Dr. K Talks with Reckful about Loneliness and Abandonment [Pt. 4]

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  • Reckful is doing better, but still feels lonely, where does this come from?
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 582

  • @BulletproofBL
    @BulletproofBL 4 роки тому +932

    when he said “ill be here two years with you” i straight up cried

  • @bloodevasive3871
    @bloodevasive3871 4 роки тому +377

    47:25 “I’m not counting on them to spend 2 years with you...I’m counting on myself.” That breaks my heart. Dr K. is such a fucking gem of a human being and so is Rekful. I wasn’t familiar with Rekful until his passing (I don’t play WoW or the other games he plays) but I’ve come to respect and empathize with him through these interviews. The world is a dark place right now. Hopefully it gets brighter. Thank you for helpling and reaching out to so many. Or maybe not helping, just being human, like you said. It makes perfect sense.

    • @seaoftraffic
      @seaoftraffic 3 роки тому +12

      I haven't watched reckful streams before. Every time I would see him on youtube of some clips or something, I always thought he was kind of a bummer. But I am watching this series with Dr K and can relate to reckful so much, I had no idea what he was going trough. I want to see where did he go wrong in his journey and change myself for the better.

    • @JohnSmith-ox3gy
      @JohnSmith-ox3gy 3 роки тому +4

      I had only heard the legend Reckful in passings with other streamers. Positive influence in their lives now gone in a snap.

    • @roykale9141
      @roykale9141 3 роки тому +1

      same

    • @bloodevasive3871
      @bloodevasive3871 3 роки тому

      @fiona gavan He died in July of the same year this interview was recorded.

    • @abraham7140
      @abraham7140 2 роки тому +1

      Unfortunately he had to walk that statement back in their next stream

  • @Bazzabazeman
    @Bazzabazeman 3 роки тому +116

    "It's that feeling where you wanna get a hug."
    That instantly brought me to tears.

    • @enable30
      @enable30 Рік тому +3

      same.. been rewatching this couple times, I am absolutely at my lowest right now. Hope you are doing okay

    • @claire6223
      @claire6223 Рік тому

      why?

    • @felipdn3329
      @felipdn3329 4 місяці тому

      @@claire6223 They probably want a hug.

  • @varden3270
    @varden3270 4 роки тому +789

    As a psychology student I find this educational, and as a human being, therapeutic.

    • @Pandaman2204
      @Pandaman2204 4 роки тому +34

      Better than any lecture I've ever sat in, Dr.K is a gift.

    • @megamorpher1
      @megamorpher1 4 роки тому +4

      same here

    • @themanhimself436
      @themanhimself436 4 роки тому +2

      5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap 5Head Clap

    • @TheCubecrafer
      @TheCubecrafer 4 роки тому +2

      very interessting youtube name i wanna subcribe but i wont

    • @theamazingmarti812
      @theamazingmarti812 4 роки тому +1

      the feels though

  • @matcha.always
    @matcha.always 4 роки тому +86

    "I'm gonna try to love you for two years", okay so I just up & cried after this line

  • @Ihatedsigningup
    @Ihatedsigningup 4 роки тому +268

    I'll miss you, Byron. I was really, really rooting for you.

  • @autury-5703
    @autury-5703 4 роки тому +121

    The saddest thing in this video is at the 30 minute mark when dr k says that he sees aching loneliness in reckful and he just bursts out crying. Its like he doesnt have Real friend Who are there for him, likd he feels like People have givem up on him and at tthat point its not Hard to not give up on yourself. So sad man, RIP you will be missed.

    • @pjdlol
      @pjdlol 4 роки тому +7

      heres the thing with mental illness, he could have had a real friend and this would still be his mindset

    • @michellamberg3230
      @michellamberg3230 3 роки тому +1

      @@gossim well taking strong anti-depressant like pcilocybin certainly wont help brain chemistry to get good, they only help to get through the day/rough. If you dont do anything "new" then u are on the same path... and we know where this path ended.

    • @Manwhocares4u
      @Manwhocares4u 3 роки тому +1

      No one has real friends. “Friends” mean nothing in this life they are only there for enjoyment or to use each other. Having no belief in friends and believing in yourself only is the only way to live.

    • @samelbamel3500
      @samelbamel3500 2 роки тому +7

      @@Manwhocares4u Close friends can be like family though, you wouldn't say the same thing about family...

    • @dva5610
      @dva5610 2 роки тому +1

      I could see it from the start of the video tbh I knew he wasn’t doing good

  • @rippedshoe
    @rippedshoe 4 роки тому +203

    Hi Dr. K, thanks to your videos I have started to seek help from a therapist to finally deal with my father's death, 13 years ago. I have much to thank you for being so helpful and insightful and reckful for giving you the needed exposure. Without knowing, he is fullfilling his desire to help others and prevent harm by giving you a broader audience. I hope I do get better as time passes and I become mentally healthy. Much love from Portugal

    • @geo5440
      @geo5440 4 роки тому +2

      FeelsStrongMan

    • @rippedshoe
      @rippedshoe 4 роки тому +5

      @@geo5440 Glad to say, ever since those 5 months that I have seen a psychologist and I've progressed a lot. Anxiety and death were dealt with. Seeing Reckfuls passing made me crash mentally, and I quickly came back to my old ways... an inspiration and model were shattered

    • @geo5440
      @geo5440 4 роки тому +2

      @@rippedshoe thats sucks man. keep going and doing what you are happy with, do not think about it too much, eventhough it does suck to see such an inspiration to so many pass...

