@@honeysucle10 did this exact thing same container for the cake and everything lol, those containers are so damn loud bruh. I was way more sneaky w it tho it was so stressful when she was tryna eat it in the fridge ahaha
This was a beautiful film. When it come to eating disorders, teenage white girls are usually depicted the most and that lead woc, especially black girls, feeling unheard so it was great not only seeing the daughter suffer from it, but the mother too. And you humanized the mother too.
i never really noticed this, and now i'm looking back seeing the only representation is overeating, not other ED's, i should've noticed better and as a white girl I'm so sorry x hope ur doing better
I love the conversation between the mother and daughter. My generation couldn't speak back, but this generation demands to be heard. Had my generation spoken back, maybe so many of us would not be estranged from our parents and grandparents. Lovely ending. Well done!
@@fredrika27 the reason we have such a troubled and out of control youth today is because they talk back. You must be young, without being able to see the benefits socially as well as in the family of respecting authority.
Unbelievably good. This felt like a whole feature. The acting. The lighting. The sound mixing when she's trying to be quiet! I was twitching at every sound the cake lid made. Fantastic.
i lovw the sound. i don't understand how it works but these days the biggest projects have horrible audio as well. to see this have such an enticing audio is so satisfying.
I love how the “Her” in Let Her Eat Cake can be either about the daughter or the mom. It’s from the daughter’s perspective but this is also cathartic and personal for the mom as much as it is for the daughter. It’s a nonlinear experience, it can be either during adolescence or when you’re a grown adult, whether as a parent or not. And specifically in this case, when being a mother and when being a daughter, let alone for Black and nonwhite experiences. This was beautiful and heartfelt! Amazing filmmaking overall!! Also something about this exudes professionalism! I’m a film student and it’s definitely interesting when being one, watching this cause technically id know what the BTS looks like and how shots and other aspects were achieved, so it’s also a “fun” experience guessing or imagining what it wouldve been like to be on set for this, but also with the argument scene, i could imagine how emotional the crew was, just being in awe of the performances and how all of pre production has lead to this!
An obvious observation but I really do love how the title reflects the mother’s struggles with eating the “wrong” foods. The idea of staying skinny, staying perfect and how it never really leaves even after her career ends. How she lives and breathes it after so long. But I love that it got through to her how abrasive and horrid it is after her argument with her daughter. And I love how her daughter is the one to end it. Really, just let her eat cake.
I like how she was the only nonwhite girl in the class, there’s just something about being one of the only, if not the only nonwhite girls on a team and feeling inherently mediocre for it; that was probably the most relatable aspect of the film for me. It’s alienating to not have good athletes around you who look like you.
I'm so grateful you created this. I felt so seen, I never saw a Black person represented in media that spoke about EDs like this growing up. I never saw ED media that showed someone speaking up for themselves, choosing themselves like this, in a way that wasn't corny but showed what it's like to be fed up with self hatred. This was wonderful, and as someone who's been in remission for 4 years now, I felt like I could engage with this because it wasn't triggering either. This was thoughtful, honest, and intentional. Thank you
My little sister and I both struggle from disordered eating in different ways, she’s more likely to eat snacks over meals and I sometimes go without eating anything for long stretches of time. However because she’s bigger than me she gets lectured about eating more often. Eating disorders don’t have a “look” and it’s so important that both the mom and the daughter are shown to struggle
@@MistyMitchell-b5oLack of nutrients and proper food, less calories than an average meal. Hence making you lose more weight. Eating disorders don’t have a specific way of BEING one, it can vary and there are MANY symptoms.
