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  • @Emma-zn2ei
    @Emma-zn2ei 3 роки тому +1671

    I shoudn't take things so serious
    I don't think they mean any harm
    But it would sicken you too
    If it happened to you
    And you had to relive every part
    Here come the flashbacks
    And the panic attacks
    How long does that shit last
    I'm losing myself by the day see
    And I know you all think that I'm crazy
    That the demons that show up
    At the foot of my bed
    Are just figments from memories
    That fucked up my head
    That night terrors ain't nothin
    But a real bad dream
    So quit being a God Damn drama queen
    I seal myself in a sound proof room
    So no one can hear how loud I scream
    But you don't think it's as bad as it seems
    Cause you've never dealt with PTSD
    Frozen in your track
    Take a visit to the past
    To see the devils dirty deed
    Leave a mark all down your back
    I can't even be around cigarettes
    You know how many people smoke?
    Approximately one billion
    And just about everybody I know
    You think you know but you don't
    When someone's broke you can't just heavy sigh
    And roll your eyes
    Like if they ain't physically ill
    Then they must be a liar
    But wouldn't you recede to the fire
    If everything around you became a threat
    And everyone surrounding you said
    GET OVER IT
    It becomes unbearable to live in
    So listen
    Triggers are relentless
    They ain't gonna quit
    They don't go away just cause you don't
    Believe it
    Reliving each nightmare on an everyday basis
    I don't think I can do this
    I don't think I can take this
    Frozen in your tracks
    Take a visit to the past
    To see the devils dirty deed
    Leave a mark all down your back
    Frozen in your tracks
    Take a visit to the past
    To see the devils dirty deed
    Leave a mark all down your back
    You sent my mind on fire
    Sparks flying I'm rewired
    You left me no desire
    Broken and uninspired
    I feel you all conspire
    Left all alone with liars
    Hopeless so I get higher
    And higher till I'm tired
    And there's no reminder
    Of what I'm crying for
    Cause I can't fucking do this anymore
    Frozen in your tracks
    Take a visit to the past
    Repay the devils dirty deed
    With a gash all down his back
    You set my mind on fire
    Sparks flying I'm rewired
    You left me no desire
    Broken and uninspired
    Hopeless so I get higher
    And higher till I'm tired
    And there is no reminder
    Of what I'm crying for
    I can't do this anymore
    What am I even fighting for?

    • @larryericjackson2148
      @larryericjackson2148 3 роки тому +8

      Hey hey I don't know if you understand I win this he My I have been true to you all you do no it for life I promise past past level that shit behind it my he is let go don't hurt because im telling Tell you the truth store

    • @larryericjackson2148
      @larryericjackson2148 3 роки тому +3

      LoL funny he really

    • @Manda8789
      @Manda8789 2 роки тому +8

      Thank you

    • @vikio_o7683
      @vikio_o7683 2 роки тому +7

      I love this song so muchhh

    • @Gypsy44
      @Gypsy44 2 роки тому +2

      Awesome for sharing....thank you

  • @yi-hira
    @yi-hira 4 роки тому +3338

    I wonder how many people realize the scene that Maleficent woke up screaming with her wings burned off is a metaphor about rape- going to sleep with someone you think you trust, only to not know they drugged you and took something from you (wings and virginity respectively). Even though Maleficent was able to reunite with her wings, rape victims can't get that back. Stay strong, let your friends be your wings to keep you stable until you can fly by yourself.

    • @SkyDxddy
      @SkyDxddy  4 роки тому +668

      exactly.. not many know that fact. i actually put an article from vanity fair in the description.. i wrote the song and showed my girlfriend and then she made this for me. it was too painful to create myself so she told me she had the perfect movie .. she was right. thank you for listening. i hope you enjoyed it!

    • @yi-hira
      @yi-hira 4 роки тому +138

      @@SkyDxddy That's cool that you put an article about it in the description. More people need to know.
      You're welcome! I really enjoy your music, I actually found you on tiktok first, then looked for you on youtube and Spotify. Your songs, the lyrics, the meanings, they all hit deep.

    • @Dcandmarvelfangirl
      @Dcandmarvelfangirl 3 роки тому +44

      When I seen that part I immediately thought that’s what happened to her and I got really sad

    • @asiyah_rose940
      @asiyah_rose940 3 роки тому +23

      @@SkyDxddy thank you it helps so much

    • @cindygonzalez605
      @cindygonzalez605 3 роки тому +18

      Damn

  • @swaffy-topic5690
    @swaffy-topic5690 4 роки тому +319

    0:43 ok those few lines couldn't be more true and realistic, some people think its all fun in games until it happens to them, its all jokes and a laughing matter until they get to see it with there own eyes

    • @SkyDxddy
      @SkyDxddy  4 роки тому +87

      exactly ! the culture is looked at like some fuckin joke when people are killing themselves from the pain there in..

