My Most Difficult Challenge In Music
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- Опубліковано 17 бер 2021
- In this video I discuss how I have coped with my learning disability. I have always had tremendous difficulty with reading comprehension. This video is the story on how my Mom, Sports and Music were instrumental in helping me overcome it and go from being a D- student to becoming a college professor.
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I remember telling Rick - “just tell Mom and Dad your test scores were out of a possible 50 points”.
Haha!!
Sounds like all of you have a strong, loving family, and your mom was a key element in that.
Hahahahaaa, nice one.
@@joe-e-geo very true. It's where the system "see one, do one, teach one" is derived. When you can teach something, you have to understand it explicitly not just intuitively.
@@RickBeato Hi rick, have you thought about doing a 'What makes this album great' ?
Rick's mom always sounds like the biggest badass
Yeah, Rick's dad married well!
Because she was.
Moms can be that way!
🤣 RICKIE’s Mom...
Damnit that was awesome. You are rad and you are a great teacher.
Rick, your story touched me deeply. I spent a lot of my childhood and adulthood "behind"! I don't know what I had or have but it forced me to work harder than others to be at some "acceptable" level. I'm 68 and still looking for that thing that I'm good at. Maybe I'm just looking for the validation I never gave myself. Thank you for restoring my faith in myself. God bless you man!
"They don't know how to teach you." Such wise words from your mom.
Too often kids that "fail" are the ones teachers can't (or refuse to) reach out to. It's easier to call them "bad" and give them an F and move on.
Thanks for being the teacher you are - you actually taught me real music and music theory.
"They don't know how to teach you" - from today's perspective, Mrs Beato not only stood up for her child, she actually had some insight into how the mind works.
This applies for jobs as well, I used to overthink when getting rejected on job interviews, now I think those companies are not good for me. They don’t know the value and impact one has.
This reminds me of Gary v saying: 'I didn't fail at school. School failed me'
Just to clarify for those reading, Christian means follower of Christ, who forgave his enemies even as they were killing him . . .
@@NickNicometi I am in no position to diagnose anyone, not to mention diagnose texts written online, but my humble guess would be the real reason for the fire and no elaboration on the spot might have been some anger issues on your part.
@@NickNicometi You sound rather stuckup, judgemental, egocentric and even aggressive in that post.
"Don't tell your dad how much it costs!" I laughed but this also got to me... A Mothers sacrifice for her children can never be appreciated enough.
for me its the opposite lol
Deemed a bit dull until my mum complained and made the school test me. Turns out I’m dyslexic, alter the way I’m taught and no looking back. Thanks for sharing Rick, important message to get out there.
Love your Chanel, keep it up.
@@anniedarkhorse6791 my (single) mom bought me a guitar when i was 8..your comment is poignant!!
@@Tinbop I have a similar story - 3rd grade teacher told my mom she thought I might be "retarded". Mom said "he can't be, he takes things apart and puts them back together". Led to testing; resulted in placement in a higher grade and tutoring in what is now called STEM. That was back in 1966.
My mom watched (and loved it!) Beavis and Butthead with me, much to the chagrin of my dad. We always had to go watch on the little upstairs TV and just the thought of it would still annoy him. :-)
This really strikes a chord with me. I have had ADHD since I can remember and thought I "grew out of it". Albert Einstein wrote, “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.” The question I have for you at this point of our journey together is, “What is YOUR genius?”
Thank you, as an asperger and heavily ADHD dude, I appreciate this comment because I can relate to it.
Always remember, those "illnesses" are only viewed and treated as such, because our society wants it's people to develop on a very slim path.
ADHD, or forms of autism, like Asperger's are just character sets which are not based on that slim path.
Find a path where your specific character can shine in, and you see that those things society wants you to feel bad, or weak about, are actually a form of strength, when lived right.
@@philkonestos2837 I totally agree, these illnesses dont actually exist..They are like you said "Character sets" or different states of minds.. Not to say that people dont suffer alot from these but they are not actual diseases. Just made up by mens to try and categorise Characters and behaviors. They are certainly not out of the ordinary and seems to be pretty common in human beings.
@@endoffate5475 indeed. But most suffering comes from situations you're not made for.
I take an example from myself:
Currently I live next to a heavily used road, with a neighboors blasting bassheavy music all day.
All those noises give me a sensory overload, which results in a meltdown every 1-3 days. Screaming, self hitting all that crap.
But when I lived, and soon again will live in a quiet area, those problems are gone. And I can again focus on my strengths, platter detection, learning stuff, making music and so on.
So yes I suffer from things, but only because I am in the wrong environment for my character set, which would fall in the autistic "area of being*
But I do not suffer because of me being who I am.
And I think that is the case for most people.
But psychology tries to make us believe that suffering comes from us, not our environment.
Maybe because some people don't want to change the environment in a way all people can enjoy it and themselves in it. So we "blame" those who suffer by telling them they are defective in some way, while in fact it is society which is defected.
@@OO-np1ll I thought tinnitus was from damaging the inner ear with prolonged exposure to loud noise.
Like using power tools or rock concerts. I’ve learned to ignore the ringing.
Hi. I’m a teacher. Something that really struck me about what you said was “I was a bad student.” When you said that it hurt my heart. It bothers me that to this day you have internalized that. When I was in elementary and high school, NO ONE would have imagined that I would become a teacher because I really was a difficult student, I was constantly fighting - like physical fistfights and I’m female 😂. When I went to teachers college, about 99 percent of the other students were “good kids.” And I think one of the reasons teachers don’t know how to teach students with different learning needs is that they lack empathy. They never were the “bad student” or the “bad kid.” And these teachers who lack empathy, some of them become professors at teacher’s colleges, and they perpetuate the way teachers treat students with different learning needs. And I don’t think these people want to lack empathy, I think they just never had the experience so they don’t even realize they are missing it. The way we train teachers needs to change. In my opinion this is one of the roots of the problem. Regardless of my personal feelings about a student, I NEVER want that student to think he is “bad,” or “stupid,” or incapable. Because when we fail to create opportunities for success for our students, our students internalize this idea that they “can’t” and that’s why many adults “don’t,” because the idea of being limited was artificially imposed on them.
