God when you mentioned being able to access memories that you weren't supposed to access.... it felt like a heavy weight in my stomach. I'm trying to process and deal with flashbacks that a little keeps unintentionally sharing with me. We also find that we're very blended usually. We have a hard time telling who's fronting or who isn't. Who's talking out loud and who isn't.
This is honestly hella educational thank you! But just a warning, taking depression medication and using mugwort at the same time can cause some issues so please be careful! But yea, awesome video dudes 👌
Matthew Scully Thank you! That's very good to know. We don't take any antidepressants, but someone watching this might be. Thanks for the heads up! -Parsifal
Mugwort and marijuana? A good time 😂😂 it definitely makes you feel more floaty and helps with lucid dreaming/seeing innerworld sometimes. I haven’t had mugwort interact with anything- it’s a very mild herb, and historically sailors used it to replace tobacco, so it’s not super strong. You can also make a tea out of it, which isn’t too bad either -Devon
Thank you for this. I haven’t been officially diagnosed with DID, I’m still trying to find a therapist. I’ve been using marijuana for my PTSD symptoms because it does help numb your reaction to your flashbacks, that’s why it’s easier to unearth them. I’ve been diagnosed with everything under the sun that DID usually gets misdiagnosed as and when I experienced psychosis some doctors were blaming the marijuana. It does mostly help with our symptoms so we take the chances.
First would like to thank you for this video. We have told the hubby that it doesn't work the same on us. then found out about our DID. He never believe us when we said it didn't work the same. Just like we cant see in three D ....idk Now it is nice to have something to show him hey its not just me. Just found the channel and can not wait to watch more. Take care Find one thing a day to make you smile.
CatSmiles You're definitely not alone in this! Almost everyone with DID I've spoken to about it has had some sort of adverse affect at one time or another :) We're happy that this video could help!
Well, it's more for the hubby. we both were squares. he still is. however, after years and years of research (none taking), now with this last year, I find it truly does help US just be able to be and think and do things. I don't get the "High like lazy woooo man im high." never have been mine are more okay now we can just do something.
I find this kind of interesting. Only because I have Tourettes & I smoke to calm my tics but then if someone else's front the body starts convulsing like I am having a tic attack. Usually if I haven't smoked no other alters tic except for one. Also recently I have noticed one of our littles front alot more after I smoke ( I kind of the think it is due to me trying to limit her from fronting.. Due to certain issues. I cannot hold her back after smoking & there seems to be some disconnect between us. Anywho another good video. -shae
also different strains effects different alters differently (lol), some of the indicas makes some of us sort of black out before switching, some sativas that make our flashbacks and trauma memories extremely vivid, cbd helps us to take turns fronting one alter at a time more harmoniously.
@@AcrylicAndAether It usually helps us. I use more than others in the system, because I can handle the effort to get an effective dose. 😏 Alex I checked with our doctor to make sure there is no negative interactions. Was incredibly important to me. 🤔 Zack I like the feel good part that the body gets when Alex helps us relax with that stuff. There were nice candies and pretzels that they got for us a few times. 😇 David
I started smoking and using some soft psychedelics for recreative use before suspecting on having a disosiative disorder, sometimes the tremors were so intense , everyone use to told me: "If you don't controle it, don't use it", only because my violent movements in hands and legs. There were times when that situation made me very anxious and make the shiest and introvert alters to front, leaving us speachless outside with an internal monolgue of confrontation, imaginary social shame and confusion. With time I get used to it, thinking the solution was increasimg my weed dose, wich was a wrong way to do it, but now I get less tremors and less anxiety and confrontation episodes... About the flashbacks I have them a lot but sometimes are inclomplete, I think it is because the littles cant handle it even now but, sometimes I can complete them, undestand them and accept them and it feels awesome like internal freedom and joy, sometimes not... with psychedelics that's another history, but I'm learning to take them with extreme caution and rehab a situation I've experienced on them, love your video. Hugs and kisses 😘🖤💙🖤💚🖤💛🖤🧡🖤❤️🖤💗🖤💜🖤 from México 🇲🇽☯️🏵️🌷🌺🌹🌼🌻🕉️
We've recently been getting high to do inner work. It's really been amazing. Except, we discovered we get deeply introverted when high, we'll just sit and stare. We have to rethink our smoking game plan. Thanks for the video.
