filmography in this is genius. filming twice as fast and stretching the footage to real time in the lyrics and slow-motion on the actions. speaks volumes.
I dont know why, but my favourite part of the video is 2:21, when she just completely freezes. She goes from smiling and moving rhythmically to just completely unmoving, staring into the distance and only singing. I don't know why, but something about that part just makes me love it.
One year later - that was the part that made me freeze and stop enjoying the song and began to relate to the song. Diagnosed as a sadistic antisocial personality disorder....or, put simply....a sociopath and....I can't help by relate. Nothing satiates me. Everything is just....a haze and boring....
Reminds of when I have to put a mask on to socialize. Blending into society is a tricky thing when you're not born with the ability to easily integrate into it.
This song hits me hard. How is she able to describe exactly how I feel in relationships, I thought I was the only one who felt this strange disconnected kind of love.
Same here. It's weird, you like others liking you, but you don't truly fall for them. You don't fall in love, it's as if there were a haze, as if you weren't fully there, fully feeling.
@@mrknarf4438 That's just being desperate for a relationship and getting what you want. You just picked the wrong person and feel stuck with them, that's all. Try find someone better for you, that doesn't just mean personality but openness to an actual relationship too.
I used to watch Tessa's videos all the time back in 2011/2012, but then sometime after that, they stopped showing up on my UA-cam suggestions almost abruptly. I never unsubscribed, but they just sort of vanished and I don't know why. Like they say, "Out of sight, out of mind." I recently remembered her videos, and wondered what happened to her. Then almost like clockwork, this video showed up on my homepage the very next day. Very eerie indeed, but I'd just like to say that I had no idea she was a musician at all and I've been very pleasantly surprised! Lovely voice and lovely melody. Keep up the great work!
That's just how the algorithm works. It tries to get you to watch as much adds as possible, it deosn't really car about what you want to see. You can use the "Subscriptions" page to see all the videos of all the people you subed. But there are also potchatchers that can plug into youtube feeds. The later also minimizes distractions ^^
It was like that with me and Avatar: The Last Airbender. I forgot all about it until like, June (of this year) and now I'm pretty much obsessed with anime.... Lol...
borderline. bipolar usually doesnt have an acronym but itd be just BD or BMD for bipolar mood disorder. VERY VERY different mental things very different, they just sound similar
She truly is. She is a no bullshit, DAMN GOOD songwriter with talents across multiple styles of songwriting. She is also, quite obviously, someone's muse as her videos are just conceptually effing STELLAR.
Double speed sounds like nightcore. It's probably the version she heard when she was filming the video since she's lip syncing it but the footage is slowed down.
When the camera gets to the end of that rotation, it looks like you are giving off the smoke and it's such a crazy effect! I love this song more and more each time I hear it. You're killin' it, Tessa!
I am so in love with this song, I never understood what Dodie meant whenever she described Novels by Rusty but now that Haze is out I finally understand what it feels like to fall in love with a song
Having shot videos like this, I can't ever watch them without thinking of how ridiculous they look when played to the sped-up chipmunks version of the track that Tessa was listening to when she recorded it BUT! I love this song and I love this whole new EP!!!
this song is so good I always come back to it when I'm feeling hazy and it tunes me back into my feelings and I can move on, its amazing thanks tessa for this timeless gem
Man this video is look so simple but beautiful at the same time.. it's inspiring me, never thought something like this.. Loved it.. that smokes really cool..
