I first tested positive in Sept So every year I plant a small tree I didn't have property in 1987 so I planted at friends and family I've had land for 15 yrs now and am know as the guy with all those trees Seeing all the growth is just a concrete way of seeing how blessed I am
Cherlyn Solie I’ve heard of this Dr. but the only way to test for herpes is if there is a leisure present. they swab the sore and lab it. so i don’t know how they tested your blood for the virus. Most people carry the herpes virus. just be careful of scammers. best of luck
College student here(Social Work); I'm just here because I enjoy people's stories of dealing with life altering situations and coming out on top. Love you bro. 👍🤗
Wow you really are helping me through this. I've only known that I've been HIV positive for 3 months and your comments about anxiety really ring true to me. I do not have anyone in my life to talk about this stuff with so it brings me solace listening to you. Thank you
I'm negative but have been watching your videos and learnt alot. I never knew how uneducated and ignorant I was about hiv. You have helped to changed my whole mindset regarding this. Thank you and keep it up and stay strong. There's more people out there that need to wake up and I pray to God that they will find a cure ASAP!!!!
I would just like to say, I think you're amazing. You're educated, happy, and open. The world needs more people like you. I have an aunt that was diagnosed over 15 years ago as well.....she's living her best life (as they say lol).
@Cortiss Kellogg Thank you for the support! And YES to your aunt! Good for her. We should ALL be doing the same, regardless of our status...living our BEST life 😊🙏
It’s absolutely repulsive to me that he delivered your diagnosis that way, I am so sorry that you dealt with that. Like ppl getting that news are already so confused&upset and for him to just poke his head in and be that insensitive rly pisses me tf off. You’re amazing& you help tons of ppl. I’m proud of you for everything you do.💜
Love your attitude. I was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer in March ...and the tips you gave on attitude and outlook is on point ! That’s what’s been helping me. It’s all about mindset but believe that it’s also God. When we turn to Him for help , no matter what state we are in or what we have done , his love is unconditional like a mother. We just need to turn to HIm. God bless you and wishing you a healthy and happy life, Alhamdulillah.
Sasha A God bless you too! I’m glad you were able to utilize some really powerful tools. So much respect and admiration for you and the strength you have to push forward and reclaim your health! So much love!
Raif, bro, I was in the same situation as you........different cancer but same idea. Oncologist estimated I had 3 months to live. I immersed myself in loving who I am and in accepting what the Universe had in mind. That was 20 years ago! Attitude is everything, in my opinion. We are loved, we need to recognize that! Your very presence is a healing power......love you, man.......Ray
@okimlistening2u Fuck yea! That's awesome Ray...way to make your life a testament to the power of healing energy and lifestyle. You rock and are an inspiration to me.
Found out I’m hiv+ 2 days ago. I have a wonderful circle of friends that are being extremely loving and supportive and your videos have helped me realize a few things. Thank you for sharing, keep your videos coming.
Hey Adrian. You are SO very welcome. And I'm so happy to hear that you are creating a loving supportive group of people around you to help you at this time. Keep up the good attitude and you will be just fine!
@Harry Mobbs hmmm, what mades you believe the future looks dark and, and why do you feel different? the future will always remind unknown, but there are things we have in control that can help us see our future.
@Harry Mobbs i wish i could talk to you and to get to know your situation better. and want to left you know to not be scared, and face your fear because i know life will better. you just have to take the first step for that to happen.
One of my best friends is in the same situation. When he told me, I was devastated for him. I think I cried more than he did. I want to say Thank you for your insight. You deserve all the respect. You also deserve to find someone to share your life with. Much Love
💚Best advice I was given by my doctor on diagnosis Oct 2019 was: Take it ONE DAY at a time. 💚 I love your channel - thank you for just being there. And for educating the people who stigmatize & ignorance. ❤
I remember the day I found out as well, it's as if it happened yesterday. Much like you, I was very uneducated. It's funny how much have change since I found out. I feel healthier, and I educated myself. I'm appreciating life more and all the smaller things in life. Having HIV does not make your dirty, or filthy, you are 100% correct. It's a virus in our system. It does NOT define us. Again, thank you for sharing your story with us. Never lose that golden smile, and NEVER stop fighting.
dubb lolll stop tryna bring people down, silly. First of all ‘dirty’ is an interpretation. It’s a word that is subjective and doesn’t have anything to do with facts, but ur perception of those facts. So that just reflects on ur own negative mindset. Second, as ur seemingly unaware, if ur undetectable, you do NOT have the virus in drops of your blood and you can NOT transmit the virus to others...and so, ur whole point goes to shit anyway ; ) take ur trolling elsewhere
@@dubb9020 hiv is treatable these days dummy. it's no longer a death sentence. these people are nice. the dirty ones are the ones who deliperatlty give other people hiv.
Thank you for your words of wisdom bro!..I am HIV positive too.I just eat healthy foods like fruits and vegetables.Regular walking and jogging every morning.Praying helps me a lot too.Just stay happy and enjoy life,travel or explore. You are such an inspiration to me.Take care always and God bless you. ❤️
I tested positive in 1992. I immediately told my family, sadly, they decided right then and there, that they wanted nothing else to do with me. Looking for some kind of support, I’ve told a few more people, to no avail. I’ve even had extremely bad experiences with online hiv support groups. To this day, I still have no support system and am dealing with not only hiv, but other health issues alone. I feel dirty and unlovable. Just trying to get through each day.
Hey, my friend. So sorry to hear about your experiences with discussing/sharing the topic of HIV...unfortunately that is the case for so many people, STILL. I only hope to encourage you to find some inner peace and comfort in knowing that despite the opinions of those around you...you are NOT dirty...and you ARE worthy of love. Take care and wishing you the absolute best.
You are so worthy of love and you are definitely not dirty because you have HIV. With the advancements in medicine for HIV nowadays people who are HIV+ are more likely to lead a healthier and longer life than those who aren’t HIV+. Prep has also made a huge difference in prevention of the virus, HIV education even though it’s exhausting sometimes really does make a huge impact on the stigma still surrounding the virus. I do not have HIV but I have friends whom are positive and share very similar experiences from their diagnoses and it breaks my heart you’ve dealt with this as well. Honestly I was very blind to all the facts until my friend who is HIV+ bravely allowed me to ask questions, because of this I understand the virus and can now share with others this information. You have your whole life to live regardless of your status and I know it’s painful you do not have the support of your family and friends but know you have support of me, although I am a stranger I believe you are so incredibly brave and strong! Please keep sharing your story and educating others on the virus!
Chocolate 82467 just know that God loves you and your capable of being loved and respected as a human as for your family forget them and pray to god for the right people come in you're life and treat you well and with care
It's hard for people who are negative to not discriminate because they're is alot of false info out there, like catching it if you share food, etc. Sad to say.. very sad and I apologise profusely, I was one of those people. I wouldnt be mean but we wud no longer be friends either. So on behalf of your family and friends and myself, I apologise to you for people's discrimination. I no longer do that even tho I'm negative, so I hope they will come around too and be your support system
I’ve never been one to leave comments but your video compelled me to. First, I’m impressed. For you to look into a lens and bare your soul for the world to see is courageous. You could have taken your diagnosis and gone in a completely different direction but you chose to be in the light, tell your story and show the world that you are a person. A person who still has feelings, desires, aspirations, hopes and most importantly loves. Second, you are not alone. You’ve built an audience of people who are thinking about you and care about who you are. Some of your videos I can see you get emotional and I wish I were there man. I’d hug you or sit next to you in silence lending you strength because if ever there was someone who deserves it. It’s you. Don’t forget that.