Huh. Funnily enough, I'm finding DID after weed rather than weed after DID and this is explaining a lot. I get the muscle tremors too, why is that? I also remember a lot more, like it feels like barriers are literally lowered or gone that used to be up fogging us up. The night we realized we were a system, we were too high and we were remembering things we never remember, someone said some things the rest of us didn't mean and we went to a hospital. When the amnesia is lower, the host believes we're a system, when the amnesia goes back up we lose communication and she goes back to only semi-thinking we exist but being very doubtful and honestly it's hard to maintain communication or make any progress when she tries so hard to not believe we exist. She avoids so many of those reminders, she'll even start blaming the weed for unearthing the symptoms that were always there underneath the surface, like she was born in her twenties and forgot that everything before that actually happened, or at least something other than this heavily-edited synopsis reel. I don't know what to do, other than try to encourage indicas and cbd. She doesn't even want to tell our therapist because she's terrified she's faking all this. It feels like it's all up to us to heal ourselves.
I know you posted this forever ago, but I want to say thank you. This honestly explains exactly what I’m going through right now but I don’t know what to do
I don’t know if I have DID but I experience multiple personalities coming out and wanting to speak or come to the forefront of my mind and this only happens when I’m high. I smoke alone so I can let these thoughts out out loud. But sometimes they talk to me or talk to each other. It’s really freaky lol but only when I’m high. I’m one person when I’m sober.. I stopped smoking though cuz it freaks me out and some of the personalities or thoughts are dangerous and tell me to do hurtful things. It was getting harder and harder to resist it and keep myself safe while being high so I had to stop. If you experience this please be careful.
@@Dj-lc9vk I wish it was just the weed. I never touched it before age 21 and had dissociative symptoms for a long time prior to then. I've been in therapy since I was 8 years old. I just thought the people in my head were like imaginary friends or original characters I created when I was little to comfort me or something. Then it started to make sense why I was a different person every 8 years or so, like including gender identity and sexuality. It was hosts changing at 18 when we finally left our parents house and felt like we could be ourselves, until she went dormant again when someone she was dating did something bad to her. I of course can't say it's DID or even OSDD as my therapist doesn't do diagnosis, but some level of structural dissociation seems possible or even likely considering we have trauma history, generational mental health issues, history of misdiagnosis, and little support system or coping skills.
I have never related to a comment more in my life. I’ve had ptsd for about two years now and I’m thinking I have DID. I’ve been a heavy smoker for years for other mental health issues like anxiety and depression but weed has made it worse. Now that I have trauma, psychogenic seizures and maybe now this, I completely understand how you feel about therapy. I’m starting therapy too for DID and I’m freaking out if I’m faking it or if my alters are really there and for how long. I really don’t want them to go.
Last night I got high and I was shaking and switching personalities all night it was hard to sleep..my dad came in and shouted at me saying I'm faking DID even though I got diagnosed with it by a therapist. Idk what I should do..
I think the most concerning thing with medications is serotonin syndrome, so just be careful if you’re on SSRI’s or SNRI’s (commonly antidepressants, anti anxiety meds, and migraines meds). For us we don’t really get too bad of effects, aside from initial head pain (worse than singlet friends we’ve asked). Sativa usually brings out Eli because it makes us energetic and happy, kinda Eli’s whole motto. Indica is the only thing that’ll put us to sleep. We do get really dissociative though and time goes by super fast. If I get really really high, I’ll start derealizing a lot and be watching myself from afar. That’s usually the point that someone might start freaking out-which is not good. Definitely agree with starting small (and definitely not a bong!!! Maybe a hit or two of a joint at the most!). And with people who you trust. I did neither (and didn’t know I had DID) and ya know it wasn’t great at all. Make sure you’re warm and comfortable and somewhere safe. Jamie
When you smoke mugwort it sounds like a similar effect I get when I smoke certain strains, with the very vivid dreams but having “easy access”(kinda) to trauma memories This video definitely helped me Thank you
Dutch government fails hard and only has one indica available and 4 sativa strains. We have more legally available in coffeeshops then medical! So disappointing. Tourism focused here. Blegh. And their one indica strain sucks and it has very low THC and less than 1 procent CBD. I am successfully using a sativa strain that my government makes available as medicinal weed. We use a vaporizer. We also use CBD oil since our government also fails to put CBD in their medical weed. Only one pharmacy in the Netherlands makes it and its 90 dollars for a bottle, which is ridiculous, so i buy that online. Thank you for making this video and helping to break the stigma around both DID and medical weed and DID. I have not been brave enough myself. 😊😐
That's unfortunate! I really hope they change that eventually and carry more strains where you live. And thanks! I don't think we've ever seen a video about DID and marijuana out there, so Parsifal was like "why not" 😂 -Devon
oh my god thats happened to me too, I quit smoking because it was making me think im crazy. I use to smoke a lot until I started feeling dissociative and feeling everything around me extra deep. I would stretch when that happened to me the shaky feeling. I use to love sativa too had no clue that was the cause 🙊 Thank you for your video now I know im not the only one!
