Living with Psychosis and Constant Hallucinations
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- Опубліковано 16 жов 2024
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Shelley experiences psychosis and constant hallucinations that started at the age of 39 after a miscarriage. Now 46, her hallucinations have only increased in frequency and intensity. Shelley wants others to know that she is a kind and empathetic person and that people that experience psychosis are not automatically dangerous.
Having a deceased baby in your womb is so traumatizing.
I’m a man so I can only imagine, but I don’t think I could keep going day to day. Her mental strength is astounding.
You just being empathetic about it makes you a true man! Bless
Never been pregnant but yes. Imagining carrying your own dead child sounds awful.
It has happened to me 4 times so I definitely understand how she felt/feels.
thank you for your empathy, it truly means a lot
My baby son died in utero at 30 weeks. I carried him for 9 more days because my body wouldn't go into labor--- I had to be induced, finally. Someone once asked me how I could have come through that and all I could think to say was--- the only other choice was death by my own hand, and I had a 2 year old at home so that wasn't an option for me. It's been 25 years and it's still a very stark, sad, very emotional memory.
As a sufferer of psychosis, this is really uplifting ❤
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Please take extra care of yourself. I have ctpsd and know how much mental health issues take over my life.
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
i agree, as a fellow sufferer. 💕
When she said “I’m 46” 😮 I thought she was in her mid 20’s
One of the benefits of a vegan diet.
She looks amazing for 46.
@@planetvegan7843 Avoiding the sun is the #1 way. People think I'm 13 or 14 years younger than I am.
@@planetvegan7843 most vegans age terribly because we are not herbivores. I came on here to see if there was any mention of her diet as psychosis is effected by diet. Her vegan diet explains a lot, and it doesnt seem to be fixing her hallucinations. A ketogenic carnivore diet has been shown to improve conditions like this. Look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard.
@@planetvegan7843 most vegans age terribly and her diet is obviously not fixing her psychosis. Look up Dr. Chris Palmer at Harvard.
her face lit up when she was talking about crocheting it was so cute
Seriously, she's so sweet and thoughtful! 💙
It was educational for me to learn that you can experience psychosis without being schizophrenic. I had the misconception that psychosis was something specific to schizophrenia.
@Princess_haraz23 Thank you.
@Princess_haraz23 Yeah, I have type 1 bipolar and it has happened to me, it is hard to deal with, but indeed we also experience it w/o having schizophrenia.
It can happen for many reasons:) this channel is so great for teaching us all so much❤❤❤
@@violettaazul That would be so difficult. I hope you have some supportive people in your life.
@@Samahra01 ♥️
Miscarriage on her second trimester is traumatic enough! I hope she gets the help and all the support she needs!!
Hormones are hugely related to mental health but under researched and the link is rarely made. Not only is losing a child hugely hugely traumatic but your body is experiencing drastic hormonal changes. I experienced psychotic depression related to my period and since my eyes have been opened to how many people deal with mental health problems related to hormonal changes and childbearing. Our brains react differently to the normal changes of hormones throughout the month, and if anything affects that even more (stress, pregnancy, food, anything!) then symptoms worsen. I found out that people with PMDD are more likely to experience postnatal depression and psychosis. All are under and misdiagnosed and not enough resources are out there. It’s an extremely lonely experience. Thank you Shelley for sharing your story and for your resilience, and Chris for platforming such an important story.
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look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
As someone with PMDD, thank you for bringing this up, it's so important. A lot of people underestimate how dangerous things like PMDD can be for mental health and how dangerously it can exacerbate other forms of trauma. PMDD defines a lot of how I live my life, much more than people know
Thank you for sharing that!
Yes!! Hormones are Huge!
46?! Woah. What’s her secret?
I thought she was 20 or 30 ❤❤😦😦
Imo She looks her age
Right!? Wow!!!
Yes, she looks between 25 and 30!
@@AmeliaEarhart53756 if I were to have liked my own comment it would be at 3 likes not 2.
