Just wanted to drop in and say thank you for all the support I've gotten on this short film. It's been a little over two years since i uploaded this and to have now reached over 5000 views feels surreal. I started this story wanting to bring more understanding to derealisation and depersonalisation. As someone who's been struggling with dissociation most of my life, it felt like a relief finding out you're not the only one. The support you give each other in the comments warms my heart and I'm glad you guys can find some comfort in this story and in each other. In case you want a laugh; I posted the blooper reel from the behind the scenes a while back on my instagram here instagram.com/tv/CLcZ4tOnefI/?. Working with these people was so fun and I will forever be grateful for sharing this journey with them. - Julia
My biggest fear of my life is that I will never be able to explain to myself who I am, why I am and how I am. Sometimes I think that maybe I wasn't even born, that I am actually not real and that this all is just some kind of bad simulation, some matrix and something that I even can not understand even if I wanted. I am scared that this existence of mine will always be so complicated and unexplainable and that I will never know this one little question that just goes trough my mind. It's really hell on Earth.
A glitch in the matrix indeed, derealization has been happening to me alot more lately, I noticed my anxiety has gone up in the past couple months by alot too, I really hate it
my experience with derealisation has ben so hard to describe to people. in my case it feels like your sinking into a soft mattress in the back of your mind, you drift away and everything feels 2d almost like a "hologram" or watching your life like an old video through a tv screen. I haven't met anyone irl that has related to my experience but it brings me comfort that there are many people here that also feel similar. If you are reading this and struggling please know that you are not alone and regular grounding/ breathing exercises can help over a course of time.
I remember when I was little I asked my parents “does everything feel fake to you right now” and they thought I was being weird so I never said anything else about it and I just found out about Derealization and I feel better now that I know I’m not the only one.
I'm trying to find out more about this topic. I don't believe I have derealization but I saw this short film and related to it a lot. I relate to everything apart from the sadness. Do you know why you feel down in the state of derealization?
@@ConnS-03 For me, I think it's the state of not knowing who "I" am and not being able to function well in my daily life because it gets so bad. My parents and loved ones then get disappointed in me, which leads to me getting more depressed and disconnected. I'm not sure where/ when it started but basically, that's my experience with it. Hope that helped at least a little.
For me.. I have feel that everyone is a freaking illusion...like this is so annoying.. But.. I try to focus on stuff and this 1 second comes and suddenly I feel back again.. But it suddenly disappears again.. Well ill tell u something that really helped me, I got a pet, I learned taekwondo, I got my self really really busy, believe it or not, I got better.. But.. We gave the pet away, I stopped training bc of covid. Now. I'm. Scared.
My therapist: When you're feeling this way just list five things you can hear, smell, taste, see, and feel. Me: S'all fun and dandy when you forget what the hell real even is-
I have this condicion and i thought i was the only one until i saw a post and i was shock that this was actually a thing, it says the most it last is a few months but i been having this for 5 years now and im finally going to therapy even tho i feel like words wont help me since im not in control of it. Im so glad i saw this video because it dosent make me feel alone and derealisation is something really hard to explain to someone that never feel it. Also another thing is that this happens to me all the time no matter what i am doing and its getting to a point where closing my eyes isnt a solution anymore
I guess for me it's a little different: derealisation and depersonalisation doesn't affect me emotionally exept I sometimes get annoyed when it happens. It's actually triggered by environmental factors like the weather. I don't deal with anxiety or changes in mindset like thinking nothing is real or I'm in a simulation. It's more like an annoying filter over everything, making everything seem unreal and dreanlike. I guess I'm really confused about why I have it constantly even though I don't have traumas or anxiety. I guess I could have some crap suppressed though, as not only does reality not seem real but my emotions (exept frustraition) and ability to connect to other people are almost nothing. The last 5 years of my life have been like a dream and since this last year I've started getting depersonalisation since going to college, as I've got the chance to talk to people and actually see them again.
