Im the same exact way. Its hard to say "I've been doing better." than to say without meaning it, "I'm good." i cant imagine myself being any different than how i am. Its been so long since i felt happier more than feeling sad
something that helps me is to put my self through what i call a forced struggle. something i don’t like doing so that when im done i immediately feel better
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.zachary3 I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Honestly my major cyclical, episodic depression (MDD) vanished the day I had the magic mushroom tripping while listening to the birds singing in the early morning, up at the cottage country in Muskoka (Ontario, Canada) Literally changed my life
I love your face!!!!!!! If you need to see something happy, i keep my videos of my animals on my page. Don’t forget to tell your dr. I know its scary!!!!! You are so loved and you are doing enough, you are doing what you can and you will succeed. You will get where you need to be for you!!!! Love yous!
With MDD (Major Depressive Disorder). Ive been diagnosed with it this year. I feel like nothing in the reality is real in a way. I feel a lack of feelings, difficulty in concentrating, and difficulty in speech to. It interferes with my everyday life, and its terrible. I can't even be social without having a lot of anxiety. I also feel really dismotivated to do any work, and often procrastinate, and not even do the work. Some of my teachers fail to understand, which makes it even worse aswell.
I got PDD (Persistent Depressive Disorder), I feel you on everything not feeling real at all, everything I feel is empty so even when I have great times in social settings or accomplish something big, I’m always dragged back down. When I’m alone at night my brain just becomes a weight trying to pull me all the way down and do something regrettable. For me social settings are my escape since I can ride the wave of temporary happiness and use loud music and conversation to drown out the voice at the back of my head.
I experience similar symptoms but my psychologist said it's more likely due to an ADHD-Autism combination, but I'm not sure why either one would be more accurate
@@snakeguy8646_ How old are you? If you don't mind me asking. You're not alone in your feelings. Why does everything seem fake to you? (I have same feeling of that)
@@kaileytho early 20s. Part of it is the fact where for me at least I don’t exactly feel emotions correctly, didn’t understand them when I was young (autism) so masked and basically learned the motions but never learned why people use those motions, if that makes any sense. Now in a physical sense I’m constantly drifting through life, roll with the punches, every day is the same but different, my social relationships are distant since they dissolve whenever I get too comfortable so I constantly ride a line of being uncomfortable but not distant, constantly alert of every little thing I say.
The biggest thing I've learned living with depression is that it isn't going to go away. Im currently housing a couple of kittens. First time spending a night with me. Theyre super sweet. One of them has cuddled up with me and has been purring for an hour. Its the sweetest thing I've seen in a long time, but I literally feel nothing. This little guy is showing me more love than most people have all my life, and I dont feel a damn thing. Thats depression.
When I was a kid I was talking to my best friend, I was a lot happier than I normally was because I was planning on committing suicide. My best friend realized something was off and told my mom. I talked to my mom and got her to believe that I wasn't depressed. That night I didn't commit suicide, but I did sit on my chair for a long time, thinking about what had happened. My best friend made me realize I didn't want to commit suicide that night and saved my life.
Experiencing that feeling that there is no point to life is such a terrible thing to see or feel... especially in people so young. I've helped friends steer clear of that path and they weren't even 15 yet. I'm still just 16 and I'm struggling with my own feelings. I'm not suicidal (anymore) but it's still tough to deal with
Honestly? The reason for this is a poor style of upbringing and serious deficiencies in teaching. There is no subject that would teach life, about ourselves.
It gets better. I'm 40 and trust me, I know what you're going through. And yes, it is tough when it looks like the rest of the world has it all together, but more people than you would ever guess are holding a lot in and struggling to present as well adjusted. I've got a smile and a quip for the grocery store cashier, and that's about the duration of normalcy I can handle a lot of days.
Yep... that explains a lot!!! Trying to communicate in the grips of the fekker seems to only add to the phycosis. Extremely confusing and debilitating. Stay strong 💪
I failed my school this year because I was so depressed I couldn't concentrate and would procrestinate, now I have to re-do my year without any of my old friends and people laugh at me for failing, so it's worse now, I got this video recommended right as I was crying and screaming it wasn't fair
That sounds really hard 😢 I hope you get some relief soon. It probably doesn't help much but I'm 50 with MDD and I can tell you not a single thing that happened to me in school mattered one bit once I was out of it. Don't give up hope.
At the moment, having to redo a year's worth of schooling is very traumatic. But in 6 months, it won't be so bad. In a year, most people will forget about it. In ten years, no one will remember it. Trying to concentrate while being depressed is very difficult. Because of my depression, concentration is something that I have trouble with. Making a list can help me plan what I need to do in the day. I hope this helps.
I failed 2 years, I feel like my years were stolen. Normally depression makes you feel like this but when it actually takes years for the future as well, you have to redo it again, it's so tiring. And I don't know how I will manage next year with my ADHD and anxious thoughts. Good luck
I had psychotic depression during a mayor depressive episode 10 years ago. Not all days are rainbows and sunshine, but I am living a content life. If you feel like you won't get to that point, trust in yourself and know you are not alone. It's a long road up ahead, but eventually you'll get there ❤
It seems to explain what I've been going through, lately. I had transferred to Celexa last month. Although, it eliminated my suicidal feelings making me feel more neutral, I kept feeling on edge. Not a whole lot, but it was constant. I have C-PTSD from childhood, and I kept having feelings, thoughts, and dreams of child abuse. I told my psychiatrist what was going on, and now I'm transition from Celexa to Zoloft. I hope it works better. I've also been have mid-life crisis thoughts. I'm almost 46 and never married. I've never known what it was like to be in a relationship. Since I was 9, I didn't have friends because I was fat. I dream of having friends, hugging them, and caring for them. I hate being isolated, but there are barriers where I live which caused my social problems in the first place. I live in NE Oklahoma, and the people here aren't interested in reaching out to others. Even, my brother's family purposely keeps their distance from us. If it wasn't for the Internet, I would be completely alone. It would be nice to live somewhere where people are more accepting of others and are more willing to reach out to others rather than purposely distancing themselves.
I’m sorry you have been going through this. You seem like a really kind and warm hearted person. There are many people out there that feel just like you, and are looking for someone kind hearted and loving to share their lives with. I would suggest getting a bit more proactive with the choices you make regarding how you meet people. The best way I have found is via mutual social groups because this can create a more organic and less awkward meeting space. This can be church, a walking group or even working casually at a coffee shop or library. Something you can do consistently over time that has a chance of finding a person with a similar mindset. The weird thing is, I’m a well built guy and I struggle with meeting and talking to women too, you don’t have to be defined by how fat your waistline is. Who you are is the one on the inside. I hear an articulate, sensitive and kind person who deserves much better than what they have. So get to it. Make a bit of effort toward your goal and you’ll reap the rewards. But the important thing is to not give up. You’re better than you think. Good luck.
I'm only 23 but dealing with the same thing. And I feel terrible, I'm failing college because of mental fog, freeze response and memory problems. I don't even have a proper place to stay idk what to do. I thought I solved the problem with depression treatment but now I can't stop thinking about my past traumas, I act weird and immature, I can't control myself. I am living like I'm in a spiral. Only thinking, achieving nothing. And with that situation, I can't form any relationships. I can't just say "Oh I say things weird right now sorry its because I have brain fog, I've been traumatized many times". Or I can't be like "What did I do today? Lay down and think about my life or dreamt all day to avoid it as casual" So while doing "nothing" all day and having brain fog, it's hard to find subjects to speak. I wish I could have someone, it would help my mental state a lot.
You definitely have stronger willpower than I do. If I don't find another, and this time, lifelong, relationship by the time I'm 35, I'm game overing. I would not keep going after what you've been through.
At this point i don't even desire happiness, i just want to be like a robot. Just get through the tasks Finish the day Repeat. Just that until death finally arrives, i have lost all hope of ever be truly happy. So i just want to look normal so my family can be alright. I just have to keep breathing.
Happiness is a fleeting emotion. I try to be content instead. Content is a state of mind. An example. Yes, last night I cried a lot. But I knew that there were good people in my life. My dog. My friends. My husband. All good people in my life. {I grouped the dogs here as people because so many people call them fur babies}. So, while my emotions were going "nuts", my brain said that it's okay.
