Stuff like this is why I've followed you for years. It's not just content. It's personal. It's exciting, it's gutteral, it's emotional, it's REAL. One can see your life's path through the videos. And it's a story I have always deeply connected to.
This video really captures the beauty of not just a game's story, but the suffering and overcoming of human experience. I've cried listening to this video.
Thr fact that Cal has psychometry, and thus an incredibly strong connection to memories of not only himself but others, AND on Bracca he was constantly scrapping Clone Wars era equipment, I imagine he was having trauma filled flashbacks every day
Honestly that's probably what led to his insensitivity to the force by the time the game starts; survival. In conjunction with consciously suppressing his abilities, they were also subconsciously suppressed as well. consistently having force-induced trauma flashes would, reasonably, cause a severing in his ability, albeit small, to allow him to survive.
I bet that's why in the beginning of Fallen Order he's listening to music. Like most who has trauma tend to listen to music to forget. I do the same especially with my depression.
@@xrickardoxgamer3282same! Must have music, must have sound. Can’t let the brain get too board at, say, work and thought-stumble into trauma and have to explain to my coworkers why I’m suddenly sobbing.
I love the color grading of the game footage. The crushing of the blacks and whites while simple somehow makes it seem more beautiful. It also, seemingly thematically, breaks up and contrasts the parts of the image. The characters themselves are broken and divided, which means the darkness shows through. But, that means the light is more powerful when it shines through as well. Fallen Order has been and always will be one of my favorite games. Thank you for making this analysis, its exactly what i needed right now
Austin we love u. Please don't ever stop. I know it can be hard. Battling with depression and anxiety is hard. I just hope messages like this help you feel better. Maybe even put a smile on your face. When u left game theory I was so pissed because I felt like u were always the most real. Thank you for shoddy cast. Thank you for being you. I know you probably won't read this but you got this.
Hey, we happened to orbit in some of the same social circles in Chicago for a few years, and we never had the pleasure of meeting, but the way peoples' eyes lit up when they talked about you spoke volumes. You are really valued and loved and make an impact, and I'm really excited to see you continuing to create.
In a way, I believe every single person on this planet want/wish/hope for that kind of "legacy" I wish that you all could hear them, see them light up, their joy and love resonating through their memories and experiences with you, their whole being wanting to share *you* with someone else.
Fallen Order is special to me. The gameplay might not be the best, but the story hits a specific part of my psyche. I played Fallen Order shortly after I almost lost my life to a car accident. I was in the same place Cal was. Broken, hurt, pretending that I could go back to how I was before it happened. Cal's journey was my journey. It helped me accept what happened and move forward. Helped me find peace with myself.
1:57 - I've often said that it is the flaws that make the man. Being perfect is boring, it is the flaws that give character, that make someone stand out from the sea of bland faces and give them their own unique identity. Conquering your flaws is hard, sometimes it takes your entire life to do, and sometimes you never manage to do it, and that's *ok*. After all, your flaws are just as much a part of you as everything else, and that makes you YOU. Don't ever stop being yourself, Austin. We all love you.
I fully agree. Some of my dearest friends are deely flawed individuals, and a few of my favourite channels are from very afflicted people as well (like AsukkaTV). Accepting qnd working on that is very important
Wow, I turned on the reminder for this video and am subscribed with notifications, yet still UA-cam only showed me this video 30 minutes after it was released, and only in the recommendations. UA-cam really has done you a great injustice today
Yeah no notification but at least it was on my splash page. Be nice if youtube would show the channels you watch frequently first before showing recommendations.
I never thought there could be so much thought and story put into a Star Wars game from 2019, of all things. I haven't played J:FO, but the relatability and strange sense of kinship Austin found in just a lightsaber is kind of infectious. This is definitely one of Austin's better videos (yes, the lion animation error looks natural), and it was worth getting up earlier to watch the premiere. Austin seems to be finding his own road to mental redemption by analyzing and rethinking video games, and I'm here for every second of it. Hope to see more videos soon, but remember to have fun making them ;)
Thank you. Sincerely. This isn’t an easy topic, but it’s a meaningful one so thank you for giving it the care and attention it deserved, and putting into words a lot of things that needed to be said.
