I hope that you can find some comfort in that you will always have youtube as a format in witch you can vent and communicate how you are feeling. Even if it is to a few strangers. I really do admire that you are able to do things like this and talk so well about what has happen'd to you and what is currently happening to you. I hope that you will manage through this and find it easier to cope in the long run.
Thank you for taking the time to comment! I'm grateful to have UA-cam as an outlet and even more so when I find individuals who relate to my emotions and experiences. Having gotten through similar depressed periods before, I'm hopeful that these feelings will pass overtime
+Matt Wright a lot of your experiences I can relate to a great deal and it most certainly helps me knowing that others have and are going through very similar things. With time and some work these moments do pass and to be able to look back on bad periods seeing that they don't last and you are able to pull through I think can be helpful the next time they happen providing you are in the right scene of mind to look back in a helpful way and not dwell on things. As always I hope you get through moments like this and come out stronger at the other end.
last weekend, i was downtown with a girl... mind you i had just been broken up with a week before, i had been severely depressed before the break up, then we broke up. i didnt know how to handle it, so i went out with another girl to try and bury the feelings by seeing someone else. we were walking downtown to get food and 2 guys shoved her and i said something to them. long story short, there was a confrontation and they jumped be. needless to say, i beat them both, half to death... right there in the street in front of everyone. the cops showed up, im standing there covered in their blood, my hands my face, my clothes, shoes etc. i blanked out and channeled all of my anger and depression on those 2 guys. the cops let me go because it was self defense...... i dont think they should have... i need help, i need to not be around people because i feel like i will do the same thing to someone who didnt try to harm me... and i am scared of this depression....
Thank you for opening up here, may I ask if you've reached out to anyone professional as of yet? I think talking through everything would be extremely helpful! I know it feels hopeless but letting someone in, a family member, friend or even dropping Samaritans an email or phoning (if you're from the UK), can leave you feeling surprisingly better. As for the anger you're feeling, you're right that it sounds like your way of expressing yourself. Are there any healthier ways you can channel those feelings, such as through exercise, art or maybe writing down how your depression makes you feel?
I hope that you can find some comfort in that you will always have youtube as a format in witch you can vent and communicate how you are feeling. Even if it is to a few strangers. I really do admire that you are able to do things like this and talk so well about what has happen'd to you and what is currently happening to you. I hope that you will manage through this and find it easier to cope in the long run.
Thank you for taking the time to comment! I'm grateful to have UA-cam as an outlet and even more so when I find individuals who relate to my emotions and experiences. Having gotten through similar depressed periods before, I'm hopeful that these feelings will pass overtime
+Matt Wright a lot of your experiences I can relate to a great deal and it most certainly helps me knowing that others have and are going through very similar things. With time and some work these moments do pass and to be able to look back on bad periods seeing that they don't last and you are able to pull through I think can be helpful the next time they happen providing you are in the right scene of mind to look back in a helpful way and not dwell on things. As always I hope you get through moments like this and come out stronger at the other end.
Hang in there sweet heart, I know your pain, but I havent seeked any help yet...
ur awesome stay awesome!!
WAS I THE 12 YEAR OLD, this is so reflective and emotional
Of course you were, could there be any other?:) Thank you darling!
last weekend, i was downtown with a girl... mind you i had just been broken up with a week before, i had been severely depressed before the break up, then we broke up. i didnt know how to handle it, so i went out with another girl to try and bury the feelings by seeing someone else. we were walking downtown to get food and 2 guys shoved her and i said something to them. long story short, there was a confrontation and they jumped be. needless to say, i beat them both, half to death... right there in the street in front of everyone. the cops showed up, im standing there covered in their blood, my hands my face, my clothes, shoes etc. i blanked out and channeled all of my anger and depression on those 2 guys. the cops let me go because it was self defense...... i dont think they should have... i need help, i need to not be around people because i feel like i will do the same thing to someone who didnt try to harm me... and i am scared of this depression....
Thank you for opening up here, may I ask if you've reached out to anyone professional as of yet? I think talking through everything would be extremely helpful! I know it feels hopeless but letting someone in, a family member, friend or even dropping Samaritans an email or phoning (if you're from the UK), can leave you feeling surprisingly better. As for the anger you're feeling, you're right that it sounds like your way of expressing yourself. Are there any healthier ways you can channel those feelings, such as through exercise, art or maybe writing down how your depression makes you feel?
You didn't post this one to facebook. :c
+Grasswalker The way you avoid eye-contact with the camera and your facial expressions say just as much if not more than your words in this video.