Nie wierzę, że Cię tu spotkałam, drogi Olsiku :D pochwalę się, że również uwielbiam zespół Nothing But Thieves, o którym wspominałaś w jednym z ostatnich Olsikvlogów ;)
this moment is wonderful. You know when something new just plays your heart and takes your thoughts… I am feeling this now. I feel lucky to be on this planet with all of you
Click on the settings button(where it would show quality and other options), go to speed, and change it to 1.5x. You'll enjoy how the vibe of the song changes. :)
god this baseline. hallelujah its juicy LOVE it! you need to make more electronic inspired music, its so damn brilliant good job tessa! i always loved your vocals and songs, but with some electronic stuff it takes it to a complete new level
Hi Tessa! If I'm honest, your music has never been my cup of tea (absolutely no offense meant, you make excellent music in your genre, I'm just not friends with the genre), right up until this moment. I am deeply in love with this :) Congrats on reaching the point when even people who aren't into this kind of music obsess over your creation! (I srsly mean this as a compliment, only explaining my usual stance to emphasize the achievement ^^ )
EYN people! Please learn to leave comments form this person! Holy f. You could've just said "usually you're shit, but this is bearable" or even worse, but you didn't. You explained how it was before and why, you didn't offend anyone + you gave a compliment And there's a point in this comment Honestly well done, this makes me happy (yes Ik I'm weird but the hate stuff is really slowly getting on my nerves)
Ami Kristina oh wow, my heart is jumping out of my chest, I thought you would tell me off and I would have to defend myself 😂 thank you for understanding my intentions! BTW I have been listening to this non stop on spotify, and have at least 5 different interpretations for the lyrics, and WOW how RARE is that in today's music? *fangirls over this song more and more*
EYN hiiii Yes omg I love this song, can't stop Listening too. Also my name is not Kristina, long story but I LOVE the name Do you have Tumblr or Sth? :)
She said in an earlier video that she really likes that line because you expect to hear fifty shades of grey because that's what you're used to hearing and also because beige is a really boring colour and it made her point perfectly.
4 years and I still come back to this when I need to feel my thoughts with such intensity, when everything is in disarray just drop everything to feel nothingness.
the first time I came here, I was just drifting along the waves of my attention span. Wondering like a desperate moth that flies into the next fading fire. I don't usually come back when I've tasted certain colors but the fact that I've found myself circling back into your light means a lot.
This world is crazy... Truth is stranger than fiction love. You're not crazy! You're words are more powerful than the ones who don't see with eyes wide closed. If only people could see what we see, they really wouldn't understand untill it happens to them. I'm so blessed to have been following you since I came across your talent. I feel you on a level that most people wouldn't. Keep you chin up kid! Sending you all the love and positive vibrations I can your way ❤️
This song is so eerie. At first when I heard it I was confused because it sounds just like a chill, mellow song. But the more I listened the more uncomfortable I'd get. There's just something so dark about it, and so profoundly disturbing to me. After a while I realized it's because it reminded me so much of a situation I was in with a girl a while back. Only it's from her point of view, not mine which is why it took so long for me to realize why it resonated with me. This whole song, especially the lines "And I get drunk; on a boy who asks me if I'm up...I'll be your empathetic savior call me up I'll meet you later; you can praise me for the way I always know just what to say; I'll carve into your ribs and leave you crying for a kiss just for kicks" and "There's a circuit in my chest unconnected from the rest;....disconnecting my mouth from my thoughts" literally give me chills. I've been the boy. I know what it's like from the other side, but I've never seen her side of it and it's honestly horrifying. It's a song about addiction (from what I've gathered) but an addiction to drugs. It's a song about a girl who knows what she's doing is wrong and devastating to the people she interacts with but who's disassociated her actions with her emotions so much she can't stop it and a guy who can sense that something is wrong about this but is completely addicted to the girl and can't stay away. As you guy a part of you is angry and hurt and repulsed by becoming so dependent and close to someone like this just to end up being a pawn for their own impossible to decipher reasons, but from the girl's point of view it's just as bad. It makes me think that, at least in my situation, maybe she didn't just use me for her own amusement. Maybe she did it because it gave her a rush to do so, and she actually just couldn't stop herself. Either way, a fantastic song that shook me to the core. Tessa Violet is brilliant and talented, but honestly terrifies me. And I pray for the boy/boys who this song was directed to.
