Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (ADHD)
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- Опубліковано 18 бер 2021
- Rejection sensitive dysphoria is an extreme sensitivity to rejection, real or perceived. It is a common part of emotional dysregulation for people with ADHD though it isn't officially on the list of ADHD diagnostic criteria, or acknowledged as an official ADHD symptoms.
In this video I'm talking about my experiences with rejection sensitive dysphoria, and the progress I've made towards coping better, and how I made it.
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Hi I'm Purple Ella and my family is an autism family with three out of five of us on the autistic spectrum. I also have ADHD and connective tissue disorder (hypermobile Ehlers-danlos syndrome). So life can be a challenge but also a lot of fun.
The feeling that every friendship/relationship is on an invisible timer before the other party is "done" with you. Very relatable.
this. explains. my. whole. life.
@@shan22777 since i got 13 :(
I haven't experienced this, HenryViii Fake.
@@shan22777 If they tell you what they need, it's reasonable, and you won't do them, you may have rejected them, Shan? On the other hand, I was rejected by my husband after my ADD diagnosis, who did it by "forgiving me for ruining his life." I had to get a divorce, even though I loved him.
OMG YES. Like it's only a matter of time before I feck it up. And then eventually, I indeed do and that person either drops me as a friend or takes a step wayyy back. How very sad for all of us who suffer from this. We all have to remember it isn't our fault and we're not bad people!
The emotional dysregulation aspect of ADHD should be studied much more extensively than it currently is. It’s SUCH a huge part of my ADHD experience.
It seems like volatile or dysregulated emotions in ADHD only get brought up in context with impulsivity and extraversion, when someone's excitement or overwhelm spills over, because in situations like that, they're obvious from the outside. However, I don't express emotion like that, at all. I don't even experience many feelings in real time - especially difficult ones tend to arrive with delay, or I only realize I have them once they're above some threshold level. I suppose I adapted to the world by internalizing everything. I agree that there needs to be more extensive documentation of the nuanced internal states and secondary effects of the condition. Things like rejection-sensitivity should be brought up when the diagnosis is made, even if it's not part of diagnostic criteria, because information like that is going to matter to the patient and their need to understand themselves and their condition. We _only_ get a diagnostic term and a prescription. The information flow between patient and doctor seems to only be going one way in the diagnostic process: to the doctor. They'll only register what's relevant to matching the manual's symptom catalogue. Humans are social creatures - being afraid of connection and rejection affects everything from job searches to a fulfilling private life! I was diagnosed in late 2018. The conversation seemed to assume that I already knew what it meant: having a hard time focusing, memorizing, and filtering/withstanding sensory information. I didn't know shit about all the further implications! The medication helps me do tasks a lot, yes. But I still majorly struggle to get my life together and I believe "invisible" aspects about the bigger picture of the condition have everything to do with it. I'm having myself put on the autism assessment waiting list, too, but they told me it was two years long.
My experience, also. I’m glad you brought that up.
Agreed! It's been such a huge part of my experience as well, and I'm shocked that I've only learned about it recently. When I heard there's a name for what I've been feeling my entire life, it all just clicked into place. But now I'm left wondering what I can do about it, and so I hope it is studied further.
The emotional aspect is probably even more relatable than the attention aspect. If it got more attention it might help ADHD's image as just not being able to focus on work.
This rejection sensitivity is soo painful. It’s so hard to manage.I find it very hard to handle my emotions when someone rejects or criticizes my motives. I also find it hard to hold tears back.
There was a time when I rejected a girl who confessed that she was crushing me. I said “I’m going to have to say that I’m not interested in you” then she said that I broke her heart. We weren’t even dating. Jeez! 😤
ikr, same
So do I. And then it replays in my brain for a long time.
Yes!!!! Trying to hold back tears is so hard.
Me too. Can't shake it and if I'm at work, it's terrible
I'm autistic and I have this. Many many autistics have this. It depends on our functioning, along with also trauma for growing up autistic in a neurotypical society, masking (people pleasing), low self esteem, also perfectionism, wanting control.
