The nightmares are terrifying...The insomnia is the worst!! Those nightmares are just unreal..it's like how does my brain produce this insane madness??? Glad you're on the road to recovery Slayer!! 🙏💯
Man I totally feel you on the insomnia. I used to use alcohol to fall asleep but once that's taken away, it's a complete nightmare to be able to fall asleep again. It's a difficult and necessary process but being able to sleep is something so many people take for granted.
Takes me weeks usually afterhours, like you said man I would start to get jealous of people who could just sleep normal, I’d always be like y’all don’t know how good you have it 🤣, even though most of my insomnia of the years has been self induced. I’ve always dealt with it though, never fun. Thanks as always afterhours 🙏
Hi Slayer, I just found your channel man. I've just been through a 4 day withdrawal this weekend and what you described is absolutely on the nail. The insomnia is crushing but the micro sleep instant vivid nightmare shit is real. I've gone through withdrawal before and it doesn't get any easier, If anything it gets worse. I've had the demons follow me into the "real" world when I've fought to get out of the nightmare screaming and fighting to wake up. Seen them flying around my bedroom walls until they disappear . You're right about each successive day with insomnia getting longer and longer. I dread the night coming because you know you're going to have to go through all that terrifying shit again. This is my last time withdrawing man. The demons following me into my world is a sign that next time I could go full on DT's. I feel for anyone who is going through what we're going through. I agree when you say there should be a skull and cross bones on every bottle in every liquor store cos that shit is poison. I'm gonna watch the rest of your videos man. Keep up the good fight and the great work. Regards CJ
Hey CJ welcome to the channel brother, glad you’re here man. Trust me man I know all too well, I’ve had some DT’s in the real world too, those are next level frightening. They are scarier than dreams and shadow people/bugs. But the whole bugs crawling all over your skin is awful too, you’re not alone man I can relate. I think that’s why these videos and community’s are important, it shows me that and others. God bless and keep pushing forward man, keep me updated
I speculate the lucidity in post-heavy intoxication dreams is a direct reflection of the subconscious, which is constantly repressed by drinking. A sober human has their conscious/subconscious synchronized, because their life is progressing and they're able to form new experiences, new relationships, new realities. As an addict, your life is on pause until you forfeit the addiction: then, the subconscious pours in profusely, through nightmares, essentially. It's a fusion of memories before the control by any substance (alcohol, weed, etc.) with what the subconscious has been experiencing. I've been battling alcoholism for 5 years, and I constantly reminisce on the days before I started drinking. The reason I falter is because instead of focusing on what I can achieve *further* in my life, I regress (and I don't want to use that term offensively, because it's all psychologically complicated), and because of alcohol's naturally depressive chemical properties, it puts me in the same void. What works for me is focusing on a specific project that I care about: there *are* forces stronger than alcohol. Passion is destroyed by alcohol; but with some time it does come back, and you can, and will feel motivated. Just be patient.
And patience is exponentially easier. The first 72 hours are a nightmare. The week is hard. 2 weeks is much easier. A month of abstinence puts you in a completely different mental frame. At that point, don't fall to prior demons. Sober October.
Thank you for dropping some knowledge/wisdom brother, also some of your story as well. I like your idea of doing projects, I’m the same way the second booze comes into the mix the whole project will fall apart or never happen. Everything falls apart when I drink, all I care about is that next drink. As you said brother it gets easier the longer you go and heck yea sober October 💪💪. I can actually successfully do it for once. Let’s keep taking it one day at a time, god bless
Glad that you're still sober, Slayer! Hallucinations during alcohol withdrawal are no joke, they are frightening. For me the voices were the worst part, but I did see some pretty spooky stuff, and I would feel stuff crawling on my skin too! The hallucinations lasted about 2 weeks for me, until they eventually went away. I think might have gone away quicker if I hadn't been so sleep deprived because sleep deprivation alone can make you trip out of your mind!
Hey David 👋 thanks for the comment brother. The voices were horrid for me too man, awful. I haven’t had the voices really this time around as much, but in the past coming off the booze I’ve heard whispers, sirens, tv’s, radios, music…. It’s BIZARE. Like you said sleep deprivation alone can cause you to trip out, then you throw withdrawal on top of it. Not a good combo, god bless man 🙏
Thank you! I love the way you ended this video. You are so right. And I thank God for a person like you, who shares in this very vulnerable and impactful way. It really is so helpful
That bit at the end, "did I like that or was that terrible" is SO funny man, had me chuckling while I was making a coffee. Thanks for the update and the shout-out, and I'm looking forward to that longer video you've got planned. Onwards and upwards mate.
I get those same exact dreams when I quit smoking pot after smoking everyday nonstop - insanely vivid dreams that feel real. They feel real to the point that you wake up in the exact mood that you were feeling in the dream. I have woken up in awful moods because of these scary and real feeling dreams. I've never experienced these from alcohol but its still crazy relatable to me as a "weed addict".. such a stigmatized thing but its very real and I think more and more people everyday are realizing that weed can be highly mentally addictive to some. It's crazy really, I feel like there are so many things I can relate to in your videos, so know you are helping more than just alcoholics out there! much love
I got them coming off green too man!!! Wild dreams, vivid and primal. Like joe Rogan has spoke about. W33d is 100% mentally addictive and even for some now are saying it is physically addictive, but those are more rare. The mental war of green is brutal, my channel is for all addiction. I know I focus on alcoholism but it really is for anyone who needs help. It’s funny cuz you have the same name as one of my old dealers way back in the day years ago lol. “Zay” I don’t even know if that was his real name to be honest.
Viscous cycle thats for sure. You can't sleep when you get sober. You're fatigued and groggy all day everyday. Then you drink to help go to sleep. Alcohol kills your sleep quality so then you wake up even more tired and groggy. Then you get sober and still feel groggy. The cycle just repeats and you feel like crap 24/7. You really have to just fight through the insomnia that comes in the first 1-2 weeks of sobriety. Then it gets better and better.
@@frank-the-tank75 I started sleeping like a baby at about 10 days. Dreaming again wake up with a woody rip one off. The other thing is the sugar people say you lose weight but I always gain weight cuz I eat so much f****** ice cream and cake.
Alcohol sleep isn't good sleep either. But you gotta fight through those first few weeks after alcohol. I am almost 9 months sober and it's definitely worth the wait to get good sleep.
So happy to see you back and well. As long as you are still alive you are not to far gone LD is a great example of that. I've been managing to put my drinking to the side and have been picking up the pieces of my teenage years that I spent drinking and drugging causing me to drop out of high school in my freshman year. As of 2 days ago I managed to get my GED and I am going to go to college. None of this would have been possible if I didn't put down the bottle. Much love to you and this great community ❤
Another great example is Willpower podcast guy who's been featured on LD this week. He was real bad in his late 20s...transplants at 33 i think? Check it out.
Hey brother thank you as always man, You always uplift me. More important congratulations on getting your GED that is incredible my friend!!! 💪💪, you’re going to college too? That is what’s up!! Stay on your path man, leave booze and dr*gs behind, take the journey slow and within 5-10 years your life will be set. Proud of you bro. God bless
I love your topics and areas you discuss things! They're so helpful and down to Earth! I mean...alcohol literally saved lives back in "olden" times because it was the only available source of liquid that had been distilled to the point of killing bacteria and other things. You'd rather have a pint of beer than a pint of water because the water would literally destroy your insides because it was just gathered from a shit-infested river.
Hey bullet thanks my friend! Always in here showing love and support. Your comments are always interesting too lol. Also yes, I heard of this stuff on JRE. Really fascinating actually and wild!!! Some places had beer breaks and all of that.
Slay back in my day (2001ish 20yo) we didn’t have social media. We had to get sober alone or with a sponsor. These videos yall make blow me away! Your Gen will change the way Americans think no doubt
@@CraigFox-lt6lt right? Wow talk about fear, isolation & w/d’ing alone You wanna talk about a secret. 🙏🏻♥️🫶🏻 Nobody has to do it alone anymore thanks to social media 👍🏻💜
One day at a time my friend, I’m glad I’m helping. That actually brings a smile to my face, knowing that I’m helping other people with this monster. I’ve said it before but I really mean it, you guys help me just as much if not more with my sobriety journey/path. So thank you brother. God bless my friend
Hey Slay - nice to see you as always. I’m glad you’re feeling stronger. The vivid dreams that are so dark….I have plenty of those but nothing like yours. Dreams most definitely come as a warning. They do have meaning, can be terrifying and also very peaceful. Anyways, yes 🙌 it’s time to reclaim your life and soul. You just keep fighting and focus on one day at a time, not a week ahead or months or years. Just live for today, today is a gift. Anyways, it’s Thursday morning we should be getting some wicked rain from hurricane Helene tonight. I hope you and everyone else has a wonderful day. Much love always slay 💜 💜!
@@CraigFox-lt6ltthanks Craig it won’t be bad for where I’m at, went through hurricane Ian almost 2 years ago which was complete devastation for many. I’ll be spared with this one, poor folks in Tallahassee will be impacted. Hoping everyone is safe. Thanks for the message Craig always nice to hear from you.
🙏🖤 prayers out to you micru for safety from the horrible storm. Please stay safe, that’s what matter most!!! Also I see dreams in the same way you do pretty much. Stay safe!! Keep us updated, god bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373all good this is nothing for me (thank god). I’ve seen my share unfortunately. I’m praying for those in Tallahassee. Thank you for your support as always. You’re so kind my friend 💜.
Great Extemp!! - - on bizarre dreams, I still have them, extremely vivid, usually involving generations come and gone , past job situations good and bad, celebrities i somehow run into who are often gone. Just a couple nights ago was an awkward lunch with Lucille Ball..no joke. I actually sort of really like it !!! We should talk!! It's a great topic, very much like your current situation. Difference is i haven't drank in a year. Sleep disturbances, especially lack of it are awful, coming from a nearly lifelong insomniac!!
I will get them in sobriety but it’s very rare, that’s interesting that you have them often Craig. I’ve had some insane dreams so I could only imagine. We will talk sometime that would be cool. Always appreciate your comments Craig, god bless
Are you an Air sign? I appreciate your content, I'm going through the same. Went 8 months sober but found that life sucked. Relapsed HARD for 4 days and had blood shot eyes, liver pain, shakes, vomiting, couldn't eat etc, started seeing demons and feeling them as well (one kept trying to pleasure me) literally , no joke. I'm 17 days sober , never wanna go back.
