EDIT AGAIN: Hey, I keep forgetting this video exists! I’m grateful for all the views and subs, even though, alas… my account isn’t eligible for monetization 🤣 Ah well! Until the copyright holder gets mad at me, this fine film can stay up. (Even tho I’m not the only one who has it uploaded) I try to heart or at least acknowledge as many comments as I can. I’m not really stepping in unless I see something really messed up, and me hearting a comment doesn’t necessarily mean I agree or endorse the opinion, just that I appreciate the commenter’s time and engagement. EDIT 2: Hey again guys! I still intend to figure out a way to get this captioned! I’m in the middle of moving house right now and it’s super stressful, so I’m not able to focus on that right now. HOWEVER! I found the DVD on Amazon! Shattered Innocence a.co/d/5MQX1Pv it’s only $10 USD and probably captioned. I don’t know for certain but it might be worth looking into. EDIT: RIP Melinda Dillon! Hey guys, I don't know why automatic captions aren't available for this movie. I've set the language settings to English for both the video and the title, I have no idea why YT isn't trying to caption it. Part of the reason I uploaded it was in the hopes that it would have automatic captions, because sometimes I just can't understand the dang ol' dialogue. So sorry! I MIGHT try to subtitle it myself if there’s any demand. I’ve never done it before but I have transcribed long sound files before so it can’t be THAT complicated (famous last words lol)
@@statlalinden662you go ahead. I’m not sure what “copywrite” infringement is, but if it’s anything like copyRIGHT infringement then yeah, I know, and the algorithm knows, and I’m not the only channel who has this movie up. 🤷♀️ And if it goes down, then cool, you’ve made a lot of people unhappy. Hope that goes well. Happy holidays.
Well ,good evening thats not dramatic! I am french by the way and understand most of the dialogues here in the film..maybe you can find this movie on.another channel with captions included.
Guys this is a typical 80s early 90s movie. Y’all ain’t got no compassion. Things were different back then. There was no internet or « story time « vlogs. A lot of things that movies show now were based on stories back then or maybe you knew someone who knew someone who did. Most small town girls were naive and just like her.Have a heart. This is the life of many women and men in the industry.
Social media is a double edged sword nowadays. On the positive side it does bring more awareness to missing people and background checks but on the downside it can ruin reputations and shatter confidence.
There were no cell phones or computers. But, what this young woman had were loving parents and a support system. But, she couldn't see it past her materialism. She wasn't that naive. There were instances in this movie where she lied to get what she wanted even though the porn producers and drug dealer boyfriend tried to shield her from the pitfalls of her decision. Her own mother admitted that she was stubborn to a fault. It's sad she died so young. But, she started at 18 and died at 20. I'm surprised it only took two years for her to get to her breaking point.
@@feliciaford3620 you’re absolutely right; they don’t make movies like they used to on Lifetime!! They just churn out junk now with an occasional good one. But you’ll never see a movie like the “Death of A Cheerleader” with Tori Spelling, those and the 1980’s classics are a thing of the past!!
Ikr!! I can picture my old house that I grew up in! I miss those days Soo much!! It really was better before all these cell phones, internet, social media,etc.- the world was REAL!!💓💯😇🙏
Everything was crystal or covered in plastic felt like you were being peeled from the couch when you got up in summer ….and lace on countertops made you high society. Lol
The more insecure a person feels than the more arrogant they act to compensate for feeling less than. They seek validation my gaining the approval of others from outward appearance, money, property and prestige. Pauline was spiritually sick and empty inside. She needed help to learn to love herself.♥️🙏
Learning to love yourself is the most difficult task I've ever faced, so I completely understand how she ended up spiralling so fast. For me, I turned to drugs, not sex. I've recently learned that selfish people actually hate themselves, people assume that if you're selfish, you love only yourself, but it's actually the opposite and I've been very selfish. Still learning how to love myself and I haven't gotten very far.
@@QuadriviumNumbersThis is a young girl on the wrong path that harmed herself more than anyone around her. She's not in the same category as your list of names smh
This movie is based on the real true tragic story of Shauna Grant (real name Colleen Marie Applegate). Grant moved with her BF to Cali, started posing for nude magazines, was warned by he photographer who first hired her to get out of nude modeling quickly, because when all of the magazines had used her, the only thing left for her would be hardcore movies. Her and her BF broke up and he went to the army. Before his induction, he informed some residents of her small town that Applegate was involved with pornography, which caused her family much embarrassment. In the Frontline documentary, he refused to speak about his relationship with her, except to say that he no longer cared about her. She started doing movies, but then developed a cocaine addiction, later killed herself by suicide in 1984. Her parents used their proceeds from selling the movie rights to pay for her tombstone.
@@dramamamaof2 I know it was mostly her plan. Because in the movie & reality. He came back to his home town. She stayed. The mother didn't approve of him. So she's probably still blaming him to this day.
She was very young and naive. She was seduced by the exciting prospect of easy fame, but everything has a price and ultimately, she paid for it with her life.
I wonder why her mother never tells Pauline that she loves her? Pauline will say “ Mom I love you.” Her mother always responds with a “yeah.” Such a tragic story.
Same.. After watching this movie I talked to my mom and told her thank you for not judging me or being too harsh on me when I was already falling apart.
It could be the reason that her mother never tells her I love you maybe when she was a child's her mother never told her so she never heard it so maybe it's hard for her to say I love you but I'm sure that she loves her that mean it's not right but that's what I'm thinking maybe her mother never told her but it just got passed down to where she doesn't tell her daughter but then when she's gone she's going to regret it every time she said I love you Mom and she never said it back that's going to haunt her for the rest of her I'm sure that give me a like if anyone else agrees with me have a blessed day and happy New years
Her real name was Colleen Applegate. She was from Minnesota. Her prn name was Shauna Grant. Look her up. Colleen Marie Applegate, known professionally as Shauna Grant (May 30, 1963 - March 23, 1984), was an American pornographic actress and nude model. She ran away from her small town in Minnesota and proceeded to appear in over 30 pornographic films, earning up to $100,000 in her two-year career. Grant died by suicide after the arrest of her partner in March 1984.[1] She was inducted into the XRCO Hall of Fame in 1999
Shame. The money would have set her up for life. She could have retired from the industry and dyed her hair to look a little bit different, and started a new life, moving away and going to college etc.
I absolutely CANNOT believe some of these comments. It’s definitely worth watching but you have to have empathy and actually care about how other people feel.
I felt it when she said she just wants to be a little girl again. You can tell she missed her old life with her parents guiding and taking care of her. May she rip
It's 3:15 am now it's 🆕 years day 2023 and I found one of my favorite movies from the 90's I was in the 9th grade and we saw this in health awareness class n this movie always stayed in my head it's good n all teens should have to see it the message can help many women
I feel so sorry for her it seemed like Mel was a good guy, although he was alot older than her, he really seemed to care for her and wanted to get her out of the industry and drugs. She was only 20 years old so sad.
Unfortunately, she was not the first and she won't be the last. No different than some of the movie stars and musicians who died tragic deaths. It's sad. If she had remained at her "boring " job and life, she would probably still be alive. Just as Elvis Presley's mom just wanted him "to be a truck driver..."
Acceptance of your children, even their mistakes as they grow really go a long way to avoiding these kind of endings. As parents we can't control everything our kids do or don't do especially after they turn 18, but we can accept them and love them.
Just the way the movies come on just fills me with so much nostalgia I'm 37 years old and I loved watching lifetime movies with my sister and my grandma growing up
As much as Pauline despised the idea of going back home, that was where her most favorite memories were. She always had that yearbook out, speaking of those days & times with whoever would listen. Perhaps she just couldn't navigate a way back home without having to face all of the things she felt she had to do to survive while away. So sad.
Even when people want to leave home they still have a sentimental part of them that is connected to it deep inside they know what they do is wrong maybe but they are trapped then and can’t get out the love of power and money overshadows those feelings plus it is a rebellion thing they want to show that they can make it and show off to the ppl who doubted them
@@fembotprincess1 - Absolutely! Most kids hit their teens and feel that the grass is greener on the other side of all of those parental rules (not realizing that there are rules no matter where they go or what they attempt to do-and the rules also come with bills). They can't figure out that they might as well swallow their pride and return home because their parents already know what they've just found out: it's hard out there and it's better to be in a place where you can fail but land on a softer spot; where you're allowed to try again with a far less harsher judgment than you would get from strangers.