I have both Aspergers and ADHD Inattentive and have RSD
same I have autism ADHD and RSD
I’ve finally managed to push everyone away and have no one now. If anyone reading this still has anyone in their lives, please don’t let them go. This is hell. 💔
I am so very sorry. I really do understand.
I hope you find new friends and loved ones 🙏🏽❤️🍀
My daughter and I suffer from this, and adhd. I was just diagnosed with Autism and I want to thank you for having something to do with me seeking a diagnosis and accepting my own differences. You’re a wonderful advocate and I am so happy I’ve found your channel. ❤️
I feel rejected by my cat. I laughed at myself. but. it's automatic default response to distancing behavior.. but my cat? I am so glad i am not the only one, well it is a bit comforting. :)
Hahaha! Same! 🤣
Same XD
I feel rejected by both of my dogs 😭😭😭
This resonates with me too much. It has reached the point where I notice myself avoiding situations where I think I might be rejected. For example, if friends meet up and I wasn't explicitly invited, I shy away from asking whether I can join because there's a chance they could say no, and I tell myself I don't ask because I want them to inrinsically contact me. It leaves me more lonely than I would have to be these days, and I struggle to fight it even though I fully understand where it's coming from and what events in my past have made me even more sensitive.
Edit: I was typing this while still in the middle of the video (what else do you expect from someone with ADHD) and now you got to the post-social-interaction catastrophizing and I'm in tears. I used to struggle just a little with that, but then there was a situation where somebody did indeed misunderstand me and it caused a huge rupture that lead to the very painful ending of a friendship very dear to me because it triggered their insecurities, and obviously that experience worsened my post-interactiion catastrophizing and haunts me in many situations as I'm desperately trying to avoid losing anybody else for such unnecessary reasons.
My biggest fears are rejection and abandonment. Every time a friend disconnects from me, I feel gutted. I always get worried that my current friends and family members are mad at me or don’t want a relationship with me. It’s so painful.
I heard a lot about myself in this video 🤔
Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your experiences with us, Ella! I've struggled with this my whole life, too. Its caused me to isolate myself from potential friends so I don't inconvenience them with my presence (since of course they hate me, or will if I hang around long enough). Even if you assure me I'm not a burden, I'm convinced otherwise! It's comforting to know I'm not the only one who does this
Grace you made me laugh! I needed that! Haven't laughed in ages.
I find it hard to put words to my feelings & experiences. I read your note & I'm like.... yup! 😆 yup! 😆
I wish I could laugh off the fear & anxiety that socializing causes. I dread it 😭. All the best to you love.
This is something that’s been really hard for me to deal with my whole life as well. Even the smallest off-hand comment from someone who I rationally know loves me will really hit hard, really hurt-and they’ll have no clue. Still, intentional or not, those little (or sometimes big) things sting so so badly, the tears come automatically, I just can’t help it.
I also have trauma that makes this even harder, one being having a great group of friends up through the end of 5th grade and then the first day of 6th grade, every single one of those kids straight up refused to acknowledge my existence. I guess masking and being able to make people laugh to accept me was no longer enough as the rest of the kids became way more socially aware. Oh well, their loss! 😋 But yes, I completely feel what you say about past trauma interacting with RSD, it’s.....rough.
Also, forgot to add, I can even experience RSD from animals! An animal (say, a cat-I LOVE cats) is fine one second, and the next they bite/scratch, oooooooh boy, here comes that RSD pain, the waterworks, etc.
I can totally relate to your post you are not alone
OMG I am you. I get it. Have suffered with this condition my whole life only I just learned what it even was, let alone that it was on account of my ADHD. I'm 62 now! I can't even count the friendships/professional relationships I've irreparably damaged because of this.