this is so good omg! seeing her mom eat the cake after that argument just reminded me that our parents are/were kids just like us - navigating their own stuff, and in some cases (consciously or subconsciously) passing down their trauma like heirlooms
My grandmother since I got married has been casually working her dieting techniques into conversations. Mentioning how if i want to stay the weight i am i need to start to cut back my eating and take up various exercise regiments. I'm 6'0 and 140lbs. I've always been skinny mini (through no fault of my own) got bullied my whole life for being thin... now that I've filled out to a weight I'm very happy with and am confident in-- she tries to undermine it and I know she's doing it out of love-- but it's her own discomfort that she's trying to put on me and it's incredible to see just how-- uncomfortable she has been with herself when she's always been a beautiful woman. I feel genuinely sorry that people made her feel so uncomfortable with her own body-- but I'll never pass that on, I absolutely refuse. So long as you are healthy about what you eat and you eat balanced meals-- that's all i will teach my kids-- no calorie counting or weigh ins-- if a sport wants weigh ins enjoy a new sport or a new coach. Exercise is great for health but no exercising to lose weight unless it is medically recommended.
Thank you. I felt seen. Im a black woman who had anorexia. Only black girl in uk ward. No one thought i was anorexic because i still had hips and i didnt weigh as less as my counterparts, but i was still seriously ill and close to death. Thank u for showing eating disorders come in different forms and not just stereotypes ❤❤❤
@@l.v1843it’s mostly yt girls who are depicted with having EDs, plus being curvy is more prominent amongst black girls so it’s harder for us to fit into the whole ED thing etc. If that makes sense
This was so beautiful and brilliant - short but deep. You captured the complex dynamic of beauty, societal, and parental expectations in such a short time window. Not to mention the complex dynamic of teen girls and their mothers. What a body of artwork but I’m not at all surprised. You have a gift and I look forward to seeing where you take it. From one creative to another, All the best.
oh my goodness the clip of her opening the loud ass cake container was too real. It was all unfortunately too real. great writing & direction Amanda, this is amazing. the score is also gorgeous, thank you for sharing!
I love how unsettling the ending is. They never verbally resolve anything, just sit there in silent acceptance. Sure they've made up now, but who knows how many times this has happened; how many times this will happen? Fantastic short film.
You did a wonderful job. ❤ This should be shown to students, especially in high school health classes. It would make for great discussion and analysis amongst young people.
I was a ballerina from the time I was 2-3 years old until I was 12. Once I began the puberty stage at age 7, I was developing much faster than all of my friends. By the time I was 12, I was already a double D and rapidly growing. The director of my dance company announced in front of everyone that girls could no longer wear sports bras under their leotards. I knew that was a dog whistle to suggest I would not be able to advance to pointe because of my Black Latina curves. I have always been heartbroken over that loss because dance was such a huge part of my life, but those spaces can be so toxic and harmful to our body image. This film brought so many of those emotions back within such a short amount of time. I know it’s going to resonate with a lot of others too. Congratulations on a beautiful film and perfect script ❤
Amanda, this was incredible and beautiful. I was honestly a little worried that the mom was going to be handled in a very one note way but I should've known you would never miss the nuances and boil down characters so simply. I love the way you acknowledge the way that trauma is a cycle and that it isn't usually intentionally passed down, and that there are parents/people who only need to realize the harm in what they're doing to try and do better, for themselves and for others. it's just a really nice, real depiction of the complexity in dynamic between mother and daughter/child.
as a black gymnast thank you for showing that we do sports too! i love ur open casting call of main character and not just picking one race ! the main character looks just like me! and for that i thank you! im grown now but i struggle with self harming it never gets easier BUT as far as how ppl react, they say im mean or "have a bad attuited". I've gotten to a point were i don't explain, but if ppl ask i will share! im not ashamed this is who i am but its not my story ! if any African American young girls need someone I'm here! and If any other women or young ladies need someone that isn't i dont care! we are all human and need someone
I'm so happy to see the final project, this was beautiful ! The attention to details and the way the message is deleivered is amazing ! So excited to see more of your talent !