This may be your most beautiful video and immediately hits me as one of the most impressively impactful and authentic works in not only this niche but on UA-cam. Thank you for opening yourself up to make this.
I am 2 mins into this video and have decided to put this on the backlog before spoilers kick in. You've rekindled my desire to play Fallen Order and I will return to happily absorb this video with the knowledge of the game in me. See you soon!
@@MultiverseMediaSpace I played for 5 hours, got tired of it and deleted it. So uh, now that i'm starting over I think I might take like 30 hours to get back to this vid. But okay, I guess I can.
I love you, Austin. Just knowing that you're well and still here, it means so much to me. I love You. I will always be excited to hear your voice and views. I still go back thru the Old vids, just to hear You when I feel like I need an anchor. Keep safe.
This, this is why I follow you my friend. Your rants are amazing but your humanity, empathy and the darkness you have overcome.. and acknowledge is why I love your content. Amazing job
Thank you for eventually releasing this video. It is actually really good. I’m happy it didn’t get killed. The importance to you really showed in the deeper background and production. And that, I think, makes it such a profound video. Thank you. Thank you for the vulnerability presented.
My husband and I on our separate accounts will continue to be subscribed and watch your videos as you release them. As people with our own mental health illnesses, we will wait you out as long as you need. I am sure many of us will. We may not be sick the same way, but we understand on some level. Keep going forward at your pace, we will continue to cheer you on. Thank you for not giving up even when you really want to. Thank you so much.
Austin, this video hit me more in the feels then I was expecting it to. You are awesome at these analysis videos. Keep up my Man. You are not alone in this journey
Wow, thank you for making this. You hit the nail on the head, this is precisely what made Fallen Order stand out and special. Glad to see it getting the attention it deserves.
As a victim of childhood abuse I can say that your message here is one that each of us struggling with, well a lot of things, needs to here. As always shody you make me think and reassess the worlds around me. Thank you
I never played the game, never experienced what you have, always felt minorly broken, always functional. This video is probably the best I have seen in years. Thank you.
Man this episode was the therapy I needed at the moment. We may break at points but it is how you put yourself back together that matters and most importantly that we keep trying!!
I truly don't know that ANY other content creator puts MORE effort into their videos than you and I think that's a big part of why I get SO excited whenever I see you upload anything at all. Feel your feelings as long as at the end of the day you know that you're exceptional and worth the time your viewers collectively give to your videos.
Thank you for always being open with your own personal experiences. I hope that for you, it is also a way to address what has happened and come to terms with it in a way that benefits you for the better.
Worth the wait, sad for Austin’s that he’s dealing with the scars but happy for him that he can adopt the analogy of the sabre being broken but fixable. I feel for him, I’ve been watching for a long time and I really relate sometimes with him when he talks about his struggle.
Your sharing during the intro is very relatable for me. My life was also very rough, thanks to my parents; this channel oddly is one thing that not only distracts me but gives me a bit of hope
I will agree, good sir this hits home in a way I could not express my self. The way you have summed Cal's lightsaber is beyond beautiful. I fail to have the vocabulary to express but it's flawless. You have no idea how many life's and hearts this will affect. Thank you for sharing not only your pain, fears but kindness and wisdom. You sir are a gentleman and a scholar. Thank you for the good work
Everything you said about your family life in the opening minutes hit really close to home. I have been isolating a lot trying to deal with my own struggles, and the final segment directed towards Trilla was something I really needed to hear from someone today.. Synchronicity at its finest. Thank you for all you do for us Austin. Stay strong.