I know I'm a bit late to responding to this comment but I think this is a really awesome song. I haven't thought about seeing it from the outside perspective that deeply. And in a way it is kind of dark.
it's dark because it very easily represents clinical depression. when you're depressed and anxious, it's like a veil falls over your whole life. nothing is good or fun any more because you don't want to do ANY of it, so you start seeking out darker means of escaping (drugs, other people, etc. etc. etc.) it's not so much about addiction in my perspective as it is the boy/partner's addiction to her strangeness. her bright colours, but the way she's always some kind of sad, then happy and brilliant again. it's very much how my own brain works, sometimes i'm inspired and colourful and making art, but then i hit those depression/art block stumps where i feel worthless and like i have no inspiration. the lesson is: don't use other people to make your life better.
@You- know-who basically, the guy in the song was fascinated with her and her depression/mental illness, he "never knew the taste of haze" and to him, the whole world was a stage. he was lucky, and going places, while she was left in the fog of her depression. the lesson is that he shouldn't have used her "haze" as something to fascinate/interest him, because the whole time it was a bad thing for HER. it's like how a lot of people think of depression as "tragic and beautiful" when it's really not. it just sucks.
I don’t interpret it this way at all. She has mental illness that causes her to be disassociated with her emotions. Its like walking through life in a cloud, that’s always gray. She doesn’t feel highs or lows, nothing makes her super happy... it’s like a chronic feeling of emptiness. She’s saying she met a boy, and enjoyed him but he didn’t ever experience depression like her. To him, the whole world was available and ready for his taking. And she was still just left in a cloud of emptiness. I don’t think there’s anything sinister about it.
I always associated you as being a blogger and not a music artist, however you've pleasantly surprised me over the past year w your material and I'm starting to primarily see you as an artist and then a blogger. Keep up the good work, you're material is unique and a welcomed change!
Welp, that instantly got placed into my Favorites. Also, this is really good in normal speed AND 1.5x. Totally different vibe and the increased speed still makes it sound nice. You know, without sounding obviously sped up. Fantastic job Tess, I'm glad to be a long time follower. Going back to the VYou days. :D -The Prince
Dude dude dude DUDE this is so fucking good I disassociate all the time, basically constantly, and this is so on point. Plus your voice is amazing. I really love this.
WHERE WAS I ALL THIS TIME WHY DID UA-cam NOT RECOMMEND HER TO ME EARLIER WHY DID GOD NOT LET ME SEE THIS BEFORE 😭 BUT. IM HERE AND IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE.
UA-cam recommendations are piss-poor these days. They used to actually be good for finding new (and in some cases obscure) music. No longer. It's all about retention-bucks now. Nothing else matters.
I am absorbed by this
love u doddie ♥
But same, the opening scene..
doddleoddle Very cool!! It sucks you in, in a good way.
Antonia Hendriks It pulled me in
CAN YOU PLS COVER THIS SONG
The smoke has such good timing like how
Smoke with better sense of rhythm than me
@@laurenredding1419 she was obviously in ballet at some point they teach perfection this is her idea with a shitty cam an made it.
ballet they practice performance arts
it's a vape wand. 50% glycerin and 50% antifreeze.
anything will have good timing after editing and slo-mo fx ;)
filmography in this is genius. filming twice as fast and stretching the footage to real time in the lyrics and slow-motion on the actions. speaks volumes.
Can you explain this more to a layman who knows nothing about these things, please?
@@l.mce.6469 ua-cam.com/video/Kc2vd90dQK8/v-deo.html
@@advantado Cheers.
The technique is used all the time. Nothing particularly original here. But it’s well done.
@@l.mce.6469 Set the youtube speed to 2x and you see the original.
I dont know why, but my favourite part of the video is 2:21, when she just completely freezes. She goes from smiling and moving rhythmically to just completely unmoving, staring into the distance and only singing. I don't know why, but something about that part just makes me love it.
Or 1:10 💕
One year later - that was the part that made me freeze and stop enjoying the song and began to relate to the song. Diagnosed as a sadistic antisocial personality disorder....or, put simply....a sociopath and....I can't help by relate. Nothing satiates me. Everything is just....a haze and boring....
or 2:50
I love 1:29 when she's frozen and then just starts smiling and dancing
Reminds of when I have to put a mask on to socialize. Blending into society is a tricky thing when you're not born with the ability to easily integrate into it.
this makes me feel badass, creepy and mesmerized at the same time. god, i love this.