I am 60 y.o.and also just learned of this. I am going to be evaluated for adhd in a week and a half. Due to my age and hormone changes, along with trauma throughout my life, I believe it has made things worse at my later age. I am trying hard to learn as much as possible so I can help myself in the future. I too, have had multiple relationship failures. How are you coping now?
i recently learned that RSD is a thing, thanks to a friend of mine who also has adhd. knowing that the intense fear i feel after most (if not all) social interactions, however brief or 'meaningless' those interactions are, is not a fault of mine, has been incredibly freeing. i've always had a habit of hyper-analyzing interactions with acquaintences and friends until i convince myself that i somehow massively fucked up and thus have given them reason to hate me, even if i received zero "negative" reactions from them and both of us were happy the entire time.
now that i know about RSD, i catch myself hyper-analyzing old interactions on a daily basis. being able to go "oh, i'm only thinking this because of RSD," is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. not only does it explain years and years of "self-made" stress (irrational stress that i was convinced was based on reason), but it saves me from the stress of every single social interaction i'll have in the future. knowing that the dread, fear, and pain i feel after having fun with friends & meeting new people is only a result of my brain fucking me over has improved my life almost as much as getting on medication has.
"post social interaction catastrophizing" is a phrase that perfectly describes something that i previously had no clue how to describe. it'll probably stick with me for the rest of my life. so, thank you. thank you very, very much for sharing your experience. it's helped me an incredible amount, and i'm sure it's helped thousands of other people, too.
Great video! I also experience RSD. Although it also helps me to pause and think through things rationally, it never solves that painful feeling of rejection. It's such a strange experience to force yourself to think through things rationally even while your emotions are telling you you're wrong.
So true! ❤️
This topic should be talked about more, thank you for spreading the knowledge, it's very helpful for those who feel RSD.
I wouldn't be surprised if people have ADHD, Autism Spectrum Disorder and C-PTSD at the same time. The abuse and neglect children with Autism, ADHD does leave them sometimes deeply traumatized.
Yep. I’m confused. All four overlap.
I first heard about this about a week ago, and I was stunned. This is me exactly. Thank you so much for talking about it!
Your video and your ability to verbalize the issue brought tears to my eyes. I've lost many friends, family and even my partner due to just never being able to commit completely in a relationship.
I had tried to explain it unsuccessfully, Maybe I lack the language to explain it or I was under a denial of my actions that I regretted later. I will share this video with anyone who is close enough to me.
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My girlfriend just went to go take a nap because she was tired and she thought the documentary i was watching was a little cheesy. she just made a little joke about that and now i'm sitting here sobbing.
Thank you for making this video and making me feel less alone
Excellent well stated!!! Finally someone who can explain what my wonderful wife/partner goes through. You have given us both a path for health, healing, love, and peace. Again publicly I will say... “ I love you Kate, that’s not going to change “.
I've had to work very hard on this one. My best strategy to cope with this has been to recognise it as a disorder, a chemical imbalance if you will. I try to think of alternate explanations and buy myself time, enough time to wait for more information until i'm more sure and don't have to make assumptions that usually lead me to negative reactions.
That sounds really uncomfortable and painful to have to deal with all the time.
Also, one of the best descriptions of dog-human relationship.
This is by far the most painful aspect of my ADHD. It took me till only a few years ago to know this is a just another part of my adhd. I wish I would have known this years ago. I would have known that I wasn’t crazy.
WOW! This describes me EVERY SINGLE DAY. I waa diagnosed WITH ADHD 17 Yrs ago. I told my psych how I scored really high on two of the spectrum disorder tests online and he dismissed me right away. But after watching this video I can say with a certainty that I have this RSD. But it's mostly with my husband and it has put such a strain on our marriage. He says that nothing he does for me ever good enough for me. He says I demand perfection or I feel offended and rejected by him daily and throughout the day and so we constantly bicker 😞 His personality is one that I feel is offensive. He jokes about things in regards to me or is critical of me ( he doesn't acknowledge most of it ) he's corrective and UGH! Its aggravating. Sometimes I get he gets frustrated at my brain fog and impulsitivity but just don't have a clue where to go from here. Thanks for sharing your experiences.