Thank you for giving me what I feel to be the most important parasocial relationship I have. It's videos like these that make me feel connected and understood, even if we've never spoken a word to each other's face. I am an extremely traumatised person, myself, and I gave up long ago trying to find a "normal" or a way for things to "go back to the way they were". My life has been forever changed by trauma, and as someone who's ability to choose flight has been completely destroyed, I think the perceived "power" of living IN trauma is the fact that when scared, angry, and manic, you ARE capable of doing pretty amazing things... but it's not sustainable to stay hypervigilant 24/7 for the rest of your life. It's taxing both emotionally and mentally. I appreciate when creators are open with their audience about their struggles, especially as I live almost a hermit-like life. I've cut off my family (extremely toxic, we'll leave it at that for now), and have very few friends. I don't share my living space with others (except my rescued roosters), I don't go to social events like movies, bars, etc., and I spend very, very little time with the few friends I have. Considering this, it's very easy for me to fall into a world of, "everything that's not associated with me is perfect, functional, and everyone's happy". It's nice to hear that sometimes, the world beyond myself struggles just as much as I do. It's nice to hear people becoming more comfortable as talking about struggles becomes more normalised. In the end, I like to think that I'm witnessing a world not just become more connected, but more compassionate as well. Thanks for the hope, Austin, and you're absolutely right in that it's okay to seek a new normal when shit hits the fan, and it's okay to be a broken person. My roosters remind me multiple times a day that they don't care how "broken" I am, they just love me for existing. Buddy has even come to my door several times while writing this just to ask for me to reach out to him and give him some scritches (which I've obliged), and it makes me smile to think that in his eyes, he not only loves and trusts me, but WANTS contact with me. He gets hugs every day, and any other boys I own get hugs, scritches, and cuddles depending on their individual comfort levels.
You're videos always make me feel like I need to deal with my trauma and I think I need these reminders from any source. I don't hear them every time and it helps when comes from unexpected places. Thanks.
Probably one of my favorite videos you've made. Thank you for making this not only for yourself but for me, and everyone else. Never heard of this game but now I want to play it.
I'm so glad you finally got this video out. It's a masterpiece. Totally worth the heart and soul and pain you put into it. This is why we all love you and your work Austin. Keep being beautiful. I'm gonna go cry now.
This was an amazing introspection of how games can really give feeling for the player. Letting us get to know a character on another level than a 2 hour movie. Thanks for this good sir.
The four years was worth it Austin. This is a really heartfelt message that is good for people experiencing or recovering from trauma. I expected to learn about lightsabers but I learned to love myself.
Austin I have followed your channel for years and I have never commented on a video. But I felt the need to comment on this one. Thank you. Thank you for all of the education and entertainment over the years. Videos like this one speak to a deeper thing inside of many of us. So many of us can relate to trauma and pain, and so many of us fall into thinking that it breaks us when really what it should do is make us stronger. Thank you for articulating this idea in a way that is relatable. I know this video you’re going to help some people Deal with their self perception around their trauma.
This video was WELL worth the wait. Normally, I have difficulty gleaming meaning from what people talk about, but I could clearly see what you were driving at. Thank you for making this. I hope you continue to make deep videos like this. Your thoughts are wonderful.
Strength is doing the hard things. Especially the important things. Thank you for your strength. I look forward to hearing your voice. Even re releases.
Thank you so much for this video. I really needed to hear this and I’m better for having watched it. It means more to me than I can put into words, so I won’t even try. But trust me when I say this was important and I really appreciate it. Thank you for everything you do.
I absolutely loved playing this game, it struck a cord with me when I first played it and watching this made me realize even more how I was impacted then and to this day. Took a long time to make but it was well worth it probably one of my now top 5 videos
Thank you so much for making this video, Cal has been my favorite Jedi since I stayed up for 24 hours the day after Christmas on the year it released, doing nothing but playing this game.
This is an incredibly made video. Well done Austin! Been a huge fan of video games, math and you for A LONG TIME! This video though....speaks in layers and volume! Thank you for this WORK of art!
@ShoddyCast Thank you so much for this video Austin. This really explained in a way I have not been able to put into words why I really love this game and its sequel so much. The connection to loss and feeling broken was not something I could really connect as why I love it and you really brought that right up front and honestly knowing that someone else got this that they felt this while playing through it makes it make more sense. Thank you.
I hope I’m not the only one who pulled up this video and felt every word shared about brokenness. The surprise message that many of us needed to hear and embrace ❤
This is beautiful and so brave of you. I feel as though there is so much more than this that you wanted to say and so happy to see that have made what you wanted. I'm glad that there is someone with as beautiful of a soul as you do. Good luck Austin, we are all so proud of you and I bet that you're proud of yourself.