    • @Tee_gachaw3irdo35
      @Tee_gachaw3irdo35 3 місяці тому

      @@SkyDxddyI agree with that statement. . . . (I think statement or fact)

    • @chelseybouffard1504
      @chelseybouffard1504 3 місяці тому +1

      Even then when they do see it we're still called fakers

  • @daniellelahm6038
    @daniellelahm6038 2 роки тому +298

    I've recently been recovering memories of my abuse when I was a child. This song helps me get through the night terrors, memories, PTSD

    • @Cantbeerased7893
      @Cantbeerased7893 2 роки тому +4

      i was abused to but i remember everything good this song helps

    • @MelMel-uj2mi
      @MelMel-uj2mi 2 роки тому +8

      I was abused when I was 8 years old until I turned 13 years old. I remember what happened to me. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Flashbacks and Nightmares at 14 years old. I'm on medicine for my diagnosis. It really helps me to cope the majority of the time. I'm still in therapy with a female therapist who has been with me until I turned 17 years old. I'm 37 years old now and I will be 38 years old in May of this year. I will be hopeful to be able to get a new female therapist soon to be able to work with again and work through my other mental health diagnosis that I have.
      Skydxddy I think you are doing awesome music that I can relate to. ❤️

    • @notkim8274
      @notkim8274 Рік тому +6

      I understand. Im 33, and It took me till I was 30 to relive the memories I repressed when I was a child. Listen, though, what happened absolutely wasn't your fault, and I know how hard it is to accept it, but repeat it, like a mantra. You're valid, you're seen ❤

  • @Rachelja96
    @Rachelja96 3 роки тому +1514

    I'm so sorry to everyone that is here. What happened to you was NOT your fault. Please remember that.

    • @fadingraiya6033
      @fadingraiya6033 3 роки тому +12

      🥺💙💙

    • @melaniefeltsfagan1227
      @melaniefeltsfagan1227 2 роки тому +10

      😢❤️

    • @nuviagutierrez2525
      @nuviagutierrez2525 2 роки тому +21

      Thank you. I took me years to realize it wasn't my fault because no one ever told me different.

    • @alexsedillo8549
      @alexsedillo8549 2 роки тому +15

      That’s so sweet 🥹… it’s still taking me awhile to know it wasn’t my fault and now hopefully he gets put away…

    • @tiatownend7660
      @tiatownend7660 2 роки тому +9

      It was for me was never strong enough I'm not even strong enough to get out of bed in the morning but ppl pretend like it's easy and act like it's a joke but it's serious and it happens to much

  • @Sp0oky_princess
    @Sp0oky_princess 3 роки тому +587

    I know you won't see this. But I just wanted to say that I am so thankful for this song. I have PTSD really bad, I was sexually assaulted three times and was in a very abusive Relationship and this helps me cope. I've never been able to find a song that I can relate to about my PTSD and ever since I found this over a year ago I play it all the time. So thank you so much for this amazing song. I'm still fighting. I'm not a victim. I'm a survivor.

    • @navpreetdhillon8174
      @navpreetdhillon8174 2 роки тому +13

      i believe u can do it...it wasn't ur fault so u don't need to be sad...u r the best cz u have survived until now and believe me u will in future too but u ARE NOT survivor but a WINNER👏👏👏

    • @cassondraannfrost9618
      @cassondraannfrost9618 2 роки тому +7

      @@navpreetdhillon8174 you said it perfectly

    • @navpreetdhillon8174
      @navpreetdhillon8174 2 роки тому +3

      @@cassondraannfrost9618 i am glad u agree with me

    • @Sp0oky_princess
      @Sp0oky_princess 2 роки тому +3

      @@navpreetdhillon8174 you are amazing. I'm just seeing this now. Thank you so much you give me hope. I am a winner 🏆

    • @priscillamontes2416
      @priscillamontes2416 2 роки тому +4

      I’m sending positive energy your way ❤ you’re a warrior you got this ❤

  • @NotebookLives
    @NotebookLives 3 роки тому +260

    So powerful. Using the Maleficent clips is like thr icing on the cake, too. My wife showed me your work and my jaw is still dropped at how dope your work is.

  • @kaylawoodall997
    @kaylawoodall997 Рік тому +42

    Thank you. 10 years of being SAed by my father and it took others screaming I’m not alone for me to see it. My inner child is so scared but we’re trying to fix what they broke. The night terrors the ptsd the anxiety I struggle just doing my job where I take care people. Thank you for screaming for us who can’t or feel they aren’t strong enough

  • @rahulenork
    @rahulenork 4 роки тому +1400

    One thing I love is the passion/anger with which you rap ! It sends shivers down to my spine !

    • @SkyDxddy
      @SkyDxddy  4 роки тому +305

      thank you! alot of people dont like that. im glad some people understand the intensity.

    • @FrableRock
      @FrableRock 4 роки тому +32

      Same here, I think her voice is so unique and I love her music

    • @casseylloyd1173
      @casseylloyd1173 3 роки тому +15

      Took the words out my mouth!! You can feel her music

    • @savanadaley5307
      @savanadaley5307 3 роки тому +18

      Its because she speaking on experience. 🥺💔

    • @skylarmurphy8102
      @skylarmurphy8102 3 роки тому +14

      @@SkyDxddy whaaaaaat? That WHY...I listen to it. I feel my pain through your music

  • @BexHix
    @BexHix Рік тому +110

    I know those feelings all too well...I fight the demons of PTSD daily. My therapist said it best when she said " there is nothing wrong with you mentally EXCEPT for the fact that you've been through traumatizing situations that unfortunately a pill and no amount of talking can take away the fact that those events happened. All you can do is hold your head up and say "I SURVIVED" and hope that maybe you can save another from experiencing the same pain"

    • @tarakelley2027
      @tarakelley2027 4 місяці тому

      I'm right there with you 😢 sa and DV survivor. You got this

    • @TrinaGodfrey-u3e
      @TrinaGodfrey-u3e 4 місяці тому

      Another warrior here, child neglect and abuse and DV, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and light the way for others.

