How It Feels To Have Bottom Surgery!
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- Опубліковано 22 тра 2024
- Join me as I recount the experience of staying in hospital to get gender confirmation surgery (GCS)!
On 12th October, I had a vaginoplasty performed by Ms Tina Rashid at Parkside Hospital in London. This was an extremely challenging experience but also the best moment of my life. In this video, I'll be talking about what I went through while in hospital, as well as my thoughts and feelings around it. It's a long video, sorry!! I'm still getting the hang of this.
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00:00 Prelude
01:50 Day 0
05:12 A leap of faith
07:58 Day 1 - pre surgery
10:32 Day 1 - going to theatre
13:43 Day 1 - waking up
14:41 Day 1 - first video
20:06 Day 2
25:40 Day 3
29:41 Day 4
32:58 Day 6
39:22 Day 7 - going home!
41:55 Conclusion and my thoughts
41:57 Conclusion and my thoughts
41:58 Conclusion and my thoughts
43:33 Thank you
43:34 Thank you
now, you might be wondering why i haven’t made a follow up video to this. i did record one around december, but kinda never got around to editing and publishing it. i’m just kinda lazy! i’ll work on a proper follow up video (with q&a) eventually. turns out video is a lot of work, haha. feel free to ask any questions below.
I think you should only have surgerys if its to save your life or a real medical condition
Surgeries can be for any reason
I had my surgery last August and had a brief moment of panic as I was being wheeled back to the operating room. There was a second of "am I making the right decision?" I think that's normal. More than anything I was more afraid of something going wrong with anesthesia and not waking up. My doctors have said my recovery has been much more difficult than their other patients. I had A LOT of hyper granuloma tissue in the months following and super intense nerve pain. I absolutely couldn't handle doing it on my own in the beginning--I could hardly walk and I'd get SO tired. I'm so thankful that I was able to have my mom with me. Even with all the difficulties and how annoying it can be to dilate so often for a while, I have no regrets.
Do you not think that the fragility, anxiety and emotional distress before your surgery was less to do with the cessation of your medication, and more to do with the enormity of the decision to undergo surgical genital mutilation?
Thank you for sharing your experience. You're a beautiful person.
My, niece had this done. A.nd from what I am getting from her is still unhappiness maybe even more intense !!!!
Cool. I'm happier than ever.
Wonderful,and I want her to be happy.Just be who u really r,If u don't u r not living.
Maisie, thank you so much for doing this. I certainly appreciate how you talked so much about your feelings. There are bunches of UA-cam videos about vaginoplasty but none talk so much about the emotions as your’s did. I’m having my surgery done in a couple of weeks and I would absolutely love if you did a follow up one. Thanks again, Dani
@@minoozolala That which can be asserted without evidence, can be dismissed without evidence.
How did it go?
I hope the surgery went well
Congratulations Maisie! Also, thank you for the video, very insightful.
I truly wish this is the best decision for you and that you have long lasting mental and physical health. This is obviously a huge decision so good luck!
I'm on the waiting list! Almost certainly going to have labiaplasty rather than vaginoplasty. I've had a letter to say they're not taking referrals at present and that I will remain on the waiting list, so I guess there's going to be some delay. Thanks so much for sharing your experience!
oh dear lord, it changes NOTHING no matter what
@@NJMetalGirlso sad they'll never know that
I was at parkside at the same time . Mine was October 15 th 2023. Had mine done by Dr bellringer.
Is that not a future date? I'm reading this in June 2023. Maybe you meant a different year?
@@JaneofArc sorry it was 2022.
@@abbiejones1843 gotcha. ty
I stumbled upon your video last night. My surgery is scheduled for February 14th. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and in so much detail. I hope your recovery continues to go well.
@@lindsaypaige4628 As do you
Been a year, can we get an update?
What a wonderful video, I was just referred for vaginoplasty and I've been doing a bit of research on it. Hearing stories like this is just getting me even more excited!
glad to hear it was useful for ya!
How did it go? Make sure you look into all of the horrific complications too, the technology has some issues! Research your Dr.s and if they switch you at any point, DO NOT go through with it.
I'm thankful for your success and new found happiness! Congrats! ❤️
No more uploads to YT, but still active on twitter. Update?
