The Curse of Creativity
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- Опубліковано 19 чер 2024
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Creative people are among the most highly valued and revered personas in our modern societies, the title of Artist is something we all pretty much envy and hold high in our esteem, we project the image of beauty onto those type of people, but what is it really that makes the creative person creative? Are they truly as enviable as they seem ? What makes someone truly a creative person and what the f*ck is actually happening inside that weird brain of theirs?
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Footage used:
-Inside Llewyn Davis (movie)
-At Eternity's Gate (movie)
-Annihilation (movie)
Timecodes
0:00 intro
0:13 Creative people
1:01 Chimps are dumb
1:21 The nature of creativity
8:55 The curse is also a blessing
“Life isn’t about avoiding suffering, but finding something worth suffering for.” That is very well put.
I love this very insightful and so true. Inspiring in a weird way
I’ll drink to that
"He who has a why to live can bare almost any how." Fredrick Nietzche
@@liltick102 I sometimes do too, lol
You can’t last forever but create something that will
There’s nothing worse than being an artist but not being able to create due to mental illness like depression. I miss the days of sitting in art class, talking with friends and creating art. It made the creativity flow much better imo.
I am currently going through this, I tried to make a song but didn’t feel like I was being “myself”. I remember sitting in art class being able to draw then come home and make music I need that system back or something similar to it
So true
this but with my chronic pain
Literally me right now..I got drawers block🙃
I recommend looking into psilocybin/psychedelics.
It’s like a reset. My depression and other various issues decreased greatly and my creativity increased. I even had a happy mood (beyond simply “not depressed”) for about 3 weeks after taking them.
Life-changing
To be creative is to see the arbitrariness of perception for what it is. Not to run from chaos and relativity nor to wholly accept and embrace the safety of order, but to seek the places where they meet. The bleeding edge between the beautiful and the vile.
Beautifully said
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Wow this ish poetic homie 😎
Truly beautiful
a message to all creatives - never stop creating
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Actually sometimes you must stop, if is eating you, you must find a way to disconnect and stop
Unfortunately, i must often stop because it doesnt make any money. And i have to have all this money to live in a society.
If you stop you die
I won't... I promise.
Art is probably the most direct route to self discovery. I have come to believe that the urge for creativity may be in fact a yearning for self understanding and self realization. If this is so, one could argue that the search for creativity may be actually a spiritual endeavor in the search of self.
Medicine men of old, like ancient Shamans, were in fact highly artistic and creative. This is because they needed to be deeply connected to their own feelings, thoughts and dreams, so they could understand deep truths of life, humans and existence itself.
We will probably soon realize that creative and artistic people, are in fact, very spiritual people in search for meaning and understanding by taking a courageous deep dive into the profoundness of their own self.
Art is therapy
spot on. that is the philosopher's stone
Woahh! 🙌
I began drawing when I was about 7 or 8. Began writing stories when I was 13 or 14. That was when I felt compelled to "try to understand the mind of God".
It's been a life long endeavor, very much an aspect of my love of beauty and art.
I will always have more questions than answers, for every answer opens up always more mysteries.
This is a subject that fascinates.
It absolutely is a spiritual endeavor no doubt. Hence its ability to touch human beings so deeply. Well said my friend.
Your video made me think of something I told my (highly intelligent and creative) daughter a few weeks ago. "Being very smart and sensitive leads to a much richer life. But the downside is you will have a harder time finding people that can fully see you."
you dont need people you need thoughts
@@inhabitantwaps3qs803 I thought so too, but it turns out there's a high chance one will end up like Dostoyevsky's Underground Man...
@@mrararatovich we all need people, unfortunately, and our thoughts to steer clear of many/most of them to find those who will treat us better than the others.
The only people who really have no need for human connections are narcissists and sociopaths- and yet even they need other people....for them to prey on.
@@inhabitantwaps3qs803I used to think that. You begin breaking away from relationships with others until later down the road you have no one and no connection. It's a very lonely life and guarantees unfulfillment.
I think most creative people aren’t burdened with their “gift” as you say by exterior pressure. Rather I think it’s an internal pain to live up to your own standards. Or simply a desperate attempt to silence their own mind. I’m a designer and I have terrible anxiety and insomnia as a result of my creativity. When attempting to sleep I close my eyes and am immediately stuck with flashes images in front of my eyes like lightning. I feel a compulsion to document these visions late into the night as the stream endlessly pours. I also have ocd and obsessively dedicate every moment to observing and remembering data that will aid my vision of the world. I don’t care what the world thinks of my work. I don’t care why I’m doing it. It’s simply if I don’t do this I will die. My mind will eat itself if I don’t orient it towards a outcome. There’s a constant pressure to release the tension which is only possible through solving a problem. I think many creative people feel this way.
You’re so right bro.. there’s certain pieces I haven’t finished yet and it’s like in my mind it attacks me like you better finish this, you better do this one next 😂😂😂 “what about that art book you were gonna make” so much to do so little little time
@@HonestHeartsClub make that book bro!
