REAL D.I.D. Moment on Camera- uncut footage | Physical Flashback? | Dissociative Identity Disorder
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- Опубліковано 29 вер 2024
- Welcome back, goblins! Today, we wanted to show something we’ve been tiptoeing around recently. One of our alters. He’s seemingly permanently trapped in a state that the system was in during a portion of The Trauma times. This may be “unsightly” of us, but people wanna see what DID is like, so this is what an alter from a case of DID resulting from extreme abuse can look like.
[TRIGGER WARNINGS:
-Drugs (mentioned, not specifically)
-moving camera in segments (unsteady hands be like that sometimes lmao)
If you all think Cosmo should make another video in the future, let us know in the comments! He’s actually fairly sociable, and was only being super quiet because it was nighttime, and he didn’t want to wake anyone in the house by talking
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As a mother of 3 children, I want to just hold and comfort your entire system. It breaks my heart that your body has been subjected to so many traumas and that people treated you so badly. Much love and light. And thank you for your openness and honesty regarding your DID.
I couldn't have said it better myself Laura.
You sound like an amazing mother, wish you were ours -Parker/Nat
That is so lovely of you Laura, you sound like a great mother and your children are going to be amazing people thanks to you love 💗 everyone deserves a mother like you - D
I’m a mother of 5 and totally agree with you. I almost wanted to turn the video off because I have an active imagination and and just tell and see with how you were talking before and after the footage that your tramas were horrendous and NO ONE should EVER have to go through that your RIGHT!
knowing that you are SRA survivor doesn't really change anything for me. I still believe you all, my heart is still here for you all and I'm here if you want to tell amything, share anything and it doesn't matter if you are crying or if you are happy. Healing is a complicated process and sometimes you need to take steps back to understand, process and move over. Good luck on your healing path. I believe in you and keep warm. Greetings from Poland
SMASHING new intro! And can' wait to see more of your content. So proud of you all for being so vulnerable and posting things like these xx
Love the intro song! (This is the first new song I have listened to in a while.)
My heart goes out to you all, and hope each and every one of you find happiness.
Blessed be.
thank you for sharing this with us, it was very brave of you, and i'm sure lots of people (including myself) will find it helpful/educational
this video has made me realize that i have experienced this before, that i have PTSD
Thank you for sharing. That must have been hard for most alters to agree to share. I know what its like to hide everything you want to share.
Hello! This is my first time watching your channel. One, I want to say that you are all cute. Two, I hope Cosmo will become comfortable enough one day to let his accent out (I love Russian, it's actually a language that I'm trying to learn). Three, thank you for sharing your experience and the raw footage of DID at the harder times. Because it really isn't all rainbows and sunshine. Much love from a supporter of erasing stigmas for mental and psychological disorders. ♥️♥️♥️
Your are amazing.please take care .your in our thoughts and hearts.just rest.
Looking stuff in the face is very hard
Small TW!
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We just recently found an alter like such, formed a couple years ago due to events that none if us know about. We all know it was heavily traumatic - we're not sure if it was our own will or someone else's. How would a system try to help an alter like this?
Yes 420 moment these times myself!!!
Do u have a video on how you got away from abuser and how you got help, did you have any family that was loving and helpful to you... I’m interested in your story, if you are comfortable sharing 😊❤️😊
We used to have some videos with our mom and sister, but we put those on private a little while ago, since the internet is becoming more hostile and neither of them need any more of hostility in their lives. Those two have been very supportive, and our dad was difficult for years, but appears to be slowly coming around lol. He still hasn’t really heard us out about the DID, but maybe he’ll listen someday. Our real abusers were our uncle and aunt who babysat us for over a year when we were 3, and had contact with them throughout our earlier childhood, but the both of them died (uncle in 2010, aunt in like 2017), so thankfully we haven’t had to deal with them in a long time
-D (new-ish alter here, still finding myself a good name 😅)
Acrylic And Aether ... my heart hurts to know terrible things happen to you, I feel u have such a kind soul... and... the name Leo quickly entered my mind for you, IDK why, lol. 🤷♀️🤔😊
Lots of love, compassion and strength for the whole system, especially to Cosmo. That looks rough. ;_;
hey, guys how are you? are you eating well? are you drinking water?