As a fellow survivor of similar trauma, please know I’m so proud of you. I KNOW the struggle, and please know you matter, and are a beacon of hope for so many. I had major surgery after a similar loss, then my Mum, Grandmother, and baby sister all died, one right after the other - horrifying deaths. I broke. It’s the only way to describe it. I lost all of my hair, because the trauma, blood loss, and loss of life was so bad, my body couldn’t go on.
Please know you matter, and hearing and seeing your strength, means so very much. May you be blessed with the goodness in life you so dearly deserve 💖🌟
Im sending a lot of love to you. What horrors you’ve been through. Only love and safety and healing for you. May you feel watched over and guided and loved by the ones you’ve lost and may you only gain loved ones going forward ❤
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God bless your heart ♥
Condolences
God be with you. ❤from AZ
Whoa, that purple color on her is AMAZING.
Morticia Adam’s vibes in a very good way
I am a person with bipolar 1 so I’ve experienced psychosis many times. It’s very hard. I’m grateful to you for giving this awful condition a platform. Mental health is not respected enough.
I'm Bipolar II and have experienced psychosis as well. It usually becomes a hospital stay. It helps to hear others experience similar and know we're not alone. Thank you
Me to , miami 29 male .
Same here.
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@@Stalemarshmallow what helps is getting closer to God. listening to music. Finding a creative outlet. White noise 🔊 when needed. And a lot of self-love. And whatever it was.…. It wasn't your fault. This is just a season in life. I can honestly say there is hope and i feel in a way renewed after my psychosis, it was getting over the fear of getting into another one. Just live and cannabis has help a lot with the complex ptsd
I've been psychotic twice in my life and it is a horrible and scary thing for the human being to endure. God bless her.
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
Psychotic and Psychosis 2 diff things but could be close
She had a second trimester loss😢 That happened to me many years ago. I then went on to have a living baby. Losing a child will definitely bring mental issues out of the woodwork.
I had an early miscarriage and that was traumatic. I can’t believe losing a baby late in pregnancy. I think I would have gone insane myself. I had a PTSD from my miscarriage.
Listening to Shelley speak about carrying her deceased baby just took the breath out of me. What a terrible thing to experience. She strikes me as such a gentle spirit. I'm glad she has such great support around her!
I really like her necklace. Hummingbirds symbolize perseverance and knowledge.
Bawling now bc I have the same diagnoses with the Complex PTSD and the Depression/psychosis combination and I am so sorry for what you're going through. Different background and triggers, but I knew exactly what you meant when you were describing your Illness. There are a lot of people out there like us and the scientific understanding and the appropriate treatments, especially medication is getting better and better and I am hopeful for the future.
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God bless your heart ♥. My daughter had that diagnosis yrs ago and almost starved herself to death, but she slowly came out of it as her living situation improved, thank God!🎉❤
@@charlesfrazier2371 Thank you
@@carynmartin6053 Thank you, and I am glad that your daughters situation improved, may it stay that way
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to fentanyl. Fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with BPD. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 4 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of mycologist Predroavaro. This treatment worked for me. Helped me got rid of my life long depression and BPD.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, fentanyl alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Luckily I don’t associate people with psychosis with danger because I know people who have it or have had it. Like them, she seems like a lovely and sweet person:)
It's so sad that some associate people with certain mental illnesses as dangerous people.
@sleepyote or that people with these problems just aren't trying hard enough to prosper when dealing with depression, bipolar, etc.
Not afraid of you Shelley. You are a thoughtful, wholehearted person and I'm sorry for all the things that happened to you. Wishing you all the best.
My ex wife used to have hallucinations periodically along with her psychosis and borderline personality disorder. Thank you Shelley for sharing and for your strength in telling your story. Takes a lot of courage and you did awesome! Thank you SBSK! You guys Rock!
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look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
@ZaylaLewis-v1w No not at all. That's an assumption. I don't want to say anything about it online, but it wasn't me, I supported and loved her.
@@soloman4547 check out work done by Dr. Palmer and Dr. Ede out of Harvard. They are showing reversal of many mental health conditions such as psychosis and BPD using diet
@ZaylaLewis-v1w Shame on you for assuming and judging without knowing anything about the situation.
