Catalyst - An Eating Disorder Short Film
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- Опубліковано 24 тра 2018
- Catalyst (2017) Produced and Directed by Shane Tometich
Produced by Acetiger Productions.
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Catalyst is based on the real life story of lead actor April Morrow's experiences seeking treatment for a life-crippling eating disorder. Sam, An ambitious young woman coming to terms with the demons from her past, has finally agreed to accept treatment. On her first day at the remote treatment facility she meets many other girls all going through their own struggles, and her resolve is tested as she gets a small taste of the long road to recovery ahead of her.
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"You don't know what someone is struggling with based on their weight!" preach
PppppprrrrrreeeeeAAAAAACCCCCCHHHHH!!!! also u cant assume someone's health based on their body type
I agree
💯
🙌🙌
fxrnweh _ 🙏
The loud girl freaks me out
Then I must freak u out-
she triggered so many things in me
Same lol
Yes. She needs kicked out for being so annoying.
Blue Rivers breathe...this is just an opinion on a character in a film. It wasn't meant to be offensive to anyone.
I love the girl who played the one with the hoodie. She's incredible.
She’s a whole mood
she is chill af
The actresses name is Michaela Kahan. Her character is a mood. Love it!
Rachel, I think
Ya I know
Christine was so nice, I thrive to be like her, the way she said "You don't know what someone is struggling with just based on their weight!" It was so sweet.
yeah she was understanding and helpful. the others were a bit pushy
@@themaccabees2219 I agree 100%
Christine is a lovely person!
@@themaccabees2219 besides rachel
Sarah seemed the most pushy, Christine and Rachel seemed nice enough, and Grace didn’t get enough screen time for me to get a clear view of her character, so...
The girl who plays Sam is an amazing actress, the way she was close to crying and broke down, so realistic
she's actually playing herself!
@@lalamouse77 woah
Phoebe Batchelor it’s realistic because the actor has been through and might still be dealing with anorexia.
agreed, also, if it's you on your pfp i just wanted to say that ur vv pretty
True
“Don’t mind her she’s detoxing”
_pulls up middle finger_
Trin Xxx thats funny
Trin Xxx I laughed at that!
It was so funny!
Trin Xxx lol
Lmao
I’m not anorexic but this triggered a feeling I didn’t know existed
Welcome
Im sorry
pls leave
digital devil Why would they?
Same
"you look like a michelle"
"i'm samantha"
i- my name's samantha michelle
@@shrimpies799 👑
That's an amazing name
Kaya Panikovski Helms not funny
Kaya Panikovski Helms uhm-
amiii🥺🥺
no on e cares but im telling this anyways.
when I had Binge Eating Disorder, people said "Stop eating so much!" so I became anorexic, and then people would say "Go eat!" which one is it? HUH?
Lydia_Vlogs same
Middle ground honey. Nothing is good in deficit or excess.
Same
I'm so sorry. I've suffered with ED and they aren't easy.. I hope you're doing okay now.. don't let people get to your head. keep trying, and there will be something good in the future waiting for you. God bless you..
I gained weight when I left school. My family called me fat all the time. I randomly lost it a few years later and now they ask if I eat 🤣 🤦♀️ My picture is from when I was big.
I wish Binge Eating Disorder was addressed as much as anorexia and bulimia.
Kynslie Burke same! It’s just oh ur fat u eat too much loose some weight go on a diet like wtf no it’s another unhealthy eating disorder
@@camtheunicorpse2217 exactly! i mean i've been on both ends of the spectrum, and it's either "just eat a burger!!!!1!1" or "just stop eating so many burgers!!1!11" like........ wow, thanks. i never thought of that. i'm cured. lol
~ this!!
It is in to the bone
and ednos, that one is never addressed
Ngl gonna I wish they had boys in films like these I myself have been anorexic bulimic and had a binge eating disorder that shows well everyone can have one and it's not just a girl thing
Amen to this when I was in the psych ward for anorexia one of my best friends in their was a boy in there for Anorexia- men suffer w itt too
Yeah I wish there was more representation of guys and POC when it comes to Ed stuff :/
there's a book I read called a trick of the light. it features a guy struggling with an Ed. I'd recommend it!
“Pretty little things” on Netflix has a male character with anorexia. I haven’t watched it yet so I don’t know if it’s good representation tho.
ana guy here. we do exist, just aren’t talked about as often.
Dude the dinner scene was so stressful, I started having a panic attack
I thought I was the only one... You're not alone
same here, jfc it was so anxiety inducing
I hated how loud it was and stuff
I think thats the point! It shows just how stressful and overwhelmed shes feeling!
i skimmed thru it because holy fucking shit ur right
Sarah is too loud, she's terrifying and I'd probably have an anxiety attack meeting her
Spooky Stitch same, totally.
Spooky Stitch IM THE ONE THOUSANDTH LIKE AYE
Same
I had one just cause I've watched it. God damn, she's so terrible.
Yeah shes just too much
I love that edgy girl. "How about ways to die with a hacksaw"
Addie that would be me
😂
Ikr!! Actual mood!
