Hello sweet Jenn, first of all, I’m so sorry you’re hurting. I’m so sorry you had to lose your Kevin. 😢 I am strengthened by your words as I lost someone 6 months ago. I’ve found in my life that looking to someone who has been where I’m forced to go is helpful. I still don’t want to be here. But I’m thankful I found this video. I think for me, the hardest thing is accepting what is and figuring out how to move forward with this new reality, so seeing someone else experience this is somehow helpful. May we find peace. ♥️🖤🙏🏻
I just found your channel although I haven't lost any one, I feel through major life changes I've lost who I am. I am so sorry for your loss 😢but it sounds like he gave you such a wonderful gift with being an amazing husband, life partner, companion and so much more❤ the honest grief you relay in your video, well it's touched my heart. I've watched 2 videos of yours and already have much to think about. Thank you so much for sharing and you are in my prayers. Take care❤
Just found your channel today and it touched me as I lost my husband 2/3/23 after 5 year battle with brain cancer😢 I was grieving him before he passed as dementia was the worst battle ever. I think I will grieve some every day as time goes by the pain is less but not forgotten. I have been an avid journaler for many years together and now I write short stories about our adventures together. I realized these stories bring me comfort when I can’t find the peace I am looking for. Sharing is a way to express and begin this life now, accepting life is different and that is OK. Thanks for you opening up to your followers many of us are on that journey of grief and your not alone ❤
I'm so sorry for not replying to this earlier. Brain cancer must have its own truly unique set of challenges! I'm glad writing has been helpful to you...this is tough stuff! I'll be making more videos about grief and about, as you put it, "this life now." You're so right...it's different and that is OK.
Jen, firstly I am holding you in my heart and lifting you up in prayer. Secondly, I am 31 and married to my husband who is about to turn 42. He is a disabled combat veteran and has had multiple toxic exposures, traumatic brain injuries and other bodily injuries. Cancer, disease, and a shorter life are all probably in the cards for us. I try not to worry about it/prepare myself too much but I do appreciate you sharing and being so vulnerable. It makes it feel less scary. Your grief is a testament of your love.
How terrifying, but you're right, it's counterproductive to try to "prepare" because you don't actually know what the future will bring. And it's lovely to hear that my story made things less scary for you. That touches me.
Hi Jen I can feel for you as my husband passed away at the end of May this year. He nearly died when we were 23yrs old and had just been married 15mths with a 4 mth old son. He took renal failure but he was blessed with a transplant 10mths later which was a miracle lasting 52yrs. It is sad you are left so young but age has nothing to do with grief and I know your feeling of thinking it is easing then a sunami sweeps over you. I find I am having flashbacks of when he was ill laterly over more than a year and wish I could have better thoughts. No doubt we both will have these memories which will make us smile instead of weeping. You cannot do more than you are doing as it isnt something that will heal completely but we can help each other to come through this together and maybe we can smile a bit more with time. All my love Evelyn
Evelyn, I’m so sorry to hear about your husband. How wonderful that you got those 52 extra years with him after the transplant, but I don’t doubt that you’re right that age has nothing to do with grief and sorrow. Kevin was ill for just over two years before he died, and those memories are, I think, the hardest. I’m still glad for every moment we had, but I wish fewer of them had been filled with pain. Thank you for taking the time to comment and be my sister in this experience. Sending you so much love!
Hello Jen, my age is smaller than the years of your marriage, but I hope you could feel some empathy from my comment. I know it sounds discouraging that we will never move on from our loved ones' leaving from our lives, but I believe that eventually, accepting the fact that they're gone will ease our pain. I don't think 6 months is the long period of time for your grief, and I don't think there will be a certain amount of months or years for you to completely stop feeling hurt. But I hope that you will feel better soon, not asking yourself tons of questions that will never have a correct answer. I'm sorry if I'm rambling or say what you said in the video, I can't finish it because I can't stand the strong emotions I'm feeling from watching you crying and greiving. But I truly feel your emotions to some extends because my host family lost their first (and only at that moment) grandchild last year, and I haven't seen they feel any less pain when we mention their daughter's family and mental health. I wish you all the best. I wish you are and will be receiving lots of love from people around you. I wish your next journey will be lovely and less painful.
I am glad to hear that you listened to your emotions and didn’t watch through to the end when you were feeling overwhelmed. I often have a hard time with such things too and used to beat myself up about it, but you were absolutely right to stop. I appreciate your kind words despite that overwhelm. And never apologize for your age. There is wisdom in youth too.