6 years and I still come back; my favorite of hers
i've had this song on loop for a good hour now. no regrets..
It's 2 AM and I have had this song on loop for a good 2 hours now . No regrets either.
I'M LOVING ALL THIS DAAAAAAAAMN TESSA
**FANGIRLS IN SLOW MOTION**
Haha only found this artist just today.. need more stuff like hersss
thats the tragedy when you starting with the best...no one has sth as good as hers
Anna Akana 😱
It's Anna Akana!!!!!!!!!
This song hits me hard. How is she able to describe exactly how I feel in relationships, I thought I was the only one who felt this strange disconnected kind of love.
Could you elaborate? I still don't quite understand the lyrics.
Same here. It's weird, you like others liking you, but you don't truly fall for them. You don't fall in love, it's as if there were a haze, as if you weren't fully there, fully feeling.
Same I though I was the only one like this, I feel much more peaceful
Same 🥺😕
@@mrknarf4438 That's just being desperate for a relationship and getting what you want. You just picked the wrong person and feel stuck with them, that's all. Try find someone better for you, that doesn't just mean personality but openness to an actual relationship too.
This is SO GOOD and the music video fits so perfectly
AmandasChronicles HELLO
AmandasChronicles YASS my idol Amanda loves Tessa too
AmandasChronicles wow didn't think to see you here I love the song too
AMANDA
edit: MILES
AmandasChronicles hello rainbows
I'm obsessed with this
You're obessed with this?
I just watched this like..50 times.
Has it been this long???
I miss this part of you.
The ethereal game you play makes you a lighthouse for the blind.
I'm a Tessa Fan 4 Life.
I used to watch Tessa's videos all the time back in 2011/2012, but then sometime after that, they stopped showing up on my UA-cam suggestions almost abruptly. I never unsubscribed, but they just sort of vanished and I don't know why. Like they say, "Out of sight, out of mind." I recently remembered her videos, and wondered what happened to her. Then almost like clockwork, this video showed up on my homepage the very next day. Very eerie indeed, but I'd just like to say that I had no idea she was a musician at all and I've been very pleasantly surprised! Lovely voice and lovely melody. Keep up the great work!
That's just how the algorithm works. It tries to get you to watch as much adds as possible, it deosn't really car about what you want to see. You can use the "Subscriptions" page to see all the videos of all the people you subed. But there are also potchatchers that can plug into youtube feeds. The later also minimizes distractions ^^
Welcome back and all that
The same for me as well, exactly this...
something made of foil blocked the signal to government satellites back then
It was like that with me and Avatar: The Last Airbender. I forgot all about it until like, June (of this year) and now I'm pretty much obsessed with anime....
Lol...
I love how she's so pleased with her "fifty shades of beige" joke
Her reaction is great... but... what is the joke?
@@618033988749 fifty shades of grey i think
@@locke8470 yea but how is it a joke tho
Vosfur it rhymes, and beige is very nondescript.
this is a classic. almost 4 years later and still loving the song, never getting tired of it.
Welcome to 6 years later
also WOW this is accurate for depression/bpd stuff thank you
Jess Perkins Borderline Personality Disorder or Bipolar Disorder?
borderline. bipolar usually doesnt have an acronym but itd be just BD or BMD for bipolar mood disorder. VERY VERY different mental things very different, they just sound similar
Haha you're preaching to the choir, crippling depression and (previously) bpd here, just always get confused with acronyms
Also, depersonalization disorder.
Jess Perkins preech
the dude behind the camera is a genius
camera??
why
dude?
Thx bro!
He shoot in slow motion but still fix the lyrics
Just found this artist today, been watching videos and listening to lyrics. This lady is super intelligent, a wordsmith.
She truly is. She is a no bullshit, DAMN GOOD songwriter with talents across multiple styles of songwriting. She is also, quite obviously, someone's muse as her videos are just conceptually effing STELLAR.