This was an excellent short film. The story managed to tell so much in such a short time frame. I hope you continue along the path of storytelling and film making!
as a 14yr black girl w ednos who's eating disorder literally formed from disordered spaced online, this is LITERALLY ME i'm 6 minutes in and this has shown so much of what i go thru that people NEVERRR wanna talk abt
Oh my gosh when she was running outside and fell/passed out I flinched. 🤕 great job. You really captured my attention (span) as I was randomly browsing on UA-cam. Great storytelling! I love seeing and supporting other black girls in film!! ❤️👏🏾
Incredible! It brings awareness to ED's and their prevalence amongst all people, cultures, ages, races, and ethnicities. As a sufferer of an ED (been in recovery for 3 months now), the awareness of it is brushed off too easily sometimes. I hope you continue to produce more films! My sister was also a film student (graduated in '21) and produces incredible workpieces as well.
Seriously, thanks. I wish more people cared. It's really a different experience for us for so many reasons, and I feel you captured that by showing instead of telling. Also, the mother's acting is sooooo good. The struggling with the cake was too much even :')
just had an episode of binge eating in secret, the mother's expression after she finished the cake resonates so painfully much. it's as if our mind fades away while we eat and comes back to taunt us when we're done. i love that there's FINALLY a short film about EDs with black actors👏🏼 readjusting the scale, the marks on her thighs hurt sm especially bc both of them are already so beautiful and for once, the daughter actually recognizes it!! the world needed this, absolutely phenomenal!!💗💗
I'm a thick, healthy mixed girl, so this was kind of relatable. I often get comments about my body, whether it be positive or negative. I used to get the most disgusting comments from someone in my life. I thought about offing myself. I'm fine now, but sometimes I get so on edge just thinking about it
I weighted 41 kg. 167 cm tall. I almost dropped out of my biology Studium, which was and is my dream, I got sick, I couldn't keep my job, I couldn't walk stairs, I couldn't even really go out, I was tired every day, I felt sick every day, by hair was breaking apart, my lymphatic system was overloaded and my face got swollen. My skin was sensible, my nails broken. It's your only life, live it for yourself, not for random other guys, they got their own life and care about it more than about you suffering for them. I couldn't keep playing Cello. My mom told me later, she cried a lot and thought some day my heart would stop beating. She never cried in front of me that time, so I could know. I always looked and felt half dead. More dead than alive and for what. Others? Beauty standards? Who cares when you're under the ground, if people shame you bc of kindergarten mean girls bullsht, change your people.
Wow, this film is incredibly moving. Every bit of it is well done. I'm speechless. I would love to see more films from you because the storytelling here is enthralling. 👏
this was unexpectedly brilliant. sadly i relate a lot with the mom and daughter, so refreshing to see a story like mine told using actors and a script that matches my life too lol :)
I am not black, but I love seeing how there are black characters depicted! it's always usually white girls, but it was lovely seeing someone of a different race. Beautiful film
I was so excited when I saw that you uploaded your short film to the channel. Congratulations on a job well done! Being able to tell a complete story in such a short amount of time is impressive.
You had me at the edge of my chair the whole time. Congratulations to all the people behind this amazing film, can't wait to see your work on the big screen 🤍🤍
Wow, this was a hard watch. Very raw, and relatable in ways. Amazing details, and so captivating. Honestly felt like I was tuned into a series I’ve been watching. Definitely grabbed me. The twist.. wow, very emotional. Good job.
This was so well done Amanda! I'm don't know if this was intentional, but in the scene where the daughter is stripping off all the layer she had on, I interpreted it as her getting rid of all the toxic things that had been drilled into her head about her weight. I'd like to think that it gets better for her and her mom after this. Thank you for this film and please keep telling more stories!
The hits so hard. I’m a young black girl, I’m overweight and everyone tells me, and I’m even in performing where it’s been customary for a while to be thin. I swear I relived so much suppressed trsumw
No her being that much doesn’t mean your overweight. Whatever height is healthy for you depends on your height, gender, bone density and muscle so it varies from person to person
This is heartbreaking, and there were moments that were hard to watch for all the right reasons. Yet, the story and the directing is so gripping that i couldn't look away. This is amazing, i loved every minute. 👏 👏 👏 got me tearing up 😢
i love the visual image of Claudia taking off her layers like she shed her mothers expectations!!!! love the lighting and very professional looking editing. the shot of blood coming out as she cvt her thigh rlly got to me :(
Wow. This made me so emotional. Such a harsh reality for legacy kids, and young female athletes & so rarely told from the perspective of black women. Beautifully done. Amazing work. amazing job!