    • @dontreadmyname5570
      @dontreadmyname5570 3 роки тому

      @@rippedshoe good to hear that bro 😁

    • @danieldelagarzaarreguin4833
      @danieldelagarzaarreguin4833 3 роки тому

      @@rippedshoe That's sad to hear how Reckful's passing was so hard on you, but I think he can still be a role model and inspiration in many ways. It takes courage to make your mental state public like he did. It's not about the destination but the journey and Reckful did try his best to have a good journey and share it with the world despite it coming to an end prematurely.

  • @TheGrizzlyP
    @TheGrizzlyP 4 роки тому +119

    As a doctoral student in clinical psychology, I wanted to mention that I am so inspired by your boldness to do what you do. In a strange way reminding me of Mr. Rogers and how you two have decided to approach taking care of people. I feel motivated to do this kind of work that challenges traditional approaches when I am more developed in my career.

    • @Hoppitot
      @Hoppitot 4 роки тому

      read baldness I'm destroyed...

    • @BingBongRockety
      @BingBongRockety 4 роки тому +1

      how is that field, i'm 16 and that's what i want to do post- hs

    • @TheGrizzlyP
      @TheGrizzlyP 4 роки тому +2

      @@BingBongRockety I think it depends. I would take a couple of classes in psychology to see if you like it first and maybe get some work experience prior to making that commitment. For me, I would say the work is incredibly meaningful and I personally enjoy it.

    • @BingBongRockety
      @BingBongRockety 4 роки тому +1

      @@TheGrizzlyP okay cool,

    • @broquestwarsneeder7617
      @broquestwarsneeder7617 4 роки тому +1

      how do i willpower plz

  • @Hammerpunch321
    @Hammerpunch321 4 роки тому +66

    "This is me being human and you being human " - I really liked that phrase. Sometimes we just need someone to talk to about what we're going through, not for the sake of "help" only - but to let go of social weight and understanding, it doesn't always have to be an act of "charity" as he put it.

  • @sebastians7213
    @sebastians7213 3 роки тому +176

    Jesus that man just repeated my thoughts back to me "I look for family in my freinds"

    • @JohnSmith-ox3gy
      @JohnSmith-ox3gy 3 роки тому +20

      He always seemed to be more of a brother to many streamers than a friend.
      "Family isn’t always blood. It’s the people in your life who want you in theirs, the ones who accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile and who love you no matter what. So be thankful for what you have.”
      I have few friends but those friendships are for life no matter the distance or time I'd help to my last drop of blood and if they came with a body I would help dispose the body, no questions asked. A promise I wouldn't make to my blood brother.

    • @ChristmasLore
      @ChristmasLore 2 роки тому +2

      Found family is not only a trope, it happens in real life too.
      That said, deep friendships need work like any other type of relationships 🌿
      (This is such a sad video, retrospectively ✨)

    • @ChristmasLore
      @ChristmasLore 2 роки тому +1

      French song "Famille" Jean-Jacques Goldman (it's old, but still highly recommend, if you can find lyrics 's translation)

  • @CrypticCode
    @CrypticCode 4 роки тому +146

    Would be amazing to see the transformation Reckful makes in 2 years. Hoping for the best!

    • @vlazurah789
      @vlazurah789 4 роки тому +81

      Some Guy On The Internet god this hurts man... we were all so positive

    • @CrypticCode
      @CrypticCode 4 роки тому +79

      @@vlazurah789 Yes, this hurts so much. I'm still having trouble accepting the fact that he's gone. This hurts so damn much. I sincerely hope he is in a better place now. See you in heaven, Reckful!

    • @randomperson12326
      @randomperson12326 3 роки тому +2

      ):

  • @Ladywinterland
    @Ladywinterland 4 роки тому +61

    Rest in peace reckful, he brought me so much joy and was an advocate for openness about mental health. May his memory be a beacon and guidance for us all

    • @funkyfreak97
      @funkyfreak97 Рік тому

      This breaks my heart. I just found this for the first time, and I was ready to go to his channel and subscribe. I wish more people were as sincere and caring as him. Now I'm gonna cry even more from this video.

  • @arkuking
    @arkuking 4 роки тому +220

    I am listening to this and just now hearing on social media that he committed suicide.. Damn, i thought he was seeing the light at the end of the dark tunnel with dr.k..
    RIP Reckful

    • @Flaxeron
      @Flaxeron 4 роки тому +52

      I think he did. But that was back in January. Then major lockdowns happened and isolation became a fact. Seeing his twitter posts now, I wonder if he relapsed into old habits. :(

    • @admiralaokiji7889
      @admiralaokiji7889 4 роки тому +29

      @@Flaxeron yup i think if it wasnt for corona virus and quarantine Reckful would have continued his path forward and he still might be alive today...

    • @Borrelaas
      @Borrelaas 4 роки тому +8

      @@admiralaokiji7889 he might have, but you cannot say that for sure

    • @changes11111
      @changes11111 4 роки тому +1

      @@admiralaokiji7889 what a bullshit he was like this long before corona..a friend wrote that he tried to kill himself 2 months ago.