@@JacksonH8r I'm some what new to your channel and new to your community. I started watching about 8 months ago. I studied psychology as my minor in college and have always been interested in how the mind works. So, I'm sorry that I don't know what ARIFD stands for. Could you or someone please educate me please. Also, I really hope the body and all alters start healing and getting back to whatever "your" normal is, because I understand everyone's "normal" looks different. Much love 💞💞💞
two things: 1. Misha, you are not dingus. 2. thank you Cosmo for showing us a vulnerable part of your life.
Thank you for this! These raw moments are so important to show. We know how vulnerable one can feel posting such things. Again, thank you! Take care! Many hugs!
I am so sorry this is part of your experience (I don't know any better way to put it, hope it's okay to say that and also the following). I was thinking it could be a programmed drugged state. Similar to a physical flashback, but one that as been contained so it could be set off and ended according to specific cue input/triggers following a protocol. This could be set as part of the "normal" state for an alter, but would still be able to be deactivated. I don't know whether you watch Quarks System's videos, they did a video recently in which they showed the process of one of them deactivating drug protocols that were running for him. They also touch on this topic in other videos and lifestreams quite often.
We love their channel! They’ve helped us through a lot of our processes. It’s been a challenge figuring out what to and not to deactivate in our system 😅😅
-Oen
@@AcrylicAndAether they are great! And you are, too. I wish you the best in finding the right things to deactivate
emotional flashbacks are the bane of my existence. Physical flashbacks are a close second.
I hate the emotional flashbacks when you don’t even consciously remember the flashback. such a feeling of being lost and confused
I’m only 4 minutes in and I’ve had to put my coffee down and take a breath. I know you’re not looking for validation from strangers on the internet but you just opened my eyes to the realization that not everyone is faking this disorder for clout or attention. As a mother and grandmother, I see straight through your smile and your pain is almost suffocating as you struggle to even get the words out.
I send love and light to y’all and hope you continue to journey well.
(I said y’all because I’m southern but also because I don’t know your preferred pronouns. I’m almost 50 but I’m not too old to learn and certainly not too old to respect)
Love and light.
Omg thank you for sharing. We found a trauma holder a month or so ago, Bobbi was listening to a song and just dropped to the ground and crawled to the corner of the room. She seems to hear a male voice referring to her as “the girl” and she is definitely in a trauma and drugged state. Everything is distorted, she has no balance so struggles to sit in a corner and drag her legs up. Bobbi was able to raise the phone in her hand and snap an photo. She put it on Insta but I’ve removed it for her privacy. She’s terrified and the drugged state is horrific. We talked so much to our therapist about this and she said the brain can hold the state of the drugs. It’s awful. We relate to yous so much. Thank you for sharing. The world can be a horrible place but beautiful survivors like yous help us see we are not alone and it’s gonna be ok. 💖 sending hugs to yous and glad yous are working through it. 💖~ Beth
Russian abusers causing alters to have Russian accents gang. Today's been a hard system day for us, we talked about it in our writing class, and even though we specified we're (mostly) safe, the teacher tattled to my counselor and the counselors tattled to my mom. All we can do is move forward as systems and as a community.
@I like beans I know im a totally random person on the internet, but if you ever need someone to talk to or just vent to or anything, im always available. I know how it is to feel super alone and not have anyone to talk to about life and it sucks, and I hate to see other people feeling that same way
Hey guys! I don't know what to say but ... I so proud of all of you. soooooo PROUD for you all being able to be so strong. you all are MY inspiration. thanks to Cosmo for sharing his feelings. sending good vibes from Chile
hello thank you for spreading awarness i am so sorry that the system and /or body have this i do not have DID so it wouldbe wrong to say "i know how you feel" so instead known you are valid
Tw drugs and kids being given them.
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That's actually one of our theories as to why we're like this!! Because, like, we only really remember a fuck tonne of '''minor''' traumas, so we've been very confused (and very much in denial lolll) for a very long time. But when we were about uhhhhh fuck 12 maybe one sec...
Oh wait 9 or 10 maybe, I'll have to ask the mum, she'll probably know.
Anyway, about that time we were put on a drug, and it induced psychosis?? So, like, that's one of our theories as to why we're like this now (dunno how long we were on it tho, I'll ask the mum for that info too). Uhhh, so yeah, our theory is the minor traumas before that (was about to start listing them but then I'd probs have to change the tw at the top n I'm a lazy bitch by nature fffff), plus the psychosis just before our personality fully integrated (maybe) might've done this? Idk. Just stabbing in the dark tbh. Good to try to work this stuff out tho, I think? Idk.