You have to give it to God. Change your mindset and start doing things winners do everyday. Lucifer wants you to be a loser, you have to keep pushing forward but not as a loser anymore. Learn to win by always being around winners.
Hey sage please don’t ever go back, 17 days is incredible. It’s like Agoat said if it takes giving it to god do that just stay far away. 8 months sober is like pretty amazing!!! Proves you can do it!!!!! Keep me updated. Also yes I am an air sign 🤔.
Thank u so much for the honesty in your videos. I'm just so sorry that you have to suffer so much when you're trying so hard to make your life better. You have so much courage. You may not see it but you do. Love and Blessings to u. 🙏❤
Bro, sometimes it's like I'm rewatching myself, listening to myself on these videos!! 😂 Just being honest, My late 20's and early 30's was mayhem. These videos bring flashbacks. You are on the right track, at least you acknowledge you have a serious problem that's life or death. Keep fighting! And, thank you for This video, as it serves a reminder to someone older like me. 🙏 God Bless #Gratitude
I’m glad I’m helping brother, our stories and paths are always so similar I’ve come to realize. It’s almost like an instant friendship is made when you talk to someone who understands, I can tell you understand haha. God bless you man and thank you for being here 🙏
It’s interesting because I went to my first AA meeting in like 2 years a couple nights ago and the subject was gratitude. Kind of cool, anyways I’m glad to be home. Thank you :) 🙏
Slayer, I’m so sorry ( you landed back in the hospital and hope that all of us who are supporting your sobriety will give you some strength..❤ May you feel so much better and have a good Christmas!!
You mentioned micro naps and vivid dreams during those 20 minute naps. Reminded me of way back in 2009 after 4 solid days of drinking (still my record to this day). That started happening to me when I went to bed on the fifth day. Could not sleep for more than 20 minutes and would jump up awake startled! 😱 Do you think that was a mild DT of sorts?
I had to drive back home for 3 hours the next day also I was falling asleep at the wheel it was the day before Christmas Eve. Super busy roads. Super dangerous.
I’ve also experienced this brother, it is scary and has happened more often than not to me after I’ve drank tons. It definitely could be an early sign or symptom of DT’s. It’s scary when it happens. Glad you made it back in one piece my friend!! God bless you red snapper! 🙏💯
Don’t worry about your credibility, man. It’s not at risk as far as we are concerned. For any haters or people taking pot shots - it takes courage to put yourself out there like this. It’s not a test, it’s your life and you’re doing your best. Keep strong. Stay sober. We all have your back. 🙏
Hey Slayer. Have always had trouble sleeping. I have tried different meds. So my Dr gave me Ambien. I took one and fell asleep. I had very vivid very frightening dreams about Demons. I was never so scared. It was horrific. I never took another. It was so bad I was scared to try the Ambien again. And I have heard that before from others. I take 2 Benadryl to fall asleep. It works for me and I sleep good. I’m so glad to see you here, Sober my friend 💚💚 One day at a time. You got this. Hugs n blessings to you. Mona 💚💚🫶🏻🫶🏻☮️☮️☮️
Same...ambien scared me ..many years ago and I remember seeing a double of myself in a mirror! It didn't help me sleep either. Now I have Trazadone which is not magic but pretty good ♥️ 🙏
Ambien is a wild dr*g from the sounds of it, I’ve heard all sorts of horror stories. Benadryl can work sometimes, not a bad idea. But anyways appreciate you always thank you 🙏
Hey Craig, I was on sertaline and trazadone and got horrible joint pain. After a few months after I stopped the trazadone, all of the joint pain went completely away. Some medicines just don't mix well
Gratefully sober now but I went through that in the beginning too! I still have dreams that I am drinking that are so real I wake up sweating and it takes minutes to realize I'm not back in that hell..
slayer i made it to another ten day sober streak which is the second time ive had one since i started taking sobriety seriously. it will probably be 11 tonight. still only drank 2 days this month. a year ago i was afraid to stop because i thought i would die from withdrawl. thank you for the videos bro.
Right-I have regular chronic insomnia-but instead of thinking MORE time passed, since I don’t sleep therefore don’t check off a night -and I think it’s the SAME DAY AS YESTERDAY-I’m frozen in time-exhausted.. it’s awful 😨
Thats cool youre into the occult aspects of alcohol and drug use. I have a similar view actually too. Ive been looking for someone to go deeper into this than surface level. Great work man.
@@AstralAscensionOfficial hey thank you brother, we can definitely talk about some wild subjects I’m into all of that type of stuff. Glad you’re here my friend! 🙏☀️
Horrible. Hope your gets some zzzzz and more peaceful rest soon. I remember being awake and my bedroom ceiling opening up with angels telling me I had a choice and I was sweating and shaking saying, “I won’t do it again, I will find another path I promise..” And still continued for another 2 years with another 4 stints in rehab on top of the one I’d had 6 years earlier. That one was a nicer hallucination.
I believe you 100%, they are usually demonic or involve gore and violence, sexual or just something weird as f. Don’t go through it again, stay away from that poison! 🙏
Slaayyyeeerr! Im sorry i missed this! I didnt see it pop up in my notifications! I've told you before about my nightmares and the sleep paralysis I experienced, but the insomnia totally resonates with me as well! It took a little time for my sleep patterns to fall back in order. Chamomile helped me a lot. I hope you're doing great. Sending tons of love and well wishes from NY, my friend!! ❤️😊❤
Hey Amanda!!! How have you been my friend?? I want to try chamomile I just need to do it already. I feel like for a year now I’ve been telling myself to try that stuff. Also don’t be sorry, you’re here now showing love!! Much love back to you and NY, 🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 I've been really good!! Busy as usual, but very happy 😊 yes. Try chamomile!! It's so relaxing. I keep plain chamomile in my cabinets at all times, including chamomile lavender. The aroma is amazing with the addition of the lavender, and it's very inexpensive. Thanks for the love and know that you're always in my thoughts 💕😁
The voices are horrible seg, I didn’t get them as much this time around but in the past I heard whispers, talking, tv’s playing, radios playing, sirens going off, music. It’s absolutely awful!! It’s always good to you also, much love. 🙏🖤
I know you’ve got this tracking your journey but do u keep a daily journal. My last detox actually triggered a whole spiritual awakening n life’s really took a turn, learning to be grateful for all things big/small, good/hard times. Especially with the dreams journaling so u can go back to certain days/nights n read what u experienced can b life changing💜
I don’t keep a daily journal but I definitely should!! One of my family member bought me a journal and it’s just been sitting around. I should pick it up and start writing. This is a great idea Tiffany thank you!! 🙏
Get out of that dark hole my friend. You can do it 🙏🙏 god bless. I understand the tired feeling, I’ve been going through a lot myself recently. Be safe man!
Damn I knew alcohol withdrawal was bad but I watched a few if your vids and I had no idea it was this brutal good shit on a week sober. I'm dealing with a very serious weed addiction and this last month the weed alone just hasn't been doing it so I've been drinking some alcohol before hand before I smoke and man that feeling of being cross faded is something else. Im a real lightweight so I'm not drinking a lot just enough to get a nice buzz but I think finding your channel is a sign that I need to quit before I get too deep into it I got a real addictive personality
Yea man crazy enough alcohol withdrawal and benzo withdrawal are the only two that you can d*e from. It’s next level, I understand that feeling you describe though bro. Before I got heavy into alcohol I smoked all the time, every day all day. So when booze was introduced I loved it, then mixing it I loved that even more, except when you get the spins that’s awful. But my advice is kick the booze completely, or cut way back. Then gradually get the green out of your life. You got this bro, god bless and keep me updated
@Slayer-7373 Yeah im definitely kicking the alcohol soon I've seen family go through alcohol addiction and I aint tryna go down that road. Keep grinding brotha I was gonna relapse tonight been sober a few days but you inspired me to just stay sober another day
had this shit going through opioid withdrawal, toss and turn, restless legs for 7 hours and maybe 20 minutes of essentially pass out from pure exhaustion. dont miss it for sure
It’s awful, trust me I know all too well. I’ve heard opioid withdrawal has the worst “restless leg syndrome” out of the withdrawals. I’ve always gotten awful ones from booze, pacing for hours like you said. Don’t miss it brother, don’t ever look back. Thanks for this comment and god bless bro
Slayer-Sober, I have just been through an extremely serious relapse after four months sober. I’m still going through the horrible withdrawal but I’m alive. Recovery is 10% alcohol and 90% emotional. We must have peace.
🖤I’m so sorry Cindy, it happens to the best of us. 4 months is amazing though, it shows you that it’s possible for you to over come this I believe in you, this community believes in you. Please keep me updated 🙏 one day at time, the horrid withdrawal will pass. God bless
@@CMoore8539 you will 100% get through 🙏 we must always keep our guard up, just hop back on that horse and keep pushing forward. It’s happened to all of us it really has. God bless
I've had the dreams about the past while withdrawing aswell. For some reason I return to my old house with circumstances that I haven't experienced for 15 or more years, but with bizarre and sometimes disturbing scenarios. I feel like it's our subconscious brains bring up unresolved issues from our past when our minds are most vulnerable and active... but I'm totally open to the idea of a spiritual element as well. It does seem otherworldly.
It’s absolutely bizarre man, like you said it’s so “other worldly” and messed up that it really does seem like there is a spiritual element. It’s very rare that you ever hear anyone say they enjoyed their dreams/dt’s from withdrawal. Most of the time it’s demonic and strange. Anyways, good to see you here my friend. Be well
Ah man, those nightmares. The insomnia was a frustration but at least you can get up and try and read a book. But the nightmares were true horrors, as you say here you just can't describe it.
Un-imaginable nightmares brother, trust me I know exactly what you speak of. I often say “those who know, know.” And that’s all it takes. Because if you have been through it, there is no doubt it will blow your mind. Booze is a VERY powerful drug. Thank you for the comment brotha.
Slayer what up big dog. You ever have lucid dreams or recurring dreams? You ever have dreams where things are seemingly normal like how you describe and this feeling of impending doom overcomes you and then horror happens? I’m not sure if this is correlated to aud and I’ve been sober for months but I dream screwy shit sometimes if I don’t exert enough energy it seems
I’ve definitely had that experience of falling asleep in a dream, and waking up into a new one. It’s crazy! Wish I wrote down the details then cause my memory is shot now.