Did quitting help anything? And now that you know the truth do you smoke again? I currently smoke a lot but have discovered many DID systems but some of the people I trust don’t believe me and say it’s just the weed but I have no idea
I've only had one occurrence smoking that really threw me off. I felt both trapped in my body and also like my teenage self super uncomfortable (my boyfriend was laying in bed next to me) and sorta unable to move. I was stuck laying there like that, I had to just fall asleep and hope it passed but I felt like I was going to be stuck forever. The only thing I could do was talk about how weird I was feeling. I'm not diagnosed with anything more than PTSD as of rn (don't even have a therapist anymore bc she abandoned me).
When I was on abilify I would get tremors like that. I noticed it most with my legs. I hated that feeling. It’s icky when your body moves without you asking it to.
I've on tried it twice and I don't know what type they were. All I know is both times I kept blacking out and ending up somewhere different than where I left. I got really panicky to the point I felt like maybe I should go to the ER 😳😕 I did have a safe person with me at least.
That's exactly what happened to me, too. Nothing seemed real, I was terrified, and one moment I was in one place, and the next I was somewhere else with no recollection of how or when I'd gotten there. I had someone, too, but I didn't feel safe--I was just afraid that I was going to feel like that permanently.
Weed helps us when we use it right somtimes it can make us dissociate more or feel extra paranoid but most the time we can end up communicating better I think we just need to figure out which strains work best for us
God when you mentioned being able to access memories that you weren't supposed to access.... it felt like a heavy weight in my stomach. I'm trying to process and deal with flashbacks that a little keeps unintentionally sharing with me. We also find that we're very blended usually. We have a hard time telling who's fronting or who isn't. Who's talking out loud and who isn't.
Us too...
This is honestly hella educational thank you! But just a warning, taking depression medication and using mugwort at the same time can cause some issues so please be careful! But yea, awesome video dudes 👌
Matthew Scully Thank you! That's very good to know. We don't take any antidepressants, but someone watching this might be. Thanks for the heads up!
-Parsifal
Mugwort and marijuana? A good time 😂😂 it definitely makes you feel more floaty and helps with lucid dreaming/seeing innerworld sometimes. I haven’t had mugwort interact with anything- it’s a very mild herb, and historically sailors used it to replace tobacco, so it’s not super strong. You can also make a tea out of it, which isn’t too bad either
-Devon
Thank you for this. I haven’t been officially diagnosed with DID, I’m still trying to find a therapist. I’ve been using marijuana for my PTSD symptoms because it does help numb your reaction to your flashbacks, that’s why it’s easier to unearth them. I’ve been diagnosed with everything under the sun that DID usually gets misdiagnosed as and when I experienced psychosis some doctors were blaming the marijuana. It does mostly help with our symptoms so we take the chances.
First would like to thank you for this video.
We have told the hubby that it doesn't work the same on us. then found out about our DID. He never believe us when we said it didn't work the same. Just like we cant see in three D ....idk Now it is nice to have something to show him hey its not just me.
Just found the channel and can not wait to watch more. Take care
Find one thing a day to make you smile.
CatSmiles You're definitely not alone in this! Almost everyone with DID I've spoken to about it has had some sort of adverse affect at one time or another :) We're happy that this video could help!
Well, it's more for the hubby. we both were squares. he still is. however, after years and years of research (none taking), now with this last year, I find it truly does help US just be able to be and think and do things. I don't get the "High like lazy woooo man im high." never have been mine are more okay now we can just do something.
I find this kind of interesting. Only because I have Tourettes & I smoke to calm my tics but then if someone else's front the body starts convulsing like I am having a tic attack. Usually if I haven't smoked no other alters tic except for one.
Also recently I have noticed one of our littles front alot more after I smoke ( I kind of the think it is due to me trying to limit her from fronting.. Due to certain issues. I cannot hold her back after smoking & there seems to be some disconnect between us.
Anywho another good video.
-shae
also different strains effects different alters differently (lol), some of the indicas makes some of us sort of black
out before switching, some sativas that make our flashbacks and trauma memories extremely vivid, cbd helps us to take turns fronting one alter at a time more harmoniously.
