A Poem To A Friend With Depression
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- Опубліковано 9 кві 2021
- This is the second poem that I have ever published. The video is shot in various locations in Thessaloniki, Greece. The characters and the themes of the poem are fragments of my own life and experiences and it was written in hopes of providing comfort to people in similar positions. I want to thank my friends for doing a few cameos in this production and for supporting me in this project. I hope you enjoy it, Internet Friends.
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🔰A Poem To A Friend With Depression by illneas
Where did you hide your smile?
Is it beneath your tongue or did you hide it on a drawing you made years ago?
Is it trapped behind the glass of a framed picture or did you hide it in a shoebox under your bed?
where you keep all those objects... ticket stubs, poems, pebbles from the seaside we visited
I wish you left your room more often or at least you allowed me to visit you
You said "the odyssey of our lives could be more than an oscillation between the things we didn't choose"
Therefore I shouldn't worry about you
When we were kids you used to give all your favorite toys away and I thought maybe this is what happened to your smile
You simply gave it away
I asked your parents about it and they told me that they did everything they could
I asked your friends about it and they told me it's impossible to help a friend with depression
You used to gift your smile to everyone so proudly until the day you didn't
The memory of you radiating happiness is fading
The best poems are hidden under a bed in a shoebox
maybe like your smile
Yesterday a stranger smiled at me
I smiled back at them
And for some reason, I knew
Dear Friend,
I wrote this poem to tell you
that I found your smile
this is the spotify link open.spotify.com/track/7nKSaswzRavkTCk9iWvPWs?si=5g-B7SIFQVmwSiTC0g-I6g&
Thank you for the Spotify link! I always like this channel very much.
Gut wrenching. Thank you.
Social Media and Metal Health. A video i liked. ua-cam.com/video/d97mTNxfn-k/v-deo.html
Hey man your video is awesome
It had inspired me to make poems my self I made mines yesterday
Poetry a very underrated art
Can you feature some of my work or i could just buy some video shots i guess?
The people who watch it themselves without it being sent by a friend are on a whole other level of depression......
Haha that's me
@@nmk4723
Lol same
I can be my own friend
What if I say that's me....
@@SHAANZ_405 me too..
“when we were kids you used to give all your favorite toys away, and I thought maybe this is what happened to your smile” That line broke me.
A true stab in the heart
great line on so many levels
Same, I lost it at this exact moment.
Great letter.
I don't even cry when I'm depressed but that one got me
Me to.
I now hereby declare all of you people in the comment section my beloved friends 💜. Hi! How you doing??
💜
Examsss are going on among covid spike
@@shifanooreen5855 Good luck 💜
Just a little sick since two days and still the same, but I am rather happy because this poem gave me a lot of new ideas.
How about you?
@TAYLOR BRANDT doing just fine. You take care💜
"...the odyssey of our lives could be more than an oscillation between the things we didn't choose."
Could you explain what this means (to you)? My first language isn't English and I struggle to understand this line..
@@hannahh8119 I understood it to mean that the journey either of us takes in life could be more than the repetitive nature we witness during those periods when we're seemingly normal (sane) & the unseen moments when the uncertainties of life befall us.. That life is a journey, complicated, random and yet, beautiful...
I felt this meant that our life is more than regret, way more than just looking at the past at the things you didn't do.
Our lives could be more than the back and forth between the decisions we regret not making.
It's kind of comforting to know that somewhere someone is there for you even if you don't know them.
That is very true. You can think that you have no one out there who cares and it's normal for people to think that when really there are people that care. They can even be strangers who care
True
Not really
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 believe me I wanted to die too but because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u
@@harriporter8044Jesus. Give your pain to him❤
Im in that time in which I can't hide my depression anymore. I can't smile even if I were to fake it...
I do not feel myself anymore. Im just shadow of what I used to be.
I can't either
@As Above So Below that's messed up
@As Above So Below you are not messed up... we are just surrounded by the wrong people... I can't be around anyone too..
I can tell you, with an open heart, that you will be okay... give up your fear to the universe.. God, or whatever you believe. Have faith and remember that although you may think so, you are not alone
@@poppy_anderson thank you
This came in the right time
"Yesterday a stranger smiled at me, I smiled back at them. And for some reason, I knew... Dear friend. I rote this poem to tell you... That i found your smile" - That made me cry out of nowhere
Me too
yeppp
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 believe me I wanted to die too but because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u❤❤
How beautiful and heart warming it would be TO BE that one friend who actually believes that IT IS possible to help a friend with depression.
