i have the feeling that this therapy session shouldn't be live. i mean this is very personal, byron is exposing his weakness on the internet and some trolls can take advantage of this.
@@tyrellwreleck4226 Exactly my thoughts after watching a few of these... Yes, he seems to be a very good psychologist but by having the conversations in public there is a danger of exploitation. I do believe that he is genuinely compassionate but I don‘t know if he‘s actually doing his interviewees any favours here. As I came here from the angle of being interested in mental illness as opposed to the streamers themselves I do not know whether there have actually been negative consequences. The comments on this channel have generally been very supportive so that‘s making me hopeful at least.
I’ve been on a Dr. K binge for the past month and watching this stream in particular impacted me so goddamn much. Mental illness is truly a horrible thing and my heart goes out to his family
Stings remebering 6 months later... Rip Byron. My fight continues for you, and many others whos lives ended too early... Hope things are the best wherever you're at man. :(
Crazy to hear him say that and how fast it can change. Who knows how much he was actually thinking about killing himself at the time or if it was just a complete 180.
"A substantial source of the disease burden in bipolar disorder is suicide-related (1). Researchers estimate that between 25% and 60% of individuals with bipolar disorder will attempt suicide at least once in their lives and between 4% and 19% will complete suicide (2)" us bipolar ppl walk around with these stats all day....its a weird reality to grasp, to cope with, to process.... its weird - they are so different but, i'm feeling kind of like how i felt when Mark Fisher died. bipolar ppl have such beauty to offer, and our society fails them so fucking hard. just like it fails so many others.and for what? for the capitalist class to keep up the scam, keep accumulating all the wealth, keep exploiting labor and destroying the planet. fucking hell. idk what to do. this shit got me up late tonight. shoutouts and much love to all y'all
@@dillonv5345 I really hate how people always dive into the victim mindset when talking about mental illness, saying things like 'society fails them' and blaming it on capitalism etc. Having a mental illness doesn't alleviate your personal responsibility, sure some things will be harder, but even ill people are more than only 'depressed' or 'bipolar' and in the end they're the only ones responsible for their suicide. Blaming their problems on society won't help anyone.
@@Buceesfanmaarten may Allah enlighten your heart and soul. keep that crazy level of insensitivity when someone close to you dies because of suicide lol.
He probably helped THOUSANDS of people through showing and being so open about his problems.. Sadly no one could save him. RIP Byron. You seem like the nicest guy.
Yeah man the end of his stream .. there was a clear sign of him going to commit suicide. But he looked happy to do it. Its basically what Etika felt like. When you feel like that your curiosity takes over and you cant help but think of those feelings going away. Pain going away, the meaning of life may be understood. But I believe I have a gift of hearing and seeing spirits and ones I believe that committed suicide seem to be the angry ones that get stuck here. In a loop of repeating what they did before they took their life. Now I don't fully understand why but I have seen spirits at the same house they have hung themselves. But I have also sent his when someone dies in a tragic way like car accidents. They will get stuck there. I think my meaning of life is the help them move on. But this is new to me and theres not a book or people to tell me how to use this gift(which doesn't feel like a gift, it actually really sucks because you can't shut it off) I put this out there for people who may see this and understand that suicide is not the way out. Take it for what it's worth to you. I believe in an afterlife, I am not religious but I have seen and felt things . Spirits don't like questions about the afterlife its weird. They will stop answering you. And it's rare to actually get answers in something you can hear. For me the best way is to ask yes or no questions and they can tap your hand 2 times for yes or once for no. I don't know how to tap into the hearing them speak. I can mostly just see them. As either a dark figure at first or a bright light. And the you get flashes of faces once they touch me. And they are not all pretty. Anyways I'm rambling haha. Don't think suicide is a way out.. it will leave you in a worse place. A lot of them have no idea why we cant see them or hear them so that's why a lot of hauntings happen.
Reckful reminds me a lot of a quote that Robin Williams said, "I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel like that."... RIP Byron... I wish the world was better to you... I didn't know you but I will miss you...
I cried watching this 6 months ago. Cried again when I got the news about his death. Thank you Byron for having the courage to speak openly about your depression. RIP.
@@newworld322 I'm sorry you feel this way man. First, it is never too late. Second every person or doctor in this case will have their own unique perspective and whatnot, he (Ol Chum) might have just found something very new despite whatever came before. Everything you heard, you did not know, for example, Reckful's story, his thoughts, thoughts of the Doctor. Any new information is useful. Why do you feel the need to judge someone who just thought it would be good to write a thankful comment?
@@MikeHawk-ub5hm Yeah. He's a piece of shit for killing himself. Now i get to hear people signal their asses off about how much they care. When they dont.
I remember seeing Byron one time in a store in Austin, and I didn't want to approach him because he was with some friends. I was so excited because I had been watching him since I was a kid. This was a couple of weeks before he passed. His passing was quite possibly the first 'celebrity' passing that hit me hard because he was such a huge part of my childhood. RIP Byron, you will never be forgotten
I once saw Reckful at a grocery store in Los Angeles. I told him how cool it was to meet him in person, but I didn’t want to be a douche and bother him and ask him for photos or anything. He said, “Oh, like you’re doing now?” I was taken aback, and all I could say was “Huh?” but he kept cutting me off and going “huh? huh? huh?” and closing his hand shut in front of my face. I walked away and continued with my shopping, and I heard him chuckle as I walked off. When I came to pay for my stuff up front I saw him trying to walk out the doors with like fifteen Milky Ways in his hands without paying. The girl at the counter was very nice about it and professional, and was like “Sir, you need to pay for those first.” At first he kept pretending to be tired and not hear her, but eventually turned back around and brought them to the counter. When she took one of the bars and started scanning it multiple times, he stopped her and told her to scan them each individually “to prevent any electrical infetterence,” and then turned around and winked at me. I don’t even think that’s a word. After she scanned each bar and put them in a bag and started to say the price, he kept interrupting her by yawning really loudly.
Reckful being so public about his life and feelings is such a blessing in disguise. I'm so sorry we couldn't save you Byron. I'll always remember you and work to make things better.
I feel so so so bad for Byron's parents, losing both their sons. This shit sucks, I don't even know what to say. Its so depressing...much love to anyone reading this, we're all gonna make it. Stay strong everyone.
@@HabibiGa1z I've got the diet and workout nailed down my biggest problem is not being able to find a main life goal to work towards my life just feels meaningless because of it.. Whatever I try to do eventually I give up because it just stops interesting me and my depression comes back..
@@Maxmax10050 well that part you have to figure out for yourself mate.. good luck with it. good thing that you are taking diet and excercise seriously, cause that shit fucks with you
I never knew Byron had a brother who also committed suicide. God that's fucking awful... Imagine his parents... Knowing they lost 2 kids so early due to grave mental health issues. Super fucking sad man.
Don't you think they failed their 2nd son though? He said he was 6 when his brother commited suicide, why they weren't extra careful after? He got depression when he was 14, it rarely happens out of thin air. Where were friends? Why he was left alone to play games for whole days? This should NEVER happen. I mean, there's nothing wrong playing games but this guy was depressed and was left alone to deal with toxic viewers who told him to kill himself etc - and it happened every single day. This isn't a good environment for a depressed person with a bipolar disorder. It's the worst scenario imho. I also have a depression although I lack the emotional response (I'm psychopath) - I have to be forced to do anything, even getting out the dishes from a dishwasher. I'm tired, I don't want to do anything and I'm fed up with myself. If we add grief/sadness/misery to that then I'm seriously surprised he managed to go this far without a support.
@@trendqiang3921 Sometimes yes, sometimes it makes things worse. Each case is different and require different approach. There's no 1 good method. Still. People should never be left alone to deal with their demons and it looks like this poor lad had to manage by himself. Parents failed. Mom and brother locked themselves in their rooms in grief and left poor kid out. It causes trauma. Then friends didn't help either because what? He said "no"? Force your way in if you care about someone.
@@vanitas-5276 Self-discipline puts your biological clock back on track and reduces the physical symptoms of depression, which in turn reduces the frequency and severity of depression
@@vanitas-5276 Best of all, self-discipline is a non-targeted behavior, you don’t need motivation to develop self-discipline, you just need to follow the alarm clock
When Reckful started crying I couldn’t hold it in anymore, fuck... this Man will be missed forever. Thanks for 8 years that I have known you. I love you Byron. RIP we will see again
@@NakedTrashPanda absolutely insane that just by running through his breathing form he can calm down a man breaking down, in seconds... thank you dr k, thank you reckful
Dr. K, you helped a drowning man stay afloat longer than they could have on their own. Never and I mean, NEVER feel guilty over trying to help someone. I don't know if this is the first time for you going through something like this but I am certain you played a part in his survival, not his death. I'd almost bet money he was in a manic moment and was spiraling to the point he never even considered calling anyone. He was loved and not just by you. There was nothing you could have done. If there were, you would have done it. We all know that. WE ALL KNOW THAT! It's important that you know that, too. We love you and we miss Reckful already but right now I worry about those close to him and you were one of the first I thought of. I don't know if you'll be reading comments on this video anytime soon but when you do, know that we don't blame you, I am certain Reckful doesn't blame you, and you shouldn't blame you. With that said, I'm going to go cry in a ball now.
Luke 222 unfortunately it’s just a part of his job. Another reason I couldn’t possibly do what he does. Absolute hero and an inspiration. Mad respect to Dr k. RIP Byron. My hero. The reason I started playing WoW.
@@Bryophyta I'm replying this to you not for the sake of being a keyboard warrior or white knight but because its something that affects me deeply and I've spent many many years constantly reading up about it, trying to understand depression and my best friend and I have some disagreement to your careless and not properly explained commentary. In this case it seemed more like Dr K. was approaching streamers in a more friend-like manner since streamers revolve having their lives and actions going out public.. Often people who go for treatment may have trouble opening up and asking for help and I understand that because my best friend has severe depression/suicidal thoughts/ severe anxiety/actual life-threatening illness which he won't be able to live up to a ripe age and it has been a struggle the past 8 years especially for me to reach out to him despite how important he says I am to him.. ultimately Dr K made the disclaimer at the very start and he even offered to help privately eg he suggested discord whenever R's feeling overwhelmed/unable to cope/suicidal (the actual word he used). If anything, i think Dr K helped him to find how to better better approach contentment and fulfilment in life. I believe we live in a world where we read so much online about depression and happiness that they constantly feel like they're in a battle to sort it out but not understand and knowing what exactly is causing them to feel that way and how they could be dealing with it better rather than use distractions to temporarily get that "happy" feeling. Dr K even helped teach meditation and for him to better control whenever his depression acts up and that he can be in better control of it. You could tell from the excitement/sudden short teary outburst in R's voice and vocal expression and even body language to keep pushing forward with the session. Dr K always checked on R and even persuaded him to take a break even when R didn't want to and thought he was okay to continue. Each time Dr K said something helpful its like you can see R lit up and being a little more happy and hopeful. You know that wasn't fake or acted out. Why do you blame Dr K? So many of the guests have their personal therapist/counsellors aside from attending a session with Dr K. Because he has his own patients and these streamers aren't officially checked into the clinic/hospital with him as their appointed Dr. Reminder that Dr K also is someone who actually works as a proper counsellor and even see actual outside patients. Dr K even said he'ld welcome R's parents to come onto the session. That would be important since his depression got triggered because of family issues... with Guy leaving... If anything, R could have approached him for private actual sessions and I'm sure Dr K. would have opened R with welcome arms.