  • @jodi7139
    @jodi7139 2 роки тому +36

    I just recently discovered your music thru a friend and I'm so obsessed now. I'm 51yrs old. I am a domestic violence survivor with severe ptsd and I can't even tell you what your music means to me. Thank you🖤💜🖤💜🖤

    • @LizzieLeish
      @LizzieLeish 3 місяці тому

      46 same and yep, my new life is this song and fighting being trapped in it again non stop. its only been a few months I got away properly and put into a safe house system, they say it will take time but it will get easier to control :(

  • @BrookelynKirk
    @BrookelynKirk 2 місяці тому +4

    I love the emotions they out into this song. I've been through a lot of shxt, and its been really rough the last five years. All my trauma and PTSD start to come back in flashbacks. One of the hardest ones is that my twin sister almost died to cancer twice. I was only ten. This song helps me feel like I'm understood. Thanks!

  • @gtravers3232
    @gtravers3232 3 роки тому +162

    This made me cry. This is the first song I've heard that accurately depicts how I feel on the inside. Thank you.

    • @damagedemoangel666
      @damagedemoangel666 Рік тому +2

      me too . touched me on so many levels , ion think she knows just how much ha music helps .

    • @brendalynn61
      @brendalynn61 Рік тому +1

      Same here

    • @LizzieLeish
      @LizzieLeish 3 місяці тому

      yup. and the way people around you behave when you are having episodes. Like its choice.

  • @exxiethewriter3567
    @exxiethewriter3567 2 роки тому +138

    I...I am not diagnosed with PTSD. Possibly because I keep the things that have happened close to my chest. However, it needs to be said that I thank you for this song. It makes me feel less alone. And that even if I can't speak my truth yet, someone else is speaking theirs.

    • @aussieliferanch4933
      @aussieliferanch4933 2 роки тому +6

      it becomes more bearable with time. I tell people what happened to me and let them decide if they feel safe or comfortable enouph to share with me or not. ive been the first person to know someones story so many times this way, and when they where ready helped them tell others and they eventually grow out of needing the blanket of security i offer as they find their own voices.

    • @really4421
      @really4421 Рік тому +4

      I feel that exact feelings I know how u r feeling I promise

    • @HelloNo-j2t
      @HelloNo-j2t 8 місяців тому

      did buddy stutter LMAO

    • @emtu551
      @emtu551 4 місяці тому

      God damn. Felt like u wrote exactly my emotions in words when I listened to this song. ❤️

    • @LizzieLeish
      @LizzieLeish 3 місяці тому

      you cant keep flashbacks to yourself. It takes everyone around me to talk me back into the present every time, and I can be trapped in rumination memory yelling and pleading to not be hurt again, out loud at someone gone a year now for 15 hours at a time or I get trapped in days of complete fear shut downs where I do nothing, no sleep no eating no nothing but sit crying in terror. ptsd is a bit different to c-ptsd. both are awful.

  • @dezzdobby1021
    @dezzdobby1021 3 роки тому +89

    As a cptsd survivor this song literally gives me chills

  • @charlotteembrich9603
    @charlotteembrich9603 8 місяців тому +16

    I just love how some did a maleficent edit of her pain and didnt make her out to be the villain. She was betrayed by her first friend turned lover in the worst way and just expected to let that go? I always saw the 3 fairy mothers as the villains cause they knew what happened and still took the side of the betrayer. They basically just gaslight her cause she shunned humans from the grove after having her wings cut off by the guy she trusted most. He did that to her for greed and used her for his gain. He wasnt a good person anymore after that night. That song was great and fit perfectly. Hits hard to cause its true.

  • @kianatyler2779
    @kianatyler2779 10 місяців тому +2

    Everyone has trauma. No matter how perfect their life seems to be, some peoples traumas arent as severe as others. Everyone should be open to help people even if it seems fake because u wouldn't know.

  • @isaiahshane9545
    @isaiahshane9545 3 роки тому +13

    "Frozen in your track
    Take a visit to the past
    To see the devils dirty deed
    Leave a mark all down your back" the absolute most accurate description of what a flashback feels like. i have been listening so much on spotify and finally come to see the videos. im crying so hard :( this is a masterpiece. im going to watch all the others now

  • @mvsnightcore8033
    @mvsnightcore8033 2 роки тому +41

    normally i don't like rap music. but your voice... the pain and anger... wow love it

  • @Sp0oky_princess
    @Sp0oky_princess 2 роки тому +31

    I've been listening to skydxddy for a long time and this will forever be my favorite song. I relate so freaking hard. I have PTSD and a lot of trauma. This is the only song that I've found about PTSD and I've never related to anything so hard. Thanks skydxddy for this forever banger.

  • @ShacharKoren02
    @ShacharKoren02 5 місяців тому +1

    I was raped 4 times by 4 different men and i was in a seriously abusive relationship with one of them...every day i cry...every day i feel like im slipping further and further into the flashbacks and disociation...it feels like my sanity and my heart was stolen and i keep looking for songs that express how it feels...how hard it is to live in this world as someone with CPTSD...it tore my world apart and every day i struggle to just stay alive...i know you wont see this Skydxddy but your songs and story especially this song help me so much and i can honestly say that you saved my life just by being yourself and making the music that you do

  • @marissaashley8556
    @marissaashley8556 9 місяців тому +9

    For anyone on here please know that after seven years your body is brand new meaning if its been seven years you have a body that your abuser has never touched i hope this helps some of yall like it helped me ❤️

  • @Bellariddle-g1s
    @Bellariddle-g1s 3 місяці тому +2

    I cry to this song the lyric “I seal my self I’m a sound proof room so no one can hear how loud I scream you don’t think it’s as bad as it seems because you never delt with ptsd” hits close to sto home my aunt awhile back before she passed she called my mom we rushed to her house by the time we got there she was being carried out se was gone I was five and that’s how I learned what death was I never got to say goodbye

  • @katarinarivers2974
    @katarinarivers2974 3 роки тому +86

    Love this so much. ❤ It truly helps with coping. I have C-PTSD and BPD as a result of 10+ years of abuse and multiple compounded traumas.
    This song gives me words yo describe it.

