As someone who has had an eating disorder, I perfectly understand every second of this short, I understand the feeling of wanting and not being able to, of demanding yourself and neglecting yourself, of being afraid of a look , of a scale and seeing yourself in the mirror expecting immediate results, very good job guys!
this captures everything about eating disorders so perfectly, from watching the food videos to throwing food down the drain, im sure this has inspired many people to choose recovery because this is the reality of eds and its not pretty. thank you for making this !
Oh my god. I have never seen anyone depict the struggle with anorexia as well as you did with this short film. I cannot thank you enough, you make me feel less alone in this ❤
Thank you for capturing so eloquently the voices and power of ED. As someone who considers themselves as in recovery for 10 years, these memories of torture are close to the surface. This film is brilliant on so many levels, is mindful of not blaming anyone as we are prone to do, and show just how secret these struggles are. It’s an abusive relationship with ED. Silent and isolating. Thankful for real talk and portrayals like this now coming forward. Keep doing great work! This film and how it’s presented, cinematically, angles and lighting,.. brilliant.
I LOVE THIS I never would’ve thought the little girl from walk the prank would be in such a perfectly directed mini movie pls keep this up this is amazing
The Noise effectively portrays the three key symptoms of Anorexia Nervosa as outlined by the DSM. Ella’s obsessive fear of gaining weight, despite her low body weight, is evident throughout the film as she avoids family dinners and invents excuses to not eat. Her intense focus on calorie counting and food avoidance is depicted in her internal monologue, voiced by a male narrator in a dark hoodie, who relentlessly pushes her to resist food. This voice is a constant reminder of her need for self-discipline and control, driving her obsession with maintaining an unattainable body image. The film also showcases Ella’s ritualistic behavior around food and her distorted body perception. She engages in compulsive exercise and isolates herself from social situations where food might be involved. Despite feeling hungry, she continues to restrict her intake, as seen in the scene where she reluctantly eats yogurt but struggles with shame over consuming fats. This internal battle between hunger and restriction reflects the devastating psychological impact of the disorder, where her distorted view of her body prevents her from seeing herself accurately. The Noise beautifully and heartbreakingly illustrates how Anorexia Nervosa disrupts everyday life. The film captures how Ella’s fixation on food, her avoidance of eating, and her distorted self-image consume her to the point of emotional isolation. It’s a poignant exploration of the disorder’s impact on relationships and personal well-being, shedding light on the internal struggles many individuals with Anorexia face.
This is a way too relatable experience especialy the part wbout putting yourself down and feeling stuck in a cycle of "being healthy" and then eating something that you feel you shouldnt and feeling horrible wbout it
Every second, every detail & everything about this short movie from the title to voice to the gloomy and dark mood shown when this voice starts playing in your head is captured so perfectly here I wish other people could understand how it feels, it’s a 10 min short movie yet every second of it accurately shows what goes in the head of people with an eating disorder
Omg the scene when she woke up late at night was too relatable 😭 as someone who has OSFED, I just want to say that if you are struggling with an eating disorder, you aren’t alone, and even though you may not believe it, you have worth and you are beautifully and wonderfully made 🥰 hope this helps someone
This is such a great video! I was diagnosed with an eating disorder and hospitalized the first time at 9 years with anorexia. It's been a battle everyday from the abuse and trauma of the places I have been sent to and how my parents have treated me. It was hard growing up in hospital and even harder further in recovery when they would gaslight mw into saying it was just the voice invalidated any experience emotion or behavior
Oh man... This truly captures what it sounded like in my head when I dealt with anorexia in high school. That was years ago and I'm perfectly fine now so I'm not seeking sympathy or pity. I just want to compliment you on the accuracy of the thoughts and feelings. But also the quality of production is fantastic! All in all, absolutely amazing film! Well done! On a much more important note, I'm glad you're doing better as well. It truly is a struggle that many will never fully comprehend. I hope you continue to do well. And thank you for sharing your story! 🙂💙
Still in shock and in tears about how amazing you and Bryce did with this film. I’ve been waiting for this ever since it’s been announced. Im so incredibly proud. I love this so much. Watching this makes me cry tears of sadness, but also joy at the fact that you were strong enough to make a film about this which helps raise awareness and tells your story. Im so proud of you, love you. 💕
this is exactly how it feels. i've been battling this shit for almost 2 years now and it won't go away no matter how hard i try. i'm just so tired of it taking over my life. i wish i could be happy and feel pretty without a care in the world but i can't. it's destroying me.