Austin, I needed this video. I am very grateful that you stuck by it, as I really needed to hear the messages you had to tell in this video. I am someone who has also dealt with a lot of trauma and emotional abuse. I have dealt with narcissistic parents, I still live with one, and I still feel like I'm trying to put the broken shattered pieces of my life together. I just want you to know that I really needed this video.
I am crying right now, Austin. I'm really happy you ended up fully producing and releasing this script because it... it really gets at why this game means so much to me and hits me somewhere super deep and personal. Thanks
It took me a couple days to watch this video. Somehow I knew it was going to hit hard and man did it ever. I know I'm just one voice in the void but thank you. I needed to hear this.
This was nothing short of amazing, and I'm glad I held off on commenting to the end. Star Wars is the same story told over and over again, only in ways so different you'd never fully notice. It was an absolute joy to see the story fleshed out so thoroughly, making Cal's struggle.....as well as our own....mean that much more. That said, are we ever going to get back to the Angry Sun? I need closure dude.
This is exactly what I needed to hear. You're right. I can't go back and fix what's broken. I am not who I was. I can not be who I was again. It's time I moved on and became something new. Broken yet whole. Thank you, Austin.
Nearly half a decade to make... but I think I needed to hear this now. Thank you, Austin, for sharing this with us, mispronunciations and all. We're all flawed... broken... to some extent. But there's a way back, no... a way forward, with help from others. Thanks for reaching out.
this video hit close to home for me. i played fallen order after every trauma in my life should have faded, and i remember that feeling of connection with all of these characters. i couldn't figure out why, but after watching this video... it's because i fell to my own dark side. i had been externalizing my pain for years and didn't even understand that i was still broken inside. i haven't healed, the wounds haven't closed, and the exertion of my anger will only rip them open again. i think i have a long journey of self-discovery ahead of me. thank you, austin.
![[UA] NAVI vs MOUZ | BO5 | IEM Rio 2024](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/CMBYk0cbGoA/mqdefault.jpg)
Give this video a like if you're too scared to play the "Austin Mispronounces Malicos" drinking game.
Malicosh
jokes aside thanks for this episode, you put your soul out to help others. It helps me. Thank you, lets all be better.
It's not fear, it's understanding.
Im terified
Can I play the game anyways and still give it a thumbs up? Great video as always Austin. Thank you for everything.
Stuff like this is why I've followed you for years. It's not just content. It's personal. It's exciting, it's gutteral, it's emotional, it's REAL. One can see your life's path through the videos. And it's a story I have always deeply connected to.
Couldn't have said it better myself - thank you for your comment :)
came to say this❤
I also came here to say this. Thank you, Austin. ❤
This video really captures the beauty of not just a game's story, but the suffering and overcoming of human experience. I've cried listening to this video.
Thr fact that Cal has psychometry, and thus an incredibly strong connection to memories of not only himself but others, AND on Bracca he was constantly scrapping Clone Wars era equipment, I imagine he was having trauma filled flashbacks every day
Honestly that's probably what led to his insensitivity to the force by the time the game starts; survival.
In conjunction with consciously suppressing his abilities, they were also subconsciously suppressed as well.
consistently having force-induced trauma flashes would, reasonably, cause a severing in his ability, albeit small, to allow him to survive.
Nooo, this hurt my heart. Poor Cal
I bet that's why in the beginning of Fallen Order he's listening to music. Like most who has trauma tend to listen to music to forget. I do the same especially with my depression.
@@xrickardoxgamer3282same! Must have music, must have sound. Can’t let the brain get too board at, say, work and thought-stumble into trauma and have to explain to my coworkers why I’m suddenly sobbing.
I love the color grading of the game footage. The crushing of the blacks and whites while simple somehow makes it seem more beautiful. It also, seemingly thematically, breaks up and contrasts the parts of the image. The characters themselves are broken and divided, which means the darkness shows through. But, that means the light is more powerful when it shines through as well. Fallen Order has been and always will be one of my favorite games. Thank you for making this analysis, its exactly what i needed right now
Austin we love u. Please don't ever stop. I know it can be hard. Battling with depression and anxiety is hard. I just hope messages like this help you feel better. Maybe even put a smile on your face. When u left game theory I was so pissed because I felt like u were always the most real. Thank you for shoddy cast. Thank you for being you. I know you probably won't read this but you got this.
