I became everything I wanted to be - and I felt empty inside

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    In this video I wanted to chat about my journey achieving "success", by all external standards, in several different paths I chose in life. I found myself, more than once, in a place where I had achieved my dreams and yet felt empty and dissatisfied with life, lacking meaning, peace, and fulfillment. I wanted to share a little bit of my story, to offer encouragement and support to all of you on your own unique path.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 1,4 тис.

  • @mperera5965
    @mperera5965 8 місяців тому +9

    Your voice is a therapy for thousands of tired hearts❤ There's an incredible healing power behind those calm, peaceful words.

  • @chulangaaverilhettiarachch3267
    @chulangaaverilhettiarachch3267 Рік тому +1255

    To the person reading this: Even though I don’t know you, I wish you the best of what life has to offer ❤

  • @LS-um3zq
    @LS-um3zq Рік тому +25

    The dress, hair and flowers gave me medieval princess vibes.

  • @maddyG7414
    @maddyG7414 Рік тому +90

    You are a light in the social media world 🧝‍♀️🦋

  • @mailematseba9819
    @mailematseba9819 Рік тому +4

    The burden of "Trying to find peace in achievements" Thank you for the wonderful message

  • @TheCottageFairy
    @TheCottageFairy  Рік тому +689

    you can hear my cat aggressively playing with her toy at about 3:50 😂 I forgot to edit that out, haha! Sending much love and well wishes to all of you. Hope you enjoyed the wildflowers, more to come.

    • @HenrikLaurell
      @HenrikLaurell Рік тому +30

      just that was one of the highpoints, it made me think of our cat and the sounds she made. Miss her deeply, she left this world in 2021.

    • @PeaceLOVE447
      @PeaceLOVE447 Рік тому +7

      💜💜💜

    • @Don-ih4st
      @Don-ih4st Рік тому +18

      Paola, I so miss the sound of a dog bark in the house! You are so lucky to be where you are and have what you have.

    • @nancyelliott3653
      @nancyelliott3653 Рік тому +37

      Please do not edit out the sounds from your pets!....it is too special!
      It makes everything homier...

    • @Jomatsch
      @Jomatsch Рік тому +10

      I want to listen to him purring when you end your video. Perhaps an endless track...

  • @corinnegrima3096
    @corinnegrima3096 Рік тому +4

    As a mum of two small kids and living with a very negative-minded mother-in-law I was on the verge of losing myself. I had everything I wanted in terms of family. However I felt empty and unfulfilled. After suffering from postnatal depression with the birth of my son last year, I knew I needed to turn myself around. The first thing I did is that I forgave myself for all the mistakes I've done in the past and realized that I only made them because I was human. Then I strived to be a better person every day, not just for my own sanity but even for the sake of those around me. In all my years, this was the first time when I felt I could say I'm feeling fine today. It may not change the whole world around me, but it changed my whole life. Thank you for making me realize that I am not alone in this. I really relate to what you went through and proud for both of us for making such a huge improvement for our mental well-being.
    I just love your videos. They are so inspiring. Much love ❤❤

  • @Ellary_Rosewood
    @Ellary_Rosewood Рік тому +252

    This video made me feel many things. I've been working so hard trying to attain my "dream life", with knowing full well that even if I achieve all of my goals and live in the cottage of my dreams, nothing will make me feel fully happy and at peace more than my own mind. Right now, I'm going through a low point and it's been very difficult. I haven't been able to get myself to film and edit a new video for my channel in a few months because of this and I'm constantly beating myself up about it. However, the other day I went for a long walk along a trail close by my apartment. I left my phone at home and sat in the grass, surrounded by trees and just... was. The sound of the birds and the wind on my face was all that I needed to feel fully present and at peace in that moment. It's so important to remember this, and it's almost a sort of superpower to be able to change your mindset. To be grateful for the little things around you, even if it's just the way the sun is hitting a certain tree, making it glow.
    I wish you all the peace in the world! You bring so much joy into the world. ❤
    Also, where did you get those two dresses? They are gorgeous!

    • @SweetKonekoCat
      @SweetKonekoCat Рік тому +5

      She put a link in the description for the 2 dresses❤️

    • @Ellary_Rosewood
      @Ellary_Rosewood Рік тому +2

      @@SweetKonekoCat Ah I looked for it there, must have missed it. Thanks!

