I am not who you think I am
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- Опубліковано 22 сер 2023
- I am not who you think I am - looking back on four years of growth
The "CottageFairy" who started this channel is verrrry different from the "CottageFairy" who is here now, and I think that's a very good thing! I was not able to apply the ideals I wanted when I started this channel, I only knew how to chat about it online and yet unable to really apply it. Now, I am happy to say I'm the person I've wanted to be, and I think it's because youtube - in some ways - has raked me over the coals and really forced me to change in order to recover from severe anxiety and learn how to take care of myself (and be my friend instead of my worst critic).
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I quit a well paying job, sold my home, and moved to the mountains to a rural town. I was told by friends and family that I would hate it. However, I have found my little piece of paradise. I don't make a lot of money anymore, but enough to be comfortable and pay my bills.
I am content and have found peace.
@churchofpos2279. I applaud you for your courage to do something that has resulted in happiness. It's risky, but you're happy! Thanks for sharing.
You are living the life I aspire to. I admire you so much for following your dreams. May you forever feel happy and content there 😊
Live instead of us
My dream
So happy that you are happy 😃 you did good 👍
I get a lot of positive feedback on these videos, and it makes my heart sing
You’re wrong, you’re quite perfect! 💕🌸 Viajes seguros!
Sweet soul sister, I have been with you ALMOST from the very beginning and want you to know that you are a HUGE reason and influence in giving me the courage to live in an old, magickal Witchy off-grid cabin high up on a hill living & the th way I WANT to live. Thank you for INSPIRING myself and others by always staying true to YOURSELF...I LOVE & respect you immensely. THANK YOU🙏🏻✌😇 !
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So much love your way, my beautiful light worker💟💟💟🙏
So well-said Paola! I am 67 yo & spent most of my adult life doing what I thought everyone wanted me to do. Trying to please everybody but myself. My goal in life was to retire and only THEN would I be happy & have time for myself. Well it backfired in a huge way when my husband died suddenly on his way to work of a blood clot. We were a year away from retirement. It’s been a very very difficult lesson. I commend you for taking the time & energy to recognize this in yourself sooner rather than later as well as to help others understand the importance of self-care and living life to the fullest every single day. Thank you. ❤
I am so sorry for your loss. I am 62 and just had a heart attack July 6th from complications of long covid..It made me realize that I was taking every day just a little bit for granted. I told myself I would never do that again after almost dying from covid.And once before when I almost died of a post surgical infection. I suppose it is human nature to forget how we felt when we decided to live life to the fullest. We are not promised that we will wake up tomorrow and so we should embrace every moment.
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Hi Catherine, I’m so sorry this happened but I’m so grateful for the lesson you’ve just given me. I have a lot to think about. Thank you and I wish you all the very best xx
@@smallhouseinthemeadow6131you’re absolutely right. Thank you for this. It gives me much to think about in my own life x
I am sorry for your loss. My husband died of blood clots in his lungs when he was 57 and I was 50. I am 63 now and still trying to find my way.
My art teacher once said: If there is a decision for you to make, always go for the one that makes you feel more lightful, free and alive. Since I´ve been having some emotional und rather dark days, reminding me of this has helped me. Just like your beautiful message in this video does. :) I wish everyone reading this a lovely and peaceful day, do something that brings sparks of joy to your heart.
I love you
Thanks for sharing your art teacher's advice - I like it!
very brilliant advise ❤❤❤
Same to you. I wish you all the best. Hope your days ahead are lighter and lovelier!
thank you so much
I found your channel in the summer of 2020; I had just lost my mom and turned to UA-cam for escape. I was completely distraught and didn't think I would ever recover from that loss. UA-cam kept recommending your channel, but I declined, every time... until you posted a video about dyeing fabric with plants. I watched that video, subscribed immediately and proceeded to watch all you had posted.
