Cute, but there is no choose your character. You're stuck with who you are and if who you are is a worthless piece of shit, then that's the life you're stuck living. I've tried the reset multiple times. 4 different cities. Different stages of life. It's all the same. The only constant is me and my shitty existence.
As a young person with depression and a (maybe) minor case of anxiety, I know its not cool or anything. Unfortunately many others my age think mental illnesses are cool and stuff. I have never come out of the mental closet and said anything about my current mental state to my friends or family. Luckily there are some things that help and help me forget I even have it, for a short period of time.
I mostly enjoy the night because the thoughts are not so intrusive as in the day (you know, the bad thoughts). But I rarely stay up at night. I love to sleep :)
What I found when going through long term depression is that you somewhat unknowingly look for things that ‘feed’ the depression. The state of mind you’re experiencing makes you listen to music that you relate to, with a downcast and negative outlook on everything. You tend to look for things that connect with the feelings you’ve been experiencing (or lack of). All these things often pull you further into this way of thinking and living. You hide from the world and use these things as fuel for the pain.
"Days become indistinguishable" is so true. My memory is getting worse - sometimes I can't even remember whether something happened today or yesterday. At least it doesn't matter because nothing of importance happens in my life anyway.
Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends, but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It's feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.
@@niamhthrelfall3384 i agree that's why i'm afraid to tell it to my parents cause i know they're not gonna believe it and will call me "overreacting and emotional"
I suffered severe anxiety,depression mental disorder for over 24 years. It's just amazing how psilocybin mushrooms treatment actually saved my life. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
I hate that psilocybin gets grouped with drugs like cocaine and heroin. Mushrooms are a remedy, not a vice! My daughter has just started this, unbelievable results already. Off pharm meds for Anxiety and depression and best of all. Her ADD has practically gone when she doses. I'm so happy after trying so hard to focus., she can now get on with her life, no longer stuck in a hole xx
Has anyone felt like when you hang out with a small group of friends,you just get ignored and always feel the odd one out and that is least cared about?
Exactly so relatable. I just don't understand why are there no people in our own circle who actually understands about this fucking thing with anxiety and depression. (Sorry for the strong language)
True, i always felt alone, everybody already had their own closed friend, n i'm the only one who left out. But the worst thing is when u start developed a hatred feeling to your friend, because it felt like your best friend just got stolen. And it make u hate yourself even more, for having such a feeling. And just hide it with a smile.
Why these feelings come to some people , why others not ???? They feel so happy ! there is sth going on in here ,we should find out ? we must use our mind ,think think
youcef baba Endomorphins There are many reasons depression can be caused but as well there are many treatments (Excersize, supplements, lifestyle change, setting goals etc...) Watch the Ted talk on depression it’s a white doctor who specializes in depression
When I was a teenager and I didn’t know I was depressed I described my depression as a big dark cloud following me everywhere. I said it doesn’t always rain but the cloud is always there.
1. your gut microbiome has a fundemental role for your mental state chances are, you have sufferered from a bacterial infection to combat this, go carnivore to starve thee bacteria from energy (carbs) you should feel better in 2 weeks 2. testosterone also plays a major role with dopamine release (the hormone responsible for pleeasure and motivation) so increase in testosterone will increase dopamine to increase testosterone: -don't eat shit -lift heavy shit -literaly go outside (the goal is sunlight exposure, its still fine if the weather is ass) -hang out with the opposite gender (or the one that you consider hot) -practice semen retention -be more competitive -prevent fear from controlling your actions, let ur balls hang low and be more risk taking -deep breathing excercies (to lower stress) fun fact: Taking anti depressant will make you suffer from erectile dysfunction. But the same companies are also making viagra, their "cure" for erectile dysfunction. 3. Lack off motivation and pleasure is a lack of dopamine/seratonine. The way these hormones works is that they have to fluctuate. When having a lot of pleasure, dopamine levels will rise, but then have to fall below baseline which will make you feel like shit. To combat that, deliberitly choose to feel like shit so that your body will have no choice but to kick back your dopamine levels above baseline. 4. Practice gratitude. This is fundemental. Bring a paper & pen and write down 10 things ur gratefull for per day. While doing this ur gonna notice that you automatically feel slightly better. If you do this every day you will condition your mind to always have gratitude 5. Your thoughts control your emotions. lemme explain When you think about that exam ur gonna have tomorrow you feel stressed When you think about that person, your body feels warm When you think about bringing a lemon, slicing that lemon, smelling that lemon, and lick on that piece of lemon, your mouth will start to drool. 6. Nothing feels better than seeing the physical manifestation of your hard work. Speaking from experience. lets be straight. ur life is not shit because u have depression, u have depression because ur life is shit DO NOT LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU OTHERWISE. THEY ARE WEAK PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FEEL SORRY FOR THEIR LAZINESS WAKE UP THE MATRIX IS REAL WAKEE UP
@@niggyhuru5388 I felt as if you have a background in depression, I need your help. I have depression for three years, and I follow up with a psychiatrist. Depression completely affected my studies. I feel that my life has stopped. I have no desire for anything in life. Mama and Papa are the reason for my illness How can I get rid of all that and not let it affect my future completely How can I live a normal life
I experienced both types of depression. Its like being very aware of consequences so you partake in life anyways, while feeling completely hopeless and numb on the inside. Doing things you have to do so you dont wither away. Depression can look happy and put together on the outside. But on the inside its empty and you wonder how long u can keep it up before you try to end it.
depression doesn't care if you have loving parents who are still together, depression doesn't care if you haven't been through trauma, depression doesn't care how good your life was.
sleepy oli God damnit I want to cry. I just don't understand how I got this when my life is perfect. I have a loving mom and dad. I had friends... Until I pushed them away. I have two sisters and a brother... But yet I'm still sad. I feel like it's my fault; like I'm being ungrateful or something. I'm surrounded by love, yet I'm not able to feel it because the darkness is just to much to fight the light.
Kittens RBAE depression is a terrible thing, and it's also stereotyped for people with traumatic childhoods or abusive relationships or bereavement. Which makes it harder to cope with if you aren't under that category because the only thing left to blame is yourself even if you've done no wrong
everything you just said actually applies to me so I'm the stereotype but whenever I talk to someone about it they ask me WHY I'm depressed like I know. Like, they expect a reason for everything and social anxiety too. The most annoying questions are "how did it start? why are you depressed/socially anxious?" It's like they want a reason so they can belittle your depression. If the reason isn't good enough (traumatic enough) they'll dismiss it and assume whatever they want about you. I hate humans. And one other thing is age. If you're a certain age, say a teenager, then they won't take you seriously at all. They'll just assume you're going through another phase. Including family btw. I hate this. I can't wait to die.
Fujoshi Chan I totally agree. Ive been depressed for years now but i couldnt find how it started or what the cause. It's just something that suddenly occurs in me. Ive backed away from friends and even isolated myself from family members. My mom ofc noticed it and tried confronted me for so many times but i just couldnt know how to explain because i know she'll demand such reasons. And when i finally wanted to say something and couldnt give any reasons, she just couldnt understand and stared at me like im a poor child, she said depression must have a cause. She blame my insomnia nights and sleep during days and says im lazy. She blame me because i couldnt find a job because i cant go out with this comfort zone, i cant socialite, i cant go on the outside world. All of that made an impression to my mom that im just a useless piece of shit, worthless person and lazy overreacting daughter. Ofc she wont say it to me, but i know she kind of think that way :( I wanna be happy again
Depression is living in a body that wants to die. It’s having a soul with no feeling, it’s being numb to life and faking happiness so those around you don’t have to pry and tell you what’s wrong with you.
So what would be the cure...i really hate it...i feel like every think is black i even don't care abuot it...i can't stop thinking...i can't sleep in rest ... the day for me is as same as the night...confused...all the time...and i wake up in every each day telling my self am gone struggle and make some changes but useless???...🖤💔🖤
yeah bc when i kill myself ill be guilty bc then all of friends, the family are depressed, sad or even guilty and that's on me. but if i was never born they wouldn't need to care.
Its my favorite part of bohemian Rhapsody. Really hits you in the feels. Also that Line "goodbye everybody I've got to go. Got to leave you all behind and face the truth". I often shut myself off from "friends" to reflect on how meaningless my life and relationships are.
That's literally my thought everyday. Dying is the hardest. Never being born or suddenly disappearing without pain would be best. Especially when you have few people connected to you.
I've been struggling with heavy suicidality for almost a decade now, and whenever I get really close to an attempt and I feel I cannot reach out to anyone, I come back to this video and it gives me a few more days. I don't think I've met anyone that can describe the self destruction aspect so perfectly. Thank you.
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I know that it can feel this way but please try to keep on finding people that you can reach out to there are many people like you who feel the same way
It hurts how much i relate to this video.. Vicious cycle of depressing episodes sometimes drains you out to the extent where you cant do anything anymore..
