I can’t understand how people can be transphobic when you see before and after photos of someone who’s transitioned and it’s so clear how much being able to be themselves has transformed their life so much for the better.
ah, so sorry i didn't give any updates! a bunch of stuff has been coming up so I haven't been able to tell her yet, but it looks like sometime next week it'll finally be a good time to tell her
Oh hell dude, it hurts to see this, because I feel you so much. I still don't know if I'm trans or just a tomboy, but I'm really not comfortable being this way. I've wanted to be a lesbian many times and I've tried to be more girly, and it's sometimes quite fun, but it still feels not me. And if I act and wear more boyish, I like it, but I feel like unattractive weido, and that no man would ever like me, if I was like that all the time. I love my boyfriend and want to be with him, but something always feels not right. I've been a tomboy for a lifetime, and thinking more this stuff since 2012, and I'm still so lost. Turned 23 this year.
hey......it took me 33 years to get to this point! just don`t rush yourself into any thing, okay? if you know, what you feel comfortable with (like in presenting and looking etc.), then: go for it!! and even until my 1st t-shot I wasn`t sure at all if THIS is MY way.....I once heard from another trans guy on yt: sometimes you just have to DO things - until then, you will never find out, if it is the right thing for you. you can`t be 100% sure before trying......! and that`s sooooo damn true!! my best blessings to you! toby
yes, it can take years unfortunately before you're sure of things which is good because you don't want to regret the possible life long changes. But people seem to be comfortable with me being trans as if something tells them that I am, and it's true because before I was aware, I just did my considerably 'non binary, tomboyish' stuff and it was more than it sounded like. I have certain acts I either think of as part of my adhd and whatever, or part of another possible mental thing called being transgender. It's psychological, but it depends when it can break out and when it could 'fade' I guess? I'm not sure. However, it's not easy for any of us. It's all fear and insecurities, especially when you already suffer such a life you become desperate to. I want to make sure the choices of ftm transitioning or mtf transitioning is part of the internal need, or part of a trauma experienced. If it's due to trauma, a lot of people that did transition want to detransition. Because they rushed it or actually just had to escape their body for awhile. I jut hope well for you and right now, I hope that i'll figure it out too. I came out a little, but am still too scared to just go for it. I have it with everything so it's not just this. I fear change and pain in general so it holds me back too much for making my choice. I had survived many other obstacles before this way by just again, going for it.... I should get prepared in about a year or two before I meet my gender therapists, and hope to find the answer by then.
Dude!!! At 1:00, that’s the zoo I used to go to, around the same years as well. I might as well be the blond kid in the front XD !!! Wtf is this small world?!?
When I finally had a word for it, my whole life suddenly made sense. Been transitioned since December 2001 and it's the best thing I ever did in my life. By the way, the singing voice comes back--just takes time. It probably took me 3 years before I could sing with any control again. (I was in the music business in my teens, though the album I made never got picked up, so I felt that same sadness). Just give it time to grow again. You might even sound better! Wishing you the very best in all your future days!
thank you so much! :) yeah...maybe one day I will sing again. for now I am finally okay with NOT singing, after almost 2,5 years. nobody said, that the whole voice cracking thing would be over in 2 years.....:))) so, I will just wait. all the best for you, too!
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so pleased for you having found your true identity. I wish I was 30 years younger with enough courage to change. Things were very different back in the 70s. Very best wishes to you x
Hey Toby....ich hab mir gerade die "Timeline" Deines Lebens angesehen.... ich kann Dir defintiv Glückwunsch zu diesem Schritt sagen. Du hast es definitiv richtig gemacht. Meinen allertiefsten Respekt....🤟 Danke für das tolle Video... Gruß aus Wietze, dem Dorf in der die PlüschTransi Idee entstand😋 P.S.: ...und jetzt zeig diesem bärtigen Radio Onkel was ein richtiger Kerl ist....
Gosh I wish there was more education so people didn’t have to wait so long to understand themselves. It’s like all these discussions can only happen in secret. And then the denial before acceptance because it’s such a new concept. So happy for you! And glad to hear those around you are supportive & happy as well.
Omg the more I seek puzzles with many MANY trans videos, I realize this too now: rarely any guy falls for me and it's like I don't mind (im s far stated a 'lesbian', but my attitude on it it's like idk... not the standard one. I guess it was either my wild personality or part of me that has a male territory. Meaning: I'm a transman and it's likely many people see it too without me even coming out. My PE teacher and some others had assumptions but kept it to themselves until I came out to them because I of course trust them. Yup.... my doubts are starting to slightly fade away, but I still need more answers on why I was and am who I am today aside of my other personal problems. I thank you for helping me find out yet another piece of the puzzle. I should write it all down but im too lazy... its for my therapist.
I`m sooooo with you......it IS a puzzle.....and right after I started to realize I am trans... well...I questioned my whole life!!!! who was I???? have I really ever felt that way?? where was my childish wish "to become a boy" for almost 30 years??? it was hard....but afterwards, it ALL made sense. But it took me a while. I am glad, if this video has helped you in discovering one single piece of the puzzle!
