Reagan Myers - Depression Is Funny Like That

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  • @Tereb1
    @Tereb1 6 років тому +5719

    I love how she keeps making parallels between physical illness and mental illness and alluding to how you just have to mask your depression with a "real" health issue because people . just. don't. understand.

  • @aetedalodeh4550
    @aetedalodeh4550 7 років тому +8200

    "There are some days I'm so sad that I don't remember what it's like not to be" HOLY ME

    • @paisley323
      @paisley323 6 років тому +4

      Me as well

    • @nardjess56
      @nardjess56 5 років тому +2

      Aetedal Odeh I cried there ..

    • @Murofly
      @Murofly 5 років тому +1

      Are you kidding that's not a profound or smart or articulate thing to say it's just a fact that a 5 year old could say about being sad, not special and NOT poetry, wow what has the world come to? Once Shakespeare was the poet and now everyone is.

    • @XYZ-kb3mm
      @XYZ-kb3mm 4 роки тому +4

      Murofly I agree, it’s the least remarkable/most vague part of the entire poem, therefore the most relatable, therefore top comment

    • @PL4YBO1CRT
      @PL4YBO1CRT 4 роки тому +2

      This makes me cry knowing that o can relate to

  • @Aramazdkhatcherian
    @Aramazdkhatcherian 7 років тому +7426

    *My depression doesn't ask for much, but when it does, it's asking for something I cannot give. It's just me asking for something I cannot give* that hit me hard right there.

  • @graceemily8353
    @graceemily8353 7 років тому +7397

    "I can't call in sad to work" 😩

    • @SmillyDonut
      @SmillyDonut 6 років тому +48

      That's the problem right there.

    • @fullhousefrek
      @fullhousefrek 6 років тому +19

      That's so true. I wish I could :(

    • @SmillyDonut
      @SmillyDonut 6 років тому +8

      Me too.

    • @sammylegaspi2214
      @sammylegaspi2214 6 років тому +46

      Grace Emily I can't call school and excuse me for me not feeling mentally well

    • @graceemily8353
      @graceemily8353 6 років тому +4

      so true

  • @madilynnrayman2982
    @madilynnrayman2982 7 років тому +5787

    "Being sad is a god damn joke sometimes"
    Oh so true. This is my new favorite poem, thank you.

    • @mysteriouswriter1993
      @mysteriouswriter1993 6 років тому +4

      madilynn rayman Don't take the lords name in vain.

    • @lucindagarcia1341
      @lucindagarcia1341 5 років тому +14

      mysterious writer 199 Not everyone believes in god tf

    • @anonymousnug_
      @anonymousnug_ 5 років тому +7

      @@mysteriouswriter1993they didnt.. Reagan Meyers did, in the poem... thats the video.

    • @amyfisher4403
      @amyfisher4403 5 років тому +1

      Same

    • @Murofly
      @Murofly 5 років тому +1

      Wow, this is your favourite poem? That is DEPRESSING.

  • @ssuyan
    @ssuyan 7 років тому +3267

    "sometimes all i can do is laugh if i don't there may be nothing left"

    • @j_jarvh
      @j_jarvh 6 років тому +9

      I could really relate.

    • @psophilsalva5888
      @psophilsalva5888 6 років тому +10

      I have memes! Nah just kidding if I don't laugh or smile, the dark void will just take my existence.

    • @psophilsalva5888
      @psophilsalva5888 6 років тому +11

      And the question here is not "are you pretending to be happy" rather "how long do you keep pretending that you're happy?"

    • @kataangzutara9358
      @kataangzutara9358 4 роки тому +6

      For the past few weeks i've felt happier than i've every felt and I dont whether its because im laughing so much or because i break down into tears each time

    • @uroojfatima9128
      @uroojfatima9128 4 роки тому +1

      Can relate

  • @illybell8180
    @illybell8180 6 років тому +3383

    The thing about depression is when you first get it you're sad. Miserable. And after a while it stops and there's nothing left. You're just numb. And then you'll get sad again. And it's like a toxic relationship because you know it's bad but it feels like if you don't feel sad you don't feel anything. And hurting is better than feeling nothing at all.

    • @westonwheeler2311
      @westonwheeler2311 6 років тому +51

      Thats when a pencil sharpener isn't just a pencil sharpener anymore

    • @HotelBedSheets
      @HotelBedSheets 6 років тому +29

      Fuck... YES. That's on point.

    • @savannahglover9235
      @savannahglover9235 6 років тому +48

      And sometimes the physical pain is the only way to remind yourself that you’re still alive...

    • @uritmudobremuzike2617
      @uritmudobremuzike2617 6 років тому +3

      Savannah Glover I'm scared that always will be only way.

    • @Ava-rh7oi
      @Ava-rh7oi 6 років тому +9

      I hate that I relate

  • @zacharycrank6606
    @zacharycrank6606 7 років тому +1195

    "Depression is like a monologue under water."

    • @zammerack7203
      @zammerack7203 7 років тому +13

      That part is relatable and so beautiful.

