comment. Beautiful poem. I was riveted and saved it so I can watch again. And again. Journal time.
this could probably be seen as one of the best presents a grandmother could ever recive
Receive
If this guy ever makes a movie will pay 10,000,000 shells, up front!
That’s a lot of shade time.
banana coin is the true way to go!
you cannot represent his level of genius with visuals. A movie wouldn't work
I'll triple it!
@@thescarecrow897 It might work if it was his own and not tarnished by those in hollywood.
I’m starting to believe this guy is from the far future and has come back to tell us everything that ever happened between now and his time
FaTL Unique I’d believe it cause he made a vid on how to rule the world on time travel
Should stock up on bananas then.
BANANAS
Ive been thinking this for a while
I believe this is a prequel to "and then we'll be okay"
I’m rewatching this for like the 10th time over the years and just noticed that at 11:58 you referred to the ones who waged war as “empty heads” the way the “main character” was called at the beginning, alluding to the twist at the end. Such a great video
I just realisdd this for the first time, too. I've heard this many times over the last several months since I found this channel.
"So you think age leads to becoming some great sage, do you?"
Had no idea how meaningful this was at the beginning.
Trey a poem/story to enjoy 🧐👉🏽ua-cam.com/video/L6AFC5U3qUU/v-deo.html
@@wutaeworld I'd say "don't advertise your videos here" to you, but given exurb1a literally got his name because his main acc "exurbia" got banned for self advertising on r/videos I think you get a pass.
@@ashleybyrd2015 youtube accounts can get banned for advertising on reddit? hows that work?
@@alexrogers777 Can't quite remember why his youtube acc got banned, It was probably mass flagging or something like that, though.
@@ashleybyrd2015 if his youtube acc got banned doesnt that mean hes ban evading?
I did not expect this today, but I'm so grateful for it. Exurb1a, you're one of the very few who can play the quietest stings in my heart
Well thank you very, very much indeed
@@Exurb1a ur so sexy
This video actually made me cry, thank you Exurb1a.
I find it simply amazing how 42 people lacked finger dexteriety and failed to tap the like button
@@jimb473 49 now alas! Some people are dense.
'I'm not crying, you're crying!'
Haven't been moved like this in a while. Thank you.
SKADADDY
That kinda sounds weird
same lmao
@@JM-kj3dh brub he is an ex-CS pro,it's natural for him to be great at Valo. And hmmmm,I believe that his playstyle is currently the the highest tier in Valo. It's weird considering that he is from NA. Same with Brax and Shroud
For poetry, I cannot write.
But every night I take battle
And every morning I fight
The same war as my every kin
And though repeated,
I never win
Through this existence,
I cannot take solace
The beginning, middle and end are all a terror
As each one feels like an incredible error.
In search for answers,
I retire shaken and tired
No original thought can bring the peace I desired
And so, I return to your perception of life
For poetry, I cannot write.
Can I please use this for a school project?
Looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool@@iammikig1443
@@iammikig1443okay
3 months and no reply
@@karsteinsvendsen7550 I don’t want to be at fault for someone potentially getting a terrible grade
I just realized how great a grandfather you'd make.
KorterKaks imagine your grandad whips this story out before bed and you enter an existential crisis aged 6
Grandfathers are underrated
I was absolutely crying by the end. My grandmother has dementia and lives in a retirement home so this hit me really hard. I want to be there for her like this as she grows older.
By age the moments we´ve spent grow faint and dull, for i wished you where still bright and tall. I know your true face however time´s tooth is unforgiving for it will make you loose it all.
Dang I wish to never grow old and get dementia in any way, i fear of loosing myself and becoming something i wish not to be.. I miss my grandmother like she used to be...
I was not prepared for the sudden dose of reality
Dementia runs in my maternal line. It’s the thing that chases all of us down...
My grandmother had dementia too before she passed away, she forgot her home, her life, her being. But the one this she remembered was me. As she lied on her bed I was the only one she could recall, but as I was a child I was not there when she wispered my name then pass away as she did so. Though life has treated me harshly, and faded my emotions, this is the only memory that makes me cry. I wish you the best pantalimon, and remember; only the things no one remember, truly dies.
Yeah it's really hard. Dementia is a bitch. My grandmother had it the last 10 years before she died, gradually worsening. And I spent three years looking after the elderly, it's one of the most horrible diseases to witness. Don't forget her, go and visit her. So many families avoid going because they can be crazy and difficult, but it will make her day every time. Until she forgets who you all are... :/
EXISTENTIAL CRISIS MAN IS BACK WOOOOOO
edit:
i am now very sad after watching it through
"EXISTENTIAL CRISIS MAN"
HOW DARE YOU ASSUME HIS SPECIES HE IS THE TURTLE
The end was kind of sad
I just had a wholesome thought about this story.
Like pretty much every single time when I'm bored I recited The Rememberer in my head to the extent that I remembered it. Now, a moment ago I noticed it was written in the past tense and in the first person perspective from the grandfather's view. So what I got from that is that he remembered the whole thing. Since the story ended in him remembering poems and the old days together with his grandson I made this theory that they decided to write down all that happened that day, for the grandfather will have to return to the nursery at some point.
So that would mean they remembered the day they had together and wrote it down so the grandfather could look back at that day and make sure until his last days he will at least remember he had a grandson. We just got to read that text they both worked on together, which, in my opinion, is a pretty wholesome thing.
Maybe this was just really obvious and you people got all that immediately but well. It also took me about three rewatches to even understand what is happening ^^
That would also explain why the whole story is written in poetry
@@ionic7777 Yes! They both had a passion for literature.