    • @kassandra8010
      @kassandra8010 Рік тому +18

      Just checked out your channel and love your videos, your way of filming and your artwork :) I know it doesn't necessarily help with those low points, but just wanted to let you know... don't beat yourself up too much, it happens to all of us, and you are not alone

    • @Ellary_Rosewood
      @Ellary_Rosewood Рік тому +5

      @@kassandra8010 Awww you are too kind! Your words really mean so much to me, thank you. 🥰❤️

    • @troisangroi115
      @troisangroi115 Рік тому +4

      I get you, a little... Some people say philosophy thought to me that do not depend on external world but after 6 months I volunteer in a farm where I can listen to nature and a 10-days Vipassana meditation in a pagoda, I feel it's differently. External world matters too. Till now, I'm come back home but always feel it's very uncomfortable to live in the city for a long time. Time to make money and get a land my own...

  • @SeaTurtle515
    @SeaTurtle515 Рік тому +39

    Not only to live more simply but to live more intentionally, with the goal of peace. 🌿

  • @gottfriedosterbach3907
    @gottfriedosterbach3907 Рік тому +23

    I am an introvert who grew up a mentally ill narcissist father. I spent my childhood and early adult years in survival mode with low self esteem and feeling rejected.
    It is too complicated to talk about briefly, however my experience with struggling immaturely to find pride and a sense of self worth has taught me a lot I believe. There idea of if I only had.... is a flawed one. As is the idea that I could reach where I wanted without assistance. I don't mind being eccentric one bit, but I was coming from a place with no real idea of what the normal base really is.
    It is a process of non linear development that doesn't always benefit by extremes. Being defined by the eccentricities doesn't fill in the sense of emptiness. In some ways it only reinforces it where life feels like acting in a play or a facade. The truth is that the beauty of a damaged person is muddled with their flaws and deficits. Over time with growth hopefully eccentricity and passions in life become more of an extension of the core and less of an attempt at distraction, trying to create a world we want to live in, and attempts at self soothing which was true in my case perhaps even still more than I would prefer.
    My apologies for the unsolicited commentary, but this is a bit of my personal perspective and experience.
    You are a beautiful person of worth and I have ever bit of confidence that you will believe that more and more over time.

  • @saradabretema
    @saradabretema Рік тому +4

    Oh Paola, I have teary eyes after watching this video. I relate so much to everything you say! It feels like finally finding a kindred spirit that perceives the world in a very similar way to me.
    I've always been trying to find joy in my achievements as well, even though what I was really doing was hiding a very low self-esteem and quelling my own inner critic.
    I've always been a very good student, I got excellent grades at school, high-school and university, which actually lead me to very serious mental health problems. After that, I decided to focus on my new dream (which was actually always there, hidden, silent and buried beneath fears and insecurity), and that was achieving something through art (photography, painting, music...). Once again, I ended up being burnt out and quite disappointed because, apparently, I didn't achieve anything. On top of that, it also lead me to feeling very disconnected from my own art; the things I initially enjoyed gave me no pleasure anymore, and that felt outrageous, as if someone had stolen an essential part of my being.
    At the moment I'm working on letting go that dream (or obsession) of being recognized as 'someone successful' by achieving something though art. I still want to create art and be creative because it can actually bring me so much joy, peace and contentment and it's an essential part of who I am. However, I know that to fully enjoy my art and find that sense of permanent peace and joy, I need to release myself from the unbearable weight of having to be successful at it. And I'm also trying to connect with my spirituality, which makes me feel like I belong in this world and that I don't need anything to be happy, just exist.
    Thank you endlessly for sharing your wisdom and kindness with us and for letting us connect to your beautiful spirit. I'm sending you so much love :)

  • @MyCygnusX1
    @MyCygnusX1 Рік тому +1

    Instead of running towards my dreams, I run from suffering. This is how I've been orienting myself for a long time and is similar to what you describe. "Maybe if I can escape this painful situation" "maybe if I turn away from cruelty". I'm not sure how to stop, but this way of life is not working

  • @mabella3437
    @mabella3437 Рік тому +4

    Put God in the center of your life and you shall never feel empty. God bless all the viewers!

  • @rachelina97
    @rachelina97 Рік тому +6

    I really needed to hear this. Your every word speaks to me and where I am now.
    Off to get that college degree to fulfill something I only chased from a wounded place. I do love what I learn, yet know I can just buy the book and be happy without going through the classes and getting the degree. I’m ready to go somewhere that feels slow and calming (such as a small town surrounded by nature rather than city lights).
    All I crave is to have a sanctuary within myself. That is my #1 goal to focus on.

