DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY, a deadly cycle...
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- Опубліковано 13 жов 2021
- We talk about #depression and #anxiety separately, but not many people mention those together. It's a constant tug of war between two complete opposites. Thought I'd make this video to illustrate the struggle of living with both...
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‘’You wake up caring about everything just to realize nothing really matters anymore.’’
Nothing ever mattered anyway but maybe that's ok. Maybe what's most liberating is the fact that we can make things matter.
that one hit hard
I felt this to my bones
I felt that in my soul
Everything failed...
“You worry that people will abandon you if you don’t speak to them, but depression doesn’t even let you text them back.”
Oh wow. You hit the nail on the head here
u ok luv
Exactly the thing i commented on another video. These videos man..
"You're lonely and isolated, but too overwhelmed to socialise."
You’re lonely but you WANT to be left alone… that part.
This couldn't of been said any better ♡
couldn't have
Yep....
"You fear death but want the pain to end" I relate to that so much. I finally reached out to someone in my family I told them that I feel like everything is meaningless and I want to die. They didn't seem to care or take me seriously they just went quiet and after a bit prity much told me to get over it. Now I'm feeling even lower than before. I wish I could give my life to someone who actually wanted to live. I've cut myself a lot recently I'm just not sure if I can end it.
I'm so sorry... You deserve better
i totally relate to this feeling, i have never opened because ik they wont take it seriously, they will take it as a joke which is not funny .
Hey Jay16, I am so sorry for that. I've had similar experiences (my family being especially unhelpful). Be aware though: some people just don't know better. We mustn't forget that for many people it is also very hard to react to something like this. Most people are not used to people opening up - and may be also helpless when it happens.
I hope you give it another try, and again, and again. The first person that was really able to help me - a bit, and not in the first sitting - was a therapist. I highly recommend talking to one. I can not stress this enough. What you are describing is very common, it's a sickness, and there's lots of good treatment out there. It is important that you know, there's people who want to help and there are also those who can. It may take a little to find them though. Don't give up
my mom knows many of my issues, depression, anxiety, self harm, etc. she didn’t care and still doesnt. i can’t change her and you can’t change your family member. i know it’s hard and it really does suck but at the end of the day, we can’t change anyone but ourselves. it’s okay to b sad that it seems like they don’t care but even me replying right now means i care. you deserve better, way better.
God loves you Jay🤍
He will always be willing to hear you and can renew your life as well as give you motivation to live a new life.
this really speaks to me. a lot of this explains exactly how i feel all the time. it's exhausting and confusing when you feel like you don't care at all and nothing matters while at the same time you worry about everything all the time.
im sorry. are u seeking help?
It's like being told to go to sleep and wake up in the same time. I wanna live life but I don't even know if it's mine. If people actually gave me a chance, I'd waste all their dimes but despite it all, I know I'm still running out of time.
But why? This doesn't even need to rhyme but I might as well cuz this life might still be mine but like these words, the days get so repetitive and like this flow and lack thereof, it's dismissive of rules to keep me in check but I'm so bored, I don't know why I'm anymore but I am so imma ignore the rules and live, I hope u do too. It ain't over yet.
SAME
And this is our constant struggle when you have both anxiety and depression 😔😬
are u seeking help?
@@userm180 Not really, I mean, I'm trying to accept that I have both illness and not letting it get to me
That’s exactly how it feels like. Its amazing how inspiring u are ❤️
are u ok love
these videos help me understand what i’m feeling, they are so relatable
same
‘Fear death but want the pain to end’ that hit hard I never had the words to explain how I felt but that sums it up, always felt I was faking feeling depressed
This is my issue with having social anxiety and depression. They contradict each other completely, the only thing they have in common is they keep me lonely.
Ik it’s the worst
this.
Your not alone with these problems.
@@LemonXD_UwU how
@@notwerkinginthishouse8634If I misunderstood your word / question please reply to me.
I can't really wrote feelings down with words, but I try rn.
So like when your feeling lonely in a new place, everybody try making new friends, but if you have anxiety and depression with anxiety you mostly think about they don't accept you or they would just laugh at you or calls you stupid because of that and plus with depression you think your gonna fail or you shouldn't even have to try because of failure and when It's too late now you think your a shame. A lot of people feeling this way or thats how I think.
Never found a thing describes how i feel more than this one..