Raif: your heat is strong and your soul is kind. You are helping so many people by posting these videos. Keep enjoying life to its fullest. Surround yourself with people who truly love you. We should all do this in life. HIV does not define you sweetheart: what defines you is your beautiful spirit and gorgeous personality. Sending you positive energy and much love. As a Reiki Practitioner, I will continue to send you healing energy. Always remember: you are in control of your own life and your future......... make it absolutely fabulous. You deserve it xxx❤️
Will always send you Reiki Healing....... you are not alone Raif. You are very loved and your kindness is one of your most beautiful attributes. You have so many. Blessings and much love 🙏🦋❤️
Omg, I needed this and you today. It's been tough. As I'm sure yourself and alot of people can relate. Thank you. Thank you for being so open. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for showing me I can work thru alot of this. It's hard, I'll do my best and make the attempt.love you and your channel man.💖
@beautoxxbeautoxx So glad you found this and my channel, brother. You're gonna be good! Keep the faith and keep working on yourself and moving foward 🙏♥
Sending love. You popped up under my recommended videos and I always believe nothing is coincidence. As far as I know I don't have HIV but two years ago I became extremely sick and lethargic and all of my blood work comes back normal but it's definitely changed my entire quality of life to the point where I've had moments that I have feared death. Your strength and the way you stay positive is so amazing and I strive for that because I know that's exactly the attitude I need to cope with my unknown illness. My mother passed away at 51 from AIDS which she got from an untested blood transfusion in 1985. She did not live a healthy lifestyle or take her medication and I feel like if she would have just taken her medication she would have still been around. It's amazing the advocacy and the awareness you're raising by just speaking about it. And it's amazing to know that even with your condition you are still living your best life possible and that is inspiring. Thank you so much. 💜💜💜
Thank you so much for your support and encouragement...and for sharing your story too! It's so true...just take your medication and live healthy and you can have an awesome life unaffected by HIV
Sending love from South Africa! I am really proud of people like you who have such a positive outlook on life in general! Heck I just suffer from IBS, depression and panic attacks and I don't have such a great outlook in life. You have just inspired me to do me better....love me better and love those around me better.....to be kinder and more supportive. My friend who is also positive is literally the healthiest person I know, and she is just as upbeat about life as you are. I'm really proud of her, as for you....you should be really proud of yourself. Keep on keeping on :-)
I had been watching a bunch of videos on UA-cam about the history of HIV/AIDS and your video popped up in my suggestions today and I am eternally grateful that it did. I’ve spent most of my day going through all of your videos and I just have to say that you are definitely what our community needs. I believe God puts messengers on this Earth for a reason. I haven’t gotten tested lately so I am a little scared but watching your videos completely obliterated any stigma in my mind about HIV. You’re an incredible person. Subscribed and turned on notification alerts for your channel because I am rooting for you. Thank you for sharing so openly. We don’t have enough of that, but like I said you the way you talk about HIV has taken every weird thing I ever thought about it and threw it out the window. Amazing you are incredible.
Me and my little brother are positive. I didn't cry when I found out, it was obvious to me because of everything going on with me. I was in a kinda good place so I knew I would be ok
Your very brave I've been experiencing symptoms for about a year but I was too scared to go cause I know it will crush my spirit. But seeing you be strong made me schedule an appointment for this coming Tuesday. Thanks you for giving me the strength.
I am doing good so far. It will be a year that I was diagnosed with HIV on October 13th, 2017. I found out through a lymph node that was taken out under my breast. The medication is wonderful and I only hang around positive people and my doctors are amazing. They believe in the power of spirituality.
This is really strange. REALLY strange. So I got into a situation and I'm going to get tested in 2 months. I have been beside myself with worry. What's strange is that I finally decided to educate myself in case, and your vid was the first I chose. The weird thing, is that since the incident happened, I've been trying to do the whole law of attraction thing, my jaw literally dropped open when you mentioned it, and the first book you picked up and showed "You can heal your life" - I actually have it and tonight I was contemplating reading it for the first time. The universe is DEFINITELY at work with me, and whatever the results will be, you have helped put me at so much ease. You're a beautiful person. Thank you so much for this vid.
I think you are a very brave and courageous young man. Thank you for sharing your story. Wrap yourself in love and live, live, live! None of us come with an expiration date tattooed on the bottoms of our feet. Take every day you're blessed with and make the absolute most of it my friend. :)
Give yourself time to be upset but not too long. Get up and face the world head on !! You're not your diagnosis. Do what's needed to be and stay healthy and continue to live your life cute face ☺🙂.
@shah hayde It's okay. And it's going to be okay. Allow yourself to grieve. And please be kind to yourself and love on yourself. Do what your doctor says and take your medicine as prescribed and you will be more than alright. ♥
The hardest part is the stigma!..I was too in denial after my diagnosis..I couldn't accept the fact that I had contracted the virus..I even tried hurting myself, untill I came across this channel..I got inspired, there's definetely still life after hiv..With a pill a day we're as healthy as anybody else..U=U 🥰HIV isn't everything, but IT does get overwhelming at times
Thank you so much for posting all this! I just received news of someone I dearly love being hiv+ and found your posts in my desperate search. Thank You! God bless you.
I currently work at Johns Hopkins hospital during the pandemic. I have had a journal this whole time and had many times where I broke down crying in the ER. Journaling some of my deepest thoughts have kept me going in life. I think your videos were very inspiring. Originally went on your channel because I thought I had HIV and did a oraquick and found out I was negative. I feel like now if I ever dated a guy with HIV I wound not be closed off to the idea.
I dont have HIV but as part of my studies at college, I started watching here and there for my assignment and here I am, I am so touched and moved. I have been depressed, down and harsh oh myself all day- questioning about my being....thank you so much for the video. Thank you
@Yujin Ok Thank you for sharing, my friend! And I'm glad you found some value in the video as a human being just trying to be happy...and not necessarily related to HIV
omg! thank you!!!! I have been watching your videos lately. I love your videos..they are very educational!! I always learn something from them and get also touched by your messages. keep shining!
Hello my name is Doris from Germany here to share my testimony how Dr Ebube help me out With herbs and roots which he prepared for me in used of Getting pregnant after 5 years of trying to conceive with fibroid I took his product(cure for my fibroid made with herbal medicine Root) for 14 days I was totally pregnant🤰🏻after 1 month and i promise him that i will tell the world about his Great job he ask me to drink from the herbal medicine before meeting my husband I did and after 1 months I was pregnant he can also help you out if you have a low sperm or you can't conceive PCOS: *fibroid *Good luck spell *Marriage spell *Protection spell *Cancer cure *Get your ex back *Pregnancy herbal medicine *family problem spell *miscarriage *Low sperms *Diabetes cure *HIV cure *Tooth problem *witchcraft spell *Job promotion *Money spell *Court case winning spell ETC contact DR Ebube via WhatsApp or call too +1848-628-4783 or follow on IG page mab_n.a.j_
Truely an amazing person to share your story with others who will feel so much better,I don't have hiv but admire those who try to help others cope with the virus,bless you❤
Sherry Boyd Thank u Sherry! Hoping that with more exposure and education, everyone begins to feel more comfortable with the issue regardless of their personal status 😌🙏🏽
You probley get this all the time but seriously ... You are one of Gods most gorgeous human beings ever! (Inside & out ! ) Thanks for in info you provide. Holding my bible on my chest when I'm freaked out has always been extremely calming. ❤️U
Thank you for posting your experience. You're so open and honest, and seem like a really nice guy. You're the definition of beautiful, inside and out. 😊
Dude! If you stay humble and genuine. You got my support for ever! Thanks for sharing your life experiences man! I can't say I understand. What you're going through, but glad you didn't sink your self deep down the rabbit hole!