  • @richellesilva5397
    @richellesilva5397 7 років тому +3770

    I love everyone who can relate to this poem a little too much

  • @asseater0077
    @asseater0077 7 років тому +2924

    This is probably the most accurate description of depression I've ever heard. Everything feels like the end of the world because it might as well be, and you forget what it feels like to be truly happy. The last time I was truly happy, I was drunk.

    • @janietoocute
      @janietoocute 7 років тому +12

      asseater007 your comment. Yessssss

    • @zucker8224
      @zucker8224 6 років тому +12

      asseater007 it's ben so long I don't think I've ever ben truly happy

    • @valenciavidrine7272
      @valenciavidrine7272 6 років тому +22

      asseater007 exactly, always trying to recapture the pure happiness we felt as children, although some people don't even have happy childhoods

    • @saintashaj
      @saintashaj 6 років тому +15

      asseater007 last time i was truly happy was when i got high.

    • @cristywebb8351
      @cristywebb8351 6 років тому +1

      Hard same. I'm drunk now :/

  • @queerkyra2684
    @queerkyra2684 7 років тому +755

    " When people ask me how I am they might as well be asking where I've gone." no truer words have ever been spoken.

    • @CentralTexasPuppies
      @CentralTexasPuppies 5 років тому +3

      The Wal-Mart parking lot....the parking lot of the Emergency Room..because if I can't breathe and I'm drowning they'll be able to help me breathe there

    • @alildaisy2180
      @alildaisy2180 4 роки тому +1

      I don’t know where depression dumped the old me, but from the little that I can feel, it’s cold and unsympathetic. And I know the real me is trying to get back, but everyone thinks this fake me is the real one.

    • @cassandrarinehart9970
      @cassandrarinehart9970 3 роки тому +1

      That part....

    • @britmecole
      @britmecole 3 роки тому

      This❤

  • @noelkamara8025
    @noelkamara8025 6 років тому +484

    the scariest part is thinking that you'll never be okay.

    • @samara_s05
      @samara_s05 4 роки тому

      I can’t remember what happy is all I know is what I am now

    • @therealunslimshady471
      @therealunslimshady471 4 роки тому

      does it get better though ?

    • @noelkamara8025
      @noelkamara8025 4 роки тому

      *sadness noises* it got better :)

    • @noelkamara8025
      @noelkamara8025 4 роки тому

      Dorkaholic i am okay :)

    • @noelkamara8025
      @noelkamara8025 4 роки тому +4

      Samara Schellings hang in there. you’ll find your way. i posted this 2 years ago. i forgot i even did, so i’m kinda weirded out lol i just woke up to the notification of your comment and the others asking me if i’m okay now. i’m in a completely new and fresh season in my life... reading my comment took me exactly back to the black hole i lived in 2 years ago. between then and now, i left the abusive asshole i was with, went back to school and just completed the year with a 4.0, and everyday i’m learning to love myself better than the day before. i’m taking it as a sign and testament from the most High that not only does it get better, but eventually YOU WILL be okay.

  • @janinesanchez7013
    @janinesanchez7013 6 років тому +337

    "Being this kind of sad is funny that way. No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience"

  • @sumi9224
    @sumi9224 7 років тому +860

    I love reading the comments and just seeing what lines hit people the most, you can tell we all feel the same thing so differently but it is all still pain.

    • @veertjeeeeh
      @veertjeeeeh 4 роки тому +2

      This comment made me smile through my tears

  • @alliekerr7799
    @alliekerr7799 6 років тому +253

    "I can't call sad into work."
    I feel this so hard.

  • @naptaker5148
    @naptaker5148 6 років тому +145

    "Take care of this terrible body that doesn't take care of me back."
    Hit me hard, goosebumps.

  • @ejaywithanay
    @ejaywithanay 7 років тому +211

    "If I get out, I have to be a person again." I felt that man

  • @helenadasilva9371
    @helenadasilva9371 2 роки тому +35

    "My own voice telling me on the radio, there is no place for me here"
    Off all the lines in her poem, this one hurt the most...

  • @Sofarinrunning
    @Sofarinrunning 2 роки тому +22

    “Take care of this terrible body that doesn’t take care of me back” that is such a good way of describing it

  • @bluebubble19
    @bluebubble19 7 років тому +387

    You know when you find something that explains what you've been trying to put into words for so long? This is it.

    • @LongRideHome29
      @LongRideHome29 7 років тому +9

      fully agreed. especially the line, 'when people ask me how I am they may as well ask me where i've gone"

    • @libraryofsera
      @libraryofsera 6 років тому +3

      I love the line where she talks about her depression as if it's someone else

  • @ToshiJ89
    @ToshiJ89 7 років тому +527

    When people like ask me how I am, they may as well be asking where I've gone. 👏👏😢

    • @teeter2303
      @teeter2303 7 років тому +7

      Toshi J Best line, its a odd way of saying what she saying but yet so relative

  • @TotallyHannah16
    @TotallyHannah16 3 роки тому +28

    "no inconvenience is a minor inconvenience. it's all the end of the world or might as well be" yup

  • @gaskheart
    @gaskheart 6 років тому +697

    can't stop these tears from falling, because it is way too deep

    • @naturegirl8236
      @naturegirl8236 5 років тому +2

      I know how that is everyday I am close to crying but I stay strong and when I do I am hiding a part of me that makes me.

