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Crystal Meth Addict interview-Heather
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- Опубліковано 7 жов 2023
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Heather, a crystal meth addict on Skid Row.
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This woman deserved adults that would protect her. This is the kind of early life that damages someone to the point where self medicating seems the only way to get through the day. As a mandated reporter, I am a serious observer of the children in my care. People will suggest I’m too hyper vigilant. I think others are far too lax and trusting, and that is why people like this suffer. Don’t stand by when you see a vulnerable child suffering, don’t assume someone else will do the right thing. Step in and stand up for those who need your voice and vehemence.
Thank you for your empathy and care. ❤️❤️❤️
Amen. It’s all about action. 🙏
Life has given her an incredibly difficult hand.
I always have.
Hard to do sometimes because they wind up doing nothing about it in the end. Can be very frustrating being a mandated reporter. 💙🌎
@@donacatanguma ugh.
The pain and sadness in her eyes is heartbreaking. Prayers for her.
I pray that soon, Heather would learn of her true value and worth!!! My heart goes out to her so very much!!!!
The grooming she experienced at 12 by a 21 year old and then a 25 year old is why we have to prosecute these men who do this, and it has to be made known that it is illegal (not to mention statutory rape).
A lot of men are just casually messing young girls lives. I don’t get it.
It made me so sad when she called those men her boyfriends. They are rapists and pedophiles, not boyfriends.
@@Nobody-s824 yes exactly!
Yet she does the prison time...SMH
@@Nobody-s824Truth.
My heart is absolutely shattered for the child she was. I hope someday she realizes she can have a beautiful life just needs a little help finding the first step to it. Will be sending warm vibes wish I could do more 💔
this is heartbreaking............I would not even know how this lovely softspoken young woman could be helped. what she has experienced, the memories cannot be erased. How could anyone catch up with so much missed. Prayers for Heather. May she be strong and figure it out.
Memories can't be erased, but they can be dealt with!
Safe housing, mental health support and EMDR therapy would probably go a long way.
I wonder if she got proper grieving counseling for her baby daughter getting killed. So sorry for your loss.
My deepest condolences 💐
Unfortunately, this story contains so many hardships that would've been completely avoidable with proper education, treatment, and social safety nets. That also goes for the importance of public transportation in terms of reducing car use.
Clearly not
@@LucindaSchumann right, that was my point. It was meant for her to read.
I doubt it.
“A waste of taxpayers’ money”
Sadistic psychopaths taking care of our most vulnerable citizens. A tried and true formula for leading an innocent child into addiction and a lifetime of self loathing.
Sending much Love, Light, and Blessings to this young woman.
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Poor soul had it rough. Some parents she had! It would be nice to see her future bright. 😔
That hurt to hear. What adult(s) says that to a child?
I truly love your comment it is 100% true.
Taxpayers money 🤦🏿♂️🤦🏿♂️🤦🏻🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏿♂️
The fact she went to do it. They wonder why the kids end up in the statistics. They’re Trippin
I was in juvie over a dec ago. Crazy times. Sadists galore. Predators too.
To be told you’re a waste of time is something some people never can get over and it starts a downward spiral, with her, she started taking drugs💔
Mark is right, dissociation occurs when bad things happen to you and you distance yourself as if it happened to someone else because it is too much to bear. Heather is a good soul. Hoping and hoping the best for you, Heather. You really do deserve it, and you do have feelings.
You're not socially retarded. You speak well and tell your situation clearly. You also SEEM to want to be a kind person. That CAN happen. Mark will surely send you in the right direction as will many watching you❤
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To all those struggling with various addictions, hang tough. When you finally find your way through the darkness to the light, you’ll be thankful for the tough road. It will have made you indomitable
Please right. So far, yes. But we'll see.
Poor lady , horrendous story , i’m so so sorry that she was told she was a waste of tax payers money , the loss of her daughter , the 21 year old ‘boyfriend ‘ this is just awful .
I wish her a better life with all the things that are positive she deserves .
I would love to help this girl somehow, I don't think I've ever felt sorrier for someone ever in my life! She deserved parents and love in her childhood, way too many people have children that they don't deserve. When she talked about her daughter's death I had to pause the video. Heather if nothing else I am sending you a virtual hug. Good luck
Agreed , such a very sad story .
A 21 year old male that hangs//goes out with a 12 year old girl is a real sicko.