Piano Nugget Dr.K offered to talk to him more privately if he wanted. When big streamers like Reckful are open about their mental health and can talk about it to the public it can help a lot of people with whatever they are currently facing. It can make people see the problems that these people face to help them work through whatever they are working through. People feel less alone when they see other people being so vulnerable about their own feelings.
Poor parents, lost not 1 but 2 sons to this illness. I have bipolar too but I find the gym, diet, being busy and thinking of my friend who passed from cancer who begged to live died and I remind myself daily when I think of suicide id be pissing on all the graves of those who begged to live. Doesn't work for everyone but having a goal and being around positive people helps. I do get my real down days but you have to get through it. Be strong because you may not think it, just like i don't sometimes but there are people who love you.
I'm going through the same. My friend is dealing with cancer and I feel so guilty because I really feel like dying, while she's trying to live. Is not easy.
@@winterlucy Keep your head up. Always remember there is ALWAYS someone out there suffering more than you yet they still make it through the day. Hold onto that feeling.
I was so close to giving in. I was ready. And then the devil appeared to me and was grabbing me saying hes ready to take me. Ever since that day i put the blade down and have never had those thoughts since.... scariest day of my life
Yea bro has no clue hes just very hopeful. Which isnt bad, but also isnt the solution. Dont tell people it gets better or to hold on or keep it together or any generalized shit like that.
I watched this live and it made me realise I've desperately needed therapy I'll never be able to afford. I grew up with an alcoholic mother and was addicted to video games untill I got addicted to drugs. Learning a little about Buddhism and practicing some meditation helped me get and stay clean for 8+ years but my life is empty. My social life revolved around drugs so I had to start over at 26 and it hasn't gone very well. This one talk with Reckful and a couple of your videos have already taught me so much about how my mind works and understand why I feel some of the things I feel. The concepts and techniques you've shared have already helped me. Please keep doing stuff like this.
you can get online help that is not really that expensive. Seek it out, and try to watch more videos about it also, and do some yoga, it seriously helps, day and morning before doing ur day, and to end you're day. I got thereapy that way, changed my life for the better
@@Flarpano trust me i've been to a few that have made things worse, imagine opening up a lot of loose ends and then not securing them. There's lots of ways it can turn sour but that's one example. I know a few that have had a bad time, it's happens sadly
I wateched this interview back in the day and it gave me so much hope. Sometimes, depression is just too much for us to handle. But it doesn't mean that it's gonna be the same way for everyone, do not give up. Rip Reckful.
At 53:01 i started crying so hard. I finnaly realised why i have been depressed for 10 years. I am thankfull that i could somehow watch this video and finnaly understand myself more. I love how you use your time to help people like reckfull and me.
Same, bipolar type 2 here. Every day is a struggle. The depression is the worst part for me. It usually lasts for months. A few times a year I’ll become hypomanic and get a lot of stuff done in a short amount of time, like applying for jobs and working out. But it never lasts, when the hypomania stars to fade into depression I crash and burn real hard. I’m stuck in this cycle of rising and falling over again, it feels like each time I fall it becomes harder to come back.
@@Ray-lw2rh I have started 2 youtube channels and 3 side hustles during hypomanic phases. Each one just disappeared seemingly overnight. The motivation and focus just vanished. I also find it tough to get back up after falling over and over again. Stick with it though. There may be hope in due time.
At around 30 minutes in, Dr. K elaborates on how once Byron "conquered" what he was excited about, he fell back into "just being Reckful". He used Photography and the art gallery to illustrate this point. "Just being Reckful" meant there was nothing to live for; nothing has true purpose. Byron committed suicide soon after debuting his game Everland, on stream, with it being near completion. The purpose of creating a MMO for everyone to love was coming to an end. In addition to this, he was dealing with the COVID-19 isolation, potential rejection from Becca, and online bullying that came from his Twitter post. Could all of this created the perfect storm that Byron failed to overcome? I remember Byron asking Hikaru, on stream, if it was possible to pick up chess later in life and be the best. Hikaru said no, understandably, as the top chess players have been playing their entire lives. I could see the disappointment when Byron accepted that statement as true. He was truly great at everything he invested himself in. We miss you Byron!
I do not know why Hikaru said no when he is not entirely right, while he also wasted his time with XQC teaching him I guess he just did it to get more popular. This just makes me think even less of hikaru.
@@whatever6874 There's a difference between picking up chess later in life to then become the best and picking up chess later in life to then become a great player.
@@whatever6874 My point was that Hikaru was not training xQc for him to become the best player. So it doesn't subtract from him saying "no, if you start late, you can't become the best player."
@@lambdcalculus Precisely.. he was 100% right to say no. Since he had not played from youth, to be "the best" .. not gonna happen. He could have been quite good, although.. but never the best.
I think everyone who has ever been depressed should watch this. This is one of the most legendary and iconic mental health conversations ever. This will help A LOT of people. This helped me.
Heya, this comment is a bit old so i apologize but i just would like to ask how exactly this helped you? I want to watch this video, but i'm just kinda worried about the emotional weight of it..
@@Opachki69420 yes, it can, to a degree. There are studies that link chromosome 3p25-26 to depression amongst members of the same family/gene pool. There are also studies about the imbalance of Serotonin (the "feel good" hormone), which could potentially be caused by a faulty gene. So far, 60% of depression contributors seem to be environmental. Treatment in the form of therapy or medication seems to work for both "causes" though.
RIP Reckful, I'm still not used to the fact that he is gone, I used to watch him from time to time and I could really relate to some of his issues, we lost a good man :(
I am enthralled by this. As a student mental health professional it amazes me that you are utilising twitch and youtube to spread awareness to a community. I would love to get involved and behind this type of support.
54:45 “I think it can help others too” At the same moment I blow my nose from a deep bawl... from viewing and learning something about myself.... as I learn about him You will always make an impact. Thank you sweet angel ❤️
Just a brief look into comment section tells everything. Overwhelmingly positive feedback and many even report crying over this. Invaluable work man, this really reinforces will to become a psychologist or psychiatrist myself.
I have manic depression, and when I heard the news of Byron's passing I started deep cleaning my entire apartment to help distract my mind from the news. I was teary-eyed all day. I watched him for over seven years on Twitch, and suffice to say he had profound impact on my life. RIP Byron. One of the GOATs of WoW Arena.
Thank you all for the warm messages! I lost my aunt (Dad's sister) to COVID in early Nov. I'm doing good in spite of it all the bad year as I still am working remotely from my apartment on a work laptop.
This series has gotten me through so much, I have seen it through more times than I can count. As sad as it ended, this is one of the most important looks into mental health documented, and we should never take it for granted. RIP reckful, an incredible man that I grew up watching and admiring, All of these videos have so much value even though it unfortunately ended tragically. We got to see the beauties and passion, as well as the tragedies in his life before he left.
Booth Booth It’s Dr. K’s fault that reckful killed himself. If Dr. K was actually good at his job and not just speaking out of his ass about voodoo shit with confidence then reckful would still be alive today. Sadge
@@beckembrown7002 i think Dr k gave him extra motivation to keep going for those 6 months but its wasnt enough bc it seems like he was ready to take his life already and Dr k gave him doubts so it stalled for 6 months. It wasn't enough help sadge
@@beckembrown7002 and you can't just blame someone like that if you do you gotta blame everything else its like saying I blame you bc you didn't donate to him saying don't suicide you could of stopped him but instead you spend your money on games and waste it.
@@beckembrown7002 WTF is wrong with you, obviously a single sessions with a therapist, in front of thousands of people, is not going to instantly cure someone, who had severe mental health issues for over 20 years, there is no single person to blame, if you want blame someone, then blame the abyssimal us healthcare system, a culture of online toxicity(your comment being part of that) and the lack of mental hygiene in modern society.
I didn't even watch reckful, I basically had no prior attachment to this guy. But what happened is so extremely tragic, I can't keep myself from being overwhelmed with sadness. I hope he rests in peace.
Dude seriously, why do people like you feel the need to address this? Seeking attention by griefing for somebody you didn't even know lmao. Same energy as all the "RIP Paul Walker" people. It's super odd.
I mean i don't wanna sound like some r/niceguy but uhhh a lot of people are doing this and it could be happening right now which would probably make you sadder...or not let be honest most of us don't actually have that much empathy for each other.
@@Farlon303 empathy for whom? Reckful is clearly dead and his family clearly won't read this. Also I didn't tell him how to feel. He can feel however he likes as far as I am concerned. I am genuinely interested why he felt the need to communicate his feelings for somebody, whom he didn't even know to begin with :D
Dr.k, I hope that hearing about Reckful's suicide will motivate you to dive deeper into the gaming/streaming community rather then give up. You've done so much good for these people over a short amount of time. The streaming platform is so new, all these amazing people don't know how to organize all the new conflicting thoughts and emotions that comes with streaming. Thank you for what you've brought to this community, thank you for caring.
After the May fundraiser Dr. K is taking more time away from his practice for Healthy Gamer GG, he won't give up, this is his Dharma. Especially after today...
I'm not trying to be that guy. But screw it. I will be. This "doctor" has done absolutely nothing for the community other than use established streamers to boost his own channel. The feedback he gives back to people is entry level psychology. The fact twitch is even letting him go on with this stuff is very very suspect. People should be going to respected doctors in the scene. Not people who want subs and followers on a shady streaming platform. Imagine if reckful actually had gone to a REAL doctor. He may still be here potentially. So once again, I hope he doesn't continue these streams where he cosplays as a doctor.
@@OldSchoolMinded Well a couple facts for you. This "doctor" is an actual doctor who has done a lot for a community that didn't exist prior to him. See there was no one before him trying to do this. I think plenty of people will tell you this "doctor" like you say has actually been very helpful. I am so sorry he hasn't for you which leads nicely into my next thing. You said "people should be going to respected doctors". Glad you mentioned that because another fact is he says this at the start of all his streams and recommends everyone to seek professional help. You also say "Imagine if Reckful actually had gone to a REAL doctor. He may still be here potentially". Yeah he might of been here or maybe not you don't know that and neither did Doctor K. So I understand losing someone hurts but we all found out about his death and it sucks. What I think you should do is maybe take a breather because looking to point a finger at Doctor K isn't bringing anyone back.
I’ve come back to this one video many times now. Damn, humans are so beautiful and complex. Which makes it that much more painful to see this. My heart goes out to him, his family/friends and all of those impacted by this tragedy.
