our last night together
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I love the idea of everyone here secretly wanting someone else to see this
sob** it's true 😭
Indeed
Jorg Washingmachine
hahaha, why am I crying
Nope, been alone my entire life and couldn't care less about someone willingly dating and becoming emotionally invested in someone that isn't interested in seriously dating them
I was having a perfectly normal day until my man Sisyphus dropped yet another banger of melancholy and sadness.
Day ruined
SAME DAWG, right on my work break
@@jaimesanchez6390 lol same here
My daily check before starting my day:
"keys? Check. Wallet? Check? Phone? Check. Badge? Check. Music? Check. Water? Check. An unhealthy amount of deep melancholy and longing for a past relationship that I know, no matter my efforts and strives towards learning and growing and moving on from, will always haunt me - the way she whispered I love you that night and how I will never be whole again?............check."
@@twigwickLiterally me
same, I was eating something good and enjoying a can of coke, now I'm lonely...
“Like the wings of a butterfly, there’s a cruel beauty in loving those very things that allow you to fly away from me” damn what a line!
It killed me too, it’s like he put words into a feeling I have always had
it’s mind boggling how you untie the nots in people’s throats, the way you take the words out of my mouth and say them, make me understand these feelings that I can go on months trying to figure out. I love every single thing this man drops
I could say the same about your comment!
*knots
Sisyphus read our minds again.
He got no motherfucking business poking around in there, when did I give you the admin password??? 🤣
There is no such thing as mind reading. Even if he could, there is no way for him to read all of his viewer's mind
I can't understand you. Go back to your country. WP
Every fucking time
nah i never spent a night w her lmao
He didn't read, mf must've been spying on me or something. He just shows up with a poem describing the past 5 days of my life
"I secretly like that you don't need me" it stuck with me. It's how I view love, someone will love me and be with me not because they need me but because they want me.
I needed this, thank you :')
I really connected with this video. It really hurts to “lose” someone you love, especially when you finally have that connection with someone that just feels completing. To everyone out there missing that someone that felt special to you, it gets easier even though the memories still hurt. There’s much more to look forward to even if what you’ve had before was good. Have a blessed day everyone ❤️
Got easier for me but not easy. Someday maybe or some enchanted day where you meet that person who can fill that hole...
@@Lukas-rw3tc Nah, someone new only ever covers that hole. We have to fill that hole on our own, otherwise the next person pays for it, whether we want them to or not. True healing never comes when we try to replace what's lost. ❤️🩹
@@ForestFire369 🔥🔥🔥
no it doesn’t
“It gets easier even though the memories still hurt”
For anyone scrolling by, remember it helps to keep a JOURNAL. I just recently got out of a serious 2 year relationship, and even though the feelings are still raw and very intense, I am SO greatful to have entries to look back to to help organize my thoughts now. It was very difficult to read through the entries I wrote when we first met, but I feel much better too.
I highly second this. This is an extremely healthy and valuable skill and it’s helped me through my toughest moments. I can’t exactly pinpoint what it is about journaling that helps me so much, but I don’t need to. All I know is that it brings me down to a more grounded level, and allows me to rationalize and de-cloud my mind.
I have played with the idea in starting a journal, but I think I'm scared of what will come up. I know I have to, but still..
This is a good idea.
I start a voice journal post breakup and it’s been 9 months.
@@caifancabr0n699 Wow, I’m currently going through the same thing. Looking back on my journal entries from 2 years ago hurts so much, yet feels bittersweet. Let’s hope to get through this, may your journey be easier than mine my friend
Can I keep a lowercase journal though? I don’t like shouting.
Oh man. This one hits hard, very deeply and personally. A year has gone past already. Hopefully I have moved on.
Have you though
9 years here
It gets easier, the happiness that you feel from those memories still exists even though the pain of having those memories is ever present, like I said tho it gets easier. You learn to accept, make changes and eventually move on. That chapter in your life still means something, it’s up to you to decide what.
@@thebracc1835 You’re righty. Thank you.
Hopefully...
I feel a little bit glad knowing everyone currently feels the same way, that I'm not alone in this world and it's constant heartbreak
it gets better man. i deadass thought i was dying. but yk, one day, I just didn't feel the heart ache anymore. cheers.
My marriage of 5 years is falling apart. I’m getting back up stronger to be the man I’m supposed to be for my son.
There was never a time in my life where this video would be more relatable. what timing..
fr. sisyphus is phenomenal. i thought i was going to cry, but honestly this video gives me so much comfort we're not alone.
