I'm 51 and accepted death at age 40 when I had a bad illness. I recovered and realized life is so short and each day I should live freely and happily because you never know when you'll return to earth, but the soul lives on its next journey.💖💖💖
Hello. I hope you don't mind the question but I may be gone very soon and I wonder about the soul continuing on do you really believe this is what it does? I've never really pondered this question as seriously as I am today.
@@martindurkin8837 yes, because my brother came to me in my dream whom I've never met, reassuring me I'm not alone and he's with me always. He died before I was born. I believe our souls live on and on. I wish you peace and happiness.
Leaving this life will be a relief to me. I am 55 next week, and have never enjoyed more than fleeting moments of my life. As there is far too much pain to bear. Even today, my cat caught a tiny bird, and when I saw it, I knew it would die, but the heaving of its little chest trying to survive, yet being in so much pain, was too much to bear, it is how I feel every single day. So no, not everyone wants to live.
would you share why you have so much pain?? I feel so sorry that you are not free of pain. I used to have lots of pain before age 34yrs wanted to kill myself then, God was not part of my life, now 63yrs I m happy and free, no pain no man.. but Im free and pain-free, not everything is peach but Im happy and liberated!!
@@VerdantVanille You are most welcome. A few words is not much to so many. But to those who know and understand, the real and authentic hue mans that is. They, we, you an I. Understand the great power in words, even just 2. such as "thank you." Is all we need to move the clouds and bring the sun back out, when needed sometimes.
God, please touch this lonely woman's heart and show her the truth about your love, the way you called me out of the darkness. Pacifist peace and love.❤🤩👍😎😍
When You stay True to your innermost Dreams not distorted by the distractions of society you have True Inner Peace. You want Your Heart and Soul to be Happy. Blessings
It took me 30 years to Truly and Deeply start enjoying the "Human experience". ❤️❤️❤️ I became independent of the world's indoctrination, and it has given me Hope !!! ☮️ I totally identify with your thought process ! 💕💕💕💕 May the Universe give you more !!! 🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌞🌞🌞
"If tomorrow I die then today I want to feel alive" This part makes me cry out tears. I am working on a project to somehow understand and heal from the past years. Especially the past three years. It's a simple calender that shows what has happened. I think it's rare that someone at this young age feels all the pain (this word is not enough at all) you do. But I think there's so many people outside there feeling it. Your comment section seems to be full of those people. I feel like something was stolen from me. Feel Hijacked sometimes... I used to travel a lot by train and I observed people a lot over decades and where I live they have changed. I feel like I lost any connection to them now, maybe masks played a huge role but it's not just that... They kept us living in fear of death and disease for years now. But that can not be called living or life anymore! For young children it is a full life time. This cannot be talked down and I have not yet understood why people are all silent about the elephant in the room. Maybe some trauma response. My journey through life was interrupted..I start to forget what alive means...on some days I wake up or fall asleep and want to die and get out of this but in other moments I realize that I want nothing more than feel alive again. In another video you showed that dead tree amongst all the other green trees. That's how I feel. A lonesome wolf.. ✨Thanks so much for every video and word that you send out to the world ✨
Cherry, I feel the same as you. There has been so much loss I don't even know who I am anymore or where to be. I have lost my joy for life and don't know how to get it back. Watching these videos is helping me realize I'm not alone. This human struggle is real. Blessings.
would you tell me whats the cause of pain? I tell how I got out of pain. I used to bear and grin play strong.. raise Two children with husband but he was in school not available to help much.. working full time at retail at night shift, drink lots of coffee at night at work , cant sleep during day due to drinking lots of coffee(didnt know then coffee inhibit my sleeping), no friends and relative to turn to for friendship and social life during holiday and everyday living. I was at the end of my rope, I felt like whole worlds burden are on my shoulder, I feel sinking feeling in my stomach, whatever I do.. I have no satisfaction, world seems so cold, so cold, I hated holiday.. I feel bad for my children..they dont have other family membres to have fun and get together for holiday and graduation and school gathering time,parent conference, recital, school plays.. all alone by myself I hated that.. I wanted to kill my self,,cant do it.. I couldnt face the world with my pain in my heart and at the end of my rope.. I wanted to die
I second this. I stumbled upon this channel looking for another with similar theme, and while I mistook you for my favorite UA-camr on this, I really appreciate how genuine you are, how much I identify with you and how you report of your growth and your adventures and misadventures. The climate of this channel is just what I need, as well. Much love from a young woman based in Barcelona, twenty-six (only one year younger than you). Thanks for dedicating time to make this. But also be careful not to burn yourself too much, like a lot of content creators do. Much grace, Laura
Fear is the only thing that truly stops us from living. Fear is the greatest lie. Stay strong Sweet sister, We all must stand up. The fear we created is getting larger, we must stand in the face of Love. Fear comes up, we must look it in the 👁️ eye. Blessings to you All
Just when I think I couldn’t possibly appreciate and identify and love you more, you show us yet another layer of authenticity and heartfelt vulnerability and strength! I don’t think you are alone in feeling such intense emotions over everything at this time… I’m right there with you, and I think many others are as well. Perhaps a part of our transition as humans, our evolution towards heart-centered living? Whatever it is, and however challenging it might be, I welcome it and am so grateful to be alive at this time. And if our new world has more people like you in it, I am ready and willing to keep going!
This video calms my heart so much that my eyes are starting to become watery.. 🥺❤ For someone who is living in a toxic environment, this video feels like a short breeze, allowing me to forget everything even if it is just a few minutes. I immediately subscribed. Love your vibes and beautiful soul 😊 Stay safe. A lot of positive vibes from another soul on this planet earth.
Always live for the moment! When it’s time for a change, don’t be afraid to cut and run. We never know for sure what our future is or will bring, but living a life of joy and love makes the moment precious!🙏🏼
I cried like a baby upon the unveiling of your mirror project..... Your humility, vulnerability and struggle ... struck me as intensely human... reminded me of all the struggles in my life..... and the 10 euro tool.. is more than sufficient in the right hands... I struggled for decades.. broke tools... had poor results... and persevered to master tools and earthly pursuits... Thanks for reminding me of my early failures.. and struggles to rise and try again..... Thank heavens for your ability to really feel your path and life... and thank heavens for the wireless devices that allow your voice to reach all the hearts and ears that yearn to hear it... All the best...
You are such an inspiration to me. I'm 37 - neither look nor feel this age... But I am. This year I had a "green awakening". As artificial intelligence stole my job and is not likely to return it, I suddenly had a sense of feeling extremely exhausted from constantly working and being online. Now I just want to go off-grid as soon as possible. I don't think I can do it alone. Also, lack the funds as of now... But maybe one day. I would love to find a guy to do that with me, but I also realise I might have to do it alone. Hopefully I can find some work, save money and buy a bit of land one day. Would love to meet you, you're such an incredible human!
It's been 7 months now have you found a guy who would love the off-grid life with you Trupin? South Africa is a beautiful country but sadly it is not safe.