    • @thetruthspeaker1978
      @thetruthspeaker1978 2 роки тому +2

      God bless you, nobody should have to deal with the diplaced issues of others. The best thing i know to do is to make sure it ends . I sometimes struggle not to be hurtful to people. I try to remember how it feels and that i never want anyone else to feel that way..♥️

    • @katarinarivers2974
      @katarinarivers2974 2 роки тому

      @@thetruthspeaker1978 Thank you! ❤ And yes, breaking the cycle is SO important! I struggle with it too b/c you do wind up harboring so much anger & hurt from what was done to you but you also know you can't take it out on people who didn't do it. Its hard but its worth every moment of recovery and healing.

    • @BatttleKattt
      @BatttleKattt 2 роки тому +2

      I have cptsd as well... It's ridiculous the amount of bullshit I've been dealt. Feels so unfair, if it weren't fory children I would no longer be here...

    • @hellohello-ey9qj
      @hellohello-ey9qj 2 роки тому +2

      Ptsd and bpd, are an awfully tragic mix. You are not alone, this sucks. This song really explains a lot of the unspoken feelings.

    • @s.i.c.q.m.s.5677
      @s.i.c.q.m.s.5677 Рік тому

      @@BatttleKattt Same 🙏🤍🙏🤍🙏🤍🙏 Light Love & Levity To You & Yours 🤍

  • @marissaclifford4882
    @marissaclifford4882 6 місяців тому +2

    You enunciate the words so well, even when you’re really rapping them fast!!! You’re so talented and the music video is so excellent.

  • @De3dcrypt1d
    @De3dcrypt1d 2 роки тому +109

    I wasn’t sexually assaulted or abused but I was sexually harassed, people tell me I’m over dramatic. This song really helps
    Thanks

    • @fuzzydo6911
      @fuzzydo6911 Рік тому +13

      Trauma is when you think you're safe and something happens that makes you realize you aren't. You are not being dramatic. You just realized that you are not as safe as you thought you were.
      As someone who has been sexually harassed by both men and other women, I can tell you that it is normal to become more cautious around people and to feel uncomfortable. However, if it has come to the point where you have flashbacks, panic attacks, or no longer feel safe around people you may need to seek professional help because there most likely is another more serious underlying trauma involved. To be fair though, I "fought off" anyone who sexually harassed me, which may have lessened the trauma's effect on me. Additionally, everyone reacts to trauma differently so don't just take my word for it.

    • @marykayayers3256
      @marykayayers3256 Рік тому +7

      You are with us. Safe. No matter they had there way physically or mentally to put you here ..hugging you...

    • @christineeleonorepoppe6745
      @christineeleonorepoppe6745 Рік тому +8

      Many small but bad things happened to me and at some point I ended up in a mental health clinic and one patient opened my eyes about the way I was thinking with one sentence "just because other's had it worse doesn't mean u're struggles aren't valid" he said that after a long conversation and me feeling bad about complaining since he experienced many more hard times than me... u're not over dramatic

    • @katelynhenson8719
      @katelynhenson8719 Рік тому +6

      I wasn't assaulted or anything. But my family member hid a camera in the bathroom to record me showering. I have never felt like the same person since. A part of me will always remain in that bathroom. All trauma is valid. I dont feel my trauma is significant enough to talk about or complain about but I will never feel comfortable in a bathroom again.

    • @donnamason6522
      @donnamason6522 Рік тому +2

      That's a terrible abuse of trust. It is a serious assault . Please validate yourself and your feelings. Talk to someone. Maybe a therapist or helpline. You shouldn't keep it to yourself. It will fester. You are the victim. You have every right to your feelings. I hope you find your righteous anger. I wish you all the very best with your healing.❤

  • @Kyllenna
    @Kyllenna Місяць тому +1

    I have C-PTSD and PTSD... I feel like I'm never gonna get over it. It already been 2 years (soon 3) from my PTSD trauma and I just discover slowly all the traumas I have from my childhood as a neglect and abandonned child...

  • @ACrazedGaming
    @ACrazedGaming 3 роки тому +524

    As someone who suffers from ptsd
    This song makes my anger and rage at the world so much easier to deal with
    Thank you
    Thank you for making it easier to deal with day by day

    • @just_Moss
      @just_Moss 3 роки тому +4

      Exactly, I know how you feel

    • @Melissa638
      @Melissa638 2 роки тому +9

      Agreed. I get so sick of hearing " just get over it" if it was that easy to just let it go.. Man you can have it. I wouldn't wish PTSD on anyone.

    • @kennethsullivan6045
      @kennethsullivan6045 2 роки тому +2

      It does the same thing to me. Outstanding

    • @angiejones2481
      @angiejones2481 2 роки тому +2

      Same

  • @lucywest6122
    @lucywest6122 2 роки тому +4

    I've been bullied for years for being adopted and recently I got given some bad news and this song has helped me so much. it's been the motivation for me to get up when I've completely felt like not getting up. So thank you Sky, you are a true helper and inspiration. My PTSD has gotten worse as I've grown so this song has really helped.