You might think her fidgeting and constant adjusting of her hair are the effects of drugs,but it's not,this behaviour unfortunately is all a result of her upbringing and childhood trauma. She seems almost child-like, with her nervous persona and quirky outbursts. I hope she gets some help.🙏
This is anxiety. I do the same things. I couldn't even get through an interview like this.
@@juleslund1515 Yep,I agree with you on the way she displays her anxiety but I think it comes from her childhood trauma and I wouldn't doubt if she has PTSD as well. I'm pretty sure that all her trauma is the basis of her problems, because I speak from experience as I once lived on skid row for 12yrs with a crippling addiction, and a lot of my issues stemmed from 6yrs of sexual and physical abuse at a Catholic school. Take care and be safe.
@@juleslund1515I couldn’t even do any interview on camera
@@BeautifuluglyDTESIt’s good news to hear you made a new life for yourself. Congratulations. I don’t know how you did it after 12 years on skid row. ❤️❤️❤️
yes, i immediately noticed the stimming... hers were so obvious, and understandable 😢
Speechless. I was hanging on every word, twisting and turning in the wind and walking up and down and in the end she prefers to be outside instead of getting help.
Why do people say speechless and then rattle on
@@terrytownsend5583 Why do you keep calling people out on this? It's petty - beyond petty. I'm speechless that you would describe the ONE sentence this person added as "rattling on."
@terrytownsend5583 why say stupid things
@@karenfryberger4260 Speechless is zero sentences. Attention to detail
Another heartbreaking story thank you Mark. I hope she reads the comments and gets the right help she deserves.
these episodes are helping me to recognize these people as just that , people . i haven't necessarily always thought of them as such . thanks , swu .
What did you think they were? Aliens?
Less than you, perhaps?
Also “these people” is a gross generalization.
@@bloomerdavidgather ur thoughts lol all the comments ...hey thy said thy r changing....is important for ppl who dnt understand to watch bc u watch enough n ur biases n judgements will melt away..n yes it cld be me or u or billy smith anyone can end up alone n homeless...u dnt have to be a fckup life can do u dirty on its own...thy shld show these videos in high schools..
Well if you don't see them as people, what does that make you?
I hear you, that these videos help but I wanted you to reflect on my question ✌️❣️
Literally from her first introduction of, "Hi." you knew it was going to be a tough one. My heart goes out to you Heather. Your childhood to present...wow. I really hope you get out of Skid Row asap. You are on survival mode with your disassociation and your clear perception on how life is what you make it. You said it yourself. Please choose the resources that can help you before it gets worse. 🙏 You're still young 35. You have so much potential to get help and get clean. Get back on the program and reach out to your kids. Like you said no excuses, don't procrastinate. You can do this sister! Please do an update on Heather.
💚 I wish her health, healing and peace
Amen. ❤
Marks voice, demeanor, and interactions were very different with this woman. I cannot imagine the life you've had to endure Heather and don't question why you've done what you have and continue to self medicate or do things that result in sabotage and destruction. Most of us would do the same and do do the same just differently perhaps. Having said that you are incredibly smart and insightful. I am truly sorry you weren't given what you needed and deserved in life. Heather I hope you cross paths with someone that helps you see you deserve at the very least a healthy relationship and someone to trust whether that be a counselor a peer advocate a friend a partner someone that brings you joy and humor. Love to you and as always love your heart Mark ❤️
I think you're right; Mark seemed different as he asked questions-- like he was seeing clearly right into her deep pain (that she was trying not to show) and was working carefully not to cause her further grief. Whole thing heartbreaking. I hope he tries to stay in touch with her. I think his friendship could help her.
I noticed that too . He sounds more gentle.
what a heartbreaking story of a really vulnerable person. Meth sure doesn't help and makes everything worse. I think she needs someone to help her.
She seems so much like a child..a scared, confused child, teaching Out for a Hand that holds her. I Hope so much she gets Help, because she is strong, just doesn't believe in herself and her worth. She seems so lovely and i want her truly to be better!
She’s still twelve years old emotionally. It’s a trauma response. And predators are like chicken hawks with already vulnerable kids like this. None of this is her fault and I want my taxes to pay to help her.
Thank you for this story. I think she never got over her daughter's death.
She spent a lot of time with her kids. I think she is a good mother. She never got over her childhood truma and her daughter's tragic death.
I think she will come back to tell Mark more. I pray she finds help and return to her children.