    • @TheLevelate
      @TheLevelate 4 роки тому +7

      Its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when your eyes adjust to the darkness. RIP

  • @fuzzypones9558
    @fuzzypones9558 4 роки тому +229

    Scary how much I can relate to Reckful. AOE healing it really is.

    • @Vaithen
      @Vaithen 4 роки тому +24

      how are you doing bro?

    • @bertholdtohoover446
      @bertholdtohoover446 4 роки тому

      @@Vaithen lol

    • @fuzzypones9558
      @fuzzypones9558 4 роки тому +12

      @@Vaithen I'm okay, thanks for asking :)

    • @Vaithen
      @Vaithen 4 роки тому +9

      @@fuzzypones9558 thats good, take care of yourself bro :)

    • @fuzzypones9558
      @fuzzypones9558 4 роки тому +5

      @@Vaithen will do :3 You too!

  • @Robotsrule101
    @Robotsrule101 4 роки тому +25

    This hit me hard. Ive seen everything to date and the particular thing on abandonment is something I resonate with so deeply.

  • @cynt4222
    @cynt4222 3 роки тому +12

    I know it's odd for me to comment so late after original posting, but I only found Dr K recently and followed an organic path to his vids w/Reckful. I've now watched several hours to make it to pt 4 w/Reckful ,even though I know the end of the story that is coming. Internally, I felt a calling to watch this at first, but now I'm struck by how honest and moving Reckful is with his sharing. I hate that he felt the only choice was the one he made, but it really is changing my personal experience with these same topics. Reckful-- if you can see this from wherever you are or in your next life -you made a difference in the the life of another human being - mine. Rest in Peace and thanks so much for helping to guide some of us who know how you felt. Reck's Dad and family- I'm imagining it can't make any difference for you, but the experience of your sons reached alot of folks, even after. My sincerest hopes for your peace.

  • @beautifulmaniac2019
    @beautifulmaniac2019 4 роки тому +40

    1:12:44 You gave him the validation he had been looking for back then (5-6 months ago) I felt it for him and his face told us all. such a shame he couldnt hold on, RIP Reckful 😢

  • @spencerstephens7594
    @spencerstephens7594 4 роки тому +84

    Its always weird when I'm scrolling through Dr Ks comments and hit the end. This guy deserves way more reach!

    • @AXharoth
      @AXharoth 4 роки тому +1

      this video is fresh

    • @223tro
      @223tro 4 роки тому +1

      Looks like he got his reach, unfortunate how it had to come into light.

  • @norgas4575
    @norgas4575 4 роки тому +244

    Epic gamer moment 47:25

  • @GoodxLad
    @GoodxLad 4 роки тому +38

    I've been watching these videos all day. I relate so much to who Reckful was in terms of crippling lonliness. I personally also deal with extreme anxiety. These two emotions make me depressed most of the time which often makes me wonder if all the pain is worth it. It scares me because I don't see a future in which I'm still here in a couple years. The only thing that pushes me day to day is the the pain it would bring my family. I crave for something else to live for. It sucks but all I can do is continue fighting each day.
    RIP Reckful. I loved watching him play WoW back in the day and still wish he was here.

    • @managerialelitetoaster3456
      @managerialelitetoaster3456 4 роки тому +1

      There will be a better day for you.

    • @xxm0abxx5
      @xxm0abxx5 3 роки тому

      Hi man how are you doing. You only get what you get yourself so dont think about the future maybe have some achievable goals rather

    • @GoodxLad
      @GoodxLad 3 роки тому

      @@xxm0abxx5 I'm still getting by. Been trying to be healthier this year and I recently reached out to my friend about what I've been dealing with. He's been a big help.

    • @xxm0abxx5
      @xxm0abxx5 3 роки тому +1

      @@GoodxLad nice man nothing like great friends. I also recommend reading good books. I recommend Burning Souls by Leon Degrelle and CS Lewis books

  • @followwind1471
    @followwind1471 4 роки тому +24

    People need more hugs, more hearts in the chat. Nobody deserves to feel alone like that

  • @Nezuko_yoyo
    @Nezuko_yoyo 3 роки тому +10

    I can relate to this so hard its almost scary. it's crazy when you realize you're not alone and other people are a lot like you.

  • @sudoku3830
    @sudoku3830 4 роки тому +12

    What you are doing is fantastic. While I don't suffer the way reckful does and I'm happy, I felt for him and it hit hard. It's great seeing someone as compassionate and empathic as you are, Dr. K

  • @stefanlish
    @stefanlish 4 роки тому +6

    Reckful coming in sober made this much better than last session. He comes across as more authentic and I think this session was more productive (and wholesome).
    Also I hope Reckful joining weekly (or bi-weekly) will be a thing for a while, he almost gives of co-host vibes and his personal story is interesting and it has so much stuff in it that people can relate to. And he deserves to heal and feel better about himself.

  • @AnimatedDisc
    @AnimatedDisc 3 роки тому +26

    The first time I watched this, I cried so many times not understanding why. I just thought it was because it was emotional. 10 months later, I watched this again and cried just the same, but now understanding how fear of abandonment has been the biggest source all my pain. I feel like I can finally get better. I hope HG does more on the topic of abandonment.