The same goes for me, just a couple of days ago I said my goodbyes to someone I thought I was comfortable with. T'was the first time I had ever felt that about a girl. But of course she only saw me as a friend and I was keeping all these feelings unexplained, I feared that sort of intimacy I guess. But I noticed that in the moments of silence between us two, those were the most connected and understood I ever felt...
Half a year of depression later (not just about her, also problems in the family, and me questioning my life values and work) I find myself more accepting, but I know that in order to get somewhere in my life, I need to look more around, diversify my experience and just... get out there, but by myself not because of anyone else.
Same
Same, two weeks ago we said I love you for the first time and lightly played with the idea of getting a place together down the road. Now she's gone. Borderline Personality Disorder is one hell of a mental illness.
@@nix9355 I feel for you totally having experienced the destruction my mum has left for her and the family she has got. She was homeless for a while with me she was the only one taking care of me (dad, his bipolar ass went off to get milk), I tell you I know what it's like to live with someone with borderline. It's confusing going through the periods of overwhelming warmth and then cold rejection, seeing the old narratives coming out of the person when they've drunk, or going through psychosis really is scary. I was left unharmed by her, I was her son after all and she would never let anyone harm me. But I got to see her beat up my step-dad on multiple occasions (who has cheated and is mentally controlling. Fits them two well together, huh), and run off into the night threatening she'd leave. It's a rollercoaster that they're living through people with borderline, but there are ways to defuse them. Listening and understanding before the psychosis starts can be helpful...
"Thank you for giving me a home that I'll never return to" Daymn that hurt, I know that exact feeling, didn't think it could be said so perfectly
Couldn't stop crying as I watched this. I'm From Argentina and a couple months ago I quit everything I had to follow a girl to Bariloche.
We met in our hometown in Mar del Plata and shortly after we fell for each other, It was beautiful, she blew my head off my shoulders, she was a lot of what I always wanted in a couple, and a bunch of times we went out it felt like a movie. She said she loved me and I said it back. A week later she traveled to Bariloche and I followed her a month later as I had to quit my job.
That month was the longest of my life, cus as we talked she was more and more distant.
When I got to Bariloche she was really happy to see me but we didn't see each other a lot. My stomach knew something was up, and with each conversation, I knew that It was not gonna last. Still I wanted to have a camping date, I knew It wasn't the best idea but It was going to be my birthday and didn't wanted to be alone.
The date arrived and we went out camping, we went to sleep and In the morning as we woke up and had breakfast, she gave me a book as a gift and afterwards said she didin't wanted a relationship.
A couple days later I went back to my city to my parent's house, trying to figure out what to do with my life.
I don't know why I'm writing this, I usually never comment. But this one hits too close.
In a few weeks, Im spending my last dime to travel to Norway and try to build something there. I'm scared af but I know I'll be ok.
Thank you Sisyphus I really hope you get better.
Un saludo enorme de parte otro corazon roto en bariloche.
Im glad you were able to let yourself fall in love, its a difficult world and you took it in stride. I’m glad you shared, I appreciated hearing your story, i usually never comment either.
The dedication to move is huge and that suspended suspicion and denying is a difficult ask to reconcile after so long fighting to convince yourself and or them of a future you see thats ideal.
Im sorry for your pain. It’ll all be ok
abrazos amigo
Fua amigo todas trolas, suerte en noruega
LMAO what a simp, bro really dropped everything for a girl, bro, u gotta listen to some Future, she supposed to be obsessed with you, and if you are obsessed with her, don’t show it, cuz then she knows she owns u, i hope u still beat tho💀💀
Garrón, pero eso pasa; todo eso que pasó, pasara de nuevo, pero no por eso hay que desanimarse. Por el contrario, hay que agradecer que haya pasado y recordarlo con cariño pero distancia. Es solamente así que podemos seguir. Ya lo dijo el tango Naranjo en flor: primero hay que saber sufrir, después amar, después partir y al fin andar sin pensamiento.
Fuerza viejo. Se sale solo para adelante.
Abrazo.
Dude, is this an origional work? If so that's absolutely insane. This is an immediate classic in my cannon
IKR I am dying to know. If he’s writing these im… 😭✋🏼 this is so beautiful
Its fascinating how many people seem to resonate with this. Its vague enough that a lot of heartbroken people can mold their experiences to fit the story, but specific enough to feel like he's actually talking about your specific story. Like, I relate so hard to this, it hurts.