You've remembered the rememberer to the extent you can recite it... Even just bits and pieces would be to much for my brain i can't even remember the words to my favorite song or piece which song is playing until the coarse comes in and even still the name of the song is out of reach for me i envy what the human brain can do and wish so deeply that I could remember if I could I would recite this daily but I've watched this video on repeat and come back to it every so often and cant rememeber even the name of the video if it wasn't saved in a playlist I made I fear id forget it ever existed I once remembered that it does exist but couldn't find it and panicked I felt empty and upon finding the video again had a heart touching moment only comaprable to a rebirth through religion my entire heart was clenched as if i had never seen this video pior but bits and pieces struck me as if they were lyrics in a song i had once heard passing by and to this day I come back to this video and cry my eyes out because I will never remember my heart breaks daily knowing that I know so little about my own surroundings and where I stand on this forsaken land I wish I could commit something to memory I sit here now knowing all I know could be lost tomorrow except for a few unforgettable things such as my love and the language I speak i once knew a good bit of Spanish but that has long since passed as did the memories of a younger me I'm 20 but my oldest memory is from when I was 15 its vague but thats when I met my love and so much had changed since then I should know but placing what haven't a clue I wake up and all that I know is i have a job and a love and family but id forget I have friends if they didn't text me id forget I like music if other people didn't play it sometimes if forget there's a world of wonder if someone didn't show me and ID forget the horrors of the world if I didn't see the news everyday the world I live in is so vastly different from anyone else's that my heart breaks when I remember that other people remember things when I hear someone singing from memory I feel envy jealous sadness and sometimes a weird sort of joy as i get to here that song for the first time again and again... I want to be a creator but I fear that I cannot make it muscle memory as they remember more than my brain does I want to make music art something that had a positive impact on the world but I feel negative towards even remotely trying to because tomorrow I will forget I even tried to tomorrow I will forget today and I simply cannot remember or even fathom how someone else can I cant process that people live in a entirely different world than I do it breaks me down and the only thing I have to build me up is hope and love and a dream that one day I won't have to remember anyways I can just exist and be free to forget as time passes and loved ones die and o forget they existed I can just sleep and forget and one day die
@@potatobros3347 You could try capturing your feelings and memories in drawings. In case you forget and want to refeel them or just simply remember them. Keeping a diary could also be a nice idea. Write a few lines every time you feel like it and it's done. By the end you'll have a tapestry of all your life from this point and you'll be able to go back to whenever whenever you like. The earlier you start the more of it you'll have in the future.
@@potatobros3347 about that music thing, make your memories into songs.
But as far as i can tell you know enough to do your work and all that is to do with English. So my thinking is that you tell yourself you don't know, but actually do remember, in case you didn't know, believes can shape the perception of your surroundings and since you believe that, your ability to remember is self sabotaged, after some time it becomes self reinforcing. Get some medical help because that is not normal, even people with dementia remember stuff, just not learn new things.
"Here we ditched the milk and kept the bottle,
So ask away, young Aristotle"
This one really got me.
What does it mean exactly? Just that society there had lost focus on the actual purpose of what wealth achieved?
I don't think I understood it properly either. Explain, please?
Instead of drinking milk as infants, we now drink alcohol the same way as adults. Unquenchably, as if for sustenance. All to alleviate our yearning feeling.
@@gentlydown41 @MiraculousMed Same as UltimateKyuubiFox said already, they changed the means, not the behavior. This reflects how today's adults are mere affection and care-dependent as a child would be, only that the adults changed the way they are coping with the issue, not necessarily how to fix it or get over it.
I think this really hits in everyone's adulthood because the one thing that should have been properly educated and which would've helped with today's problems is emotional resilience/intelligence.
I personally think that they're keeping the bottle to store alcohol since they feel that they no longer a child and now they don't need the milk anymore
Exurb1a, I hope you know that in spite of all the memes filling the comments, us viewers really deeply appreciate what you do. Your poetry, creativity...sometimes I really do forget you're not some mythical being telling stories from the ether. Thanks for making this video (even if you had a hard time). Hope you're doing okay with this virus havoc.
I concur!
Love this message because it's everything I wanted to say but was afraid I'd repeat someone else's words. Best of luck to you and your writing! Take care.... and your grandma as well :)
assuming he's not a mythical being telling stories from the ether
Thank you for saying it, my english sucks and I didn't know how to say this with my limited vocalubary.
Literally
Between five thousand other comments I'll see mine buried and forgotten, but I have to put to words what I now feel.
You, man, are the greatest content creator I have seen, your videos make me feel things no other can, every time I watch you, my mind is blown apart, and then I have some time to recuperate until another one goes out and I'm back here to have it blown again, it's like a drug now.
But above all, thank you, because you put this out here for us to see, because you share this part of you with us without expecting anything, and for that, I thank you. Thank you.
You know what? I am making this comment my back ground, so That I do not forget it easily.
Thank you for articulating the exact feeling I have for Exurb1a!
I agree with this more than words can say.
I felt the exact same about him...
Until I read this. It's sickening. I'm sharing it not to ruin your joy, but because people deserve to know the truth.
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@@loerpiou How do we even know that it is real?
Can’t stop crying starting from 23:00 till the end. This reminds me of my grandfather who has recently started to lose his memory and barely remembers me. But i do remember him and all the things he did for me. I love my grandfather and I remember everything for the both of us.
I woke today, not expecting
To find myself so deep reflecting
On another man’s accepting
Of our people’s grand exception
Nor did I expect to find
Countless others of my kind
Freeing poems of the mind
In this UA-cam comments section
But that’s the beauty, is it not?
That despite our world’s persistent rot
We can exult, our rampant lot
In a world we won’t live to see
For when I fall, to time or blade
And must pass through golden shade
I shall do so, unafraid
If only they remember me
wow
Hello friend, (such a funny word friend is) I'm writing this as I am seeking your help in a project of mine
Hello good sir can I get some tips on writing a poem
I can't poem
kassie rose Hello friend. I must confess myself intrigued. What sort of project?
Oh my gosh "you have been honourably discharged for being dishonourably in charge" is some deep ass wordplay. This is good poetry if ever I heard it.
When Watching these in misery
A friendly soul calls out to me
With passion in his poet words
He hits me deeply to my nerve
I had a gun put to my head
The hand that held it almost dead
But his wise words did stir in me
Memories of being free
The dying man who's hand is mine
Decides instead to come alive
To kick addiction in the teeth
And be the man I aught to be
Seeking freedom from the drug
The Turtle's words feel like a hug
And though he knows not who I be
He will always have a friend in me
Abccddbbefgbhhbb rhyme scheme just because I can
Crap, that comment is absolutely touching...
God damn stay strong
"have a friend in me"
I was here for the first time when the video came out and there was another poetry thread that started, glad to see another one here
It’s lovely that this was dedicated to his grandmother, also the ending might have made me tear up a little
MIGHT HAVE?
@@felipevalencia1141 potentially
im crying becuz of the ending-
@@nexusless yea it’s very emotional, he is very good at what he does
My Grammy died a couple years back.
How is no one talking about how this man can write a story and then make it all poetry and half an hour long
Did he write this
@@zavix4374 Yeah
I quit 2:21 minutes in, it doesn't mean anything unless someone can tell me what it does mean.
