Jessica, I am a new mom to a precious baby boy. I found your videos by accident (or by the grace of God) and I have really appreciated them. Just wanted to say thank you for your transparency and for creating a safe space for mamas to go and helping us navigate mamahood!
I was very close to going to a mental hospital at the beginning of this year. My mind went to some dark places too. I went on medication and saw a counselor and am doing much better. I weaned off of my medication in April/May and found out I was pregnant in June! I know exactly the things you have felt and are feeling. It’s so tough but I’m so happy for you! Shortly after weaning off of medication I was baptized and found my relationship with God. So glad I found your channel! 💜
Hi Jessica. I usually don't write any comments in UA-cam but after finding your channel and giving birth to my first son I wanted to thank you for sharing your experience and tips with us. It really helped a lot, especially that first one and a half months. My postpartum sucked and I felt lonely though I had people around me. Felt nobody understood me, not even my mom or other recent mom's. Now finally I feel "normal" and feel confident in being a mom. Thank you for what you do!!!!
Currently battling through postnatal depression and doing everything I can to help myself, therapy, exercise, medication. But I'm not there yet. It's so hard to believe it when people say it will get better but I do look forward to when I'm at the point that you are in this video. I hope you're still feeling happy and healthy 😊
Thank you for taking the time to articulate your experiences. I went through a “storm” several years ago when our son passed away while I was in the midst of working on my bachelor’s degree and right before starting a difficult job. Things are better now, I feel like the storm has passed, and like you said, there’s also that feeling of “what now?” “Who am I now?” The storm analogy helps me make sense of all the feels. Thanks girl! Keep it up :)
8 years ago I struggled with the same king of low and even if it is one of the harder period of my life it is really a gift wrapped in sand paper... I would never have had changed my life so much to now live focusing hapiness. Keep focusing on what sound real, happy and true to you to make your new choices and your well beeing will be beyond everything you could have dreamed of! Keep your good work girl!
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Dear Jess, Thank you so much for these videos. It helps me feel not alone. I have service related PTSD, Depression and anxiety. I have stayed over 30 days in a metal hospital (in total). I have learned that I shouldn’t feel shame over my hospitalizations and my mental health, but it’s hard. Always watch yourself, even on your good days. Treat yourself like you’re #1. Much love. 💖
It’s nice to see you back on your feet and feeling a bit better!❤️❤️ I suffer from bipolar depression and anxiety and I rlly struggle but seeing someone who has been through it and that it does get better which give me more hope for myself so thank u for giving me hope❤️
So glad you have support. The days following the baby's birth will be very delicate. Prayers you stay content. PPD is the scariest thing I've ever been through and I'm lucky to be alive. Stay well xo
Omg the storm metaphor is soooo on point!! I check myself in over a year and a half ago and it still feels like rebuilding. This video is so important 💖
Thank you for your transparency. I know that time has gone by and you have a new little one now, but I want you to know that I'm praying for you. Your journey, as tough as it is, God is using to help others. Much love to you and your family
I finally don’t feel alone. I’ve been depressed for years and accumulated postpartum depression, anxiety, and psychosis. I started having intrusive thoughts towards my baby and was beginning to action on some of the simpler things. I sought help and wound up having an 8 day inpatient stay at a mental hospital as a breastfeeding mama. I demanded a hand pump and lactation consultant when I was admitted in the ER. I demanded milk storage and collection. And eventually demanded a Patient Advocate when I felt that I wasn’t being listened too.
Gracias por contarnos tu historia, la gente que no lo ha pasado no lo suele entender, pero es muy serio y real. Eres muy dulce y me alegro mucho que estés bien, y por experiencia, una vez lo pasas y sales de ello, la siguiente vez lo identificas rápido y te encuentras a tiempo para poder frenarlo. Un abrazo desde Cataluña y enhorabuena por el embarazo!!! 😘
I just came from watching the other video... I can already see you look “healthier”. I don’t know how to explain this.. you mentioned you wished people could see your pain... like you wish you were bleeding or something so people can see it. I can relate to that... except I have OCD and my doctor thinks I have minor depression as well. During a really hard time I could see my face and how I might smile but I still looked empty. Your face looks healthier and happier in this. Like a true inside happiness. Mental illness is so real... I’m working on myself now as well. I just found your channel today and I think I’m gonna subscribe. ;)
Thank you for sharing. I'm pregnant and I've been in your shoes too. It's encouraging to see this. I have great Dr's, a support system that pray for me. 🙏❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
My mental health got really bad anxiety wise when I moved to Spain for 5 months for study abroad. Just funny it’s the same place. I didn’t know it was happening and all of a sudden I was sleeping all the time and having panic attacks throughout the day. It’s a huge shift and that culture shock is crazy. But I still miss Spain all the time. Such a beautiful place I’m jealous!!!