@@RedemptionRed would you like it if a muslim invited you to worship Allah when youre at your lowest? Keep your religion in your head where it belongs. If your god exists, hes pure unfathomable evil. Or he is weak and completely powerless. Otherwise, you are saying your god WANTS us to suffer. He WANTS babies to get cancer. According to your religion, it's "gods plan" that people k themselves. Or else youre saying your god happily watches on the side lines without it being part of his "plan".
It's so confusing for us trying to navigate through life in general! But then we have to learn about all these mental and emotional categories, and that's where you guys come in and give us guidelines and advice that is immensely appreciated! It may not give us the ultimate solutions and relief we need and want, but it does give us the hope and optimism we need! I hope all of us make it through our agony and darkness! Thanks and take care!
i literally had all of these symptoms and was bedridden when i was at home, and my mom called me a lazy slob and everyone in school mocked me for smelling bad... my siblings mocked me and made fun of me and my mother said i was exaggerating, i can't even remember two years of my life because i slept through most of them and was sobbing or screaming the rest.
My friend told me about it, I don't see the reference on the thumbnail unless it's super small. I am really glad that I watched the video as well though, I didn't realize that there could be that kind of depression because I have depression.
I have MDD with psychotic features and anxious distress. Depressive episodes are extremely frightening, and I can never discern what causes them. It's much like temporarily having an extreme personality disorder, where I am aware of my distorted thinking, but the experience of psychosis persists, and I have no access to rational thought - like having Göbbels in my head repeating lies until they are accepted as truth.
Im glad that my fiance is never giving up on me. She is the rock I rely on when my brain decides to hate it self till death. Thanks for the informative video.
I suffered it my past and it's exactly like you explained with some extra staff I didn't know! Thanks for all your videos and the creation of this channel!
I could use some help clarifying something. When I read/hear "disconnected from reality" I think of a person who, can't seperate reality from fantasy. As simple as it is, I have a feeling this is a sort of layered statement & would like to know if I'm correct or not. Very curious. GOD BLESS YOU ALL & always remember you are loved & not alone. Eat healthy, drink plenty of water, & get some sleep. I believe in you. You're so so loved & you deserve to be loved & are worthy of it no matter what you did or if something happened to you. You're a champion.
I developed MDD w/ PF after suffering silently with MDD for a few years as a teenager. I was (almost) always aware when i was hallucinating, and the same hallucinations would happen again and again. Most were mundane, but strange. When in the shower I'd hear someone playing piano or a little girl giggling from the other room. In a large auditorium during an exam where everyone was very spread out, someone would whisper my name. Which i could somehow hear from 15ft away through the music in my headphones. There was a fly circling the air in my bathroom for weeks... i could never really tell if it was real or not. The one i remember most clearly was hearing the sound of a helicopter landing on the roof above my head during a spanish test. No one else seemed to notice. But it was so loud i had to leave the room and collect myself. I was also deeply delusional but didn't realize it. Typical depression beliefs. Everyone is always talking about you. Everyone hates you. Everyone is staring at you. Etc. I'm a lot better now. But I still hear the piano or the little girl when I'm under extreme stress.
I sincerely wish that my expected support system was there for me like this. I am proud that I have been able to be the foundation of support for so many children. I am always elated when every patient finds their way to the conclusion that everyone around them is their to help them. It's a feeling of gratitude that I never got to have, but I am so grateful to witness and be a part of helping someone grow through.
@@_shadow_1 - I believe the delusions were caused by dysphoria: the mind is forced to accept, as fact, things that it knows aren’t true. The brain gets wired to think that way and you’re easy meat.
I was depressed and had anxiety and I'm sill an introvert these things started when I was just 7 and I'm 15 now....,💔and I just wanna thank you for always making me feel better ❤l
Thank u so much for explaining this. I have gone through psychotic depression and it was so difficult for me to explain what was going on! Especially the part where you know that everything you hear and see is not true. But at the moment it’s so extreme that you can’t ignore it! Although you are aware that it’s not real! Very difficult to go through a psychotic depression. It made me a different person..😕
I’m really glad the explanation helped. Psychotic depression is incredibly challenging, and navigating those experiences must have been so tough. How have you been coping with the changes since then?
@@Psych2go I often struggle with it almost daily, sadly enough. It’s been 3 years since it happened to me. But i try to avoid certain things that triggers me. I will always have the thought in the back of my mind that i’ve got in a psychotic depression. But now i know what it is and why it happened, what caused it. So I’m aware and try to avoid as much as i can. But i will forever have a anxious feeling in me, before the psychotic depression i didn’t have that. But now i have to live with it. It is what it is sadly enough. Thank you for commenting on my post! I appreciate it. Keep on educating us, it’s very interesting and helpful!
I had an OC for many years and she has symptoms that I believe are connected with psychotic depression, so I’m glad these videos exist so I can learn further about the topic.
This happened to a loved one of mine….middle aged and came out of nowhere. Ended up in and out of psych wards for a couple years then ECT shock therapy. It was FTD (dementia) the whole time. DEMAND a brain scan if it comes out of nowhere in middle age. My loved one suffered so much without the proper diagnosis.
It's so hard to "live" with depression , i mean especialy when depressive pov is the most true , why do we live and fight our way just to die at the end of the day... there is no fucking reason to live and life is pointless
I literally had these same thoughts last night. It just feels like all of life is a challenge, and there are only a few moments of happiness sprinkled throughout - but the challenges/issues seem to be far more.
The point of life is the things we've done and seen, and the people we've met along the long the way to the grave. This sentence makes me feel less worthless.
@@Hadeth_a_stepa can be true but still there is no point why you should meet people share moment share pain share hapiness, At the end of the road you die they die and it's all over , and the cycle repeat till the last human breath ... it's pointless
@@loomonda18 yeah life is a challenge , moment where it's not a challenge are rare and even if they weren't rare it's still pointless in my opinion , being happy feeling great just to feel sad right away ...
as someone who was practically "schizophrenic" and now is "normal" working out and not shutting everyone out helps and if u tend to have a big ego humbling helps a lot
It’s not so easy to talk to people when you’ve had trust broken too many times. I’ve found that self harm helps me keep from doing any kind of permanent damage. It’s destructive but where I love help is not an option. I simply endure and do my best to not allow the insane screaming in my head to end it to ever have a say in my life. Thus self harm satisfies the urge without doing the permanent act. Toxic yes but I do have periods where I am in control and keep this at bay but when things go totally south my mind can slip from reality and the only way to ground my mind in reality is pain. Physical pain to remind me I’m real or at least as real as I can be. This existence is torment but I love so many things in this existence to let myself be dragged into the shadow completely. Simply put, there is no real help, only the mastery over one’s self. And I am clearly still learning but slow progress is better than none. Ironic this pops up the day after a 3 month long period of no depressive episodes but yesterday I slipped and ended up cutting out of the intensity of what I was experiencing. This world is suffering and at this point physical pain feels more like a pleasure compared to the mental pain.
I was diagnosed with MDD and schizoaffective disorder last year and its horrible. Anhedonia. Insomnia Fatigue Suicidal thoughts Feeling worthless Racing thoughts Coupled all that with a stressfilled environment and a toxic individual around u 24/7. Self care not at its best. Anxiety AND, being a caregiver to a special needs kid. I mask a lot but break down in the late hours. I am exhausted.
Thank you for your videos. Your content has helped me acknowledge what I've been feeling and helped me build up enough courage to talk to someone about it.
I have awoken so far beyond psychotic depression I discovered an entirely new category of awakening. I have become so conscious of the nature of love, that I have discovered an entirely new kind of love: Alien Love. This is nothing that any human has ever imagined or spoken of. The happiest day of my life is when I awoke to infinite alien love. It's the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. My comprehension of love has become so profound that I have become Alien Love. I can show humanity how to become Alien Love. That is now the purpose of my life's work.