I know someone who has been through this. FTM like you! It seems like such a tough thing to go through, but good on you both for finding what made you happy and figuring out who you really were! Loved the video! Thank you for sharing ❤
Okay wow i am sitting in front of the screen, confused and crying, and I hope that at some point I can look back on my past and that it is similar to yours ... Feel you
hey! you know, I started in 2016 exactly at THAT point...from zero. just googled for ftm timelines on yt......and binge watched every single one I could find - for months! if MY timeline can only help one single trans person out there...then I've achieved more than I ever wanted! greets, toby
@@TobyMcMill can hardly believe that my comment is 9 months old. I'm finally on t & it is progressing:) I just wanted to say thank you. There were moments when I wasn't sure who I am and how things will continue, your videos have always helped me so much. before I came out, I watched your video, which gave me the courage to tell my friends and family who i really am. I always wanted to go the way you go, now I've finally started too. I hope you are doing well! arlo
I love watching these videos. It’s so beautiful to see people bloom into the happiest version of themselves. Wishing you all the best in your journey! 💜🤗
I'm 17 and questioning and this makes me so happy.... i mean most people start transitioning around my age, right? It's so assuring to know i don't have to have everything figured out by 18... thank you for sharing.
Did you ever get your singing voice back? I'm trying to sort through all this ftm stuff, and I don't know if I could afford losing my singing. Music is one of the biggest things in my life.
Hey! Not until now....I`ve been on hormones for 16 months now, my voice is still breaking, still very unsecure....And I guess it will take another year or two until my new voice is really "settled" in the new range.
@@emmaames9624 you should find someone to talk to about your feelings, a therapist would be best! and maybe open up to some friends first! coming out to parents can be good! but maybe you won`t get the reaction & support you need. But in a long-term you have to decide what life you want to life and who you want to be. It`s your life and your decision! Nobody else can tell you how to feel!
I really needed this today, I recently came out as trans and I'm almost 30 - Part of me is so angry that I didn't realize sooner but I know that things will be getting a lot better (and are already).
Hello mister, I am a trans guy as a lad and I love your story so freaking much!!!! I am glad you had so many supportive people around you, and was able to live with your true self. I am almost on the way to my transition as well, so exciting!!!(๑>◡
I've been transgender for 4 years and last year I got my name legally changed on my 16th birthday. I was so happy and I can't wait for the rest in the future.
I'm so happy for you that you found your way. I was born 1984 and startet my transition with 36. Baxk then you didn't know something like trans exists, nobody told you, it wasn't on tv or media and there was no internet. So from 3 years onwards I had these feelings, that turned to pain when I realized I won't turn into a boy by getting older, then I was 6 years. The pain was terrible, it didn't go away even I accepted the fact I was born this way. Not knowing it can be treated often make you wish to die. So I want people to realize that nobody wants to make their kids trans, vecause we don't wish anyone to have to go through the same hell. We want to tell kids that this exists to tell them the truth and to help the few transkids among them who suffer from early age on.
Ho pianto durante il video.... Mi stupisce come hai affrontato la cosa e mi hai anche un po aiutato ad accettarmi, credo che farò coming out tra qualche giorno, mi hai dato la spinta per farlo... Grazie
The thing that inspires me about this is the fact you got your college degree at 30. To me, being an 18 year old, that seems like too long to be starting my life and my career but your out here starting your entire life at 30 and older. I’m young, I see things in such a shorter time span than I should, and coming to terms with that bit has been a bit difficult to grasp. Proud of you for your journey and hopefully I can be proud of myself in the next 12 years.
some people say, they knew it since I was 16. but it's good they didn't tell me, because life was pretty rough at that time and there wouldn't be a happy ending now. I think, everything in life has its own time. and although I knew it since I was a little kid or at least that I am different, I had to turn 33 to come to a point in my life where it was finally the time to take care of myself and my future. so - I am good with that. of course, sometimes I tend to get a bit envious if some start to go on hormones at a younger age. oh hell.....yeah, of course I would have loved that. but, it's okay to be a 37-year old man by now, who loses his hair. I have 37 years full of stories to tell. and it's not all bad, but the best years are lying ahead of me! all the best to you on your journey!
I appreciate you uploading your video, most transitioning videos I've seen are from people that were 18, and it's nice to see you can also transition when you are a bit older. I am a cis woman and when I was a kid I used to look myself in the mirror and close my eyes as tight as I could wishing to be a boy when I opened them up, but it never worked and I got so sad... I never thought about trans man, and I had a lot of dumb prejudices about it, like I had to be insane and such (you know, ignorance). But about 4 months ago, I found Jamiee Dodger's channel and I've been amazed about how a lot has changed with transitioning... I also tried being a Lesbian, my sexuality is a complete mess. I am currently 28, but I don't think I'll ever transition, because I'm too coward, and perhaps my dysphoria is not as strong because I'm currently a extremely antisocial Ace, so I don't have any issues with partners or sex. What bothers me the most are the friggin boobs, they're so annoying... And menstruation ugh. I still feel like I can act however I want to act, and my physical body shouldn't be in the way to do so and perhaps that's why I will never transition.