She seems like a really kind and positive person, which is striking given how difficult her diagnoses are. I am so glad that she feels safe and loved.
I have the exact diagnosis and symptoms. Its good to hear her story as it makes me feel not alone. Sending good vibes
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
I’ve had pretty much the exact same hallucinations with the bugs both tactile and visually exactly how you described. Including it disappearing when I look directly at it. I get these due to autoimmune encephalitis I wrote a whole thing about it before but decided to delete it cuz I didn’t want to scare you or make you feel like you had it. Hearing you speak was very validating and made me feel safe. I’m so glad you have support around you and feel loved. That’s the most amazing thing in the world. You need it and you deserve it. I’m so sorry for all the traumatic experiences you’ve been through. I don’t know if you’ll see this but I’m rooting for you ❤
What a sweetie you are 😊 hope your autoimmune encephalitis gets better xx
She's so sweet. She seems incredibly kind, compassionate and very creative too. I'm really sorry for all the bad things that happened to her. I hope she lives her best life, surrounded by people she loves
I have schizoaffective and can deeply relate. All I can say Shelley is I see you and I love you. Stay strong. //Martine
This was a really great interview Chris! Shelley seems like an extremely intelligent and lovely person.
Thank you Shelley for being so brave and allowing us into your very private self. I plan to share your video with someone I love very much who suffers with some of your symptoms and feels very isolated. Your sharing this part of your life will help her so much, thank you.
I never commented on it, but i love the way you make the subtitles. They are happy and colourful but still are easily to read. ❤
Shelley, if you are reading this i wish you strenght and love in your life. You seem like an amazing person and i am really proud of you for sharing your challenges with mental health.
I’m so sorry friend, you’re an incredible survivor. For a brief time I experienced psychosis and hallucinations, a severe side effect from a new medication. It was terrifying and alarming and confusing and very lonely. My heart goes out to you and I’m grateful you’re in a safe environment and have a good support system ❤
Thank you for being willing to go onscreen and explain these things in detail, Shelley. This can be a very polarizing topic, and many people lack even the faintest awareness of the root cause(s) and day to day struggles of those suffering episodes, frequent or not. The more eyes and ears on this subject, the better overall understanding can be promoted. You’re doing a great deal for a great many people, and your efforts deserve a boatload of praise and thanks.
This woman is so strong and amazing. I suffer from anxiety at work and once in a while in public, and I couldn't fathom dealing with scary hallucinations like that. Thank you for educating us on your story❤
Just your reminder that you matter what❤ even if you’re disabled or you have mental issues💗 YOU MATTER🫶🏼
What a beautiful, intelligent lady. I had a similar experience with auditory hallucinations. I want to thank her for making me feel like I’m not alone in this situation. I think she is so strong and brave to do this interview. ❤❤❤❤
Shelley, I feel such a deep sense of empathy for you.
I have had 5 traumatic events occur in my life, with all but one of them continuing to affect me today, even though they occurred 15-23 years ago.
I currently have a PTSD diagnosis, along with Autism Spectrum Disorder, severe ADHD-PI (primarily inattentive), which is referred to as ADD in Missouri (I live in central CA, but went to university in Missouri and there, I found they maintain ADD/ADHD terminology, but my current doctors at Kaiser, separate ADHD into 3 types. Inattentive, Hyperactive, and combined), and severe MDD with recurring episodes.
My work history is spotty, and I have been placed on 4 psych holds in the span of 2 years, due to PTSD and depression related symptoms where I would just have a breakdown.
I also have the tendency to over-explain a lot.
I hope, by sharing some history in regards to my struggles, you, and whoever may read this, will find solace and peace. You are not alone, and neither am I.
Also, when I see my therapist next week, I will bring up changing my PTSD diagnosis to Complex PTSD, given the multiple traumas in my life.
I wish the best for you and thank you for sharing your struggles with me.
I’m crying so much for Shelley. 😢 God bless her and her immense strength and fortitude and courage. Please everyone take care of one another. Life is so hard, so so so hard.