@@Ignirium Its a 30 minute story with some twists and lessons. It didn't really make sense till the final twist for me, I then started crying. I highly recommend watching the whole thing instead of just the first 2 minutes.
@@juniper2739 I just found that it's about a "fear of ageing."
I use philosophy(even art/music) to find understanding about meaningful and difficult subjects about life. I have criticisms about the utility of Poetry to convey meaning; mainly how it can communicate anything concisely, concretely, explicitly. I don't find Poetry useful for that reason, It works a lot like "Music" which allows its meaning to penetrate a person deeply, but i still don't know what it means... If the truth about the subject matter was easier to find in bedded within its communication, i'd like it, i can't find it so easily with poetry.
"You have been honourably discharged of being dishonourably in charge." - oof
Loved that line
And seeing as I'm in the military the recounting of the old world really struck a cord with me.
Damage has been dealt
and who might this "oof" you mention be?
@@youdontknowme3935 i do not know you but i know you are funny.
My father died on April 23rd, 2020 and my mother-in-law died on February 11th, 2020, the two most important people in my son's life next to his mother and me. My father told me he was feeling unwell on April 1st, went into the hospital on April 3rd, and died 22 days later. I could not see him before he died. My son is only 10, so he's not ready for this--not their deaths, not this art. I was not ready either. The Remember came up in my feed when it released but I couldn't bring myself to watch it until tonight when I heard the words "grandfather" and "empty head" and thought about my son and my father, how he teased my son about knowing so much and so little at the time. My father was a mathematician, but he got lost along the way and found himself bored on the isle of 6 with many shells and too much time--too little as it turns out. I want to say thanks for this. To exurb1a, to the people who don't have imaginations like exurb1a such as me, but can still pay attention and listen to such a unique mind. This work, and all of your work, has truly been a gift to me, and to my son, I hope, eventually, said he.
I hope things go well for you man and stay strong
That’s very strong, I feel your emotion.
Your son's going have a well of strength
I try not to go through the comments section too often as I'm frankly concerned about reading damning criticism I'll never be able to get out of my head, but messages like yours keep me sane. From the very bottom of my heart, thank you enormously. I'm so, so sorry to hear about the loss of your father and mother-in-law. The timing is absolutely horrendous, I can't even imagine how difficult it must be. I hope you and your son are doing well nonetheless, and thanks so much for the kind words. All the love in the world, and thanks again!
@@Exurb1a So even giants fear the ants bite.
Funny how the mind works....I listen to this long enough, and I start reading everything like it's a poem, looking for everything to rhyme and flow.
The twist at the end hit like a bus and explained the whole 'Empty head' letter (y'know, cos of the dementia)
I was awestruck by the end, such a beautiful ending nonetheless.
I hope your grandmother is doing good, 99 and 3/4 is fucking -old- young.
Thanks for your magnificent, existential (yet oddly calming) stories
Much love, from Australia.
98 3/4
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And when she dies, may she rest well in bed.
For she was never an empty head.
The colour coming back at the end is such a clever touch
Indeed
it reminds me of The Giver
@@gonderage holy sht ur right 0_0
Gonedridge The only thing I recognized at first was the philosophy ideas-but damn, I wonder how much of The Giver was from ancient philosophy
That was legitimately touching and well-written. For school I have to a project on a poet of my choosing and you just bought yourself that spot.
Jebedo Nackle good luck fellow patron
I already did a project like that but I wish I found this earlier
3 years later, and about 20 listenings, still bringing delight to my ears and a mishmash of thoughts to my head
I would be lying if I said I wasn't crying by the end of this.
I'd say most of us are, or at least feeling the emotion that triggers it. Simply stunning writing
I am just in tears at the end almost bawling, such a memorable story, so how does one write this? as to make people cry in remembrance?
as would all of us
Im surprised you made it to the end
I am too.
This is the modern poetry of the 21st century. We look back on old poems like ‘Charge of the Light Brigade’ and ‘In Flanders Fields,’ but I do hope that in the future, these are the types of poems that will be for our generation.
videos are the modern medium of story telling, so it's likely that a lot of the famous poetry that gets passed down will be in video form. Although the poetry that we study now is really just the most famous poets, not necessarily the best.
Can we just acknowledge how incredible of a storyteller Exurb1a is?
He is pretty good
He consistently makes me cry with his stories and I love him for it
Probably preaching to the choir, but uh... have you read his ebooks? I highly recommend the Fifth Science or the Prince of Milk. Bloody marvelous, both of em. Not quite sure which I love more, but were a gun to my head, I'd probably go with the Fifth Science.
This just makes me think that the only reason to perpetuate the human species is to tell each other more stories, it seems to be the only worthwhile thing we do, inventing things in our heads that aren't out there.
It’s how we started…l guess it’s the thing we are the best at.
This is a fucking masterpiece. I was never one for poems but this has aspects of humour, sadness, hapiness, plot twists and was probably the saddest and happiest 30 minute video I've ever watched. Also the power of music setting the mood PERFECTLY. It's almost like the sensation of nostalgia.
"and then we'll be okay" feels like a sequel to this, the new gods are the ones who left on the spaceship, leaving the old to revert back to base instincts, and the women from the story is one of sebastions grand children, this may be a stretch, but it feels like they fit together a bit too seamlessly
So I'll gladly tipsily admit that was totally where I was hoping to go with this. I really wasn't trying to build a shit version of Middle-earth, but that was secretly the plan
@@Exurb1a i love this video even more now god it makes so much sense
@@malaise7110 x2
@@Exurb1a Dude..so...the old folks here..they stay..."old" ?
@@Exurb1a Is the video about the star who became a white hole exploded back in time also connected to this?
Oh my god man, this is incredible. I'm genuinely speechless, I've been attempting to put together the words to say just how blown away I am every time I watch one of your incredible videos for a good while now, and I can't. You push the boundaries for the quality of these every time you upload, and that's not something I can say for any other person creating art, whether that's UA-cam, music, drawing, writing, anything. You turn my world upside down every time I see one of these, and you inspire me to no end!
I always look forward to uploads! His story’s never tire or disappoint.
you said it for me
here's a couple other amazing channels dude brew, KURZGESAGT in a nutshell, apeture, LEMMiNO great ones similar in style to this channel other great ones are
jon bois
, Kreal Tube, Code bullet, GradeAUnderA, The Thought Emporium, summoning salt, Micheal Reeves I did a thing. check them out i swear every singe one of those channels is worth at least watching one of those videos but especially the first ones if you like that style a lot you probably no in a nut shell but still hope u enjoy
BeepBoopboi while all of the channels you mention do create top tier content, none are as emotional or brilliant as exurb1a’s content. The only thing that comes remotely close is The Egg by kurzgesagt but that ones just a mindfuck.