@@cat1800 no you haven't i know, but don't you dare say that people just act fucking depressed, because no. They don't. They have a lot of bad stuff going on. They're not simply sad. They may not eat or sleep, and they may commit suicide or self harm. Is someone who committed suicide, simply sad? The answer is No. So before you say something like that, think better about what people may be going through and if you still dissagee then you are welcome to leave.
Watching this 7 years after my depression, to be honest idk how it makes me feel, but i do remember perfectly how this video helped me out with the bad emotions that i used to have. Videos like these are absolutely necessary. I thanked you 7 years ago, and i thank you now, again; Thank you so much Kat.
Get off social media first of all. No wonder you’re depressed. People purposely try to act like their lives are all perfect and happy on those apps. It’s all for the likes. Nothing on instagram is realistic. It’s all fake.
@@justeunepersonne6636 i tried it 2 times 1 time i was close. It is just that my depression stays the same whatever i try. I also am a very sensitive person for this cruel world. Sleep is so perfect i feel more alive when i sleep then i am awake.
100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favourite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beatiful person 💕 Life is so beatiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶🏼
@@lumis2004I hope u are doing atleast a bit better and happier now than before❤,just remember You are important and you are loved💝,I'll be rooting for u🦋✨️
And how much color you'll see...soon. It'll get better soon. You'll be able to see color, soon. It's always, in the future you'll get better. But I dont see a future for myself.
I see a therapist now and I find it so hard to even explain what I'm feeling. I've been alone now for 5 years and its tough to keep fighting. This is the most accurate speech I've come across!!
@@Laiser But life also not cool, should I live? Maybe death isn't cool, or isn't the sollution, but what if it's better than live yoir life without happiness or just feeling anything exept pain, numb and nothing
@@reka5924 thing is that’s not your life. it’s your life right now, but this is just a temporary stage of your life. depression makes you short-sighted when in actuality things DO get better because that is the literal nature of life. absolutely nothing is permanent. no matter how bad it feels, no matter how long it’s gone on, it ends. you will come through the other side of it and be so glad you did. it will all just be a memory. you can’t throw away all life has waiting for you on temporary pain. stay strong dude.
I listened to this when I was 14 and had the biggest cries while listening to it. Now I’m 20 years old And it never goes away completely. You start accepting it, living with it, and u definitely have ur good moments. Appreciate those moments and try to not fall back. Thanks for this vudeo. Every time i watch or hear it I feel like I am not alone. I mean I always cry and fall a little deeper when I hear this but I know it’s worth fighting. Sometimes. Somehow
1. your gut microbiome has a fundemental role for your mental state chances are, you have sufferered from a bacterial infection to combat this, go carnivore to starve thee bacteria from energy (carbs) you should feel better in 2 weeks 2. testosterone also plays a major role with dopamine release (the hormone responsible for pleeasure and motivation) so increase in testosterone will increase dopamine to increase testosterone: -don't eat shit -lift heavy shit -literaly go outside (the goal is sunlight exposure, its still fine if the weather is ass) -hang out with the opposite gender (or the one that you consider hot) -practice semen retention -be more competitive -prevent fear from controlling your actions, let ur balls hang low and be more risk taking -deep breathing excercies (to lower stress) fun fact: Taking anti depressant will make you suffer from erectile dysfunction. But the same companies are also making viagra, their "cure" for erectile dysfunction. 3. Lack off motivation and pleasure is a lack of dopamine/seratonine. The way these hormones works is that they have to fluctuate. When having a lot of pleasure, dopamine levels will rise, but then have to fall below baseline which will make you feel like shit. To combat that, deliberitly choose to feel like shit so that your body will have no choice but to kick back your dopamine levels above baseline. 4. Practice gratitude. This is fundemental. Bring a paper & pen and write down 10 things ur gratefull for per day. While doing this ur gonna notice that you automatically feel slightly better. If you do this every day you will condition your mind to always have gratitude 5. Your thoughts control your emotions. lemme explain When you think about that exam ur gonna have tomorrow you feel stressed When you think about that person, your body feels warm When you think about bringing a lemon, slicing that lemon, smelling that lemon, and lick on that piece of lemon, your mouth will start to drool. 6. Nothing feels better than seeing the physical manifestation of your hard work. Speaking from experience. lets be straight. ur life is not shit because u have depression, u have depression because ur life is shit DO NOT LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU OTHERWISE. THEY ARE WEAK PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FEEL SORRY FOR THEIR LAZINESS WAKE UP THE MATRIX IS REAL WAKEE UP
Been living with depression for 5 years.. never got help. I live in sociaty where depression is a taboo topic that almost no one dares to acknowledge. My life had been on pause for all these years, my happiness, my dreams, my beauty, my social life, my personal hygiene, all were gone a long time ago.. my youth. My youth!! I've done nothing during my youth! No friends, no relationships, no jobs, no fun, no nothing.. and it kills me!! It kills me so much and i'm tired of this, i wanna get help, i'm seeking and begging for help but i still haven't got it and i'm afraid i'll never do. Living in poverty, with such closed minded parents who think i'm just a lazy useless kid who doesn't shower nor sleep well and no hobbies. I'm begging for help.. i can't even end my life, i can't be that selfish, i love my mom too much to just leave and let her suffer my loss... that's why i want help. What should i do? God what should i do?? I'm at my limit. All i see is darkness.. i'm tired of living a lifeless life.. i wanna be normal again. Please pray for me.
I really pray for you please smile don't care about your society I am with you..... You're not the only one who feels like that.... Please be happy.......... 💦💜
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It’s crazy how the funny people in life are the ones who are really depressed. Ironic huh. U portray happiness coz u can’t feel it urself. It’s sad. I hate it, not as much as my sudden depression moments that hid me outta nowhere. But it’s up there. It’s like there’s 2 versions of u that ur living. The socially accepted version, the one u wanna be. And the one u really are when ur home / alone.
As a person who is fighting clinical depression since past three years with anti depressants and therapy and an untreated relapse after medication, no one should ever go through this. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy. The word depression might sound normal to people who haven’t had it, but to us suffering from it, this mental illness is our home. A home we don’t wanna live in and a home that we can’t move out of. At first everything will seem very overwhelming, panicking and hyper, but slowly if it becomes persistent everything feels numb, silent, lonely and unbearable. We want to die and be free from it but we really can’t, so we become bound to live with it. It sucks up all the emotions and happiness, leaving you with just numbness and suffocating thoughts. People often try to be positive, act happy and normal but inside they are crying, weeping, sad and lonely and desperately praying to god to feel better and live a normal life.
The worst part is when in the middle of the night you suddenly feels positive and decide the next morning you're gonna wake up and change everything. But then the next morning comes and you realize that nothing changed and you just wanna stay in bed where is safe I'm so fucking tired of this cycle :(
Haha so true...even I sometimes like to attend the crowd..i'd love to see people..but yeah,,,I am.just standing there quietly...and IDGF. like I must pass this event, as passing by a level in a video game.
They say the 20's are the best time of your life . . . I'm 29 now, had my first suicide attempt at 20 . . . and never had a moment where I thought "luckily, I survived. This was worth the living." I'm afraid of what's ahead of me.
I used to watch this when I was 18. All my childhood trauma didn’t let me be happy, I would cry every day, every single night. I met my boyfriend, and he helped, but the most significant change in my life was my pet, my little exotic pet, my little black chicken, "Negra." She was so little, I took care of her, loved her, she grew so fast and made me happy, she gave emotions to my life and I was eager to wake up every day to feed her and spend time together, after four years there was no trace of my sadness. I loved her will all my heart. She passed away last year, and I couldn't stand it, I made a garden for her. I feel an enormous hole in my soul now that she is gone. My bf was the only person I trusted all these years, but he disappointed me so much in the most horrible way that he could. They both helped me to recover my soul. Now that they are gone, I feel lonely, but depression is not part of my life anymore. The only pure creature that could take it away was that little black hen I will always love from the button of my heart. I can't wait to join you someday, Negra.
Depressed people are not weak. They are the strongest people. They fight more than anyone else and fall more than anyone else but still decide to get up. Depression is a very deep battle inside a human being and is not fixed by blaming them for being depressed. Love them no matter what they are going through ,embrace them when they are frustrated for no reason and don't give up on them.
Princess Fet / i thank you so much for that paragraph. people who don't have depression think its the easiest thing ever and that we are weak people, but we're not. we are the strongest people.
I remember seeing this video when it first came out and not really comprehending what depression really is. Now watching this 7 years later it's devastating to say that I've come to the point of knowing exactly what you're talking about. But now I can also acknowledge this masterpiece and your ability to grasp the very essence of depression with such impeccable storytelling even more.
Depression is like an endless tunnel you keep walking and walking in day and night without rest. You get more and more tired, your steps heavier and heavier. All your hear is the lonely echo of them. The exit seems unreachable, no matter how hard you try. And spending so much time in the dark already, your eyes become weak and blind, failing to even see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.