    • @jackstar6018
      @jackstar6018 2 роки тому

      cheer up

  • @maggieseng348
    @maggieseng348 5 років тому +850

    This week I sat in an auto zone parking lot and cried for ten minutes because I couldn’t change a head light, which sounds like a lead up to a terrible stand-up routine, right? One where the joke is always on me? Like, haha, I ate half a bag of pretzel m&ms at 11:30 in the morning IN BED or, I watched the pilot of Gossip Girl ten times in the past two weeks because I keep falling asleep half way through because being sad is a goddamn joke sometimes.
    My headlight went out and my first thought was “seems right.” I couldn’t change it myself because I’d have to take off the whole bumper or something and I thought “of course” or “I wish I was dead.” Being this kind of sad is funny that way, no inconvenience is a minor inconvenience, it’s all the end of the world or might as well be, my brain is dramatic like that.
    Depression is a silent film, a monologue shot underwater, depression is sulking because I won’t talk to it anymore, by which I mean ABOUT it. There are some days I am so sad I don’t remember what it’s like not to be, like when you have a bad cold and you forget how to breathe through your nose and you’re so sure you’ll never breathe through your nose again and I’m so sure I’ll never feel joy again.
    Except when you have a cold you can call in sick to work, and people tell you to get well soon, and there is a whole soup genre dedicated your well-being. I can’t call in “sad” to work. I can’t go to the grocery store and go to the “sad aisle” which would have like already stale popcorn and tea which your best friend swears is good for you.
    So sometimes all I can do is laugh, if I don’t, there might be nothing left. There’s a crack in my bathtub in the shape of the Platt river, and I know this because I sit on the floor of my shower so often it’s become a permanent imprint in my thigh.
    I’m here because I’ve been sad since graduation, not this one the one before that, or maybe I have a bad cold, or maybe it’s both, but the cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes.
    If I get out, I have to be a person again. Have to put on clothes, put lotion on my legs, eat a bowl of cereal at least, take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back. I’m so tired of talking about my depression as someone else, a ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the seance, afraid of what it might want from me.
    My depression doesn’t ask for much but when it does it is something I cannot give and that’s the joke, it’s just me asking for something I cannot give. I ask to come back to my body and it’s only me saying no.
    When people ask me how I am they might as well be asking me where I’ve gone. I”m driving down a dirt road, no headlights, when it curves I will not know, just drive on into the field my own voice playing on the radio telling me “there is no place for me here.”

    • @danaealexandrax
      @danaealexandrax 5 років тому +4

      Maggie Seng thank you

    • @markuspietari
      @markuspietari 5 років тому +13

      Thank you, it's easier to read this than to concentrate to the video

    • @mixe
      @mixe 4 роки тому +7

      Thank you, I always check if there is captions first and if not I will scroll to the comments and attempt to look for some, so thank you

    • @boxybicycle
      @boxybicycle 4 роки тому +2

      Thank you, my friend needed this but couldn't watch the video, just tysm

  • @HatingThePlayer
    @HatingThePlayer 6 років тому +49

    "Depression is a ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the Seance. Afraid of what it might want from me."
    Holy. Shit.

  • @august-5085
    @august-5085 7 років тому +546

    I almost burst into tears listening to this. Jesus, I love and hate when someone so accurately describes the torment that is depression.
    Maybe one day we won't have to deal with this. Until then, cheers.

    • @NEATERTICK
      @NEATERTICK 6 років тому +1

      Richard Nava amen. .or the statements that we are crazy

    • @mirmaej9497
      @mirmaej9497 4 роки тому

      It will.... And there’s only ONE thing/ PERSON who CAN AND WILL HEAL us and it’s the eight word you just mentioned

    • @whatiftherewerejust100peop8
      @whatiftherewerejust100peop8 3 роки тому

      But I wish that was a moment, instead it is life.
      Cheers

  • @lexuhpro
    @lexuhpro 7 років тому +419

    This gave me chills in the first 30 seconds. Too real.

  • @1991LMR
    @1991LMR 6 років тому +64

    "No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience, it's all the end of the world, or it might as well be" *snaps*

  • @Hannahsonline
    @Hannahsonline 2 роки тому +16

    Watching this while you feel like you're getting worse is calming

    • @Hannahsonline
      @Hannahsonline 2 роки тому +3

      Coming back to it while feeling better is familiar

  • @BrEsp
    @BrEsp 4 роки тому +26

    "I have to take care of this terrible body, that refuses to take care of me back" damn!

  • @JusticeAnimeGeek
    @JusticeAnimeGeek 7 років тому +330

    I relate to this more than I'd care to say. and I'm terrified to say this because eveveryone is so glad about me getting better...

    • @OBelisana
      @OBelisana 7 років тому +15

      We can do it.