Figured I'd leave this here for Dr. K in light of his response to the tragic passing of Bryon. I'm not involved with treatment of mental illnesses on any level. Not educated of the nature of these things past basic things that you learn as you interact with depressed friends. But I still feel Dr. K is unfair to himself. He puts the weight of this on himself, but that's just not right. Doc, I just want you to know that even though Reckful couldn't claw his way out of the darkness, a lot of people are making progress through your content. You help more people than you can imagine. I can't even imagine the emotional shitstorm this could be for you, but just know that this isn't on you, and that even though Reckful passed on to the next phase, whatever it may be, a lot of people are buckling up, and fighting through it thanks to you, and the wonderfully imaginative work you are doing, showing a lot of young people that even these modern day stars/idols have problems, and showing that it's human, and that it CAN be tackled. Thanks for your work. You are truly making the world better, one session at a time.
Here is where I say something horrible and non-constructive: You have a guy who is depressed and at one point is suicidal. He may have already made up his mind and nothing at that point will matter in terms of advice, rehabilitation or treatment. NOW...you have a psychiatrists who moonlights as a gamer; can't treat people over the internet, but can 'talk' depression to other gamers. On the one hand, he must follow guildlines that his profession created to make sure authenticity can be guaranteed...but then you say you believe in reincarnation? Maybe next time you talk with people who have ended their life here is a suggestion: DON'T MENTION REINCARNATION.
Therapy and stuff like this requires a lot of trust and investment on both ends even when done on stream or posted online, dr k has to go through the process he has to go through and all we can do is be here for him
@@Teabonesteak To say the concept of Reincarnation would make suicide a viable option is a shallow grasp of the entire concept. If Reckful perhaps looked further into the concept of Reincarnation, I doubt he would have a shallow understanding of it. He was a very smart person. I get what you're trying to say, but in a joking way you don't want to commit suicide and come back as an undesirable creature... PS: I do not believe in reincarnation, just my two cents
@@chancho1010 yeah i agree with you! Not that it has anything to do with this, but Reckful did say on his last stream as a "joke" "what if i had to die to get to the next level/game" Or someting like that
His willingness to be vulnerable in these videos, along with your ability to bring him to realization of his thought patterns, and gently moving him deeper into, introspection is amazing. These conversations will aid so many people moving forward into the future. Reckful, Byron. Rest In Peace.
I cried and realized a LOT of what is being said in this mirrors in my own life. I've not been through anything nearly as traumatic as Reckful, but I've struggled for over a decade finding meaning in things. I was a missionary for my church for 2 years and being 100% honest, it was the most meaningful time of my life. Being able to actively go out every single day and help people as well as help and better myself was the most fulfilling thing I've ever done. Then I come back to the US and all of it is immediately removed. I've spent the last decade avoiding applying myself to almost anything I've done, simply because I just didn't see how it could top what I did. The only things I've actually tried to be good at are: Being a husband/father, and video games. The escapism from video games is really the biggest reason, and because in general I'm above average in skill at them. Now I'm sitting here, 30 yrs old, and I'm struggling to determine what kind of career I can commit myself to that will bring me that self-actualization. It feels like I'm standing on a plateau and don't know which way to go to keep moving up.
This man was completely and utterly shattered by the loss of his brother and he was never able to recover. Nothing he achieved could fill the void his brother left behind and it destroyed him from the inside out. What a tragic end to such a lovable guy. I don't think I will get over this one for a long time.
DrK Quack depression often has a precipitating event, maybe more often than not in fact: it usually seems to be a combination of bad wiring *and* bad events/circumstances/etc. so yeah thanks for weighing in but no lol
DrK Quack you seem to believe that any psychological issue that can be traced back to a certain event is automatically PTSD. you believe this because you know nothing about anything. here’s the second paragraph from a webmd article, which is the top result for “depression causes”: “Depression is an extremely complex disease. No one knows exactly what causes it, but it can occur for a variety of reasons. Some people experience depression during a serious medical illness. Others may have depression with life changes such as a move ***or the death of a loved one***.”
@@Dragoon_99 You know, I saw that in chat while watching Doctor K's last stream. Its beyond sick to say the blood is on the hands of a man who literally talked with him for what, ten hours in total? Not to factor in the offline time. People see Doc as a psychiatrist who should be healing everyone he talks to, when that's literally not the point of what he does - he's trying to teach healthy ways of thinking, like a nutritionist would recommend chicken to someone who needs protein... only the brain is harder to reformat. The "blood is on your hands" toxicity, is a contributing factor to why people are getting disconnected and feeling as low as they do.
LMAO I was doing the meditation part and accidentally paused during the covering your eyes section. I was like, "damn, this is a long meditation session..."
@@Imthesoulofthes Out of all things that he was going through you really think he did it because of internet trolls he has been dealing since say 1 on the internet? really?
1:10:53 "I'll try not to kill myself anytime soon for you" - that hit me so hard the first time, even harder now rewatching this. I've been crying like baby the last two days about Reckfuls loss and I didn't even personally know him, but shit he was such an important person for the streaming and gaming world and I have been watching him for so many years it just hurts for so many different reasons. I was always hoping he would be getting better but unfortunately that was not the case. RIP Reckful, you will always be remembered. I hope you found a place to rest your mind now.
I am personally in a very tough spot right now and I am coming back to this video hoping it may help me push through. Byron bud, send me strength along with Etika. Rest well buddy.
Idk you, idk your story, and idk what your dealing with..but i hope whatever it is you stay strong and pull through. Keep going, were rootin for you🥺💯💪.
"Reckful, I think you love 5-year old you a lot, and I think you have a lot of hurt because something really bad happened to him" holy shit, I was sobbing at this part. Something about that statement resonated with me so much.
This man is not a psychologist, he is not a harvard ilumni. He is a charlatan and you are an easily manipulated moron. Emotional manipulation is easy against weak characters.
86Corvus you can literally book an appointment with him and his credentials are public. unless you know something I don’t it seems like you’re just trying to be a contrarian
I'll never forget him man. Watched him on Twitch for years on and off, watched many of his videos, and I also was super excited for his game and tested Everland a few months ago (I think it wa). Rest in peace. He deserves it.
He is so intelligent and empathetic to the plight of lonely people in this world. Such an inspiration. I am so sorry that he wasn’t able to win this battle. RIP Byron Reckful
When Reckful passed, it was probably the one time I ever cried over someone I didn't personally know. His chats with Dr. K. really helped me personally, and I just wish he was still here. I hope he knows how much we miss him, and that he can never be replaced. Byron was truly a one of a kind person, and his leaving has truly left me with a hole in my heart. Rest in peace buddy.
This was the first video that opened me up to the possibility of having depression. It served as an epiphany for me and sparked a change that will likely impact the rest of my life. I didn't watch Reckful frequently before or after this moment, but because I shared this brief two hours with he and Dr. K I learned more about my own mental health. I will not let Byron's death be in vain, and I will continue to prosper. Rest in peace.
This was truly meaningful. Not only what doctor K excellent at finding the root of the problem but the honesty and grace in how Reckful responded made this a profound experience for me. I really got to like you Byron, during these 2 hours and I'm grateful for your time here with us, however shortlived. Rest in peace Reckful.
47:45 Damn that was such a wonderful thing to see. How Reckful went from being so hurt by those memories that he lost control of his body, then try to deny he could even describe what he felt and regaining control of his body and thoughts in a matter of seconds. Fucking Impressive. You help people do magic.
This deserves waaayyyy more views than what it's at right now. This is not only one of the most interesting, captivating and compelling talks I've listened to but also great content. I could relate to Reckful in a lot of ways and he showed genuine raw emotion here that evolved over the course of essentially a few minutes. I cannot emphasize enough--to be able to really move Reckful on that sort of emotional level within a short period of time--all I can say is that you are very good at what you do and I've become fascinated from watching this.
1:10:52 Statements like this can be so nonchalant. It is important to say what you mean... In this case I believe Reckful was stuck in his thought loop and returning to an existential manner (possibly due to being in a "break" as Dr.K described earlier in video). The context is a chat about depression and Dr.K was discussing hypothetical legal issues moments before. It is easy to see how it comes almost natural especially with context of the video, but it is such a key moment that can be assimilated with hindsight. I am discovering this channel due to the sad circumstances of Reckful's passing, but I am glad to be able to subscribe to such a wonderful cause. Explaining your story to Reckful was fascinating but also listening to your meaningful discussion with Reckful while he goes through all sorts of emotions was beautiful. For what it's worth I thank you for being there for Reckful in such a touching way.
Been feeling like shit, sought our some helpful stuff like this and found his gifted kid video and found it helpful so looked at the rest of his videos for more. Seeing this was like a sledgehammer to the brain. I loved you Byron and you are so so missed. I quit twitch entirely after you passed. Its too painful. I wish you were still here man I really really do
34:50 Really got me. Also his little outburst when talking about how much he looked forward playing with his brothers. RIP Reckful. You've done so much.
Much love to you Reckful, wasn’t an OG fan but fell in love with your Hearthstone content when that was beginning to take off. I remember taking one of your decks cheesy Big Druid decks to Legend rank my first time ever!! R.I.P 😢❤️
I can't help but sometimes come back to this video. Something about it feels comforting, maybe even cathartic. I'm sure Byron would be happy to see how many people he reached and I'm sure he'd be happy with how many people he helped cope with their depression from listening to the two of you alone. Rest in peace.
Never watched him but Ive always heard of him through my friends that played wow pvp. Really wish I knew him because damn do I relate to him so much. For Reckful we must all find a purpose in life so we dont lose anymore beautiful human beings like this man right here. RIP Reckful you were truly great even though you may have not seen that.
Basically no one in real life cares about ppl that. Talking from experience lol. Pretending to be happy works but then when u try to open up most people (even good friends) just assume you re overthinking shit and stuff. I heard rekful’s chat was telling him to kill himself. Can u believe that shit? At the same time some random person on the internet can encourage the shit out of you. Fucked up society
I felt like I could relate so much to him, especially when they were talking about how he is trying to help others not feel the way he does and how that gave him moments of purpose. I started crying man, I feel that.
Kinda felt this been happening to me ever since 2018 everytime i wake up i feel weak and i cant seem to do anything right and same as reckful said idc if i dont eat sometimes or when im really hungry i eat then just lay in bed
@c a well, you either create some pupose for yourself... or you become subjected to some sort of purpose (e.g. others telling you what to do) that's if you want purpose
@c a ah i see where you're coming from... that which always was (i.e. the original source--could there be a source of the source boy i dunnno); well, you would have to experience that for yourself (heck, never met anyone who has in this life but its certainly claimed [i mean we came from / are 'that' so what's stopping us from doing so in realising this underlying truth?] but its the only logical answer) but requires the right know how to do so (sorry i dont have a silver bullet for you) but, again, you may find that the purpose is simply 'to create' and experience infinite forms of existence [or game / rpg]).
Grown ass man here. It makes me wanna cry seeing Byron and hearing his voice... His streams always were the highlight of my days when I was broke and alone. If there is a heaven I hope Byron goes there.
After I watched these a few days ago...coming back today just..hits too hard. I identified with so many things.. You deserved better. I hope you're resting easy, now, man...