I don't ever remember being afraid to die, death is only the movement into a new life. When I was 2 years old for a brief moment I remembered I had a life before this new one I woke up in, where I lost my mate, most of my power(back to being a 2 year old), and everything else I once had, including my memories. The day I was born my parents came to see me in the hospital nursery. They said all the other babies were feeding crying or sleeping but I was holding my head up looking around. I know what I was thinking, Wtf? LOL I stayed outside in the woods for most of my childhood. In misery I went to college and had a career job for 5 years before leaving and living a life quite similar to yours, minus the wonderful old places like you find, instead I have a big old off grid camper, solar power systems, solar heaters, chickens, vegetable garden,... I like to grow design build and fix. I have some beautiful land I haven't moved out to yet but eventually plan to build a small off grid house and have a little farm there. Money hasn't been a problem for me since I was in college, not because I'm rich, because I just don't need much money. I haven't been to an auto mechanic in 20 years, or a barber lol, a lot of my work is done to not need money and I almost never spend money on stupid things. An old millionaire friend I had in college was always telling me, "There's two ways to have money, you can make it faster than you can spend it or you can save it faster than you spend it." I've done both and highly recommend learning to save it faster than you spend it. For most people that source of high-income dries up eventually and if you never learned to save faster than you spend you will be in big trouble very quickly if your income is one day significantly reduced.
Me too, Kevin. As a very small child---I carried a dim memory of where I was before this earthly life. I could "almost" grasp it. It fades away quite quickly, as we get indoctrinated into this life. Most people don't remember--that's all. But they WILL, later on ♥
You have two dates, when you were born and when you die. It is the dash in-between that represents the life we have lived. I can say it is a wakeup call when you see your name on a tombstone with your wife having gone first.
This brought tears. When alive we literally breathe other’s molecules and energy. A physical part of us dies with those we’re closest to but a part of your beloved will also live on in you. Peace and health.
Cats are lucky and also protectors, meaning they shield you from unseen negative energies. They walk between this world and the spirit world. I hope you two will snuggle in together this winter. He may know someone nearby that may be a friend. I’m going through my own challenges. I’m glad to find your channel ❤️Heartfelt Blessings to you and the little panther.
That’s so true Zöe. I feel how much power there is within you, she-wolf. Even though it might fall asleep these days, you will rise again, so much stronger. Thank you for bringing meaning to my day.
You have found the wisdom that an awful lot of people will never find, and even ignore. Coming to terms with death is the biggest struggle. But if you're able to loose that fear... than you can be fearless.
In my experience I don't fear death...its inevitable for us all so why fear it? My fear is in not living well. Not living consciously or skillfully. Not making the most of it while I'm here or taking advantage of the opportunities that come my way. I've made a lot of poor choices in this life and let good opportunities slip away. That leads to regret later in life.
Not true. Im not afraid of death at all. I'm paralyzed with fear about each day I am forced to live. My favorite thing to do is sleep, as it it the closest thing I can find to happiness>
When you cut the mirror and then seeing it chip made me think how something that is imperfect can be just perfect for us. Your project really turned out beautiful! ♥
I have just discovered this captivating channel today and I am transfixed by you. You have a beauty that goes beyond appearance. It is a radiance that comes from deep within you that is enveloped by your being your authentic self. This is living on the highest plane while 99% of mankind settle for existing. You are an inspiration for those of us who are seeking more! I thank and bless you!
I just finished watching all your videos. You are the single most hopeful human being I’ve know in my life with whom I share almost all the thoughts. Your thoughts are my thoughts too. I’m in the same situation as you in life. Only difference is that you dared to take a chance and I haven’t yet. I’m yet to see this video but you video caption is chocking every breath I’m taking now. Please keep living, for me. And if possible, I yearn to meet you some day.
Sneha, your words touch my heart at a level I can’t explain. Your soul radiates something powerful, just for you to know. You said it. You haven’t YET. It’s never too late to live a life closer to your heart. Please never forget how special you are.
I hope your channel becomes a huge success. You are imparting so much knowledge for a serene, beautiful, well lived life in a world where money and status and things are everything to most people who will never find happiness in themselves.
You are a sensitive and beautiful woman. Please know your value to this world and try to enjoy each day. You are worth living and having a good life. God. bless you.
I cried so much at your sequence of what you would do on your last day (at 8:00) ❤ Can someone tell me what the background music is there? The one with all the strings 🎻 Your videos are special and important, thank you for sharing your perspective on the world so openly and beautifully ❤
Hi from Brazil. Just saw your video on my timeline...you're a especial, deep, enlightned soul...I identify with you. Sometimes I feel there are not many people like this around...this world can be cruel and painful but we have to keep trying to find and see it's beauties.
We should never be scared to die, but we should also be brave enough to live whilst we are capable of bringing light and joy into the lives of others. That kindness is something we will carry with into the next life, and will bring us eternal joy.
Food for thought: You said. "It's not spiritual, it's just physics that we don't understand yet," but what if it is more like this: It's not physics, it's just Spirit we don't understand yet- and may take a lifetime to scratch the surface there! Good video reminding us to make the best of each moment. and become more aware of what brings us and others joy.
Dear Verdant Vanille. I just have to say; as deeply melancholic as your videos are they are really well put together, enjoyable and moving. You are one beautiful soul, with a beautiful life in a beautiful location.... Something many people can only dream of. There is just one thing missing, which I hope you will pursue. the discovery and beauty of the reason why we are on this planet and the infinite beauty we are promised when we achieve this end. You're in my thoughts and prayers to that end. God Bless.
You have a very calming, soothing voice. You seem very secure in who you are...authentic. The world needs people like you to give us permission to be ourselves. You truly are a human BEing. Thank you.
You're such a beautiful human being,endowed with sensitivity, truth and philosophy, I can connect intensely with you and your message to the world, thank you so much
As always your videos are so creatively and beautifully done and full of deep messages of Truth. Thank you for creating such inspiring content! My favorite part was in the middle of the video when you said" if I were to die tomorrow here's what I would do today" and you named about 10 things and it went quickly the way time does. I'm going to have to answer that question for myself! Two other comments I have. When I started to live alone, cats started to appear. And for 20 years I have taken care of them as they have given me wonderful company and have taught me many secrets of life. That kitty is coming to you for a reason and I can only encourage you to let it be dependent upon you, feed it well, and it will give you so much more in return. And at the end of the video I saw that you had a male companion/friend... I am so grateful for you to have that. People will be so enriched by sharing your beautiful energy.All of the people in your life are being blessed by sharing in your goodness!
Susie… How can you be so gentle and kind? You’re right, this little cat came to me for a reason. I think he is being fed elsewhere because I never saw him hunt. I’m craving to let him in and feed him and take full responsibility for him but my issue is that I know I will go on a big travel next year and I cannot find a solution to have someone take care of him whilst I’m away. That’s the whole story… I’m obsessed with him, I built a little house for him, with straw and a big woolen blanket. He loves it. I guess things will unfold the way they should… sending you my love Susie ♥️
As someone who also creates stories and tales for others to read for a living, I can relate. We always question our decisions. The fork we took in life. I have had many as well. However. Always remember, my friend. No matter what your endeavor be it art, music, stories or ideas... Here is what I often share. Any person can breed and produce kids. And have done so since the dawn of the Stone Age. But it is educators, content creators, influential personalities and authors who write the software that will run in their heads. Ideas from creative people are what built the Roman Empire and continue civilization to this day. What you do REALLY, really matters. 🙂
Thank you for your videos. This is what you have been called to do....to bring peace, serenity and joy to all who watch you. You are a lightworker, changing the world one video at a time. I am blessed to have you in my life...thank you...sending love...Lisa
I just started watching your videos and I am hooked. I feel like it is something to do with how you are so in touch with your primal side and the powerful emotional side that most of us including myself have suppressed out of fear of change and not fitting in. It takes courage to face these emotions I think, getting in touch with nature stirs up these emotions sometimes, especially with the feelings of loneliness mixed with uncertainty and lacking physical human connection. Not everyone is willing to do what it takes, but those like you who do help clear the way for others. Thank-you for the inspiration and I believe that you are helping people and the earth out a lot in the healing process that is needed so much and I believe there is much to be done to restore this planet and its inhabitants into a harmonious relationship with each other.