    • @JusticeAnimeGeek
      @JusticeAnimeGeek 7 років тому +5

      Ida Thank you

    • @OBelisana
      @OBelisana 7 років тому +5

      Jane Justice Doe 💚

    • @goldifoxxx1
      @goldifoxxx1 6 років тому +6

      Jane Justice Doe the poem is a well articulated poetic expression about depression-I didn't cry listening to it, but this what you just said 'because everyone is so glad about me getting better' made me bawl my eyes out. I'm so sorry that you have to effect something you don't really feel, in order to protect how others feel. My thoughts are with you.

    • @JusticeAnimeGeek
      @JusticeAnimeGeek 6 років тому +3

      goldifoxxx1 Thank you so much. It always makes me so much better when people remind me I'm not alone. Thank you so very much. To all of you, really. Thank you.

  • @Queencrazy1997
    @Queencrazy1997 4 роки тому +18

    I've watched this several times and it never gets less powerful. Depression is a fierce demon to battle, but as long as you are still here there will always be a place for you here

  • @BeebletheBee
    @BeebletheBee 4 роки тому +7

    "Im driving down a dirt road, no headlights, when it curves, I will not know" always hits me so hard

  • @Gallifreyan96
    @Gallifreyan96 7 років тому +78

    There are so many lines in this poem that struck a chord with me I can't even quote them all. This poem is brilliant, and sad, and something I wish I didn't relate to as much as I do.

  • @SPcamert
    @SPcamert 7 років тому +317

    I didn't want to laugh at this. I wanted to be sad. But it's just so fucking real, that it becomes funny. It becomes this defense that I can't control. I see myself in the mirror and I can't do anything but shut my eyes. And when I laugh I close my eyes. And I cry. And sometimes that's the best way.

    • @pooooopppyyyyfarttt
      @pooooopppyyyyfarttt 5 років тому

      Mm

    • @stephaniepierre11
      @stephaniepierre11 5 років тому +3

      I laugh at sad things bc it’s sad idk about you but to me I think it’s a psychological reaction

    • @Slimtailz
      @Slimtailz 4 роки тому

      Heidi Acelien ok there was no point on commenting if you were just gonna say mm

  • @Max-by5xq
    @Max-by5xq 5 років тому +91

    For anyone who is hard of hearing or just wants the words, here you go:
    This week, I sat in an AutoZone parking lot and cried for 10 minutes straight, because I couldn't change a headlight. Which sounds like a lead up to a terrible stand-up routine, right? One where the joke is always on me. Like, "haha, I ate half a bag of pretzel m&m's at 11:30 in the morning, in bed. Or, I've watched the Pilot of Gossip Girl 10 times in the past 2 weeks because I keep falling asleep half-way through, because being sad is a goddamn joke sometimes. My headlight went out, my first thought was "seems right." I couldn't change it by myself because I'd have to take off the whole bumper or something. I thought "of course" or "I wish I was dead." Being this kind of sad is funny that way. No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience; it's all the end of the world or might as well be. My brain is dramatic like that. Depression is a silent film; a monolouge shot underwater. Depression is sulking because I won't talk to it anymore, by which, I mean about it. There are some days when I am so sad, I don't remember what it's like not to be. Like, when you have a bad cold and you forget how to breathe through your nose, and you're so sure that you'll never breathe through your nose again; and I'm so sure I will never feel joy again. Except, when you have a cold, you can call in sick to work, and people tell you to "get well soon" and then there's a whole soup genre dedicated to your well being. I can't call in sad to work; can't go to the grocery store and go to the "sad aisle", which should only have like already stale popcorn and tea your bestfriend swears is good for you. So, sometimes all I can do is laugh. If I don't, there might be nothing left. There's a crack in my bathtub in the shape of the Platte River and I know this because I sit on the floor of my shower so often, it's become a permanent imprint in my thigh. I'm here because I've been sad since graduation; not this one, the one before that or maybe I have a bad cold or maybe it's both, but the cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes. If I get out, I have to be a person again. Have to put on clothes, put lotion on my legs, eat a bowl of cereal, at least, take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back. I'm so tired of talking about my depression as someone else. A ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the seance. Afraid of what it might want from me. My depression doesn't ask for much, but when it does, it's something I cannot give and that's the joke. It's just me asking for something I cannot give. I ask to come back to my body and it's only me saying "no". When people ask me how I am, they might as well be asking where I've gone. I'm driving down a dirt road, no headlights. When it curves, I will not know; just drive on into the field. My own voice playing on the radio, telling me there is no place for me here.

  • @notmikaela
    @notmikaela 7 років тому +58

    "It's all the end of the world or might as well be" AHHHHH!

  • @alybtrsyy
    @alybtrsyy 4 роки тому +11

    "my own voice playing on the radio telling me there is no place for me here", that hit me so hard :")

  • @amandarocha6358
    @amandarocha6358 7 років тому +66

    i love her voice

  • @odalismendoza8702
    @odalismendoza8702 4 роки тому +7

    "Sometimes all I can do is laugh. If I don't there might be nothing left." My heart is beating so fast after watching this and that part hit hard and made me cry. Sometimes I use my humor to quiet the pain that I'm hiding in the inside.