The way they eat the cake demonstrates the reality of how you fall into a binge eating disorder after anorexia no matter what. (I learned it the hard way)
BRO WHEN SHE WAS TRYING TO SNEAK SOME CAKE IT WAS SO STRESSFUL. One of my worst nightmares as a kid😭
fr omg
Real. That feeling of shame and guilt ugh
Literally my life
Oh my god I knowww. And the way she didn't even take it out of the fridge, like get in get out, ahh you could feel that familiar tension.
@@honeysucle10 did this exact thing same container for the cake and everything lol, those containers are so damn loud bruh. I was way more sneaky w it tho it was so stressful when she was tryna eat it in the fridge ahaha
woah that readjustment of the scale was such a nice detail. it perfectly captures that sense of 'that can't be right'/disbelief.
This was a beautiful film. When it come to eating disorders, teenage white girls are usually depicted the most and that lead woc, especially black girls, feeling unheard so it was great not only seeing the daughter suffer from it, but the mother too. And you humanized the mother too.
thank you so much
There’s also a LOT of racism online when it comes to black people in eating disordered spaces
i never really noticed this, and now i'm looking back seeing the only representation is overeating, not other ED's, i should've noticed better and as a white girl I'm so sorry x hope ur doing better
I love the conversation between the mother and daughter. My generation couldn't speak back, but this generation demands to be heard. Had my generation spoken back, maybe so many of us would not be estranged from our parents and grandparents. Lovely ending. Well done!
@@fredrika27 the reason we have such a troubled and out of control youth today is because they talk back. You must be young, without being able to see the benefits socially as well as in the family of respecting authority.
Unbelievably good. This felt like a whole feature. The acting. The lighting. The sound mixing when she's trying to be quiet! I was twitching at every sound the cake lid made. Fantastic.
i lovw the sound. i don't understand how it works but these days the biggest projects have horrible audio as well. to see this have such an enticing audio is so satisfying.
Not to mention the title 👌
Hey guys! just a tip; when sneaking down the stairs, have flat feet and don't walk on the middle of the step.
I love how the “Her” in Let Her Eat Cake can be either about the daughter or the mom. It’s from the daughter’s perspective but this is also cathartic and personal for the mom as much as it is for the daughter. It’s a nonlinear experience, it can be either during adolescence or when you’re a grown adult, whether as a parent or not. And specifically in this case, when being a mother and when being a daughter, let alone for Black and nonwhite experiences. This was beautiful and heartfelt! Amazing filmmaking overall!! Also something about this exudes professionalism! I’m a film student and it’s definitely interesting when being one, watching this cause technically id know what the BTS looks like and how shots and other aspects were achieved, so it’s also a “fun” experience guessing or imagining what it wouldve been like to be on set for this, but also with the argument scene, i could imagine how emotional the crew was, just being in awe of the performances and how all of pre production has lead to this!
ahhh I love this analysis! thank you so much :)
An obvious observation but I really do love how the title reflects the mother’s struggles with eating the “wrong” foods. The idea of staying skinny, staying perfect and how it never really leaves even after her career ends. How she lives and breathes it after so long. But I love that it got through to her how abrasive and horrid it is after her argument with her daughter. And I love how her daughter is the one to end it.
Really, just let her eat cake.