  • @josiekorenek2795
    @josiekorenek2795 2 роки тому +8

    It does get better, I promise. It will take years, but you will find your strength, your voice. I struggled heavily for 2 years, half of which with undiagnosed PTSD. After a year of doing emdr, I finally am ready to move onto talk therapy. It’s hard, it really is. But you got this, I know you do. You’re stronger than you know.

  • @Emily-ki7vh
    @Emily-ki7vh 7 місяців тому +2

    This song perfectly describes my life right now. Hits so hard, every line. I feel so hurt, especially because my parents don’t believe me and say to get over it and move on. I just need so badly for someone to say they believe me that I was raped.

  • @VenesaBarnes
    @VenesaBarnes 7 місяців тому +4

    I've listened to this song ever since it came out and I've never realized what her getting her wings taken away mint but now it all makes since and i can 100% relate. Love this song and the music video to it it goes so well together.

  • @priscillamontes2416
    @priscillamontes2416 2 роки тому +24

    I felt this because I know a form of this pain. Im living with PTSD myself. Thank you for this ❤

  • @chloe-mariegledhill7649
    @chloe-mariegledhill7649 Місяць тому +3

    How hard this hits home 😢 such a great song to explain ptsd ❤

  • @KaceyRaynes
    @KaceyRaynes 2 місяці тому +1

    This is a wonderful way to explain and what a great reminder. Forward only now and forever

  • @xl-origins
    @xl-origins Рік тому +8

    "What am I even fighting for...?" Miss... If not for yourself, for the people you save with this music.

  • @LaylaWelch-gj6ci
    @LaylaWelch-gj6ci 2 місяці тому +2

    I know it's been four years but I'm still attached to this song on a personal level ❤

  • @addieschubert4739
    @addieschubert4739 4 роки тому +97

    I found your music not long ago and it’s so powerful and inspiring

  • @angelrage7528
    @angelrage7528 2 місяці тому +2

    I freaking LOVE this! HTH did I miss this. Girl you've got it going on! Never stop!

  • @daintrex8606
    @daintrex8606 3 роки тому +12

    I need more of this. I feel your music to my very core. This deserves more recognition. I've listened over 20 times in two days and shared with 3 friends.

  • @YourPenguinFriendMilo
    @YourPenguinFriendMilo 2 роки тому +2

    I've never heard someone talk about this out loud in the open, and for the first time in my life I don't feel alone. I have PTSD, and I've suffered in silence since I was a child. All of the rage I feel, the pain I've suffered, the night terrors and flash backs I'll never be able to erase- this captures it all. This song is more validating to my pain than I've ever had. Thank you, I needed this.

  • @Kayu010
    @Kayu010 7 місяців тому +5

    This song be hitting to hard recently

  • @havedevil2915
    @havedevil2915 2 місяці тому +1

    The fact I relate to this so much and that there's music like this just makes me feel less alone. Also fun thing about is that people have started realising that I'm a lot kinder than I seem people started calling me cruella

  • @HallowbeaststudiosGaming
    @HallowbeaststudiosGaming 7 місяців тому +4

    Being someone with cptsd.... This song speaks volumes to me and those around me I'm so tired of people treating me like it's my fault or like I can control it when I can't.... This song makes me feel like I'm not alone

  • @bonniewhite8093
    @bonniewhite8093 8 місяців тому +2

    That unwanted kiss... the smell of smoke on their breath, it's something you don't forget.

  • @RosemaryFenton7695
    @RosemaryFenton7695 2 роки тому +141

    Everyone always tells me
    "You just gotta think of good things"
    "You need to stop focusing on all the bad and you'll be fine"
    "You're just being dramatic, your past could've been worse"
    "Others have gone through worse than you"
    This shit right here is what pisses me off. I can't stand it. You know who all says this to me? People who don't have PTSD. My husband's mom and grandmother being those people and honestly? Idk what to do with them, how to explain it

    • @madelinesibley7423
      @madelinesibley7423 2 роки тому +5

      I am so sorry certain members of your family are saying those sorts of things. Yes, some people have objectively been through more $hit, but that doesn't ever EVER mean that you haven't suffered as well. One person's pain does not lessen the pain you feel. In my experience, when I encounter people with that small mindset, I just don't bring it up with them. There is no point. I hope things get better for you. Your abuse that you suffered through (and are still suffering from) should never define you. I'm not saying pretend it didn't happen, it did. But the quote at the end of this song is true: "The villains in your story don't deserve to see you fall." 🖤

    • @shinebritechosen
      @shinebritechosen 2 роки тому +4

      You have to mind over body shit. It aint easy and dont ever let your weak times make you quite. Cuz your loved and needed and you can conquer that shit

    • @Raevens_freedom
      @Raevens_freedom Рік тому +4

      I’m so sorry that all of these things have been said to you. Something that I always say to others when they say stuff like that is, “yes, people do have it worse. But that doesn’t automatically mean that I don’t have it bad.” You are so strong and I’m so sorry about anything bad that has ever happened to you. You are amazing. ❤

    • @Youtube_randomnobody
      @Youtube_randomnobody 11 місяців тому +2

      As if it's a damn choice. They piss me off too but then I think, I'm glad they don't understand. I don't ask people to understand I just ask them to love me anyway.