Same 😂
@@sweetsaltine hey man, are you okay, do you need someone to talk to?
i'm here for you.
i actually hate the people who are like ‘stop calling urself fat, ur skinnier than me’, sometimes people do it for attention, but people can see things differently
Oh dear I say that for support to my friend because we both talk to each other about how we feel fat and I’m like “Don’t worry I don’t see you as fat and I’m way more then you” so I should try to stop that i guess
@@xsxxnx4026 haha no thats fine since ur being nice but people get extremely mad about it
@@alisa1955 Oh mk thanks for telling me lol
my friend is 90 pounds and she’s really tiny but healthy in the 7th grade, I’m 180 pound and she complains how she’s fat. I have a binge eating disorder and it’s really hard when she says this so please take it into consideration
The problem is when they genuinely think they’re helping
This short film means a lot to me. I used to eat snacks every minute, but the thing that broke me was : "You're eating again?" People should be more careful with what they say, because you never know how it will affect someone.
I tried to recover and succided everyone was saying I eat too much after my ed and saying you're eating again and that brought me back also my depression and anxiety and everything else now they keep forcing me to eat
@@leilani6214 fuck, how are you doing now?
I hope you're ok love. I relate to this a lot. Through the entire film all I could see was this picture I have from when I was sick. Everyone would applaud me for losing weight, no one cared that I lost so much in only a few months. That they never saw me eating, that I would keep a pen in my bathroom for purging, that I would often sneak off to do drugs or drink. All anyone could see was that I was no longer fat. I was grey, I looked tired and run down. But no one cared bc the fat girl was finally no longer fat. I almost died.
If you're still struggling I will not lie to you and say it goes away. I still lapse with purging every so often, I try to eat at least 2 snacks and 1 full meal a day. There will be hard days but if you keep at it then it will get better.
i hope youre doing ok now (also love the tubbo pfp) :D
@@wonderbookk thank you! I hope that everyone in this reply section is doing better right now :]
The dark circles are ment to show the difference between a healthy and a unhealthy person just enjoy the film
But it is true. When I was really anorexic, I had dark circles under my eyes.
ninki minjaj same
Some people dont
*meant
those dark circles are actually realistic. it's not a metaphor.
“I’m anorexic”
“Me too”
“WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?”
A lot of anorexics actually have a favorite food, but are afraid of eating it
なな that actually made me annoyed -
what does anorexia mean?
@@MinYoongi-bv7dx a eatting disorder
@@sillybillygooseywoosey Why though? I have so many favourite foods, even though I struggle with anorexia.
I love the foreshadowing with how she had to catch herself when she was saying how old she is.
ahhhhhh I only realized it when you mentioned 😅😅
For those of you commenting about the dark eye circles. Anorexia's famous symptom is insomnia, it also portrays in this video who's not healthy.
And anemia which also causes dark circles
You know its bad when you start watching these again
Nicole Hopkins Totally
I literally haven't watched these for over a year and now I'm back so like... Oops
Life isn't Fair for sure
Still.Got.No.Jams oh noo don’t be relapsing. It’s no good
@@melissaguillory6483 thanks x I think I'll be fine :))
the dark circles under their eyes are actually realistic, i remember when i had an extreme eating disorder, i was eating 400 calories a day at most, i had circles under my eyes that were literally black
it's so hard for me to tell if mine are because of my anorexia, my insomnia, or smudged makeup lol... years of it all has made it hard to tell this point..
Same.
@@sophiebach2834 don't be so mean to them.... probably you're right about the part where you said they know that's not healthy but maybe that's enough to give this person enough energy for a day so.... and telling someone who has a fucking eating disorder, probably already hate themselves and torture their body and mind that they're fucked up (yes you said that about their eating habits but it usually doesn't matter what specifically you say it about, they're just gonna take it personally. they're gonna hear it they're fucked which is obviously not true) is the absolute WORST thing you could do to them.
and i know that i can't be sure they have an ed.... but you assumed they do. you talked this way to a person who you think has an eating disorder and that's fucking mean
i am not saying you're an asshole or anything just stop this because this could really hurt somebody....
@@midnightstar7432 dude wtf what are you trying to do? Get someone to tell you how bad your eating habits are? Trigger someone? You know exactly what kind of people are in the comments so please don't say stuff like that
@@dominiq4771 i just cant deal with people trying to get attention by saying such triggering things, without caring about how it affects others. I know that especially restrictive eating disorders make you seek validation, but before posting something you should make sure youre not triggering anyone on porpuse.
Yeah i said their eating habits are fucked up. Thats exactly what i said. Even if you hate yourself you can read this sentence correctly. I wasnt insulting them, i was just angry at them for saying such triggering things, downplaying extremely disordered behaviour. I dont want anyone to read their comment and think thats normal.
POV: the screen turned black in the end and you see reflection of you crying
How did you know
Tullip Z magic
I read this as it happened thanks
i literally saw this when i got emotional lol.
I watched this in 2019, thinking I’d never become an anorexic. In 2020, I became one. In 2021, I worked to regain healthy eating habits. It’s been a tough journey, but I’m here.
I'm so proud of you
Incredibly proud of you! Keep going and try your best to stay on track.
i’m so proud of you:))
Omg I'm so proud of you!
@John Titor Hey, people are still on this amazing film?
“I can’t do that”
“Why not?”
“Because-“
“Because why?”
“Bec-“
“Because you know you’ll die?”
That shit hits real hard...