I love her advice on what others should do when you're talking to someone with mental health issues. Don't act like a doctor when you're not, don't try to give advice, literally just listen. There are very few better ways of feeling than feeling like you're being heard.
Sadly I know someone who had gone into drug-induced psychosis and has lasting delusions but is in deep denial about it, so it’s hard to listen to him without feeling like I’m enabling his denial.
Fellow sufferer of major depressive disorder (without hallucinations) and CPTSD AND I'm a crocheter too! I was looking at your granny square blanket behind you to see if I could make that😅 I crochet like others do mindfulness colouring.
I am so proud of you!
I found the tutorial for that square on UA-cam. Look up 365 days of granny squares 💕
@@shelleysquires2741 Aww thank you so much! Let me get my hook😊
I wanna give this woman a huge hug ❤️. Before she even said it, I could tell she's a HUGE empath and extremely compassionate person. I hope she's surrounded by love and care.
Shelley is incredibly brave. It was fascinating to hear her perspective. It made me sad to hear that her shakiness prevents her from painting. I bet she could create her own style that embraces shaky paint strokes, jagged lines, etc. It would be unique, and other people with mental health conditions may relate to it. They may find it inspiring or calming, like they can finally see something that describes how they feel or something they are dealing with. She may even be able to donate her art to psychiatric hospitals, special needs classrooms, etc. I could absolutely see her art making a difference in the world.
Great idea
@specialbooksbyspecialkids
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I've never related to someone more. I have major depressive disorder, extreme anxiety, as well as narcolepsy. I'm literally the bed rot queen and it's honestly refreshing to see someone with the almost exact same struggles as me.
Thank you for taking the time to speak out and share your difficulties! It will help a lot of people have the confidence to do the same. Love and power to you
Whenever I watch these videos it shifts me towards compassion and empathy.thank you for being part of that and being so brave.what power
Shelley, you are a lovely woman inside and out. I’m sorry for everything you’ve been through. I’m glad you have support and resources. Thank you for explaining your diagnoses so clearly; I think this video will help a lot of people with those disorders as well as their loved ones.
I have a traumatised young part of me that tells me we're dead or that this isn't reality. I have to reassure and comfort him for him to not freak out. Children have amazing imaginations. My inner children need to be looked after by me and parented with love like they never had and what froze them in the trauma.
i understand this very well as someone with DID. sending you and your inner children much love.
@@kfishertthank you so much. I have so much more gratitude and empathy for others now they are with me
The day I told my inner four year old, “ i got you, I will never give up on you like they did. I promise. Just tell me what you need and I’ll do my best” everything changed
@kgreen8510 wow that's beautiful. Much the same with me. I remember the exact moment I comforted that child and he immediately responded and came into my consciousness. Life changing. Before I did that I was shaming him and slapping him to stop him coming up with all the terrible feelings he was holding. It's been a hard journey but the qualities our young parts embody are so vital
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Mental illness is prevalent in my family and it's complicated to understand, but it needs to be treated with respect as this woman recommends.
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
My heart goes out to her. What an extraordinarily brave and strong woman. Thank you so much for sharing this information.
What a lovely woman! I am so happy she shared her story. I think she can help others who suffer similarly to feel a sense of peace.
I'm so glad she has a good support system. 💜
I feel like this video is a beautiful example of the diversity of human experience. She has suffered so much and yet exudes lightness and patience. Thank you for sharing your amazing story with such frankness. Thank you SBSK for creating a platform for this safe and supportive community!
“Lightness and patience” is the perfect description!
I really appreciate when y'all do interviews w people with mental health disorders, there is such a massive variety of mental health issues and it's so comforting (as someone with my own disorders), insightful, educational and meaningful. The empathy you show as an interviewer is so impactful. i don't know haha, these just mean a lot, thank y'all so very much for the work you do
I like that you asked her how others can be helpful to a person like her. That seems important.
Thank you for sharing your story Shelley. And I really like the crocheted throw on the couch :)
You can crochet and read it the same time if you're listening to audiobooks! I've totally switched to them and found it a game changer .