  • @authoremilyjosephine
    @authoremilyjosephine Рік тому +8

    Most everyone's dreams and goals change drastically from their late teens/early 20s. Kudos, Paola, that yours changed in the right direction. 🙂❤

  • @monabenkhalifa1268
    @monabenkhalifa1268 Рік тому +21

    Your words are exactly what I needed to hear today! I have experienced many failures these past few months and I have gradually lost all of my confidence. I felt depleted. A lot of things I wanted to achieve have been taken from me even though I worked hard. I really wanted to believe that working hard always pays off. But it doesn't. I felt like a failure, and I desperately needed to succeed at the next task to prove myself to myself. I associated my self worth with that small success. Now that I didn't make it, I feel miserable. Your words helped me find some peace of mind. Thank you as always.

    • @danherrick5785
      @danherrick5785 Рік тому +2

      In this video, she talked about respecting yourself enough to give yourself permission and time to heal. You are more important that your goals and achievements. She chose herself over her goals and resumes. I know we cannot all afford to do this, but if you can, you should.

  • @Native-Kitty
    @Native-Kitty Рік тому +6

    Watching you have a full on conversation with your cat and the dog also responding was hilarious 😅😅😅❤❤❤

  • @Altheya878
    @Altheya878 Рік тому

    Thank you for sharing, so precious. I too often just stop and look at beautiful skies, with clouds or clear blue, sunrays going through clouds when closer to sunset. Green walls of trees on both sides as i walk through. And I wisper to myself: this is a gift worth living for, gift all money in the world cant buy, what else can we wish for. Just look at it, admire and treasure, and cherish

  • @girlfromthewood6444
    @girlfromthewood6444 Рік тому +3

    Oh dear! Such a beautiful spring views! I am also had very long winter this year and I am very very happy that everything around is blooming and getting warmer and warmer! Sometimes I walk down the street in the evening, I look at the blue dome of heaven, the sun's rays falling everywhere, many flowers on the flowerbed - and I feel like in a fairy tale! I ve many dreams and I believe that fulfilling them will help me achieve even more. But I think that everything external: achievements, delicious food, beautiful things, routine things- are just help in contemplating and creating beauty to be inspired and loved.
    In the past year, I have been experiencing what seems to be depression and due to health and stress, my people often had panic attacks. I developed bad habits and a terrible sadness because everything changed so much that year, because I had never experienced such shock and devastation. nothing helped me get out of this situation. I began to earn a lot, but I could not live in peace and felt fear.

    I am a Christian, but only few months ago everything changed when I met God. I have long dreamed of starting a church life, and then I was able to go to worship... And my life changed. Very. So i believe He is the only one who can fill our void. Spending time with Him is the ultimate peace. He's my inner light. Now I am grateful for every moment of my life, which has become even better.
    "So do not fear, for I am with you" 41:40
    I am so glad and and amazed that you so sincerely emphasized that each of us has an internal goal that has the greatest meaning - we are all unique, and each has its own soul.
    Faith and love gives me strength to live. And paints everything around in the joy of color. I realized that I need to learn to love and rejoice and sorrow and fun days. And then the light of the soul is illuminated.
    Yeah, it's not even a feeling. But something higher. It cant be described in words. I can only wish you all the best and that one day the truth and faith in God will open up for you too. So that you can always find consolation and joy .. and your soul is lit up with light..
    greetings from St. Petersburg❤

    • @Angela-ep9pm
      @Angela-ep9pm Рік тому +1

      What Truth and so beautifully spoken! It reminds me of a song we sing in church: “This Joy that I have, the world didn’t give it to me. And if the world didn’t give it, the world can’t take it away.”

    • @girlfromthewood6444
      @girlfromthewood6444 Рік тому

      @@Angela-ep9pm amen🙏

  • @erinreviews5444
    @erinreviews5444 Рік тому

    Wow this woman practically read my mind in some parts of this video. Really insightful.

  • @NYKIRA
    @NYKIRA Рік тому +6

    This video could not come at a more perfect time 💖 I have been meditating on the word desire recently and asking what it truly means for me. Often our desires for accomplishments and accolades can blindsight us and make us overlook cultivating true inner peace that's unwavered by our endevours or environment. I wish this level of self peace and freedom for everyone 💗

  • @starrrivers6158
    @starrrivers6158 Рік тому +2

    I have to thank the UA-cam algorithm for sending me your video "I don't know how to be an 'adult' in this world" as well as this one. I have since subscribed. I just wanted to say thank you so much for your inspiring words! I have been feeling low and really restless for, honestly, the past few months. I've been going to college and just feeling lost and alone, feeling like I don't like the career paths I have available within my majors, my friends aren't the people who I want to be friends with anymore, my religion that I've been following since I was young seems like a sham these days, and there's family drama and turmoil. I am constantly wondering if the life I'm leading is what I want to do but I don't know anymore. Hopefully one day I'll come around and find what I need to be happy and at peace. Again, thank you for your videos and for your words. You are helping so many people out here in the world, more than any of us ever know.

