@@pulkitninenine Yes and we could also choose to win the Power Ball Lottery....😃(The odds would probably be better than finding the "good friends" you speak of).
I have no friends either and I spend every day of my life alone. Most of my family members have all passed away and I just don't have any desire to get out and socialize. Same with dating, I never had any kind of good luck when it came to relationships so I finally gave up and have gone at it alone for years now. So I definitely know what it's like to be an introvert. One valuable lesson I have had to learn the hard way is that people will always and forever let you down. In the end the only person you can ever truly depend on is yourself. I feel that's all the more reason why it's good to be alone. That said, there's nothing wrong with living life on your own terms and going at it alone. Keep doing what you do. Your content is great!
Wow I seriously want to cry right now. Your post verbatim is essentially everything I’ve been saying my entire life and that I’ve learned. Wow just to know that someone else out there has the same experience it’s pretty amazing and all actuality
The more I watch and learn about you the more I'm convinced we are cut from the same soul fabric. It's really incredible. Souls like you are what I'm searching for. Peace and love from Pennsylvania USA.
" we are cut from the same soul fabric " I just LOVE this sentence Tom! I am blown away by your giant generous heart. You have no idea how much your gift means to me. You really make a difference in my world. THANK YOU.
Thank you all so much for your amazing comments. I’m very touched and read every single one of them. I’m doing my best to answer them all. I love you, Tribe 🤍
I just felt lonely and then your video came up. I moved from the capital of Sweden, Stockholm, where I have lived for 45 years, to a little house in a rural area a couple of years ago. I struggle a lot with the feeling of loneliness. I cannot live without having silent/alone time, but I also suffering from it. Paradox. However, I just saw your video here. Never knew about your channel. I saw that you are in southern France. I feel deeply connected on some soul-level to the Languedoc region and the good christians, the cathars. Do you know about them? I visited the region in 2014 and someday I will return. Just wanted to say hello. Blessings Mikael
Ive never felt more alone than amongst others and grew up in a large loud family, now i seek solitude whenever possible and its heaven. Have had many friends before but the connections are mainly shallow and meaningless. I seek only deep connections with others now
@Verdant Vanille Hello How r U? U and other people may think what I'm about to say is negative?.....Though U NEED to Listen to these words not just Hear them!! U need to Comprehend and Innerstand them, not just Perceive what U WANT to Receive!! I haven't watched This Entire Video Yet, Though I Will Express anyway!! I have seen a few people Like U Living Either Isolated or In Solitude, there is a Difference, And With or near other people or with or near No one!! Except these people that I've heard on Videos on UA-cam SAY they have a Partner!! And U Say "Apart from My Lover I don't have any Friends"!! Well I have to Speak the TRUTH here.... U DON'T Fully Love and Appreciate Ur Lover!! Here's Why...When it comes to Reincarnation for Me Especially THIS BODY (Since I have Reincarnated IN THIS Body Countless times) I have Had Lovers in Solitude (Alone)!! Times where I was Isolated (AKA Lonely), And U can Be Alone AND Lonely at the same time, Part of U is Contempt With Being By Urself and another Part is Uncomfortable and Desiring Connection!! IF U Truly Appreciated and Loved Ur Partner, U Wouldn't say what U said "Apart from My Lover I don't have any Friends" And It Also Wouldn't Affect U. U can Allow a 1-5% A ffect U on the Inside, We R Social Beings, We R Human. Though the way U said it, Means Ur Not so close and Intimate With Ur Partner As U could Be!! If I was In Ur Position, I wouldn't Worry about "Friends" and I would Be Infinitely Happy With *Just* a Partner!! I Have Lived the Kind of Life U R!! And I'd Love to Do it again!! But U don't Appreciate Everything U Have Versus what U Don't. That's Something U need to Work on More!! U can't Get Friends If Ur Not Infinitely100% Happy with where U R!! Society Sucks, Though U Chose this Isolating Path!! Not that Tis a bad thing. Tis Not!! I AM Just Helping U See More Clearly and Lightly about Ur Situation. Ur Partner Should Be Ur Best Friend and Infact U Urself Must Be Ur Highest Greatest Friend, And then U Wouldn't Need any other!! I Know what it's Like So I Have Compassion for Where U R!! Before even Clicking on this Video when it showed Up in the UA-cam Feed amongst other Videos Was U like a Picture/Photo And I could See the Pain In Ur Eyes, In Ur Soul!! I Struggle With Connection Too!! I Think Most of Us Highly Advanced and Evolved Spiritual People, Like Hearted Kind BeautyFull Souls, Struggle with Connection.
I live in a Scottish city and I have one true friend but many acquaintances. The more I learn about people, the more I love dogs. Something that resonates deeply with me is a quote "it is no measure of good health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society" ~ Jiddu Krishnamurti
"The more I know about people, the more I love my dog." -Mark Twain Mark Twain, aka Samuel Clemens, also pointed out how society is a circus. Western society is specifically what I call the Roman circus. Keeping the populace entertained with ball games and hollyweird so they never question the emperor. Why do certain ideas seem to earn more money than others?
I cut all of my friends out of my life about a decade ago when I got ill. I went into complete isolation and locked myself away from the rest of the world. Like you I started to feel so alone around other people and I was so tired of being hurt by others. I'm a huge giver, and I just found that everyone I met never reciprocated. Getting ill time and time again I just pulled back and decided to be alone for a while. I wasn't expecting this phase to last a full decade but here I am. I completely resonate with what you are going through. I adore animals, and nature but I've never been a huge fan of people. I just want to send you some love all the way from Australia and let you know that you're not alone, and there are others like you going through the exact same thing. Maybe we are all part of the same soul tribe. 😊❤
My heart chakra is disturbed too. The green of Germany is bringing me healing and balance, and deep breaths to this space in my body. The other day I just let myself be hurt right there in that place without thinking about why or how. It helps to witness the pain with honor, giving it space. Sending you lots of love from my heart to yours 🌿🤍🌿🌿🌿
Ohhh!! That is really really great Sophie! I so much love it and will use it too! Thank you so much for sharing. My mother is a Sophie too and I know how those women are special. Take care, unique seed ♡
@@VerdantVanille Puhhh, it seems your mother neglected you very strongly as you were a toddler. Yes, that's very "special" - and more common than most people think. Had/has she many addiction problems?
“My struggles to control and manage myself, they play a huge role in how much energy I have available for relationships” - That statement right there really sums it up for me. I can really relate to this.
Give up occasionally on control and management. Back off and simply observe, let things be. Even if only for a few moments. Practice not judging yourself for who you are. It gets better. (So many of us kick ourselves for being who we are. We listen to those voices who beat the hell out of us. They can be evicted with some observation and practice.)
I couldn't live in isolation, but I'm starting to realise that friendships are so hard. In my case I care a lot about my loved ones, including my friends, but they just don't ask how I am, how I'm doing etc and I'm starting to feel tired being the one who's always asking these questions. They are good people, but everyone is just in there own little bubble being busy with everyday life. I'm so disappointed that everyone I know wants just superficial relationships...
Perhaps you may want to attempt looking to be complete, and content unto yourself. Or as I say it I am complete in an empty room. Your understanding of it is yours and your alone.
What do you know????? Everyone is out for themselves looking at how great they are in their mirrors, spread lip service and get the fuck away with it. PERIOD. FUCK HOPE!!!!!
Friendly people don't always turn out to be friends and being alone is not always the same as being lonely. We're all a little bit different and some of us just need our solitude.
Most relationships now days are based on materialism and vanity finding something real is next to impossible......... I also wanted to thank you again for being born into this realm and sharing your experience with the world 😊🙏
I live alone in the woods. I feel I heavily invested my life in others for many years. This came with great personal rewards and great personal losses. At 62, I'm convinced that we are all here in a classroom. We all came here to work on personal goals. This makes for a lot of confusion, social dissidence and judgement. But the most harmful judgement to us is the judgment we levy upon ourselves. It seems to me that we cannot love others until we first love ourselves.
Yeah, but how can you do that when you're 25? Do I need to live in this horrid world for another 40 years just so I can get a little calm at the end my life?
@@richard_from_england333 If you had rich parents you could do that at 25. If not you'll just have to work and save money to enjoy the kind of lifestyle you want. Its not rocket science...!!!
Agreed. I don't have either. That's truly being alone and lonely. Meanwhile she has a lover and a cat. Two of the things I so bad wish I had and that would be everything for me
I've been a loner for years and haven't had a real friend for about 20 years now. I was bullied and picked on a lot in school, been let down many times by people, and I used to think I was an introvert. But then when I finally found a place for a while where people respected me and were kind, I realized that I love people and I love socializing, it's just that I have so much fear of people because of stuff that I went through when I was young. I still feel like I don't fit in with most people, and I still haven't found a close friend. But I don't consider myself a true introvert anymore. If I spend time around people who are positive and respectful, I feel full of energy and like it recharges my batteries. I only feel drained by negative people who don't treat me right. I'm really sorry for the difficult experiences you had...I know it makes us stronger people, but it's so painful in the process. I hope someday you find that good and loyal friend that we all long for.
I also tend to be a lone wolf. We are really pack animals, but if we can't a suitable pack, alone it must be. My friends are few and far away in time and distance, but I'm not lonely. I like this young woman; as with all interesting people, she was not understood because those arround her couldn't match her. I know others of the same ilk. All those self-proclaimed "rebels" are always inverted conformists. Boring! Truly original people don't have to advertise what they are. They just are.
I needed this.. It's lonely indeed.. a man at 36 without a single person I can relate to.. I have people around of course, and those who care about me.. but it's somehow comforting knowing I'm not alone in my feelings.. even if you are a long way off and unlikely to ever meet, I will think of this encounter in my evening meditation.. thanks for not being afraid to share your self.. I'll use it as inspiration along my journey to grow and keep moving forward even when I want to stop..
I did the same thing years ago. Stuck in the USA, where freedom is just a word nothing else. I avoid modern days as much as possible. My health has turned back the years and I feel at peace like when a child. This iPad and this message is as far as it gos for me. Thank you.
@@kathykaura7219 Yes...so what? Earn some money, go places. Every person in the USA is living where they CHOOSE to live. Period. Every person in the USA can CHOOSE to go somewhere else...there is nothing about the COUNTRY that holds them back. That's all on YOU, Toots.
Thank you for sharing your videos Vainille, loneliness, being alone has allowed me to know myself, to be stronger, I think that being alone, solitary, has allowed me to know myself better. Love from here.
I used to work in open plan office with 40 other people every day. I never felt so lonely. I know exactly how you feel but there are kind people out here ❤
I don't have friends either but it's a been a journey as to why I don't have them. As a kid , I'd have negative self talk and think that no one liked me. As I got older I realized that I thought that because I felt uncared about and excluded by my family. But as I got older I changed the narrative. I made a conscious decision to be careful who I let into my life because narcissistic energy vampires seemed to search me out for the sole purpose of using me throughout my life. I need to still gain the confidence to pick and choose my friends moving forward but at least I am protecting my peace, which is important to me.
@ExlaxChronicles My personal and PAINFUL experience is that; 70 percent are users and TAKERS, 15 percent are what I call “traders”, meaning that they will give and jot it down in their memory EXPECTING to SQUEEZE/ MANIPULATE much more out of you later on! And about 15 percent are really what is labeled giving, caring friends... However, with the dismantling of traditional VALUES, the numbers might even be WORSE nowadays!
I am so happy I found your channel. It gives me great comfort as an introvert who loves time alone, nature and animals. I love your home and your choices. You are not alone! Much love ❤️
I’m 90 percent introvert and 10 percent over the top extrovert. When I meet a like minded person I can get carried away because I have years worth of conversations and ideas I want to get out in the short amount of time I usually have with these people!