Thank you for making us all feel bad on a friday night
Lmao....
@@allyson-- Writing "Lmao" but meaning "can't stop crying"....
A Sunday night for me, but ironically it happened to be the first night I've thought of her so much in weeks.
funky
@@matblackadventures it sucks when you think youre over it and it smacks you
We both knew it couldn’t last forever, didn’t we? Little by little it started to slip, our little paradise. We tried covering it at first. Swept away the small bits of debris. But the tower just kept crumbling little by little. No matter how much we tried to repair it. No matter how much we tried to hide it. No matter how much I tried to fix it with my love for you. Paradise is.. no longer paradise anymore, is it? Little by little, the temperature started dropping, the buildings started falling. The storms, more violent and destructive. No matter how much I wish for those days of beauty and serenity to come back, they’re gone forever. We both knew this paradise came at a price, right? That one day it would decay completely. I think back to those old days, when we didn’t even know what we were doing. When there were no fights. When there was no distance. When you could still overlook my shortcomings. It’s so crazy that soon, you’ll be nothing but a memory. I’ll never see you again. I can no longer protect you. Or at least try to. I wish I could dance. I wish I could speak Spanish. I wish I could do everything you want me to do. Maybe then we’d last a little longer. I just hope that when I’m just a memory to you too, that you look back at it fondly.
Goodbye forever Stefi. I’ll never forget you. Te quiero.
I never said it back at the time so I’ll say how I should’ve; je t’aime aussi ❤
I wish I could do poetry like y'all 😢
This made me break down reading it. This video was posted three months ago, when the split happened and it it was just too relevant to watch at the time, it's crazy that he dropped a video like this right at that point, but coming sck now, this comment is literally reflective of everything that happened and when I got to the end of the message I completely broke down because we originally confessed to each other in French and those were the words I got from her "je t'aime aussi" seeing this just broke me
@@zoniotdd992 That’s beautiful man… hope you’re going well
@@somerandomguythatlikesmeme7396 it's been a rollercoaster
This stung.
I feel happy I met them, to know the joy they bring me in their presence. They give me reason to keep looking for someone like them, but that feels the same as I do. They make me want to live
Nice words man. I myself am going through the phase of accepting the fact, that she just was so perfect, but didn't feel the same for me, as I did for her. While processing this I also came across a thought similar to yours. Yet I am wondering, if hoping to find a person alike her is the right way of thinking, to properly move on and eventually falling in love again and feeling these same emotions with the addition of actually getting them back from them. Is it even possible to really be happy with someone else ever again, when I'm searching for someone like her, who would be a person I doubt exists? I find it hard to believe that I could find a person, that makes me feel the way she did, when I believe I will find a person like her. I'd fear this would make me compare everybody I get to know on this level to her and obviously no one will be the perfect copy of her. In addition to that I feel like this was peak love for me as I am pretty unique when it comes to this feeling as I found out talking to others about it. She was even more and hence my doubts of finding somene like her again, with the same kind of positive influence on me as a person. I had found a more or less "normal" love before her, but looking back, I never want anything like that anymore, since I know how it actually feels for me now. However, I do find some hope in the thought of her being just another love on the way and I will find myself with another angel not like her, but even more fitting to me than I could ever imagine now.
Would love to hear your thoughts about it. Much love
@@timo057 im in a very similar boat actually. Never before had I ever felt anything similar to how I feel 4 him and it has completely changed my entire understanding of what love is and how I feel about it. I also struggle to believe that I'll actually find another, but I tell myself that the possibility, no matter how small, is still there. To me that's enough reason to keep trying to move past them. It's very difficult tho ngl
@@pr3tenti0us It sure is. One of the things I learned from my time with her is, that one can achieve so much just with friends and without a special ralationship, so there is absolutely no rush in that. I will try my best to get out of this as strong and as positive as possible, as my last favor for her, because although her feelings weren't as strong as mine, she wouldn't want seeing me on the ground, after making such huge and essential steps in my development as a person with her.
We both will get through this and I love seeing you having found your motivation to keep going. You will be happy again, as long as you keep it :)
"And now when it's over I find myself deeply sorry we ever met...Thank you for giving me a home that I'll never return to." So incredibly beautiful 😭❤️❤️
I've never found a video that so profoundly puts into words things I've only ever felt. Thank you.
I go to leave a comment expressing understanding of the feelings illustrated in this video. As I do, I find myself tearing up. Those people who come into your life and leave a lasting impression are part of what makes life itself so great. Even the ones that you know will not stay there; you savor every moment knowing that each moment is one step closer to never seeing them again.