I have long term mental health issues and i am worried about being a mum and how i will cope. I have always wanted kids, im not pregnant now but thinking about the future. It’s so helpful to see your content and how you are able to be a loving mum to your little one
Your last video about the mental hospital. Man. You hit the nail on the head. I struggle with major depressive disorder and general anxiety. The depression and anxiety run in my family as well. You talked about being broken, and you finally gave me words to describe how I sometimes feel. Sometimes you feel so broken you’ll never be fixed. And you feel like maybe if you’re that broken it would just be better not to be around. And I feel like I’m going through this stage where I wish people could see my brokenness as well.
Thank you so much for this video. I’ve been struggling with mental health honestly my whole life, but I’m in a season where it’s the worst it’s ever been. I am trying to trust that God will get me through it, and that good things are coming, but it’s very hard. Your story has reminded me of the hope that I have, and that things can get better. I am also very thankful for all of your helpful tips and suggestions, knowing you have been through it and are at the other side. Seriously. Thank you.
Not all the way though yet, but thanks so much for doing this. I’ve been a quiet follower for many years now, and I’ve been wondering how you’re doing. I dealt depression in my first trimester of pregnancy and stumbled on your channel. I cannot tell you how much your advice helped me in that dark season, and I want to thank you for that. I’m out of the darkness now because of your help 💕
OMG Jess, so much of what you say resonates with me. I too went to mental hospital in February 2018 when my son was just 2 yo...It was hard but through it I found a wonderful psychiatrist and turned my life around.
Thank you for this.. it feels good to know and hear exactly what I felt into words.. I couldn’t thank you enough for your rawness and honesty. Stay strong
I LOVE this! And I love you! You have a great radiance about you, I wish you were my in real life friend! Not even sure how I became subscribed, but when this came in my subscription box I had to watch. So amazing and admirable for you to speak about it. Much love to you and your family Jessica! Congratulations on the new little one. So exciting!!
I find your videos to be really interesting and I love that you can FEEL emotion without feeling severe emotional pain and depression. I’m not sure how old this video is - I’m 29 weeks pregnant with a boy myself🙂Wishing you all the best,wherever you’re at you have proven you can get through that storm in time. And that is GOLD if you have a tendency to suffer💕✨
Thanks for sharing your story, Jessica. It's very relatable... the storm analogy especially. I feel like I've been in the rebuilding phase for a couple years after finding the right medication for myself. Getting pregnant and becoming a first time mom is part of my journey-- but I anticipate the bad feelings to pop up again at some point and I guess that's okay. Now I have more tools to deal with whatever comes. But the lost feeling you spoke about is totally valid- trying to figure out who we are/what our purpose is...I've struggled with that a lot of my adult life like I'm sure lots of women and mothers do. It will be interesting to see how everything unfolds after this baby comes! Sending you lots of love to you and your family and thanks for the videos- theyre great
you said in the video you wished you were bleeding so people would know. this is how I feel. I don't feel like anyone understands. my husband is the only one who even knows the slightest. idk how to get help if I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone
Laura -- The wisest thing that anyone ever said to me when I was battling severe depression was that I was "looking for a worldly solution to a spiritual problem." I didn't truly understand it for years, but now I understand that depression is absolutely an attack on the spirit. In my case it was no doubt caused by dark spiritual forces. I had to learn to trust Jesus and know that he, God, and the Holy Spirit love me. Jesus overcame the darkness and that is why crying out to him for help can heal the darkness within us. It is amazingly powerful.
TRUE Love I would like to respectfully counter this ‘spiritual’ approach to recovery and healing with highly suggesting professional help which is what saved my life. There’s a time and place for physiological help and healing and with depression it’s definitely imperative to the process. Please don’t solely focus on faith for healing because help from therapists is more often than not, the necessary route to total healing psychologically. For over a decade I believed if I prayed hard enough ect that god would heal me or help me overcome but that was not the case. Once I sought professional help my life did a 180 for the absolute best! I was terrified, physically ill with the thought of going to therapy and telling someone about what was going on with me. It was hard and I would do it all again in a heart beat because it’s worth it. know this, you WILL make it to the end of the tunnel and you WILL find a better more fulfilled life at the end of the therapeutic journey if you just go ahead and begin the process!
@@butterflychaser4538 Thank you for saying this. I really don't like when religion is injected into discussions about mental health, grieving process, etc. Because to someone who believes it may help. But it also may not. In my case it does not help. And to someone who doesn't believe it's just straight up insulting and comes off as brushing aside the problem.