@Diego .d.R Thanks Diego...I do have a slightly cocky/playful side but it's mostly in jest. Always focus on remaining humble and grateful for my life and all its blessings. Thank u for the support
You’re beautiful and courageous and helping people. I’m an anxiety sufferer. Could not agree more with what you said about prayer and affirmation. Hope you are doing well. Love from Utah ❤️
I haven't given any of these things a go long term, so I'm starting now. Meditation and gratitude journal, daily. I've always wanted to join my local swim team. I'm getting my diagnosis tomorrow. I'll be thinking of of these things. Thanks.
I get panic attacks too, unable to leave the house at the moment. But your videos are great, and when I am able to go back will share them with South Africans who struggle with these things. Great work.
God has so many plans for you. You touched so many lives in this video... stay strong and healthy. every cloud has a silver lining. Just be grateful for every oppotunity that we are alive today. Stay safe ❤
U selected the best way to get helt. Because the most important is your mind .U've startted the best way, become healthy new guy. BELIEVE IN YOUR BODY , BELIEVE IN YOUR MIND 😇 .... And you help to many people with your open speach 😇
I was diagnosed 2 months ago with a very low CD4+-130 and a viral load of about 280,000. On the first day of the diagnosis I was relieved, but the following month is still fear of death, crying and thinking that I have let my family down. It's been 25 days my CD4 has increased to 194 and the viral load has dropped to 320. I think less about death but I keep looking for new symptoms of the disease and I have panic attacks. Diagnosis is not a death sentence, but you have to sort everything out in your head. I am at the beginning of this road and I hope that I will live to a very old age and I am only 32 years old. I have another appointment in a week - maybe I won't have to take prophylactic antibiotics, the longer I take them, the more bothersome they are. How do you deal with stress? What do you do to keep from going crazy?
Rayleigh G Thank u so much! Honestly, no I’ve never been trained in motivational speaking...just theater and acting 😉 I’m sure that helps in certain ways...but mostly I just aim to be open and honest and speak from the heart 😌🙏🏽
I am watching your video again, I need. In a few hours it is my birthday, I took my first ARD pill and observing how it will feel. I had a good day today, I met my doctor, the nurses, all these in Ghana, me being the only white person in the clinic. Life is beautiful, unexpected, we all have a purpose, a mission and I do believe everything is written, fates, desrinies and crucial life points. We are strong people and so much is waiting for us ❤
I have an HIV test scheduled for Monday, I've been so scared . But you videos have given me hope, that no matter what happens on monday july 22th, i know that everything is going thanks to you, God bless you.
My friend ..GOD Bless you...Thank you for sharing your corageous and personal experience..I dont happen to know you personally but I will certainly have you in my prayers ☺
Exactly!! I went to planned Parenthood to get tested ...even though I came back negative, each one of those nurses and doctors were very sweet and concerned .....
I am in a line of work and my business partner something similar that creates a safe space where complete strangers open up about incredible challenges. I was away for a bit and when I got back he spoke to me about a lady that called him aside and disclosed her status, teared up and said it would be fine if he refused to work with her. He treated her like an absolute queen, and wished I had been in so she could pop into my side for some advice. I looked at him and said you "touched" her in a meaningful way - don't see that as less, that is the MOST. Sure, when she comes by I am sure we will have an awesome chat, but basic things. You said it: you are not dirty, there is nothing shameful and we don't need to be professionals to be decent human beings toward each other. This channel personifies that "decency of being and sincere caring". I look at views vs comments. Silence does not mean untouched. Stay awesome brother.
@@RaifDerrazi Thank you for replying that was really sweet of you. Ill send up a prayer, sometimes wish more people our age had religion's at home but god keeps surprising me with people like you.
Same here. This is worst fear in my life and it's just came true. Now i am waiting for good posibilities that maybe can happen in this life. In here much people will fear if they know my status. I only can lie for rest of my life to people around me if nothing changes become better. And its hurt so much
-hugs - I m sorry to had to find out on your birthday:( But you have such a positive outlook on life now and that’s so awesome!! Because no matter what we have or don’t have .. life is so so short!! We need to enjoy it and seize the moments! Stay strong 💪Remember God is the one who will always get you through it!
Jus happened to me I’m trying to forgive myself for not being responsible but god I feel horrible all the time now. Not from the disease but from the guilt and shame.
I've been diagnosed with anxiety and Ive learned to live with it but sometimes I trip myself out like that one time I thought I had HIV ..... All in my head yo but I'm Glad I had a Reality check this shit ain't no joke
New subscriber here. I honestly think you're such a brave and strong person. You have a really nice personality. My godfather has HIV. When he told me, he thought I would change. But I was so normal with it. I understand that kind of things. Blessings and love for you.💜
I have so much I am grateful for in my life I will not let this virus ruin me, I will stop being a victim thanks so much for this video. I went into health care I am a nursing student now I am trying to make aspects of my life better and focusing on the positive things. I am trying to be more social and god has really helped me get through my diagnosis. I am still trying to convince myself I am worthy of love but that is a process I worked myself out of hating myself and that took a lot give yourself time to grieve and I am starting to understand I am more than this virus and I have aspects of myself I love now. I love myself I have to say it out loud maybe if you’re struggling you could try that too. Find moments of happiness they are out there. 😊
When I was diagnosed in 12/21/10, I was 32 years old with three kids the ages 12,10 & 6. My eldest and youngest is very sickly. So I didn’t have time to cry or say why me. I looked at my family and said what I thought was a lie at the time. We got this, we will find the best doctor I can afford and we be ok. 8 years later I have been undetected for 7 years. I was so scared I will die but my children’s father said to me when I told him. I will not be taken the kids, you should have been die no you was dead when you gave birth to our youngest. But you are still here, I know these medicines is making you sick because some of them you are allergic to but you will be fine when everything is said and done. He was right. As for my ex-husband who gave this to me, we are still family too.
Alexandria Porter Hey Alexandria, thanks for sharing your story! And you handled the situation so well. Stoked you’ve been undetectable for so long; ur killin it 👊🏽😉 it’s just another page in your book now...doesn’t determine the rest of your life and that’s awesome 🙏🏽
Anna De La Torre ugh, thanks for putting in a tear in my eye this morning. 😅 I really appreciate your support more than you know right now. I’m not perfect, far from it...but I really am doing my best to make some good in my life 😔🙏🏽
I was diagnosed on the 10th of May 2011 and I did not cope well with it at all, I still suffer from depression and loneliness, I'm on the meds, I'm undetectable, but some days it still brings me down, but I am grateful that for the most part I don't think about it much anymore, but it's still a very lonely, hard life to live
Hi, I hope you see my message & I want you to know that you are not alone. God sent me today to tell you that he loves you, he has NEVER left your side and he is calling you. He told me to tell you that he’s been knocking at your door lately, he wants you to answer. He loves you & he’s there with you right now. From another human to one, love you! Sending you a tight hug & pls look to God❤ be safe ok, & smile.
