I'm Struggling - Mystery Pain - Stage 4 Lung Cancer

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  • Опубліковано 19 жов 2022
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    Jenny Appleford
    7211 Haven Ave, Unit E-407
    Rancho Cucamonga, CA 91701
    INSTAGRAM: jenny_appleford
    FACEBOOK: Our Brave Jenny
    For business inquiries: veganapplefords@gmail.com
    DIAGNOSIS:
    March 19th, 2021 Stage IIIA Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (Non-Smoking)
    February 2022 Stage IV Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (spreading to Brain, and other parts of lung and lymph nodes)
    Gene Mutation EGFR with Exon 20 Insertion
    TREATMENTS: Received or currently Receiving
    2021: 8 Rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin and Paclitaxel) with 30 concurrent radiation treatments to chest and lung
    Failed Immunotherapy directly after Chemo and Radiation (Durvalumab, 1 round)
    2022: Current Chemo Plan; ongoing
    6 rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin, Alimta, and Avastin)
    Carboplatin is now COMPLETE and I continue Alimta and Avastin
    Targeted Brain Radiation (Completed)
    Our GoFundMe Link:
    gofund.me/5edf81e5
    The purpose of my channel is to document my cancer journey to look back on, and/or help anyone else going through anything similar. It is also to potentially help loved ones supporting those who are in this fight as well. My main goal is to have footage of this journey for my husband and children to look back on. I originally created this channel as a sort of video diary for my family.
    Thank you so much for following along on this journey. Your love and support help me so much.

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  • @bonchauvin5744
    @bonchauvin5744 8 місяців тому +22

    I miss Jenny……what a special girl she was! She so impacted my life…her bravery, courage, determination……

    • @janetcarlson31
      @janetcarlson31 Місяць тому +1

      I do too!! She really was a very special person wasn't she!!! I so wished I could have known her!! Just a lovely, lovely woman!! To watch this and know she isn't alive anymore is soul crushing for me. Even though technology doesn't come close to having the real thing, at least the kids can know what she was thinking, feeling, everything, when they watch all her videos one day!! I feel real, honest to goodness love for her and the whole family!! While I am more often than not, uplifted by watching these videos, they are heartbreaking as well!!

  • @jojoFranklin
    @jojoFranklin Рік тому +297

    Dearest Jenny. You might not be able to be fun mom but you’re still the best mom. Whatever you can’t give Ellis and Winnie in physical capacity right now, you are giving them strength and inspiration by the tenacity and courage with which you’re fighting for them. That is something very precious. Keep fighting … one day at a time x

  • @joey_5060
    @joey_5060 Рік тому +204

    From a single mom living with cancer...
    I have SO much guilt...
    I used to play with my son sooo much...
    I'm on super strong painkillers to try to keep the pain under control...
    I understand.
    Stay strong...keep fighting.
    We've got this. ❤

    • @mimirose6798
      @mimirose6798 Рік тому +3

      YES YOU BOTH DO JOEY. 💙💙🙏🙏💙

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE.🙏🙏

    • @daybyday0731
      @daybyday0731 Рік тому +7

      Are you part of tiffany think family? You're right you got this we got this!thus!! Lord is good

    • @whiteprivilege7961
      @whiteprivilege7961 Рік тому +5

      Hang in there you got it.

    • @whiteprivilege7961
      @whiteprivilege7961 Рік тому +2

      @@elypowell6797 you forgot how we get paid up to 25% more annually as well .

  • @elizagrogan9454
    @elizagrogan9454 Рік тому +146

    Jenny, you threw yourself into that 5klm walk. Your muscles and joints have been less active for a long time, and they are screaming for mercy.
    Children have an amazing capacity to adapt. They just love being with you. They don't judge you for your illness or for you being less active. They feel loved and love you so much.
    You have such a caring community here. Please don't stop sharing the ups and downs. It's helps others in your position and allows us the privledge of being your sounding board.
    There are lots of us praying for you and I've been counting my blessings more because of you.

    • @missdaisy5736
      @missdaisy5736 Рік тому +4

      It sounds like a good plan to see what your doctors decide to do to help with your pain. You really are an amazing woman! No need to think you cannot talk to us on UA-cam. No matter what sure needing to talk about! None of us think this is easy❤❤❤❤❤❤ we support you we care about you, we care about Kyle, we care about your beautiful children, we care about your family members, we care about each other on this channel! You are safe with us here and we pray for you and for God to bless you and to help you heal yourself because you Or a deserving person in family❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

    • @butterfly4him168
      @butterfly4him168 Рік тому +2

      Still praying and will continue!

    • @m.coline
      @m.coline Рік тому +2

      I agree Jenny. Your muscles weren't ready for the 5km walk so they need some time to recover.You must keep positive, that is half the battle.
      Create an image in your head, then declare war on the cancer cells.Picture yourself aiming and shooting and destroying each and every cancer cell.That is what I did 17 yrs.ago.and you can too Jenny.