So grateful that you have decided to share this experience with us. As someone who struggles with anxiety, your advice has been so helpful and encouraging. You look so happy Jess!
thank you for sharing this! Also, you are always so good at giving analogies and explaining concepts! You are an exceptional communicator... like a communication ninja :)
Everything that is happened in your life happened to put you exactly where you are now. It isn’t always pretty. Sometimes we feel like we failed, but you wouldn’t be where you are today without being where you were yesterday. You have never failed. You have stumbled. You have learned. You have grown. And you are blooming.
Of course, I know better now, after three suicide attempts and several hospital stays, meds, and God's hand on my life, of course, I too write in my journals , and working on getting a book published
Idk why but I cried during this video and still am...I’m sorry that happened to you. The time during Eloise’s time seems so hard be sad and leaving your job T-T
I appreciate you sharing your personal experience. I am currently battling health issues and have finally made an appointment to see a therapist. No kids not pregnant. I’ve been battling chronic health issues.
Thank you so much for this video! I have never had mental health issues so far, but you explained so well what you have gone through that it made me understand a lot. Maybe as you said I will be able to help the people around me that are struggling in a better way. Btw I'm from Barcelona and it makes me so happy hearing you say all these nice things about Spain :)
I am so glad that you sought help for your self. I was brought up in a home where seeking help was weak, and it was the deviil, and U neened ti rebuke him/
Im going through transitional changed and been out of hospital 2 months my Christian faith has grown since I've been home.. I'm awaiting on changes and i self harm in the process
I just watched your other video that this is the update for and.... Thank You ! thank you so much for sharing this. I too struggle with depression and it's something that I feel isn't talked about enough or taken seriously enough. This is bringing awareness to people and that's a beautiful thing. I hope you continue to thrive and I wish nothing but the best for you and your family
I wish I could figure out how to overcome the damage my mental health has put on the relationship with my spouse. Like you said, the storm passed but the mess is still there. Anyway, thank you for sharing this. I feel so tired.
WoW! THANK YOU!!! for making this very wonderful video and sharing so many very personal aspects of your recovery with us viewers. I think you are amazing:-) and you look fantastic and very healthy and happy now:-)
I am so glad you’re feeling better I’m doing better to I know how depression feels I have it to and it is hard mental health is very hard and it’s hard to keep staying strong but you Gotta keep fighting and you got to keep staying strong even though it’s not always easy💪🏻💖
💕thank you for sharing...you've never been alone , God has always been holding you through the storm, never stop trusting Him..praying for your best self and a healthy pregnancy 🙏
Hi! In your video a year ago you talked about physical symptoms you had like vomiting, passing out etc, and that you were able to get a diagnosis to help with it but you weren't ready to talk about yet. I have some of those issues and the doctors havent been able to figure anything out I am wondering if you are up for sharing that yet?
Hiiiiii. I absolutely love love love you. I don't leave comments to videos ever, but I wanted to talk to you a but if you happened to catch this comment. Havent seen the video through but I saw your "10 days" one just now as well. In this video you said something about the "failures" you've been through. Please don't be hard on yourself about this. These aren't failures. I've had to change my perspective on this and had to work hard to do it. So now I believe that failure is a false, fear-based concept, a trap that we shouldn't fall for. A time that we may have "failed" is a time where we needed to be exactly what we were. We had to go through that experience, make those mistakes and be exactly that way for us to learn and grow and become better. I used to think that if I could go back I would do this differently and that differently, I'd be much better. But now I know that I would never change a thing. All of my "failures" had to be just that. I dont regret any of my mistakes now, I thank them. I know that I'm a better person because of them. Sending you love. Your personality and videos inspire me to be more loving in my life. So thank you.
You are such a brave woman!!!! And I can relate a lot to you. But the most important thing we have is God in our lives and thats what guides us thru and you will soon feel great and leave behind all of those bad memories🤗🤗🤗🤗🙏
You're so brave!!! I wish I could meet up for coffee and talk about mommy stuff. I had my son in Brazil and I struggled A LOT post baby too, but I got through with the help of Jesus and lots of coffee 😂 blessings to you and your sweet new season of a mommy of two!!!
Any tips on handling it? My daughter just got admitted in a pyschyward . Haven't seen her for 4 days. I'm scared for her especially reading the reviews of that hospital.
I’m just coming up to my one year mark from my suicide attempt. I’m struggling with feeling lost after. I’ve met so many great people in the hospital that i almost want to be back. I’ve realized that i don’t want that situation, I’m craving relationship. I haven’t seen your videos but i came here looking for someone else.