As a solitary individual, I very much relate. I am always inspired by how you share your story in such an open and honest way, it is very courageous of you. Wishing you much love friend.
People are often nasty to others not because they are unhappy or hurting but because they simply enjoy being unpleasant and hurtful to others. It is a truth and it is best to accept it. Your video is very beautiful. Wishing you a peaceful day, greetings from Scotland.
And some people are nasty to others because they've been shat on too many times and they also have contempt for all the willful ignorance and selfishness they see around them.
this is why this video is recommended by you tube! They want you all separated and to not have friends, you're making their job easier. Soon you'll see what I mean
@@VerdantVanille I had similar experience and I know that having friends is wrong but there's a lot bigger picture at work here this is like this and its not what you think or what many think, it goes much deeper than this and this world is not what we are taught it was. Everything here is made on purpose, most of the "people" are like that bc are designed this way, dead inside, most are not humans at all. When you realize some of the truths bout this world many things become easier but also harder. When you learn to make a difference between the humans with souls and ones without it can be easier, but still this place gonna change very soon....so save your strength
@@outlawedTV88 How would you feel if you took the time to make a highly polished video that took a great deal of your time, efforts, and talents where you make yourself vulnerable to share something meaningful or thought provoking; but only to have someone leave such a comment? Yes, the world has many problems and there are certainly players pulling the strings for their own benefits at the expense of others. Rise above them.
My friend, I have spent my entire life single and alone because people Don't treat me right my tank also has No fuel and I can Not handle to much social either. People are to hard , to difficult and far to frustrating to deal with and most of the time I'm not even truly sure if I can even really trust them at all. My family was not vary good to me either and now most of them are already diseased and gone. I am alone . And I shall always be. Noone and Nothing will ever really truly change that. Just the facts. Much love to you lone wolf . Keep looking after yourself. Your better off that way anyhow. And just know that you have a friend in me. Much love
I think the older you get, the more you realize who your true friends are. At some point you come to the realization there are very few people, if any at all that you can call friends.
55 and slowly over the last decade I've been releasing most people from my life, growing and changing, embracing solitude and focused on my core values, the boundaries those values set, and living my life in truth.
I resonate completely. My only and true friend is my dog and chaos of social life drains my soul..its sad how long it takes me in the morning to get out of bed and face another day in a corporate job that does not even pay well..stuck in reality that isn't my own..too scared of breaking the cycle because my nervous system does not recognise anything else anymore..thank you for sharing, beautiful as always. Rumi's quote is my favourite ever❤
I am older and retired but I realized fairly recently that the thing I disliked most about being an adult was having to make money to support myself. I have always loved to cook and bake healthy and nutritious foods, get out in nature and play piano, read something that will actually promote self growth and understanding and listen to good music. I hope that you can find a way to support yourself without having to do something that does not support who you are.
OH! So you have treadmill syndrome too? 5 Days on the treadmill, 2 days to catch your breath, 5 Days on....... Life feels like 'putting in time'. No real quality time to be the person you want to be.
@@pjmurphy920 We are born into a system of slavery. Animals have far more freedom than human beings, who are the only beings on the planet that are forced to "go to work" to make some corporate CEO wealthy. This is not the way God intended for us to live. Satan is controlling this world presently.
I do NOT hear pessimism. You are an inspiration. Hearing you share about your emotions, thoughts and all you share in your videos is endearing You are my kind of human. You don't belong to this harsh world......... you ARE here for a divine purpose and must keep moving forward until you do go "back home". You have so much to share and teach us. THANK YOU
you are so brave to share such intimate topics. the truth is that there are many people just like you. i wish i could go to the woods too. moving through recognition and into action is the most scary thing. but it is rewarding. fear has held me back , my entire life. spiritual awakening is a daily journey. i too get very tired from social interaction. bless you lone wolf
I'm another LONE WOLF myself, your story is completely familiar to me. I now have no family left or any friends left except for my pup dog. I live in the country, SOUTH DAKOTA, BLACK HILLS TERRITORY & am standing strong against the problems of the world. The human condition, I don't know what to say about it, I don't like it myself & only deal with people when absolutely nessecery! STAY STRONG, you have the strength in you, if you didn't you would never have made it as far as you have. GOD BLESS, GODSPEED TO YOU. FEAR PROFITS THE MAN/WOMAN NOTHING! WE WHERE ALL PUT IN THIS WORLD AT THIS TIME FOR A REASON. Thanks for your insight and thoughts, it means a lot to me and I'm sure others as well.
As soon as I saw you walking through the snow and you started to describe your life I was transfixed. Subscribed immediately to this beauty of your life and soul. I am alone too and extremely introverted and always a lone wolf myself connecting to nobody (not even family). We are different souls and have the courage to be free from ego based connection based on a fake sense of joy.
You can't be free from ego EGO = you , you can lern how to Keep down ego but Never FREE from at . Greetings , sorry for my Englisch its Not my own League
Your video is aesthetically so pleasing to watch and your story truly is relatable to many people I am sure. Real, genuine friendships seem so hard to form nowadays and it saddens me at times how easily people can disregard something so valuable and meaningful...
i want to share with you that I found your channel in August. I was in a deep struggle to find housing and just exited a very toxic relationship. I was on the edge. Really dark place. Too close. I found your energy healing video. You were genuinely the spark to recovering my resolve. I can not say I am an expert in energy healing. I just know that whoever you are it is YOUR energy. Not cosmic but authentic. I want to tell you how much it really meant to me. You profoundly helped my life in a moment where I felt like everyone would always be gone. You are such a beautiful, incredible, admirable soul.
I can't even write because my eyes are full of tears haha. Dan, I'm so very touched. You are braver than most people will ever attempt to be. THANK YOU ♡
Wow! You have achieved a lot of insight for someone your age! Being separate from the world is where you will find real growth. I’ve lived my life with few friends and admire your bravery. It’s time for us to help heal others with the truth of what we’ve found ! Remember you’re never alone ! You have soul sisters who love you on here! Thanks for being brave enough to bare your soul ! That is what artists must do. Stand naked and unafraid. If the world judges harshly it’s because when you hold the mirror of truth in front of them, they don’t like what they see in themselves. But don’t let the monsters scare you off the path! Touché !
Vetdante, yet again you deeply inspire me. I am so much older than you and it took me a long time to realize that I too no longer am willing to waste time in shallow relationships. If I don't take time to fill up my own tank then my nature of also being a lone wolf begins to disappear. And you said it so well as for those who do not understand you, yes they try to make you feel as miserable as they do inside. You are being true to who you are which resonates with so many of us watching you. I live alone... I have no friends nearby...but I continue to reach out to those animals in need or even a human being if they're willing to have a conversation. Please continue to share the beauty of who you are with all of us because your energy is bringing all of us new life. Your films are so beautifully made and the most helpful thing I watch on UA-cam.
Being alone is bliss, happiness your default state, the need for nothing means you have everything! Thank you Verdant for sharing so creatively your magical moments! you're an inspiration and true healer! Much love to you!
I absolutely love being alone. ❤ I don’t have any close friends anymore. Been hurt so many times that I’m not looking for friends anymore. I have my husband and children. ❤ Blessing to you.
Hi, your video popped up among others and the title made me click on it, happy I did! Talking about toxic people, a few months ago I ended a couple of friendships (I've known them for 30 yrs) cos they're exactly as you described them: miserable people who want others to feel as miserabke as they are. They're the cause of their own problems but want to do nothing to solve them, as it's easier to vent their frustration on others. I don't miss them to be honest, they've changed for worse. I have very few friends now and I love it that way, no interest in hanging out with new people.
Yes and they might be alcoholics as well. At least my miserable friends I had. Complained and complained about their miserable life, yet they did nothing to change that.
@@fumarate1 True and I had to learn it the hard way. I gave every last one of them the benefit of the doubt until the very end when they used and discarded me like yesterday's trash.
You are an inspiration!! Like you, I live in relative solitude in a small cabin in the woods. I love nature and animals and don’t feel compelled to socialize. People will always be critical if we don’t conform to their lifestyle - they’re just philistines who don’t have original thoughts. I think you’re very brave and enjoy your views, especially your healthy cynicism!! 🥰
I am 65 now, but have always been an introvert, so what you said in this video all makes sense to me. I possess a limited amount of personal energy for dealing with others, and have to escape from social situations and "recharge my batteries" on a regular basis. Sometimes I flair up with a large amount of social energy, become the center of a group for a time or "the life of the party," which often confuses people when I pull away and hide for long periods afterward to recuperate. Of course, they think my pulling away is because I don't like them, or that they have done something to anger me. Only a very few people in my life - often introverted to some degree, themselves - have understood that my nature is within me, not a reflection of themselves or others. I was lucky in my 30s because I found a therapist who knew how to help me - not to "cure" me and make me a permanent social butterfly, but to help me understand and accept myself as I am. I complained to him that, after a week of working in a very social setting, I essentially collapsed each weekend, often sleeping for 12 hours a day, experiencing vivid dreams and even afraid to go out of my apartment to get groceries and do other chores. I simply asked me if I felt better beginning the new work week after my personal hibernation, and when I admitted that I did, he smiled and told me that, therefor, I had already discovered and was doing the right thing to restore myself. This was very freeing. I also told him about my vivid dreams, which sometimes were disturbing and involved people I worked with or knew elsewhere - I wanted him to interpret my dreams and tell me what they "meant". He simply said that he didn't subscribe to the idea that dreams were to interpreted, but rather that they were the method used by our own minds in healing - in other words, the dreams themselves were the way we heal, they "do the work" as we experience them. This allowed me to stop worrying about disturbing dreams, and let them go, evaporate, knowing they had helped me and were not to be interrogated or picked about for "hidden meanings". Recently I've been reading a book called The Overstory by Richard Powers which I think you might enjoy. The 3rd chapter, titled Adam Appich, is about a young boy of a similar nature to ours and his struggles within his family and with others. When he discovers a book titled The Ape Within Us that opens the door to his own nature, and the inner motivations of other people - a parallel of sorts to my experiences with my therapist - his world blooms and he discovers his path in life. Fortunately, there's a lot of Overstory left to read, which I'm greatly looking forward to. Thank you for your video... I've subscribed to your channel and will watch your other postings.
I can’t say how many times I’ve watched this, it is so healing, and your words wash over me and rest like a mantle on my shoulders, a coat of comfort. I have this same ongoing conversation inside me, but you’ve portrayed it here so beautifully, thank you!
This was a beautiful and brilliant presentation and I thank you for it. A wise man once said: the only thing worse than being alone is being with someone who makes you wish you were alone!
You’re videos are such art! I love them and it’s incredible you spend so much time in Mother Nature, I will do this soon. The next time I move I will certainly be amongst the trees! Sending you love and light. And you can never truly be alone, especially with all those trees, just give the one that calls you a hug and they’ll zap any lonely out of you as well. Also, you are an empath so give yourself some peace. Hidden within are many psychic abilities, you just have to learn more about you! I believe in you! Your journey is just beginning! 🎉❤
I perfected my ability at what I do for a living to not feel insecure about it. But I now speak in ways that others can't understand due to my expertise and it scares them away. I have had to scale back my talk. People seem to like me but they do not try to befriend me. Lone 🐺 except for my lover who I adore.
