Please trust the process. Part of an eating disorder is the need for control, so it makes sense that you wish to change things up and feel like you decide what you eat. But you have to let go in order to heal. I would suggest to trust the food plan and don't change it
You're "devastated" because you're now on a 6--8 week hospital waiting list. But when you HAD a bed in an ED hospital, you left. Without medical permission. Only YOU don't see that YOU are entirely responsible for your situation.
@@dianestevens2659 I don't want to be negative but I think you are both right...the cycle continues. I feel like I see and say the same things video after video and nothing really changes. The basis is: almost dying..waiting for a plan...get a plan...and then blame who made the plan and start all over. Are we the only ones that see this? Dealing with health issues is awful..I know this firsthand..but at the end of the day you truly have to allow others to help..at least to get over the most difficult parts.
@@leanneeggenberger9127 i definately agree Leanne.Look back at the other videos from months ago.Same scenario.In one video she promises to eat on camera.She puts it down without touching it.I want to see her eat on camera.Many youtubers have a snack while they talk,so its not unusual.If she will eat infront of us,then i would say she is comfortable enough to move forward.I did actually suggest this,but my comment vanished !!!!!!!
@@yeahbro760 I think I saw that comment before it “mysteriously” vanished! Lol 😆 yes… it would be great to see at least a little bit of effort on her end for sure 👍🏻
@@leanneeggenberger9127 sometimes you just need to remove yourself and not worry anymore. Ultimately, Lique is responsible for her situation and recovery. If she ignores good advice then we must walk away or suffer burn out. All the comments saying she's doing great, we are praying for you etc do nothing but bolster her up to continue this behaviour.
Hey Lique, so glad to hear from you. [tw: calorie mention] As a recovered anorexic (not as severe though) I want to share my thought about exchanging foods from the meal plan. Eating the same food every day is challenging for everyone and it's completely understandable that you want some changes. However I think anorexia is often trying to sneak into these food choices. I assume the safest way to ensure it's not an ed-thought would be to still follow the mean plan but add things to it. For example having some cholocate as an additional snack, or adding different sauces and flavors to your meals. If you want to swap the meal though, I think it should be planned beforehand and it needs to have at least as many calories as the original meal. My anorexia would try to spare calories wherever it could, so having no "calorie advantage" would be essential for me in knowing if it's an ed thought or a genuine wish. You know your body and your condition best though, so please make sure that everything you eat is safe for you. Wishing you the best! I am always looking forward to your updates.
@@dianestevens2659 yes the anorexia will try to control an eating disorder patients thoughts and actions. It can do this for months on end but Lique is stronger - she will win through.
I agree completely. At this stage don't trust your mind as it will be your ED. It will convince you that it is your gut or inner wisdom talking. Don't give your ed mind the slightest opening. Follow the food plan exactly!!!! 💖✔🌻
@@teainortakoy she’s been battling an ED for 30 years so I’d say the advice that was written here is very necessary. The ED is taking over again; this is why Lique is more jolly in this video than the previous ones. The feeling of control is satisfying the Anorexia
@@Naomi-rz2jj yes, I'm aware of that and completely agree with the advice to not change the food list. I was just making the point that anorexia will try to control a persons thoughts and actions so they need to fight against the ED voice.
My daughter was type 1, I am an expert when it comes to treating D. You can treat hypos fast with honey that if you place under your tongue absorbs faster. Then you grab a snack. Never ever treat a hypo under 4 with other than fast acting sugar source. The body needs the fast absorb to quickly spike the sugar then the snack keeps your sugar level. A way to help,yourself at night is a before bed snack with a slow acting carb plus protein like apple and cheese. She suffered from Diabulemia, so I understand eating disorder and diabetes. Keep fighting, let people help you. If it’s worth having … it’s worth doing everything you need to get there.
So glad you posted, I was starting to worry again. Sorry about your fall and hospital fiasco. You are such a strong woman I know you will beat this. I plan to still be watching you in 10 years living your best life.💕
I was told while staying at the hospital (just a basic mental hospital) there's nothing they can do for me since I didn't agree with the meds they were giving me. So I walked out still worse than I've ever been, totally alone with my illness (anorexia).. Realizing there's nobody getting me through this but me was very scary. I had to believe I'm worthy without anybody saying so. One question kept me going and I still ask myself when having difficult times ; "what options do I have? Live or not to live..which one I choose? " When I chose to live,I also chose to do something good for myself. I Don't know if you got the idea,or does it help anybody. You have it in you to fight this 💕
Your resilience and determination truly inspire me. Thank you so much for sharing your journey and always being there to remind me I’m not alone in my long and treacherous search for help and peace. Much love!
Even though it's been decades since I've fallen into my ED, it's still with me every damn day! Every meal, every bite I fight with the demons in my head! It would be so easy for me to fall right back into my ED. But the fight for recovery has to conquer. Yes, there are days where I am so tired of fighting....so tired! But my determination is stronger than I ever thought it could be. I -don't want- refuse to be where I was before. Lique, FIGHT! Fight with everything you've got! You have it in you! I know you do! If you don't, death will be the winner. I know some days it would be so much easier for you to just give in, but this *IS a fight YOU CAN WIN!* You have an entire lifetime ahead of you! Death is forever and I know that's something you don't want. Be strong! Be determined and WIN! 💙💓💙💓
I'm so glad you're here! It's been decades for me too now but you're right, it's always part of us. The way I started to think about it (instead of an exhausting endless fight for the rest of my life where some days, lots of days, it seemed easier to give up) was kind of like - "this is part of me but I get to decide." The more I told myself the story that I'm healthy and stronger than the ED, over time that started to be more "real" (feel more true) and it got easier to think of myself that way and EXPECT that every day. Keep winning!! 💗💗
So happy to see you and hear your voice. I love the quote. Thank you. You’ve had quite the unpleasant experiences with falling and the hospital bed being taken- yet still here you are, trying, prevailing and ultimately positive in the end. I can’t advise on the eating plan. Because I have bipolar with severe mixed episodes, OCD and GAD I am struggling with my food intake daily. I know many here will have valuable advise for you. I send my support and love to you. Thank you for being here for us as well. ❤
Hi sweetheart! Thank your for your comment. And for sharing! Will be thinking of you too. Must be so hard to cope with all your challenges… you are not alone in this dear💪🏻 Don’t ever forget! 💖
to be honest the point where i noticed my body was reacting a little better on my treatment was exactly when i stopped listening to my body and started 100% listening to science and medical professionals. the feelings i had prior to that decision were very similar to yours.. sometimes i felt like i wanted something different, sometimes a little more sometimes a lot less and i genuinely believed that i could recognize the difference between my intuition and my disorder but in reality that couldn't be farther from the truth and everyone except me seemed to realize that and i remember being very unhappy believing people close to me couldn't understand me but as it turned out the only one that couldn't understand me at that time was myself.. and i was so sad because how could i not know myself the best when i'm the one who is living in this body and with this brain right? well as it turned out it was all the part of the illness.. i'm not sure i'll be able to accurately explain it in english but the way my doctor explained it to me was something in the lines of this: "how can you trust your intuition when that same intuition relies on using the very same part of your body that is the most stricken by the illness?.." so essentially i was trying to use that same sick malnourished brain of mine to try and make some sense of my own without even being aware of how impaired it was and that it was in no condition to see things realistically and rationally at all. then i was told that in front of me i had a lifetime of indulging cravings and enjoying tastes all i wanted but that i had to first survive if i ever wanted for that lifetime to be possible. and for me to get there i had to first do the hard work the right way and that meant that yes i wasn't always enjoying what i had on my plate and yes it was boring at times and terrifying at other times but the more i did it and the more power i gave to people around me the easier with time it became to deal with it and before i knew it i could finish my meal without a gallon of tears and i would just power through the boring ones knowing that by doing so at that moment i was creating that lifetime of enjoinment i was promised and these days i am able to happily munch on my snack remembering how i spend majority of my life being afraid of a piece of bread... letting go of that control and belief you think you know what's best for you is scariest thing you'll have to do in your recovery but i promise you the feeling of relief you get when you do it and the results at the end of it make it all worth it. so stay strong and remember to always do the next right thing💜
I'm happy to see you, always! It means you're still fighting the good fight to live. I'm so sorry about your fall and I'm glad you're getting better. You're in my prayers! Sending lots of love and hugs and hope and peace and prayers! 🥰❤
Lique, I'm going to echo what others are saying: Stick to the hospital's food plan. Your knowledge of nutritional science IS getting in the way, & so is your ED. Trust the experts & do what they say. 🥰 And milk chocolate has too much sugar, but dark chocolate has less & doesn't make your blood sugar spike.😎 Love you, gurl! 🤗😘
glad you've recovered from your fall, it's horrible to fall as an adult. Keeping a positive attitude is not always easy but you are doing well when you continue to do these videos , esp when you don't really feel like it, connection is so important, lots of love from New Zealand
I think you need to allow yourself some real down time & try not to think about your ED 24/7 please follow the food plan for now. For an hour a day to start think back to things that brought you real joy and happiness whether it's watching a favorite film reading a book or a movie drawing singing in other words change your mood with the positive thoughts and actions believe you are stronger than this disorder we all have made mistakes & have regrets stop beating yourself up forgive yourself and love yourself MORE every day ❤️ and you will see positive results.. Let go & let God help you to help yourself. Decide you are going to kick ass and you will all the best to you 🌻🌷⚘️💐💮🕊
She needs to be discussing this with her DR not youtube. SHE is on here for handouts. She isnt working and clearly her parents are paying for her to live also. STOP enabling this.