    • @marvettamiller3751
      @marvettamiller3751 Рік тому +1

      Jenny you are truly amazing and we all love you

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE.🙏🙏

  • @leylag1466
    @leylag1466 Рік тому +123

    Don’t beat yourself up over limitations that cancer puts on you as a mother. Do you remember the things your mom did with you or the way your mother made you feel? We can take our kids on elaborate vacations, outings buy them expensive toys etc. However what they remember is how your hugs make them feel. How you smell. What your hair feels like on their faces. You are enough! You are doing absolutely amazing. You are the best mother your kids could ever ask for and that won’t ever change. Don’t let anyone tell you different. Especially yourself. If your friend would be sad about not being able to be an active mom/ playmate while fighting cancer , what would you tell her? You would give her much more credit than you are giving yourself. Tell that little doubtful thing on your shoulder that it needs to pack up and leave. You are a fantastic mother and that’s that.

    • @jolsaffs
      @jolsaffs Рік тому +10

      I totally agree with you. Beautifully written. I hope Jenny reads this. Thank you🇬🇧💕

    • @chantedefelepe
      @chantedefelepe Рік тому +1

      I feel for you so much I don’t have cancer but I do have a life condition it’s horrible please be strong

    • @FaithyandOtis..Massachusetts
      @FaithyandOtis..Massachusetts Рік тому +4

      After my divorce I raised my kids on my own, Zero support from my ex-husband moneywise or physically.. the main thing my oldest daughter remembers is that I went to work provided a home we didn’t have much but it was clean and neat but my daughter always said she remembers us getting up going to a fair going out to eat walking up to the hill to the Chinese restaurant near us, we didn’t have a car. So yes it’s got nothing to do with elaborate, just the love and simple things..

    • @b25mech
      @b25mech Рік тому +2

      This 👆

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE.🙏🙏

  • @TT-cu7ze
    @TT-cu7ze 8 місяців тому +14

    It's Thanksgiving in two days and you are no longer with us on earth. You are missed. My heart goes out to Kyle, Winnie and Ellis as they navigate the first holiday season without you. This video popped up in my feed so I watched to hear your voice.

    • @shoregirl4733
      @shoregirl4733 8 місяців тому +3

      Same. I'm finding myself doing that often...watching her videos to hear her voice. The deep sadness I've been feeling is utterly gripping. My heart just breaks and aches for her family. Rest in peace, beautiful Jenny. No mother or wife could've fought harder.

    • @TT-cu7ze
      @TT-cu7ze 8 місяців тому

      @@shoregirl4733 it also helps them financially when we watch, like, each video from beginning to end. I wish we could get them 1 million subs

    • @gulligmp
      @gulligmp 6 місяців тому +1

      We miss you so much Jenny!
      Hope you are doing well where you are now with Leo and all the beloved family members who have gone before you 🕊🐞🌟

  • @fionadavies7217
    @fionadavies7217 Рік тому +160

    O beautiful Jenny never be embarrassed about how you are feeling, everyone of us here are your UA-cam family we are here to help you through your days when you are feeling down or scared we are here to get you through this and to brighten your days with love and support. You are so brave! my mum is 84 and has bowel and lung cancer for the last 10 years she has taught kids to swim her whole life and to this day is still teaching about six kids she says that's what keeps her going you got this Jenny 💜

    • @skybee001
      @skybee001 Рік тому +9

      What a lovely and beautiful comment ✌️💕

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE.🙏🙏

  • @margaretleavitt6992
    @margaretleavitt6992 8 місяців тому +10

    Those sweet children lost such an amazing mom! Praying for you all in the days coming forward...

  • @mzgri
    @mzgri Рік тому +83

    Dear Jenny, I have to share with you that my sister-in-law's nephew has had stage 4 lung cancer now for 10 years. He was 40 when initially diagnosed stage 4 and is now 50. There have been so many advancements made in treating this disease. Keep fighting the good fight and never lose hope! Prayers for God's healing hands to be upon you. 🙏🙏

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE.🙏🙏

    • @andrealee33
      @andrealee33 Рік тому +2

      Enough with spamming already.🙄

  • @lauraamante5862
    @lauraamante5862 Рік тому +87

    Jenny, I’m heartbroken seeing you cry. Please don’t feel guilty because you can’t do as much for your kids. They love you so much and know that you love them. I’m praying for you to heal from this terrible disease

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE❤🙏❤

  • @barbhelle5481
    @barbhelle5481 Рік тому +25

    You are in my prayers.
    I have a friend that over 30 years she had lung cancer and today she is cancer free. Her mother had cancer in her lungs and became cancer free.
    I hope their stories can give you more hope.
    Prayers and love

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE❤🙏❤

    • @RecklessEngineering
      @RecklessEngineering Рік тому +1

      Hi, that’s amazing! Any ideas on her lifestyle which lead to her being cancer free?

  • @deborahlauifi9513
    @deborahlauifi9513 Рік тому +24

    They know you love them ❤️ and always will🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 JENNY YOU ARE TRULY BLESSED 🙏🙏💕💕 I am on a cancer journey as well but my only child Nathan passed away two months after turning 18 and I still miss him every day ☀️🐝 YOU PRAY FOR ME AND I'LL PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL FAMILY 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💕💕 Have a Great weekend my Friend Jenny 💕💕

    • @donnabaardsen5372
      @donnabaardsen5372 Рік тому +1

      🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @cgg8707
      @cgg8707 Рік тому +1

      Deborah, I'll keep you in my prayers as well. I'm a cancer sister too. Sending hugs and healing prayers to you, Jenny and anyone struggling with illness. Hugs

  • @EmyUrban
    @EmyUrban Рік тому +36

    Hello from France you are so brave ! I wanted to tell you that I know someone who had lung cancer with metas in the brain … 12 years ago !!! and she is still going strong 💪

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE❤🙏❤

    • @emmanuelking9988
      @emmanuelking9988 Рік тому

      That's amazing. What's her diet? Did she do chemo?