As you lead separate lives and walk down separate paths you will forever have those moments together to reflect upon. With vague hopes that they reflect upon them as fondly as you. Though, ultimately knowing it doesn't matter because your story together is over
Beautifully written ❤
Fortunately and unfortunately nothing lasts forever
It’s sad because me and my ex only broke up because of the long distance in college, and she couldn’t handle it anymore. I know that if we were close or even went to the same school we would’ve still been together. It’s been 5 months but I still think about her, and maybe we could be together in the future. Is it wrong to keep this hope?
I'm in a happy relationship but this has me heartbroken over a love that will never be
I got broken up with a month ago. This vid hits so hard still
this happened to be so perfectly timed with my current life situation, thank you so much for allowing me to let my emotions flow
I met someone recently. They just wanted to be friends because of a past relationship but we connected in a very special way. While I completely respect her wishes and honestly enjoy just being friends with her there is a part of me that is unsure how to feel about this strong of a connection. I feel fine with letting those feelings go and don't harbor any jealousy at all for what she chooses to do but I can't help but think that in another life close to this one we had an amazing relationship. It surprises me how much our lives depend on chance timing. Makes me think how many people I've just barely missed getting the pleasure of meeting or have met when they aren't at their best.
I love this comment so much, it hits so close to home.
Bariloche is a magical place, and perhaps like you I'm sometimes lost in thought and flooded with melancholy when I think about how I may never live there again... I appreciate your video.
This is beautiful. I'm definitely adding this to my list of rewatchables. So far you and Exurb1a are the only ones in there
Exurb1a
Represent
I wonder if there is a word for that the realization that the experiences and feelings you believe are unique to you are in fact shared by many others. It is comforting yet slightly disheartening knowing that you arent unique, your magical experiences and feelings that once hurt you more than you ever thought was possible is in fact shared by so many others like you.
Thanks for the video Sisyphus
Here I was, thinking that my day couldn't get worse. But then Sisyphus released another masterpiece on us. A masterpiece of sadness. Hitting just the right nerve with just the right topics, to make me cry once again. After having to think about it all day, this person's sombre words managed to put a nail in the coffin.
And I was never so thankful for anyone to hurt me like this. It makes me feel understood. It makes me feel, like I'm not alone. Thank you for hurting me like this.
It hurts and it’ll always hurt when you look back at the memories, but to be able to love that much and give so much of yourself is a beautiful thing. You will be able to do it again. Give yourself time and be kind to yourself. You’re gonna be alright
i cant get enough of your unique and beautiful way with words
When I am drunk, and theres no one to say goodnight to, and no one to wake me in the morning, it is time for sisyphus 55
Man went through a lot in his life and seeing himself expressing through video makes me wanna cry
Today was REALLY not the day for me to watch that... or was it maybe the best one? I don't know really but you pushed the spot here. That was something else. Beautiful.
I’ve always valued your detached analysis of philosophers. You’ve been posting more poetry recently, and it’s touching
I just keep reminding myself: everything is destined to end. As if that would ever quell my yearning for just one more night....
My gf of 7 years recently left me for someone I thought was my best friend. I was deeply in love with her. I'm still not over her. She clearly moved on. This video is too real.
I'm so sorry I hope you heal from that
I love these types of videos you make. I think a great idea on a video is something on finding your second love or the importance of a second love because so much people put light on their first love I feel like second love never gets the same recognition
There goes my favorite poetic + philosophical content creators bringing wonder and thought in my life once again. Ty sisyphus :)
something about intercutting ms paint drawings with found footage makes it feel like youre trying to fill in the gaps of your memory. it's fun to look at but also haunting. great video as usual
As someone who's first language is Spanish, I absolutely loved the subtitle being on my mother tongue. I wish you could do this more often :)
I find it kinda annoying, why not implement them into the closed captions?
im not very emotional most of the time but this hit hard
i’m kind of a music person and i met her when we were playing in a school orchestra, she sat far though, but over time we hung out more with other friends. About 2-3 weeks after i felt like i really liked her, but the thing is i was in year 10 and she was in year 12, doing her IB exams, so she became more distant and we talked less.
After a while she started to hang out with us more, and we performed in a school concert where we had so much fun backstage. During the concert i couldn’t even play my best because of the butterflies. I also learned that she actually lived super close to me, like a building away, and i thought we could hang out more. So she then offered to tutor me in the clubhouse near our apartments, and what great times those were.