Do you know how long is the waiting list from Parkside Hospetal for trans women bottom Surgery
I'm unsure, best to ask hospital directly.
I was in the same position has you woken up at 6.45 and the pain it hurt. My surgery was at 8 am .
I am so thankful for you sharing this with us all you wonderful girl! I’ve only just began my transition journey and have fully committed myself to the process but this is the 1 thing that has weighed heavily on my heart and mind! Anyway, again- thank you! Big hugs!!!! 💜💜
DON’T DO IT! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I love these videos especially taking a vlog of the experience and talking about to those who want grs or who are thinking about it as part of their transition and really hard to find information of vlogs/people documenting their experiences in the Uk especially the NHS! This really does give an insight to me of what I'll experience one day and give reassurance and know what to expect to make the recovery and surgery experience easier when I have my GRS. I'm currently waiting on the Nottingham Gender Clinic List and soon to start my medical transition with my first appointment in Q4 of 2024 it's exciting to get the treatment I need to feel connected and happier in my own skin and feel relieved at one with myself for the first time. Thank you! I've subscribed and saved this video for future use when I do get closer to my surgery day
Thanks for putting this together, going to share it with my friends that are a bit intimidated by surgery unknowns.
We've both got the same room just 18 months apart haha
Thank you for this video! I'm having my first surgery assessment soon (requested Ms Rashid for my surgeon). If you're ever contemplating a follow-up video on recovery, I'll definitely watch.
I'm glad your experience at the hospital was a positive one
It's funny that I came across two deaf persons today and I had a "conversation" with them and their guide. Fun times.
Who you are and what you think you are, these are two different things. And no matter what you think you are, and what you do to become who you think you are...it doesn't change who you are, and only adds to what you will have to deal with in the future.
Good luck, my man.
As if you understood anything about the Deaf experience. Or the trans experience :)@@YawnGod I hope you find joy in life my dudes
@@FableM How unwomanly. A man is attempting to give you direction, and you spit at it. Is that how women behave? Is that a productive system of comportment for women?
And you know what's great and sad? I knew you would write a belligerent comment. You are as predictable as the sunrise. There was a TV show called "Jerry Springer". The classic line was "YOU DON'T KNOW ME!"
A woman wants to be saved by a man. Why are you being a man, fighting another man?
Can you understand the incommensurability? Why aren't you letting me save you?
You are deaf to my words. I understand the deaf experience.
You're not trans yet. Imagine what I understand.
It hurt.
That was wonderful. I started to cry when you were tearing up as I was so happy for you. I am so grateful that you shared this beautiful experience. I learned so much. Thank you! 😊🙏😊
This doesn’t sound like a beautiful experience to me. He just had major surgery. He talks about pain, anxiety etc. Having to dialate is not fun either. He talks about his friends who had major complications. Says he was depressed. He talks about his post op experience being some of the hardest days of his life.
@@triciab1860 I think this seems to demonstrate what true transgender people are willing to go through to be their real selves.
@@NJMetalGirl I'm trying to learn as much as I can. You had mentioned you knew people who wished they hadn't had the surgery. How many people have you known. Thanks 😊
@@NJMetalGirlhow can he detransition? The man cut off his coxk?!
Medically assisted self harm is real.
Your brave girl. Im celebrating with you, love the pink hair. You hanging in there? Hows life? I just found your channel and noticed you havent uploaded for many months. Are you okay ?
i don’t often upload videos! it’s not really my main thing, i only do it when i feel like it. i’m planning on doing a follow up whenever i have the time + energy to edit :)
You’re brave.
Happiness is in God Almighty, Loving yourself as you were born is pleasing to God! God doesn’t make mistakes. Repent while you can. We all have to repent.
This is so wild
Wow the bravery you need to do this alone im proud of you girl❤
Love you story, but so much talk between important topics and sensitive ones !!
❤
At what point did you feel the difference between having a penis and then finally having a vagina and what did it feel like from the first time all of the feeling came back to that area?
I do not envy these people for the loneliness and rejection they will face...
Yea its quite a long road of that before transitioning
@@etherealradar and this just makes it worse
Thank you for being publically vulnerable about your srs. This was an educational and articulate video. If we lived in the same community i would ask to take you to lunch. ❤ Let a sister know your doing okay.