  • @MannFace51
    @MannFace51 4 роки тому +19

    I just.... can't stand social media
    I miss the days when I talked to people face to face.... I sound like an old man longing for the "old days" but if I've learned anything, its that your feelings *are* real: they affect how you act.

    • @getusome6776
      @getusome6776 4 роки тому

      i agree that people need to talk more face to face but i dont blame social media for that its just a tool being used wrong by many.

  • @maxdavies7532
    @maxdavies7532 4 роки тому +11

    I didn't know who Reckful was before these videos. He's such a genuine, lovely person and I hope he knows a whole lot of people really care about him. Thank you Dr. K for your amazing work.

    • @tudornaconecinii3609
      @tudornaconecinii3609 4 роки тому

      He has his good days and bad days. Check out on youtube his argument with becca. It's like a 12 min video.
      Not judging or anything btw. We all have a bit of darkness within us.

  • @PLASMODAGAMER
    @PLASMODAGAMER 4 роки тому +58

    Watching this while in the emergency room for a schizophrenic breakdown I thank you for being able to distract me from what I’m going through right now.

    • @nishkavn1755
      @nishkavn1755 3 роки тому +5

      I hope you're doing better

    • @PLASMODAGAMER
      @PLASMODAGAMER 3 роки тому +7

      Charli I’m still fighting my battles

    • @xxm0abxx5
      @xxm0abxx5 3 роки тому +3

      @@PLASMODAGAMER keep fighting dude. Could you give me a breakdown of your breakdown?

    • @PLASMODAGAMER
      @PLASMODAGAMER 3 роки тому +3

      @@xxm0abxx5 yea I got really attached this one girl fell in love kinda quick we lasted a little over a year but this day was the first time she ever blocked me or ghosted me I went into a full state of panic and got my mom out of bed to bring me to the ER so I could wait it out and calm down

    • @PLASMODAGAMER
      @PLASMODAGAMER 3 роки тому +5

      @@xxm0abxx5 constant voices imitating her or old conversations we had in addition to voices that put me down and make me believe I’m not good enough which inevitably was projected onto her and drove her out of my life pretty sure it got to be too much for her so she started saying things like “your problems are your problems, my problems are my problems” and I’d just try my best to be not too much on her, but now she’s gone and it’s hard to think of what she could be doing rn

  • @nightelf4161
    @nightelf4161 4 роки тому +33

    most wholesome session confirmed

  • @mahtajr5157
    @mahtajr5157 2 роки тому +15

    It really breaks my heart watching these knowing how his story ends. I really wish things had gone differently and he was still with us and happy. RIP man😔💔💔

  • @crimsoninterceptor
    @crimsoninterceptor 3 роки тому +22

    Here I am, a 38 year old beardie dude, with a hard shell, breaking out in tears from watching these reckful videos. My heart goes out to his family after what happen. Cant even begin to imagine how it is to lose two children to suicide.
    I'm soo happy someone like Dr.K take his time to do his AoE heals, as you can see how many people in need of it. Dr.K deserves everything good coming his way.

  • @GadgetsGearCoffee
    @GadgetsGearCoffee 3 роки тому +3

    I relate to connecting with other people who have been through trauma. I'm finding out more and more that I simply can't be close to people who haven't lived through trauma because they simply can't understand what I've been through, understand the difficulties and being low and then surviving and thriving. If someone's life has been rather "easy and blessed", there is just a slight disconnect because no matter how well intentioned they are and try to empathize, they just can't.

  • @patrickbrio2896
    @patrickbrio2896 4 роки тому +31

    29:50 Holy damn gave words to such a prevalent feeling

  • @thedandyzebra
    @thedandyzebra 4 роки тому +23

    Just discovered Reckful and Dr. K recently. Watching this series is like getting into a great anime only knowing that the main character dies. RIP Reckful. Wish I knew about you earlier... But at least now I learned about the amazing Dr. K! I'm looking forward to his story arch :)

  • @IITrevorII
    @IITrevorII 4 роки тому +12

    This is so human, I can understand some of Reckful's pain but obvious not all. Reckful if you read this this random viewer since you first started streaming is proud. Thank you Dr K for all you do.

  • @patrickpettibone8805
    @patrickpettibone8805 4 роки тому +7

    I genuinely appreciate the vulnerability everyone who comes on your twitch stream shows. its has been amazing too see and really feel others struggles.

  • @jomr4249
    @jomr4249 2 роки тому +3

    I struggle with suicidal feelings and possible BPD as well and this was a great conversation. Sad to learn of this mans passing in the comments but I’m sure you made a difference in his life even if he eventually lost his battle. I know that this definitely helped me!

  • @Alex-rg8gj
    @Alex-rg8gj 4 роки тому +46

    I didn't know him but I've seen 1 Video of him and he was instantly personable and I wish I knew him...

  • @someyung3014
    @someyung3014 Рік тому +2

    I still look back at these videos. They help me a lot and its the only time I cry. I stopped crying from tragedies or anything else, but this is the only thing that makes me want to cry.

  • @GrippeeTV
    @GrippeeTV 3 роки тому +9

    Man it’s insane how different he is when he’s off that drug. He sounds so much clearer, coherent, intelligent. RIP man. I wish you had been able to find happiness and elevate this state of mind for yourself.