+Raif Derrazi that's all you can do sweetheart. I do not have hiv but that's not the point i want to give all my support from bottom of my heart and pray that all these horrible people out there that treat human beings differently because of them hiv stop all that negative and judgemental opinions. It's not right and no illness defines a person. To be completely honest i was always afraid of everything but because of you im so grateful you have given such hope to not be afraid and take the bull by the horns no matter what. Thank you.
Crystal Fernendes Awww that’s awesome! So glad to hear that! Yea it was my biggest fear in life at one point! And look at me now 😉 Nice, using the bull metaphor cause I’m a Taurus and stubborn af hehe and I’ll wrestle any other bull in my way
@Raif Derrazi. THANK YOU for sharing this. letting the world know about the finding out and beginning of treatment is a great way to show people that it is momentous and daunting put also promising THANK YOU . much love to you always
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What an awful way to be told..I am so sorry sweetie.That Dr sounded very unprofessional.She definitely should have been more considerate with the diagnoses.I am glad that you made it through the initial diagnosis & handled it well..Its a blessing that positive ppl can live a long & awesome life!! You are beautiful!!
i've got a protected sex 8 months ago and monday i'm going for HIV test. I did'nt have any symtomps like you desscribed but im still scared af. You are ve strong, love you
So my doctor scared me a while ago that I may get HIV if I’m not being careful. I had an incident a few weeks ago that made me worried. But I’m going to get tested in 3 months. Whatever the results are, life still goes on. ❤️ If my test comes back negative, I will be extra careful and grateful.
I was surprised but no shock or stress in my case. I don't even think about it. I know perfectly well how and when it happened: I had been on PreP successfully for the previous two years but I got a bit careless and didn't take it correctly. PreP is very effective but finding the right pills is not enough, we have to use them correctly and under the supervision of a doctor.
Hello my name is Doris from Germany here to share my testimony how Dr Ebube help me out With herbs and roots which he prepared for me in used of Getting pregnant after 5 years of trying to conceive with fibroid I took his product(cure for my fibroid made with herbal medicine Root) for 14 days I was totally pregnant🤰🏻after 1 month and i promise him that i will tell the world about his Great job he ask me to drink from the herbal medicine before meeting my husband I did and after 1 months I was pregnant he can also help you out if you have a low sperm or you can't conceive PCOS: *fibroid *Good luck spell *Marriage spell *Protection spell *Cancer cure *Get your ex back *Pregnancy herbal medicine *family problem spell *miscarriage *Low sperms *Diabetes cure *HIV cure *Tooth problem *witchcraft spell *Job promotion *Money spell *Court case winning spell ETC contact DR Ebube via WhatsApp or call too +1848-628-4783 or follow on IG page mab_n.a.j_
HIV is a dreaded disease I hope to never end up with. At 16 I watched a documentary back in 94' and a 35 yr old woman had a one night stand and she got her self tested only to find out she was diagnosed with HIV. She was devastated and had to take medication to prolong her life. Sadly she ended up losing the battle 4 yrs later and passed. It scared me and I felt like I was walking on egg shells so to speak and it became my greatest fear. It still is, but I'm not as afraid anymore and I live the single life and I don't need to be paranoid of catching that disease.
I first tested positive in Sept So every year I plant a small tree I didn't have property in 1987 so I planted at friends and family I've had land for 15 yrs now and am know as the guy with all those trees Seeing all the growth is just a concrete way of seeing how blessed I am
Hey, thats an awesome idea !!!
@Steve Olson That's fucking awesome...way to do something profound and that also benefits the planet
Wow, thats amazing God Bless you!
Cherlyn Solie I’ve heard of this Dr. but the only way to test for herpes is if there is a leisure present. they swab the sore and lab it. so i don’t know how they tested your blood for the virus. Most people carry the herpes virus. just be careful of scammers. best of luck
@Cherlyn Solie from Nigeria, right. U should feel foolish for giving away your hard earned money to a scam.
College student here(Social Work); I'm just here because I enjoy people's stories of dealing with life altering situations and coming out on top. Love you bro. 👍🤗
Karreil2525 Thanks for the love, my friend! Much love back to u 👊🏽😉
Wow you really are helping me through this. I've only known that I've been HIV positive for 3 months and your comments about anxiety really ring true to me. I do not have anyone in my life to talk about this stuff with so it brings me solace listening to you. Thank you
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I'm negative but have been watching your videos and learnt alot. I never knew how uneducated and ignorant I was about hiv. You have helped to changed my whole mindset regarding this. Thank you and keep it up and stay strong. There's more people out there that need to wake up and I pray to God that they will find a cure ASAP!!!!
I would just like to say, I think you're amazing. You're educated, happy, and open. The world needs more people like you. I have an aunt that was diagnosed over 15 years ago as well.....she's living her best life (as they say lol).
@Cortiss Kellogg Thank you for the support! And YES to your aunt! Good for her. We should ALL be doing the same, regardless of our status...living our BEST life 😊🙏
It’s absolutely repulsive to me that he delivered your diagnosis that way, I am so sorry that you dealt with that. Like ppl getting that news are already so confused&upset and for him to just poke his head in and be that insensitive rly pisses me tf off. You’re amazing& you help tons of ppl. I’m proud of you for everything you do.💜
Thank you so much for the kind words! Yea, I just hope he didn't get the opportunity to do the same to many other people coming through the clinic
Love your attitude. I was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer in March ...and the tips you gave on attitude and outlook is on point ! That’s what’s been helping me. It’s all about mindset but believe that it’s also God. When we turn to Him for help , no matter what state we are in or what we have done , his love is unconditional like a mother. We just need to turn to HIm. God bless you and wishing you a healthy and happy life, Alhamdulillah.
Sasha A God bless you too! I’m glad you were able to utilize some really powerful tools. So much respect and admiration for you and the strength you have to push forward and reclaim your health! So much love!
Raif Derrazi ❤️
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Raif, bro, I was in the same situation as you........different cancer but same idea. Oncologist estimated I had 3 months to live. I immersed myself in loving who I am and in accepting what the Universe had in mind. That was 20 years ago! Attitude is everything, in my opinion. We are loved, we need to recognize that! Your very presence is a healing power......love you, man.......Ray
@okimlistening2u Fuck yea! That's awesome Ray...way to make your life a testament to the power of healing energy and lifestyle. You rock and are an inspiration to me.
Wow.. God BLESS
@@RaifDerrazi go to Ethiopia there is church if you believe you become HIV negative
Found out I’m hiv+ 2 days ago. I have a wonderful circle of friends that are being extremely loving and supportive and your videos have helped me realize a few things. Thank you for sharing, keep your videos coming.
Hey Adrian. You are SO very welcome. And I'm so happy to hear that you are creating a loving supportive group of people around you to help you at this time. Keep up the good attitude and you will be just fine!
Adrian Villalobos did u have symptoms
@Harry Mobbs why are you scared?
@Harry Mobbs hmmm, what mades you believe the future looks dark and, and why do you feel different?
the future will always remind unknown, but there are things we have in control that can help us see our future.