I lost both my dad and brother last month and I am just numb. Your videos are a source of comfort for me, and I wanted to thank you for all you have done here. You have helped me in ways I can't really convey. 🌻
My heart hurts for you! Praying for comfort and peace for you
Hugs to you. I can't imagine your pain. I'm glad you have found comfort here. Take care of yourself ❤
Nurture yourself while you are grieving, it is a very difficult time (I lost my mother then my husband a year ago and then battled breast cancer) but you will come through it. Don’t listen when anyone says the usual platitudes like “life goes on”, it does but when YOU are ready to move forward. My heartfelt prayers go out to you from here in the U.K. May God Bless you 🙏
I am so sorry for your losses, I am glad this channel helped you 🙏
Recovery from loss takes time - and how long that is varies. I am so sorry the losses keep coming for you. May you have wonderful memories to treasure as you come through the pain. There are no words... 💔
To anyone who is having one of those "bad moments" Paola mentions in this video...
You are not alone. Millions of others are also having a bad moment right along with you. We do such a great job of covering it up and plastering a fake smile on our faces that it's hard to see. But you are not alone. You are not alone in your struggle, you are not alone in the pain of growing, you are not alone on this journey of learning to let go and just be.
I am 66 years young now, as you know, and lived all of my life in stress, but am just changing - better late than never, they say! I am so pleased that you have found who you are when you are still a young lady. Watching yours and other You Tube channels, has helped me along my rediscovery of myself lately, so I want to thank you for that, from the bottom of my heart. You are a wonderful soul, both inside and out. xxx
"A true change asks you to strip yourself of your former identity." How true!
there are many seasons in life. I use to have very bad anxiety. Now that I am much older, I have learned to rid myself of the stressers and triggers that kept me down. As a christian I gave my anxiety to God. In my life I am so different than the scared woman in my 20's, 30's and up. It took a lot of reflection and healing from trauma. I think you are a lovely young woman who makes the world better with your videos. I leave you with a cherished bible verse. Jesus said :
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27.. Blessings and safe travels 🙏🏻❤️
this is so beautiful 🙏🤍🌸 God is wonderful
I agree “Know Jesus, Know peace.”
Realmente la vida se vuelve más fácil al conocer a Dios siempre hay circunstancias difíciles pero se vuelve mucho más fácil de sobrellevar y la paz que se siente en el corazón es incomparable tengo 23 años
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Amen. He is in control and always near. Powerful love; such welcoming peace to be found there in.
This is such an important thing to talk about. We are not the same person that we were years ago, not even a year ago. I myself have gone through so much growth, particularly since 2020 which is when I finally had the time to stop, slow down, and really think about my life, who I was, and who I wanted to be. I also was able to process a lot of trauma that I had been pushing away for many years. In those last three years, I've gone through so many huge life experiences, I've moved countries three times, changed my artistic style, I've gained many new passions and left some behind. Even my spirituality, beliefs, and the way I view the world and life has changed quite drastically. The things I wanted for myself three years ago no longer apply to to me now. It's can be a scary thought, but also a very comforting one as well. Change is inevitable and you only get wiser with years (hopefully haha).
I look forward to seeing who I am and what I will have created and experienced in 5 years time. I know that my life will look nothing like it does now and that's a great comfort to me.
Wishing you the best! Thank you for another lovely video, Paola! ❤
@Ellary_Rosewood Very well said! Thank you!
Your videos were like a breathe of life into my most darkest phase of life. You are one of my go to, when I feel lost and find no purpose in my life. Keep doing this great work. Your every word reverberate through me, but am not so good as you are at putting my thoughts into words..Striving to become more expressive..Thankyou so much for you videos! ❤
Imo your early “Cottage Fairy” videos were, for many, pure therapy that was balm to the souls of people who needed a temporary escape - a respite - from stress. The visual beauty of those videos, the skillful way the shifting scenes were woven together, combined with the calming music and your gentle-sounding narration, apparently created, for some viewers, an illusion of perfection that of course could not be sustained in an imperfect world! But you helped so many people find respite from anxiety in dark times, respite that hopefully refreshed their spirits, making them a little bit stronger and enabling them to cope - if only by thinking back to a scene of wind passing over a field of flowers, or a dog frolicking in tall grass, or a steaming cup of tea made from roses, or a leaf being carefully painted in gold on chocolate. Really, the artistry of those videos is remarkable, and something of which you - and your collaborators if any - should forever be proud. I’m not sure, but I suspect that you may actually have started the “slow living” movement that seems to have been gathering steam on UA-cam for a while - and that is a wonderful thing, imo! But nobody has captured the dream, if only in brief increments (as it must be), like The Cottage Fairy.