I always come back to this video when I'm feeling down. I've probably watched it 3-4 times over the last 2 years. Everytime it gives me a bit courage to keep going. Miss you Byron. You were always a huge role model. Even tho you didn't make it through all of your stuggles, you give plenty of people courage to go on.
I never knew about Reckful's past beyond his being depressed. This was absolutely enlightening and encouraging as someone who has felt like Byron has. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
From what little I've seen, Dr. K is a fantastic psychologist. His analysis of people who suffer from similar mental roadblocks as I do has really been a learning experience for me while also confirming many of the incongruities I've discovered about myself during my boring job. One minor criticism I would have of him is that sometimes he is a bit too confident in his own readings of what peoples core psychological issues are. Granted, this is usually after a pretty good combing of their mental positioning and subconscious goals, so I think he is well qualified to point out most issues people may have. But when a question or a prodding about someone's mental path is a bit too confidently asked, especially when they are in such a vulnerable and suggestive mental state, it can seem a bit like you are "leading the witness". But, I think that's why this setup is so good because it helps the person feel more comfort being in their own domiciles where they feel more in control of their participation.
I'm depressed and think life is pointless. Dr. K replies. Actually lifes not even real . Dude needs to go back to school and work under better psychiatrists and keep learning than whatever this arrogant dog shit is that he's uploading
@@crispycaveman8510 You're baiting dude. No sane thoroughly, professionally, academically trained psychiatrist would say something to their patients they know is not gonna serve their purpose well. The truth of the matter is that we don't know why the dude committed suicide, nobody truly does, say it could have just been by pure chance that Reckful may have woke up one day feeling especially depressed and just decided to do it spontaneously. When things like that happen to people they're usually not the most logical. He may have just been at the wrong place at the wrong time. Maybe, maybe not. Who knows. You're presuming shit off of peoples' lives you know close to nothing of.
@@xeixi3789 to elaborate no sane, well trained psychologist would entertain the train of thought that would lead a suicidal person to believe this world isn't real. HealthygamerGG should delete himself and go back to school. he's a danger to himself or others
I was so scared to watch these videos, knowing before that he's gone now. I was never a fan of Reckful, simply because I did not know of him. It's funny that like too many other people I become a fan of, I only became a fan after his death. RIP Reckful, you are still making the world a better place and still helping people, you're helping me.
I really identified with Reckful when this streamed 7 months ago. I want to listen to it again but can’t. Dr. K.’s talk about suicide today was really helpful.
If anyone is feeling lost or low out there - you’re not alone, you are loved, you are worth helping. There are people who want to help you, connect with you and listen to what you have to say. Your mindset can change and be something worth exploring. Best wishes, love and peace 💕
Today is the first time I've ever even heard of Reckful, and I've got to say that he's a very down to Earth and honest individual. I've also had days where I felt like it wouldn't make a difference whether I got out of bed or didn't.. I stayed up all night watching these videos and videos of his streams and I notice the same patterns in myself that I notice in him. I like how Dr. K put it, something along the lines of our anxiety being a guard dog that is a little too sensitive. I like this perspective and I personally am going to try to look at it in a better light and new perspective. If anyone out there is going through any kind of mental instability or health issues, I wish the best for you and please remember to stay strong, Reckful is nothing but an inspiration to us all. Peace and love.
48:00 really got me, I almost lost my oldest brother on multiple occasions to depression, and have a really similar childhood of just loving playing games with him. I was just one storm away from losing one of my biggest sources of joy growing up, and that's so hurtful to think about.
Cant Imagine how Doc feels, he was aware of the things Reckful had, not only like many others from seeing him online but professionally and understanding the things going on. Hope he does not blame himself for not bringing him out of this.
I loved this conversation, it resonated with me so much so I looked up Reckful only to find out he's gone. Broke me a little and I only just discovered who he was because I was never into Twitch.
I never knew who he was but I remember when he off'd himself. Too bad he had internet fame and a support network but chose to not deal with his issues in the correct and necessary way
I was so depressed early 2020, came across this video and it made a little better. Today I was watching Becca (didn't know they had a relation until a couple minutes ago while searching what happened))... and Later in the night I accidentaly went to this video again, and discovered that this cool kid which I had related early this year and helped me to not commit suicide, had did it. Rest in Peace Reckful, you helped a lot of ppl! Thank you
RIP Byron. This video saved my life at a time where I was so lost. UA-cam recommended this video to me while I was tripping on shrooms and I had a spiritual experience. I found myself relating to so much of what Reckful was saying and it made me do some deep introspection and start working on things soon after watching this video. Fast forward a few months later and I’m feeling the best I have ever felt all thanks to stumbling upon this video. Byron being brave enough to share his story literally changed my life and I will always be grateful 🙌🏼
purpose in destruction, yes. He helped fuel this toxic acceptance of depression and other evil as well. Little do you guys know, all your "emotional support" and help you gave him actually just pushed him further and further towards killing himself, which by the way, strong men, LEGENDS, never would do. He was a miserable person all the way
@@jeCktHeReal Your pessimism is not welcome here. If Reckful didn't want help, he wouldn't have sought out Dr. K. And I believe that the opposite is true (negativity contributed to his demise, just like you're doing now).
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RIP Reckful, you will always be remembered as a legend.
This hits harder than rock in the face... I really was cheering for him to get better... I feel so sad right now, man. :( R.I.P Reckful
RIP, I thought Etika's passing would've prevented stuff like this- although I've heard Reckful's community tried reaching out but still this sucks.
FeelsBadMan
rip :(
Sadge
This.. is extremely tough to come back to now, rest in peace :(
both him and his brother commited suicide
Changes things
very :(
i have the feeling that this therapy session shouldn't be live. i mean this is very personal, byron is exposing his weakness on the internet and some trolls can take advantage of this.
@@tyrellwreleck4226 Exactly my thoughts after watching a few of these... Yes, he seems to be a very good psychologist but by having the conversations in public there is a danger of exploitation.
I do believe that he is genuinely compassionate but I don‘t know if he‘s actually doing his interviewees any favours here. As I came here from the angle of being interested in mental illness as opposed to the streamers themselves I do not know whether there have actually been negative consequences.
The comments on this channel have generally been very supportive so that‘s making me hopeful at least.
This is absolutely heartbreaking.
So done with 2020 :(
Wtf...
I’ve been on a Dr. K binge for the past month and watching this stream in particular impacted me so goddamn much. Mental illness is truly a horrible thing and my heart goes out to his family
I don't have words. rest in peace Byron.
very depressing dude Rip Byron
man its crazy to think he really is gone, rip reckful.
im getting all this in my recommended its so hard to watch
getting stuff like this on my feed pains me so hard. i’m collapsing under an 80 foot pile of snow
too real.
:(
Stings remebering 6 months later... Rip Byron. My fight continues for you, and many others whos lives ended too early... Hope things are the best wherever you're at man. :(
“I’ll try not to kill myself anytime soon”
Man that hurts to hear. Rip Byron.
He laughed it off too. I am truly shook and it hurts. I agree
imagine copying top comments
ive heard if people announce that they will suicide they wont do it. if they dont its much more likely and dangerous situation for them :(
Do. Or do not. There is no try. Lul.
@@rammyrem7225 stfu weeb people type what they want
Reckful jokes he won't kill himself. Damn hits harder now that he's gone.1:10:46
Crazy to hear him say that and how fast it can change. Who knows how much he was actually thinking about killing himself at the time or if it was just a complete 180.
him saying that broke my heart... :(
"A substantial source of the disease burden in bipolar disorder is suicide-related (1). Researchers estimate that between 25% and 60% of individuals with bipolar disorder will attempt suicide at least once in their lives and between 4% and 19% will complete suicide (2)"
us bipolar ppl walk around with these stats all day....its a weird reality to grasp, to cope with, to process....
its weird - they are so different but, i'm feeling kind of like how i felt when Mark Fisher died.
bipolar ppl have such beauty to offer, and our society fails them so fucking hard. just like it fails so many others.and for what? for the capitalist class to keep up the scam, keep accumulating all the wealth, keep exploiting labor and destroying the planet. fucking hell. idk what to do. this shit got me up late tonight.
shoutouts and much love to all y'all
@@dillonv5345 I really hate how people always dive into the victim mindset when talking about mental illness, saying things like 'society fails them' and blaming it on capitalism etc. Having a mental illness doesn't alleviate your personal responsibility, sure some things will be harder, but even ill people are more than only 'depressed' or 'bipolar' and in the end they're the only ones responsible for their suicide. Blaming their problems on society won't help anyone.
@@Buceesfanmaarten may Allah enlighten your heart and soul. keep that crazy level of insensitivity when someone close to you dies because of suicide lol.
He probably helped THOUSANDS of people through showing and being so open about his problems.. Sadly no one could save him. RIP Byron. You seem like the nicest guy.
the light that burns 2x stronger last for 2x less
Yeah man the end of his stream .. there was a clear sign of him going to commit suicide. But he looked happy to do it. Its basically what Etika felt like. When you feel like that your curiosity takes over and you cant help but think of those feelings going away. Pain going away, the meaning of life may be understood. But I believe I have a gift of hearing and seeing spirits and ones I believe that committed suicide seem to be the angry ones that get stuck here. In a loop of repeating what they did before they took their life. Now I don't fully understand why but I have seen spirits at the same house they have hung themselves. But I have also sent his when someone dies in a tragic way like car accidents. They will get stuck there. I think my meaning of life is the help them move on. But this is new to me and theres not a book or people to tell me how to use this gift(which doesn't feel like a gift, it actually really sucks because you can't shut it off) I put this out there for people who may see this and understand that suicide is not the way out. Take it for what it's worth to you. I believe in an afterlife, I am not religious but I have seen and felt things . Spirits don't like questions about the afterlife its weird. They will stop answering you. And it's rare to actually get answers in something you can hear. For me the best way is to ask yes or no questions and they can tap your hand 2 times for yes or once for no. I don't know how to tap into the hearing them speak. I can mostly just see them. As either a dark figure at first or a bright light. And the you get flashes of faces once they touch me. And they are not all pretty. Anyways I'm rambling haha. Don't think suicide is a way out.. it will leave you in a worse place. A lot of them have no idea why we cant see them or hear them so that's why a lot of hauntings happen.
@@andrewbartleman9169 Okay you have smoke some heavy shit.
@Sreten Jocić the only one who pushed something was twitter twats
@@GamingDualities And twitch users spamming mean comments.
Reckful reminds me a lot of a quote that Robin Williams said, "I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel like that."... RIP Byron... I wish the world was better to you... I didn't know you but I will miss you...
he idolize these suicidal people thats his purpose since he was a teen so its inevitable now
I finished reading that and burst into tears.
Shit man, that about sums up why I am nice to people.
Surely in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find comfort. Quran 13:28
@@hallucy2215 you have no idea what you're talking about.
I cried watching this 6 months ago. Cried again when I got the news about his death. Thank you Byron for having the courage to speak openly about your depression. RIP.