I kind of almost gave up. One of my best friends came up to me and said he liked someone, and he asked me to give him advice on how to approach her, but it turned out he liked my crush. I didn’t want to help him but i did anyways, part of me just thought ‘she would definitely choose him over me, he’s much better’. However a few days later, we were hanging out, and my friend left to go home, and it was just the two of us. With no plan, no thinking, i went up to her and just let it all out, she was not surprised, telling me that she had known since the beginning, and she was not interested in dating. So i just left, went home, and buried my head with books and studying, trying to forget it.
A week later my parents told me we were migrating to the UK, and that we would leave in February 2023. my heart sank, as i realise i have such little time to spend with my friends and even her. I tried to reach out to her, i told her i had moved on and only wanted to hang out as friends, but every time, she left me on read. In school, she avoided me in orchestra, i asked her friends if i was that bad, and they told me she was busy with her studies.
Time passed very quickly and soon i had only 2 weeks left in our home, i had already arranged gatherings with friends before i leave, and i was so excited to see them, but often the thought of not being able to say goodbye to her before i left kept haunting me, a voice that never leaves. i tried, so, so hard, to at least see and talk to her in school, just one last time, just once, and she finally said yes. my excited, yet melancholy self went down to the auditorium, hoping to see her one last time, but inside, not a single person, she wasnt even there, all i saw, was a piece of A4 paper on the stage ‘sorry, goodbye’ it said, on the back of it was her name.
As i said im not very emotional most of the time, but i swear i cried so much, and it’s not even her fault, which is why it hurts so much. With regret, i left and moved to UK, i still try to forget about it, but it never goes ‘the sound of the orchestra, her sweet soprano singing voice, her weird sounding laugh, it all comes to me like huge crashing waves trying to drown me in misery.
haha im surprised you had the time to read this much i really don’t have a lot of energy and motivation now.
Sad to say but the timing is just perfect that someone so special in my heart that I feel so connected just leave me last night and the content is just perfectly sums up what I feel rn
This is something I really connect with. A few months ago I’ve had this exact feeling. Happy to say ive gotten better and got over all my bittersweet memories of ‘us’. Hope that everybody with a similar experience finds themselves and can live their lives in happiness again
This video hit different because of recent events in my life. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone, but listening to you and reading through the comments of everyone that's had a similar experience is making me feel a little less alone. Thank you :)
You once asked me what was the point of philosophy and poetry... This is it. Putting into words the feelings I could never convey to you. I only hope that one day you will find that person who makes all art suddenly make sense. Thank you for the memories. Goodbye.
I did not know I was going to cry through my breakfast this morning. Thank you for the upload!
I've been working my way through your videos, and they so perfectly put into words what I've been feeling these last few months. I feel like I'm falling apart, like I've lost myself. I keep using logic, telling myself it gets better, and it does, and then nights like tonight happen, and I'm back in that pit I clawed so hard to get out of. I remember their touch, their smell, their taste, the sound of their voice, and the cruelty of the last words they shared with me, turning a phrase meant to show compassion, and something to look forward to into a knife, and cutting me with it. I miss them, I miss who I was with them, but I know I can't ever allow myself to be with them again, because they will make me feel like this again. And maybe I want that pain, just to feel them one more time, to hear them, to see their breath rise and fall while we lie in bed together
hey man thanks for all of your videos I really appreciate your eye opening videos. It’s helped recognize points in my life that I should fix and have been living such a spiritually rich life and have been much better than I ever have.
I feel like I should've moved on by now. But I just can't. I don't think I'll ever forgive her, but at the same time she's all I can think about.
"thank you for giving me a home that i will never return to" well, that hurt
This was beautiful... This relates to me in a way that wasn't centered around a romantic/sexual relationship, but a friendship.
Something different from other types ive had. It was so real, so random in how it came together, so built on trust and just letting ourselves be free from society's bends and wills. It felt genuine and with little outside influences. There was trials and tribulations, but never any shame or abuse, it was like we had ourselves through thick and thin. We brought eachother joy and happiness at a moments glance in any situation, banter and jokes weren't to cause pain but to tease and promote even more personal growth and laughing at ones self.
Everything in this video perfectly describes that situation except for the feeling of it being one sided, it was mutual, i know it was a mutual feeling but it wasn't outright stated, i found out through others, the difference being that the universe didn't feel that way, and i ultimately started to drift, not from lifes circumstances and not from other friends, but from a toxic relationship he told me he didnt approve of, i dissociated hard from marijuana to cope and lost track of everyone and everything, even him, not completely but enough that i know it hurt him...