    • @earnestobright9640
      @earnestobright9640 6 місяців тому +2

      I don't think people understand on how much you want dwell on the bed even if you want to think about the good the bad overwhelms you

  • @pandatingler
    @pandatingler Рік тому +2

    This song is my daily motivation. My therapist listened to it with me Sunday, she said it's the best representation of PTSD and what you feel like after trauma she's ever heard. Thank you for your music it has helped me so much as I start my healing through C-PTSD ♥

  • @emilyramos264
    @emilyramos264 3 роки тому +26

    I honestly love that I found ur music I deal with extreme PTSD and this song is so relatable

  • @miribekahburke2021
    @miribekahburke2021 2 роки тому +2

    I was recently diagnosed with PTSD and this is the best song that I’ve ever heard that describes what it feels like and that I can relate to. Flashbacks and nightmares are constant and I relive my trauma almost every day. Thanks for writing this song so I don’t feel so alone. I feel understood finally. Also, I love your style of music and your song Battlefield! Thank you for everything SkyDxddy ❤️

  • @skymercii
    @skymercii 3 роки тому +6

    My best friend sent me this cus I told what I was struggling with: PTSD. Anxiety. Depression. Disassociation. Random Depression episodes. You know when I was going thru a very dark time. I want to thank you for helping me thru that.

  • @cynicallemonade1792
    @cynicallemonade1792 Місяць тому +1

    This edit with this song gave me super chills

  • @Camimalm7
    @Camimalm7 3 роки тому +9

    You’re unreal. Seriously this song is out of this world I can’t believe a person could be this talented. ICONIC!!!

  • @Amber-d8u
    @Amber-d8u 3 місяці тому +1

    this song explains a lot and people need to listen to what it has to say cause every song has a meaning of why it was made most people I know will just say this song doesn't mean anything but they're wrong this song has a lot to say and I love how you made it because most people would make the song but not feel how the song says they feel but the voice in this was so passionate to proves you experienced every part you wrote about this song. keep making great songs never stop what makes you happy and able to express yourself

  • @PoeticDreamer51
    @PoeticDreamer51 2 роки тому +3

    I heard this for the first time a few days ago. Mine happened 10 years ago. I tried to unalive myself a year after. I had this moment of amazement when I listened to this. Because this was it. This was exactly it. But I’ve come so so far. I still have nightmares sometimes. But I’m a completely different person. I was telling someone about how this song made me think back on it and it made me sad. But not in a way that it was a trigger, but in a way I would feel if someone told me they had the same thing happen. In a “I’m so sorry this happened to you,” kind of way. And then I started crying. I’ve heard it said to me before, but I don’t think I’ve ever said it to myself. If that makes sense. Thank you for this song. Thank you for helping me realize how far I’ve come and for that little extra bit of healing.

  • @chloescaptures808
    @chloescaptures808 Рік тому

    These are the most accurate and reliable lyrics one could write.
    To sing this pain out of my soul everytime I listen to this is much appreciated.
    Thankyou lovely lady .

  • @katrinareinholz4227
    @katrinareinholz4227 3 роки тому +25

    Your fighting to help those who can relate feel like they aren't the only one who feels that way ❤️ thank you for this song

  • @ryantully3717
    @ryantully3717 8 місяців тому +1

    The emotion in the words. Wow. You get it. Beautiful

  • @emmacourtwright7736
    @emmacourtwright7736 3 роки тому +39

    I feel this so hard. My mum has ignored the fact that I am still deep down a traumatized child. No one believes me when I tell my side, they all say "oh don't go pulling that card again." so now I have no friends because i put up boundaries to protect myself from the flashbacks. Does anyone else get super panicky and violent when the flashbacks are almost done? Cause I do, but i dunno if its normal... Anyone else get like that?

    • @lilmadrox1de385
      @lilmadrox1de385 Рік тому +2

      I do...
      I'm scared to put up boundaries so I get flashbacks very often.

    • @damagedemoangel666
      @damagedemoangel666 Рік тому +2

      i totally understand - i get flashbacks n triggers from smells , certain places , clothes etc + it sucks cause i’ve lost touch wit reality n get told ta “move on” “it’s over” n i “should move past it” like it’s sooo easy , so i’ve jus rlly been self destructive ta myself a lot lately since ion rlly have nobody ta lean on w/o getting criticisms as if it’s my frickin fault n it drives me crazy i wanna scream …. so no , yhu’re not totally alone n have ppl like me in our position who actually rlly get it n wont jus tell yhu wutchu wanna hear . much love angel , i hope yhu’re doing well 😔💙

    • @damagedemoangel666
      @damagedemoangel666 Рік тому +1

      @@lilmadrox1de385 me too :( then it’s like we’re duh bad guys once we set up our boundaries like CANT WE DO ANYTHING RIGHT ??!??? 😔🥺

    • @lilmadrox1de385
      @lilmadrox1de385 Рік тому +1

      @damagedemoangel666 yeah it's like we can't set them because then we are wrong for not trusting people

    • @damagedemoangel666
      @damagedemoangel666 Рік тому

      @@lilmadrox1de385 n dats one of many things i cant stand - we cant do anything w/o worrying abt upsetting ppl while so when rlly , we jus wanna be comfortable , like no , we jus want our peace n safe space n they fail ta realize its not our fault we can’t trust ppl ykwim

  • @Skullpirate89
    @Skullpirate89 3 місяці тому +1

    I had a blackout at work in front of two of my bosses yesterday. My eyelids are so swollen I can barely see. I'm glad I had today off but I'm going to play this to them to try to explain. I sent it to my bf too and he said that it makes sense now. I can only imagine the pain it took to write this but I'm glad that you did. So little understand.