Thank you for being so honest x It’s so helpful to hear your story. We are not alone - it’s also a testimony that in the darkness there is light, never lose hope x Romans 8:28 - thank’s be to God xxx
I am in this season right now. I have recognized that I've been deeply depressed since having children. I'm also 15 weeks pregnant with my third baby who has been a big surprise. How did things go after childbirth? I'm trying to find a counselor I've never had an issue with this before and have been in denial for a long time now but I feel like I have lost precious time with my daughters because of where my mind has been.
I don't know what her medicines were but Amitriptyline 10mg made me have horrible panic attacks where I felt as if I was dying:-/ so I tried Citalopram 20mg and that really "lifted me out of a dark place" in my mind. Finally, 40mg of Prozac is like the "magic bullet" and makes you feel like you are invincible (literally, I had no fear of anything on this drug (since sometimes it is our own "fear" of the depression getting worse that makes it so hard to treat). I suppose everyone's experience is different but those were my psych. meds. which I have been off of now that I learned how to keep my stress levels low enough not to cause another depressive episode:-)
Every one will respond to an SSRI/NDRI differently. Brain chemistry is different in every single person. What works for you might not work for others. It’s all trial and error.
Hi, thanks for making these videos. I save your video on your 10 days in a mental faculty and just watched it. Then I looked for this one to watch it. I subscribed after watching that video. I have a question what was the name of the facility? Thanks!
I've been following you for years now and I find all your videos do helpful. So thank you! What would be your advice for finding a good counselor? Did you go with a Christian one or just who your doctor sent you to?
I have had both a Christian one and several who arent! I even switched counselors a couple times because it didn't feel like i was getting anywhere. Counseling is an intimate thing so you want one you feel really comfortable with! In LA I went to one who was Christian who had been recommended to me by a friend - she was my favorite - but in Spain I used an app called Better Help and spoke with a counselor long distance :) Thank you so much for watching my videos!!
Yo, you and I are so similar it's crazy. Seriously, we even both rest the coffee mug on the sofa cushion 😂 ......annnnd now I sound like a crazy person 😶🤦♀️ There are two things that were really used to pull me out of my depression. The first was sam-E (I'm working off that now, on half my dosage presently!) and the second....is embarrassing. Sigh. Long story short, I was driving to work, talking to God. I had been really low the past few days, and I believed it was a spiritual attack. And I believe God told me to give up the soap opera I've been watching for years. Yeah. What can I say? I loved it - it was mental junk food, but I loved it....and I was really sad that He told me to give it up. I tried bargaining; that was short-lived lol. He essentially said "Are you going to do what I tell you, or not". I remembered how He told Abraham to sacrifice Isaac out of NOWHERE, with NO explanation. And Abraham went up the mountain to do it. God stopped him, but he ultimately said yes. So I can give up my soap. And it has been night and day. I feel so unburdened. I...feel the light again, you know? If it was easy, it wouldn't be sacrifice. But I love God more than soap operas, so what He says goes.
Im sure no one will see this but I just need to put it out there I guess... I wish I could just go to the doctor, but my mom would have to take me because I dont have a car. Unfortunately she wont do that. I was on medication a few years ago and she forced me to get off them because she doesnt agree with them. I'm 20 so I dont need her permission, but I dont have another way there... the thing is that I can feel myself getting worse and worse again but I dont know what to do.
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You are so well spoken. I wish I could articulate my thoughts the way that you do.
I’m dealing with postpartum depression and your videos help me feel like I’m not alone. Thank you for being so real! ❤️
Jessica, I am a new mom to a precious baby boy. I found your videos by accident (or by the grace of God) and I have really appreciated them. Just wanted to say thank you for your transparency and for creating a safe space for mamas to go and helping us navigate mamahood!
I was very close to going to a mental hospital at the beginning of this year. My mind went to some dark places too. I went on medication and saw a counselor and am doing much better. I weaned off of my medication in April/May and found out I was pregnant in June! I know exactly the things you have felt and are feeling. It’s so tough but I’m so happy for you! Shortly after weaning off of medication I was baptized and found my relationship with God. So glad I found your channel! 💜
I can't even explain how beautiful this video is. Thank you for your vulnerability and your heart for others. grateful to God for you.
Hi Jessica. I usually don't write any comments in UA-cam but after finding your channel and giving birth to my first son I wanted to thank you for sharing your experience and tips with us. It really helped a lot, especially that first one and a half months. My postpartum sucked and I felt lonely though I had people around me. Felt nobody understood me, not even my mom or other recent mom's. Now finally I feel "normal" and feel confident in being a mom. Thank you for what you do!!!!
Thankful for someone who doesn't pretend to be perfect. God made you, you are enough! I love watching your videos. Thank you!
You’re not alone. Stay strong! I’m 14 and I had to go through impatient. You got this!