    • @EmyUrban
      @EmyUrban Рік тому +3

      @@emmanuelking9988 yes she did chemo radiotherapy for brains metas and surgery for the lungs, Mediterranean diet she’s from south of France .

    • @emmanuelking9988
      @emmanuelking9988 Рік тому +1

      @@EmyUrban
      Thanks for responding, God bless 🙏

    • @bparker3670
      @bparker3670 Рік тому

      That is an amazing story. Thank U. This will give Jenny & all of us much needed hope !

  • @janewilding1345
    @janewilding1345 Рік тому +59

    Morning Jenny - how lovely seeing you open the gifts. People are so kind. I heard someone who is living with cancer (like you) the other day say to her frightened father who is dying that “we are all terminal, we just don’t know when”. You’re a thriver, you’re unique and why shouldn’t you defy the statistics. You ARE an amazing Mum, you do more with your children then so many other Mum’s so try not to beat yourself up, STOP the guilt (that’s an order from the Uk 🇬🇧😘) you’re awesome and so loved 🥰.
    Sending love, hugs and prayers from across the pond ❤ xxx

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE❤🙏❤

  • @frokengron
    @frokengron Рік тому +47

    Dear Jenny, I was shedding tears with you.Maybe it would be a good idea for you to see your pain control team,and get some relief like you mentioned? Please don't feel guilty that you can't do everything with Ellis and Winnie right now.
    Doing the Halloween sticker book or reading stories together with Ellis and Winnie is wonderful!
    Sending healing vibes and much love to you and your beautiful family.

    • @brianmark7810
      @brianmark7810 Рік тому

      Have any health threatening disease or virus?? No problem visit DREWI1 on UA-cam 💕🤞

  • @russellmania4542
    @russellmania4542 Рік тому +38

    I came across your video and just thought I'd share the story of my aunt who lived with stage 4 long cancer. She lived with stage 4 long cancer for 14 years. She never god rid of it but with treatment it didn't spread or grow. She worked up until her last year.
    She refused to quit and you have the same qualities as her. I can see it. She had days where she broke down and then she had good days. She told us all that cancer hurts! I believe you have a lot of time left on this earth and you're strong and we all are going to the same beautiful place when our time comes. For now just keep on truckin. Cause we all need to dream like we'll live forever but live each day like it's our last. If we have an illness or not, none of us know when we will go. So just keep on and from the way your children look- I'd say you're a VERY AWESOME mother as it shows in your babies faces. Their smiles say it all. Great job!
    My aunt passed away September 12th 2003. She was on hospice and was 44 years old. She was in and out of a coma. One day her family sat with her and said... it's ok to go now, everything will be ok. Well she hadn't woke up for days and after her family told her,its ok to go... She woke up and said I cant! I'm waiting for the man in black. Then was back into coma again... 2 days later at 3:12 am on September 12th 2003 she passed away. Later we found out that on that very day at 2am Johnny cash aka the man in black passed away a hour before her. Her name is Shirley Salmon from Utah. She was waiting for Johnny Cash! Very cool. From that experience... We may go in groups? Also he died of respiratory failure as did she from stage 4 lung cancer. So i guess I'm just reaching out too say... we are not alone and i believe you have many many years ahead. God bless🙏

    • @irisrose8503
      @irisrose8503 Рік тому +2

      ❤❤

    • @josianejojo2605
      @josianejojo2605 Рік тому +2

      All the best ❤️
      God bless u n healing 🙏

    • @Andearea
      @Andearea Рік тому +1

      Wowwww. What an amazing story to read, and an amazing perspective you have. You too are an awesome person:) ❤

  • @d.o.y.vcaninebehaviour.hea1558
    @d.o.y.vcaninebehaviour.hea1558 Рік тому +29

    Mate I don’t have cancer. I suffer from an autoimmune disease. I have a little girl. The guilt I feel as a mum is overwhelming. I totally hear you. I’m always sick too. Terribly so. I’m missing out on her childhood. So many precious moments. Every day has been a battle for as long as I remember. I hate it so much for my little girl. Hang in there dear Jenny. I think you are amazing, ❤️🙏❤️

    • @donnabaardsen5372
      @donnabaardsen5372 Рік тому +1

      My health challenges are EDS, SLE, Sjogren's, Scleroderma, RA, OA, Hashimotos Thyroiditis, and mild MS. I'm so thankful that the worst of it all didn't happen until my now adult child passed 18. Yes, looking back I can see how sick I really was, but it's a blessing that my youth overcame the health challenges. Until, as said, my child became a legal adult, able to be self supporting; my biggest fear. Jenny is making beautiful, quality of time memories with her children. God bless her as she overcomes every challenge ❤️🙏👍