Same
@@mamacita278 Same I will give u the world
TELL ME WHY I FOUND THIS FUCKING COMMENT RIGHT AS THEY WHERE SAYING IT
Yeah…
@@tulipsforwilbur1299 sameeee
can everyone stop complaining about the dark circles and just enjoy the film? they probably exaggerated it on purpose
PastelxKitty Gacha Studio/Verse/Life chill out I don’t have to be depressing every comment I make I can say something that makes me happy
PastelxKitty Gacha Studio/Verse/Life sis chill out the band makes me happy and I never said anything bad about this film . Did you get mad about the person who mentioned Billie Eilish ? No so calm down sis the film was good . I wanted to say army cause I wanted to idc that your mad be mad
PastelxKitty Gacha Studio/Verse/Life wow you must not have a life it’s a UA-cam comment there a ton of comments on here where people are pointing out and saying things that barely have to do with the film stop being a jerk
how can i enjoy this its literally a girl that will at some point DIE because shes not eating
《《 KittyLoaf Gacha 》》 some down there was singing her song
These are REALLY good actors
Samantha (1st anorexic): They emotions she portrayed felt so raw. The outburst at the dinner table, the "today is my birthday" at the pool, she broke down. I felt it in her voice.
Sarah (4th anorexic): She is SO annoying. Which means she played her part well! All that pep and energy.
Christine (2nd bulimic): I get the vibe that she is the most level headed. Very calm vibes, yet funny.
Grace (6th anorexic): Her facial expressions, tone, whole acting on point.
Rachel (? anorexic): I liked her from the start. Just that sad depressed one that gives no fucks. Love it. I was surprised by the end. She opened up in a way I didn't see coming.
Also, the camera crew, sound people, makeup artists, and video editors did an insanely great job. This is what makes a film feel more "professional." It flows nicely, and feels natural.
10:50 they did really good at interrupting each other, felt so natural, like what I was watching was real.
The reason why Samantha was so great in this is because it's inspired by her actual treatments. She actually DID struggle with an eating disorder.
the loud girl makes me afraid to recover because I'm so terrified my personality will come back and I'll start acting like her
Hey, I know this is three months ago, but people with bubbly personalities like that fill my heart with joy. It's okay to be loud and not have a filter sometimes. It's not annoying and it always brightens my day when I see someone like that around. It reminds me that it's okay to talk... people like that help me lose my filter and let my guard down. I need that sometimes, because I'm so afraid of people judging me for what comes out of my mouth. People like that make me feel like it's safe to have a conversation, even if it bounces around a lot.
@@cocoabo3470 same :)
The fact that you mad this post shows that you are aware of it and you wouldn’t do it! Bubbly personalities are brilliant and can help make light of hard situations and don’t make you annoying!
I hope you've recovered your personality. It's not good to have no personality. An annoying one is better than a dangerous, dull lifestyle.
@@cocoabo3470 It doesn't matter that it was 3 months ago. Now it's been a year.
and im glad they have someone thicker in this film because not everyone who struggles with eating disorders are skinny. this is great representation thank you for not making me feel alone
Hey, if you're struggling seek help, any size is a good size
Stay strong 💞
Same here, you aren't alone. I eat at the most one meal a day and yet I'm still overweight. My disorder keeps telling me that I've got weight to lose so starving myself isn't unhealthy. My weight is also why I've struggled so much work getting help cause I keep feeling like no one will believe me.
You're not alone luv.
Just.....Don't listen to that little voice in your head no matter how silent it gets don't listen. Take your favorite movie or book and add onto it. Make your own character into the mix and how each of those other characters would react to them. Look at other people that may have more weight than you and see that you're not as hard on them as you are on yourself. Look at your body as if it has someone else's head on it. Don't look at your face in the mirror.
Me too. Me too.
Me: *struggling with an ed*
Me: *decides to trigger myself and watch this*
Edit: I've been diagnosed with AN
Same
same
Guilty.
same
Same
Me:struggling with and ed
"Close up of food and the noise"
me: gAgS
You okay?
Hey hey hey are you ok?
It’s
Me struggling with Ed: *salivates*
When I first watched this short film was a year ago and I didn’t pay attention to when she stuttered about her age but I just watched it again and when I realized at the end she said it was her birthday that’s why she stuttered about her age and I was in tears.
It made me burst into tears when she said it was her birthday. It is a sad, dark reality that eating disorders rob you of being able to enjoy so many special occassions.
I started treatment for the first time on my birthday. And when I went inpatient another girl was admitted on her birthday it’s pretty common. For people to start treatment on there birthday especially when there turning 18.
bro i cried when she said “today’s my birthday”
@@ivegonegaga4190 that's not rad. but I hope you're doing better x
My first thought- What a wonderful day to start getting well!
Same
@@ivegonegaga4190 I got admitted on my birthday too:/
saaaaaamee
"you look ethnic"
"Jesus Christ"
WHY DID I LAUGH
Tatym Bafico same I'm like I'm gonna get struck down
I laughed too don't worry😂😂
T, the duck cuz it’s a joke?
T, the duck i know its just so funny the way she says it
I’ve never suffered from ED… but I grew up in foster care and this scene is so similar to what it’s like to be constantly shipped to new group homes and almost crying from anxiety and uncertainty of what’s next for you. Some people won’t think it’s relatable but it so is.. the moment where she almost cried… very triggering. I loved this video. “I don’t belong here… I just really wanna go home.” 😢 if you run away you’ll probably be worse off because there is no home.