Psychotic Depression is the closest thing to hell that I've ever experienced. You know, intellectually, that it's not real but it feels *very* real. If I had to describe what it's like, I'd say that it's like there's a pane of glass between you and the world that distorts everything you see. You know that the image is distorted but you can't tell exactly how or what, if anything, you're perceiving accurately. Are people really talking about you behind your back or is that just a delusion? Meanwhile, you're screaming and beating on the inside of the glass begging someone to help you but they can't hear you. You're just trapped in there, right behind your own eyeballs. That was me at 24. I'm 49 now and with a lot of medication and therapy, I'm more or less asymptomatic. The main underlying issue for me is Avoidant Personality Disorder. Personality disorders are also pretty tough to deal with but I'm able to manage my symptoms and do things that I *need* to do. I've also given myself permission to not do things that I don't want to do. I'm never going to enjoy being at a party or a work lunch so I just don't go. That's ok. I don't have many friends but the ones I have are very close to me. That's ok, too. I try to see how I live as not bad, just different. The important thing is that I can let people in, now, when I'm ready even though that takes a long time and a lot of trust.
Psychology is the brainstorming and analyzing of concepts to try to make sense or completely redirect our thoughts intentionally away from the Spiritual realm. We try to rationalize it. We need to give it to Him in meditation and intent of mind in trust- anticipation of response (faith) is key.
Got diagnosed with MDD w/ psychotic features. Thankfully, I only have delusions and no hallucinations (fingers-crossed). Although generally fine now because of medication, I remember the months that I do have those episodes. It's generally hard to go through a day with delusions in your head especially the ones that question and doubt the people who chose to associate with me. The thing is, I know they might not be true, so I chase after them to extreme lengths to either disprove or prove them. Sometimes, these actions lead to the confirmation of the delusion, but I'm pretty sure I just fcked up bad enough that it was actually a self-fulfilled prophecy because I've broken so many wonderful connections just because of my depression. Hoping for the day I can live in peace without the need for medication.
Me as well, like I always think that people are just being polite with me so I read too much into their behaviour, words, etc. it's like my brain automatically thinks that every person I know and meet has something up in their sleeves that leads me to doubt their intentions. I always question people's intentions in my head and form scenarios as to how and why it happened. Emotional reasoning too is very heavy on me and it is very frustrating. These things puts a strain on how I view and show up with people and sort of I self-sabotage
Thanks for sharing your experience. I’m sorry to hear about the challenges you've faced with MDD and delusions. It’s tough when those thoughts start impacting your relationships and self-worth. It’s great to hear that medication is helping, though. Do you have any strategies or support systems in place to help you manage these feelings and rebuild those connections?
@@Psych2go Personally, music became my go-to comfort when I'm distressed. I talk to myself and trying to weigh my thoughts in an objective manner to avoid giving in since it's quite difficult to identify delusions when they come. My last line of defense is talking to people to ask for input and perspective which can help me realize which thoughts are fueled by delusions and which thoughts are based in reality. Sadly, not all connections I was able to fix. There was this girl that I had a really bad fight with and most of my arguments were fueled by delusions of jealousy and persecution. I've since lost contact with her and I don't plan on reconnecting with her anymore. I'm afraid of reopening old wounds.
I was diagnosed with MDD with psychosis symptoms when I was 17. It was (and still is) a long journey, but I went from being completely reliant on medication (and basically at the mercy of insurance paying for it) to coming off of it completely at the age of 23, and now with a overwhelming love of life. You will make it here one day, I believe in you 😁
I find myself being attracted to these types of videos because I want to find something I can relate to. and the problem with me is that i tell myself nah you don't have those signs. stop trying to align yourself with all these sad things. it's cringe to say you are depressed. so i believe and go, yeah! I am ok. but then the moment I think about my life and all the weird things it's like so not normal. insomnia, sleeping too much, fatigue,
I recently moved in with my mom this year cause i found out some things about my dad and his family that i shouldn't have found out , i also realised that i was being abused when i was with them i just normalized it because I thought thats how everyone was raised . As much as i feel safer and loved more here i just feel different somehow , my mums been trying to get me to speak about the stuff that happened and to regularly tell her how im feeling but i can't sometimes i even lie to her because im scared of how she'll react. I've kept myslef from making any friends because im scared that if i do ill loose my actual friends or ill be replacing them , i cry more than i have in the past years and sometimes i feel like i made the wrong choice living with her . Last year i had i began harming myself in many ways then i stopped when the holidays were coming because id been given the chance to finally see my mum but now ive gotten back to it and ive started biting down hard onto my pointer finger whenever I feel irritated or sad or annoyed , it doesnt hurt when my frustrations are high so i feel like its harmless in a way but its started bleeding so i feel like i should stop but i cant . Theres so much more that ive been doing that matches the descriptions of this videos but i dont think i can get help . Im not sure what to do but i really don't know how im going to carry on.
never been psychotic, but I've been so depressed that reality seemed strange. Regular places had an aspect of a barren, howling wilderness. People were there, but also kind of not, like ghosts. Time and space seemed less certain, and I couldn't remember what had happened from one hour to the next
I have 15 concurrent diagnoses, including Autism, ADHD, C-PTSD, Psychotic Depression, just to name a few. At this point, I think it's just easier just to jump in the magic portal and just accept I will never quite connect with the world and there's no chance of undoing the changes that have happened to me since. I got a few things as compensation though for all that hardship: 1: With emotional detachment, things that would normally overwhelm the systems often dissipate in a few hours. And by the time the ride is over, it's more convenient to just pretend nothing happened. My mind has already been smashed to pieces and I'm supposed to be the crazy person anyway according to others, so I don't need to understand the enlightened viewpoints of my friends and family. 2: I can draw....very, very well. Turns out, psychotic breaks change the circuitry of the brain, which turned out to beneficial in some ways. It broke down logical barriers preventing me from progressing in applicable skill as an artist. 3: Since I was neglected hardcore and never taught basic things in life or how to take care of myself, I found my own solutions. I was abandoned by just about everyone I had maintained a close friendship with due to slander and harassment by someone I had been a close friend to for years. So I studied political strategy with a Machiavelli-style approach to interpersonal relationships. I began to cultivate a network of friends and acquaintances in a relatively short time by teaching them how to effectively combat their own interpersonal struggles the same way I did and provide a cozy social environment where people could come to relax after a stressful day. If you become someone people can rely on as a comfort figure, you will quickly become a popular guy. 4: I became fearless pretty much. Years of being continually exposed to information hazards and traumatic events have hardened my mind to the point where everything boiled down to proportions of trifling inconvenience, and is the foundation of British humor. 5: I developed one hell of a personality behind all the insanity I went through. I would have a major personality change what felt like every six weeks, and while I lost friends because they thought I went off the deep end, the charisma, wit, and humor I developed began to cultivate a charm only madness can bring, and I was able to channel this into the outlets of drawing, voice acting, and live entertainment such as streaming. 6: I stopped overthinking. That part of my brain went ka-splodey and refuses to overtax itself anymore. Overthinking is one of the most vicious kinds of mental exhaustion I can think of, and although sometimes it's hard living the opposite extreme now sometimes, at least I don't have as many distracting thoughts to sift through before I actually sit down to plan and visualize what I'm going to do at any given time. If you're going through hell, and you have to trade part of your mind at some point to keep going, you do get something for it in return. Something you couldn't get if there wasn't sacrifice involved. Take it from me - my trade-off for losing my sanity was art skills and a charming personality among other things. This may help some of you feel better about your own struggles if you know there are hidden treasures to find.
I'm going through this right now. I've been disregulated for 5 days and am just starting to get calmer. I'm going to talk to my therapist about this next week. I have cptsd and adhd, so theres interplay there that makes it hard to deal with flashbacks, and hallucinations, and mood swings. When i'm like this meds either dont work, or have an opposite effdifferlast time it was this bad I ended up having a stress seizure, went to bed talking to my wife, and came to with them working on me in the ambulance. Right now I'm just hiding in sleep as much as possible so all the life stimulus doesnt get out of hand. I'm just waiting for appointments now. Thanks for putting this out. Its hard to describe while your in it, and its hard to remember when your out of it.
I have difficulty distinguishing what is and isn't real, but I'm not sure I experience psychosis or if it's more the combination of other symptoms, physical & mental. Like I think I have bouts of temporary paralysis? But how can I know if I'm truly unable to move, or if I'm just stuck, or if I'm just not trying to move or not trying right? It doesn't feel different. And I have obsessive thinking that just spirals and spirals, like when someone I love was getting tested for a cancer recurrence I genuinely believed that if I thought the wrong thoughts I was gonna make her get cancer. I lose time, my access to memory is unreliable, I have headmates. Sometimes I see or experience things that aren't there but like I'm pretty sure I know that it isn't there so maybe I just have a vivid imagination. What's real? What isn't?