You really are, the ebodiment of authenticity and intuition and creativity. I absolutely love watching your expression in this world. I am 51 year old female, living in New Zealand, and in a lot of ways, you are more evolved thatn me, I hear the struggle. Love and blessings to you dear one.
I’m really, deeply touched by your words Fiona. You might not think it’s the case but I am so sure you have a lot to teach me. Because as you do, I seek growth in others. Because they know and live things I don’t. That’s the beauty of human variety 🤍 You have a lot of value to bring into this world Fiona, never doubt it.
Wise beyond your years, what a beautiful message of love and life, I can see that your frequency is high and that's what keeps a positive vibe in you. You are living your current incarnation to the full and you are such an inspiration to us all 💫✨✨🤍
Your vlogs aren't just normal videos but they are like individual pages of a self healing book. Each page profound enough to give deeper insights in realising what it means to be alive and full of life. You are definitely being sent here by the beyond as a light-worker to make us all find our true purpose and live a life of joy, fulfilment and inner satisfaction. Wishing good luck to you Sister May you find peace and serenity for eternity. Good bye to our vibrant, soulful and spiritual healing beloved Sister.
Sorry I haven’t written in a while .dear . life is so very busy .. but I seen this new video and had to say hey and hope all is well you are an amazing women be strong and know people are out here thinking about you .. your friend James ✨🌸🌸✨
I'm always happy preparing for winter, collecting dead fallen branches and small trees and sawing and chopping them into fire wood while it's still warm, seeing my stockpile grow. But I always want to remind myself that winter is NOT where I belong, and I ration my firewood to only heat my forest cabin about two days a week, and spend the rest in freezing cold. By the end of the winter I'm totally burned out myself, even though I still have firewood left, but when the warm air finally comes back, when the birds return,... I stop hibernating for two thirds of the day and embrace it all, re-energising me from the first beam of sunlight, putting my shoes away and going for barefoot mud walks in the forest and fields. Sadly, I can never look one of my dogs (Lente, Dutch for springtime, not French for slow) in the eyes for the first time, because I knew her name was Lente when I met her in the shelter and adopted her and changed her name to Lente, because that was the exact moment and feeling my winter depression just vaporized like ice thrown in fire. Not even like snow in the sun. I've been ready to die eversince birth (nearly strangled by my own navel cord, and from what I hear, I had many times I refused to eat for days, like when my father left us or when my friend lamb was slaughtered and served as "food", but I'm also ready to fight for my life against any force that tries to deny my soul, control my mind, exploit my body, befoul my honour, and/or damage my conscience. As an answer to your question: I probably wouldn't change anything. Even my worst decisions and darkest times were important parts in shaping me as I am. Or as I always was: a quiet lone warrior soul seeking nothing but harmony in a living environment, not to be confused with a death environment full of zombiefied humans. A great friend to some, and a feared foe to those trying to step on me. Now I'm looking forward to move to my next home, from "my" forest to "my" mountain in Spain. And I look forward to making mistakes there, learning from them, and overcoming new challenges.
He is cute! I regret not being able to convince people that regret is a waste of precious time. Lol, regret is the wrong word because it's not one I understand. The point of living this human existence is to love someone or something, imho. To spend time working and enjoying what you have and have to say. You are doing a wonderful job. Love your videos, thank you.
It sounds like the question is......"Do you want friends or no?" To live alone, is not good but there are those of us who do. Being alone all my life gives me a perspective on this. Life was never designed to live alone. If you want a friend, I'll be a friend. Long distance and on line, but better that to be totally alone. Remember, we are all social beings.
Your videos are so beautiful, cinematic and very inspiring. I love how through your videos I find myself, it gives me strength, it empowers me and keeps me going. You’re such a gift to our lives. Thank you from all my heart. Sending you a ton of hugs . ❤
The atmosphere and genuineness of your videos is beautiful. Appreciate you sharing your thoughts and inner Journey. Very creative, very beautiful. All goodness to you
Today you made my day. I've watched several of your videos over the last week. Today I saw you kiss a Man that brought joy to your life. While I'm jeolous I'll never be him and to know you in your native land. I gladly accept that he's there. Doing what I would do!!! I wish your kind heart the best and for you to find peace and love in this life.... :)
I'm about to turn 27 in a couple of months, and in the last year or so, I have been comfortably voicing to people in my life how if I were to die today, tomorrow or the day after that I would be okay with it. And everyone's response to it is always "are you okay? are you suicidal?" and they're often surprised to hear me say I'm just not afraid to die like everyone else. I had a friend in high school who often said she wanted to die in her 40's and every time she said it, I would cry because how could she so comfortably give up on herself and her life? It baffled me. Until I turned 23 and went through a horrible break up which destroyed me, and forced me to be admitted into hospital for C-PTSD 6 times in three years. I have tirelessly, time and time again tried to 'start over' and every failed attempt leaves me feeling more and more hollow inside, so I seek drugs and sex as a means to fill the whole, yet it only makes the whole bigger, so much so that now at 27, I feel like I have truly run out of attempts at starting over in life. I've already ticked so many things off my bucket list of life, and I'm tired of living in survival mode. I've already died in spirit, so why fear physical death, when you're already in pieces. I know that sounds depressing, but I think there's so much beauty in accepting yourself and your life for what it is.
One thing I always felt based on my own experience was that it would be good for you to have someone to share your wonderful life with. It looks like that has happened. I am happy for you.
Time is the most precious of all things. No changing things, only reflection for learning purposes. We are all eternal beings born from the infinite!! ❤️❤️🔥🔥💯💯
If you were dead you would not regret need or want anything, also if you were born dirt poor like some of us you don’t get chances to make mistakes, its like somebody else already chose for you.BTW nice video
You are sharing the blueprint of an extraordinary life, in all of its splendor and all of its pitfalls. Moments of heaving emotion run in tandem with the glory of transcendence presented in your beautiful videos. I run with you as perhaps many do.
thanks for your life, you inspire me more on your videos, i am also struggling to exist with people who doesn't have the same interest as mine, i dont know if i can find my own tribe but thank Universe as there are still free spirited people like you who i can relate to. Continue to shine your light and inspire the world 💞. Peace and light all the way from my home country Philippines 🇵🇭
People like yourself, remind people like me that I have to try and better my life. There are times when I go to bed hoping I don't wake up the next day. Thank you for helping me choose a better life. ❤
@@VerdantVanilleThank you. I really do want to be happier. I want to eat better. Exercise better and just feel better. You seem to have a calming nature that I have always searched for. The idea of a slower pace of life is appealing to me. More now as I get older than it was when I was in my 20's or 30's.