As a very young trans guy, your journey is probably the most inspiring out of all of the one's I've seen. I still have a long way to go but I'm sure I'll get there.
This is truly inspiring. I was born a girl, and I want to be a boy. It gets harder and harder to look in the mirror everyday. My parents don’t even know but I secretly went to my school psychologist and I have gender dysphoria and GID. My mom forced me to wear makeup, my stepmom and dad force me to wear the girliest clothes, and my stepdad couldn’t care less which is good I guess. I can take being a girl and I haven’t even told my mom yet or any other parents. I have long hair and I look female. It’s torture.
I'm pretty young and debating how I can make my voice deeper, and one of my concerns was losing my singing voice. I'm wondering if your voice has gotten better since then?
Well......my voice is still breaking, been on T now for over 2 years.......it takes a long as it takes.....Surely my voice would be more "settled", if I would take singing lessons & would do some practice. But I don't....so...😅 In the "duet with myself" you can hear what I mean. Greets, Toby
@@goblindude4242 Yeah, but as I've said, I've got a bit of time in my life before I'll make a permanent decision. So in short, I want to see if training works first
Toby McMill hey man thank you so much for answering so many of our questions and sharing your story!! It takes away some of the creepiness of the prospect of transitioning, even if the voice thing makes it even more scary.
oh cool!! im also a trans man named toby :) this was inspiring to me, im 22 but im not completely out yet, only to my friends and coworkers so far... im terrified of my family finding out but this gives me hope for my future!! physical transition is possible for everyone who seeks it out :')
Hey! I found your story very relatable to me. I always felt like there was something wrong but I didn’t know what. I didn’t know how to act like a girl. When I turned 18 I got my first girl crush in college and thought I was lesbian. Then I thought I was agender. Then someone told me that I ‘look’ trans. So I looked it up and still denied it and got back to agender. And then again trans. I’m still pre T but your story is inspiring!!!
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND A COOL AND STRONG MAN! BE YOURSELF! WE LOVE YOU! I'M TRANS TOO AND I THINK YOU LOOK LIKE THE COOLEST MAN I'VE EVER SEEN! (sorry for my bad English i'm from Germany and bad at writing in English 😅) Have a good day 👍
I came out to my family and my dad says I'm just a really tomboy but I've done research I've been wanting to be a boy my whole life I've known since I was three just did not understand what was going on my mom says I should live my teenage life first then do the surgery and stuff like that because if I regret it I wont be able to go back and change back to my old self its 2020 and turning 15 in August
Maybe you can get some help and advice from some transgender youth group around your area! Support is important! I know, must be pretty hard to survive your teenage years first. And I really hope you find people, who just accept you the way you are!
Im 13 and i just figuring this all out. And im honeslty scared for my life. But this was so inspiring and it made me really excited for my future. Im just not sure how to tell anyone. I have a feeling if i tell my mom she will finally let me get my hair cut and stop trying to force me to wear girl clothes and push me into somebody that i dont want to be. And maybe if i tell her. Then ill finally be happy. I just dont know how to do this. Any advise?
thank you! well...I would say, practice the whole coming-out-thing with friends. telling it your parents is always the hardest part. I mean...it was for me - and it doesn't matter if your 14 or 34 - it is hard! and for me, yeah, my parents needed the most time to understand and to be accepting. but I do have the confidence now, even if they would not have been accepting at all. but if your younger it's different. just take the time you need, to find the right words - and then: give them time as well. I really hope everything works out fine for you.
I have a FTM friend, he's pretty cool. I could tell you are much happier after transitioning My friend he goes by Jax, his mom won't accept him as a boy only as a lesbian. He does the best he can to pass as a male. With time I hope his mom accepts the fact that he's a boy, and allows him to be on hormone medicine.
This was uncanny for me.... I am also born in 1983, & my photos & story is SO similar even down to Robin Hood & the transwoman!! And the age & order things happened. Although for me I only ever dated men.
oh wow.....😲😲😲 yeah "similarities" were the things that scared me the most when I stumbled across all of those ftm timelines on yt back in 2016. it felt like: other people have already been living my life.....totally weird!
Hai Erstmal freue ich mich natürlich dass du diesen Weg gegangen bist und du zufriedener geworden bist Ich wollte mal kurz etwas fragen. Ich habe mich in meiner frühen Kindheit nicht wirklich dafür interessiert ob ich männlich oder weiblich bin. Ich war alles was ich sein wollte oder einfach ich. Als ich dann 12 Jahre alt wurde habe ich angefangen meinen weiblichen Körper zu hassen und ich konnte mich einfach bis jetzt nicht als weiblich identifizieren. Das geht jetzt schon sehr lange so und ich denke seit einpaar Jährchen jeden Tag daran, fast pausenlos. Ich habe allerdings Angst, dass eine Geschlechtsumwandlung vielleicht nicht der richtige Weg sein könnte, weil mir viele Leute sagen, dass man als Transgender fast immer im Alter von 3 oder 5 Jahren das andere Geschlecht sein will und es bei mir nur eine Phase wäre. Würdest du dem zustimmen-?
das entscheidene hast du schons selbst geschrieben: "weil mir viele leute sagen".......wichtig ist, was DU denkst und fühlst! es hat gründe, warum eine therapie nach wie vor zum konzept der transition gehört. und für mich war das nochmal ein eye-opener.