God's mighty galactic co-
My dad's passing was hard. Demntia made the final years of his life a malaise of melocholy miasma. The struggle to retain the thoughts of inspirational rhetoric he bestowed unto me was made harder each day, yet something during this time of caring for him happened... I ended up being the one to inspire.
When I brewed his daily coffee, when we sat and talked, I patiently awaited for the waxing clarity of his waining mind to be brought forth. Sometimes I'd get to have my dad back for 5 minutes... those were the happiest days I could ever get. Sometimes he'd be gone behind the fog, and my hopes that he would return again kept me going. It's those short moments of talking to the real version of my father that made caring for him worth it.
And though he never told me, I knew behind my father's eyes that he was always proud of the man I had become. I was fortunate enough to have my dad's " true moment of clarity" a full hour in which he dispelled nothing but the love he had for me and the lack of fear he had for going to the other side. I feel that whatever awaits him, must be better than being trapped in a vessel where the lights are dimming.
Dementia is evil, everything that makes them who they are being removed slowly over time, until one day, this new person has replaced the mother you once knew and you can't remember what her voice sounded like anymore. It doesn't steal her personality or her memories, but it steals yours too. I'm so sorry for your loss. 💔
For such a small amount of years,
In my whole life living in rears,
Never have I encountered such a beauty, such endeavour
That made me hypnotised, fall in tears.
Thank you for the best thing I have watched on UA-cam. I love your work, mate.
Harun Sadi Sincanlı this
Cidden çok güzel
@@egesanl1 Happy to hear that. Don't give up on us:))
I know you probably wont see this but back in september of 2019, shortly after you released you video titled "Sleep is just death being shy" my best friend, a huge fan and long time follower of you, took his own life. This video gave me so many emotions im crying while writing this, thank you for being a part of his life, and shaping him to be the person i knew, even if for a short while.
My condolences, mate. I'll give you an upvote so Exurbia might see this.
i really wish i could write something more helpful or comforting or time worthy, but i'm just young and cant even imagine your experience. i just hope you're doing alright with all my heart, stay safe
Noah, I can't even begin to imagine what that must've felt like. I hope you and their family are in a better place now, and if you're not, take every little thing he or she has taught you, utilize it, and think to yourself "See, ______? I did the thing."
You can do the thing, and the day you are gone, I hope you can tell them that you did it
His videos are truly remarkable, nontheless this fascinating community with people like him and you who share close to poetic messages gives (if no one else) at least me chills... On how percious the little things in life can be. My condolences buddy
my condolences too
I like to believe this is in the same world of “and then we’ll be okay”
The Exirb1verse
God, please make that happen
the existential crisis extended cinematic universe!
More of a parallel universe if you will.
They lock up demented people under the waves for deeds done but the few in the name of collective guilt. Sounds quite a bit more like a vindictive cult society.
9:45 “how does one blow up a moon? By being smart enough to build technology that can do so, and simultaneously stupid enough to use it.”
This part was so impactful to me, and has been since the very first time I listened to this. I have shared this with friends and teachers alike, but the way it has changed my life is unmeasurable.
nukes be like
The path of humanity currently to lead to two destinations from my knowledge
-either we stay on the path we are on right now till its point of no return, refuse to learn to look at where we are going and choosing to stay in the illusion of what we have in the present. Money, fame, that useless thing you bought off amazon the other day, they will be gone eventually. However, it isn't looking like we are seeing this. Most of the people who rule us and run this 8 billion gear clockwork we call society (and a lot of other people who do not have that responsibility) have proven to be some of the most incapable and close minded people (Ironically, the people in power who do the best job using it normally have the smallest share of power). Their is only a few years of that oil, and I doubt we will be liking the end result of its depletion. Where this path of ignorance and self destructive selfishness will lead to? Probably destruction and chaos.
-However, Their is another path. If we allow ourselves to look to be successful in the long run of civilization on mass and treat power and control over society as a responsibility and put people of responsibility, intelligence, resourcefulness, determination, wit, bravery and good intentions for that task, we may thrive as a society and be known as the species who defied our own grave fate made by our elders hands, override our mistakes for the sake of a better world that could last for millennia or (if we nail this well enough) eons
We have more power than any species that came before had. We can either chose to take that responsibility and improve our world to help the generations of tomorrow. Or we can choose to take the path we are on now, either killing ourselves suddenly, or slowly descending into madness chaos. Every day, every hour, every second of your life, your parents lives, your neighbors lives, your friends lives, your girlfriend or boyfriends lives, your coworkers lives we go farther towards the event horizon of our own fate at our own hands. We can still change it, as long as we don't pass that point, but every second that passes this change to the second path requires more power, more will, more determination, which all at once is becoming a scarcity among our world.
The clock is ticking ladies and gentlemen. Every soul that takes up the will to defy our own ignorance is a slight push against the tide leading to destruction. with enough determination, wit, bravery, resourcefulness, responsibility and intelligence, we can reverse this path entirely and build a world beyond our wildest dreams. We just need the manpower
I am writing this at 11:08 PM after beating Deltarune Chapter 2 Because my ADHD wanted to get inspirational and philosophical for no apparent reason
I got so far without crying this time....but "Yes," said me. "I remember ye upon my knee and from the elm tree sat ten starlings deep, and I'd read you till you fell asleep." had me weeping. Your channel is seriously underappreciated
Man I cried it was so beautiful where can I find more this kinda stuff
"What is it, may I ask, that you remember?" "Ah, I know all the shows on cartoon network. And in all my years and places I've been, that little pickle man was the funniest shit I've ever seen."
Ahahahahhahahahaha i love this
Yup
Take my thumbs up and get out...
“Say, wheres the island of 21’s? The og memers and lords of the craft?”
PICKLE RIIIIIIIIICK
my grandmother passed away last month, and it really hit hard as i hadn't been able to see her in months due to quarantine. She was wise, and she was kind. She had dementia, and i remember how cold i felt when she couldn't remember who I was for the first time. But she continued to bring joy into my life, even then. This video reminds me of her.