Being ready to die is being ready to truly live to finally start to live, and that readiness to die is the past falling apart and new life coming, see it as it is, but mind has no idea whats going on so dont be guided by it but you guide your mind to the beautiful truth, god bless
I sit here in Australia by the ocean age 53. I have had much loss in this world and feel so grateful for life. I used to work in hospice care and heard every person speak their last days and weeks of words. They always said enjoy life...every ounce of it. Life is so precious...what a gift. Amen. Oh and that handsome man at the end... he loves you! :)
You seem to have learnt a lot in a short time. You may already do this, but if not, you could imagine what you want as if you already have it in this life. It's the perfection of imperfection that is the base for knowledge and wisdom.
"Death stalks us all. A warrior understands this and so lives as though every moment may be his last." - don Juan speaking to Carlos Castaneda. Completely true.
Hi Vanille, Thank you for another lovely video, your authenticity and honesty is always so touching and inspirational. There is never a perfect moment to start something; we're always a way away from who we want to be, but we are worthy being just who we are, imperfectly, and have a lot to share with the world, which is also imperfect and ever evolving. I totally relate to what you said about feeling too much, I've been so emotional these past months, and sometimes it's almost elation, other times its such an empathy for other people's pain that I've never felt before. Sometimes it's so societally not acceptable as I end up crying in front of people I don't want to. Hope you notice the blessings of this sensitivity and the soul's closeness more than the discomfort of being emotional in a numbed out, formal world. Warmly, Kseniya
❤ Love you! Love your authenticity. I am amazed at how few humans notice the beauty around them at each moment, and the opportunity for gratitude (that diminishes the feelings of lonliness).
Vanille, just remember you're never alone if you have a good book to read. Also, let me relay to you what the author Oscar Wilde has stated : " be yourself ; everyone else is already taken. " I also enjoy my solitude. I enjoy my solitude the best when I'm alone in a totally quiet peaceful moment, close my eyes and listen to and have the following music flow over me : Rachmaninoff's Piano Concerto Number 2 . This music haunts my very soul and is in my opinion the greatest piece of romantic music ever written. The entire piece lasts over half an hour long, but sooo worth every second. There are many various recordings of this piece including as videos on UA-cam. My favorite version on UA-cam is Anna Fedorova's rendition of Rachmaninoff's Piano Concerto Number 2. Truly awesome !! Listen and Enjoy.
Today, I am Alive. Tomorrow, I look forward to Live. Being Alive is to have the Time of your Life! I say : "Love your Life till death do you part." Chère Verdant, Tes capsules vidéos sont des pommes belles à croquer. C'est un festin pour le Coeur et l'Esprit à volonté. J'aime aussi les petites gourmandises, ta matière à réflexion. Ils ont un véritable goût de curiosité. Merci et Gros Bisou ! ❣💞
I've accepted death when I was a child. I have no fear of my end and when it comes it will be most welcoming. I await patiently to be welcomed home for this is only temporary. Until that day comes, I live.
The etymology of the word "journey" means to shine. It's not about the beginning or the destination. Things only shine in the present tense, so what was shiny yesterday, will not be shiny tomorrow, and if you find something that shines every day, then you hold onto that thing. That shiny thing is you. You and your time are your treasures...both are fleeting. Know your value and keep shining. Your destination is death. You can choose to focus on not dying, or you can choose to shine. Be well in your journey.
An excellent video once again! I'm getting hooked on you, this is my life style though I am now financially independent! You live in a very beautiful place!
As I think You noticed My Writing is different than others. I never plan what to write I just write, and I have become more comfortable doing that its more freeing, Your Life seems to Me as One Of Freeing Of Feeling The Very Soul of a Tree, the Soul of a Raindrop The Soul Of Mother Nature, Nice, Very Nice, Je Crois. My great great grand father is French Canadian, who explored America when it was natural and wild
Dear Verdant, your videos are simple, beautiful and spiritual, they obviously reflect WHO YOU ARE! Thank you for setting up a PayPal account; this way your loyal community can not only support you spiritually but also with some "WORLDLY" concerns.... Stay BLESSED my dear.... Robert-
I'm 51 and accepted death at age 40 when I had a bad illness. I recovered and realized life is so short and each day I should live freely and happily because you never know when you'll return to earth, but the soul lives on its next journey.💖💖💖
I don't want to return in any earth. I want after here to stop exist
Hello. I hope you don't mind the question but I may be gone very soon and I wonder about the soul continuing on do you really believe this is what it does? I've never really pondered this question as seriously as I am today.
@@martindurkin8837 yes, because my brother came to me in my dream whom I've never met, reassuring me I'm not alone and he's with me always. He died before I was born. I believe our souls live on and on. I wish you peace and happiness.
God loves you
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Greetings from Ukraine my friend
You are beautiful
Don't die at 27 ... Please
Life is hard as hell but stay strong
We should all learn to Fear Less...Live More!
Leaving this life will be a relief to me. I am 55 next week, and have never enjoyed more than fleeting moments of my life. As there is far too much pain to bear. Even today, my cat caught a tiny bird, and when I saw it, I knew it would die, but the heaving of its little chest trying to survive, yet being in so much pain, was too much to bear, it is how I feel every single day.
So no, not everyone wants to live.
would you share why you have so much pain?? I feel so sorry that you are not free of pain. I used to have lots of pain before age 34yrs wanted to kill myself then, God was not part of my life, now 63yrs I m happy and free, no pain no man.. but Im free and pain-free, not everything is peach but Im happy and liberated!!
Thank you for being you. Stay strong sister. Take care and be safe out there. We need you, this world needs you.
THANK YOU ♥️
@@VerdantVanille You are most welcome. A few words is not much to so many. But to those who know and understand, the real and authentic hue mans that is. They, we, you an I. Understand the great power in words, even just 2. such as "thank you." Is all we need to move the clouds and bring the sun back out, when needed sometimes.
@@MegaSeekeer that’s so very true and forgotten by too many. But whatever, because you brought the sun back to my heart tonight.
God, please touch this lonely woman's heart and show her the truth about your love, the way you called me out of the darkness. Pacifist peace and love.❤🤩👍😎😍
@@VerdantVanille can u make a video on what happens after we die
When You stay True to your innermost Dreams not distorted by the distractions of society you have True Inner Peace.
You want Your Heart and Soul to be Happy. Blessings
I am 68... and I envy your youth & lifestyle. Sending much love & hugs. Xxxxxx
It took me 30 years to Truly and Deeply start enjoying the "Human experience". ❤️❤️❤️
I became independent of the world's indoctrination, and it has given me Hope !!! ☮️
I totally identify with your thought process ! 💕💕💕💕
May the Universe give you more !!! 🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌞🌞🌞
"If tomorrow I die then today I want to feel alive"
This part makes me cry out tears. I am working on a project to somehow understand and heal from the past years. Especially the past three years. It's a simple calender that shows what has happened.
I think it's rare that someone at this young age feels all the pain (this word is not enough at all) you do. But I think there's so many people outside there feeling it. Your comment section seems to be full of those people.
I feel like something was stolen from me. Feel Hijacked sometimes... I used to travel a lot by train and I observed people a lot over decades and where I live they have changed. I feel like I lost any connection to them now, maybe masks played a huge role but it's not just that...