I’m actually in the midst of working through an episode this very moment. Your video is timely! Thank you for sharing your examples 💗
this has effected me my whole life.
It's very sad when the rejections comes from family and children. Family are supposed to care about us unfailingly. It's sad when a parents rejects.
This all hit home so much……
And when you mentioned the dog……I thought I was the only person who ever felt that way!!!
So frustrating
Me too😂
You've been such a rainbow in my life. I'm so thankfull for your vlogs please keep doing what your doing so many of us need you Purple Ella. ❤ 🌈
Thank you for this useful and succinct description. It is good to hear this more nuanced description because it explains there is a difference between this motivated by ASD/ADHD responses and that motivated by symptoms of BPD. There are overlaps in symptoms in these two very different diagnoses and what you've said shows that it is not the same as fear of abandonment as in BPD.
The word dysphoria sums it up very well, that is the feeling exactly, and the thought that I may have upset someone somehow is mortifying and never part of the intention or my expectation - the subsequent ruminations always still come as a surprise - like, I may have enjoyed my interaction with persons and left feeling everyone was happy, but I will still find my mind questioning things and cringing or feeling uncomfortable.
Me to.
Yes
This sounds familiar. I worry a lot that I have upset people and usually it isn't even true. I know that most people won't want to be friends with me. Thankfully, I have a small circle of ND friends. I also have a loving boyfriend who sounds a bit like Mr. Purple.
Sounds like me
You don't even know how validating this video was for me. Hearing you describe your own experiences with this, outside of a few minor personal details, was like listening to myself describe what I thought was just me being overly sensitive for as long as I can remember. I never thought other people experienced this on the same level that I do and it always made me feel so alone. I've never felt such a wave of pure relief and validation sweep over me before. I think this is one of the few times when the UA-cam algorithm showed me exactly what I needed to see exactly when I needed to see it. Thank you, thank you so much, for making me feel so much less alone. I think I have a lot of research to do.
How did you manage to capture my thoughts and feelings so perfectly? Did you execute some kind of elaborate, The Matrix meets Mission Impossible meets Inception type stunt, whereby you infilitrated my house in the darkest depths of night, chloroformed my still-not-sleeping-because-I'm-a-pirennial-insomniac form, and planted some sort of bug in my head?! Because those are my thoughts and feelings, almost to the letter. Whenever I make a new acquaintance / colleague / friend / romantic partner, etc, whatever their neurotype, I always feel like I'll soon be "too much" and am already on borrowed time.
Thank you for another beautifully articulated, wholly relateable video!
Helpful to have a name for a condition and straedgy that runs along with the self-isolation that can occur in a mix of ASD an ADHD. Still hurts but a pause inserts itself.
Thank you for talking about this it must of not been easy. For me it is the worst part of having adhd. My childhood was very hard and was bullyed every day for being different. I lose most of my family when i was really young to illness. So the feeling of being abandoned and rejected is so high. I become a people pleaser and lost myself. This also made me a narcissist magnet. I would think they where my friend but it was just because i was easy to use.
you have no idea how painful this is and the life it leads you into , the shame from one own personality, being imposter and people pleasing
the one about really going over a social interaction and analyzing it and worrying about it resonated with me
I'm 34, just diagnosed and just learning the terminology for all of the things I've felt my entire life....it's kind of mind blowing
I’m very scared of making mistakes in what I’m doing. Or just being wrong. I do my absolute best to not make such mistakes, and put so much time and energy into it because…well, when I do I get that pang of rejection, terror of thoughts that people will then laugh at and bully me, and so on.
I also have issues waiting on someone’s reply. Worse when I really like the person. I taught myself the exact same thing you described, making a mental exercise of “okay but what if ”. I didn’t realize how important that was for my health and how deeply I have this problem until now.
Long winded way to say, thank you so much fir making this video.