Man your like talking to my soul man, reading this comment helped truly connect with myself. It helped to recognize the cause of my problem in art
Thank you
Internal truuuuuuuuu
The same thing literally happens to me!! Almost everyday images of colorful characters and impossible landscapes flash before my eyes, I've been keeping a list of descriptions so I don't forget them. And I want to share all those wonders I see with the world, I think they're too beautiful to deny them existence
Creativity for me is the power to find something beautiful that has not been discovered before.
Beauty is not enough to describe the process and outcome of creativity, the rabbit hole goes wayyy deeper than that
Well said
How do you know sth has not been discovered before. How do you know you're creative?
That beautiful. Funny enough your comment is exactly what it's explaining. Beautiful
bro.... the "what I see nobody else sees and sometimes it frightens me" hit me rly hard. I feel like Ive thought that so many times.
Sometimes creativity isn't about other people , seeing your work or hearing your music, it's more about bringing something that is inside you out and learning who you are.
I wish I could put into words how this made me feel. In therapy, I’ve finally touched on my fear or failure. I have always been a creative, but it did feel like a curse. Nothing I ever made felt good enough, and I began to grow scared of that feeling of inadequacy. So much so that I stopped creating for years and years. But the chaos in my heart and mind cannot be silenced. I am working on finding a balance between the chaos of creation and the structure and demands of daily life. What scares me the most is making nothing of note.
Keep making. It will not be yourself the one to realize the greatness of your own creations, so don't bother judging with that objective. Only judge to improve the work.
Your art, no matter if someone tries to replicate it, it’ll always be unique to your style! That’s what’s so beautiful about art. Use your old art by seeing what in particular wasn’t up to your standards. Once you start another painting, your questioning will click! This is where the fun begins, as you’ll be able to approach it in a slightly different way. Which will vastly increase your progress, slowly but surely of course. But that is up to the individual in terms of speed of progression. It’s important to remember that no one has ever fully mastered art since art is so vague, just others who have more experience.
Keep on going and you’ll get to where you want to be!
My fear is not making nothing of note but making things that are note of... ridicule.
@@brunoactis1104 Nobody cares about painting? Put down the controller and hit the galleries, son. It's as popular as ever.
Oof. Read this one again in 8 years.
I very much fit the suffering artist stereotype, but I don't regret it. I would never trade in creativity for a "normal" life, it brings me fulfillment, it gave me community with people who think like me, it gives me purpose, it gives me agency. The canvas is the closest thing I've ever felt to true freedom
me too! I struggle and I strain to make film reviews but after I'm finished, I'm often proud of my work and when I'm not, I'm determined to make better content so I can be proud, I don't wanna upload content that will be popular for a week because of some meaningless trend, I want my reviews to last forever, I want people 10 years in the future to be introduced to my reviews or look back on them in nostalgia
@@AbrasiousProductions reviewing a film is leeching off someone’s work that’s not creativity you’re just writing down thoughts everyone has I hate to shit on you buddy but it’s not that creative of a job
tell em
L artist
You can also live a normal life while doing art or your passion
I had a friend who was a gifted musician but quit to study computer science. I think the pressures of society made him give up on his dreams.
The pressures of society makes almost everyone give up on their dreams :(
anyone who resonated with this comment, read the book the alchemist
money is more powerful than dreams.
@@antimatteranon not necessarily
@@antimatteranon...so we have to use our dreams to make money ...yes I know , easier said than done , but , it's the only path that leads to OUR SUCCESS
The curse of creativity - Being surrounded by a materialistic world that believes copying and pasting from everything else is fine and more valuable than being original and innovative, because maximum profit, minimum effort. Most mainstream artists all do the same exact things, same exact looking work, following the same exact trends, all doing it for the wrong reasons. True creativity is only found through creating out of passion, not out of a need to be famous or make money.
I disagree. I want to someday be noticed for my work, to get recognition and be appraised as an invaluable writer. When I write, I want to be seen. I want others to hear my work. I don't want it left inside my brain or unnoticed, rotting forever, reminding me of what I could have achieved; I want others to see it for themselves and commend me for what I can do.
Somehow I agree with both your points yet they differ
@@alnguma8165Yeah, me too. Its a tightrope act.
Creating something original is my main motivation as a writer. Yet I also want to put it out. But I certainly dont want to become famous or rich. I just want to BRING IT OUT. I am creative for creativity's sake. And true creativity is PASSION. And if I am lucky enough then other people will find joy in what my mind and passion brought into the world. And I dont stress myself about it. I dont have to. It would block me completely.
Ofcourse. True creativity is becoming less and less accepted into society. With the push for faster attention spans, recycling content on social media gives quicker pleasure and interest to an audience than a creative work. AI is also advancing rapidly, which generates visual and textual concepts in a matter of seconds.
I am not saying that creativity is no longer important to people; it is becoming a less common trait in people. Those who have creativity should pursue it to the fullest. They will be remembered eternally for their creative works, whereas others will be blurred in the black sea of unoriginality.