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE❤🙏❤

  • @dsmith199
    @dsmith199 Рік тому +60

    My heart is breaking for you Sweetie! I cried right along with you. I hope talking it out and shedding your tears helped you to feel better. You don’t have to be physically active with them, I saw how much they were enjoying sitting at the table writing in those books with you. Someone has to live past the statistics and it might as well be you. ❤️🙏🙏

    • @phoenix72999
      @phoenix72999 Рік тому +4

      My mom had depression when I grew up. I didn't mind her being sad or not perfect. I don't think that is how humans work. we don't give our parents scores for how many boxes they check or anything. What a child really needs is to feel loved and they will love you back.
      My mom was always warm and loving towards me, she smiled at me, wanted to make me happy and comforted me when I was upset, so I loved her, and still love her back a lot. back then I knew that she was sad and I actually felt sorry for her and wanted her to be better. Not so that she can play with me more, just because "This nice person shouldn't have to suffer. she wouldn't want me to suffer either. I want her to feel good."
      But this never made me hate her. It is just something you think sometimes when someone you love so much is not feeling well.
      Anyway, this was rambly, but I am pretty sure that that is what your children feel about you as well, I am sure that they love you more than you could imagine, no matter how many physical things you do with them. I hope that you will be around for a long time, and feel better again one day.

    • @cliff1958
      @cliff1958 Рік тому +2

      hello Jenny, I'm so sorry you have had a rough time lately it probably was because you have overdone it on Saturday. I know what you mean by you don't want to look at the bad things I have learnt that the hard way. but please don't worry about you can't do what you used to do that you feel guilty about what you can't do what you are going through is beyond what anyone should have to go through all your friends and family know that you are trying your very best.so please don't even think that you will get through this just try to concentrate on your getting back to the Jenny we all know and love. saying that sending you lots of love from England and hopefully you will feel much better soon

    • @havecourageandbekind9605
      @havecourageandbekind9605 Рік тому +3

      @@phoenix72999 you comment was amazing and so true!

  • @SopranoFantab
    @SopranoFantab Рік тому +69

    I’m deeply moved by the way you share your deepest fears and hopes with us. Nothing to be embarrassed about! You’re SO allowed to feel and express any thoughts you wish to share, even the dark ones - as long as you know that you’re NOT your thoughts. You’re bigger than your fears - you’re bigger than cancer itself! I continue to send prayers and healing vibes your way, and I pray for continued blessings upon you, Kyle and the kids. You got this!

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE.🙏🙏

  • @Brushy555
    @Brushy555 Рік тому +32

    I lost my mom 3 years ago and what you remember the most is how your mom made you feel. Your kids will always remember the love, feeling safe, and it will be the strength that gets them through tough times...no matter when you & your husband depart the physical world. You are an amazing mom! Best, Maria

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE❤🙏❤

    • @daffodilrose1950
      @daffodilrose1950 Рік тому

      Yes….you need pain med. No need to suffer when pain med is available to you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  • @debbiemartinez8989
    @debbiemartinez8989 Рік тому +15

    I had my first son at age 21, I could do everything with him. Had a lot of energy. I am now 54 years, my last son I can’t do a lot of things with him like going to the amusement park, swimming part, etc. I don’t feel guilty I can’t do everything with him. As we age, we have physical changes that we have limits. You are doing everything you can and in your power. I make sure he has friends to enjoy experiences, I can’t do. Don’t feel guilty and cry. As long you are present with the kids they will enjoy and ❤️ you. It is beautiful all these watchers of the UA-cam channel sending love and presents. You are a great mother.

  • @saramiles3621
    @saramiles3621 Рік тому +15

    Please don’t feel guilty. You can’t help that you’re sick. When your kids are older, they can watch these videos and see that you are a fighter and love them so much. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’ll be praying for you and your family.

  • @debramac8589
    @debramac8589 Рік тому +8

    It made me so happy to see that the kids enjoyed the stickers I sent 🙂🙂🙂 I have lots more I want to get rid of, so if you think they would like them, I would love to send them to you!!!! Sending you a big HUG, and I hope you're feeling better. Take care.

  • @mariaimpoinvil7815
    @mariaimpoinvil7815 Рік тому

    Jenny thank you for sharing, being raw and honest about your journey. We all love you and will continue to keep you and your family in our thoughts and prayers! ❤

  • @jenniferoram4458
    @jenniferoram4458 Рік тому +12

    Sorry indeed to see you not feeling well and worrying about your lovely children and most lovely caring Kyle. Sending you a big hug and much love from England. X

  • @fayewildeman8507
    @fayewildeman8507 Рік тому +3

    Hugs, Jenny. Stay strong. ❤️

  • @lizpiccolo9437
    @lizpiccolo9437 Рік тому +1

    Sending prayers and love. I hope you feel better soon

  • @kathleenmetcalf6767
    @kathleenmetcalf6767 Рік тому

    Thank you for sharing your true journey with us. Love you so much!