"i'd rather be a happy pig" girl is so real for taht
I like how she was the only nonwhite girl in the class, there’s just something about being one of the only, if not the only nonwhite girls on a team and feeling inherently mediocre for it; that was probably the most relatable aspect of the film for me. It’s alienating to not have good athletes around you who look like you.
same
Also that when she was on social media it was all white gals
I'm so grateful you created this. I felt so seen, I never saw a Black person represented in media that spoke about EDs like this growing up. I never saw ED media that showed someone speaking up for themselves, choosing themselves like this, in a way that wasn't corny but showed what it's like to be fed up with self hatred. This was wonderful, and as someone who's been in remission for 4 years now, I felt like I could engage with this because it wasn't triggering either. This was thoughtful, honest, and intentional. Thank you
thank you so much. I'm so glad it resonated with you
My little sister and I both struggle from disordered eating in different ways, she’s more likely to eat snacks over meals and I sometimes go without eating anything for long stretches of time. However because she’s bigger than me she gets lectured about eating more often. Eating disorders don’t have a “look” and it’s so important that both the mom and the daughter are shown to struggle
Same. My mom. Everyday looking and commenting about my body. I was 125 pounds and she was still body shaming me. I struggle till this day with it.
How is eating snacks over meals a eating disorder?
I kept my weight down in high school by drinking white distilled vinegar straight from the bottle and then going days without eating....
@@theresacoringgray6885 going days without eating only constipated me and constipation caused weight gain
@@MistyMitchell-b5oLack of nutrients and proper food, less calories than an average meal. Hence making you lose more weight. Eating disorders don’t have a specific way of BEING one, it can vary and there are MANY symptoms.
this is so good omg! seeing her mom eat the cake after that argument just reminded me that our parents are/were kids just like us - navigating their own stuff, and in some cases (consciously or subconsciously) passing down their trauma like heirlooms
So true
My grandmother since I got married has been casually working her dieting techniques into conversations. Mentioning how if i want to stay the weight i am i need to start to cut back my eating and take up various exercise regiments. I'm 6'0 and 140lbs. I've always been skinny mini (through no fault of my own) got bullied my whole life for being thin... now that I've filled out to a weight I'm very happy with and am confident in-- she tries to undermine it and I know she's doing it out of love-- but it's her own discomfort that she's trying to put on me and it's incredible to see just how-- uncomfortable she has been with herself when she's always been a beautiful woman. I feel genuinely sorry that people made her feel so uncomfortable with her own body-- but I'll never pass that on, I absolutely refuse. So long as you are healthy about what you eat and you eat balanced meals-- that's all i will teach my kids-- no calorie counting or weigh ins-- if a sport wants weigh ins enjoy a new sport or a new coach. Exercise is great for health but no exercising to lose weight unless it is medically recommended.
The ending is so melancholy, both these people have such deeply rooted issues that it’s gonna take years to heal from that kind of damage
Them damn cake toppers are the worst! Never could sneak a piece 🍰 without waking up the whole house.. 😂
right!!
I got so crafty I could do it even when my dad started to sleep downstairs (closer to the kitchen)
Exactly😂
ikr
Thank you. I felt seen. Im a black woman who had anorexia. Only black girl in uk ward. No one thought i was anorexic because i still had hips and i didnt weigh as less as my counterparts, but i was still seriously ill and close to death. Thank u for showing eating disorders come in different forms and not just stereotypes ❤❤❤
Thank you so much
Your story rings so true. Went through the same thing but so happy there is finally a voice for us that will not be forgotten! 💜
I hope you’re doing well my love!! You are so strong and so brave and I’m so proud of you. Keep on rocking on ❤❤❤❤❤
i hope you're doing well honey ❤ but what does being black has to do with this?
@@l.v1843it’s mostly yt girls who are depicted with having EDs, plus being curvy is more prominent amongst black girls so it’s harder for us to fit into the whole ED thing etc.
If that makes sense
This was so beautiful and brilliant - short but deep. You captured the complex dynamic of beauty, societal, and parental expectations in such a short time window. Not to mention the complex dynamic of teen girls and their mothers. What a body of artwork but I’m not at all surprised. You have a gift and I look forward to seeing where you take it. From one creative to another, All the best.
I love how this shows that *anyone* can develop an Ed, truly magical.
oh my goodness the clip of her opening the loud ass cake container was too real. It was all unfortunately too real. great writing & direction Amanda, this is amazing. the score is also gorgeous, thank you for sharing!