My god, it describes every single thing, and I mean it, EVERY SINGLE THING that I feel. Never seen anything more relatable. I shouldn't be saying this, but it feels better somewhere inside to see that what I am feeling is not unique.
@@butterbread566 so why did you try to kill yourself? Because you couldn't stand this or that. Because things were to tough for you. Because you thought it'd be the easiest way for you. See? What we think of when we consider suicide is just ourselves. It's probably the most egoistic thing to do. That's self-love to me. Only caring about ourselves.
@@pt.is.education5747 well yeah, but others often don't show that they care about you. They only do when it's too late. Maybe you want someone to prevent you from suicide, but there isn't anyone, so you think that they wouldn't be too sad about your death
As much as I can truly relate and sympathize with this entire video, can I just take a moment to say how much I love your cinematography? The way you film these videos is so impressive. I know the subject material is the real point here but I appreciate the technical artistry that goes into these so much, I just had to say something.
The worst thing is you can't ask for help your family and friends already having their own struggles ... and if you cried infront of them they will think you're joking...
I've been there for a moment. Depression isn't just sadness, and it's only when you're in it that you understand what it is truly. Depression, thankfully isn't my main problem. I struggle a lot with anxiety, which can sometimes lead to depression. Take care of you ❤️ if there's a thing I've learned is that nothing is more important than your health.
I'm so exhausted. feel like I'm repeating the same day over and over, same routine, same feelings, same meaningless drama. I'm so sick of it. I just want to feel alive and be happy but I'm constantly drained and everything feels so pointless. I just feel dead
You ever just forget your alive because your living a whole diffrent life in your head? The ammount of times I came up to the realization that my reality is the worse reality possible for me haunts me every night
@@julioamador157 اهلا وسهلا اذا نجحت في تطبيق هذا الاختبار , انت بنفسك ستعرف سبب هذه المشكلة , وعلى اساسها سيكون العلاج وبسيط لانك عرفت سبب المرض , ولن تحتاج لطبيب ولا تدفع فلوس . 1- تجلس عى كرس او باي طريقة تريحك - على السرير 2- المكان هدوء ليس فيه ازعاج او تلفزيون او موسيقى 3- ان تقرأ هذه الكلمات يعني تقرأ بقلبك ولا تحرك لسانك هذه اهم نقاط اللهم لك الحمد كما ينبغي لجلال وجهك وعظيم سلطانك اللهم لك الحمد حمدا كثيرا طيبا مباركا اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب الساء اللهم اني مظلوم اللهم اني مهموم اللهم اني مغموم اللهم اني محسود اللهم اني محسود حسبنا الله على من ظلمني حسبنا الله على من آذاني حسبنا الله على من أمرضني حسبنا الله على من حسدني حسبنا الله على من سحرني حسبنا الله على من ضيق صدري - وسبب لي هماً وغماً وكآبة اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل حسبنا الله على كل شيطان وشيطانة حسبنا الله على كل مارد وماردة حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع الحسده حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع السحره اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل
When I was a little kid and heard of suicide I couldn't come up with a reason for anyone (including me) to do it. I'm sad to say it but now I can make a list. The brain works in mysterious ways. I actually have a lot to live for but sometimes I just feel like life is too much.
Same... I remember when I was younger when somebody threw himself in front of a train (which happens quite often here) I never understood how someone could do that. Now a couple days ago I was walking next to the rails at a train station and thought that everything would be so much easier if I just fell on them-.-
It’s so difficult to describe depression to someone who’s never been there because it’s not sadness. Psilocybin containing mushrooms save my life. The drastically reduced my benzodiazepine withdrawal allowing me to quite illicit pill addiction after three years of heavy daily use before it would had became medically dangerous to quit
Yeah... absolutely right,it's not sadness I live in Michigan….suffering for awhile now but didnt realize how serious I may have it until recently - probably bc of @self medicating” with alcohol
I made researches and found out that shrooms are very helpful , it has really helped to reduce anxiety and depression and some other mental health issues..i would love to try magic mushrooms but they are hard to source! Anyone can help?
I've been experiencing this constant, unbearable and severe part of depression and anxiety because of my past..not until I came across Myco_louiis.. he really saved me
To whoever is reading this, you are special and I love you. I don’t care if I don’t know you. I love you because EVERY human is WORTHY of love and being loved 🩷 stay strong.
Idk man, all of you people think we live in fairytales like cinderella, like we supposed to be forever happily ever after,...why don't you go build something, cook m3th, go to medschool, cut down weight to 50kgs, learn to play drums, whatever inspires & floats your boat, the world is yours, grow some fvcking balls & stick to a masterplan, & then you'll see what i mean
I'm also a depressant, I knew that when I consulted an online doctor, I told my family, but they didn't show any interest that I've had so much in three years, but nobody cares, so I decided to go to college in psychiatry, and this is my first year hoping I could help myself and all my teenage peers and others.
Honestly it's been years I have felt that everyone thinks I'm boring. I realised I used to get triggered and say something like "friendships are useless" they probably thought I have some issues and I really got private after that. Since then Im always concerned whenever I meet people and ask them or myself, am I boring? Idk why I do that maybe I'm insecure 😔
since childhood I loved the game of chess, now it's like "it's just trapping a stupid king inside a corner of the board and giving it checkmate, seen it countless times, why bother."
Waking up every day knowing nothing is changing cause you're on your own. Just going onward because you hope things might get better... some day.. I'm sure alot of us can relate but we don't all get the help we need. 🥺
Eduardo Farías 2 hours ago I went into bed and my mom came to see me and there were tears in my eyes and she asked if I was ok and I said yes because I’m scared, lost, afraid and I made such a fake smile and then just bring out my tears. I am still awake. I’m supposed to be sleeping. I can’t stop crying.
I can't get out of my house and if i do i try to find every excuse to return. I can't eat, sleep, study or focus on anything. I feel a sense of numbness that doesn't leave me. I feel like I have no purpose in life and that no one has ever loved me o will ever love me. I'm just so tired of having to live in this conditions and I feel that if I seek for help it will be useless.
Dear person, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUG YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) All I want for you is to stay and feel alive. Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. I need you here with me :). Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words-:) ❤️💞
Thing is, I am that guy to myself Everytime I say "I wanna end it" or "I'm gonna end it later in life if i become a nobody" In my head all I say is "why do u think like this, your life isn't that difficult, your only 16". and I'll just start to cry but I'll just go somewhere where nobody can see me and I'll just wipe the tears off and pretend everything's fine.
i dont remember what it feels like to be happy. positive emotions have gone as if they had been never existed. and peace can turn into nothing that is suffer
@RECITE-GOD-PURIFY-ME-EACH-SECOND I appreciate the time and effort it took to write such a long message, I read it, will try to remember it. Thank you.
I can relate to this so badly and it is awful. It makes us feel miserable and even more lonely. I can't go on this way, it hurts to get by. There are no words to describe it.
when you cry so much... just laying there, on the bathroom floor, curled up into a ball, absolutely empty. Nothing ever matters at that point. Not your pet, your parents, your friends. Nobody.
When you find it hard to cry but you can feel the emotion that's causing it inside you. Or when you feel like you're the one at fault for it. Or when you have no reason to feel depressed but it's just there. Or when you finally start crying you start to give yourself crap over "being a pity party, attention seeker" when in reality you know you're hurting but your mind makes it think you're not. Or when you're trying to write a comment like this and tell yourself that you're lying about how you feel to assure yourself that you're not depressed and that you are weak. Or when you lose trust in yourself because your depression believes you lie about how you feel. That you shouldn't cry because of yourself. That other people have it worse, yet you tell yourself that it is okay to cry and that regardless it's okay to feel hurt even if something minor caused you to feel that way. But your brain never listens, it only believes what the depression says, not you.
I relate so much to this, my mind just constantly gravitates to violent and graphic suicides but my body won’t let me do it. It’s so command frustrating
Have you ever thought about your goal in life, why we were created, I advise you to read the Qur'an, believe me you will find many answers in it, and understand life correctly.
It’s been about 4 years since I first watched this. This video helped me a lot realising that what I was going through was depression and thus was not problem of my weakness, and also encouraged me to get professional help. I was certain that I was a pathetic, stupid and weak person to feel this way and that I am going to end life before I become 21. I have been to the ER and also the police station couple times for attempt. Guess how old I am now. I’ve got a new dream and a new life now. I reached out for help and my family have changed a lot. As many of you already know, depression is not an easy disease to get rid of. I am not completely Ok. I still take low dosage of anti depression pill. But things are better and I feel positive things like hope and happiness in my life. I am certain that I will feel those things more and more as time goes on. If anyone’s watching this feeling the way I used to, I just want you to not blame yourself for whatever what you are going through, and please do not give up on yourself. Many people will help you if you want them to, but the most important part is whether you want yourself to be saved. I am not telling you to act on something actively. I am just asking you to please do not lose the very little hope about your life that life ‘may’ be better for you at some point. Having that thought itself is enough. I am glad that I didn’t kill myself the way I had planned. I am not really good at motivating people but I really wanted to give a little bit of strength and help for you who reached out to this video in curiosity of what yourselves are going through. It is not your fault. And even though you don’t believe it now, you life WILL be better.