I recently came out of an IOP where I was talking about this every day. Little did I know I was experiencing a lengthy episode of psychotic depression..
Ohh this really fits me actually. I have depression but all of these symptoms are definitely there. Hallucinations and delusions are there at times. I often believe the delusions but the hallucinations are very rare
I just watched this video and everything that was said is what I've been going thru for a few months now I've been begging for help I've told the people I thought cared so much for me about what I feel and want to do NO one is taking it serious I feel they think it's all a joke.im tired and don't want to continue going like this anymore
I stopped taking meds so I could feel emotions again. The only emotion I felt was sadness and I soon became severely depressed. I didn’t want to take my meds because I just didn’t want to get better. My friend and family tell me to get better but I don’t want to. I’m not ready to get better, and I don’t want to. It hurts so much and self harm started to develop. I’m still not ready..
@@Psych2go its kind of scary, i still have feelings of doubt and fear of my mother finding out and the situation worsening again... Its a really hard step for me to make since my brain and heart are screaming at me to not go because i feel unworthy of it or like Im the probelm, the bad human being... But my gut is telling me to go... And, whats funny to me right now is that you replied right before im gonna go talk to my therapist, right before im gonna ask her if she can help me find a psychiatrist... Im hoping it will go well ...
I have not been diagnosed with psychotic depression, though it's a real possibility. After my traumatic brain injury in 1988, I was diagnosed with Major Depression, and I consistently knew there was more to it than that, though it wasn't 'til 2017 that I was also diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. The psychotic episodes were a big part of that diagnosis, though I've been having them since 1988 along with the other symptoms. Apparently being 15 years old at the time I broke my brain led to delayed or mis-diagnoses all along, because at that point the brain is still developing. Still, it would have been very helpful if I had related the term BPD to my symptoms--then maybe I could have gotten effective treatment before getting arrested and a court-ordered evaluation that finally felt accurate! Of course I take appropriate responsibility for my choices that led to that arrest; I only wish I had had better understanding of the conditions that led to those choices.
Can you also make a video on excessive day dreaming ? Basically people like me function well mostly but because the dream world is so much bettter that you don't like reality and it becomes difficult to identify who we really are , which person from our which day dream are we and also are we this person who in reality gets very little done and just dreams ?
I just experienced psychotic depression for the first time ever recently and it was the worst experience of my life. Made me start believing I was literally living in a solipsistic dream where nothing outside of me was real, as well as my thoughts were jumping around constantly and often totally contradicting themselves. After finally getting a (relatively) clear head I feel not just upset about all my irrational and eradicated behavior and how impacted those around me, but I’m also so pissed that it feels like I was possessed by a self-sabotaging demon that I had virtually no real means of fighting against until I just let myself had a full fledged mental breakdown and had to retreat into solitude to fix my brain up through deep self analysis and meditation. I’m just so scared of this ever happening to me again, but at least I’m aware of the warning signs now.
How did youtube know thats what i have? Weird. Support is good but what if you dont have anyone in your life you trust? Whoever reads this, if you are suffering, i sincerely hope you pull through.
Idk if ive ever been depressed i get pretty down but i recommend trying breathing exercises and normal exercises like till you sweat focus on nothing but your body for 20 minutes and you may feel different its natural medicine i belive depression is the body and minds reaction too a lack of somthing but a lack of somthing can always be replaced with somthing that generates positive feelings thats just my opinion in my experience i can talk all day noone is coming too save me instead of feeling hopless you channel the feeling into energy through breathing and meditation many will scoff at this and go too a doctor looking for help for a problem the doctor probobly dosent understand fully becase everyone reslly genuinely is different Its worth noting the company you keep plays a huge role in mental health if everyone around you is negative you cant really expect too feel positive dont be a crab in a barrel everytime your about too escape your pulled down
I’m 90% sure I got psychotic depression. Either that, or I got bipolar type 2. I’ve already been diagnosed with MDD. There’s also bipolar that runs in my family too.
Understanding that your perceptions aren't real is such a weird feeling. Once I could have sworn that a deli sandwich I was eating had the aroma of fresh-ground peanut butter, and often when I'm losing sleep, I'll feel like I have one less finger on each hand if I'm not looking at them or using them.
I have major depression and I'm a bit of an asshole when I get overwhelmed by everything. I lash out at whatever annoys me even when I know it's not the logically sound thing to do and I don't even think about it most of the time. But pills make me feel nothing. Instead of ups and downs it's a flatline. I'll happily take occasional misery over never feeling joy. And I have for about a decade and a half. Not saying that being depressed and being an asshole are more than tangentially related here, but still felt it was worth bringing up.
all among us references in this video (from what I found) 0:02 the thumbnail on the bottom left 0:35 the mug 1:02 the dude on the left 2:31 the mug (once again) 2:59 I'm pretty sure if you're familiar with among us you'd see it VERY clearly 4:37 both the mug and the dude on the right 5:11 the plant box (I'm losing my sanity right now.)
With depression, I feel the more I try to make myself happy the worse I feel.
Sad....
Im the same exact way. Its hard to say "I've been doing better." than to say without meaning it, "I'm good." i cant imagine myself being any different than how i am. Its been so long since i felt happier more than feeling sad
something that helps me is to put my self through what i call a forced struggle. something i don’t like doing so that when im done i immediately feel better
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This gives me a moment of small happiness and is followed by moment of deep sadness
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.zachary3 I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Anxiety happens when you think you have to figure out everything all at once.
Breathe. You're strong. You got this Take it day by day.
Please, how do I reach him?
Is He on insta?
Honestly my major cyclical, episodic depression (MDD) vanished the day I had the magic mushroom tripping while listening to the birds singing in the early morning, up at the cottage country in Muskoka (Ontario, Canada)
Literally changed my life
I do 3.5 g of mushrooms every 6 months to reboot my brain.
Magic mushrooms are the safest "recreational" drug to take and those who take them are the most sensible and well prepared.
Increased feelings of calm and relaxation psilocybin can promote a sense of calm and relaxation, reducing feelings of anxiety.
y'all talk about the benefits of mushrooms, but no one talks about where to fetch from.
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I cried myself to sleep and now you're explaining why 😢
Thank you for spreading awareness :)
Yeah, this is the first time ive watched one of these and realized, “holy shit, this is almost a exact description of me.”
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I’m so sorry!🥺 Sending warm comforting hugs if accepted ❤️
You too crying? At night?...
I love your face!!!!!!! If you need to see something happy, i keep my videos of my animals on my page. Don’t forget to tell your dr. I know its scary!!!!! You are so loved and you are doing enough, you are doing what you can and you will succeed. You will get where you need to be for you!!!! Love yous!
With MDD (Major Depressive Disorder). Ive been diagnosed with it this year. I feel like nothing in the reality is real in a way. I feel a lack of feelings, difficulty in concentrating, and difficulty in speech to. It interferes with my everyday life, and its terrible. I can't even be social without having a lot of anxiety. I also feel really dismotivated to do any work, and often procrastinate, and not even do the work. Some of my teachers fail to understand, which makes it even worse aswell.
I got PDD (Persistent Depressive Disorder), I feel you on everything not feeling real at all, everything I feel is empty so even when I have great times in social settings or accomplish something big, I’m always dragged back down. When I’m alone at night my brain just becomes a weight trying to pull me all the way down and do something regrettable. For me social settings are my escape since I can ride the wave of temporary happiness and use loud music and conversation to drown out the voice at the back of my head.
You are not alone.
I experience similar symptoms but my psychologist said it's more likely due to an ADHD-Autism combination,
but I'm not sure why either one would be more accurate
@@snakeguy8646_ How old are you? If you don't mind me asking. You're not alone in your feelings. Why does everything seem fake to you? (I have same feeling of that)
@@kaileytho early 20s. Part of it is the fact where for me at least I don’t exactly feel emotions correctly, didn’t understand them when I was young (autism) so masked and basically learned the motions but never learned why people use those motions, if that makes any sense. Now in a physical sense I’m constantly drifting through life, roll with the punches, every day is the same but different, my social relationships are distant since they dissolve whenever I get too comfortable so I constantly ride a line of being uncomfortable but not distant, constantly alert of every little thing I say.