You're Not being Denied anything, they do this Simply because LOADS of Trans People have gone into Surgery and Months down the line have regretted it. that's why you have loads of Paperwork and to try and ask if you're truly ready for this Change, I can see where they're coming from, they wanna Protect themselves and you in the Process. It's not classed as ''Denial'' it's classed as ''Protection'' of both Parties.
Going off hormones for a month after 11 years WAS NOT an issue for me. I wonder if she gets periods or other nonsense these younger folks say. I don’t believe that many younger folks are truly “TRANSGENDER”. Maisie is! She actually “transformed” her sex. I’ve been trans since birth or at least since first memory. Some of the “detransitioners are seldom life long trans are bending to their own social issues to be relevant.
Congratulations 🍾. Be realistic with your perception of what you thought the surgery would be.
Thank you for sharing this video and all the information you shared. Too bad others that feel a moral superiority are chiming in thinking they know what is better for you than you do. Regardless, thank you and warm regards.
Haha! It’s got nothing to do with morality. It’s about being on the outside looking in with the perspective that there is a better way. Trans people ARE playing a game, a game they are guaranteed to lose. They’ve bought in to a lie. And surgeons and big pharma are laughing all the way to the bank. The need to constantly justify and lash out at those who don’t support you is such a tell.
Should have spent the time and money sorting out that awful speech impediment 😮😮. Why do so many young folk not know how to say a TH sound??😮 The amount of times he said Vis instead of This and Vey instead of They.
When my kids were young (only in the 90's), some speech therapy would have sorted that out no problem!
Sorry, this is a bugbear of mine 😵💫😬
What was wrong with your bottom?
please don't say this -
@@aki_nter Why not answer the question?
Who's this boy and what is he talking about?
He's talking about a sex change he believes he's getting. In reality he's just getting his penis turned inside out. He seems to believe he'll be a woman when it's done.
He's eunch now
her*
Can you say Kinda any more babes 🤣😝
Finish transition
Why the weird hair? As a post op I prefer not bringing attention to myself. You stand out of a crowd. Why?
Everyone that is on a waiting list…that is Gods Grace hoping that you will choose life instead, the beautiful life He has planned for you the way you were created. 🙏🏻
sush, idc. I'm transitioning wherever you like it or not. Stop pushing religious views onto our community to try to eradicate them.
No, baby, they ask you all this questions to be sure you know what you want and won't come back in a few years, crying over your decision. What happens. It means they care. I wonder if you are mature enough to have this surgery. Some things are irreversible. What's done is done. You can't go back. But you don't seem to understand it.
I’m surprised there are surgeons out there who do this, but the world is a strange place.
it's not strange, it's insane!!!
@@NJMetalGirl You are so right! I’m glad I’m not the only one who sees it this way. I’m surprised I’ve lived long enough to see the world go this wrong.
@@elainehiggins713 it's just so sad and infuriating at the same time. I feel like we're living in an alternate-bizarro-upside-down-world (hey I just invented a new word haha) but seriously, I'm not a very religious person, but Lord help us!!
They're helping us feel happier in our own body. This world is a weird and wonderful place. Embrace it.
@@elainehiggins713 The world isn't wrong people like you make it worse. Just leave trans people alone we are not hurting you.
Feel sorry for him
She’s a girl and she’s very happy
@@Emmet_Dammit192lol I'm bored of seeing you reply to every comment. At some time you will realise that obfuscating what is in essence a major part of being human is destructive. Destructive to women, children, homosexuals, institutions and more. Destructive and dangerous. Yes, it is.
I know you will reject this as transphobic hate speech, it just isn't. Reality and what is in your head just do not mesh. Nobody can change sex.
Please make sure you are willing to live with the consequences if this surgery has complications. Right now your urinary tract is intact and your sexual parts work. This could change and you could lose the ability to enjoy sex. Don’t trade your health for something your not sure about. Try to love yourself the way you were born. These doctors are making money off your surgery. Think about that! Do they have your best interest or theirs in mind.
She likely wasn't enjoying sex with a penis. Its not always about sex. Its about reduction of dysphoria. It just not resembling a penis is enough for some trans people to consider going through all the bullshit.
You think you're being pragmatic but you can't always treat dysphoria with pragmatism. You're also just entirely missing the point.