Dear Cottage fairy, I think your honnesty is very healing for a lot of us! THANK YOU!
Couldn’t agree more!! I needed to hear this honest and very true message tonight ❤
Thank you for this. Really struggling today. The feeling of overwhelm and having lost who I am are crippling. I cry and cry over everything and nothing. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel today. But I see you and hear you. And I'm grateful for that.
Me too❤
I recently had a disappointment that I found myself hurt and angry over - a terrible combination of feelings. I was getting close to having panic attacks, I was so upset, so confused. However, although I am still struggling with this particular loss, I also know that losing this opportunity might not be such a bad thing over all. I am going to let it go and try to see the positive side of it not working out. There are other opportunities, and I believe that my strengths actually lie in other areas. So I am working on this mindset, moving forward, and to not let it damage my self esteem.
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Hold on, Sweet girls, hold on. Don't let go.
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“I’m glad my life fell apart…” This seems like something one would never say, but it’s as true for me as it was for you. I pushed myself so far in the wrong directions, that my mind and body finally just forced me to stop. I followed an old Stoic experiment where you simply imagine you died (the thing that’s so terrifying when you’re sick) and then wake up and say to yourself that now you can start your next life and be whatever you want to be. Like a butterfly! It’s such hard work, as you say, but when you’re moving in the direction your soul is pointing, doing the hard thing feels more rewarding. Thank you for your insight and honesty. I truly believe our whole country is going through this change in one way or another, maybe leading us all to a better sense of community.
I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but for what it's worth: I see you, and I hold space for your feelings. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
The genuine raw beauty of this message takes an incredible amount of courage and strength. And not just to voice it, and to post it. But she had to watch these segments and listen to this emotionally authentic moment over and over again during the editing process. And still, after all of that, had the bravery and grit to share with us. You always inspire your community, Paola, but this is SERVING them and everyone who comes across this video. THIS is legacy.
Paola, your content is the most unique I've found around here as an avid UA-cam user for around 10 years now. I don't know how you do that, but I can relate to each and every video you upload, being a 27 yrs old man living in a big city in Brazil, almost impossible to get further from you and your reality. Thank you for that and if I could I'd subscribe to you a thousand times!
So cute. You are in love with her. ❤❤
simm, todo video dessa moça me impressiona, as filmagens, as paisagens, as receitas, as artes e principalmente o que ela fala, que sempre consegue tocar o coração de tanta gente de tantos lugares diferentes e que nos leva pra longe da realidade urbana por alguns minutos, sempre saio dos videos dela me sentindo mais leve
@@mortonvrose Henrique is not the only one who is in love with the Cottage Fairy!
(I realize of course, that the Cottage Fairy we all love is a fictional character. In real life, Paola gets moody and sometimes angry and frustrated, and the soothing music is not always playing in the background of her real life. The dog and rabbits sometimes have accidents on the floor. Even in a small town, traffic can make her curse sometimes. Besides, Paola is married, and so am I!)
But I love her all the same, and I love the wonderful people who comment on her videos. Reading the comments is sometimes as inspiring as her videos!
This is so beautifully filmed. The lavender flowers are stunning!
"It is such a sad thing, I believe, to spend your life chasing external success, instead of cultivating that fullness and that wholeness within. Because all you can really take everywhere is you."
Paola, thank you for your words. They always touch my heart and leave me inspired deeply 🥰
Paila,I never comment on UA-cam, but I felt I had to today.