Some people become teachers at something because they were "good" at "doing" that thing, not that they were "good" at "LEARNING" that thing. So. And here is my empathy for the teacher. Some of these teachers really don't know how to show someone else who "does not get it" how to work into it. I remember trying to teach someone the (2 + x) x (3 + y) = equations, and thought I would be good at helping them because I LOVED those equations in school. But they just did not get it. I have often thought. Now. Years later. How I did not spend enough time to figure out what part of the path was missing for them and how to guide them along that path, or figure out how to get them to look at that path from another viewpoint so they could travel down it themselves. I was a . Bad teacher. In that moment. For that friend.
Beautifully said - and the way we prepare teachers *does* need to change, and I pray that it will, for the sake of ALL learners! 🙏🙏
I've struggled with a learning disability my entire life. A lot of the reason I still struggle and think badly of myself is that when I was having the most difficult times with passing classes and feeling the worst about myself I had teachers I looked up to become frustrated and give up on me. It was so demoralizing that to this day as soon as I begin to struggle I give up. It's only since 2013 when I met my best friend I've begun to do better at certain things such as learning how to be better at writing. He's got a 149 IQ and is amazingly smart but he also has patience and constantly encourages me by going slow and helping me take things step by step.
I just wish when I was a kid I hadn't been labeled as slow. It's had a hugely detrimental effect on my self-esteem. I've spent my entire life with low self-esteem and a lot of it was caused by teachers. Not all of them were like that but enough were that it's led to me not loving myself as much as I maybe would have had I had more teachers like you.
Excuse the cheesy comparison but Karate Kid. No such thing a as a bad student, only a bad teacher. I remember playing Mario Kart with my daughter. My wife was a bit concerned at first because I did not go easy on her. But when she did win, I didn't take it easy on her, she beat me.
This video is actually a beautiful homage to your beloved mom, and to all other hero moms in history who relentlessly supported and encouraged their children. The future of mankind starts with the mothers.
Good word Andre For sure Fer Sha
It’s so much better when a parent supports you...not all have that luck.
Luckily, I have a similar "mom" story, beginning with "The Presidents of the United States" published by the John Hancock Life Insurance Company in 1962. Mine forced me to memorize the presidents in order. And she forced me to take guitar lessons that same year. Still can't thank her (✝ 2008) enough.
Starts with the good mothers indeed... which we could use more of.
And fathers! There are many opposite situations. Stereotypes are dangerous
Shoutout to Mama Beato. She raised a jewel of a teacher/artist/human 🙌
Indeed.
Amen to that. :)
What a great mom. I'm happy you chose her for your mom, when you were but a spirit hovering over the land. Well, that's not how it works, but who knows?
As a speech pathologist who has worked for years with children with different types of learning disabilities and delays, this brought tears to my eyes. You are so right that children can learn if we educators just find the right way to teach them.
Yes, I'm a speech therapist, too, and this rang so true.
@@91dodgespiritrt You obviously have had ZERO experience with children who have been EVALUATED and found to have different levels of learning difficulties. As a speech therapist who worked for over 30 years with such students AND raised three children, two who were identified as "gifted" and one of whom has Down Syndrome, I know what I am talking about.
@@91dodgespiritrt Oh a real tough guy, aren't you.
And I had a speech delay because of Aspergers, I didn’t know how to move my lips right to form words…
@@synthiamcbride7194 this guy definitely has an axe to grind. He has put a number of nasty comments to each sympathetic comment. I agree with your response!
I am just an anonymous oik in the UK who doesn't understand musical theory. However, I watch shedloads of your videos and and they are a sheer joy to watch. You ooze humanity, charisma and wisdom. On top of your obvious musical skills, of course.
I showed this video to my daughter, who is diagnosed with dyslexia and ADHD; we both loved it. Thank you for sharing.
Wonderful anecdote, my wife and daughter have dyslexia. I always tied my identity to smarts, until they taught me I was a little more dumb than I thought.
My son, who has autism and learning to play drums, is watching it right now. There's a lot of good stuff here that I know he can relate to, as well.
@@christian_esquivel You're absolutely not dumb because you have dyslexia. Also, you write perfectly for a dyslexical man.
My son has ADHD, dyslexia and a auditory processing delay. He is getting ready to head to a university for an Art major at 25! Don't let your learning difficulties define you!
Rick’s story telling ability 11 out of 10.
Agreed he is a beast storyteller. AND teacher.
I'll second that.
This video is really special and caught me by surprise.
@Ellis Ray Because this comment belongs in a video about a great person's real struggle with life. Whatevs...
I'm a retired Engineer and I'm in awe of Rick's understanding of music and ability to teach it to others. I have arthritis now and bought a guitar, which I never had but wanted. So now I'm learning from Rick, and trying to keep my hands nimble.
:)
I'm 66 and was having a bad day... thankyou... I've had my learning and mental issues and fights my whole life... I am looking at retiring... today you got me to think about what I'm good at... the day has gotten better... take care... I will
I don't have a learning disability, but had a tumultuous childhood. Music saved me every day. It still does. Tumultuous is an understatement.
Likewise :)
This man is a national, no, an international treasure. It's really great to hear someone talk about difficulties of life with such empathy. Todays world - especially internet culture - many times seems tough and unforgiving, cold even. It's nice to hear and see Rick Beato talking about the things in life that actually are meaningful and not just fickle and cosmetic. Bravo.
Very well said, brother, and oh so true..
So true. International treasure!
Nailed it with this comment.
Absolutely
Perfectly stated. I relate to his experience. I had many of the same difficulties and found my passion in music and eventually psychology. Rick is authentic and a great human being.
This one gets me. My son is dyslexic and I was so hard on him in early elementary because he is super smart but I thought he wasn’t trying. Then he gets diagnosed and I apologize with tears. He’s like, “it’s ok, Dad.” He’s 6th grade now and doing alright. Thanks for this video, Rick.
Ex-girlfriend had undiagnosed Chrones disease for most of her first 25 years. Her family completely marginalized her as lazy and slow. After the doctors finally figured out what was going on on she hasn't spoken to any of them to this day. I'm so happy to hear that you dodged that kind of bullet. Live and learn.