Currently battling through postnatal depression and doing everything I can to help myself, therapy, exercise, medication. But I'm not there yet. It's so hard to believe it when people say it will get better but I do look forward to when I'm at the point that you are in this video. I hope you're still feeling happy and healthy 😊
Thank you for taking the time to articulate your experiences. I went through a “storm” several years ago when our son passed away while I was in the midst of working on my bachelor’s degree and right before starting a difficult job. Things are better now, I feel like the storm has passed, and like you said, there’s also that feeling of “what now?” “Who am I now?”
The storm analogy helps me make sense of all the feels. Thanks girl! Keep it up :)
You are such a bright light in this world ✨
8 years ago I struggled with the same king of low and even if it is one of the harder period of my life it is really a gift wrapped in sand paper... I would never have had changed my life so much to now live focusing hapiness. Keep focusing on what sound real, happy and true to you to make your new choices and your well beeing will be beyond everything you could have dreamed of! Keep your good work girl!
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Dear Jess,
Thank you so much for these videos. It helps me feel not alone.
I have service related PTSD, Depression and anxiety. I have stayed over 30 days in a metal hospital (in total).
I have learned that I shouldn’t feel shame over my hospitalizations and my mental health, but it’s hard.
Always watch yourself, even on your good days. Treat yourself like you’re #1.
Much love. 💖
It’s nice to see you back on your feet and feeling a bit better!❤️❤️ I suffer from bipolar depression and anxiety and I rlly struggle but seeing someone who has been through it and that it does get better which give me more hope for myself so thank u for giving me hope❤️
So glad you have support. The days following the baby's birth will be very delicate. Prayers you stay content. PPD is the scariest thing I've ever been through and I'm lucky to be alive. Stay well xo
Omg the storm metaphor is soooo on point!! I check myself in over a year and a half ago and it still feels like rebuilding. This video is so important 💖
Thank you so much for speaking what I didn't have the courage to speak myself. You really helped me. Thank you!!
Thank you for your transparency. I know that time has gone by and you have a new little one now, but I want you to know that I'm praying for you. Your journey, as tough as it is, God is using to help others. Much love to you and your family
Thank you for letting me know there is hope
My husband and I are going through something similar right now. Hearing your story gives me hope.
I finally don’t feel alone.
I’ve been depressed for years and accumulated postpartum depression, anxiety, and psychosis. I started having intrusive thoughts towards my baby and was beginning to action on some of the simpler things. I sought help and wound up having an 8 day inpatient stay at a mental hospital as a breastfeeding mama. I demanded a hand pump and lactation consultant when I was admitted in the ER. I demanded milk storage and collection. And eventually demanded a Patient Advocate when I felt that I wasn’t being listened too.
Thank you. This video is a reason to keep going. You are making the world an easier and safer place for sick moms to live in.
Gracias por contarnos tu historia, la gente que no lo ha pasado no lo suele entender, pero es muy serio y real. Eres muy dulce y me alegro mucho que estés bien, y por experiencia, una vez lo pasas y sales de ello, la siguiente vez lo identificas rápido y te encuentras a tiempo para poder frenarlo. Un abrazo desde Cataluña y enhorabuena por el embarazo!!! 😘
Thank you for being so raw and sincere and honest, you are so brave 💜❣️
I just came from watching the other video... I can already see you look “healthier”. I don’t know how to explain this.. you mentioned you wished people could see your pain... like you wish you were bleeding or something so people can see it. I can relate to that... except I have OCD and my doctor thinks I have minor depression as well. During a really hard time I could see my face and how I might smile but I still looked empty. Your face looks healthier and happier in this. Like a true inside happiness. Mental illness is so real... I’m working on myself now as well. I just found your channel today and I think I’m gonna subscribe. ;)
Thank you for sharing. I'm pregnant and I've been in your shoes too. It's encouraging to see this. I have great Dr's, a support system that pray for me. 🙏❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I have been thinking about you lately. Catching up on your new videos! ❤️❤️
My mental health got really bad anxiety wise when I moved to Spain for 5 months for study abroad. Just funny it’s the same place. I didn’t know it was happening and all of a sudden I was sleeping all the time and having panic attacks throughout the day. It’s a huge shift and that culture shock is crazy. But I still miss Spain all the time. Such a beautiful place I’m jealous!!!
I have long term mental health issues and i am worried about being a mum and how i will cope. I have always wanted kids, im not pregnant now but thinking about the future. It’s so helpful to see your content and how you are able to be a loving mum to your little one
Your last video about the mental hospital. Man. You hit the nail on the head. I struggle with major depressive disorder and general anxiety. The depression and anxiety run in my family as well. You talked about being broken, and you finally gave me words to describe how I sometimes feel. Sometimes you feel so broken you’ll never be fixed. And you feel like maybe if you’re that broken it would just be better not to be around. And I feel like I’m going through this stage where I wish people could see my brokenness as well.