- Alex (professional piece of shit. Nah, protector with a dash of persecutor but mostly protector. Howdy)
Update: mum says around our 11th birthday (10-11), and it lasted three weeks to a month. It's weird, it felt a lot longer than that. I guess time runs different when you're a kid. That's too late for it to affect integration, unless integration is already affected maybe? (Which ours might have been if that's how it works?????) Also, we have osdd1b, not did, so maybe a '''major'''(ish) thing happening later could be why we have very very limited amnesia walls between all of us? (Do we need to see a professional about this? Yes, Yes we do. Like, we've got half the diagnosis kinda (dp/dr and previous two mental health professionals got talked at a lot about alter drama) but Per. doesn't want us to actually seek out official diagnosis until we're 25 (few years away yet), and she's usually pretty smart (if ridiculously paranoid but eh), so we're following her wishes so far, but it's frustrating being semi functional when there's a chance that with proper informed support we could be more functional? Also we've got shitall money so going to an actual professional is basically out of the question until we get our degree n start working full time so ??? Eh, we're bumbling along alright).
- (so many people co-con during that who the heck do I sign off as) uh, lorren, gabbi, Ben n Alex I think heehee fml
-home chord- Hi! Firstly, OSDD1a/b can develop later in life, as far as I know. Secondly, when we got diagnosed we remembered a bit of trauma, but nothing major. Now we know about a lot of hidden really severe trauma and apparently there's more. So it could also be that. I'd recommend searching for studies/books/whatever that say when OSDD developes. But it had a different name that only got changed recently, so you'd probably want to search for that old name first... I think it was something along the lines of DDNOS1b.
Update! I made an impulse decision on behalf of all of us and signed us up for online therapy with someone who has experience in dissociative disorders. Per. lost her gddamn mind for a mo, but her yelling was scaring the littles so she stopped, n I'd already paid for it, and I'd made it super anonymous, and the therapist is in a different country anyway so a lot of Per.'s more paranoid worries were taken care of. Got my fingers crossed - it might be we've stumbled across something useful here 🤞🤞🤞 - Alex (per/prot)
@@cirrusfloccus6080 also damn for real? I hadn't thought it worked like that! LET THE GOOGLING COMMENCE!!! (ty for the info my guy) - Alex
Do you mind if we ask what sort of resources you found? You mentioned they’re in a different country, so I’m assuming less limitations with where we are? Just trying to find options out there, as our situation is similar to yours
-Mel and S
I love the new intro guys!
loooove the new intro!! thanks so much for sharing this, it's so real and raw and it'll be so good for educating people who don't suffer with this kind of thing. 💛 -Violet + Kana
Ah, I relate to the smiling thing in the beginning way too much... I smile and joke a lot but it's just how I cope with my crap and people mistake it for cheerfulness
-Luke
My therapist once said it hurts him to see me smile through my pain... Made me cry
Sending the biggest hugs to all of you, especially to Cosmo and other trauma holders.
This is so brave! I'd be interested in some links to reliable sources on DID. Right now I'm writing an essay in school to help raise awareness, and I hope it's okay that I use your channel as an source or as something I recommend looking in to. Hope you're all doing well, and best wishes in the future.
Cosmo "oh... I'm on the floor" me being surprised and stupid talking out loud "oh honestly thought you were leaning against a wall" as if Cosmo could hear what I said...
I’ve noticed y’all have been getting skinnier, no judgment or questions, just sending positive energy :)
they talked about this in their last video!
You didn’t watch the last video.
yummynutellacupcake oh okay thank u! I don’t get to watch every vid
Thank you for sharing🙏
We experience something similar where we "lose our legs" or arms, we drop and can't move the bottom half of our body. I think in our case we have a lot of fragments that are in a constant state of physical flashbacks. We've separated all our trauma a lot and some alters just have physical trauma sensations without any emotional or visual/auditory memories. Our therapist is working with us trying to help these super uncomfortable moments to be less frequent, when we have the physical numbness (or intense pain) we do an exercise where we focus on a "safe" part of our body, like our forehead for example, and then go back to the numbness to acknowledge it, and then back to the safety over and over. Eventually the safety should 'take over' the whole body. It helps but it's taking a lot of time to get the hang of it, a weird rollecoaster, but I hope this helps anyone!