Ahmed Zain i asked my parents a lot of times but they don’t believe in mental illnesses, so i won’t be able to go to one until i’m independent from them
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thank you for your service ❤
It is amazing after this time Kat, that you still care.
Go outside and get some exercise that’s the real cure to your “depression”
You don’t understand how the human body works
Where is your video about Anxiety? Why did u delete it
depression feels like you’re not living.. you’re just existing.
Fuck life
You can't see people's without depression who have biggest problem
Mya Janego ^
@Lucas Sebastián i dont understand what even is the problem with you people...
@Lucas Sebastián no one gives a shit so stop whining
“you don’t really wanna die , you just don’t wanna live this life”
Yes 😭😭😭
Cute, but there is no choose your character. You're stuck with who you are and if who you are is a worthless piece of shit, then that's the life you're stuck living. I've tried the reset multiple times. 4 different cities. Different stages of life. It's all the same. The only constant is me and my shitty existence.
True i swear i wish had someones else life literally!!!
@@Xasu21 Hello, I feel the same way. I didn't eat for 2 days, even water, I am such a disgrace.😢😢
@@Xasu21 please keep fighting with depression, dont stop trying and believe in yourself. Stay strong
It's weird I'm going to type this but, whenever I'm depressed I re-watch this video just to feel understood.
It isn't weird at all, I do the same thing.
Depression is like just live a life because you dont want to upset your family
remember kids depression isn’t cool or quirky it’s a serious illness and should be treated like such
As a young person with depression and a (maybe) minor case of anxiety, I know its not cool or anything. Unfortunately many others my age think mental illnesses are cool and stuff. I have never come out of the mental closet and said anything about my current mental state to my friends or family. Luckily there are some things that help and help me forget I even have it, for a short period of time.
the thing is when I tell people that I feel depressed they take it as a joke when it’s rly not
Well when I try tell my friends or people they say me to I fell sad it’s not just sad ness it’s family issues people billing they take stuff as a joke
You have not passed the vibe check
Radiation whatever dood Chernobyl dood what
“We’re just here... waiting for another day to pass”
bangtan bts true
I mostly enjoy the night because the thoughts are not so intrusive as in the day (you know, the bad thoughts). But I rarely stay up at night. I love to sleep :)
Charlie Bank uh
ARMY omg i feel you but bts has stopped all this
Yep
What I found when going through long term depression is that you somewhat unknowingly look for things that ‘feed’ the depression. The state of mind you’re experiencing makes you listen to music that you relate to, with a downcast and negative outlook on everything. You tend to look for things that connect with the feelings you’ve been experiencing (or lack of). All these things often pull you further into this way of thinking and living. You hide from the world and use these things as fuel for the pain.
"Days become indistinguishable" is so true. My memory is getting worse - sometimes I can't even remember whether something happened today or yesterday. At least it doesn't matter because nothing of importance happens in my life anyway.
So true.
It was a week ago, a year ago?
Sometimes i cant answer that question.
"Why would you keep on trying if nothing makes you happy anyway"
yea thats the feeling even you dont want to it haunts you
@@ninojonathancruz-nogoy7923 😢😢😢
Others.
I'm depressed for 4 fucking years and still no cuts.
Let's Commit Suicide But Before Dead I'm Gonna Take All Off Drugs
Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends, but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely. It's feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.
Trisha Nicole but no one will ever understand unless they have it
@@niamhthrelfall3384 i agree that's why i'm afraid to tell it to my parents cause i know they're not gonna believe it and will call me "overreacting and emotional"
Perfectly explained. Exactly how I feel with my depression
This is destroying me. And I don't know what to do.
Spot on
No one has ever explained depression better than this video
I suffered severe anxiety,depression mental disorder for over 24 years. It's just amazing how psilocybin mushrooms treatment actually saved my life. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
They saved you from death bud, lets be honest here. and mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on this planet i wish people would all realize.
I've been looking to try shrooms for depression, just very difficult to get a
reliable source here in Canada. Really need!
Yes sure of Dr.benfungi
I hate that psilocybin gets grouped with drugs like cocaine and heroin. Mushrooms are a remedy, not a vice! My daughter has just started this, unbelievable results already. Off pharm meds for Anxiety and depression and best of all. Her ADD has practically gone when she doses. I'm so happy after trying so hard to focus., she can now get on with her life, no longer stuck in a hole xx
How do i reach out to him? Is he on Instagram
Has anyone felt like when you hang out with a small group of friends,you just get ignored and always feel the odd one out and that is least cared about?
Exactly so relatable. I just don't understand why are there no people in our own circle who actually understands about this fucking thing with anxiety and depression. (Sorry for the strong language)
Yeah, and I am always the last choice of my friends.
I feel like if I was in a group with a murderer and thief, I would still be the person who no one would want to hang out with
True, i always felt alone, everybody already had their own closed friend, n i'm the only one who left out. But the worst thing is when u start developed a hatred feeling to your friend, because it felt like your best friend just got stolen. And it make u hate yourself even more, for having such a feeling. And just hide it with a smile.
Aurelia Natalien omg that’s exactly me, and no matter where I go I’m always going to be the friend that no one cares about
the hardest thing on having depression is wanting to die but being afraid of death
Queen Ashley Aguila
Yeah it’s painful but that just means we won the battle yet again fuck depression it’s not taking over my life
Why these feelings come to some people , why others not ???? They feel so happy ! there is sth going on in here ,we should find out ? we must use our mind ,think think
youcef baba
Endomorphins
There are many reasons depression can be caused but as well there are many treatments
(Excersize, supplements, lifestyle change, setting goals etc...)
Watch the Ted talk on depression it’s a white doctor who specializes in depression
Ya
I feel the same thing sometimes. I sometimes think that what if I sleep and never wake up.
When I was a teenager and I didn’t know I was depressed I described my depression as a big dark cloud following me everywhere. I said it doesn’t always rain but the cloud is always there.
This is exactly what I feel, but I couldn't find the right words. Thank you. I will say this when anyone asks me
Mine is an ocean of sadness which has constant moving waves and occationally tsunamis hit you out of nowhere
It's a bottomless pit which I have failed to fill
A girl liked me when in was younger and I said are you joking
Exactly
its been 7 years since this video came out, and i still feel the same
Same
try to see a therapist!!💕
same and its getting worse every yr
1. your gut microbiome has a fundemental role for your mental state
chances are, you have sufferered from a bacterial infection
to combat this, go carnivore to starve thee bacteria from energy (carbs)
you should feel better in 2 weeks
2. testosterone also plays a major role with dopamine release (the hormone responsible for pleeasure and motivation)
so increase in testosterone will increase dopamine
to increase testosterone:
-don't eat shit
-lift heavy shit
-literaly go outside (the goal is sunlight exposure, its still fine if the weather is ass)
-hang out with the opposite gender (or the one that you consider hot)
-practice semen retention
-be more competitive
-prevent fear from controlling your actions, let ur balls hang low and be more risk taking
-deep breathing excercies (to lower stress)
fun fact: Taking anti depressant will make you suffer from erectile dysfunction. But the same companies are also making viagra, their "cure" for erectile dysfunction.
3. Lack off motivation and pleasure is a lack of dopamine/seratonine. The way these hormones works is that they have to fluctuate. When having a lot of pleasure, dopamine levels will rise, but then have to fall below baseline which will make you feel like shit. To combat that, deliberitly choose to feel like shit so that your body will have no choice but to kick back your dopamine levels above baseline.
4. Practice gratitude. This is fundemental. Bring a paper & pen and write down 10 things ur gratefull for per day. While doing this ur gonna notice that you automatically feel slightly better. If you do this every day you will condition your mind to always have gratitude
5. Your thoughts control your emotions. lemme explain
When you think about that exam ur gonna have tomorrow you feel stressed
When you think about that person, your body feels warm
When you think about bringing a lemon, slicing that lemon, smelling that lemon, and lick on that piece of lemon, your mouth will start to drool.
6. Nothing feels better than seeing the physical manifestation of your hard work. Speaking from experience.
lets be straight.
ur life is not shit because u have depression, u have depression because ur life is shit
DO NOT LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU OTHERWISE. THEY ARE WEAK PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FEEL SORRY FOR THEIR LAZINESS WAKE UP THE MATRIX IS REAL WAKEE UP
@@niggyhuru5388 I felt as if you have a background in depression, I need your help. I have depression for three years, and I follow up with a psychiatrist. Depression completely affected my studies. I feel that my life has stopped. I have no desire for anything in life. Mama and Papa are the reason for my illness How can I get rid of all that and not let it affect my future completely How can I live a normal life
I don’t remember what it feels like to wake up in the morning and be happy
I'm sorry to hear, I know it's hard. I do. But dont give up 5 mins before the miracle. Change will come.