Having a mom who says „get rid of it“ is different level of anger in me.
Bro it made me so freaking mad
"you shouldve thought of that before you got knocked up by a deadbeat" and she finished her!
The way I gasped when that line left her mouth
That caught me by surprise but she ate her mom up😧😭
The scene of her tracing scissors down her legs is something I did my entire childhood. I'd fantasise about cutting my stomache out... oh my gosh.
🫂
I’m 44 and still think about it occasionally
I love how unsettling the ending is. They never verbally resolve anything, just sit there in silent acceptance. Sure they've made up now, but who knows how many times this has happened; how many times this will happen? Fantastic short film.
You did a wonderful job. ❤ This should be shown to students, especially in high school health classes. It would make for great discussion and analysis amongst young people.
I was a ballerina from the time I was 2-3 years old until I was 12. Once I began the puberty stage at age 7, I was developing much faster than all of my friends. By the time I was 12, I was already a double D and rapidly growing. The director of my dance company announced in front of everyone that girls could no longer wear sports bras under their leotards. I knew that was a dog whistle to suggest I would not be able to advance to pointe because of my Black Latina curves.
I have always been heartbroken over that loss because dance was such a huge part of my life, but those spaces can be so toxic and harmful to our body image. This film brought so many of those emotions back within such a short amount of time. I know it’s going to resonate with a lot of others too. Congratulations on a beautiful film and perfect script ❤
What skill have you focused on since then?
“I’m not really hungry.” “Good!”….oof.
Beautiful but so triggering. The mom reminds me so much of my own.
@@kookykiddo same
@@kookykiddoI hope you’ve found healing from that ❤❤
Relatable
@@kookykiddoi get it
when she went to cut her legs i was so scared cringing waiting for blood- this was fantastic! so so real.
“Im not really hungry” “good” damn :(
Bruh and then the mom starts shoving her face
@@L3onaluvsuikr-?? 😢😢
“You brought me Into this world and you can take me out, I KNOW.” Was a little too real- 😢
😭
Yes
Fr
Amanda, this was incredible and beautiful.
I was honestly a little worried that the mom was going to be handled in a very one note way but I should've known you would never miss the nuances and boil down characters so simply. I love the way you acknowledge the way that trauma is a cycle and that it isn't usually intentionally passed down, and that there are parents/people who only need to realize the harm in what they're doing to try and do better, for themselves and for others. it's just a really nice, real depiction of the complexity in dynamic between mother and daughter/child.
The daughter ate up the whole argument dude😭 Good points and everything. The knocked up part had me gasp, but besides that, as she should.
as a black gymnast thank you for showing that we do sports too! i love ur open casting call of main character and not just picking one race ! the main character looks just like me! and for that i thank you! im grown now but i struggle with self harming it never gets easier
BUT as far as how ppl react, they say im mean or "have a bad attuited". I've gotten to a point were i don't explain, but if ppl ask i will share! im not ashamed this is who i am but its not my story ! if any African American young girls need someone I'm here! and If any other women or young ladies need someone that isn't i dont care! we are all human and need someone
I'm so happy to see the final project, this was beautiful ! The attention to details and the way the message is deleivered is amazing ! So excited to see more of your talent !
This was an excellent short film. The story managed to tell so much in such a short time frame. I hope you continue along the path of storytelling and film making!
Thank you! That's the plan!
So proud to be an Associate Producer on this film! Well done, Amanda and to the whole cast and crew 😊❤
Had me crying in the first 2 minutes. It's unbelievable the stress about weight we put on literally children.
as a 14yr black girl w ednos who's eating disorder literally formed from disordered spaced online, this is LITERALLY ME i'm 6 minutes in and this has shown so much of what i go thru that people NEVERRR wanna talk abt
Not me fighting back TEARS omg Amanda this was beautiful.
W message. W directing. W ending. W video!!!!!!!!
so moving, this really hit home. watched it twice and it gets better each time. unbelievable job, this is true talent
thank you so much
5:10 Those things are the loudest/hardest things to open EVER. 💀 Jokes aside, this was really well made! ❤
as a preteen girl who often suffers with body image, this is truly my favorite short film. it just feels so real.