There are many more people such as yourself... you are not alone. It seems like myself you have learned to embrace the suck of being who we are. I'm new to your channel so I don't know enough about you but on the surface I would say if you haven't yet you soon shall learn to love the lifestyle and will eventually become fiercely possessive of your privacy. I know I am , and will eventually fade from society and become nothing more than a long ago memory of the few that had passed me by , a meer ghost or fabled person that is no more... Smoke of a long dead fire.. gone on the breeze never to be again
I don’t have any friends either & I realized my disconnect with ppl is from my childhood trauma repeating itself in my adult relationships 😮. But therapy has also helped me to realize to pour into myself what my family didn’t give me so that leaves little time for me to care about others. Being “selfish” has saved my life. I used to be a doormat just for ppl to give me the time of day 💕
You’re not alone when you with trees. All life has consciousness and you can commune with them. I’m sorry you have isolated yourself because you have given other people’s opinions about you, power over you. When opinions don’t matter you can be around anyone and not worry about things. It took me ages to learn this, but I feel so much better now. I didn’t come to earth to be alone so I worked hard to find my happiness inside me. Clearly you’re not ALL alone because someone is filming you.
Good analyze, Most of the time people tend to forget that kind of things.And yes Trees are the best to heal broken souls, I made them my community along with houseplant more than a decade ago and it help me to become a better person and heal my heart with so many cracks. Now Little trees are growing in my little garden and my houseplants keep making little babies, so I think they loved me as much as I loved them. But I still not forget some people who helped me through my journey and some angels who give me a little sunshine on my rainy days. Have a nice day 😁
You're technically not alone. Your friend, sister, or husband is clearly filming you. There is somebody there. Aside from having someone with you , you also have the comfort of the wildlife, birds, squirrels, bears, deer and the trees. They all can keep you company. I am happy that you have found happiness being alone. and thanks for sharing this wonderful video with us.
I find it so refreshing to meet an individual on the internet who is a survivor and conquerer. Just love it that you allow yourself to be true to yourself, not to be manipulated and not to be what is expected of you. Instead, you basically free yourself, even if you go against the mainstream. As far as friends are concerned, I believe you will only be able to count your true friends on 1 hand, and you may find that you may not even have 5 true friends during your lifetime. It is life, and it is what it is... Thanks for sharing these beautiful views and surroundings. What a lovely and serene place to stay at.
Completely understand. I’ve always found friendships to be a massive struggle & have faked it in the past. For a long time, I just can’t nurture, trying to please, the emotional involvement etc. & ultimately I know I’m just not a good friend. We are social creatures so the question ‘what’s wrong with me?’ has popped up plenty in my life & look around, many ppl are so natural in making friends & there is no stress about it- I can’t say I’m not envious. For me ‘no friends’ is not a choice, it’s like I’m hardwired this way.
You are different. You, like probably a lot of us here, are not into, or can't get into typical social emotional mentalities, thus you get ostracized, and you get the feeling that something is wrong with you. You probably need to find a topic that you can get into, that is important to you and then get with people who are into those topics.
The poetry of your presentation is very deeply moving. I think we all feel the same way at times--some of us feel that way most of the time, as you do. Be of good cheer--you are clearly finding the path that is best for you. Follow your gift, my dear. It will bring you where you most deeply desire to be.
Beautiful video! Very relatable too. I experienced a spiritual awakening over three years ago. I find that I spend almost all my time alone. People's energy drains me. I think how you are living is amazing!
"I wish to be alone , or with those who know things others don't know." Rainer Maria Rilke. Such a beautiful poet. "let everything happen to you, Beauty and terror, Just keep on going, No feeling is final." Also Rilke. His letters to a young poet are extraordinary. For many years Lou Salome was Rilke's Muse. After she'd been the Muse to both Nietszche and Mahler. She was the femme fatale incarnate. I seem to be developing an idee fixe with Rilke. But that's okay.
@Emanuele Tintori To say the least . The Duino elegies are a miracle of heightened consciousness and the divine potential for creation within the human spirit. Happens once in a blue moon. I also think of Shakespeare and Beethoven in these terms. lights on the way
@@hermesnoelthefourthway Indeed brother. I assume that his thought, has got heavily inspired by two of the most important german philosophers which they are: Immanuel Kant "the pure reason critique" and Friedrich Nietzsche "beyond good and evil". P.S. btw, you would excuse my poor and limited english, as I am a non native myself. Happy Sunday this hollow and violent world need minds as enlighted as yours to come out from obscurity.
@@SamuraiKensei276 Hello, Emanuele, I couldn't agree with you more. Let me share a rather funny quote with you : "never in the history of Western civilization has there been so many methods of communication, but never in the history of Western civilization has there been so little of worth to communicate to others." Kathleen Raine. English poetess. A few decades ago I came across quite a remarkable book (to say the least) In search of the miraculous by P. D. Ouspensky. An account of a certain greek/Armenian named Gurdjieff with his own extraordinary teaching. This work transformed my life far beyond my wildest of expectations. Happy Sunday to you, also And greetings from London
From the intro I could feel it totally resonating with me. From birth, I was always the loner. Nothing around me even inspired me to walk or move myself from the spot I was put (my mom told me that, and that it made i very easy for her, but after a while, at an age where most children already walk, I was still quietly just looking around). In school no one ever knew how to get through to me, and even though I slept or dreamed away during class, I somehow had taken it all in. Most teachers were always angry I didn't do anything, no during class, not at home, and no even bring my books or note down anything or pay any attention or obeyed anything they told me to (that just got ME angry), and frustrated when their punishments had no effect, or the opposite of what they wanted. When I did talk, I always outsmarted them so they got even more frustrated while the class laughed. When I did an exam, not even knowing which one I had to do that day, I succeeded most of the time, by quickly filling in what I knew from just taking it in somehow, and then sleeping or eating mandarins and drinking tea until I was free to go. I dropped out of school with severe depression. People always gathered around me (after a childhood of being bullied but often showing the bullies they had messed with the wrong person) and groups fell apart when I left, but I never felt part of the group. After doing some jobs, knowing I would never be happy that way and that following the directions of grown ups would lead me to their miserable life, I quit and was ready to end my life if anyone forced me to go back on that path. Now, they labeled me with "ADD" and "Autism Spectrum DIsorder", stil implying that it has to be me who is "wrong". But the good news: I wasn't even allowed to work anymore. I live a vegan straight edge "poor" life in a forest I bought, with dangerous dogs I adopted, and while I was thinking whether or not I would tell part of my story here, you said you live in the mountains in the Pyrenées, which is where I bought another plot of nature to go live in starting this spring. But from your accent I suppose you live in the French part, I'm moving to Spain, from Belgium, where I may or may not have to flee because of conflict with local governments, depending on how they react to my latest reply on an ongoing conflict. As you said, animals and trees are my best friends, some humans as well. I'd never hurt any living being if I can somehow avoid it. I've learned to fully love myself and listen to myself over anyone else, and have had so many amazing experiences, ranging from deeply spiritual to what I was almost made to believe was "supernatural". But how can they be if simply connecting with nature and being true to my own nature gave me those powers, visions,... Oh well, I've probably written too much already, so I'll keep it at that, wishing you the most interesting experiences, that upon reflection and in retrospect or while experiencing them, may have brought/bring the most valuable lessons, helping you become the best version of yourself without being held down by humanity's sick society.
You are brave, unique, and special. Don't change unless you are deeply compelled. Most humans are lost, if they don't admire you. I certainly do. Best of everything for you.
Really nice video. I am a loner too, pretty much never had a friend since childhood. But when I had my daughter that was the most remarkable thing that happened to my life. She is the hope of my life and I love my daughter so much. Also think about getting a dog, they are wonderful companion. Even with nobody around for miles, I would never feel lonely with my dog around.
Maybe you don't need to look for people similar to you; we will find you, thanks to algorithms. Although I enjoy being alone, my limit is about 5 days; then I must go among people, even if I do not speak to any individual. Must be something inside that pushes us to connect with others. This is your first video I have seen, but I connected immediately. Thank you! You seem to me to be a lovely person.
I've never seen your videos until tonight. I can't tell you how grateful I am to hear you talking about life, and struggles with trying to fit into the world we live in. A deep desire to "get away" and the peace you feel living away from the many people, the busy fray. Trying to find a balance between both is very hard. Sometimes I feel like I'm giving my life away to work and I want that to stop before I'm too old or too sick. On a different note---I typically let my phone die and I don't care to hear it ring or pick it up....I've never considered this as a way of looking at how I ignore my inner voice. Also, Women Who Run With Wolves is a most excellent book.
Thank you for being so generous with your soul and for giving us a glimpse into your beautiful life. Your solitude and environment are poetry. Your words and visuals are captivating. Thank you for getting quiet enough to witness yourself and thank you for listening to the creator within and gifting us with your story.
Watching the video I was reflecting back to my childhood and all the time I spent by myself. I am GenX and I was one of the kids who was expected to go outside and not come home till dark. I learned to be quite self sufficient at an early age. While I certainly had friends and would hang out with them, I would also spend a lot of time alone, exploring by myself. Looking back, those are some of my favorite memories. I can't help but think those times were a precursor to the life I live now. One where I choose to spend a lot of time alone. I am content, rarely lonely or bored. I love the freedom it affords me. My favorite days are the rare ones where I wake up with no obligations to anyone or anything, well except for the cat, and wander through the day doing whatever I feel like at any given moment. Talk about freedom. Like you and many others I'm also an introvert who has to recharge after spending too much time around other people. I had to spend the entire day today with other people and by the end I had nothing left. I was wiped out. There was a time when I struggled with my introverted nature. I took time to explore my personality traits and now I embrace being an introvert. This is me, this is who I am. I cant help it if some aspects of society think of us as "weird". Whatever man, let them think what they think. Like you said they are probably in a place that doesn't allow them to comprehend the world from our perspective. One lesson I had to learn is that it takes fortitude to live this way. You have to come to terms with yourself one way or another or the demons will come after you. If you've been there you understand. Head nod to you. You have your fair share of strength already my friend. I imagine a lot of people here do. Like everyone you've struggled, but look at the experiences those struggles have allowed you. The insight you've gained. You're living a life you want and on your terms. You have my respect for your hard work. I wasn't like that at your age. Hell, I'm still working on getting there. Thanks again for bringing us along on your unique journey. You risk a lot with your authenticity and yet you still create beautiful, thought provoking content. You're a bright spot in this effing world Vanille.
I love your Films/Docs. They are "not" videos. You are a Filmmaker, a Writer, a Poet, a Sigma. You're Films/Docs are worthy of being submitted to Film/Doc Festivals. Also, write books. They will help people. Lastly, "you" are your best friend. :-)
You are not alone. My parents moved 17 times when I was a kid. I could never create roots. Always the new kid. But think of how drama free and peaceful things are without friends. You don't have to worry about whether you can trust someone or not.... or whether you'll get stabbed in the back. I work as a healer too. My friend is my cat. I've gotten used to it. Being in a group makes me anxious because personalities and beliefs clash. I prefer the quiet of solitude. (I flip the mirror all the time too.) You are beautiful and unique... just the way you are. 💗
One ❤ sistar 🌟. You made my heart feel tranquil, thank you 😊. I'm new to your channel and just wanted to say hi from a fellow lone wolf , although I live with my wolf, Major the Belgium malinois shepherd. I live in my converted 7.5 ton horsebox, on a farm in 🇬🇧. I have aspurges and have never fitted in , always battled depression, drugs and narcissistic scumbags and I too prefer nature and animals, 2 dogs , 2 cats and six chickens and they are my life , my friends and my family, all I need . I have 2 human friends who I truly trust, they are like us so , we all are fine and happy seeing each other in the flesh a couple of times a year, for the most part it's talking on the phone. I'm in a better place now than I've been for a while, trying to break my own cycles like you , trying to be good to myself. If it weren't for Major in particular I don't know that I'd be here , he was stuck with a narcissist, chained beaten and starved until I met him , saved him , gave him trust , love and respect and he has given it right back and has completely stolen my heart. He's always there for me, guarding and protecting me, even though all he'd learnt was pain , anger, gaslighting and hunger, he took a chance on me and it has paid off for both of us , plus with a maligator guarding the door I've never slept so soundly. Plus when you have a maligator, people tend to leave you alone so , magic, I love being alone and not having my energy completely drained from other people and their drama's. I've subscribed and I'm looking forward to your tranquil nature and presence, you are beautiful . One ❤
I’m so glad i found youre channel, lately i have been trying to socialize to much and lost myself, you have inspired me and i went to the forest and found myself again, now healing from the damage i have done and getting my energy back together. It’s so true “into the forest i go to lose my mind and find my soul” Thank you so much ✨💫 Blessed Be!! 🙏🏻
I think it’s challenging trying to find likeminded people such as ourselves because they are most likely hiding away too. I can relate to you wholeheartedly. I don’t really have any friends apart from my partner and my family live 18 hours away. I’ve always preferred to be on my own and like yourself, I have a tendency to ignore my needs in a relationship and let my battery run out to that 1%. I end up burning myself out and it impacts on my romantic relationships because in turn I start to distance myself emotionally from the relationship to try and build myself up again towards a good state of physical and emotional well-being.