  • @paigewillow8768
    @paigewillow8768 Рік тому +12

    Kids remember the deep love you have for them and their dad. Not necessarily just fun times, although you do retain those memories too. I lost my mother while quite young and that is what I remember and cherish the most. Her love, caring and selfless devotion to her kids. You never forget that. Glad you are felling better now. 🙏❤️

  • @MarilynMayaMendoza
    @MarilynMayaMendoza Рік тому +6

    Dearest Jenny, you are grieving your past life with your children and that's natural. I am lucky to have reached the age of 72 and even though I suffer from some debilitating illnesses, I try my best to appreciate The Limited Mobility I have now. You are the Super Woman and you overdid it that day, so give yourself some slack. We all know you're a wonderful mom and wife. Your family here on UA-cam love you very much. I hope and pray you feel better very soon. Hugs and aloha and healing Vibes sent your way

  • @wanya_telborn
    @wanya_telborn Рік тому +2

    Awe I’m so sorry J! Praying you through this! ❤😢

  • @Alex-nx8mp
    @Alex-nx8mp Рік тому

    Oh no I’m so sorry! I hope you feel better soon! Praying for you 🙏🏼❤️

  • @sunshinegal4294
    @sunshinegal4294 Рік тому +3

    I’m so sorry to see you going through this. My heart hurts for you. I’m praying for you Sweet Jenny. 🙏🏻You are a beautiful person inside and out and you are so very loved. Keep doing what you’re doing. I’m so grateful you are here with your family to live life day today day and I know you’re trying your best. A good cry is sometimes okay and just what is needed. You’re being real and expressing all you are feeling and going through and we are here for you. Sending much love and light your way. 💗🌟

  • @joannwormbrand8413
    @joannwormbrand8413 Рік тому +3

    Keep checking in on you and your family. Praying for you all. Wishing you strength, hope, courage. We're with you on this!!

  • @tammylimacher5198
    @tammylimacher5198 Рік тому +2

    Sending you so much love hugs and prayers to you and your family!we are all here for you!💖

  • @diannematthews7409
    @diannematthews7409 Рік тому

    Prayers and hugs for you. So glad you had a diversion! It was even really hard for us to see how sick you were. The kindness of former strangers, now a sweet inner circle who love your family and brought so much joy to you.

  • @rhondawright3747
    @rhondawright3747 Рік тому +3

    You are such an inspiration so never feel embarrassed about letting your emotions show.

  • @georginasmith441
    @georginasmith441 Рік тому +3

    Nothing says love more than a claw! 💜 - you are doing so well keeping body and soul together for your family x

  • @ellenkovar4626
    @ellenkovar4626 Рік тому +1

    Sending you wishes for feeling better…we’re all rooting for you❤️

  • @mfg1035
    @mfg1035 Рік тому

    I hope you feel better soon. ❤ you help so many by sharing.

  • @repentantsoul4213
    @repentantsoul4213 Рік тому +19

    Hugs & love to you dearest. So sorry you’re so sick, but was glad to see you enjoying those precious kiddos. Kyle is my hero as a husband & daddy! He does such a great job. GOD bless you all ❤🙏✝️

  • @Jules-77
    @Jules-77 Рік тому +7

    Of course we watched to the end! Please don’t ever be embarrassed about sharing how you feel. I imagine it’s like a rollercoaster of emotion at times.
    I hope your medics can sort some pain remedy out for when the pain is so bad.
    You are a lovely human bean & a super mum. Big hugs & prayers as always.
    Julia 🙏🏼

  • @joannajia
    @joannajia Рік тому +1

    Jenny, I am so sorry you are going through this - you encourage us everyday with your strength. Sending prayers for you and your family.

  • @desertbreeze69
    @desertbreeze69 Рік тому

    So sorry you’re dealing with this. Hope things get better!!!

  • @thara21
    @thara21 Рік тому +5

    You are everything they need. You pouring your love on them is all they ever need. You’re an amazing mother and an amazing fighter ❤

  • @angelavaughan9477
    @angelavaughan9477 Рік тому +7

    Thank you for your brutal honesty. We need to know this if by some chance we ourselves are forced to deal with it. The kids do know how Momma feels about them! I pray that you will get back to that life you loved. Hugs, Jenny and I'm hoping for a peaceful day without sickness or pain today and tomorrow!

  • @unitivecounselingservices
    @unitivecounselingservices Рік тому

    We love you so much. We are praying and cheering for you!

  • @rrichardson53
    @rrichardson53 Рік тому +2

    This was hard to watch at times- am so glad the pain subsided at the end and you were smiling. It’s so hard going through the pain - hope your team can provide you with meds to keep on hand to help for next time. So brave of you to share the hard times- so raw and honest. Hugs.

  • @katev1354
    @katev1354 Рік тому +3

    Prayers and thoughts with you jenny. My mum had non small cell lung cancer, she survived for ten months, but she was a heavy smoker. You are soo young, and your journey touches my heart. Stay positive.

  • @peggysue7898
    @peggysue7898 Рік тому +4

    I'm here for you Jenny!

  • @heidi1651
    @heidi1651 Рік тому +1

    I'm sorry its been so rough lately. Hang in there and know that you are incredibly courageous and a wonderful mom. 🌻

  • @NeedleNanny41
    @NeedleNanny41 Рік тому

    You are so beautiful and strong, I'm so sorry you are going through this. Sending you my prayers and a warm hug.