Preach ❤
Going through this comment section is so therapeutic. It's like finally finding your tribe. People like you, people that resonates with you deeply. Creativity is truly a huge blessing ( cause ) with an equal and opposite reaction ( effect). And there's this constant worry I go through when I know that my higher self has this huge potential that would never be able to fit into this short life on Earth. It's like the more you create, the more you have to create. It is depressing. But then what can a mere mortal do?
"If you have access to chaos, chaos also has access to you." How did he just sum up my life in one sentence? Thank you for sharing your art with us.
I believe creativity is the only thing keeping me alive. Its the only thing avoiding me from suiciding. It's a curse; a curse that has become the reason to live. I write for myself, not for others. I want to be loved; Creativity makes it hard, but it is the thing that helps me express my pain. I wished to be properly loved. I feel I would never get it: so I wish to be loved through my books
You have the greatest gift of all. As a creative person myself, I see creativity as a way to become eternally remembered for what I do, because I could be the first to do it. If you think of it like this, there is a great chance people will love your work at some point and because of it's passion and uniqueness it would continue to be loved forever. I don't know what your book is about, but even the strangest novels (like Brave New World or Dune) are loved more now than when those authors were alive. Your creativity will outlive you, trust me.
That “chaos” you describe is incredibly accurate. I have all these ideas and not being express them the way I want to express them drives me mad. All these ideas flood my mind sometimes in ways they really shouldn’t and I want to share them but I fear that no one would understand why I do this.
This resonates deeply.
the constant knock or nag in my soul that fiends for more work to be done. That builds up idea after idea but everytime i complete or attempt that idea. It seems as if it’s never enough, i haven’t been able to see the project or whatever it is the way i see it in my head and that is what kills me
Write them down and work at one at a time. Example, you may want to sculp untensils out of clay. You may also want to write your memoir. For your memoir write down notes daily in your journal and date them. Buy some clay and work on sculpting one untensils at a time. You need order and the best order is to write everything down.
@@kurtismiller2601totally agree, the best way is to find a methodical and practical way to organice this chaos.
The purpose of creating Art is not so people can understand it, is so it can be shared. As long as you share your art, you are already fulfilling its purpose.
Create, and share. It will give you peace.
@@Nick.Rodriguezyes, art to me is like a current that guides you but you don’t know where,
Some things just come to you, different urges to make things , but after making the thing you have to make another thing. And it’s constant doubt wheter you’re work is of value or not
Being an artist can be a terrible pain. I always drew, but I wanted to paint. I tried to do it because I couldn't stop, something always kept telling me to come back, but I swear I hated my art and cried and threw everything away. That was awful. People usually think that creating is a beautiful and easy way, because you have a gift, but most of the time it's just a lie.
I have searched the phrase "the curse of creativity" multiple times in the past, finding nothing. Thanks for being the one to fill the void, great video
“Art is to console those who are broken by life.”Hits hard
great video. to all the creatives out there just remember your work matters. never stop creating. much love.
Like ur pfp, really good album
Aye…all we can really do to keep the calamity in our heads at bay.
Thank you ❤
Thank you for inspiring us, can I share my first artbook with you for free in exchange of your feedback?
Needed that
The only curse of creativity is not being able to express it.
Being creative is isolating, torturing, lonely, anguishing and down right heart wrenching… but Idk if I would trade it for anything.
“Until the creativity is literally beaten out of you” - been there felt that . Good video!
Thank you so much for making this. Sometimes I feel like I screwed up by simply existing, that life would've been so much better if I'd been "normal", that I'd be the one laughing at anyone different. But if I was "normal" I wouldn't have the beautiful friends I do today, I wouldn't see the beauty that lies within art of all forms. Yes I suffer in a near constant state of existential crisis and melancholy, but when I'm with my friends, or looking at a beautiful painting or landscape, reading a brilliant book or or listening to a beautiful song, life is beautiful. Yes we seem to be headed to self induced annihilation, yes we are hurting each other because some powerful people wish to remain ignorant, but in those moments of beauty that all that heightened emotional sensitivity and awareness seems so sweet, and life is worth living. Especially when you know you're not alone.
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I feel you
Being creative is a way of thinking. It’s such a double edged sword. I can build shit in my head to the smallest detail, I have photo memory, I can tell you when something is off in the picture or how to make it better in so many ways. But the other side of that is all the bad shit that has happened in my life I can remember to the last detail. My mind has created a system where if anything I don’t like has happened my mind erases that like it never happened. But being creative is it’s own process of self destruction
Same but include alcohol at the forgetting part
It is the uncreative who curse the creative. And if your also kind and honest the evil will feed on you.
This is why ive struggled with suicide from a young age. I always felt so far away from everyone and when i spoke about the things i was trying to make sense of. Ive always felt insane, i know in the whole world i am in good company among my fellow writers or creatives at large. But in a square mile you may never meet a fellow creative without intervention(public forum like achool). The world feels so alien to me, but only by asphyxiation. Its not how i see the world that bothers me, its how horrifyingly divergent the common world view is. How they take to this hellsca0e like a duck to water, and proceed to lash out at you for your profane thinking. When i glimpse my world, the one that i see its always brought me peace. But the cumulative heartbreak of being bound in this prison in my waking life.