I've always been the gay ,fem, skinny, white boy. I grew up in conservative Texas. Also, I was adopted by a Vietnamese family. I was bullied and made fun of my whole life and never had a friend that didn't turn on me. I joined the military to find some but just found more discrimination and crippling loneliness. Now I'm going at it alone. I'm leaving the military in 2 months, And Im much happier! I meditate for at least 1 hour a day and in a big way I. Feel as though us loners are connected in a special way. In a way, We are all there for each other. In an isolated but beautiful way. Thank you for sharing. You have a gift in poetry and videography. Keep going. Next time I meditate I will send positive energy to you and your partner. We all may be alone, but we are all alone together. ❤️
Not to put any blame on you but if you cannot connect with people regardless where you try the issue might be your behavior. You could try counseling. Might help perhaps.
@@HR-yd5ib I hear you, and I see it's my behavior. But for me I would rather avoid toxic relationships based on oppression than be a part of them. Consider my environment. I can just walk away from the Marine corps so acclimation and trusting from a distance is my best option. I didn't cause this because of my behavior, I behave this way to stay safe from the behaviors of others. Join the Marines as a fem gay man was a bad choice, but I'm doing my best given the fact that I can't leave rn.
Yes you have all the answers already just ask yourself!! Give yourself all the love and friendship yourself 💜 you will never be alone. Lots of love to you ❤
I feel like I'm on a similar path. Figuring out what's important and what I don't need...Finding a new way. I wish you every blessing. Stay strong. Thank you for your words.
I see so many people speak of having no friends, but truly I feel the real issue is that people aren’t finding MEANINGFUL friendships rather than just not finding any at all
Because there’s so many superficial people in the world that are fake and liars and vultures and it’s all about look what my husband bought me or look what I have and I’m like who gives a crap
@@josephstevens9888 Video games. I play Dark Souls and other FromSoftware games, I can’t count how often I’ve said “Just kill me already so I can respawn” so I can retry an area with full healing flasks
So fresh, so open , so natural, so honest, I lost myself in a stirring, heart pounding movie. To be alone may be an opportunity to maybe touch an non-sense derived happiness.
I’ve always been a lone wolf since day one. I had friends but only a couple close ones. In any other circle I’ve always been the misunderstood outcast, even in my own immediate family. I have a great deal of respect for you for having the bravery to embark on such a journey of self discovery. I hope you are truly fulfilled. I aspire to do what you are doing one day, for now I’m only semi isolated, my job in the Canadian North sends me to far away remote uncharted lands for weeks at a time. I savour every moment and dream of living as you do.
I smile watching this knowing we are many souls feeling and living alone like you and the best part is that you are getting closer to knowing oneself really good and being your best friend.
I was shedding tears at the end of your video. I never understood for the longest time why people are mean. Something i still really stuggle with at times, but feel so much lighter not letting them have that power, its not ours to take. And I completely understand you on that level. Honestly never felt such an immediate connection and understanding of someone through video. Im not on youtube often and Im so thankful the universe led me here. I see you. And I completely know how you feel- You are worthy of all. Sending love and light ♡ blessings beautiful soul ♡
I feel.sorry for people who "need people" in the end of your life people start to actually die off and making new friends becomes difficult and the suffering( my mom had tons of friends and now her loneliness is much harder in old age than it is to deal with in your youth. Remember somewhere before you were born you chose what you needed to learn in this life time and being "you was the best way for your soul". I also have been alone along time and my life is the sum of all my choices and I am proud of what I have built alone,it is the weak people who settle for relationships that do not serve them well,and frankly alot of people kinda suck as humans so why waste energy and time when you can always focus on being your best self. Sounds like your life lesson is to accept yourself and love yourself just as you are! Good on you!
Your raw honesty is freshening in the “perfect” world of UA-cam. Never loose that. I love seeing you talk about the struggles you go through, it’s relatable. And you are absolutely stunning. Your beauty and voice are beautiful. I love your work. Continue to grow and find yourself. It’s a beautiful journey to watch.
Wow. After reading many comments saying I'm depressed and emotionally off base, your perception of my work makes all the difference today. All the difference Jessica. THANK YOU.
@@VerdantVanille of course! You are so raw and beautiful. Have faith in each step that you take and know that the universe and the almighty Gia is guiding you. You are so deeply loved. Have a wonderful day.
Beautiful One, Although you feel alone, your BEloved brothers and sisters are out here/in there. Your videos bring joy to my heart. We are not alone, we are all-one. And we are going Home. Much love to you/us....
I admire your straight forwardness and determination to live life on your terms. So many times we live to please others and forget to care for ourselves. I learned from you to lick my own wounds as you say. Thank you for sharing the beautiful videos you make. Thank you for being you!
I hear you sister. I really can relate to what you are talking about in this video. So much lonelyness and shallow friendships along the path of life. But I have learned to be my own best friend and really like the company of myself now in my soon to be 40’s. By the way, I really appreciate the beautiful and slow content in your videos. It makes med feel calm. 🙏🏼❤️ Love and light to you from Sweden ✨
I love the analogy that you used of the dead standing tree among others--so appropriate. I also like that you shared the difference between "alone" and "lonely;" something which so many don't understand. As for any criticism that you may recieve, it's true that it often arises due to envy or a sense of insercurity. It's good , too, that you examine any need to judge. This is deep "stuff," so good that you're practicing self inquiry.
Anyone who has the pleasure of having a real conversation with you would see that you're not too pessimistic and you're a ray of sunshine in the darkness. You alchemise your life experiences through your films and often the most powerful lessons - the ones we want to share the most - are from painful feelings, so, naturally, your work can take on this tone. I love your view of the world and find it profoundly healing. Sending love to you, my friend.
I have no friends too. I realized that I could either choose to have fake friends or be alone. I chose to be alone.
Or you could choose to have good friends:)
@@pulkitninenine
they are very few tho 🧐
This world has been consumed with greed,selfishness,gluttony,pain the list goes on and on.. I choose my books 📚 and my cameras 📷….
@@pulkitninenine Yes and we could also choose to win the Power Ball Lottery....😃(The odds would probably be better than finding the "good friends" you speak of).
@@pulkitninenine sometimes even the best of friends can be superficial.
A truly strong person is often alone because he/she doesn't need validation from anyone else.
Well Said !!
Love your comment
@@stevenvitali7404 Thanks!🙏
Word!! 🙌🏼
very true that
I have no friends either and I spend every day of my life alone. Most of my family members have all passed away and I just don't have any desire to get out and socialize. Same with dating, I never had any kind of good luck when it came to relationships so I finally gave up and have gone at it alone for years now. So I definitely know what it's like to be an introvert. One valuable lesson I have had to learn the hard way is that people will always and forever let you down. In the end the only person you can ever truly depend on is yourself. I feel that's all the more reason why it's good to be alone. That said, there's nothing wrong with living life on your own terms and going at it alone. Keep doing what you do. Your content is great!
So many lone wolves; such a beautiful pack we are 💙
Listen to esther vilars the manipulated man
Read Neville Goddards Feeling is the Secret continually until you understand the message of the book.
Wow I seriously want to cry right now. Your post verbatim is essentially everything I’ve been saying my entire life and that I’ve learned. Wow just to know that someone else out there has the same experience it’s pretty amazing and all actuality
I met a couple who live in my town they have lived here for 5 years they told me they know 1 person
Finding a true friend is very rare these days. Everyone is mean
Unreliable and inconsistent is the toughest part.
So many people are self-centered and selfish these days.
So true
Not me but then again I am truly unique and have humanity
I isolate for a reason
The more I watch and learn about you the more I'm convinced we are cut from the same soul fabric. It's really incredible. Souls like you are what I'm searching for. Peace and love from Pennsylvania USA.
" we are cut from the same soul fabric "
I just LOVE this sentence Tom!
I am blown away by your giant generous heart. You have no idea how much your gift means to me. You really make a difference in my world. THANK YOU.
You would not do that for a man lol
@@cazimim3375 let it go
@@cazimim3375
You don’t know this as a fact. Our world has taught us to see the worst in others.
@kristallivalo
She and many others are deserving …just for being.
Thank you all so much for your amazing comments. I’m very touched and read every single one of them. I’m doing my best to answer them all.
I love you, Tribe 🤍
I just felt lonely and then your video came up.
I moved from the capital of Sweden, Stockholm, where I have lived for 45 years, to a little house in a rural area a couple of years ago.
I struggle a lot with the feeling of loneliness. I cannot live without having silent/alone time, but I also suffering from it. Paradox.
However, I just saw your video here. Never knew about your channel. I saw that you are in southern France. I feel deeply connected on some soul-level to the Languedoc region and the good christians, the cathars. Do you know about them?
I visited the region in 2014 and someday I will return.
Just wanted to say hello.
Blessings
Mikael
Girl, if you want more people to see your channel, you have to make short videos according to the UA-cam algorithm. You will see the difference.
@@Joepolcari64 Are u o.k.?
Ive never felt more alone than amongst others and grew up in a large loud family, now i seek solitude whenever possible and its heaven. Have had many friends before but the connections are mainly shallow and meaningless. I seek only deep connections with others now
@Verdant Vanille Hello How r U? U and other people may think what I'm about to say is negative?.....Though U NEED to Listen to these words not just Hear them!! U need to Comprehend and Innerstand them, not just Perceive what U WANT to Receive!! I haven't watched This Entire Video Yet, Though I Will Express anyway!!
I have seen a few people Like U Living Either Isolated or In Solitude, there is a Difference, And With or near other people or with or near No one!! Except these people that I've heard on Videos on UA-cam SAY they have a Partner!! And U Say "Apart from My Lover I don't have any Friends"!! Well I have to Speak the TRUTH here....