The aesthetic of this video is just
IM SOOOOO LATE BUT THIS IS SO GOOD I CANT STOP REPLAYING IT
Andrew Lowe late but way not too late
Not as late as me
Personally I don’t think it’s possible to be late for music. I listen to stuff from the 1920s, so I might be biased.
Yesss 💜 🐇 💖 😇
Same
For me, still the best all-round song from Tessa. The music, the lyrics, the video production, her performance - all "god-tier".
agreed, love the melodies, the instruments the bass complementing it all, the lyrics, video... well yes everything!
these lyrics oh my gosh this is amazing
Charlotte et
Charlotte NHL
Listening to it at normal speed and at 1.5x Speed makes a complete different song.
Double speed sounds like nightcore. It's probably the version she heard when she was filming the video since she's lip syncing it but the footage is slowed down.
I like it more too
How do you change the speed? Thanks
+Ryan Pfeiffer how do you change the speed? Thanks
+Rwededyet how do you change the speed? Thanks
Such a beautifully hypnotic song, with superb rich lyrics - "nothing satiates me and I don't think that I hate me" - brilliant.
Okay but how is she in slow motion and still in sync with the words
When they filmed they probably played the song at double speed for her to lip sync to. Then they just slowed down the footage.
So trippy
playing youtube at x2 speed, looks like she did it even faster than x2 speed!!!! ridiculous!
do you know musical.ly? there you can do something like this with double speed.
lulu m thank y'all I have been wondering about this.
love the clip, love the music ♥
In Love With A Ghost OMG I LOVE YOUR SONGS!
A wild In Love With a Ghost has appeared.
In Love With A Ghost gHOST H I ILY
I love how the word ‘disconnecting’ is split in the on screen lyrics
Ikr
When the camera gets to the end of that rotation, it looks like you are giving off the smoke and it's such a crazy effect!
I love this song more and more each time I hear it. You're killin' it, Tessa!
I am so in love with this song, I never understood what Dodie meant whenever she described Novels by Rusty but now that Haze is out I finally understand what it feels like to fall in love with a song
as a person with depression, I think this is soo relatable.
Same sista
i have anxiety and i think this song can relate to it a bit but then again depression and anxiety can come hand in hand so i get your point
Hello. Yes
Same
100% it hits all over and makes me feel like maybe I could feel again…..
Having shot videos like this, I can't ever watch them without thinking of how ridiculous they look when played to the sped-up chipmunks version of the track that Tessa was listening to when she recorded it BUT! I love this song and I love this whole new EP!!!
yay!
+
I was thinking the same thing, and now youtube lets you speed up the video so I could find out!
+hankschannel THANKS that's so nice to hear!
This is literally what i've been thinking for years but can't pıt it into words! hahahaha
**overwhelmed*
**overwhlemed*
3:11 also **satiates*
**saitiates*
Come on man, learn to spell.
Ryan Pfeiffer its satiates, not saitiates.
this song is so good
I always come back to it when I'm feeling hazy and it tunes me back into my feelings and I can move on, its amazing
thanks tessa for this timeless gem
What a gorgeous portrayal of the "meh" side of depression.
Lol.
Accurate.
Tessa this is next level! Your vocal & lyrical talent shines through here. Question: what's the brand of smoke bomb you used? (it looks incredible)
bro this song bangs
This video is overwhlemingly beautiful.
so good!!!
OlanRogers hellooo
OlanRogers AAHHHHHH OLAN !!!
Olannnn😂♥️
Such a heavy heavy song 🎵
❤🎉❤ love this 🎉❤❤🧡❤❤🎉
Man this video is look so simple but beautiful at the same time.. it's inspiring me, never thought something like this.. Loved it..
that smokes really cool..
PLAY: REPEAT
exactly!
> Are there any more polish people here ? ;)
Nie wierzę, że Cię tu spotkałam, drogi Olsiku :D pochwalę się, że również uwielbiam zespół Nothing But Thieves, o którym wspominałaś w jednym z ostatnich Olsikvlogów ;)
I love how her song go from "I can't feel' to "I could be your crush"
who's here having a tessa violet marathon?! 😍 we love an underrated amazing artist!!
always a good thing to do from time to time!
this is
just
gosh.
amazing
this moment is wonderful.