Writing this i cant breath, as the eyes press into my skin, ensuring i conform.
So much that all ive ever wanted was someone anyone who could understand me, the real me. Thats why no matter how hard it gets i will always love my soulmate so much. I couldnt not care less what it took to keep her in my life.
I know its a fragile thing, but the rest of my life i had no recourse but to drown until the end came never dying but always feeling as if I've been dying the whole time.
Its strange to think, here i am able bodied but have no more power to chose death than a loved one lying comatoes, pleading for it to stop.
But youre right, when i can let myself bw there and feel like im really there, I soar.
I dont cant if anyone ever reads my work. I write for the thrill of it, to feel life weaving itself from my hands.
I may change a lot of things if i could do them differently, but id never want to lose this precious gift lodged in my chest.
Be strong, always.
See what only you can see.
Relax their Shakespeare
relatable.don't worry💕💕
Most people don't understand that we highly emote, for us something that to them may be small, will create on us an avalanche of emotions and feelings and thoughts that can be sometimes overwhelming.
I understand you. Keep close the people who understand you, they are a blessing.
@juniperstardust5549 thank you, that was very kind.
"Despite my curse, I feel blessed". I like this man
As an artist/illustrator myself, now i know why i feel like i'm losing my mind from year to year. There's always this overwhelming feeling (that affects me negatively) whenever i think of my own existence and my purpose in life.
even my friends said that i'm crazy.. it's like i'm grown more sensitive and mentally ill the older i get.
Great video btw
Literally how I feel right now(I’m an artist to)
There’s nothing worse for me as an artist than having to stop a project after I start. I have an incredibly hard time picking up again because the flow isn’t there anymore.
As someone who suffers from this, Ive gotten several glimpses of both sides of the spectrum, when you're not recognized or given credit they see you as a flawed human, incapable of completing simple tasks the given way and as a detective man
But when something you do gets recognition, these same people that hated you for who you were will change opinion quickly and praise you for said task.
The people who praise and judge talent are often the ones who look for it because they themselves cannot create nor understand it
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You will be ground to bits and stomped upon until you die in wretched misery and then after you are dead they will erect a bronze statue in your honor...
try to find not a single "As a" comment (impossible)
@@SmolMarshas a person who comments I very much agree
Sometimes I know I'm more creative than I've allowed myself to be. I'm 70, so I'm writing again. There is no such thing as an old artist, even when the pain is killing you.
Western views of creativity is so toxic, they actively diminish and stigmatise creativity and make it seem like it’s a “curse”. It’s not a curse, it’s an innate ability that you, like everyone else in this world, has. It’s your job to hone it, to seek support, and do something with it. Otherwise you will become extremely depressed and mentally ill. To build a healthy relationship towards creative expression is one the hallmarks of human greatness. But it’s unfortunately often misunderstood. Do not emasculate the creative forces within you because of social stigma.
Too damn right. It's a curse because they conflate their depression with creativity. Creativity does not make you depressed. wtf.
It's not easy being creative and being Accepted
To date, this is the most intuitive, true, & expressive definition of the gift (the curse) of artistic ability. I began drawing around my first birthday. Art is a major part of my identity. With this gift, I learned early on, the greater the sensitivity & ability, the worse the chaos of deviations of "normalcy," result as the higher degree of genius. I have no genius, yet I do know how what artistic ability I do possess has led to mental distortion, to peer perception of being labeled as beyond weird, all issues of my own making. I have found in life no greater ecstasy nor greater anguish as what I experience when I create.
i checked out your videos - thank you for using your creative gift for good :) the world appreciates you!
Good art comforts the disturbed and disturb the comfortable
The definition of passion literally is to suffer for something.
Yes it's derived from Latin pati, which means "to suffer /to endure", in German we say "Leidenschaft" for passion, where "Leid" = suffering
@@superpartes4990 Yes, you got it !
I think creativity is always useful. Just because it's not paid attention to and validated by others doesn't devalue its usefulness.
In fact, creative outlets are a great way to regulate ones mood and increase positive emotions. That in itself proves the utility of creativity just on the individual level.
Also, highly creative people can influence the world on small scale in their own little lives. Being famous isn't an excuse for fufillment.
Everything you said was so true, but I won't stop being an artist even if everyone hates my art and I can never find a way to truly express myself like the chaos you described
Great take, but a counter-argument: It should noted that people like Kurt Cobain EVEN WITH SUCCESS were still miserable on an individual level. I think its a bit reductionist to say that fame and/or fortune are the only worthwhile rewards for a creative life. Those things only enhance possibilities, which make life considerably more overwhelming for the creative.