@Harry Mobbs i wish i could talk to you and to get to know your situation better. and want to left you know to not be scared, and face your fear because i know life will better. you just have to take the first step for that to happen.
One of my best friends is in the same situation. When he told me, I was devastated for him. I think I cried more than he did. I want to say Thank you for your insight. You deserve all the respect. You also deserve to find someone to share your life with. Much Love
@Mike dee Thank you so much, my friend...that means a lot. And I really truly hope I do find that special someone to share my life with 😌🙏
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💚Best advice I was given by my doctor on diagnosis Oct 2019 was:
Take it ONE DAY at a time. 💚
I love your channel - thank you for just being there. And for educating the people who stigmatize & ignorance. ❤
I remember the day I found out as well, it's as if it happened yesterday. Much like you, I was very uneducated. It's funny how much have change since I found out. I feel healthier, and I educated myself. I'm appreciating life more and all the smaller things in life. Having HIV does not make your dirty, or filthy, you are 100% correct. It's a virus in our system. It does NOT define us. Again, thank you for sharing your story with us. Never lose that golden smile, and NEVER stop fighting.
@Michael Peyper Thank u Michael. I agree with u 100% And don't u worry...this smile ain't going nowhere...at least not for long hehe 👊😉
dubb lolll stop tryna bring people down, silly. First of all ‘dirty’ is an interpretation. It’s a word that is subjective and doesn’t have anything to do with facts, but ur perception of those facts. So that just reflects on ur own negative mindset. Second, as ur seemingly unaware, if ur undetectable, you do NOT have the virus in drops of your blood and you can NOT transmit the virus to others...and so, ur whole point goes to shit anyway ; ) take ur trolling elsewhere
@@dubb9020 thank you for your useless comment - no idea why you had to share your thoughts with me because they fell on deaf ears. Peace out brother!
@@dubb9020 hiv is treatable these days dummy. it's no longer a death sentence. these people are nice. the dirty ones are the ones who deliperatlty give other people hiv.
I've been wondering how accessible the medication really is . I'm scared that I won't be able to afford it or something.
Thank you for your words of wisdom bro!..I am HIV positive too.I just eat healthy foods like fruits and vegetables.Regular walking and jogging every morning.Praying helps me a lot too.Just stay happy and enjoy life,travel or explore. You are such an inspiration to me.Take care always and God bless you. ❤️
JACK PINOYCHANNEL You’re so welcome Jack! Ur on the right track, making yourself a priority is more than half the battle. Keep killin it 👊🏽😎
Hi jack can u be my friend :) add me on facebook i wnt to know ur story
Does it affect you in any way health wise ? ❤️
Watch House Of Numbers 2009 please. The drugs are toxic.
I tested positive in 1992. I immediately told my family, sadly, they decided right then and there, that they wanted nothing else to do with me. Looking for some kind of support, I’ve told a few more people, to no avail. I’ve even had extremely bad experiences with online hiv support groups. To this day, I still have no support system and am dealing with not only hiv, but other health issues alone. I feel dirty and unlovable. Just trying to get through each day.
Hey, my friend. So sorry to hear about your experiences with discussing/sharing the topic of HIV...unfortunately that is the case for so many people, STILL. I only hope to encourage you to find some inner peace and comfort in knowing that despite the opinions of those around you...you are NOT dirty...and you ARE worthy of love. Take care and wishing you the absolute best.
That's awful!
You are so worthy of love and you are definitely not dirty because you have HIV. With the advancements in medicine for HIV nowadays people who are HIV+ are more likely to lead a healthier and longer life than those who aren’t HIV+. Prep has also made a huge difference in prevention of the virus, HIV education even though it’s exhausting sometimes really does make a huge impact on the stigma still surrounding the virus. I do not have HIV but I have friends whom are positive and share very similar experiences from their diagnoses and it breaks my heart you’ve dealt with this as well. Honestly I was very blind to all the facts until my friend who is HIV+ bravely allowed me to ask questions, because of this I understand the virus and can now share with others this information. You have your whole life to live regardless of your status and I know it’s painful you do not have the support of your family and friends but know you have support of me, although I am a stranger I believe you are so incredibly brave and strong! Please keep sharing your story and educating others on the virus!
Chocolate 82467 just know that God loves you and your capable of being loved and respected as a human as for your family forget them and pray to god for the right people come in you're life and treat you well and with care
It's hard for people who are negative to not discriminate because they're is alot of false info out there, like catching it if you share food, etc. Sad to say.. very sad and I apologise profusely, I was one of those people. I wouldnt be mean but we wud no longer be friends either. So on behalf of your family and friends and myself, I apologise to you for people's discrimination. I no longer do that even tho I'm negative, so I hope they will come around too and be your support system
I’ve never been one to leave comments but your video compelled me to. First, I’m impressed. For you to look into a lens and bare your soul for the world to see is courageous. You could have taken your diagnosis and gone in a completely different direction but you chose to be in the light, tell your story and show the world that you are a person. A person who still has feelings, desires, aspirations, hopes and most importantly loves. Second, you are not alone. You’ve built an audience of people who are thinking about you and care about who you are.
Some of your videos I can see you get emotional and I wish I were there man. I’d hug you or sit next to you in silence lending you strength because if ever there was someone who deserves it. It’s you. Don’t forget that.
Raif: your heat is strong and your soul is kind. You are helping so many people by posting these videos. Keep enjoying life to its fullest. Surround yourself with people who truly love you. We should all do this in life. HIV does not define you sweetheart: what defines you is your beautiful spirit and gorgeous personality. Sending you positive energy and much love. As a Reiki Practitioner, I will continue to send you healing energy. Always remember: you are in control of your own life and your future......... make it absolutely fabulous. You deserve it xxx❤️
Teddy P Thank uuuu! Ooohhh I love me some Reiki healing 😁🙌🏽 Thanks so much for the love and the good energy!!
Will always send you Reiki Healing....... you are not alone Raif. You are very loved and your kindness is one of your most beautiful attributes. You have so many. Blessings and much love 🙏🦋❤️
Omg, I needed this and you today. It's been tough. As I'm sure yourself and alot of people can relate. Thank you. Thank you for being so open. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for showing me I can work thru alot of this. It's hard, I'll do my best and make the attempt.love you and your channel man.💖
@beautoxxbeautoxx So glad you found this and my channel, brother. You're gonna be good! Keep the faith and keep working on yourself and moving foward 🙏♥
Watch House Of Numbers 2009 please. The drugs are toxic.