It's odd to watch your childhood and teenage years knowing it will end differently from my own. So similar yet so fundamentally different. I think I would have enjoyed meeting you and seeing another girl who likes "boy" stuff. Small towns can be so stifling. I hoped you would figure it out faster. I'm glad it didn't take you longer. Alles Gute für den Rest der Reise aus dem Süden 🤘
it wasn't all bad and there were many other things I had to take care of first. so.....yeah, I was ready with 33. I had the time and the strength to go my way. thanks for your words! :)
not until now. on T now for 2y and 7m, my voice is still breaking. but what I can say for sure is, I am more a bass / baritone. it would take years of work to maybe reach the high tones of a tenor again. most pop songs you hear on the radio are higher, so I am jumping through the octaves several times, if I try to sing it.
Heey!! I currently identify as a non-binary but I'm not sure if that's correct :/ I also identified as genderfluid and at one point I thought I was transman... maybe I am though in denial. The truth is I hate my female body... I've been hating my chest ever since puberty came. (It didn't get better!) I hate looking like a woman. I definitely have both dysphoria and dysmorphia and it's killing me....
Women, lesbian women especially are taught to hate themselves, every woman and girl feels bad about her own body. Internalized misogyny is so hard to loose. I am happy to comw to terms with myself without having to change my body so societal pressure. Being a lesbian is tough but its worth standing up for yourself.
Your childhood pictures are so aggressively 80s
Those are 90’s pictures.
I can’t understand how people can be transphobic when you see before and after photos of someone who’s transitioned and it’s so clear how much being able to be themselves has transformed their life so much for the better.
“So I tried to be a lesbian” *puts on baseball cap* LOOOOL
I used to think I was *turns on girl in red* but really I am *turns on cavetown*
as a young trans man, seeing your journey is incredibly inspiring :,) coming out to my mom tomorrow
thank you so much! I hope, everything worked out well for you!
Leo Gendron how’d it go?
Don't leave us hanging, Leo!
ah, so sorry i didn't give any updates! a bunch of stuff has been coming up so I haven't been able to tell her yet, but it looks like sometime next week it'll finally be a good time to tell her
@@Leo-le7jx good luck and very best wishes to you, Leo.
Oh hell dude, it hurts to see this, because I feel you so much. I still don't know if I'm trans or just a tomboy, but I'm really not comfortable being this way. I've wanted to be a lesbian many times and I've tried to be more girly, and it's sometimes quite fun, but it still feels not me. And if I act and wear more boyish, I like it, but I feel like unattractive weido, and that no man would ever like me, if I was like that all the time. I love my boyfriend and want to be with him, but something always feels not right.
I've been a tomboy for a lifetime, and thinking more this stuff since 2012, and I'm still so lost. Turned 23 this year.
hey......it took me 33 years to get to this point! just don`t rush yourself into any thing, okay? if you know, what you feel comfortable with (like in presenting and looking etc.), then: go for it!! and even until my 1st t-shot I wasn`t sure at all if THIS is MY way.....I once heard from another trans guy on yt: sometimes you just have to DO things - until then, you will never find out, if it is the right thing for you. you can`t be 100% sure before trying......! and that`s sooooo damn true!!
my best blessings to you!
toby
@@TobyMcMill thanks a lot, I try to keep that in mind
yes, it can take years unfortunately before you're sure of things which is good because you don't want to regret the possible life long changes. But people seem to be comfortable with me being trans as if something tells them that I am, and it's true because before I was aware, I just did my considerably 'non binary, tomboyish' stuff and it was more than it sounded like. I have certain acts I either think of as part of my adhd and whatever, or part of another possible mental thing called being transgender. It's psychological, but it depends when it can break out and when it could 'fade' I guess? I'm not sure. However, it's not easy for any of us. It's all fear and insecurities, especially when you already suffer such a life you become desperate to. I want to make sure the choices of ftm transitioning or mtf transitioning is part of the internal need, or part of a trauma experienced. If it's due to trauma, a lot of people that did transition want to detransition. Because they rushed it or actually just had to escape their body for awhile. I jut hope well for you and right now, I hope that i'll figure it out too. I came out a little, but am still too scared to just go for it. I have it with everything so it's not just this. I fear change and pain in general so it holds me back too much for making my choice. I had survived many other obstacles before this way by just again, going for it.... I should get prepared in about a year or two before I meet my gender therapists, and hope to find the answer by then.
Dude, I feel the same. Been a tomboy my whole life. Just discovered Trans is a thing earlier this year. I’m also 23 now :)
Have you ever seen a gender therapist?
I dont know you but I’m so proud of you. Live your life my man. It’s for you. And I’m so happy for you.
thank you sooooo much!!!! :))
Congrats on finally becoming you. :-)
thank you!!!!! 😊
Dude!!! At 1:00, that’s the zoo I used to go to, around the same years as well. I might as well be the blond kid in the front XD !!!