Same
Same. I wonder if everyone had ever been in this phase. Or is it just me? Just some people?
Same, I feel stuck in the same state of mind and I can't find my way out anymore.
Larissa P same 😭
What people think I have: 100% Sadness
What I actually have...: 20% Guilt, 15% Anxiety, 15% Tiredness, 20% Lost, 30% Worthless
😢
Please try Bach flower remedy , Rescue
Read my book "How dare you make me sad" Kishore Asrani
I hope we can talk 😔
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@@kishoreasrani whats your book about and where can I find it
Who else keeps coming back to this video from time to time ?
I’m not sure how she had the energy and desire to do sit-ups, get dressed, walk out the door, go to work, etc as a depressed person?! I’m impressed.
I agree. I don't really get these videos
I experienced both types of depression. Its like being very aware of consequences so you partake in life anyways, while feeling completely hopeless and numb on the inside. Doing things you have to do so you dont wither away. Depression can look happy and put together on the outside. But on the inside its empty and you wonder how long u can keep it up before you try to end it.
@@kimberlyna13 that's literally me rn
it's the worst when you want to cry but your mind is just empty and numb
a a yes it’s very hard 99 of the time it’s like that
a a bish it aint empty if u anxious all the time
i hate it when i want to cry but i don't even have the energy for that
Emotionally dead - me
yes
depression doesn't care if you have loving parents who are still together, depression doesn't care if you haven't been through trauma, depression doesn't care how good your life was.
sleepy oli God damnit I want to cry. I just don't understand how I got this when my life is perfect. I have a loving mom and dad. I had friends... Until I pushed them away. I have two sisters and a brother... But yet I'm still sad. I feel like it's my fault; like I'm being ungrateful or something. I'm surrounded by love, yet I'm not able to feel it because the darkness is just to much to fight the light.
Kittens RBAE depression is a terrible thing, and it's also stereotyped for people with traumatic childhoods or abusive relationships or bereavement. Which makes it harder to cope with if you aren't under that category because the only thing left to blame is yourself even if you've done no wrong
everything you just said actually applies to me so I'm the stereotype but whenever I talk to someone about it they ask me WHY I'm depressed like I know. Like, they expect a reason for everything and social anxiety too. The most annoying questions are "how did it start? why are you depressed/socially anxious?" It's like they want a reason so they can belittle your depression. If the reason isn't good enough (traumatic enough) they'll dismiss it and assume whatever they want about you. I hate humans. And one other thing is age. If you're a certain age, say a teenager, then they won't take you seriously at all. They'll just assume you're going through another phase. Including family btw. I hate this. I can't wait to die.
Depression is not a fucking entity, stop feeding it like one.
Fujoshi Chan
I totally agree. Ive been depressed for years now but i couldnt find how it started or what the cause. It's just something that suddenly occurs in me. Ive backed away from friends and even isolated myself from family members. My mom ofc noticed it and tried confronted me for so many times but i just couldnt know how to explain because i know she'll demand such reasons. And when i finally wanted to say something and couldnt give any reasons, she just couldnt understand and stared at me like im a poor child, she said depression must have a cause. She blame my insomnia nights and sleep during days and says im lazy. She blame me because i couldnt find a job because i cant go out with this comfort zone, i cant socialite, i cant go on the outside world. All of that made an impression to my mom that im just a useless piece of shit, worthless person and lazy overreacting daughter. Ofc she wont say it to me, but i know she kind of think that way :(
I wanna be happy again
Depression is living in a body that wants to die. It’s having a soul with no feeling, it’s being numb to life and faking happiness so those around you don’t have to pry and tell you what’s wrong with you.
This is exactly how I feel. I've been suffering like this for months now... I wish everyone else who suffers this the best.
*"Depression is not wanting to die but wishing you were never born"*
Are you depressed
@@hermionegranger9367 if you're asking, if I ever felt that way than yeah, I have.
@Goose! I can understand your situation, I hope you'll feel alright soon.
So what would be the cure...i really hate it...i feel like every think is black i even don't care abuot it...i can't stop thinking...i can't sleep in rest ... the day for me is as same as the night...confused...all the time...and i wake up in every each day telling my self am gone struggle and make some changes but useless???...🖤💔🖤
yeah bc when i kill myself ill be guilty bc then all of friends, the family are depressed, sad or even guilty and that's on me. but if i was never born they wouldn't need to care.
"I don't wanna die, but sometimes I wish I'd never been born at all."
- Freddie Mercury
Its my favorite part of bohemian Rhapsody. Really hits you in the feels. Also that Line "goodbye everybody I've got to go. Got to leave you all behind and face the truth". I often shut myself off from "friends" to reflect on how meaningless my life and relationships are.
I really love Freddie, but by the way, Freddie has never been depressed, you can't imagine how lively he was for a dying man.
That's literally my thought everyday. Dying is the hardest. Never being born or suddenly disappearing without pain would be best. Especially when you have few people connected to you.
@@trynalive24 we are with you
👍
I've been struggling with heavy suicidality for almost a decade now, and whenever I get really close to an attempt and I feel I cannot reach out to anyone, I come back to this video and it gives me a few more days. I don't think I've met anyone that can describe the self destruction aspect so perfectly.
Thank you.
You are beautiful and brave for resisting and holding on to hope
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I know that it can feel this way but please try to keep on finding people that you can reach out to there are many people like you who feel the same way
Maggie I pray you will heal.
It hurts how much i relate to this video.. Vicious cycle of depressing episodes sometimes drains you out to the extent where you cant do anything anymore..
Yeah I feel numb and I feel like a failure
When your mom thinks you’re lazy but you’re depressed...
I can very much relate to that
Some kids pretend to be depressed but they are just sad
@@cat1800 then, you haven't been through depression yet, mate
Rosa Old did i say that i’ve been through depression like wtf
@@cat1800 no you haven't i know, but don't you dare say that people just act fucking depressed, because no. They don't. They have a lot of bad stuff going on. They're not simply sad. They may not eat or sleep, and they may commit suicide or self harm. Is someone who committed suicide, simply sad?
The answer is No. So before you say something like that, think better about what people may be going through and if you still dissagee then you are welcome to leave.
Depression is like living in a body that is trying to fight for survival but with a mind that wants to die
Best comment ever
Oh wow this made me tear up
Wow its 3 in the morning this hit me hard
Can San more like wishes it was never born
hkhggj hjlfg Only cuz it’s off the internet. It’s literally everywhere lol
Watching this 7 years after my depression, to be honest idk how it makes me feel, but i do remember perfectly how this video helped me out with the bad emotions that i used to have. Videos like these are absolutely necessary. I thanked you 7 years ago, and i thank you now, again; Thank you so much Kat.
How u got cured lady?
She didn't have depression
It's now 2023 and this video still makes sense to me. Sad generation with happy insta stories :/
Get off social media first of all. No wonder you’re depressed. People purposely try to act like their lives are all perfect and happy on those apps. It’s all for the likes. Nothing on instagram is realistic. It’s all fake.
depression is like drowning, but everyone on the outside is yelling at you to just breathe
If you're drowning, then gather all your efforts to swim out of the water
@@28_savage67 And when you swim at least near the surface, people will see you and certainly help you
hi ! 💅 you are amazing
at least 10 people love you, don’t leave
• Starri Kitty • thanks for the kind encouragement
I heard that quote!: im sorry for people who have Depression
To me,sleep isn't just sleep anymore,it's an escape
Sleep is close to death just peacefull
Since I can't suicide I sleep to forget about everything
@@justeunepersonne6636 i tried it 2 times 1 time i was close. It is just that my depression stays the same whatever i try. I also am a very sensitive person for this cruel world. Sleep is so perfect i feel more alive when i sleep then i am awake.
@@martiangirl9411 so whats ur story
ღѕнιмα ღ the thing is I can't seem to sleep now :/
"What's it like being depressed? "
It feels like, ... Like you don't remember what better feels like
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favourite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favourite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64.Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. Pray (if you are religious)
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realizing that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Someone’s skin against yours.
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it.
Ps : Never forget you are a beatiful person 💕 Life is so beatiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶🏼
this was so beautiful, but tbh I don't think any of this makes sense to me any more.
I'm sure this was well intentioned but there is a glaring problem with #1. Parents most likely made us like this. fuck them
@@lumis2004I hope u are doing atleast a bit better and happier now than before❤,just remember You are important and you are loved💝,I'll be rooting for u🦋✨️
@@thanuja6887 this touched me so much! I feel WAY better than when I wrote this, of course some days are worse than others, but I am the winner!