Cannabis has saved us from pharmaceuticals! So much better for our system!
Same here! We used it to replace our anxiety meds and have been feeling so much better since
-Xavier
@@AcrylicAndAether It usually helps us. I use more than others in the system, because I can handle the effort to get an effective dose. 😏 Alex
I checked with our doctor to make sure there is no negative interactions. Was incredibly important to me. 🤔 Zack
I like the feel good part that the body gets when Alex helps us relax with that stuff. There were nice candies and pretzels that they got for us a few times. 😇 David
I started smoking and using some soft psychedelics for recreative use before suspecting on having a disosiative disorder, sometimes the tremors were so intense , everyone use to told me: "If you don't controle it, don't use it", only because my violent movements in hands and legs.
There were times when that situation made me very anxious and make the shiest and introvert alters to front, leaving us speachless outside with an internal monolgue of confrontation, imaginary social shame and confusion.
With time I get used to it, thinking the solution was increasimg my weed dose, wich was a wrong way to do it, but now I get less tremors and less anxiety and confrontation episodes...
About the flashbacks I have them a lot but sometimes are inclomplete, I think it is because the littles cant handle it even now but, sometimes I can complete them, undestand them and accept them and it feels awesome like internal freedom and joy, sometimes not...
with psychedelics that's another history, but I'm learning to take them with extreme caution and rehab a situation I've experienced on them, love your video.
Hugs and kisses
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I'm a system and weed makes me switch uncomfortably for some reason
We've recently been getting high to do inner work. It's really been amazing. Except, we discovered we get deeply introverted when high, we'll just sit and stare. We have to rethink our smoking game plan. Thanks for the video.
Thank uuuu I haven't been able to find systems talk about substances more objectively...!!!
Huh. Funnily enough, I'm finding DID after weed rather than weed after DID and this is explaining a lot. I get the muscle tremors too, why is that? I also remember a lot more, like it feels like barriers are literally lowered or gone that used to be up fogging us up. The night we realized we were a system, we were too high and we were remembering things we never remember, someone said some things the rest of us didn't mean and we went to a hospital. When the amnesia is lower, the host believes we're a system, when the amnesia goes back up we lose communication and she goes back to only semi-thinking we exist but being very doubtful and honestly it's hard to maintain communication or make any progress when she tries so hard to not believe we exist. She avoids so many of those reminders, she'll even start blaming the weed for unearthing the symptoms that were always there underneath the surface, like she was born in her twenties and forgot that everything before that actually happened, or at least something other than this heavily-edited synopsis reel. I don't know what to do, other than try to encourage indicas and cbd. She doesn't even want to tell our therapist because she's terrified she's faking all this. It feels like it's all up to us to heal ourselves.
I know you posted this forever ago, but I want to say thank you. This honestly explains exactly what I’m going through right now but I don’t know what to do
I don’t know if I have DID but I experience multiple personalities coming out and wanting to speak or come to the forefront of my mind and this only happens when I’m high. I smoke alone so I can let these thoughts out out loud. But sometimes they talk to me or talk to each other. It’s really freaky lol but only when I’m high. I’m one person when I’m sober.. I stopped smoking though cuz it freaks me out and some of the personalities or thoughts are dangerous and tell me to do hurtful things. It was getting harder and harder to resist it and keep myself safe while being high so I had to stop. If you experience this please be careful.
@@Dj-lc9vk I wish it was just the weed. I never touched it before age 21 and had dissociative symptoms for a long time prior to then. I've been in therapy since I was 8 years old. I just thought the people in my head were like imaginary friends or original characters I created when I was little to comfort me or something. Then it started to make sense why I was a different person every 8 years or so, like including gender identity and sexuality. It was hosts changing at 18 when we finally left our parents house and felt like we could be ourselves, until she went dormant again when someone she was dating did something bad to her. I of course can't say it's DID or even OSDD as my therapist doesn't do diagnosis, but some level of structural dissociation seems possible or even likely considering we have trauma history, generational mental health issues, history of misdiagnosis, and little support system or coping skills.
I have never related to a comment more in my life. I’ve had ptsd for about two years now and I’m thinking I have DID. I’ve been a heavy smoker for years for other mental health issues like anxiety and depression but weed has made it worse. Now that I have trauma, psychogenic seizures and maybe now this, I completely understand how you feel about therapy. I’m starting therapy too for DID and I’m freaking out if I’m faking it or if my alters are really there and for how long. I really don’t want them to go.