I’m glad I’m a way I’m not alone but sorry In a way that you had to experience them haha. I also hear you about the memory, seems like mine isn’t as sharp as it once was either. God bless and thank you
My brother was a week shy of his 29th birthday and was a HEAVY drinker. Case a day. We went down to visit my dad and he was shaking the whole drive down to MO. 6.6 hours. Soon as we got there he collapsed and had a seizure. Thankfully he was as okay to the point he got to the hospital. No joke though, the next day he was back to pounding beers. After we begged him to go to the hospital and get checked out he was fine bloodwork wise but the doctors said he would have issues if he kept down the same path. Well… about 3 months later he committed suicide. So as far as the demonic aspect, I believe that totally. He lost his mind and I miss the heck out of him. Be strong everyone
What's up, Slayer. Good on the week. My last couple of detoxes were medicated and not that bad except I couldn't eat for a couple of days or sleep. I did have some weird dreams, however. Glad you made it out - you might not have another recovery in you. *Edit Do you just go to the hospital and they admit you for detox? In my video I talk about how they won't admit you around here unless you are SUPER bad off. I guess either your hospital is a little more liberal toward alcoholics or you were that bad off.
What’s up shades!! Let’s just stay on the path we are on man, you’re doing awesome 👏 😎 They have a detox wing inside the hospital, it’s actually the newest wing of the building one of the nurses was telling me. Because back years ago that wasn’t an option, I can see why they put one in. So many of us out here battling with addiction. Before you had to go over to a separate building, an actual detox center. I will say though the detox wing inside the hospital is pretty much exactly the same. State ran detox’s are completely different.
@@Slayer-7373 I was just wondering. The hospitals here will bring the social worker in to try to get you somewhere like I said in my video. I think I have finally found some peace where I won't have to worry about places like that anymore. Good luck on your sobriety.
Congrats on your sobriety. Good lord those were some nightmares. Sleep aid >>> Maybe Try a banana and 2 kiwi -- makes me good and drowsy --- Valerian root Tea will make ya drowsy too but speak to an MD before trying Valerian. I hate to see you start sleeping pills TBH bec then we may tell ourselves we can't sleep without pills. That's a loss of freedom. -- walnuts I think will make you sleepy too. **Exposure to EARLY morning sun, directly into your eyes is supposedly good for re - set of circadian rhythm & supports normal sleep. Can relate to the sleeplessness --- horrible. Loads of info online about sleep issues. Great Vid kiddo --- Thank you
Hope you do well man im getting off my bender now totally went through DTS for the first time I truly thought I was going to die. But I'm here and im alive. Would love to talk sometime hang in there and STAY SOBER
I’m glad you’re here man, just hop back on the wagon and come with me bro. People like us just can’t drink, we can take it one day at a time. Today I’m not drinking, gonna stick to that. We got this man Also have you emailed me before?
I had a wierd ass dream some time ago, i was in my old bedroom at my folks and i was looking outside and saw a bunch of headless chickens running towards me. Bro it was hella scary
That is wild lol, doesn’t surprise me though. It follows the theme of bizarre/demonic/confusing and over all messed up!! Anyways thanks brother as always, god bless
I got 5 years sober from alcohol, man. After many many alcohol relapses, many times in the hospital/detoxes, many failed attempts.. it pays to never give up :). I’ll agree on the Trazadone, there’s even evidence it may have some benefit in alcohol withdrawal. Been there and done that with the insomnia, keep going, Slayer man!
the vivid nightmares are f*cked. when i was drinking heavily ive had dreams that lasted like 15 hours and they were full of just scary shit - like the scariest shit my mind could come up with. id be chased by scary entities that had blood coming out of their eyes - have to fight off people trying to attack me - literally just a straight up horror show. i dont think ive seen any horror movie come close to capturing the absolutely terrifying shit i saw
You pretty much said it better than me mango. Trust me brother I know what you mean, it is f%#^ked up and I understand that my friend. God bless and thank you for sharing
Look up a video called "Trainspotting Withdrawal scene" It's from a movie, but man I had the hallucination of a baby on the ceiling once, it was horrifying.😂
These terrible hangover nightmares... I dreamed of spiders on the walls, small worms crawling in my mouth, some old people, gypsies, cats, flies - and all this at the same time like a terrible crazy kaleidoscope - I sometimes woke up with a wild scream turning into a howl , all wet from stinking sweat in a bed that smelled of spilled beer, cigarette butts and dried shit...
An actual nightmare, people don’t understand how awful it really is. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through that h*ll my friend. God bless, one day at a time
I still sleep weird after 5 months. Rare if I can sleep much more than an hour to two without waking up. Just the brain 🧠 chemistry trying to reset? You haven't lost your sense of humour Slayer. That's nice to see. 😊 Janet 🇬🇧
Magnesium can help you sleep for real and it's good for you. 400 - 500mg magnesium oxide or magnesium glycinate take about 2 -3 hours before bedtime. Magnesium helps your body make it's own melatonin plus it relaxes your muscles. But it can lower blood pressure some so don't take if on blood pressure meds.
I’ve been taking magnesium recently actually, another person from the community suggested it and both of you are definitely correct. It really does calm you down and make it a bit easier to sleep at night. Thank you Rob I really can’t describe to you enough how helpful y’all have been through these tough times. God bless
Trying to stop the drink its got a little out of hand when i retired..only had a couple of drinks over the last thee weeks and weekend only but man my sleep is horrific during the week i just cannot sleep and when i do the dreams are never happy 😱
Try for me not to you the word “should” Fill your plate with self care rituals.. make a plan for the Nxt bad thought.. tell on it We got you Slay Sounds good Slay ❤ Todays Thursday and I hope your hanging in there Love ya I’m with you ❤❤
You are absolutely a winner like goat said, learn from it, correct it and just hop right back on that horse my friend. You realize what happened and definitely have the power to do the right thing. Keep us updated, god bless
That’s once physical sign of why alcohol is a poison. It horribly interrupts your sleep, which is the main thing you absolutely need for a healthy brain, energy for the next day, and to regulate your body and emotions. I mean, Im almost 5 years into sobriety, and the moment I think about alcohol and drinking, I immediately think about the hangover and anxiety, and how my sleep use to be terrible. And I immediately get turn off by alcohol. I can’t believe I had traded my health for alcohol all those years! Once you get years of sobriety, it’s way easier to stay sober. You just have to enjoy the benefits for a long long consistent period lf time to know you never want to drink again. And Now, my head can hit the pillow sober and Ill be dead asleep in 10mins👌
@@miniharez it’s 100% the best option just to stay away from it forever. 5 years is pretty incredible, congratulations. Like you said reminding ourselves of the hangover the next morning and the HORRID anxiety that comes after ONE single day of drinking is honestly enough sometimes to completely talk you out of a relapse. Like this morning I woke up, not feeling the best but I said THANK GOD I’m not hung over. Consistently is key 🔑 as you said. God bless man
It’s the Paris Catacombs. That room full of skulls is actually a real place. I believe it’s underground room or a tunnel, in another country n all the walls r made of skulls n bones look it up when u was describing it I said that’s a real place so ur aligning rn it’s great time to pay close attention to everything n write all of what u see hear n experience down, you’ll be glad u can go back to it later
Vitamin D Will help you sleep I know someone mentioned magnesium which is good too Hey man your quitting that poison while your still young You’re gonna be fine A little struggle now but in the long run You’re saving yourself a lot of misery you can’t even imagine Those nightmares as bad as they are are nothing like the reality you would find yourself in if you kept drinking heavily Trust me You got this bro
feel free to tell me I'm wrong but maybe there is something going on with your home life / social that keeps coming up and contributing to your relapses... Have you thought about moving out or maybe working a seasonal job somewhere? maybe starting over somewhere out of state temporarily could help you alot - it helped me. there's recourses out there like coolworks and shit that can get you a new job and a place to stay. something to think about.
Yes actually man I think you’re definitely right, I’m trying to move actually at the moment but I’m not sure if it will happen. Living with my brother at the moment, I think having my own spot would do a lot of good for me. That full independence, or maybe it would make things worse im not sure. Been here for like 5 years now, seems like something new might not be a bad idea. God bless bro and thank you
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers, against the directors of this world of darkness, against the spirits of wickedness in high places. Because of this, take up the armor of God, so that you may be able to withstand the evil day and remain perfect in all things.” Ephesians 6:12-13
Get earplugs and an eye mask. It stops the ambient light and noise being utilised in the dream which stopped the nightmares entirely for me. Keep going man, it gets easier.
I've been dealing with addiction for 10 years first with k2 then meth and alcohol now I'm 29 and I started smoking weed daily for the first time in 5 years to cut back on the sauce and it's working I went from 16 beer to 12 then 10 to 6 and now 4 so I'm hitin the rum and smoking a bowl pack and pop a k pin to sleep.
That’s amazing progression bro, good on you man. 💪💪that’s what I’m talking about, do whatever you’ve got to do to save your life man. Keep me updated on the journey and again congrats brother that’s huge 💪
I find if you punch out towards the skeletal corpse crawling over the duvet towards you or the pure white body next to you in the bed they don't come back.
Your system is out of sorts Slayer that's from the drink buddy compare it to the timing be off in your vehicles engine. When you reset the timing on your vehicle and spend a little time fixing it runs great! This too will happen for your system hang in there buddy be strong. Those dreams your talking about also happened to me when I first stopped consuming that poison I call poison my thought is that this phenomenon relates to the part of your brain that wants change and really wants to be sober is fighting the temptations and demons that are trying to remain in control of your craving for alcohol don't shy away or be afraid of those dreams use it to your advantage and let it run it's coarse because the good part of your brain that wants sobriety for you can and will overcome and beat the demons in the end. Like I always say Slayer Be Strong, Never Quit, Keep moving forward, Be Persistent in your quest for being sober it's most important to keep your faith, we support and will be here to help you do these things man just ask I am always around. God Bless and be safe my friend. DT
Hey brother thank you man, just by reading your comments I can tell you’re a really good dude. God will get me through and comments like these always fire me up. Give me more hope, thank you my friend 🙏god bless
I had the brilliant idea alcohol would help me sleep through the leg pains that I get when I lay down. Ha. Total opposite. Made me more awake and made my legs feel worse. Gave that up real quick.