Glad you caught that (Chester aswell)
I fully agree with you 100%. Art is a form of expression of the self (thoughts, beliefs, life experiences, traumas, subconscious, etc.). Fame and/or fortune are good for the creative's income, legacy and lifestyle, but if the artist has unaddressed mental illness or unresolved trauma these things won't help in the long run and will actually cause more harm than good.
Everything I've been trying to explain to people is put perfectly in this video and I'm glad I came across it. I had been in a bad headspace almost all my childhood but it's almost as if the tiny hole of creativity trauma created just for me turned into something I can leap in and out of over the past 2 years. It feels so good to have it since I know the art is something others will like and only so many truly recognize and embrace their gift. It's elevating to let my creativity spill but at some point, it can start to get crippling and I'll have to take a break for a while to give my head a rest. I can write as well as draw and when I start to peak, I could do so for DAYS without stopping if I didn't care about myself.
everything you said is exactly what's been on my mind lately. I'm a video production major in college, I know I have to get into this line of work because I would hate doing any other job. Any job that doesn't involve creativity.
I agree with everything stated in this video. Over the years, I struggled with the chaos, and yes I painted to make sense of it. To create order out of it. But in my struggle to put my work out, my creativity was beaten out of me. For years, I didnt lift my paint brush. Ironically, today as I write this, I am in pursuit of that chaos that was once present in me. Perhaps that was the only thing I could rely on.
Thankyou for this video, I am glad to know there are more creative people out there.
i’m bawling my eyes out right now. this video came to my life at the right time. as an art major at the moment, i’ve been through weeks of denial and processing of this very feeling, and it is heartbreaking. only some get the answers. i couldn’t put it into words, but u sure did. thank you so much 4 bringing this to the world.
Good luck!!
This video was truly inspiring man, thanks a lot for sharing your thoughts, I hope you’ll reach the amount of control over chaos that you’re seeking.
you put my thoughts that i could always only express with art into words. thank you.
another problem with my own creativity is ideas keep flowing through me, yet I don't have enough time to do it all so many of my ideas just stay that.. ideas.
Yes same
Write them down, or lightly sketch them out.
Damn this video really hit. I loved making art, literature, and singing that'd make people feel something, incorporating fiction to realism for the arts and lit that'd make people relate. I used to see things outside the norm and it was exciting to look at for most part. It's like molding something of potential and watching it grow on its own.
Nowadays I feel linear. I like to think that maybe it's just adulthood and that everyone else feels the same; I have the urge to be like the rest so life becomes simpler because the mental anguish is difficult to cope with. Sometimes I think of my fellow creatives and if they're able to adapt, then so should I, right? It's like being forced into something that doesn't fit you and hoping that overtime, you'll mold into it no matter how painful and not really worth it. I worry sometimes of living the rest of my life dull, depressed, and not creative enough that I lose soul.
I believe this entire reality is a giant art project and probably one of many currently being created by an artist or artists we can't even begin to comprehend. It's beautiful, really.
Yeah bro as a child I had a mental breakdown as I tried to understand that my existence started randomly, I looked through the eyes of myself and could've been any other person, and float in such a specific place in the endless universe that I exist in such a small part of. Worst part is, I could understand all this, overwhelming my tiny young brain, but it was so overwhelming I didn't even know how to explain it when my family would ask why I am crying. But now that I'm older and have peace by understanding Islam, I am less bothered by the concept of my own existence.
wow this happened to me too, thought i was alone on this
So you deluded yourself into believing a book... good job
@@yungmentalproblems good job indeed, it saved me
Why be bothered by a privilege
@@YourGenericBrownGuy Good job bro👍
this video is so amazing. im an artist that’s had a war waging in my mind for as long as i can remember and i’ve never been able to describe it to get adequate help for it, but this video sums it all up perfectly and brought me a new perspective on my life i really needed. thank you
Discovering this video and the comment section is a blessing. Being a creative individual is painful, and it hurts more when you struggle to find others who face and understand the same feelings you have. Both the video and this entire comment section resonates with me so well. I spent like 10 minutes reading these comments, and I spent a good 10-15 minutes writing down on my note app a bunch of creative things that came to mind when reflecting on what I had just read.
When you stop and think about it, this comment section reveals only a small percentage of highly creative people. There are way more creative individuals out there, and many of them are struggling with the same problems we are all facing here. Crazy to think too that many creative individuals in history probably lived their lives never meeting other creative individuals. This comment section contains more creative individuals than I can imagine meeting in the span of several years.
There's a lot that comes to mind, but I struggle to write precisely what ideas my chaotic mind is communicating to me -- and this is of course one of the curses of creativity that this video discusses (also, I would be writing this comment forever if I were to continue lol).