  • @robinmarks5638
    @robinmarks5638 Рік тому +3

    You are still fun mom!! What was that I just seen playing with all the stickers! Oh honey you are so exhausted! I cant imagine being in your shoes! Hugs and prayers to you all!

  • @nikkicole2149
    @nikkicole2149 Рік тому +6

    Sweet Jenny
    You are a beautiful soul and a great mother. You did not choose this battle but you are handling it with bravery and such grace. This is a personal matter and yet you are graciously sharing with others. My heart breaks for you. My son battled cancer and as a mom it crushes me to see you go through this. Continue to fight enjoying each day, moment of life. It's all we all have. many hugs and I will keep praying for you. ❤️

  • @leighyorgason6702
    @leighyorgason6702 Рік тому +1

    Praying for you and sending all good wishes to you. We all are pulling for you and we love you.

  • @barrbuff
    @barrbuff Рік тому +1

    Rough times hon, love to hear your honest feelings. It helps others for sure. Sending love and hugs. 🥰🥰

  • @pamherndon9345
    @pamherndon9345 Рік тому +3

    Jenny I’m so sorry you are feeling crummy. Prayers to you that you will feel better soon! Your videos are precious and I enjoy them whether you are having a good day or not. There is one thing I am jealous about. You don’t have an ugly cry! Haha. I sure do. Jenny you are the best wife and mommy! Until your next video. By the way your speech at the 5k was amazing! You should be very proud of yourself!!!

  • @ellenmccormick9293
    @ellenmccormick9293 Рік тому +8

    HI Mrs....sorry you're going through a tough time just now. You are a wonderful mum and you can see the children love doing stuff with you. It might not be running around or hiding under the bed, but drawing and doing the stickers is still precious time. Stay strong. You can do this girl xx

  • @terrifloros7544
    @terrifloros7544 Рік тому +2

    Jenny, I am praying for you to have a complete recovery. Sending prayers and good thoughts to you, and big hugs❤

  • @sharontjaden3726
    @sharontjaden3726 Рік тому +1

    Oh sweetie I’m so sorry you are feeling so bad in so many ways. I have no words but I do have prayers and hugs from afar. You are strong you will reach deep and get through this wave😍😍😍

  • @loesheiner
    @loesheiner Рік тому +10

    Dear Jenny, I do understand you so well. Everything feels so unsecured. I was a lot ill, I recognized feeling guilty. But also the feeling it’s not fair. Your children have a totally different view of you. My boys are over fourty now and they have another reminder about the past. It’s good you cried it out. I keep on praying every day.❤

  • @donnabaardsen5372
    @donnabaardsen5372 Рік тому +3

    Blessing's, sweet Jenny, and love from MI. Never fear, your precious children are getting the best mom time with you, that's easy to see. You and your wonderful husband are the best parent's. Never doubt that your children understand this 100 percent 👍🙏❤️🤗

  • @mollysimmons7836
    @mollysimmons7836 Рік тому

    hi jenny. i hope you continue to share your real and painful feelings on this cancer journey. you're honesty is helpful to so many people. thank you

  • @krisjames4276
    @krisjames4276 Рік тому

    Bless your heart, your family are so lucky to have you. So sorry you have been feeling very poorly. I send you so much love xxxx🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @nadinefamille3855
    @nadinefamille3855 Рік тому +5

    Hi Jenny, I m very touched by your video. I m a mom too, and I can completely relate to the guilt you can feel, whenever you think you're not giving your children what you think they deserve. But, as I was listening to you, I thought about me as a kid and my mom, and the best moments I remember now, are those where my mom was simple here for me and my siblings. For instance, she used to sit on a chair, looking at us play with our friends, outside our condo building, and she was the only mom here, and I loved it very much that she was there. What's important for kids is to know their parents love them : and we can immediately see that your kids know that 😊
    I hope you're feeling better now, and am praying for you. Love from France!!

  • @azapater5619
    @azapater5619 Рік тому +4

    Oh Jenny, darling, thank you so much for showing us that piece of fears and tears. Thanks for sharing that with us. It can not be easy for you, but It helps us so much in our own personal processes.
    I understood you so well, I could relate to every single sentence you said. You are making a difference in the way I see many things. Thank you Jenny so much!!!
    Sometimes I wish I could meet you and give you (and Kyle) the biggest hug ever.
    And yes, I spent many hours last night googling and reading and there are many stories of stage 4 lung cancer survivors who have beaten all the statistics. You are also with an amazing team in a top hospital, that is is very important.
    But no matter what we tell you here, you have to be so tired of being sick. My dear Jenny, life is so pretty, but so brutal too!!!!!!!

  • @Goldenretriever-k8m
    @Goldenretriever-k8m Рік тому

    Thank you so much for opening up to us. I know your videos mean a lot to all of your viewers.

  • @kathryntaylor2170
    @kathryntaylor2170 Рік тому

    So sorry ur having to suffer so much. Just prayed for u! I hope and pray u will get better. God bless u!