The biggest thing I've learned living with depression is that it isn't going to go away.
Im currently housing a couple of kittens. First time spending a night with me. Theyre super sweet. One of them has cuddled up with me and has been purring for an hour.
Its the sweetest thing I've seen in a long time, but I literally feel nothing. This little guy is showing me more love than most people have all my life, and I dont feel a damn thing.
Thats depression.
When I was a kid I was talking to my best friend, I was a lot happier than I normally was because I was planning on committing suicide. My best friend realized something was off and told my mom. I talked to my mom and got her to believe that I wasn't depressed. That night I didn't commit suicide, but I did sit on my chair for a long time, thinking about what had happened. My best friend made me realize I didn't want to commit suicide that night and saved my life.
Suicide is most often not about wanting to die, it's about not wanting to be alive. There is a difference.
Experiencing that feeling that there is no point to life is such a terrible thing to see or feel... especially in people so young. I've helped friends steer clear of that path and they weren't even 15 yet. I'm still just 16 and I'm struggling with my own feelings. I'm not suicidal (anymore) but it's still tough to deal with
Glad your not anymore, remember nothin is worth your life, nothing, no matter how bad it seems atm it will get better.
Honestly? The reason for this is a poor style of upbringing and serious deficiencies in teaching. There is no subject that would teach life, about ourselves.
It gets better. I'm 40 and trust me, I know what you're going through. And yes, it is tough when it looks like the rest of the world has it all together, but more people than you would ever guess are holding a lot in and struggling to present as well adjusted. I've got a smile and a quip for the grocery store cashier, and that's about the duration of normalcy I can handle a lot of days.
Yep... that explains a lot!!! Trying to communicate in the grips of the fekker seems to only add to the phycosis. Extremely confusing and debilitating. Stay strong 💪
I failed my school this year because I was so depressed I couldn't concentrate and would procrestinate, now I have to re-do my year without any of my old friends and people laugh at me for failing, so it's worse now, I got this video recommended right as I was crying and screaming it wasn't fair
That sounds really hard 😢 I hope you get some relief soon. It probably doesn't help much but I'm 50 with MDD and I can tell you not a single thing that happened to me in school mattered one bit once I was out of it. Don't give up hope.
@@ADHDpancakesurprise thx, that means alot🫶
At the moment, having to redo a year's worth of schooling is very traumatic. But in 6 months, it won't be so bad. In a year, most people will forget about it. In ten years, no one will remember it. Trying to concentrate while being depressed is very difficult. Because of my depression, concentration is something that I have trouble with. Making a list can help me plan what I need to do in the day. I hope this helps.
@@LtRee96se thank you so much, I'll keep that in mind🫶
I failed 2 years, I feel like my years were stolen. Normally depression makes you feel like this but when it actually takes years for the future as well, you have to redo it again, it's so tiring. And I don't know how I will manage next year with my ADHD and anxious thoughts. Good luck
I had psychotic depression during a mayor depressive episode 10 years ago.
Not all days are rainbows and sunshine, but I am living a content life.
If you feel like you won't get to that point, trust in yourself and know you are not alone. It's a long road up ahead, but eventually you'll get there ❤
I hate it when people say this with confidence, because a GRAND majority of people don't get there. It's a death march, don't sugarcoat it.
It seems to explain what I've been going through, lately. I had transferred to Celexa last month. Although, it eliminated my suicidal feelings making me feel more neutral, I kept feeling on edge. Not a whole lot, but it was constant. I have C-PTSD from childhood, and I kept having feelings, thoughts, and dreams of child abuse. I told my psychiatrist what was going on, and now I'm transition from Celexa to Zoloft. I hope it works better.
I've also been have mid-life crisis thoughts. I'm almost 46 and never married. I've never known what it was like to be in a relationship. Since I was 9, I didn't have friends because I was fat. I dream of having friends, hugging them, and caring for them. I hate being isolated, but there are barriers where I live which caused my social problems in the first place. I live in NE Oklahoma, and the people here aren't interested in reaching out to others. Even, my brother's family purposely keeps their distance from us. If it wasn't for the Internet, I would be completely alone. It would be nice to live somewhere where people are more accepting of others and are more willing to reach out to others rather than purposely distancing themselves.
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I’m sorry you have been going through this. You seem like a really kind and warm hearted person. There are many people out there that feel just like you, and are looking for someone kind hearted and loving to share their lives with. I would suggest getting a bit more proactive with the choices you make regarding how you meet people. The best way I have found is via mutual social groups because this can create a more organic and less awkward meeting space. This can be church, a walking group or even working casually at a coffee shop or library. Something you can do consistently over time that has a chance of finding a person with a similar mindset. The weird thing is, I’m a well built guy and I struggle with meeting and talking to women too, you don’t have to be defined by how fat your waistline is. Who you are is the one on the inside. I hear an articulate, sensitive and kind person who deserves much better than what they have. So get to it. Make a bit of effort toward your goal and you’ll reap the rewards. But the important thing is to not give up. You’re better than you think. Good luck.
I'm only 23 but dealing with the same thing. And I feel terrible, I'm failing college because of mental fog, freeze response and memory problems. I don't even have a proper place to stay idk what to do. I thought I solved the problem with depression treatment but now I can't stop thinking about my past traumas, I act weird and immature, I can't control myself. I am living like I'm in a spiral. Only thinking, achieving nothing. And with that situation, I can't form any relationships. I can't just say "Oh I say things weird right now sorry its because I have brain fog, I've been traumatized many times". Or I can't be like "What did I do today? Lay down and think about my life or dreamt all day to avoid it as casual" So while doing "nothing" all day and having brain fog, it's hard to find subjects to speak. I wish I could have someone, it would help my mental state a lot.
This hurts my feelings. I'm sorry you feel this way.
You definitely have stronger willpower than I do. If I don't find another, and this time, lifelong, relationship by the time I'm 35, I'm game overing. I would not keep going after what you've been through.
At this point i don't even desire happiness, i just want to be like a robot.
Just get through the tasks
Finish the day
Repeat.
Just that until death finally arrives, i have lost all hope of ever be truly happy. So i just want to look normal so my family can be alright.
I just have to keep breathing.
Hey, can i help you with that, i was depressed too, Jesus saved me from it, Can i share?
Wanna join the robotic society?
That's great.
I would love to join you as well.
Happiness is a fleeting emotion. I try to be content instead. Content is a state of mind. An example. Yes, last night I cried a lot. But I knew that there were good people in my life. My dog. My friends. My husband. All good people in my life. {I grouped the dogs here as people because so many people call them fur babies}. So, while my emotions were going "nuts", my brain said that it's okay.
@@RedemptionRed would you like it if a muslim invited you to worship Allah when youre at your lowest?
Keep your religion in your head where it belongs. If your god exists, hes pure unfathomable evil. Or he is weak and completely powerless. Otherwise, you are saying your god WANTS us to suffer. He WANTS babies to get cancer. According to your religion, it's "gods plan" that people k themselves. Or else youre saying your god happily watches on the side lines without it being part of his "plan".
I have felt that feeling. Maybe I can't relate exactly to your experience. However, you are not alone.
It's so confusing for us trying to navigate through life in general! But then we have to learn about all these mental and emotional categories, and that's where you guys come in and give us guidelines and advice that is immensely appreciated! It may not give us the ultimate solutions and relief we need and want, but it does give us the hope and optimism we need! I hope all of us make it through our agony and darkness! Thanks and take care!
i literally had all of these symptoms and was bedridden when i was at home, and my mom called me a lazy slob and everyone in school mocked me for smelling bad...
my siblings mocked me and made fun of me and my mother said i was exaggerating, i can't even remember two years of my life because i slept through most of them and was sobbing or screaming the rest.
I hope your doing better now your family sounds horrible for that😢
I echo the sentiments of the person above me. I hope you’re at least doing somewhat better now.
First time being early, watching psyc2go. I'm a fan btw❤ I've been watching you're videos since 2023 and it really helped me a lot.
It’s has come & gone thruout my life (I’m 53) & I’ve been self medicating off & on for decades…it’s the only time I smile 😞
Watched because of the Bohemian Rhapsody reference on the thumbnail, but I'm glad that I watched this, I learned so much
My friend told me about it, I don't see the reference on the thumbnail unless it's super small. I am really glad that I watched the video as well though, I didn't realize that there could be that kind of depression because I have depression.