Thank you for sharing. I'm trying to support my best friend who is on a similar timeline as you - Well, almost five months. You're sharing helps me do what I can. I hope knowing that is helping you a smidge.
Jenn I feel your pain sweetheart. I lost my husband December 1st 2023. I just passed the one year mark. The pain is really bad. I love the metaphor you used of traveling on the train further and further away. Hang in there. Praying for you
We are on a similar journey. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. People keep telling me that a year is nothing and, 9 months in now, I understand what they mean. Sending you strength and love.
Just revisiting this one, Jenn, as it popped up after watching your latest video. Further to my commemt below, it's strange to look back & see how things can change over time. I was in a different place when i wrote that comment to where i am today but i know that place of peace is reachable as i've been there before so that's what i'm hoping & striving for today as i guess all the stress of my own difficult year has finally come to a head in a relapse of my M.E. & fibromyalgia which has prompted tests for possible lupus & polymyalgia rheumatica. I supppse we can only do the best we can with the csrds we are dealt in life, & i know there are many with worse than mine which is why it seems unfair that some are dealt far worsr than others. Sending peace, calm & strength across the pond & through the ether. Belle.
It must have been meant to be for you to find that comment and take solace in it! Depression is a beast but you will come out of it and the sun will shine again. I think of you often and am rooting for you.
Hello sweet Jenn, first of all, I’m so sorry you’re hurting. I’m so sorry you had to lose your Kevin. 😢 I am strengthened by your words as I lost someone 6 months ago. I’ve found in my life that looking to someone who has been where I’m forced to go is helpful. I still don’t want to be here. But I’m thankful I found this video. I think for me, the hardest thing is accepting what is and figuring out how to move forward with this new reality, so seeing someone else experience this is somehow helpful. May we find peace. ♥️🖤🙏🏻
I just found your channel although I haven't lost any one, I feel through major life changes I've lost who I am.
I am so sorry for your loss 😢but it sounds like he gave you such a wonderful gift with being an amazing husband, life partner, companion and so much more❤ the honest grief you relay in your video, well it's touched my heart. I've watched 2 videos of yours and already have much to think about.
Thank you so much for sharing and you are in my prayers. Take care❤
I’m so happy to have you here. Loss comes in many forms. I’m rooting for you and wishing us both some peace and joy this holiday season.
Just found your channel today and it touched me as I lost my husband 2/3/23 after 5 year battle with brain cancer😢 I was grieving him before he passed as dementia was the worst battle ever. I think I will grieve some every day as time goes by the pain is less but not forgotten. I have been an avid journaler for many years together and now I write short stories about our adventures together. I realized these stories bring me comfort when I can’t find the peace I am looking for. Sharing is a way to express and begin this life now, accepting life is different and that is OK. Thanks for you opening up to your followers many of us are on that journey of grief and your not alone ❤
I'm so sorry for not replying to this earlier. Brain cancer must have its own truly unique set of challenges! I'm glad writing has been helpful to you...this is tough stuff! I'll be making more videos about grief and about, as you put it, "this life now." You're so right...it's different and that is OK.
Jen, firstly I am holding you in my heart and lifting you up in prayer. Secondly, I am 31 and married to my husband who is about to turn 42. He is a disabled combat veteran and has had multiple toxic exposures, traumatic brain injuries and other bodily injuries. Cancer, disease, and a shorter life are all probably in the cards for us. I try not to worry about it/prepare myself too much but I do appreciate you sharing and being so vulnerable. It makes it feel less scary. Your grief is a testament of your love.
How terrifying, but you're right, it's counterproductive to try to "prepare" because you don't actually know what the future will bring. And it's lovely to hear that my story made things less scary for you. That touches me.
So much love to you. It is such a gift to the world to share your vulnerability, it helps me to know I'm not alone when I can share in others' grief.
Thank you so much! I often have a “vulnerability hangover” after posting something like this and it helps so much to know it’s appreciated.
I'm so sorry for your loss
Thank you for your kind comment.