I had to tell my kids when we were going through some somethings. There are a lot grown ass people who will be more than happy to help you ruin your life. I feel so sorry for her and her family. ❤
The mom is more bothered about what others think than her own daughter's happiness. A typical small town housewife, her whole life will revolve around gossip and trying to impress neighbors.
She was a beautiful woman in real life! It is a shame on what happened to her. We ALL make mistakes in this life and suicide is NOT the answer! She died so young. She had her whole life ahead of her.. It breaks my heart that she died so young. RIP Coleen Applegate!!!
I see myself in Pauline so much when I was 19 I started working at the strip club just topless by the time I was 21 I was full nude and also had a full-blown drug habit and for children I'm 37 now and riddled with mental health issues my children are grown and I'm scared they're going to follow in the same steps I did because it doesn't matter how well you raise them or how bad you raise them they're going to do what they want I've been sober for 5 years but it's a battle every day to not give in to the urge to use again because it's the only time I feel normal
Don’t listen or read negative comments just do the best you can with your kids teach them about the cruel world outside you have the tools use them and hang on in there ,no secrets no lies that’s my motto and it worked ! No parent gets a book on how to be the perfect parent no one has a perfect family .god bless x
@@marionpositivestuart3609 thank you my kids are all grown now except for my 16 yr old and they're doing great however I always will have a worry in the back of my mind
Don't let people judge you. Im a former addict but im doing ok. Got out of that environment. It's tough EVERY day, I know. Thank you for your brave and relatable story. God bless u. I'll be praying for you.🙏❤
@Just Be how can you state something to be a fact if you don't know what happened or how they were raised do you know what a fact is or did the public school system do a poor job at teaching you
WHY on earth does her Mother never tell her that she loves her? My daughter has broken my heart over and over again. Yet I still tell her that I love her every single day.
My mother said parents who tell their children that they love them everyday/several times a day is wrong and the words the children hear ,’ I love you ‘ just become words without meaning, and don’t mean anything to the child. I still wished my mother told me she lived me though. I wonder if your child didn’t know if you really loved her ? 😢
@@JohnnyRayedd-Neck I have never thought about it from this point of view. I just feel like her daughter is living in another state and time is precious and we aren’t guaranteed anything. Each time they hang up her daughter says “ Mom I love you.” Her mom says goodbye. It happens every single time. The next time you watch it pay attention and tell me what you think. I will tell you I love you because I do. God Bless you!
@@marilynmanord1790I tell my kids I love them every day too, I know they know by now, but it was always hard for my mother to show me affection and I I didn’t want to be like that with my kids..
I've noticed that there's a lot of symbolism using her suitcases. First, as she's packing to leave the family home for California, her mother is tossing the clothes out as fast as Pauleen was putting them in. Then, when she moves in with Nora, she puts the two suitcases on the end of the water bed ready to unpack. Later, she unpacks at Mel's Palm Springs home after putting them on his bed and then finally, at the end, she has them on the end of the bed and is furiously packing them and finaly, just before she kills herself, she kicks those suitcases off the bed. I think they are in this film to symbolize how Pauleen never really had a permanent and loving home, even with her family in Kansas and that ultmately, she ended up with those same two cases holding the same clothes and her high school yearbook that stayed with her from the beginning. Just my two cents, fwiw.
Yes, in her last exchange before she took her life, she declared, "All I have are two suitcases!" However, I don't think it symbolizes that she didn't have a permanent, loving home (though her home didn't seems to be dripping with love), but that she had nothing to show for her choices and selling her soul in the pursuits of her dreams other than what she started off with: two suitcases. Even with making $200 to over $500 per day/session, she had nothing. Relationships are most valuable, and other than her family and that guy Mel, everyone else that she surrounded herself with only wanted to keep her on that hamster wheel of that miserable industry.
agreed, that must have been very exhausting and sad for her to feel like where do I really belong? and you know she could not have felt truly at home, no matter where she stayed. Her soul was troubled, like she was soul suffering.
This is what happens sometimes to children that have been abandoned by a parent during their childhood. She began to debasing herself, and really was looking for a father not a boyfriend. She was very emotionally immature because she was traumatized. Very sad story. I also had an absent father, who lived in my home as a child. I think my father called me once on the telephone. I’m in my 50s now and that still impacts my feelings but I realize it wasn’t about me it was about their dysfunction. Their parents dysfunction. I hope people see this movie and have compassion for the young lady who felt so lost in life and felt that was the only way she could get the attention. She thought she needed, but was very wrong that it cost her life. You can’t change those actions they don’t go away.
I agree with you. I feel for Pauleen even if some ppl in the comment section don’t. She was young and inexperienced and her parents were ridiculous and did not do enough to protect her. She wanted what most young girls want at her age but didn’t have guidance or understanding from anyone. No one got her. She felt ugly inside, a victim with low self esteem when she was actually a pretty girl who just wanted to be successful in life and feel beautiful and loved by men :( and what a tragic end to such a lovely young girl it is sad
True, she just doesn’t want her to live the life of hardship. Marrying a poor man is super hard so I get it. It’s hard enough to make marriage work and add the stress of cutting all the corners you can just to survive check to check sucks.
If you watch the interview her parents said she "took the bottle of pills for attention". Should've been thought of as a cry for help and she should've been hospitalized for mental illness
Such à sad story..The Lady was called Shauna and just wanted to be a famous model like many teenagers her age , but her naïvety and country origins made her a prey for photographers and tv producers. A story that surely concerned many ladies of 16 or 17 that found themselves in the same situation and same trap.Poor girls..They better would have studied at à school of the Arts or study theater ,comedy ...finding à job at week-ends.. it would have been different for them but maybe they didnt know...
It is a depressing movie, too sad to see someone so pretty and a young valuable life to destroy herself with pornography and drugs. Someone so naive cannot live alone and away from her parents. Some families don't train their children with society issues in the outside world. Perhaps parents and their children should read a newspaper together to teach their kids reality, cases, and issues that affect our world. Such as drugs and the world of horrible cheap movies.
This is a good movie. She made bad decisions and really didn't want to work a normal job which led to her downfall. The end is sad though. Worth a watch.
Poor, immature, little ,lost girl. Poor parents. Love of money is root of all evil or beginnings of all kind of evil 😢Sad,so sad When you want lots of money too fast that’s how sometimes life ends up,too early to die.
How nothing has changed year 2023, to get a job you need experience and references how are you to get experience and references if you can’t get a job 😂
@@cousincarole3687 you can. You can do what most of us do, save for a car, by riding the bus to work. If you're scared of riding the bus at night, you can hopefully ask a family member to give you a ride back from work, the days you get off late, and pay them 5 dollars or whatever they want for gas.
This is a very good movie. It's so sad what happened to Colleen Applegate. She was actually a good person who died to young. Thank you for the upload. 💗
This movie came out in 1988. I was born in 1978 and I had talent at a very young age. At first I was disappointed because my parents didn't help me get into the entertainment business although they knew I had very good skills. At first I thought they were being selfish but now I know they were just being smart. I chose a normal life but I kept practicing my skills and I also studied the business of entertainment and found out that this is a normal tragedy that happens constantly in Hollywood or anywhere the entertainment business thrives. I work on my craft and I Still dream but only for a small crowd and I'm so thankful to God and my parents that they didn't pimp me to the entertainment industry. I'm happy to still be alive and not a pimped out, washed up, a drug addict or worse.... dead. But I'm sad that part of my dreams had to die🤔🧐🙏🏽🙄🤬🤐😥😰😯🤯😓😩😫😵🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🤫
This movie was a fave of mine. My bestfriend had it. I knew it was based on a true story. Many years later I found out that she was from Farmington, MN. I lived there in my 20s. It was a small town. I found it boring too! I lived there for 4 years and was happy to move away. I just went through there a month ago. It has grown quite a bit! The woman who played the part of the mother has just passed away recently!
Yes, she's pretty & they are definitely destroying her. Very young & stubborn. Idk how it ends yet. But I can imagine. & not to mention very nieve. Sad. Her parents are an emotional wreck as well, nothing they can do but sit back & watch her destroy herself.