  • @ireallyamjomarch
    @ireallyamjomarch Рік тому +1

    Another linen company with dresses, skirts, blouses etc. is Pyne and Smith. I have one dress from them and it’s so beautiful and has pockets 😊

  • @huh4963
    @huh4963 Рік тому +7

    I’ve come back to your channel after a couple years and I’m so happy to see you here still. Your videos give me comfort in times of chaos in my life

  • @Mixoui
    @Mixoui Рік тому +1

    I am currently living a house torn in two, though my past 'homes' have been just the same. I cannot ever remember waking up feeling content, and not afraid of what will happen that day. I am afraid of going downstairs, because its always loud there. I sleep in most mornings, I am reluctant to work for long hours. I grew up with a very naive and good-natured attitude, but in childhood environment it didnt last, so i became very self-aware and reclusive early on. I felt passively ignored to what little me was trying to say, i was too young to know the words... i still am ignored. I am studying atm, but i do not feel the desire of having a career. I have the drive, but not for academics. It's slowly losing its resonance with me... but still i much go on.
    My dreams are where my thoughts are. And you speak the language of my thoughts. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • @karolina8465
    @karolina8465 Рік тому

    Paola, the footage from the forest.... There's nothing I would wish more for than to take a bath in that stream. Hope you'll post some more vids from Puerto Rico in the future, it looks so cozy and amazing. Lately, while sitting in silence I realized spending 12 hours away from home 5 days a week is slowly killing me, and that was a huge discovery. Connecting with nature is something we all need so bad.

  • @FNe2011
    @FNe2011 Рік тому

    Same for me with the goals. The gratification is so fleeting.

  • @angelastein1986
    @angelastein1986 Рік тому +1

    I love this video so much and Im happy for you, that you find your peace. Its very intriguing how I can relate with your feelings, I liveed many years in a big city and for 2 year during the pandemics I had my baby in a very small town, had a quiet life alone with my baby. And that was an experience I never forget. Now back to the big city, I keep thinking that this iis not my place anymore, and I feel so down everyday, knowing II dont belong in here.

  • @MihaelaClaudiaPuscas
    @MihaelaClaudiaPuscas Рік тому

    What a brilliant video Paola, I love how genuine you are and how you open up with us! That encourages me to stay real as well towards others but mainly towards me. Accept what is going on within me and if I don't like what I see to work towards finding my peace. It is never too late to find yourself and find out what you really love and who you really are. Thank you so much for this food for thought, you are such a sweetheart! Much love, see you next time!

  • @bordercollieluxi
    @bordercollieluxi Рік тому

    I love that your Cat has answered you. I realized today how much i Love my dog.
    I feel the same about Goals.

  • @kmarshall53
    @kmarshall53 Рік тому +2

    I appreciate your thoughtful analysis of your life. I had a very busy and productive life as a young woman which included marriage and children, homeschooling and home making, which I loved. But the marriage was unsustainable and I divorced, put my children into public school, got a teaching degree, and began a 20 year career. Now I’m retired, single, and living in a little home with my cat and two Corgis, landscaping and growing vegetables in my yard. I’m very happy on my own, doing what I love, reading and learning and getting enough rest and experiencing very little of the stresses of modern life. I appreciate this season of life so much. It’s wonderful to be at peace, still relatively healthy, and have the time to do the things I really enjoy. Your videos are a calming, beautiful part of my lovely life. Thank you for that and for your sweet art, which I also enjoy! 💗

  • @Miriam_Anna
    @Miriam_Anna Рік тому

    your house looks like it's right out of a beautiful fairytale

  • @philcalder3127
    @philcalder3127 Рік тому

    Cottage fairy 🧚‍♀️ cats and dogs with their unconditional love is what makes us human, never ever edit out what is part of you, animals make this world special, that’s why they don’t talk just love ❤️

  • @pomurephi6880
    @pomurephi6880 Рік тому

    Watching you learning to understand who and what you are, is soothing to my mental, physical, and spiritual being,
    Because we are all; Constant transformational evolving evolutionary indigenous beings to all there is.

  • @sophiegagnon3992
    @sophiegagnon3992 Рік тому +1

    So young but yet so wise… you truly are an inspiration and a healer to us who follow you. 💕

  • @ancienthealinglight
    @ancienthealinglight Рік тому

    Hi Having time to recover from life has been my goal. Privacy to think and simply be. I think you are doing wonderful. I saw your art, so lovely. Being kind to oneself is so healing. Blessings to you. Love your channel.