  • @amyahearne7369
    @amyahearne7369 6 років тому +25

    Oh my god. This just made me realise how important poetry is.

  • @Valeria-dn5pk
    @Valeria-dn5pk 7 років тому +151

    the tea part, so fucking true.

    • @LVLSSGNRTN
      @LVLSSGNRTN 6 років тому +3

      Kittyoongi would you mind explaining that part to me?

    • @drupozek8651
      @drupozek8651 6 років тому +2

      The drink you spilled all over me often people who dont have depression tell people who do to drink tea... as if it helps.

    • @LVLSSGNRTN
      @LVLSSGNRTN 6 років тому +1

      Dru Pozek yeah, I was guessing that was the meaning, but I wasn't sure. Thanks for explaining!

  • @kyedavis4082
    @kyedavis4082 7 років тому +65

    I thought this was so beautiful that I teared up because I've been there. I get there over and over again at times and it's terrifying to wake up and you're just hit with this wave of depression and no one seems to understand what it's like. The raw emotion you hear in her voice is heartbreaking and the people who disliked this video are idiots because they seemed to miss the meaning behind her words.

  • @tatyanayasko4173
    @tatyanayasko4173 7 років тому +74

    AMAZING. Poems like this one speak to so many people. Like me. They give us a voice. They put feelings that were once indescribable into words. Thank you.

  • @lilyb6137
    @lilyb6137 4 роки тому +8

    I remember I came across this poem when it was uploaded, and to this day, I still cry when I watch it, because every single line just hits a different type of emotion that I can't put into words myself, but I can relate to.
    pointless year update: hearing "my depression doesn’t ask for much but when it does it is something I cannot give and that’s the joke" is hard, even though I don't have depression, it reminds me of the way I've convinced myself that I am below everyone else, that I'm stupid, unattractive no matter how much effort I put into the clothes I wear or despite attempting to find the most flattering glasses to hide my big nose, that I have no confidence, I'm a loser and I'm awkward and that's why I don't get to go out with my friends, and I'm a burden at work and uni because I make countless dumb mistakes while the people around me do completely fine

  • @danaijahjackson5121
    @danaijahjackson5121 3 роки тому +3

    I can’t explain how much I felt that “depression is a silent film” I can’t explain it it just speaks to me.

  • @charliemiller7414
    @charliemiller7414 2 роки тому +2

    "All I can do is laugh.... If I don't there might be nothing left" that got me ..

  • @johannalein37
    @johannalein37 5 років тому +7

    i am sitting on the floor of my shower right now. crying.
    So i decidet to watch poetry slams to push me up.
    and now i foud this.
    thank you

  • @alanaryan3490
    @alanaryan3490 3 роки тому +8

    3 years later and this is still relevant. Thank you Reagan for this poem. I miss seeing you for slam poetry club ❤

  • @lettenlina1708
    @lettenlina1708 3 роки тому +4

    Lyrics:
    This week I sat in an auto zone parking lot and cried for ten minutes because I couldn't change a head light, which sounds like a lead up to a terrible stand-up routine, right? One where the joke is always on me? Like, haha, I ate half a bag of pretzel m&ms at 11: 30 in the morning IN BED or, I watched the pilot of Gossip Girl ten times in the past two weeks because I keep falling asleep half way through because being sad is a goddamn joke sometimes.
    My headlight went out and my first thought was "seems right." I couldn't change it myself because I'd have to take off the whole bumper or something and I thought "of course" or "I wish I was dead."Being this kind of sad is funny that way, no inconvenience is a minor inconvenience, it's all the end of the world or might as well be, my brain is dramatic like that.
    Depression is a silent film, a monologue shot underwater, depression is sulking because I won't talk to it anymore, by which I mean ABOUT it. There are some days I am so sad I don't remember what it's like not to be, like when you have a bad cold and you forget how to breathe through your nose and you're so sure you'll never breathe through your nose again and I'm so sure I'll never feel joy again.
    Except when you have a cold you can call in sick to work, and people tell you to get well soon, and there is a whole soup genre dedicated your well-being.I can't call in "sad" to work. I can't go to the grocery store and go to the "sad aisle" which would have like already stale popcorn and tea which your best friend swears is good for you.
    So sometimes all I can do is laugh, if I don't, there might be nothing left. There's a crack in my bathtub in the shape of the Platt river, and I know this because I sit on the floor of my shower so often it's become a permanent imprint in my thigh.
    I'm here because I've been sad since graduation, not this one the one before that, or maybe I have a bad cold, or maybe it's both, but the cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes.
    If I get out, I have to be a person again. Have to put on clothes, put lotion on my legs, eat a bowl of cereal at least, take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back.I'm so tired of talking about my depression as someone else, a ghost that haunts me and I am afraid of the seance, afraid of what it might want from me.
    My depression doesn't ask for much but when it does it is something I cannot give and that's the joke, it's just me asking for something I cannot give.I ask to come back to my body and it's only me saying no.
    When people ask me how I am they might as well be asking me where I've gone. I"m driving down a dirt road, no headlights, when it curves I will not know, just drive on into the field my own voice playing on the radio telling me "there is no place for me here."