I get prickly lower legs after awhile when I lay down, likely from type 2 diabetes which I've been trying to manage. Not restless legs but like neuropathy I guess, some stabbing pains along with the prickly feeling. Magnesium makes me very sleepy plus seems to ease the leg/foot pains. Oh I've also had sciatica twice ten years apart in my left leg so probably some nerve damage there. Wishing you the best.💚
Yeah, the fact that it's always scary or demonic should tell us something. We don't apply common sense much anymore. Well common sense tells me that there is a spiritual aspect to this and it's almost all demonic. I also believe these acid/shroom experiences that people have are allowing them to see into a spiritual realm. We already know that there are sounds, colors, and smells we can't see...that other animals can see........because we can't see them doesn't mean they don't exist.......and I would say the same about the spiritual realm.......it's as real as what we see is.....but it's outside of our normal senses unless we somehow open ourselves up to it. The problem is, most of us only open ourselves up to the demonic side of things.
I keep using “deal with the devil” to describe alcohol use. Seems great until it bones you. And it always bones you. Totally demonic! I hope you get some good sleep soon.
Do you have any thoughts on xxx videos ? I’m been struggling with pron and alcoholism and they both seem to put me in a “lower vibration” where I have horrible dreams and such. I feel a lot of the spiritual stuff you say, I feel demonic
Addiction is a addiction brother, that can be a tough one. I’ve battled that addiction back in the day when I was younger, it wraps you in and the deeper you go, it is sinister. All of your energy is lost, like your life source or something. The instant feeling of regret and Shame is almost identical to that of the next morning after a relapse off booze just like “why did I do that again??!” Then you do it again. Same cycle 🔁 It’s definitely demonic man, there are different spirits I believe for these things but they all lead back to the same source which is darkness. I’d drop down and pray against it, I know that might sound ridiculous to you but I really would. When that urge comes on, drop down and start praying. Start saying what you’re thankful for, who you love. Take your mind to positive instead of that. Lust brother, it’s TOUGH and something every one of us needs to work on. You got this bro, keep me updated
@@adrianowallin hey brother 👋! I posted on the community, I’ve been super busy! I have over two weeks off that poison now. I plan to upload a new video sometime today/tonight. God bless my friend!
Alcohol goes back too far. Isn't going anywhere. Tell yourself ' I AM TAKING OFF 1YR! NO MATTER WHAT!! There will always be a bottle to start back up and available next year.
Man, it’s a tough road! I’ve been a little over a year sober. GlyNac has helped me. Unsure if it helps everyone. There are some good videos on how to dose based on your body weight on UA-cam.
@@Slayer-7373 It’s N-acytel cysteine and glycine equally balanced. The NAC helps clean up your liver and adding glycine helps also with the production of glutathione. Glutathione helps detoxing a little easier, at least for me. Glycine also helps me sleep better, along with a magnesium glycinate. I’ve been a horrendous binge drinker over the years and suffered from insomnia also. This combination seems to speed up the detox. Prayers up for you brother, I’m 57 years old and I’ve been struggling with alcohol for 40+ years. I don’t like the me I turn into when I drink.
@@StephenBean-f8b fascinating Stephen, I never knew about that brother. It’s pretty incredible to see you’re wanting a better life for yourself away from the booze. I haven’t battled booze as long as you have but I know how horrific it really is. I’ve said it before that I’ve been through a lot in my life and I think quitting booze is definitely the hardest. I got over a month sober now and I’m hoping to keep it that way! Anyways i appreciate your comments man thank you and god bless
@@Slayer-7373 I’m proud of you for recognizing it early in life. I believe your channel is a really great thing for a lot of people, glad I found it! Hang in there and keep on posting!
Alcoholic drinks 🍸 all pretty that's why they dressem'up ,the lure, it's all better with Alcohol drink mee look I'm so sweetsouthernyummy drink meeee... lipstick on a pig. Oh my gosh dude..do you have Netflix? Behind Her Eyes....you just told the same/similar dream in this series. What you do you listen or watch before you try to sleep? Why do you think The Bible speaks and teaches to "be of sober mind' for no one know the time of day when _______. You are drunk ofcourse when spirits attack...they don't bother you until you want to stop bruh sooo.....yeah. Now into your sobriety ofcourse the attacks are g o I n g to come friend. It is guaranteed. What you put in that comes out. Maybe try not to fight it. I am an insomniac and I would fight to the point I have a tantrum like a 2 yr old in bed kicking my covers, pleading with God....I started writing what I felt. What I was thinking why can I sleep even when I'm sick...I wish I could show you 1 of my sketch pads. I just write...or read, or pray for others, talk to God literally Whats going on God...h e l p. H E KNOWS we do it all to ourself but see He is so full of grace...He anwsered(s) me. He answered you.... Keep going luv...Don't forget you Sponsor for the next trigger OKAY 👍 👌 YES 👏 Si" (((( group Huggers )))))) #iheartu melissa❤
This was very well said and a really beautiful comment. Thank you not only for the love and support but the wisdom as well. I learn so much from y’all. Almost like the community is one giant AA meeting lol. It’s really cool, anyways thank you again and god bless. One day at a time 🙏🖤
Betrayal can eat you up from the inside. Family, true family, is what you make it by surrounding yourself with people that you can trust and believe in. "Family" in the traditional sense are just some people who sare some DNA/genetic material with you, thats it. They could have thoughts and opinions that are TOTALLY contrary to your's. Get them out of your life!
You should cut the bullshit. I have been observing you for months now. As far as I can tell, you are just using your alcohol drama to gin up views. You don't seem serious about quitting booze.
Hey, that’s alright Cindy. We are all here for you, reply please when you get a chance. Let us know you’re alright. God bless you, it happens to all of us, look at me.
The nightmares are terrifying...The insomnia is the worst!! Those nightmares are just unreal..it's like how does my brain produce this insane madness??? Glad you're on the road to recovery Slayer!! 🙏💯
Bro for real, it’s demonic sh%#. Always glad to see you in the comments man, god bless and thank you 🙏💯
@@Slayer-7373 it's definitely demonic..no doubt bro..💯
Someone understands. The nightmares are no not nightmares anyrmore. You're living them.
A living nightmare when you're wide awake.
Man I totally feel you on the insomnia. I used to use alcohol to fall asleep but once that's taken away, it's a complete nightmare to be able to fall asleep again. It's a difficult and necessary process but being able to sleep is something so many people take for granted.
Hydroxyzine helped me, you need a prescription but man you feel so refreshed after waking up 💯
Takes me weeks usually afterhours, like you said man I would start to get jealous of people who could just sleep normal, I’d always be like y’all don’t know how good you have it 🤣, even though most of my insomnia of the years has been self induced. I’ve always dealt with it though, never fun. Thanks as always afterhours 🙏
Fat blunt of wedding cake. 💤
You, LD, Bat country and sober James are my favorite people on UA-cam right now
I watch Sober James too. He’s interesting!
I love all of those guys, much love to you Jeff. Thanks brother 🙏
Hi Slayer, I just found your channel man. I've just been through a 4 day withdrawal this weekend and what you described is absolutely on the nail. The insomnia is crushing but the micro sleep instant vivid nightmare shit is real. I've gone through withdrawal before and it doesn't get any easier, If anything it gets worse. I've had the demons follow me into the "real" world when I've fought to get out of the nightmare screaming and fighting to wake up. Seen them flying around my bedroom walls until they disappear . You're right about each successive day with insomnia getting longer and longer. I dread the night coming because you know you're going to have to go through all that terrifying shit again. This is my last time withdrawing man. The demons following me into my world is a sign that next time I could go full on DT's. I feel for anyone who is going through what we're going through. I agree when you say there should be a skull and cross bones on every bottle in every liquor store cos that shit is poison. I'm gonna watch the rest of your videos man. Keep up the good fight and the great work. Regards CJ
Hey CJ welcome to the channel brother, glad you’re here man. Trust me man I know all too well, I’ve had some DT’s in the real world too, those are next level frightening. They are scarier than dreams and shadow people/bugs. But the whole bugs crawling all over your skin is awful too, you’re not alone man I can relate. I think that’s why these videos and community’s are important, it shows me that and others. God bless and keep pushing forward man, keep me updated
I speculate the lucidity in post-heavy intoxication dreams is a direct reflection of the subconscious, which is constantly repressed by drinking. A sober human has their conscious/subconscious synchronized, because their life is progressing and they're able to form new experiences, new relationships, new realities. As an addict, your life is on pause until you forfeit the addiction: then, the subconscious pours in profusely, through nightmares, essentially. It's a fusion of memories before the control by any substance (alcohol, weed, etc.) with what the subconscious has been experiencing. I've been battling alcoholism for 5 years, and I constantly reminisce on the days before I started drinking. The reason I falter is because instead of focusing on what I can achieve *further* in my life, I regress (and I don't want to use that term offensively, because it's all psychologically complicated), and because of alcohol's naturally depressive chemical properties, it puts me in the same void. What works for me is focusing on a specific project that I care about: there *are* forces stronger than alcohol. Passion is destroyed by alcohol; but with some time it does come back, and you can, and will feel motivated. Just be patient.
And patience is exponentially easier. The first 72 hours are a nightmare. The week is hard. 2 weeks is much easier. A month of abstinence puts you in a completely different mental frame. At that point, don't fall to prior demons. Sober October.
Thank you for dropping some knowledge/wisdom brother, also some of your story as well. I like your idea of doing projects, I’m the same way the second booze comes into the mix the whole project will fall apart or never happen. Everything falls apart when I drink, all I care about is that next drink.
As you said brother it gets easier the longer you go and heck yea sober October 💪💪. I can actually successfully do it for once. Let’s keep taking it one day at a time, god bless
Glad that you're still sober, Slayer! Hallucinations during alcohol withdrawal are no joke, they are frightening. For me the voices were the worst part, but I did see some pretty spooky stuff, and I would feel stuff crawling on my skin too! The hallucinations lasted about 2 weeks for me, until they eventually went away. I think might have gone away quicker if I hadn't been so sleep deprived because sleep deprivation alone can make you trip out of your mind!
I don't think I ever had voices, except in the dreams. Good to see you David !!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt Good to see you Craig! Yes, hearing voices is very unpleasant, you definitely need to drink a ton of booze to reach that point!
Hey David 👋 thanks for the comment brother. The voices were horrid for me too man, awful. I haven’t had the voices really this time around as much, but in the past coming off the booze I’ve heard whispers, sirens, tv’s, radios, music…. It’s BIZARE. Like you said sleep deprivation alone can cause you to trip out, then you throw withdrawal on top of it. Not a good combo, god bless man 🙏
Always good to see you here Craig! God bless brother 🙏
Thank you! I love the way you ended this video. You are so right. And I thank God for a person like you, who shares in this very vulnerable and impactful way. It really is so helpful
@@FrancieMoon9 🖤🙏:)
That bit at the end, "did I like that or was that terrible" is SO funny man, had me chuckling while I was making a coffee.