Somebody did.
Hey, we happened to orbit in some of the same social circles in Chicago for a few years, and we never had the pleasure of meeting, but the way peoples' eyes lit up when they talked about you spoke volumes. You are really valued and loved and make an impact, and I'm really excited to see you continuing to create.
In a way, I believe every single person on this planet want/wish/hope for that kind of "legacy" I wish that you all could hear them, see them light up, their joy and love resonating through their memories and experiences with you, their whole being wanting to share *you* with someone else.
That is one of the nicest things you could say about a person, and it's something a lot of people with depression and anxiety REALLY need to hear
Fallen Order is special to me.
The gameplay might not be the best, but the story hits a specific part of my psyche.
I played Fallen Order shortly after I almost lost my life to a car accident. I was in the same place Cal was. Broken, hurt, pretending that I could go back to how I was before it happened.
Cal's journey was my journey. It helped me accept what happened and move forward. Helped me find peace with myself.
I nearly cried reading your comment, thank you for sharing. I'm glad to hear this game helped you through it!
1:57 - I've often said that it is the flaws that make the man. Being perfect is boring, it is the flaws that give character, that make someone stand out from the sea of bland faces and give them their own unique identity. Conquering your flaws is hard, sometimes it takes your entire life to do, and sometimes you never manage to do it, and that's *ok*. After all, your flaws are just as much a part of you as everything else, and that makes you YOU.
Don't ever stop being yourself, Austin. We all love you.
I fully agree. Some of my dearest friends are deely flawed individuals, and a few of my favourite channels are from very afflicted people as well (like AsukkaTV). Accepting qnd working on that is very important
Wow, I turned on the reminder for this video and am subscribed with notifications, yet still UA-cam only showed me this video 30 minutes after it was released, and only in the recommendations. UA-cam really has done you a great injustice today
Yeah no notification but at least it was on my splash page. Be nice if youtube would show the channels you watch frequently first before showing recommendations.
Use your subscription box...?
@karlhnedkovsky5214 for me thats always full of videos I've already seen in the past week.
@@enzovulkoor Yeah, but the moment a video comes out, it's there! There's nothing for it, for you to just check, right?
@@enzovulkoor I watch my subscriptions almost exclusively through it!
Hi! It's me! Someone that's really excited to watch this video!
This is getting out of hand. Now there are two of us.
There is 3 of us!!!!
GOD F*** D***** Now there's at least 4.
I count 4... oh no.
Make that 5
This is gonna hit hard, I can already tell... Thanks Austin. You give me hope that some day... I'll be able to conquer my issues...
I never thought there could be so much thought and story put into a Star Wars game from 2019, of all things. I haven't played J:FO, but the relatability and strange sense of kinship Austin found in just a lightsaber is kind of infectious.
This is definitely one of Austin's better videos (yes, the lion animation error looks natural), and it was worth getting up earlier to watch the premiere. Austin seems to be finding his own road to mental redemption by analyzing and rethinking video games, and I'm here for every second of it. Hope to see more videos soon, but remember to have fun making them ;)
i know this was hard to make, but thank you for making it. it means so much.
Thank you. Sincerely. This isn’t an easy topic, but it’s a meaningful one so thank you for giving it the care and attention it deserved, and putting into words a lot of things that needed to be said.
This may be your most beautiful video and immediately hits me as one of the most impressively impactful and authentic works in not only this niche but on UA-cam. Thank you for opening yourself up to make this.
I am 2 mins into this video and have decided to put this on the backlog before spoilers kick in. You've rekindled my desire to play Fallen Order and I will return to happily absorb this video with the knowledge of the game in me. See you soon!
Let me know how it hits when its fresh, please.
@@MultiverseMediaSpace I played for 5 hours, got tired of it and deleted it. So uh, now that i'm starting over I think I might take like 30 hours to get back to this vid. But okay, I guess I can.
14:02 Suddenly have a memory playing on repeat and tears in my eyes. I wonder why doing the dishes is so hard on me today.
with all my heart, i hope everyone who needs to see this, does
amazing work austin, thank you for sharing this with us
I love you, Austin.
Just knowing that you're well and still here, it means so much to me.
I love You. I will always be excited to hear your voice and views.