  • @ILUVDIS123
    @ILUVDIS123 4 роки тому +63

    It’s just so damn heartbreaking seeing him MAKE SO MUCH DAMN PROGRESS, then hearing he committed suicide... I was really hoping he could finally be happy but 😢😢😢 RIP Byron “Reckful”

    • @omensoffate
      @omensoffate 4 роки тому +4

      He never made progress.

    • @leiasart4610
      @leiasart4610 4 роки тому +16

      @@omensoffate how do you know? It seemed to me he was going uphill, but kind of in a manic state.

    • @morelove619
      @morelove619 4 роки тому +6

      @@omensoffate please... the only one that doesnt make process seems to be you man. why are you being so mean?

    • @slothtime999
      @slothtime999 4 роки тому +20

      @@omensoffate Lets be honest here. HE DID MAKE PROGRESS. HE UNDERSTOOD AND KNEW MORE ABOUT HIS SITUATION. IT DOESNT MEAN HE GOT BETTER. He tried more than most people with depression have tried but he still gave up.Giving up was the only thing he did wrong.Being like this was never his faullt. Still it was his life and his decision. If you cant respect that then shut the fuck up. The fun and hope he offered to so many people will never be gone no matter what he did or would have done. People should stop talking about his death and instead try to think about his life. He chose his ending and that was his to make. Lets start thinking only about WHAT HE GAVE TO US since we dont really know how he fellt. EVEN IF YOU HAVE DEPRESSION YOU CAN STILL BEAT EAT. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS DONT GIVE UP YOU ARE LOT STRONGER THAN THIS AND WHEN YOU BEAT IT YOU WILL BE STRONGER THAN EVER

    • @omensoffate
      @omensoffate 4 роки тому +2

      EXW TO SKUNK KAI BGAZEI LADIA what i said wasn’t a knock to him. He was going out his way one way or another. He never made progress to a “cure” it just delayed the inevitable. Sadly Covid shortened his time due to having to social distance. You need to get a grip my dude.

  • @cesartheskinwalker
    @cesartheskinwalker 4 роки тому +8

    I wish I could get the kind of help reckful is, Hope he gets to be happy 💚

  • @lachlanmoore2345
    @lachlanmoore2345 3 роки тому +3

    Although these interviews are amazing, Rest In Peace Reckful, I cannot bring myself to watch this before it brings tears to my eyes and I have to stop.
    I myself suffer from Bipolar, I can relate to some things he says I cannot bring myself to watch such a tragedy.
    What happened, his battle, was the worst case scenario. He was trying his best to appear normal but it’s just too much to watch and I’m sorry.

  • @notsure2696
    @notsure2696 4 роки тому +6

    I feel the only thing keeping me feeling alright is these videos.

  • @dead_nn5293
    @dead_nn5293 3 роки тому +3

    I'm watching whole series with Reckful and i found so much me in it, that's bizarre. Dr.k was so dedicated to this friendship, wanted to spent with him 2 years. Im so sorry that was too much for Recful, poor guy.

  • @DaddysBathTime
    @DaddysBathTime 4 роки тому +14

    Man, this is powerful stuff

  • @fluermor..
    @fluermor.. Рік тому +4

    This was heartbreaking at the 48 mark. This man was going to continue having issues as at 30+ most of his friends or people in general have a family, kids, partners etc… it’s just how it goes. We can only ever count on ourselves to be there for us. His idea of having friends around all day everyday is just not realistic. Very sad.

  • @kaizenzenkai402
    @kaizenzenkai402 4 роки тому +37

    I never watched any of reckful's streams, I only come to find out about him from Healthy Gamer. I watched the 1st part and I could relate to him. Finding out that he was an ENFP, same as I. I too have struggled with the same things as reckful, and deeply sadden by his choice to take his life. Those times of emotional outburst are really hard to deal with. Anyone struggling with please reach out for help.

    • @lithiumlegend3785
      @lithiumlegend3785 4 роки тому

      Keep fighting. Everyday you conquer, you get stronger.

  • @ButItsMetalOfficial
    @ButItsMetalOfficial 4 роки тому +13

    This guy is such a loving man, I have deep respect for him

  • @Briggz001
    @Briggz001 4 роки тому +9

    Holy shit when he said the feeling of needing a hug, that broke me

  • @multitablez
    @multitablez 4 роки тому +15

    it's dangerous for reckful if these two meet up and become friends. they have a "therapy relationship" already, there is a imbalance of power. Dr. K is like a father figure to Reckful, therefore Dr. K's actions impact Reckful's sub conscious. just please be careful. you can't be friends with your therapist. it always ends in bad news. always . the therapist relationship is special and unique.

    • @wowandrss
      @wowandrss 4 роки тому +9

      True. There has to be boundaries but Dr. K is well aware of that and will keep things in check.

    • @multitablez
      @multitablez 4 роки тому +1

      @@wowandrss yeah, but they are talking about meeting up at twich con in the Netherlands.. idk what to think about that. recktful wont know what is best for him, and will want to be friends but always ends in bad, bad news

    • @TheProstum
      @TheProstum 4 роки тому +7

      @@multitablez yeah but that was reckful planning to get dr K to try out silicibin or whatever its called.

    • @lumpyrex007
      @lumpyrex007 4 роки тому

      So 5 months later....