Thanks for the update and the shout-out, and I'm looking forward to that longer video you've got planned. Onwards and upwards mate.
Now I looked you up bat ,and subscribed....lol I thought ppl kept saying "Back Country !!
@@CraigFox-lt6lt Welcome to Back Country buddy :D
I even laughed at that myself 😂, thank you man as always, i appreciate you and your videos. As you said brother, onwards and upwards ⬆️
Back country is my favorite channel. 😆
I get those same exact dreams when I quit smoking pot after smoking everyday nonstop - insanely vivid dreams that feel real. They feel real to the point that you wake up in the exact mood that you were feeling in the dream. I have woken up in awful moods because of these scary and real feeling dreams. I've never experienced these from alcohol but its still crazy relatable to me as a "weed addict".. such a stigmatized thing but its very real and I think more and more people everyday are realizing that weed can be highly mentally addictive to some. It's crazy really, I feel like there are so many things I can relate to in your videos, so know you are helping more than just alcoholics out there! much love
I got them coming off green too man!!! Wild dreams, vivid and primal. Like joe Rogan has spoke about. W33d is 100% mentally addictive and even for some now are saying it is physically addictive, but those are more rare. The mental war of green is brutal, my channel is for all addiction. I know I focus on alcoholism but it really is for anyone who needs help.
It’s funny cuz you have the same name as one of my old dealers way back in the day years ago lol. “Zay” I don’t even know if that was his real name to be honest.
Smoke pot not potatoes ❤😂🎉
If it's additional its,addiction. It's in our H❤😂eads
Just farted 😅
Insomnia is the number one reason people give up on quitting. ❤
Viscous cycle thats for sure. You can't sleep when you get sober. You're fatigued and groggy all day everyday. Then you drink to help go to sleep. Alcohol kills your sleep quality so then you wake up even more tired and groggy. Then you get sober and still feel groggy. The cycle just repeats and you feel like crap 24/7.
You really have to just fight through the insomnia that comes in the first 1-2 weeks of sobriety. Then it gets better and better.
@@frank-the-tank75 I started sleeping like a baby at about 10 days. Dreaming again wake up with a woody rip one off. The other thing is the sugar people say you lose weight but I always gain weight cuz I eat so much f****** ice cream and cake.
I could definitely believe this, not sleeping for days on end is real torture!! 🙏god bless y’all
Alcohol sleep isn't good sleep either. But you gotta fight through those first few weeks after alcohol. I am almost 9 months sober and it's definitely worth the wait to get good sleep.
@@DATONEGAMER25 One of THE best parts of sobriety.
So happy to see you back and well. As long as you are still alive you are not to far gone LD is a great example of that. I've been managing to put my drinking to the side and have been picking up the pieces of my teenage years that I spent drinking and drugging causing me to drop out of high school in my freshman year. As of 2 days ago I managed to get my GED and I am going to go to college. None of this would have been possible if I didn't put down the bottle. Much love to you and this great community ❤
Another great example is Willpower podcast guy who's been featured on LD this week. He was real bad in his late 20s...transplants at 33 i think? Check it out.
Hey brother thank you as always man,
You always uplift me. More important congratulations on getting your GED that is incredible my friend!!! 💪💪, you’re going to college too? That is what’s up!! Stay on your path man, leave booze and dr*gs behind, take the journey slow and within 5-10 years your life will be set.
Proud of you bro. God bless
I love your topics and areas you discuss things! They're so helpful and down to Earth!
I mean...alcohol literally saved lives back in "olden" times because it was the only available source of liquid that had been distilled to the point of killing bacteria and other things. You'd rather have a pint of beer than a pint of water because the water would literally destroy your insides because it was just gathered from a shit-infested river.
Hey bullet thanks my friend! Always in here showing love and support. Your comments are always interesting too lol.
Also yes, I heard of this stuff on JRE. Really fascinating actually and wild!!! Some places had beer breaks and all of that.
Slay back in my day (2001ish 20yo) we didn’t have social media. We had to get sober alone or with a sponsor. These videos yall make blow me away!
Your Gen will change the way Americans think no doubt
Kristen that's a great point about how modern social media can be a great support and hopefully get the message out !! ❤️ 💙 🌟
@@CraigFox-lt6lt right? Wow talk about fear, isolation & w/d’ing alone
You wanna talk about a secret.
🙏🏻♥️🫶🏻
Nobody has to do it alone anymore thanks to social media 👍🏻💜
🙏this is so awesome Kristen, I’m glad we are here helping. If my rambles helps someone then it’s all worth it. God bless y’all
@@Slayer-7373 I love em Slayer
Keep talking 🫶🏻
@Slayer-7373 We see you rollin'
We ain't be hatin '🎶 LOLOL
One day at a time Slayer , your videos have really helped me with my path in Sobriety.
Much love from the uk 🙏🙏🙏
One day at a time my friend, I’m glad I’m helping. That actually brings a smile to my face, knowing that I’m helping other people with this monster. I’ve said it before but I really mean it, you guys help me just as much if not more with my sobriety journey/path. So thank you brother.
God bless my friend
Also much love to 🇬🇧!!!
Recently just found yoir channel and its awesome dude, you dont find many peolle bearing their soul out here like you do. Blessings bro
Thank you so much brother 🙏🙏
Hey Slay - nice to see you as always. I’m glad you’re feeling stronger. The vivid dreams that are so dark….I have plenty of those but nothing like yours. Dreams most definitely come as a warning. They do have meaning, can be terrifying and also very peaceful.
Anyways, yes 🙌 it’s time to reclaim your life and soul. You just keep fighting and focus on one day at a time, not a week ahead or months or years. Just live for today, today is a gift. Anyways, it’s Thursday morning we should be getting some wicked rain from hurricane Helene tonight. I hope you and everyone else has a wonderful day. Much love always slay 💜 💜!
Get ready Micruuuu !!! 🌪 🌀 Hopefully it won't be that bad down there, but, the record of the last few years would put me on edge !! 😀 💙
@@CraigFox-lt6ltthanks Craig it won’t be bad for where I’m at, went through hurricane Ian almost 2 years ago which was complete devastation for many. I’ll be spared with this one, poor folks in Tallahassee will be impacted. Hoping everyone is safe. Thanks for the message Craig always nice to hear from you.
🙏🖤 prayers out to you micru for safety from the horrible storm. Please stay safe, that’s what matter most!!! Also I see dreams in the same way you do pretty much.
Stay safe!! Keep us updated, god bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373all good this is nothing for me (thank god). I’ve seen my share unfortunately. I’m praying for those in Tallahassee. Thank you for your support as always. You’re so kind my friend 💜.
@@Micru866 🖤🖤
Great Extemp!! - - on bizarre dreams, I still have them, extremely vivid, usually involving generations come and gone , past job situations good and bad, celebrities i somehow run into who are often gone. Just a couple nights ago was an awkward lunch with Lucille Ball..no joke. I actually sort of really like it !!! We should talk!! It's a great topic, very much like your current situation. Difference is i haven't drank in a year.
Sleep disturbances, especially lack of it are awful, coming from a nearly lifelong insomniac!!
I will get them in sobriety but it’s very rare, that’s interesting that you have them often Craig. I’ve had some insane dreams so I could only imagine. We will talk sometime that would be cool. Always appreciate your comments Craig, god bless
Are you an Air sign? I appreciate your content, I'm going through the same. Went 8 months sober but found that life sucked. Relapsed HARD for 4 days and had blood shot eyes, liver pain, shakes, vomiting, couldn't eat etc, started seeing demons and feeling them as well (one kept trying to pleasure me) literally , no joke. I'm 17 days sober , never wanna go back.
You have to give it to God. Change your mindset and start doing things winners do everyday. Lucifer wants you to be a loser, you have to keep pushing forward but not as a loser anymore. Learn to win by always being around winners.
Good you posted 📫 man !! 👌 Best to you on the 17 !!!
Hey sage please don’t ever go back, 17 days is incredible. It’s like Agoat said if it takes giving it to god do that just stay far away.
8 months sober is like pretty amazing!!! Proves you can do it!!!!! Keep me updated. Also yes I am an air sign 🤔.
Love you brother. Im in the grips of stuff too. Youll fight through. Keep making content. Youre doing a great service!
We will fight through my fiend!! Glad to have you here man. God bless and keep me updated on your journey. 🙏
Thank u so much for the honesty in your videos. I'm just so sorry that you have to suffer so much when you're trying so hard to make your life better. You have so much courage. You may not see it but you do. Love and Blessings to u. 🙏❤
Hey Debbie thank you as always 🙏, some suffer way more than me. I will get through, you guys help me with that so thank you. God bless
Bro, sometimes it's like I'm rewatching myself, listening to myself on these videos!! 😂 Just being honest, My late 20's and early 30's was mayhem. These videos bring flashbacks. You are on the right track, at least you acknowledge you have a serious problem that's life or death. Keep fighting! And, thank you for This video, as it serves a reminder to someone older like me. 🙏 God Bless #Gratitude
I’m glad I’m helping brother, our stories and paths are always so similar I’ve come to realize. It’s almost like an instant friendship is made when you talk to someone who understands, I can tell you understand haha. God bless you man and thank you for being here 🙏
Keeping you in my prayers. You look good.
Appreciate that more than you know, thank you 🙏god bless. :)
Glad your home. Gratitude is something i need to practice as well. Keep up the good fight.
It’s interesting because I went to my first AA meeting in like 2 years a couple nights ago and the subject was gratitude. Kind of cool, anyways I’m glad to be home.
Thank you :) 🙏
Slayer,
I’m so sorry ( you landed back in the hospital and hope that all of us who are supporting your sobriety will give you some strength..❤ May you feel so much better and have a good Christmas!!
🙏🖤
You mentioned micro naps and vivid dreams during those 20 minute naps. Reminded me of way back in 2009 after 4 solid days of drinking (still my record to this day). That started happening to me when I went to bed on the fifth day. Could not sleep for more than 20 minutes and would jump up awake startled! 😱 Do you think that was a mild DT of sorts?
I had to drive back home for 3 hours the next day also I was falling asleep at the wheel it was the day before Christmas Eve. Super busy roads. Super dangerous.