She was a stubborn girl with a little rebellion but she had a big heart. her mother tried to protect her but was ashamed of her daughters .she surrounded her self with the wrong crowd and bad influence the fact that she lived in a small town made it extremely difficult and the fact that there was no internet people relied on magazines the newspaper for information and entertainment as well as videos from the VCR or VHS blah blah she was really innocent kid but was really ambitious and she thought money was more important than self respect and these men were all grown and took advantage of her innocent looks and her innocent naive person personality the only one that seemed to care was the one that went to jail
10:42 she looks at that "boring desk" and I look at it, as my 17 year old self and myself today and think "WOW! MY VERY OWN DESK!!!!! AWESOME!" WTF is wrong with me???? I love your description of the film.. thank you for posting this afterschool special nostalgia we probably all need to look at the world with occasionally
@Cousin Carole Yes, I feel sad for that couple. They could have been together. They looked so good together, and they genuinely cared about each other. As for me, I like Lifetime movies because they show real life stories.
The first bf Pauline had wasn't even a bad guy. He cared about her enough to tell her to stop w. the photos even though she was making them money. If the mom had just accepted her bf at the beginning she never would've wanted to leave.
Absolutely not true. What were yall watching? The girl was writing poems about leaving. She left with the boyfriend. It's not the mom's fault. And then you don't even mention the dad...? 🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️
None of this lifestyle has any thing bu pain and disappointments, over and over. It takes your soul and leaves you empty. In The Bible parable Jesus met the woman at the well, and spoke Truth to her; she trusted and believed He was the Mesiah. Then she told everyone and was Joyful! This filled the woman’s empty soul, like 1:27:57 nothing in this world ever could! She went forward full of life and hope; a changed life! This is Love, As Jesus lives within your heart and not the darkness, as before.
She did it to herself. She was a stubborn and ambitious little girl who did what she wanted even when those in the know warned her not to! I felt that she was very selfish also. Still, it was so sad & tragic that she took her own life. She had so much more to go for and I’m sure maturing along the way might have straightened out her priorities. Just too sad.
She used people throughout this entire movie. She used her bf to get to California. She craved fortune and fame. She didn’t care that he was looking out for her. Mel also cared about her. She used him, too. She was only ever looking out for herself. Used her time with family to bring attention to herself. I don’t know if this was how she was in real life, but in this movie she is portrayed as a brat and a user.
@@latriciamoore8020 I watched her story on FRONT LINE they interviewed her parents and people who actually knew this young lady. I saw the movie as well and her family said that the movie was INACCURATE about numerous things.
Pauline's mom not saying "I love you" reminds me of the tv movie The Karen Carpenter Story. It has been forever since I've seen the movie but I do remember a scene where Karen's therapist asked her mom when was the last time she told Karen that she loved her. Mom answered with an irritated attitude, "Oh Karen knows that we love her. We don't need to say it,". She completely missed the point that a lot of us *need* to hear those words. They're reassuring and provide a lot of comfort in this often dark and scary world. Pauline needed to hear those three words from her often judgemental and controlling mother. Would it have changed anything?? We'll never know but it's obvious that Pauline felt unloved and alone in what is a seedy and horrible world full of bottom feeders. Just as a side note...the actress who played Pauline's friend Nora is absolutely gorgeous.
Oh wow… this comment is kind of blowing my mind, because “she knows we love her, we don’t need to say it” is kind of the attitude my own mother had. Not all the time, but sometimes when I was feeling really low, or we’d just had a fight and I just really, really needed reassurance that my mom still loved me, a lot of the times she’d roll her eyes or say “what a dumb question” or whatever. But then again, my dad never said it either but I absolutely never had any doubt that he loved me. 🤷♀️ So it’s a really complicated situation, and it is that way for everybody… And you might be right, if the mother had made sure Pauline knew she loved her, instead of that “yeah”… maybe she would have felt like she could go home again. I guess that’s what makes a good, or at least engaging movie, that you can sit and think “but what if this, what if that?”, heh. 😄
@@myrahnaif3163 yes ! So sad !How can we judge the mom and not the porn and drug biz! Please vote to ban narcotic drugs !💢Now drug lords are demanding the US, to allow them to chase kids as illegal immigrants, in exchange for drug supply to keep Hollywood desensitized !! 1 yr old Angie Ramirez from El Salvador ,drowned in Matamoros, Mexico trying to get into US as an illegal immigrant in 2019 ! KIDS shouldn't die to keep a few billion sex pervert men in the world become unhealthy with porn and drugs. THAT IS NOT A CHOICE-it's INSANITY. We can start by putting some shirt and skirts on bikinis when we swim - no need for such exposure ! I've never seen women swim without clothes on bikinis in India - and many of our kids do fine as doctors,engineers globally !
I appreciate everybody's comments...I just think that Mom not returning Pauline's "I love you" is cold and misguided. The teen years are hard and volatile enough as it is without worrying that your parents don't love you. Some of us really need that reassurance. Yes, the drug and porn industries are horrible and they prey on the young, lost and vulnerable. They chew people up and then spit them out. That goes without saying. I just found Pauline's mom cold. Again, I appreciate all comments. That's the beauty of the comment section...it opens up a dialogue and can get you thinking. 🥰🥰
who does? she was naive enough to believe the bs they were selling her on it's just your body, it's natural, blah , blah, blah....there was a scene on the beach with Corey, they first arrived in L.A. and was looking thru then newspaper job ads (remember that, lol) she wanted to find something legitimate but she had no real work experience, that's when she saw the ad for modeling, which is really porn. they disguise it as modeling. very skeezy bunch they are, they saw her a mile away.
This movie is so deliciously 80s I love it I need more like it lol. Thank you for uploading this😊 Such a sad movie and reality but I can totally relate to the small town girl with huge dreams and “suffocating “ parents because I grew up in a very religious home but I had to become a woman in my 40s to realize they just tried to protect me from this type of tragedy. ❤ And the music and writing in this movie is actually really good👍
I graduated the same year. I was actually class of 82, but got my credits in 3 years, and didn't go my forth year. I wanted to get started working. Smart, I know. But I remember her, when she died in 84. I was 19-20. It's sad how she gave up. I really think she could've did something.
@@ethiodude9886 she realized she trusted the wrong people & was too embarrassed to go home to her family. That Mel guy dumped her & wanted her out of the house & watched her packing up, like he didn’t trust her & that really hurt her, I think. They all turned on her. That industry & city in general, no true friends, fly by nights & when you’re down they kick you to the curb. It’s not the same crowd as where she was from , what she was used to. She just felt trapped and made a harsh irreversible decision. It’s awful 😞
The real "Corey", which wasn't his actual name, was the one that went back to their small town, and spread the news that she was a pornstar/nude "model".
@@elishahilker apparently in the real story, he really did go to California with her,-- that part, all of that, is true-- and she did surprise him by doing nudes (at least, he said he was surprised). he didn't want to stay in California, and when he went back-- to it wasn't Kansas, I forgot what the real state was, nebraska (whatever), he DID spread the news that she was doing nude modelling and in porn.
@@thetruthisthelight0910 Anyone would. She was doing porno and he flipped out like most men would. NO sane man would want or respect a woman who did that and no sane man would hide what went down either. Likely people asked how his girlfriend was and he told the truth of what it ended. He tried to tell her to stop, but she wouldn't, she got rid of him ordering him out of her life.
@@elishahilker I wouldn't say that he was being a asshole, a asshole wouldn't have told her to stop and kept the money she was bringing in. He probably told the people that asked about his girlfriend that she was doing nude modeling, anyone would. She literally ran him out of her life when he told her to stopped. why would he had kept that a secret, for someone who clearly didn't care about anything he said.
I grew up as a young woman during this time in the 80s. It was so awful, and filled with Decadences. That was only exacerbated when every household had access to a VCR. Methamphetamine and cocaine dominated the scene, and pretty much everyone was doing it, and it completely destroyed who you were mentally. But with the deluge of VCRs came all the video rental stores just bulging at the seams with pornography of young girls that looked just like us. Pretty soon all of our boyfriends we’re addicted to not only the drugs, but the porn and many of us young girls felt we had to live up to these actresses or else our boyfriends wouldn’t be interested in us. I grew up in Riverside, California, and I watched nose drugs ruin so many friends. Many are still not the same 40 years later. When I think of that scene I cringe. The only thing that was good about the 80s was the music
Never thought of it this way. I grew up in San Diego. Drugs, parties, ditching school to go to the beach. I went to college and never finished, married the first guy that came along (who now as I write this has moved in with a girl he cheated on me with when we were in high school, he and I are divorced but it still dredges up bad memories bc I still see him once in awhile at my children houses so do I have to see HER now the rest of my life?). Anyway, the 80’s were fun but yeah they had their downside
The 'Sexual Revolution' in the 1960's led to changing attitudes a lot of which were not for the better of society rather for the freedom of the individual to do what they liked. Fortunately vast tracts of people didn't go down that road.
