non-stop bad luck and the most depressed I've ever been
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- Опубліковано 3 лип 2024
- December 2023 felt like I had a curse put on me. Not only did bad things keep happening, like my ceiling collapsing or my grandmother passing away, but my mental health was at an all-time low. In this vlog, I get brutally transparent about my struggles with depression and recovering from a month of nonstop bad luck.
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I'm absolutely shocked you were left to clean up the dust after the ceiling collapsed. The least they could do was pay for a professional clean to get rid of the mystery dirt.
I’m so very sorry ❤ I do hope your landlord pays you for your damage, I find it extremely low and heartless that he’d raise your rent after what happened. I truly wish you nothing but the best and here’s to things getting better and getting that spark back that you so deserve.
I’m sure it was gonna get raised in the new year for everyone regardless, but sheesh! Felt like kicking me when I was already down 😭
@@jacyhosts OK I need to add that to my rant as well no freaking way that he made you pay more rent. He should've made your rent rent for a month free. I'mma be honest right now like he needed to have made that free I would've moved out and not even told him there's a hole in the ceiling straight up I would've gotten a hotel, put of all my stuff in storage unit and I would've found an apartment after paying him the lease break like he could deal with it alone. That was never your responsibility and the fact that you said you were gonna stay at your brothers house why did ur landlord not put you up in a hotel? That is so awful. And bc you had to call off work and deal with family trauma??? he needs to have paid you for all of this like thousands of dollars to be honest because it is incredibly unfair that you were to fix your car while dealing with this and then go through things with your family like he should've paid you for pretty much every damage that happened that is incredibly awful and not fair
I also went through a period of constant bad luck..one night went to the ER with kidney stone pain and went back home to discover my house was robbed and then I got the news I got laid off. I just try to find the good of every bad like luckily I wasn’t home when the robbers came inside my house. I think maybe luckily you weren’t on the bed when the ceiling collapsed on you.. however it is very distasteful to increase your rent right after what you went through
This entire thing is distasteful. He should've paid for a hotel. He should've paid for her belongings and he should've paid for her rent for a month. I'm gonna be honest.
Life be lifing. I have been doing so bad too. HUGS!!!!!
Life be lifting is all too real 😂 stay safe out there!
I understand that so much... during the last 3 years, I went through a divorce, the mental illness of my ex getting out of control, his disappearance with our son, then his death, and then I was diagnosed with a tumour and my dad died... I really understand how tired you may feel. 🍀 sending you a lot of luck :D
I feel for you and I just want to give you a BIG hug because you could probably use it. I am dealing with a fiberglass issue with my shithole mattress that I bought on Amazon, that had apparently been leaking thin fiberglass through my room and putting tiny shards in everything, that are only visible if you shine a flashlight on it. I've been cleaning for 2 weeks straight (after catching covid for the first time). Never EVER take your mattress cover off to clean it. I feel you though, sometimes it feels like the sky is falling (in your case it actually was). As things start to settle however, it REALLY makes you appreciate the lack of drama and the slow comfortable points in life. Hang in there!
We all heal through connection. Your honesty is so appreciated, you have a gift of storytelling I don't see too often on this platform. Seeing you keep going through all of life's challenges inspires me to keep going through mine. Thank you Jacy. 💛 (Ps - I could never be a rich landlord as I would feel so bad, I would replace everything and also clean up the mess! Geez!!)
I know right? We’d be empathetic landlords 😅 but I appreciate your words of encouragement ❤️
32:16 your hair looks absolutely gorgeous. I understand everything you're going through and I've been there, but just know that you look absolutely beautiful even in the moments you feel worse.
Hey, you don’t understand how much I needed to see this. I felt like I was watching myself…… you are beautiful and strong. ❤ things will get better stay patient
I feel the same way. I felt like I was gonna cry reading your comment. I hope things get better for you soon. ❤
Jacy, I just wanted to say that so many people can relate to you and you're definitely not alone ❤ I'm turning 32 in a few days and I'm leaving a 5 year relationship and starting over. I won't even have a bed for a while and I have to get a roommate. We're in this together, girl! And I look forward to your new content 😊❤ Go, Jacy, go! 🎉
Wow congratulations on your new chapter! I’m sure it’s scary, sad and exciting all at once, but this is our year for new beginnings. Sending my love Jackie ❤️
@@jacyhosts thank you so much! We got this, girl! 💅🏽❤️
How could your landlord raise your rent after all of the stuff that happened with the apartment ceiling? Your wonderful, I appreciate your humor and perspective on life. Keep working on you and good luck with the half marathon!