  • @katherandefy
    @katherandefy Рік тому

    I have the opposite problem. Years of knowing I am good as is I rarely see reflected back to me. Not the best feeling. And making a better living is vital when I rely on myself.
    Not to gainsay at all. Because I know most people struggle as you have. I hear them.

  • @mikebaguley9092
    @mikebaguley9092 Рік тому

    Life's journey is beautiful, dance 💃 ♥ amongst the shadows, absorb every ray of precious moments life has to offer in the glorious sunshine, yealds forever golden memories. plant 🪴 a seed and watch the miracle of love grow. Thank you for sharing your wonderful words with a humble heart take care 🕊💖

  • @Angelcots
    @Angelcots Рік тому

    I grew up in a idealic small town in the mountains and never felt like I was in the right place. It turns out that I found my idealic life just a few miles from the center of a major city. It's extremely urban here and yet somehow life is just so pleasant and down to earth.

  • @kristinataddei8138
    @kristinataddei8138 Рік тому +2

    Ohhh.....the "shooting stars" are sooo beautiful(the little single purple flowers).....they were always my favorite as a small child....thank you for sharing your lovely outdoor break amongst the friendly wild flowers.....such peace and wonder is the best part of spring.....like a long, lost friend you accidently bumped into(lol).....love your channel and all that you are....thank you for being you....all of you!!!....

  • @katiecoole101
    @katiecoole101 Рік тому

    You are a fairy reminding each of us of magic we all possess. A deep thank you, 🙏

  • @frankszulakiewicz5826
    @frankszulakiewicz5826 Рік тому +1

    I love your style and natural beauty .

  • @emilybernstein6152
    @emilybernstein6152 Рік тому +1

    For what it's worth, just by you sharing your light, you inspire me to follow my dreams, including the dream of healing. Thank you for sharing!

  • @latemaaia
    @latemaaia Рік тому +2

    ‬‏ ‏‪12:27‬‏ I'm living in place don't really like and sometimes it becomes so hard to me to feel peace or to have a desire to do things i love.. your words means a lot to me so thank u! I'll try to keep going and stay positive as possible i can

  • @Viksonoio
    @Viksonoio Рік тому +1

    I'm so thankful for your videos because your words feel just kind and wise to me and they often come when needed the most. I'm also thankful for the comment section, it's wholesome to read heartwarming words shared.
    Kindness heals, keep it up ✨

  • @MyVintageLife
    @MyVintageLife Рік тому +11

    Amazing and universal message, my dear. This is very inspiring. Of course, fulfillment is key to the meaning of life!

  • @rowenaseabrooke5031
    @rowenaseabrooke5031 Рік тому +2

    Hello Poala! I stay at the southern most tip of Africa, also in a wildflower kind of a country place... I love your channel. It brings me such joy, truly. God bless you. And thank you for allowing me to realize that I too, need nothing else but to heal and to try love myself more. xxxxxxxx

  • @palmamingozzi5736
    @palmamingozzi5736 Рік тому

    I just love that you created a beautiful and peaceful environment for yourself. Sometimes people lose hope and confidence and don’t feel they can do and live their lives for themselves, but you really can. Your videos make me happy, so thank you very much for your tranquility and sharing your story.❤

  • @gingerboard8459
    @gingerboard8459 Рік тому

    Eloquently said. You have helped a lot of people with your videos. Beautiful soul.

  • @alysiam3559
    @alysiam3559 Рік тому +5

    Aww Paula I pray that you one day have a relationship with Jesus(if you don’t already) he is the only one who can fill our void. Spending time with him is the ultimate peace ❤you always remind me of the verse ““You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God.”
    ‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭3‬:‭4‬ ‭NLT‬‬ he is always knocking he loves you!

  • @Tsuyu-SaisonDesPluies
    @Tsuyu-SaisonDesPluies 10 місяців тому

    Merci pour ces merveilleuses vidéos, je suis très touchée par cette belle philosophie de vie ❤ merci 🌸🌸🌸 love you 🌸 Sophie

  • @shelbyphan7771
    @shelbyphan7771 Рік тому

    “That feeling, somewhere between fleeting joy and sadness…” I know that one well. I have been practicing opening myself up to greater and greater levels of self understanding and compassion as well.
    You put a lot of love and care into producing this video that carries such a powerful and subtle message. Thank you.