You can do all that in Heaven. Life on earth is torture. If yiu have true depression all those things will not help anyway. ( anhedobia)
depression is like being colorblind and people are constantly telling you how colorful the world is
Wow
omg.. u said it pretty pretty well! i love and at the same time hate how it actually feels accurate
And how much color you'll see...soon. It'll get better soon. You'll be able to see color, soon. It's always, in the future you'll get better. But I dont see a future for myself.
Me with depression and colorblindness: 👁👄👁 I'm screwed
Wooooooooww
You know it’s gone bad again when you’re searching for these videos.
Jah
Yeah
yeah...
Now this hit
yh
I see a therapist now and I find it so hard to even explain what I'm feeling. I've been alone now for 5 years and its tough to keep fighting. This is the most accurate speech I've come across!!
The most scariest part is being socially alone but never personally
It feels like homesickness, but you don't know where home is.
It's like:
Anywhere not at home: I want to go home.
Finally at home: I want to go./I don't want to be here./I want to go home.
Home is with the people I love (most of them are dead)
Karston Bell shitt man im so sorry pls stay strong i will pray for you ❤️
Maria Torossian my bed
The "home" you're pertaining to when you where child now it ending up "where's home?"
Reasons I live:
• I was born.
• I haven't died yet.
Wow. Seems like two little sentences but it is a whole book for people like us.
Dying isn't cool. Don't die.
@@Laiser But life also not cool, should I live? Maybe death isn't cool, or isn't the sollution, but what if it's better than live yoir life without happiness or just feeling anything exept pain, numb and nothing
currently crying my eyes out bc ur right 😀
@@reka5924 thing is that’s not your life. it’s your life right now, but this is just a temporary stage of your life. depression makes you short-sighted when in actuality things DO get better because that is the literal nature of life. absolutely nothing is permanent. no matter how bad it feels, no matter how long it’s gone on, it ends. you will come through the other side of it and be so glad you did. it will all just be a memory. you can’t throw away all life has waiting for you on temporary pain. stay strong dude.
I listened to this when I was 14 and had the biggest cries while listening to it. Now I’m 20 years old And it never goes away completely. You start accepting it, living with it, and u definitely have ur good moments. Appreciate those moments and try to not fall back. Thanks for this vudeo. Every time i watch or hear it I feel like I am not alone. I mean I always cry and fall a little deeper when I hear this but I know it’s worth fighting. Sometimes. Somehow
1. your gut microbiome has a fundemental role for your mental state
chances are, you have sufferered from a bacterial infection
to combat this, go carnivore to starve thee bacteria from energy (carbs)
you should feel better in 2 weeks
2. testosterone also plays a major role with dopamine release (the hormone responsible for pleeasure and motivation)
so increase in testosterone will increase dopamine
to increase testosterone:
-don't eat shit
-lift heavy shit
-literaly go outside (the goal is sunlight exposure, its still fine if the weather is ass)
-hang out with the opposite gender (or the one that you consider hot)
-practice semen retention
-be more competitive
-prevent fear from controlling your actions, let ur balls hang low and be more risk taking
-deep breathing excercies (to lower stress)
fun fact: Taking anti depressant will make you suffer from erectile dysfunction. But the same companies are also making viagra, their "cure" for erectile dysfunction.
3. Lack off motivation and pleasure is a lack of dopamine/seratonine. The way these hormones works is that they have to fluctuate. When having a lot of pleasure, dopamine levels will rise, but then have to fall below baseline which will make you feel like shit. To combat that, deliberitly choose to feel like shit so that your body will have no choice but to kick back your dopamine levels above baseline.
4. Practice gratitude. This is fundemental. Bring a paper & pen and write down 10 things ur gratefull for per day. While doing this ur gonna notice that you automatically feel slightly better. If you do this every day you will condition your mind to always have gratitude
5. Your thoughts control your emotions. lemme explain
When you think about that exam ur gonna have tomorrow you feel stressed
When you think about that person, your body feels warm
When you think about bringing a lemon, slicing that lemon, smelling that lemon, and lick on that piece of lemon, your mouth will start to drool.
6. Nothing feels better than seeing the physical manifestation of your hard work. Speaking from experience.
lets be straight.
ur life is not shit because u have depression, u have depression because ur life is shit
DO NOT LISTEN TO ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU OTHERWISE. THEY ARE WEAK PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FEEL SORRY FOR THEIR LAZINESS WAKE UP THE MATRIX IS REAL WAKEE UP
Been living with depression for 5 years.. never got help. I live in sociaty where depression is a taboo topic that almost no one dares to acknowledge. My life had been on pause for all these years, my happiness, my dreams, my beauty, my social life, my personal hygiene, all were gone a long time ago.. my youth. My youth!! I've done nothing during my youth! No friends, no relationships, no jobs, no fun, no nothing.. and it kills me!! It kills me so much and i'm tired of this, i wanna get help, i'm seeking and begging for help but i still haven't got it and i'm afraid i'll never do. Living in poverty, with such closed minded parents who think i'm just a lazy useless kid who doesn't shower nor sleep well and no hobbies. I'm begging for help.. i can't even end my life, i can't be that selfish, i love my mom too much to just leave and let her suffer my loss... that's why i want help. What should i do? God what should i do?? I'm at my limit. All i see is darkness.. i'm tired of living a lifeless life.. i wanna be normal again. Please pray for me.
I really pray for you please smile don't care about your society I am with you..... You're not the only one who feels like that.... Please be happy.......... 💦💜
You are not the only dear. History is full of the likes of you and me…it’s ok to be this way. Get help and medication and things will get better
💖🤍 Ask your heart what to do : « I ask my heart what to do to feel better ? » listen the answer 💖🤍 Recite « God purify me » each second during days, more if need, create miracles 💖🤍 To heal someone : « God purify heal Name + Last name + Link with person (sister/brother/mother/father/friends/and so on) » 💖🤍 Broadcast audio prayer nights and days create miracles
the only thing ive done during my youth is travel when i got better.all the other times i had no friends and sawno one.its an awful feeling
I don’t recall the last time I was genuinely happy.
:(
sm😔😞😣
😞😞
Me too
Lola Vengeance me too...idk what happened but ever since 2016 ive just not been happy.
When you get home and can stop being “the funny guy” .......that’s me
It’s crazy how the funny people in life are the ones who are really depressed. Ironic huh. U portray happiness coz u can’t feel it urself. It’s sad. I hate it, not as much as my sudden depression moments that hid me outta nowhere. But it’s up there. It’s like there’s 2 versions of u that ur living. The socially accepted version, the one u wanna be. And the one u really are when ur home / alone.
DualNexus yeah I’m also an extrovert so when I feel depressed people are angry because I’m supposed to brighten up their day
Okay Peter Griffin
We always have that mascara we put on in front of others, but when we're finally alone, no one knows the pain we have to face.
That's me
As a person who is fighting clinical depression since past three years with anti depressants and therapy and an untreated relapse after medication, no one should ever go through this. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy. The word depression might sound normal to people who haven’t had it, but to us suffering from it, this mental illness is our home. A home we don’t wanna live in and a home that we can’t move out of. At first everything will seem very overwhelming, panicking and hyper, but slowly if it becomes persistent everything feels numb, silent, lonely and unbearable. We want to die and be free from it but we really can’t, so we become bound to live with it. It sucks up all the emotions and happiness, leaving you with just numbness and suffocating thoughts. People often try to be positive, act happy and normal but inside they are crying, weeping, sad and lonely and desperately praying to god to feel better and live a normal life.
“A sudden positive upsurge” hits deep.. Hope I don’t get that feel again. Ever!
The worst part is when in the middle of the night you suddenly feels positive and decide the next morning you're gonna wake up and change everything. But then the next morning comes and you realize that nothing changed and you just wanna stay in bed where is safe
I'm so fucking tired of this cycle :(
It's like you hope that by the morning you would get magically cured, but you dont, and you can't do anything about it
This comment had me crying
:/
for me it's worse at nighttime, but it still lingers during the day
stay strong, friend
so true'
“I like being alone because when I’m with others I feel lonely”
Literally exactly how I feel I’m 13 and I have drank for the past 4 days it just makes me forget and I can’t stop
Me too -_____-
Haha so true...even I sometimes like to attend the crowd..i'd love to see people..but yeah,,,I am.just standing there quietly...and IDGF. like I must pass this event, as passing by a level in a video game.
Same
We all one team I feel lonely since young age. I don’t have actual real friend
They say the 20's are the best time of your life . . .
I'm 29 now, had my first suicide attempt at 20 . . . and never had a moment where I thought "luckily, I survived. This was worth the living."
I'm afraid of what's ahead of me.