It is relatable hun ❤ I could literally feel the emotion reading this. I’m so sorry.
Not a fan of the Dark eyes. We aren’t zombies. I developed an eating disorder when I was 13 and it lasted until I was 15. I was 14 when recovering. When I was 12, I had a dance teacher that told me I needed to be skinny and lose weight to dance. That was what set off my development. She’d weigh us every 2 weeks to see if we were under 100lbs. I was 110. (Keep in mind I was of average weight for my height.) she quit after she found out she was pregnant. When I turn 13, the P.E teacher weighed all the girls in class and yelled out the weight. She got to me, yelled my weight out and told me I needed to lose weight. And thus I stopped eating all together. My dance school got a new dance teacher, a really nice man who wanted what was best for his students. If we had a problem, we went to him. He’d listen to us. He had the best intentions for us. I didn’t think I caught his attention much because my teachers, friends and family didn’t notice my rapid weight loss. In fact my P.E teacher encouraged it. He pulled me away one day and asked what I would eat in a day. And I remember I just started bawling my eyes out. I told him everything, from the first dance teacher, to the P.E teacher an how I became paranoid of food. He got an education in dance, therapy and nutrition. After I helped him clean the dance studio, he’d sit me down in his office for half an hour and we’d talk. He helped me pick up the pieces that were torn from me for a year. Afterwards he’d buy me a smoothie and make sure I drank it and let me stay with him for an hour to make sure I didn’t throw it up. Thanks to him, I was able to gain back weight as well as not be paranoid of food. Of course the paranoia still hits me and I usually call him even though we’re in different states now as a coping tool. He helped me so much. He’s not just a dance teacher, he’s my friend and I’m forever indebted to him
CrypticSprite R this is heartwarming. I’m so happy for you❤️
This is amazing, I'm so happy that you found someone who truly cared. I hope there's more people put there like him
CrypticSprite R wow god bless
Reading this made me tear up we need more people like him
how i wish that everyone in the world is like him:( and oh my gosh i'm so happy that you got better!! continue taking care of yourself❤️❤️
They did such a good Job of making the viewer feel how overwhelmed she felt. That dinner table scene was so stressful
youboring i started crying lol
Honestly I really wanted to hug her. It's obvious that eating is a very tough thing for her, so she's already stressed. Those other girls definitely overwhelmed her.
Anna Lialine especially that annoying one
Jesus loves you pray to god!
Bruh 😩
Sarah: talking about how it’s gonna be her last time inpatient bcs she wasn’t forced into it
Sarah, two seconds later: *you look ethnic*
The shots spinning around the table were a great choice bc it was really dizzying and nauseating and helps you feel how she feels when faced with having to eat.
Sarah- You look ethnic
Rachel- Jesus Christ
I’m dying 😂😂😂😂😂
Edit: omg!! Thanks for the likes! ❤️❤️
Meadow_Wuzz HeRe Jesus Christ: thanks
Hahaha ikr!!
Omg I was crying with laughter
Meadow_Wuzz HeRe THAT KILLED ME 🤣
This video is not exactly the most funny thing. It's kind of supposed to be serious
me: * a former and current anorexic *
also me: hey let’s watch this video even though i know it’s gonna trigger the shit out of me!
hope you're doing fine and i honestly hope that you are healthy or that you, at least, try to be
Same here
You’ve got this ❤️
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me when it ends: *wanna see me do it again*
I know eating disorders are so serious (I have one) and this just reminded me but I love meeting other people with ED’s and them being like “hey what’s your favorite food” or “hey what’s your least favorite food”
Why do I feel like this literally doubles as a tragic lesbian love story
HONESTLY
Rachel is so fucking cool
I love this idea. Continue your thought after a year.
"What have you been in? Anything I've seen?"
"Well she isn't a baseball player, so"
"Yeah well your mom isn't a baseball player-"
I died at that bit !
lmao
I didn’t get it🙈🙉🙊
Booty Hole it’s a lesbian joke
If y’all hate Sarah, you’d seriously hate me too. I’m annoying af when I’m manic or anxious. I NEVER STOP
Me
I'm louder than Sarah is
you must be annoying asf...
Ling ling that's so rude if don't got nothing nice to say don't say it how would you feel if so calls you annoying so stop it you don't even know her/him not a thing so don't talk about don't judge a book by its cover an apologize for being rude
I’m gonna be honest if that’s true I’d never be friends with you
"you look ethnic"
"jesus christ.."
at that point i knew i would like rachel
i always come back to this one when it’s getting bad again.. there’s nothing light hearted about it.. it’s raw and real how it should be.. it’s comforting
That girl Sarah needs to chill OUTTT
Right she was make me anxious
This is accurte actually, people like this do suffer like this ,she was just trying to be nice
well your a jackass now most people be mean so they can cuz them self harm or so no one talks to them so they be punished for something they think they did don’t call someone annoying if you don’t know they story
why is everyone hating on sarah damn. she's just energetic, she might have adhd or manic depression or something
dedd
all of these comments are about the dark circles, but cmon you guys their teeth looked TOO good...
Kelsey true. they shouldve been in worse state
There anorexic not bulimic...
@@akuwolfheart6247 the lack of nutrition either way still means your teeth and other bones suffer as well.