  • @homeslice99
    @homeslice99 4 роки тому +91

    Reckful seems much more mellow when sober

    • @solopunished
      @solopunished 4 роки тому +18

      yeah thats the depression lol

    • @iTzKneecap
      @iTzKneecap 4 роки тому +6

      The few times I've micro-dosed gave me a lot of energy, it enhances how talkative someone can be by ten-fold in some cases.

    • @solopunished
      @solopunished 4 роки тому +4

      Youssef yeah but having followed reckful for over a decade now he was always like that even sober when he was happy or excited

    • @iTzKneecap
      @iTzKneecap 4 роки тому +6

      @@solopunished Could just me manic/depressive symptoms then. :(

    • @AXharoth
      @AXharoth 4 роки тому

      i want shrooms too

  • @chillskillz
    @chillskillz 3 роки тому +4

    I would have loved to be Byrons friend. I probably don't know exactly how it would have panned out... but I truly think we could have been good buddies, for life. We share so many interests and commonalities, and he was a good dude. HOWEVER, its easy to say that without knowing him first-hand, I also understand that.

  • @Stubbelur
    @Stubbelur 4 роки тому +124

    I find Reckful to be much more coherent when he's off psilocybin. I hope he can go forwards with this without needing that.

    • @trumerothetru7964
      @trumerothetru7964 3 роки тому +1

      Yea maybe he should have stopped using drugs

    • @TheMcLeanster
      @TheMcLeanster 2 роки тому +4

      @@trumerothetru7964 I don't think Mushrooms/psilocybin is why he killed himself especially when he was micro-dosing. I believe sitting in a room alone surrounded by 4 walls playing video games and looking at everyones best life on different social medias was the saddest and most depressing thing about his situation. In fact he said that psilocybin is what helped him get outside and enabled him to talk to real people. It had to severely hurt him knowing that he feels like he can't escape his detrimental and extremely sad thoughts sober and just being himself. It's so damn sad no matter what or why he couldn't be happy with himself.

  • @coconutz11
    @coconutz11 Рік тому +2

    I am currently feeling this constant abandonement and search for validation a lot now. Everybody has left me behind, including my family and girlfriend. It's like they don't want me to be here anymore

  • @marianomanto
    @marianomanto 10 місяців тому +3

    I know exactly what this man is going through. I believe our culture sometimes builds a romantic fantasy around being alone and "being complete" by yourself. I understand how that can be a self-improvement mentality and maybe aims to find tools to solve issues that stem from our childhood. However, I do believe we all can benefit from bonding and healing together with a partner. Of course, it is important to be honest with them: confess what our challenges are and what we are doing to overcome them.

  • @rager4able
    @rager4able 4 роки тому +8

    I get a sense of hopelessness, opposed to the other talks

  • @223tro
    @223tro 4 роки тому +4

    Breaks my soul he couldn’t find happiness. Kind of kills my dwindling hope for humanity, especially because I experienced a similar family disconnect at a young age.

  • @kristinamelnichenko5775
    @kristinamelnichenko5775 17 днів тому

    The heart wrenching part is understanding does not mean healing. In fact realizing that makes it even scarier

  • @ceza1487
    @ceza1487 3 роки тому +2

    reckful was so adorable and so sweet i would have dreamed to have of been his friend, i'm so heartbroken and pained to hear about what happened to him.

  • @Obsoleek
    @Obsoleek 3 роки тому +1

    holy i wish i would of seen this talk so much sooner, this is so insightful

  • @burtbiggum499
    @burtbiggum499 4 роки тому +14

    When he started crying l did too.

  • @htwa
    @htwa 3 роки тому +7

    this is so difficult to watch.... i relate so much to him

  • @nobay
    @nobay 4 роки тому +1

    I never knew who Reckful was but I was enamored by Dr. K and how much I related to his streams. Now that Reckful is gone, I'm now watching each of his sessions and damn...I relate to Reckful a lot. He seems like such an authentic guy who needs love and someone to carry him. I think each video I watch will make this sadder. :(

  • @FugIyDuck
    @FugIyDuck 4 роки тому +1

    I really needed this video and Im so thankful to reckful for opening up about this topic because i myself cant so its really helpful to some extent tyvm really

  • @grindingthegearsofalltides4504
    @grindingthegearsofalltides4504 4 роки тому +7

    I dont know why but this is really fulfilling

  • @lililillililillililillilil2116
    @lililillililillililillilil2116 4 роки тому +19

    i fee lthe same thing reckful feels when it comes to loneliness and fear of abandonment..being overbearing and to attached PepeHands

  • @brando3802
    @brando3802 11 місяців тому +1

    I think that friends can actually be your family, same as family. Someone has no family, or they don't understand you, don't support you. So it is completely normal to have friends that are like your new family. Find someone that understands you, that's all.

  • @nuller87
    @nuller87 4 роки тому +28

    RIP Byron :(

    • @mmm5030
      @mmm5030 4 роки тому

      He has passed away ?

    • @nuller87
      @nuller87 4 роки тому

      @@mmm5030 Took his own life not too long ago

  • @guylfe
    @guylfe 4 роки тому +78

    I think the better "hook" clip would've been Dr. K saying he'll stick with Reckful for 2 years, although maybe it couldn't be condensed properly while being clear in context.

    • @gabechevalier1567
      @gabechevalier1567 4 роки тому +24

      It was so funny watching Dr. K strongly hint at becoming his friend and Reckful just not picking up on it.