There is a way out ❤ Jesus said “I am the way, the truth and the life; no-one comes to God except through Me (John 14:6). Jesus wants you to to cast all your cares on Him because He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7). Only by repenting of sin and trusting in Jesus to guide your life are you spiritually safe for all eternity. I encourage you to prayerfully read The Holy Bible.
ive been watching a lot of these in recovery and this is by far the most relatable one ive seen, especially the calorie counting bit and GOD the NOTES APP EDIT: and the girl's acting... gosh this is so amazing
Jillian, this was amazing. You wrote something here that is very relatable to a lot of people and I hope they get to watch this and see that they aren’t alone.
It is so sad how she is struggling a lot but her family hardly notices it, that same thing happened to me until it got really serious. Such a great and accurate story to how it feels to have an ED, thank you for your vulnerability Jillian :)
I’m speechless… This is so so amazingly well captured and painfully relatable as someone who has been battling this for many years. This explains the best way possible to outsiders how awful this disorder can be. It serves a very educational purpose without stigmatising any eating disorder! By far the best short film about this I've ever seen, I am going to share this for sure because there literally is no better way to explain the hell inside your head. From the bottom of my heart, thank you ❤️🥺
Jillian I can’t believe how well and perfectly this describes what people with eating disorders feel and go through all the time🫶🏼so happy and proud of how far you’ve come
This amazing work Jillian. I've struggled with food my entire life. I know these feelings all too well. Thank you for having the courage to share your story.
I cringe so hard watching these. That's because I see so much of myself in them. This was really well done, captured the eternal battle you have with yourself with eds. I hope whoevers struggling with it as well recovers safely 💞💞
This is exactly an eating disorder, I think there should also be something about cake on ur birthday…. This is almost a perfect reflection of what my life is at this eating disorder hospital
Less about calories or counting. More like making myself think just how gross I am, how disgusting the food is, how it’s gonna affect me and disgusting depictions in my mind of how what I’m eating makes me fat.
is there ever a point where you just want it all to stop? i ask you, to what end does this go on to? is it to the end of this voice. or our own? is there any hope anymore? what if there really is only our own end to this disorder? what if thats what we deserve?
@@jillianspaeder5645 THANK YOU ive tried over and over to recover and its defintely a process that only works if you truly change your entire mindset and im getting there hopefully soon!
Thank you for not making her super emaciated. It’s so rare to see a healthy weight anorexic person. Emaciation is a minority actually because most anorexic people have life or family reasons why they can’t eat how they want to get that small. This is so true it hurts. How big and daunting a “normal” meal feels. How you’re already planning out your food at the start of the day. Not being able to sleep and sneaking in moments to eat what you “shouldn’t” just to regret it later. Finding out ways to lie, get out of it, look like you’re eating etc.
Hey, I loved this short flim I was thinking maybe you guys can add international resources at the end to help people with eating disorders since you guys are exploring topics about eating disorders which a lot of people have! Thanks and again great short flim
this captures perfectly how having an eating disorder feels like..
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As someone who has had an eating disorder, I perfectly understand every second of this short, I understand the feeling of wanting and not being able to, of demanding yourself and neglecting yourself, of being afraid of a look , of a scale and seeing yourself in the mirror expecting immediate results, very good job guys!
thank you. best of luck with recovery!!
I feel like this is the most relatable and realistic short film of ed ive seen
This is EXACTLY how having an eating disorder feels like. I wish more people see this
for what reason? we dont have issues!
The fact that the voice is a MALE voice, just- PERFECT
“im gonna do better, im gonna do better” “you’re a constant disappointment.” im crying actually
As someone who just took a class on abnormal psychology and learned about anorexia and bulimia, this was sad to see unfold. Great job guys!
thank you.
This is literally what happens in my head every single day
Are you doing okay now 🥰
@@Olivia-l8d4v no I'm still stuck in the same cycle
@@khadegaeshaer2533never give up
Sending you so much love❤❤
this captures everything about eating disorders so perfectly, from watching the food videos to throwing food down the drain, im sure this has inspired many people to choose recovery because this is the reality of eds and its not pretty. thank you for making this !