Omgosh have been searching for this film for years. Knew it was called Shattered something. This flick will leave a impact. Such sad story. I'm 54 this story has stuck with me since my early adulthood. Haunting. TFS!
@@christown2827 I agree. She even tried to take her own life irl before she moved to California. Her parents thought she was just trying to get attention but she obviously had some mental health struggles.
She just had wanted that fast life! She was very impatient as well and was hard headed, granted her Mom was doing a lil too much but was just trying to protect her
Happy birthday to your son, I’m only about 3 years older than he is… still, the knowledge that 1988, a year I vividly remember (well, in pieces) is 35 years ago… whew! But aside from hairstyles, clothing styles and some elements of the acting, this movie aged pretty well, I’d say. Still a relevant problem, maybe even worse since it’s so easy to make adult content online nowadays and get stuck in that lifestyle.
This was based on Colleen Applegate who used the name Shauna Grant. She actually came from Farmington, Minnesota. I saw this movie sometimes in the late 80's when I was very young. I didnt' know it was based on a true story. I think this movie sugarcoats a lot of Applegate's real experiences. Still its a good movie. The actor that played Cass Withrow on Another World plays the guy that renames her Lara Dawn.
EDIT AGAIN: Hey, I keep forgetting this video exists! I’m grateful for all the views and subs, even though, alas… my account isn’t eligible for monetization 🤣 Ah well! Until the copyright holder gets mad at me, this fine film can stay up. (Even tho I’m not the only one who has it uploaded)
I try to heart or at least acknowledge as many comments as I can. I’m not really stepping in unless I see something really messed up, and me hearting a comment doesn’t necessarily mean I agree or endorse the opinion, just that I appreciate the commenter’s time and engagement.
EDIT 2: Hey again guys! I still intend to figure out a way to get this captioned! I’m in the middle of moving house right now and it’s super stressful, so I’m not able to focus on that right now.
HOWEVER! I found the DVD on Amazon! Shattered Innocence a.co/d/5MQX1Pv it’s only $10 USD and probably captioned. I don’t know for certain but it might be worth looking into.
EDIT: RIP Melinda Dillon!
Hey guys, I don't know why automatic captions aren't available for this movie. I've set the language settings to English for both the video and the title, I have no idea why YT isn't trying to caption it. Part of the reason I uploaded it was in the hopes that it would have automatic captions, because sometimes I just can't understand the dang ol' dialogue. So sorry!
I MIGHT try to subtitle it myself if there’s any demand. I’ve never done it before but I have transcribed long sound files before so it can’t be THAT complicated (famous last words lol)
REPORTED FOR COPYWRITE INFRINGEMENT
@@statlalinden662you go ahead. I’m not sure what “copywrite” infringement is, but if it’s anything like copyRIGHT infringement then yeah, I know, and the algorithm knows, and I’m not the only channel who has this movie up. 🤷♀️
And if it goes down, then cool, you’ve made a lot of people unhappy. Hope that goes well. Happy holidays.
@@statlalinden662 What u going on about?
@@statlalinden662 how about u just don’t watch
Well ,good evening thats not dramatic! I am french by the way and understand most of the dialogues here in the film..maybe you can find this movie on.another channel with captions included.
Guys this is a typical 80s early 90s movie. Y’all ain’t got no compassion. Things were different back then. There was no internet or « story time « vlogs. A lot of things that movies show now were based on stories back then or maybe you knew someone who knew someone who did. Most small town girls were naive and just like her.Have a heart. This is the life of many women and men in the industry.
♥️
Very true, I grew up in the 70s and 80s
Social media is a double edged sword nowadays. On the positive side it does bring more awareness to missing people and background checks but on the downside it can ruin reputations and shatter confidence.
@@karenhensley8955 me also.
There were no cell phones or computers. But, what this young woman had were loving parents and a support system. But, she couldn't see it past her materialism. She wasn't that naive. There were instances in this movie where she lied to get what she wanted even though the porn producers and drug dealer boyfriend tried to shield her from the pitfalls of her decision. Her own mother admitted that she was stubborn to a fault. It's sad she died so young. But, she started at 18 and died at 20. I'm surprised it only took two years for her to get to her breaking point.
The new lifetime movies don’t compare to the older ones. Love this.
You're absolutely right
At all .. I don’t even watch them
God, these were epic. My mom was so into these. Especially if Valerie Bertanelli was in it
@@feliciaford3620 you’re absolutely right; they don’t make movies like they used to on Lifetime!! They just churn out junk now with an occasional good one. But you’ll never see a movie like the “Death of A Cheerleader” with Tori Spelling, those and the 1980’s classics are a thing of the past!!
@@loribiancone5391 loved ALL the Bertinelli classics. Your Mom has good taste!!
I love how 80s homes and decor used to look so dreamy
Right! With that perfect 80's wallpaper that has become extinct now!
Ikr!! I can picture my old house that I grew up in! I miss those days Soo much!! It really was better before all these cell phones, internet, social media,etc.- the world was REAL!!💓💯😇🙏
I have a Pinterest board about 80s dreamy home decor 💕💕
Everything was crystal or covered in plastic felt like you were being peeled from the couch when you got up in summer ….and lace on countertops made you high society. Lol
@@les7613 I grew up in the 80s it was a great time!
I’m appreciating going back to the 80s. When everything was different.
I prefer old movies.
These never get old. 47 years old and i grew up to these along with Saved By the Bell and Beverly Hills 90210 lol
I'm 51. Thanks for the comment. Looks like a good one!
Lol so did I! The best of the best!! Can't forget about Melrose Place either!
Same. Just turned 47 this month. These Lifetime movies are on a different level 💋🤌
Those were the best days especially 90210
Same same 😂
I remember these days, early teenage years. Glad we grew up without social media and cell phones too.
I like these older movies better than the new ones 😊.
You are 💯 correct on this. Don't make movies like they used to or music, lol
I saw this when it first aired. I miss the old miniseries they use to run in the 70's and 80's too. This is Lifetime I know.
I could watch this movie a million times over!!! This was when television was good 👍🏾
I miss old lifetime lol
I know right I’m watching this again lost count of how many times I’ve seen this movie
I agree with you completely!
@@marilynmanord1790 🥰
I love these old movies!!!
No experience, no references…but won’t work for minimum wage😢. Same mentality that gets so many in trouble to this day…
Love the period, good skin, no tattoos, clean hair, speak in full sentences. so sad this era is over.
specially the no tattoos era ... its over
no piercings or hair colors.
@@VelveteenRabbitinRedFern Those things were all popular in the 80's with the goth/punk rock scene--speaking from experience.
@@lonelyheroine Yep! I was there too, unfortunately.
No coke?
For those wondering, this was based on Colleen Marie Applegate, known professionally as Shauna Grant.
Yes you are correct. Good job
The more insecure a person feels than the more arrogant they act to compensate for feeling less than. They seek validation my gaining the approval of others from outward appearance, money, property and prestige. Pauline was spiritually sick and empty inside. She needed help to learn to love herself.♥️🙏
Needed love of God
This is the most intelligent post I read on here so far.
Learning to love yourself is the most difficult task I've ever faced, so I completely understand how she ended up spiralling so fast. For me, I turned to drugs, not sex. I've recently learned that selfish people actually hate themselves, people assume that if you're selfish, you love only yourself, but it's actually the opposite and I've been very selfish. Still learning how to love myself and I haven't gotten very far.
"If he's 35, then I'm 22!" Her mom had a point lol!! Best line in the whole movie 🤣🤣🤣
she slept with anyone for a place to stay.
@@catnip2167 recognition?