  • @courtneybeattie6407
    @courtneybeattie6407 3 роки тому +23

    I wonder how many people heard this and Realise that this is what they go through daily, As a person with ptsd I can relate and I kinda feel at eased that a lot of people go through this pain and not just me (it makes me feel not alone)

  • @Autumns_edits13
    @Autumns_edits13 Місяць тому +1

    I'm 12 and I've dealt with so much, and I live this song

  • @taylorburns3936
    @taylorburns3936 2 роки тому +6

    As someone that struggles badly with my mental health because of severe trauma, I appreciate this song sm. People don't realize how hard it is to deal with something when they've never gone through it. I'm tired of people fucking say just forgive and forget about it. You try to forget about it when the smallest things trigger anxiety all the fucking time.

  • @gothicgurl718
    @gothicgurl718 Рік тому +1

    The quote at the ending of the video ‘“the villian of your story doesn’t deserve to watch you fall”’ hit me hard thank you!

  • @heků.bä
    @heků.bä 4 роки тому +19

    I LOVE U this song has helped me so much and literally describes my feelings and how ppl treat me due to my trauma
    Makes me feel less alone

  • @justinmeyer3588
    @justinmeyer3588 7 місяців тому +2

    I get that feeling alot and Maleficent has been my favorite and I know how she feels especially when I feel that way as well.

  • @christalann6072
    @christalann6072 Рік тому +3

    I love how deep your lyrics are your music hits so close to home for me sadly but your music helps me get through it ❤

  • @AdriannaGonzales-ul4ku
    @AdriannaGonzales-ul4ku 7 місяців тому +2

    This helps I lost my brother a year ago and I truly thought he was happy

  • @LucasNinoMusic
    @LucasNinoMusic 4 роки тому +7

    Amazing! Love the song, and also this movie.

  • @PhoenixLinton-zi5ns
    @PhoenixLinton-zi5ns Рік тому +2

    I lived in an abusive home. Physically i was at school work and home, but mentally i relive what happend , the pain, the metal problems. Like maleficent, i found my wings this song was my crutch, and now im flying on my own. Thank you, i really appreciate it.

  • @SamandColbylover16
    @SamandColbylover16 2 роки тому +3

    I just found this and you but this touched me deeply and on another level. You helped me a lot this past year and I'm extremely grateful for you. I listen to your music everyday and it makes feel as if I'm not alone. So thank you! You don't know it but you've saved my life!

  • @damagedemoangel666
    @damagedemoangel666 Рік тому +1

    yhur lyrics come from such a raw , real + personal place . (i understand , i went thru it n am still suffering it too yrs later) so yhu n yhur music are rlly like a savior ta me . much love

  • @vatiantL1130
    @vatiantL1130 2 роки тому +6

    I don’t have diagnosed ptsd but I can feel this song a little to much as I wanted… hopefully everyone who had such moments can handle them and stay strong!

  • @Skrulz_King666
    @Skrulz_King666 6 місяців тому +2

    Ik this song’s message is a rough one but I really like this song, it’s constantly on my mind when I work 😅

  • @kainthewriter8764
    @kainthewriter8764 3 роки тому +3

    Probably couldn't put words to how much this song has comforted me during my hardest moments. Currently I'm living at a relatives house because a very very horrible family member has destroyed every possession I owned that I couldn't scramble to take out in time. On top of crippling PTSD due to other issues, this is the only song I can reliably go to that really understands. I want to go home

  • @making_new_words
    @making_new_words 6 місяців тому +2

    i love this song and it is amazing to see people speaking up about their PTSD. I don't have what people call "normal PTSD" in that for a long time I denied that I could ever have PTSD bc I thought what I went through was something normal that everyone goes trough only to find out later that it wasn't even close to normal. when your little TV and books and parents make being bullied in elementary seem like a normal thing that everyone goes through and that it cant be serious. when I started noticing the difference between bulling that i was told about and mine I told people but even after being harassed, bit, punched, hit, and received death threats I realized I no one was ever going to do anything. now i'm weary of telling people about it bc I didn't want to be perceived as an attention seeker and at my school I (white) was a minority bc we were an international school and most of my friends were colored and I was bullied based on the fact that I was white and some little kids at my school ( like 5-7 years old) genuinely thought and were thought that racism was one way (white mean to black) and if I told my friends they wouldn't have understood bc they weren't thought that.

  • @isisbauer7611
    @isisbauer7611 11 місяців тому +11

    Does anyone else just not want to feel? Because when you do you're either crying or falling in a "black hole" does anyone else feel like that? Or is it just me?

    • @jennifermccollum8300
      @jennifermccollum8300 8 місяців тому +1

      All the time

    • @SDRotBadger
      @SDRotBadger 8 місяців тому

      Same

    • @MercedesonPaws
      @MercedesonPaws 7 місяців тому

      Trust me I thought I wouldn't want to feel and shit down all emotions in my body so I didn't feel and I'm telling you it's the worst thing to do caer even you finally let them come back they come back like a fucking train wreck and I'm still coping from it after almost 2 years of letting go

    • @muradahmed7580
      @muradahmed7580 7 місяців тому +1

      Same

  • @jessenoel7552
    @jessenoel7552 6 місяців тому +1

    That blew my mind you two are angels u was that weird cause my beginning wasn't that great i got scar down my back can't really remember what happen was thinking what happen to my back then read you too my mind blowin no pun intended

  • @jolynnsmith2207
    @jolynnsmith2207 3 роки тому +6

    this is painfully relatable...and I'm so glad I stumbled upon this, thank you.