They kept us living in fear of death and disease for years now. But that can not be called living or life anymore! For young children it is a full life time. This cannot be talked down and I have not yet understood why people are all silent about the elephant in the room. Maybe some trauma response.
My journey through life was interrupted..I start to forget what alive means...on some days I wake up or fall asleep and want to die and get out of this but in other moments I realize that I want nothing more than feel alive again. In another video you showed that dead tree amongst all the other green trees. That's how I feel. A lonesome wolf.. ✨Thanks so much for every video and word that you send out to the world ✨
Cherry, I feel the same as you. There has been so much loss I don't even know who I am anymore or where to be. I have lost my joy for life and don't know how to get it back. Watching these videos is helping me realize I'm not alone. This human struggle is real. Blessings.
would you tell me whats the cause of pain? I tell how I got out of pain.
I used to bear and grin play strong.. raise Two children with husband but he was in school not available to help much.. working full time at retail at night shift, drink lots of coffee at night at work , cant sleep during day due to drinking lots of coffee(didnt know then coffee inhibit my sleeping), no friends and relative to turn to for friendship and social life during holiday and everyday living.
I was at the end of my rope, I felt like whole worlds burden are on my shoulder, I feel sinking feeling in my stomach, whatever I do.. I have no satisfaction, world seems so cold, so cold, I hated holiday.. I feel bad for my children..they dont have other family membres to have fun and get together for holiday and graduation and school gathering time,parent conference, recital, school plays.. all alone by myself I hated that.. I wanted to kill my self,,cant do it.. I couldnt face the world with my pain in my heart and at the end of my rope.. I wanted to die
THIS is the most underrated Channel íve seen here on YT. Keep at it girl! You bring so much awareness to this world.
Wow. You are actually giving me so much hope and strength right now. THANK YOU Janos 🤍
I second this. I stumbled upon this channel looking for another with similar theme, and while I mistook you for my favorite UA-camr on this, I really appreciate how genuine you are, how much I identify with you and how you report of your growth and your adventures and misadventures. The climate of this channel is just what I need, as well.
Much love from a young woman based in Barcelona, twenty-six (only one year younger than you). Thanks for dedicating time to make this. But also be careful not to burn yourself too much, like a lot of content creators do.
Much grace,
Laura
@@hyouka1896 that means more than you know, aware soul ♥️
@@VerdantVanille Take care and live a good life, yeah?
Yes, agreed !!!
Fear is the only thing that truly stops us from living.
Fear is the greatest lie.
Stay strong Sweet sister,
We all must stand up. The fear we created is getting larger, we must stand in the face of Love.
Fear comes up, we must look it in the 👁️ eye.
Blessings to you All
Just when I think I couldn’t possibly appreciate and identify and love you more, you show us yet another layer of authenticity and heartfelt vulnerability and strength! I don’t think you are alone in feeling such intense emotions over everything at this time… I’m right there with you, and I think many others are as well. Perhaps a part of our transition as humans, our evolution towards heart-centered living? Whatever it is, and however challenging it might be, I welcome it and am so grateful to be alive at this time. And if our new world has more people like you in it, I am ready and willing to keep going!
Your words are honestly giving me the chills. Thank you for keeping your heart big in this world. 🤍
@@VerdantVanille who was that man your husband??
Beautifully stated, blessings!
"perhaps part of our transition.......evolution towards heart centered living ?" Yes great observation
This video calms my heart so much that my eyes are starting to become watery.. 🥺❤ For someone who is living in a toxic environment, this video feels like a short breeze, allowing me to forget everything even if it is just a few minutes. I immediately subscribed. Love your vibes and beautiful soul 😊 Stay safe. A lot of positive vibes from another soul on this planet earth.
Thank you so much, I’m so happy to inspire your heart ♥️
Keep walking your own path, one step at a time 💪
@@VerdantVanille Thank you lots❤
The world is changing very fast and people like you really inspire to keep up with the chaos ! Stay strong
Thank you so much for your kindness ♥️
Always live for the moment! When it’s time for a change, don’t be afraid to cut and run. We never know for sure what our future is or will bring, but living a life of joy and love makes the moment precious!🙏🏼
I Love your words Tomàs ♥️
I cried like a baby upon the unveiling of your mirror project..... Your humility, vulnerability and struggle ... struck me as intensely human... reminded me of all the struggles in my life..... and the 10 euro tool.. is more than sufficient in the right hands... I struggled for decades.. broke tools... had poor results... and persevered to master tools and earthly pursuits... Thanks for reminding me of my early failures.. and struggles to rise and try again..... Thank heavens for your ability to really feel your path and life... and thank heavens for the wireless devices that allow your voice to reach all the hearts and ears that yearn to hear it... All the best...
Thank you Mark. Thank you.
@@VerdantVanille Prayers and love...
You are such an inspiration to me. I'm 37 - neither look nor feel this age... But I am. This year I had a "green awakening". As artificial intelligence stole my job and is not likely to return it, I suddenly had a sense of feeling extremely exhausted from constantly working and being online. Now I just want to go off-grid as soon as possible. I don't think I can do it alone. Also, lack the funds as of now... But maybe one day. I would love to find a guy to do that with me, but I also realise I might have to do it alone. Hopefully I can find some work, save money and buy a bit of land one day.
Would love to meet you, you're such an incredible human!
It's been 7 months now have you found a guy who would love the off-grid life with you Trupin?
South Africa is a beautiful country but sadly it is not safe.
I don't ever remember being afraid to die, death is only the movement into a new life. When I was 2 years old for a brief moment I remembered I had a life before this new one I woke up in, where I lost my mate, most of my power(back to being a 2 year old), and everything else I once had, including my memories. The day I was born my parents came to see me in the hospital nursery. They said all the other babies were feeding crying or sleeping but I was holding my head up looking around. I know what I was thinking, Wtf? LOL I stayed outside in the woods for most of my childhood. In misery I went to college and had a career job for 5 years before leaving and living a life quite similar to yours, minus the wonderful old places like you find, instead I have a big old off grid camper, solar power systems, solar heaters, chickens, vegetable garden,... I like to grow design build and fix. I have some beautiful land I haven't moved out to yet but eventually plan to build a small off grid house and have a little farm there. Money hasn't been a problem for me since I was in college, not because I'm rich, because I just don't need much money. I haven't been to an auto mechanic in 20 years, or a barber lol, a lot of my work is done to not need money and I almost never spend money on stupid things. An old millionaire friend I had in college was always telling me, "There's two ways to have money, you can make it faster than you can spend it or you can save it faster than you spend it." I've done both and highly recommend learning to save it faster than you spend it. For most people that source of high-income dries up eventually and if you never learned to save faster than you spend you will be in big trouble very quickly if your income is one day significantly reduced.
Me too, Kevin. As a very small child---I carried a dim memory of where I was before this earthly life. I could "almost" grasp it. It fades away quite quickly, as we get indoctrinated into this life. Most people don't remember--that's all. But they WILL, later on ♥
You have two dates, when you were born and when you die. It is the dash in-between that represents the life we have lived. I can say it is a wakeup call when you see your name on a tombstone with your wife having gone first.
You are helping so many to awaken Taylor ♥️
This brought tears. When alive we literally breathe other’s molecules and energy. A physical part of us dies with those we’re closest to but a part of your beloved will also live on in you. Peace and health.