Thank you so much for this video. I’ve been struggling with mental health honestly my whole life, but I’m in a season where it’s the worst it’s ever been. I am trying to trust that God will get me through it, and that good things are coming, but it’s very hard. Your story has reminded me of the hope that I have, and that things can get better. I am also very thankful for all of your helpful tips and suggestions, knowing you have been through it and are at the other side. Seriously. Thank you.
Not all the way though yet, but thanks so much for doing this. I’ve been a quiet follower for many years now, and I’ve been wondering how you’re doing. I dealt depression in my first trimester of pregnancy and stumbled on your channel. I cannot tell you how much your advice helped me in that dark season, and I want to thank you for that. I’m out of the darkness now because of your help 💕
OMG Jess, so much of what you say resonates with me. I too went to mental hospital in February 2018 when my son was just 2 yo...It was hard but through it I found a wonderful psychiatrist and turned my life around.
You are such a beautiful person and I’m so happy that you’re doing well! You are my favorite youtuber ♥️
You are wonderful
Thank you for this.. it feels good to know and hear exactly what I felt into words.. I couldn’t thank you enough for your rawness and honesty. Stay strong
I LOVE this! And I love you! You have a great radiance about you, I wish you were my in real life friend! Not even sure how I became subscribed, but when this came in my subscription box I had to watch. So amazing and admirable for you to speak about it. Much love to you and your family Jessica! Congratulations on the new little one. So exciting!!
I find your videos to be really interesting and I love that you can FEEL emotion without feeling severe emotional pain and depression. I’m not sure how old this video is - I’m 29 weeks pregnant with a boy myself🙂Wishing you all the best,wherever you’re at you have proven you can get through that storm in time. And that is GOLD if you have a tendency to suffer💕✨
Thanks for sharing your story, Jessica. It's very relatable... the storm analogy especially. I feel like I've been in the rebuilding phase for a couple years after finding the right medication for myself. Getting pregnant and becoming a first time mom is part of my journey-- but I anticipate the bad feelings to pop up again at some point and I guess that's okay. Now I have more tools to deal with whatever comes. But the lost feeling you spoke about is totally valid- trying to figure out who we are/what our purpose is...I've struggled with that a lot of my adult life like I'm sure lots of women and mothers do. It will be interesting to see how everything unfolds after this baby comes! Sending you lots of love to you and your family and thanks for the videos- theyre great
This video really helped me. Thank you 💕 I'm so happy that you are feeling better - you are so strong.
you said in the video you wished you were bleeding so people would know. this is how I feel. I don't feel like anyone understands. my husband is the only one who even knows the slightest. idk how to get help if I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone
Laura -- The wisest thing that anyone ever said to me when I was battling severe depression was that I was "looking for a worldly solution to a spiritual problem." I didn't truly understand it for years, but now I understand that depression is absolutely an attack on the spirit. In my case it was no doubt caused by dark spiritual forces. I had to learn to trust Jesus and know that he, God, and the Holy Spirit love me. Jesus overcame the darkness and that is why crying out to him for help can heal the darkness within us. It is amazingly powerful.
TRUE Love I would like to respectfully counter this ‘spiritual’ approach to recovery and healing with highly suggesting professional help which is what saved my life. There’s a time and place for physiological help and healing and with depression it’s definitely imperative to the process. Please don’t solely focus on faith for healing because help from therapists is more often than not, the necessary route to total healing psychologically. For over a decade I believed if I prayed hard enough ect that god would heal me or help me overcome but that was not the case. Once I sought professional help my life did a 180 for the absolute best! I was terrified, physically ill with the thought of going to therapy and telling someone about what was going on with me. It was hard and I would do it all again in a heart beat because it’s worth it. know this, you WILL make it to the end of the tunnel and you WILL find a better more fulfilled life at the end of the therapeutic journey if you just go ahead and begin the process!
@@butterflychaser4538 Thank you for saying this. I really don't like when religion is injected into discussions about mental health, grieving process, etc. Because to someone who believes it may help. But it also may not. In my case it does not help. And to someone who doesn't believe it's just straight up insulting and comes off as brushing aside the problem.
So grateful that you have decided to share this experience with us. As someone who struggles with anxiety, your advice has been so helpful and encouraging. You look so happy Jess!
Thank you for sharing your story! You helped me to realized a few things! I really really appreciate your honesty about your story!
You explain depression so well!! Great metaphors
thank you for sharing this! Also, you are always so good at giving analogies and explaining concepts! You are an exceptional communicator... like a communication ninja :)
Wow. Thank you. Thank you for being you.