Thanks for this one especially Rick sir....
Scottish 70’s racing driver Jackie Stewart went through school and was classed as stupid before dyslexia was recognised then later in life he was diagnosed as dyslexic. He gave his dyslexic sons a hard time over their school work.
My son is dyslexic and his 1st grade teacher said he should aspire to be an unskilled laborer as he is intellectually challenged. Luckily we sent him to a school for dyslexia in the area. He is a hip hop dancer, he loves to learn about and different cultures and history, and will talk your ear off with great observations and questions. He's just transitioned out of his school and is starting at the Charleston School of the Arts for singing, which also has a great academic curriculum. Luckily we live in a time where more of these issues are understood and treated. Sometimes your weaknesses force you to find other ways to express yourself, often at much higher levels... like Stevie Wonder and music.
I was diagnosed in my sixties as ADD and dyslectic. Everyone in public school thought I was lazy or stupid. My Mom sent me to parochial school (Catholic) to make me work harder. The nuns beat me unmercifully, humiliating me in front of the entire class. I got out of Catholic school and went to public school and started doing better. My Mom had my IQ tested and it was 130. The teachers where just ignorant, the nuns were sadistic. I was good in track, like Rick, and it was just great to find something you are better at than everyone else. It gives you that little bit of confidence that you can build on. People, who are not learning disabled, are incredibly lucky.
This overly performance-oriented society hurts a lot of good souls
I watched this and found it both fascinating and heartwarming. Your mother must have been extremely proud of your achievements ...... worth every cent of the $120 she paid for your 12-string guitar.
My mother didn't say 'you are smarter than the teachers.' She asked me why I wasn't trying. I love my mother more than anyone it the world and honestly she didn't know what a learning disability was. However, I grew up dysgraphic and mildly dyslexic. Aptitude and IQ tests I took I scored very highly. My verbal score was at genius level in the top 1% and I scored very highly in spatial recognition as well but no one told me until I was an adult. That game you play with the half red and white cubes was easy for me and I loved the puzzles.
So, when I performed poorly in school my mother didn't understand. When she remarried a stern attorney he didn't understand, either. I am maybe 10 year younger than Rick but I still remember that time as a living hell. I remember being given writing assignments and having entire paragraphs in my head. However, when I went to write them my pencil was frozon on the page with me not being able to figure out what letter to write first. Like, I was seeing the entire paragraph or series of them not the sequence of letters that made them up.
Watching this I found myself wondering how different things might have been if instead I had been told I was smarter than the teachers and that they didn't know how to teach me. It isn't a 'woe is me' thing. Just admitting I am curious.
Eventually, I attended a middle school for learning disabled children and apparently learned enough to limp my way through high school. I didn't finish college and if I am being honest I still haven't found my place in life. Just do enough to make it to the next day.
I feel self-conscious banging this out but the vid inspired me to do so. It isn't just about me. I wonder how many others fell by the wayside because they didn't have someone curious enough to figure out how they best learn.
Thanks for this video, Rick.
God bless you, I hope a lot of parents, as well as teachers, will read this & learn how damaging their attitudes can be to a child. Children cannot explain what they are feeling, much less what they need from the adults in their life.
You are not alone, my friend. Peace and God's blessings be with you.
"I still haven't found my place in life. Just do enough to make it to the next day." This speaks to me, not about any learning disabilities but just how my life is in general.
I suggest you go see a doctor, it sounds like you might have ADHD. I don’t want to diagnosis you right here and now but it’s worth seeing someone about it. They might be able to get you help and turn your life around.
Tristram, focus on your strengths and be aware of the tricks you've developed to get around your challenges. Those should help you find your path.
The main thing here: "Know thyself". It takes time and experience to realize that, but once you realize it, nothing and no one can stop you.
Awesome, lovely comment! Thank you :-).
I believe that was written over the Temple of Appolo. It's no cooincedence they no longer teach the Classics. "They" want you to be dumb. Just look around you if you need proof. If you crave sanity, look to Aristotole.
And “everything in moderation”.
@@FuckUA-cam1776 it was above the oracle of Delphi. (Sorry to be that annoying guy!!).
Steve Manning I too appreciate that comment!! Beautiful!!
I am home-schooling my son who was diagnosed with ASD and was truly struggling at mainstream school. I now have my inspiration when things get tough. Thank you Rick!!!
Found out I have ADHD and Autism recently. I'm a teacher. A music teacher. I'm teaching elementary right now, and I try really hard to accommodate my students, but when you have 22 in one room it can be difficult to do that with the alloted time.
I only have so much time and so much energy, but I do try to take steps to help all my students, especially because of how I struggled in school.
Thanks for sharing Rick, us nuerodiverse folks really have a lot going for us. We aren't worse off than others, just a little different. We have our own strengths.
As a teacher myself, I can say that you are a brilliant teacher. I don't even know music or music theory but I watch you nonetheless because of your teaching ability. I wish today's education system would learn the value of teaching people according to their strengths.
I can listen to music theory like your video this week and my eyes glaze over and I have no idea what you just said or drew on the white board but I have to watch every one!
I told my teacher I would rather learn something more relevant to me and she gave us a lecture about why we can’t always do the thing we want
As a guitar teacher I always looked for the struggling student and tried to find out “how does he learn?” I had one student that could finger the chords but couldn’t understand how to strum. He decided he was going to quit guitar. After talking with him I learned he loved dancing. I told him,
“ dance with your guitar.” In that lesson he learned the song . He left that lesson smiling and in love with playing guitar.
Good job Rod
What a great insight, my hat's off to you. I may wind up using that tip with a student some day.
Lovely to hear such a personal story. My daughter also turned to music when she had a knee injury. She was also a superstar at athletics, netball and tennis, but developed an overuse injury when she was 11 which meant she couldnt do any weight bearing exercise at all until it healed (3 years). So she picked up a guitar. She is now studying to be a music therapist.