And this piece is so accurate at many levels.
Yes, help can take the form of many different things, not just curing or solving depression. The person you befriended is still there, and all of the parts of them that defined your friendship, as well. It’s just that now they have been forced into a battle with depression, and this battle has an influence on their thinking and behavior. But even so, they are still there, just wrapped up in the fight so it may be difficult to see. They are not broken or in need of fixing, they are just carrying a weight and are in need of assistance wherever necessary.
So helping a friend with depression can look like treating them and interacting with them how you usually do, but always being at the ready to help them when they ask, or when it becomes clear that they need your support (such as if their lives are in danger). You cannot be the one directly in battle since you cannot reach depression, and so you can only give them tools, ideas, and advice on how to fight back. That can take the form of just listening to what they have to say without judgement. You don’t have to know the right thing to say back to them, just listening will show them that you care, they’re not alone, and that no matter what state their mind is in, they still have a life to live and a sense of stability and consistency that will follow them. This also helps them get out of their heads so that they can avoid distorted thoughts, avoid getting overwhelmed, and so they can replenish their energy to continue the battle.
Really happy to watch it being received this way
@@illneas ““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 believe me I wanted to die too but because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u. And it is! He healed me from depression and abosolite millions. He can be your friend. ❤
Am I helping my friend with her depression! She’s getting better!
But. At the price of my own mental health….I can’t take it anymore. I’m slowly breaking from all the shit she was dealing with. I have a problem of listening to ppls problems and letting them trauma dump on me. I never watched my own mental health. I never paid attention when I quit eating. Now I’m dealing with some stuff that I’ll never tell my friend cause she’ll feel bad. Like she caused it….
Dear a kid with a camera,
What a beautiful poem. It is very possible to help a friend. Just being there with them, sitting side by side. That smile, the one that comes very rarely, is so perfect. I always try to do anything I can to bring that out. A poem hasn’t brought me to tears in a very long time. But this one did. Anyone reading this remember to smile to a stranger today, it might be the only one they get.
Keep creating,
An internet friend
Thank you once again internet friend
@@illneas this is honestly the kind of video that you could send someone and it may just stop them from hurting themselves letting them know how much they mean to you and that these words make you think of them
Illneas...you have saved lives you know nothing about. Thank you. I am eternally grateful
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 believe me I wanted to die too but because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u❤❤❤
We're all friends here 😊
Beautiful. Yes we are ❤️
💜
And all depressed!
Then why didn't you send it to me 🔫
@@iscrabafish because we're all friends *here* 😂
To my friend who lost to the demons in his head. I miss you everyday. ❤️
I remember the first day when I went to college after being diagnosed with depression,I do remember my friends staring at me waiting for my jokes to hit the conversation...
The worst part was when my best friend dumped me and left...it was hard with all the medications,studying,and a bad financial situation of the family....what a tough days...I do miss my smile,yeah, I do miss it,and idk me or depression,who will end this sorrow....
But this poem described everything, no body notice that little thing missing in me,except me, and sometimes my friends....it’s like someone really wrote it for me...God...thank you dear illneas
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I Hope one day when you wake up in the morning, the despair you're feeling vanish thoroughly.
I wish you a healing that leaves no trace of grief❤
Just be there. If they know you wont go anywhere, they'll one day look for you and accept your help.
*"Work for a cause, not for an applause. Live life to express, not to impress."*
Love from a small UA-camr
there are no complex words here, no over the top vocabulary. and yet you have managed to explain something I have been struggling to write about so beautifully. How does one manage to put something so complicated and harrowing within the confines of such simple yet profound lines? this is most probably the most saddest and beautiful video on this channel. I have no words.
Thank you so much Leyla it means a lot coming from you, recently I had a conversation about the use of simple and complex language in poetry and currently I enjoy reading things that focus on characters and emotions rather than words.
@@illneas yup. thats exactly it.
Everything comes from the heart for sure
How coincidental that a few days ago I actually wrote a poem of how everybody asks why I've changed and don't smile like I used to or how nowadays I'm not as cheerful as I used to be.