  • @watermelonwarrior3695
    @watermelonwarrior3695 4 роки тому +5

    “All i can do is laugh, because if i don’t then there’s nothing left” that hit to close to home

  • @Ambertrine
    @Ambertrine 5 років тому +8

    The accuracy of this poem is scary as hell... Every time I think I am getting better, depression pulls me back and kicks me in the gut as a quick reminder. This poem has power, a power that brought me to tears. It is truly amazing!

    • @ashleykelly2155
      @ashleykelly2155 2 роки тому

      Yes! First time someone said I was depressed, I was 5. 20 years later… still fighting this battle that seems to never end. I feel like I’m getting better, then the rug gets jerked out from under me and I am back in this dark pit wondering how I can go from functioning like a somewhat regular person to not having the energy to get out of bed overnight. I want this roller coaster to end.

  • @laurasofiacardona720
    @laurasofiacardona720 6 років тому +9

    “No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience” that is so true

  • @paulcisowski551
    @paulcisowski551 5 років тому +9

    "There is no place for me here" that rings to true for me.

  • @i_draw_things9151
    @i_draw_things9151 3 роки тому +2

    “Sometimes I talk to the voice in my head to avoid the thoughts of how I’m alone”

  • @MishaDKroon
    @MishaDKroon 7 років тому +28

    As someone who suffers from both mental illnesses and physical, this poem his very close to home, especially as there are lines that relate to my physical illness as well as my mental. The line about her body not looking after her as it should run straight to my core...❤
    I've lost touch with Button, it was nice to return to this channel to such a great performance 😊

  • @madewhole-ev4uy
    @madewhole-ev4uy 3 роки тому +3

    I used to relate to this so much. I recently realised how long I was depressed. I remember really hating my self in 5th grade I was either 10-11. I'm 16 now.
    Wish I could go back in time and just cuddle my old self and tell her that she's loved and she's precious and that everything turns out great.

  • @bubblyrai
    @bubblyrai Рік тому +3

    I don't have depression, but this got me into tears because it let's me see even just a peek of what my friend is going through right now.

  • @Punchy919
    @Punchy919 5 років тому +53

    I've translated this to spanish
    He traducido esto al español
    En esta semana estuve en el estacionamiento de un Autozone y lloré por diez minutos seguidos porque no podía cambiar un bombillo del carro
    Lo cual suena como lo que lleva a una horrible y forzada rutina diaria no?
    Una en donde el chiste está siempre en mí, como
    haha
    me comí una bolsa de pretzels de M&M's a las once y media de la mañana EN LA CAMA
    o
    vi el capítulo piloto de Gossip Girls diez veces durante estas dos últimas semanas porque no pude evitar dormirme a la mitad
    porque estar triste es un maldito chiste a veces
    mi bombillo del carro se apagó y lo primero que pensé fue "parece bien"
    no pude cambiarlo por mí misma porque tendría que desmontar todo el parachoque o algo
    pensé
    "por supuesto"
    o
    "desearía estar muerta"
    estar así de triste es gracioso de esta manera
    ninguna inconveniencia es una inconsistencia menor;
    es todo el fin del mundo, o bien podría ser
    mi mente es tan dramática, que mi depresión parece una película muda
    un monólogo grabado bajo el agua
    mi depresión empieza a molestarme porque ya no le hablaré más, por lo cual quiero llegar a que;
    hay días en donde estoy tan triste que no recuerdo el cómo se siente no estarlo
    cómo cuando tienes un mal resfriado, que olvidas como respirar por tu nariz, y estás tan seguro de que no volverás a respirar por tu nariz otra vez
    (risas)
    y te encuentras tan seguro de que no sentirás felicidad otra vez
    excepto
    cuando tienes un resfriado puedes decir en el trabajo que te encuentras enfermo, y todos te dirán que te mejores, y hay un maldita telenovela dedicada a tu bienestar
    no puedo decir que me encuentro triste en el trabajo, no puedo ir al supermercado e ir al pasillo triste, el cual tendría palomitas instantáneas con sal y tu mejor amigo te asegura de que eso es bueno para tí
    así que
    a veces
    lo único que puedo hacer es reírme
    si no lo hago, entonces no quedará nada para mí
    hay una grieta en mi bañera con la forma del Río Platte y sé de esto porque siempre me he sentado tantas veces en el piso de mi ducha que se ha vuelto una marca permanente en mi muslo
    estoy aquí porque he estado triste desde mi graduación, no esta, sino la anterior a la otra
    o quizás tengo un mal resfriado, o quizás son ambas pero el resfriado siempre es mejor para propósitos de simpatía
    si salgo, tengo que ser una persona otra vez
    tengo que ponerme ropa, poner loción en mis piernas, tomar al menos un plato de cereal
    cuidar de este terrible cuerpo que se rehúsa a cuidar de mí de regreso
    estoy tan cansada de hablar sobre mi depresión como si fuese alguien más
    como un fantasma que me atormenta y teniendo miedo de la sesión de espiritismo
    asustada de lo que podría querer de mí
    mi depresión no pide muy seguido, pero cuando lo hace siempre es algo que yo no puedo darle y y ese es el chiste
    el chiste soy yo pidiendo algo que no puedo dar
    yo pido regresar a mi cuerpo y es solo yo diciendo que no
    cuando la gente me pregunta cómo estoy, también podrán estar preguntando sobre a dónde me he ido
    estoy conduciendo en una carretera de tierra
    sin bombillas para cuando deba cruzar una curva
    y yo no voy a simplemente manejar aleatoriamente hacia el campo
    con mi propia voz hablando en la radio diciéndome que no hay un lugar para mí aquí.
    (aplausos)