I know I'm late but thank you for sharing I'm got diagnosed with d.i.d and I sometimes can't move on with life like I just cried everytime I remember my trauma and i still blame myself for it and how I'm not value and your content really help me through this and as a host I'm trying to know more about my system.
My brain is just saying Cosmo and Wanda and I don’t want that association in my mind
hey guys! i havent watched you guys in a long time and wanted to check out your channel again! how is the system doing? are you all doing well?
I just really wish to say “thank you” to your host ALL of your alters. I’d watched you for as long as I can remember in which you helped me tremendously in terms of both educating me about what D.I.D is whilst killing off the typically negative stigma and stereotypes that has ‘poisoned’ the world today.
Most of all, I say “thank you” as ALL of you as a whole had truly helped me to better understand what my ex-boyfriend was going through during his rapid switching/fronting in addition to how to help whenever his one particular alter (SSGT Ron Benson of the USMC) would front and how I could also be there for and support them all both through his good days.. and their bad days and to regularly remind both hosts and alters that I’m always here for them and.. if anytime they’d needed me and wanted to front and talk to me that I’d ALWAYS care for and be there for all of them, and lastly, you all helped me to better understand how to mitigate and prevent accidentally “activating any triggers or retraumatization” and most importantly for me I make sure that I constantly remind and reassure them that it’s perfectly ok to be as they are around me and that I’d always care for and protect them at any costs in which that I’d never criticize or pass judgment unto them and that they’ve no reason to fear me or hide away as I’ve always kept an “open door” policy and that I’d love and accept them all the same...nothing would ever change that or make me love them any less... ever.
Keep it up with these inspiring videos, the world needs more people such as yourselves. #DIDisbeautiful #youareloved💯❤️
Michael O'Malley This is such a great comment. Just had to say it. 😊 Take care.
DID Hatchery why thank you! At first it was frustrating as I never fully knew about nor understood the root of DID. I did take college courses in both Psychology and Sociology which only helped very lightly. It was easier once I’d begun to witness it first hand and having myself taken notes about each of his host(s) and alters so I could work to help keep the home maintained for all alters..this in turn helped to keep things as normal for them as possible. ❤️
Michael O'Malley That is awesome! The fact that you went out of your way to learn about DID for your loved one is a beautiful thing. Many people with DID lose friends and partners when they reveal their disorder. Thank you for helping me keep faith in humanity. 😊❤️
DID Hatchery exactly! Just because someone has multiple personalities does not mean they’re any less human.
DID Hatchery I’d say the toughest was when SSGT Benson would front after a rough day. He was one to not mess around and is very brash.
BUT thankfully since having met Benson, I’d recalled an exercise I used as a 9-1-1 operator & dispatcher known as “combat breathing”. It’s a breathing exercise with a 4-4 count: 4 second inhale through your nose (hold breath for one second), followed by a 4 second exhale through your mouth.
Thank you Cosmo for your determination to post this. You have no idea how much help you're giving in being vulnerable.
Tw Drugs
We've been trying to figure out the drug that we were given as young kids - we have two deep alters that we know of stuck in drug states, and both have pr*g**m*ng attached. One sees colors (psychedelic, we think) and one is just like yours, Cosmo. But she also has a splitting (pun perhaps intended) photosensitive headache with nausea. We've tried to figure out what does that, to help her cope with that state. Maybe a knockout drug.
Thanks for reminding us every day that we're not the only ones fighting the good fight 🌞 happy healing, everyone.
Hi Aetherians. I'm glad to see a video from you guys, I was concerned after your last one.
Is Devon still stuck in the tube in the inner world? I hope the spaceship alters are able to help soon.
Oh, sweet boy. I have seen my daughter completely paralized and felt for you through this. I just finished Rabbit Howls from your book list. Not fun, but so well written.
Please take care. My thoughts are with you.
I know it must have been hard to share such a difficult moment. Cosmo is honestly so strong just like the rest of you. What Cosmo was experiencing was absolutely terrible. Cosmo and everyone else I’m sending tons of hugs! 💕
Hi guys, just a singlet here! I am constantly shocked by the strength displayed by so many systems, and I thank all of you for trusting me with your journey. I hope I will be able to assist in stopping stigma and start spreading proper awareness, or perhaps even assisting someone I could meet with DID in the future. Do you guys have any advice on how I can better help your community? 💖💖
- keep moving forwards! (Eat or drink if you haven’t!!!)