I still go back thru the Old vids, just to hear You when I feel like I need an anchor.
Keep safe.
This, this is why I follow you my friend. Your rants are amazing but your humanity, empathy and the darkness you have overcome.. and acknowledge is why I love your content. Amazing job
Thank you for eventually releasing this video.
It is actually really good. I’m happy it didn’t get killed.
The importance to you really showed in the deeper background and production.
And that, I think, makes it such a profound video.
Thank you.
Thank you for the vulnerability presented.
My husband and I on our separate accounts will continue to be subscribed and watch your videos as you release them. As people with our own mental health illnesses, we will wait you out as long as you need. I am sure many of us will. We may not be sick the same way, but we understand on some level. Keep going forward at your pace, we will continue to cheer you on.
Thank you for not giving up even when you really want to. Thank you so much.
Man, I don’t usually comment on videos but this one… this hits. Thanks for this. Great video. Keep it up.
Austin, this video hit me more in the feels then I was expecting it to. You are awesome at these analysis videos. Keep up my Man. You are not alone in this journey
This is such a good video! It made me cry (in a good way) while reflecting on my own trauma.
Wow, thank you for making this. You hit the nail on the head, this is precisely what made Fallen Order stand out and special. Glad to see it getting the attention it deserves.
I feel this is some of your best work Austin. Thank you.
This was a ride
And I am glad I have been here for it
Thank you Austin
As a victim of childhood abuse I can say that your message here is one that each of us struggling with, well a lot of things, needs to here. As always shody you make me think and reassess the worlds around me. Thank you
I never played the game, never experienced what you have, always felt minorly broken, always functional. This video is probably the best I have seen in years. Thank you.
Very good video, thank you for this.
Really loved this video, thank you for sharing that!
This video is awesome, makes me appreciate Fallen Order's story even more than i already did.
I'm glad you're back! Watching the start of your video, a powerful message. I hope you do well.
Really well wrighten Austin , thanks.
loved the video, it really made me think!
Looking forward to your take on one of my favorite pieces of star wars media since the first two KOTOR games!
Fully agreed, those games were something special--and so is J:FO
All i have to say is thank you
aw man, I think part of be broke while watching this video. I was straight up moved to tears because I recognized myself in Cal... what a great vid
Man this episode was the therapy I needed at the moment. We may break at points but it is how you put yourself back together that matters and most importantly that we keep trying!!
I truly don't know that ANY other content creator puts MORE effort into their videos than you and I think that's a big part of why I get SO excited whenever I see you upload anything at all.
Feel your feelings as long as at the end of the day you know that you're exceptional and worth the time your viewers collectively give to your videos.
happy to see another new post power to you man
Thank you for always being open with your own personal experiences.
I hope that for you, it is also a way to address what has happened and come to terms with it in a way that benefits you for the better.
Nice to hear feom you!
Very excited for this on so many levels
This is at 3 am for me so I’ll miss the live but will be eagerly awaiting the chance to watch it after
Well how was it
Worth the wait, sad for Austin’s that he’s dealing with the scars but happy for him that he can adopt the analogy of the sabre being broken but fixable.
I feel for him, I’ve been watching for a long time and I really relate sometimes with him when he talks about his struggle.
Dude! You're making videos! Thank you 🎉
There's always a new perspective to these games that others are able to put together and it makes the art just that much better. Thank you for this
Your sharing during the intro is very relatable for me. My life was also very rough, thanks to my parents; this channel oddly is one thing that not only distracts me but gives me a bit of hope
This was beautifully written. I love it so much. Thank you for sharing this!
I will agree, good sir this hits home in a way I could not express my self. The way you have summed Cal's lightsaber is beyond beautiful. I fail to have the vocabulary to express but it's flawless. You have no idea how many life's and hearts this will affect. Thank you for sharing not only your pain, fears but kindness and wisdom. You sir are a gentleman and a scholar. Thank you for the good work
Everything you said about your family life in the opening minutes hit really close to home. I have been isolating a lot trying to deal with my own struggles, and the final segment directed towards Trilla was something I really needed to hear from someone today.. Synchronicity at its finest. Thank you for all you do for us Austin. Stay strong.