RIP its so sad that he was having this constant battle. I cant even imagine how hard that must be...
lol
Det är så otroligt tragiskt :(
I also cried watching it... he will be missed
Hobo J Most people aren't like you and I where we only cry for very specific reasons. You are detached so you can't understand their emotions.
Absolutely the most insightful talk I’ve ever listened to. Helped me realize so much about myself!
srsly ? u have youtube right ? If this is ur first mind opening video than its too late for u. i didnt hear anything that i dont arleady know.
me too. ive watched this multiple times from this channel and reckfuls. can relate to a lot of the things brought up
@@newworld322 You should stop watching videos that open your mind and start watching videos on grammar.
@@newworld322 Its less about knowledge and more about experience/being honestly.
@@newworld322 I'm sorry you feel this way man. First, it is never too late. Second every person or doctor in this case will have their own unique perspective and whatnot, he (Ol Chum) might have just found something very new despite whatever came before. Everything you heard, you did not know, for example, Reckful's story, his thoughts, thoughts of the Doctor. Any new information is useful.
Why do you feel the need to judge someone who just thought it would be good to write a thankful comment?
He was so smart, curious and articulate. It s such a shame we lost such a brilliant young man
Yeah. He really is a dick for it.
This virtue signalling shit is obnoxious
@@billybobbobson3797 What?
@@billybobbobson3797 you know he killed himself right.
@@MikeHawk-ub5hm Yeah. He's a piece of shit for killing himself. Now i get to hear people signal their asses off about how much they care. When they dont.
@@billybobbobson3797 dont be " that guy " .
I remember seeing Byron one time in a store in Austin, and I didn't want to approach him because he was with some friends. I was so excited because I had been watching him since I was a kid. This was a couple of weeks before he passed. His passing was quite possibly the first 'celebrity' passing that hit me hard because he was such a huge part of my childhood. RIP Byron, you will never be forgotten
Much love to you, I wish you the best have A blessed day
I once saw Reckful at a grocery store in Los Angeles. I told him how cool it was to meet him in person, but I didn’t want to be a douche and bother him and ask him for photos or anything.
He said, “Oh, like you’re doing now?”
I was taken aback, and all I could say was “Huh?” but he kept cutting me off and going “huh? huh? huh?” and closing his hand shut in front of my face. I walked away and continued with my shopping, and I heard him chuckle as I walked off. When I came to pay for my stuff up front I saw him trying to walk out the doors with like fifteen Milky Ways in his hands without paying.
The girl at the counter was very nice about it and professional, and was like “Sir, you need to pay for those first.” At first he kept pretending to be tired and not hear her, but eventually turned back around and brought them to the counter.
When she took one of the bars and started scanning it multiple times, he stopped her and told her to scan them each individually “to prevent any electrical infetterence,” and then turned around and winked at me. I don’t even think that’s a word. After she scanned each bar and put them in a bag and started to say the price, he kept interrupting her by yawning really loudly.
@@MalphasMikaelson sounds made up af
@@MalphasMikaelson sure it did bro.
@@Eventzz0 It's a copy pasta
Reckful being so public about his life and feelings is such a blessing in disguise. I'm so sorry we couldn't save you Byron. I'll always remember you and work to make things better.
he said it himself... aoe healing
he's just an honest person, he knows that him doing this can help other people, which is fucking awesome.
@@dcort100 alok is just a holy priest from wow
:/
@@miapocalypse3364 I'm so incredibly sad man.
I feel so so so bad for Byron's parents, losing both their sons. This shit sucks, I don't even know what to say. Its so depressing...much love to anyone reading this, we're all gonna make it. Stay strong everyone.
They have another son I believe? or daughter? the odds aren't looking great though for him/her lol
we would have never imagined that he was about to suicide, mental health is at least as important as body health.
Folisaa I get that you were trying to lighten the mood, but that wasn’t funny.
@@Folisaa Wow... Not funny at all.. How insensitive of you. Gross internet trolls.
@@Folisaa what is wrong with you?
When Reckful started crying I also cried my face off because I feel so much of what he's feeling. Rest in peace man, I will help myself in your honor.
This is the best thing people can do to honor others. Better themselves and the world around them.
Hey. I think you should try intense workout+getting a good diet(get rid of sugar and processed shit)+set urself a life goal.. Good luck
You got it man
@@HabibiGa1z I've got the diet and workout nailed down my biggest problem is not being able to find a main life goal to work towards my life just feels meaningless because of it.. Whatever I try to do eventually I give up because it just stops interesting me and my depression comes back..
@@Maxmax10050 well that part you have to figure out for yourself mate.. good luck with it. good thing that you are taking diet and excercise seriously, cause that shit fucks with you
I never knew Byron had a brother who also committed suicide. God that's fucking awful... Imagine his parents... Knowing they lost 2 kids so early due to grave mental health issues.
Super fucking sad man.
Don't you think they failed their 2nd son though? He said he was 6 when his brother commited suicide, why they weren't extra careful after? He got depression when he was 14, it rarely happens out of thin air.
Where were friends? Why he was left alone to play games for whole days? This should NEVER happen. I mean, there's nothing wrong playing games but this guy was depressed and was left alone to deal with toxic viewers who told him to kill himself etc - and it happened every single day. This isn't a good environment for a depressed person with a bipolar disorder. It's the worst scenario imho. I also have a depression although I lack the emotional response (I'm psychopath) - I have to be forced to do anything, even getting out the dishes from a dishwasher. I'm tired, I don't want to do anything and I'm fed up with myself. If we add grief/sadness/misery to that then I'm seriously surprised he managed to go this far without a support.
@@vanitas-5276 The Best Medicine for Depression: Discipline
@@trendqiang3921 Sometimes yes, sometimes it makes things worse. Each case is different and require different approach. There's no 1 good method.
Still. People should never be left alone to deal with their demons and it looks like this poor lad had to manage by himself. Parents failed. Mom and brother locked themselves in their rooms in grief and left poor kid out. It causes trauma. Then friends didn't help either because what? He said "no"? Force your way in if you care about someone.
@@vanitas-5276 Self-discipline puts your biological clock back on track and reduces the physical symptoms of depression, which in turn reduces the frequency and severity of depression
@@vanitas-5276 Best of all, self-discipline is a non-targeted behavior, you don’t need motivation to develop self-discipline, you just need to follow the alarm clock
When Reckful started crying I couldn’t hold it in anymore, fuck... this Man will be missed forever. Thanks for 8 years that I have known you. I love you Byron. RIP we will see again
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Indeed, such powerful emotions.
around 47:45 (and further) for the people wanting a timestamp.
@@NakedTrashPanda absolutely insane that just by running through his breathing form he can calm down a man breaking down, in seconds... thank you dr k, thank you reckful
The feels... that moment hit hard
Dr. K, you helped a drowning man stay afloat longer than they could have on their own. Never and I mean, NEVER feel guilty over trying to help someone. I don't know if this is the first time for you going through something like this but I am certain you played a part in his survival, not his death. I'd almost bet money he was in a manic moment and was spiraling to the point he never even considered calling anyone. He was loved and not just by you. There was nothing you could have done. If there were, you would have done it. We all know that. WE ALL KNOW THAT! It's important that you know that, too. We love you and we miss Reckful already but right now I worry about those close to him and you were one of the first I thought of. I don't know if you'll be reading comments on this video anytime soon but when you do, know that we don't blame you, I am certain Reckful doesn't blame you, and you shouldn't blame you.
With that said, I'm going to go cry in a ball now.
need to up vote this for Dr to see.
Yes I can't imagine what Dr k is feeling right now
Luke 222 unfortunately it’s just a part of his job. Another reason I couldn’t possibly do what he does. Absolute hero and an inspiration. Mad respect to Dr k. RIP Byron. My hero. The reason I started playing WoW.
@@Bryophyta I'm replying this to you not for the sake of being a keyboard warrior or white knight but because its something that affects me deeply and I've spent many many years constantly reading up about it, trying to understand depression and my best friend and I have some disagreement to your careless and not properly explained commentary.
In this case it seemed more like Dr K. was approaching streamers in a more friend-like manner since streamers revolve having their lives and actions going out public..
Often people who go for treatment may have trouble opening up and asking for help and I understand that because my best friend has severe depression/suicidal thoughts/ severe anxiety/actual life-threatening illness which he won't be able to live up to a ripe age and it has been a struggle the past 8 years especially for me to reach out to him despite how important he says I am to him..
ultimately Dr K made the disclaimer at the very start and he even offered to help privately eg he suggested discord whenever R's feeling overwhelmed/unable to cope/suicidal (the actual word he used). If anything, i think Dr K helped him to find how to better better approach contentment and fulfilment in life. I believe we live in a world where we read so much online about depression and happiness that they constantly feel like they're in a battle to sort it out but not understand and knowing what exactly is causing them to feel that way and how they could be dealing with it better rather than use distractions to temporarily get that "happy" feeling.
Dr K even helped teach meditation and for him to better control whenever his depression acts up and that he can be in better control of it. You could tell from the excitement/sudden short teary outburst in R's voice and vocal expression and even body language to keep pushing forward with the session. Dr K always checked on R and even persuaded him to take a break even when R didn't want to and thought he was okay to continue.
Each time Dr K said something helpful its like you can see R lit up and being a little more happy and hopeful. You know that wasn't fake or acted out. Why do you blame Dr K? So many of the guests have their personal therapist/counsellors aside from attending a session with Dr K. Because he has his own patients and these streamers aren't officially checked into the clinic/hospital with him as their appointed Dr. Reminder that Dr K also is someone who actually works as a proper counsellor and even see actual outside patients. Dr K even said he'ld welcome R's parents to come onto the session. That would be important since his depression got triggered because of family issues... with Guy leaving... If anything, R could have approached him for private actual sessions and I'm sure Dr K. would have opened R with welcome arms.
Piano Nugget Dr.K offered to talk to him more privately if he wanted. When big streamers like Reckful are open about their mental health and can talk about it to the public it can help a lot of people with whatever they are currently facing. It can make people see the problems that these people face to help them work through whatever they are working through. People feel less alone when they see other people being so vulnerable about their own feelings.
Poor parents, lost not 1 but 2 sons to this illness. I have bipolar too but I find the gym, diet, being busy and thinking of my friend who passed from cancer who begged to live died and I remind myself daily when I think of suicide id be pissing on all the graves of those who begged to live.
Doesn't work for everyone but having a goal and being around positive people helps.
I do get my real down days but you have to get through it. Be strong because you may not think it, just like i don't sometimes but there are people who love you.
You hold on brother. Ive had dark times but its nothing compared to people with mental illness. Good luck!
@@MrWarhead16 thank you buddy you too 🤝
I'm going through the same. My friend is dealing with cancer and I feel so guilty because I really feel like dying, while she's trying to live. Is not easy.
@@winterlucy Keep your head up.
Always remember there is ALWAYS someone out there suffering more than you yet they still make it through the day.
Hold onto that feeling.