U DON'T Fully Love and Appreciate Ur Lover!! Here's Why...When it comes to Reincarnation for Me Especially THIS BODY (Since I have Reincarnated IN THIS Body Countless times) I have Had Lovers in Solitude (Alone)!! Times where I was Isolated (AKA Lonely), And U can Be Alone AND Lonely at the same time, Part of U is Contempt With Being By Urself and another Part is Uncomfortable and Desiring Connection!! IF U Truly Appreciated and Loved Ur Partner, U Wouldn't say what U said "Apart from My Lover I don't have any Friends" And It Also Wouldn't Affect U. U can Allow a 1-5% A
ffect U on the Inside, We R Social Beings, We R Human. Though the way U said it, Means Ur Not so close and Intimate With Ur Partner As U could Be!! If I was In Ur Position, I wouldn't Worry about "Friends" and I would Be Infinitely Happy With *Just* a Partner!! I Have Lived the Kind of Life U R!! And I'd Love to Do it again!! But U don't Appreciate Everything U Have Versus what U Don't. That's Something U need to Work on More!! U can't Get Friends If Ur Not Infinitely100% Happy with where U R!! Society Sucks, Though U Chose this Isolating Path!! Not that Tis a bad thing. Tis Not!! I AM Just Helping U See More Clearly and Lightly about Ur Situation. Ur Partner Should Be Ur Best Friend and Infact U Urself Must Be Ur Highest Greatest Friend, And then U Wouldn't Need any other!! I Know what it's Like So I Have Compassion for Where U R!! Before even Clicking on this Video when it showed Up in the UA-cam Feed amongst other Videos Was U like a Picture/Photo And I could See the Pain In Ur Eyes, In Ur Soul!!
I Struggle With Connection Too!! I Think Most of Us Highly Advanced and Evolved Spiritual People, Like Hearted Kind BeautyFull Souls, Struggle with Connection.
I live in a Scottish city and I have one true friend but many acquaintances. The more I learn about people, the more I love dogs.
Something that resonates deeply with me is a quote "it is no measure of good health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society" ~ Jiddu Krishnamurti
"The more I know about people, the more I love my dog." -Mark Twain
Mark Twain, aka Samuel Clemens, also pointed out how society is a circus. Western society is specifically what I call the Roman circus. Keeping the populace entertained with ball games and hollyweird so they never question the emperor. Why do certain ideas seem to earn more money than others?
I love that lol ^ " The more I learn about people the more I love dogs." Well said.
The problem is that most only accept friendship from certain ‘classes’, which they probably aspire to be with.
I remember that quote, it's awesome. LOL
"The more I learn about people, the more I love dogs".... I like that saying. Do you mind if I use it Kevin?
I cut all of my friends out of my life about a decade ago when I got ill. I went into complete isolation and locked myself away from the rest of the world. Like you I started to feel so alone around other people and I was so tired of being hurt by others. I'm a huge giver, and I just found that everyone I met never reciprocated. Getting ill time and time again I just pulled back and decided to be alone for a while. I wasn't expecting this phase to last a full decade but here I am. I completely resonate with what you are going through. I adore animals, and nature but I've never been a huge fan of people. I just want to send you some love all the way from Australia and let you know that you're not alone, and there are others like you going through the exact same thing. Maybe we are all part of the same soul tribe. 😊❤
I feel you. Australia, also
Australia!Any places here you know of suggestions to live off the land i want to quit working retire and live nomadically from now on lol
It takes a tremendous amount of energy to take reality as it is. Most of the people don't have this amount of courage.
You speak about me ! 🙂
@@adramalech3385 what is real to some people, others only could hardly even dream of such things.
My father used to tell me, “In your life you will have hundreds of acquaintances, but you’ll be able to count your true friends on one hand.”
That's some true father stuff every son needs to hear.
@@aduhmbased I’m a daughter, but you’re right. It was some good advice! ❤️
@@riggs20 Sorry I was just typing from my perspective lol I do that kinda often but yes amazing advice!
My step Dad told me the exact same thing
Agreed.......
My heart chakra is disturbed too. The green of Germany is bringing me healing and balance, and deep breaths to this space in my body. The other day I just let myself be hurt right there in that place without thinking about why or how. It helps to witness the pain with honor, giving it space. Sending you lots of love from my heart to yours 🌿🤍🌿🌿🌿
A wise older woman once told me "It's none of MY business what you think of me"
Keep being wonderful you!!❤
Ohhh!! That is really really great Sophie! I so much love it and will use it too! Thank you so much for sharing. My mother is a Sophie too and I know how those women are special. Take care, unique seed ♡
Yes, and realize that people may have a reason for their opinion, like if im not liked, it's usually because it's something I said to them.
I live alone on a river just me and the Animals so I get you ❤️
@@VerdantVanille Puhhh, it seems your mother neglected you very strongly as you were a toddler. Yes, that's very "special" - and more common than most people think.
Had/has she many addiction problems?
@@VerdantVanille 🥰😍😘
“My struggles to control and manage myself, they play a huge role in how much energy I have available for relationships” - That statement right there really sums it up for me. I can really relate to this.
Same here 😊✨️
Yeah... Definitely for me too
Dealing with people can be absolutely exhausting.
Give up occasionally on control and management. Back off and simply observe, let things be. Even if only for a few moments. Practice not judging yourself for who you are. It gets better. (So many of us kick ourselves for being who we are. We listen to those voices who beat the hell out of us. They can be evicted with some observation and practice.)
@@donnavorce8856 Evicted! Yeah! 👍
I love being alone. And we’re all friends here😊
My lover :) I mentioned him in this video 🤷♀️
Part of me more at peace alone
I wish I was as strong as you. Im alone, and feel lonely.
Not my choice been isolated by a person but it's more peaceful that hanging with them working vary hard at keeping my focus on GOD on positive.
I couldn't live in isolation, but I'm starting to realise that friendships are so hard. In my case I care a lot about my loved ones, including my friends, but they just don't ask how I am, how I'm doing etc and I'm starting to feel tired being the one who's always asking these questions. They are good people, but everyone is just in there own little bubble being busy with everyday life. I'm so disappointed that everyone I know wants just superficial relationships...
That is how you 99% are programmed superficial and ironically needy
Perhaps you may want to attempt looking to be complete, and content unto yourself. Or as I say it I am complete in an empty room. Your understanding of it is yours and your alone.
I feel you sister, a hard truth, I have accepted now. I put all that energy that was wasted into myself now & don;t look back, much love to you xx
What do you know????? Everyone is out for themselves looking at how great they are in their mirrors, spread lip service and get the fuck away with it. PERIOD. FUCK HOPE!!!!!
Friendly people don't always turn out to be friends and being alone is not always the same as being lonely. We're all a little bit different and some of us just need our solitude.
Most relationships now days are based on materialism and vanity finding something real is next to impossible......... I also wanted to thank you again for being born into this realm and sharing your experience with the world 😊🙏
Your words always warm my heart Giovanni ♥️
Yes, most relationships are codependent trauma bonds...
Just wait till the big Purge.
so true!
True, it's all about image and what can be acquired in today's society. It's all fake.
I live alone in the woods. I feel I heavily invested my life in others for many years. This came with great personal rewards and great personal losses. At 62, I'm convinced that we are all here in a classroom. We all came here to work on personal goals. This makes for a lot of confusion, social dissidence and judgement. But the most harmful judgement to us is the judgment we levy upon ourselves. It seems to me that we cannot love others until we first love ourselves.
Yeah, but how can you do that when you're 25? Do I need to live in this horrid world for another 40 years just so I can get a little calm at the end my life?
Well said. I'm reading Marcus Aurelius great philosophy. Hermit practising stoicism now
@@richard_from_england333 If you had rich parents you could do that at 25. If not you'll just have to work and save money to enjoy the kind of lifestyle you want. Its not rocket science...!!!
@@jb-xc4oh,So I need money to live without money, got you
"At 62, I'm convinced that we are all here in a classroom"
Yup
I love your frankness, vulnerability and willingness to share with other introverts. Thank you❤
Ahh... So glad you resonate with me Julia ♡
"Apart from my lover, I don't have any friends". Well if you have a friend and a lover , you are not alone or lonely.
Yes. my wife was my friend so I lost both
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Agreed. I don't have either. That's truly being alone and lonely. Meanwhile she has a lover and a cat. Two of the things I so bad wish I had and that would be everything for me
True. So she has someone. I literally have no one.
Such small minds in this comments
I've been a loner for years and haven't had a real friend for about 20 years now. I was bullied and picked on a lot in school, been let down many times by people, and I used to think I was an introvert. But then when I finally found a place for a while where people respected me and were kind, I realized that I love people and I love socializing, it's just that I have so much fear of people because of stuff that I went through when I was young. I still feel like I don't fit in with most people, and I still haven't found a close friend. But I don't consider myself a true introvert anymore. If I spend time around people who are positive and respectful, I feel full of energy and like it recharges my batteries. I only feel drained by negative people who don't treat me right. I'm really sorry for the difficult experiences you had...I know it makes us stronger people, but it's so painful in the process. I hope someday you find that good and loyal friend that we all long for.
That would be her lover !
you sound a bit like me.
I also tend to be a lone wolf. We are really pack animals, but if we can't a suitable pack, alone it must be. My friends are few and far away in time and distance, but I'm not lonely. I like this young woman; as with all interesting people, she was not understood because those arround her couldn't match her. I know others of the same ilk. All those self-proclaimed "rebels" are always inverted conformists. Boring! Truly original people don't have to advertise what they are. They just are.
I needed this.. It's lonely indeed.. a man at 36 without a single person I can relate to.. I have people around of course, and those who care about me.. but it's somehow comforting knowing I'm not alone in my feelings.. even if you are a long way off and unlikely to ever meet, I will think of this encounter in my evening meditation.. thanks for not being afraid to share your self.. I'll use it as inspiration along my journey to grow and keep moving forward even when I want to stop..
In the heart realm, i'm right there with you ♡
@@VerdantVanille I know. :)
I did the same thing years ago. Stuck in the USA, where freedom is just a word nothing else. I avoid modern days as much as possible. My health has turned back the years and I feel at peace like when a child. This iPad and this message is as far as it gos for me. Thank you.
No one is "stuck" in the USA. Everyone in the USA is living where they CHOOSE to live (unless you are in prison).
@@garyK.45ACP it takes a wee bit of money to go places
Freedom's just a Word for nothing left to lose
@@kathykaura7219 Yes...so what? Earn some money, go places.
Every person in the USA is living where they CHOOSE to live. Period.
Every person in the USA can CHOOSE to go somewhere else...there is nothing about the COUNTRY that holds them back.
That's all on YOU, Toots.
@@garyK.45ACP it's not so cut-&-dry for everyone. Some people struggle with issues you obviously don't have.
Well done sister for being the beautiful lone wolf you are. Our hearts are with you, love from the fellow lone wolves ♥🐺
Yeah Jim
Actually there are so many of us and after watching this video I feel a lot better
I like people that enjoys being alone. Those are the best type of people for my being
Thank you for sharing your videos Vainille, loneliness, being alone has allowed me to know myself, to be stronger, I think that being alone, solitary, has allowed me to know myself better. Love from here.
I have social anxiety. I have also a small number of friends.
But when I’m alone, I’m at peace.
You are an inspiration. Thank you.
Same❤
Good post
peace
I'm 19 and same ..
Peace
@@garyteague4480 thank you
I used to work in open plan office with 40 other people every day. I never felt so lonely. I know exactly how you feel but there are kind people out here ❤
I don't have friends either but it's a been a journey as to why I don't have them. As a kid , I'd have negative self talk and think that no one liked me. As I got older I realized that I thought that because I felt uncared about and excluded by my family. But as I got older I changed the narrative. I made a conscious decision to be careful who I let into my life because narcissistic energy vampires seemed to search me out for the sole purpose of using me throughout my life. I need to still gain the confidence to pick and choose my friends moving forward but at least I am protecting my peace, which is important to me.
Your story could be my story. Also excluded by my family. A target for narcissistic people.
SENSITIVES and GIVERS are a MAGNET for USERS and TAKERS.
Don’t know how, but they can spot us a mile away!
Stay BLESSED everyone
Robert-
@@77peacock77
Spoken with WISDOM!