Lex none oh I didn’t know that....I just knew the acid from your stomach would rot your teeth
More about hair
11:19 I know this scene all too well. I spent 4 of my birthdays in clinics to fight anorexia.
I'm so thankful to be almost here and healthy.
I wish all those who fight anorexia a lot of strength and all the best.
i am very proud of you, and i wish you all the best!
I love this short movie because of the details, it's not just a basic "she's anorexic in a treatment and it's hard as shit", but there's so much to it - the line about how you can't assume what someone's dealing with based just on their weight, how the loud girl is moving her legs under the table (to burn calories when eating), even the makeup that makes them all look realistic (have ed, dark circles under eyes are a bitch!), even how she said she's 19 to then say she's 20 which wasn't just a mistake, it was her birthday. it's just 12 minutes long but there's so much, it makes you feel how she felt, the dining room feels stresfull and it's shown in such a great way. I love this
"today is my birthday"
*tears enter the chat*
Felt that
@@kihyunstan9171
ARMY 4EVERRRRR
i cried
That was so saddddd
Right ! I was gonna comment this
The makeup was only dramatic to show how they felt inside not to be an accurate depiction lol.
amelia perez hello kittyyyy!! I’m obsessed
Well i have the exact same dark circles :')
@@tesouik5836 Hon you are beautiful your body is beautiful and if anybody says different their lying, your soul should be what matters. And if nobody has told you this I love you.
@@tesouik5836 mine are blue and they look terrible-
@@shadowofthedarkness7321 at least they are not grey
Is nobody going to talking about how creepy it is that the guys are back there
they have to be.
Is that really how residential works? I have to go in for the first time in a couple months :(
@@early.autumn.summer You can do this! Take care.♥️😘
@@early.autumn.summer every place is different
I don’t have an eating disorder but I understand how she feels.
Seeing the food but not wanting to eat it despite knowing you should. The feeling of being overwhelmed by all the other people eating and looking down at your own plate and feeling disgusted with yourself for being ungrateful.
'v for vendetta'
MY V IS FOR VENDETTA
THOUGHT THAT I'LL FEEL BETTER
BUT NOW IVE GOT A BELLYACHE
I had to go down so far to find this comment lol
I love Billie but I also love the film so the song wasn't the first thing that came to mind 😅❤
Billie!
This is exactly what I thought too!
YASSSSS
"Why don't we play a game?"
"How about ways to die with a hacksaw😂"
Edit: AAAAAAAH THE MOST LIKES IVE EVER GOTTEN THX
The darkest part of my mind on bad days....
@@kks2167 I'm sorry. I hope you'll have less of those bad days :)
@@kks2167 Me too, sometimes
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Mood
I remember when i went to treatment the 3rd time and I hadn't had a full meal in years. I thought I was smart enough to hide food and give excuses. They kicked me out, sent me to the hospital and gave me 2 weeks to live. I had a heart attack but survived and still healing 18 years later. God is my saviour. Bless you all
My heart goes out to those who suffer from eating disorders. To anyone who is suffering, i hope you can recover
The dark circles were a little much, but overall, it’s a good video
RK AK have you ever.. seen an anorexic person at a low bmi
Alice Liddels yes, I’ve seen multiple people actually. And a good majority of them don’t have dark circles like that
I don't have that big dark cricles even if I'm underweight
I think it may be emphasized on purpose.
I have EDNOS.. and once it started getting bad, My skin was turning a different shade, and my eyes started getting bags.. but yes, I never to much with bags that dark.. but it can happen. 😂 I suppose 🤷🏻♀️
that singing girl annoys me so much shes way too loud but overall i loved this
No offense but I think it is shown how Sam thinks she acts. People with mental illness often feel offended by people who only want to be nice to them. So she is shown very overwhelming, how Sam sees her. Btw sorry for my bad English lol
Why is spongebob commenting on this video tf?
It’s intentional, cuz it’s Sam’s POV, and she sees Sarah as very annoying
Love the profile picture 😂❤
Accurate tho. There was a girl almost exactly like her at my inpatient treatment.
This made me cry because for once the feeling of being stuck between choosing recovery or death was actually mentioned and perfectly portrayed.
I started to cry when she said “today is my birthday “ k just felt so bad and the girl that made her feel happy I think she reminded me of myself
I love how they put a bigger girl in there because it more about the mind than body
love cosplay and usually people with bulimia is either at normal weight or owerveight.
love cosplay Yes, it also h3lps to understand that anorexia is not the only eating disorder
love cosplay yes that is so true, it dosen`t always have to be the weight, it`s much more by mind
love cosplay Don’t forget about Binge Eating Disorder.
I’m bulimic and I’m overweight it sucks so much.
“Because you know you’ll die?”
That one hit me hard. This film so so so real. I don’t know what else to say.
I understand her but I wish I didn’t tbh.
*sings song about the food rules*
me- *hears yakko’s world*
subby for the ducky xo LMAOO SAME
My heart goes out to anyone in recovery. My friend was in recovery for 4 months when I was 9, my mom had to explain to me what ED’s were and it was downplayed so much. Short films like these make me realize how hard it is and if you have an ED you are so strong💗💗
I would’ve loved this video but the dark circles are too much. ED sufferers are not zombies lol jeez.
sadder daze well they aren’t but I know some who have dark circles exactly like that, not all look like that but others can. They don’t all look the same, ED sufferers can be a wide variety.