This is such a good point.
Crochet and audiobooks have kept me alive through my most recent major depressive episode 🙃
I can't imagine what you've gone thru and I'm so sorry. You're such a gorgeous, sweet, & strong lady. Thank you for sharing your story. 💜
I felt your pain when you said how people think psychosis means danger and how you're a very kind person and love people. Your kindness shines through in the video. I am so happy for you that you are in a safe environment now and have lots of support around you! And I wish you even more friends in the future who will learn about your diagnoses and not feel any different about you ❤
I can not express how valuable and perfectly timed this video is to ejter ny life right now. A close friend of mine has been going through a lot of the same symptoms and has been spending these past months in a psychiatric hospital. Her condition until now seems to either not change at all or get worse by the day. Supporting and being there for her can be quite overwhelming for me, so I feel truly blessed to have seen this video..Hearing Shelley speak from first hand experience with so much openess and and knowledge about the topic gives me a lot of comfort and hope
Thank you so very much
I was playing this in the background and was shocked to hear her say Rhode island! That's where I'm from! We have some amazing hospitals here and I am so glad she has the help of them!
So glad that you're in a safe and loving space now, Shelley, and thank you for sharing your story in such a brave way ❤❤❤ It is unhelpful that the word 'psychotic' has taken on another meaning than simply 'someone experiencing psychosis'
She seems like such a sweet soul and it makes me so sad that she has to exist in such suffering. Also, she looks amazing for her age!
Shelley, you’re so strong and beautiful. Conveyed your experience and message so well. Sorry for all the trauma you endured. Hope the medication journey becomes more balanced and routine, best of luck
I'm a therapist, and I am quite happy how she is well versed on her diagnosis.
I relate to Shelley a lot. Some people just don't understand how hard it is to function with mental illness.
Man I wish nothing but the best for Shelley. Keep strong! Lots of love from Belgium
She's so well spoken. She does have the vocabulary and diction of a former teacher and then also a nurturing demeanor of somebody who used to work with kids. I really liked her. I wish you had asked about community - whether she's made friends who have psychosis in her hospital stays or even through the internet. It made me think of Cecilia, even though they have different diagnosis... They do have many symptoms in common. And community seems to have changed - if not saved - Cecilia's life.
I love Cecilia so much. She inspired me to share my story, and I look up to her so much. She is amazing 💕
Beautiful lady inside and out. I wish her all the luck in the world. She deserves the best life ❤️❤️
What struck me the most: How eloquent and high EQ she exhibits. Incredible Shelley, I hope things continue to get better!
Psychosis has nothing to do with intelligence. You likely wouldn't have the same remarks with someone who was an amputee or dealing with severe allergies. Not all disability is visible.
You are a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing your life with us. ❤
We should a society start treating abusement more seriously, it's damaging so many ppl for life is heartbreaking 🙁
Thank you SBSK, i love your channel. It's really important being able to hear people's stories and break stigma. Shelley seems so lovely and Im really glad she is feeling safe and supported. All the best x
I completely understand everything you're going through I personally suffer from all the same things that you do I also have cerebral palsy I just wanted to say our lives are very similar but I'm so happy that you still continue to fight never lose hope never give up and just know that you're not alone in this world may the good Lord continue to bless you and may you carry on strong friendly hello from New Mexico
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
I loved hearing Shelley's story! My boyfriend has psychosis and I know it has been a real struggle for him. I'm doing all I can to understand it and to educate myself on it. This interview was really fascinating to listen to and it gave me a better idea on how I can be supportive towards my boyfriend.
Oddly enough, this has me thinking I might have some of this. I was diagnosed many years ago with major depressive disorder, but no psychosis. Recently, though, I've been thinking I've been losing it a bit because I, too, will see bugs moving and feel things on my skin, thinking they're insects. I never really put two and two together because I've mostly taken care of the MDD with a LOT of therapy, self work, and meds. But... that aside... Shelley, I'm very proud of you. Abuse coming at all angles, it's amazing people like us have made it out alive. You seem so kind and compassionate and a really cool person to know. I hope everything continues to work out in your life.