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Oh my god. I have never seen anyone depict the struggle with anorexia as well as you did with this short film. I cannot thank you enough, you make me feel less alone in this ❤
Thank you for capturing so eloquently the voices and power of ED. As someone who considers themselves as in recovery for 10 years, these memories of torture are close to the surface. This film is brilliant on so many levels, is mindful of not blaming anyone as we are prone to do, and show just how secret these struggles are. It’s an abusive relationship with ED. Silent and isolating. Thankful for real talk and portrayals like this now coming forward. Keep doing great work! This film and how it’s presented, cinematically, angles and lighting,.. brilliant.
I LOVE THIS I never would’ve thought the little girl from walk the prank would be in such a perfectly directed mini movie pls keep this up this is amazing
🥲🥲🥲
The Noise effectively portrays the three key symptoms of Anorexia Nervosa as outlined by the DSM. Ella’s obsessive fear of gaining weight, despite her low body weight, is evident throughout the film as she avoids family dinners and invents excuses to not eat. Her intense focus on calorie counting and food avoidance is depicted in her internal monologue, voiced by a male narrator in a dark hoodie, who relentlessly pushes her to resist food. This voice is a constant reminder of her need for self-discipline and control, driving her obsession with maintaining an unattainable body image.
The film also showcases Ella’s ritualistic behavior around food and her distorted body perception. She engages in compulsive exercise and isolates herself from social situations where food might be involved. Despite feeling hungry, she continues to restrict her intake, as seen in the scene where she reluctantly eats yogurt but struggles with shame over consuming fats. This internal battle between hunger and restriction reflects the devastating psychological impact of the disorder, where her distorted view of her body prevents her from seeing herself accurately.
The Noise beautifully and heartbreakingly illustrates how Anorexia Nervosa disrupts everyday life. The film captures how Ella’s fixation on food, her avoidance of eating, and her distorted self-image consume her to the point of emotional isolation. It’s a poignant exploration of the disorder’s impact on relationships and personal well-being, shedding light on the internal struggles many individuals with Anorexia face.
Honestly this is a fantastic short film i love how it shows how an eating disorder can feel like its running your whole life with no way out
Currently trying to recover but this is exactly what its like. You captured it perfectly. The thoughts, counting calories. It was all so relatable.
This is a way too relatable experience especialy the part wbout putting yourself down and feeling stuck in a cycle of "being healthy" and then eating something that you feel you shouldnt and feeling horrible wbout it
Every second, every detail & everything about this short movie from the title to voice to the gloomy and dark mood shown when this voice starts playing in your head is captured so perfectly here I wish other people could understand how it feels, it’s a 10 min short movie yet every second of it accurately shows what goes in the head of people with an eating disorder
Awesome that you and Bryce reunited to make something on your own 👏👏 amazing job!
awww thank you!!!!
Omg the scene when she woke up late at night was too relatable 😭 as someone who has OSFED, I just want to say that if you are struggling with an eating disorder, you aren’t alone, and even though you may not believe it, you have worth and you are beautifully and wonderfully made 🥰 hope this helps someone
in tears. this is absolutely incredible, i hope your doing well 🤍🤍
thank you so so much🥲 i’m doing so well
This is the most realistic ed in a film ive seen
thank you
Great job Jillian! Your performance was amazing!
This is such a great video! I was diagnosed with an eating disorder and hospitalized the first time at 9 years with anorexia. It's been a battle everyday from the abuse and trauma of the places I have been sent to and how my parents have treated me. It was hard growing up in hospital and even harder further in recovery when they would gaslight mw into saying it was just the voice invalidated any experience emotion or behavior
Wow! My heart goes out to all who are going through this, so overwhelming
This is great but can we not ignore the “ I think you need more green beans” 😭✨😂
hahahha
Oh man... This truly captures what it sounded like in my head when I dealt with anorexia in high school. That was years ago and I'm perfectly fine now so I'm not seeking sympathy or pity. I just want to compliment you on the accuracy of the thoughts and feelings. But also the quality of production is fantastic! All in all, absolutely amazing film! Well done!