Max Yes I’m aware of that. I just think it’s too overdone for one group of patients all in the same facility.
Max yeah but not that fucking big and dark
Funny this is most extreme ed patients do have deep dark sets of undereyes
Tbh I’ve seen some just like this in an IP unit but the fact that they all have them is a bit unrealistic
Do you know what i hate?
When short films are soo good, and then im sad theres not a second one.
Ikr
Same
OMG YEEESSS SAME
Unicorn girl ughhh same!!!!
Same!!!
This hits hard because when I was 10 I stopped eating because everybody at my school always said I was the chubby kid so I just stopped eat I hide all my food in my paper towel or in my pockets or hide small sorts in my mouth then spit them out later.. I had dark circles under my eyes my mom thought I was just tired and need to go to bed earlier and when I did they didn’t go away then she weighed me and I weighed 70pounds.. my mother cried as she rolled up my sleeves and she saw my actually bones she actually made me cry being an anorexic depressed 10 almost 11 year old my mother told my family and my father cried and ran to my parents room my sister cried and hugged me tightly and my older sister cried and said that she was anorexic too I went into treatment and I was the only anorexic kid obviously I got bullied and I escaped they found me in a bush crying my actually fucking eyes out I did the treatment and now I am a healthy 14 year old boy. (If you read this you have my heart ♥️)
@༺𝐊𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐤𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭༻ thank you so much! Your appreciation and support makes me so happy
Good short film . When the girl in red said "today is my birthday" i felt that . I was inpatient 2 days after my bday .... so the day after Christmas.
But for those wondering, this is nothing like inpatient. Honestly this environment seems alot more fun and layed back , despite the clashing personalities. Hospital is legit traumatic.
- Not allowed to move from the bed
- Not allowed to pee by yourself
- Not allowed to leave food on plate
( if so you get tubed )
- I was only allowed 4 cups of water a day
- No coffee
- No tea
- No talking during meals
- ( Im celiac and am intolerant to egg, dairy and soy , but they refused to modify my mealplan . So i sat there in agony and discomfort , and was only allowed panadol for the pain . 🖕🏻)
- You get a needle in your stomach to avoid blood clots from sitting for hrs a day , but bc you have no fat , you bruise like a peach 💀. This legit could be avoided with a little bit of walking , but Noooooo ... thats too much exercise. 🙄😒
- Also they check your blood alot . I had 3 collapsed veins in 2.5 weeks . But despite the vein LITERALLY BEING THE SIZE OF A FKN BALL they still drew blood bc its a "REQUIREMENT"
( I was the most easy , compliant girl they had there , and i still didnt get any slack . Every nerse would say roughly the same thing : "your not like the other anorexics, you act normal despite your weight"
LIKE EXCUSE ME WTF , THAT SO OFFENSIVE TO PPL WITH EDS . like someone with an ed isnt normal !!! Get fked .
DO yourself a favor . If you have an ED , dont EVER GO INPATIENT. they dont know what they are doing .
You only get shit food , and very little nutrients as well.
Cereal , soda , jelly , ice cream cups , sandwichs , rice , pasta , Ensure drinks , resourse drinks , custard , milk and only around 2 cups of veg a day . I was lucky and was allowed 2 pieces of fruit and 5oz chicken per meal (thank the lord) . But besides that NO NUTRIENTS!!!
They treat you like a baby , assume your manipulative and say everything is for your health like they know better then you .
Your better off recovering by yourself .
Surround yourself with people who love you , go for a holiday , learn to forgive, forget and relax . Calm your anxiety and find something new to focus on . Hospital wont help . Just my 2 cents
this just perfectly encapsulates how going into treatment feels...someone is laughing, someone is angry, someone is sweet and follows all the rules. the truth is they're all lovely people, and they all want each other to get better. whether it's been for ED or self harm I can always pick out those few people. being in treatment is so scary yet so beautiful at the end. nothing hits harder than "i just wanna go home."
Emily Keller did you make any friends for life in treatment?
i wasnt inpatient for ed, but i made friends inpatient! its such an uplifting environment, you all understand each others pains (and you are able to make fun of the shit staff 😂)
holy shit, this couldn't be more accurate. i was inpatient for almost 3 weeks (not for an ED) and this is exactly how it went.
im going inpatient for the first time in a few weeks, im terrified
Salad Floof youre gonna do great :) i hope you find what you need in treatment, it's only scary your first day
OMG this gave me so much anxiety to watch. Everyone was so loud and overwhelming
Tayla Cherry I was just thinking the same thing. I'd probably have bolted just to escape the chaos.
That’s the point... unfortunately in inpatient facilities or rehabilitation centers where you’re grouped together with other people, some who have been there for a long time and are used to/comfortable with the environment, there’s a lot of people who just let themselves be wild and they can be annoying or entertaining or somewhere in between. But usually the people who work there or supervise encourage that behavior because it’s better than someone being guarded and not being able to get through to them. I relate to Sam so much because when I went into inpatient I didn’t want to socialize at all.. but was terrified of being alone... and you make friends in rehab.. but when you leave you don’t keep in touch (at least I didn’t, not that I didn’t want to) and then you kinda fall back into old behaviors... it’s just a very isolating experience and it’s very overwhelming. This short portrayed going into a rehab facility and being a “newbie” so well, a little too well as I’m bawling my eyes out now haha.
muggle394 I've been residential myself. All I know is that NOBODY would have gotten away with talking about "ana" and "mia" and all the other pro ana type shit I was hearing here. The other reason I can understand her bolting is because she got grilled in a seriously pro-ED way the second she got there. That's absolutely awful.