Hi lique. While you are battling the eating disorder, I would suggest letting other people take the driver's seat and for you to follow the assigned food plan. With your knowledge, perhaps you can ask for things you want? You admitted that sometimes you think normally, and other times your eating disorder controls your thinking. Until you can manage your thoughts and take control of the disordered thoughts, try to give the driving wheel to others for now. I love your sweater by the way.
Yes, think you are right Gilraen… no experiments home alone… and work on this after hospital when I am in a safer state and place… I will need to surrender on this I guess and not be stubborn 🤪🥴😘
@@liquefaith It is great how much progress you have made with not letting the eating disorder control all of your thoughts and habits. That shows that you DO truly want to recover. The frequency of the disordered will become less and less along the way as long as your keep fighting hard! Keep being the strong warrior!
Hey sweet lady! Thank you for the updates! I am still praying for you! I am believing for your complete recovery! You are so dearly loved! Your gonna get through this! God is with you and is for you!
My heart goes out to you with the hospital error and your fall from the wheelchair, I can feel how upset you were. Praying for you to overcome these difficult days and for brighter days to be in your future. Love that quote! Much love as always ❤️ xx
I'm soooo impressed by your strength. Really. I have to fight a lot of battles on my own, too. And your channel and posts give me the feeling of not beeing alone. And you inspire me to keep on fighting for my life. Dank je wel. Je bent so sterk💪
Soooooo welcome sweetheart! So happy to hear this!! Je staat er zeker niet alleen voor lief 💜 Dankjewel voor je reactie! Houd de moed erin… er is ALTIJD hoop 🙏🏻💖
Dear sweet girl, your eating disorder is singing you a siren song that you should be controlling your food choices. If you were able to do this, you would not be so desperately ill. Call your nutritionist and ask for some variety. You will be able to make these choices later, but not yet. Pray for patience and humbleness. The hardest thing is giving up control. This quote you love is for a well person, not yet for you, but in the future. Now you must let those with the medical knowledge to minister to you. Love you very much .
I pray for your healing. You have a beautiful smile!!!!! I love it. You helped me today to feel better just seeing you smile and laugh. It’s hard to do during a struggle but very much needed. Bless your heart. Thank you ❤
Hi Lique, I love watching your videos. You have an amazing personality and you always make me feel so positive. Earlier this month I lost my friend to anorexia, she had barely reached her 18th birthday when she died. I miss her so much every day, and sometimes I wonder if things could have been different had I done more to help her. It made me realise the importance of stepping in and helping someone before it's too late. If there is any way I can be here for you and support you, please let me know how, because I would love to do that. I hope that you get through this and recover, and that when you do you will have so much to be grateful for in your life and you will be as happy as you possibly can be. Please believe in yourself, because I truly believe in you. I know you can do this 💜
Hi Josie, thank you so much for sharing this! And my sincere condolences for losing your friend… May I give my opinion on this? You probably couldn’t have helped her in any way more than you did. Since loving her has been the most important FOR SURE! And your share makes totally clear you loved her. I really hope you can find peace that you could not have changed it. That would have been up to her only sadly enough… It is wonderful how you feel the need to help others that can still be helped. That is a wonderful gift she also gave you. I am thankful you are here with me too! Never forget that this is worthy in itself… big hug dear! 😘
I needed to hear this today! I’ve had a difficult few days, as well. It’s getting colder here. I live in Utah, USA. Cold brings a lot more pain with fibromyalgia and CFS/ME. I’m finally getting on palliative care, but I still try to avoid opioids. I’ve been so nauseous, it’s hard to ingest much. I have only a couple of goals. I want to write a book, and I want to go to Italy. But, my main goal is to be able to spend time with my children and grandchildren. I’m so tired of not feeling well. Thank you for sharing your sweet spirit with us! I appreciate you! ❤
God bless You Kristi. Sorry to hear, You are suffering so much😣♥️. Opioids are addictive, but at the same time helpful. Take care. Hugs from across the pond🇵🇱❣️
Fibro warrior here. I'm just up aways from you in North Idaho. Cold temps make the pain worse, I think. Have you asked for medical THC? It should be available for palliative patients. It REALLY helps with nausea. And CBD really helps reduce pain. I have GAD too. On a proton pump inhibitor medication, but still have so many foods & drinks that make the acid reflux worse. Wishing you the best, Kristi!🥰
It's good to see you again , so good that you decided to connect with us again and not "disappear under your blankets" that you felt like doing. Please don't dissappear, we love you. Your words about setbacks which feel bad but help us to learn and about us all being in this together resonated with me and brought me comfort on an otherwise challenging day. Don't worry about those weeks of waiting, take one day at the time. Sending you love and hugs.
Great to see you🧡you have great insight into the mental health component of ED. Are you able to do therapy while waiting for the hospital bed? You can do this! Keep your Faith stronger than your fear🙏
Hi Sweetie!! oh so happy to see you and my heart is so happy every time I get an update! ((BIG HUGS)) As a "science" person who has ED and recovered I have tips! First the medical stuff: I'm glad you have a CGM (continuous glucose monitor) because that will make it more convenient than finger-stick testing yourself through the night. Yes, it is not as accurate, but with your doctor's instructions it should give you an idea about how to manage your blood glucose and they can help you with when to use the other meter. The reactive hypoglycemia that you're experiencing is often hard to figure out - they think that anorexia can cause (or exacerbate) it but so can existing metabolic disorders and, yes, certain abdominal surgeries. Additionally, liver function is wrapped up in these processes so it's really GOOD that they are going to assess you further and not just ascribe what is happening to you as a result of the ED. Ideally you'll be able to manage this by eating during WAKING hours .. but in the meantime, keep following all their instructions about night times. Speaking of following instructions: menu changes: what I'd recommend (as someone else posted too) is sticking with your hospital prescribed meal plan as closely as you can but also ask your dietician about adding more appetizing elements like toppings or sides or sauces that are additional calories within your safe foods. You don't want to give yourself the flexibility to completely stray off path and "sometimes I want to eat less" - a routine is super helpful for awhile! Speaking for myself listening to my body in active ED phase was NEVER a good thing. My sense of hunger and satiety didn't work and what sounded good to me was often not really good for me. Chocolate can be included in your healthy diet because there are diabetic friendly forms and it might even be an approved thing for when your glucose is so low that you need a fast acting carbohydrate, etc. Also food combinations and combining foods has a lot to do with how our body metabolises them so a fast acting high glycemic food (like chocolate candy) may cause less of a spike/dip in glucose when also paired with protein or with a complex carbohydrate. Do some research on food combining and blood sugar and ask your doctor and dietician to help you modify your menu. As you know, sometimes they DO want your blood sugar to rise quickly when it is too low. OK now the spirit side: All this science knowledge is GREAT but it all boils down to an inner decision - "I am getting better and getting healthier and my body can support the great creativity and joy of my spirit." - SPIRIT overrides everything else so the story you tell yourself about food and being healthy can change. You are writing the script in a lot of ways and what you decide will be your experience.... God/Universe/Spirit or whatever we call it lets us guide ourselves and yet that energy wants us to LIVE and not die, to help and not recede, to function and not decline. So just imagine that every decision that you make that aligns with that IS ALREADY DONE - is already in the works, is already happening! Fear of losing control or pain is totally normal. But you can decide, "I am deciding that it is OK for me to be healthy and feel good through eating." This sounds silly woo woo but it really helped me to keep "watering" that flower and that decision to get better instead of watering the weeds. You don't have to feel sure or believe it all the time... just keep trying every day. I'm thinking of you every day and prayers and hugs are always right there with you!! 🤗🥰
Wow… what an enormous helpful and inspiring comment! I will print this one and do the research you recommend. Don’t have a dietician now in fortunately since the hospital doesn’t offer outpatient care. But I will take your tips by heart. Thank you so much! 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️👍🏻👍🏻
I love your giggle and smile! 💜 Please talk with your nutritionist before making any changes in your diet. I’m sorry you were injured with your wheelchair. Big hug from Utah, USA! 💜💙🩵😍😘
Stick to the food plan! Ask your doctors before switching up your diet. They may allow you to eat some different foods, but don’t jeopardize your health before you talk to them!