Everything that is happened in your life happened to put you exactly where you are now. It isn’t always pretty. Sometimes we feel like we failed, but you wouldn’t be where you are today without being where you were yesterday. You have never failed. You have stumbled. You have learned. You have grown. And you are blooming.
Of course, I know better now, after three suicide attempts and several hospital stays, meds, and God's hand on my life, of course, I too write in my journals , and working on getting a book published
thank you for opening up, so much. Big big hug :) from Barcelona
Idk why but I cried during this video and still am...I’m sorry that happened to you. The time during Eloise’s time seems so hard be sad and leaving your job T-T
I appreciate you sharing your personal experience. I am currently battling health issues and have finally made an appointment to see a therapist. No kids not pregnant. I’ve been battling chronic health issues.
I only came across this video now. How I do understand you dear...
Much love from the NL
Thank you so much for this video! I have never had mental health issues so far, but you explained so well what you have gone through that it made me understand a lot. Maybe as you said I will be able to help the people around me that are struggling in a better way. Btw I'm from Barcelona and it makes me so happy hearing you say all these nice things about Spain :)
Thank you so much!!!
I am so glad that you sought help for your self. I was brought up in a home where seeking help was weak, and it was the deviil, and U neened ti rebuke him/
I love this thank you!!!! So greatful that you’re doing well
Im going through transitional changed and been out of hospital 2 months my Christian faith has grown since I've been home.. I'm awaiting on changes and i self harm in the process
I just watched your other video that this is the update for and.... Thank You ! thank you so much for sharing this. I too struggle with depression and it's something that I feel isn't talked about enough or taken seriously enough. This is bringing awareness to people and that's a beautiful thing. I hope you continue to thrive and I wish nothing but the best for you and your family
Thanks for sharing Jess! You are such an encouragement and blessing for so many. Love you friend.
Love you!! Thank you!!!
Glad youre doing okay!! been checking in since that video to see how you are doing
I wish I could figure out how to overcome the damage my mental health has put on the relationship with my spouse. Like you said, the storm passed but the mess is still there. Anyway, thank you for sharing this. I feel so tired.
WoW! THANK YOU!!! for making this very wonderful video and sharing so many very personal aspects of your recovery with us viewers. I think you are amazing:-) and you look fantastic and very healthy and happy now:-)
Me hace MUY feliz verte bien. Un abrazo enorme! ❤️💚
I am so glad you’re feeling better I’m doing better to I know how depression feels I have it to and it is hard mental health is very hard and it’s hard to keep staying strong but you Gotta keep fighting and you got to keep staying strong even though it’s not always easy💪🏻💖
You have helped me SO much with this video.
🎀🍼👶🏼 congratulations on your baby boy👶🏼🍼🎀
Thank you for sharing and your honesty, Jess.
💕thank you for sharing...you've never been alone , God has always been holding you through the storm, never stop trusting Him..praying for your best self and a healthy pregnancy 🙏
Hi! In your video a year ago you talked about physical symptoms you had like vomiting, passing out etc, and that you were able to get a diagnosis to help with it but you weren't ready to talk about yet. I have some of those issues and the doctors havent been able to figure anything out I am wondering if you are up for sharing that yet?
Hiiiiii. I absolutely love love love you. I don't leave comments to videos ever, but I wanted to talk to you a but if you happened to catch this comment.
Havent seen the video through but I saw your "10 days" one just now as well. In this video you said something about the "failures" you've been through. Please don't be hard on yourself about this. These aren't failures. I've had to change my perspective on this and had to work hard to do it. So now I believe that failure is a false, fear-based concept, a trap that we shouldn't fall for. A time that we may have "failed" is a time where we needed to be exactly what we were. We had to go through that experience, make those mistakes and be exactly that way for us to learn and grow and become better.
I used to think that if I could go back I would do this differently and that differently, I'd be much better. But now I know that I would never change a thing. All of my "failures" had to be just that. I dont regret any of my mistakes now, I thank them. I know that I'm a better person because of them.
Sending you love. Your personality and videos inspire me to be more loving in my life. So thank you.
You are such a brave woman!!!! And I can relate a lot to you. But the most important thing we have is God in our lives and thats what guides us thru and you will soon feel great and leave behind all of those bad memories🤗🤗🤗🤗🙏
God is not enough; you need medications when you are clinically depressed
You're so brave!!! I wish I could meet up for coffee and talk about mommy stuff. I had my son in Brazil and I struggled A LOT post baby too, but I got through with the help of Jesus and lots of coffee 😂 blessings to you and your sweet new season of a mommy of two!!!