I was so close to giving in. I was ready. And then the devil appeared to me and was grabbing me saying hes ready to take me. Ever since that day i put the blade down and have never had those thoughts since.... scariest day of my life
The saddest part of this is Byron was so smart AND KNEW exactly what was wrong, but it still couldn't save him, and that is terrifying to me.
your right! your comment makes me wonder... do u actually know what ur talking about? or do u think u know what ur talking about?
@@privatprivat7279 He has no idea bro :(
@@privatprivat7279 extualy?
@@Dirkei
*actually*
Yea bro has no clue hes just very hopeful. Which isnt bad, but also isnt the solution. Dont tell people it gets better or to hold on or keep it together or any generalized shit like that.
I watched this live and it made me realise I've desperately needed therapy I'll never be able to afford. I grew up with an alcoholic mother and was addicted to video games untill I got addicted to drugs. Learning a little about Buddhism and practicing some meditation helped me get and stay clean for 8+ years but my life is empty. My social life revolved around drugs so I had to start over at 26 and it hasn't gone very well. This one talk with Reckful and a couple of your videos have already taught me so much about how my mind works and understand why I feel some of the things I feel. The concepts and techniques you've shared have already helped me. Please keep doing stuff like this.
you can get online help that is not really that expensive. Seek it out, and try to watch more videos about it also, and do some yoga, it seriously helps, day and morning before doing ur day, and to end you're day. I got thereapy that way, changed my life for the better
Also be very careful when seeking therapy some therapist can do as much harm as they do good
@@PvMstevo lol are you dumb? xD
@@Flarpano you think all therapists are equally trained? You think they are perfect humans? You are fucking dumb
@@Flarpano trust me i've been to a few that have made things worse, imagine opening up a lot of loose ends and then not securing them. There's lots of ways it can turn sour but that's one example. I know a few that have had a bad time, it's happens sadly
I wateched this interview back in the day and it gave me so much hope.
Sometimes, depression is just too much for us to handle.
But it doesn't mean that it's gonna be the same way for everyone, do not give up.
Rip Reckful.
Thank you.
At 53:01 i started crying so hard. I finnaly realised why i have been depressed for 10 years. I am thankfull that i could somehow watch this video and finnaly understand myself more. I love how you use your time to help people like reckfull and me.
Hope you're doing better dude
Enk Naran ^
So sad to know that Reckful is no longer with us. He was a gentle, kind soul and he will be missed.
Thank you for trying to help him, Dr. K
RIP Reckful.
This is a real tear-jerker. Love this guy. I'm bipolar type 2 and his story resonates with me. Thank you Dr. K for your contributions to the community
Well, stay strong
Stay Strong, Paul
@@kingmostro3571 I've been having a rough month and greatly appreciate this. Thank you. Stay strong too!
Same, bipolar type 2 here. Every day is a struggle. The depression is the worst part for me. It usually lasts for months. A few times a year I’ll become hypomanic and get a lot of stuff done in a short amount of time, like applying for jobs and working out. But it never lasts, when the hypomania stars to fade into depression I crash and burn real hard. I’m stuck in this cycle of rising and falling over again, it feels like each time I fall it becomes harder to come back.
@@Ray-lw2rh I have started 2 youtube channels and 3 side hustles during hypomanic phases. Each one just disappeared seemingly overnight. The motivation and focus just vanished. I also find it tough to get back up after falling over and over again. Stick with it though. There may be hope in due time.
At around 30 minutes in, Dr. K elaborates on how once Byron "conquered" what he was excited about, he fell back into "just being Reckful". He used Photography and the art gallery to illustrate this point. "Just being Reckful" meant there was nothing to live for; nothing has true purpose. Byron committed suicide soon after debuting his game Everland, on stream, with it being near completion. The purpose of creating a MMO for everyone to love was coming to an end. In addition to this, he was dealing with the COVID-19 isolation, potential rejection from Becca, and online bullying that came from his Twitter post. Could all of this created the perfect storm that Byron failed to overcome? I remember Byron asking Hikaru, on stream, if it was possible to pick up chess later in life and be the best. Hikaru said no, understandably, as the top chess players have been playing their entire lives. I could see the disappointment when Byron accepted that statement as true. He was truly great at everything he invested himself in. We miss you Byron!
I do not know why Hikaru said no when he is not entirely right, while he also wasted his time with XQC teaching him I guess he just did it to get more popular. This just makes me think even less of hikaru.
@@whatever6874 There's a difference between picking up chess later in life to then become the best and picking up chess later in life to then become a great player.
@@lambdcalculus There's a difference between saying yes or no.
@@whatever6874 My point was that Hikaru was not training xQc for him to become the best player. So it doesn't subtract from him saying "no, if you start late, you can't become the best player."
@@lambdcalculus Precisely.. he was 100% right to say no. Since he had not played from youth, to be "the best" .. not gonna happen. He could have been quite good, although.. but never the best.
I think everyone who has ever been depressed should watch this. This is one of the most legendary and iconic mental health conversations ever. This will help A LOT of people. This helped me.
Heya, this comment is a bit old so i apologize but i just would like to ask how exactly this helped you?
I want to watch this video, but i'm just kinda worried about the emotional weight of it..
I hope someone reaches out to his brother Gary, can't imagine losing two brothers in the same way. Rest in peace reckful
:(
Terrible...
don't forget the suicide attempts by their father before which almost turned him into a plant.
@@neeko708 im not familiar, but can suicidal thoughts be genetically inherited? seems like their family has a terrible thing affecting them
@@Opachki69420 yes, it can, to a degree. There are studies that link chromosome 3p25-26 to depression amongst members of the same family/gene pool. There are also studies about the imbalance of Serotonin (the "feel good" hormone), which could potentially be caused by a faulty gene. So far, 60% of depression contributors seem to be environmental. Treatment in the form of therapy or medication seems to work for both "causes" though.
RIP Reckful, I'm still not used to the fact that he is gone, I used to watch him from time to time and I could really relate to some of his issues, we lost a good man :(
I am enthralled by this. As a student mental health professional it amazes me that you are utilising twitch and youtube to spread awareness to a community. I would love to get involved and behind this type of support.
54:45 “I think it can help others too”
At the same moment I blow my nose from a deep bawl... from viewing and learning something about myself.... as I learn about him
You will always make an impact. Thank you sweet angel ❤️
Just a brief look into comment section tells everything. Overwhelmingly positive feedback and many even report crying over this. Invaluable work man, this really reinforces will to become a psychologist or psychiatrist myself.
I have manic depression, and when I heard the news of Byron's passing I started deep cleaning my entire apartment to help distract my mind from the news. I was teary-eyed all day. I watched him for over seven years on Twitch, and suffice to say he had profound impact on my life. RIP Byron. One of the GOATs of WoW Arena.
Hi, I hope you're doing well today.
warm hugs :)
hi i hope you’re alright, im sorry you lost someone that you admired so dearly
Hope you're well man
Thank you all for the warm messages! I lost my aunt (Dad's sister) to COVID in early Nov. I'm doing good in spite of it all the bad year as I still am working remotely from my apartment on a work laptop.
This doctor is brilliant. I’m in awe watching this discussion. The pain he feels after today must be unimaginable.
@@tanjalove8373 ?
@@tanjalove8373 what are you trying to say?
wait the pain who must feel? reckful or the doctor?
@@michaelsuppnick2326 Reckful killed himself the other day :(
what on earth are you on about? he sounds like some random internet kid just trying to have a "deep" discussion
This series has gotten me through so much, I have seen it through more times than I can count. As sad as it ended, this is one of the most important looks into mental health documented, and we should never take it for granted. RIP reckful, an incredible man that I grew up watching and admiring, All of these videos have so much value even though it unfortunately ended tragically. We got to see the beauties and passion, as well as the tragedies in his life before he left.
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His depression is severe its sad to see, its past pain its like he was comfortable with the end in a positive way. RIP I love you bro.
Booth Booth
It’s Dr. K’s fault that reckful killed himself. If Dr. K was actually good at his job and not just speaking out of his ass about voodoo shit with confidence then reckful would still be alive today. Sadge
@@beckembrown7002 i think Dr k gave him extra motivation to keep going for those 6 months but its wasnt enough bc it seems like he was ready to take his life already and Dr k gave him doubts so it stalled for 6 months. It wasn't enough help sadge
@@beckembrown7002 and you can't just blame someone like that if you do you gotta blame everything else its like saying I blame you bc you didn't donate to him saying don't suicide you could of stopped him but instead you spend your money on games and waste it.
@@beckembrown7002 sad
@@beckembrown7002 WTF is wrong with you, obviously a single sessions with a therapist, in front of thousands of people, is not going to instantly cure someone, who had severe mental health issues for over 20 years, there is no single person to blame, if you want blame someone, then blame the abyssimal us healthcare system, a culture of online toxicity(your comment being part of that) and the lack of mental hygiene in modern society.
I didn't even watch reckful, I basically had no prior attachment to this guy. But what happened is so extremely tragic, I can't keep myself from being overwhelmed with sadness. I hope he rests in peace.
Dude seriously, why do people like you feel the need to address this? Seeking attention by griefing for somebody you didn't even know lmao. Same energy as all the "RIP Paul Walker" people. It's super odd.
@@peterwestenthaler7954 It's called empathy. You don't get to tell people how to feel.
@@peterwestenthaler7954 It was not my intention in any way to seek attention, I just think it's very sad
I mean i don't wanna sound like some r/niceguy but uhhh a lot of people are doing this and it could be happening right now which would probably make you sadder...or not let be honest most of us don't actually have that much empathy for each other.
@@Farlon303 empathy for whom? Reckful is clearly dead and his family clearly won't read this. Also I didn't tell him how to feel. He can feel however he likes as far as I am concerned. I am genuinely interested why he felt the need to communicate his feelings for somebody, whom he didn't even know to begin with :D
Dr.k, I hope that hearing about Reckful's suicide will motivate you to dive deeper into the gaming/streaming community rather then give up.
You've done so much good for these people over a short amount of time. The streaming platform is so new, all these amazing people don't know how to organize all the new conflicting thoughts and emotions that comes with streaming.
Thank you for what you've brought to this community, thank you for caring.
After the May fundraiser Dr. K is taking more time away from his practice for Healthy Gamer GG, he won't give up, this is his Dharma. Especially after today...
I'm not trying to be that guy. But screw it. I will be. This "doctor" has done absolutely nothing for the community other than use established streamers to boost his own channel. The feedback he gives back to people is entry level psychology. The fact twitch is even letting him go on with this stuff is very very suspect. People should be going to respected doctors in the scene. Not people who want subs and followers on a shady streaming platform. Imagine if reckful actually had gone to a REAL doctor. He may still be here potentially. So once again, I hope he doesn't continue these streams where he cosplays as a doctor.
@@drkquack8622 Wait, is he not an actual Doctor?
@@OldSchoolMinded Well a couple facts for you. This "doctor" is an actual doctor who has done a lot for a community that didn't exist prior to him. See there was no one before him trying to do this. I think plenty of people will tell you this "doctor" like you say has actually been very helpful. I am so sorry he hasn't for you which leads nicely into my next thing. You said "people should be going to respected doctors". Glad you mentioned that because another fact is he says this at the start of all his streams and recommends everyone to seek professional help.