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Very eloquently put. I often forget that there are other people that suffer from this blessing or are blessed with this cursed. And it gives me some comfort. Thank you
This has helped me understand myself more than anything I’ve ever read or listened too…I always felt there was something wrong with me I’ve always felt my identity’s been fragmented and have spent years trying to fix it now I know I don’t need to..I just need to embrace the chaos find freedom in it…Thank you my friend this has helped so much keep doing what your doing
This is absolutely amzing i never thought of creativity in that way. You definitely deserve more subscribers this is quality content:)
The eloquence of expressing thought as distinctly as you do, is not rare but simply exceptional my friend. I truly enjoyed the video. Subscribed :)
Great viewpoint, I totally understand as an indie filmmaker I’m blown away when 1 person watches and enjoys my film, and floored when a theatre of people enjoy it. Keep up the good work!
You nailed all the words, all the points in which you talk some chaos which I happen to be familiar with, and you aced those points if aced means I understood your chaos and concur with it, in which a video so small yet greater than most, could make me tear up, I bow to you, because you made this connection for a brief moment with all sort of people alike that have maybe once grasped that feeling of everything yet nothing, and that is something to be truly in awe of.
This video is amazing. I've been creative my entire life (40yo now) and there are frequent times in the last 20 that I just feel absolutely nuts, and part of it is from the possibilities I see in the universe - which is something this video touches on. I latch on to one philosophy or way of thinking, which then sends me to another, and then another, and so on. It's exhausting and soul-draining to be in so many places and thoughts at once.
But really I can relate to so much of this video. I am so glad and relieved that I am not alone. Much love to all my fellows out there, and thank you so much to the OP.
This video helped me understand myself better, and made me feel less alone in a world that seems to hate me. Thank you
I adore the rise of this kind of content. I hope to see more of your videos soon!
It’s crazy how I was recommended this video after thinking about this for weeks. Pain and art will always be intertwined for me. I have always had this intense urge to create, ever since I was small. But severe mental illness can make it extremely hard to find the passion or motivation to create anything. I will say, my writing is at its best when I am at my worst. I think it’s because I am able to take my suffering and transform it into something tangible. Sometimes, it makes everything feel worth it. Art is proof that we exist and that we feel. No other animals or creatures can do what we do because they don’t have the burden of the knowledge that they exist in the same way that we do. So we can take all that pain, the questioning, the suffering, joy, sadness, beauty, and we can produce physical manifestations of it based off of our own unique perceptions. It’s truly amazing and I think it’s what separates us from the rest of the animal kingdom. It’s the self-awareness that makes it possible and hence, why I believe creatives are more prone to mental illness. We are able to self-reflect in a way that a lot of people cannot. We are too aware.
This is so true. Since I can remember I have always been a creative. I drew my first "story" (series of pictures) with 4 years and my mom wrote down the story I told her. But I also remember the first moment I experienced mental illness. When I was 5 and it was Silvester my mom told me to be careful with those glows ticks she gave us kids and "not break them because the liquit is a little toxic". I remember how I thought about sickness and death at this, and I remember thinking about how I have Ready lived so much of my life and I wouldn't have much life left. At 5 years old! At an age where I couldn't possibly know how long a human life would be, and I had so much still ahead of me.
For all my life I went on thinking things like that, but also went on to create. I write, I paint, I craft, garden and so much more. And I can't stop. It's like a drug. Creating something is still some of the most beautiful feelings I have ever experienced and it's the only thing I really value about myself. Over the years I have been diagnosed with depression and OCD. Especially OCD makes my life hard every day. The perfectionism, and torturing and punishing myself about everything wrong with me. And yet... I don't take meds. I tried them, and I didn't mind most side effects but one... I was so bland all of the sudden. I didn't enjoy any more creativity, and was completely blocked. There was no need for creativity. And though there was no more dark in my life the color faded too. So I don't take meds anymore. I live with this chaos inside of me, because I can't let go of my art. By this point it just means more to me than my own suffering. I just would wither away without it and be "normal" like everybody wants me too. And I would never again feel that complete inner peace when you sit down with your brushes and colors and start painting. Like in your mind you cod go anywhere you want, and be anyone. We creatives are a "bug" never to be fixed
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I don't think I have ever had a video that I can relate to more than this one. Thank you.
Thank you for making this. I will look at this video again whenever I feel like I'm having trouble creating stuff.
This has genuinely helped me think more clearly. Love the message at the end. Really strong and powerful words.
This essay, and the entire video, is amazing. Beautiful writing, with a great use of storytelling and fact. Subscribed!
Your channel is defo going places 👏🏻 ❤
Absolutely beautifully worded- as a man who considers himself a creative who surrounds himself with the creatives I find, this video was worded like art. I will be sharing with friends, & they will find comfort as I have
Highly relatable. Beautiful video. One thing I've learned as an artist is that even though I may make no money off my work, it does not define my gift. Just having the gift alone is a blessing, and I feel blessed because of it. When I don't create I feel dead inside, or just confused. We have to create for ourselves as much as the world.
Thanks for what you do and everything you have done and your contribution to art and UA-cam.