Cats are lucky and also protectors, meaning they shield you from unseen negative energies. They walk between this world and the spirit world. I hope you two will snuggle in together this winter. He may know someone nearby that may be a friend. I’m going through my own challenges. I’m glad to find your channel ❤️Heartfelt Blessings to you and the little panther.
That’s so true Zöe. I feel how much power there is within you, she-wolf. Even though it might fall asleep these days, you will rise again, so much stronger. Thank you for bringing meaning to my day.
@@VerdantVanille 💚
You have found the wisdom that an awful lot of people will never find, and even ignore. Coming to terms with death is the biggest struggle. But if you're able to loose that fear... than you can be fearless.
Yes, fearless to live ! Exactly !!
In my experience I don't fear death...its inevitable for us all so why fear it? My fear is in not living well. Not living consciously or skillfully. Not making the most of it while I'm here or taking advantage of the opportunities that come my way. I've made a lot of poor choices in this life and let good opportunities slip away. That leads to regret later in life.
Not true. Im not afraid of death at all. I'm paralyzed with fear about each day I am forced to live. My favorite thing to do is sleep, as it it the closest thing I can find to happiness>
When you cut the mirror and then seeing it chip made me think how something that is imperfect can be just perfect for us. Your project really turned out beautiful! ♥
Your spirit is so beautiful Nicole.
"It's not spiritual, is physical not yet understood..." Profound. This post really stuck deep within me. Thank you. X
I have just discovered this captivating channel today and I am transfixed by you. You have a beauty that goes beyond appearance. It is a radiance that comes from deep within you that is enveloped by your being your authentic self. This is living on the highest plane while 99% of mankind settle for existing. You are an inspiration for those of us who are seeking more! I thank and bless you!
"Melancholic connects you to something you lost, but when you recall it, it brings you joy"... I admire your honesty ❤️
You're such a kind one Mbalenhle ♡
I just finished watching all your videos. You are the single most hopeful human being I’ve know in my life with whom I share almost all the thoughts. Your thoughts are my thoughts too. I’m in the same situation as you in life. Only difference is that you dared to take a chance and I haven’t yet. I’m yet to see this video but you video caption is chocking every breath I’m taking now. Please keep living, for me. And if possible, I yearn to meet you some day.
Sneha, your words touch my heart at a level I can’t explain. Your soul radiates something powerful, just for you to know.
You said it. You haven’t YET. It’s never too late to live a life closer to your heart. Please never forget how special you are.
Discovered your channel accidentally and I love it. Love your positive energy
And ultimately, you need one person to be around you. A friend, close family, someone. To socialize.
This is what i like to do eventually.
I hope your channel becomes a huge success. You are imparting so much knowledge for a serene, beautiful, well lived life in a world where money and status and things are everything to most people who will never find happiness in themselves.
You are a sensitive and beautiful woman. Please know your value to this world and try to enjoy each day. You are worth living and having a good life. God. bless you.
I cried so much at your sequence of what you would do on your last day (at 8:00) ❤ Can someone tell me what the background music is there? The one with all the strings 🎻 Your videos are special and important, thank you for sharing your perspective on the world so openly and beautifully ❤
Wow, thank you so much Julie!! 🤍Try Shazam the song because I don’t remember the title 😭
@@VerdantVanille Thank you :) Shazam doesn't recognize it sadly, but it was really beautiful within your moving video ❤️
Hi from Brazil. Just saw your video on my timeline...you're a especial, deep, enlightned soul...I identify with you. Sometimes I feel there are not many people like this around...this world can be cruel and painful but we have to keep trying to find and see it's beauties.
We should never be scared to die, but we should also be brave enough to live whilst we are capable of bringing light and joy into the lives of others. That kindness is something we will carry with into the next life, and will bring us eternal joy.
Food for thought: You said. "It's not spiritual, it's just physics that we don't understand yet," but what if it is more like this: It's not physics, it's just Spirit we don't understand yet- and may take a lifetime to scratch the surface there! Good video reminding us to make the best of each moment. and become more aware of what brings us and others joy.
Dear Verdant Vanille. I just have to say; as deeply melancholic as your videos are they are really well put together, enjoyable and moving. You are one beautiful soul, with a beautiful life in a beautiful location.... Something many people can only dream of. There is just one thing missing, which I hope you will pursue. the discovery and beauty of the reason why we are on this planet and the infinite beauty we are promised when we achieve this end. You're in my thoughts and prayers to that end. God Bless.
Wow, thank you Hugh!
@@VerdantVanille It's my pleasure. Take care and God Bless you.
You have a very calming, soothing voice. You seem very secure in who you are...authentic. The world needs people like you to give us permission to be ourselves. You truly are a human BEing. Thank you.
You're such a beautiful human being,endowed with sensitivity, truth and philosophy, I can connect intensely with you and your message to the world, thank you so much
As always your videos are so creatively and beautifully done and full of deep messages of Truth. Thank you for creating such inspiring content! My favorite part was in the middle of the video when you said" if I were to die tomorrow here's what I would do today" and you named about 10 things and it went quickly the way time does. I'm going to have to answer that question for myself! Two other comments I have. When I started to live alone, cats started to appear. And for 20 years I have taken care of them as they have given me wonderful company and have taught me many secrets of life. That kitty is coming to you for a reason and I can only encourage you to let it be dependent upon you, feed it well, and it will give you so much more in return. And at the end of the video I saw that you had a male companion/friend... I am so grateful for you to have that. People will be so enriched by sharing your beautiful energy.All of the people in your life are being blessed by sharing in your goodness!
Susie… How can you be so gentle and kind?
You’re right, this little cat came to me for a reason. I think he is being fed elsewhere because I never saw him hunt.
I’m craving to let him in and feed him and take full responsibility for him but my issue is that I know I will go on a big travel next year and I cannot find a solution to have someone take care of him whilst I’m away. That’s the whole story… I’m obsessed with him, I built a little house for him, with straw and a big woolen blanket. He loves it. I guess things will unfold the way they should… sending you my love Susie ♥️
As someone who also creates stories and tales for others to read for a living, I can relate.
We always question our decisions. The fork we took in life.
I have had many as well.
However. Always remember, my friend.
No matter what your endeavor be it art, music, stories or ideas... Here is what I often share. Any person can breed and produce kids. And have done so since the dawn of the Stone Age. But it is educators, content creators, influential personalities and authors who write the software that will run in their heads. Ideas from creative people are what built the Roman Empire and continue civilization to this day.
What you do REALLY, really matters. 🙂
That resonates, a lot. Thank you ♥️
Thank you for your videos. This is what you have been called to do....to bring peace, serenity and joy to all who watch you. You are a lightworker, changing the world one video at a time. I am blessed to have you in my life...thank you...sending love...Lisa
Lisa, I cannot tell you how much your words mean to me. Thank you, angel. ♥️
I came upon your videos and just wanted to say that finding someone that thinks as I do. I'm in the U.S. but with you in spirit.grounded and free
This is sooo touching, sooo me. I understand deeply what you mean and I felt a strong love whilst watching for all you represent. So grateful! ❤
I just started watching your videos and I am hooked. I feel like it is something to do with how you are so in touch with your primal side and the powerful emotional side that most of us including myself have suppressed out of fear of change and not fitting in. It takes courage to face these emotions I think, getting in touch with nature stirs up these emotions sometimes, especially with the feelings of loneliness mixed with uncertainty and lacking physical human connection. Not everyone is willing to do what it takes, but those like you who do help clear the way for others. Thank-you for the inspiration and I believe that you are helping people and the earth out a lot in the healing process that is needed so much and I believe there is much to be done to restore this planet and its inhabitants into a harmonious relationship with each other.