  • @websurfer5772
    @websurfer5772 Рік тому

    Never worry about animals making noises in the background, it sounds lively and fun to me.
    I applaud you in your endeavors to find peace within yourself. You've created such a beautiful home. It's like straight out of a fairytale.
    Your personal goals happen to be my North Node (North Star) in my natal chart. It's hard for me to live a life where I cater to myself and my own needs, so yep, that's my mission this lifetime that I must have set before I even incarnated here. I was just feeling pleased with my progress on this before I watched this video so it feels like my angels were speaking directly to me through you. Thank you, Cottage Fairy. I'm inspired and impressed by your willingness to share your insights and experiences in an honest way with all of us lucky folk who get to hear you. 🐇🏡🧚🐈🐕🐇

  • @petitebri3327
    @petitebri3327 Рік тому

    I appreciate all the footage of the little Spring Beauties you have been showing. I grew up with them and have not been fortunate in getting them to grow at any of my adult homes. It's been lovely to see them here.😍

  • @karensmithiessmithies4741
    @karensmithiessmithies4741 Рік тому

    Oh I have missed your video messages, bless you. Such a wonderful message to share as always xx

  • @dkyngsllcry3837
    @dkyngsllcry3837 Рік тому

    thank you. this makes me cry

  • @andoniserranoalberdi
    @andoniserranoalberdi Рік тому

    It is quite the opposite for me as I have not accomplished any of my goals in my life. But this year I realized that the true and only GOAL in this life was meeting my TWIN SOUL. I'm full on into it and the progress has been huge (receiving a lot of intuitive guidance about her and connecting with her in my meditations at a deeper level). I also know at a more logical level that it is pure physics and that the magnetic attraction is inevitable to manifest in physical form at some point. The challenge is that the closer it seems the more impatient I get sometimes.

  • @Shellbee55
    @Shellbee55 Рік тому +1

    I related to this video for so many different reasons. Finding and loving myself being one. Learning to not care or to tune out the judgement of other's who tell you hurtful things when they also say to they love you??? Learning to just be at peace with myself and not worry about these things would be such a huge acknowledgement. ❤️❤️❤️ Your channel beings such relaxation and ☮️ peace.

  • @KerraBearuhhh
    @KerraBearuhhh Рік тому

    This was so beautiful. I subscribed. It made me cry. My worst fear is being alone or the fear of abandonment. I've been working on loving myself again and this video really helps. Thank you so much. ❤

  • @safirazed7375
    @safirazed7375 5 місяців тому

    You are a gift to humanity ❤

  • @anthonyw2931
    @anthonyw2931 Рік тому +1

    the irony of it all is that you're in a way a teacher. With an ongoing doctorate in the way you aspire to live. And this is exactly what every young person and the young at heart (me) needs. Your videos will be relevant for eternity (well as long as there's a medium available). We are grateful and may God continue blessing you and yours.

  • @verenagraham1606
    @verenagraham1606 Рік тому +1

    Your videos are so peaceful.The photography is so beautiful. Thank you x

  • @ajscloud
    @ajscloud Рік тому

    The red dress + white flowers looks really good! ❤ Everything about this video is enchanting, including your encouraging words…

  • @carenfeldman8854
    @carenfeldman8854 Рік тому +1

    Internal validation over external validation is definitely more spiritually sustainable.

  • @MaryamAli-vd1xv
    @MaryamAli-vd1xv Рік тому

    Yes really do love the dresses. And the beautiful scenery of everything. Peaceful and beautiful 🌹🌻🐇

  • @CHular
    @CHular Рік тому

    Paola, thank you for sharing your wisdom. I, too, find that a lot of my stresses comes from being so hard on myself, to do more, and to be more. When what I truly need is self-love and self-acceptance. It's like I was hardwired all my life to reach the finish line in everything I do, and I'm expected to come out successful every time. Yet, it seems that the road to accomplishments is never ending. And a lot of times it's too exhausting. Your videos are so calming and insightful. This is the one and only channel I go to destress, and to find some healing. You are such a beautiful soul, and your presence is a gift to the world. Blessings to you always! ❤💮☘

  • @kerenvalentin7082
    @kerenvalentin7082 Рік тому

    Absolutely lovely! You have come a long way to find your safe place. You are an inspiration to many. As a survivor I know it takes a long time to find what you have found. I'm still on the journey and with time I will reach my place, my peace. I'm getting there, slowly but surely. Thank God!!