Thank you turtle dude
I'm so sorry to hear that Laura - dementia is just awful to watch someone going through. I really hope you're on the way to feeling better. Big love, hope you're all right
@@Exurb1a @Laura...it's hard yeah. My gran passed away in the middle of my B-school final papers. I had never left her for a day since I was born. Only few months before the finals but luckily I was back for the exam.
I sit here as I type this where she breathed her last. It's been so many years, but I still can feel her.
She had dementia that went in to Alzheimer's. It was so hard. Especially when she wouldn't remember us. And the tiny second of short circuit in the brain when it would come back to her was so overwhelming and cute. The joy in my mom and my eyes was beyond words when she knew it was us.
I loved this video. Have I said that enough already....
Oh, God...so touching...and so beautifully crafted. ...thanks...
@laura. My dad too. A dementia type disease-progressive supranuclear palsy. Slowly descending into darkness he went. My best friend in later life Full of wisdom and love. A stern word when needed but all done with my future in mind. I hope I can be half the man he was
RIP Grandest Mother, I imagine a cat is walking her round heaven showing her where the cucumber sandwichs and Pimms are. Preparing for level up.
TURTLE DUDE
I was taking a walk and when the twist was revealed, I had tears fall out of my eyes while everyone on the walking track stared at me.
This is what happens when the god of existential crisis tries poetry
He could do with having a bit more existentialism.
And fails miserably...
@@frazerlaing7264 i dislike you
Whys that?
_tries?_
You know, I always boast about how "I never cry", like the literal child that I am: not to shitty dramatic movies, not to stress or anxiety... hell, I didn't cry at my grandfather's funeral.
But this video hit something deep inside of me, a visceral feel of nostalgia towards everything that ever happened and was lost to the ages, everything that will happen and that I'll miss, and everything that could've happened, were humans a little bit kinder.
Lately, with the whole quarantine thing, I've been talking with my father a lot, hearing his stories about the 70's, the 80's, even stories he's heard from his father about the war, the 40's, the 50's. It occured to me how, even with everything we know about the past, we really don't know shit compared to what actually happened since this little thing called Man started existing, and the few events that we remember are wars, killings, all the damage to our planet, fucking Bananacoins and such. Sure, it's important to remember our mistakes so as to not repeat them, but with everything we've done, the fact that people like you can still have a (relatively) optimistic outlook on the world and on what humanity can achieve really moved me to tears.
As I've said in the opening, I'm a cynical bastard: I don't care if people die, I think nothing matters, I don't "relate" with anyone to be completely honest... but everytime I watch your videos I feel that these great accomplishments (immortality, space travel, the fucking galactic empires that you love so much) really are within our reach. So, even remembering all the awful things we've done, my faith in humanity grows a little bit stronger. Thank you, exurb1a, for making me cry like a baby.
Also thanks to whoever's reading this whole things. I'm one of those "romance language" posh homosexuals, so my English is all over the place. Hope it's good enough.
It's good enough
Just finished the videos and his voice keeps stucking inside my head. Even when reading your comments i can hear the tone of his voice all over it.
_"Posh Homosexual"_ has some indescribably violent energy that I can't fathom how to explain
You want to know the best thing about thinking that nothing matters?
That fact doesn’t matter either. All meaning is subjective, so when you decide something is important there isn’t a damned person in the universe who can tell you you’re wrong and be right.
I cried because of all the reasons you described, but when thinking "why am I crying?" I condensed it all to just "all of this story and what it means is so beautiful, and thank God I am not alone in my ways of thinking about the world and how divine our efforts to apply meaning to this Thing can be".
Thank god for exurb1a and his will to share his creations.
P.s. I don't believe in god btw, just a figure of speech
“How does one blow up a moon?”
“By being smart enough to build technology that can do so, and simultaneously stupid enough to use it”
Ah, there you are, existential/depression/galaxy turtle.
*as if God had struck it with his mighty galactic co-*
There is another method.
A yellow superfast tentacle monster that wants to be a teacher could do it.
@@sirapple589 That's true
@@sirapple589 ehhh..... Never liked a show more than ac, thank you for making that reference
@Sir Apple you mean a mouse
This video is literally my adult bedtime story when I can't fall asleep at night. This story gives me peace as I play it while trying to drift off. I've come to this web address many a slumber. Thank you, Exurb1a.
Not even a single add let's just take a moment to appreciate this guy
@Danglie what does that have to do with it
Got two at the beginning. What's the moment for now?
@Danglie tbh i like the idea of him not putting the video up for monetization. To show that the video wasnt for money. But for a gift for his grandmother. Really sweet in my opinion
Exurb1a prolly isn’t even monetized since UA-cam doesn’t understand his big brain
Exurb1a is better than UA-cam because he is not bound by commerce and the worry of reputation. He's better than monetized, he's free.
Me: Tries and fails to rhyme two sentences
exurb1a: here, a 30min video of rhymes
Not to disregard artistic value of this treasure found among the UA-cam trash pile but it is (mostly) written in couplets which is essentially a big compilation of rhymes between two sentences
i want to like this but it has 69 likes. the universe has conspired against me
@Useless Input Guy /Bad Opinion Bud name fits 😂
I seriously feel sad for the people who haven't experienced the complex cocktail of emotions that come flooding through our brains as we listen to this masterpiece. Seriously, this hasn't even been viewed a million times but deserves to be listened to over a billion times.
👍👍👍
Honestly I’m surprised this never hit my feed I only noticed when I checked his Channel, I usually get all his new videos
@@josephroseen7188 ikr
To my dear UA-cam algorithm ,
Now we're fucking talking ,
bring more of that this way
The greatest line in human history:
“For our species, try at one last pardon. We are going alone together, back to the garden.”
Truly beautiful
Struck a core, it's quite profound
‘By this time next year, I’ll be a bananacoin billionare’
uhhhhh, maybe...
"Honorably discharged of being dishonarably in charge"
I wish you’d get more recognition than this, not just as a UA-camr, but as a philosopher, writer and much more. I want you and your stories to be remembered for generations to come. Everything you write is amazing and brings me (and probably everyone else) to tears every time.
Yeah I can definitely agree on the tears part. This was an absolutely marvelous story.
real men aren't afraid to cry for exurb1a
He's a philosopher and an artist truly.
i think that this is a new form of art which is not just words on a page but the use of technology to better display those words
Dejen’ Eratte It’s unbelievable that this is available for free online with no ads
Just clicking "like" feels really insufficient in the face of this genuine and heartfelt content... On the surface it seems dreary and dry, yet I could not tear myself away. Could not stop watching and listening, like hypnotized.