Very interesting, i had very similar train of thoughts about a week ago and have always contemplated the nature of creativity and how its expressed in myself. That last part rang true to me, i was having a discussion a while ago with my mum about whether art and creativity is a curse or blessing, she said it was a curse lol but those were my exact thought when she said it, i feel blessed to have this 'curse', i am willing to suffer to let whatever "I' am manifest through my art and creativity as thats what "feels" like it has true meaning and purpose to me at this point in time, i dunno if it does objectively, but it 'feel's very real to me, i cant articulate it very well but its like you said there's just something inside of us that NEEDS and WANTS to be expressed, the "chaos" seeping through our souls as we try to "order" and express it in our unique ways through time and space. I have no idea why i "feel" this way, i stopped asking, i just flow with it and observe the wonders and misfortunes of this 'reality' in all its forms, i see it too, thanks for sharing
This is so on point. Thank you so much for expressing the pain and isolation I experience on a day to day basis so accurately and eloquently. Kudos, my friend! We’ll get through this, hopefully when we do we can leave something beautiful behind.
This blew my mind. I never thought a UA-cam video could ever make me feel so seen. Thank you for making this. Seriously
I honestly don't think our present culture either values, nor reveres creative people, because it no longer tends to look at the art of creation as an expression of an individual, but as a democratic process that everybody has a say in. Truly creative people now tend to suffer exponentially more because indifference is no longer the worst thing one has to contend with, but now there is the possibility of abuse if people don't like what you do. It's ironic that what should be the greatest period of creativity humans have ever had is also probably the worse.
I really like this. Also I think because of democratic process and access to internet a lot of bad art is also overappreciated and corrupts people mind, for instance the simple dancing videos on tiktok get more likes and more followers whereas people who are highly creative are underappreciated and they simply disappear over the period of time in the vastness and dumb and pretentious art.
this video speaks to me on a very deep level that i cant really explain
UA-cam stipulations aside, I would have never thought this video to touch me as deeply as it did. In many ways, your description of formlessness brought light to an identity I once never thought to associate with myself.
The ones who have been touched by chaos.
I could only dream to imagine such a relatable concept would ever make it to my youtube feed. But here we are, the few of many individuals brought together by your peerless efforts. It is a miracle to witness a video in the spotlight of the algorithm that depicts the loneliness of the ones like us who suffer in silence.
As a fellow abstraction, your video brought to me not only inspiration, but an idea I cannot resist to share. I can imagine us individuals seeking one another out, bounding together to create some what of a society within society. Almost like a safe haven for those touched by creativity and chaos. All of us united together in the pursuit of innovation and boundlessness.
I am forever grateful to be reminded by you that we truly aren’t alone. Even as sacrificial pawns or as a gamble by mother nature, I wish to create a world where not a single person’s suffering is in vain.
God bless you
Its important to never give up on creativity but its just as important to stay grounded and don't become obsessive with your own craft. It will lead to years of stress, isolation and hubris. Also, by taking a break from creating and taking the time to smell the roses, you're art will become better and you'll free yourself from tunnel vision.
I guess I fit this mold, but I don't suffer over it. It was weird as a teenager, keeping to myself daydreaming, but as an adult who can manage my time it's entirely a blessing.
My story: Im extremely sensitive and frail by nature yet was very creative til my +-35th bday.
As a child I was very shy and empathic, was always attracting bullies who came out of nowhere in droves. School was a nightmare and it damaged me.
In my 20s I was still bullied by colleagues at work, by my university crush who stalked me for years to get validation. I self rejected myself from every attractive girl I encountered thinking I was unworthy.
The used/abused/shitted on me so much that something died in me when I turned 35.
I could had done amazing things to contribute to the world yet it wasnt meant to be. A brain activity scan had the nurses startled. 'Man your brain is so active wow'.
Its the animal instincts that drive most people that killed it in me.
Now Im a lifeless 46 bankrupt nobody, addicted to pot, nearly homeless.
The world has consumed me
There's nothing more depressing than wasted potential. :( It's a shame, but it isn't too late. Chances are that a mind like yours at your age knows so many things, and has so many things to say. It wouldn't take too long to be seen for your work, if it reflects you. o:
David, thank you for sharing your story with us. Please do not deprive the world of your gifts. It may be dormant at the moment, but you still have it in you. They can never take that away from you.
Thats so sad, I had a friend like you, he ended his life when he was 38ish.. on top of what you are describing he was also gay.
The world eats guys like you just for fun and thats why we as inferior species have no future.
David- Get up, Stand up, CREATE, create and push that chit which the world has consumed out, and CREATE. -Mat
That's just sad
you have captured a lot of what I have throughout my life have failed to describe in words and that's dope. keep up the content, looking forward to more
Loved the ending my friend that gave me a lot to think about “live is not about avoiding suffering is about finding something worthy of suffering for” wow. Loved the video man
The creative urge to write things down and the pain of loosing valuable notes is differnt. Artist, rapper, future inventor here 👋🏾
You just truly explained how I've felt my whole life, I've been always depressed and anxious because i can't express these ideas inside me that people would enjoy and realise my full potential. Creativity is like a poison when not released into the world for everyone to see, when you keep it inside and not expressed it destroys you slowly and truly makes you go insane. I have had so many ideas and concepts in my head since I was a very small child ( about 3 years old) up to today that never saw light of day and it just kills me. And what you said about chaos is really true, i never knew how to explain it but i guess that's the point all these things i saw and envisioned that no-one else could would scare me even, cause trying to understand them and put them into order seemed nearly impossible, it felt like these things were to grand for my mind to fully grasp sometimes.