So glad to hear from you. I am sorry about your fall. I hope the hospital can get things straighten out. It always seems like one thing after another. But you're a strong person and you will make it. Sending love and prayers to you always. Stay strong.!
Something is happening off. Just shouldn’t be that hard to get into a hospital . Although when she finally did get in , she left anyway so that may be why they are bumping her admission .
Hi Lique I was so happy to see your beautiful face and smile. I'm sorry that you fell but I am so happy that your ok. Please keep the same menu. I know in my mind that your stronger then those demons in your head your head but don't give up and let them win. Stay strong and keep sending us messages. God bless you everyday. Lots of love and hugs from Scottsdale Arizona.
Like others have said, you need to try to let go of control with different things, especially with food, because like you’ve said, you can’t trust your judgment at this point. So, please just stick with a diet if they gave you a specific one to follow right now.
So glad to see you! Loving the positivity! Hopefully you can get into hospital soon, and get on the way to getting help. Keep hanging on, your not alone you have the Lord number one, and all of us! Love&Prayers🙏🏻❤
Can you eat animal based foods? I would try red meat, other meats, eggs, cheese, kefir, butter, goats milk and kefir too, also a great addition to your diet could be icelandic cod liver in its own oil, taste is mild and is super rich in vit A and D and minerals and natural omega 3. It is so rich that a can of it should be eaten maybe once a week. If you tolerate rice you can have it with it. Some fruit and avocado maybe some easy veg. That would help you immensely in few weeks you would heal so much.
I’m so sorry to hear about the mishap with your wheelchair! I hope the healing progresses smoothly. Please don’t deviate from your meal plan without consulting with your dietician. I say this with affection: you need objective help with food decisions at the moment.
Awe! So sorry to hear about your fall! And yea that hospital sure does make a lot of mistakes! I’m sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes from your friend!❤❤❤
yes, you would say that they would do it right for once, wouldn't you? But let's be honest, she's not really cooperating, is she? Then They give that spot to the people who really want it! However, she has already had so many chances and sometimes someone else takes the place when its there first time.
Yep. She sounds a little entitled. She left the facility and now wants to return readily. She honestly could have been well on her way to recovery and finished the program by the time it will take her to get back in. Wish she had been more grateful for the opportunity and holding on to dare life to resolve any issues at the hospital while she was there the first time. Her ED is severe
Hi Jolie, may I ask why you are here? And how you are doing? Being so negative won’t make anyone happy… lastly yourself… is there anything I can help YOU with? I would be happy to do so!
@@liquefaith Everyone can have their own opinion and can certainly express it! If you don't like it, don't make videos! In addition, it is simply noticeable that you manipulate the system and do not take the good that is due to you as help! You have been given so many opportunities but every time you fail, of course they are done with you at some point and prefer to give the care to someone who can appreciate it and that's how the universe works!
You are so precious and such a blessing ❤ I hope you know how much you inspire others to not give up . Never let go of your faith . You are special to our Lord Jesus and special to all of us . Thank you Lique❤
I am so pleased to hear from you💓 I had been worried and wondering since last video. You are always in my prayers, just a bump in the road, we are doing this together.
God bless you and all that you have to go through every day. You inspire me to try and live my best life. To not give up when I get tired of trying. You may not know it or even believe it but you are an incredibly strong woman. You keep getting up no matter how many times you get knocked down. You sometimes might take a few steps back in your recovery but you keep pushing forward. That takes real inner strength. Keep doing what your doctors tell you. They know what is best. I firmly believe that soon you will be admitted to a hospital and this time you will get the proper care that you so desperately want and need. I continue to pray and ask God to watch over you and keep you safe. Please take care and NEVER GIVE UP🙏❤️🙏❤️
She is using all of you. She comes on here with her long list of maladies demanding we donate to her paypal and gofundme etc. She has enough money to buy a house.
Dear Kath, may I ask why you are here? And how you are doing? Being so negative won’t make anyone happy… lastly yourself… is there anything I can help YOU with? I would be happy to do so! Love to you too dear… I really feel you may need that now more than anyone else… ❤️
So glad to see you, I’m glad things are moving along. Please just listen to what they recommend to you, they are there to help you, I know it’s hard for you sometimes with that situation, you’ll be in my thoughts for sure...keep your head up and try to stay positive! Remember we are all here for you and praying for you as well!😊👍
Hi Lique, I am so sorry about your fall, Im glad you are healing and feeling better from that. I am also sorry for all of the confusion going on in this hospital. I am so glad to see you and that you posted this video. I don’t know if it helps you to know that you are not alone in all of the tormenting thoughts and feelings you have at times. I have them too. When I am feeling desperate and in pain( which for me can mean feeling like I don’t want to be here anymore.) As soon as I can, I pray and I give it to God. I tell Him I need Him to help me. I then remind myself that God created every person for a purpose. He has plans for our lives and I thank Him that He is in control. He loves us so much that He died for us on the cross and rose again so that we can have eternal life with Him. I know it can be so difficult to trust anyone. You can always trust Him, because He is the same, yesterday, today and forever. His unchanging love is forever. ❤ I love you and you are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending love and hugs from Texas. p.s. in Texas instead of saying bye guys, we mostly say, bye Y’all. Y’all is the Texan slang word for saying you all. 😅 you probably already know this though since your English is excellent. 💖😊💖
What a wonderful share and testimony Sarah… thank you so much sister! And I smiled about the y’ all 😁 I have been in Texas and LOVED it there! The relaxed way of living and the way people treat foreigners made me feel so welcome. Happy to have you Texan woman here too 😍
Hugs. Stick with the food list. The time you will follow it is temporary - and necessary to make sure your life is not (temporary). I know this is a difficult time ...during an already very difficult time, but I hear a strength in you - it's there and it's there for a reason. Following it, keep to that path of FAITH that you can and will not only survive but THRIVE. One moment at a time, one day at a time. In that sense there is no difference between any of us. Humanity joins us in all of our flaws and perfections and everything in-between. Continue to help yourself and to help others because in the end only the kindness matters and you're far from the end my dear. Hold hands with that strength within and look back. Look how far you've come, not how far you have yet to go. We ARE WITH YOU.
get them to place a j tube and prescribe formulas and exact ammounts. Stick to that and, you will survive. You can add snacks and come off of the tube as you are stronger to work through your eating dissorder but it would be the easiest way to refeed and have the specific ammounts they want you to have. Is that possible?
She doesn't want a J Tube. The issue is that she doesn't want to gain weight at all. Wants to survive but won't do anything about it Now we are back to waiting for a hospital bed, just like groundhog day, and the cycle will continue.
It’s so good to see you, I was so horrifed to hear you fell with your chair i gasped. I pray for your full recover so you don’t need that chair anymore. Your a smart women keep trying to make the best food choices you possibly can. I hope you get your plan and back into the hospital soon. Thanks for the quote. ❤❤❤
@@liquefaith get one!!! why don't you have one? this must be covered by public health insucrance in the netherlands as in the rest of europe! and if not - please use the money from the go fund me!! psychological help is so so important when dealing with a mental illness!!