Also, I love the visual style. Kind of like the visual equivalent of a Shepard tone.
When I first saw this was half an hour long I thought "No way, I have 2 history DBQs i have to finish today I'm just gonna watch the first 5 minutes then leave..." 25 minutes later and I realize the video is almost over, and I'm sad, and I have no idea how to express my reaction to this video, it definitely deserves more than a like.
He has a patreon! Just letting you know in case you wanted to show appreciation another way
God damn, ive listened to this so many times yet it still manages to draw tears
Me, awake unreasonably early: Boy I sure wish there was something to do for 30 mins while my brain starts.
Exurb1a: Yes
Stuart Simon same.
"The greatest work of the quarantine era "- future literature and philosophy classes
I can legitimately see this becoming literature in a few decades
Within the decade will this artefact bring light.
Oh shut up you don't seriously believe this will go on for longer then a few months (or, in the case of wave two, perhaps half a year)
I get it, everybody wants to feel all important and go down in history rn, grow up.
thirty minutes that felt like three. that was quite something.
Its the other way around for me, I thought its almost finished but its only 5 mins in..
thirty minutes that felt like three..
fucking hours
I was looking for a distraction
I found a poem so beautifully crafted
You'd think the author was grafted
Now im ashamed of my action
This made me feel some sentiment
The ones you feel once a year
Made me think in dreadful fear
All about the nature of the dent
Our house, our planet
And the more we crave and crave
The more we are filling up that grave
Time is slowly passing
Soon enough you might not remember anything
Not your dad, not your sister, not your husband
All because of one bad bastard
The one who makes us forget
The ones you meet, the ones you met
All the more the worse it will get
So I must thank them for evertything
That doesn't exclude you or anything
Thank you for your effort
I'll then pat you for your endevour
Every posting you might present
I shall share it with my friend
Thank him for his devotion
You made me feel real emotion ❤
I want you to know, no, DEMAND YOU to know you have saved a life. More than once actually. With this video and tho I dont know you or anything about you, but all of your videos have moved me in ways that, on 2 times for certain, gave me some bit of light that hit just right top remind me that ik not alone. Misery, one day, will be "was". The way you do the thins you do is something.....other. idk. You've unintentionally saved my life multiple times and I want you to to know that so you can feel the pride you deserve for being an endless source of "getting back up, dusting myself off and putting one foot in front of the other tomorrow. Had I not heard your words, that tomorrow wouldn't have come. 2017. I am forever in your debt. Thank you.
You can feel pride in yourself too. To me you are the one that eventually got yourself up and walked yet a little further.
I'm proud of you too. :)
Hi there friend! As someone who has felt similarly, I encourage you to see it as Exurb1a and his art giving you pause and strength to save your own life when you needed it. It allows him to create without feeling necessarily responsible for human life (which can be pretty stressful), and acknowledges the strength already inside you. Much love 💛💛
Here’s the thing though. We are all, necessarily, responsible for human life. That’s why inaction causes one to feel such sorrow. Deep down we *know* we _are_ guilty of not doing all that we should be. It’s a heavy burden but it is what it is. And if we don’t lift ours, certainly no one else will.
@exurb1a thank you for carrying your load. I trust you will continue in faith because it does matter.
Everything does.
PossumKing 〰
Yes.
The only truth is that of absolute meaning. The existential meaning we apply on our own, because by our very nature we are imbued with the right and authority of ourselves to give meaning to ourselves and anything else we see. Or at least, so it is for me.
There is your 700 hundredth like. Hope many more come
let’s just thank the world for giving us this man who wakes some up and helps others sleep good day to you
I won't take the compliment, but my god, that is such, such a good line
@@Exurb1a, I don't know you, I don't know your name, I don't know your life story, but you're my favorite artist. Ever. With any medium. I truly truly mean that
@@antonioskontonasakis Thank you, Tony, that's ever so kind! Much love
@@Exurb1a It was random recommendations of UA-cam the way I found your channel, the first video universe in 4 mins and next and next. Never had listened such literature such creativity I was fan from the day one and I found you in the lockdown period, my greatest gem. From that day I continue to listen your videos like I'm addicted to it. It help me to complete my essay in essay competition from 'thoughts about writing' later came castrovitity that was too good. Then, in perspective of seeing world thank you for everything. Handling myself in tough times with your videos, the humour, the deep meaning like picture of lady in the border of line of understanding everything is just perfect. I had even posted in Facebook "thoughts from deadbed". Currently I am a student studying but its been a bucket list when I will be independent I will be your galaxy patron and explore and read all your books,I will one day and if possible may we will meet one day. That would be cool, that would be a treat, One day.
Thank you exurb1a 💜💜💜
Much love than you expected from Nepal 🇳🇵🇳🇵🇳🇵
So true
"Smart enough to build technology to do so, and simultaneously stupid enough to use it."
words for our times *and* the times to come.
Me: *isolation related anxiety and stress*
Turtleman: *uploads*
Me: *nervous sweating*
me: FARTS
lol...
any time i see nervous sweating i just think of the key and peele skit where jordan is just dripping
@@splatmat8360 lol
One of the things that haunt me the most in this world are reddit meme format youtube comments, It pains me mentally that I may have to see these everytime I peer into the comment section.
This has brought me great puddles of tears as my grandma had died so close to its premiere.
I love the way the new gods talk; It is a reminder for strange ways cultures evolve.
The plot twist was great. The message was clear. I should've spent more time with her before she disappears.
I love you for everything you have made, Exurb1a.
You've saved me from death and warded away my fears
You've helped me on levels in life I could not clear.
This masterpiece rivals "and then we'll okay" and "Sleep Is Just Death Being Shy"
And such philosophy and stories are why you may be the best fucking thing that has helped me through life.
Thank you, Extensialist Turtle.
Best Wishes to your Grandmother, hopes she lives longer and happier than the oldest person to have ever lived.
May we learn to treasure what we have, before we see that it is gone
Give your mothers a hug today and every day, so then there will be no regret in Heaven
But should we make it to the isle of Nine, let us hope that when we have our unlimited rice pudding we'll say "Misery was"
And thank our lucky stars that our wheel of future history didn't land us something shitty.
But anyway, for now, Happy Mothers Day
Until we may meet again
Two years ago, when my birthmother died, I started following exurb1a.
His poetry has the power to turn misery into melancholy and to find beauty in that.