Death is what drove us away, and death is what drove me away further. Losing a relationship where someone is still alive does feel very similar grief wise and especially if you don't see it coming, but theres still this feeling of finality with death not present in a breakup or drifting apart, that leads to unending questions and immense pain thats undescribable.
I tried to explain it off as a person that lacks in religion as "this is the will of the universe", even in a deterministic sense that this couldn't have been avoided, but it definitely could have been. All bare responsibility as leaves drifting into one another, no cosmic deity was at play, cause and effect had something to do with it, but it was ultimately his decision in those circumstances... I don't even think I've made this connection internally till seeing this video... Thanks broski 🖤
Hopefully i continue drifting till i find something like that again, maybe ill become that person for someone else some day, maybe.
Literally crying from the moment this started. The timing of this vid in my life is insane. This story is almost verbatim .
Your recitation has caught me in such that though I was walking but couldn't feel any of the movements. Your words were like a waterfall and i was beneath it, just feeling the gushes of water passing around my eye lashes.. really beautiful man❤❤
More than a year later and the memories still hurt. Thank you for your content it inspires me and resonates deeply.
The melancholy of pure, sincere love-the sweetest pain there is. I’d give ten lives of hedonistic pleasures to feel that pain more often. I’m well aware of its dangerously addictive allure, and I even feel the withdrawal symptoms and the cravings weighing heavy on my emotional health, slowly turning me to stone.
This text has stirred forgotten and very dear memories from long ago. I’m glad they're still there, ready to be called upon when needed-the spice of life.
Thank you!
i was happily having my tea and biscuits and now i want to cry wtf 😭seriously though your writing is lovely. it perfectly shows the feeling of knowing that you will never see them again, telling yourself it's not use hoping but secretly longing and hoping, unable to convince yourself that it will never happen, she wont come back.
Another day, another sisyphus video hitting harder than a brick. Nothing hurts more than thinking you have connected so much to someone, just to realize it was nothing but a one sided fantasy. It hurts, but you can't hate them for it because it's just you. Life goes on, they moved on, but sometimes you just can't find a way to fill the void that they left.
I'm not in the exact same boat but a similar one I suppose. Thank you for this beautiful piece.
man i was just going about my day but then you dropped this and made me remember once again, but i guess this thing are never truly forgotten
I see some people in the comments sharing, so I'll spill my guts a little too.
We were only together for a year, but we had been friends for much longer. She made me very happy, and she was very kind to me; but more than anything she was my first true love. She didn't hurt or use me, and for a while she was the warmest home I held. I didn't realise that I had fallen in love with her truly until the end sadly. I knew and felt that it was over for a long time though, and we were going in different directions. Yet I couldn't help but keep talking until she was finally out of earshot; and then I spoke some more.
We've been apart for over 4 months now and this is the first night in a fair few weeks I've truly missed her. Something in the air just reminded me of her, and this video appearing in my feed tonight just felt like a passing reminder to me more than anything. I still hold our friendship and all of the memories of smiling and laughter she gave me in my heart, but deep down I'm happy that she's now out there somewhere living her life well. It hurts, but it was for the best. I don't hate or blame her for breaking it off, because I know it wasn't any easier for her either despite being the right choice.
I guess inside though, a part of me will always wish we could've both been living well together. I'm fine with her just being a distant warm memory though, but if I could ever give her a hug and thank her one day for giving me that happiness, I'd like that.