Authenticty over authority
You really are, the ebodiment of authenticity and intuition and creativity. I absolutely love watching your expression in this world. I am 51 year old female, living in New Zealand, and in a lot of ways, you are more evolved thatn me, I hear the struggle. Love and blessings to you dear one.
I’m really, deeply touched by your words Fiona. You might not think it’s the case but I am so sure you have a lot to teach me. Because as you do, I seek growth in others. Because they know and live things I don’t. That’s the beauty of human variety 🤍
You have a lot of value to bring into this world Fiona, never doubt it.
Wise beyond your years, what a beautiful message of love and life, I can see that your frequency is high and that's what keeps a positive vibe in you. You are living your current incarnation to the full and you are such an inspiration to us all 💫✨✨🤍
Wow, thank you so much Rick ♥️
i remember dying at 27. it gets better. may you be lifted to the highest frequency possible!
You are the best thing on internet! Thank you that you exist and share yourself. ❤
Thnx sister, your images are a visual delight, pure enjoyment X
Glad you enjoyed it Anne ♡
Your vlogs aren't just normal videos but they are like individual pages of a self healing book. Each page profound enough to give deeper insights in realising what it means to be alive and full of life. You are definitely being sent here by the beyond as a light-worker to make us all find our true purpose and live a life of joy, fulfilment and inner satisfaction.
Wishing good luck to you Sister
May you find peace and serenity for eternity.
Good bye to our vibrant, soulful and spiritual healing beloved Sister.
Everything here was beautifully done! You make very beautiful films. Thank You! Just Incredible Work! 👍🏻
Sorry I haven’t written in a while .dear . life is so very busy .. but I seen this new video and had to say hey and hope all is well you are an amazing women be strong and know people are out here thinking about you .. your friend James ✨🌸🌸✨
I so appreciate you taking some of your time to write me, to support me.
James, I hope all your efforts will soon reap their fruits ♥️
@@VerdantVanille and u as well dear 💗.. you made me smile 😊
Experience is constant , death is the longest part of life. It ain't a great big stimulating trip these moments here it's one thoughtful day.
I'm always happy preparing for winter, collecting dead fallen branches and small trees and sawing and chopping them into fire wood while it's still warm, seeing my stockpile grow. But I always want to remind myself that winter is NOT where I belong, and I ration my firewood to only heat my forest cabin about two days a week, and spend the rest in freezing cold. By the end of the winter I'm totally burned out myself, even though I still have firewood left, but when the warm air finally comes back, when the birds return,... I stop hibernating for two thirds of the day and embrace it all, re-energising me from the first beam of sunlight, putting my shoes away and going for barefoot mud walks in the forest and fields. Sadly, I can never look one of my dogs (Lente, Dutch for springtime, not French for slow) in the eyes for the first time, because I knew her name was Lente when I met her in the shelter and adopted her and changed her name to Lente, because that was the exact moment and feeling my winter depression just vaporized like ice thrown in fire. Not even like snow in the sun.
I've been ready to die eversince birth (nearly strangled by my own navel cord, and from what I hear, I had many times I refused to eat for days, like when my father left us or when my friend lamb was slaughtered and served as "food", but I'm also ready to fight for my life against any force that tries to deny my soul, control my mind, exploit my body, befoul my honour, and/or damage my conscience.
As an answer to your question: I probably wouldn't change anything. Even my worst decisions and darkest times were important parts in shaping me as I am. Or as I always was: a quiet lone warrior soul seeking nothing but harmony in a living environment, not to be confused with a death environment full of zombiefied humans. A great friend to some, and a feared foe to those trying to step on me.
Now I'm looking forward to move to my next home, from "my" forest to "my" mountain in Spain. And I look forward to making mistakes there, learning from them, and overcoming new challenges.
Best of luck to you Samuel, in all your ventures. Your words resonated with me.
He is cute! I regret not being able to convince people that regret is a waste of precious time. Lol, regret is the wrong word because it's not one I understand. The point of living this human existence is to love someone or something, imho. To spend time working and enjoying what you have and have to say. You are doing a wonderful job. Love your videos, thank you.
I’m really touched to read your words. Thank you for being You.
I just discovered you and I completely resonate with your content. I love it. Keep it up. Greetings from Texas.
Welcome aboard John ♥️
It sounds like the question is......"Do you want friends or no?" To live alone, is not good but there are those of us who do. Being alone all my life gives me a perspective on this. Life was never designed to live alone. If you want a friend, I'll be a friend. Long distance and on line, but better that to be totally alone. Remember, we are all social beings.
The messages that you convey are profound. Please do not stop giving them your voice. I have to hug you
your videos make me happy.
Your comment makes me happy Will.
Your videos are so beautiful, cinematic and very inspiring. I love how through your videos I find myself, it gives me strength, it empowers me and keeps me going. You’re such a gift to our lives. Thank you from all my heart. Sending you a ton of hugs . ❤
The ideal and indeed every moment - is right now. Peace in your heart.
Right here, right now ♥️
I love your posts. So poetic. So mesmerizing. ❤
The world needs you
The misty rain reminded me of my native Scotland
Memories of simpler gentler times
Thank you 🙏🏻🌹
Gentler times will come back your way Brian ♥️
@@VerdantVanille thank you my sister 🙏🏻💕
Expres yourself freely. Don't fear the few ones who like to judge. We all go to difficult states in life. Embracing it all is what matters in life :-)
So true thank you ♥️
I just found your channel, and aside from the visual beauty and lessons of these videos, your voice is angelic and is giving me serious ASMR
The atmosphere and genuineness of your videos is beautiful. Appreciate you sharing your thoughts and inner Journey. Very creative, very beautiful. All goodness to you
That really means a lot. Thank you, fellow dreamer ♥️
Wise words my dear, continue living the present, nothing else 😘
Thank you so much Santiago ♥️ May you feel inspired, may your wounds heal in the most beautiful way. You are special. I mean it.
Today you made my day. I've watched several of your videos over the last week. Today I saw you kiss a Man that brought joy to your life. While I'm jeolous I'll never be him and to know you in your native land. I gladly accept that he's there. Doing what I would do!!! I wish your kind heart the best and for you to find peace and love in this life.... :)
I'm about to turn 27 in a couple of months, and in the last year or so, I have been comfortably voicing to people in my life how if I were to die today, tomorrow or the day after that I would be okay with it. And everyone's response to it is always "are you okay? are you suicidal?" and they're often surprised to hear me say I'm just not afraid to die like everyone else.
I had a friend in high school who often said she wanted to die in her 40's and every time she said it, I would cry because how could she so comfortably give up on herself and her life? It baffled me. Until I turned 23 and went through a horrible break up which destroyed me, and forced me to be admitted into hospital for C-PTSD 6 times in three years.
I have tirelessly, time and time again tried to 'start over' and every failed attempt leaves me feeling more and more hollow inside, so I seek drugs and sex as a means to fill the whole, yet it only makes the whole bigger, so much so that now at 27, I feel like I have truly run out of attempts at starting over in life.