On a much more important note, I'm glad you're doing better as well. It truly is a struggle that many will never fully comprehend. I hope you continue to do well. And thank you for sharing your story! 🙂💙
wow this is so sweet. 🥲🥲🩷🩷
Still in shock and in tears about how amazing you and Bryce did with this film. I’ve been waiting for this ever since it’s been announced. Im so incredibly proud. I love this so much. Watching this makes me cry tears of sadness, but also joy at the fact that you were strong enough to make a film about this which helps raise awareness and tells your story. Im so proud of you, love you. 💕
Right now, im struggling with eating disorder and slef harm but this video really explains on how ed feels like
Same I wish you the best!
this is literally the best eating disorder representation ive seen wow
every single second of this film, exactly how i feel.
this encapsulates every moment, from the planning your day out to whats left. This is so powerful
Such a perfect representation, thanks for giving people like us a voice.
this is exactly how it feels. i've been battling this shit for almost 2 years now and it won't go away no matter how hard i try. i'm just so tired of it taking over my life. i wish i could be happy and feel pretty without a care in the world but i can't. it's destroying me.
There is a way out ❤ Jesus said “I am the way, the truth and the life; no-one comes to God except through Me (John 14:6). Jesus wants you to to cast all your cares on Him because He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7). Only by repenting of sin and trusting in Jesus to guide your life are you spiritually safe for all eternity. I encourage you to prayerfully read The Holy Bible.
this perfectly sums up everything i’ve been feeling for the past 7 years. this is a piece of art.
This is the most accurate representation that I’ve ever seen
My name is Ella.. basically my whole life in a video.
OMG I DIDNT EVEN REALISE UNTIL NOW BUT THE GIRL IN THIS WAS FROM WALK THE PRANK 😂😂 btw amazing film I loved it ❤❤❤
the best depiction of (my) experience of an eating disorder i have ever seen, thank you
This is so powerful. It made me cry. WOW. Really incredible ❤
I’ve never related to a short film so much in my life
I'm so sorry❤
ive been watching a lot of these in recovery and this is by far the most relatable one ive seen, especially the calorie counting bit and GOD the NOTES APP
EDIT: and the girl's acting... gosh this is so amazing
Thank you for this meaningful and impressive short film! What a nightmare it must be to be confronted with this inner terror all the time.
Jillian, this was amazing. You wrote something here that is very relatable to a lot of people and I hope they get to watch this and see that they aren’t alone.
thank you so much 🥲
words can’t fully describe how meaningful this is. i’m happy i found it. i used to watch you on TV and… i just feel so heard and seen.
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God that voice in my head arranging everything is so relatable.
Powerful stuff. Thank you for sharing this with the world.
It is so sad how she is struggling a lot but her family hardly notices it, that same thing happened to me until it got really serious.
Such a great and accurate story to how it feels to have an ED, thank you for your vulnerability Jillian :)
This is so amazing. I felt every single moment. Happy to have been in recovery for around two years now.
I’m speechless… This is so so amazingly well captured and painfully relatable as someone who has been battling this for many years. This explains the best way possible to outsiders how awful this disorder can be. It serves a very educational purpose without stigmatising any eating disorder! By far the best short film about this I've ever seen, I am going to share this for sure because there literally is no better way to explain the hell inside your head. From the bottom of my heart, thank you ❤️🥺
Thank you so much. This means a lot to me
@@jillianspaeder5645 you're welcome
Wooooo way to go Jill!!!! 8.4K views in one day?!?!!
woohoo!
I don’t know you personally but im so proud of you ❤
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i just realized that this girl is literally living my life
Wow this is so beautifuly described/vocalized from an ED point of view😮
thank you!
every second of every hour of every month of every year described to me in one video
Everything about this was top notch! I need to see more acting and producing from you!!
THANK YOU 😭
Jillian I can’t believe how well and perfectly this describes what people with eating disorders feel and go through all the time🫶🏼so happy and proud of how far you’ve come
I believe in you
Bravo! This was a very well maid and well rewarded film. I'm pleased to see the positive comments.
This amazing work Jillian. I've struggled with food my entire life. I know these feelings all too well. Thank you for having the courage to share your story.