How did her daughter die? I didn't understand.
This story breaks my heart. This poor kid never had a chance. Her life has been, and is a constant struggle. I hope she can get out of this, and people give her the love she deserves.
So much sadness in the world
Literally what I was thinking just so 💔😔
God i cannot imagine living like that, i hope she got a room with the money and had some moments of peace my heart really goes out to you Heather, i hope u find ur way back to ur boys
Mark, I love your utmost respect for those you interview, especially the care and support you showed Heather while interviewing her. Thankyou for being that someone Heather could talk to. I honestly couldn't do what you do. You have touched the lives of many. Just knowing Heather endured so much so young really breaks my heart. I hope some day, she gets the help she so desperately needs and deserves.
She seams so childlike. Sending love and prayers ❤🙏🏽 Her soul is hurting.
I was thinking the same thing. If I wasn’t looking at the screen I’d think it was a child speaking. Like a child trapped in an adult body. 😢
I wonder if she kind of "devolved" back into a child when she left the responsibility of her kids. (This sounds negative, and it is, but it's not meant to judge her, I'm trying to make an observation).
I hope she learns the difference between a boyfriend and a predator. Very sad.
The system completely failed this woman as a child.. The people that should’ve protected her locked her up. I’m ashamed of Texas even more
I 100% understand choosing to be on the street over getting clean
Didn’t expect so much hardship packed into one persons life at such a young age. Especially with the loss of her daughter. I hope the best for her in her life. Mostly that she’s not hurt or killed out there. It’s rough living the urban outdoorswoman life like that.
That I didn't understand. How did she lose her daughter?
@@karenpellerin5841got ran over by a car in their driveway 😔
Thank you for your interview, Heather. ❤
I’m very sorry about loosing your daughter. I have been told there is no greater pain. It’s understandable that it would change you.
I’m sorry you’ve had a lot of bad experiences.
This grandma is sending you a hug and prayer from Michigan ❤️🙏
I lost my daughter as a baby too and it sure is a dreadful pain...good luck Heather and I hope our little ones are up there playing chase together ❤❤
@@smudgybabe My best friend told me the loss of your child is the deepest loss. Not even the loss of a spouse can compare. I’m sorry for your loss. 💔😢
Oh man... That story about the 2 year old really shook me! That could so easily happen to anyone! Man, cars are so dangerous. Gotta pay attention.
Sexist
I hate cars
Perfect example of not judging a book by it's cover - I would have no idea of what you've been through; you appear as a teen, not a 35 yo woman with the life you've had, I'm so very sorry for what has happened to you BUT I have SO much hope for you Heather! You have been a victim of circumstance and rehab/therapy will do wonders for you. I noticed your stimming right away, perhaps those programs can lead you to the correct psychopharmaceuticals that will work best/better for you, instead of self-medicating.
All my best to you Heather, please accept any help offered to you, you have a future ahead of you; work on yourself and find YOUR life track, one that you didn't get to choose for yourself
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Good Morning🌞 Mark & SWU Family This interview was very heartbreaking one she's been through an awful lot 🙏💔😓💔
Heather you are a smart lady, well spoken and have a good sense of yourself. Please take care of yourself. Your kids still need you.
Started young. Oh my goodness! Poor little girl that passed! 😔
This poor girl didn't have a chance. Can you imagine if just 1 person intervened and helped her during her childhood.
Who? Most people don't care!
Thanks Heather ❤. Now I know why my Best Friend doesn't call.
I wish you easy days and comforted nights.
My heart just breaks for her... she was 12 years old literally just a baby!! This girl was failed by the adults in her life!! Mark I hope you do a follow up with her!! I hope down the road we get to see how shes doing and hope that she knows how many of us are rooting for her.... Thanks for this one Mark...
Please get her the assistance she needs so she can have a wonderful Christmas with her children.
This poor girl slipped RIGHT through the cracks smh. So sweet and striking eyes. I know her level of panic disorder too it's awful WITHOUT drugs so I can't imagine ESPECIALLY thinking my food has poison in it it's very hard when it upcycles. Prayers as always.
The 21 year old “boyfriend” at 12,,,damn. Some people are just disgusting, willing to use and abuse literal children.
“Waste of taxpayer’s money” that’s horrible, 😢😢😢😢😢
Those weren't "boyfriends", those were pedophiles. So sad that she considered those as real relationships that were mutual. A lot of twisted things can look like love when we have only horrible examples.