God created us all different for a reason and our purposes are also different. No doubt you were created to create and teach beautiful music. I don't know your faith or beliefs, you may not believe in God at all, but you are teaching someone right now to be a better musician and worship minister for a church, you're instilling confidence and knowledge into young men and women that God will use for decades. Many blessings to you brother... praying for this channel
The question must never be "How smart are you??, but instead be "How are you smart??" Great piece Rick !!
Oooh, I love that!
Interesting. I hope to apply that idea.
To everybody reading this, this video is a great insight into how grades don’t ultimately define you at all. Don’t let bad grades let you down. Find your passion and take it from there, like Rick did with guitar. Don’t feel too stressed about school all the time.
Thanks, Sheev.
But what if you don't have a strong passion for any one thing
This means a lot, especially coming from a sith lord.
@@RickyWilder lol
@@user-wo5tc9ux7u well, I don’t know about that, have you really searched hard for a passion? There’s nothing that entertains you or are interested in? And it’s ok if you don’t have a passion right now, because there’s always a chance you’ll find it further down in life. Also maybe don’t get too caught up in finding a passion, just live life in the moment and maybe you’ll eventually find the passion. Also I don’t claim to be an expert at all so take this with a grain of salt.
The school system doesnt understand people outside their limited realm of appreciation. I also experienced great trouble, but I never quitted the arts, philosophy and my own passions.
Now, I can be grateful of those terrible teachers, they taught me (by counterexample) that everyone has an unique potential, and I can spread that message 👍🏻
Just wanna let you know that it’s teachers like you that make a difference in so many lives of the kids that were convinced they just couldn’t make it. I consider myself lucky to have been expelled because it led me to an alternative school that was staffed with nothing, but teachers like you. Thanks, man.
I’m a special education teacher for an intensive autism class. I’ve heard stories very much like yours from a lot of parents and students, and they get me every time. Your story is an inspiration, Rick. You do more good than you realize by sharing it.
Oh wow, I'm in tears. I have an adopted child with a genetic condition who struggles so much academically that it breaks my heart. She is so kind and caring with people and animals and the most generous human being you could ever meet. Every child has gifts that need to be sought out. Love your channel Rick, your Mum and Aunt will be v proud.
Your amazing
Amen
Now Im crying too....❤
Sadly schools don't help kids zero in on their individual talents because they only have one curriculum
I can relate. I have poor reading comprehension and my son has high functioning autism. Both of us either excel without effort or struggle because we just learn differently. Your message about teaching is spot on. The best teachers know this. Unfortunately most schools aren’t designed to accommodate different styles of learning. Thx for this one!! 👏
This world needs you. A lot of people need to hear your story. Thank you.
@@91dodgespiritrt stfu
I'm a School Psychologist who gigs as a side hustle. After nearly 30 years of diagnosing learning disabilities, I've learned that every student I've worked with is good at something. The problem is our industrial educational system. We have one set of standards that we expect everybody to meet. I wish we could broaden our system so that we could find what people are good at, and teach them what they need to know to pursue that thing. Thanks for your videos!
I was pretty good at school but not really good at any one thing in particular
I'd like to see term limits for Con-gress... never gonna happen. Nor will your excellent suggestions for education.
Maybe we should stop calling them 'learning disabilities'
There isn't a big enough like button for this comment.b
@@gastondeveaux3783 Yes! You're right. They're just differences. Unfortunately in our current system, in order to get services to get students support in dealing with the system, a label is required. I'd love to change that too.
My sister has a similar story. She was not very good with studies. She barely passed high school. And I was the complete opposite of her, I mean good at studies. But my Father never discriminated among us. He always knew my sister had potential for music since a very young age. My mom says that she started singing even before speaking properly. And today my sister is about to complete her doctorate in Indian Classical Music. I never imagined my sister going past college, but she stuck to what she excelled in. My father cant be more proud.
Wow, this really hit home with me. I found out about 10 years ago that I am Dyslexic and I am now 46 years old. I always felt like an intelligent person but I was also terrible in school. I am a body piercer as well as a musician and I feel I really excel at these because of my disability. I have "MORE CAKE" tattooed on my knuckles because everything I do I do in excess and balls to the wall. If I'm into it, I go all out and need to know everything. I now have a UA-cam channel too and am also an educator with a learning disability as well. Learning to deal with the disability is the key to success. Thank you Rick.
Honesty takes Courage; you are courageous and honest, and one hell of a musician. Good man!
Rick, I have a physical disability. Can't really speak, can't feed myself. Exhausted myself in postgraduate zoology where I topped classes I was initially banned from, had to take hiatus helping instruct care of my parents. All the while then, I was dealing with an abusive partner. Rick, music saved me. I began to set up a tiny computer midi setup once, but got burgled. Years of depression set in. All is ok now. I will go back to academia and volunteer in conservation once my remaining parent goes into care. I can't pick up any musical instruments, but Rick, your videos on music - performances, production and music theory, has really helped balance me through with my other passion of nerdy animal stuff! Thank you!!!!!!
Good luck to you. Best wishes from NZ. :)
@@marksvideochannel3592 hey, funny thing is, I am a NZer too! Cheers to ya Mark.
@@kayneich9573 Ha, what are the chances!!! :)
sometimes life hits you like a ton of bricks. hang in there 🤙
How can anyone not love Rick? That’s one genuine dude.
Amen, everybody.
absolutely, a true gent.
The “bad” student becomes a college professor. You’re one incredible guy! Love you Rick!
This 11 minutes should be standard viewing for every teacher. I won’t go into all the similarities in my life, suffice it to say it’s a homerun!
As a teacher, especially a special ed teacher, I love that . . . "Maybe the students are smarter than me?" So true, when you find out what they are interested in they can talk for hours about things I don't know anything about.
Also building on their strengths . . . you're a good teacher.
@@margaretford3387 , the problem with learning, not just in the USA, but worldwide, is that they always try to teach you to tests, the materials that are used are filled with biases, the materials that are used are filled with legitimate errors, and yet the teachers still think that they can teach you correctly in those teaching materials, and that the teachers are always peddling agendas rather than teaching to the strengths, weaknesses, and uniqueness of each student, which is why distance learning, as well as learning without books, and learning online, are all the true parts of the inevitable wave of the future when it comes to schools and learning in general. Were that not bad enough, then the schools fail to teach students how to properly thrive in social circles, as well as how to prepare oneself for a life that is beyond academia, and it is this essential path to self-destruction, and/or suicide, especially in places like China, Japan, Singapore, the UK, and the USA, especially in literal suicide, and/or mass school murders (though not all of them are committed by students, but the failure of former students is also included here for being also relevant to the post), as, without proper direction and purpose in life, one ensures their own failure in life.