سيم "(
You actually described my every moment in recent years and today! You helped me point it out to myself, something I dreaded to do on my own! Thanks a lot! God bless!
i don't know for you guys but since the day I discover her channel, Whenever i don't feel understood or lost, i watch her videos because she exactly speak up about my thoughts and feelings.
Love your work
thank you for existing
I’m so tired of feeling like this, it feels like I’m watching everybody else doing their things and I’m stuck in this. I’m trying to live one day at a time but It’s getting more and more hard, I don’t have hope anymore and this is killing me
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
@@supravietuitoriblog547 thank u so much!
Me too you aren’t alone♥️
This is literally what I feel these past 3 years. My mom once asked me what happened or like are you okay, but I couldn't even explain how I feel. It feels numb. It feels scary sometimes. No one understands it. My dad told me that I'm too emotional. He said I'm stressing over nothing. Even when I told a story about having a bad day or getting in school/at University to my mom, she just kept silence. I don't need anything, not even for new phone that I need so I can study well for the online class(I broke my phone :'')
I wish my mom says that "everything will be okay, it'll be fine, you go this! I believe in you" kind of that. At least once. :'
This is exactly how I've been feeling lately and it has never gotten this bad before. I'm still fighting with myself and had many thoughts about giving up. Somehow I've always made it to the next day though.
Please don't give up on yourself ever... you'll be able to win this battle eventually. I know it's hard and could be overwhelming but you got this my friend I believe in you.
This is exactly what I want to say when someone asks me "what's your problem?" Because to the certain someone, telling them I'm having a bad day or really need help mentally isn't good enough to them because I'm being "dramatic" or I'm told to "get over it". It hurts when others don't understand.
As many others said, you've just nailed it perfectly! This is the most perfect description of what I feel with exception of sleeping, because I always fall asleep just to fuck my thoughts away... I fight with my depression and anxiety but I am not able to find purpose in the life. I know that I'm gonna die anyway so why should I try? This is what I'm struggling with right now.
I can't imagine being in this pain.. although I've never been into it..I can explain every bit of it.
Kudos to the guys who came over it..and the one who is suffering right now know this..time will pass you will live again.
I'm with you guys always, any time.
this is beautifully made
this made me cry so much because someone was actually able to understand exactly how i’ve been feeling
It’s incredible! That’s exactly how it feels. I’m maybe bipolar 2 and struggle with anxiety… it’s awful and it really helps to see that there are other people that feel kinda the same way as I do
Anxiety and depression is like two demons dancing the tango. They always depend upon each other in order to keep the cycle going.
It's really scary that I see myself so much in this, that I feel like someone just read my mind.
this is so true. thank you kat, really. your videos are so comforting. 🌼
Beautiful .. you just described a thing that I'm struggling with yet never was able to put into words .. and probably never will .. 😔💔
im sorry. do u seek help?
Pretty much suffer from depression all my life. Now I'm 67. Quit taking medication 6 months ago after 25 years of taking it. I don't think it was doing any good because I was on it so long. Everything was fine for a while but now I am in the worst shape I've ever been. Struggling to stay alive living with my dog and my motorhome, physically sick, anxiety attacks, no family or friends, on the verge of suicide. Will not go back to taking meds again. They just want for me. I'm starting to believe this will never change for me and it is best that I am in my life sooner than later. I'm making plans to leave but I don't want to leave my small dog behind because she's my entire life. Please pray for me.
This is so powerful and explains it to perfection!! This is how I feel
u ok love :( are u seeking hwlp
This is brilliant.
Kasiu to co tworzysz jest wspaniałe. Dziękuję Ci 🥺❤
today is my birthday. I should be happy, that I was able to spend it with my friends, being able to at least pretend to enjoy myself, but now i'm just sat here, all alone, feeling selfish about wanting to end my pain today.
I never know how to put my pain in the words and here you are doing it with your videos, especially with this one, thank you so much for this, it means a world 🖤
“You fear death but you want the pain to end” … never related to something so hard :\ this whole video took the words right out my mouth. Thank you for taking your time to make this for us ❤️🩹
I'm listening to this in class rn. I'm trying to hold back my tears. Thanks for making this. This is my personal favourite piece from you.
Nowhere am I more understood than on this channel. U know my feelings better than I do.