Last night I got high and I was shaking and switching personalities all night it was hard to sleep..my dad came in and shouted at me saying I'm faking DID even though I got diagnosed with it by a therapist. Idk what I should do..
Im very sorry to hear that. I hope you can get away from that toxic person
Please check out DissociaDID & their podcast InsaniTEA. They explain there are brain scans that prove it's real.
I'm sorry you have to go throw that
I think the most concerning thing with medications is serotonin syndrome, so just be careful if you’re on SSRI’s or SNRI’s (commonly antidepressants, anti anxiety meds, and migraines meds).
For us we don’t really get too bad of effects, aside from initial head pain (worse than singlet friends we’ve asked). Sativa usually brings out Eli because it makes us energetic and happy, kinda Eli’s whole motto. Indica is the only thing that’ll put us to sleep. We do get really dissociative though and time goes by super fast. If I get really really high, I’ll start derealizing a lot and be watching myself from afar. That’s usually the point that someone might start freaking out-which is not good.
Definitely agree with starting small (and definitely not a bong!!! Maybe a hit or two of a joint at the most!). And with people who you trust. I did neither (and didn’t know I had DID) and ya know it wasn’t great at all. Make sure you’re warm and comfortable and somewhere safe.
Jamie
Have you ever attempted a therapy session after ingesting cannabis? It seems like it would be insanely intense, but maybe “fast track” some healing.
When you smoke mugwort it sounds like a similar effect I get when I smoke certain strains, with the very vivid dreams but having “easy access”(kinda) to trauma memories
This video definitely helped me
Thank you
Yo! I REALY feel like CBD dramatically improves the clarity of internal communication. Can anyone comment?
Dutch government fails hard and only has one indica available and 4 sativa strains. We have more legally available in coffeeshops then medical! So disappointing. Tourism focused here. Blegh. And their one indica strain sucks and it has very low THC and less than 1 procent CBD. I am successfully using a sativa strain that my government makes available as medicinal weed. We use a vaporizer. We also use CBD oil since our government also fails to put CBD in their medical weed. Only one pharmacy in the Netherlands makes it and its 90 dollars for a bottle, which is ridiculous, so i buy that online. Thank you for making this video and helping to break the stigma around both DID and medical weed and DID. I have not been brave enough myself. 😊😐
That's unfortunate! I really hope they change that eventually and carry more strains where you live.
And thanks! I don't think we've ever seen a video about DID and marijuana out there, so Parsifal was like "why not" 😂
-Devon
oh my god thats happened to me too, I quit smoking because it was making me think im crazy. I use to smoke a lot until I started feeling dissociative and feeling everything around me extra deep. I would stretch when that happened to me the shaky feeling. I use to love sativa too had no clue that was the cause 🙊 Thank you for your video now I know im not the only one!
Did quitting help anything? And now that you know the truth do you smoke again? I currently smoke a lot but have discovered many DID systems but some of the people I trust don’t believe me and say it’s just the weed but I have no idea
I've only had one occurrence smoking that really threw me off. I felt both trapped in my body and also like my teenage self super uncomfortable (my boyfriend was laying in bed next to me) and sorta unable to move. I was stuck laying there like that, I had to just fall asleep and hope it passed but I felt like I was going to be stuck forever. The only thing I could do was talk about how weird I was feeling. I'm not diagnosed with anything more than PTSD as of rn (don't even have a therapist anymore bc she abandoned me).
When I was on abilify I would get tremors like that. I noticed it most with my legs. I hated that feeling. It’s icky when your body moves without you asking it to.
We're kind of high right now.... we're so confused about where we are or who but we're safe.
Woah! Wait. I thought I was the only one who got seizures.
I've on tried it twice and I don't know what type they were. All I know is both times I kept blacking out and ending up somewhere different than where I left. I got really panicky to the point I felt like maybe I should go to the ER 😳😕
I did have a safe person with me at least.
That's exactly what happened to me, too. Nothing seemed real, I was terrified, and one moment I was in one place, and the next I was somewhere else with no recollection of how or when I'd gotten there. I had someone, too, but I didn't feel safe--I was just afraid that I was going to feel like that permanently.
Weed helps us when we use it right somtimes it can make us dissociate more or feel extra paranoid but most the time we can end up communicating better I think we just need to figure out which strains work best for us
California here!
CBD doesn’t show up on drug tests,
It’s just THC and the other drugs like heroine
Your voice is hella deep in this video lol
im watching this while high~
That doesnt look fun!
Just because it legal doesn't make it good.