It's nice to have a name for what I've been experiencing most of my life. It's gotten worse over time, mainly because of an accumulation of rejection over a few decades. My default assumption is that anyone I interact with will, given time, reject me. So I keep my relationships as superficial and few as possible.
This video had me laughing because you used almost the exact same words my wife does, while describing your rejection sensitivity to mr purple and your dog. Your videos have proven incredibly helpful in me understanding the needs and challenges my wife faces. Our relationship has improved dramatically in only a few months with is “new” information. Providing this information the way you do in a personal and scientifically informed way is a stark improvement over a professional describing symptoms as they are observed. We both have been making a consistent study of our neurological differences. I’m Dyslexic/ADHD, she Autistic/ADHD. We’re both 67 and with these new realizations face much sadness and some anger over the way our past played out, but also we see much reason for celebration over how bright our future appears with new understanding and compassion for each other and others with nuro-differences in our family. Thank you so much for your brave and stalwart hope and truth telling. Know that you have had a profound effect on two older peoples lives who are very grateful.
Hi, thank you for this comment, it is so encouraging to read comments like this so thank you for taking to time to let me know the impact my work has had on your lives. I'm sending encouragement and hoping you have a wonderful life together.
This comment nearly made me shed a tear
Beautiful statement. 67 here. ;)
Wow, very insightful. Thank you so much for sharing. A lot of this really hit home, especially the part about people responding to texts.
So glad to see that this is an actual disorder and I am not just odd for getting really upset for being 'rejected' by an infant!😅 Thank you for being so brave, honest and open in sharing your story.
I can recognise things and I know that it's not the end of the world, but it comes to a point where people aren't meeting your needs and that's not fair that people push you to be irrational bcoz the person you love just doesn't seem to understand and want to meet me half way, I just always feel like I'm behind glass
Omg! That's me every min of the day!! Thank you!!
I feel for you and can relate to your story so much! Nice to hear though that you are coping better now.
I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and ADHD (inattentive type) a number of years ago and I’m just now piecing together that I’m also likely autistic. I relate so much to some of you and Samdy Sam’s videos on your experiences and this video in particular is so relatable. Thank you for making the content that you do. 💜
My life!!!!! Love you guys, thank you Ella xxxx
This resonates so much with me!! Thanks for this video
I have a personal theory of RSD and that has to do with the nature of the ADHD brain like you said that negative experiences are indeed more magnified vs the neurotypical brains. For example, the way my undiagnosed ADHD, narcissist parents who are in denial has abusively shaped my life with physical, emotional, psychological abuse and totally incorrect parenting while giving me the most unsupportive communicative methods like, "Because in Korean tradition and culture you have to respect your elders." "Because the bible says to obey and respect your parents, you do as we say even if we are wrong." (I had a couple of hospitalizations, and near death experiences due to that as well as me just acting out with ADHD). I was even expelled from kindergarten because 3 third grade students bullied me and punched me in the face when they asked if I had any money. I first said I didn't, then gave them an apple from my lunch with a smile trying to be friendly because I didn't understand what the word chink meant during my kindergarten year or that they were trying to extort money from me, or so I thought they were poor people asking for financial assistance or they were hungry. I was taking taekwondo with a yellow or purple belt and was told not to punch or kick anybody unless you are caught in a fight and you reveal they have no intention of letting you go or backing you into a corner. I did follow this rule only to have my arse beat by my own father and then being told I'm completely stupid and don't know about society or politics and shamed me and told me to never do that or another punishment will be there for me... I was never taught a lot of things and still severely and unjustly beaten for things never taught the thought life should be fair or is fair never resonated with me. This is when my Oppositional Defiant Disorder and anti-authoritarian attitude kicked which developed narcissism and a defensive ego and survival instincts. Didn't know I might've been set up because I may have annoyed/offended someone with political power and social connections while I was in kindergarten in an elementary school in Beverly Hills, California. Looking back at my childhood, how my parents neglected in raising me as they were Dry Cleaner owners working from 9am-9pm Mon-Sat and Sunday going to St. Gregory Nazianzen Catholic Church. I have to say that the most painful, most tragic and horrible times of my life were my childhood.