She is somebody's baby...Rest in peace beautiful princess
You don't even know what you mean, just regurgitating trite comments. Hitler, Bundy and Thatcher were somebody's baby too! Smh
@@QuadriviumNumbersThis is a young girl on the wrong path that harmed herself more than anyone around her. She's not in the same category as your list of names smh
This movie is based on the real true tragic story of Shauna Grant (real name Colleen Marie Applegate). Grant moved with her BF to Cali, started posing for nude magazines, was warned by he photographer who first hired her to get out of nude modeling quickly, because when all of the magazines had used her, the only thing left for her would be hardcore movies. Her and her BF broke up and he went to the army. Before his induction, he informed some residents of her small town that Applegate was involved with pornography, which caused her family much embarrassment. In the Frontline documentary, he refused to speak about his relationship with her, except to say that he no longer cared about her. She started doing movies, but then developed a cocaine addiction, later killed herself by suicide in 1984. Her parents used their proceeds from selling the movie rights to pay for her tombstone.
Sad story
I always thought the '80s were a great decade. Great music, great movies, great memories.
Agreed 👍
I miss the big hair. It was fun to do as a teenager! A great time to grow up!
@@thatoneaceattornyfan1539 lots and lots of aqua net hairspray to be used 😂
@enigma.of.solace9383 Exactly 💯
My friends and I would have 80s glam rock blaring. Getting ready for 2 hours to just go see a movie. The memories ...
Funny that the mom was so worried about Cory when he was the one trying to talk sense into her in the first place
Must have been angry because he escorted her to Cali in the 1st place.🤷🏽♀️
@@punchanella_0 she was going no matter what. At least he tried to talk her out of porn.
@@dramamamaof2 I know it was mostly her plan. Because in the movie & reality. He came back to his home town. She stayed. The mother didn't approve of him. So she's probably still blaming him to this day.
They were judging him for his income. He didn't do anything bad in the whole movie. Except dump her when she made her career choice.
@@Nita_100 they didn't like him before that, but he came back home and went around telling everyone what she was doing in California.
You should never compromise your morals or integrity for what you think is going to make you successful...
She was very young and naive. She was seduced by the exciting prospect of easy fame, but everything has a price and ultimately, she paid for it with her life.
I could use success. But, I'm not about to lose my soul for it. 🤮💯
I wonder why her mother never tells Pauline that she loves her? Pauline will say “ Mom I love you.” Her mother always responds with a “yeah.” Such a tragic story.
Same.. After watching this movie I talked to my mom and told her thank you for not judging me or being too harsh on me when I was already falling apart.
I wondered about that too! Like jeez, that’s worse than Han Solo
It could be the reason that her mother never tells her I love you maybe when she was a child's her mother never told her so she never heard it so maybe it's hard for her to say I love you but I'm sure that she loves her that mean it's not right but that's what I'm thinking maybe her mother never told her but it just got passed down to where she doesn't tell her daughter but then when she's gone she's going to regret it every time she said I love you Mom and she never said it back that's going to haunt her for the rest of her I'm sure that give me a like if anyone else agrees with me have a blessed day and happy New years
I think she never told her she loved her because she was ashamed of the work she was doing
Her real name was Colleen Applegate. She was from Minnesota. Her prn name was Shauna Grant. Look her up. Colleen Marie Applegate, known professionally as Shauna Grant (May 30, 1963 - March 23, 1984), was an American pornographic actress and nude model. She ran away from her small town in Minnesota and proceeded to appear in over 30 pornographic films, earning up to $100,000 in her two-year career. Grant died by suicide after the arrest of her partner in March 1984.[1] She was inducted into the XRCO Hall of Fame in 1999
I also graduated in 1981. She died March 23 1984, just 1 day before my birthday.
Ty 🙋🏻♀️
Shame. The money would have set her up for life. She could have retired from the industry and dyed her hair to look a little bit different, and started a new life, moving away and going to college etc.
I absolutely CANNOT believe some of these comments. It’s definitely worth watching but you have to have empathy and actually care about how other people feel.
I felt it when she said she just wants to be a little girl again. You can tell she missed her old life with her parents guiding and taking care of her. May she rip
Hopefully you learned the lesson
agree 100 percent
It's 3:15 am now it's 🆕 years day 2023 and I found one of my favorite movies from the 90's I was in the 9th grade and we saw this in health awareness class n this movie always stayed in my head it's good n all teens should have to see it the message can help many women
Same here. .. except I'm on west coast time zone.
Happy new year 🎉
Happy New Year 🎉💖🥂
Watching now. Happy New Year everyone
Are you talking about this movie that has to do with Shawna Grant or some other movie?
You watched this in *Health class*?? Our tax dollars at work...
This is when lifetime had great movies, now not so much.
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This wasn't a life time movie this was CBS or NBC made for real movies,I remember watching this movie when it first aired back in 1988 or 1989
I have such fond memories of watching these classic Lifetime movies with my grandma. The nostalgia is overwhelming...💜💜
I'm here for you karen
@@jasonbourne5142 How does having nice memories of watching movies with my grandma make me a "Karen"??
I feel so sorry for her it seemed like Mel was a good guy, although he was alot older than her, he really seemed to care for her and wanted to get her out of the industry and drugs. She was only 20 years old so sad.
Unfortunately, she was not the first and she won't be the last. No different than some of the movie stars and musicians who died tragic deaths. It's sad. If she had remained at her "boring " job and life, she would probably still be alive. Just as Elvis Presley's mom just wanted him "to be a truck driver..."
I watched this movie in high school and it scared me so much. She was quickly deceived. Her poor mother didn't know what to do. What a tragic life.
Nobody was talking back then. Parents put it off as bad behavior. When there could have been more going on.
I miss the old lifetime movies they seemed more like a movie ❤
Acceptance of your children, even their mistakes as they grow really go a long way to avoiding these kind of endings. As parents we can't control everything our kids do or don't do especially after they turn 18, but we can accept them and love them.
Beautifully said❤
Danny De Vito: “the choices we make dictate the life we lead”
Just the way the movies come on just fills me with so much nostalgia I'm 37 years old and I loved watching lifetime movies with my sister and my grandma growing up
As much as Pauline despised the idea of going back home, that was where her most favorite memories were. She always had that yearbook out, speaking of those days & times with whoever would listen.
Perhaps she just couldn't navigate a way back home without having to face all of the things she felt she had to do to survive while away. So sad.
Even when people want to leave home they still have a sentimental part of them that is connected to it deep inside they know what they do is wrong maybe but they are trapped then and can’t get out the love of power and money overshadows those feelings plus it is a rebellion thing they want to show that they can make it and show off to the ppl who doubted them
@@fembotprincess1 - Absolutely! Most kids hit their teens and feel that the grass is greener on the other side of all of those parental rules (not realizing that there are rules no matter where they go or what they attempt to do-and the rules also come with bills). They can't figure out that they might as well swallow their pride and return home because their parents already know what they've just found out: it's hard out there and it's better to be in a place where you can fail but land on a softer spot; where you're allowed to try again with a far less harsher judgment than you would get from strangers.
I had to tell my kids when we were going through some somethings. There are a lot grown ass people who will be more than happy to help you ruin your life. I feel so sorry for her and her family. ❤
yes...misery loves company!
Pauline said “I love you” to her mom, but I never heard her said it back to her. That must’ve hurt 😞
Seriously !
The mom is more bothered about what others think than her own daughter's happiness. A typical small town housewife, her whole life will revolve around gossip and trying to impress neighbors.
It's all fun and games until the free money and cocaine runs out!
Sad but true!
She was a beautiful woman in real life! It is a shame on what happened to her. We ALL make mistakes in this life and suicide is NOT the answer! She died so young. She had her whole life ahead of her.. It breaks my heart that she died so young. RIP Coleen Applegate!!!
I miss old lifetime these movies were so good.
Someone else pointed out that this movie actually originally aired on CBS.
I don miss them because they are all hear on UA-cam....I just search for them...don't watch modern tv
Same here
I see myself in Pauline so much when I was 19 I started working at the strip club just topless by the time I was 21 I was full nude and also had a full-blown drug habit and for children I'm 37 now and riddled with mental health issues my children are grown and I'm scared they're going to follow in the same steps I did because it doesn't matter how well you raise them or how bad you raise them they're going to do what they want I've been sober for 5 years but it's a battle every day to not give in to the urge to use again because it's the only time I feel normal
All you can do is your best. Hang in there with your sobriety!