    • @Cloxygen
      @Cloxygen 4 роки тому +5

      Would've ruined the punchline

    • @Naytone
      @Naytone 4 роки тому +2

      @@gabechevalier1567 maybe he did pick it up but was too embarrassed to ask.

    • @_ANGST
      @_ANGST 3 роки тому

      How about we don't treat ourselves as marketing products altogether.

  • @xavier69___6
    @xavier69___6 2 роки тому +9

    bro honestly,im not sayin that everything needs to be so full of love but we rlly need to make having more human to human connections and openly talking about stuff more normalized,but we have to train our listening and communication skills as a people to reach that point,me included

  • @Kumbaso
    @Kumbaso 3 роки тому +4

    Reckful is very relatable, sucks that my life never crossed paths with his.

  • @BurekPkr
    @BurekPkr 4 роки тому +23

    Tell him to get a puppy .. they need attention and will give him unconditional love that he needs. A service dog for lonely people

    • @Questioneverythingx
      @Questioneverythingx 4 роки тому +2

      Was much deeper than that my friend.

    • @BurekPkr
      @BurekPkr 4 роки тому +2

      Kevin Worley no shit Sherlock, RIP Reckful

    • @VioletEmerald
      @VioletEmerald 2 роки тому +1

      @@Questioneverythingx I think that's devaluing the power that caring for a pet can bring though. We don't know if it might've saved his life but i wouldn't discount this idea even knowing how serious his depression was.

    • @Questioneverythingx
      @Questioneverythingx 2 роки тому

      @@BurekPkr
      Imagine insulting someone for no reason, using his name in the same sentence and then liking your own comment. Good one, guy.

    • @Questioneverythingx
      @Questioneverythingx 2 роки тому +2

      @@VioletEmerald
      No. No, it didn’t devalue the power a pet can bring. That comment was about someone who lived with some of his closest friends and the idea a pet could have saved him was unlikely. No way, shape or form in the 6 words I used in the original comment devalue the power a pet can bring, but rather the lack of impact it may have had on him.

  • @firebinder18880
    @firebinder18880 3 роки тому +5

    I go to this video everytime i feel lonely

  • @mojominecraftmike
    @mojominecraftmike 4 роки тому +23

    I wish you talked more about how to get an anxious person into therapy if they're too anxious and acute treatments for mental health issues.

    • @Guardsgotgame11
      @Guardsgotgame11 4 роки тому +6

      Mike if you want to or need to go to therapy, you just have to go man. Just show up and see how it goes. Don’t expect anything. Bring someone if you want that you’re comfortable with. I went to my first therapy session about a year ago, fucking scared shitless. I sweat for an hour straight, adrenaline was pumping for an hour straight. Most people don’t understand what that feels like but I do. It’s living hell
      A year later we have a good relationship and I don’t have a panic attack every time I go and talk to her. Then you begin to learn the things being taught without the anxiety in the way because you are more comfortable. Just go, the first few times won’t be fun, breaking through intense anxiety isn’t fucking fun, shit sucks. Feels like jumping out of a plane every time you do something.
      But if you don’t get help the anxiety will get worse trust me. I got to a point where I feared it getting worse and fearful of taking my own life, and that fear was worse than showing up to a therapy session for me. If you are too anxious to go talk to someone, imagine all the other things in life that you’ll say “too anxious for that”. It becomes a habit to stay comfortable. There is LITERALLY only one way to get relief, besides drugs that make it worse, break the habit. (Generalized anxiety disorder)

    • @dbka_
      @dbka_ 4 роки тому +5

      you can have someone close to you call for you and make the appointment for you if you'd like! try that. also, the people on the phone are trained well are always very nice and they know that people calling are people who deal with all sorts of mental issues and will speak to you with care. you can do this!

    • @HolyCodzta
      @HolyCodzta 4 роки тому +2

      @@dbka_ I can relate to that. One of the best conversations I had early on was speaking on the phone to the person getting me on the system.
      Like you said, the people on the phones are there to help people, it's nothing like the RNG of springing the conversation on a complete stranger for example.

    • @WhateverNullPointer
      @WhateverNullPointer 4 роки тому

      @@Guardsgotgame11 Great advice bro!

  • @necroduel3998
    @necroduel3998 4 роки тому +48

    I hope Reckful knows how strong he is

  • @lsisak7651
    @lsisak7651 Рік тому +5

    People are such assholes. I don't understand why people can't try harder to love other people. I have a hunch the people who thought he was too clingy were too judgemental or withdrawn.

    • @AnAwakenedPanda
      @AnAwakenedPanda Рік тому

      I agree with the sentiment, but people have their limits.

  • @paigeg.4889
    @paigeg.4889 4 роки тому +2

    Im so glad i found this channel

  • @spencerstephens7594
    @spencerstephens7594 4 роки тому +9

    Dr K does a great job, but damn Reckful is actually a really great not therapy patient. His ability to understand his emotions and think these things through is really impressive sometimes. Keep up the good work guys!