  • @AmeliaNeek
    @AmeliaNeek 2 місяці тому +2

    I'm feeling this to my core. This is truth.

  • @sevinchaslanova9314
    @sevinchaslanova9314 4 роки тому +19

    You deserve so much more recognition, your work is truly breathtaking and eye opening.

  • @selenekallanwriter
    @selenekallanwriter Місяць тому +2

    Wow. Chills.

  • @dueunicycle3699
    @dueunicycle3699 4 роки тому +15

    I always enjoy your music man.

  • @mystiesubs35
    @mystiesubs35 3 місяці тому +2

    What i love is that this can be related to any kinda of trauma

    • @LizzyCave
      @LizzyCave Місяць тому

      Exactly I relate to this completely because of my ptsd/survivors guilt from my 2 best friends sui*****s

  • @Tazzdancer12
    @Tazzdancer12 3 роки тому +11

    Why haven't I discovered her sooner her music hits home for me in a relatable way and I haven't been able to have a real cry from a song in so long. Thanks for you music love you've inspired me today. ❤️

  • @thecat31
    @thecat31 6 місяців тому +2

    I’m not gonna lie I’m gonna be really vulnerable for a second I’m using this right now to drown out flashbacks..

  • @CodySziber
    @CodySziber 10 місяців тому +10

    Skydxddy, how did you get better from what you went through? Most of the time I can't even leave the house because I feel so ashamed people tell me it was my fault because i did nothing. I was 5-7 1/2 when it happened. therapist have asked if I like what i went through.

    • @lessing4033
      @lessing4033 7 місяців тому +1

      That's so fucking twisted, i'm really sorry you had to went through that, i hope soon you can find a way to heal the most possible, you're strong and know it wasn't your fault, whoever says it it can fuck off. Only you and you know the pain you carry.

    • @athenavo627
      @athenavo627 6 місяців тому +1

      I am deeply sorry you went through this . I am deeply sorry that you got to meet an incompetent, ignorant therapist.
      What helped me was a ton of therapy, talking with my friends and in the end realising not only intellectual but emotionally that all that was not my fault. I was a child. I was thinking childlike thoughts, feeling like a child. Reacting like a child, even if my body reacted as nature intended and I felt a conflict of body and mind, of what I definitely did not want, but was made to feel.
      That is not easy to make peace with. Reading up on the developmental stages of childhood might help to adjust your framing of past events.
      Affirmations. Getting into martial arts. As you realise the strength and weakness of you body you also realise the strengths and weaknesses of the people around you. And than comes the point when you realise - it was never your fault. You never had a chance. But you were made to believe it was your responsibility, your fault. And then you will have to find a way to deal with an overpowering amount of rage in a constructive way without blasting you whole life ...

  • @mimaflaherty7584
    @mimaflaherty7584 4 місяці тому +2

    This song hits so different as someone with PTSD mixed with the maleficent edit its too powerful for its own good fr

  • @oleskool4lyfe863
    @oleskool4lyfe863 Місяць тому +1

    When you live this life the lyrics hit hard💥🔥🔥🎧🔊🔊😎🤟🏼🖤

  • @Rand0m1nternetpers0n
    @Rand0m1nternetpers0n 2 роки тому +9

    It's been 4 to 8 years since my last sa and I still wake up with nightmares, this song very well described what it's like to deal with the trauma I went through

  • @ItsUrFavQueen_Ashlynn
    @ItsUrFavQueen_Ashlynn 5 місяців тому +2

    Relating to this song rn, i love your music sm

  • @antoinetteforchin9446
    @antoinetteforchin9446 3 роки тому +5

    Your music send such a powerful message and in fact I can see how you used the swear words to make it more powerful and meaningful

  • @GeminiSkyFlyHigh5
    @GeminiSkyFlyHigh5 4 місяці тому +1

    God I feel this song so deep in my heart and soul deeper then any song I feel her pain, I feel your pain you feel mine to through is message we are warriors we are survivors we were meant for this journey and paint be able to get through everything we are strong it hurts it aucks but are stronger and more knowledged because of it. We got this girl! I love you!

  • @chryswarren8391
    @chryswarren8391 3 роки тому +7

    The amount of times I’ve listened to this and cried is astronomical. But thank you…. For this

  • @Fishmas_Tree
    @Fishmas_Tree 5 місяців тому +1

    amazing, almost 80 thousand likes! It just shows that humanity is trained to not ever allow anyone to heal

  • @carinamorhart3145
    @carinamorhart3145 3 роки тому +6

    Your music found me at the right moment. Thank you.

  • @andibruland4371
    @andibruland4371 4 роки тому +35

    Also this sone is one of the best songs I have ever heard 💕💕

    • @SkyDxddy
      @SkyDxddy  4 роки тому +11

      thank you bb xx

  • @CheyenneTrue-l5r
    @CheyenneTrue-l5r 6 місяців тому +1

    Just saw this song live last night and got drenched with water, Absolutely love you and your music ❤

  • @nikkitaylor8228
    @nikkitaylor8228 3 роки тому +4

    I just found your music today because of a popular TikTok of yours recreating Montero.. but I wish I found this sooner. You’re so talented!

  • @VioletSalway
    @VioletSalway 6 місяців тому +2

    Listening to this on repeat to try keep myslef here and crying and screaming why and what did I do wrong to have it happen to me while trying to drink the pain away because otherwise I’ll try end myslef

  • @jonathancrane825
    @jonathancrane825 4 роки тому +8

    Your music is helping me with my troubles thank you fro you beautiful songs and voice