  • @doobiedoo5058
    @doobiedoo5058 5 років тому +4

    "sometimes all i can do is laugh, if i don't there might be nothing left"
    goddamn i can't count the amount of times i've said this. powerful. powerful. powerful. sobbing as of right now

  • @breaziabourg271
    @breaziabourg271 6 років тому +18

    "Sometimes all i can do is laugh"I can relate . People are always sure im okay because i always seem happy, but really i dont want anyone to see how much i just am not happy. I would rather everyone think i was ok than have them wondering and thinking they're the reason i'm not.

  • @kristen4301
    @kristen4301 6 років тому +48

    "The cold makes the most sense for sympathy purposes"

  • @TreyAllDay666
    @TreyAllDay666 6 місяців тому +2

    "I ask to come back to my body, and it's only me saying no." Hit different.

  • @taranpreetkaur8303
    @taranpreetkaur8303 2 роки тому +3

    People who are ignorant, cruel or abusive towards you may have never truly experienced those depths of despair, utter hopelessness and numbness and to be honest, I'm glad that they didn't have to go through this gut wrenching pain.

  • @sarahasseff
    @sarahasseff 6 років тому +10

    In tears, completely encapsulates what it truly feels like to have depression. Thank you for your brave words!

  • @rebeccamonk8616
    @rebeccamonk8616 6 років тому +8

    These poems are the only thing left for me. I feel lost and alone

    • @nomas4336
      @nomas4336 6 років тому +2

      Rebecca Monk so do I....

  • @hayletrujillo924
    @hayletrujillo924 2 роки тому +3

    “Take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back.” FELT

  • @sleepysadpoet
    @sleepysadpoet 6 років тому +8

    gosh i love slam poetry. and she really just describes depression so well

  • @tapsandtomesasmrambience781
    @tapsandtomesasmrambience781 7 років тому +10

    I can't even handle how good this is.

  • @Kiwimango95
    @Kiwimango95 7 років тому +17

    I already know I'm going to be watching this poem over and over again. I've never related so closely to a poem, thank you Reagan for putting this feeling into words♥

  • @JasWritesInDarkness
    @JasWritesInDarkness 7 років тому +8

    TRUTH!!!! THIS POEM SAID EVERYTHING!!

  • @Jewelslh3
    @Jewelslh3 4 роки тому +7

    During this whole thing i thought, *Wow..i didn't think ANYONE could explain how i felt..how i feel. But this is EXACTLY how i feel, it's almost like my mind has been put into words*

    • @Jewelslh3
      @Jewelslh3 Рік тому

      Update: still feel like this.

  • @EnanoForro
    @EnanoForro 6 років тому +4

    "My own voice playing on the radio telling me there is no place for me here..." *leaves*
    Oh my... 10/10.

  • @katiec1881
    @katiec1881 6 років тому +5

    I feel like I have depression but I don't let it in, and it's tiring, but I won't let this happen, but sometimes you just can't help it. But remember this. you are loved.

  • @weareallfritz4365
    @weareallfritz4365 4 роки тому +1

    Okay, so I used to listen to this all the time, and I very much related to the part where she says I wish I was dead on a minor inconvenience, AND LISTENING TO IT AGAIN I REALIZED I DON'T DO THAT ANYMORE, AND I AM VERY HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!

  • @Ziorac
    @Ziorac 4 роки тому +2

    'Taking care of a body that doesn't take care of me back'.
    As someone who ended up with constant muscle pain as a result of constant stress/worry, I feel this so hard. Despite my body being in constant pain, I still have to be nice to it and feed it and wash it, or else it'll hurt me more. But when I do something I want to do or enjoy doing, like baking one god damn cake or going for a nice walk with my dog, my body will punish me with even more pain. And I still have to take care of it...