1. She knows her own medical needs better than you
2. British healthcare is public not private so they don't make extra money by doing more surgeries
@@navyblue9355 SHE?
Who cares s** isn't important
His feelings of wanting to ‘run away in the middle of the night’ is called intuition. . Dilation for the rest of your lifetime I Truely hope he doesn’t suffer any complications. These drs are supposed to do no harm. I hope they are there for him if needed.
her feelings and no she doesn't regret it
So you made yourself a eunuch
Yep, it will be beautiful til you start having your complications, and you will have complications it's just a matter of time. Not if, but when.
Its sad huh
..very sad...
So many slaughter themselves ,can not have kids on the biological way anymore...generation castrated..we will see the results of all this in 10 years orso or early on...
Show us your data
I don't have data, but I had a trans friend who had all the surgeries, everything done. She had a world of misery training her new vagina. It was painful and she insisted on getting another surgery... because it didn't feel like a real vagina. I never commented, but HOW COULD SHE POSSIBLY KNOW what it feels like to have a vagina? Anyway, the stretching, training was necessary for months, with lots of pain, and then I don't know more because she moved to France and started yet another new life with yet another new name... Running away yet again...
@@Bevity Regret does happen. GRS is major surgery with risks. However, studies have shown that the regret rate is actually quite low (less than or around 1%). Even patients that have cancer-removing surgeries can have significantly higher regret rates than that. Managing expectations and outcome-neutral counseling might help, not to mention acceptance in societies of gender non-conforming individuals. Denying access to surgery for others merely because of a risk that has been studied seems extreme. The wait times for surgeries are already very long in many jurisdictions. This is a complex issue.
@@cg9875 It is very complex, I agree.
The reason that you have see all those Doctors and be subject to all those deeply personal and probing questions is because the surgery that you are about to have is 1. Non reversible 2. A sterilisation effectively. These choices/decisions you are making are NON REVERSABLE. The Doctors/Hospital have be 1000% certain that you understand what you are doing to your body, before they can proceed ,it's life altering dude, thow genetically and biologically you are still male the gender reassignment surgery is only to align your visual self with your mental self to stop the GENDER DISFORIA associated with trans people. Your welcome! My lesso s are free, so re think how you choose to word your story not everything is trans phobic or an attack on you as a person.
I am truly amazed that someone would go to the extent to change there gender by surgery, this is not natural, may God have mercy on you, and you wake up to the truth of the fact that you cannot change who God made you to be.
And I just want to add - he can never be a real woman. This is so so sad as this person is so young. It's almost like he's talking about a night out with chums. But the consequences are that he has allowed himself to become a surgical experiment because he believes in a mad ideology.
Let me subtract what you added to even out 🤓
@@whatyoudontagreewithmeawww Unfortunately you don't make any sense. What do you mean?
Yep
@@brandyhaywood6256I think the OP is not so politely trying to say that ultimately, even with all the surgeries and efforts this person will always be a biological male 🤷♀️ There’s a lot of “sales talk” among SRS surgeons and doctors that make people feel like once they fully transition that they will be cis women. This obviously can’t happen as every trans person will always have to take replacement hormones, their anatomy isn’t the same as a biological female etc. But most healthy trans people already realize this. I’m guessing that’s what the OP is trying to say.
bro go outside and touch grass
I wish this person the best and hope it works out but I would highly recommend anyone thinking about doing this, to watch the countless detransition stories. They are horrifying and incredibly sad. You're making a life long decision that's going to have many complications and medical interventions. These surgeries are far from perfected.
Most detransitioners are female to male to female. i don't understand your investment in deterring people frok something that will likely never affect you in any way.
@Lia.s Peeing out of a catheter, no more conventional orgasm, no ability to reproduce if they decided they wanted to down the road, and having to dilate multiple times a day for years if not forever to keep things open down there where as most of them lack depth and can also sometimes grow hair inside themselves depending on how well the laser surgery went. The list goes on and on and I think the echo chambers transitioners find themselves in minimizes these real life consequences. So yeah as a fellow human being I would like these people to be highly aware of these things for their own sake.
@@Neighbor618 Its dumb to think she wasn't aware of the risks and uncertainties.