I am a teacher and had a breakdown in 2021. I had so much anxiety, and I became physically ill from all the stress I was putting myself through.
I have always been a perfectionist and pushed myself so much.
I quit my job and felt lost because my whole identity was being a teacher. My whole life revolved around it.
October 16th, 2023, will be my two years of a slower paced life and homeschooling my two boys.
I can't tell you how much your channel and your voice have helped me in these two years...
You inspired me to create again... I am painting again,something I didn't do in 10 years, and I am making time for myself. I see the beauty in everyday little moments again, and I am taking better care of my body. Exercising and making healthy meals... your voice is so calming, and after every video, I feel more insired. I am sitting here with my needle and thread repairing some clothes (also insired by a previous video).
Thank you so much for being so honest, so inspiring, and all the hard work that you are putting into these videos. Sometimes, I wish I had your wisdom when I was your age, but it's never too late for change.♡
I think you are all of us. Your ability to communicate about your process allows us all to reflect and progress on our own paths.
We all must keeping on growing and learning - it's the journey, not the destination.
That is why we are here. To experience, to learn xxx
Limited eating, over exercising, people pleasing, and years of placing a terrific amount of stress on myself to make everything perfect have taken a toll on my life. Thanks to your lovely honesty and video platform, I have found my voice and am able to really listen to my heart and treat myself with the respect I deserve. You are a treasure! ❤ safe travels! Sending love and light 💗🌳🦋🏜🦄🌈
How is your health now ? I feel like I wrote your post my self. I started making some changes last week . I hope you're doing better 🙏🏾
Much better, thank you for asking! As I am sure you have experienced, some days are better than ever, but I always remember any progress is better than no effort at all. I hope you are doing well yourself. Just remember to treat yourself like you would treat your most cherished loved one. 🙂❤️ sending love and light your way. 💗💗💗
I think you’ve made it pretty clear that these videos are art. Stories. Some acting and only showing the peaceful parts of your life. A bit staged to fit the story each week. Not all the real mess. So in that sense, I would never assume I know who you are. That would require to hang out with you for real. I think people on UA-cam are so quick to think we know someone. You are a wonderful story teller. And that is good enough for me to know to feel close to this channel. And you. You’ve been a great gift to me. Finding you a few years ago. You helped me when I could barely function. I had no peace. And through your videos I found myself again. And that is worth more than I can articulate here. ❤. But we don’t know you so why anyone would assume you are perfect is a bit odd to me.
Some UA-camrs share every aspect of their daily life. Whereas you made it clear you don’t show it all. I respect that a lot. This channel is your art. And it’s very moving indeed to be apart of. So thank you once again.
Hugs to you. ❤
In the movie Dances With Wolves, Kicking Bird says to Dances With Wolves, "I think you are on the path of a true Human Being", Dearest Paola, seeing you on this path, makes my heart soar like a hawk !!! I look for the mark of your moccasins 🙏
He was also called Busy Bee...
I watched that dvd with my kids I want to say a hundred times though surely I exaggerate. I need to get a copy and see it this winter.
How fortunate you are to be figuring this out while you are still really so young! I’m in my 60’s and just recently started relaxing into the idea that I won’t be the wildly “ successful” person I thought I should be in order to prove myself. My life is full of delights that I am so grateful for, and videos like yours have helped me grow this appreciation!
Your skills never cease to amaze me! Is there nothing you cannot make? That lavender braid was so sweet. 🌸
I rarely comment, but Paola- thank you. Truly, I and the community are so grateful for this because it also helps us realize that we’re not alone too. Another beautiful example of being interconnected with each other. We’re so incredibly and extremely proud of you! Praying for your safety!❤
Dearest Paola, I went through the same thing, only difference; being responsible for the Respiratory Department & patient care meant working long hours in a small rural hospital (it was inevitable). No matter what, where we're planted we have a choice, to grow or not to. You are wonderfully made♥️🌲
Paola, I am so grateful for your sharings and your channel. I'm a holistic therapist working with many burnt out ladies, this has also been me too. Through you I have made some big life changes, I have started mindful colouring and sitting more in nature rather than striding through on my walks, I have also moved my therapy business home and work from my cabin in the garden, I am now putting together a whimsical winter retreat for women with felting, and other crafts. You have had such an impact on my life and I am now taking this and sharing within my community. Thank you so much x
Wow, not being able to get stuff done unless there's stress is so relatable for me. Thanks for sharing! Sometimes when you see people online, you only see the good parts of their life and not the struggle. Thanks for showing it because we realize we all have struggles and no one's life is "perfect."