I’ve also experienced this brother, it is scary and has happened more often than not to me after I’ve drank tons. It definitely could be an early sign or symptom of DT’s. It’s scary when it happens.
Glad you made it back in one piece my friend!! God bless you red snapper! 🙏💯
Don’t worry about your credibility, man. It’s not at risk as far as we are concerned. For any haters or people taking pot shots - it takes courage to put yourself out there like this. It’s not a test, it’s your life and you’re doing your best. Keep strong. Stay sober. We all have your back. 🙏
Well put Giles !! 💫 ⭐️
🙏💪appreciate this comment more than you know Giles, thank you man.
This community is too awesome. God bless
Hey Slayer. Have always had trouble sleeping. I have tried different meds. So my Dr gave me Ambien. I took one and fell asleep. I had very vivid very frightening dreams about Demons. I was never so scared. It was horrific. I never took another. It was so bad I was scared to try the Ambien again. And I have heard that before from others. I take 2 Benadryl to fall asleep. It works for me and I sleep good. I’m so glad to see you here, Sober my friend 💚💚 One day at a time. You got this. Hugs n blessings to you. Mona 💚💚🫶🏻🫶🏻☮️☮️☮️
Same...ambien scared me ..many years ago and I remember seeing a double of myself in a mirror! It didn't help me sleep either. Now I have Trazadone which is not magic but pretty good ♥️ 🙏
Ambien is a wild dr*g from the sounds of it, I’ve heard all sorts of horror stories. Benadryl can work sometimes, not a bad idea. But anyways appreciate you always thank you 🙏
Ambien works really well for me. I don't get up in the middle of the night and ramble around.
Hey Craig, I was on sertaline and trazadone and got horrible joint pain. After a few months after I stopped the trazadone, all of the joint pain went completely away. Some medicines just don't mix well
@@Mmoose712 I'll watch out for that ,thanks !!
Gratefully sober now but I went through that in the beginning too! I still have dreams that I am drinking that are so real I wake up sweating and it takes minutes to realize I'm not back in that hell..
Congratulations on your sobriety my friend, that is awesome 💪💯
slayer i made it to another ten day sober streak which is the second time ive had one since i started taking sobriety seriously. it will probably be 11 tonight. still only drank 2 days this month. a year ago i was afraid to stop because i thought i would die from withdrawl. thank you for the videos bro.
💪👏 keep up the excellent work Richard, thats awesome to hear man. Major progress and that’s what counts. Keep me updated
Right-I have regular chronic insomnia-but instead of thinking MORE time passed, since I don’t sleep therefore don’t check off a night -and I think it’s the SAME DAY AS YESTERDAY-I’m frozen in time-exhausted.. it’s awful 😨
It’s AWFUL Kara!!!!!
Thats cool youre into the occult aspects of alcohol and drug use. I have a similar view actually too. Ive been looking for someone to go deeper into this than surface level. Great work man.
@@AstralAscensionOfficial hey thank you brother, we can definitely talk about some wild subjects I’m into all of that type of stuff. Glad you’re here my friend! 🙏☀️
Horrible. Hope your gets some zzzzz and more peaceful rest soon. I remember being awake and my bedroom ceiling opening up with angels telling me I had a choice and I was sweating and shaking saying, “I won’t do it again, I will find another path I promise..” And still continued for another 2 years with another 4 stints in rehab on top of the one I’d had 6 years earlier. That one was a nicer hallucination.
🖤🙏thank you onlyme.
We’ve all done that, “I’m done this time” 3 rehabs later, trust me I completely understand. One day at a time 🙏
In my withdrawal syndrome I had nightmares where I was being stabbed multiple times. It was terrifying and I never want to go through that again.
I believe you 100%, they are usually demonic or involve gore and violence, sexual or just something weird as f.
Don’t go through it again, stay away from that poison! 🙏
Stay strong -- you're great !! don't worry --- this will all be a bad dream in a few years......... You are very Alive ♥
🖤love this comment, thank you.
Slaayyyeeerr! Im sorry i missed this! I didnt see it pop up in my notifications! I've told you before about my nightmares and the sleep paralysis I experienced, but the insomnia totally resonates with me as well! It took a little time for my sleep patterns to fall back in order. Chamomile helped me a lot. I hope you're doing great. Sending tons of love and well wishes from NY, my friend!! ❤️😊❤
Hey Amanda!!! How have you been my friend?? I want to try chamomile I just need to do it already. I feel like for a year now I’ve been telling myself to try that stuff. Also don’t be sorry, you’re here now showing love!!
Much love back to you and NY, 🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 I've been really good!! Busy as usual, but very happy 😊 yes. Try chamomile!! It's so relaxing. I keep plain chamomile in my cabinets at all times, including chamomile lavender. The aroma is amazing with the addition of the lavender, and it's very inexpensive. Thanks for the love and know that you're always in my thoughts 💕😁
@@amandaflaherty7528 😁🖤
Voices was the worst for me 😢xx great to see u doing well ,much love 😊
The voices are horrible seg, I didn’t get them as much this time around but in the past I heard whispers, talking, tv’s playing, radios playing, sirens going off, music. It’s absolutely awful!!
It’s always good to you also, much love. 🙏🖤
I know you’ve got this tracking your journey but do u keep a daily journal. My last detox actually triggered a whole spiritual awakening n life’s really took a turn, learning to be grateful for all things big/small, good/hard times. Especially with the dreams journaling so u can go back to certain days/nights n read what u experienced can b life changing💜
I don’t keep a daily journal but I definitely should!! One of my family member bought me a journal and it’s just been sitting around. I should pick it up and start writing. This is a great idea Tiffany thank you!! 🙏
I’m back on the bottle. Good to hear from you again, so that I can crawl back out. Maybe. I’m so tired.
Get out of that dark hole my friend. You can do it 🙏🙏 god bless. I understand the tired feeling, I’ve been going through a lot myself recently. Be safe man!
Damn I knew alcohol withdrawal was bad but I watched a few if your vids and I had no idea it was this brutal good shit on a week sober. I'm dealing with a very serious weed addiction and this last month the weed alone just hasn't been doing it so I've been drinking some alcohol before hand before I smoke and man that feeling of being cross faded is something else. Im a real lightweight so I'm not drinking a lot just enough to get a nice buzz but I think finding your channel is a sign that I need to quit before I get too deep into it I got a real addictive personality
Yea man crazy enough alcohol withdrawal and benzo withdrawal are the only two that you can d*e from. It’s next level, I understand that feeling you describe though bro. Before I got heavy into alcohol I smoked all the time, every day all day. So when booze was introduced I loved it, then mixing it I loved that even more, except when you get the spins that’s awful.
But my advice is kick the booze completely, or cut way back. Then gradually get the green out of your life. You got this bro, god bless and keep me updated
@Slayer-7373 Yeah im definitely kicking the alcohol soon I've seen family go through alcohol addiction and I aint tryna go down that road. Keep grinding brotha I was gonna relapse tonight been sober a few days but you inspired me to just stay sober another day
had this shit going through opioid withdrawal, toss and turn, restless legs for 7 hours and maybe 20 minutes of essentially pass out from pure exhaustion. dont miss it for sure
It’s awful, trust me I know all too well. I’ve heard opioid withdrawal has the worst “restless leg syndrome” out of the withdrawals. I’ve always gotten awful ones from booze, pacing for hours like you said. Don’t miss it brother, don’t ever look back. Thanks for this comment and god bless bro
Slayer-Sober, I have just been through an extremely serious relapse after four months sober. I’m still going through the horrible withdrawal but I’m alive. Recovery is 10% alcohol and 90% emotional. We must have peace.
🖤I’m so sorry Cindy, it happens to the best of us. 4 months is amazing though, it shows you that it’s possible for you to over come this I believe in you, this community believes in you. Please keep me updated 🙏 one day at time, the horrid withdrawal will pass. God bless
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you! I’m going through it but I believe I will live. I’ll never think that I’m past a relapse again. It can happen to anyone.
@@CMoore8539 you will 100% get through 🙏 we must always keep our guard up, just hop back on that horse and keep pushing forward. It’s happened to all of us it really has. God bless
@@Slayer-7373 🖤👍🖤
I've had the dreams about the past while withdrawing aswell. For some reason I return to my old house with circumstances that I haven't experienced for 15 or more years, but with bizarre and sometimes disturbing scenarios. I feel like it's our subconscious brains bring up unresolved issues from our past when our minds are most vulnerable and active... but I'm totally open to the idea of a spiritual element as well. It does seem otherworldly.
It’s absolutely bizarre man, like you said it’s so “other worldly” and messed up that it really does seem like there is a spiritual element. It’s very rare that you ever hear anyone say they enjoyed their dreams/dt’s from withdrawal. Most of the time it’s demonic and strange.
Anyways, good to see you here my friend. Be well
Ah man, those nightmares. The insomnia was a frustration but at least you can get up and try and read a book. But the nightmares were true horrors, as you say here you just can't describe it.
Un-imaginable nightmares brother, trust me I know exactly what you speak of. I often say “those who know, know.” And that’s all it takes. Because if you have been through it, there is no doubt it will blow your mind. Booze is a VERY powerful drug.
Thank you for the comment brotha.
Top man love your banter..👍👍👍
✌️appreciate you brother, thank you!
Good too see you Slayer, one day at a time 👍👍
Good to see you hunnie_b!!!! 🙏🙏 hope you are well my friend. One day at a time.
Slayer what up big dog.
You ever have lucid dreams or recurring dreams? You ever have dreams where things are seemingly normal like how you describe and this feeling of impending doom overcomes you and then horror happens? I’m not sure if this is correlated to aud and I’ve been sober for months but I dream screwy shit sometimes if I don’t exert enough energy it seems
Absolutely man, I’ve had that happen to me several times. It’s absolutely awful.
Lucid dreams are just wild
I’ve been thinking about you man I hope you are doing well all this is a nightmare but I hope you are doing okay take care of yourself be safe
Hey Anna :) thank you! I’m hanging in there, still sober thank god.
Much love 🙏
Much love man I love you and everyone else who’s here for you you’re not alone 💖🙏🙌
@@annav.7532 awe love you too Anna, thank you!!! I love this community 🙏🖤
the sleep stuff is really the worst part. At least it does get better relatively quickly
It’s horrible, but yes with time it does solve itself. 🙏
I’ve definitely had that experience of falling asleep in a dream, and waking up into a new one. It’s crazy! Wish I wrote down the details then cause my memory is shot now.