I have MDD with psychotic features and anxious distress. Depressive episodes are extremely frightening, and I can never discern what causes them. It's much like temporarily having an extreme personality disorder, where I am aware of my distorted thinking, but the experience of psychosis persists, and I have no access to rational thought - like having Göbbels in my head repeating lies until they are accepted as truth.
Im glad that my fiance is never giving up on me. She is the rock I rely on when my brain decides to hate it self till death. Thanks for the informative video.
This video is extremely helpful for me. I was suffering last week feeling detached from reality and explained a lot, thank you!
I suffered it my past and it's exactly like you explained with some extra staff I didn't know! Thanks for all your videos and the creation of this channel!
I could use some help clarifying something. When I read/hear "disconnected from reality" I think of a person who, can't seperate reality from fantasy. As simple as it is, I have a feeling this is a sort of layered statement & would like to know if I'm correct or not. Very curious. GOD BLESS YOU ALL & always remember you are loved & not alone. Eat healthy, drink plenty of water, & get some sleep. I believe in you. You're so so loved & you deserve to be loved & are worthy of it no matter what you did or if something happened to you. You're a champion.
I developed MDD w/ PF after suffering silently with MDD for a few years as a teenager.
I was (almost) always aware when i was hallucinating, and the same hallucinations would happen again and again. Most were mundane, but strange. When in the shower I'd hear someone playing piano or a little girl giggling from the other room. In a large auditorium during an exam where everyone was very spread out, someone would whisper my name. Which i could somehow hear from 15ft away through the music in my headphones.
There was a fly circling the air in my bathroom for weeks... i could never really tell if it was real or not.
The one i remember most clearly was hearing the sound of a helicopter landing on the roof above my head during a spanish test. No one else seemed to notice. But it was so loud i had to leave the room and collect myself.
I was also deeply delusional but didn't realize it. Typical depression beliefs. Everyone is always talking about you. Everyone hates you. Everyone is staring at you. Etc.
I'm a lot better now. But I still hear the piano or the little girl when I'm under extreme stress.
Amanda ♥️ her voice heals everything
I sincerely wish that my expected support system was there for me like this.
I am proud that I have been able to be the foundation of support for so many children. I am always elated when every patient finds their way to the conclusion that everyone around them is their to help them. It's a feeling of gratitude that I never got to have, but I am so grateful to witness and be a part of helping someone grow through.
The worst part is that I can't even trust the people who could help me😢.
Same:,)
The people who were supposed to help you, in the past, were the ones instigating.
Yes we stop trusting every one, we make conversation in our mind how that person will shun us... It's a trap
@michaelgarrow3239 Not always how that works, especially with delusions.
@@_shadow_1 - I believe the delusions were caused by dysphoria: the mind is forced to accept, as fact, things that it knows aren’t true.
The brain gets wired to think that way and you’re easy meat.
Firsttt ❤ I love your context so much, they really also help me and teach me so much
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Thank you so much for your kind words :) did you resonate with this topic?
@@Psych2go I did!
I was depressed and had anxiety and I'm sill an introvert these things started when I was just 7 and I'm 15 now....,💔and I just wanna thank you for always making me feel better ❤l
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This channel made me realise that I am not alone
I am kinda going through same situation
Yea I agree but I'm sill alone though...
Thank u so much for explaining this. I have gone through psychotic depression and it was so difficult for me to explain what was going on! Especially the part where you know that everything you hear and see is not true. But at the moment it’s so extreme that you can’t ignore it! Although you are aware that it’s not real! Very difficult to go through a psychotic depression. It made me a different person..😕
I’m really glad the explanation helped. Psychotic depression is incredibly challenging, and navigating those experiences must have been so tough. How have you been coping with the changes since then?
@@Psych2go I often struggle with it almost daily, sadly enough. It’s been 3 years since it happened to me. But i try to avoid certain things that triggers me. I will always have the thought in the back of my mind that i’ve got in a psychotic depression. But now i know what it is and why it happened, what caused it. So I’m aware and try to avoid as much as i can. But i will forever have a anxious feeling in me, before the psychotic depression i didn’t have that. But now i have to live with it. It is what it is sadly enough. Thank you for commenting on my post! I appreciate it. Keep on educating us, it’s very interesting and helpful!
I had an OC for many years and she has symptoms that I believe are connected with psychotic depression, so I’m glad these videos exist so I can learn further about the topic.
This happened to a loved one of mine….middle aged and came out of nowhere. Ended up in and out of psych wards for a couple years then ECT shock therapy. It was FTD (dementia) the whole time. DEMAND a brain scan if it comes out of nowhere in middle age. My loved one suffered so much without the proper diagnosis.
It's so hard to "live" with depression , i mean especialy when depressive pov is the most true ,
why do we live and fight our way just to die at the end of the day... there is no fucking reason to live and life is pointless
I literally had these same thoughts last night. It just feels like all of life is a challenge, and there are only a few moments of happiness sprinkled throughout - but the challenges/issues seem to be far more.
The point of life is the things we've done and seen, and the people we've met along the long the way to the grave.
This sentence makes me feel less worthless.
@@Hadeth_a_stepa can be true but still there is no point why you should meet people share moment share pain share hapiness,
At the end of the road you die they die and it's all over , and the cycle repeat till the last human breath ... it's pointless
@@loomonda18 yeah life is a challenge , moment where it's not a challenge are rare and even if they weren't rare
it's still pointless in my opinion , being happy feeling great just to feel sad right away ...
Life was never meant to be lived, it was meant to be survived
as someone who was practically "schizophrenic" and now is "normal" working out and not shutting everyone out helps and if u tend to have a big ego humbling helps a lot
as a depression person with psychotic features thank you for the awareness!
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It’s not so easy to talk to people when you’ve had trust broken too many times. I’ve found that self harm helps me keep from doing any kind of permanent damage. It’s destructive but where I love help is not an option. I simply endure and do my best to not allow the insane screaming in my head to end it to ever have a say in my life. Thus self harm satisfies the urge without doing the permanent act. Toxic yes but I do have periods where I am in control and keep this at bay but when things go totally south my mind can slip from reality and the only way to ground my mind in reality is pain. Physical pain to remind me I’m real or at least as real as I can be. This existence is torment but I love so many things in this existence to let myself be dragged into the shadow completely. Simply put, there is no real help, only the mastery over one’s self. And I am clearly still learning but slow progress is better than none. Ironic this pops up the day after a 3 month long period of no depressive episodes but yesterday I slipped and ended up cutting out of the intensity of what I was experiencing. This world is suffering and at this point physical pain feels more like a pleasure compared to the mental pain.
1:58 you just described the last 4-5 months of my life in 20 seconds
Hope you are feeling well and are at peace now
@@headlessbaron1189 nope I'm not. Currently have a developing booger sugar problem
I was diagnosed with MDD and schizoaffective disorder last year and its horrible.
Anhedonia.
Insomnia
Fatigue
Suicidal thoughts
Feeling worthless
Racing thoughts
Coupled all that with a stressfilled environment and a toxic individual around u 24/7.
Self care not at its best.
Anxiety
AND, being a caregiver to a special needs kid.
I mask a lot but break down in the late hours.
I am exhausted.
My boyfriend has this and I feel like this video helped me to understand him a lot better.
You are not alone in this struggle. Many people experience depression, and there is hope for better days ahead. 🌱💖
Thank you for your videos. Your content has helped me acknowledge what I've been feeling and helped me build up enough courage to talk to someone about it.
I’m so glad to hear that our videos have been helpful for you and gave you the courage to reach out. How are you feeling about talking to someone now?
not me being early and watching this in school 😭
Real
From which country u r ?
My class is about to start ahaha 😅
Lucky ahh
Just breathe & focus on your breath in & out while relaxing your mind & body.Better than any cure👍🙏💗
I have awoken so far beyond psychotic depression I discovered an entirely new category of awakening. I have become so conscious of the nature of love, that I have discovered an entirely new kind of love: Alien Love. This is nothing that any human has ever imagined or spoken of. The happiest day of my life is when I awoke to infinite alien love. It's the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced. My comprehension of love has become so profound that I have become Alien Love.
I can show humanity how to become Alien Love. That is now the purpose of my life's work.