Sending love. You popped up under my recommended videos and I always believe nothing is coincidence. As far as I know I don't have HIV but two years ago I became extremely sick and lethargic and all of my blood work comes back normal but it's definitely changed my entire quality of life to the point where I've had moments that I have feared death. Your strength and the way you stay positive is so amazing and I strive for that because I know that's exactly the attitude I need to cope with my unknown illness. My mother passed away at 51 from AIDS which she got from an untested blood transfusion in 1985. She did not live a healthy lifestyle or take her medication and I feel like if she would have just taken her medication she would have still been around. It's amazing the advocacy and the awareness you're raising by just speaking about it. And it's amazing to know that even with your condition you are still living your best life possible and that is inspiring. Thank you so much. 💜💜💜
Thank you so much for your support and encouragement...and for sharing your story too! It's so true...just take your medication and live healthy and you can have an awesome life unaffected by HIV
Sending love from South Africa! I am really proud of people like you who have such a positive outlook on life in general! Heck I just suffer from IBS, depression and panic attacks and I don't have such a great outlook in life. You have just inspired me to do me better....love me better and love those around me better.....to be kinder and more supportive. My friend who is also positive is literally the healthiest person I know, and she is just as upbeat about life as you are. I'm really proud of her, as for you....you should be really proud of yourself. Keep on keeping on :-)
I had been watching a bunch of videos on UA-cam about the history of HIV/AIDS and your video popped up in my suggestions today and I am eternally grateful that it did. I’ve spent most of my day going through all of your videos and I just have to say that you are definitely what our community needs. I believe God puts messengers on this Earth for a reason. I haven’t gotten tested lately so I am a little scared but watching your videos completely obliterated any stigma in my mind about HIV. You’re an incredible person. Subscribed and turned on notification alerts for your channel because I am rooting for you. Thank you for sharing so openly. We don’t have enough of that, but like I said you the way you talk about HIV has taken every weird thing I ever thought about it and threw it out the window. Amazing you are incredible.
Me and my little brother are positive. I didn't cry when I found out, it was obvious to me because of everything going on with me. I was in a kinda good place so I knew I would be ok
@chauncy primm Glad to hear u were able to handle it so well! Love your attitude
How you came to know about this?
❤️ why you and your brother?
Watch House Of Numbers 2009 please. The drugs are toxic.
Your very brave I've been experiencing symptoms for about a year but I was too scared to go cause I know it will crush my spirit. But seeing you be strong made me schedule an appointment for this coming Tuesday. Thanks you for giving me the strength.
hey what were your results?
I am doing good so far. It will be a year that I was diagnosed with HIV on October 13th, 2017. I found out through a lymph node that was taken out under my breast. The medication is wonderful and I only hang around positive people and my doctors are amazing. They believe in the power of spirituality.
@Franchial Barnes Yes, you're doing the right things! Keep it up and stay strong and healthy! Much love to u
I love how you went into self help and development to cope with your grief . You are inspiring to me . Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
This is really strange. REALLY strange. So I got into a situation and I'm going to get tested in 2 months. I have been beside myself with worry. What's strange is that I finally decided to educate myself in case, and your vid was the first I chose. The weird thing, is that since the incident happened, I've been trying to do the whole law of attraction thing, my jaw literally dropped open when you mentioned it, and the first book you picked up and showed "You can heal your life" - I actually have it and tonight I was contemplating reading it for the first time. The universe is DEFINITELY at work with me, and whatever the results will be, you have helped put me at so much ease. You're a beautiful person. Thank you so much for this vid.
Those are the best, most awesome moments of synchronicity! Don't ignore it...and know you're on the right path 😄🙌
I think you are a very brave and courageous young man. Thank you for sharing your story. Wrap yourself in love and live, live, live! None of us come with an expiration date tattooed on the bottoms of our feet. Take every day you're blessed with and make the absolute most of it my friend. :)
Rod Freeman I absolutely will make the most of the precious life I’ve been granted! Thank u for ur support and encouragement! Wish u the best!
Great courage! Your honesty and openess in sharing your experience will help many.
Strength in the face of adversity is so graceful, Raif! May you love yourself always. All the very best to you!
Thank you Caleb! 🙏
I don’t have HIV or know anyone who has it but you are very inspirational. Thank you for sharing your story.
hye ive just recently diagnoaed with hiv.. at first i was devastated.. i still am
Give yourself time to be upset but not too long. Get up and face the world head on !! You're not your diagnosis. Do what's needed to be and stay healthy and continue to live your life cute face ☺🙂.
@shah hayde It's okay. And it's going to be okay. Allow yourself to grieve. And please be kind to yourself and love on yourself. Do what your doctor says and take your medicine as prescribed and you will be more than alright. ♥
youll be aight people get hiv everyday b
The hardest part is the stigma!..I was too in denial after my diagnosis..I couldn't accept the fact that I had contracted the virus..I even tried hurting myself, untill I came across this channel..I got inspired, there's definetely still life after hiv..With a pill a day we're as healthy as anybody else..U=U 🥰HIV isn't everything, but IT does get overwhelming at times
@@tupikahielos4758 life is almost same apart from a pill
Thank you so much for posting all this! I just received news of someone I dearly love being hiv+ and found your posts in my desperate search. Thank You! God bless you.
@vivian jimenez So glad you found my channel vivian...i hope it brings some help and comfort to you, and perhaps to this other person as well
I currently work at Johns Hopkins hospital during the pandemic. I have had a journal this whole time and had many times where I broke down crying in the ER. Journaling some of my deepest thoughts have kept me going in life. I think your videos were very inspiring. Originally went on your channel because I thought I had HIV and did a oraquick and found out I was negative. I feel like now if I ever dated a guy with HIV I wound not be closed off to the idea.
I dont have HIV but as part of my studies at college, I started watching here and there for my assignment and here I am, I am so touched and moved. I have been depressed, down and harsh oh myself all day- questioning about my being....thank you so much for the video. Thank you
@Yujin Ok Thank you for sharing, my friend! And I'm glad you found some value in the video as a human being just trying to be happy...and not necessarily related to HIV
omg! thank you!!!! I have been watching your videos lately. I love your videos..they are very educational!! I always learn something from them and get also touched by your messages. keep shining!
Yujin Ok Ur so welcome my friend!! 😉👊🏽😎
Slm raif
I don't know I ended up here but it was so nice to hear you and I think you're really sweet and pure
Silvia Solano Awww Thanks Silvia. I guess the UA-cam gods willed u to my video lol I’m glad you appreciated it, regardless ☺️🙏🏽
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Truely an amazing person to share your story with others who will feel so much better,I don't have hiv but admire those who try to help others cope with the virus,bless you❤
@Odette Hiralall Thanks Odette...Blessings to u as well
How eloquently spoken! You are a true advocate for others who may not be as comfortable to disclose their experiences. Hats 🧢 off to you!
Sherry Boyd Thank u Sherry! Hoping that with more exposure and education, everyone begins to feel more comfortable with the issue regardless of their personal status 😌🙏🏽
You probley get this all the time but seriously ...
You are one of Gods most gorgeous human beings ever! (Inside & out ! )
Thanks for in info you provide. Holding my bible on my chest when I'm freaked out has always been extremely calming. ❤️U
Your honesty and openness is so attractive. Don't change!
😊 I won’t 🙏🏽
@@RaifDerrazi
How do I contact you directly instead of thru UA-cam comments?
Thank you for posting your experience. You're so open and honest, and seem like a really nice guy. You're the definition of beautiful, inside and out. 😊
Indio Raj appreciate the support! Doing my best to make the best of things! 👊🏽😉
Sadude13 lmaooooo as of this video I had not been laid...but I’m happy to hear I’m giving off that butt sex vibe 😉🙌🏽
oh, you HAD not... Interesting. Hope you explain in detail sometime. You were celibate for quite a while. Anyway, you are very inspirational.
Sadude13 😉 Thx my dude...trying my best to make something meaningful out of all the mucky muck 🤙🏽
Dude! If you stay humble and genuine. You got my support for ever! Thanks for sharing your life experiences man! I can't say I understand. What you're going through, but glad you didn't sink your self deep down the rabbit hole!