Hugs, appreciate this, feel less alone, stay strong. 😥🌈💗
getting more and more realistic channel... You guyshave more courage now, i guess. i like it!
Hello, I've been watching your videos for maybe a week or two. I've learned so much it's almost difficult to comprehend. I think I've even had dreams about being a system (those were probably pretty inaccurate dreams though lol). Anyways, just because of the nature of the content, I've been almost afraid to comment anything just because I feel like it might accidentially come off as being weird or offensive. That being said, I hope you (y'all?) are doing well!
So you don't feel alone. We can't move sometimes too. I have no idea whether we were drugged or not, but sometimes our torso just falls into our lap and we can't move no energy. Or we have to lay down. If we can walk or talk it's really slow and takes SO MUCH EFFORT! I can totally understand how the forearm crutches would help.
We love you all so much 💕 just know that were ALL here rooting for you and thinking of you, wanting the best for you guys, and always sending love to you guys. The mother side of me seriously wants to just make SURE you guys are safe, and that nobody could ever hurt you guys, or ever DID hurt you.. Or any other children for that matter...it absolutely breaks my heart that you have to go through this mental torment, and it AMAZES ME that despite all that you all are such sweet, kind, considerate, smart, talented individuals and your entire channel is dedicated to breaking the stigma and helping others understand this condition, and help people who may be dealing with it or have friends / loved ones who are... Despite everything you guys are still amazing people and thats a TRUE TEST of character. Its just amazing. We love you guys so much please try to take care of yourselves and your beautiful partner system, who we all also love dearly💕😊
Love the new intro. Take care of yourselves. #gobsquad support
Wheres Acrylic at???
Omg to have they not even be a decoration on the cake of your life. I hate how people treat others. Thanks for sharing.
Haven’t watched the whole video yet but that intro was amazing :) good job
Cosmo was amazing, I'd totally be up for him doing another segment!! Très bien mes chères!!!
Your whole system got support all the way from kenya the east of Africa ,....love you all and hope you can brave through this...."usikufe moyo" don't lose hope💝🌍
Thank you so much for sharing this. We think you are all very brave and inspiring.
I love the new intro! Looks amazing :)
we were also given drugs / substances against our will as a child.........I am sorry you guys did too :(
We have a similar alter. We were also drugged/abused as a child. One of our alters has zero muscle ability and is constantly 'trippin' . really scary
The intro is bomb!! Love it!😍
Thanx for sharing. Helps us (not to be grateful u hav 2 go thru this as know how scary it is) we've being going thru this trapped locked in body with a brain & body network in the fascia, nervous system that doesn't all ow full use of body. Been experiencing this for last 4/5 yrs. Since starting benefits & then only found out almost 4 yrs ago had DID after 2 massive unique style 4-5 hr seizures end of Oct 2016.
Oh uv just said bout cat willow bless, don't they help so much.
Ours is Zendaya.
We've not been diagnosed n don't care to be as it causes a lot of us too much stress & living where we do in uk process is herrendous. Not recognised here n lot of peeps don't believe. Our autism is strong & 1 time an autistic 1 was ready to give up & keep us all locked inside. No way fought that scenario.
We had no self love or respect & it was at stage was just us as peeps & systems wyd stress n trigger, we'd over come or managed to learn n understand patterns motives behaviours & talk our way thru the ones who kept taking over body n wanting to overdose on pills & no people left to become abuser with & hurt due to all the mid understanding n lack of understanding n their own fears to mirror or upset. But we stopped eating n drinking physically cudnt due to EDS & body, automatic nervous system started giving up due to no self belief or unconditional love from anyone, Bruce Lipton Epigenetics taught us all this kniwlwdge n understanding.
So thus put us in psych ward they fed us meds which we'd just spent over 3 yrs detoxing from all they had us on which we believe was 2 part cause to our seizures.
Came round after loosing 4 days being restrained by 8 peeps I look so ill and anorexic. Was 16 st after from seizures n meds. Know now why needed to happen as needed the fascia in body to be torn, tear the unswerving patterns networks in body to rebuild, heal in healthy pattern. They made us take more meds even 1 friend left n bro wanted us to so they not in our life anymore - only peeps who have the frequency patterns we aim to be in ourselves eventually on our healing journey.