Thank you for giving me what I feel to be the most important parasocial relationship I have. It's videos like these that make me feel connected and understood, even if we've never spoken a word to each other's face. I am an extremely traumatised person, myself, and I gave up long ago trying to find a "normal" or a way for things to "go back to the way they were". My life has been forever changed by trauma, and as someone who's ability to choose flight has been completely destroyed, I think the perceived "power" of living IN trauma is the fact that when scared, angry, and manic, you ARE capable of doing pretty amazing things... but it's not sustainable to stay hypervigilant 24/7 for the rest of your life. It's taxing both emotionally and mentally.
I appreciate when creators are open with their audience about their struggles, especially as I live almost a hermit-like life. I've cut off my family (extremely toxic, we'll leave it at that for now), and have very few friends. I don't share my living space with others (except my rescued roosters), I don't go to social events like movies, bars, etc., and I spend very, very little time with the few friends I have. Considering this, it's very easy for me to fall into a world of, "everything that's not associated with me is perfect, functional, and everyone's happy". It's nice to hear that sometimes, the world beyond myself struggles just as much as I do. It's nice to hear people becoming more comfortable as talking about struggles becomes more normalised. In the end, I like to think that I'm witnessing a world not just become more connected, but more compassionate as well.
Thanks for the hope, Austin, and you're absolutely right in that it's okay to seek a new normal when shit hits the fan, and it's okay to be a broken person. My roosters remind me multiple times a day that they don't care how "broken" I am, they just love me for existing. Buddy has even come to my door several times while writing this just to ask for me to reach out to him and give him some scritches (which I've obliged), and it makes me smile to think that in his eyes, he not only loves and trusts me, but WANTS contact with me. He gets hugs every day, and any other boys I own get hugs, scritches, and cuddles depending on their individual comfort levels.
You're videos always make me feel like I need to deal with my trauma and I think I need these reminders from any source. I don't hear them every time and it helps when comes from unexpected places. Thanks.
Probably one of my favorite videos you've made. Thank you for making this not only for yourself but for me, and everyone else. Never heard of this game but now I want to play it.
Deep reflection like this is why I keep coming back. Thank you Austin.
I'm so glad you finally got this video out. It's a masterpiece. Totally worth the heart and soul and pain you put into it. This is why we all love you and your work Austin. Keep being beautiful. I'm gonna go cry now.
This was an amazing introspection of how games can really give feeling for the player. Letting us get to know a character on another level than a 2 hour movie. Thanks for this good sir.
Howdy, super excited to see this one
I don’t even like Star Wars, but the way you commentated in this video had me HOOKED
I respect you my friend. Seeking help and dealing with your demons is something I could never do.
Thank you for making this video and for sharing it. I'm struggling to find the words, but it truly means so much to me.
Thank you.
The four years was worth it Austin. This is a really heartfelt message that is good for people experiencing or recovering from trauma. I expected to learn about lightsabers but I learned to love myself.
Such a strong story with such a deep and heartfelt message behind it. Thank you for the video, it makes me realize I need to be more open.
Great video!
Austin I have followed your channel for years and I have never commented on a video. But I felt the need to comment on this one. Thank you. Thank you for all of the education and entertainment over the years. Videos like this one speak to a deeper thing inside of many of us. So many of us can relate to trauma and pain, and so many of us fall into thinking that it breaks us when really what it should do is make us stronger. Thank you for articulating this idea in a way that is relatable. I know this video you’re going to help some people Deal with their self perception around their trauma.
Your openness about why this film was so late resonates with myself. Part of the reason i subscribed years ago.
This video was WELL worth the wait. Normally, I have difficulty gleaming meaning from what people talk about, but I could clearly see what you were driving at. Thank you for making this. I hope you continue to make deep videos like this. Your thoughts are wonderful.
Yo that intro hits hard though 😢
Great video.
Damn it, Austin, nobody on UA-cam can bring me so close to tears as you. Thank you for finally sharing this special video.
Woah. This game sounds awesome as far as storytelling goes!
Strength is doing the hard things. Especially the important things. Thank you for your strength.
I look forward to hearing your voice. Even re releases.
This video was amazing.
Thank you for posting it.
I can't express how moved I am.