I am watching this video with tears in my eyes. Because it all sounds so familiar and because I am in the middle of facing my fears and problems to be able to change. Move to the direction that suits me much more. It is such a process, and this video really helps. Thank you for being open. And sharing such beautiful and calm videos in general, watching them calms my nerves. ❤
"I needed my world to fall apart" - oh my dear heart... what an intense thought. ❤🩹
Learning to live in the 'now' moment is very difficult. We are so conditioned as we grow up to always be striving for bigger and better things in the future that we lose complete focus on the 'now' moment and the gifts and joy it has for us. You may be quite young but you are a very wise old soul... I simply love your work, Paola. Blessings and love to your happy home ~
The lives you touch each time you post and the enormity of your impact is more profound than you know in this world we live in today. You have found your purpose but I believe you are such a blessing and the blessings on your life will only expand!! Just imagine your viewers faces and the many backgrounds we all come from and ages how diverse of a impact that you have on the world around u.❤❤❤
Wishing you a lovely trip to visit your grandmother. I know she is so proud of the work you are doing and the gentle, intelligent lady you have become. Safe travels😊
This has made my Wednesday! Sharing this love is so special, thank you Paola! 💛💫✨☀️
"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, For I am gentle and lowly in heart, And you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light". Matthew 11:28-30 Thank you Paola. I'm glad you are doing better. Life can be hard.
Don’t be surprised if she deletes this comment, she deleted mine :\
Why would she delete it?
Paula, your channel's history is a testament to your unwavering dedication in cultivating serenity, self-esteem, and inner strength. Your genuine sharing of relatable struggles resonates deeply. Your work is truly enchanting and an absolute joy to behold!
This part really hit home... "using stress as a motovator to get things done." That defined my pre-stroke life perfectly. I'm in the process of recovery and learning a new way of being in the world is proving to be an essential part of my healing journey. Thank you for sharing that part of your journey with us.
Sending you warm thoughts for safe travels and a happy reunion with your grandmother.
Supermom, may you find peace, happiness and health in your journey!
Dear
Paola
TheCottagefairy
Whoever You are,
You Really are Simply Soulful n Amazing
Keep Continue Your Valuable n Mesmerizing Work n Keep Adding Value to The Life
TakeCare &
ThankYou
To become the person you want to be is hard work and all the fears, tears, and failures help eventually shaping ones personality. Thank you, Paola for the reminder. It is so easy to forget that happiness and becoming the person we want to be is a choice.
Living with chronic pain and anxiety, I can empathize. I have been a human-doing for so long that I am searching for how to evolve more into a human-being. Your videos certainly provide inspiration for that journey. Thank you Paola. Great to see you on the Lavendaire podcast, which brought me back to your channel. Amazing to see you with nearly 1.5M subs. Congratulations on reaching so many lives with your gentle and creative spirit.
Me to do you have heds to
The amazing thing about the history of your channel, Paula is your consistancy in keeping and inspiring beauty and calmness, self-respect and mental discipline while sincerely but not self-intrussively expressing your challenges to which so many of us can relate to. Amazing job you did and it's always an immense pleasure watching you channel! Anca
"All that you can take everywhere is you" - so true, Paola! I moved 3 times last year and changing environments was the most stressful thing ever, but my dog and cats made it easier. Thank you for these peaceful yet powerful stories!