She's not a child. She made a decision to get affirming genitals and deal with any issues that might come with it. All you want to do is scare people out of being happy because you don't understand how destructive dysphoria is.
Stop pretending you actually care about people. You really don't. You're just here to waggle your finger and tell people some shit you read about stuff you don't understand.
bruh
terf moment
You’re a eunuch now.
Macy, what is the point in being a professional transsexual I mean the whole point in having your operation is to live as a woman stealth mode I mean who wants to go around being trans it’s not what it was meant to be.
Maybe because Maisy wants to be honest
At least you can pass. I hope you will be ok.
Pass as what?
He does not pass in the slightest, now he just looks like a man with a mutilated penis
@@jabbawonger6572 Us trans people mtf as in myself and other people we like to call it 'passing' essentially making us feminine as possible for people to see us as female rather than our birth gender which causes discomfort. Its not required but its mainly what one of the main goals are
my oldest is becoming a beautiful woman like you could you refur a Dr that would help please and thank you we was told to take hermon pills over the shelf for starters we would very much like too talk t someone about this hw much it cost and do they take such a thing as mainecare
Which country you from? You want to first speak to a gender therapist or if your in the uk talk to a gp to get a referall done down to the GIC
cost Im unsure of but its best to check where you live, insurance is a must as it should be able to cover any medical expenses
whole other country "The US of America Maine Winslow" thank you
I would've gotten rid of the Adams Apple first...just sayin
Indeed 😮
Best of luck. I DO hope you end up looking like a legit female. Some of the results we've seen are iffy at best.
He still looks like a man.
Not a vagina. It's a forever wound
When you gonna get that adams Apple surgery. That voice is deep as fuck lol you sound like big pun
testorome deepens the voice
You had the bottom surgery and are anatomically accurate. 😍😍😍😍😍
Accurate to what? A mutilated penis is accurate to his deranged mental state, I guess
😂
No. permanently mutilated and pseudo accurate.
Get help
From who? Currently this is what seeking help gets you
u get help
I feel deep sadness for the rest of your life which will not reflect a womans life. Women do not go through this.
yeah but she has the guts to go through the hassle to be her true self, you'll never understand how it feels to be trans. Women are real women so are trans women
@@aki_nter We ALL have the guts to go through hassle to be who we are, life isn't exactly on easy mode for any of us. And I could easily decide I want to be a man and experience what she is, but she will never experience woman hood point blanc PERIOD.
My initial point being that I absolutely feel sorry for what she will experience, the real struggles are what will come next after the surgery, you know, struggling to go to the toilet, struggling to keep an open wound from getting infected or closing up, struggling to live a normal life. These are the real issues with mutilating yourself. You cannot change your gender like you can change your clothes, it's more complex than that. I feel for her.
@@DarlingSofie Periods doesn't include in this. Some women can indeed not have periods either. Recovery from surgery is a challenge but it gets better. All trans people can live normal lives without struggling. After dilatation for a while, it stays open with it having to be done less frequently (1 per week after recovery). Every surgery has a risk of getting infected and the mtf bottom surgery is practically a realistic and functional one. I can say it's an open wound for you. Changing gender isn't easy as its hell to go through and getting rid of the GD and waiting for treatment to kick in. And trans people can go to the toilet just fine after surgery, some struggle but tailors down to their own medical health and existing health conditions which also come into play.
@aki_nter I'm not sure who you are speaking on behalf of, but you should really listen to detransitioners. This is NOT a normal surgery. It is not necessary, it does not save lives, and it creates more problems. The most marginalised group of people at the moment are the ones who have been experiments of the pharmaceutical/surgical world.
You are clearly brainwashed to really believe that castration drugs and genital mutilation are a good thing and will ultimately resemble the form they are going for.
My female genitals are NOT the same of a converted male. I find that incredibly offensive.
@@aki_nter Please do not compare women who don't menstruate to men that transition. It's beyond overused and irrelevant.
Look, you clearly feel compelled to defend castration drugs and genital mutilation, however if you have the time to respond to me on here I would suggest you take the time to listen to EVERY detransitioner tell their side of the story. As they are the real marginalised of society. They will kindly explain to you how their lives are forever affected.
you don't look very happy
Well...sad for you🤔🫣🤨😬😶
you cant control her life so