I've already ticked so many things off my bucket list of life, and I'm tired of living in survival mode. I've already died in spirit, so why fear physical death, when you're already in pieces. I know that sounds depressing, but I think there's so much beauty in accepting yourself and your life for what it is.
One thing I always felt based on my own experience was that it would be good for you to have someone to share your wonderful life with. It looks like that has happened. I am happy for you.
You make me smile Robinia ♥️
Time is the most precious of all things. No changing things, only reflection for learning purposes. We are all eternal beings born from the infinite!! ❤️❤️🔥🔥💯💯
If you were dead you would not regret need or want anything, also if you were born dirt poor like some of us you don’t get chances to make mistakes, its like somebody else already chose for you.BTW nice video
Well said!
You are sharing the blueprint of an extraordinary life, in all of its splendor and all of its pitfalls. Moments of heaving emotion run in tandem with the glory of transcendence presented in your beautiful videos. I run with you as perhaps many do.
thanks for your life, you inspire me more on your videos, i am also struggling to exist with people who doesn't have the same interest as mine, i dont know if i can find my own tribe but thank Universe as there are still free spirited people like you who i can relate to. Continue to shine your light and inspire the world 💞. Peace and light all the way from my home country Philippines 🇵🇭
People like yourself, remind people like me that I have to try and better my life. There are times when I go to bed hoping I don't wake up the next day. Thank you for helping me choose a better life. ❤
Im truly honored. ♥️
PS: you rise.
@@VerdantVanilleThank you. I really do want to be happier. I want to eat better. Exercise better and just feel better. You seem to have a calming nature that I have always searched for. The idea of a slower pace of life is appealing to me. More now as I get older than it was when I was in my 20's or 30's.
Your videos make ME feel alive. I am so happy I found you. Awesome!
Wow, thank you!
Being ready to die is being ready to truly live to finally start to live, and that readiness to die is the past falling apart and new life coming, see it as it is, but mind has no idea whats going on so dont be guided by it but you guide your mind to the beautiful truth, god bless
I sit here in Australia by the ocean age 53. I have had much loss in this world and feel so grateful for life. I used to work in hospice care and heard every person speak their last days and weeks of words. They always said enjoy life...every ounce of it. Life is so precious...what a gift. Amen. Oh and that handsome man at the end... he loves you! :)
You are my inspiration...taking this into consideration, kindly be safe & live to the fullest...your words uplift my courage 💝💝🙏🏻🙏🏻
Wow, I'm so glad they do Kumar ♡
You seem to have learnt a lot in a short time. You may already do this, but if not, you could imagine what you want as if you already have it in this life. It's the perfection of imperfection that is the base for knowledge and wisdom.
I am amazed how many really clever people there are out there and you are most definitely one of them . .Keep up the good work . God bless
"Death stalks us all. A warrior understands this and so lives as though every moment may be his last." - don Juan speaking to Carlos Castaneda. Completely true.
Hi Vanille, Thank you for another lovely video, your authenticity and honesty is always so touching and inspirational. There is never a perfect moment to start something; we're always a way away from who we want to be, but we are worthy being just who we are, imperfectly, and have a lot to share with the world, which is also imperfect and ever evolving.
I totally relate to what you said about feeling too much, I've been so emotional these past months, and sometimes it's almost elation, other times its such an empathy for other people's pain that I've never felt before. Sometimes it's so societally not acceptable as I end up crying in front of people I don't want to. Hope you notice the blessings of this sensitivity and the soul's closeness more than the discomfort of being emotional in a numbed out, formal world. Warmly, Kseniya
You always bring so much warmth to my soul and heart Kseniya ♥️
❤ Love you! Love your authenticity. I am amazed at how few humans notice the beauty around them at each moment, and the opportunity for gratitude (that diminishes the feelings of lonliness).
Vanille, just remember you're never alone if you have a good book to read. Also, let me relay to you what the author Oscar Wilde has stated : " be yourself ; everyone else is already taken. " I also enjoy my solitude. I enjoy my solitude the best when I'm alone in a totally quiet peaceful moment, close my eyes and listen to and have the following music flow over me :
Rachmaninoff's Piano Concerto Number 2 . This music haunts my very soul and is in my opinion the greatest piece of romantic music ever written. The entire piece lasts over half an hour long, but sooo worth every second. There are many various recordings of this piece including as videos on UA-cam. My favorite version on UA-cam is Anna Fedorova's rendition of Rachmaninoff's Piano Concerto Number 2. Truly awesome !! Listen and Enjoy.
Today, I am Alive.
Tomorrow, I look forward to Live.
Being Alive is to have the Time of your Life!
I say : "Love your Life till death do you part."
Chère Verdant,
Tes capsules vidéos sont des pommes belles à croquer.
C'est un festin pour le Coeur et l'Esprit à volonté.
J'aime aussi les petites gourmandises, ta matière à réflexion.
Ils ont un véritable goût de curiosité.
Merci et Gros Bisou ! ❣💞
Je suis vraiment touchée par vos mots Sébastien. Un rayon de soleil pour commencer cette journée. Prenez soin de vous ♥️
You are such a brave woman:)
I do my best to keep following my heart, thank you so much for your kindness Marcel ♥️
@@VerdantVanille I hope you will stay a bit around to make some more stories:)
I've accepted death when I was a child. I have no fear of my end and when it comes it will be most welcoming. I await patiently to be welcomed home for this is only temporary. Until that day comes, I live.
The etymology of the word "journey" means to shine. It's not about the beginning or the destination. Things only shine in the present tense, so what was shiny yesterday, will not be shiny tomorrow, and if you find something that shines every day, then you hold onto that thing. That shiny thing is you. You and your time are your treasures...both are fleeting. Know your value and keep shining. Your destination is death. You can choose to focus on not dying, or you can choose to shine. Be well in your journey.
Killing it kiddo .just keep the light going
Enjoy your life and don't think about dying yet you still have time ❤
I’m glad to know that you stopped thinking of death and decided to just live 👏🏽🙌🏽👍🏽👋🏽
So glad I found you…feeling much better ❤
That means so much more thank you think Jaime. Please never doubt your worth, never forget how powerful you are darling.
I am glad the stars have led me to your channel in such uncertain night, thank you again wonderful one!
Oh wow! Thank you for letting me see the stars again tonight Antonio ♥️
So happy for you all. Enjoy the winter and be safe.
Thank you so much Johnny ♥️
An excellent video once again! I'm getting hooked on you, this is my life style though I am now financially independent! You live in a very beautiful place!
As I think You noticed My Writing is different than others. I never plan
what to write I just write, and I have become more comfortable doing that its more freeing, Your Life seems to Me as One Of Freeing Of Feeling The Very Soul of a Tree, the Soul of a Raindrop
The Soul Of Mother
Nature, Nice, Very
Nice, Je Crois.
My great great
grand father is French Canadian,
who explored America when it was natural and wild
Dear Verdant, your videos are simple, beautiful and spiritual, they obviously reflect WHO YOU ARE!
Thank you for setting up a PayPal account; this way your loyal community can not only support you spiritually but also with some "WORLDLY" concerns....
Stay BLESSED my dear....
Robert-
just enjoy our life right? sadness, happines, positive, negative, will be always together. have a wonderfull time.
I love your videos and your message. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you Jose ♥️