You are brave, wonderful and inspiring. I have two adult children with mental health issues and they are so misunderstood. My daughter sounds so much like you. God bless you.
Excellent episode. Thanks for sharing, and for showing people that you have an illness that you address like anyone does who has a complicated, serious condition, and not does not result in violence or ill intent. You are brave and hopeful and resilient and a hero.
She is so well spoken. Thank you Shelley for sharing your story
I started experiencing chronic pain from auto immune digestive disorders since 2020. I can truly empathize with everyone on this channel. I am trying my best not to delete myself. The pain and anxiety the pain brings is beyond what I can handle. We live in a hell realm. No way God is all good.
@19:23 love, you ARE an artist. not WAS. art takes many forms and i see art all around you! keep creating 🌟💕
She seems like the most genuine down to earth person ever who definitely needs to be protected at all costs. Also she’s absolutely beautiful and I’m sorry she had to go through such a crappy life she didn’t deserve that ❤🥺
Muchas gracias por subir estos testimonios y poner subtítulos.
NO entiendo del todo bien el Inglés, pero con el traductor de Google y los subtítulos se comprende perfectamente.
Es un canal hermoso, donde se aprende mucho, mucha fuerza a todos los entrevistados y les deseo mucha fortaleza y paz para sus vidas.
Thank you very much for uploading these testimonials and adding subtitles.
I DO NOT understand English very well, but with Google translator and the subtitles it is perfectly understood.
It is a beautiful channel, where you learn a lot, a lot of strength to all those interviewed and I wish you a lot of strength and peace for your lives.
This beautiful lady is so mentally resilient to have gone through all her troubles and still show up for herself. She shows immense courage and strength to share her story and help others. I am in my 40's, long term nerve pain patient with depression and Generalised anxiety and panic disorder. I've had counselling and Psychological assessment. Love from London. 😊
Losing a child is a pain I wouldnt wish on anyone... I pray to be relieved of knowing this pain.
Just want to say this woman is absolutely beautiful, darling,and sweet. She exudes kindness and gentleness. And resilience. 💜 I really enjoyed listening to her story, and got teary-eyed about the onset of crying hallucinations. Big hugs and thank you for sharing 😌❤️
I went through a period of depression, anxiety, and PTSD for a few years of my life. Worst era of my life. My heart goes out to her. She seems like such a kind person. I’m glad she is in safe place in her life with love and support.
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
Thank you for this video. She is a beautiful woman and soul and I wish her nothing but happiness and healing. It really helps me to relate with my sister, who also had a similar psychosis during her first pregnancy that she has been suffering from for over 20 years. I broke off contact with her because it was the healthiest thing for me, but with all of the abuse and trauma she endured in her life, along with the death of her second daughter in the NICU - your words and experience help me relate and break some barriers. Thank you again Shelley & SBSK. The impact of your work and the love you have for people, is invaluable and unquantifiable.
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
Shelley, I hope you see my comment. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder after my son was born, 19 years ago. I now also have General Anxiety Disorder and PTSD. And I, too, crochet. I also used to paint, but the medication I was taking caused my hands to shake. One of the meds I took caused me to see squirrels out of the corner of my eye. So your story, while from a different diagnosis, felt very familiar. I hope you are doing well, and am so glad you did this interview.
Sending you so much love, dear one 💕
This is an amazing interview. Kudos (of course!) to the interviewee, and the interviewer as well for asking probing questions but remaining respectful, sensitive and not becoming salacious.
I had a friend who (at 43) was finally properly diagnosed after he immigrated to America. After having 'real talk' with him one day, I learned that he had been experiencing many of the symptoms the interviewee mentioned for decades (although I only saw/was privy to a few of the most extreme symptoms in the months prior to his formal diagnosis).
I appreciate how candid, emotionally articulate and vulnerable the interviewee was. This was very eye-opening for me (my friend also experiences extreme paranoia when going through major episodes and so would never be this candid; I welcome any insight).