I'm sure it's to do with our root chakra not being able to find our ground to this world. Everything feels like a dream in a small bubble... you just cant go outside that bubble, you are in your own reality. You worry about your emotions because you think it's not normal or how normal people in the normal reality would feel...
you forget to smile to think to feel to respond to act to judge to solve things to read to read between the lines?! you forget to think for yourself. you see and hear wierd things noises. you dont remember things. you shut down. it worse when you are in school. its worse when you cant make things right you just avoid even though its you. its hard but you dont know that its hard you cant really tell but its distressing. its something. it takes away your soul.
Whether this is purely a short film with actors or genuinely true cases. I feel the need to comment on the jerk who talked back to Riley. DPDR is real, serious and there is absolutely nothing pleasant coming from it. F*ck you for accusing her for not being truthful. I know what the struggle is like
we live in a simulation and most people aren't human. to test if you are a human, ask yourself if you have strange dreams, and do you have strange coincidences ?
stop messing with peoples heads i reached a point were i was completely delusional and i thought everyone wasn't real i thought i was dead or in a simulation. i dont want to go back to that im recovering and many other people are too, so stop i understand what you feel but stop. i used to comment things like this thinking everyone around me was just a programed robot, but its not okay its very hurtfull and triggering to comment something like this.
Just wanted to drop in and say thank you for all the support I've gotten on this short film. It's been a little over two years since i uploaded this and to have now reached over 5000 views feels surreal.
I started this story wanting to bring more understanding to derealisation and depersonalisation. As someone who's been struggling with dissociation most of my life, it felt like a relief finding out you're not the only one. The support you give each other in the comments warms my heart and I'm glad you guys can find some comfort in this story and in each other.
In case you want a laugh; I posted the blooper reel from the behind the scenes a while back on my instagram here instagram.com/tv/CLcZ4tOnefI/?. Working with these people was so fun and I will forever be grateful for sharing this journey with them.
- Julia
Brilliant 👏 down to the bone now hopefully it'll work out soon 😳🤕
My biggest fear of my life is that I will never be able to explain to myself who I am, why I am and how I am. Sometimes I think that maybe I wasn't even born, that I am actually not real and that this all is just some kind of bad simulation, some matrix and something that I even can not understand even if I wanted. I am scared that this existence of mine will always be so complicated and unexplainable and that I will never know this one little question that just goes trough my mind. It's really hell on Earth.
Before struggling with this myself, I never thought it would be that bad. But in it, it is complete hell, almost driving you to suicide.
A glitch in the matrix indeed, derealization has been happening to me alot more lately, I noticed my anxiety has gone up in the past couple months by alot too, I really hate it
I really hope you get better!❤️❤️❤️
my experience with derealisation has ben so hard to describe to people. in my case it feels like your sinking into a soft mattress in the back of your mind, you drift away and everything feels 2d almost like a "hologram" or watching your life like an old video through a tv screen. I haven't met anyone irl that has related to my experience but it brings me comfort that there are many people here that also feel similar. If you are reading this and struggling please know that you are not alone and regular grounding/ breathing exercises can help over a course of time.
I remember when I was little I asked my parents “does everything feel fake to you right now” and they thought I was being weird so I never said anything else about it and I just found out about Derealization and I feel better now that I know I’m not the only one.
I'm trying to find out more about this topic. I don't believe I have derealization but I saw this short film and related to it a lot. I relate to everything apart from the sadness. Do you know why you feel down in the state of derealization?
@@ConnS-03 For me, I think it's the state of not knowing who "I" am and not being able to function well in my daily life because it gets so bad. My parents and loved ones then get disappointed in me, which leads to me getting more depressed and disconnected. I'm not sure where/ when it started but basically, that's my experience with it. Hope that helped at least a little.
i once as an 8yr old said "am i dreaming" at a dinner party and my uncle laughed it off like i was joking. now experience it everyday
I feel Derealization during panic attacks, everything looks unreal or fake. Sounds become distorted and it feels like I am dreaming.
I felt like that too before but when I got dpdr it’s 100X worse than that
Omg you even included the song of dodie who also has this condition :) thank you for this masterpiece
This is really beautiful and captures derealisation so well!