@Diego .d.R Thanks Diego...I do have a slightly cocky/playful side but it's mostly in jest. Always focus on remaining humble and grateful for my life and all its blessings. Thank u for the support
Day 3 and cant sleep this video really helps .... lifes rough but im going to be okay..." ill be okay" is my mini motto for now
One day at a time for now. Baby steps...before long you'll be able to walk and run again 😉
You’re beautiful and courageous and helping people. I’m an anxiety sufferer. Could not agree more with what you said about prayer and affirmation. Hope you are doing well. Love from Utah ❤️
I haven't given any of these things a go long term, so I'm starting now. Meditation and gratitude journal, daily. I've always wanted to join my local swim team. I'm getting my diagnosis tomorrow. I'll be thinking of of these things. Thanks.
I get panic attacks too, unable to leave the house at the moment. But your videos are great, and when I am able to go back will share them with South Africans who struggle with these things. Great work.
This may sound incredibly ignorant but you look absolutely fantastic, You are a glowing testimony that you can live a high calibre life regardless
Thank you so much Peter!
You are so beautiful. You reminded me of our inherant ability to love at a time when I really needed to be reminded of that. Thank you.
God has so many plans for you. You touched so many lives in this video... stay strong and healthy.
every cloud has a silver lining. Just be grateful for every oppotunity that we are alive today. Stay safe ❤
Wow- you should be a motivational speaker!
I wish you all the best!
I could feel you throughout this video..your eyes said it all ..... big hug & more power to you 🙌🏼 LOVE ❤️
Your voice is very soothing.
Thank u!
U selected the best way to get helt. Because the most important is your mind .U've startted the best way, become healthy new guy. BELIEVE IN YOUR BODY , BELIEVE IN YOUR MIND 😇 ....
And you help to many people with your open speach 😇
I was diagnosed 2 months ago with a very low CD4+-130 and a viral load of about 280,000.
On the first day of the diagnosis I was relieved, but the following month is still fear of death, crying and thinking that I have let my family down. It's been 25 days my CD4 has increased to 194 and the viral load has dropped to 320. I think less about death but I keep looking for new symptoms of the disease and I have panic attacks.
Diagnosis is not a death sentence, but you have to sort everything out in your head. I am at the beginning of this road and I hope that I will live to a very old age and I am only 32 years old. I have another appointment in a week - maybe I won't have to take prophylactic antibiotics, the longer I take them, the more bothersome they are.
How do you deal with stress? What do you do to keep from going crazy?
How u😊
you're really good at motivational speaking. Kinda wondered if you ever had some sort of training for it. Be proud, it's your gift
Rayleigh G Thank u so much! Honestly, no I’ve never been trained in motivational speaking...just theater and acting 😉 I’m sure that helps in certain ways...but mostly I just aim to be open and honest and speak from the heart 😌🙏🏽
Experiences gave him strength and training to motivate and anyone on this planet..
I am watching your video again, I need. In a few hours it is my birthday, I took my first ARD pill and observing how it will feel. I had a good day today, I met my doctor, the nurses, all these in Ghana, me being the only white person in the clinic. Life is beautiful, unexpected, we all have a purpose, a mission and I do believe everything is written, fates, desrinies and crucial life points. We are strong people and so much is waiting for us ❤
I have an HIV test scheduled for Monday, I've been so scared . But you videos have given me hope, that no matter what happens on monday july 22th, i know that everything is going thanks to you, God bless you.
Angel D what happened
Keep us updated brother
You are so freaken amazing! Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Michael Martinez You’re welcome brother! And thank u so much for the support 🙌🏽
Jesus loves you. & His arms are open wide. He sees you and there is no one to far out he can’t reach. His love is never ending. God bless you.
my prayers are gonna be with you
keep being positive man
Farhan Hanavi Thank u so much, brother. Prayers are always appreciated
My friend
..GOD Bless you...Thank you for sharing your corageous and personal experience..I dont happen to know you personally but I will certainly have you in my prayers ☺
Patricio Martins Hey, I appreciate the prayers Patricio! You’re very welcome, I’m glad you found value in it. God bless you too, my friend
I’m mad that nurse said it to you like that 😂🤦🏽♂️
@Myles Spears ASMR lol i can laugh about it in retrospect haha
Myles Spear, i agree ... that was brutal. Not professional... actually very cruel!
How was she suppose to do it? Bring in a cup of tea and play a sad song
otis redrim I mean, tea would’ve been very soothing actually...maybe like, some chamomile, with a little honey and lemon 😋
Exactly!! I went to planned Parenthood to get tested ...even though I came back negative, each one of those nurses and doctors were very sweet and concerned .....
God bless you :) Thanks for helping a lot of us in need of inspiration
God bless you too! And you're so very welcome
I am in a line of work and my business partner something similar that creates a safe space where complete strangers open up about incredible challenges. I was away for a bit and when I got back he spoke to me about a lady that called him aside and disclosed her status, teared up and said it would be fine if he refused to work with her. He treated her like an absolute queen, and wished I had been in so she could pop into my side for some advice. I looked at him and said you "touched" her in a meaningful way - don't see that as less, that is the MOST. Sure, when she comes by I am sure we will have an awesome chat, but basic things. You said it: you are not dirty, there is nothing shameful and we don't need to be professionals to be decent human beings toward each other. This channel personifies that "decency of being and sincere caring". I look at views vs comments. Silence does not mean untouched. Stay awesome brother.
Rudi Prinsloo Thank u for that Rudi, well said! And I agree completely 👊🏽 💯
You’re a beautiful human being ❤️❤️❤️
I dont have HIV, but I Lyme Disease which is an auto immune disorder. I feel your struggle and I wish you all the luck and health in the world.
Raging millennial hey! Thanks for sharing that and for your support. Wishing you the same in return, God bless!
@@RaifDerrazi Thank you for replying that was really sweet of you. Ill send up a prayer, sometimes wish more people our age had religion's at home but god keeps surprising me with people like you.
Hi I don’t know you but by the way you speak on here I can tell your heart is gold. God bless you always..
Same here. This is worst fear in my life and it's just came true. Now i am waiting for good posibilities that maybe can happen in this life. In here much people will fear if they know my status. I only can lie for rest of my life to people around me if nothing changes become better. And its hurt so much
Raif you are very big inspiration and you are a champ God always bless you
God bless you too!
My uncle who I live with tested positive today 😭 I hope he can still live a healthy life
You’re such an inspiration! Thank you 🙏
I had all sorts of abuse growing up in a religious orphanage.
And its a miracle I'm alive and healthy.
Good luck to ya lad.
-hugs - I m sorry to had to find out on your birthday:( But you have such a positive outlook on life now and that’s so awesome!! Because no matter what we have or don’t have .. life is so so short!! We need to enjoy it and seize the moments! Stay strong 💪Remember God is the one who will always get you through it!
@Chris Palacios YES. Yolo...we only get one shot. Blessings to u! 🙏
this video was a god send thank you truky
I forget I have it sometimes I feel the same i am healthy on biktarvy and looking good raif love u bro
@chrisqknight18 That's the way it should be brother!! Much love to u too 👊😜
Jus happened to me I’m trying to forgive myself for not being responsible but god I feel horrible all the time now. Not from the disease but from the guilt and shame.
Love your story.
I've been diagnosed with anxiety and Ive learned to live with it but sometimes I trip myself out like that one time I thought I had HIV ..... All in my head yo but I'm Glad I had a Reality check this shit ain't no joke
Having a dog has been a huge help for me and anxiety
Thanks for sharing this. Really motivates me.