*Y'all stay safe out there love y'all*
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2:39 the ultimate form of psychosis is “amogus”
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The mongus
What an underhanded way to write off someone going through a spiritual awakening. No suprise out of the evil thats behind the curtain.
Its not just sadness its emptyness, nothingness,
Psychotic Depression is the closest thing to hell that I've ever experienced. You know, intellectually, that it's not real but it feels *very* real.
If I had to describe what it's like, I'd say that it's like there's a pane of glass between you and the world that distorts everything you see. You know that the image is distorted but you can't tell exactly how or what, if anything, you're perceiving accurately. Are people really talking about you behind your back or is that just a delusion? Meanwhile, you're screaming and beating on the inside of the glass begging someone to help you but they can't hear you. You're just trapped in there, right behind your own eyeballs.
That was me at 24. I'm 49 now and with a lot of medication and therapy, I'm more or less asymptomatic. The main underlying issue for me is Avoidant Personality Disorder. Personality disorders are also pretty tough to deal with but I'm able to manage my symptoms and do things that I *need* to do. I've also given myself permission to not do things that I don't want to do. I'm never going to enjoy being at a party or a work lunch so I just don't go. That's ok. I don't have many friends but the ones I have are very close to me. That's ok, too. I try to see how I live as not bad, just different. The important thing is that I can let people in, now, when I'm ready even though that takes a long time and a lot of trust.
I just want someone nice to cuddle me so badly
Does anyone even want to see you?
Must be nice to have someone, right?
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What do you mean exactly
@@THENEONARCADE21
Isn't Love just pointless act what we humans do, just to save ourselves and the others around us?
To me Love is wothless.
How to knock someone down a notch without even trying, ouch.
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What do you mean by that exactly
Psychology is the brainstorming and analyzing of concepts to try to make sense or completely redirect our thoughts intentionally away from the Spiritual realm. We try to rationalize it. We need to give it to Him in meditation and intent of mind in trust- anticipation of response (faith) is key.
This was very informative and extremely interesting. Thank you for this video.
We hope this helps! Did you relate to this video?
@@Psych2go absolutely! I related deeply.
Got diagnosed with MDD w/ psychotic features. Thankfully, I only have delusions and no hallucinations (fingers-crossed). Although generally fine now because of medication, I remember the months that I do have those episodes. It's generally hard to go through a day with delusions in your head especially the ones that question and doubt the people who chose to associate with me. The thing is, I know they might not be true, so I chase after them to extreme lengths to either disprove or prove them. Sometimes, these actions lead to the confirmation of the delusion, but I'm pretty sure I just fcked up bad enough that it was actually a self-fulfilled prophecy because I've broken so many wonderful connections just because of my depression.
Hoping for the day I can live in peace without the need for medication.
Me as well, like I always think that people are just being polite with me so I read too much into their behaviour, words, etc. it's like my brain automatically thinks that every person I know and meet has something up in their sleeves that leads me to doubt their intentions. I always question people's intentions in my head and form scenarios as to how and why it happened. Emotional reasoning too is very heavy on me and it is very frustrating. These things puts a strain on how I view and show up with people and sort of I self-sabotage
Thanks for sharing your experience. I’m sorry to hear about the challenges you've faced with MDD and delusions. It’s tough when those thoughts start impacting your relationships and self-worth. It’s great to hear that medication is helping, though. Do you have any strategies or support systems in place to help you manage these feelings and rebuild those connections?
@@Psych2go Personally, music became my go-to comfort when I'm distressed. I talk to myself and trying to weigh my thoughts in an objective manner to avoid giving in since it's quite difficult to identify delusions when they come. My last line of defense is talking to people to ask for input and perspective which can help me realize which thoughts are fueled by delusions and which thoughts are based in reality.
Sadly, not all connections I was able to fix. There was this girl that I had a really bad fight with and most of my arguments were fueled by delusions of jealousy and persecution. I've since lost contact with her and I don't plan on reconnecting with her anymore. I'm afraid of reopening old wounds.
I was diagnosed with MDD with psychosis symptoms when I was 17. It was (and still is) a long journey, but I went from being completely reliant on medication (and basically at the mercy of insurance paying for it) to coming off of it completely at the age of 23, and now with a overwhelming love of life. You will make it here one day, I believe in you 😁
I find myself being attracted to these types of videos because I want to find something I can relate to. and the problem with me is that i tell myself nah you don't have those signs. stop trying to align yourself with all these sad things. it's cringe to say you are depressed.
so i believe and go, yeah! I am ok. but then the moment I think about my life and all the weird things it's like so not normal. insomnia, sleeping too much, fatigue,
I’ve been depressed since I was 7, I find myself wondering if I can even feel true happiness-
I recently moved in with my mom this year cause i found out some things about my dad and his family that i shouldn't have found out , i also realised that i was being abused when i was with them i just normalized it because I thought thats how everyone was raised . As much as i feel safer and loved more here i just feel different somehow , my mums been trying to get me to speak about the stuff that happened and to regularly tell her how im feeling but i can't sometimes i even lie to her because im scared of how she'll react. I've kept myslef from making any friends because im scared that if i do ill loose my actual friends or ill be replacing them , i cry more than i have in the past years and sometimes i feel like i made the wrong choice living with her . Last year i had i began harming myself in many ways then i stopped when the holidays were coming because id been given the chance to finally see my mum but now ive gotten back to it and ive started biting down hard onto my pointer finger whenever I feel irritated or sad or annoyed , it doesnt hurt when my frustrations are high so i feel like its harmless in a way but its started bleeding so i feel like i should stop but i cant . Theres so much more that ive been doing that matches the descriptions of this videos but i dont think i can get help . Im not sure what to do but i really don't know how im going to carry on.
This explains so much about me it's scary.
never been psychotic, but I've been so depressed that reality seemed strange. Regular places had an aspect of a barren, howling wilderness. People were there, but also kind of not, like ghosts. Time and space seemed less certain, and I couldn't remember what had happened from one hour to the next
2:25 explanation
I have 15 concurrent diagnoses, including Autism, ADHD, C-PTSD, Psychotic Depression, just to name a few. At this point, I think it's just easier just to jump in the magic portal and just accept I will never quite connect with the world and there's no chance of undoing the changes that have happened to me since. I got a few things as compensation though for all that hardship:
1: With emotional detachment, things that would normally overwhelm the systems often dissipate in a few hours. And by the time the ride is over, it's more convenient to just pretend nothing happened. My mind has already been smashed to pieces and I'm supposed to be the crazy person anyway according to others, so I don't need to understand the enlightened viewpoints of my friends and family.
2: I can draw....very, very well. Turns out, psychotic breaks change the circuitry of the brain, which turned out to beneficial in some ways. It broke down logical barriers preventing me from progressing in applicable skill as an artist.
3: Since I was neglected hardcore and never taught basic things in life or how to take care of myself, I found my own solutions. I was abandoned by just about everyone I had maintained a close friendship with due to slander and harassment by someone I had been a close friend to for years. So I studied political strategy with a Machiavelli-style approach to interpersonal relationships. I began to cultivate a network of friends and acquaintances in a relatively short time by teaching them how to effectively combat their own interpersonal struggles the same way I did and provide a cozy social environment where people could come to relax after a stressful day. If you become someone people can rely on as a comfort figure, you will quickly become a popular guy.
4: I became fearless pretty much. Years of being continually exposed to information hazards and traumatic events have hardened my mind to the point where everything boiled down to proportions of trifling inconvenience, and is the foundation of British humor.
5: I developed one hell of a personality behind all the insanity I went through. I would have a major personality change what felt like every six weeks, and while I lost friends because they thought I went off the deep end, the charisma, wit, and humor I developed began to cultivate a charm only madness can bring, and I was able to channel this into the outlets of drawing, voice acting, and live entertainment such as streaming.
6: I stopped overthinking. That part of my brain went ka-splodey and refuses to overtax itself anymore. Overthinking is one of the most vicious kinds of mental exhaustion I can think of, and although sometimes it's hard living the opposite extreme now sometimes, at least I don't have as many distracting thoughts to sift through before I actually sit down to plan and visualize what I'm going to do at any given time.
If you're going through hell, and you have to trade part of your mind at some point to keep going, you do get something for it in return. Something you couldn't get if there wasn't sacrifice involved. Take it from me - my trade-off for losing my sanity was art skills and a charming personality among other things. This may help some of you feel better about your own struggles if you know there are hidden treasures to find.