This video truly speaks volumes and gives voices for many, thank you so much for this Kat ❤️
"Anxiety tells you to get up and achieve of otherwise you'll fall behind in life,
while depression convinces you you're worthless, so there's no point in trying."
This is so true.
And it's really bad if people around you didn't even notice theres someting wrong with you.
Even it you tell them.
When I told somebody about my depression and anxiety they said:
-What are you talking about your life is "perfect" you just faking those sad things to get attension.
I think this is the best video you ever done.. this cycle can be so unbelievably frustrating
have both for 5 years, don't know how much longer I can handle
maybe u should read Willem's comment?? why don't u ask for help?
pls dont give up. did u try seeking professional help love? God bless
bruh the fact that these videos of yours make me feel heard and seen unlike anything else, ever, is both sad and liberating
kat, you're so freaking talented and your voice is so soothing . . .
Your films are cathartic. I revisit these videos on all of my bad days just to feel understood and less alone. Your channel deserves a lot more views Kat. You r a true artist ✨️
this video came at the exact moment.
thank you, Kat.
one of my favorite videos you've made, because it explains exactly how I feel
This is exactly how I feel everyday and it sucks😔
this.. this is so well said, i feel understanded, very understanded. this is, indeed, the most beautifull short film i have ever seen, catching and representing mine and many other peoples emotions in a 3 minute short film. this is just amazing, and i could just repeat and repeat it all over again.
I've been waiting for it!
Your work is amazing, thank you so much
To naprawdę niesamowite jak bardzo potrafisz opisywać to co czuje. Zawsze idealnie w punkt ubierasz w słowa moje myśli jakbyś je po prostu czytała. Czuję się w 100% rozumiana i naprawdę Ci za to dziękuję! Doceniam Twoją prace i mam nadzieję, że będę mogła zacząć Cię wspierać w niedługim czasie!
Every second of it, every word that was spoken screamed "That is what I am going through" but my family does not see it as a problem. At 26, no job, living off of my parents' income, ashamed of not getting a job, abusive brother and a violent environment. This is bound to happen.
This is a work of art everyone would see. I couldn’t relate more
Thank you so much.... It's the first time I fell understood. It's so nice to know I am not alone with my emotions.
I’m a gaming developer and this is currently what I’m going through. Thought it was just me procrastinating and being lazy to do any of my unfinished work, but this sums it up.
im sorry for yall. u should probably seek help for it. or at least talk to someone ab it. God bless
@SgtDevRupesh fr bro. Hang in there. 💆🏽♂️
@@userm180 trying.
I'm shocked, everything in this video feels like it's my life. Kat, you are doing great job with your videos. Love
finally something out there has made me feel seen. thank u
There couldn't be any better explanation for this condition. Thank you ❤️
it's incredible how this video represents me so much
This is exactly how I feel. I know that I need to confront my fears and expose myself to them in order to overcome them, but it's not easy to take that step.
Wow i normally never leave comments but this video really described how i feel these days I wanted to write down every single word in the video thank you so much for this amazing film
Sometimes just existing can be felt as too much, while we would like to be ourselves, with unique personality and someone to refers to as worthy. It's hard to keep fighting for ourselves, when there is no prize awaiting us, just an endless struggle. When we don't have enough strength to care anymore, but still trying not to feel this bad all the time. Sadly it's a battle not many of us wins.
This is the most accurate video ive seen, thank you ❤️
This is just amazing, great analysis
This was made so well I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder and ocd since I was 7 and was diagnosed with depression 3 years ago about
Its amazing how you put so many complicated feelings into words
and im still here despite all this turmoil in my head, ima fighter & will not give up hope. i deserve peace. thanks for putting it into words for me, wish i had a therapist to send this to
Astonishing how incredibly accurate this is
u ok?
Actually amazing how close this is to every feeling I had in my life.
Wow. Jak zawsze w punkt. Idealne odzwierciedlenie.
It s scary how much is this accurate yet it is relieving to find words that fits .. 🤍
That last quote can't be anything more than the opposite of this paralyzing state. All my life, I've always loved change and I would constantly put myself into situations where I'd willingly adapt because it's fun and it keeps my brain, brainy. These days I sometimes wish I'd stop thinking but thinking is all I've ever done and now it's agonizing. I am more restless than ever but when I stand up, socialize, try new things, it's a battle that I wish I'd end while apathetically reminding myself of my cowardice and searching for the real me. My body probably doesn't even belong to me anymore, I don't know if I'm even real or if time exists. It's like the entire world and it's structure is completely build against by very being because I can't help but adore all the chaos and innovation and ideas that the creative have to offer but what's it all worth if it's never gonna be valued, what am I worth if I'm never gonna be valued? But why do I care?? It literally doesn't matter anyways. I don't even know who I am anymore and I'm more confused than ever....Just because I'm smart does not mean I got my shit together. I wanna die lmao.