You know when something new just plays your heart and takes your thoughts…
I am feeling this now.
I feel lucky to be on this planet with all of you
Accidentally listened to this at double speed...works well both regular and double speed :)
I changed after your comment, double is amazing! :)
+Kyle F how do you change the speed? Thanks
How do you change the speed? Thanks
Click on the settings button(where it would show quality and other options), go to speed, and change it to 1.5x. You'll enjoy how the vibe of the song changes. :)
feel like this is scarily accurate of depression
And it makes me feel absolutely euphoric
starseer73 How?
also reminds me of anxiety
reminds me of dysthymia aka persistent depressive disorder
"was I just built differently...." I nearly cried when I heard that. I love this song
Love the tempo of this song! The pitter patter you mentioned in an earlier video sounds so good. :)
I REALLY LOVE THE WAY SHE MOVED IN 'EMPATHETIC SAVIOR' PART!!! who else with me?
why not?
Been watching this for years now & it never fails to mesmerize me both lyrically and visually. Much love Tessa. Rock on!
I met a boy
Who never knew the taste of haze
*instant add to library in spotify*
god this baseline. hallelujah its juicy
LOVE it! you need to make more electronic inspired music, its so damn brilliant
good job tessa!
i always loved your vocals and songs, but with some electronic stuff it takes it to a complete new level
I still want Tessa to have a Grammy. Her lyrics are incredible!
I like how low budget her clips are while still being good
Hi Tessa!
If I'm honest, your music has never been my cup of tea (absolutely no offense meant, you make excellent music in your genre, I'm just not friends with the genre), right up until this moment. I am deeply in love with this :)
Congrats on reaching the point when even people who aren't into this kind of music obsess over your creation! (I srsly mean this as a compliment, only explaining my usual stance to emphasize the achievement ^^ )
EYN people! Please learn to leave comments form this person! Holy f. You could've just said "usually you're shit, but this is bearable" or even worse, but you didn't. You explained how it was before and why, you didn't offend anyone + you gave a compliment
And there's a point in this comment
Honestly well done, this makes me happy (yes Ik I'm weird but the hate stuff is really slowly getting on my nerves)
Ami Kristina oh wow, my heart is jumping out of my chest, I thought you would tell me off and I would have to defend myself 😂 thank you for understanding my intentions!
BTW I have been listening to this non stop on spotify, and have at least 5 different interpretations for the lyrics, and WOW how RARE is that in today's music? *fangirls over this song more and more*
Ami Kristina also lol hi my name is also Krisztina 😂
EYN hiiii
Yes omg I love this song, can't stop Listening too.
Also my name is not Kristina, long story but I LOVE the name
Do you have Tumblr or Sth? :)
Ami Kristina ghostlanxx.tumblr.com ^^ yours? :)
Oh my god, you look so good in this style
Your hair, your beautiful face, casual clothes.. Awesome
"fifty shades of beige" why am i laughing
Same
the best lyrics lmao
jennimoo me
jennimoo but wat does it mean?
She said in an earlier video that she really likes that line because you expect to hear fifty shades of grey because that's what you're used to hearing and also because beige is a really boring colour and it made her point perfectly.
WE GET IT. YOU VAPE.
jk this vid was great
hahahahaha XD
Good one :D
Didn’t someone already comment this...?
shes such a boss you dont even dare to insult her
53, 80's kid. Becoming a big fan. Keep on keepin' on. I grew up in the Ozarks and can smell that forest and the smoke bomb.
the song was great but the video on top of it OH MAN THIS WAS SO FREAKING INCREDIBLE.
Loved the use of smoke and the creepy and yet compelling feel of the video. The song is mesmerizing.
4 years and I still come back to this when I need to feel my thoughts with such intensity, when everything is in disarray just drop everything to feel nothingness.
50 shades of beige...best selling haze book
will you do a music/lyric video of the on my own and i don't get to say i love you anymore??