@@fromjenn how are you coping now? Sincerely asking
Hi Jen I can feel for you as my husband passed away at the end of May this year. He nearly died when we were 23yrs old and had just been married 15mths with a 4 mth old son. He took renal failure but he was blessed with a transplant 10mths later which was a miracle lasting 52yrs. It is sad you are left so young but age has nothing to do with grief and I know your feeling of thinking it is easing then a sunami sweeps over you. I find I am having flashbacks of when he was ill laterly over more than a year and wish I could have better thoughts. No doubt we both will have these memories which will make us smile instead of weeping. You cannot do more than you are doing as it isnt something that will heal completely but we can help each other to come through this together and maybe we can smile a bit more with time.
All my love Evelyn
Evelyn, I’m so sorry to hear about your husband. How wonderful that you got those 52 extra years with him after the transplant, but I don’t doubt that you’re right that age has nothing to do with grief and sorrow. Kevin was ill for just over two years before he died, and those memories are, I think, the hardest. I’m still glad for every moment we had, but I wish fewer of them had been filled with pain. Thank you for taking the time to comment and be my sister in this experience. Sending you so much love!
Hello Jen, my age is smaller than the years of your marriage, but I hope you could feel some empathy from my comment. I know it sounds discouraging that we will never move on from our loved ones' leaving from our lives, but I believe that eventually, accepting the fact that they're gone will ease our pain. I don't think 6 months is the long period of time for your grief, and I don't think there will be a certain amount of months or years for you to completely stop feeling hurt. But I hope that you will feel better soon, not asking yourself tons of questions that will never have a correct answer. I'm sorry if I'm rambling or say what you said in the video, I can't finish it because I can't stand the strong emotions I'm feeling from watching you crying and greiving. But I truly feel your emotions to some extends because my host family lost their first (and only at that moment) grandchild last year, and I haven't seen they feel any less pain when we mention their daughter's family and mental health. I wish you all the best. I wish you are and will be receiving lots of love from people around you. I wish your next journey will be lovely and less painful.
I am glad to hear that you listened to your emotions and didn’t watch through to the end when you were feeling overwhelmed. I often have a hard time with such things too and used to beat myself up about it, but you were absolutely right to stop. I appreciate your kind words despite that overwhelm. And never apologize for your age. There is wisdom in youth too.
My condolences. It's not easy to lose a family member, a spouse, a loved one.
Thank you, Debra.
I am so sorry for your loss.
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Thank you for sharing. I'm trying to support my best friend who is on a similar timeline as you - Well, almost five months. You're sharing helps me do what I can. I hope knowing that is helping you a smidge.
You sound like a wonderful friend. Thank you for looking out for her.
Jenn I feel your pain sweetheart. I lost my husband December 1st 2023. I just passed the one year mark. The pain is really bad. I love the metaphor you used of traveling on the train further and further away. Hang in there. Praying for you
We are on a similar journey. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. People keep telling me that a year is nothing and, 9 months in now, I understand what they mean. Sending you strength and love.
Never. Give. Up. Sending hugs from Iowa.
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I'm so sorry. I'm heartbroken for you. Thank you for sharing this very heavy journey. A warm hug all the way from Norway.
Thank you for your kindness!
Sending you a gentle hug and understanding 💙
Thank you. I so appreciate that.
Just revisiting this one, Jenn, as it popped up after watching your latest video. Further to my commemt below, it's strange to look back & see how things can change over time. I was in a different place when i wrote that comment to where i am today but i know that place of peace is reachable as i've been there before so that's what i'm hoping & striving for today as i guess all the stress of my own difficult year has finally come to a head in a relapse of my M.E. & fibromyalgia which has prompted tests for possible lupus & polymyalgia rheumatica. I supppse we can only do the best we can with the csrds we are dealt in life, & i know there are many with worse than mine which is why it seems unfair that some are dealt far worsr than others. Sending peace, calm & strength across the pond & through the ether. Belle.
It must have been meant to be for you to find that comment and take solace in it!
Depression is a beast but you will come out of it and the sun will shine again. I think of you often and am rooting for you.
@fromjenn Thanks Jen.
Hope you find a way to continue your life❤️lots of love from Dublim
Life goes on. Thank you for your kind words.
God Bless You!
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Words of condolence hardly suffice, so please accept some giant virtual hugs. 💕
Aww thanks. Much appreciated.
Sending love❤
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Sending you love xx
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All I can offer is hugs.
Thanks, Michelle. It’s too bad we live so far apart these days. I’d love to grab our art supplies and just hang out!
@@fromjenn I miss game days and hanging out with everyone. It be fun to just art together.