    • @bowserlopez6656
      @bowserlopez6656 4 роки тому +2

      Spencer Stephens haven’t seen the whole thing so idk what is said about BPD, but typically BPD people are immensely self aware and knowledgeable. They know what they need but getting there is another story

    • @spencerstephens7594
      @spencerstephens7594 4 роки тому +2

      @@bowserlopez6656 It was basically said that he doesnt know enough, and cant in this setting, diagnose him with BPD. However a lot of people with BPD have attatchemtn/abandonment issues and this is mirrored at least in Reckful. He then shared an interesting stat that a lot of people with BPD can actually get through it if they have a consistent positive relationship for 2 years. He then promised to stay with Reckful for this time. But yes, if he does have it, I can absolutely see that!

  • @VanyP
    @VanyP 4 роки тому +2

    Not just Reckfuls face changed but also his voice from the beginning to the end of the vod - i love it

  • @carlylebermudez8057
    @carlylebermudez8057 4 роки тому +5

    Rest in peace, sweet prince.........

  • @Californiansurfer
    @Californiansurfer 4 роки тому

    You are doing a great service, I knew this something people needed back in 2012 when I was working in midwest. I remember working in Jeffersonville Indiana and I they didnt have internet or phones yet, I was able to get off the internet and all those distractions and made a lot of friends. I also went to Louisville university which they had a gamer day in maid cafeteria, which helped them set up their network and assign ips. Everyone showed off their computer system and made friends. Everyone buys their parts from newegg in el montes which my friends visit. I take them down there, but I am not a gamer anymore, but I have friends who just need others. Downey California

  • @MeetMichelleRenee
    @MeetMichelleRenee 4 роки тому +5

    As a human connection coach, I’m really appreciating this conversation. My partner sent me the link to the 1st part of your work with Reckful and I’ve been moving through the other parts within my free time. Thank you, both, for giving us a peak into your worlds.

  • @Steven-bd8mn
    @Steven-bd8mn 3 роки тому +2

    A lot of my samskara been popping out for this session lol I'm crying for no reason at all wtf.
    Could be because when I was really young both of my parents went to a different country to work to give us a better life(which I really appreciate now).
    The young me did not understand tho, I probably felt abandoned, no one to support me from this feelings and fucked me up when growing up. I hate what I have become.

  • @MrTrevor0567
    @MrTrevor0567 4 роки тому +5

    We’re all proud of Reckful for being open honest about his life and sharing his experience. That can’t be easy.

  • @zoobiewa
    @zoobiewa 4 роки тому +1

    Well I definitely cried at that pivotal moment, on the freeway no less. Amazing.

  • @IgaTenzen
    @IgaTenzen 4 роки тому +5

    Byron looks so sad when he says “ 30 “ when dr K asking him his age !RIP Byron , you will be missed !

  • @videofabriken
    @videofabriken 4 роки тому +8

    Aww 47:26 he's such a fragile soul, I wish I could have been there for him

  • @Giroud91218
    @Giroud91218 4 роки тому +16

    Everytime I hear him mention Andy Milonakis all confused on who he is but thankful for the support I just wonder if this is gonna be a recurring thing

    • @AXharoth
      @AXharoth 4 роки тому +7

      haha i bet andy wants to come talk ^^

    • @sordsmen3456
      @sordsmen3456 4 роки тому

      I hope so it’s a great meme

  • @skjllissue
    @skjllissue 4 роки тому +9

    i feel like i need a session with Dr. K too

  • @antlerman7644
    @antlerman7644 4 роки тому +8

    14:40 that statement from reckfull is so true. It worked but I couldn't stick with it.

  • @wowandrss
    @wowandrss 4 роки тому +27

    Dr. K said that there's some interesting data about BPD, saying that if you have a stable relationship for 2 years, there is a 50% chance of it going away? This is kind of HUGE. I googled and you'd think something this good/promising would be on the front page of results but I can't find it. Does anyone know anything about it ?? I really need to see it, i'll throw 25€ to your Paypal if you manage to find something that confirms what he said. I have someone very close suffering from BPD.

  • @hanta7488
    @hanta7488 4 роки тому +8

    Remember, if you wanna move to Boston, Dr. K says NO!

  • @leep3488
    @leep3488 4 роки тому +4

    wow this episode got pretty emotional and intense

  • @alisaen2128
    @alisaen2128 4 роки тому +10

    Reckful seems calmer when he he's off psilocybin.

    • @mmmmmMuffinz
      @mmmmmMuffinz 4 роки тому +1

      way lower energy for sure

    • @oldskooplaya
      @oldskooplaya 4 роки тому +2

      I microdose lsd it's amazing how well microdosing works for my depression. Check out the microdosing sub reddit to learn more.

  • @kyle80hockey
    @kyle80hockey 4 роки тому +1

    Love the Reckful interviews the most :)!

  • @seriousyrius7334
    @seriousyrius7334 4 роки тому +8

    I'm not sure how I'm suppose to feel but I can relate to Reckful. The things he said is what I told my psychiatrist... Connection... Family member and so on...

  • @jamesnightblade3770
    @jamesnightblade3770 4 роки тому +2

    The light got brighter as the session went on :D

    • @Gewsfrahba
      @Gewsfrahba 4 роки тому +2

      i wish it stayed bright :(

  • @yousifbarcelona
    @yousifbarcelona 3 роки тому +4

    47:25 i wish i can find someone who would give me attention, love and help like how i would like to give it to people, especially ones whom i realize later to be not deserving my time..
    and rip reckful