You also say "Imagine if Reckful actually had gone to a REAL doctor. He may still be here potentially". Yeah he might of been here or maybe not you don't know that and neither did Doctor K. So I understand losing someone hurts but we all found out about his death and it sucks. What I think you should do is maybe take a breather because looking to point a finger at Doctor K isn't bringing anyone back.
@@drkquack8622 dude stop... just stop...
I’ve come back to this one video many times now.
Damn, humans are so beautiful and complex. Which makes it that much more painful to see this. My heart goes out to him, his family/friends and all of those impacted by this tragedy.
Figured I'd leave this here for Dr. K in light of his response to the tragic passing of Bryon.
I'm not involved with treatment of mental illnesses on any level. Not educated of the nature of these things past basic things that you learn as you interact with depressed friends. But I still feel Dr. K is unfair to himself. He puts the weight of this on himself, but that's just not right. Doc, I just want you to know that even though Reckful couldn't claw his way out of the darkness, a lot of people are making progress through your content. You help more people than you can imagine.
I can't even imagine the emotional shitstorm this could be for you, but just know that this isn't on you, and that even though Reckful passed on to the next phase, whatever it may be, a lot of people are buckling up, and fighting through it thanks to you, and the wonderfully imaginative work you are doing, showing a lot of young people that even these modern day stars/idols have problems, and showing that it's human, and that it CAN be tackled.
Thanks for your work. You are truly making the world better, one session at a time.
Here is where I say something horrible and non-constructive:
You have a guy who is depressed and at one point is suicidal. He may have already made up his mind and nothing at that point will matter in terms of advice, rehabilitation or treatment.
NOW...you have a psychiatrists who moonlights as a gamer; can't treat people over the internet, but can 'talk' depression to other gamers. On the one hand, he must follow guildlines that his profession created to make sure authenticity can be guaranteed...but then you say you believe in reincarnation? Maybe next time you talk with people who have ended their life here is a suggestion: DON'T MENTION REINCARNATION.
Therapy and stuff like this requires a lot of trust and investment on both ends even when done on stream or posted online, dr k has to go through the process he has to go through and all we can do is be here for him
@@Teabonesteak To say the concept of Reincarnation would make suicide a viable option is a shallow grasp of the entire concept. If Reckful perhaps looked further into the concept of Reincarnation, I doubt he would have a shallow understanding of it. He was a very smart person.
I get what you're trying to say, but in a joking way you don't want to commit suicide and come back as an undesirable creature... PS: I do not believe in reincarnation, just my two cents
Thanks for that essay, chuck
@@chancho1010 yeah i agree with you! Not that it has anything to do with this, but Reckful did say on his last stream as a "joke" "what if i had to die to get to the next level/game" Or someting like that
His willingness to be vulnerable in these videos, along with your ability to bring him to realization of his thought patterns, and gently moving him deeper into, introspection is amazing.
These conversations will aid so many people moving forward into the future.
Reckful, Byron. Rest In Peace.
I cried and realized a LOT of what is being said in this mirrors in my own life. I've not been through anything nearly as traumatic as Reckful, but I've struggled for over a decade finding meaning in things. I was a missionary for my church for 2 years and being 100% honest, it was the most meaningful time of my life. Being able to actively go out every single day and help people as well as help and better myself was the most fulfilling thing I've ever done.
Then I come back to the US and all of it is immediately removed. I've spent the last decade avoiding applying myself to almost anything I've done, simply because I just didn't see how it could top what I did. The only things I've actually tried to be good at are: Being a husband/father, and video games. The escapism from video games is really the biggest reason, and because in general I'm above average in skill at them.
Now I'm sitting here, 30 yrs old, and I'm struggling to determine what kind of career I can commit myself to that will bring me that self-actualization. It feels like I'm standing on a plateau and don't know which way to go to keep moving up.
Man, i have similar struggles. Hope it will get better.
always come back to this when i’m feeling hopeless about life something about this video is just so comforting RIP to the Legend
Man... I cried with him, there is so much pain that he had to go through. This is so so so sad to see. Rest In Peace Reckful.
This man was completely and utterly shattered by the loss of his brother and he was never able to recover. Nothing he achieved could fill the void his brother left behind and it destroyed him from the inside out. What a tragic end to such a lovable guy. I don't think I will get over this one for a long time.
Man, this is heartbreaking
DrK Quack depression often has a precipitating event, maybe more often than not in fact: it usually seems to be a combination of bad wiring *and* bad events/circumstances/etc. so yeah thanks for weighing in but no lol
DrK Quack dr k isnt a psychiatrist or smt
DrK Quack you seem to believe that any psychological issue that can be traced back to a certain event is automatically PTSD. you believe this because you know nothing about anything. here’s the second paragraph from a webmd article, which is the top result for “depression causes”:
“Depression is an extremely complex disease. No one knows exactly what causes it, but it can occur for a variety of reasons. Some people experience depression during a serious medical illness. Others may have depression with life changes such as a move ***or the death of a loved one***.”
@@drkquack8622 Is that what you keep telling yourself why you are sad?
Doctor K, you gave Reckful the best advice you possibly could have, just a reminder. RIP Reckful, very tragic news :(.
But sadly there was some fucking asshole that said "the blood is on ur hands"
@@Dragoon_99 You know, I saw that in chat while watching Doctor K's last stream. Its beyond sick to say the blood is on the hands of a man who literally talked with him for what, ten hours in total? Not to factor in the offline time. People see Doc as a psychiatrist who should be healing everyone he talks to, when that's literally not the point of what he does - he's trying to teach healthy ways of thinking, like a nutritionist would recommend chicken to someone who needs protein... only the brain is harder to reformat. The "blood is on your hands" toxicity, is a contributing factor to why people are getting disconnected and feeling as low as they do.
34:40 My God, this really got me. The whole conversation leading up to it too. Byron, rest in peace... A kind soul
LMAO I was doing the meditation part and accidentally paused during the covering your eyes section. I was like, "damn, this is a long meditation session..."
😂😂😂
jeez i laugh so hard on this
lol
Legends says he still has his eyes covered up till this day
@@odayahmed95 bruh
Not just a lot of RIPs in the comments. Seems like people actually have to say something personal. That’s great.
Those trolls killed him and now they’re saying rip
@@Imthesoulofthes how?
@@macgmol159 I think the person is referencing the mean spirited comments that reckful got on twitter before he killed himself.
@@Imthesoulofthes Out of all things that he was going through you really think he did it because of internet trolls he has been dealing since say 1 on the internet? really?
@@gothicfan52 Ohhhh Boy, You have NO idea. Do ya?
1:10:53 "I'll try not to kill myself anytime soon for you" - that hit me so hard the first time, even harder now rewatching this. I've been crying like baby the last two days about Reckfuls loss and I didn't even personally know him, but shit he was such an important person for the streaming and gaming world and I have been watching him for so many years it just hurts for so many different reasons. I was always hoping he would be getting better but unfortunately that was not the case.
RIP Reckful, you will always be remembered. I hope you found a place to rest your mind now.
I am personally in a very tough spot right now and I am coming back to this video hoping it may help me push through. Byron bud, send me strength along with Etika. Rest well buddy.
Fight on and win !
Idk you, idk your story, and idk what your dealing with..but i hope whatever it is you stay strong and pull through. Keep going, were rootin for you🥺💯💪.
i hope your doing alright
Be strong my guy!!! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
keep pushing bro
"Reckful, I think you love 5-year old you a lot, and I think you have a lot of hurt because something really bad happened to him"
holy shit, I was sobbing at this part. Something about that statement resonated with me so much.
This man is not a psychologist, he is not a harvard ilumni. He is a charlatan and you are an easily manipulated moron. Emotional manipulation is easy against weak characters.
@@86Corvus where is the information he never went to hardvard?
86Corvus you can literally book an appointment with him and his credentials are public. unless you know something I don’t it seems like you’re just trying to be a contrarian
@@86Corvus stop trying to get attention like this insulting a person who is literally trying to help thousands of people is so pathetic.
@@86Corvus 0/8 tr011 b8 m8 tr1h4rd3r n3xt13m ;)
I'll never forget him man. Watched him on Twitch for years on and off, watched many of his videos, and I also was super excited for his game and tested Everland a few months ago (I think it wa). Rest in peace. He deserves it.
i watched this when it initially came out. truly touched my heart at the time. watching it now knowing that he's gone makes me cry so much.
He is so intelligent and empathetic to the plight of lonely people in this world. Such an inspiration. I am so sorry that he wasn’t able to win this battle. RIP Byron Reckful
When Reckful passed, it was probably the one time I ever cried over someone I didn't personally know. His chats with Dr. K. really helped me personally, and I just wish he was still here. I hope he knows how much we miss him, and that he can never be replaced. Byron was truly a one of a kind person, and his leaving has truly left me with a hole in my heart. Rest in peace buddy.
I watched this stream and felt so good about how Byron was doing in life - grappling with his demons. I never though I'd come back to say RIP :(
This was the first video that opened me up to the possibility of having depression. It served as an epiphany for me and sparked a change that will likely impact the rest of my life. I didn't watch Reckful frequently before or after this moment, but because I shared this brief two hours with he and Dr. K I learned more about my own mental health. I will not let Byron's death be in vain, and I will continue to prosper. Rest in peace.
I'm thinking about you my brotha. Great message.
:')
Good luck brother I believe you 🤟🏼
Be safe brother we can do this.
Macro you are amazing, i believe in you and your journey
This was truly meaningful. Not only what doctor K excellent at finding the root of the problem but the honesty and grace in how Reckful responded made this a profound experience for me. I really got to like you Byron, during these 2 hours and I'm grateful for your time here with us, however shortlived. Rest in peace Reckful.
47:45 Damn that was such a wonderful thing to see. How Reckful went from being so hurt by those memories that he lost control of his body, then try to deny he could even describe what he felt and regaining control of his body and thoughts in a matter of seconds. Fucking Impressive. You help people do magic.
This is just called dissociation from childhood trauma. Don't mistake it for healing, it's definitely not that.
When did i say that is healing? @@fiikahlo
@@fiikahlo Facts. Can speak from personal experience
This deserves waaayyyy more views than what it's at right now. This is not only one of the most interesting, captivating and compelling talks I've listened to but also great content. I could relate to Reckful in a lot of ways and he showed genuine raw emotion here that evolved over the course of essentially a few minutes. I cannot emphasize enough--to be able to really move Reckful on that sort of emotional level within a short period of time--all I can say is that you are very good at what you do and I've become fascinated from watching this.
1:10:52 Statements like this can be so nonchalant. It is important to say what you mean... In this case I believe Reckful was stuck in his thought loop and returning to an existential manner (possibly due to being in a "break" as Dr.K described earlier in video). The context is a chat about depression and Dr.K was discussing hypothetical legal issues moments before. It is easy to see how it comes almost natural especially with context of the video, but it is such a key moment that can be assimilated with hindsight.