+mew's cousin 😏
Oooh
the first time I came here, I was just drifting along the waves of my attention span. Wondering like a desperate moth that flies into the next fading fire. I don't usually come back when I've tasted certain colors but the fact that I've found myself circling back into your light means a lot.
Whoever had the idea of the video, is great.
VERY simple, and yet SO good!
i love this so much thank you for being friends w the vlogbrothers
wow I got lost in this smoke for awhile ... magical song
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW, omg this is so flawless!!! IT´s just PERFECT
🫠🟠💙💚😶🌫️😕😠😎🤓👺💯💥💨💤🫶👍🦾👅👂
I love the replay button
DaringDragon iii
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Farris Athmar watch it become 70. It'll return to its innocence...
69 4 lyfe
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This world is crazy... Truth is stranger than fiction love. You're not crazy! You're words are more powerful than the ones who don't see with eyes wide closed. If only people could see what we see, they really wouldn't understand untill it happens to them. I'm so blessed to have been following you since I came across your talent. I feel you on a level that most people wouldn't. Keep you chin up kid! Sending you all the love and positive vibrations I can your way ❤️
This song is so eerie. At first when I heard it I was confused because it sounds just like a chill, mellow song. But the more I listened the more uncomfortable I'd get. There's just something so dark about it, and so profoundly disturbing to me. After a while I realized it's because it reminded me so much of a situation I was in with a girl a while back. Only it's from her point of view, not mine which is why it took so long for me to realize why it resonated with me. This whole song, especially the lines "And I get drunk; on a boy who asks me if I'm up...I'll be your empathetic savior call me up I'll meet you later; you can praise me for the way I always know just what to say; I'll carve into your ribs and leave you crying for a kiss just for kicks" and "There's a circuit in my chest unconnected from the rest;....disconnecting my mouth from my thoughts" literally give me chills. I've been the boy. I know what it's like from the other side, but I've never seen her side of it and it's honestly horrifying. It's a song about addiction (from what I've gathered) but an addiction to drugs. It's a song about a girl who knows what she's doing is wrong and devastating to the people she interacts with but who's disassociated her actions with her emotions so much she can't stop it and a guy who can sense that something is wrong about this but is completely addicted to the girl and can't stay away. As you guy a part of you is angry and hurt and repulsed by becoming so dependent and close to someone like this just to end up being a pawn for their own impossible to decipher reasons, but from the girl's point of view it's just as bad. It makes me think that, at least in my situation, maybe she didn't just use me for her own amusement. Maybe she did it because it gave her a rush to do so, and she actually just couldn't stop herself. Either way, a fantastic song that shook me to the core. Tessa Violet is brilliant and talented, but honestly terrifies me. And I pray for the boy/boys who this song was directed to.
I know I'm a bit late to responding to this comment but I think this is a really awesome song. I haven't thought about seeing it from the outside perspective that deeply. And in a way it is kind of dark.
Actually, I thought that all of the guys who are listening this song were listening it from the "outside perspective" lol
it's dark because it very easily represents clinical depression. when you're depressed and anxious, it's like a veil falls over your whole life. nothing is good or fun any more because you don't want to do ANY of it, so you start seeking out darker means of escaping (drugs, other people, etc. etc. etc.) it's not so much about addiction in my perspective as it is the boy/partner's addiction to her strangeness. her bright colours, but the way she's always some kind of sad, then happy and brilliant again. it's very much how my own brain works, sometimes i'm inspired and colourful and making art, but then i hit those depression/art block stumps where i feel worthless and like i have no inspiration.
the lesson is: don't use other people to make your life better.
@You- know-who basically, the guy in the song was fascinated with her and her depression/mental illness, he "never knew the taste of haze" and to him, the whole world was a stage. he was lucky, and going places, while she was left in the fog of her depression. the lesson is that he shouldn't have used her "haze" as something to fascinate/interest him, because the whole time it was a bad thing for HER. it's like how a lot of people think of depression as "tragic and beautiful" when it's really not. it just sucks.