You're absolutely welcome, brother!
New subscriber here. I honestly think you're such a brave and strong person. You have a really nice personality. My godfather has HIV. When he told me, he thought I would change. But I was so normal with it. I understand that kind of things. Blessings and love for you.💜
You seem like a very patient kind hearted guy! Handsome as well💜
Diana Martinez Thank u Diana! Always trying to be better 😊
Your video is actually underrated.
I have so much I am grateful for in my life I will not let this virus ruin me, I will stop being a victim thanks so much for this video. I went into health care I am a nursing student now I am trying to make aspects of my life better and focusing on the positive things. I am trying to be more social and god has really helped me get through my diagnosis. I am still trying to convince myself I am worthy of love but that is a process I worked myself out of hating myself and that took a lot give yourself time to grieve and I am starting to understand I am more than this virus and I have aspects of myself I love now. I love myself I have to say it out loud maybe if you’re struggling you could try that too. Find moments of happiness they are out there. 😊
When I was diagnosed in 12/21/10, I was 32 years old with three kids the ages 12,10 & 6. My eldest and youngest is very sickly. So I didn’t have time to cry or say why me. I looked at my family and said what I thought was a lie at the time. We got this, we will find the best doctor I can afford and we be ok. 8 years later I have been undetected for 7 years. I was so scared I will die but my children’s father said to me when I told him. I will not be taken the kids, you should have been die no you was dead when you gave birth to our youngest. But you are still here, I know these medicines is making you sick because some of them you are allergic to but you will be fine when everything is said and done. He was right. As for my ex-husband who gave this to me, we are still family too.
Alexandria Porter Hey Alexandria, thanks for sharing your story! And you handled the situation so well. Stoked you’ve been undetectable for so long; ur killin it 👊🏽😉 it’s just another page in your book now...doesn’t determine the rest of your life and that’s awesome 🙏🏽
I’m on my first week of medication (Biktarvy); how long till you noticed a great improvement in your health?
@Steven Frasier I would say it took between 6-9 months for me to notice a big improvement. But my immune system was pretty trashed too
You better yet?
God you're so amazing! 😍 you're so strong...I truly look up to you thanks for existing 💗💗💗💗
Anna De La Torre ugh, thanks for putting in a tear in my eye this morning. 😅 I really appreciate your support more than you know right now. I’m not perfect, far from it...but I really am doing my best to make some good in my life 😔🙏🏽
I got to find out am HIV positive on January 3rd 2021 am still drugs I hope I get better soon and thank you for this wonderful video ❤️💕💕 from Nigeria
I was diagnosed on the 10th of May 2011 and I did not cope well with it at all, I still suffer from depression and loneliness, I'm on the meds, I'm undetectable, but some days it still brings me down, but I am grateful that for the most part I don't think about it much anymore, but it's still a very lonely, hard life to live
Hey how are you now?
@@abhaysinghkanwar6354 still very lonely
@@robertdoherty5316 go out work and make friends
@@robertdoherty5316 hiv is just a virus and pill a day bro just think that's a multivitamin cmon
Hi, I hope you see my message & I want you to know that you are not alone. God sent me today to tell you that he loves you, he has NEVER left your side and he is calling you. He told me to tell you that he’s been knocking at your door lately, he wants you to answer. He loves you & he’s there with you right now. From another human to one, love you! Sending you a tight hug & pls look to God❤ be safe ok, & smile.
thank you for sharing, you're so inspiring. i have anxieties.
i think you are so brave! God bless you!
Crystal Fernendes Thanks sweet pea! Appreciate the support. God bless u too! 🙏🏽
+Raif Derrazi you are so welcome honey. I think your so inspirational! There should be way more people with your attitude. Thank you!
Crystal Fernendes I’m doing my best. Hope to keep making ya proud 😌
+Raif Derrazi that's all you can do sweetheart. I do not have hiv but that's not the point i want to give all my support from bottom of my heart and pray that all these horrible people out there that treat human beings differently because of them hiv stop all that negative and judgemental opinions. It's not right and no illness defines a person. To be completely honest i was always afraid of everything but because of you im so grateful you have given such hope to not be afraid and take the bull by the horns no matter what. Thank you.
Crystal Fernendes Awww that’s awesome! So glad to hear that! Yea it was my biggest fear in life at one point! And look at me now 😉 Nice, using the bull metaphor cause I’m a Taurus and stubborn af hehe and I’ll wrestle any other bull in my way
@Raif Derrazi. THANK YOU for sharing this. letting the world know about the finding out and beginning of treatment is a great way to show people that it is momentous and daunting put also promising THANK YOU . much love to you always
@Scotty Nelson You're so very welcome! I'm glad you appreciate the video
@raif Derrazi now if only i could get my workouts as clean as yours :)
Scotty Nelson I looooove working out. I look forward to it EVERY DAY. 💪🏽😎
i mix martial arts strenght and cardio... just dont seem to be in the right combo LOL
You are such a beautiful soul! Thank you for sharing! Take care of yourself!
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What an awful way to be told..I am so sorry sweetie.That Dr sounded very unprofessional.She definitely should have been more considerate with the diagnoses.I am glad that you made it through the initial diagnosis & handled it well..Its a blessing that positive ppl can live a long & awesome life!! You are beautiful!!
Great way you talked about this,, great job..
Mitch Grooms Thank u! Much appreciated! 🙏🏽
i've got a protected sex 8 months ago and monday i'm going for HIV test. I did'nt have any symtomps like you desscribed but im still scared af. You are ve strong, love you
Any updates on your results?
Thank you for sharing your story.
Andrew Cicchetti You are 100% welcome! Glad you appreciate it 👊🏽😌
So my doctor scared me a while ago that I may get HIV if I’m not being careful. I had an incident a few weeks ago that made me worried. But I’m going to get tested in 3 months. Whatever the results are, life still goes on. ❤️ If my test comes back negative, I will be extra careful and grateful.
What are the results
@@kakid4516 negative lol, she basically slut shamed me
Laura meg what was the resul also text me
@@sekibibibatume4719 negative
@@laurameg6218 you look so cute l really like you
I don't know what I would have done if it was me. You are brave! Saludo!
ESL Teaching Hopefully u won’t have to find out! But thank you. Trying to make good out of an otherwise unfavorable situation
I was surprised but no shock or stress in my case. I don't even think about it. I know perfectly well how and when it happened: I had been on PreP successfully for the previous two years but I got a bit careless and didn't take it correctly. PreP is very effective but finding the right pills is not enough, we have to use them correctly and under the supervision of a doctor.
I needed to hear that prt bout thinking I'm not clean. I feel like DIRT my blood is mud my bones are tree limbs and my presence is not needed.
Lamont Everett yea you have to realize the negative thinking that you can change. Your perception is the majority of the battle
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HIV is a dreaded disease I hope to never end up with. At 16 I watched a documentary back in 94' and a 35 yr old woman had a one night stand and she got her self tested only to find out she was diagnosed with HIV. She was devastated and had to take medication to prolong her life. Sadly she ended up losing the battle 4 yrs later and passed. It scared me and I felt like I was walking on egg shells so to speak and it became my greatest fear. It still is, but I'm not as afraid anymore and I live the single life and I don't need to be paranoid of catching that disease.
your video touched my heart, although im HIV negative im on prep