I used to watch this when I was 18. All my childhood trauma didn’t let me be happy, I would cry every day, every single night. I met my boyfriend, and he helped, but the most significant change in my life was my pet, my little exotic pet, my little black chicken, "Negra." She was so little, I took care of her, loved her, she grew so fast and made me happy, she gave emotions to my life and I was eager to wake up every day to feed her and spend time together, after four years there was no trace of my sadness. I loved her will all my heart. She passed away last year, and I couldn't stand it, I made a garden for her. I feel an enormous hole in my soul now that she is gone. My bf was the only person I trusted all these years, but he disappointed me so much in the most horrible way that he could. They both helped me to recover my soul. Now that they are gone, I feel lonely, but depression is not part of my life anymore. The only pure creature that could take it away was that little black hen I will always love from the button of my heart. I can't wait to join you someday, Negra.
Depressed people are not weak. They are the strongest people. They fight more than anyone else and fall more than anyone else but still decide to get up. Depression is a very deep battle inside a human being and is not fixed by blaming them for being depressed. Love them no matter what they are going through ,embrace them when they are frustrated for no reason and don't give up on them.
F Ala made me cry because its so true:(
anna batees hope for the best ❤... best u can do
anna batees if u need to talk give me ur Instagram account ❤
Princess Fet / i thank you so much for that paragraph. people who don't have depression think its the easiest thing ever and that we are weak people, but we're not. we are the strongest people.
Princess Fet i wish everyone would think the same way..
Everything that was described here, everything. I feel everything that was mentioned. Everyday. It's constant - unbearably constant.
I remember seeing this video when it first came out and not really comprehending what depression really is. Now watching this 7 years later it's devastating to say that I've come to the point of knowing exactly what you're talking about. But now I can also acknowledge this masterpiece and your ability to grasp the very essence of depression with such impeccable storytelling even more.
Depression is like constantly wanting to go home even though you're already there
the gulf of endless misery
One of the best comments! I never thought about it before but it's just how it is! Shortest way ever to describe depresión!
To me heaven is home, probably why I want to just die already :\
❤️
wow thats poetic
"In the end you choose to be alone in your comfort zone where no one asks any questions."
I'm doing it now
Depression is like an endless tunnel you keep walking and walking in day and night without rest. You get more and more tired, your steps heavier and heavier. All your hear is the lonely echo of them. The exit seems unreachable, no matter how hard you try. And spending so much time in the dark already, your eyes become weak and blind, failing to even see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.
My god, it describes every single thing, and I mean it, EVERY SINGLE THING that I feel. Never seen anything more relatable. I shouldn't be saying this, but it feels better somewhere inside to see that what I am feeling is not unique.
I'm sitting in my room in the dark crying because this is all me. I am suffering and alone.. I am so tired.
+Anastasia Brooks me too
*hugs* me too
me too
+Anastasia Brooks I can't even cry.
Me too
So many years of education yet nobody taught us how to love ourselves
Everybody loves themselves
@@butterbread566 I don't believe that
@@butterbread566 so why did you try to kill yourself? Because you couldn't stand this or that. Because things were to tough for you. Because you thought it'd be the easiest way for you. See? What we think of when we consider suicide is just ourselves. It's probably the most egoistic thing to do. That's self-love to me. Only caring about ourselves.
@@pt.is.education5747 well yeah, but others often don't show that they care about you. They only do when it's too late. Maybe you want someone to prevent you from suicide, but there isn't anyone, so you think that they wouldn't be too sad about your death
@@butterbread566 Don't suffer in silence, you are important to us.
Each time I feel misunderstood, I listen to this video. I feel understood. Thank you for that.
As much as I can truly relate and sympathize with this entire video, can I just take a moment to say how much I love your cinematography? The way you film these videos is so impressive. I know the subject material is the real point here but I appreciate the technical artistry that goes into these so much, I just had to say something.
thanks :)
People in comments understand better than my psychologist
juste une personne My psychiatric also doesn’t understand the way people in the comments do
talk to thm ..talk to anyone who understands you...you can talk to me as well i will not judge you n also i dont know you
yeah bcz drs have not been through this all ..thy just knw the taught stuff
Same
because many have experienced it
To everyone in the comments,
“I hope one day you fall in love with being alive.”
Jhope is my hope I love you
Depression doesn't know what hope is.
thanks for your wishes
that’ll never happen lmao
Some things aren't possible
The worst thing is you can't ask for help your family and friends already having their own struggles ... and if you cried infront of them they will think you're joking...
I've been there for a moment. Depression isn't just sadness, and it's only when you're in it that you understand what it is truly. Depression, thankfully isn't my main problem. I struggle a lot with anxiety, which can sometimes lead to depression. Take care of you ❤️ if there's a thing I've learned is that nothing is more important than your health.
I'm so exhausted. feel like I'm repeating the same day over and over, same routine, same feelings, same meaningless drama. I'm so sick of it. I just want to feel alive and be happy but I'm constantly drained and everything feels so pointless. I just feel dead
You ever just forget your alive because your living a whole diffrent life in your head? The ammount of times I came up to the realization that my reality is the worse reality possible for me haunts me every night
هل تتكلم العربية ؟
هل عندك ضيق الصدر
كأنه جبل على صدرك
yes..
@@julioamador157 اهلا وسهلا
اذا نجحت في تطبيق هذا الاختبار , انت بنفسك ستعرف سبب هذه المشكلة , وعلى اساسها سيكون العلاج وبسيط لانك عرفت سبب المرض , ولن تحتاج لطبيب ولا تدفع فلوس
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1- تجلس عى كرس او باي طريقة تريحك - على السرير
2- المكان هدوء ليس فيه ازعاج او تلفزيون او موسيقى
3- ان تقرأ هذه الكلمات يعني تقرأ بقلبك ولا تحرك لسانك
هذه اهم نقاط
اللهم لك الحمد
كما ينبغي لجلال وجهك وعظيم سلطانك
اللهم لك الحمد
حمدا كثيرا طيبا مباركا
اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء
اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب السماء
اللهم رب الارض والسماء - افتح لي ابواب الساء
اللهم اني مظلوم
اللهم اني مهموم
اللهم اني مغموم
اللهم اني محسود
اللهم اني محسود
حسبنا الله على من ظلمني
حسبنا الله على من آذاني
حسبنا الله على من أمرضني
حسبنا الله على من حسدني
حسبنا الله على من سحرني
حسبنا الله على من ضيق صدري - وسبب لي هماً وغماً وكآبة
اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل
حسبنا الله على كل شيطان وشيطانة
حسبنا الله على كل مارد وماردة
حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع الحسده
حسبنا الله على من تعاون مع السحره
اللهم أنت حسبي ونعم الوكيل
Sameeee
When I was a little kid and heard of suicide I couldn't come up with a reason for anyone (including me) to do it. I'm sad to say it but now I can make a list. The brain works in mysterious ways. I actually have a lot to live for but sometimes I just feel like life is too much.
+Johanna Alnesjö Same
Agreed, curious why you personally are depressed. I like to compare my reasons with others.
true
Same... I remember when I was younger when somebody threw himself in front of a train (which happens quite often here) I never understood how someone could do that. Now a couple days ago I was walking next to the rails at a train station and thought that everything would be so much easier if I just fell on them-.-
Alpha Dog I know what you mean
It’s so difficult to describe depression to someone who’s never been there because it’s not sadness. Psilocybin containing mushrooms save my life. The drastically reduced my benzodiazepine withdrawal allowing me to quite illicit pill addiction after three years of heavy daily use before it would had became medically dangerous to quit
Yeah... absolutely right,it's not sadness
I live in Michigan….suffering for awhile now but didnt realize how serious I may have it until recently - probably bc of @self medicating” with alcohol
I made researches and found out that shrooms are very helpful , it has really helped to reduce anxiety and depression and some other mental health issues..i would love to try magic mushrooms but they are hard to source! Anyone can help?
@@sherrimandel6983 Saw some reviews about myco_louiis, looked up for him and I must recommend he is good at what he does!
He is a genius
Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, i witness this therapy few months ago
I've been experiencing this constant, unbearable and severe part of depression and anxiety because of my past..not until I came across Myco_louiis.. he really saved me
To whoever is reading this, you are special and I love you. I don’t care if I don’t know you. I love you because EVERY human is WORTHY of love and being loved 🩷 stay strong.
Depression is like having an abusive relationship with yourself.
@@rzangyz3672 bro what happened to u
So true..
Idk man, all of you people think we live in fairytales like cinderella, like we supposed to be forever happily ever after,...why don't you go build something, cook m3th, go to medschool, cut down weight to 50kgs, learn to play drums, whatever inspires & floats your boat, the world is yours, grow some fvcking balls & stick to a masterplan, & then you'll see what i mean
Fact 💔😢
But what if everything point that is made to myself, For example, is right though?
"The saddest people are the kindest, because they know what they're going through, and they don't want anyone else to feel the same way."
Thruth
True
Kaylan A. No
What about misery loves companies
Or are there just vulnerable? That they don't care if anyone uses them or not.