Wtf is this small world?!?
If you are from Northern Germany....maybe 🤷♂️😅
Toby McMill gettorfer zoo?!!! ❤️❤️❤️ I’m from that area.
Keyes ach du sch....🤣🤣🤣🤣 unbelievable......sachen gibt‘s....🤷♂️🤣
Toby McMill small world. Both about the same age, both trans, both from the same area. It’s heartwarming
@@fahrlight yeah kinda......:) 'cause I don't know anybody else from that area being trans (now) in his/her 30ies
When I finally had a word for it, my whole life suddenly made sense. Been transitioned since December 2001 and it's the best thing I ever did in my life. By the way, the singing voice comes back--just takes time. It probably took me 3 years before I could sing with any control again. (I was in the music business in my teens, though the album I made never got picked up, so I felt that same sadness). Just give it time to grow again. You might even sound better! Wishing you the very best in all your future days!
thank you so much! :) yeah...maybe one day I will sing again. for now I am finally okay with NOT singing, after almost 2,5 years. nobody said, that the whole voice cracking thing would be over in 2 years.....:))) so, I will just wait. all the best for you, too!
This is oddly inspiring for me to keep going..
Ich wünsche dir viel Freude und Sicherheit auf deinem weiteren Weg! Du sprichst mir aus der Seele.
What a trip! So glad it worked out and you're happy! Hugs from Argentina!
Thank you!! :)
This was beautiful and sad at the same time. I am very happy for you, since you can truly be yourself now💕.
Sushi Kätzchen thank you 😊
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so pleased for you having found your true identity. I wish I was 30 years younger with enough courage to change. Things were very different back in the 70s. Very best wishes to you x
thank you so much for your kind words!! and also all the best for your life journey!
I am proud of you (':
You are very inspiring thank you
Thank you for being so honest and sharing your journey. It truly is beautiful. Wish you all the best for the future too
Glad to see this video is unprivated. I missed it as it really spoke to me. The tune is epic as well.
had my reasons to take everything down for a while :) thank you so much!
Hey Toby....ich hab mir gerade die "Timeline" Deines Lebens angesehen.... ich kann Dir defintiv Glückwunsch zu diesem Schritt sagen. Du hast es definitiv richtig gemacht. Meinen allertiefsten Respekt....🤟
Danke für das tolle Video...
Gruß aus Wietze, dem Dorf in der die PlüschTransi Idee entstand😋
P.S.: ...und jetzt zeig diesem bärtigen Radio Onkel was ein richtiger Kerl ist....
Lieber Flo!
Vielen, vielen Dank.....:) Ich gebe mir Mühe....*lach
Gosh I wish there was more education so people didn’t have to wait so long to understand themselves. It’s like all these discussions can only happen in secret. And then the denial before acceptance because it’s such a new concept. So happy for you! And glad to hear those around you are supportive & happy as well.
thank you :)
AHHH YOU’RE SO CUTE DGDGGSHA
Omg the more I seek puzzles with many MANY trans videos, I realize this too now: rarely any guy falls for me and it's like I don't mind (im s far stated a 'lesbian', but my attitude on it it's like idk... not the standard one. I guess it was either my wild personality or part of me that has a male territory. Meaning: I'm a transman and it's likely many people see it too without me even coming out. My PE teacher and some others had assumptions but kept it to themselves until I came out to them because I of course trust them. Yup.... my doubts are starting to slightly fade away, but I still need more answers on why I was and am who I am today aside of my other personal problems. I thank you for helping me find out yet another piece of the puzzle. I should write it all down but im too lazy... its for my therapist.
I`m sooooo with you......it IS a puzzle.....and right after I started to realize I am trans... well...I questioned my whole life!!!! who was I???? have I really ever felt that way?? where was my childish wish "to become a boy" for almost 30 years??? it was hard....but afterwards, it ALL made sense. But it took me a while. I am glad, if this video has helped you in discovering one single piece of the puzzle!
I know someone who has been through this. FTM like you! It seems like such a tough thing to go through, but good on you both for finding what made you happy and figuring out who you really were! Loved the video! Thank you for sharing ❤
thank you so much!! :)
❤
Thanx for sharing. Congrats to have found yourself
Bro you made me cry, I'm so happy for you :')
you're amazing! i'm a complete stranger yet so proud of you dude :) beautiful beautiful man x
thank you :)
Okay wow i am sitting in front of the screen, confused and crying, and I hope that at some point I can look back on my past and that it is similar to yours ...
Feel you
hey! you know, I started in 2016 exactly at THAT point...from zero. just googled for ftm timelines on yt......and binge watched every single one I could find - for months! if MY timeline can only help one single trans person out there...then I've achieved more than I ever wanted! greets, toby
@@TobyMcMill can hardly believe that my comment is 9 months old.
I'm finally on t & it is progressing:)
I just wanted to say thank you.