This was so beautiful! Wow, thank you for sharing this with us! I hope you let yourself feel very proud of this!
I love your film it teaches a lot about the abuse that people in sports go through and body disorders that come with it
Oh my gosh when she was running outside and fell/passed out I flinched. 🤕 great job. You really captured my attention (span) as I was randomly browsing on UA-cam. Great storytelling! I love seeing and supporting other black girls in film!! ❤️👏🏾
I love this film and I really like the score. I shed a tear at the end.
Incredible! It brings awareness to ED's and their prevalence amongst all people, cultures, ages, races, and ethnicities. As a sufferer of an ED (been in recovery for 3 months now), the awareness of it is brushed off too easily sometimes. I hope you continue to produce more films! My sister was also a film student (graduated in '21) and produces incredible workpieces as well.
Seriously, thanks. I wish more people cared. It's really a different experience for us for so many reasons, and I feel you captured that by showing instead of telling. Also, the mother's acting is sooooo good. The struggling with the cake was too much even :')
just had an episode of binge eating in secret, the mother's expression after she finished the cake resonates so painfully much. it's as if our mind fades away while we eat and comes back to taunt us when we're done. i love that there's FINALLY a short film about EDs with black actors👏🏼
readjusting the scale, the marks on her thighs hurt sm especially bc both of them are already so beautiful and for once, the daughter actually recognizes it!! the world needed this, absolutely phenomenal!!💗💗
Amanda, this was incredible! Well done! I totally see you becoming a full length feature film director.
This makes me miss my late mom. She was nothing like this mom, but it made me want to hug her and say thank you! 🥺
I'm a thick, healthy mixed girl, so this was kind of relatable. I often get comments about my body, whether it be positive or negative. I used to get the most disgusting comments from someone in my life. I thought about offing myself. I'm fine now, but sometimes I get so on edge just thinking about it
I weighted 41 kg. 167 cm tall. I almost dropped out of my biology Studium, which was and is my dream, I got sick, I couldn't keep my job, I couldn't walk stairs, I couldn't even really go out, I was tired every day, I felt sick every day, by hair was breaking apart, my lymphatic system was overloaded and my face got swollen. My skin was sensible, my nails broken.
It's your only life, live it for yourself, not for random other guys, they got their own life and care about it more than about you suffering for them.
I couldn't keep playing Cello.
My mom told me later, she cried a lot and thought some day my heart would stop beating. She never cried in front of me that time, so I could know. I always looked and felt half dead. More dead than alive and for what. Others? Beauty standards?
Who cares when you're under the ground, if people shame you bc of kindergarten mean girls bullsht, change your people.
Wow, this film is incredibly moving. Every bit of it is well done. I'm speechless. I would love to see more films from you because the storytelling here is enthralling. 👏
this was unexpectedly brilliant. sadly i relate a lot with the mom and daughter, so refreshing to see a story like mine told using actors and a script that matches my life too lol :)
Amanda, this is really good! From the acting, editing, and sound design...the list can go on forever! This was very captivating!
Thank you so much!!
Phew that tension was insane! Great work!
So proud of you amanda!! This was beautiful, u got me in tears gurl
So exciting to see what you had planned come to life! Great film!!
I am not black, but I love seeing how there are black characters depicted! it's always usually white girls, but it was lovely seeing someone of a different race. Beautiful film
I felt the pain. I felt the love, the anger even the sadness. This peice of art is a masterpiece. ❤
this hit close to home. such beautiful work all around, thank u amanda :)
I love the representation 🥹 please make more short films in the future ❤❤❤
Wow, this was very sweet (no pun intended). Great film!
We don't usually see these situations with black girls at the forefront
I was so excited when I saw that you uploaded your short film to the channel. Congratulations on a job well done! Being able to tell a complete story in such a short amount of time is impressive.
This is a beautiful film and its message is so important. Everyone needs to see this!!!