@@UU-mt4wv go fund money spent on hospice and aftercare dear. Psych that are covered dont help me now. They say I need to recover first physically before therapy is usefull 🥴
@@liquefaith I've never ever heard of psycholigists/psychotherapists not being covered bc one isn't physically recovered when it comes to a mental disorder........ Well, at least you will have that help once you're in hospital again :) if you can financially, there are cheaper online therapy options.
Angelique, I can see such life shining through your eyes, and it’s wonderful to see that! You are a very resilient person, so I know you can get through one day at a time, until the hospital will be available. You might be alone physically but we are all with you spiritually, and care about you. Pop on any time for a chat, it doesn’t always have to be an update. 🥝 ❤
Your posts are not long enough! I could listen to your sweet voice all day! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 May I suggest on your darkest days, look back at your posts and see how amazing you are❤....I have no medical qualifications, but I would say, if you want a treat , have it! Some extra sustenance spiritually and physically sounds good. Go well sweet Angel x x
Hi, good to see you again. I was wondering how things have been with you. I think of you often and say to myself if she's pushing through day by day then I can too. I look forward to more updates from you. Hang in there, you got this! We are all praying or sending positive vibes your way. We love you!❤ take care.💞
Angelique! 💜 So good to see you! I’ve been up almost 24 hours now. Longgg story. Chronic illness problems, which I already know you understand well 😩 I’m going to take in everything you’ve said, and after I’ve had some rest, I’ll be back with a more detailed response. I just want you to know that I’m thinking about you and sending you all the love. There’s no doubt in my mind re: whether or not you want to get well. Whoever is doubting needs to quit. Of course you want to get well. I know this is what you desire most for yourself, 100%. But healing is not easy, recovery is not a linear process. And when you have an eating disorder, or OCD (both of us have this), you’re two different people. You’re light, and you’re shadow, all in one. Your light, rational side is who you really are. Your shadow, irrational, ill side is like an abusive partner, telling you to do all the things that are bad for you and being a total jerk. Someone who hasn’t experienced this for themselves won’t understand. Supporting you 1000%. I’m so happy you have the monitor in your arm for your hypos ❤️ Okay okay I’ll get some sleep now. Be back later. HUGE HUG FROM USA 💜💜💜 Brandi 💜
I’m back! :) I’ve had a think on all the things you’ve updated us on. I pretty much covered my main thoughts earlier ❤️ but want you to know that I’m hoping the best for you, re: time you’ll have to wait until you have a bed again. I’m believing that you will have another option, perhaps a better option (better hospital), that will present itself long before the hospital welcomes you back. I’m so, so sorry you suffered more illness since you’ve been back, and that you fell 😢 Please take care, dear. Angelique, this might be a little overwhelming for you, so I won’t bug you about it - I’ll say it just once, and leave everything else to you and what you’re comfortable with: you can talk with us all about any traumas, any fears, that you have, anytime. I think it’s great that you’re taking the time to reflect on a root cause of your suffering. You’re so self-aware, smart, and I have no doubt that you’ll pull through this :) :) :) _The greater the testing, the greater the blessing_ 💕 Hang in there 💓💓💓
Thank you SO MUCH Brandi… you keep amazing me with your courage, insides and sensitivity… You are so brave yourself!! Rooting for you too sweetheart. With you in thoughts and prayers! 🙏🏻🙏🏻💜💜
Lique, gentle hug of you, I'm here in Orlando, FL USA. Prayers for you. I know some thing of what you are living each day as I have diagnosis of rare inherited bone disease. Some days I just cry, feel I want to scream as I pray my bone disease won't grow worse in pain. Adjusted everything to my disease, I know about adjustments made to live life. Yes, I'm on restricted diet, a special diet the Mediterrainian Diet. However, having diagnosis of diabetes, important to know what you can eat & what isn't allowed.
I’m glad that you have the cgm sensor! It’s a wonderful tool! I’m sorry that Rotterdam hospital fell through, but I’m glad that you’re still working on your health. I loved your quote!❤️
You are such a sweetheart Lique. ❤️You know I just want you to know your videos could never be too long! Don’t ever worry about that bcuz we love hearing from you!💗 I am SO praying for you to get into Rotterdam or the soonest good place that can take you. I pray so much for the Lord to keep your body going! He has been doing an incredible thing in you Lique. I wanted to share something with you. I’ve listened to you from your first video. I was reading this tonight and thought of you. It’s 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7. “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” I see these all in you. The way you show love to us, & to people I hear you talk about even in the hospital who were hard to get along with. You showed love. How we love YOU Lique!!! I want you to know that the last part of those verses, “always perseveres.” is what is so incredible to have witnessed in your life since I saw your very first video months ago. Yes as you said you are still here!!💗💗And you will be! We are here with you and love you! Blessings to you whether it’s day or night over in the Netherlands.💗🙏🏻
Wow Heidi… what a beautiful comment… and what a huge compliment… The Bible verse about love is sooooo special too… I don’t think I am able to embody that but God is doing His work. And I am more thankful to hear how you experience that 🥰 So thankful for your prayers and love and kindness. That means a lot to me Heidi! 💜❤️💖🙏🏻
Soooo schön dich zu sehen meine Liebe!Es ist einfach so ungerecht das gerade bei dir solche Fehler passieren!! Aber du bist stark,du schaffst auch das!Pass gut auf dich auf!
I am praying for you daily as I re-listen to your videos. I dream of you being able to get healthy enough to complete and release your book. I would love to know about nutrition from your perspective. We know you are brilliant Angelique. This severe eating disorder is so sad and I know you can overcome it with the right tools. I am so frustrated with the Netherlands that you have not been admitted yet.
❤ You are on the right track, although many problems seems to follow your fights ❤ I am so proud of you! Schocked by your fall out of the wheelchair, 😢😢😢 🤭 I myself have never struggled with eatingdisorder, ( only get my fat OFF my body…) Thank you for staying beside you and learn about your health/ diagnosis! I am much older than you, but want to , in a good way, be a friend/ supporter/ ‘ your older sis’. Praying for you ❤️🙏❤️🙋♀️ Really wish you better days, you deserve it FULLY! Grete ( from Norway)
So glad to see you again. I worry when you don’t upload but I also understand that sometimes you just haven’t got the energy or you just need your own space. And that’s ok just as long as you’re not shutting yourself away with your anorexia. I get that you want to be eating different foods. But what I will say is that asking the community isn’t going to be helpful & that’s not a criticism, just my opinion. If you want to change your menu plan then the best thing you can do is speak to a dietitian or whoever gave you the meal plan you have now. Once you start changing things on your own it’s giving the anorexia fuel to take over. So please Angelique don’t change ANYTHING until you’ve spoken to a professional, it will only set you back. I hope I haven’t upset you by saying that. I just care & want to see you gain strength & have your rational voice over take the anorexic one. I did laugh when you said you guys & then said that doesn’t sound right I think dears is better. Here in England, at least this part of London we all say guys & dears sounds strange. It’s more associated with an elderly person. Thought I’d give you something to laugh about 😂. Funny how different phrases are so different in other parts of the world. Anyway, thought I’d end this on a lighter not. I’m glad you’ve recovered from your wheelchair accident. Your body was strong enough to heal itself from that so take strength from that. The things your body is going through is very difficult yet you keep going & it’s showing just how strong it is and how it’s able to heal itself. Take care & stay strong. Sending love, ❤xx
Thank you so much for your honest response! Not offended at all. And I think it is wise advice. Will listen to it. And YES: you made me laugh now too! 😁 love back dear 😘💜
Bodies are intuitive in healthy people with no Eating Disorders but unfortunately,with my respect,in your case your intuition is unreliable Follow your meal plan and have a chat with the Dietitian Good Luck Hugs 😊
Angelique, you are doing so much better than you are giving yourself credit for ❤️ Your brain can lash out against removing this numbness because it is trying to protect you from processing a life of past trauma. In that weird, twisted way your body is trying to be kind to you. And so, your instincts will not always be right, but they will **ALWAYS** be brave. ❤
Hi sweetheart!! 🌸 I am so happy you are recovering from your fall. I see in you , someone that is fighting to stay alive!!! Yes, you’ve had setbacks, but this is a battle, just don’t give up! I don’t have experience with Ed so I can’t give advice on that. I do appreciate everyone’s wisdom though, and advice because they’ve been through what you are going through and many have recovered. So great to hear all of these amazing stories. Listen to all, and discern for yourself your next steps. It sure sounds like wise advise to go with a meal plan, add what your body will allow to that plan, sounds sensible!!! I myself would listen to those who have gone through what you have and are survivors!!! I would try my best not to listen and take to heart the negative comments. Try to concentrate on those who love l, and want to support your recovery dear. I think most people on here care for you enough to take the time to try to help. Some people are just more straight forward, they are what my gram called straight shooters! They don’t sugar coat a thing, that’s ok too! She used to say do you want a nice man that’s not quite so qualified to do your surgery, fly your plane, and so on, or do you want someone that is highly qualified??? I hope I’d choose the the most qualified!!🥰 Much love to you sweetheart, you are in my prayers!🙏🏻❤️
That's exactly how a drug addict must fight!Day by day&bit by bit it's the only way you can survive&live a healthy,happy life!I wish you the power to go on fight for your life pls don't follow the past of anorexia nervosa i know it's soo hard but i promise it will be better!