We've been friends for going on 25 years (more than half our lives) and I won't abandon him.
Thanks for the upload!
Shelly, you rocked that interview.
Thank you for sharing your story and I'm really glad to hear that you have landed yourself in a safe space. ❤
Oh my heart 😢 I have major depressive disorder and severe anxiety. I sleep a lot too but have a zest for life. It’s just hard all around. We all do the best we can. Hugs and love 🤗 ❤
There is a special place that awaits all the ppl who hurt this beautiful woman. This was heartbreaking to watch. 😢
What a beautiful Soul. Thank you for sharing your story, Shelley.
It was wonderful to get to know Shelley. She is absolutely beautiful and looks 20 years younger than she is. I completely related to what she described when she talked about keeping up with medications. I will have a lot of success with a medication for several years then it will suddenly stop working and I start an anxiety spiral. I can't imagine what it's like to deal with it when hallucinations are involved as well. Great interview, Chris. ❤️
I also have MDD. Mine is Major depressive disorder with anxious distress, and C-PTSD. Along with PMDD, which is like PMS on a stimulant. Premenstrual dysphoric disorder. Those were unbearable without treatment. They are well managed now. However, they are still present. Hang in there, I believe in you. I enjoyed listening to you speak and appreciate you (publicly) speaking out to de-stigmify phycosis. It's great to meet you.
What are you taking to treat your PMDD? My daughter has it and she’s taking Paxil and birth control right now
@kittymonkey705 I take an SSRI. Selective Seratonin Re-uptake Inhibitor. My Dr. started me on it for only a few days/ 1 week per month. He said that works for some people, and I would know if I needed it daily after stopping it for a couple days. It was obvious for me, I need it. I called it a miracle med. Ask your Dr, keep going back if she's not improving. Best of luck to your daughter and family.
I have induced visual hallucinations because of medications I'm on, I also have eye floaters so big that it's so distracting to see .. I was terrified of mentioning the floaters to the eye Dr but once they have told me yes we see them, the relief was beyond words..but medication induced hallucinations are just so tough .
Hugs 🫂 you are strikingly beautiful 😍❤️
I also have major depression due to health conditions.and anger issues..I also have CPTSD from medical condition 😢 I can relate to you so much 😢
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sounds like an autoimmune component to it. Look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
Not a USA resident, I have a lot of diseases that potentially fall under the umbrella of Mitochondrial disease.. testing is taking forever, I've been informed (I'm in terminal stats) even before getting the final diagnosis of MNGIE which is fatal.. usually 37+- years..@@KK-lg8uz
I have skizophina and depression. I also get upset when people here skizophina they automatically think I'm a serial killer and I'm dangerous to be around because TV and movies put it in such a negative light, the same as psychosis. But she perfectly explains how we are all still the same people as we have always been
That misconception must be hard to deal with constantly! Keep your chin up rob 🙌🏻
@emorob42 Don't you mean Schizophrenia instead of skizophina in your above comment?
look up Dr. Chris Palmers research at Harvard. He's showing improvement on many mental health conditions using diet
hell yeah, a fellow anxious stephen king fan :) this channel is so beautiful. i don't get out into the world like i used to and this is a great resource for learning about how folks with different circumstances navigate the world. im tryin to share it with as many friends and family as i can.
When you sit next to Shelley at 15:42, she instantly stops rocking back and forth
Thanks for explaining that.
Sharing your story is very brave and helps so many others who may not understand what they are facing. Love you Shell!!
Love you too Cindy!
You’ve made me realize this is what I have. I’ve been diagnosed with severe OCD, panic disorder, and depression but I have auditory hallucinations and I’ve had very similar visual hallucinations (when you mentioned the person with the melted face- that exact one has happened to me and my heart dropped) I also see ants sometimes on my feet. I haven’t mentioned it to my psych yet because I have an intense fear of swapping meds (had a bad experience swapping antidepressants once and it’s never been the same)
It’s fascinating! She and I have so so much in common. Like parallels where it’s uncanny. I’m so grateful for this channel. I’m so glad to have met her here.