Thank you so much for this video. I really needed to hear this and I’m better for having watched it. It means more to me than I can put into words, so I won’t even try. But trust me when I say this was important and I really appreciate it. Thank you for everything you do.
Dude, I can't believe how this video smashed me in so many ways. Thank you, and I wish the best for you in your journeys. Please hang in there.
I absolutely loved playing this game, it struck a cord with me when I first played it and watching this made me realize even more how I was impacted then and to this day. Took a long time to make but it was well worth it probably one of my now top 5 videos
All I can say is, good job and thank you for the video.
Thank you so much for making this video, Cal has been my favorite Jedi since I stayed up for 24 hours the day after Christmas on the year it released, doing nothing but playing this game.
This is an incredibly made video. Well done Austin! Been a huge fan of video games, math and you for A LONG TIME! This video though....speaks in layers and volume! Thank you for this WORK of art!
This was beautiful and had me in tears. Wonderful video, thank you.
Thank you for making this. I really needed to hear these words and I will be sharing this with others I think will enjoy hearing them as well.
@ShoddyCast Thank you so much for this video Austin. This really explained in a way I have not been able to put into words why I really love this game and its sequel so much. The connection to loss and feeling broken was not something I could really connect as why I love it and you really brought that right up front and honestly knowing that someone else got this that they felt this while playing through it makes it make more sense. Thank you.
I hope I’m not the only one who pulled up this video and felt every word shared about brokenness. The surprise message that many of us needed to hear and embrace ❤
This is probably the best video you've done. Very deep and powerful. Thanks, from someone who was once broken, and still worries about the cracks.
This is beautiful and so brave of you. I feel as though there is so much more than this that you wanted to say and so happy to see that have made what you wanted. I'm glad that there is someone with as beautiful of a soul as you do. Good luck Austin, we are all so proud of you and I bet that you're proud of yourself.
1:55 In my own progress to accept myself and be more at ease, I definitely agree with the sentiment that we could all bear to be a bit more flawed.
Austin, I needed this video. I am very grateful that you stuck by it, as I really needed to hear the messages you had to tell in this video. I am someone who has also dealt with a lot of trauma and emotional abuse. I have dealt with narcissistic parents, I still live with one, and I still feel like I'm trying to put the broken shattered pieces of my life together. I just want you to know that I really needed this video.
I am crying right now, Austin. I'm really happy you ended up fully producing and releasing this script because it... it really gets at why this game means so much to me and hits me somewhere super deep and personal. Thanks
It took me a couple days to watch this video. Somehow I knew it was going to hit hard and man did it ever. I know I'm just one voice in the void but thank you. I needed to hear this.
Beautiful video, Austin. Thanks for your vulnerability and honesty.
I’ve loved your videos for as long as you’ve been making them, thank you
Damn this hit hard. I can see why this lived rent free in your head for so long, beautiful video
The time I was depressed and all the headache and feeling after that. This video is down to my soul.
i needed this right now, i needed this push to finally go limited contact with my family, truly, thank you.
This was nothing short of amazing, and I'm glad I held off on commenting to the end. Star Wars is the same story told over and over again, only in ways so different you'd never fully notice. It was an absolute joy to see the story fleshed out so thoroughly, making Cal's struggle.....as well as our own....mean that much more.
That said, are we ever going to get back to the Angry Sun? I need closure dude.
I legitimately cried at the end of this video.
This is exactly what I needed to hear. You're right. I can't go back and fix what's broken. I am not who I was. I can not be who I was again. It's time I moved on and became something new. Broken yet whole. Thank you, Austin.
Nearly half a decade to make... but I think I needed to hear this now. Thank you, Austin, for sharing this with us, mispronunciations and all. We're all flawed... broken... to some extent. But there's a way back, no... a way forward, with help from others. Thanks for reaching out.
this video hit close to home for me.
i played fallen order after every trauma in my life should have faded, and i remember that feeling of connection with all of these characters. i couldn't figure out why, but after watching this video... it's because i fell to my own dark side. i had been externalizing my pain for years and didn't even understand that i was still broken inside. i haven't healed, the wounds haven't closed, and the exertion of my anger will only rip them open again.
i think i have a long journey of self-discovery ahead of me.
thank you, austin.