I have always been very creative but I've always struggled to put my thoughts into words so that i can express exactly what I'm thinking. I just feel like i numb my mind Nowadays to save myself from overthinking and setting off my anxiety.
I am 13 so many ideas kinda feel crazy
I even started hearing stuff
I got kicked out of art school at the age of 17 and it fucking crushed me for ages. After that I never felt like my art was as good as it was when I was around that age. I still look at my art from teenage years and adore it much more than my recently made art.
I used to fill large A4 sketchbooks in a handful of months. Now the big sketchbook has been largely untouched.
I had a heureka moment a week ago. Started carrying a meek grey sketchbook with me, which I've been doodling absolute dogshit art into every day.
I sketch every day now and find myself looking forward to it whenever I have a free few minutes.
thats good! the fact that you are trying again is really brave when you think about no one would even try again if they were in your situation. i hope you continue picking that sketchbook and draw ehatever you like, not minding what anyone sayd what your should be because art is art and it will always be beautiful. dont let anyone stop you from doing what you love and im here to support you in your journey!
This story sounds so familiar. Art school and its demanding nature. College prof saying there's no point in re-taking graphic design cause 'I had no potential.' Nice to know she got paid to fail us students deemed not talented enough. Pfft. I hear you my friend, took many years to process that.
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The end of this video is the most understandable to me. I've thought those questions through several times and I found your words quite beautiful
Thank you for describing what’s been in my head my entire life.
This is magnificent, a true art piece. Even with just your words and the classical music choice. But you know what takes the cake? Willem dafoe and your smooth editing lol.
To unlock creativity to reality is to understand that in many cases, only you can see what you see. If everyone can understand and see what you see, it wouldn't be innovative. It is the trait that makes something NEW.
I appreciate seeing someone pushing through with their content, achieving a nice boost, and then seeing the inevitable complaint(s) rise to the top as well. I’m only just now bothering to actually push content on a separate channel, and I cannot wait to get haters, ❤
Let’s you know you’re doing something right, now keep it up! Subscribed
You articulate this perfectly. Creative individuals are the sacrificial lambs of society, showbiz casualties or just too weird to relate to but not willing to conform because creative minds are just not built that way. ❤
I needed this, thank you
Thank you. I'm very deeply invested into exploring my subconscious with visual arts. I have hundreds and hundreds of works that just come out from the chaos. I also have my own theories on existence and meaning. However the curse is that nobody understands. I actually don't have any friends, I'm an outcast. Good to know I'm not alone though, keep going, let your chaos ablaze a path of mind fire to confront the dragon of entropy.
Me too... I feels the same way, though I am more attracted towards exploring my higher self through music, (I make beats) .Also I would actually love to hear your theories on the meaning of existence...i always want to hear from many people's perspective
Never have I heard such a perfect and brilliant explanation of such a topic. The uncertain character of a creative individual isn't often discussed in such a beautiful manner. You should be very proud of your work
OMG, thank you for your art work. I’m been deeply moved. Bless you well.
I have severe adhd and was born with a very overwhelmingly strong imagination. This video spoke to me like no other - I’ve always thought that I was articulate about how I feel, but you articulated it differently and I think that’s important to keep in mind. I resonated with you but also soaked in what you’ve said and it’s actively changing the uncontrollable current of my chaos. And sometimes a recycled idea or new take on something like functioning in a band can have huge benefits within the boundaries of creative control but it’s a great way to showcase that inner chaos in a collective because as you said creatives are pawns to the collective and a band (should be) a large enough pool of people to decide what will take flight or not and this type of executive organization is really productive for that type of chaotic mind
As someone who has always identified as creative, I found this all very interesting and introduced me to some new concepts. Thank you. ❤
(The only thing I disagree slightly with this video on is that I truly believe ALL forms of creativity are valuable to humanity, however small, but there is a huge difference between contributing to society and being recognized and rewarded as you put it for that creative contribution to society. Unfortunately many artists do not get the respect I believe they deserve, but that’s just my opinion.)
"ALL forms of creativity are valuable to humanity." I totally agree, within reason~ Even if one's creative passions don't change the world, it can better someone who can. It can inspire them, or show them that they want to pass it along and build others up with their work too. Like a chain of positivity.
And creative work doesn't even have to inspire people to be valuable, either. I've heard several stories about people referring to media to get through a rough time in their life. Like a sanctuary of its own~
I'm having a very rough night and this video helped me out. Reminding me that despite what I've been through, I still have a creative drive. Against all efforts to beat it out of me, I held on to it. Thank you
From a fellow creative with a chaotic mind, I appreciate what you've shared and can absolutely relate!