  • @elumalaia3938
    @elumalaia3938 Рік тому

    Thank you so much❤... God bless you with good health, peace and happiness

  • @cherieallen9508
    @cherieallen9508 Рік тому +3

    🌿JESUS CHRIST 🌱❤️💯👍

  • @leslovesliberty1776
    @leslovesliberty1776 Рік тому

    Your channel is my absolute favorite on UA-cam, thank you for sharing your life & peace with us! It's just wonderful. 🙏🦋😊

  • @MargaridaAlves-r5f
    @MargaridaAlves-r5f Рік тому

    Your video reminds me of my mama.I miss you & wish you here. Mama

  • @Sue-pp1yr
    @Sue-pp1yr Рік тому

    Thank you for sharing. Deeply appreciate the content and your open and honest approach. ❤

  • @janetmonaghan5419
    @janetmonaghan5419 Рік тому

    So beautiful where you live.xx i live in western australia we too get wildflowers after winter, google them they are amazing grow up in desert, red soil conditions esp. If it has rained. Bless you lovely friend.x

  • @cattuslavandula
    @cattuslavandula Рік тому

    Linen is so comfortable in the warm weather. Light, airy, and cool when it's humid, also.

  • @patrickc.1208
    @patrickc.1208 Рік тому

    ....as delicate as a glass flower. Thank you for sharing, again 😊

  • @britthallenrud343
    @britthallenrud343 Рік тому

    Oh Paola, you are such a blessing. Thank you for being you, and sharing yourself with us. The world is a brighter place with you in it. Your message this week is so poignant as I have had very similar realisations myself around connection to Self being all that really matters. Accomplishment and external environments really don’t matter when you have peace within. Sending so much love and gratitude to you. Thank you 🙏🏼🍃💚

  • @wolfman3295
    @wolfman3295 Рік тому

    Dear Paola, I love that red dress on you. It makes you look even more elegant. And putting those beautiful flowers in your beautiful hair was such a beautiful touch. That other dress also looks so beautiful too. Yes most of us have gone through times in our life where we wanted to erase those memories but hopefully we did learn a valuable lesson. I certainly went though some tough struggles in my life but I did learn from those struggles with the help of a wonderful woman. And now occasionally I am able to help other people with their life situations.

  • @lightgrey5365
    @lightgrey5365 Рік тому +1

    very same thing happened to me. thought i would be an academic, everybody thought id be one... but then i realized i was simply expecting some goal to fill me. i needed to fill me instead.

  • @TheMennomilist
    @TheMennomilist Рік тому

    Beautifully said. I really like that room with the green wall that you sat in at one point after you got showered and dressed.
    Sondeflor is definitely a wonderful company. I have dreamt of wearing their dresses for a couple of years. Maybe one day.
    You are definitely valuable! I am glad you have realized that.
    As a life coach, one of the things many of us often tell clients is, "You can't change your past, but you can change the way you view your past." You stated something in a similar form in this video.

  • @pomurephi6880
    @pomurephi6880 Рік тому

    Your soul lies within the realm of feelings!, and belief, its just another extension of who you are.

  • @Hammerli280
    @Hammerli280 Рік тому

    I think the key is defining success as something YOU want to do. Not what others expect or want. Because success always comes with a price tag.

  • @jeansmith9773
    @jeansmith9773 Рік тому +3

    There is a Christshape void in everybody, until Jesus fills it, you are empty

  • @amelie4782
    @amelie4782 Рік тому

    to absolutely anyone who may need this, it’s hard. i know it is, but that’s how you get somewhere. you push and push through ups and downs, constantly fighting back and fourth, but that’s it. your okay, or you are going to be okay. be patient, life is too special for all sadness and stress therefore, stay and wait. everything is going to be okay. you’ve been through paths of the days of worry and paths of the days of tears, but you survived. you made it, and you know it. slow down, you’re doing fine. you can’t be everything you want to be sometimes. things may go wrong, and things may go right. and that’s all good, just breathe, think, and move on. but just wait, you’re going to be fine.
    my father once told me ‘don’t worry about things you can’t change’ and that is beautiful. why worry if you can’t change it or doing something about it? breathe, think and move on.
    remember to stay calm and focused on the things and people you love, keep smiling, stay strong and keep your head up high. i love you 💗

  • @ReallyRayven
    @ReallyRayven Рік тому

    I am in the process of divorce, and it has been incredibly heartbreaking but simultaneously healing in finding my value and path in life. This has been the most difficult time of my life, but in the past few months I have grown through the trauma, so much so that now I am helping others in the military community to get through their own similar hardships. To use my pain as fuel to help others, to prevent the cycle from repeating, and falling in love with life itself for the first time ever. This earth is beautiful and offers unlimited opportunities if you are daring enough to go for them!