For me.. I have feel that everyone is a freaking illusion...like this is so annoying.. But.. I try to focus on stuff and this 1 second comes and suddenly I feel back again.. But it suddenly disappears again.. Well ill tell u something that really helped me, I got a pet, I learned taekwondo, I got my self really really busy, believe it or not, I got better.. But.. We gave the pet away, I stopped training bc of covid. Now. I'm. Scared.
you'll be fine, try to do Sports at home, there are loads of Home Workout. Stay Strong, you'll get through this
@@isy5208 thank u very much 😊ok I can talk about it it might make me feel better
Thank you for making this. It provides an opportunity for people like us to feel seen.
I have this and I cant believe i am not the only one
My therapist: When you're feeling this way just list five things you can hear, smell, taste, see, and feel.
Me: S'all fun and dandy when you forget what the hell real even is-
Well.. this explains how I feel a lot when asked the same thing
The toilet and mirror sene happens to me everytime💔
I have this condicion and i thought i was the only one until i saw a post and i was shock that this was actually a thing, it says the most it last is a few months but i been having this for 5 years now and im finally going to therapy even tho i feel like words wont help me since im not in control of it. Im so glad i saw this video because it dosent make me feel alone and derealisation is something really hard to explain to someone that never feel it. Also another thing is that this happens to me all the time no matter what i am doing and its getting to a point where closing my eyes isnt a solution anymore
I guess for me it's a little different: derealisation and depersonalisation doesn't affect me emotionally exept I sometimes get annoyed when it happens. It's actually triggered by environmental factors like the weather. I don't deal with anxiety or changes in mindset like thinking nothing is real or I'm in a simulation. It's more like an annoying filter over everything, making everything seem unreal and dreanlike. I guess I'm really confused about why I have it constantly even though I don't have traumas or anxiety.
I guess I could have some crap suppressed though, as not only does reality not seem real but my emotions (exept frustraition) and ability to connect to other people are almost nothing.
The last 5 years of my life have been like a dream and since this last year I've started getting depersonalisation since going to college, as I've got the chance to talk to people and actually see them again.
I love this and the dodie song 😭❤️
I just can't communicate with the people normally. Get irritated easily. life is hard but I will beat the shit out of it. sorry for English
I'm sure it's to do with our root chakra not being able to find our ground to this world.
Everything feels like a dream in a small bubble... you just cant go outside that bubble, you are in your own reality.
You worry about your emotions because you think it's not normal or how normal people in the normal reality would feel...
Hey dit is in Nederland. Heel mooi gemaakt. Ik heb hier ook al een tijd last van. Dankje voor deze video 😊
you forget to smile to think to feel to respond to act to judge to solve things to read to read between the lines?! you forget to think for yourself. you see and hear wierd things noises. you dont remember things. you shut down. it worse when you are in school. its worse when you cant make things right you just avoid even though its you. its hard but you dont know that its hard you cant really tell but its distressing. its something. it takes away your soul.
Beautiful 😭😭😭 I'm crying
i loved this 🤍 job well done capturing dpdr ☁️
Hell was spelt wrong; dpdr is the correct spelling for it
Whether this is purely a short film with actors or genuinely true cases. I feel the need to comment on the jerk who talked back to Riley. DPDR is real, serious and there is absolutely nothing pleasant coming from it. F*ck you for accusing her for not being truthful. I know what the struggle is like
at a liberal arts school studying journalism and writing about gender fluidity.... might as well not exist
we live in a simulation and most people aren't human.
to test if you are a human,
ask yourself if you have strange dreams, and do you have strange coincidences ?
I have derealization and depersonalization and comments like this are not cute or funny. They are incredibly triggering so stop.
@@anonymousukulele7677 it's just random idiotic youtube comments. but the more I think about it, what I say is probably true.
This is hella triggering, stop that shit
stop messing with peoples heads i reached a point were i was completely delusional and i thought everyone wasn't real i thought i was dead or in a simulation. i dont want to go back to that im recovering and many other people are too, so stop i understand what you feel but stop. i used to comment things like this thinking everyone around me was just a programed robot, but its not okay its very hurtfull and triggering to comment something like this.
Dpdr is a living hell