There's so much in what you've said that I relate to deeply! It makes me realize that although the struggle is centred in ourselves, I think it comes from being a person who truly believes in goodness and wants to lead a life that is helpful to others, while living in a cultural system that is utterly unbalanced and has no limit to what it demands from its members. I appreciate the honesty and wisdom you offer, Paoula, and I'm glad if it has helped you to cultivate this channel as much as it helps so many of us. ❤️
I love how open and authentic you are. It takes so much courage to be so vulnerable in sharing your truth. Your videos exude such peace and beauty. I don't know what your spirituality entails, but I hope you have Christ as your ultimate healer, for we can do all things in him who strengthens us. God bless you for the blessing you are to your viewers.
My mom was always home for us and she told me the 1950's were wonderful for women in the way that they didn't have to worry with "success mindset" along with raising children and caring for the entire family. In today's society we have so much stress placed upon us. I have been a single mom for 17 years and let me tell you doing it all has nearly destroyed me.
I’m going to watch your video again tonight when it is quiet and I can take it all in again. It’s so true that we are constantly evolving to become all that we are meant to be. This takes acceptance and stepping away from comfort into the unknown. What a brave young woman you are Paola, spreading your light far and wide in your gentle way. I know I don’t know you personally, but I can say that I really love you. The person you are!
And, great book you spoke about, Atomic Habits. And your quote about two lives. So very true. You and your insights are a blessing to so many. Safe travels as you go see your abuelita. 💕🌸
Me too
Paola, how comforting your channel is for so many of us.
Your bravery, honesty, & sincerity are much appreciated. Aloha, Sue 🌺💜🦋
Love the honesty and emotional depth here. Setting boundaries and making life manageable is important for all of us, and it's great that you're willing to share your experiences. I know you're not perfect, and in fact, your willingness to discuss your flaws and struggles is one of your best qualities. Have a great trip to Puerto Rico!
Why does she have to go now. Can't she go any other time of the year?
Life is love, that love resides in each of us . Life and love are not destinations, they are the journey, the path , it only gets better and better. Sending you so much love on your journey. ❤️❤️❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
In your valley and woods....there is something very magic....Thank you!
Have lots of lavender growing in my garden, never thought of doing this with them, nice.. yes we all learn as we get older and change ourselves.. And also learn someone's opinions matters not.. ..
It’s 12:58 pm on Wednesday August 23,2023. Thank you for being so real and so raw. My heart feels you. You help so many, continue to be who your created to be. Praying for your safe trip to your grandmother’s. 😊❤
One of the most endearing qualities of your channel is your willingness to share your journey as student, not master. You remind us that progress is not linear. That is profoundly honest. Thank you for sharing this journey that is simultaneously personal and universal :-)
Beautiful and deep comment. Thank you
"Building happy lives is a process that cannot be rushed."
The Lavender is so lovely!💜
A powerful affirmation that metamorphosis, becoming who we are meant to be, is challenging, even painful as we let go of old habits. I'm reminded of the adage "pressure makes diamonds." Continue to be open and honest with that process. It's what we all need. Blessings and peace to you. 🌻❤️🌄
I love you and the beautiful world that you've created . You are an inspiration to me.
Thank you, dear Cottage Fairy.
Thanks for sharing. One huge benefit in my life has been learning from all the people who have had N.D.E. near death experiences. I highly recommend it.
i love your channel, it is so relaxing and soothing ❤ keep it up !!