There were moments when I wasn't sure who I am and how things will continue, your videos have always helped me so much. before I came out, I watched your video, which gave me the courage to tell my friends and family who i really am.
I always wanted to go the way you go, now I've finally started too.
I hope you are doing well!
arlo
@@walfischrisotto3817 oh wow!!! amazing news :))) congrats!!! and: enjoy your journey!!
That was awesome! Best wishes to you❤
I love watching these videos. It’s so beautiful to see people bloom into the happiest version of themselves. Wishing you all the best in your journey! 💜🤗
thank you so much!! :)
Congrats on being who you were always meant to be. ❤
Thank you! :)
Oh my god this makes me so happy 😊💙
I wish you everything best in life!
thank you 😊
Toby you look handsome (with all due respect). Congratulations!!!👍🤘
thank you :)
I'm 17 and questioning and this makes me so happy.... i mean most people start transitioning around my age, right? It's so assuring to know i don't have to have everything figured out by 18... thank you for sharing.
This is so awesome to see!
Did you ever get your singing voice back? I'm trying to sort through all this ftm stuff, and I don't know if I could afford losing my singing. Music is one of the biggest things in my life.
Hey! Not until now....I`ve been on hormones for 16 months now, my voice is still breaking, still very unsecure....And I guess it will take another year or two until my new voice is really "settled" in the new range.
@@TobyMcMill i need some advice
@@emmaames9624 how can I help?
@@TobyMcMill I need help coming out to them as an agender but i dont know how can you give me some advice and some pointers
@@emmaames9624 you should find someone to talk to about your feelings, a therapist would be best! and maybe open up to some friends first! coming out to parents can be good! but maybe you won`t get the reaction & support you need. But in a long-term you have to decide what life you want to life and who you want to be. It`s your life and your decision! Nobody else can tell you how to feel!
I really needed this today, I recently came out as trans and I'm almost 30 - Part of me is so angry that I didn't realize sooner but I know that things will be getting a lot better (and are already).
all the best for your exciting future journey! :)
Congratulations man💐
#Artgangstar
Hello mister, I am a trans guy as a lad and I love your story so freaking much!!!! I am glad you had so many supportive people around you, and was able to live with your true self. I am almost on the way to my transition as well, so exciting!!!(๑>◡
Respect!!! And you are looking awesom 💕💞💓💖
DUDE OUR STORIES ARE THE SAME PROUD OF YOU
Incredibly inspiring story thank you for sharing and helping others 👏🏼
thank you! :)
I've been transgender for 4 years and last year I got my name legally changed on my 16th birthday. I was so happy and I can't wait for the rest in the future.
all the best for your journey!
@@TobyMcMill thank you :'D
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Homie, I think you felt trapped inside because you were being possessed.
I'm so happy for you that you found your way. I was born 1984 and startet my transition with 36. Baxk then you didn't know something like trans exists, nobody told you, it wasn't on tv or media and there was no internet. So from 3 years onwards I had these feelings, that turned to pain when I realized I won't turn into a boy by getting older, then I was 6 years. The pain was terrible, it didn't go away even I accepted the fact I was born this way. Not knowing it can be treated often make you wish to die. So I want people to realize that nobody wants to make their kids trans, vecause we don't wish anyone to have to go through the same hell. We want to tell kids that this exists to tell them the truth and to help the few transkids among them who suffer from early age on.
An amazing video. Watching from London UK.
thank you so much!
Ho pianto durante il video.... Mi stupisce come hai affrontato la cosa e mi hai anche un po aiutato ad accettarmi, credo che farò coming out tra qualche giorno, mi hai dato la spinta per farlo... Grazie
The thing that inspires me about this is the fact you got your college degree at 30. To me, being an 18 year old, that seems like too long to be starting my life and my career but your out here starting your entire life at 30 and older. I’m young, I see things in such a shorter time span than I should, and coming to terms with that bit has been a bit difficult to grasp. Proud of you for your journey and hopefully I can be proud of myself in the next 12 years.
some people say, they knew it since I was 16. but it's good they didn't tell me, because life was pretty rough at that time and there wouldn't be a happy ending now. I think, everything in life has its own time. and although I knew it since I was a little kid or at least that I am different, I had to turn 33 to come to a point in my life where it was finally the time to take care of myself and my future. so - I am good with that. of course, sometimes I tend to get a bit envious if some start to go on hormones at a younger age. oh hell.....yeah, of course I would have loved that. but, it's okay to be a 37-year old man by now, who loses his hair. I have 37 years full of stories to tell. and it's not all bad, but the best years are lying ahead of me!
all the best to you on your journey!
I appreciate you uploading your video, most transitioning videos I've seen are from people that were 18, and it's nice to see you can also transition when you are a bit older.
I am a cis woman and when I was a kid I used to look myself in the mirror and close my eyes as tight as I could wishing to be a boy when I opened them up, but it never worked and I got so sad...