@ExlaxChronicles
My personal and PAINFUL experience is that;
70 percent are users and TAKERS,
15 percent are what I call “traders”, meaning that they will give and jot it down in their memory EXPECTING to SQUEEZE/ MANIPULATE much more out of you later on!
And about 15 percent are really what is labeled giving, caring friends...
However, with the dismantling of traditional VALUES, the numbers might even be WORSE nowadays!
I am so happy I found your channel. It gives me great comfort as an introvert who loves time alone, nature and animals. I love your home and your choices. You are not alone! Much love ❤️
Better to be alone than with the wrong people who stress you out x
I’m 90 percent introvert and 10 percent over the top extrovert. When I meet a like minded person I can get carried away because I have years worth of conversations and ideas I want to get out in the short amount of time I usually have with these people!
As a solitary individual, I very much relate. I am always inspired by how you share your story in such an open and honest way, it is very courageous of you. Wishing you much love friend.
Thank you so much ♥️
@@VerdantVanille I think I'm the Antichrist. I don't know what to do with this revelation!?
@@VerdantVanille also you are lonely because of your add/Aspergers. I have it and we have it the worst!
People are often nasty to others not because they are unhappy or hurting but because they simply enjoy being unpleasant and hurtful to others. It is a truth and it is best to accept it. Your video is very beautiful. Wishing you a peaceful day, greetings from Scotland.
Well said Caroline! Thank you ♥️
And some people are nasty to others because they've been shat on too many times and they also have contempt for all the willful ignorance and selfishness they see around them.
this is why this video is recommended by you tube! They want you all separated and to not have friends, you're making their job easier. Soon you'll see what I mean
@@VerdantVanille I had similar experience and I know that having friends is wrong but there's a lot bigger picture at work here this is like this and its not what you think or what many think, it goes much deeper than this and this world is not what we are taught it was. Everything here is made on purpose, most of the "people" are like that bc are designed this way, dead inside, most are not humans at all. When you realize some of the truths bout this world many things become easier but also harder. When you learn to make a difference between the humans with souls and ones without it can be easier, but still this place gonna change very soon....so save your strength
@@outlawedTV88 How would you feel if you took the time to make a highly polished video that took a great deal of your time, efforts, and talents where you make yourself vulnerable to share something meaningful or thought provoking; but only to have someone leave such a comment? Yes, the world has many problems and there are certainly players pulling the strings for their own benefits at the expense of others. Rise above them.
My friend, I have spent my entire life single and alone because people Don't treat me right my tank also has No fuel and I can Not handle to much social either. People are to hard , to difficult and far to frustrating to deal with and most of the time I'm not even truly sure if I can even really trust them at all. My family was not vary good to me either and now most of them are already diseased and gone. I am alone . And I shall always be. Noone and Nothing will ever really truly change that. Just the facts. Much love to you lone wolf . Keep looking after yourself. Your better off that way anyhow. And just know that you have a friend in me. Much love
I think the older you get, the more you realize who your true friends are. At some point you come to the realization there are very few people, if any at all that you can call friends.
55 and slowly over the last decade I've been releasing most people from my life, growing and changing, embracing solitude and focused on my core values, the boundaries those values set, and living my life in truth.
I resonate completely. My only and true friend is my dog and chaos of social life drains my soul..its sad how long it takes me in the morning to get out of bed and face another day in a corporate job that does not even pay well..stuck in reality that isn't my own..too scared of breaking the cycle because my nervous system does not recognise anything else anymore..thank you for sharing, beautiful as always. Rumi's quote is my favourite ever❤
I too have not faired well in corporate America, i just never learned how or didn't want to play the game.
I am older and retired but I realized fairly recently that the thing I disliked most about being an adult was having to make money to support myself. I have always loved to cook and bake healthy and nutritious foods, get out in nature and play piano, read something that will actually promote self growth and understanding and listen to good music. I hope that you can find a way to support yourself without having to do something that does not support who you are.
OH! So you have treadmill syndrome too?
5 Days on the treadmill, 2 days to catch your breath, 5 Days on.......
Life feels like 'putting in time'.
No real quality time to be the person you want to be.
Ahh yes, the social endurance needed to maintain relationships is too much .. I find dealing with people to be exhausting
@@pjmurphy920 We are born into a system of slavery. Animals have far more freedom than human beings, who are the only beings on the planet that are forced to "go to work" to make some corporate CEO wealthy. This is not the way God intended for us to live. Satan is controlling this world presently.
I do NOT hear pessimism. You are an inspiration. Hearing you share about your emotions, thoughts and all you share in your videos is endearing You are my kind of human. You don't belong to this harsh world......... you ARE here for a divine purpose and must keep moving forward until you do go "back home". You have so much to share and teach us. THANK YOU
Wow. Patty, your words are covering my body with warm goosebumps ♥️ Thank YOU.
Beautiful work! Enjoying aloness is not a weakness but a sign of a strong soul
Thank you so much for this wisdom ♡
you are so brave to share such intimate topics. the truth is that there are many people just like you. i wish i could go to the woods too. moving through recognition and into action is the most scary thing. but it is rewarding. fear has held me back , my entire life. spiritual awakening is a daily journey. i too get very tired from social interaction. bless you lone wolf
I'm another LONE WOLF myself, your story is completely familiar to me. I now have no family left or any friends left except for my pup dog. I live in the country, SOUTH DAKOTA, BLACK HILLS TERRITORY & am standing strong against the problems of the world. The human condition, I don't know what to say about it, I don't like it myself & only deal with people when absolutely nessecery! STAY STRONG, you have the strength in you, if you didn't you would never have made it as far as you have.
GOD BLESS, GODSPEED TO YOU.
FEAR PROFITS THE MAN/WOMAN NOTHING!
WE WHERE ALL PUT IN THIS WORLD AT THIS TIME FOR A REASON.
Thanks for your insight and thoughts, it means a lot to me and I'm sure others as well.
As soon as I saw you walking through the snow and you started to describe your life I was transfixed. Subscribed immediately to this beauty of your life and soul. I am alone too and extremely introverted and always a lone wolf myself connecting to nobody (not even family). We are different souls and have the courage to be free from ego based connection based on a fake sense of joy.
You can't be free from ego EGO = you , you can lern how to Keep down ego but Never FREE from at . Greetings , sorry for my Englisch its Not my own League
@Bongles Who are you telling to shut up?! Stop trying to be important.
@@damianszymko9382 Yes that is a good point. Very true......Your English is excellent...
This is going to help so many other people because most people won't show vulnerability, that's got to be a good feeling ❤️
You described exactly how I feel, I have always felt this way since I was a little girl and I still feel this way at the age of 61.
I will, fellow warrior ♡
Me too, felt always alone, now I am 61 also, and still alone, but I enjoy it.
I have my dogs, they are my friends.
A great and important message. Sick of everyone around me telling me "But, something is wrong we all are social beings.."...pfft..
Annoys me too
Your video is aesthetically so pleasing to watch and your story truly is relatable to many people I am sure. Real, genuine friendships seem so hard to form nowadays and it saddens me at times how easily people can disregard something so valuable and meaningful...
i want to share with you that I found your channel in August. I was in a deep struggle to find housing and just exited a very toxic relationship. I was on the edge. Really dark place. Too close. I found your energy healing video. You were genuinely the spark to recovering my resolve. I can not say I am an expert in energy healing. I just know that whoever you are it is YOUR energy. Not cosmic but authentic. I want to tell you how much it really meant to me. You profoundly helped my life in a moment where I felt like everyone would always be gone. You are such a beautiful, incredible, admirable soul.
I can't even write because my eyes are full of tears haha. Dan, I'm so very touched. You are braver than most people will ever attempt to be. THANK YOU ♡
@@VerdantVanille "This isn't about being spiritual. It is about finding a way back to your heart."
Wow! You have achieved a lot of insight for someone your age! Being separate from the world is where you will find real growth. I’ve lived my life with few friends and admire your bravery. It’s time for us to help heal others with the truth of what we’ve found ! Remember you’re never alone ! You have soul sisters who love you on here! Thanks for being brave enough to bare your soul ! That is what artists must do. Stand naked and unafraid. If the world judges harshly it’s because when you hold the mirror of truth in front of them, they don’t like what they see in themselves. But don’t let the monsters scare you off the path! Touché !
Touchée ♥️ Thank you, fellow she-wolf.
Vetdante, yet again you deeply inspire me. I am so much older than you and it took me a long time to realize that I too no longer am willing to waste time in shallow relationships. If I don't take time to fill up my own tank then my nature of also being a lone wolf begins to disappear. And you said it so well as for those who do not understand you, yes they try to make you feel as miserable as they do inside. You are being true to who you are which resonates with so many of us watching you. I live alone... I have no friends nearby...but I continue to reach out to those animals in need or even a human being if they're willing to have a conversation. Please continue to share the beauty of who you are with all of us because your energy is bringing all of us new life. Your films are so beautifully made and the most helpful thing I watch on UA-cam.
Susie, you inspire others more than you know.
Being alone is bliss, happiness your default state, the need for nothing means you have everything! Thank you Verdant for sharing so creatively your magical moments! you're an inspiration and true healer! Much love to you!
I absolutely love being alone. ❤ I don’t have any close friends anymore. Been hurt so many times that I’m not looking for friends anymore. I have my husband and children. ❤ Blessing to you.
Hi, your video popped up among others and the title made me click on it, happy I did!
Talking about toxic people, a few months ago I ended a couple of friendships (I've known them for 30 yrs) cos they're exactly as you described them: miserable people who want others to feel as miserabke as they are. They're the cause of their own problems but want to do nothing to solve them, as it's easier to vent their frustration on others. I don't miss them to be honest, they've changed for worse.
I have very few friends now and I love it that way, no interest in hanging out with new people.
Yes and they might be alcoholics as well. At least my miserable friends I had. Complained and complained about their miserable life, yet they did nothing to change that.
Yes it seem once you've been hurt by people or when people show you there true colours you kind get over the human race.
@@fumarate1 True and I had to learn it the hard way. I gave every last one of them the benefit of the doubt until the very end when they used and discarded me like yesterday's trash.
You are an inspiration!! Like you, I live in relative solitude in a small cabin in the woods. I love nature and animals and don’t feel compelled to socialize. People will always be critical if we don’t conform to their lifestyle - they’re just philistines who don’t have original thoughts. I think you’re very brave and enjoy your views, especially your healthy cynicism!! 🥰
Healthy cynicism, I love that 🤍
I am 65 now, but have always been an introvert, so what you said in this video all makes sense to me. I possess a limited amount of personal energy for dealing with others, and have to escape from social situations and "recharge my batteries" on a regular basis. Sometimes I flair up with a large amount of social energy, become the center of a group for a time or "the life of the party," which often confuses people when I pull away and hide for long periods afterward to recuperate. Of course, they think my pulling away is because I don't like them, or that they have done something to anger me. Only a very few people in my life - often introverted to some degree, themselves - have understood that my nature is within me, not a reflection of themselves or others. I was lucky in my 30s because I found a therapist who knew how to help me - not to "cure" me and make me a permanent social butterfly, but to help me understand and accept myself as I am. I complained to him that, after a week of working in a very social setting, I essentially collapsed each weekend, often sleeping for 12 hours a day, experiencing vivid dreams and even afraid to go out of my apartment to get groceries and do other chores. I simply asked me if I felt better beginning the new work week after my personal hibernation, and when I admitted that I did, he smiled and told me that, therefor, I had already discovered and was doing the right thing to restore myself. This was very freeing. I also told him about my vivid dreams, which sometimes were disturbing and involved people I worked with or knew elsewhere - I wanted him to interpret my dreams and tell me what they "meant". He simply said that he didn't subscribe to the idea that dreams were to interpreted, but rather that they were the method used by our own minds in healing - in other words, the dreams themselves were the way we heal, they "do the work" as we experience them. This allowed me to stop worrying about disturbing dreams, and let them go, evaporate, knowing they had helped me and were not to be interrogated or picked about for "hidden meanings". Recently I've been reading a book called The Overstory by Richard Powers which I think you might enjoy. The 3rd chapter, titled Adam Appich, is about a young boy of a similar nature to ours and his struggles within his family and with others. When he discovers a book titled The Ape Within Us that opens the door to his own nature, and the inner motivations of other people - a parallel of sorts to my experiences with my therapist - his world blooms and he discovers his path in life. Fortunately, there's a lot of Overstory left to read, which I'm greatly looking forward to. Thank you for your video... I've subscribed to your channel and will watch your other postings.