It’s so, so good to hear from you, Lique. I’m no expert on anorexia and how the complexities of diet choices can be affected, so I can’t give advice on that, but I just wanted to send you love. You are honestly one of the most beautiful souls I have ever come across, and I think of you often. It’s an odd feeling to care so much and feel so invested in and proud of somebody who is essentially a stranger, but I really do feel that. I wholeheartedly believe you can do this. I’m unsure as to why anybody would question your will to stay here and your longing to thrive, it shines out of your every pore. Keep fighting, we are all behind you 💛
Honey you should find a good mental health professional to help you find your way through this. Also, when you get in the hospital again let them treat you their way, not yours. Your way has gotten you to this point so it has not been a success. You look like you are running out of time to recover. You seem like such a kind person. Everyone here is rooting for your success.
Hey its lovely to hear from you. For me while out of hospital I would be listening to my hunger ques even though I know they could be wrong at times. I had to be careful not to to eat too much or too little though so I had to set myself limits. I've recently heard of intuitive eating which might be worth checking out as I dont know much about it. I think it would be great to try/test out different foods as I was amazed with all the different flavours I had missed out on for ages. I've been in a bad mood recently also and it has been frustrating but I'm holding on to the hope of a better minute/ hour/day eventually! Take care xx
Intuitiv eating would be deadly for her at the moment! She really needs the stable calories and such. Also you need to be far into recovery for this, which dhe is not yet
Love you so much Angelique. Greatest Woman and Warrior I've ever known!!!! You explained everything!!! I have no doubts about you!!! You are so strong!!!
@@liquefaith you helped me change when all my friends deserted me....I will always hold you close to me...I will always love you no matter what happens ❤️✊️
So happy to see a new update from you! I’m so glad that you got one of those arm sensors! They make life so much easier if you have diabetes! As for the food plan, I do think that you probably aren’t to the point where you can trust your body because of the eating disorder but is it possible to talk to the nutritionist / dietician at the hospital that gave you the plan to discuss if they can help you add some variety to your plan to make it easier and more enjoyable to follow? Love and prayers from Canada!
Hi dear! I dont get help from the hospital or dietician while I am home… find that hard. So have to figure out myself how to adjust. One day at the time… thanks for the tip though! 👍🏻😘
@@liquefaith I don’t see why you can’t make a few swaps in your plan yourself then. As long as the foods are suitable for your diabetic and intestinal issues. I would recommend keeping the same food category though, like swapping a protein item for another protein, starch for starch and fat for a fat item as long as you keep the calories the same. Do NOT, however, give in to any temptation to reduce calories as that is your ED trying to take over, but if they are healthy swaps of similar foods and calories stay the same then I think you can mix things up a bit and still keep the plan in place for the most part. I know that goes against what many people are saying but I think if done carefully, then some adjustments and swaps could be made some days without jeopardizing the plan.
Thank you for the update, I was thinking about you this week. Keep fighting for your life, it is hard to see the difference between what your Eating Disorder is telling you or your if your rational voice inside is telling you what to do. I forget what my non ED would do because my ED has been in charge for so long . I understand that. Keep posting, I look forward to hearing from you. Know that your loved❤ I hope you post again soon.
Hello Beautiful Angel of the internet...I just got in from work and couldn't get to this fast enough. So happy to hear from you. I am so sorry that there are so many hiccups and OMG Please Keep Posting. I am so sorry about your fall and debacle with the hospital... Oh but I am so happy that we are seeing you and hearing from you. ❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️ Yes devastating events but My God look at the warrior...the determined fighter that is inside 🥰 Don't deviate from your hospital food plan. Your current overall health depends on it. 🤗 Looking forward to your next video ❤️🌹❤️🌹❤️ (Your videos ARE never ever too long 🤗❤️🤗)
So pleased to see you smile.☺ At 2 pm I have to put my beloved 12yr old Kally my calico to sleep. My dear niece passed Nov 3rd age 40. I'm here watching over you. Love and hugs from USA. Tennessee 🙏💜🙏
Dear , stick to your meal plan, please 🙏 try to eat what's on the list, it's the safest for you, on unrelated note, I'm just curious to know where have you learned your English, your English is incredible my dear :)))) I can't get enough of listening to you , please take care of yourself, you are so loved, so needed , xxxx
I really appreciate you sharing your struggles with us and I’m so happy you’re up and at em. I am also going through some hard times but I’m trying to be positive like you 💜
I say go for it! It sounds like the quote could be life's way of guiding you. Hopefully, it will make eating slightly easier and living more enjoyable. Sending loads of love and heaps of hugs from New Zealand xxx
Like they say, you can read a book about playing guitar, understand every fingering, every chord, every note BUT eventually, you actually have to pick up the guitar! Thats why this is hard, you cant think you way out of an ED, you have to feel it and walk it WITH others that have done it. So, I would listen to your ED team about what THEY think is best right now, cuz your minds not trustworthy yet! Much love and support- and good job for sticking this out! 👏
@@liquefaith Ik weet niet of je mijn vorige bericht nog had gezien en beantwoord. Maar mag je naaf Halseren als je BMI hoger is? Anders vind ik het heel raar dat ze je geeneens een kans geven.
@@marjol3in heb je laatste bericht gemist denk ik… maar met een hoger bmi zouden ze het weer opnieuw beoordelen. Dat bmi moet echter mega veel hoger zijn. Als ik daar zelf kon komen, dan zou ik ze helemaal Niet meer nodig hebben wrs 🤪
@@liquefaith Nee, dan ben je inderdaad veel beter af zonder ze. Ik kan die kliniek in elk geval niet aanraden. De therapie was prima, maar alles eromheen drama.
I agree! I think it would be great if she could speak with her doctor more about ways she can continue to renourish herself and maybe some of these issues would fix themselves. I am working to gain weight and when I was at my lowest my liver enzymes were way off. They have improved a bit over time .. and her blood sugar would start to level out too 🙏
I am so sorry to hear about the wheelchair accident and very glad you survived it. You are a tough cookie amazon. Power wheelchairs are wonderful technology, yet I think they can be very dangerous. Please forgive me if you already know all this, but be careful if you ever need to be on a dock over water, on a deck, on narrow ramps, wet ramps or even near the edge of a sidewalk. also people coming near the joystick while its on. I had some very scary close calls when I used one a few years ago. Im praying the hospital has an unexpected vacancy for you soon.
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Please trust the process. Part of an eating disorder is the need for control, so it makes sense that you wish to change things up and feel like you decide what you eat. But you have to let go in order to heal. I would suggest to trust the food plan and don't change it
You're "devastated" because you're now on a 6--8 week hospital waiting list. But when you HAD a bed in an ED hospital, you left. Without medical permission. Only YOU don't see that YOU are entirely responsible for your situation.
You notice she will not reply to you, only to those who support her fantasy
@@dianestevens2659 I don't want to be negative but I think you are both right...the cycle continues. I feel like I see and say the same things video after video and nothing really changes. The basis is: almost dying..waiting for a plan...get a plan...and then blame who made the plan and start all over. Are we the only ones that see this? Dealing with health issues is awful..I know this firsthand..but at the end of the day you truly have to allow others to help..at least to get over the most difficult parts.
@@leanneeggenberger9127 i definately agree Leanne.Look back at the other videos from months ago.Same scenario.In one video she promises to eat on camera.She puts it down without touching it.I want to see her eat on camera.Many youtubers have a snack while they talk,so its not unusual.If she will eat infront of us,then i would say she is comfortable enough to move forward.I did actually suggest this,but my comment vanished !!!!!!!