So happy to hear you are good ❤️ !!
Can I please ask the kind of medication you took that finally helped ? I'm struggling so bad and nothing seems to help 😢💔
connie Sue I hope she responds to your question bcz I would like to know too.
Any tips on handling it? My daughter just got admitted in a pyschyward . Haven't seen her for 4 days. I'm scared for her especially reading the reviews of that hospital.
I’m just coming up to my one year mark from my suicide attempt. I’m struggling with feeling lost after. I’ve met so many great people in the hospital that i almost want to be back. I’ve realized that i don’t want that situation, I’m craving relationship. I haven’t seen your videos but i came here looking for someone else.
Thank you for being so honest x It’s so helpful to hear your story. We are not alone - it’s also a testimony that in the darkness there is light, never lose hope x Romans 8:28 - thank’s be to God xxx
I am in this season right now. I have recognized that I've been deeply depressed since having children. I'm also 15 weeks pregnant with my third baby who has been a big surprise. How did things go after childbirth? I'm trying to find a counselor I've never had an issue with this before and have been in denial for a long time now but I feel like I have lost precious time with my daughters because of where my mind has been.
Thank you so much ❤️
I loved this video and the Legally Blonde clip just made it amazing haha 😂♥️♥️ thank you Jess ♥️
Thank you for your openness
do you mind sharing what medications you were on that you spoke about at 6:48 ?
I don't know what her medicines were but Amitriptyline 10mg made me have horrible panic attacks where I felt as if I was dying:-/ so I tried Citalopram 20mg and that really "lifted me out of a dark place" in my mind. Finally, 40mg of Prozac is like the "magic bullet" and makes you feel like you are invincible (literally, I had no fear of anything on this drug (since sometimes it is our own "fear" of the depression getting worse that makes it so hard to treat). I suppose everyone's experience is different but those were my psych. meds. which I have been off of now that I learned how to keep my stress levels low enough not to cause another depressive episode:-)
Every one will respond to an SSRI/NDRI differently. Brain chemistry is different in every single person. What works for you might not work for others. It’s all trial and error.
You're so strong!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS❤️❤️❤️❤️
Yay! Your back!!
You are wonderful!
Just Thanks!
thank you so much for sharing!
Hi, thanks for making these videos. I save your video on your 10 days in a mental faculty and just watched it. Then I looked for this one to watch it. I subscribed after watching that video. I have a question what was the name of the facility? Thanks!
Do you mind sharing the name of the medication you were taking?
Wow! I want to read your book 😍😍😍
Thank you 💛
I've been following you for years now and I find all your videos do helpful. So thank you! What would be your advice for finding a good counselor? Did you go with a Christian one or just who your doctor sent you to?
I have had both a Christian one and several who arent! I even switched counselors a couple times because it didn't feel like i was getting anywhere. Counseling is an intimate thing so you want one you feel really comfortable with! In LA I went to one who was Christian who had been recommended to me by a friend - she was my favorite - but in Spain I used an app called Better Help and spoke with a counselor long distance :) Thank you so much for watching my videos!!
Thank you. ❤
Just watched it!
I love your content and your sweet spirit! Thank you for sharing this. Hit home for me. Glad the Lord has helped you through this hard time!
You are precious 💕
thank you for sharing
Yo, you and I are so similar it's crazy. Seriously, we even both rest the coffee mug on the sofa cushion 😂 ......annnnd now I sound like a crazy person 😶🤦♀️
There are two things that were really used to pull me out of my depression. The first was sam-E (I'm working off that now, on half my dosage presently!) and the second....is embarrassing. Sigh.
Long story short, I was driving to work, talking to God. I had been really low the past few days, and I believed it was a spiritual attack. And I believe God told me to give up the soap opera I've been watching for years. Yeah. What can I say? I loved it - it was mental junk food, but I loved it....and I was really sad that He told me to give it up.
I tried bargaining; that was short-lived lol. He essentially said "Are you going to do what I tell you, or not". I remembered how He told Abraham to sacrifice Isaac out of NOWHERE, with NO explanation. And Abraham went up the mountain to do it. God stopped him, but he ultimately said yes. So I can give up my soap. And it has been night and day. I feel so unburdened. I...feel the light again, you know? If it was easy, it wouldn't be sacrifice. But I love God more than soap operas, so what He says goes.
Im sure no one will see this but I just need to put it out there I guess... I wish I could just go to the doctor, but my mom would have to take me because I dont have a car. Unfortunately she wont do that. I was on medication a few years ago and she forced me to get off them because she doesnt agree with them. I'm 20 so I dont need her permission, but I dont have another way there... the thing is that I can feel myself getting worse and worse again but I dont know what to do.