If you don't mind can you share your poem?
Yeah I would love to read ur poem
Dude share ur poem
My heart skipped a beat after reading the title
How did he know about me?
Then I realised, it's UA-cam and it's for everyone :)
We're all on the same boat friends 🙂
Man I wanted to cry cause ys
Our best friends died a 100 years ago or live 100 thousand miles away from us but they chat with us through art
@@greyheart3001 a 100% true my pal
my dad had severe depression but he's fine now. It wasn't easy,at times I was really mad at him for making us go through that with him, I didn't really understand that it's not necessary to have a REASON to feel depressed. For all those who feel depressed please keep fighting and seek help.
I have a close friend with severe depression as well. What did u do to help or was there anything that made things a little bit easier?
@@maricellasandoval2024 I was 14 at the time so I didn't do much as I wasn't aware of the severity of mental problems...I'm 20 rn. I remember him going to therapy and eating pills that made him really sleepy.He told me once that "faith in god" helped him.
Yeah most ppl turn to religion because it's part of thier sobriety. I'm glad u got through it tho :)
i also made videos like this on my channel..❣Hope u give it a watch
I feel like this poem is speaking to me, it is comforting to have someone notices that there is something not right with you. Personally in real life nobody notices how I've changed, that I haven't been myself for a year and a half. This video helps a little. Thank you.
💔 I hope one day you find someone who caresses all your wounds. I hope one day you find the friend in your own self, till then keep on fighting buddy!
Great poem. I've suffered depression for years and I'm still suffering. It's one hell of a battle, and sometimes you just want to scream out loud. I often find myself screaming and crying to myself silently, and I wonder why nobody knows what I'm going through. Well there's the answer... if you're suffering with depression, please speak up about it, or do something in your life which will make you happy - like making others smile who are also suffering. I'm planning to travel to poor countries and help the needy. This will make me happy. Find your purpose in life.
Social Media and Metal Health. A video i liked. ua-cam.com/video/d97mTNxfn-k/v-deo.html
Anyone can win half the battle of depression if they had a friend like you who really cared ❤️❤️
Yes !! Personal experience. Ever grateful
I don't want friends. But I can't say I wouldn't be lost without my family although even when they're gone, I'm not losing my independence and self reliance to anyone.
Our best friends died a 100 years ago or live 100 thousand miles away from us but they chat with us through art.Thank you Illneas my friend.You helped a lot when I fought demons in my head.You're a big reason I conquered them.You're a diamond.
That ending gave me chills.. best poem I've heard in a while.
Please never stop writing and never stop making these movies.❤️
Oo my dear stranger
We are friends now
You're not alone in the ocean of sadness
I'm with you
And we will reach the most beautiful shore one day
' the memory of you radiating happiness is fading...'
Gorgeously done. Thank you, friend. 🤍
It felt both like I could see both the sides of this poem, probably cause I have been on both the sides...
♡"The best poems are hidden under a bed in a shoebox"♡
Each of us...is a great warrior...it is inside us...even when u fell...have the courage to be YOU!
a friend, after quite a long time since I isolated myself, contacted me and asked me how I am doing. and I just do not know what to say in response.
Jeni..... please tell them the truth. Maybe try just a little bit at first to see how they respond. I hope they are kind.
When I think about the smile you gave up so easily, I realise looking back that it was a way of giving me a beautiful part of you. A part so beautifully agonising, knowing that I’ll never see that smile the same way again
This makes me happy and sad at the same time. Thank you for this poem Illneas.
Even if you feel like you're all alone, and that no one likes you, you can always come to videos like these. People here are always so nice and so supportive.
I am so sorry for whatever reason you are here, and I don't want to lie, so I won't say it will get better right now, but it will later. In the next 3, 5 or even 10 years, you probably would be "ahh, this? That's the past!" And you will laugh about it. You will laugh, because you were strong enough to not give up, and you kept trying. You didn't give up, and that's why you're laughing, because, you did it. You made it. You overcome the problem, and you made progress.
And I'm proud of you. Even if you haven't gotten there yet, even if you feel like you're stuck on the same page, repeating the same painful days over and over again, I am still proud of you. I am proud of you because you are here for another day. I am proud because you woke up. I am proud that you keep being storng and keep living. I am proud of your grades or work in general, you sure must had worked hard to achieve the results. I am proud for that little smile you have when you see cute animal. I am proud of your tears, because you were strong, and let them out. I am proud because you are you.