Don’t listen or read negative comments just do the best you can with your kids teach them about the cruel world outside you have the tools use them and hang on in there ,no secrets no lies that’s my motto and it worked ! No parent gets a book on how to be the perfect parent no one has a perfect family .god bless x
@@marionpositivestuart3609 thank you my kids are all grown now except for my 16 yr old and they're doing great however I always will have a worry in the back of my mind
Don't let people judge you. Im a former addict but im doing ok. Got out of that environment. It's tough EVERY day, I know. Thank you for your brave and relatable story. God bless u. I'll be praying for you.🙏❤
@Just Be how can you state something to be a fact if you don't know what happened or how they were raised do you know what a fact is or did the public school system do a poor job at teaching you
WHY on earth does her Mother never tell her that she loves her? My daughter has broken my heart over and over again. Yet I still tell her that I love her every single day.
My mother said parents who tell their children that they love them everyday/several times a day is wrong and the words the children hear ,’ I love you ‘ just become words without meaning, and don’t mean anything to the child. I still wished my mother told me she lived me though. I wonder if your child didn’t know if you really loved her ? 😢
@@JohnnyRayedd-Neck I have never thought about it from this point of view. I just feel like her daughter is living in another state and time is precious and we aren’t guaranteed anything. Each time they hang up her daughter says “ Mom I love you.” Her mom says goodbye. It happens every single time. The next time you watch it pay attention and tell me what you think. I will tell you I love you because I do. God Bless you!
@@marilynmanord1790I tell my kids I love them every day too, I know they know by now, but it was always hard for my mother to show me affection and I I didn’t want to be like that with my kids..
@@izzydeadyet7336 You are probably a fantastic mother! Your children are blessed to have you! God Bless You oh and since it’s bedtime, I love you too!
My mother never told me. She did however write “love from mum” in a birthday card once a year. I threw it in the bin.
Golden age of lifetime movies. Love the description/synopsis you wrote 😂
Apparently, it originally aired on CBS.
Sad story. .. Poor thing just a girl with a dream This was an amazing movie too bad Lifetime movies is trash now.
I agree the 80/90’ s lifetime was the best 😅
You ain’t lying
I've noticed that there's a lot of symbolism using her suitcases. First, as she's packing to leave the family home for California, her mother is tossing the clothes out as fast as Pauleen was putting them in. Then, when she moves in with Nora, she puts the two suitcases on the end of the water bed ready to unpack. Later, she unpacks at Mel's Palm Springs home after putting them on his bed and then finally, at the end, she has them on the end of the bed and is furiously packing them and finaly, just before she kills herself, she kicks those suitcases off the bed. I think they are in this film to symbolize how Pauleen never really had a permanent and loving home, even with her family in Kansas and that ultmately, she ended up with those same two cases holding the same clothes and her high school yearbook that stayed with her from the beginning. Just my two cents, fwiw.
I like your input
Yes, in her last exchange before she took her life, she declared, "All I have are two suitcases!"
However, I don't think it symbolizes that she didn't have a permanent, loving home (though her home didn't seems to be dripping with love), but that she had nothing to show for her choices and selling her soul in the pursuits of her dreams other than what she started off with: two suitcases. Even with making $200 to over $500 per day/session, she had nothing.
Relationships are most valuable, and other than her family and that guy Mel, everyone else that she surrounded herself with only wanted to keep her on that hamster wheel of that miserable industry.
agreed, that must have been very exhausting and sad for her to feel like where do I really belong? and you know she could not have felt truly at home, no matter where she stayed. Her soul was troubled, like she was soul suffering.
@@pjbest1606 Great analysis. That sounds quite plausable.
I liked her boyfriend too. He wasn't a 'bad boy'.
Yet, Colleen's mom hates him.
This is what happens sometimes to children that have been abandoned by a parent during their childhood. She began to debasing herself, and really was looking for a father not a boyfriend. She was very emotionally immature because she was traumatized. Very sad story.
I also had an absent father, who lived in my home as a child. I think my father called me once on the telephone. I’m in my 50s now and that still impacts my feelings but I realize it wasn’t about me it was about their dysfunction. Their parents dysfunction.
I hope people see this movie and have compassion for the young lady who felt so lost in life and felt that was the only way she could get the attention. She thought she needed, but was very wrong that it cost her life. You can’t change those actions they don’t go away.
I agree with you. I feel for Pauleen even if some ppl in the comment section don’t. She was young and inexperienced and her parents were ridiculous and did not do enough to protect her. She wanted what most young girls want at her age but didn’t have guidance or understanding from anyone. No one got her. She felt ugly inside, a victim with low self esteem when she was actually a pretty girl who just wanted to be successful in life and feel beautiful and loved by men :( and what a tragic end to such a lovely young girl it is sad
she never listen to anyone. we are all bound by our choices. blame no one for what we have chosen.
So mom….the guy that makes $200 pounding steel plates doesn’t seem bad when faced with the alternative, huh? 😂😂
True, she just doesn’t want her to live the life of hardship. Marrying a poor man is super hard so I get it. It’s hard enough to make marriage work and add the stress of cutting all the corners you can just to survive check to check sucks.
She had everything handed to her, and she lost it all because of zero coping skills.
If you watch the interview her parents said she "took the bottle of pills for attention". Should've been thought of as a cry for help and she should've been hospitalized for mental illness
Yes it's more severe than cutting yourself but same concept.
I love old "Lifetime" movies!! 💕 P.S. The ending wrecked me!! 💔😭
" I just need to be a little girl for a while".............I felt that. Don't we all?
I never want to relive my childhood.
@@punchanella_0 I don't want to relive my childhood either.
@@vanessab2392 I'm an adult and I enjoy these years just fine. Doing what I want.
@@punchanella_0 that's good.
My childhood was good and bad.
That's the "Christmas Story" mom playing the mom. You'll shoot your eye out Ralphie 🤣🤣
belinda dillon?
@@BEAUTYnIQ yeah
Such à sad story..The Lady was called Shauna and just wanted to be a famous model like many teenagers her age , but her naïvety and country origins made her a prey for photographers and tv producers. A story that surely concerned many ladies of 16 or 17 that found themselves in the same situation and same trap.Poor girls..They better would have studied at à school of the Arts or study theater ,comedy ...finding à job at week-ends.. it would have been different for them but maybe they didnt know...
I would have searched day and night until I found my daughter if she ran off to California. That place EATS children alive.
I agree
It is a depressing movie, too sad to see someone so pretty and a young valuable life to destroy herself with pornography and drugs. Someone so naive cannot live alone and away from her parents. Some families don't train their children with society issues in the outside world. Perhaps parents and their children should read a newspaper together to teach their kids reality, cases, and issues that affect our world. Such as drugs and the world of horrible cheap movies.
I’m sure parents do but bad influence is bad influence
Kids don't listen when hormones are involved.
This is a good movie. She made bad decisions and really didn't want to work a normal job which led to her downfall.
The end is sad though.
Worth a watch.
because it is a cautionary tale
Poor, immature, little ,lost girl. Poor parents.
Love of money is root of all evil or beginnings of all kind of evil 😢Sad,so sad
When you want lots of money too fast that’s how sometimes life ends up,too early to die.
How nothing has changed year 2023, to get a job you need experience and references how are you to get experience and references if you can’t get a job 😂
So true! It's a vicious circle! People who have experience were given a chance when they had none so that they could have it!
@@cousincarole3687 you can. You can do what most of us do, save for a car, by riding the bus to work. If you're scared of riding the bus at night, you can hopefully ask a family member to give you a ride back from work, the days you get off late, and pay them 5 dollars or whatever they want for gas.
@@cousincarole3687 what vicious cycle?
@@vanessab2392 And if you live in a rural area? Or if you have to own a vehicle in good repair to get the job?
It’s even worse now. You need a BA to get a job that a high school graduate could do in the 80s, and a Master’s for jobs that used to require an AA.
This is a very good movie. It's so sad what happened to Colleen Applegate. She was actually a good person who died to young. Thank you for the upload. 💗
Geeze even the drug dealer tries to put her on a better path!