@@yeahbro760 I think I saw that comment before it “mysteriously” vanished! Lol 😆 yes… it would be great to see at least a little bit of effort on her end for sure 👍🏻
@@leanneeggenberger9127 sometimes you just need to remove yourself and not worry anymore. Ultimately, Lique is responsible for her situation and recovery. If she ignores good advice then we must walk away or suffer burn out. All the comments saying she's doing great, we are praying for you etc do nothing but bolster her up to continue this behaviour.
Hey Lique, so glad to hear from you. [tw: calorie mention] As a recovered anorexic (not as severe though) I want to share my thought about exchanging foods from the meal plan. Eating the same food every day is challenging for everyone and it's completely understandable that you want some changes. However I think anorexia is often trying to sneak into these food choices. I assume the safest way to ensure it's not an ed-thought would be to still follow the mean plan but add things to it. For example having some cholocate as an additional snack, or adding different sauces and flavors to your meals. If you want to swap the meal though, I think it should be planned beforehand and it needs to have at least as many calories as the original meal. My anorexia would try to spare calories wherever it could, so having no "calorie advantage" would be essential for me in knowing if it's an ed thought or a genuine wish. You know your body and your condition best though, so please make sure that everything you eat is safe for you. Wishing you the best! I am always looking forward to your updates.
This sounds like really sensible advice.
Great advice!!
I just read that dark chocolate doesn't causes spikes in your blood sugar, so it's definitely a safe treat for diabetics. 😋
Great comment, great tip and medically sound advice.
Thank you for this good advice! 👍🏻🙏🏻❤️
Do NOT change the food list ♥
Already she is trying to control
@@dianestevens2659 yes the anorexia will try to control an eating disorder patients thoughts and actions. It can do this for months on end but Lique is stronger - she will win through.
I agree completely. At this stage don't trust your mind as it will be your ED. It will convince you that it is your gut or inner wisdom talking. Don't give your ed mind the slightest opening. Follow the food plan exactly!!!! 💖✔🌻
@@teainortakoy she’s been battling an ED for 30 years so I’d say the advice that was written here is very necessary. The ED is taking over again; this is why Lique is more jolly in this video than the previous ones. The feeling of control is satisfying the Anorexia
@@Naomi-rz2jj yes, I'm aware of that and completely agree with the advice to not change the food list. I was just making the point that anorexia will try to control a persons thoughts and actions so they need to fight against the ED voice.
My daughter was type 1, I am an expert when it comes to treating D. You can treat hypos fast with honey that if you place under your tongue absorbs faster. Then you grab a snack. Never ever treat a hypo under 4 with other than fast acting sugar source. The body needs the fast absorb to quickly spike the sugar then the snack keeps your sugar level. A way to help,yourself at night is a before bed snack with a slow acting carb plus protein like apple and cheese. She suffered from Diabulemia, so I understand eating disorder and diabetes. Keep fighting, let people help you. If it’s worth having … it’s worth doing everything you need to get there.
as a nurse you must treat it with glucose immediately or a person could go into respiratory arrest
Stick to the food list, you will have so much freedom to eat the things you want once you have recovered 😊 For now, trust the process 😊
Thanks Georgina… sounds like spoken from positive experience? Helpful 👍🏻💜
Trust in the process. Trust the doctors, the nurses, and the nutritionists. Your "body" does not know better. Your ED is trying to kill you.
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So glad you posted, I was starting to worry again. Sorry about your fall and hospital fiasco. You are such a strong woman I know you will beat this. I plan to still be watching you in 10 years living your best life.💕
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I was told while staying at the hospital (just a basic mental hospital) there's nothing they can do for me since I didn't agree with the meds they were giving me. So I walked out still worse than I've ever been, totally alone with my illness (anorexia).. Realizing there's nobody getting me through this but me was very scary. I had to believe I'm worthy without anybody saying so.
One question kept me going and I still ask myself when having difficult times ; "what options do I have? Live or not to live..which one I choose? " When I chose to live,I also chose to do something good for myself.
I Don't know if you got the idea,or does it help anybody.
You have it in you to fight this 💕
So true Ruth! Thank you for sharing this… and so good you made this decision! How are you doing now? 😘
You need to write a book xx
Your resilience and determination truly inspire me. Thank you so much for sharing your journey and always being there to remind me I’m not alone in my long and treacherous search for help and peace. Much love!
You are not alone indeed Lesley! Don’t give up sweetheart… we are in this together 🙏🏻💜
@@liquefaith funny you only respond to ones that agree with you the rest that dont you avoid
@@gailmbradford8027 have a better look dear. Not true at all 😏
Your videos are the light of my day ❤❤
So happy to hear that! 😘
Even though it's been decades since I've fallen into my ED, it's still with me every damn day! Every meal, every bite I fight with the demons in my head! It would be so easy for me to fall right back into my ED. But the fight for recovery has to conquer. Yes, there are days where I am so tired of fighting....so tired! But my determination is stronger than I ever thought it could be. I -don't want- refuse to be where I was before.
Lique, FIGHT! Fight with everything you've got! You have it in you! I know you do! If you don't, death will be the winner. I know some days it would be so much easier for you to just give in, but this *IS a fight YOU CAN WIN!* You have an entire lifetime ahead of you! Death is forever and I know that's something you don't want.
Be strong! Be determined and WIN! 💙💓💙💓
What Karmah said. ☝
I'm so glad you're here! It's been decades for me too now but you're right, it's always part of us. The way I started to think about it (instead of an exhausting endless fight for the rest of my life where some days, lots of days, it seemed easier to give up) was kind of like - "this is part of me but I get to decide." The more I told myself the story that I'm healthy and stronger than the ED, over time that started to be more "real" (feel more true) and it got easier to think of myself that way and EXPECT that every day. Keep winning!! 💗💗
Yahoo!!! That’s the spirit dear!!
We are in this together and WILL BEST THIS!💪🏻👍🏻
Rooting for you too sweetheart ❤️❤️
@@liquefaith And I for you! 💪💪💪💪
So happy to see you and hear your voice. I love the quote. Thank you.
You’ve had quite the unpleasant experiences with falling and the hospital bed being taken- yet still here you are, trying, prevailing and ultimately positive in the end.
I can’t advise on the eating plan. Because I have bipolar with severe mixed episodes, OCD and GAD I am struggling with my food intake daily.
I know many here will have valuable advise for you.
I send my support and love to you. Thank you for being here for us as well. ❤
Hi sweetheart! Thank your for your comment. And for sharing! Will be thinking of you too. Must be so hard to cope with all your challenges… you are not alone in this dear💪🏻 Don’t ever forget! 💖
@@liquefaith ❤️
to be honest the point where i noticed my body was reacting a little better on my treatment was exactly when i stopped listening to my body and started 100% listening to science and medical professionals. the feelings i had prior to that decision were very similar to yours.. sometimes i felt like i wanted something different, sometimes a little more sometimes a lot less and i genuinely believed that i could recognize the difference between my intuition and my disorder but in reality that couldn't be farther from the truth and everyone except me seemed to realize that and i remember being very unhappy believing people close to me couldn't understand me but as it turned out the only one that couldn't understand me at that time was myself.. and i was so sad because how could i not know myself the best when i'm the one who is living in this body and with this brain right? well as it turned out it was all the part of the illness..
i'm not sure i'll be able to accurately explain it in english but the way my doctor explained it to me was something in the lines of this: "how can you trust your intuition when that same intuition relies on using the very same part of your body that is the most stricken by the illness?.." so essentially i was trying to use that same sick malnourished brain of mine to try and make some sense of my own without even being aware of how impaired it was and that it was in no condition to see things realistically and rationally at all. then i was told that in front of me i had a lifetime of indulging cravings and enjoying tastes all i wanted but that i had to first survive if i ever wanted for that lifetime to be possible. and for me to get there i had to first do the hard work the right way and that meant that yes i wasn't always enjoying what i had on my plate and yes it was boring at times and terrifying at other times but the more i did it and the more power i gave to people around me the easier with time it became to deal with it and before i knew it i could finish my meal without a gallon of tears and i would just power through the boring ones knowing that by doing so at that moment i was creating that lifetime of enjoinment i was promised and these days i am able to happily munch on my snack remembering how i spend majority of my life being afraid of a piece of bread... letting go of that control and belief you think you know what's best for you is scariest thing you'll have to do in your recovery but i promise you the feeling of relief you get when you do it and the results at the end of it make it all worth it. so stay strong and remember to always do the next right thing💜
Great advice
So very true , everything you say 👍
Kao, did you follow a 12 step program?