Mark, I continue to see how good you are with people. Thank you for sharing and caring.
Life a real struggle for her. Never too late to make change. Gotta keep hope...
12 with a 21 year old crackdealer boyfriend... that guy was definitely going places, hell and prison come to mind
It’s sad, she was a minor - she knew no better. Where were her horrifically neglectful parents? Teachers? The “System”? She seems genuine, and had a failed / broken setup from the gate. She CAN still turn it around. Assume she chose men that emulated her lovely father… (being facetious here)… Sending 🙏🤍 her way, and her boys way too so they can break this generational curse…
Such a pretty girl. What an awful story. She lives in a very dangerous world. I'm praying for you girl ❤
Edit: Nobody expects anything from homeless people 😢
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I understand you Heather and hope you find peace.🙏
She looks Good for 35 , living that life, dollface...good luck Heather ❤
I know it’s a long shot but if she’s willing to come to Southeast Louisiana and go to detox (5 -7 days), 28 days in a wonderful facility and after that I’m almost positive I can help her get into Oxford House.
I truly mean every word I wrote
She wants to be on the streets sadly
@ktcooki276 it's her comfort zone. I hate that
See Mark this is the kind of person that can be helped. Why you insist Rebecca can be is beyond my understanding.
Heather and Rebecca have the same problem-they’re not motivated to change. Heather says there’s friends there who have cared about her but she finds a way to “completely sabotage it”. You can’t help people until they choose to help themselves.
Heather: “I choose to be here. I could be in a program. I could be in a shelter. I could probably be in an SRO, but I like outside and I like to be free and nobody understands that. They think I’m the dumbest person in the world.”
Mark: “You prefer to be on the street?
Heather: “I do.”
Mark: “And not going to, getting clean in, a program?”
Heather: “Yeah, and it’s not even about the drugs, it’s just, I don’t know, it’s just being free. Nobody expects anything of homeless people. There’s no standard there.”
Mark: “No pressure?”
Heather: “Yeah.”
Mark: “No responsibility?”
Heather: “MmHmm.”
The comment was addressed to Marks lack of insight, on who can and can't be helped.
Rebecca has had his 5 secs of fame,time to move on.
@@Chatterboxis007 My comment was addressing your assumption that Heather will be easier to help than Rebecca-I disagree. I have observed many naive viewers have a “lack of insight” as to who can be helped and who can’t. Apparently, Heather was kicked out of a court-ordered program because she continues to use drugs. Like Rebecca, she refuses to stop her drug usage and enjoys the lack of responsibility on Skid Row, so I’d say she’s not “the kind of person that can be helped” any more than Rebecca.
@@Chatterboxis007. This is a friendship between Mark and Rebecca-it’s up to them when to call it quits. Other viewers are still donating to the general gofundme on Rebecca’s behalf, indicating that not everyone has thrown in the towel. So it’s not your call when it’s “time to move on”. However, you’re entitled to your opinion and thanks for supporting the channel with your comment! :-)
You’re an amazing soul. I hope you’re able to heal from the things that hold you in bondage. And even now, I’m proud of you.
Absolute worst childhood ever….😮
my heart hurts for her two boys.
Eye roll
@@terrytownsend5583eye roll at you
The pain and hurt…its so deep…and I’m so sorry. You’re in my thoughts.
Jesus lord, what pain people have. Terrible terrible things to go through.
Her biggest lesson should have been to not start using drugs. She seems like a kind person who has endured a lot of tragedies, and that is sad. I hope she finds the strength to get the therapy she needs. God bless.
She’s incredibly honest and accountable…as many don’t understand, most transients prefer to live that way….say but true.
She deserves a chance in life
That old chestnut. Throw away comment
She has one. She has all four limbs and is young. theres her chance
@@jjonez787 stupid comment
This broke my heart 💔😢
Liar
OMG that is so sad. No Mother should ever have to go through that and never be a witness to such a tragedy. Hugs and prayers to her. 🤗🙏
I can feel her sadness. 😞
How does that work
@@terrytownsend5583it’s called empathy
There’s still hope young lady! Find within yourself to rise above your trauma with the right people and resources available.
On the verge of tears through the whole interview...