I'm also a depressant, I knew that when I consulted an online doctor, I told my family, but they didn't show any interest that I've had so much in three years, but nobody cares, so I decided to go to college in psychiatry, and this is my first year hoping I could help myself and all my teenage peers and others.
I never sleep properly always crying at night
Blame myself losing everything
When everyone thinks you’re boring but your depressed..
or when everyone thinks you're pretty funny but you use sarcasm to act like you're ok
@Giadinaa true
Yeah this is exactly why i stopped going out with my friends
I just don't want to spread my negative energy on them
@@RespirOrganico omg this is the one
Honestly it's been years I have felt that everyone thinks I'm boring. I realised I used to get triggered and say something like "friendships are useless" they probably thought I have some issues and I really got private after that. Since then Im always concerned whenever I meet people and ask them or myself, am I boring? Idk why I do that maybe I'm insecure 😔
“The things that used to bring you joy..are now worthless.” wow, that hit hard..
Yeap
Very true!!
since childhood I loved the game of chess, now it's like "it's just trapping a stupid king inside a corner of the board and giving it checkmate, seen it countless times, why bother."
I'm just on my phone all the time
It's because online I feel a lot more pleasure and have ibfs that I trust and feel like another person online idk
Waking up every day knowing nothing is changing cause you're on your own. Just going onward because you hope things might get better... some day..
I'm sure alot of us can relate but we don't all get the help we need. 🥺
the hardest part is when your friends and family ask if you're ok and you give your best fake smile and answer: I'm great :D
Same
Eduardo Farías Am the same here.I put on a happy front when in fact am really unhappy inside😢
Dunno, but if that friend does not reach out to you as you pull away, I dont thinks he would be a "real" friend. But that's just me.
Eduardo Farías 2 hours ago I went into bed and my mom came to see me and there were tears in my eyes and she asked if I was ok and I said yes because I’m scared, lost, afraid and I made such a fake smile and then just bring out my tears. I am still awake. I’m supposed to be sleeping. I can’t stop crying.
Mothers always understand us, it's time for you to talk with her, sweety.
this kind of storytelling 7 years ago on youtube just amazed me. Such a great content
This is so true.. I’m crying…. This has been EXTREMEELY helpful….. I struggle to cry because nothing makes me feel like I’m understood. But this? ♥️
Me too 😔 🫂
Depression is like drowning and not having the energy to swim back up.
And everyone is yelling at you just to breath
@MRSpurpule true but you know in the end you will get back up to the surface :)💖
Same 😥😭😭😭
@Krystiana wodkowska facts
@@jihaditani3721 i dont think so🙂
Depression....Its like wanting to live but at the same time wishing to die every second.......
thats me
S*** if that true then I do have Depression
@@theeclipse6912 Don't self diagnose please.
Finally, someone that just says how it is. I find great comfort in that, thank you.
I can't get out of my house and if i do i try to find every excuse to return. I can't eat, sleep, study or focus on anything. I feel a sense of numbness that doesn't leave me. I feel like I have no purpose in life and that no one has ever loved me o will ever love me. I'm just so tired of having to live in this conditions and I feel that if I seek for help it will be useless.
Dear person,
Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
I love you and send you hugs.
You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is.
Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
I WISH I COULD HUG YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
All I want for you is to stay and feel alive.
Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
I need you here with me :).
Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
I am sorry you feel misunderstood.
But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
- The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you.
I hope you will remember my words-:) ❤️💞
I think we all have a friend who likes to say:
"What are you complaining about? It's not like your life is so hard"
Ella L. Yeah, I hate when they are like that
Maby you'll prefer mine. "Life is excactly as hard as it should be"
Thing is, I am that guy to myself
Everytime I say "I wanna end it" or "I'm gonna end it later in life if i become a nobody" In my head all I say is "why do u think like this, your life isn't that difficult, your only 16".
and I'll just start to cry but I'll just go somewhere where nobody can see me and I'll just wipe the tears off and pretend everything's fine.
I don't have this friend but I have my older brother
Ella L.
My own sister does this
As a depressive person, I don't want happiness at all. I just want some *peace of mind.*
i dont remember what it feels like to be happy. positive emotions have gone as if they had been never existed. and peace can turn into nothing that is suffer
i just want to feel ok
Me too
Get a cat
Me too
This is a hauntingly true depiction of the sad reality.
Masterful work!
@RECITE-GOD-PURIFY-ME-EACH-SECOND
I appreciate the time and effort it took to write such a long message,
I read it, will try to remember it.
Thank you.
I've never heard a better description of depression. At least what I experience. Thank you so much for finding the words I am still struggling to find
I hate when people ask "why are you depressed you have a good life" 😑
i relate to this
That question is annoying. They don't understand what we go through daily.
Omalleykile 998 what do you go through tho?
I can relate to this so badly and it is awful. It makes us feel miserable and even more lonely. I can't go on this way, it hurts to get by. There are no words to describe it.
Yeah I hate how no one can understand and how everyone just thinks getting out of this is so easy
You know the feeling you get after you’ve been crying for hours?
Just sitting there emotionless?
New mental health vlogger here if interested. Hope you have a great day :)
Yes
when you cry so much... just laying there, on the bathroom floor, curled up into a ball, absolutely empty. Nothing ever matters at that point.
Not your pet, your parents, your friends. Nobody.
When you find it hard to cry but you can feel the emotion that's causing it inside you. Or when you feel like you're the one at fault for it. Or when you have no reason to feel depressed but it's just there. Or when you finally start crying you start to give yourself crap over "being a pity party, attention seeker" when in reality you know you're hurting but your mind makes it think you're not. Or when you're trying to write a comment like this and tell yourself that you're lying about how you feel to assure yourself that you're not depressed and that you are weak. Or when you lose trust in yourself because your depression believes you lie about how you feel. That you shouldn't cry because of yourself. That other people have it worse, yet you tell yourself that it is okay to cry and that regardless it's okay to feel hurt even if something minor caused you to feel that way. But your brain never listens, it only believes what the depression says, not you.
thats how ive felt for years. i cant even cry anymore
This is very moving and feels like a good representation. I have not been in your pain but seeking to understand it. Thank you
The saddest part about depression is when you want want hold on but you look around and realize there is nothing to fight for.
The reason why I keep my feelings to myself is because I cant explain them
KookieKook same
The reason i keep my feelings to my slef is bc i can only understand my slef n no one els😞
KookieKook and when someone asks me what’s wrong sometimes i just burst into tears because i dunno how to explain how i’m feeling
yup
And no one could understand you they think you exaggerate about things you feel
Depression is like having a mind that tries to die with a body that tries to survive.
I relate so much to this, my mind just constantly gravitates to violent and graphic suicides but my body won’t let me do it.
It’s so command frustrating
*confusing and frustrating* not command 😒
@@mandlin4602 YES
Have you ever thought about your goal in life, why we were created, I advise you to read the Qur'an, believe me you will find many answers in it, and understand life correctly.
@@mandlin4602 same thoughts
It’s been about 4 years since I first watched this. This video helped me a lot realising that what I was going through was depression and thus was not problem of my weakness, and also encouraged me to get professional help.
I was certain that I was a pathetic, stupid and weak person to feel this way and that I am going to end life before I become 21. I have been to the ER and also the police station couple times for attempt. Guess how old I am now.
I’ve got a new dream and a new life now. I reached out for help and my family have changed a lot.
As many of you already know, depression is not an easy disease to get rid of. I am not completely Ok. I still take low dosage of anti depression pill. But things are better and I feel positive things like hope and happiness in my life. I am certain that I will feel those things more and more as time goes on.
If anyone’s watching this feeling the way I used to, I just want you to not blame yourself for whatever what you are going through, and please do not give up on yourself. Many people will help you if you want them to, but the most important part is whether you want yourself to be saved. I am not telling you to act on something actively. I am just asking you to please do not lose the very little hope about your life that life ‘may’ be better for you at some point. Having that thought itself is enough.
I am glad that I didn’t kill myself the way I had planned. I am not really good at motivating people but I really wanted to give a little bit of strength and help for you who reached out to this video in curiosity of what yourselves are going through. It is not your fault. And even though you don’t believe it now, you life WILL be better.
Its like living in a dark room , you know there's a door to get out but cannot find that door .
i hate that depression is making me forget all of my life. i can’t remember one thing vividly other than traumas.
If i am honest, i do not remember even one day of highschool
Please get some professional help :(
sakura -,- same, at this point i don’t even remember my entire life
Ahmed Zain i asked my parents a lot of times but they don’t believe in mental illnesses, so i won’t be able to go to one until i’m independent from them
@@tsunchina3040 how old are you? If you don't mind
I want to be happy again
i never felt happy ;_;
Max Robert I'm so great right now! thanks for your comment :)
Markus IP [6B] :( Do something new, find live and everything will be change
Farah Sarquiz...Me too
Farah Sarquiz me too