Thank you so much for your share! Certainly a huge amount of wisdom… will take this by heart! 🙏🏻👍🏻😘
I'm happy to see you, always! It means you're still fighting the good fight to live. I'm so sorry about your fall and I'm glad you're getting better. You're in my prayers! Sending lots of love and hugs and hope and peace and prayers! 🥰❤
Many thanks Mary! 🙏🏻💜
Lique, I'm going to echo what others are saying: Stick to the hospital's food plan. Your knowledge of nutritional science IS getting in the way, & so is your ED. Trust the experts & do what they say. 🥰
And milk chocolate has too much sugar, but dark chocolate has less & doesn't make your blood sugar spike.😎
Love you, gurl! 🤗😘
Ok… thank you Heather 🙏🏻 💜
@@liquefaith 🥰
glad you've recovered from your fall, it's horrible to fall as an adult. Keeping a positive attitude is not always easy but you are doing well when you continue to do these videos , esp when you don't really feel like it, connection is so important, lots of love from New Zealand
I think you need to allow yourself some real down time & try not to think about your ED 24/7 please follow the food plan for now.
For an hour a day to start think back to things that brought you real joy and happiness whether it's watching a favorite film reading a book or a movie drawing singing in other words change your mood with the positive thoughts and actions believe you are stronger than this disorder we all have made mistakes & have regrets stop beating yourself up forgive yourself and love yourself MORE every day ❤️ and you will see positive results..
Let go & let God help you to help yourself.
Decide you are going to kick ass and you will all the best to you 🌻🌷⚘️💐💮🕊
She needs to be discussing this with her DR not youtube. SHE is on here for handouts. She isnt working and clearly her parents are paying for her to live also. STOP enabling this.
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Thank you Katherine 🙏🏻💜
Hi lique. While you are battling the eating disorder, I would suggest letting other people take the driver's seat and for you to follow the assigned food plan. With your knowledge, perhaps you can ask for things you want? You admitted that sometimes you think normally, and other times your eating disorder controls your thinking. Until you can manage your thoughts and take control of the disordered thoughts, try to give the driving wheel to others for now. I love your sweater by the way.
Yes, think you are right Gilraen… no experiments home alone… and work on this after hospital when I am in a safer state and place…
I will need to surrender on this I guess and not be stubborn 🤪🥴😘
@@liquefaith It is great how much progress you have made with not letting the eating disorder control all of your thoughts and habits. That shows that you DO truly want to recover. The frequency of the disordered will become less and less along the way as long as your keep fighting hard! Keep being the strong warrior!
Hey sweet lady! Thank you for the updates! I am still praying for you! I am believing for your complete recovery! You are so dearly loved! Your gonna get through this! God is with you and is for you!
Thank you Rachel! 🙏🏻❤️
My heart goes out to you with the hospital error and your fall from the wheelchair, I can feel how upset you were. Praying for you to overcome these difficult days and for brighter days to be in your future.
Love that quote!
Much love as always ❤️ xx
My violin is worn out from this lady
I'm soooo impressed by your strength. Really. I have to fight a lot of battles on my own, too. And your channel and posts give me the feeling of not beeing alone. And you inspire me to keep on fighting for my life. Dank je wel. Je bent so sterk💪
Soooooo welcome sweetheart! So happy to hear this!!
Je staat er zeker niet alleen voor lief 💜
Dankjewel voor je reactie! Houd de moed erin… er is ALTIJD hoop 🙏🏻💖
Dear sweet girl, your eating disorder is singing you a siren song that you should be controlling your food choices. If you were able to do this, you would not be so desperately ill. Call your nutritionist and ask for some variety. You will be able to make these choices later, but not yet. Pray for patience and humbleness. The hardest thing is giving up control. This quote you love is for a well person, not yet for you, but in the future. Now you must let those with the medical knowledge to minister to you. Love you very much .
That comes from a wise place… thank you Jet.. 🙏🏻💜
Very good advice :)
I pray for your healing. You have a beautiful smile!!!!! I love it. You helped me today to feel better just seeing you smile and laugh. It’s hard to do during a struggle but very much needed. Bless your heart. Thank you ❤
Sooooo welcome April! 🥰
Hi Lique, I love watching your videos. You have an amazing personality and you always make me feel so positive.
Earlier this month I lost my friend to anorexia, she had barely reached her 18th birthday when she died. I miss her so much every day, and sometimes I wonder if things could have been different had I done more to help her. It made me realise the importance of stepping in and helping someone before it's too late.
If there is any way I can be here for you and support you, please let me know how, because I would love to do that. I hope that you get through this and recover, and that when you do you will have so much to be grateful for in your life and you will be as happy as you possibly can be.
Please believe in yourself, because I truly believe in you. I know you can do this 💜
Hi Josie, thank you so much for sharing this! And my sincere condolences for losing your friend… May I give my opinion on this? You probably couldn’t have helped her in any way more than you did. Since loving her has been the most important FOR SURE! And your share makes totally clear you loved her. I really hope you can find peace that you could not have changed it. That would have been up to her only sadly enough…
It is wonderful how you feel the need to help others that can still be helped. That is a wonderful gift she also gave you. I am thankful you are here with me too! Never forget that this is worthy in itself… big hug dear! 😘
I needed to hear this today! I’ve had a difficult few days, as well. It’s getting colder here. I live in Utah, USA. Cold brings a lot more pain with fibromyalgia and CFS/ME. I’m finally getting on palliative care, but I still try to avoid opioids. I’ve been so nauseous, it’s hard to ingest much. I have only a couple of goals. I want to write a book, and I want to go to Italy. But, my main goal is to be able to spend time with my children and grandchildren. I’m so tired of not feeling well. Thank you for sharing your sweet spirit with us! I appreciate you! ❤
God bless You Kristi. Sorry to hear, You are suffering so much😣♥️. Opioids are addictive, but at the same time helpful. Take care. Hugs from across the pond🇵🇱❣️
Fibro warrior here. I'm just up aways from you in North Idaho. Cold temps make the pain worse, I think. Have you asked for medical THC? It should be available for palliative patients. It REALLY helps with nausea. And CBD really helps reduce pain.
I have GAD too. On a proton pump inhibitor medication, but still have so many foods & drinks that make the acid reflux worse. Wishing you the best, Kristi!🥰
Do not give up. We are supporting you & praying for you.
Thank you Pamela 🙏🏻💜
It's good to see you again , so good that you decided to connect with us again and not "disappear under your blankets" that you felt like doing. Please don't dissappear, we love you.
Your words about setbacks which feel bad but help us to learn and about us all being in this together resonated with me and brought me comfort on an otherwise challenging day.
Don't worry about those weeks of waiting, take one day at the time.
Sending you love and hugs.
Thank you dear! 🙏🏻💜
You have such a beautiful spirit ❤️ keep shining your light !!!