Tayla Cherry same if i was in that situation i'd be fidgeting like crazy.
ugh yes.... i had to turn the volume to the lightest and read the subtitles
do you ever see food and then just wanna puke like you cant be around it nor smell it? or is it only me??
I didn’t realize how hard it is to go through that. Even looking or talking about food makes them feel weird. I’m really grateful to be healthy
Finally an accurate representation of treatment with the rules, the people, the table games, the deep conversations, the feeding tubes, the misery, and the breakdowns. Treatment 100% sucks, hardest thing Ive ever had to go through but it was also 100% worth it. Recovery is possible and you deserve it.
At least you got treatment I had to go through depression, anxiety, my eating disorder and stop myself from commit suicide. I'm sorry I didn't mean to say that I just get triggered easily and I say and type what I think not even stopping to check I it's to much
I dont even know if I have depression or any sort of sadness.It feels like it.As if I was trapped in my own mind,as if my body was a prison.But I also get suicidal thoughts and sometimes think about cutting,but im glad I can stop myself.Im in denial.
Awww what a thoughtful comment. Hope youre happy becuase you deserve it for making others happy💕
Everything was accurate except for the dark circles cause when people have eating disorders they don’t turn into zombies lol
Me in a game:
1 point for me for getting through depression
-1 point for cutting once
Neutral points for not being anorexic
-1 point indefinetly for having anxiety
+1 point for it being controllable anxiety
actually feeling nauseous when seeing food 100% relatable
Do u know what that is and how u cure it??answer pls
And I oop I don’t have any professional opinions and I don’t even have an ED, but I think you should talk to someone and ask about what you’re experiencing. There’s varying degrees to eating disorders and all kinds of symptoms, but feeling nauseous could be a symptom. It doesn’t automatically mean you have an ED, but think about it this way. If you look up the symptoms for depression, one of them is trouble falling or staying asleep. You might feel that way sometimes but that doesn’t mean you have depression. I think you should talk to a professional to get the full picture, and get help if you need it. Hope you’ve felt better since you replied to this comment!
My parents wanted to be chefs, but they never did. So they make alot of food and they always make me eat it. I dont want to, I dont think anyone cares. But I'm done.
Soour Lemon Does their food taste good? Not that it matters but I’m curious🥕🐡
@@exoatmospheric3670 Yes it does lol. They can make anything from soup, to cake. They make alot of stuff, but since I made that comment ive stopped eating a bit. I'm not going to do anything drastic, but i need to stop eating so much. They also growed a garden for vegetables and fruit and stuff.
Me a person with a eating disorder. I dont FEEL like i need to eat my belly growls but i dont listen. my belly hurts but i dont go to get food.. Yeah im hungry but i cant eat, i cant just go grab food like you, i cant just get up and get chips like you. Im "different" my body doesn't like food i just cant eat i cant do anything about it sorry :\
Don’t be sorry. There are so many other people giving through the same thing as you are. I promise you will get through this. I know you can and I believe in you. You are so strong. I love you and there are so many people who are there before. There will always be lights at the end of the tunnel.
‘You look ethnic’
‘Jesus Christ’
Why did that make me laugh so hard
i'm a chubby person and sometimes i see videos based on eating disorders where the girls really lost weight and that makes me want to skip meals even more i don't know if it makes sense
edit: thank y’all for the support and kind words
shanny please please don't you are absolutely perfect the way you are
I absolutely get it. It’s like you know that it’s horrible and wrong, but you think they look good, so you kind of want to in a way. I think it triggers you to want to do that.
Same girl same
i understand, but your struggle is valid. you deserve recovery just as much as someone at a lower weight.
I can completely agree with that, I feel you. I grew up in a way where while I was going through puberty I gained a little more weight, and girls had the liberty to call me fat. I started restricting and restricting until everyone in my family was pressuring me to eat and I would break down. It’s so so soo hard but just know everyone that’s anorexic hate their bodies, there’s no liberty to it. I still have very toxic thoughts and have days where I eat little to nothing, and I still get a lot of pressure from others, but I’m on the road to recovery and I hope you find your way out too. I was inspired by the films where people talked about their anorexia stories, and it was a toxic loop to be in. Stay strong 🤍
Rachel is the sweetest ever. I had a Rachel when I was in treatment. I ran to my room was so depressed didn't come out all day till therapy and a girl slipped me a note telling me it would all be ok.I could overcome it.
i just really wanted to say this, i can relate to your pfp😂😌
i had a rachel too and she was the sweetest 🥰
Is this how it’s actually like? Do they have places like this for other mental disorders?
@@pekopekoyama4945
I was in an inpatient facility for a month for a suicide attempt and self harm. There were other cabins for kids with anger issues and pretty much anything you could name.
Being a woman is so hard. Why can’t I just be a horse.
eating disorders are not a woman exclusive problem at all.
I wanna be a slug
@@hearts4b1llzo good choice
@@hearts4b1llzo I wanna be one-a those too!