Paola, when you look at nature around you, we see so much balance, design, intelligence, generosity and love. It all points to the personality we want to be. Yes, its all been managed and well thought out by someone. Your little Bunny shouts gentleness, your little dog a sense of humor, your husband caring and loving companion. You are definitely on the right track Paola. Managing your life instead of the other way around, shows us how things can be fixed, changed or endured. Fate is not in control, you are. Such a lovely Video.😊
You are not alone, both my husband and myself have quit our high stress jobs, sold our too expensive house and moved 12 hours from the city we had both lived in for many years. We moved to the country and to a town where we know no one, we aren’t even sure how we ended up here….but…we do now know that there is a great awakening of humanity happening across the globe. We see darkness all around us in our world but this has to be so the light and the awakening can happen…many of us are or have gone through what you describe here…we are all physically and spiritually ascending ❤
Thank you for this x
Im struggling with chronic illness and disability, ive just lost my mum and my oartner has been diagnosed with cancer..yes! Loss of control is how i feel....i find your channel so calming . Thank you
Your videos are one of few I wait to actually watch and not just listen to while doing something else. They never disappoint in making me feel more calm. The visuals and your voice are so very relaxing. Thank you so very much for taking the time to make them and sharing with us what you think and feel
Oh my goodness, did I need this video! I feel like I'm beginning this lifestyle process. I've had a horrible anxiety disorder since I was 7, I'm 22 now. I don't know how to live without anxiety, I'm always operating at a base level of anxiety. My anxiety these past couple months has been increasingly awful and it gets triggered very easily. It's been miserable. I can feel this is my biggest challenge and I want to change it. My anxiety comes from an abusive childhood and neglect. I've been Journaling on my anxiety and trying to understand why it's a part of me. I also feel the need to control everything, my hair, my makeup, clothes, how I spend my time. I have a self made noose on me from this and I have the biggest desire to break free. I believe this is a big lesson in learning to trust the universe, having faith and trusting myself to make the right decision. This video gave me a lot of peace and hope that things will get better. Thank you so much for your honesty and humility. It gives me courage to keep moving forward.
So young and so wise. You are an extraordinary young lady❤❤❤
Life is a beautiful journey once we stop and breathe ❣️the joy and peace belongs to the world 🥰🥰
Paola, you are exactly the person I think you are: a very brave, intelligent, wise and caring woman who has shared her struggles, as well as her triumphs, with her many followers. It takes tremendous courage to bare your soul to others and to go out on a limb to radically change your life, your very being! But in doing so, I believe with all my heart that you have helped many who share some of the same challenges that you have experienced. The beauty of life is the ability to change it by being brave enough and willing enough to seek that change from within. You have demonstrated that this is possible. Thank you, God bless, and safe travels!
Loved all the points you made.
I’ve loved watching you blossom and grow in your confidence as well as your content. Bravo Paola. Keep seeking truth, keep seeking peace, enjoy where you are in life. I believe God created you for such a time as this! Safe travels!
The universe send me here, I needed to hear that im not the only one experiencing all that Ive gone through! Thanks for shRing, believe it or not youre changing lives!
Dear friend, I've been listening for a good while. Just want to encourage you that your Creator made you beautiful and loves you and your eternal soul. I am happy for the progress you've made. My prayer is that you will journey towards the Light of lights. Blessings and love...
I love nature its sooooo relaxing and refreshing❤
These videos remind me all of the time for how I ultimately want to live my life. Surrounded by loving and kind people. Nature and animals. The last 3 1/2 years have clarified a lot for me. The next 3 will make it even more clear, I'm sure.
May you follow your dream and live a life that's true to yourself and bring joy and more peace within 🙏❤
I beleave ur right peace is wonderful way from all world and stress ❤
"I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I didn't have something to be stressed about. So I would find that thing." So spot on! Such a deeply engrained habit for some people. Can totally relate.
You seem so much more confident in yourself and sure of your boundaries and values - so great to see.
This is officially my favorite video that you have done. Thank you SO much! Safe travels!! 🙏♥
Hopefully everything is fine and your home safe and sound Paola!
@11:15. Reminds me of Mark Twain quote; there are two important days in your life, the day you are born and day you find out way. When you find your purpose or passion in life it feels like you have been reborn🙏💪
This was one of your most heart-touching videos (and you've had a lot). I have fond memories dancing in my mind of your old cottage... making tea... cooking wholesome meals... reading fairy tales by candlelight. I'm in a period of recovery from past hurts and pains, as well, and struggle with being "still," "silent," and "alone." Like you mention here, I still revert to old bad habits. In this video, you inspire us all to keep pressing forward, even through the pain and discomfort, until we find the light on the other side. Your work isn't just glorious artistry; it's also a healing tool for all your kindred spirits out there.