Right? Felt like a kick in the gut 😖 but looking ahead for more positive times ❤️
Landlords are trash :/
Jacy I hope your mental health and overall life in general gets better. I wish you nothing but the best ❤
I just found you, due to ceiling falling. You’re a lovely person. I subscribed. ❤
From one curly girl to another: Sending all the love and positivity to you that your 2024 is all about you rising above and being the best you, yet! ❤
Hi, I just want to say that I appreciate you sharing this and I can relate to almost everything you said about your experiences of depression. You really can do this, and life is hard and bills are never ending and jobs suck - but you’re getting through it and that’s all you can do. A half marathon is a wonderful idea to motivate yourself and cultivate self love in the form of health and new challenges. I loved watching this vlog as I got myself up for the first time in a couple days and made a healthy lunch…your honesty and presence means a lot more to so many people than you know. So thank you and I really believe in you 🩷
You’re not alone girl!🙏🏽
Wishing you all the best ❤
Big hugs darling, Jacy 💪💗
I'm little late but however long the night the is the sun rises. And seeing your latest vids, the sun definitely shines on you.
Keep your head up, things will get better!
I hope the best for you. Stay strong, chica. You gon be aight.
I'm so sorry all of this has happened to you! Thank you for being vulnerable, so many of us can relate to you ♥
Just know you are not alone. I totally relate to each & every thing you described that has/had you down.
I'm glad that you are feeling better and thanks for blogging both highs and lows. Things will get better.
Keep your head up Jacy, it could always be worse.
Hang in there, Jacy! This will pass. Sending you some strength and happy vibes 🤗❤️
Oh noo Jacy, I’m so sorry you are going through all this. You are so strong! You are expecting alot of your self. Please be a little more kind to yourself, you deserve that. Sending you a hug! ❤
Sending you love and positive vibes 🌸
Hi Jacy! I think you are stronger than you realize, you are so real and raw and I am rooting for you ❤
I’m so sorry to hear about the end of 2023! My year was rough too but making it out SLOWLY as well. I am cheering you on as you make your recovery and go back feeling like yourself. You talked a lot about physical health goals. I hope you also have some mental health goals such as seeing a therapist or someone who can help you overcome mental blocks as well.
Jacy! I’ve been following you on here under a different account for years and once you slowed down on posting I started occasionally checking on you to see if there was any update and then I switched accounts and my mom brain forgot to check on you 😔 I’m late on seeing this, but my heart hurts for what you went through. You’re right though, you are rising from the ashes (and ceiling dust). I’m so proud of you for your determination to keep fighting for yourself. I hope 2024 has been good to you so far. Can’t wait to catch up on your videos!
My heart hurts 💔 Jacy you do not have any curse on you! You are a beautiful soul that is protected! I hope you are finding peace each day and thanks again for sharing with us ❤️❤️ Praying for you xx
You will be ok! It will pass. Pull through strong .
Wow! What a survivor you are! ❤ All of what you went through and will continue to deal with will look and feel different someday. Keeping pushing through , YOU ARE STRONGER THAN THIS 🫶🏻
Wow Jacy, I am so sorry all of this stuff happened all at once! Sometimes it just seems like life just wants to smack us out of nowhere. Things will get better again! You are being so resilient and handling all of this so well! 2024 will be better! Always look forward to your updates and sending good wishes and support your way! ♥️
Glad to hear you made it through,
Thank you so much!!
It’s so good to see you again, and I’m so sorry you’ve had such a rough go of everything lately. I’m wishing you all the luck and joy this year possible ❤
Thank you so so much, I’m grateful for everyone’s support ❤️
Ohhhhh Jacy ☹️ I’m sooooo sooo sorry you had to go through all of that😢 I hope that 2024 is all you dreamed of 🤲❤️ I’m glad that you are doing better. Hang in there you got this!!!!! 💪 sending you all my love all the way from Toronto ! 🥰🍁
Sending you big hugs and lots of love!!! ❤❤❤
Thank you so much!
You are strong and will get through this! ❤ My December was a rollercoaster as well, had my car broken into and unexpected medical visits for my spouse and racked up a crazy amount on my credit card. Ended up selling my car and using that money to pay off my credit card and my husband’s labs came back and he is well. It sucked and my anxiety was shit but you got this. Sending good vibes!
Hang in have faith. Life can be very hard at times, your a beautiful person and you may not see it now but the only way is up from here. My sympathy on he loss of your Grandmother. I wish nothing but better days ahead for you, take it one day at a time. God bless.....