You can physically feel heart break through this one. I love the way Mark did this interview , and I pray that God will work through her to get her to a place of peace and comfort. Much love to you Heather❤
Heather, I hope you can get off the street,, and get clean Your Wonderful young lady who has been trying to survive the trauma,,, God will protect you 🙏 Mark you did a great Interview with Heather
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So in our system someone comes across a young girl who is a runaway in possession of alcohol/narcotics and the solution is jail?! It’s mind boggling.
Thank you for being brutally honest!
Assuming
She seems to have a severe anxiety disorder and needs help. This is so sad. Please, God, help this child.
Dear Heather please call your children. You are worthy of love and forgiveness. You don't have to do much, just tell them they are dear to your heart and you love them. Simple steps towards bigger things is better than hasty steps towards desaster. My father's sister and her husband went through the same terrible thing of losing a child the same way you lost your daughter. Good luck with the choices you make. May it be to better yourself and stay safe because nobody has the right to harm you. ❤
She’s a sweetheart ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I thought she was in her teens because she looks soo young
Thanks Mark.
Poor baby. Bloody tough life.. Good luck Sweetheart
You’re not weird, Heather.
To anyone that might be reading this, I wish that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, the doubt exit your mind right now. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life... even tho current times are challenging and some of you might go through tough times now I sincerely wish everyone that happiness enters your hearts and let all the stress and sadness vanish out of your life...as you know nothing in life is ever easy, but what's important is that you keep going!
you're worthy of love and happiness, never allow anyone to tell you otherwise! It can be extra hard sometimes but stay strong and hang in there, your life matters, no one can replace you, I'm thankful you're born and I'm sure your struggles will pass soon! Hang in there my friend 🙏 I wish all of you plenty of health and strength during these tough times. remember you are strong, you got this! never forget that!
sending much love over towards all of you, May god or whatever you might believe in bless you the way you need it to!
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💔 damn this is raw. Mark, please help her how you tried to help Rebecca. She needs therapy & I have hope she can get clean.
She's my daughter's age, this breaks my heart. I wish I could reach out and hug her. Stay safe Heather.
This was a good interview..... So realistic
Thank you for the interview Heather and SWU
Your not weird your not crazy or syco....you are worthy..you are somebody special remember that.. I hope you are able to see this.. you matter..I'm sorry for all the horrific things you had to endure. Nobody should have to go through all those things but they do not define you at all..rise above and get out of that place. You will only go down...get out and find your sister and ask for a hand up...God bless and keep you safe...much love to you my dear
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She doesn't seem too far gone.... I hope that she can deal with the trauma of losing her baby girl so she can move forward with life and be a mother to the two sons she has left
How did she lose her baby girl?
she comes across as a small child…no wonder given what she has experienced…
My heart hurts for her so bad. Please help her. Give her somewhere safe to go. Raped 6 times in a month of being on skid row just is horrific. She walks the streets all night too scared to stop, fears shes being drugged this is out of control. Please give her a safe space to rest even for a day
Tons of pain and trauma with this one. I kinda get the feeling that she has never had anyone believe in her so why should she believe in herself. She and I have a lot in common with abusive childhood and loss of a child later in life. Where the commonality changes however is I absolutely refuse to do any addictive drug. I saw what crack did to my mom. I sure as hell am not starting that. I don't blame her for starting at 12. She ran into the worse possible person to have a relationship with.
So heartbreaking😢
What a beautiful lady you’ve got beautiful hair, lovely eyes, nice personality you are a great person. Don’t let anybody ever tell you anything else. You’ve been to hell and back, you haven’t come this far just to come this far ! Live your life !now you know better you can do better
Godspeed Heather.
You are good enough.
I love your portrait ✌️
This video was just disappointment after disappointment. She never got to live a healthy normal safe life. There’s no way someone should have to go through all of that.
I’m in Texas and my fam is from East Texas. Some from Tyler, Texas. This lady seems innocent and gentle but oh baby she’s something special. Then she said she was a housewife for 12 years but when asked about being married she said she wasn’t ever married. Like, girl what?!
She was raped by a 21 yr when she was 12. That will set you off for a life of abuse , pain and suffering. My heart goes out to her .
You have good reason to be paranoid there. Please get back in the program. So sorry about your daughter Heather. 🙏🏻
It’s so weird that meth was a designer drug back in the 90’s. It was the cool club party drug. Very smart that they took the “crystal” out of the meth…
You can see the pain in Heather's eyes.😢😢
Prayers from Colorado🌲💛🌲💛🌲💛🌲💛🌲💛🌲💛