Don't change for others, they don't deserve you if they don't like you just the way you are.
Don't let their mean words into your brain, sure, they are hurtful, but these people are assholes for picking on others.
Don't stop trying, because you're doing so well. I'm proud of you for getting this far
““Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28 believe me I wanted to die too but because of him I’m healed. and he wants to heal you too. he’s the reason why I’m alive today💖
And it’s not the end. There are many times in the Bible where they thought it was the end. Like the the death of Jesus. Or like Moses in the wilderness. And even Me I thought it was the end But God rescued me. Even tho your not a Cristian. Give ur pain to Jesus. He loves u. And yea true. But he is always there❤
Yesterday snowstorm, today sunshine. Like the rollercoaster of our moods. I'm looking forward to tomorrow, reminder has been set 😎😷
Stay safe, stay healthy all around the world!
How beautiful it is! "...that I found your smile."
Simply a hug of words...♥️♥️♥️
"Depression, is like trying to find a light switch in pitch darkness. Defeating it takes much assistance and resource. First, it's letting in loved ones that are reaching out, when light will begin to shine."
I love this! I found your channel a couple of weeks ago when I was searching for poetry channels and you are the only one that inspired me this far. I'm a little shy so I don't comment that much but this video in particular hit me hard. I have suffered from depression since I was a teen and it is very comforting to listen to this words. Thank you!
Here my top 5 from your videos:
-If by Rudyard Kipling
-Writing by Charles Bukowski
-A smile to remember by Charles Bukowski
-The morning after I killed myself
-And this video❤️
I love most of your videos but these 5 are just perfect.
Keep doing art!
Thanks for making these beautiful words. Now I am feeling really down and I never felt kinda this depressed feelings before.
"Dedicated to people who fight demons in their heads and their friends who help them win"
God bless the person who wrote these powerful words.
Thank you for making this one. Thank you❤
Almost all of your videos have made me smile and made me admire your skills. But this one hits a bit different, it really just leaves me with so many thoughts. Almost like encountering the monsters again but this time with a sense of gratitude. It's so weird ! Thank you for publishing this.
I am truly mesmerized by the way ,
You capture every moment of the poem in the video , seems as if it is pure reflection of the words ,being recited
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i play songs and poems when im studying to focus more, but when this played, i just couldnt move, this is a true piece of art, you are a genius
Aaaaaaah
It's so beautiful😭
You are becoming more and more precious❤️
Been waiting for this. I feel empty inside I don't even know what to do about it everytime my depression starts kicking in... I can't describe it, I can't think of a word to say, or maybe telling others and myself that I'm fine when I'm not cause it's the simplest and easiest thing to say..
I just notice this” by illneas”
Yes..I’m so proud of you... I’m sure one day I will buy a book written by you
thank you for this poem. it is touching
in a bittersweet way
Wow, this spoke directly to me!
I don’t know how to climb out of this hole I find myself in, and maybe I don’t want to because then, people will see me. Now I feel the burn of tears, that want to escape, but I fight them, because they are proof of my weakness, my failings, my fears.
Thank you for making me feel...
thank you so much for this. Words can not express how much this means and how beautiful it is. Thank you
"You used to gift your smile to everyone so proudly until the day you didn't"
"Dear Friend,
I wrote this poem to tell you
that I found your smile"
I want someone to say this to me........genuinely, because i think this is something i needed to hear a long time ago
As a person who has faced darkness sometime, and as a therapist, dealing with others' dark recesses since years, this work has touched and impressed me so deeply. It's really an exact mirror image. It comes from a Felt Space Illneas... And it brings hope too.
Thanks for finding and holding my smile for me.
Thank you.....I am that friend with depression and I hope to find my smile I gave away so long ago.
This poem is warm in my heart.....
This was amazing. Thank you for sharing this with us
Where have you been hiding these poems all this time???? Your words are amazingly beautiful ❤❤
Yes Yes!
I am sure that these words will find many smiles in the grave yard of lost and lonely thoughts.
Thanks for the share.
It’s so amazing to see our loved ones smile. To me it’s such a blessing & a best thing in the whole wide world. Anything for their smile.