The harsh reality is that these teachers are not actually interested in teaching, especially the ones that are shills for the learning companies, as a vast majority of those companies are not interested in actually teaching things, let alone relating to students on their level, but that they simply want to sell their products with little to no regard to the consequences of their actions, and/or any sort of accountability, and/or responsibility, and/or proof of the students actually learning the right way, let alone anything, out of their teaching materials. You yourself may be an exception to the rule, but the other harsh reality is that schools simply do not understand that their "one size fits all" education system ironically enough DOES NOT fit all, especially in your subset of academia. The logical solution would be to naturally make home schooling the law of the land, but then you run into some problems, namely, some students are in places where they are otherwise too poor to afford to get an education other than through public grants, some students, sadly, are literally homeless, some students are too far away to get proper distance learning, and, perhaps the worst one of all, there are some things that cannot be taught in books, like how to interact with the real world and how to not just survive, but to also thrive, in the real world. Things like this are also why we have economic meltdowns and phenomena like the classic "failure to launch syndrome", as well as super controlling, and super strict, parents, super permissive parents, super indifferent, and/or uncaring, parents, super abusive parents, and willfully absentee parents in the lives of these children, whom, in turn, repeat these cycles or snap and commit suicide, murder, or murder-suicide. Yes, what I said is indeed a grim picture, but it is also a real one.
2 professions I have the utmost respect for is special needs therapist and passionate special needs teachers.
Finding things that other people are good at is giving unconditional love.
Thank you for this. A lot of us artists have brains that operate differently. ADD is my gift. It can rob me of concentration but also gives the power of free association. I’ve been learning to leverage it, not numb it.
I agree, limitations are gifts.
"Find the things they are good at" ... so inspiring. Not only for kids that might be going through a similar situation but also for all kinds of educators. You touched my heart again cause I had the same struggle in school until I discover myself in sports and exactly injuring my ankle was the reason I got into music and realized I had an easy time knowing what to do. I started with an old acoustic guitar that belonged to my deceased dad. I didn't know how but I just knew I could play musical instruments. (Not like you! LOL) Your mom reminds me of my mom, so amazing and supportive. My mom passed away in 2015 right after her 99th birthday. Thanks again for sharing.
Thank you, Rick. As a musician with a learning disability this means more than you can know.
I had hardcore ADHD, so bad I couldn't read or write properly by the time I got to 3rd grade. I was a curious and investigative boy. But school didn't teach me a damn thing. If it wasn't for my mom who studied WITH ME for my final exams i would never have been accepted to university. I graduated with a master's in philosophy, magna cum laude, and am now the CEO of a startup that offers students a platform for reading and understanding complicated texts. I feel you Rick!
I only learned I had ADD at 50 Years old. It explains so much.
I recall writing notebooks and notebooks trying to memorize multiplication tables, I still don't know them. But I can work them out pretty damn fast! Fractions, percentages etc. Anything that doesn't take long I'm good with, anything that takes more than a few seconds I'm done, brain goes elsewhere.
Same with guitar, but muscle memory is a life saver :)
@@marksvideochannel3592 This is my experience too. Diagnosed at 46 and I still don't know my time tables by rote. I thought I was stupid because all the other students could do it. But if forced me to do all sorts of neat tricks to work around it. Those tricks really honed when I took up playing 501 darts later in life. :)
I also loved the guitar and remember things I've not played sometimes for decades. I learnt the whole Eric Clapton Unplugged album by ear when I was a teenager (that poor tape machine nearly got worn out). I'm also a computer programmer. ADHD/ADD doesn't mean stupid. It means our brains function a little differently to the average. It's good. I mean heck Leonardo Da Vinci was almost certainly ADHD.
The interesting thing for me about reading was I could recall big plots and all sorts of dialogue from books I'm interested in.
Another ADHD’er here, I was a clinical social worker until the end of 2019, now doing audio full time. As many difficult things as ADHD brings, it also brings some wonderful things. Many many artists have adhd, I think it’s a key component in thinking out of the box and being creative.
Much respect for anyone who harnesses it and turns it into something that changes others’ lives in a good way.
Did Rick actually mention ADHD in the video? His story strongly evokes it anyway.
Rick always leaves me with tears in my face, and a huge smile. I've been very lucky to be an excellent student. At some point, I was introduced to giving back and started teaching my peers who had more difficulties than me when it came to subjects like maths and physics, and I fell in love with teaching. Among other things I truly want to pursue in life, teaching is still at the top of my list, yet I know there's still a lot I can improve. Thank you, Rick, for posting your story!
It takes a neuro-diverse person to appreciate how difficult it is being a neuro-diverse person.
Dyslexia crushed me. I failed out of the 9th grade and went into the army. In the Army my Drill Seargent pulled me into his office and told me I was "Fucked Up" and sent me for tests to see if I had Dyslexia...he was right. He found it in two weeks when all my teachers diagnosed me with being lazy. Through the Army I learned how to learn...My life has been so much better since then. I ended up washing out of the Army, but that doesn't mean it didn't change my life for the better.
@JackSnack00 Wonderful story. Thank God for the DI. We all learn in different ways.
I was 38 before I was tested. Dyslexic and dysgraphic. Yes, I went into music and repair of instruments. Also taught. School destroyed so many lives. Weak home life. Alone most of the time outside school. School was Hell. Thanks Rick. We beat the odds. Many like us are on prison. Peace.
Robert, it sounds like you prevailed through some difficult (painful) circumstances. Good luck and may God bless you.
What a great, honest video. So inspiring and reassuring to people struggling over confidence and self-esteem from similar issues. Well done (and not only you, but your amazing Mom who by believing in you, taught you to believe in yourself)!!