  • @estherwolf110
    @estherwolf110 Рік тому

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts. They help me see I'm not alone in this journey.

  • @viccimauldin9786
    @viccimauldin9786 Рік тому

    The red dress looks simply lovely on you. Peace is very very important to the soul. Thank you for sharing with us. ❤

  • @zandilemnguni3092
    @zandilemnguni3092 Рік тому +1

    It's God, our creator and father of our Lord. Love, peace, light. Thank you for sharing.

  • @sineadnicant-sealgar3758
    @sineadnicant-sealgar3758 Рік тому

    Your videos are very inspiring and help many of us gain more peace in our day to day existences because many of your experiences are relatable to us. I find that to be one of the gifts you offer here. I am at a crossroads of change and finding some days to be overwhelming and others exactly where I need to be. Your videos provide encouragement to find ways to heal and move forward. I, too live in the country where wildflowers are sharing their beauty now and mornings are full of birdsongs, some sunny moments and fresh air. Thank you for your work and productions. They are much appreciated!

  • @lynnettetaylor4314
    @lynnettetaylor4314 Рік тому

    But your videos certainly make us happy!

  • @Kazini_
    @Kazini_ Рік тому

    Your story resonates deeply with me. I have pushed hard against the 'successful' person I could be, if only one chose to detach oneself from whimsy and heart. I did it for a while, and it is hard to come back from, if one ever fully does, as soul lives with reason as it does with desire.
    I'm at a crossroads, and it is hard to cast away the chains without a safety net - An income source to buy that hut in the woods, to talk to friends and download books, to keep some of the modern world, an open window to one we wish to distance ourselves from. To find someone who wants to share a life like this with me, and to see all the world has to offer, if not at least try.
    I suppose I don't dislike such naive, greedy need for it all we humans have, because even if the yearning is heavy, it tolls many melodies, including the one that calls for the life of introspection, the tug of the woods and meadows, the yearning to feel alive.

  • @johndej
    @johndej Рік тому

    Wonderful video!! As I think back to what I dreamed of doing or becoming in my younger days, I realized that sometimes the act of working towards a dream can be more satisfying than the achievement of that dream. I've tended to loop around on my dream journeys. I've started towards something, gotten interrupted, and often come back to that path later on. That's how I became a teacher. It took me 10 years to come back, but it was worth it. I found that the experiences I'd gained on that loop turned out to be valuable tools I could used as a teacher. My advice to those who are searching: enjoy the journey!

  • @mitthunagarji9125
    @mitthunagarji9125 Рік тому

    This is so relatable and your way of speaking or describe the situation is so adorable.i am feeling good to hear such a beautiful word and advice. Thank you

  • @chinazoucheaga4825
    @chinazoucheaga4825 Рік тому +1

    The highest form of pleasure for me is my relationship with God through Jesus. Thanks to Him, I don't live for myself cause it will never satisfy me. I was made to bring God glory.

  • @SarahCaitlin_97222
    @SarahCaitlin_97222 Рік тому +1

    Your words are so, so true! 😊 Over the past year or so, I have been growing more and more. I just had my 26th birthday in February, and it has been a natural transition into re-evaluating what is really important in my life. I've been on a very similar journey to move away from my physical self and external sources of happiness and to become more comfortable with my soul and inner light. After all, I believe that the only thing in this world that is not temporary and is eternal is our souls and the love that we have in our hearts. You are a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing your story with the world. We need more wakened warriors like yourself. Peace and love. ❤🌷☀️✌️

  • @janetstraw191
    @janetstraw191 Рік тому

    Paola, had you been born in another place and time - I could well see you as a Pre-Raphaelite muse! 🙋‍♀️🥰🇺🇸💕

  • @noyes1014
    @noyes1014 Рік тому

    Thank you so much that's help me a lot ,because last three months i felt uncomfortable specially when i feel that i'm alone and i haven't the other side to talk to .

  • @anilasaleem2158
    @anilasaleem2158 Рік тому

    Thank u for this inspiring journey, facing the restlessness & not being able to know what you want us a daily struggle that hopefully I'll overcome someday soon

  • @raaagdoll
    @raaagdoll Рік тому

    Love your mind set~ it is so calming.
    Hearing you talk about these topics brings me so much peace and validation. 💚🙏🏻

  • @matttorrence2900
    @matttorrence2900 Рік тому +1

    Hey, it's little red riding hood! Watch out for wolves!

  • @jailtonmeira1520
    @jailtonmeira1520 Рік тому

    Good night. God bless you. 🙏🙌