This is precious, Amanda, thanks. It hurts, but it lets in the promise of healing.
I look forward to seeing your first feature length flick on the silver screen, Mandy
You had me at the edge of my chair the whole time. Congratulations to all the people behind this amazing film, can't wait to see your work on the big screen 🤍🤍
this is the most beautiful thing i’ve ever watched. i’m not lying when i say that. i will remember this forever
Wow, this was a hard watch. Very raw, and relatable in ways. Amazing details, and so captivating. Honestly felt like I was tuned into a series I’ve been watching. Definitely grabbed me. The twist.. wow, very emotional. Good job.
Wow.that was so powerful! I felt it! Every step, every bite, all the way to her wiping off the marker on her thighs 🤌🏽🤌🏽🤌🏽
this was an absolutely beautiful film, im at a loss for words i feel like i just watched an entire movie
the quality of it was great!
All too relatable... also I would've been tweaking if my house was that loud sneaking around I would been caught 😂😂
Loved this, especially the use of the sound and music
The script and acting was wonderful and I'm obsessed with the sounds!
This is amazing!! I can't wait to see more of your short films! 😍😍 I would love to see what all went into making this.
Wow this is amazing, you’ve provided a perspective that was underrepresented.
This was so well done Amanda! I'm don't know if this was intentional, but in the scene where the daughter is stripping off all the layer she had on, I interpreted it as her getting rid of all the toxic things that had been drilled into her head about her weight. I'd like to think that it gets better for her and her mom after this. Thank you for this film and please keep telling more stories!
The hits so hard. I’m a young black girl, I’m overweight and everyone tells me, and I’m even in performing where it’s been customary for a while to be thin. I swear I relived so much suppressed trsumw
This is so powerful. Well done! 👏
Girl this was sooo beautiful and captivating from the start!!! WOW WOW WOW big congratulations on this film!
Thank you so much!!
incredible. I feel honoured to finally watch !!
105 lbs for someone her age is actually quite healthy, especially if she’s getting plenty of exercise with gymnastics.
oh so am i overerweight..?
No her being that much doesn’t mean your overweight. Whatever height is healthy for you depends on your height, gender, bone density and muscle so it varies from person to person
I guess i was overweight 😀
Nobody’s overweight theres a weight range for ur age
also there’s nothing wrong with being overweight as long as you’re pretty healthy
This is heartbreaking, and there were moments that were hard to watch for all the right reasons. Yet, the story and the directing is so gripping that i couldn't look away. This is amazing, i loved every minute. 👏 👏 👏 got me tearing up 😢
i love the visual image of Claudia taking off her layers like she shed her mothers expectations!!!! love the lighting and very professional looking editing. the shot of blood coming out as she cvt her thigh rlly got to me :(
Knocked up by a deadbeat is crayyyy
this is incredible
The mother and daughter fighting, meanwhile I’m like; “THE FRIDGE, CLOSE THE FRIDGE”
I love the part where the mom eats the cake and knows how it feels for her this is so heart warming ❤️
6:58 ate her uppp
Did 😩😂
Awesome job! I wonder how many cakes it took
it took 3! :)
How do i cast my vote for the oscars proud of you amanda this is amazing you should be very happy and proud of yourself and how this came out
thank you :)
This helped so much!!! This needs to be visible!!
Wow. This made me so emotional. Such a harsh reality for legacy kids, and young female athletes & so rarely told from the perspective of black women. Beautifully done. Amazing work. amazing job!
ah, the music on this is so good and delicate
This is genuinely so sweet! Love the performances here, the relationship feels very real even if it's strained it really hits
I'm writing a college genre analysis essay about this :) this is phenomenal
This was amazing, the acting, the facial expressions, everything. Love it smmmm
this is an impeccable film. i have had ed for 6 years and they both played the part beautifully, and captured how it really is
this felt like a movie, the emotions and everything are amazing.
The way they eat the cake demonstrates the reality of how you fall into a binge eating disorder after anorexia no matter what. (I learned it the hard way)