I can’t say how many times I’ve watched this, it is so healing, and your words wash over me and rest like a mantle on my shoulders, a coat of comfort. I have this same ongoing conversation inside me, but you’ve portrayed it here so beautifully, thank you!
Thank YOU. So much.
This was a beautiful and brilliant presentation and I thank you for it.
A wise man once said: the only thing worse than being alone is being with someone who makes you wish you were alone!
Nice to be alone
You’re videos are such art! I love them and it’s incredible you spend so much time in Mother Nature, I will do this soon. The next time I move I will certainly be amongst the trees! Sending you love and light. And you can never truly be alone, especially with all those trees, just give the one that calls you a hug and they’ll zap any lonely out of you as well. Also, you are an empath so give yourself some peace. Hidden within are many psychic abilities, you just have to learn more about you! I believe in you! Your journey is just beginning! 🎉❤
Thank you so much for sharing your inspiration Aly ♥️
I perfected my ability at what I do for a living to not feel insecure about it. But I now speak in ways that others can't understand due to my expertise and it scares them away. I have had to scale back my talk. People seem to like me but they do not try to befriend me. Lone 🐺 except for my lover who I adore.
There are many more people such as yourself... you are not alone. It seems like myself you have learned to embrace the suck of being who we are. I'm new to your channel so I don't know enough about you but on the surface I would say if you haven't yet you soon shall learn to love the lifestyle and will eventually become fiercely possessive of your privacy. I know I am , and will eventually fade from society and become nothing more than a long ago memory of the few that had passed me by , a meer ghost or fabled person that is no more... Smoke of a long dead fire.. gone on the breeze never to be again
I don’t have any friends either & I realized my disconnect with ppl is from my childhood trauma repeating itself in my adult relationships 😮. But therapy has also helped me to realize to pour into myself what my family didn’t give me so that leaves little time for me to care about others. Being “selfish” has saved my life. I used to be a doormat just for ppl to give me the time of day 💕
You are living the best life a human being can achieve! Friends come and go they use you anytime they need you. Take care of yourself and be blessed ❤
You’re not alone when you with trees. All life has consciousness and you can commune with them. I’m sorry you have isolated yourself because you have given other people’s opinions about you, power over you. When opinions don’t matter you can be around anyone and not worry about things. It took me ages to learn this, but I feel so much better now. I didn’t come to earth to be alone so I worked hard to find my happiness inside me. Clearly you’re not ALL alone because someone is filming you.
Good analyze, Most of the time people tend to forget that kind of things.And yes Trees are the best to heal broken souls, I made them my community along with houseplant more than a decade ago and it help me to become a better person and heal my heart with so many cracks. Now Little trees are growing in my little garden and my houseplants keep making little babies, so I think they loved me as much as I loved them. But I still not forget some people who helped me through my journey and some angels who give me a little sunshine on my rainy days. Have a nice day 😁
Great advice!
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Come on you are not alone😅😂🤌🏻…
You're technically not alone. Your friend, sister, or husband is clearly filming you. There is somebody there. Aside from having someone with you , you also have the comfort of the wildlife, birds, squirrels, bears, deer and the trees. They all can keep you company. I am happy that you have found happiness being alone. and thanks for sharing this wonderful video with us.
I find it so refreshing to meet an individual on the internet who is a survivor and conquerer. Just love it that you allow yourself to be true to yourself, not to be manipulated and not to be what is expected of you. Instead, you basically free yourself, even if you go against the mainstream.
As far as friends are concerned, I believe you will only be able to count your true friends on 1 hand, and you may find that you may not even have 5 true friends during your lifetime. It is life, and it is what it is...
Thanks for sharing these beautiful views and surroundings. What a lovely and serene place to stay at.
Thank you so much for your kindness Helana ♡
Completely understand. I’ve always found friendships to be a massive struggle & have faked it in the past. For a long time, I just can’t nurture, trying to please, the emotional involvement etc. & ultimately I know I’m just not a good friend. We are social creatures so the question ‘what’s wrong with me?’ has popped up plenty in my life & look around, many ppl are so natural in making friends & there is no stress about it- I can’t say I’m not envious.
For me ‘no friends’ is not a choice, it’s like I’m hardwired this way.
You are different. You, like probably a lot of us here, are not into, or can't get into typical social emotional mentalities, thus you get ostracized, and you get the feeling that something is wrong with you. You probably need to find a topic that you can get into, that is important to you and then get with people who are into those topics.
The poetry of your presentation is very deeply moving. I think we all feel the same way at times--some of us feel that way most of the time, as you do. Be of good cheer--you are clearly finding the path that is best for you. Follow your gift, my dear. It will bring you where you most deeply desire to be.
You are a skilled storyteller and vidiographer connecting consciously to thousands of us -- you are not alone.
Beautiful video! Very relatable too. I experienced a spiritual awakening over three years ago. I find that I spend almost all my time alone. People's energy drains me. I think how you are living is amazing!
"I wish to be alone , or with those who know things others don't know."
Rainer Maria Rilke.
Such a beautiful poet.
"let everything happen to you,
Beauty and terror,
Just keep on going,
No feeling is final."
Also Rilke.
His letters to a young poet are extraordinary.
For many years Lou Salome was Rilke's Muse. After she'd been the Muse to both Nietszche and Mahler. She was the femme fatale incarnate.
I seem to be developing an idee fixe with Rilke. But that's okay.
I read the Duino Elegies, so I can confirm his writings depths.
@Emanuele Tintori
To say the least .
The Duino elegies are a miracle of heightened consciousness and the divine potential for creation within the human spirit. Happens once in a blue moon. I also think of Shakespeare and Beethoven in these terms. lights on the way
@@hermesnoelthefourthway
Indeed brother. I assume that his thought, has got heavily inspired by two of the most important german philosophers which they are: Immanuel Kant "the pure reason critique" and Friedrich Nietzsche "beyond good and evil". P.S. btw, you would excuse my poor and limited english, as I am a non native myself. Happy Sunday this hollow and violent world need minds as enlighted as yours to come out from obscurity.
@@SamuraiKensei276
Hello, Emanuele,
I couldn't agree with you more.
Let me share a rather funny quote with you :
"never in the history of Western civilization has there been so many methods of communication, but never in the history of Western civilization has there been so little of worth to communicate to others."
Kathleen Raine. English poetess.
A few decades ago I came across quite a remarkable book (to say the least) In search of the miraculous by P. D. Ouspensky. An account of a certain greek/Armenian named Gurdjieff with his own extraordinary teaching. This work transformed my life far beyond my wildest of expectations.
Happy Sunday to you, also
And greetings from London
@@hermesnoelthefourthway " "The questions are the ones who bring the world forward, not their actual answers"
From the intro I could feel it totally resonating with me. From birth, I was always the loner. Nothing around me even inspired me to walk or move myself from the spot I was put (my mom told me that, and that it made i very easy for her, but after a while, at an age where most children already walk, I was still quietly just looking around). In school no one ever knew how to get through to me, and even though I slept or dreamed away during class, I somehow had taken it all in. Most teachers were always angry I didn't do anything, no during class, not at home, and no even bring my books or note down anything or pay any attention or obeyed anything they told me to (that just got ME angry), and frustrated when their punishments had no effect, or the opposite of what they wanted. When I did talk, I always outsmarted them so they got even more frustrated while the class laughed. When I did an exam, not even knowing which one I had to do that day, I succeeded most of the time, by quickly filling in what I knew from just taking it in somehow, and then sleeping or eating mandarins and drinking tea until I was free to go. I dropped out of school with severe depression. People always gathered around me (after a childhood of being bullied but often showing the bullies they had messed with the wrong person) and groups fell apart when I left, but I never felt part of the group.
After doing some jobs, knowing I would never be happy that way and that following the directions of grown ups would lead me to their miserable life, I quit and was ready to end my life if anyone forced me to go back on that path.
Now, they labeled me with "ADD" and "Autism Spectrum DIsorder", stil implying that it has to be me who is "wrong". But the good news: I wasn't even allowed to work anymore. I live a vegan straight edge "poor" life in a forest I bought, with dangerous dogs I adopted, and while I was thinking whether or not I would tell part of my story here, you said you live in the mountains in the Pyrenées, which is where I bought another plot of nature to go live in starting this spring. But from your accent I suppose you live in the French part, I'm moving to Spain, from Belgium, where I may or may not have to flee because of conflict with local governments, depending on how they react to my latest reply on an ongoing conflict. As you said, animals and trees are my best friends, some humans as well. I'd never hurt any living being if I can somehow avoid it. I've learned to fully love myself and listen to myself over anyone else, and have had so many amazing experiences, ranging from deeply spiritual to what I was almost made to believe was "supernatural". But how can they be if simply connecting with nature and being true to my own nature gave me those powers, visions,...
Oh well, I've probably written too much already, so I'll keep it at that, wishing you the most interesting experiences, that upon reflection and in retrospect or while experiencing them, may have brought/bring the most valuable lessons, helping you become the best version of yourself without being held down by humanity's sick society.
I am grateful that we have such natural places like mountains where people just can't build massive towns and factories.
You are brave, unique, and special. Don't change unless you are deeply compelled. Most humans are lost, if they don't admire you. I certainly do. Best of everything for you.
You are so precious!! The world needs more like us!!! Lots of love, Sister!!!
Really nice video. I am a loner too, pretty much never had a friend since childhood. But when I had my daughter that was the most remarkable thing that happened to my life. She is the hope of my life and I love my daughter so much. Also think about getting a dog, they are wonderful companion. Even with nobody around for miles, I would never feel lonely with my dog around.
I feel I will never really be lonely because of my children. But as far as society goes, I could care less.
Maybe you don't need to look for people similar to you; we will find you, thanks to algorithms. Although I enjoy being alone, my limit is about 5 days; then I must go among people, even if I do not speak to any individual. Must be something inside that pushes us to connect with others. This is your first video I have seen, but I connected immediately. Thank you! You seem to me to be a lovely person.
I've never seen your videos until tonight. I can't tell you how grateful I am to hear you talking about life, and struggles with trying to fit into the world we live in. A deep desire to "get away" and the peace you feel living away from the many people, the busy fray. Trying to find a balance between both is very hard. Sometimes I feel like I'm giving my life away to work and I want that to stop before I'm too old or too sick. On a different note---I typically let my phone die and I don't care to hear it ring or pick it up....I've never considered this as a way of looking at how I ignore my inner voice. Also, Women Who Run With Wolves is a most excellent book.
Thank you for being so generous with your soul and for giving us a glimpse into your beautiful life. Your solitude and environment are poetry. Your words and visuals are captivating. Thank you for getting quiet enough to witness yourself and thank you for listening to the creator within and gifting us with your story.