This video is acutely beautiful, i think.
Ohh man...I can’t wait😍😍
That's a very beautiful poem! I hope you managed to help your friend and it's never a waste to at least try. The last line was very good, "I found your smile", that really made me feel something. Thank you for sharing.
this is beautiful, it makes me wanna cry
This is breathtaking! Thank you for sharing this incredible piece of art
thank you for creating this wonderful piece😊🥺. hearing this has brought me to tears and it made me feel nice. truly.❤
This is so beautiful because for reasons I understand, most people can't stick it out for long❤️💗
An INTEREST, then A PASSION, then An OBSESSION, and then DEPRESSION.
Well done Education System, for the Depression I got, for you didn't let me Follow My Passion, and now it's A DIVERSION.
"One day every random detail of my life will make sense..." ~ illneas
Hi, just wanted to let u know u truly made me happy with your content! I know one person can't speak for all but I'm sure that I'm not not the only one who is enchanted and inspired by what you do. So here is a big thank you :)
I've never cried to anything like this, but this hit me hard. This was a big stab in the heart...
Hope you are feeling good now 🤗🤗
Its such a great feeling knowing that someone believes you can make it out instead of blaming you for falling into depression. Well done mate, such a touching poem that many people can relate to
Omg, this is soo beautiful !! I love thiss !! Thank you for this !! To everyone in the comments section, I LOVE Y’ALL SO MUCH MY ANGELS !! Y’ALL ARE SOO STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL inside and out !! Sending y’all LOADS OF LOVE, BLESSINGS, POSITIVE ENERGY AND BIG HUGS !! We’re gonna get through this together !! ❤️❤️❤️✨
Great poem and great visuals. I love how the visuals translate as much emotions as the poem
so beautiful, and sad, and really hard. I am struggling with severe depressions and this touches me really much. Really talentated author.....
My camera helped me to stay alive, really literally, during some heavy depressive episodes, so even the "kid with a camera" touched me deeply
Did anyone else get the message that the “friend” looking for the smile of his old friend found his old friends smile in a new friend? How’s is this up lifting?
took me a while to find this comment!
Thank you for writing this poem 😊
Love to all from Ireland. X ❤ X
I still think that the best thing that happened to me last year was finding this channel. I love these videos
I gave my smile to someone who promised to give it back, but they took it for themselves - I will never forget these words that someone told me once 😔
"you used to give your smile to everyone so proudly, unitl the day you didn't and the memorie of you radiating happiness is fading" that hit too close to home-- lol
Sensitive. Lovely. True.
This is beautiful. Thank you 🙏
Thank you for this poem, illneas!
This made me felt like a friend just held my hand...
I have chills rn.. This is amazing.. thank you so much!
This is why writing comes naturally for me. This is beautiful.
The fading of a smile, I know that too well 😞
Thank you Illneas, its a touching poem with a lovely ending ♡♡
Thank you for this xx
Beyond beautiful ❣️❣️❣️❣️...... literally gave me goosebumps....felt it to the bones.....Thank you for this poem
Once again, I am absolutely touched by your writing and camera work. Please continue to write and film these videos. It’s beautiful ❤️
You're a good person and a good friend. I hope your friend finds their way back soon, the pit of depression is long and wide but it is possible to get out with help & treatment.
Beautiful poem, beautiful video. Thanks :)
I hope one day I'll share this poem to the ones who need it.
“ *you used to give your smile to everyone so proudly , until the day you didn’t* “
Hits so hard , I’m crying rn
im in tears. I chose to watch this hoping it would make me feel better
Just heart touching 🖤 hope everyone's okay 🙃
In your lovely videos I'll be eagerly waiting to notice cats in the middle. Because that is what i love the most in it. God bless you bro. I listen to your videos every afternoon in college it gives me meaning to my thoughts and to myself. Thank u ❤️
I’ve never been one to smile often even when I’m somewhat happy. So if I were to be sad or depressed not many would give a second thought, and just think that’s how I always look.
After so many days of hiding all my feelings under a smile, this video did give away all the tears that were hidden. And yes, even in tears I can say I am my own best friend...
This gonna be so good.
The memory of a day when I radiated happiness isn't fading, that memory disappeared long ago. I can't recall even one now.
This is so good illneas. Thank you! 💙