This movie came out in 1988. I was born in 1978 and I had talent at a very young age. At first I was disappointed because my parents didn't help me get into the entertainment business although they knew I had very good skills. At first I thought they were being selfish but now I know they were just being smart. I chose a normal life but I kept practicing my skills and I also studied the business of entertainment and found out that this is a normal tragedy that happens constantly in Hollywood or anywhere the entertainment business thrives. I work on my craft and I Still dream but only for a small crowd and I'm so thankful to God and my parents that they didn't pimp me to the entertainment industry. I'm happy to still be alive and not a pimped out, washed up, a drug addict or worse.... dead. But I'm sad that part of my dreams had to die🤔🧐🙏🏽🙄🤬🤐😥😰😯🤯😓😩😫😵🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🤫
I’m actually proud of you!
This movie was a fave of mine. My bestfriend had it. I knew it was based on a true story. Many years later I found out that she was from Farmington, MN. I lived there in my 20s. It was a small town. I found it boring too! I lived there for 4 years and was happy to move away.
I just went through there a month ago. It has grown quite a bit!
The woman who played the part of the mother has just passed away recently!
Wow 🥺
Yes
I wish they'd bring these movies back wholesome family movies you can sit down with your children and watch I miss those days 🥺🥺
No kidding! I was just thinking the same.
I miss them too 🙂
This is a wholesome family movie??
You might want to skip this one for family night though
@@josephinakeam6197 🤣
Too young and vulnerable. They ate her alive 😢I have to add this girl was an emotional wreck
Yes, she's pretty & they are definitely destroying her. Very young & stubborn. Idk how it ends yet. But I can imagine. & not to mention very nieve. Sad. Her parents are an emotional wreck as well, nothing they can do but sit back & watch her destroy herself.
She was a stubborn girl with a little rebellion but she had a big heart. her mother tried to protect her but was ashamed of her daughters .she surrounded her self with the wrong crowd and bad influence the fact that she lived in a small town made it extremely difficult and the fact that there was no internet people relied on magazines the newspaper for information and entertainment as well as videos from the VCR or VHS blah blah she was really innocent kid but was really ambitious and she thought money was more important than self respect and these men were all grown and took advantage of her innocent looks and her innocent naive person personality the only one that seemed to care was the one that went to jail
That “rebellion” got her in a whole lot of trouble. She should have never left home.
People don’t realise. This is the reality of ALL modelling agencies. Just to different degrees. And starts differently, luring girls in with dreams.
My daughter was a teen when we would watch these lifetime movies together.
They were great for getting families talking about the tough stuff! One helped me get help when I needed it.
10:42 she looks at that "boring desk" and I look at it, as my 17 year old self and myself today and think "WOW! MY VERY OWN DESK!!!!! AWESOME!" WTF is wrong with me???? I love your description of the film.. thank you for posting this afterschool special nostalgia we probably all need to look at the world with occasionally
when I was a high school drop out I was more relyable at a job while playing in a band all hours of the night
they didn't have to pay for parking.. just get out and go to the beach? That's not even the 1070s.. that's 1940s
"Talk louder on the phone so everyone in the next state can hear you.." imagined land line
fast forward to the future.. 18 year olds and their mothers and teachers on OF .. OMG!
I have 5 kids 3 girls an two boys.I saw this movie as a real young woman.This got to me.God Bless the real girl.RIP Sweetheart❤❤
She is very pretty, and shame on the photographers persuading good girls to pose in compromising situations.
She knew what she was doing.
@@dietrichjoanne
You are correct she did know, but they will be punished for the part they played.
This movie is based on the true story of Colleen Applegate Known as Shauna grant. A very sad glimpse at her life and struggles. May she rest in peace.
She had a nice enough young man and she left him... But for what? For the life of porn and misery? A very sad story, indeed.
She chose the lowlife lifestyle and it didn’t end well for her 🤷🏻♀️ too bad her choice
@Cousin Carole Yes, I feel sad for that couple. They could have been together. They looked so good together, and they genuinely cared about each other. As for me, I like Lifetime movies because they show real life stories.
The first bf Pauline had wasn't even a bad guy. He cared about her enough to tell her to stop w. the photos even though she was making them money. If the mom had just accepted her bf at the beginning she never would've wanted to leave.
Absolutely not true. What were yall watching? The girl was writing poems about leaving. She left with the boyfriend. It's not the mom's fault. And then you don't even mention the dad...? 🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️
I liked her first boyfriend
Best line in whole movie is when Pauline said “What the hell can I take out of here that won’t bounce or break my back!
Imagine him not trusting her just because she spent the money he gave her for food on cocaine.
@@catnip2167 understandable that he couldn’t trust her. I just thought that the line was a good one.
Everybody stop watching and take a moment to appreciate the amazing description 👏
I can’t believe I finally found this movie! Thank u and keep them coming!! I’m binge watching!
I was 16 when this came out and can remember watching it! It's cool to be able to watch it, again. I loved Litetimes during this time frame.
I was 14. My friends and me watched it a lot!
None of this lifestyle has any thing bu pain and disappointments, over and over. It takes your soul and leaves you empty.
In The Bible parable Jesus met the woman at the well, and spoke Truth to her; she trusted and believed He was the Mesiah. Then she told everyone and was Joyful!
This filled the woman’s empty soul, like 1:27:57 nothing in this world ever could! She went forward full of life and hope; a changed life!
This is Love, As Jesus lives within your heart and not the darkness, as before.
She did it to herself. She was a stubborn and ambitious little girl who did what she wanted even when those in the know warned her not to! I felt that she was very selfish also. Still, it was so sad & tragic that she took her own life. She had so much more to go for and I’m sure maturing along the way might have straightened out her priorities. Just too sad.
I saw her story on Front line and it was very sad. It seemed like alot of people used her.
Seems more like she used herself if this story is accurate she was her own worst enemy
She used people throughout this entire movie. She used her bf to get to California. She craved fortune and fame. She didn’t care that he was looking out for her. Mel also cared about her. She used him, too. She was only ever looking out for herself. Used her time with family to bring attention to herself. I don’t know if this was how she was in real life, but in this movie she is portrayed as a brat and a user.
@@latriciamoore8020 my thoughts exactly
@@SomewhereInTheMaidenverse you summed her up succinctly. Couldn't have said it better
@@latriciamoore8020 I watched her story on FRONT LINE they interviewed her parents and people who actually knew this young lady. I saw the movie as well and her family said that the movie was INACCURATE about numerous things.
Pauline's mom not saying "I love you" reminds me of the tv movie The Karen Carpenter Story. It has been forever since I've seen the movie but I do remember a scene where Karen's therapist asked her mom when was the last time she told Karen that she loved her. Mom answered with an irritated attitude, "Oh Karen knows that we love her. We don't need to say it,". She completely missed the point that a lot of us *need* to hear those words. They're reassuring and provide a lot of comfort in this often dark and scary world. Pauline needed to hear those three words from her often judgemental and controlling mother. Would it have changed anything?? We'll never know but it's obvious that Pauline felt unloved and alone in what is a seedy and horrible world full of bottom feeders.
Just as a side note...the actress who played Pauline's friend Nora is absolutely gorgeous.
Oh wow… this comment is kind of blowing my mind, because “she knows we love her, we don’t need to say it” is kind of the attitude my own mother had. Not all the time, but sometimes when I was feeling really low, or we’d just had a fight and I just really, really needed reassurance that my mom still loved me, a lot of the times she’d roll her eyes or say “what a dumb question” or whatever.
But then again, my dad never said it either but I absolutely never had any doubt that he loved me. 🤷♀️ So it’s a really complicated situation, and it is that way for everybody…
And you might be right, if the mother had made sure Pauline knew she loved her, instead of that “yeah”… maybe she would have felt like she could go home again.
I guess that’s what makes a good, or at least engaging movie, that you can sit and think “but what if this, what if that?”, heh. 😄
I think pauline moms not controlling her..she just correcting that her job is bad not innocent..shes caring mother..pauline must to think that
@@myrahnaif3163 yes ! So sad !How can we judge the mom and not the porn and drug biz!
Please vote to ban narcotic drugs !💢Now drug lords are demanding the US, to allow them to chase kids as illegal immigrants, in exchange for drug supply to keep Hollywood desensitized !! 1 yr old Angie Ramirez from El Salvador ,drowned in Matamoros, Mexico trying to get into US as an illegal immigrant in 2019 ! KIDS shouldn't die to keep a few billion sex pervert men in the world become unhealthy with porn and drugs. THAT IS NOT A CHOICE-it's INSANITY. We can start by putting some shirt and skirts on bikinis when we swim - no need for such exposure ! I've never seen women swim without clothes on bikinis in India - and many of our kids do fine as doctors,engineers globally !