@GeminiGirl1234 hi i agree with that (and I actually commented the same thing lol) but don't make nazi jokes and don't be sexist
I was diagnosed with anorexia today, 2 weeks before my 14th birthday. I love how they said "you can't tell what somebodys struggling with based of their weight" as although I am underweight I am nowhere near what most would expect an ana girl to look like.
Wishing everybody struggling / in recovery the best 🤍
Me forgetting how many times I’ve watched this and realizing again and again every time I come back when things get bad
“that’s how i know it’s my last time in here”
“famous last words”
THAT SENT ME
Everyone having extremely dark circles on their eyes was a lil weird but I liked the acting and the characters was nice
Jeremiah Zaeske that’s what happens when you get really skinny
Ana •Is My Best Friend• Not always, and even so it seemed kinda exaggerated is all. Not completely unrealistic, it was just a little offputting to me
+Ana •Is My Best Friend• not like that it isnt 😂 speaking from experience as well, yeah shadows from exhaustion is normal but definitely not that obvious and not on everyone
I think it's supposed to be from crying??? I mean as someone's who's had anorexia, the shadows around the eyes are accurate but I think these were supposed to represent red eyes from excessive crying or anxiety.
When you don't eat well, when you're tired and loose weight you develop eye bags. It's kind of exaggerating, but that's the point so we can identify who has anorexia and who has bulimia or another type of disorder.
And yet we don’t appreciate the good we have in life until it disappears..
I've never felt so overwhelmed while watching a UA-cam video.
That film was so amazing, but she was put in a center on her BIRTHDAY.
i was put in a psychiatry on my birthday too, shit happens
I was put in the basement. I'm still here.
@@uncultureddog5226 at least you have wifi skrr
I was put in a mental hospital on my 11th birthday lol
Aj køgan same. Twice
Oh my god. When I was in residential, the “obnoxious” one was named Sarah I’m dead
We need a part two tbh, Like to get a look into the other girls backstories.
The representation in this video, seemed so real to me. My heart goes out to anyone struggling with eating disorders. The comment about not judging someone from their weight is so true. I used to work with a woman who was very thin. I used to joke about how skinny she was. One day she asked me to stop, as she should. I still regret my “playful” comments. She said she struggles to keep her weight up. It never occurred to me that she wasn’t just “lucky” to be thin. I’ve never forgotten that conversation and it changed how I act and think in similar situations.
The dark circles and feeding tubes are meant to represent them slowly dying.
Ana Angel Really?! That means that they are dying?! 😟 BTW, are all bulimics necessarily heavy? Can you be thin/slender & still have it? 🤔
Kelley Anne Thomas Yes, it depends. Some bulimics have binge eating disorder and only purge after binging. Others purge after every time they eat. The ones with BED tend to be heavier.
Annabella Schumacher Purging but not binging is not bulimia. That’s Anorexia binge/purge subtype.
@@kelleyannethomas5372 Most are average weight. I am...
Feeding tubes represent help. Dark circles represent the reason they need help
I want this to be a series
Hailey Fine me too
Hailey Fine yess
Samee
Sameeee
to the bone is very similar to this, it's a movie tho
I don't even know how to explain how this made me feel. It was good and bad at the same time. I had to pause the video at the dinner scene because it was very triggering; sensory issues as well as struggles with weight throughout my entire life. But, it really shows how well this was filmed if it was able to cause such a reaction.
Overall, this is an incredible short film. It really hit hard, heh.
This is probably the most accurate representation I've ever seen. I've been impatient for two years and a half and there is so much truth in the way they interact with each others. ♥️
Alot of people are talking about the dark circles being too much but I think it might just be an artsy thing, or maybe a way to distinguish the ed patients and other people
i see not 1 person talking about how the makeup is bad, only comments defending it
@@anika8898 I see multiple comments talking bad about it, also they commented this 11 months ago, meaning the comments would look differently from then, to now.
omg hi a phannie
Honestly it low-key reminded me of a Tim Burton film, I like it
“no one can leave till their plate is clear”
she should’ve tipped everything off the plate onto the table
“now it’s clear”
timotheechalamet fuckme Hahahaha i did it once!!!!!
penisin sideme LMAOOO
Love that one! Keep it in mind for the next film or continuation of this one...I have anorexia and though triggered by the film, it was so real. It isn't always visible though and it's so hard getting comments that I don't 'look' anorexic because I'm not skeletal, though I am underweight. And I have never been to treatment because my insurance won't cover. Wish I had more support. Have a trauma therapist who is great but all the therapists I've been to have enough to address with me, there is no time to discuss much of the eating disorder and they are not specialized. And why is it that there is no residential care in N.Y. other than for alcohol or substance abuse?! I need help.
I've done that before when I was 11 ....in real cases like or similar to this you end up with a new plate with portions of equal or greater value same if you drop a piece on the floor even by mistake or on purpose.
That’s what I thought hahaha
This reminded me of my stay in a place like this. I can't even express how overwhelming the first few days were, but this movie perfectly captured that feeling. At first I also felt like I didn't belong there, but i got so much support from other patients that it became easier. I also had my birthday during my stay in the center like this, so it hits close to home. It made me so emotional, well done
honestly, this made me feel so happy. ive never suffered any serious eating disorders, and thats only because i had no way to. this video was really good for me, because ive been struggling with over-eating lately, so thank you.