  • @jmvonheim
    @jmvonheim 2 роки тому +3

    i always seem to come back to this poem, it just comforts me and makes me feel a little bit better while dealing with my depression. thank you reagan x

  • @morganmartin5272
    @morganmartin5272 5 років тому +3

    "I've been sad since graduation, not this one the last one" hits me hard everytime

  • @maxpowerthedestroyer
    @maxpowerthedestroyer 4 роки тому +2

    i am crying too much while listening to this

  • @olivianelson500
    @olivianelson500 Місяць тому

    Still keep coming back to this poem, years later… feeling seen and understood by someone who doesn’t even know i exist is another kind of love, and also sadness. This poem will never not be in my mind. Thank you, I didn’t ask for this poem but it gave me hope that I’m not alone

  • @kamiw3126
    @kamiw3126 6 років тому +6

    My happy feels hollow and short-lived, if I laugh there’s a weight behind it, and if I smile it’s only temporary. If I sit with no distractions for too long the world might just end because that’s how it feels, so I waste my time doing things that aren’t ever really beneficial but they keep me busy. My happy is weak, I’m always faking it, attempting to tell my mother that some days I can’t muster the strength to help her with the dishes in the morning. I don’t need her to tell me “get up, yes you can,” with a glint in her eyes like it’s a joke. I feel half alive and it’s not fair or funny. I want to sleep forever but i’m too scared of what will come of it.

  • @isablelas
    @isablelas 6 років тому +37

    how can they all say such things without crying

    • @sarac9343
      @sarac9343 5 років тому +5

      i keep wondering about that bc if it was me up there i wouldve been crying a fucking river

    • @MeghaMeltdown
      @MeghaMeltdown 5 років тому +4

      She was possibly angrier than sad up on stage because of the subject and the large mass of people that either don't know about it or don't care
      And just sick of the depression itself

    • @Queenbeauty472
      @Queenbeauty472 4 роки тому

      Ikr

  • @Jettlover2998
    @Jettlover2998 2 роки тому +2

    “It’s all the end of the world or might as well be my is dramatic like that” all the time !

  • @pumpkinoligarchy6626
    @pumpkinoligarchy6626 4 роки тому +1

    “No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience”
    You have no idea how much of a relief it was to hear that, I always get so upset at inconsequential things and I know it’s irrational and I know I’m blowing it out of proportion so I just push down the feelings and go about my day, ignoring the pain swelling up in my chest and I’m *so* glad I’m not the only one

  • @kleinerwolf3078
    @kleinerwolf3078 7 років тому +9

    I can relate to this sooo damn much.. more than I probably should while I pretend to get better but am laying awake night for night..

  • @vlogdabeh
    @vlogdabeh 6 років тому +5

    this poem hit me so hard i'm crying

  • @juicyj5106
    @juicyj5106 Рік тому +1

    Felt that in my soul. God bless her. Beautifully done.

  • @Joyous395
    @Joyous395 5 років тому +1

    This is the best description of depression, if only everyone could understand it like this. Maybe then people would take it seriously

  • @diannarodgers8786
    @diannarodgers8786 7 років тому +12

    I love this poem too much

  • @nora_fluffy
    @nora_fluffy 7 років тому +5

    Watching it on button poetry live was such an amazing experience 🎈but watching it a second time still breathtaking

  • @aleehawkins486
    @aleehawkins486 5 років тому +2

    This made me cry. So relatable.

  • @Anne-zt2dz
    @Anne-zt2dz 5 років тому +1

    All my friends and my school think I am this lazy and sick person, but really all those days I'm staying in bed I'm too depressed to face anything or anyone without bursting in to tear. Only my mommy kinda knows how I feel. But even with her we use code words like "I'm really not feeling well", unwilling to discuss the fact that it's mentally. I used to be more honest with people, but I can't stand the painful silences anymore when I explain to them where I was this week. For now, I just have this "super annoying cold that just won't pass".

  • @aliryan4581
    @aliryan4581 6 років тому +6

    This made me feel so not alone. Thank you.

  • @OFuzzyBubblzO
    @OFuzzyBubblzO 4 роки тому +5

    "to take care of this terrible body that refuses to take care of me back"....yeah I feel that

  • @MissUnsicher
    @MissUnsicher 7 років тому +1

    Thank you for finding the words I lack.. I cried so hard at that. My friends know I have depressions and still, for them I am the most humorous person there is. Joking, laughing, all the time especially if I want to cry.
    "There is no place for me here" is a sentence on repeat in my head every time I am sad..

  • @ASMinor
    @ASMinor 4 роки тому +1

    I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and award-winning spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my UA-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤

  • @idabergh-smith179
    @idabergh-smith179 5 років тому +5

    "No inconvenience is a minor inconvenience, it's all the end of the world"

  • @jellybean2619
    @jellybean2619 4 роки тому +13

    "Depression is a silent film;a monologue shot under water"..

  • @khaygiel
    @khaygiel 5 років тому

    All my friends and I have different levels of depression. We cope with it in different ways. Some of us are stoned and drunk as soon as they think no one can see them, others, like me, just internalize and shove down all emotion until we break down, reset and the cycle starts again. This is the most accurate description I have ever seen.

  • @elizabethshuping706
    @elizabethshuping706 7 років тому +2

    I love Reagan Myers so much. She is honestly such an inspirational writer and person. Much love Reagan!!!!