Thank you to anyone who read through this short ramble, and to anyone else out there missing somebody special: it gets better, and eventually you can love those memories again. Trust me :)
I never like commenting on stuff, but im going through such a rough time akin to this in a way, and you put everything into words, and im crying real hard. It's not a romantic relationship i never wanted that it never had to become that, but i had a friend that i had such a strong love towards. They are assertive and brave, they didnt take shit from no one. They were such a fun person to be around. They had such a kind heart as well. They were everything i admired and wish i could be and more. Never had i had such an attachment to anyone like this ever. It was definitely to the degree of a trauma bond tho. We were there for each other during our roughest times, they were the first "best friend" that I had that didn't use me, didn't make me feel uncomfortable in any way, didnt drift apart at the time, that i didnt have to constantly say it will get better cause it was good already, and I clinged. About a month ago, they wanted to stop being friends. To me, this came out of nowhere even tho I should have seen the signs, and to say it hurt was an understatement. They said they stopped feeling this that it wasn't mutual anyone, our friendship. We parted ways, and I threw up for 3 days straight and couldn't down anything. I had this one goal. To fly over and see them. I have never been so excited, so determined, and so driven to do something. I got off my ass and did everything and anything in my power for this trip. I wanted to see them so badly I wanted to have a perfect week where we just hung out and did dumb shit. I yearned for this. I yearned for a future where we would meet up in person, I yearned for this with that entire friendgroup, but especially them. This drive I had wasn't healthy either I realize that now. The lines "secretly i like that you dont need me" was what hit the hardest. Despite all this im not mad, and i really could not bring myself to be mad at them and for this decision, and instead im proud. Im so proud of them. Im going through it so rough, but i hope they are happier. I think they are. I am going through the bedridden, forgetting to brush my teeth sorta shit. With an eating disorder now to boot. Isolation from my other friends who i want to reach out to so badly i miss them more then anything right now, but i don't feel strong enough to just yet. And that's ok and normal. I will heal one day. This video just put it all into words and i found it at such a perfect timing. There will be a day where i will get out of this funk, and i can let it not bother me anymore, like i was able to do with other stuff in life. There will be a day where I can as happy as before and have that drive towards something else. Find something i love to do again (there was one thing and i will get back into it, it was making little clay figures and gifts which i mainly did for them, but i want to make some for myself now, when i can mentally let go). I will be ok. Ty for this video. Sorry if my thoughts in this comment are a bit of a mess.
Well, with this you touched all of Argentina's broken hearts. I've discovered your channel a few months ago and I automatically connected with it, it was what I needed. But suddenly hearing "Bariloche" felt so close and very special, kind of magic. Reading some of the nicknames that we're used to tell each other when we're in love was a warm knife to my heart. I can imagine how you feel about coming back, but I do hope we meet if you happen to be here.
I really appreciate the Spanish subtitles, I am going through a similar situation, your video brought tears to me man. Keep up with the good work
You're so good at capturing the feelings of these intense moments man. Hope you feel that way again and I hope I do too.
Hey Sisyphus I’ve recently found your channel and have been binge watching your videos. I just want to thank you for your content big man :)
i appreciate you and your art. this made me tear up. i always get a rush of anxiety clicking on your videos, as i know they'll take me on an emotional ride im not sure im ready to face now, or ever. i feel a little less alone today. thank you.
your command of words and the way you express your feelings through them is so moving and very relatable. you’re highly underrated
you readed our minds again (:
that video was right on time for me
that hits really deep and personal
i hope i can let it go after half of a year...
thanks, Sisyphus
Loved the video. I'm going through something similar at the moment. Thank you for sharing.
I’ve already watched this more than 5 times, and every time I hear it again I cry unless I try hard to hold my tears back.
I lived in Bariloche for some years and I discovered heartbreak there as well. This is now one of those very special videos, the one about suicide is another one. Great job.
This was stunning to watch. Keep up the good work.
This was truly moving.
Each and every single one of my fallen tears approves.
Thank you for this video ❤
sometimes things come to you at a time too perfect for life not to be a simulation. this is one of those times. thank you for sharing this exactly when i feel like this!
one of the best videos i have seen that really hit me.
I was dating this girl for almost 2 years it started off as long distance as I lived in Florida at the time and she lived in Canada. But I'm from Canada so I always would visit frequently and was planning on moving back but was just waiting for the right time. But then one day her dad offered for me to live with them and I was hesitant because I thought it was too quick for such a big change in my life and in the relationship but I went with it anyways. Unfortunately at the time that I moved in we were having a little rough patch so things weren't as smooth as when i got there but eventually it started looking bright until it just became something beyond toxic and even harmful for the both of us. It was just constant fights coming home from work or in public and a lot of messed up things, and I'm not gonna lie I was very immature at that time in my life and i didn't truly know how to take care or love someone else properly even though I thought I did because this girl was the first ever person I felt such a deep connection with in my life but once that started to die everything else went to shit to the point it felt like we were basically just roommates not even partners or even friends. I eventually left to go live with my dad who only lived about an hour away and we tried to keep dating but after 2 months she ended it because there was too much damage and pain. It's been some time since and i can say I did move on but it always brings me tears whenever I think how close of a bond we once had and now shes not even in my life. The last night i spent with her i remember we fell asleep in the same bed but for some reason i left to sleep alone in the other room had i known that would've been the last night i wish i stayed in that room and kept her in my arms all night long. I know maybe one day i can find someone to love me again and a chance for me to love someone properly as I've grown up more and learned from my mistakes but she will always be my first true love and the girl I wish I did better for.