I never thought about trans man, and I had a lot of dumb prejudices about it, like I had to be insane and such (you know, ignorance). But about 4 months ago, I found Jamiee Dodger's channel and I've been amazed about how a lot has changed with transitioning... I also tried being a Lesbian, my sexuality is a complete mess. I am currently 28, but I don't think I'll ever transition, because I'm too coward, and perhaps my dysphoria is not as strong because I'm currently a extremely antisocial Ace, so I don't have any issues with partners or sex. What bothers me the most are the friggin boobs, they're so annoying... And menstruation ugh.
I still feel like I can act however I want to act, and my physical body shouldn't be in the way to do so and perhaps that's why I will never transition.
Even before you knew what trans meant, i could still see the guy in you. So happy for you :)
awwww....thanks!! :)
awe rip lil kitty
I know that kind of pain.its devastating.😢❤
@@tinadailey1297 💔 the price we pay for having them in our lives to love.
Woah when you said you've been called Toby sense you were 15 that caught me off guard (Names Toby btw)
Proud of you being who you truly are
"So I tried to be a lesbian" I don't know but I found it kinda funny 😂
As a very young trans guy, your journey is probably the most inspiring out of all of the one's I've seen. I still have a long way to go but I'm sure I'll get there.
thank you so much!!! and all the best for your journey! :) you will get there. it just takes time.....
This is truly inspiring. I was born a girl, and I want to be a boy. It gets harder and harder to look in the mirror everyday. My parents don’t even know but I secretly went to my school psychologist and I have gender dysphoria and GID. My mom forced me to wear makeup, my stepmom and dad force me to wear the girliest clothes, and my stepdad couldn’t care less which is good I guess. I can take being a girl and I haven’t even told my mom yet or any other parents. I have long hair and I look female. It’s torture.
For sure it is a good idea to get some help through a psychologist, transgender youth group... I really hope, things turn out in a good way for you!
Thats și beautyful Man 🧡♥️♥️
I'm pretty young and debating how I can make my voice deeper, and one of my concerns was losing my singing voice. I'm wondering if your voice has gotten better since then?
Well......my voice is still breaking, been on T now for over 2 years.......it takes a long as it takes.....Surely my voice would be more "settled", if I would take singing lessons & would do some practice. But I don't....so...😅 In the "duet with myself" you can hear what I mean. Greets, Toby
@@TobyMcMill Helpful! Thank you, and sorry for replying late. I think I'll stick to voice training for now 😄
Hey It's Spooky there are lots of guys on T who haven’t lost their singing voices, though. it does happen, but it’s very different for everyone!
@@goblindude4242 Yeah, but as I've said, I've got a bit of time in my life before I'll make a permanent decision. So in short, I want to see if training works first
Toby McMill hey man thank you so much for answering so many of our questions and sharing your story!! It takes away some of the creepiness of the prospect of transitioning, even if the voice thing makes it even more scary.
oh cool!! im also a trans man named toby :) this was inspiring to me, im 22 but im not completely out yet, only to my friends and coworkers so far... im terrified of my family finding out but this gives me hope for my future!! physical transition is possible for everyone who seeks it out :')
I'm on the phone with comcast rn and i've got this vid muted but it's working out great
Dude I thought that this was going to be a male to female transition video.
Sierra Mist I actually though the same thing. Like.. I really didn’t see a girl really anywhere in this video.
Hey! I found your story very relatable to me. I always felt like there was something wrong but I didn’t know what. I didn’t know how to act like a girl. When I turned 18 I got my first girl crush in college and thought I was lesbian. Then I thought I was agender. Then someone told me that I ‘look’ trans. So I looked it up and still denied it and got back to agender. And then again trans. I’m still pre T but your story is inspiring!!!
oh somehow I missed to answer on this comment. damn......hope, you're doing fine & thank you so much for sharing part of your story!
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND A COOL AND STRONG MAN! BE YOURSELF! WE LOVE YOU! I'M TRANS TOO AND I THINK YOU LOOK LIKE THE COOLEST MAN I'VE EVER SEEN! (sorry for my bad English i'm from Germany and bad at writing in English 😅) Have a good day 👍
as you may have noticed, I am from Northern Germany 😉
I am not transgender, but you have inspired me to pursue my own goals as to my body!
I came out to my family and my dad says I'm just a really tomboy but I've done research I've been wanting to be a boy my whole life I've known since I was three just did not understand what was going on my mom says I should live my teenage life first then do the surgery and stuff like that because if I regret it I wont be able to go back and change back to my old self its 2020 and turning 15 in August
Maybe you can get some help and advice from some transgender youth group around your area! Support is important! I know, must be pretty hard to survive your teenage years first. And I really hope you find people, who just accept you the way you are!
Glad you found out who you are.
Congrats man! I can't wait til I can medically transition
What does going back and forth even mean? Are you referring to stereotypes? They should never define us.
Im 13 and i just figuring this all out. And im honeslty scared for my life. But this was so inspiring and it made me really excited for my future. Im just not sure how to tell anyone. I have a feeling if i tell my mom she will finally let me get my hair cut and stop trying to force me to wear girl clothes and push me into somebody that i dont want to be. And maybe if i tell her. Then ill finally be happy. I just dont know how to do this. Any advise?
thank you! well...I would say, practice the whole coming-out-thing with friends. telling it your parents is always the hardest part. I mean...it was for me - and it doesn't matter if your 14 or 34 - it is hard! and for me, yeah, my parents needed the most time to understand and to be accepting. but I do have the confidence now, even if they would not have been accepting at all. but if your younger it's different. just take the time you need, to find the right words - and then: give them time as well.