I don’t interpret it this way at all. She has mental illness that causes her to be disassociated with her emotions. Its like walking through life in a cloud, that’s always gray. She doesn’t feel highs or lows, nothing makes her super happy... it’s like a chronic feeling of emptiness. She’s saying she met a boy, and enjoyed him but he didn’t ever experience depression like her. To him, the whole world was available and ready for his taking. And she was still just left in a cloud of emptiness. I don’t think there’s anything sinister about it.
1:13 gives me hella "sweet dreams (are made of these)" vibes
2:36 when she drops the smoke bomb on the beat. I can’t believe this is all one take.
Tessa is a sweet poison and I need more of her. ☁️
One of my favourite songs from you, Tessa!
I just can't get enough of Tessa Violet! she's SO GOOD!
Your hair looks such an amazing colour in this omg.
I am physically angry at how many people's ears have not heard this masterpiece of a song and ep HOLY SHIT
AUGHHHH
Carrie Almir don't worry millions more are hearing 6ix9ine or cardiB, basically the Mozart and Beethoven of this century
Ok, 1 year later and the views have almost QUADRUPLED. I'm thrilled.
What a masterpiece Tessa!!!! You've done it again.
I always associated you as being a blogger and not a music artist, however you've pleasantly surprised me over the past year w your material and I'm starting to primarily see you as an artist and then a blogger. Keep up the good work, you're material is unique and a welcomed change!
let us not ignore the fact that that was shot in one take...
and it would have had to have been performed faster due to it being slowed down in the final edit
@@MrScottyTay can you please explain me, how did she keep this accelerated rhythm for the whole shot??
@@k4m820 just speed up the song and have her sing along
At some point there was a discreet transition
@@ilooklikemonalisarightnowl816 Probably at 1:13
This girl can pull off anything at this rate, honestly.
Welp, that instantly got placed into my Favorites. Also, this is really good in normal speed AND 1.5x. Totally different vibe and the increased speed still makes it sound nice. You know, without sounding obviously sped up.
Fantastic job Tess, I'm glad to be a long time follower. Going back to the VYou days. :D -The Prince
this is amHAZEing (im sorry i can only communicate in bad puns)
+lineapinea I love it
Will the album ever be on itunes or play store?
Tessa Violetion of correct grammar!
lineapinea is this Evan?
Being unable to communicate unironically seems pretty on point here, actually.
I have always loved the direction of this song
Dude dude dude DUDE this is so fucking good
I disassociate all the time, basically constantly, and this is so on point.
Plus your voice is amazing. I really love this.
Dude that slo-mo effect is awesome. It's funny to imagine you trying to sing it really fast when filming though XD
My absolute favorite of her work. Wish it existed when I was in high school. I always ran off to the woods to feel better.
That sounded awesome!
obsessed w your music lately omgomomg
so am I
Man the lyrics to the shots to HER every little detail is miraculous
This is one of the best songs I have ever heard in my life
localartnerd so much like to this
its soo good, and it hist so hard for me rn!
*hits
Don't be down, be happy :)
I'm willing to bet cash money that if this song hits someone hard, saying "be happy" is well-meant but useless ;)
Yes probably :) but I meant it in a good way.
Which is why I included 'well-meant' =)
This song hits me right in my adhd heart.
Anyone else getting a Melanie Martinez vibe? Love it Tessa!!! xx
WHERE WAS I ALL THIS TIME
WHY DID UA-cam NOT RECOMMEND HER TO ME EARLIER
WHY DID GOD NOT LET ME SEE THIS BEFORE 😭
BUT.
IM HERE
AND IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE.
Billy Jean where'd you go?
Same! Tessa is so good!
salmanisalive same tho
UA-cam recommendations are piss-poor these days. They used to actually be good for finding new (and in some cases obscure) music.
No longer. It's all about retention-bucks now. Nothing else matters.
I feel the same exact*** way, but just with this song, I’ve been a fan of her for years but just didn’t know about this beautiful piece 🌻✨
so cool! i love this whole concept
This song is my favorite I think. I love it so much. I can't wait to see you in Nashville for the Halloween show.