Heart breaking yet beautiful my man. You truly are gifted
I know it sounds dumb but I want to feel like this. Like I've lost someone who I love. Because I'm always on the other end of it - I can't seem to fall for anyone and I'm the one who leaves first. I would be so glad to feel this strongly about a person, even if it's inevitable I'll lose them. I think loving someone who doesn't feel the same is better than never feeling that way about anyone.
Beautiful writing and awesome video
What do you mean by "loving someone who doesn't feel the same is better than never feeling that way about anyone"?
@@htirah100 I think that love and and the despair that comes with it gives meaning to our lives. I'd rather see my heart be broken a hundred times throughout my life rather than not once. Because when I don't love or am not in despair, I feel broken, like a shell of a human being who is not capable of emotion.
@@elza7221 Sounds stupid. I'd rather hurt myself than someone else doing it. At least I know where it's coming from and why.
Be careful what you wish for because it hurts like nothing else in this world, 50/50 I think I would've put a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger if guns were legal here
Thanks Sisyphus. Your channel has always been an emotional understanding of day to day life and the emotions that come with it. I always come back and rewatch both old and new videos that correspond with whatever may be going on. I’ve learned so much and I hope you see this comment :)
The way you speak is so amazing! You’re definitely one of my favourite UA-camrs.
ive rewatched this vid everyday since you uploaded this is probably one of my favorite vids from you now
These tiny essays are brilliant, would be great to have the audio on the podcast
i miss waking up to his voice and how the earth looked so much brighter when i held him in my arms. I wish we could become strangers again
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Every single one of your fans want to tell you their life story cuz u r 100% accurate
There is solace and great writing here, as every comment says - perfect timing.
You have a volatile exhale, shit we’re all feeling, and it should be published in novels, unless it’s against your interest.
I hope you read these publicly, when I move back to Mtl I’d love to see a live event one day (and this video prepares me for how that will feel.)
I respect and adore your channel, and I hope that you are doing well now - and thank you for being a compass through grief and reproach for me.. and inspiring and reminding me of what thing’s are too easy to go deaf to, being a compassionate voice of reason on my shoulder at the right right time You’re the best fr
Your videos are an art the way you word things is amazing love your video ❤
This made me sick to my stomach in the best way possible. Truly a work of art if art is made to evoke any feeling at all. You've done it again, Sisyphus 55. Congratulations.
My little post video edit; Salutations from Costa Rica.
Sisyphus ha estado practicando con Duolingo lmao
this was so beautiful 🤍
this is one of the most beautiful, impactful, and depressingly relatable pieces of media i have ever hear. its tragic, yet has a poetic sense of closure. the idea that even after the heartbreak, life still must go on. and even though the past may have left a mark, even though the wound is permanent, there is the idea that the pain of the would is not. life must go on and we are never allowed to forget that. this entire piece is a testament to the feeling that happens, after the storm settles. when are you are left with truly, is the memory. And the realization, that there isn't anything you can do change the past. you can only move forward. On one hand you are left sorry you ever dared to hope for the thing that broke you. On the other, there is the faint whisper of hope, that you can and will keep living. And in that time, the very nature of life itself perhaps forces to move on and find happiness or something close to it once again. tragic yet beautiful.
That exact story happened to me this week, only the location wasn't accurate. This one hits hard, yet softly. Thank you.
As an Argentine living in Canada, there's something eerie about this one.
sisyphus making me feel shit at 10 pm.
Hermoso video como siempre, un placer saber que estuviste por mi tierra argentina. gracias por la traducción! mas videos subtitulados porfavor!
I love you. I love the timing of this video. I can’t believe this
You really do have a talent speaking from the heart. I do wish and hope you find the peace from the those memories you hold on to.
You've just brought me into tears. I don't think i'll recover from this anytime soon. Greetings from Argentina.
i'm crying now, this was amazing, te quiero mucho Sisyphus, gracias por los subtítulos en español, you're the best
You are the only person that has ever made me cry within seconds. A single tear.
Your words takes me through the memory lane that I want to forget so much but its so deep rooted that its almost impossible to separate it from me. I can just hope it gets better eventually.
I am now filled with immense sorrow and regret. Great video!!
I don't know if I will ever get over her. Two years gone yet I dreamt of her just hours ago again.