I am discovering this channel due to the sad circumstances of Reckful's passing, but I am glad to be able to subscribe to such a wonderful cause. Explaining your story to Reckful was fascinating but also listening to your meaningful discussion with Reckful while he goes through all sorts of emotions was beautiful. For what it's worth I thank you for being there for Reckful in such a touching way.
Been feeling like shit, sought our some helpful stuff like this and found his gifted kid video and found it helpful so looked at the rest of his videos for more. Seeing this was like a sledgehammer to the brain. I loved you Byron and you are so so missed. I quit twitch entirely after you passed. Its too painful. I wish you were still here man I really really do
34:50 Really got me. Also his little outburst when talking about how much he looked forward playing with his brothers. RIP Reckful. You've done so much.
Much love to you Reckful, wasn’t an OG fan but fell in love with your Hearthstone content when that was beginning to take off. I remember taking one of your decks cheesy Big Druid decks to Legend rank my first time ever!! R.I.P 😢❤️
i watched the VOD already on Reckful's channel, but this is one of the better talks ive listened to
My earz were bout to tear apart from the volume in reck's vod lul
I can't help but sometimes come back to this video. Something about it feels comforting, maybe even cathartic. I'm sure Byron would be happy to see how many people he reached and I'm sure he'd be happy with how many people he helped cope with their depression from listening to the two of you alone. Rest in peace.
Never watched him but Ive always heard of him through my friends that played wow pvp. Really wish I knew him because damn do I relate to him so much. For Reckful we must all find a purpose in life so we dont lose anymore beautiful human beings like this man right here. RIP Reckful you were truly great even though you may have not seen that.
Basically no one in real life cares about ppl that. Talking from experience lol. Pretending to be happy works but then when u try to open up most people (even good friends) just assume you re overthinking shit and stuff. I heard rekful’s chat was telling him to kill himself. Can u believe that shit? At the same time some random person on the internet can encourage the shit out of you. Fucked up society
I felt like I could relate so much to him, especially when they were talking about how he is trying to help others not feel the way he does and how that gave him moments of purpose. I started crying man, I feel that.
"When I'm happy, I don't mind the thought that everything has no purpose". Yeah, I understand that. Strange when you think about it. But interesting.
Well our purpose is basically to be happy, right?
Kinda felt this been happening to me ever since 2018 everytime i wake up i feel weak and i cant seem to do anything right and same as reckful said idc if i dont eat sometimes or when im really hungry i eat then just lay in bed
@@letsreadtextbook1687 I think you're right on the money with that one, friend ^^
@c a well, you either create some pupose for yourself... or you become subjected to some sort of purpose (e.g. others telling you what to do)
that's if you want purpose
@c a ah i see where you're coming from... that which always was (i.e. the original source--could there be a source of the source boy i dunnno); well, you would have to experience that for yourself (heck, never met anyone who has in this life but its certainly claimed [i mean we came from / are 'that' so what's stopping us from doing so in realising this underlying truth?] but its the only logical answer) but requires the right know how to do so (sorry i dont have a silver bullet for you) but, again, you may find that the purpose is simply 'to create' and experience infinite forms of existence [or game / rpg]).
the more i watch of you, the more i fucking LOVE what you do man. youre an absolute blessing to the community!
Like fuck, I'm going to therapy for 4 months once per week and I heard more facts about myself from this guy in one video than on regular meetings
Same.
This Video might as well be Dr K talking to me directly rn
Sometimes it might be okay to take your therapy step by step and not all at once.
I''m not saying it isn't'a option to have a session like this :)
Mood
To be fair your therapist is not a buddhist monk with a Harvard education. Hope all is Well!
Your work is ground breaking, huge props for having the courage to do it!
I will never forget Byron, truly. Many people struggle just like he did and his life and legacy means so much to the world. Please rest in peace.
Grown ass man here. It makes me wanna cry seeing Byron and hearing his voice... His streams always were the highlight of my days when I was broke and alone. If there is a heaven I hope Byron goes there.
After I watched these a few days ago...coming back today just..hits too hard. I identified with so many things..
You deserved better. I hope you're resting easy, now, man...
I'm just now finding out about this guy, Reckful and he seems like a genuinely sweet guy. Wish I was there to watch him more. RIP kind soul.
Lol all you kids who didn't know him commenting.. you have no idea
@@siLence-84 of what, exactly?
My god... It's insane how it feels like he've been able to get to know him better than he knew himself... In just an hour. Mind boggling.
I always come back to this video when I'm feeling down. I've probably watched it 3-4 times over the last 2 years. Everytime it gives me a bit courage to keep going. Miss you Byron. You were always a huge role model. Even tho you didn't make it through all of your stuggles, you give plenty of people courage to go on.
Hope you’re doing good man
I never knew about Reckful's past beyond his being depressed. This was absolutely enlightening and encouraging as someone who has felt like Byron has. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
It's tough to watch this knowing he's dead now.
hes what??
@@jeffseid9897 He committed suicide.. 😢. I still can't believe it.
Don't joke about things like that dude. Not funny.
@@MattSkylar ?
@@MattSkylar It's not a joke, as bad as it is, he did commit suicide, which makes this video even harder to watch
From what little I've seen, Dr. K is a fantastic psychologist. His analysis of people who suffer from similar mental roadblocks as I do has really been a learning experience for me while also confirming many of the incongruities I've discovered about myself during my boring job. One minor criticism I would have of him is that sometimes he is a bit too confident in his own readings of what peoples core psychological issues are. Granted, this is usually after a pretty good combing of their mental positioning and subconscious goals, so I think he is well qualified to point out most issues people may have. But when a question or a prodding about someone's mental path is a bit too confidently asked, especially when they are in such a vulnerable and suggestive mental state, it can seem a bit like you are "leading the witness". But, I think that's why this setup is so good because it helps the person feel more comfort being in their own domiciles where they feel more in control of their participation.
Agreed, he oversimplifies the issues I believe.
I'm depressed and think life is pointless. Dr. K replies. Actually lifes not even real . Dude needs to go back to school and work under better psychiatrists and keep learning than whatever this arrogant dog shit is that he's uploading
@@crispycaveman8510 You're baiting dude. No sane thoroughly, professionally, academically trained psychiatrist would say something to their patients they know is not gonna serve their purpose well. The truth of the matter is that we don't know why the dude committed suicide, nobody truly does, say it could have just been by pure chance that Reckful may have woke up one day feeling especially depressed and just decided to do it spontaneously. When things like that happen to people they're usually not the most logical. He may have just been at the wrong place at the wrong time. Maybe, maybe not. Who knows. You're presuming shit off of peoples' lives you know close to nothing of.
@@xeixi3789 exactly
@@xeixi3789 to elaborate no sane, well trained psychologist would entertain the train of thought that would lead a suicidal person to believe this world isn't real. HealthygamerGG should delete himself and go back to school. he's a danger to himself or others
I was so scared to watch these videos, knowing before that he's gone now. I was never a fan of Reckful, simply because I did not know of him. It's funny that like too many other people I become a fan of, I only became a fan after his death. RIP Reckful, you are still making the world a better place and still helping people, you're helping me.
I really identified with Reckful when this streamed 7 months ago. I want to listen to it again but can’t. Dr. K.’s talk about suicide today was really helpful.
If anyone is feeling lost or low out there - you’re not alone, you are loved, you are worth helping. There are people who want to help you, connect with you and listen to what you have to say. Your mindset can change and be something worth exploring. Best wishes, love and peace 💕
Today is the first time I've ever even heard of Reckful, and I've got to say that he's a very down to Earth and honest individual. I've also had days where I felt like it wouldn't make a difference whether I got out of bed or didn't.. I stayed up all night watching these videos and videos of his streams and I notice the same patterns in myself that I notice in him. I like how Dr. K put it, something along the lines of our anxiety being a guard dog that is a little too sensitive. I like this perspective and I personally am going to try to look at it in a better light and new perspective. If anyone out there is going through any kind of mental instability or health issues, I wish the best for you and please remember to stay strong, Reckful is nothing but an inspiration to us all. Peace and love.
Me too. I didn't know of him I don't game but am so so sad over this 💔
Rest in Paradise Reckful you have helped so many people around the world and that’s a inspiration in itself we’re proud of you and we always will be.
This actually sucks, I didnt know him but, ever since recently learning about ive seen everyone's love for him. He was such an icon. Fly high brother.
If he coulda flown hed be alive still
48:00 really got me, I almost lost my oldest brother on multiple occasions to depression, and have a really similar childhood of just loving playing games with him. I was just one storm away from losing one of my biggest sources of joy growing up, and that's so hurtful to think about.
Cant Imagine how Doc feels, he was aware of the things Reckful had, not only like many others from seeing him online but professionally and understanding the things going on. Hope he does not blame himself for not bringing him out of this.
I loved this conversation, it resonated with me so much so I looked up Reckful only to find out he's gone. Broke me a little and I only just discovered who he was because I was never into Twitch.
I never knew who he was but I remember when he off'd himself. Too bad he had internet fame and a support network but chose to not deal with his issues in the correct and necessary way
@@theravenman too bad youre being an asshole wow.
@@ivanac0002 how am i being an asshole?
im crying so hard -- i didnt know this would be so powerful
I was so depressed early 2020, came across this video and it made a little better.
Today I was watching Becca (didn't know they had a relation until a couple minutes ago while searching what happened))...
and Later in the night I accidentaly went to this video again, and discovered that this cool kid which I had related early this year and helped me to not commit suicide, had did it.
Rest in Peace Reckful, you helped a lot of ppl! Thank you
I hope you're doing well, man
RIP Byron. This video saved my life at a time where I was so lost. UA-cam recommended this video to me while I was tripping on shrooms and I had a spiritual experience. I found myself relating to so much of what Reckful was saying and it made me do some deep introspection and start working on things soon after watching this video. Fast forward a few months later and I’m feeling the best I have ever felt all thanks to stumbling upon this video. Byron being brave enough to share his story literally changed my life and I will always be grateful 🙌🏼
RIP Reckful. I found out about him after he was gone but he was such a good soul, you'll always be remembered ❤️
I hate how Reckful says he has no purpose. He brought so much joy to all his viewers and fans, he had so much purpose. RIP
That's the thing with depression: you don't feel as if you have purpose in life, even if others tell you that you do.
Very unfortunate..
@@BennyGoId agreed
purpose in destruction, yes. He helped fuel this toxic acceptance of depression and other evil as well. Little do you guys know, all your "emotional support" and help you gave him actually just pushed him further and further towards killing himself, which by the way, strong men, LEGENDS, never would do. He was a miserable person all the way
@@jeCktHeReal Your pessimism is not welcome here. If Reckful didn't want help, he wouldn't have sought out Dr. K. And I believe that the opposite is true (negativity contributed to his demise, just like you're doing now).
József Gergelics How the fuck is emotional support bad? If anything it was the “trolls”. Like with the etika situation.
Watched this twice now. The insight is amazing, ty Dr.
And now 🥺💔
This is insightful, beautiful, and heartbreaking. Rest In Peace, Reckful.