Paola, we hope you have safe travels and have a wonderful time with your family xxx
Also just wanted to add, for anyone who doesn't automatically resonate with the concept of connecting with something bigger than yourself: you are to the Earth, what your cells and microorganisms are to you. Without even touching spirituality, religion, anything like that, you are a part of something far greater than who you perceive yourself to be.
Loving the harvest!
This is the video I needed today. I've come a long long way in the last 5 years but I'm still a bundle of nerves and anxiety due to past trauma so I need to work on that now. Chill out, relax, enjoy life!
Safe travels ❤
Paola, I love you so much. You have the sweetest, wise soul. Im a kindred spirit. Your videos bring me peace and comfort. Your sweet voice and precious personality. Thank you so very much for what you do. Many blessings sweet girl.
I needed this today!!!🌷Bravo to your vulnerablity and honesty!!!👏🏻 👆🏻🫶🏻
Such transparency shows a brave and compassionate heart, Paola. The work of healing and growth can be painful and lonely. If we only knew how many stalwart companions we have on the journey.
Oh my goodness! That gorgeous Lavender field!! I wish I were there...anywhere where I can walk through a Lavender field.
Prayers for saftey and a wonderful time 💖🙏
This video came at the perfect time. I told someone just yesterday that it feels like my world is falling apart and that I could see it going either way as far as being positive or negative. I was leaning more towards positive and your words are helping me to keep going. Thank you and good luck on your journey. I’m happy for you!
Oh my gosh, the video and area you were in is absolutely beautiful. The birds, the deer, the line of trees. I could smell them. The lavender was the most perfect shade, I want to reach for my paint brush.
Yes Paola, you have come a long, long way and made many sacrifices to get yourself here. You are using the tools you need for the rest of your life. Making your videos has been a cathartic process and a good teacher. Enjoy Abelita.
Confucius, great Chinese Philosopher, wrote this beautiful sentence back in 550 BC: “We have two lives; the second begins when we realise we only have one.”
I love you cottage fairy, your videos are so beautiful and joyful!!!
Your voice makes me feel sooth
Your journey sounds a lot like mine in many ways. I am so proud of you and anyone who is able to learn from life and do better when they know better. The writings of Eckhart Tolle finally helped get my mind in order. I listen to the audio of the book, Practicing the Power of Now, when I am stressed or at night and it reminds me of what I need to hear when things get tough and I always seem to forget. Thank you for being a loving, honest, ray of light in the world, so many of us need to hear this.
Thanks for sharing all your wonderful talents! And always safe travels!😸😁Maya
Watching Your videos feels like a Hollywood movie production. You have mastered cinematography into a fine art. It’s breathtaking!!
Paola you’re just growing up as a young woman in a society that has different standards and ideas than a lot of us do about maturing. There’s a part of us deep inside who want to become what we thought it was like to be a grown up when we were just children and there’s a part of us trying to live up to the expectations society has placed and parts that want to please our loved ones and don’t forget that small voice inside giving us a list of shoulds. It’s not that easy becoming a grown up but eventually all those pieces begin to come together and meld like one of your beautiful desserts you create you keep the good and throw what no longer serves you. I had to read Normal Vincent Peele a 100 times and Louise Hay and many others to help me realize my negative as well as positive thoughts create my reality so I’d better kick those negative ones out and find the positivity all around me inorder to create a positive life experience✨ These things you know it’s just me reminding you that you’re changing and growing like the flowers and the seasons that’s all💖 Sending much love to a kindred soul🪽✨🙏🏼
wow Paola, the part where you talked about this habit of stress becoming the motivater really convicted me. I feel like it has been so long that I've (because of depression) only did things because it was urgent or demanding. I need to get out of cycle, and do things because of healthy passion and motivation. Thank you for all your insights. You are a light and I appreciate you so much.
Hope you have safe and enjoyable travels!😘❤🙏🏻✨
I resonated with this video so very much. And very beautifully created as always.💚