I’m glad I’m a way I’m not alone but sorry In a way that you had to experience them haha. I also hear you about the memory, seems like mine isn’t as sharp as it once was either.
God bless and thank you
@@Slayer-7373 how do I get ahold of you off of here?
I love your videos! And you are gorgeous too!
@@FrancieMoon9 awe thank you francie!!! :) 🙏I’m glad you are enjoying the videos!
My brother was a week shy of his 29th birthday and was a HEAVY drinker. Case a day. We went down to visit my dad and he was shaking the whole drive down to MO. 6.6 hours. Soon as we got there he collapsed and had a seizure. Thankfully he was as okay to the point he got to the hospital. No joke though, the next day he was back to pounding beers. After we begged him to go to the hospital and get checked out he was fine bloodwork wise but the doctors said he would have issues if he kept down the same path. Well… about 3 months later he committed suicide. So as far as the demonic aspect, I believe that totally. He lost his mind and I miss the heck out of him. Be strong everyone
😔this is such a sad story, but a reality of this disease. Thanks for sharing raptor
What's up, Slayer. Good on the week. My last couple of detoxes were medicated and not that bad except I couldn't eat for a couple of days or sleep. I did have some weird dreams, however. Glad you made it out - you might not have another recovery in you. *Edit Do you just go to the hospital and they admit you for detox? In my video I talk about how they won't admit you around here unless you are SUPER bad off. I guess either your hospital is a little more liberal toward alcoholics or you were that bad off.
What’s up shades!! Let’s just stay on the path we are on man, you’re doing awesome 👏 😎
They have a detox wing inside the hospital, it’s actually the newest wing of the building one of the nurses was telling me. Because back years ago that wasn’t an option, I can see why they put one in. So many of us out here battling with addiction. Before you had to go over to a separate building, an actual detox center.
I will say though the detox wing inside the hospital is pretty much exactly the same. State ran detox’s are completely different.
@@Slayer-7373 I was just wondering. The hospitals here will bring the social worker in to try to get you somewhere like I said in my video. I think I have finally found some peace where I won't have to worry about places like that anymore. Good luck on your sobriety.
@@ShadesOClarity that’s beautiful man and makes me happy to hear. Don’t look back, god bless brother💪
Congrats on your sobriety. Good lord those were some nightmares. Sleep aid >>> Maybe Try a banana and 2 kiwi -- makes me good and drowsy --- Valerian root Tea will make ya drowsy too but speak to an MD before trying Valerian. I hate to see you start sleeping pills TBH bec then we may tell ourselves we can't sleep without pills. That's a loss of freedom. -- walnuts I think will make you sleepy too. **Exposure to EARLY morning sun, directly into your eyes is supposedly good for re - set of circadian rhythm & supports normal sleep. Can relate to the sleeplessness --- horrible. Loads of info online about sleep issues. Great Vid kiddo --- Thank you
Thanks for the awesome comment/advice Judith!! 🙏🖤
Hope you do well man im getting off my bender now totally went through DTS for the first time I truly thought I was going to die. But I'm here and im alive. Would love to talk sometime hang in there and STAY SOBER
I’m glad you’re here man, just hop back on the wagon and come with me bro. People like us just can’t drink, we can take it one day at a time. Today I’m not drinking, gonna stick to that. We got this man
Also have you emailed me before?
@@Slayer-7373 yes I have
@@shotinthedark829send me another one brother, or message me on here at any time. How are you my friend?
I had a wierd ass dream some time ago, i was in my old bedroom at my folks and i was looking outside and saw a bunch of headless chickens running towards me. Bro it was hella scary
Omg !!! 🐔 🐔 🐔
That is wild lol, doesn’t surprise me though. It follows the theme of bizarre/demonic/confusing and over all messed up!!
Anyways thanks brother as always, god bless
They gave me a trazadone scrip when I got out of detox, that helped for a.while. Don't need it now. But yea the insomnia sucksss
You’re like the 3rd person to comment about trazadone, it much really be effective.
Also yes it’s absolutely awfullll 😡😂, god bless
I got 5 years sober from alcohol, man. After many many alcohol relapses, many times in the hospital/detoxes, many failed attempts.. it pays to never give up :). I’ll agree on the Trazadone, there’s even evidence it may have some benefit in alcohol withdrawal. Been there and done that with the insomnia, keep going, Slayer man!
the vivid nightmares are f*cked. when i was drinking heavily ive had dreams that lasted like 15 hours and they were full of just scary shit - like the scariest shit my mind could come up with. id be chased by scary entities that had blood coming out of their eyes - have to fight off people trying to attack me - literally just a straight up horror show. i dont think ive seen any horror movie come close to capturing the absolutely terrifying shit i saw
You pretty much said it better than me mango.
Trust me brother I know what you mean, it is f%#^ked up and I understand that my friend. God bless and thank you for sharing
Look up a video called "Trainspotting Withdrawal scene"
It's from a movie, but man I had the hallucination of a baby on the ceiling once, it was horrifying.😂
I’ll check this out! 💯💯
These terrible hangover nightmares... I dreamed of spiders on the walls, small worms crawling in my mouth, some old people, gypsies, cats, flies - and all this at the same time like a terrible crazy kaleidoscope - I sometimes woke up with a wild scream turning into a howl , all wet from stinking sweat in a bed that smelled of spilled beer, cigarette butts and dried shit...
An actual nightmare, people don’t understand how awful it really is. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through that h*ll my friend. God bless, one day at a time
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you.
I still sleep weird after 5 months. Rare if I can sleep much more than an hour to two without waking up. Just the brain 🧠 chemistry trying to reset?
You haven't lost your sense of humour Slayer. That's nice to see. 😊
Janet 🇬🇧
I’ve read it can take up to a year!!! Which is crazy.
Also thank you 🙏 :), gotta laugh through the pain right? God bless
Magnesium can help you sleep for real and it's good for you. 400 - 500mg magnesium oxide or magnesium glycinate take about 2 -3 hours before bedtime. Magnesium helps your body make it's own melatonin plus it relaxes your muscles. But it can lower blood pressure some so don't take if on blood pressure meds.
I’ve been taking magnesium recently actually, another person from the community suggested it and both of you are definitely correct. It really does calm you down and make it a bit easier to sleep at night. Thank you Rob I really can’t describe to you enough how helpful y’all have been through these tough times. God bless
Trying to stop the drink its got a little out of hand when i retired..only had a couple of drinks over the last thee weeks and weekend only but man my sleep is horrific during the week i just cannot sleep and when i do the dreams are never happy 😱
I know all too well brother, hang in there if you kick the drinking eventually things will come back around. One day at a time.
God bless
Try for me not to you the word “should”
Fill your plate with self care rituals.. make a plan for the Nxt bad thought.. tell on it
We got you Slay
Sounds good Slay ❤
Todays Thursday and I hope your hanging in there
Love ya I’m with you ❤❤
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I screwed up Tuesday night. Not a binge thank god. just one night but still.
You have to change your mindset.. in our addiction we have a loser mentality. You are a winner. (auto correct)
So good you caught it !! One night so easily drifts into two, then 5, then a nightmare!!! Stay sober, stay safe !!
You are absolutely a winner like goat said, learn from it, correct it and just hop right back on that horse my friend. You realize what happened and definitely have the power to do the right thing.
Keep us updated, god bless
That’s once physical sign of why alcohol is a poison. It horribly interrupts your sleep, which is the main thing you absolutely need for a healthy brain, energy for the next day, and to regulate your body and emotions. I mean, Im almost 5 years into sobriety, and the moment I think about alcohol and drinking, I immediately think about the hangover and anxiety, and how my sleep use to be terrible. And I immediately get turn off by alcohol. I can’t believe I had traded my health for alcohol all those years! Once you get years of sobriety, it’s way easier to stay sober. You just have to enjoy the benefits for a long long consistent period lf time to know you never want to drink again. And Now, my head can hit the pillow sober and Ill be dead asleep in 10mins👌
@@miniharez it’s 100% the best option just to stay away from it forever. 5 years is pretty incredible, congratulations. Like you said reminding ourselves of the hangover the next morning and the HORRID anxiety that comes after ONE single day of drinking is honestly enough sometimes to completely talk you out of a relapse. Like this morning I woke up, not feeling the best but I said THANK GOD I’m not hung over. Consistently is key 🔑 as you said. God bless man
It’s the Paris Catacombs. That room full of skulls is actually a real place. I believe it’s underground room or a tunnel, in another country n all the walls r made of skulls n bones look it up when u was describing it I said that’s a real place so ur aligning rn it’s great time to pay close attention to everything n write all of what u see hear n experience down, you’ll be glad u can go back to it later
Woah 🤯, never thought of this. Definitely should start writing down dreams!!
Alcohol made me loose my mind!
I believe it, it’s awful! 😵💫
Vitamin D
Will help you sleep I know someone mentioned magnesium which is good too
Hey man your quitting that poison while your still young
You’re gonna be fine
A little struggle now but in the long run You’re saving yourself a lot of misery you can’t even imagine
Those nightmares as bad as they are are nothing like the reality you would find yourself in if you kept drinking heavily
Trust me
You got this bro
Appreciate this Jeff, thank you brother for your wisdom. God bless
I would recommend you talk to your doctor about a trazadone script for sleep. Sending prayers for you Slayer!
If I can’t get some normal rest soon, probably wouldn’t be a bad idea truth seeker. Thank you for the prayers and the comment in general. 🙏💯god bless
Heya slayer dude , I was wondering how long did you stay in the hospital for I'm on my second day and want to go home
I was in for 5 days, when it’s really bad sometimes they keep you for 7. How are you doing brother?? You still in the hospital? How are you feeling?
@@Slayer-7373I'm out brother and have done a video update . Slayer we got this
@@Slayer-7373I'm not very good talking at the camera haha
thanks, keep making videos
Hey thank you bman, will do brother 🙏god bless.
feel free to tell me I'm wrong but maybe there is something going on with your home life / social that keeps coming up and contributing to your relapses...
Have you thought about moving out or maybe working a seasonal job somewhere? maybe starting over somewhere out of state temporarily could help you alot - it helped me.
there's recourses out there like coolworks and shit that can get you a new job and a place to stay. something to think about.
Yes actually man I think you’re definitely right, I’m trying to move actually at the moment but I’m not sure if it will happen. Living with my brother at the moment, I think having my own spot would do a lot of good for me.