There is beauty in everything. My depression make me thinking too much but i I see the world differently.
I don't think I've ever heard my life summed up so perfectly and succinctly.
another beautiful and accurate video...
i wish i could come out of this cycle but it feels like it will never end
it can end love. are u seeking professional help?
This explained so much about how I feel and my family calls me lazy but this is how I feel ever since I was little then I completely gave up -you fear death but you want the pain to end that’s exactly how I feel
Oh my god, someone else is describing it in a voice that isn’t mine. Thank you
This is so true and it has me in tears again
All true. I have been living with both illnesses for 15+ years now and it's just like that. The good thing is that you can get help to live a better llife, and the moment you receive a diagnostic and starts treatment you realize all those terrible things weren't really you. They were part of your illness. And that is comforting and liberating.
Not going to lie, I always feel like this but just live off distractions until my demise. I do not fear death, we all die, it's inevitable.
Thank you for making videos about mental health, it needs to be spoken about more openly.
You have explained exactly what I feel..!!!
“You fear death but want the pain to end” damn that’s me
"You worry that people will abandon you if you don't speak to them, but depression won't even let you text them back..." I've been trying to find ways to explain myself, and this video surprisingly explains everything I couldn't find the words to say. It wasn't just one or the other but the constant battle from going back and forth between the two. I'm so glad I found this video!
never related to a video more than this one
im sorry. are u ok?
@@userm180 not really
@@Jake-ee4wk are u seeking help luv?
@@userm180 nope thinking that won’t really help
@@Jake-ee4wk it always does help to talk to someone especially when theyre a professional. and even if u cant talk to a professional u can talk to someone in ur life. even w me
I don't think it could be described better...
Thank you..
Seriously this is true I also can't talk about this to my family beacuse they think its a stupidity I'm being lazy and I really want to leave this pain forever I sometime wish why I ever existed my parents blame me for everything they see I have attitude and all the thing which I am not I can't even go to a doc on the other side anxiety just worsens it more .. I can't tell how it feels like sometime it feels like burden sometime empty I hope every one will fight for this be happy and positive ..♡
I was in this phase 1 month ago and everyone told me what has happened to u?but the worst part when you dont have appropriate words to even explain your situation but now i think through this video i got words that i lacked at that time thank u so much...
Belive me everything will be fine i was in this situation for a year and believe me i felt now there is nothing left for me i should be better dead burden on my family i know its easy to say everything' will he okay but it is true time heals everything i myslef foynd people dumb when they said everything's eill be ok (i just wanted to ask them how it will be ok????)but now as i connect dots everything is much better
And that's why you are always questioning yourself if you are depressed, having just a mental breakdown, or just having a bad day...
You say that you are tired but the anxiety yells that you are weak but the depression claims at the other side that that doesn't matter anymore because you're not good enough...
So true and real 💕 I love Kats videos are really inspiring ❤
I haven’t been able to relate to anything in a while. This is extremely accurate.
Thanks for making these videos, they also look very professional like from a movie or tv show I like it.
Asking for help is difficult but absolutely worth it, don't feel ashamed to reach out if you feel like you're drowning ❤️
I can completely relate with this film. I have anxiety and depression. It is a beautiful film.
You do these so well!! You have my part to a tee 🙌 Only I don’t fear death, if anything I wish for it everyday to take me 🥺
This is the most accurate description of Chronic Depression and Anxiety i have ever seen.
I’ve been trying to explain this so hard but couldn’t do it, this video shows everything i wanted to say
Simply amazing thank you thousand times 💓
You spoke everything I always wanted to myself and ... , while everyone else made me gaslight myself
this video helps me feel less alone. thank u.
“you’re lonely but you want to be left alone”. this is so true, it’s like you feel so alone and that nobody cares about you and as soon as people start taking to you, you feel overwhelmed and you need time to stay alone.
talking*
thank u for validating my feelings