You were very lucky for having a loving mother.
That was the secret.
She helped you see what was in you all the time.
I am a teacher. My son has a learning disability. This video is so inspiring! Mom was right. Not everyone learns in the same way. ( My son is now a teacher.)
Albert Einstein once said:
"Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."
He never said that. Look up fake Einstein quotes, it's really interesting.
Well, that is not a real quote from Einstein but has some truth to it.
@@SheepWaveMeByeBye , does that bye bye in your username mean yourself going into Sheol (Hell)?
Never heard that, I love it :D
@@SheepWaveMeByeBye still a helpful quote that I'll apply to my life
This man is so fortunate to have had such a wonderful support network. His mother is--or was--an amazingly devout and attentive parent.
Hi! I am working as a teacher in a high school (car mechanics) and your story really struck a chord with me. I have a lot of students that have been put down by teachers over the years and it really hurts me. To be abel to win in anything you first must feel that there is people around you who belive in you! Nobody is good at everything but everybody is good at something!
Thank you for a really inspiring story!
/Mattias
I didn't recognize it as ADHD until I was an adult but when I was in school, every report card came with a note that would say "very smart but needs to work harder". I rarely had trouble learning things or picking up concepts but actually doing my homework was where I failed. I always loved the classes that weighted the tests higher than the homework because I could do that. My wonderful mom who had homeschooled me for a majority of elementary school was always trying different ways to help me actually do my homework. Thank you for sharing your experiences, Rick.
Yep, same for me finally diagnosed at age 40
So interesting! I'm mildly dyslexic and I always loved applied projects because I could take what I knew and use to it create something new. When it came to tests, I could never remember anything - my memory was total garbage. I was a great writer and student in the sciences but laughably bad at spelling or memory tests, in fact, got sub-par SAT and ACT scores because of it. I'd love to see our education systems grow to accommodate all these different learning styles so EVERYONE can be their best!
Same, I'm in the process of getting a diagnosis as an adult.
Same here. I was diagnosed in 8th grade and put on concerta for a few years. By sophomore year, I would take my medication and it started making me feel euphoric. Soon after I was switched to Ritalin instant release and then adderal instant release, which both had an even greater euphoria. As much as it helped me get things done, I didn’t like that I was constantly getting high from it, so I stopped taking it without telling my parents. Once I got out of high school and started community college I was taking classes I was actually interested in and was way better in school. On top of that there was less busy homework, which I hated, and instead more papers and tests which I excelled at. Looking back, I’m really happy I stopped taking those amphetamines because I know people who’ve been on them for over a decade and have a lot of problems when they try to get off of them. Additionally, I’ve always been a good learner on my own and have a great memory, but really only for things that I’m interested in. A lot of the subjects in public school growing up were monotonous and boring for me.
@@tomseiple3280 Steven Spielberg didn't know he was dyslexic until his 40s.
My brother...you are preaching to the choir. I'm autistic, dyslexic, OCD...you name it. I'm a misfit and I'm ok with it. I appreciate that you are being open and honest, thank you.
I did poorly in school because I was suffering emotionally. Living hell!
If you read these comments I would say you're not a misfit. I'd say you fit right in with many of us. Peace and God's blessings.
@@notbraindead7298 notbraindead, at first glance, i thought your name was, notbranded, and I thought, that's a great name, i suffered horribly in school, but (i don't want to sound religious) GOD dose not allow, or more importantly, doesn't waste anything, especially events in our lives, im 52 old 2 days ago. Thanks for your comment, best wishes.
You are no more a misfit than Albert Einstein, Stanley Kubrick, Michelangelo, Mozart, Nikola Tesla, Sir Isaac Newton, Charles Darwin, and so many more notables who were almost certainly coping with Asperger's. We, those with high functioning autism, are just people with brains optimized for technical tasks.
I'm adhd.
Thank you so much for sharing this aspect of your story Rick! It's very moving and as a parent myself, a great reminder for what we need to do with our kids. Above all else, they need to feel that we support them and will always be there for them. Your mom clearly did that for you and it's awesome that you have made it your goal to do that with your students. Thank you!
Your stories are so beautiful, they are both relatable and inspiring. I always find myself listening to them all the way through. You're doing a great service to a great many people Rick, thank you.
Stop it...darn it I'm 64 and I'm crying....so beautiful.....you got to know this is your message right?
First I cried for your Aunt, now I cried for your mom. I'm lucky to have people in my life like that too. I wish everyone could.
You mentioned that your mom worked at the American Can company factory. The town I live in had one of those and we converted it into a school that has a focus on the arts. I doubt it's the same factory, but if it is, know we're trying to teach kids music and art and want students who don't fit into the general mold of public schools. Over the years I've seen more kids than I can count who have learning or social "disabilities" that thrive once they find their footing in the arts, be it through music, theater, writing, art, sculpture, etc . . . Your story reminds me so much of my students.
rick, thank you! i've suffered thru this phenomenon all my life. the difference is... i'm an only child. i,
have what i would call an unorthodox memory. i love learning and have been literate since the first day i picked up a book. but reading has been a challenge. a challenge in that i have to read a book at least twice in order to fully comprehend and grasp the concept of what's on the pages. there was a time that i developed the ability to write backwards, read backwards and read upside down. i didn't realize that i learned differently than other kids. it wasn't until i was in my 30s that i realized that i was a visual learner, also. thanks, man for sharing your story.
Dyslexia effected my learning music theory. I went to school in the 90s when no body cared about this type of thing Thank you for this video.
Same here, 80s through 90s, they had no idea, and in fact it was my music teacher who realised I was dyslexic because I skipped bars or entire lines sometimes , but if I took my time I could read slowly and memorise huge arrangements
Hi just FYI affected is the word you're looking for. Effect is a noun, so something is an effect. Affect is a verb, as in affecting is an action.
Not tryna be a butthole grammar nazi just tryna be helpful.
@@NiSE_Rafter Dear Butthole Grammar Nazi: 'Effect' is also a verb, and 'affect' is also a noun. One can "effect change", or "display an affect." So your correction is not even a helpful or accurate one.