That means more than you know. You make my world a little shinier with your beautiful soul ♥️
Thank you so much for the glimpse into your life.. Seems I'm not the only one, that shys away from interacting with others if at all possible.
Watching the video I was reflecting back to my childhood and all the time I spent by myself. I am GenX and I was one of the kids who was expected to go outside and not come home till dark. I learned to be quite self sufficient at an early age. While I certainly had friends and would hang out with them, I would also spend a lot of time alone, exploring by myself. Looking back, those are some of my favorite memories. I can't help but think those times were a precursor to the life I live now. One where I choose to spend a lot of time alone. I am content, rarely lonely or bored. I love the freedom it affords me. My favorite days are the rare ones where I wake up with no obligations to anyone or anything, well except for the cat, and wander through the day doing whatever I feel like at any given moment. Talk about freedom.
Like you and many others I'm also an introvert who has to recharge after spending too much time around other people. I had to spend the entire day today with other people and by the end I had nothing left. I was wiped out.
There was a time when I struggled with my introverted nature. I took time to explore my personality traits and now I embrace being an introvert. This is me, this is who I am. I cant help it if some aspects of society think of us as "weird". Whatever man, let them think what they think. Like you said they are probably in a place that doesn't allow them to comprehend the world from our perspective. One lesson I had to learn is that it takes fortitude to live this way. You have to come to terms with yourself one way or another or the demons will come after you. If you've been there you understand. Head nod to you.
You have your fair share of strength already my friend. I imagine a lot of people here do. Like everyone you've struggled, but look at the experiences those struggles have allowed you. The insight you've gained. You're living a life you want and on your terms. You have my respect for your hard work. I wasn't like that at your age. Hell, I'm still working on getting there.
Thanks again for bringing us along on your unique journey. You risk a lot with your authenticity and yet you still create beautiful, thought provoking content. You're a bright spot in this effing world Vanille.
Thank you so much for sharing your inspiring truth.
And thank you for having such a big heart ♥️
well I can't believe I'm only the second responder to this....probably the best writing on UA-cam , it meant a lot to me....
@@andygrayson7485 Thank you for the kind words. Much appreciated.
I love your Films/Docs. They are "not" videos. You are a Filmmaker, a Writer, a Poet, a Sigma. You're Films/Docs are worthy of being submitted to Film/Doc Festivals. Also, write books. They will help people. Lastly, "you" are your best friend. :-)
Wow, thank you Pete ♥️
I absolutely agree
I agree as a trained filmmaker myself.. I see the movie in my head
You are not alone. My parents moved 17 times when I was a kid. I could never create roots. Always the new kid. But think of how drama free and peaceful things are without friends. You don't have to worry about whether you can trust someone or not.... or whether you'll get stabbed in the back. I work as a healer too. My friend is my cat. I've gotten used to it. Being in a group makes me anxious because personalities and beliefs clash. I prefer the quiet of solitude. (I flip the mirror all the time too.) You are beautiful and unique... just the way you are. 💗
One ❤ sistar 🌟. You made my heart feel tranquil, thank you 😊. I'm new to your channel and just wanted to say hi from a fellow lone wolf , although I live with my wolf, Major the Belgium malinois shepherd. I live in my converted 7.5 ton horsebox, on a farm in 🇬🇧. I have aspurges and have never fitted in , always battled depression, drugs and narcissistic scumbags and I too prefer nature and animals, 2 dogs , 2 cats and six chickens and they are my life , my friends and my family, all I need . I have 2 human friends who I truly trust, they are like us so , we all are fine and happy seeing each other in the flesh a couple of times a year, for the most part it's talking on the phone. I'm in a better place now than I've been for a while, trying to break my own cycles like you , trying to be good to myself. If it weren't for Major in particular I don't know that I'd be here , he was stuck with a narcissist, chained beaten and starved until I met him , saved him , gave him trust , love and respect and he has given it right back and has completely stolen my heart. He's always there for me, guarding and protecting me, even though all he'd learnt was pain , anger, gaslighting and hunger, he took a chance on me and it has paid off for both of us , plus with a maligator guarding the door I've never slept so soundly. Plus when you have a maligator, people tend to leave you alone so , magic, I love being alone and not having my energy completely drained from other people and their drama's. I've subscribed and I'm looking forward to your tranquil nature and presence, you are beautiful . One ❤
I’m so glad i found youre channel, lately i have been trying to socialize to much and lost myself, you have inspired me and i went to the forest and found myself again, now healing from the damage i have done and getting my energy back together. It’s so true “into the forest i go to lose my mind and find my soul” Thank you so much ✨💫 Blessed Be!! 🙏🏻
You’re so strong Aimy 🤍
I think it’s challenging trying to find likeminded people such as ourselves because they are most likely hiding away too. I can relate to you wholeheartedly. I don’t really have any friends apart from my partner and my family live 18 hours away. I’ve always preferred to be on my own and like yourself, I have a tendency to ignore my needs in a relationship and let my battery run out to that 1%. I end up burning myself out and it impacts on my romantic relationships because in turn I start to distance myself emotionally from the relationship to try and build myself up again towards a good state of physical and emotional well-being.
I literally found her voice so soothing and her situation so relatable..... thankyou for showing me to embrace my lone wolf life💕
Your hand is a blessing! Stay blessed!
I've always been the gay ,fem, skinny, white boy. I grew up in conservative Texas. Also, I was adopted by a Vietnamese family. I was bullied and made fun of my whole life and never had a friend that didn't turn on me. I joined the military to find some but just found more discrimination and crippling loneliness. Now I'm going at it alone. I'm leaving the military in 2 months, And Im much happier! I meditate for at least 1 hour a day and in a big way I. Feel as though us loners are connected in a special way. In a way, We are all there for each other. In an isolated but beautiful way. Thank you for sharing. You have a gift in poetry and videography. Keep going. Next time I meditate I will send positive energy to you and your partner. We all may be alone, but we are all alone together. ❤️
Your story and spirit are touching my heart in a way words cannot explain. Thank you Xan. ♡
Not to put any blame on you but if you cannot connect with people regardless where you try the issue might be your behavior. You could try counseling. Might help perhaps.
@@HR-yd5ib I hear you, and I see it's my behavior. But for me I would rather avoid toxic relationships based on oppression than be a part of them. Consider my environment. I can just walk away from the Marine corps so acclimation and trusting from a distance is my best option. I didn't cause this because of my behavior, I behave this way to stay safe from the behaviors of others. Join the Marines as a fem gay man was a bad choice, but I'm doing my best given the fact that I can't leave rn.
I hope you find happiness..in Texas or some place new
Yes you have all the answers already just ask yourself!!
Give yourself all the love and friendship yourself 💜 you will never be alone.
Lots of love to you ❤
I feel like I'm on a similar path. Figuring out what's important and what I don't need...Finding a new way. I wish you every blessing. Stay strong. Thank you for your words.
@GrayBeard “we can’t truly love others until we love ourselves!” Sooo true!
My we all know this realization! 💕🙏
Your not alone . Many of us feel this same energy run through our veins . Sending you love 💕
I see so many people speak of having no friends, but truly I feel the real issue is that people aren’t finding MEANINGFUL friendships rather than just not finding any at all
Yes because finding a MEANINGFUL friendship would be like winning the lottery. The odds are against you.
"Kill Me so I can Respawn".... that is an interesting on-line name. If you mind me asking, how did you come up with that moniker?
Because there’s so many superficial people in the world that are fake and liars and vultures and it’s all about look what my husband bought me or look what I have and I’m like who gives a crap
@@josephstevens9888 Video games. I play Dark Souls and other FromSoftware games, I can’t count how often I’ve said “Just kill me already so I can respawn” so I can retry an area with full healing flasks
So fresh, so open , so natural, so honest, I lost myself in a stirring, heart pounding movie. To be alone may be an opportunity to maybe touch an non-sense derived happiness.
I’ve always been a lone wolf since day one. I had friends but only a couple close ones. In any other circle I’ve always been the misunderstood outcast, even in my own immediate family.
I have a great deal of respect for you for having the bravery to embark on such a journey of self discovery. I hope you are truly fulfilled. I aspire to do what you are doing one day, for now I’m only semi isolated, my job in the Canadian North sends me to far away remote uncharted lands for weeks at a time. I savour every moment and dream of living as you do.
I smile watching this knowing we are many souls feeling and living alone like you and the best part is that you are getting closer to knowing oneself really good and being your best friend.
I was shedding tears at the end of your video. I never understood for the longest time why people are mean. Something i still really stuggle with at times, but feel so much lighter not letting them have that power, its not ours to take. And I completely understand you on that level. Honestly never felt such an immediate connection and understanding of someone through video. Im not on youtube often and Im so thankful the universe led me here. I see you. And I completely know how you feel- You are worthy of all. Sending love and light ♡ blessings beautiful soul ♡
Your words are touching Cheshire. Don’t let them tame you 🤍
Love ❤ from eire
I feel.sorry for people who "need people" in the end of your life people start to actually die off and making new friends becomes difficult and the suffering( my mom had tons of friends and now her loneliness is much harder in old age than it is to deal with in your youth. Remember somewhere before you were born you chose what you needed to learn in this life time and being "you was the best way for your soul". I also have been alone along time and my life is the sum of all my choices and I am proud of what I have built alone,it is the weak people who settle for relationships that do not serve them well,and frankly alot of people kinda suck as humans so why waste energy and time when you can always focus on being your best self. Sounds like your life lesson is to accept yourself and love yourself just as you are! Good on you!
Your raw honesty is freshening in the “perfect” world of UA-cam. Never loose that. I love seeing you talk about the struggles you go through, it’s relatable. And you are absolutely stunning. Your beauty and voice are beautiful. I love your work. Continue to grow and find yourself. It’s a beautiful journey to watch.
Wow. After reading many comments saying I'm depressed and emotionally off base, your perception of my work makes all the difference today. All the difference Jessica. THANK YOU.
@@VerdantVanille of course! You are so raw and beautiful. Have faith in each step that you take and know that the universe and the almighty Gia is guiding you. You are so deeply loved. Have a wonderful day.
Beautiful One, Although you feel alone, your BEloved brothers and sisters are out here/in there. Your videos bring joy to my heart. We are not alone, we are all-one. And we are going Home. Much love to you/us....
I admire your straight forwardness and determination to live life on your terms. So many times we live to please others and forget to care for ourselves. I learned from you to lick my own wounds as you say. Thank you for sharing the beautiful videos you make. Thank you for being you!
I hear you sister. I really can relate to what you are talking about in this video. So much lonelyness and shallow friendships along the path of life. But I have learned to be my own best friend and really like the company of myself now in my soon to be 40’s.
By the way, I really appreciate the beautiful and slow content in your videos. It makes med feel calm. 🙏🏼❤️ Love and light to you from Sweden ✨
Thank you so much Ingela ♥️
I love the analogy that you used of the dead standing tree among others--so appropriate. I also like that you shared the difference between "alone" and "lonely;" something which so many don't understand. As for any criticism that you may recieve, it's true that it often arises due to envy or a sense of insercurity. It's good , too, that you examine any need to judge. This is deep "stuff," so good that you're practicing self inquiry.
@Bleu d'amour Absolutely!
Anyone who has the pleasure of having a real conversation with you would see that you're not too pessimistic and you're a ray of sunshine in the darkness. You alchemise your life experiences through your films and often the most powerful lessons - the ones we want to share the most - are from painful feelings, so, naturally, your work can take on this tone. I love your view of the world and find it profoundly healing.
Sending love to you, my friend.
Reuben. You’re so special. I feel truly grateful to learn from you. Thank you for shining your light over me, my friend.🤍