  • @elizabethharris8158
    @elizabethharris8158 Рік тому +7

    Hi Jenny , I was going to say something dumb like' don’t cry' , but I’m sad with you.
    I’m happy seeing you and your babies coloring and using ALL THOSE STICKERS!!!
    Thank you for sharing your life with us, I’m amazed, humbled, comforted by you guys.
    Hi Flower 😊

  • @pilarorozco2737
    @pilarorozco2737 Рік тому +3

    You are so great…no fun at all…praying for you to beat the odds everyday!!
    Love from Mexico 🇲🇽 Pili🙏🏻🌹♥️

  • @yarlettegebarowski5995
    @yarlettegebarowski5995 Рік тому

    Continuing prayers for you and your family. You and Kyle are the best parents your children could ever have . Just take one day at a time and do the best you can . Never give up hope Jenny.

  • @shellabaccus2462
    @shellabaccus2462 Рік тому

    We love you, Jenny...we love and pray for you and your precious family. 🌷

  • @biancaelee372
    @biancaelee372 Рік тому +5

    Sweet darling Jenny please don’t be sad you need to keep putting your energy into fighting this terrible illness. Your children love you just for being there. You are an amazing mother and wife.
    I pray for you every night and you will get through this. Know how much we love you here in 🇬🇧 Sending lots of our love and good intentions 🙏🙏🙏🥰

  • @michellebotterill4811
    @michellebotterill4811 Рік тому +18

    Ohh Jenny!! I’m so sad watching this video. Your such a great mum and to think your feeling guilty about not being able to do the things you used to do breaks my heart. Your always engaging with your kids and being so loving and kind to them, that’s what children need!! Parents who care, and make them feel safe secure and loved. You are doing an awesome job and sometimes I wonder how you manage to do what you do with everything your going through. Don’t feel guilty about anything Jenny even parents who don’t have cancer don’t always give their kids as much as you do. Your awesome Jenny as is Kyle. I understand what your going through and how frightened you must be, but just remember the advances they make every day with cancer treatments and your achieving some amazing results. You’ve got this sweetheart and you are going to be around for a long long time. You have to be a wonderful grandmother next so just keep doing what your doing, we are all praying for you and sending you all our positive vibes and most of all my love to you and Kyle and your beautiful kids. Big big hugs beautiful Jenny xxx

  • @melissabonnette1980
    @melissabonnette1980 Рік тому

    Do take good care of yourself and know that you are loved. Being a mom is so challenging as it is and I can't imagine the feelings you're coping with but my heart goes out to you. I'm glad you have such a great support network there and wish you healing and less pain.

  • @Little_Sheba
    @Little_Sheba Рік тому

    Sending you so much love Jenny. I feel the same way. Although I do my best to remain positive, some days I fall into the dark place. I’m not able to do much of anything lately and I feel so much guilt over having to depend on my husband and family much more than I want to. Thank you for sharing this journey, I feel like you are a true friend. We are battling the biggest path of our lives. Keep your beautiful chin up. Tomorrow is always a brand new day, we’ve got this 💜🙏💜

  • @bonnbon3541
    @bonnbon3541 Рік тому +4

    Dear Jenny, I'm watching your videos for quite some time now. And I really cied with you when you were sharing your fears with us in your actual video. Let me tell you that you need'nt worry about letting your fears out. Ellis and Winnie have the best Mom in the world! You may not go out doing big runs with them at the moment (but even this you actually did during the cancer march:)) but you are aware of their needs, you're showing them empathy and your deep love for them every day. I admire your humor, faith, your grace, positivity and deep trust every time you're sharing your world with us.
    You're such a wonderful person and admirable Mom!
    Big hugs from Germany (puh, I hope my english can be understood;))
    Pamela

  • @user-bu6ws2wd5q
    @user-bu6ws2wd5q Рік тому +12

    Praying for you sweet Jenny🙏. I’m praying the pain is from the run . That was HUGE physical and emotional day for your body .When you have cancer all your focus tends to be related to that ( aches , pains , nausea) you forget that the “ normal “ viruses of this season still exist. So hopefully since you’re feeling better a couple days later you picked up a bug from your big day . God has your back and we love you too🙏♥️

  • @8074sam
    @8074sam Рік тому +1

    I can’t thank you enough for your honesty. I’m at the beginning of a cancer journey and I greatly appreciate your openness and honesty. Gives me courage and compassion. ❤

  • @karencristobal4999
    @karencristobal4999 Рік тому

    Your kids are very fortunate in that they will always have these videos of you. That’s huge. No other generation has had these kinds of momentos/memories of loved ones. Whatever happens, they have these. I find comfort in that and I hope you do as well❤❤❤

  • @camisole5733
    @camisole5733 Рік тому +3

    Ciao Jenny,sei una persona ed una mamma stupenda!!Ti auguro di poter stare meglio,con tutto il cuore!❤️

  • @kayekaye7930
    @kayekaye7930 Рік тому +3

    Your children feel your love no matter what you are going through. I know you are feeling a lot of pain, and fatigue and sick! You are such a lovely person. It shows no matter what. Don't feel embarrassed. I have felt that way too. We just do the best we can do!

  • @susanvelez6534
    @susanvelez6534 Рік тому

    Jenny I can only imagine how you must feel. I’ve been watching this journey you’re going through, and I think your an incredible person, and mom. Never feel guilty because of this illness that makes you feel so sick. Your doing a great job. It takes so much courage to be you. Praying hard for you.