I'm going through this right now. I've been disregulated for 5 days and am just starting to get calmer. I'm going to talk to my therapist about this next week. I have cptsd and adhd, so theres interplay there that makes it hard to deal with flashbacks, and hallucinations, and mood swings. When i'm like this meds either dont work, or have an opposite effdifferlast time it was this bad I ended up having a stress seizure, went to bed talking to my wife, and came to with them working on me in the ambulance. Right now I'm just hiding in sleep as much as possible so all the life stimulus doesnt get out of hand. I'm just waiting for appointments now. Thanks for putting this out. Its hard to describe while your in it, and its hard to remember when your out of it.
I feel like I've been on the edge of that
Give yourself a boost for something your sad about, not just because your sad.
Hasn´t watched the video but I´m already thankfull that you don´t always talk about lust
Have you been speaking with religious people? They go on about lust a lot. Their gaslighting is abhorrent.
i have schizophrenia, im in remission but its unbearable. i dont want to spread awareness but
its nice that its being recognized.
2:30 freaking amogus cup
THE QUEEN REFERENCE IN THE THUMBNAIL!!!!
I have difficulty distinguishing what is and isn't real, but I'm not sure I experience psychosis or if it's more the combination of other symptoms, physical & mental. Like I think I have bouts of temporary paralysis? But how can I know if I'm truly unable to move, or if I'm just stuck, or if I'm just not trying to move or not trying right? It doesn't feel different. And I have obsessive thinking that just spirals and spirals, like when someone I love was getting tested for a cancer recurrence I genuinely believed that if I thought the wrong thoughts I was gonna make her get cancer. I lose time, my access to memory is unreliable, I have headmates. Sometimes I see or experience things that aren't there but like I'm pretty sure I know that it isn't there so maybe I just have a vivid imagination.
What's real? What isn't?
This thumbnail goes unimaginably hard
Thank you for this video i was curious about the difference between the two🤗😊
We hope this video gives you clarification :) What are your thoughts after watching this video?
@@Psych2go my thoughts are I’m surprised that there were more stuff between the two🤗😊
Psych2go I love your videos and thank you for these hope your day is well
Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm really glad you love the videos. Hope you’re having a great day too!
I recently came out of an IOP where I was talking about this every day. Little did I know I was experiencing a lengthy episode of psychotic depression..
Ohh this really fits me actually. I have depression but all of these symptoms are definitely there. Hallucinations and delusions are there at times. I often believe the delusions but the hallucinations are very rare
I just watched this video and everything that was said is what I've been going thru for a few months now I've been begging for help I've told the people I thought cared so much for me about what I feel and want to do NO one is taking it serious I feel they think it's all a joke.im tired and don't want to continue going like this anymore
I stopped taking meds so I could feel emotions again. The only emotion I felt was sadness and I soon became severely depressed. I didn’t want to take my meds because I just didn’t want to get better. My friend and family tell me to get better but I don’t want to. I’m not ready to get better, and I don’t want to. It hurts so much and self harm started to develop. I’m still not ready..
I am finally reaching out to a psychiatrist ... Wish me luck in finding a diagnosis and getting the right therphie
That’s a great step forward! Best of luck with finding the right diagnosis and therapy. How are you feeling about starting this new journey?
@@Psych2go its kind of scary, i still have feelings of doubt and fear of my mother finding out and the situation worsening again... Its a really hard step for me to make since my brain and heart are screaming at me to not go because i feel unworthy of it or like Im the probelm, the bad human being... But my gut is telling me to go... And, whats funny to me right now is that you replied right before im gonna go talk to my therapist, right before im gonna ask her if she can help me find a psychiatrist... Im hoping it will go well ...
its the reason why i have to talk to a therapist weekly
I got out of depression just a few months ago, I love my true friends
amazing work
I have not been diagnosed with psychotic depression, though it's a real possibility. After my traumatic brain injury in 1988, I was diagnosed with Major Depression, and I consistently knew there was more to it than that, though it wasn't 'til 2017 that I was also diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. The psychotic episodes were a big part of that diagnosis, though I've been having them since 1988 along with the other symptoms.
Apparently being 15 years old at the time I broke my brain led to delayed or mis-diagnoses all along, because at that point the brain is still developing. Still, it would have been very helpful if I had related the term BPD to my symptoms--then maybe I could have gotten effective treatment before getting arrested and a court-ordered evaluation that finally felt accurate!
Of course I take appropriate responsibility for my choices that led to that arrest; I only wish I had had better understanding of the conditions that led to those choices.
I’m watching this because I’m curious not because I’m suicidal. Chill algorithm.
Can you also make a video on excessive day dreaming ? Basically people like me function well mostly but because the dream world is so much bettter that you don't like reality and it becomes difficult to identify who we really are , which person from our which day dream are we and also are we this person who in reality gets very little done and just dreams ?
I like this type of content more ❤❤❤❤
Queen mentioned! 🗣️🔥🔥
I just experienced psychotic depression for the first time ever recently and it was the worst experience of my life. Made me start believing I was literally living in a solipsistic dream where nothing outside of me was real, as well as my thoughts were jumping around constantly and often totally contradicting themselves.
After finally getting a (relatively) clear head I feel not just upset about all my irrational and eradicated behavior and how impacted those around me, but I’m also so pissed that it feels like I was possessed by a self-sabotaging demon that I had virtually no real means of fighting against until I just let myself had a full fledged mental breakdown and had to retreat into solitude to fix my brain up through deep self analysis and meditation.
I’m just so scared of this ever happening to me again, but at least I’m aware of the warning signs now.
2:37 i appreciate the among us mug
this is me... for now
This explains me so much
Does this channel read my mind? I am really going through a lot😢😢
How did youtube know thats what i have? Weird. Support is good but what if you dont have anyone in your life you trust? Whoever reads this, if you are suffering, i sincerely hope you pull through.
Idk if ive ever been depressed i get pretty down but i recommend trying breathing exercises and normal exercises like till you sweat focus on nothing but your body for 20 minutes and you may feel different its natural medicine i belive depression is the body and minds reaction too a lack of somthing but a lack of somthing can always be replaced with somthing that generates positive feelings thats just my opinion in my experience i can talk all day noone is coming too save me instead of feeling hopless you channel the feeling into energy through breathing and meditation many will scoff at this and go too a doctor looking for help for a problem the doctor probobly dosent understand fully becase everyone reslly genuinely is different
Its worth noting the company you keep plays a huge role in mental health if everyone around you is negative you cant really expect too feel positive dont be a crab in a barrel everytime your about too escape your pulled down
I’m 90% sure I got psychotic depression. Either that, or I got bipolar type 2. I’ve already been diagnosed with MDD. There’s also bipolar that runs in my family too.
I self-diagnosed in the past - its a pathway to a very dark place. I cant recommend.
I used to have this. Legitimately the worst experience I've ever had in my life
Good topic
Yes
Thank you! What other topics would you like us to cover next?
i love your videos but the earlier animating style just was comforting
I am suicidal and depressed. The major problem is that I have been depressed so long that it now feels like a part of me.
Understanding that your perceptions aren't real is such a weird feeling. Once I could have sworn that a deli sandwich I was eating had the aroma of fresh-ground peanut butter, and often when I'm losing sleep, I'll feel like I have one less finger on each hand if I'm not looking at them or using them.
I have major depression and I'm a bit of an asshole when I get overwhelmed by everything. I lash out at whatever annoys me even when I know it's not the logically sound thing to do and I don't even think about it most of the time. But pills make me feel nothing. Instead of ups and downs it's a flatline. I'll happily take occasional misery over never feeling joy. And I have for about a decade and a half.
Not saying that being depressed and being an asshole are more than tangentially related here, but still felt it was worth bringing up.
all among us references in this video (from what I found)
0:02 the thumbnail on the bottom left
0:35 the mug
1:02 the dude on the left
2:31 the mug (once again)
2:59 I'm pretty sure if you're familiar with among us you'd see it VERY clearly
4:37 both the mug and the dude on the right
5:11 the plant box (I'm losing my sanity right now.)
it explains a lot of my behaviour, but trying to explain that to professionals is nightmare in itself 😢