We got ourselves out in 2 weeks after telling them those meds wud send us loopy we'd loose it again n then refuse & use our own alternative natural methods of healing with sound, yoga, tuning forks, crystals oils & our books. The guys started our sound cloud channel in there n we had our 40th in there our idea of hell worst fear embraced lol and they started our you tube channels just after. Been quite n getting used to ad conscious I talking now or team of us hated being seen n heard but it was only way for us all to meet each other n talk n connect. So these are helping us with coconsciousness & generational consciousness growth & to being much more accepting of it all. Sum r so cute n funny but then tgd poor ones who hold so much pain, trauma n darkness. We learning a lot. Not been that long that had to courage to embrace others stories & experiences but have def learnt a lot of words to explain & express our experiences which cudnt before n don't feel so alone. Just admiration of their /urs courage in sharing their most vulnerable moments.
Blessings to u all dear ones be gentle compassionate loving, grateful, respectful & patient with all of u's as we are learning to do with us. 🙏💫🙏
ugh when i wake up some morning and my cptsd kicks in i feel so terrible, like i just need a shower and i need to change and exercise and distract myself. im so sorry you have to go through similar things
You are loved. Thank you for educating me. I appreciate your bravery. You are stronger than you seem.
Hope yall are doing well!!! Nice to see yall posting again!
Alguno de ustedes sabe hablar español? Saludos @Acrylic And Aether from México, hugs & kisses
im autistic and not really able to connect the dots that well, but im rly sorry you had to go through that :// sending strength and good energy your way ❤
IM 2 MINUTES INTO THIS VIDEO AND IM MIND BLOWN BCUS I JUST UNDERSTOOD WHAT THESE SPECIFIC BREAKDOWNS I EXPERIENCE ARE THEYRE PHYSICAL FLASHBACKS I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THAT WAS A THING.
imma go process this now.
Thank you for sharing your personal experiences. I am amazed at your strength and kindness after facing such adversity. Much Love and blessings.❤️
What Cosmo is going through must be hard but I don't want to talk about Cosmo because it's really sad not that I'm being rude, it's just ok sad for me to talk about. I hope you all are doing alright, that top part of trauma that Misha just said was bad but I'm sure there's worse. I don't even want to experience what you guys/girls have gone through as a child. I'm trying my best to keep this as respectful as possible, but I don't even want to know the rest and would never want you to say it from how heart breaking it is/was. I hope you are doing better now with each other (mainly speaking about the Aether system as a whole, because this video is around the Aether system not Acrylic at the moment). I really wish I could be there to give you guys a hug and say it's alright now, because that's what you deserve. I'm not sure to much if what to say now but I hope this was enough. I'm sorry for it being super long, but, I felt like this needed to be said in the most respectful, nice way possible to not trigger anyone or have anyone angry. We love you all Aether system as I could say for everyone in the comments and me. Since we are on the topic, I might as well 'throw' in Acrylic System too, we love you.
-From Sapphire/Gabie
P.S. Sapphire wanted you guys to know her name since she dies like to watch these with me. She feels safe with you all 😊
All the support for You ✊
Greetings from Argentina
You are all so brave and strong.your mind found a way to survive.hope your healing continues.lots of strength and hugs coming your wat
i was watching the end part, of coming to terms with trauma and such, and ~oof~ i honestly don't know how to describe how i feel when i watch these videos. but its such a huge part of my life right now, being trapped with an abusive parent over quarantine, i've been realizing how much i've just been pushing away from the front of my mind. i had an hour long (i dont wanna say switch because i dont have DID but thats all i can really describe it as) at a "lockin" sleepover school event, and my friends either called me crazy or were very concerned. like i was aware of my actions, but not in control. i was crying and saying things over and over that was part of the trauma (i guess? i honestly have barely reached the tip of the iceberg of whats happened to me) and i had to hide out in the gym locker rooms. it was terrifying, and i guess numbing at the same time. i feel so horrible that other people have the same issues as me, even worse sometimes. my momma instincts just wanna hug all of your alters.
You all are so strong!! Thank you for sharing your stories with us all! I send you all my support and hugs ( if anyone wants one :3 ) have an amazing day or night or afternoon
I am stopping for a second at the 5 minute mark so this is before the main part of the video but I have a question... Is there any way to have a trauma holding Alter who is stuck in that moment of time to move past that time? I hope there is. It is extremely sad to think that a whole personality's only existence is to hold that moment of pain. I will probably make another comment after the video. Hugs to the whole system.