I am so sorry to hear that. Best of luck with recovery!
I can't relate to the calory thing but the voice that tells you that you ate too much and all is so real, this movie is really good!
i search for pizza tower and i get this.
The way I RELATE and UNDERSTAND everything wow
You can recover pls recover
@@Olivia-l8d4v I just wanna be skinny that’s all that matters 💗
I cringe so hard watching these. That's because I see so much of myself in them. This was really well done, captured the eternal battle you have with yourself with eds. I hope whoevers struggling with it as well recovers safely 💞💞
This is a absolutely amazing short film keep up the great work Jillian 👍 and hope you're having a blessed and wonderful day ☺️🙏❤️
thank you! you as well!
@@JillianSpaeder you're welcome ❤️
This is scarily accurate. I love it.
This is incredible, very accurate!
This is exactly an eating disorder, I think there should also be something about cake on ur birthday…. This is almost a perfect reflection of what my life is at this eating disorder hospital
Less about calories or counting. More like making myself think just how gross I am, how disgusting the food is, how it’s gonna affect me and disgusting depictions in my mind of how what I’m eating makes me fat.
The best ed short film I've ever seen,this describes exactly my life
is there ever a point where you just want it all to stop?
i ask you, to what end does this go on to?
is it to the end of this voice.
or our own?
is there any hope anymore?
what if there really is only our own end to this disorder?
what if thats what we deserve?
recovery is hard but it is so possible and worth it. Life is so beautiful! ❤
Holly crap 😮 you did this?? So good
THANK YOU!!!!
This was really powerful to watch...
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The main thing that is kinda a problem is the 1,100 cals 😅😅😅
BRING THE NOISE🗣️ WOAG🔥🔥🤑
BRYCE AND JILLIAN YOU OUTDID YOURSELVES WHY WAS THIS SO GOODDDD
I’m going through this atm and my names Ella so this really hit deep. This is a masterpiece!
I think it’s very interesting that a man represents the voice in her head, it really says something
3:08
CHILLS. this is what i do every single night with the exact same title and exact same plan. only now am i realizing how bad it is
recovery is so worth it
@@jillianspaeder5645 THANK YOU ive tried over and over to recover and its defintely a process that only works if you truly change your entire mindset and im getting there hopefully soon!
So happy I can finally watch this!!
yay!!
Jill this is so incredible I'm so so proud if you its not easy to speak up about these things and this is such a masterpiece I'm so proud🥹🫶❤️
thank youuuu!
this is what goes on inside my head every day. you did an amaizing job i love this❤
Putting spaghetti in the sink was the craziest part
I didn’t know I had an eating disorder until this video.
i just sobbed watching this. this is so powerful and so good! i felt like i was watching myself
My god, this is on the nose. My heart was pounding while I watched. WOW.
This is so true. Its that voice that is slowly killing me. Sone days i cant cope and feel like a pupoet on a string
So amazing you’ve done an incredible job 👍👏👏👏
Thank you for not making her super emaciated. It’s so rare to see a healthy weight anorexic person. Emaciation is a minority actually because most anorexic people have life or family reasons why they can’t eat how they want to get that small.
This is so true it hurts. How big and daunting a “normal” meal feels. How you’re already planning out your food at the start of the day. Not being able to sleep and sneaking in moments to eat what you “shouldn’t” just to regret it later. Finding out ways to lie, get out of it, look like you’re eating etc.
this made me sob! i thinks this is the best short film that represents eating disorders so well! great job!!
Thank you so much!
I felt this in my bones..
This is absolutely amazing! Hearing my name honestly felt like this was something I needed to hear/see so thank you! Seriously great job
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This Is Relatable, In Some Ways Because I Struggle On And Off With Binge Eating. 😢
Wow this film is amazing 👏🏻👏🏻🙏🏻
This was filmed beautifully. Amazing job you guys
Currently bawling
This is such a good short film!!! :)
Hey, I loved this short flim I was thinking maybe you guys can add international resources at the end to help people with eating disorders since you guys are exploring topics about eating disorders which a lot of people have! Thanks and again great short flim
SO INCREDIBLEE
WHATS UP WOAGSTER
Yk it’s bad again when your UA-cam is recommending these vids again
"This isnt the Pizza Tower"