@@dkeener13 What country are you from? Maybe our respective origins follow slightly different grammar rules. My English knowledge comes from a former professor and according to what I learned from her, your examples would have been considered wrong.
Edit: professor in the united states*
@@dkeener13 actually depends on whether you’re a Brit or a yank. American and British English vary on these words ps you can display an affectation but not an affect.
This is my son.
My wife and I both have Master’s Degrees. My daughters are extremely high achievers. Yet my boy has struggles in school.
Trying my best to help him and make him feel whole.
Thanks Rick. My boy and I will be watching this together.
The edit was to clarify my son’s struggle.
He probably has his own passion that he just hasn't found yet - once he does, he will blossom.
My parents are both teachers and helped me in the same way. I was really smart, but had horrible reading comprehension. Hang in there! Your work will be rewarded when he finds something that "unlocks" his potential!
Thanks for being a good dad.
My problem was during repetition. My mind would wander while the teacher repeated stuff that I understood the first time around. Then they would pick up a new thread and I would miss some stuff. Keep an open mind with your son and try to find some enlightenment for both of you. Find out what he's good at learning and more importantly, HOW he learns about it.
Please be patient with him
Rick's story telling is legendary. I love this
Rick, this is an amazing and beautiful video!
You articulated perfectly the experience of having intelligence and the propensity for achieving greatness although it doesn’t fit the scholastic status quo of a system that is only concerned with pushing students through like a herd of cattle and getting the self esteem beat out of you because you “failed” their system.
Some of us, like yourself are not meant to fit into a box and because of that, we have passionate and intelligent people like you who are expressing their talents that are making a big difference in people’s lives.
Thank you Rick!
Rick, so sorry to hear that your mom never got to see your channel. She would be so proud!
ADHD here trying to stick out an engineering degree at uni. Huge props to you for talking about this stuff - definitely gives me hope that I'm not a complete moron.
I was constantly told by teachers that I was a moron only to discover the statistical probability that any one of them was smarter based on IQ scores was extremely low and that the statistical probability that they were all smarter as they stood in agreement was astronomically low. Most talented engineers, artists, inventors, and technical people are on the autism spectrum.... most. Once you learn that, everything becomes much easier. With his talent level, I would be a bit stunned if Rick wasn't on the spectrum as well and this video is exceptionally strong support for that suspicion. Stick with it and remember that you're no less by any means, your brain is just different and optimized for technical tasks.
Good on you. I know how hard that is. It’s not that we don’t understand things with ADHD, it’s just maintaining the focus at a Tertiary level which is intense.
I had a miserable time this year at uni as well. I started medication after getting a 1.87 my first semester fall 2019. In two semesters after I got it to a 3.7. It was a game changer then, but post pandemic I have dropped several classes. At least I learned I can’t learn online and to not take chem labs that end at 10pm 🤦🏼♂️. I’m a random guy on the internet but if you haven’t, I suggest trying the medication route. You’ll know in a month. I had no idea how much I was held back thinking I was coping well. You’re not a moron man, our brains are like Ferraris with bicycle brakes. Concerta makes unconscious thoughts and mental noise go away and I have stopped fidgeting for the most part. This happens because we get dopamine through movement or mental stimulation, which makes it hard to focus on things that aren’t captivating. Best of luck to you!
If you are hyperactive, you can learn to focus with activities that take you into the body such as meditation, yoga, prayer, melodic music, poetry, singing and also things where you use your body and hands in a rhythmic way such as ballroom dancing, carpentry and gardening. And you need to observe other people closely and tap into their feelings.
@@FalkinerTim Those can absolutely help, but don’t hit the root cause. The ADHD brain has much lower tonic (average) dopamine levels than normal. So only the things that are very stimulating overcome that deficit. It’s all or nothing. Hyper focus or none at all. Hyperactivity is a symptom. We are not attention deficient, we just have a hard time regulating a surplus of attention at all times. You can treat it through exercise, diet, the practices you mentioned, planners and strict routines, but it can only do so much. This is why stimulants are miraculous for most people including me.
This is so great. My dad was an art teacher & this was exactly his philosophy about teaching. He would have absolutely loved this. Thank you so much for sharing. 🙏🙏
Absolutely love Rick's story telling. So much warmth and feels to each one. From bad student to amazing teacher shaping millions of people on UA-cam. Imagine how proud his mum and dad would be now!
Love this, Rick. There's that prescient metaphor, something along the lines of, "Don't measure a fish's worth by it's ability to climb a tree."
We're individuals. If we aren't fostered according to our individuality, we're being told our natural selves are of no value. "Be like this instead," is not good teaching.
What a loss it is to suppress the beauty of the individual.
Your mum was clearly a legend. She saw in you what we all now benefit from. She must be very proud of you.
the hand that rocks the cradle.....
What a beautiful story. Thank you . This makes me a better parent because I'm not half the parent your mother was. God bless her.
Rick- you just turned my day around. You’re the best! Keep doing what you do.
Im from a place in India where not much was known about guitars other than that they impede studies and are a hindrance, so naturally I had to beg my parents for it, but they loved me every step of the way, they supported me when people would say music doesn't help you earn, its India, become an engineer or a doctor, your son will turn out useless and not earn enough, well 10 years later Im a law student at India's top law school, and can play the guitar, sitar and harmonium and am classically trained in Indian vocals having a bachelors degree in vocals and sitar, and those who said music isnt good for me, come to our place and ask me to sing and play for them because music is "soothing and gives peace". Im going to hug my old folks goodnight now. Thank you Rick. You and Marty are real gems. God belss you and your late mother.
Indian ''traditional'' singing is amazing, sooooo much microtones and slides and effects.
When I was in middle school my algebra teacher told my mother not to expect much from me. I graduated high school with honors, graduated college with honors went to medical school. I have been an anesthesiologist for 20 years and still remember that teacher’s words. I proved her wrong.
I have more appreciation for your user name after reading this. (But seriously? Good for you.)
Me too
Rick, you have no idea how much I appreciate you talking about this! I had the exact same learning disability. Knowing that a guy with your level of success and intelligence had the same problem is really inspiring and makes me feel way less alone. Thank you so much Rick. Love you bud.