Thank you so much, persevering through the hard times will make the good times all worth it ❤️
@@jacyhosts 🙏 yes it will. Stay strong.
Aww Jacy, these past few months for me have been shit too. My dad had a heart attack, then him and my step mom let us know they are getting a divorce which came out of no where for us. My car was totaled due to a drunk driver, our washer stopped working and my dog chewed my glasses and it was $400 for new ones. On top of getting really sick for a few weeks where I had a fever and coughed up blood. I have been under so much stress and cried so much lately and literally also thought I was cursed and or the universe is mad at me. It has been absolutely horrible but I know it could be worse and so hopefully this year is better to us both ❤ stay strong and remember your not alone.
Also, get the landlord to check for mold or any other hidden issues.
Just found your channel ramdomly and I have to say Thank you for the transparency. It's refreshing to see that life isn't always roses and unicorns on social media. I always say that God biggest breakthroughs are always on the horizon when the lows hit you. You got this 😊
So sorry. I think you’re a beautiful person with a great attitude. I think you have a wonderful future. I’m so sorry for your loss. You’ll get through it. Best wishes 🥹😘🙏
Reading this comment makes me feel infinitely times better, I appreciate it ❤️
Jacy you are beautiful inside and out ❤
Sending you love and lifting you up❤️🙏🏽💫
It is well received ❤️
Manifesting good things for you this year
I can use all the help I can get!!
I'm sorry this all happened to you. I felt for you deeply.
I hope your life has been better & your st patricks day marathon went well ☆☆☆☆☆❤❤❤❤❤
Hope everything gets better.
I hope so too 🙏
Sending you hugs and positive vibes your way my friend. 🙏
I appreciate it so so much!!
I just wanted to say i enjoy your videos and i know you had it rough the last month and i am in no place to tell you what to do in life but please just be careful with the w**d it can be addictive and given that life can throw some unexpected curveballs you may lean into it more and harder please keep your head up things will get better Jacy
Thanks so much!! And yup definitely distancing myself from it before it gets to be a worse habit 😖
I'm sorry about your granny 😔 🙏🏾
I adore you and always want you to have the best things in life.
I appreciate you ❤️
Omg I wanna give you a hug
I’d be going psychotic this is awful thank goodness to managed to survive all this 😞😞 Just wow that’s chaotic.
Wow, what a december but you are strong n you have a family n friends that support you when going bad times . My prayers n condelescense to you n 🙏 your family.
Am also going to add I been missing you. Been thinking about you. I hope this year gets better
Aww I appreciate it ❤️ having support from amazing people like you makes everything truly so much better
♥Just letting you know, you're an inspiration to me.
Wowza this means so much ❤️
Awww don’t cry😮
I can hear your lump in your throat i really feel for you sweetheart xxxx 🫂 hugs from Scotland ☆☆☆☆☆
For your electric blanket, try strip cleaning it! It involves using a few different cleaning powders, I think tide, borax, and arm and hammer powder? I can’t remember exactly. But you put the blanket in hot water in a tub, mix in the powders. Stir it every hour for like 4-5 hours. Then wash it like normal with no extra detergent. It gets out a ton of dirt and stuff that regular washing can’t. And just wanted to say I’m so sorry it’s been an extremely tough month. I enjoy your content and I hope starting it up again will bring you joy❤ much love!!!
I found instructions for it!
Instructions
Fill your bathtub, sink or a large bucket with hot water. The laundry stripping recipe involves adding borax, washing soda (sodium carbonate - not baking soda) and laundry detergent in a 1:1:2 ratio. For a bathtub, add 1/4 cup borax, 1/4 cup washing soda and 1/2 cup laundry detergent. Stir until all three dissolve completely.
Submerge your "clean" towels or sheets in the mixture and soak until the water has cooled, which usually takes at least four hours. Stir them occasionally to help dissolve and release the buildup from the fabrics into the water.
Drain the murky water, wring your items and run them through a full wash cycle without detergent or softener. If not a full wash cycle, put them through at least a rinse and spin cycle in your washing machine. Tumble dry the items without dryer sheets.
Omg Lauren so I didn’t give up on the blanket after all and did something like this to get all the dirt out. Buuuuuuut tragically I must’ve ruined the electricity of it because it no longer heats 😭😭 so now it’s just a regular ole blanket, sad life!