A week ago, my stepmother has passed and here we are, collectively crying to a story celebrating the beauty of memories and treasuring the legacy of your elders.
And while we we cry of painful loss, there's tears of hope as well, motivating us to strive for the Ninth Isle and the Garden beyond.
@@tbretten Let's hope that garden ends better than its predecessor
exurb1a: does "and then well be okay" and "epsilon dies backwards"
everyone: holy shit thats good
exurb1a: wanna see me do it again?
Legit af
because theyre all the same universe, i hope he adds more videos to this trilogy
And then we'll be okay fucked me up real good, I was bawling my eyes out
isn’t it upsilon
@@watermomantic4828 wait, srsly? Can someone make a timeline for this?
Edit: so upsilon dies backward is the first one right?, then uh..this one then what the last one is we'll be okay? The island that the narator and sebastian made? Im confused? Help?
Does agatha and oliver still alive? What happened to the zeus? What the hell happened in the trilogy? WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?!
I clicked on this by random chance yesterday, the day that my grandfather died. He was 98 and 3/4 years old, his birthday a mere 2 months away. He was every one of these things your grandmother was to you, and he was the last of a generation. I am currently crying and I just wrote what I felt. Thank you for this, I didn't realize I had all this feeling in me since I'm still numb at the moment.
I love you granddad, you never gave up on me, and because of that, I don't think I'll ever give up on me either. Not because it's what I'd have done, but because it's what you no doubt are still doing. Thank you for believing in me, for telling me how proud you were of me every single damn day that I saw you, and for blessing me with story after story and knowledge and wisdom and care and love and joy and remembrance and all these things I can now only realize I took for granted. I will find the words to speak at your funeral, and I will muster the courage to stand up and do so, because ill be damned if its hard or if ill fall apart, because you were worth it all from the start. I was born into a family that loved and cherished me, headed by a man with the utmost dignity. And while I sit here a blubbering mess, crying and thinking of all that I missed and the days together I'll no longer get to have with you and the memories of your voice speaking my name that will only ever exist in my mind from now until forever, do I find some semblance of the words I wish I had told you. I love you granddad with all my heart, you were not just the head of our family with a big heart, but a friend and father that chose now he would part. I hope you're with grandmom up in the clouds and feel safer and warmer without a care in the world. I hope you two dance into infinity together and happy at last, no longer by the world now beneath you. You've given rise to a family that loves you deeper than ever and that feels broken but able to carry on your legacy. And as one of the only two children left with your name, my brother with the same, will I carry myself into the future with pride and with dignity that only you could have given me. I am afraid of the world but know that I can because I've had the best damn family in all the land watching me carefully and guiding me gently with a kind tender hand that I could always feel softly. So thank you for the life you've given me and the blessings of your words. Thank you for letting me travel with you and talk your ear off till the sun sets and the night takes the sky. Thank you for being my biggest fan and for loving me always, and for believing in me when the world seemed to have nothing left for me. Thank you for seeing the possibility and willing to bet it all on me, so you just watch from up there in the sky cuz I'm gonna make you damn proud. I fucking love you granddad. I'll see you when I see you, and thank you for having a birthday.
I found this today and didn’t know what it was, I started listening to it. Somewhere in the middle of the poem, my mum called me to lunch and told me that my grandmother had passed away about 90 minutes prior. I called my girlfriend and talked to her about it, afterward I finished listening to The Remember, which took on a whole new significance to me.
My grandma had given me her car and I’m in the process of getting my driving license. She seemed so excited for me to be driving it but in the end it never happened while she was alive.
Worse still, I don’t live in the same country as my grandmother, neither does my mother. The COVID travel restrictions have made it impossible for us to visit her and in the end she died alone, in bed. The last thing she said to me (via FaceTime) was to make sure she doesn’t get cremated while wearing her nice clothes, and to not spend her money on nonsense. I don’t know where I’m going with this, but this video (and especially the timing) hit hard for me.
Thank you for making this and I hope your grandmother is doing alright
i’m so so sorry for your loss, i can’t imagine what you’re going through right now. make her proud. she’s watching you from heaven❤️
Jason Liu thank you for those kind words :)
💐🕊
Wherever she is, she's proud of you, mayhaps it be in Xanadu. Or everywhere, with nothing there, the infinites of open air. A love letter to love herself, an obituary from death himself, a memory of life itself, which timeless artifacts remain, an imprint of the human brain, will live on forever.
Oh my God, I didn't expect to be crying like a baby towards the end. Powerful stuff. You have a gift, exurba1.
For real. It’s currently 12:30 and I’m sobbing
I completely agree, it was beautiful.
Agreed. That was incredible, he has such a way with words.
It really caught me off guard too. How could he. Not what i signed up for. Hadn't even prepared any damn tissues.
Washing the dishes with headphones on, I leave my phone on the counter. I'm half way done as the video comes to an end, I have tears in my eyes and an odd sense of clarity, the video ends, and... Silence. I'm left to my thoughts until my task is done.
What an unexpectedly strong experience.
That has to be the greatest Mother’s Day gift ever
I can't describe with speak noir writing but the conclusion was intense.
Now I'm crying alone in my bed, and the tears burn immense.
Thank you for this work of art.
Even though it feels like everything is falling apart.
Imagine how incredible this would be if it was movie. The jaw dropping sets, the masterful twist, and the wider road to write with themes and foreshadowing. This would be incredible.
100% agree, if done well, it would make the best movie
It already is within your head.
@@Clowning4round :')
This was an absolute masterpiece!!! I can't imagine how much effort was put into the insanely tight writing!! And the concept was the product of an insanely creative mind! And making a 30 minute long poem is insane especially one that was able to bring tears to my eyes! Man I really appreciate your work! Keep it up this is creativity in it's purest state! No jumpcuts or trends to make people click, no 10 minute duration in hopes of having the algorithm favor you, just pure art! Fantastic!! So glad I found your channel!
David Rico yeah man this is UA-cam at it‘s highest form 🤩
"Who lives there?"
"No one he said .
Or the remains of the dead,
The legacy of our forefathers who would rather blow up a moon,
Than two teams agree on some tune...
They would peaceably dance to."
Damn.