I appreciate everybody's comments...I just think that Mom not returning Pauline's "I love you" is cold and misguided. The teen years are hard and volatile enough as it is without worrying that your parents don't love you. Some of us really need that reassurance. Yes, the drug and porn industries are horrible and they prey on the young, lost and vulnerable. They chew people up and then spit them out. That goes without saying. I just found Pauline's mom cold.
Again, I appreciate all comments. That's the beauty of the comment section...it opens up a dialogue and can get you thinking. 🥰🥰
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This is one of those movies where the script and acting are SO bad that you can´t stop watching. Loved it. Great synopsis of the movie, BTW.
When u young we believe everything is easy but I believe in hard work she didn't want to go to work as a waitress
who does? she was naive enough to believe the bs they were selling her on it's just your body, it's natural, blah , blah, blah....there was a scene on the beach with Corey, they first arrived in L.A. and was looking thru then newspaper job ads (remember that, lol) she wanted to find something legitimate but she had no real work experience, that's when she saw the ad for modeling, which is really porn. they disguise it as modeling. very skeezy bunch they are, they saw her a mile away.
Your use of bullet points is top notch. I was on the fence about watching this one, but now I have no choice but to watch!! 😂
A good film and the quality of the upload is excellent. Thanks for uploading
As an owner of the DVD of this film, I can give you a second opinion--and no it isn't.
@@trapey that's your opinion, matey. Why you on this channel watching the film, you already got and already said is no good? LOL
I. Fucking. Love. These. 80-90s. Movies. ❤❤❤
This movie is so deliciously 80s I love it I need more like it lol. Thank you for uploading this😊
Such a sad movie and reality but I can totally relate to the small town girl with huge dreams and “suffocating “ parents because I grew up in a very religious home but I had to become a woman in my 40s to realize they just tried to protect me from this type of tragedy. ❤
And the music and writing in this movie is actually really good👍
I graduated the same year. I was actually class of 82, but got my credits in 3 years, and didn't go my forth year. I wanted to get started working. Smart, I know. But I remember her, when she died in 84. I was 19-20. It's sad how she gave up. I really think she could've did something.
what was the reason behind her death?
@@ethiodude9886 I think she tried to commit suicide with meds
@@ethiodude9886 she realized she trusted the wrong people & was too embarrassed to go home to her family. That Mel guy dumped her & wanted her out of the house & watched her packing up, like he didn’t trust her & that really hurt her, I think. They all turned on her. That industry & city in general, no true friends, fly by nights & when you’re down they kick you to the curb. It’s not the same crowd as where she was from , what she was used to. She just felt trapped and made a harsh irreversible decision. It’s awful 😞
@@dominicanbutterfly8620 she shot herself in the head in her room after that fight with Mel
The town chewed her up and spit her out. She didn't even make it to 21.
This movie is showing that pornography is a terrible path. In real life, many porn stars commit suicide. It is terribly sad.
That’s complete bs, most porn stars commit suicide? Yall just make stuff up
@@elm1230they said many not most. Its true many porn actors have led troubled lives of addiction and early deaths.
@@elm1230the majority do, look it up. Porn is soul stealing.
LMAO the description of the movie is everything.
The description is hilarious😭🤣
It is great!
Corey was a nice guy and he really cared about her. Sad she didn’t listen to him and walk away while she still could.
The real "Corey", which wasn't his actual name, was the one that went back to their small town, and spread the news that she was a pornstar/nude "model".
@@thetruthisthelight0910 In other words instead of being there for her he decided to be an *ssh*l*!!!
@@elishahilker apparently in the real story, he really did go to California with her,-- that part, all of that, is true-- and she did surprise him by doing nudes (at least, he said he was surprised). he didn't want to stay in California, and when he went back-- to it wasn't Kansas, I forgot what the real state was, nebraska (whatever), he DID spread the news that she was doing nude modelling and in porn.
@@thetruthisthelight0910 Anyone would. She was doing porno and he flipped out like most men would. NO sane man would want or respect a woman who did that and no sane man would hide what went down either. Likely people asked how his girlfriend was and he told the truth of what it ended. He tried to tell her to stop, but she wouldn't, she got rid of him ordering him out of her life.
@@elishahilker I wouldn't say that he was being a asshole, a asshole wouldn't have told her to stop and kept the money she was bringing in. He probably told the people that asked about his girlfriend that she was doing nude modeling, anyone would. She literally ran him out of her life when he told her to stopped. why would he had kept that a secret, for someone who clearly didn't care about anything he said.
I grew up as a young woman during this time in the 80s. It was so awful, and filled with Decadences. That was only exacerbated when every household had access to a VCR. Methamphetamine and cocaine dominated the scene, and pretty much everyone was doing it, and it completely destroyed who you were mentally. But with the deluge of VCRs came all the video rental stores just bulging at the seams with pornography of young girls that looked just like us. Pretty soon all of our boyfriends we’re addicted to not only the drugs, but the porn and many of us young girls felt we had to live up to these actresses or else our boyfriends wouldn’t be interested in us. I grew up in Riverside, California, and I watched nose drugs ruin so many friends. Many are still not the same 40 years later. When I think of that scene I cringe. The only thing that was good about the 80s was the music
Never thought of it this way. I grew up in San Diego. Drugs, parties, ditching school to go to the beach. I went to college and never finished, married the first guy that came along (who now as I write this has moved in with a girl he cheated on me with when we were in high school, he and I are divorced but it still dredges up bad memories bc I still see him once in awhile at my children houses so do I have to see HER now the rest of my life?). Anyway, the 80’s were fun but yeah they had their downside
This is def a different perspective than the fun times everyone else reminisces on. Thank you for sharing
You forgot quaaludes
The 'Sexual Revolution' in the 1960's led to changing attitudes a lot of which were not for the better of society rather for the freedom of the individual to do what they liked.
Fortunately vast tracts of people didn't go down that road.
@@christown2827which was ushered in with second wave feminism. What started with demanding equality, ended up with degeneracy.
Omgosh have been searching for this film for years. Knew it was called Shattered something. This flick will leave a impact. Such sad story. I'm 54 this story has stuck with me since my early adulthood. Haunting. TFS!
She should have stayed home and studied in school like her mother wanted her too. No good comes from that type of money left with no self respect.
I feel the same way about anyone who chose to work for Trump.
She obviously had mental health problems which this film does not really address.
@@christown2827 I agree. She even tried to take her own life irl before she moved to California. Her parents thought she was just trying to get attention but she obviously had some mental health struggles.
@@angelinapryor2351 Thanks. The one exception being 'One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest'.
She just had wanted that fast life! She was very impatient as well and was hard headed, granted her Mom was doing a lil too much but was just trying to protect her
I agree, but she was also extremely naive.
@@heatherpierce9123 or spoiled that man try to help her get out of that life and she went right back to it.
WOW! THIS MOVIE CAME OUT 35 YEARS AGO. MY OLDEST SON WILL BE 35 ON THE LAST DAY OF THIS MONTH.
Happy birthday to your son, I’m only about 3 years older than he is… still, the knowledge that 1988, a year I vividly remember (well, in pieces) is 35 years ago… whew!
But aside from hairstyles, clothing styles and some elements of the acting, this movie aged pretty well, I’d say. Still a relevant problem, maybe even worse since it’s so easy to make adult content online nowadays and get stuck in that lifestyle.
I was 6 years old and my baby brother was 1 year old in 1988!!!
My son will be 32 in May. Saw this movie way back when. Where did the time go.
This was based on Colleen Applegate who used the name Shauna Grant. She actually came from Farmington, Minnesota. I saw this movie sometimes in the late 80's when I was very young. I didnt' know it was based on a true story. I think this movie sugarcoats a lot of Applegate's real experiences. Still its a good movie. The actor that played Cass Withrow on Another World plays the guy that renames her Lara Dawn.
Winthrop.
@@yikes7963 You're right: Cass Winthrop. I can't believe I wrote his name wrong.
Her mother just died not too long ago. I remember I saw this movie in the 80s too.
@@sondragramse1770 I'm sorry about her mother.