I really hope everything works out fine for you.
Thank you.
Your beautiful!!♥️
Esto me motiva mucho mucho u.u
I have a FTM friend, he's pretty cool. I could tell you are much happier after transitioning
My friend he goes by Jax, his mom won't accept him as a boy only as a lesbian. He does the best he can to pass as a male.
With time I hope his mom accepts the fact that he's a boy, and allows him to be on hormone medicine.
This was uncanny for me.... I am also born in 1983, & my photos & story is SO similar even down to Robin Hood & the transwoman!! And the age & order things happened. Although for me I only ever dated men.
oh wow.....😲😲😲 yeah "similarities" were the things that scared me the most when I stumbled across all of those ftm timelines on yt back in 2016. it felt like: other people have already been living my life.....totally weird!
Ok cook happy for you honey! God bless stay well &be happy.
Hai
Erstmal freue ich mich natürlich dass du diesen Weg gegangen bist und du zufriedener geworden bist
Ich wollte mal kurz etwas fragen.
Ich habe mich in meiner frühen Kindheit nicht wirklich dafür interessiert ob ich männlich oder weiblich bin. Ich war alles was ich sein wollte oder einfach ich.
Als ich dann 12 Jahre alt wurde habe ich angefangen meinen weiblichen Körper zu hassen und ich konnte mich einfach bis jetzt nicht als weiblich identifizieren.
Das geht jetzt schon sehr lange so und ich denke seit einpaar Jährchen jeden Tag daran, fast pausenlos.
Ich habe allerdings Angst, dass eine Geschlechtsumwandlung vielleicht nicht der richtige Weg sein könnte, weil mir viele Leute sagen, dass man als Transgender fast immer im Alter von 3 oder 5 Jahren das andere Geschlecht sein will und es bei mir nur eine Phase wäre.
Würdest du dem zustimmen-?
das entscheidene hast du schons selbst geschrieben: "weil mir viele leute sagen".......wichtig ist, was DU denkst und fühlst! es hat gründe, warum eine therapie nach wie vor zum konzept der transition gehört. und für mich war das nochmal ein eye-opener.
It's odd to watch your childhood and teenage years knowing it will end differently from my own. So similar yet so fundamentally different. I think I would have enjoyed meeting you and seeing another girl who likes "boy" stuff. Small towns can be so stifling.
I hoped you would figure it out faster. I'm glad it didn't take you longer.
Alles Gute für den Rest der Reise aus dem Süden 🤘
it wasn't all bad and there were many other things I had to take care of first. so.....yeah, I was ready with 33. I had the time and the strength to go my way. thanks for your words! :)
I have a question.
Your singing voice came back?:0
not until now. on T now for 2y and 7m, my voice is still breaking. but what I can say for sure is, I am more a bass / baritone. it would take years of work to maybe reach the high tones of a tenor again. most pop songs you hear on the radio are higher, so I am jumping through the octaves several times, if I try to sing it.
@@TobyMcMill thank you very much for reply. And do you think that you will master singing again? At least a little bit?
@@martynabarcz4405 guess so. time will tell....
Idk why but he looks like he has a raspy voice,, i jus get a raspy voice vibe for some reason lol
you look like the german podcast legend tommi schmidt!!
I don't even know that guy - but if I look like a legend I take this as a huuuuuge compliment :)))
We look oddly similar...
I want transition too ._.
Heey!! I currently identify as a non-binary but I'm not sure if that's correct :/ I also identified as genderfluid and at one point I thought I was transman... maybe I am though in denial. The truth is I hate my female body... I've been hating my chest ever since puberty came. (It didn't get better!) I hate looking like a woman. I definitely have both dysphoria and dysmorphia and it's killing me....
if you need someone to talk to my insta is lu.luca.s
I am ftm
‘i tried to be a lesbian again’ ME LMAO
this is amazing
also i just wanted to make it 69 comments
Dude, same.
Mega ✨ 💜
dankeschön.....!!! :))
One word: DADDY
Jesus loves you so much.
Did your simging voice never return?
💙💙
School cone, cool
I love you ❤️
You’re such a babe! 😍😍
If you were/are pansexual you could yourself the pan man
Women, lesbian women especially are taught to hate themselves, every woman and girl feels bad about her own body. Internalized misogyny is so hard to loose. I am happy to comw to terms with myself without having to change my body so societal pressure. Being a lesbian is tough but its worth standing up for yourself.
All this is very true! But being a lesbian with internalized misogyny or homophobia is very different from being a trans person with gender dysphoria.
Ok dude nice video but your sunglasses are ATROCIOUS
Omg.....
Gosh I would date you anytime
Jesus pode te LIBERTAR desse ENGANO
HurLz .. u will never b a real man.. neva XD
I pray for your english.