  • @mariel4085
    @mariel4085 Рік тому

    Oh Jenny I wish I could give you a big hug...you are so positive & strong, your kids see that even if you think they don't.

  • @debbieann776
    @debbieann776 Рік тому +4

    Sorry that your not feeling well! You are an awesome MoM, I see it on their faces. I think you are so kind and brave to share everything. I have a grabber because of back surgery and I love it. When you get well, the grabber is still helpful(items that fall behind the washer and dryer 😂). You got this, ok to be sad. Crying is therapy, letting it out is like rain cleaning the air for the sunshine return!!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼for you, family and your medical team!!!

  • @jolsaffs
    @jolsaffs Рік тому +5

    Jenny I’m stage IV breast cancer so I understand elements of what you are going through. Please see your medics regarding pain and nausea medication. I feel you are suffering more than you have to - you are a fighter and such a beautiful person. This is a constantly changing scenario but you need all the help you can to enjoy your life. I am a fighter but I’ve decided not to fight pain alone and suffer. I take alll the help available. Love you. 🇬🇧💕💕

  • @sherrywyleta3519
    @sherrywyleta3519 Рік тому +2

    Sweet Jenny, sending you love, light and many prayers to feel better. Nausea is a horrible feeling and I’m praying for your relief. Know that you are wrapped in a blanket of love and you are never alone. Sending you healing thoughts and much love from Kentucky❤

  • @lisafriesen9085
    @lisafriesen9085 Рік тому

    Jenny, i want to encourage you . I am grateful you shared your heart with us…you are touching many lives…

  • @tessasumner7977
    @tessasumner7977 Рік тому +7

    Dearest Jenny... It's okay to spend the time necessary to figure out where you are in your cancer journey. What is not okay is to set up house and stay in this zone for long periods of time. You are doing a great job of hanging in there and being positive. Know you are loved and are making a difference in so many ways with your family, friends and even your UA-cam followers. I totally get your concerns as I continue to follow my cancer challenge too. Know you are a very valuable person who is definitely making a difference.
    💕 from one of your Prayer Warriors ~ Grammy Tessa xoxxo

  • @selfhelp4uselfhelpprogram43
    @selfhelp4uselfhelpprogram43 Рік тому +7

    Jenny, you must take what helps you in this journey and so if this you tube channel serves a purpose for you to help get it out of your system, then that is fine. Please don't apologise, just use this if it helps you.. You are so inspirational , I personally feel you have taught us all so much.. Please, please use this platform for whatever you need..xxx

  • @slay2483
    @slay2483 Рік тому

    Jenny, you've got this! Stay strong! Sending prayers your way!

  • @joanpotanko6351
    @joanpotanko6351 Рік тому +1

    I am so sorry that you are going so much pain Jenny. It is normal for you to have times where you are down but we are all praying for you and keep fighting Sweet Girl.❤️🙏

  • @Snowfu
    @Snowfu Рік тому +8

    You are an amazing mum. I know from experience it’s hard to describe what a person goes through with cancer but you show everyone in these videos and that’s incredibly brave. One day I hope I’ll be this brave. I’m working on it. ❤️

    • @amos3189
      @amos3189 Рік тому

      I'm so excited. I finally got rid of my Herpes Virus 1&2 within just three weeks. Thank you DREWI1 on UA-cam. He also cures HPV, FIBROID, HIV and COLDSORE❤🙏❤

  • @patriciajoyner9871
    @patriciajoyner9871 Рік тому +6

    Each day is a gift.the children make it so hard. They are sweet and innocent. The videos are a time capsule. Your excellent mommy even sick look at your love and attention. I am getting weaker at 58 and I feel 100% this way with my grandsons. I was the fun G. Time is better than money. Kyle is a gem .

  • @sidneywaddell7765
    @sidneywaddell7765 Рік тому

    Your such an inspiration Jenny! You are aloud to have s😢ad days but you are the most positive person and you have the most positive hubby and kiddos! They are helping you go through cancer and to beat cancer!!! You are a fun mom❤️.

  • @Medhead24
    @Medhead24 Рік тому +2

    Jen you are amazing!!!! Even when you feel sick you’re always doing something with your kiddos. Sending love and prayers your way beautiful girlie. Don’t worry about your weight it’s temporary!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @jamisongee1176
    @jamisongee1176 Рік тому +3

    I'm so pleased you showed the truth. The kids will watch it one day with or without you and it is so important. I would have liked to see you some pain meds for the dagger times. Love you.hold ❤

  • @skybee001
    @skybee001 Рік тому +3

    When you said "planning my departure" I thought how heartbreaking... but then I thought that it is entirely possible that one day you WILL be planning your departure, somewhere in the world that is beautiful and warm and relaxing, and you guys and the kids can create even more beautiful memories together ✌️💕

  • @mindyu3478
    @mindyu3478 Рік тому +1

    You’re such a neat person. I admire you and Kyle so much. Best wishes to you! ❤

  • @shellyvavrick1088
    @shellyvavrick1088 Рік тому

    Jenny, We are all here for you through the good and the bad. You don't need to apologize, you have every right to feel these emotions and let it all out. You are amazing! ♥️ I put you name on the Prayer Roll♥️ God Bless you and your family.