That full independence, or maybe it would make things worse im not sure. Been here for like 5 years now, seems like something new might not be a bad idea. God bless bro and thank you
I had sleep hypnosis ever since i was young for years and before i was heavy into drugz and drinking
What is sleep hypnosis like?? Did it work?
I going through that shit no sleep
The no sleep is torture!!
Just by the title i know its a banger
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We Love You.
Love you too Cindy!! How are you doing?
I give a major thank you to Bat County
Bat country is awesome 👏 🙌
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers, against the directors of this world of darkness, against the spirits of wickedness in high places. Because of this, take up the armor of God, so that you may be able to withstand the evil day and remain perfect in all things.”
Ephesians 6:12-13
@@discoverdevlin2289 amen, amen, amen 🙏🙏
Get earplugs and an eye mask. It stops the ambient light and noise being utilised in the dream which stopped the nightmares entirely for me. Keep going man, it gets easier.
This is an awesome idea, thank you!! 🖤
I've been dealing with addiction for 10 years first with k2 then meth and alcohol now I'm 29 and I started smoking weed daily for the first time in 5 years to cut back on the sauce and it's working I went from 16 beer to 12 then 10 to 6 and now 4 so I'm hitin the rum and smoking a bowl pack and pop a k pin to sleep.
That’s amazing progression bro, good on you man. 💪💪that’s what I’m talking about, do whatever you’ve got to do to save your life man. Keep me updated on the journey and again congrats brother that’s huge 💪
@Slayer-7373 yea thanks bro 🙏
I find if you punch out towards the skeletal corpse crawling over the duvet towards you or the pure white body next to you in the bed they don't come back.
Interesting my friend
Your system is out of sorts Slayer that's from the drink buddy compare it to the timing be off in your vehicles engine. When you reset the timing on your vehicle and spend a little time fixing it runs great! This too will happen for your system hang in there buddy be strong. Those dreams your talking about also happened to me when I first stopped consuming that poison I call poison my thought is that this phenomenon relates to the part of your brain that wants change and really wants to be sober is fighting the temptations and demons that are trying to remain in control of your craving for alcohol don't shy away or be afraid of those dreams use it to your advantage and let it run it's coarse because the good part of your brain that wants sobriety for you can and will overcome and beat the demons in the end. Like I always say Slayer Be Strong, Never Quit, Keep moving forward, Be Persistent in your quest for being sober it's most important to keep your faith, we support and will be here to help you do these things man just ask I am always around. God Bless and be safe my friend. DT
Hey brother thank you man, just by reading your comments I can tell you’re a really good dude. God will get me through and comments like these always fire me up. Give me more hope, thank you my friend 🙏god bless
I had the brilliant idea alcohol would help me sleep through the leg pains that I get when I lay down. Ha. Total opposite. Made me more awake and made my legs feel worse. Gave that up real quick.
What was the leg pain from brother do you mind me asking? My last relapse largely was affected from me being in severe back pain.
I get prickly lower legs after awhile when I lay down, likely from type 2 diabetes which I've been trying to manage. Not restless legs but like neuropathy I guess, some stabbing pains along with the prickly feeling. Magnesium makes me very sleepy plus seems to ease the leg/foot pains. Oh I've also had sciatica twice ten years apart in my left leg so probably some nerve damage there. Wishing you the best.💚
Is not a: "it might kill you," IT WILL.
@@nidiaborge I remember Dirk delirum would always say “100% fatal, 100% of the time”. Pretty powerful.
Thanks as always nidia 🙏🙏god bless. :)
Yeah, the fact that it's always scary or demonic should tell us something. We don't apply common sense much anymore. Well common sense tells me that there is a spiritual aspect to this and it's almost all demonic. I also believe these acid/shroom experiences that people have are allowing them to see into a spiritual realm. We already know that there are sounds, colors, and smells we can't see...that other animals can see........because we can't see them doesn't mean they don't exist.......and I would say the same about the spiritual realm.......it's as real as what we see is.....but it's outside of our normal senses unless we somehow open ourselves up to it. The problem is, most of us only open ourselves up to the demonic side of things.
Exactly spot on comment my friend, also yes common sense, ain’t so common anymore as they say lol.
I agree with everything you said, god bless
I keep using “deal with the devil” to describe alcohol use. Seems great until it bones you. And it always bones you. Totally demonic! I hope you get some good sleep soon.
Hey man thank you 🙏, I need to check your new video out, hit it with a like. I appreciate your comments brother god bless
@@Slayer-7373thanks! Don’t feel obligated though. I am still playing with lighting, sound and editing. And trying not to ramble!!!
@@AtlasAtPeace you’re doing good my friend 🙏💪👏
Do you have any thoughts on xxx videos ? I’m been struggling with pron and alcoholism and they both seem to put me in a “lower vibration” where I have horrible dreams and such. I feel a lot of the spiritual stuff you say, I feel demonic
Addiction is a addiction brother, that can be a tough one. I’ve battled that addiction back in the day when I was younger, it wraps you in and the deeper you go, it is sinister. All of your energy is lost, like your life source or something. The instant feeling of regret and Shame is almost identical to that of the next morning after a relapse off booze just like “why did I do that again??!” Then you do it again. Same cycle 🔁
It’s definitely demonic man, there are different spirits I believe for these things but they all lead back to the same source which is darkness. I’d drop down and pray against it, I know that might sound ridiculous to you but I really would. When that urge comes on, drop down and start praying. Start saying what you’re thankful for, who you love. Take your mind to positive instead of that. Lust brother, it’s TOUGH and something every one of us needs to work on. You got this bro, keep me updated
6 days we need a check in😅
@@adrianowallin hey brother 👋! I posted on the community, I’ve been super busy! I have over two weeks off that poison now. I plan to upload a new video sometime today/tonight.
God bless my friend!
@@Slayer-7373 oh good I’ll check the community out. Good work!
How are you doing so far?
@@SimbolicProductions almost 3 weeks off that poison brother!! 💪🙏
I don’t know how you do it😢?
One day at a time Sharon. 🙏
Alcohol goes back too far. Isn't going anywhere. Tell yourself ' I AM TAKING OFF 1YR! NO MATTER WHAT!! There will always be a bottle to start back up and available next year.
I like this thinking Richard 💪👏, I’m open to it why not?? I can’t be scared of it anymore. God bless man
Man, it’s a tough road! I’ve been a little over a year sober. GlyNac has helped me. Unsure if it helps everyone. There are some good videos on how to dose based on your body weight on UA-cam.
Hey Stephen 👋! Thanks for this comment brother! What is glynac? I’ve never heard of that before. Do you mind telling me about it? God bless man.
@@Slayer-7373 It’s N-acytel cysteine and glycine equally balanced. The NAC helps clean up your liver and adding glycine helps also with the production of glutathione. Glutathione helps detoxing a little easier, at least for me. Glycine also helps me sleep better, along with a magnesium glycinate. I’ve been a horrendous binge drinker over the years and suffered from insomnia also. This combination seems to speed up the detox. Prayers up for you brother, I’m 57 years old and I’ve been struggling with alcohol for 40+ years. I don’t like the me I turn into when I drink.
@@StephenBean-f8b fascinating Stephen, I never knew about that brother. It’s pretty incredible to see you’re wanting a better life for yourself away from the booze. I haven’t battled booze as long as you have but I know how horrific it really is. I’ve said it before that I’ve been through a lot in my life and I think quitting booze is definitely the hardest. I got over a month sober now and I’m hoping to keep it that way! Anyways i appreciate your comments man thank you and god bless
@@Slayer-7373 I’m proud of you for recognizing it early in life. I believe your channel is a really great thing for a lot of people, glad I found it! Hang in there and keep on posting!
@@StephenBean-f8b thanks Stephen :)
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booze really is a killer
A serial killer brother.
God bless 🙏
Oh for the love of God, I know exactly what you are talking about with alcohol insomnia....
It’s horrible!!! I always say, those who know know!
Alcoholic drinks 🍸 all pretty that's why they dressem'up ,the lure, it's all better with Alcohol drink mee look I'm so sweetsouthernyummy drink meeee... lipstick on a pig.
Oh my gosh dude..do you have Netflix? Behind Her Eyes....you just told the same/similar dream in this series.
What you do you listen or watch before you try to sleep?
Why do you think The Bible speaks and teaches to "be of sober mind' for no one know the time of day when _______. You are drunk ofcourse when spirits attack...they don't bother you until you want to stop bruh sooo.....yeah.
Now into your sobriety ofcourse the attacks are g o I n g to come friend. It is guaranteed.
What you put in that comes out.
Maybe try not to fight it. I am an insomniac and I would fight to the point I have a tantrum like a 2 yr old in bed kicking my covers, pleading with God....I started writing what I felt. What I was thinking why can I sleep even when I'm sick...I wish I could show you 1 of my sketch pads. I just write...or read, or pray for others, talk to God literally Whats going on God...h e l p. H E KNOWS we do it all to ourself but see He is so full of grace...He anwsered(s) me. He answered you....
Keep going luv...Don't forget you Sponsor for the next trigger OKAY 👍 👌 YES 👏 Si"
(((( group Huggers ))))))
#iheartu melissa❤
This was very well said and a really beautiful comment. Thank you not only for the love and support but the wisdom as well. I learn so much from y’all. Almost like the community is one giant AA meeting lol. It’s really cool, anyways thank you again and god bless. One day at a time 🙏🖤
Smoke 🚬 😶🌫️ some weed ❤
Definitely way better than drinking that poison. 💯💯
Betrayal can eat you up from the inside. Family, true family, is what you make it by surrounding yourself with people that you can trust and believe in. "Family" in the traditional sense are just some people who sare some DNA/genetic material with you, thats it. They could have thoughts and opinions that are TOTALLY contrary to your's. Get them out of your life!
100% dash, we were just talking about family and trust in my IOP group today. Betrayal by the ones you love is always horrible.
God bless
You should cut the bullshit. I have been observing you for months now. As far as I can tell, you are just using your alcohol drama to gin up views. You don't seem serious about quitting booze.
Really man? …….
I have relapsed. 🖤
Sending many prayers your way.🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Hey Cindy, I’m sorry you’re struggling right now. Just dust it off and continue on the sobriety path. I’m sending you healing and peaceful thoughts.
Ohh Cindy, so glad you said something...get ready to start back, like slayer said, there's 1000 ppl behind you 🙏 💜
Hey, that’s alright Cindy. We are all here for you, reply please when you get a chance. Let us know you’re alright. God bless you, it happens to all of us, look at me.