Unfortunately, I'm still undiagnosed in my late 30s and was told I'm using my willpower the wrong way, I'm just a lazy arse.... They stopped calling me by my name and instead call me "You" and then do this or that as if I'm not human or even beneath their dogs which have names... You might be able to tell just from this how much detail I'm glossing over in my life. I grew up in Beverly Hills, California but my parents lived way above their means and didn't see me as a human but instead a tool or somebody to take advantage of mostly due to their ADHD and other co-morbidities.
So, I can deeply understand trauma and that accepting a different lifestyle that you have a loving husband and that your dog loves you doesn't resonate nor is conducive to the primitive survival instinct part of your previously and deeply traumatized lifestyle from the perception you used to have. Pain, suffering, negativity are things that all brains are naturally wired to remember forever due to the fact that our brains are wired to survive and adapt in any and all situations to the best of our abilities and understanding. So, that scar, the habits, the lessons we've learned from past pain and suffering probably will stay with us forever but we can only make repeated attempts to re-condition ourselves and adapt to a new lifestyle.
I'll stop here before I end up writing and ranting too much. Thanks for the read.
I felt emotional reading your story. I hope you dont ever soeak to your parebts again if they do mot respect you. I am also waiting for diagnosis and reflecting a kot om my life abd also i have been realising both my parebts have adhd likely and my dad asd too i think.. my mum a bit more confusing but possibky had npd in some form aswell..
Sending resonance x
embracing you in purple love and gratitude, dear Ella! 💜🌟
Thank you so much for this video! It made me feel understood :)
Wow. This is just like hearing my own thoughts and emotions. Thanks for your videos.
Feels kind of like you’re inside my head!! Thank you for making this its really helped me
Thank ypu for sharing this video. Watched witth gratitude.
Thank you for sharing, I relate to all of this so much!
I had no idea this existed. And oh my god you have opened my eyes! Thank you
I could have written every word of this. Ella, you are helping me SO much!!! Thank you!!!!
Love the Lego bonsai! How amazing is that set?! Thank you so much for sharing.
Really a great video with some awesome info and explains it really well, thank you! RSD has been hitting me hard lately and its comforting hearing other people deal with it too and hearing some mechanisms to help.
This, every day. The trouble is that I can recognize it and figure out just where my thought pattern has gone off the rails, and yet STILL experience the same feelings vividly like some phantom pain
This is so helpful! Thank you very much!
This really hits home with me, 😢 I’ve literally struggled with this and the pain it’s caused all my life, I’m only just now learning to understand what RSD actually is and how it’s linked with my ADHD. Thankyou Ella
Thank-you for this.
This was so comforting to hear💕 thank you for making these videos!
Thank you so much for this video. You are so easy to listen to!
Thank you so much for sharing. It helps to know other people suffer with this along side ADHD.
Thank you for giving words to everything going on inside me
Well this just made something in my life I have always had make so much sense. And feel less, frankly, off kilter. Thanks Purple Ella!
I realise that this has happened a lot to me in the past. I've been down a heck of an autism rabbit hole the last week or so thanks to your videos, and those of some other autistic creators on here. It's really resonating while I wait for my local Autism service to bring me in for assessment and diagnosis. Thank you.
Thank you for talking about this. It has developed over the years and sometimes makes it hard to breathe with another occurrence.
Oh my gosh, Purple Ella, I had never heard of rejection sensitive dysphoria before and now I know I have it in spades. Thank you so much.
i recently discovered your channel & find you so relatable i had to subscribe :) also i love your shirt; squirtle is my favorite
Its nice to know that you are not alone. I have felt like this for the longest time, if not always. Thank you for sharing this very personal video.
I’ve never connected/related more to any video on UA-cam.