Such a heartwarming story. They didn’t know your potential, but your mom, god bless her soul, knew what you were capable of. As a mom, I totally can relate. I am so enjoying your videos. Brilliant musical insights.
Moms, am I right? I always get a bit misty eyed when I think of all the sacrifices my mom made for me. She's still with us, bless her little heart.
Rick, you are the epitome of what a good teacher should be. One who not only teaches but learns as he’s teaching. You’ve brought your own experiences from learning and are able to reach your students. I wish I had a teacher like you during my junior high and high school years.
That was heart rending. Thank you so much for bearing your beautiful soul and story for us. You really are an inspiration Rick.
Rick, thank you so much for posting this.
I was a smart kid. I was a bad student. I am currently a teacher. There is a lot of positive stuff that comes out of sharing stories like these. Thanks for sharing it with us all.
My story is similar to yours, bad reports etc, turned out I was dyslexic too. Like you, my Mum was a Champ and she said the same thing, "they just don't know how to teach you", and being a former school teacher, she found a way to help me learn. My parents would be told that I would never learn to read etc, my Dad, an Engineer, would get frustrated with me and say "why are you so stupid?!" After Mum's help I did fine, I'm 58 and have been a Magazine Editor, a writer, a Marketing VP for a Multinational Corporation, and have had a great life and done a load of stuff. I've also got an MBA in International Business and I'm a Pilot as well.. Not bad for an idiot. Bless Mum's like yours and mine Rick. They're Saints.
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Wow! Great Mum, too!
My new favorite video by you. It's fantastic that your own troubles with learning in school and your mom's point that they didn't know how to teach you have propelled you to become a great teacher, and it's really moving, too.
Thank you so much ,Rick.Your story resonates with so many of us because it’s honest
Your story is very similar to mine, only instead of music, it was computers. In 1982 my Dad bought me a computer that hooked up to our TV. I spent hours a day on it. It fascinated me and I wanted to learn more and more. When I got into high school a few years later, I took my first computer class. I got a D. I actually knew more than the teacher and was able to write my programs more efficiently, without using all the commands the teacher told us to use. I went on to have a career in Information Technology. For over 30 years I've been a technology professional. But that teacher taught me a very important lesson with that D. How to do what my customer wants. Not what I want. Not show them how smart I am or what I am able to do...but give them what they want.
I think that's where many music teachers fall short. Why do most people play music? Because they love it. It's fun. So why do music teachers work so hard at making music so boring, complicated, difficult, and basically the polar opposite of the reason so many musicians play music? I have taken lessons from a number of great instructors. Living in Nashville, it's easy to find a world class musician willing to teach you. But I finally managed to find an instructor who "got me". I told him to teach me songs, THEN....and ONLY then....tell me the theory behind it. Don't make my play permutations for hours. Don't make me play scales over and over again. Don't make me listen to the endless drone of a metronome.....teach me to play MUSIC. Then tell me what I just learned. Once I had learned the song, then I had a mental reference for what a particular musical element felt and sounded like. So next time I learned a song, I had that in my toolbox.
It's the same thing I do for people who have asked me to help them learn technology. I don't immediately go into explaining IP networking, 64bit architecture, database typess, bandwidth, multifactor authentication, etc. I show them how to do things with the computer, then explain to them the technology behind what they just did. Ultimately it's all just 1's and 0's...and it's no more complicated than that.
Another episode of "Why school sucks major balls". Yet anyone who’s behind all of it still refuses to learn from these cases.
We are proud of you, man. You’re doing a great service to the world of music. To us. We are proud. And beyond grateful.
Amen to that brother
there are actually teachers who do identify and address learning disabilities, and try to encourage parents to get help. Unfortunately some school systems do prohibit teachers from advising parents to seek special provisions. Many teachers are also pressure to have their students meet testing averages, look up what damage "no child left behind" has done . Many of the educational challenges known now weren't know about when some of us were in school and likely not many teachers have the training and or natural talent to be able to address some of those LD's.
I'll second that.
Wow, that moved me to tears. Thank you for sharing the story, Rick. It just goes to show, everyone has something to offer.
Rick your stories are pretty amazing. From where you started and your life’s trajectory are inspiring, I Appreciate you being so transparent. 👍🏻
I'm 56 and just learned three years ago that I am autistic. Now I know how I can learn an entire album of material in 24 hours and be stage-ready.
It took me until age 49 to learn I have what was until recently known as Asperger's. Seeing brain scans of the neurons in an Asperger's brain vs. a neurotypical brain explains more than I can express in words.
@@Peter_S_ my precise diagnosis was High-Functioning Autism. Were it a handful of years earlier, it would have been called Asperger's.
It's weird finding out at an older age. Sometimes feels like a life wasted.
@@DrumWild Yes, it really is weird, but you can't go backward. I hope it explains as many things for you as it did for me and can find relief in the understanding of how the puzzle fits together. Since finding out, I've also found out that the bulk of exceptionally talented people are somewhere on the spectrum and that brings a lot of ease. I've got to thank Gary Numan for opening my eyes to what high functioning autism really means.
@@DrumWild I felt that way after my ADHD diagnosis, the "If only I'd known sooner". The other thing that hit me was the diagnosis didn't really change anything. I have new knowledge but there are few new ways of coping beyond what I had already figured out for myself. Too much advice for ADHD is given by neurotypical "experts" who actually have no idea what it's like. I'm sure it's the same for autism.
I'm 58 and was diagnosed with ASD level 2 at 55 and had a similar experience when i was young.
I was so bad in school, flunked a bunch of grades, wound up at San Drago Military Academy in Del Mar... my doctor dad thought I just needed discipline... I found out in high school that I had a learning Disability... But the one thing I'm really good at is playing Guitar and I have never stoped... Im 65 and can still play anything I have all my chops and am learning more... Thanks for what you do Rick...Thanks for sharing...
I'm sorry for your early struggles AND grateful that those very struggles made you the brilliant empathetic teacher you are.
It took me till 4+ years out of high school to finally realized I had an attention deficit problem. Very good marks in class when I actually tried lol. But never realized the little things that were actually holding me back some.