❤ you , may Allah SWT keep you happy and safe , always. Ameen
Oh hell no. The landlord should have paid for a restoration company to come in and clean all your things. You did hours of work to fix something THEY'RE responsible for!! And I do hope there's no mold involved. I would have called code enforcement for an inspection, then done a separate mold inspection on my own. Yes, a little pricey. But I actually became permanently disabled from mold, and long story, but environmental medicine docs can show how mold leads to bipolar via chemical sensitivities to environmental chemicals or your own neurotransmitters and hormones. True story. Also quite treatable. But hopefully no mold there. But what the heck WAS that in the ceiling??
Hi,
I’ve been having some issues with the apartment I rent too
Not as bad, my apartment is just not well isolated so the windows get wet, I have a wall with mold that is there since I moved in but the landlord said he’ll fix it before the winter lol
Some furniture of mine have got mold on them, clothes, and shoes (that were stored in the build in wardrobe that is in the apartment) some books of mine and other stuff got wasted too bc it was too humid
I didn’t wanted to turn on the radiators too high bc he lied to me about how much the previous renter paid for the electric bill, turns out, it’s cold af in the winter, I have to close the exterior shutters in order to have less wind coming at the window and so in my apartment cause the windows are Gruyère cheese
And he’s rising my rent too lmao I’m getting in touch with my city for them to come and inspect the property, you should not live like that, when my apartment is at a good temperature, I pay 10/20€/day for the electricity, I’ve lived in other places, I know it’s too expensive, I just don’t want all my stuff to get wasted
I would call your renters insurance, you may be entitled to more than you think. If you live in a city You also should talk with your local renters rights group or community. Your landlord should have given you the cost back from your rent for any days it wasn’t fixed. You have a legal right to a habitable living space. You should make a detailed inventory of everything that needed replacing and send it in writing to your landlord. Call your renters insurance. Depending on what state you are in like California you might be eligible for your landlord to cover moving costs. The popcorn ceiling may have aspestos in it! and that would go all over if the ceiling collapsed you have been breathing all of that.
I know money is tight but if you’re going to keep living there you should hire your own inspector.
You might feel better health wise if you move. You are breathing whatever that is in your ceiling.
He should've given her a hotel. He should've paid for all of the things that she lost. It doesn't matter if she had renters insurance or not. That's what the landlord is supposed to do. He should've literally given her a different unit to live in or if you can't do that, you should replace the whole fucking ceiling, because do you know how terrifying it is to sit there, and not know if it's gonna collapse again likenot a single part of this was fair to her or she should be given so much financial compensation
Hey jacy I was wondering if you’d stopped making videos, so glad you haven’t ☘️ sorry about all the bad luck and as a guy that suffers from mental disorder I understand some of the struggles, really it’s family that actually helps the most! I won’t say anything else on it as it can get annoying listening to people saying oh be positive everything will be ok, just remember having what you have and living with it makes you stronger then the average person even more so when you get through these difficulties 💪 anyway thx for your honesty and vlog don’t give up 🇮🇪 you make Irish eyes smile and sending you some luck of the Irish ☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️ you go girl 🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️🏃♀️
Thanks Richard, you’ve been supporting me for some time and I can’t thank you enough for your kind words of encouragement!! I’m sorry you have your own demons to fight, but I hope this will be our year of good luck 👍🏼
No worries jacy, hey I’ve lived with it for 20years so it’s part of me now and exercise is the key 💪 so get your arse in gear for ☘️day marathon 🇮🇪 and then pick a new goal something achievable it keeps the mind focused 👌 Richie Socrates philosopher extraordinaire out 🏋️♀️ toodles omg that bloody word 😆
I do you better! I was held up in my former studio apartment recovering from foot surgery. Suddenly, my bathroom ceiling was leaking tremendously destroying everything while my kitchen ceiling was leaking and destroying everything! Plus it was raining outside my building in the city!😂😂😂😂😂😅🤣🤣🤣
It's so horrible of the landlord to raise your rent after so much of your stuff was ruined. He better pay you back for the stuff.
Also, you don't even feel safe it won't happen again and now you have to pay more....
Whoa did you piss off a witch? 😓😓😓im so sorry!
You ARE entitled to getting that property damage covered. Everything damaged should be covered by the LL, he can write it off on his taxes. Landlording is his job, this is the cost of doing business.
and wtf is that dirt? It could be dangerous. You shouldn’t have cleaned that 😡
I really hope 2024 treats you better love ❤ sending positive vibes and curse removing energy.