Ok. I seen the video. You all are so brave. I can just guess how scary it must feel to put up this video. Thank you. I think it is so important to share moments like this to educate on what DID really is. Thank you also for letting us know that your system is receiving the help you need to work through this. Warm hugs good thoughts and prayers are being sent your way.
Katie Campbell Yes, there is. If they front enough at one point the brain will realize they're not in danger anymore and the trauma state will end. But depending on how much trauma they are holding and how severe it is, it can take a really long time.
@@cirrusfloccus6080 thank you for answering me. I don't have DID so it can be hard to relate to it but this struck something with me.
When I was younger, I had long term depression. I remember feeling like there was never a time that I wasn't hurting from depression and feeling like there was never going to be an ending to it so in a way it kind of felt like being stuck in a moment in time. That feeling was from a whole mind so the thought that an alter is stuck in that moment of trauma brings me to tears actually.
I deadass had to rewind to watch that intro again, it looks really good
This is helpful, sadly relateable, thats all i can say, thank you.
I'm researching the SRA and D.I.D. for 3 years now and I would love to talk with You someday to write an article or a book about this dark matters to further wake up people in search for the truth and to punish the wicked ones and to made the abusers to acknowledge the pain they had inflicted in/on others....
Cosmo 💜💜💜
Things were bad you don't have to sugar coat it 😭thankyou for sharing 💙💙
You guys are so brave! I wish i could make it easer for you. You did not deserve all of this pain :((
I want to meet you. I feel like you know more about this than I do... i hope I can make contact with you
It really is odd how the brain can be like, "Here's a deeply unpleasant experience in our lives-- let's recreate it periodically!"
why brain... why
ive heard ots because your brain is so busy surviving it doesnt process the event as a memory, so when it gets triggered it then proceeds to process it as a memory by reliving it all over again. im not an expert though, this is how i have understood it
I'm sending you all long distance hugs😸🤗
Y’all are so brave, strong, and just wonderful people in general. Thank you guys for sharing something so vulnerable. I hope you’re doing as well as you can be
U guys r awesome
My heart broke watching this! As you said in the intro, nobody is made to handle this and nobody should have to handle it. I’m so glad y’all are working towards getting help and I hope that process goes quickly!
your all so strong love you all
UA-cam changed the description anf i jus... No
I can't even fathom being exposed to the horrific situation you've all been through, even though I went through a similar situation as described in the intro. I commend you all for being strong enough to cope and deal with these things as best as possible. I've been a firm believer of angels on earth my whole life and I'm positive you're all angels. God bless you all ❤
I send my love and stay strong❤❤❤
I love you guys as a fello system please don’t take this the wrong way, not flirting or anything. But I would love to be friends with both systems. 😁
But that's a lot of effort... Yall can Google it too. 😂👍👏🏼
Thanks for making and sharing this video. I sincerely appreciate y'all showing the hard stuff too. It helps me feel less alone and less like it's my fault these things are happening to me.
Kind Punk I agree. I always say to: NEVER apologize, you are never alone, and if nobody else wants to or doesn’t try to understand..then to hell with them!
that was very brave of Cosmo to share that moment with everyone.
Thanks for sharing.
Yeah. The eyes are dilated, for sure
Thank you for sharing this and thank you for the comment about people being able to heal without having to dig for details of their trauma, unless they want to/it helps them.
A B exactly! So many want to help those whom had suffered seriously (even catastrophically) traumatic events... but sometimes one’s heart despite good intentions could quickly re traumatize or even worsen the already obvious psychological damage as a byproduct of what the abuse victim had suffered. It’s ALWAYS best to give some space and time to feel comfortable and emotionally ready to talk about it, otherwise it’s best to just remain by their side and support them all the way, both through good days and bad days.
@@michaelomalley592 well said :)
Woah the strangest thing. I usually overlook trigger warnings because I am normally okay. But unexpectedly a couple minutes in I was triggered and I have no idea why. I dont think that has ever happened before for something trigger warned like that. Did I find out I have a new trigger??
Thank you though, for sharing. You are all so much stronger than I could ever imagine.
Hope you’re doing ok I know it can be scary when it’s so unexpected
-Corey x
Wow first for the first time owo
Guess that means I'm second!
@@Wurmss yep ^w^
I love what y’all are doing! Keep doing it
Cosmo welcome
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