Thank you for sharing. ❤️
Wow thank you for sharing this. This is very enlightening and helps me a lot.
Thank you for this video. I was recently diagnosed as neuro-divergent and can relate so completely with many of the situations that you describe - especially for texting to apologise after social events, and waiting nervously for instant replies to texts that I have spent hours writing. Hearing you put a name to this has been incredibly liberating for me and looking back at my childhood (40+ years ago), I can even identify many possible triggers/aggravating factors that I can associate with this.
Thank you for giving me the words I've been trying to find to explain myself for so long.
Thank you for this video. I felt alone with this all my life. I admire you so much for making this video. You have helped and given me great hope.
Literally telling my life with your words.
Ella, I also have ASD and ADHD which I only just found out about this year, and your videos have been helping me so much. Just the coincidence that you released this one today, after a very painful RSD situation with roommates that occured last night. I never heard of this before. Thank you so much for releasing this today, it will really clear up the extreme stress I've been feeling from rejection I'm perceiving from my roommates
Thank you!! Many, many drs missed my diagnosis!! This is iT!!!!
I am so, so glad I found this. I have severe anxiety and suffer from rejection dysphoria as well, regarding my close friends. It's good to know that there's a name for this disorder, and that I'm not alone. Thank you so much for this video.
Very helpful video thank you for sharing
Wow this is a thing! Makes so much sense! Thank you!!
Amazing video. Thank you so much for sharing! God bless ❤️
Thank you for doing this video! I was aware of RSD, but there were things I hadn't realised were a part of it. It has helped me to have more self understanding - I'm sure that'll be the case for others too. Kudos to you 😁
I feel seen! Thank you for making this. Like you, I’ve only learned about RSD recently and it has really helped to be aware of when it’s happening. Just a couple of days ago I had an experience with it and caught myself before I got too distressed. Oh, and I have experienced RSD with animals too - glad to discover I’m not the only one. I’m self diagnosed autistic and I think very likely I have ADHD as well - my life has never made quite so much sense as when seen in that context!
I totally identify with you!! Thank you for sharing your experiences!! cheers
Well this has given a name to most of my interactions, especially with groups and employment. I have a few wonderful friends that I've gathered from different groups that I have been a part of. Friends, who do not usually know each other. Usually I can get no more than one personal friend per group. So I have to go shopping. :)
I accept now that many people may be glad to see me when I show up, but will not think of me again after I leave. I'm forgettable. I've never been part of a group that includes me in their plans for a party or outing. There's nobody in my life who will call up a mutual friend and ask if they had seen me lately. Although I have a person friend who has offered to be my daily checkin friend to make sure I'm ok, as I live alone and am elderly. I just recently quit going to a regular meeting because I was feeling uncomfortable w/ RSD and wanted to put my energies into learning more about my autism. Since I just figured out I have it. But only now see why going to it was stressful. Thanks! Turns out, my whole day is filled with autism symptoms.
Highly relatable! This makes me very defensive and sensitive to any perceived criticism. I don't want to change, but to be accepted as I am right now - is the feeling. ASD
This was very helpful to hear, thanks for sharing!
i wish more people understood just how difficult ADHD is to live with & its not just being hyper all the time
am sobbing && that would trigger my insecurities top if my cat would do that God wtf 😭😭😭
Your explanations of this describe my life quite a bit.
Oh my gosh, I already related because I had found out about RSD much the same way, but when you said you felt like "too much" that hit home. I'm always waiting for people to leave because I'm "too much" to deal with, that I'm not worth that effort.
Thank you Ella. Really helpful share.
Excellent and well-articulated explanation of what I have suffered all my life. I think CBT Therapy helps with this a lot. I will check out your other videos. Thank You.
Thanks for being so brave and sharing your experiences...very helpful.
Thanks so much for sharing this. I have this a lot and only recently discovering about being autistic and adhd, finding this and many others explains so much of Mr lived experience too. I like you LOTS 👍