Side bar, no you haven’t. You haven’t done it all. There are places you want to visit that you don’t even know exist yet. Trust me, you need tons more time to do it all 😘
Yeah life likes to kick you heavily sometimes , it really likes to kick you a few times even when you are down
When it rains it pours, but feeling better now 🙏
@@jacyhosts always will get better, one day at a time
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Oh, babe. You poor thing. I’m so sorry life has been unkind to you lately. Legit question, do you get enough Vitamin D? It helps with my depression. I take a lot…25,000 IU (625 micrograms), but it works, and is pretty cheap. I know how you feel about Paris. I went to London in June and November, and it’s all I can think about. Trust me, you didn’t peak. Those trips aren’t the highlight of your life. There’s so much more to come. Congratulations on your Dry January, and the upcoming half-marathon ♥️
I do take vitamin d supplements! But I also have bipolar disorder which is where the depressive episodes come from and hit hard 😓 but thanks for your kind words, definitely feeling better!!
What camera do you use? Quality is amazing.😍
My killer crush love her energy
It doesn't matter if 1 minute 1 second videos aren't your style just upload them, you need to make money and this is a source of income for you, do what you need to do we will all still view them ❤
Jacy girl... Not to scare you, but at 9:44 on the video, there was a big ol' orb on the left side of the screen... Sending prayers to you 💕💕
I saw that too, @justjoycelyn. I hope whatever is there, shifts it's energy and starts to help sweet Jacy out. ✨
@@mom2djm me too!
2024 is already better than 2023…last year really was tough. It’s good to be able to say that, right?
29:52 Holy crap, I dont even lose that much hair in months
The gravel like dirt- did it look sparkly/shiny at all? Hard to tell in the video, but I'm worried that may have been vermiculite insulation. If it was and your landlord did not check/Inform you and left you to clean that yourself without proper P.P.E- where I live, that would be a huge tenancy law violation.
Since you live in California, you would think you could find an attorney willing to work with you probono to help with your ceiling issues. Your landlord is responsible for a lot more than that.
Girl move, apartment tours moving in ect get views
I have an idea for a viral tik tok, I was gonna pass it to my sister but she don't want it 😭🤦🏼♀️ butthead, doesn't wanna be on social media.
You're smart andperfectly capable of slipping into a media career. Maybe apply apply for a job at E?
at least you are not a housewife!
It just makes me so fucking angry that they didn't offer you a new unit to live in during this or like I don't know the situation of where you live just a hotel anything to go stay in because the air in your apartment now has dust particles and mold and debris everywhere regardless of how much they clean that shit months from now not only that but they didn't pay for majority of the stuff you said they should've and they also should've literally made it so that you wouldn't have had to touch any of this But you did and I think that is so awful of them, and the fact that he paid for it begrudgingly makes me fairly angry because why the hell would you have to pay for a single part of that that's not your building you did not construct that and it's not under your name to own it I assume so why the fuck would you have to pay for this shit sorry for getting so angry, but like this type of stuff is very hard to hear as somebody who lives by herself Like definitely got taken advantage of in the situation you shouldn't have had to touch a single part of that that's a health hazard.
Did you cry? I would have cried before fixing the problem. That’s my personal process.😂
WEAR A MASK!!!!!
Do you watch Allyiahsface? She has a lot of videos about being a creator and how she built up her platform. Maybe some of her tips would help grow your following and income from social media.
Hoping the new year will give me some more encouragement and business savvy! I’ll def check out her content 🥰
jesus gnomes girlie! yes someone or something has cursed you. preform a sage cleansing? sacrifices to the eldrich gods? can we do anything to help?
Hopefully the new year gave me a karmic reset 🤞🏼
Also , a definite sign to do like a lot of people. ***GET OUT OF LA ***
Thats weakness talkn
Should you have a patreon? I think it’s a great way for those that don’t have a zillion subscribers, ppl earnestly just trying to get through this ridiculous whatever this world is ATM. No one cares I’m sure, but, IMO, if you’re not making millions of dollars off of ppl donating a few bucks every month…then, go for it. Why not survive…maybe get to thriving?
It sounds like your landlord’s a greedy a**hole; he should’ve LOWERED your rent given what happened!
bleach the blanket
Depressed? You? Depressed people don't do things. They hide under the bed in pitch darkness because the sound of the fridge gives them anxiety.
You seem barely capable of sitting still what with all the things you're constantly doing. You may feel temporarily sad or bothered, but depressed? Nope.
I hope Allah can better your sitiation. A teaching of the prophet Moahmmed was whenever your feeling depressed to ponder and remember those in a worse situation then yours. The people of Gaza have family members dying left right and cente, there houses being blowed up, they are under siege and starving. Realising that their are millions suffering at this moment and pondering about the countless blessings of god should automatically make us greatful for what we have. I hope that helps.