Not gonna lie blowing up a moon sounds more exciting than dancing
@@valentine8161 I'M PISSING ON THE MOON! HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT OBAMA
This made me feel a certain way
That words will not portray
I've been good with language since my youth
But I forget that I lie , not lay
But though I lie , I'm not a liar , for I speak the truth
I and you both desire that life will treat us good
Treat us well is the correction
But now rhyming's my intention
And correction's wrong as well
Irony is fun as hell
This is not a comment , but an entry
A long way to say " I like poetry"
I loved it
Yet for I am only a teenager
So young and stuck in my own desires
Not wise enough to make my own stories,
And no stories to tell
I still find myself listening.
For there is one man
Sitting a whole world away,
Who writes to me, and everyone a few times a year
Sharing glamorous stories of snakes,
And those of Science-fiction, and war.
But as inexplicable as it may be,
His stories stick with me.
And perhaps one day when I've explored the world,
Love,
And true hate..
Will I be able to make the same mark on someone else,
as you did me.
Thank you, my space-turtle friend.
I see this comment in the sea. That quite relates to me. And as I read with agreement and awe. I think in these moments. How this comment merits more recognition.
and here i lie, a teen now, a man in few weeks, still looking, looking for something i can not know
Dude that sounds really nice, do you do poetry in your spare time ?
True
Well done. Need to keep an eye on you. That spark, was significant.
Hey man I know that we don’t know each other and this may come off weird and out of nowhere. But I had started watching you videos back at the end of last year and it was just a really dark time for me. I had found your videos, just the way you made a smile on my face all while pushing a little knowledge in me, you had talked about things that I had questions for years about how people think and honestly man some of your videos brought me to tears. Just keep doing you man if you ever do see this thank you
Tears my dude, exurb1a is one of the few persons who brings me to tears. His work is beautiful and unlike many say doesn’t give me existential crisis, but infact inspires me to work harder for my own future, the future of the ones dear to me, for the future of humanity (maybe not yet :P )
ViZ Toast hope you're doing well
I'm in the same boat, about a year ago I found this channel and and now cant get enough. Really helped me in a dark place
On his second channel he made a video about saying this, and why you should tell your favorite... whoever how much they mean to you. He has made EVERYTHING.
I agree.
“Why here we’ve ditched the milk but kept the bottle. Ask away young Aristotle”
~Exurb1a
This man is a genius
@mytoenails since they've grown up they no longer drink milk, but now drink alcohol instead
@mytoenails I think this is referring to Aristotle's way of describing how conception works where he said that semen curdles inside the womb and form a baby much like how rennet is used to form cheese from milk.
From the line 'ditching the milk' I'm thinking that the people in the story are infertile. They can have sex but won't get pregnant. That's what I got from this line.
@@mdsalimshahedshajid you may be reading slightly too deep into it. The ones and twos are just old enough that they are no longer children/babies in their world's eyes, and also they drink alot. Referring to him as aristotle is just a cheeky jab and a clever rhyme imho
@@DistantSon.2 Agreed. I read it as them having ditched the milk in that they're no babies suckling on their mother's teet no more and that they replaced it with debauchery & booze like one (mostly) does as a teen. And as you said, Aristotle was a seeker of answers, much like the protagonist in the story, so it's just a witty jab in line with the rhyming scheme of the story.
The Monty Python ‘philosophers drinking song’ - “ Aristotle Aristotle was a bugger for the bottle, Hobbs was fond of his dram and Rene Descarte was a drunken fart, I drink therefore I am”.
I’m going through the process of accepting losing my own grandmother now, at 94 and most of the 95th. The timing made it feel so relevant, but even that aside, this is beautiful, sad, happy and compelling. Thank you for making it ❤
This made me feel emotions I didn’t even think could exist
After a half-hour of deep thought, I have come to one conclusion. Exurb1a doesn't like war.
It would be nice to avoid it
@@Exurb1a Right? War is sucky, without even experiencing it but only seeing it, it makes me feel numb and lethargic like I don't even want to move if war ever happens
WERE GONNA F*CKING DIE ITS ALL A DREAM😧🤯
Neither do I.
@@Exurb1a war is an inevitability, there will always be people, cruel and clever, to take charge and cause chaos, therefore there is always a need for those, kind and wise, to take charge and stop their madness, whether it be a bloody war, an economic war, a political war, or a social war, there will always be war, for if there isn't, the world will suffer.
Moral of the story :
To live well one needs
LOADS OF DRUGS AND HIGH STRENGTH BEER
Greetings, @@harrycullen2213 I want you to know that I intentionally took the 70th like for myself.
It belongs to me now.
Kind Regards,
An Asshole
I don't think u get the point
@@megaredscoutlive5289 wooosh
@@megaredscoutlive5289 no, you don't get the point
U right
Im crying rn. Beautiful work!
Took me so many tries to make a comment I felt summarised my feelings on this. My grandfather struggles with dementia. It's always so sad to see that he's forgotten me. He doesn't remember what he had for breakfast, but he will talk about his youth for hours. It's always the same stories, but he lights up every time and that makes up for it all.
Thank you for the video, and good health to your grandma.
I'm really, really sorry to hear that. I've watched it happen to another grandparent, and it's godawful - I hope you're doing okay. We can only try our best to make them comfortable really. (So, there've been some amazing results from music therapy in dementia patients recently, mainly from playing them songs they loved in their youth. It might be worth looking into if you haven't already. All the best! www.dementiauk.org/music-therapy/ )
@@Exurb1a I will, thank you.
Bi-Polarbear quite the same, my grand father is exactly the same. It is absolutely scary to watch. I am « lucky » I wasn’t too close with him (he wasn’t the best person possible let’s say) but still it makes me scared that it happens to my 3 other grandparents (who I am really close with).
Bi-Polarbear this is completely unrelated, but I love the song your username comes from.
You know those times when you find a piece of literature or art and think, "Man, I hope the future generations remember this."
Thank you for gifting this video, nay, this entire channel to us. Listening to your thoughts has been a journey I hope goes for a while longer.
Hey Zachary,
‘Dear Empty Head’
I can tell this is going to be another bright, cheery video.
Well..
It kind of was at the end
And so it was 🥳
Wartrix I guess so.... Maybe more bitersweet than bright or cheery. It still pains me that family or paradise ended up being a binary choice. That is the way I like it though, no exurb1a video is complete without at least a little pain.
That was the most beautiful piece of art from you..it's like a continuation of' And then we will be okay'.
can't believe it's been an year since that video was uploaded.
Also Your book ' the fifth science' is a masterpiece.
waiting for more :)
Much
Every story seems independent, but I see where you're coming from. Kind of like the same timeline, but a different perspective... but then again, this sort of timeline is nothing new for Exurbia