Thank you Mayte ❤️
Great to see you🧡you have great insight into the mental health component of ED. Are you able to do therapy while waiting for the hospital bed? You can do this! Keep your Faith stronger than your fear🙏
Hi Sweetie!! oh so happy to see you and my heart is so happy every time I get an update! ((BIG HUGS)) As a "science" person who has ED and recovered I have tips! First the medical stuff: I'm glad you have a CGM (continuous glucose monitor) because that will make it more convenient than finger-stick testing yourself through the night. Yes, it is not as accurate, but with your doctor's instructions it should give you an idea about how to manage your blood glucose and they can help you with when to use the other meter. The reactive hypoglycemia that you're experiencing is often hard to figure out - they think that anorexia can cause (or exacerbate) it but so can existing metabolic disorders and, yes, certain abdominal surgeries. Additionally, liver function is wrapped up in these processes so it's really GOOD that they are going to assess you further and not just ascribe what is happening to you as a result of the ED. Ideally you'll be able to manage this by eating during WAKING hours .. but in the meantime, keep following all their instructions about night times. Speaking of following instructions: menu changes: what I'd recommend (as someone else posted too) is sticking with your hospital prescribed meal plan as closely as you can but also ask your dietician about adding more appetizing elements like toppings or sides or sauces that are additional calories within your safe foods. You don't want to give yourself the flexibility to completely stray off path and "sometimes I want to eat less" - a routine is super helpful for awhile! Speaking for myself listening to my body in active ED phase was NEVER a good thing. My sense of hunger and satiety didn't work and what sounded good to me was often not really good for me. Chocolate can be included in your healthy diet because there are diabetic friendly forms and it might even be an approved thing for when your glucose is so low that you need a fast acting carbohydrate, etc. Also food combinations and combining foods has a lot to do with how our body metabolises them so a fast acting high glycemic food (like chocolate candy) may cause less of a spike/dip in glucose when also paired with protein or with a complex carbohydrate. Do some research on food combining and blood sugar and ask your doctor and dietician to help you modify your menu. As you know, sometimes they DO want your blood sugar to rise quickly when it is too low. OK now the spirit side: All this science knowledge is GREAT but it all boils down to an inner decision - "I am getting better and getting healthier and my body can support the great creativity and joy of my spirit." - SPIRIT overrides everything else so the story you tell yourself about food and being healthy can change. You are writing the script in a lot of ways and what you decide will be your experience.... God/Universe/Spirit or whatever we call it lets us guide ourselves and yet that energy wants us to LIVE and not die, to help and not recede, to function and not decline. So just imagine that every decision that you make that aligns with that IS ALREADY DONE - is already in the works, is already happening!
Fear of losing control or pain is totally normal. But you can decide, "I am deciding that it is OK for me to be healthy and feel good through eating." This sounds silly woo woo but it really helped me to keep "watering" that flower and that decision to get better instead of watering the weeds. You don't have to feel sure or believe it all the time... just keep trying every day. I'm thinking of you every day and prayers and hugs are always right there with you!! 🤗🥰
Wow… what an enormous helpful and inspiring comment! I will print this one and do the research you recommend. Don’t have a dietician now in fortunately since the hospital doesn’t offer outpatient care. But I will take your tips by heart. Thank you so much! 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️👍🏻👍🏻
I love your giggle and smile! 💜 Please talk with your nutritionist before making any changes in your diet. I’m sorry you were injured with your wheelchair. Big hug from Utah, USA! 💜💙🩵😍😘
I love your personality. You are such a sweet yet a strong woman! Wish you the best.. good things will happen to those who wait 👍
Thank you dear! 😘
Stick to the food plan! Ask your doctors before switching up your diet. They may allow you to eat some different foods, but don’t jeopardize your health before you talk to them!
Yes, good tip…
So glad to hear from you. I am sorry about your fall. I hope the hospital can get things straighten out. It always seems like one thing after another. But you're a strong person and you will make it. Sending love and prayers to you always. Stay strong.!
Something is happening off. Just shouldn’t be that hard to get into a hospital . Although when she finally did get in , she left anyway so that may be why they are bumping her admission .
Hi Lique I was so happy to see your beautiful face and smile. I'm sorry that you fell but I am so happy that your ok. Please keep the same menu. I know in my mind that your stronger then those demons in your head your head but don't give up and let them win. Stay strong and keep sending us messages. God bless you everyday. Lots of love and hugs from Scottsdale Arizona.
Thank you Linda… you are probably right 😏🙄 Hug back to you! 💜
Like others have said, you need to try to let go of control with different things, especially with food, because like you’ve said, you can’t trust your judgment at this point. So, please just stick with a diet if they gave you a specific one to follow right now.
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So glad to see you! Loving the positivity! Hopefully you can get into hospital soon, and get on the way to getting help. Keep hanging on, your not alone you have the Lord number one, and all of us! Love&Prayers🙏🏻❤
Thank you Kendra 💜
Can you eat animal based foods? I would try red meat, other meats, eggs, cheese, kefir, butter, goats milk and kefir too, also a great addition to your diet could be icelandic cod liver in its own oil, taste is mild and is super rich in vit A and D and minerals and natural omega 3. It is so rich that a can of it should be eaten maybe once a week.
If you tolerate rice you can have it with it. Some fruit and avocado maybe some easy veg. That would help you immensely in few weeks you would heal so much.
I know you mean well but Lique has to follow a very strict plan. Look up refeeding syndrome.
I’m so sorry to hear about the mishap with your wheelchair! I hope the healing progresses smoothly. Please don’t deviate from your meal plan without consulting with your dietician. I say this with affection: you need objective help with food decisions at the moment.
I suppose you are right Miranda… thank you 🙏🏻❤️
Awe! So sorry to hear about your fall! And yea that hospital sure does make a lot of mistakes! I’m sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes from your friend!❤❤❤
yes, you would say that they would do it right for once, wouldn't you? But let's be honest, she's not really cooperating, is she? Then They give that spot to the people who really want it! However, she has already had so many chances and sometimes someone else takes the place when its there first time.
Yep. She sounds a little entitled. She left the facility and now wants to return readily. She honestly could have been well on her way to recovery and finished the program by the time it will take her to get back in. Wish she had been more grateful for the opportunity and holding on to dare life to resolve any issues at the hospital while she was there the first time. Her ED is severe
Hi Jolie, may I ask why you are here? And how you are doing? Being so negative won’t make anyone happy… lastly yourself… is there anything I can help YOU with? I would be happy to do so!
Thank you Yvette! 💜
@@liquefaith Everyone can have their own opinion and can certainly express it! If you don't like it, don't make videos! In addition, it is simply noticeable that you manipulate the system and do not take the good that is due to you as help! You have been given so many opportunities but every time you fail, of course they are done with you at some point and prefer to give the care to someone who can appreciate it and that's how the universe works!
You are so precious and such a blessing ❤ I hope you know how much you inspire others to not give up . Never let go of your faith . You are special to our Lord Jesus and special to all of us . Thank you Lique❤
Soooo welcome Martha! And thank you for telling me this… ❤️🙏🏻
I am so pleased to hear from you💓
I had been worried and wondering since last video. You are always in my prayers, just a bump in the road, we are doing this together.
Thank you Ava 💜💜
God bless you and all that you have to go through every day. You inspire me to try and live my best life. To not give up when I get tired of trying. You may not know it or even believe it but you are an incredibly strong woman. You keep getting up no matter how many times you get knocked down. You sometimes might take a few steps back in your recovery but you keep pushing forward. That takes real inner strength. Keep doing what your doctors tell you. They know what is best. I firmly believe that soon you will be admitted to a hospital and this time you will get the proper care that you so desperately want and need. I continue to pray and ask God to watch over you and keep you safe. Please take care and NEVER GIVE UP🙏❤️🙏❤️
She is using all of you. She comes on here with her long list of maladies demanding we donate to her paypal and gofundme etc. She has enough money to buy a house.
Thank you so much Julie! 😍
Dear Kath, may I ask why you are here? And how you are doing? Being so negative won’t make anyone happy… lastly yourself… is there anything I can help YOU with? I would be happy to do so! Love to you too dear… I really feel you may need that now more than anyone else… ❤️
Wonderful video and not too long. Through all your mishaps, you are full of life and expressing yourself very well.❤️
Thank you Teresa 💜
I’m so glad to see a video from you. I pray for you to continue to get stronger. We are here for you.
Thank you Jenn 😘
I really liked the quote. Thank you
Welcome dear!
So glad to see you, I’m glad things are moving along. Please just listen to what they recommend to you, they are there to help you, I know it’s hard for you sometimes with that situation, you’ll be in my thoughts for sure...keep your head up and try to stay positive! Remember we are all here for you and praying for you as well!😊👍
Thank you so much Mike! 🙏🏻😘
Love the quote!!! Great to see you again!!!
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Hi Lique, I am so sorry about your fall, Im glad you are healing and feeling better from that. I am also sorry for all of the confusion going on in this hospital. I am so glad to see you and that you posted this video. I don’t know if it helps you to know that you are not alone in all of the tormenting thoughts and feelings you have at times. I have them too. When I am feeling desperate and in pain( which for me can mean feeling like I don’t want to be here anymore.) As soon as I can, I pray and I give it to God. I tell Him I need Him to help me. I then remind myself that God created every person for a purpose. He has plans for our lives and I thank Him that He is in control. He loves us so much that He died for us on the cross and rose again so that we can have eternal life with Him. I know it can be so difficult to trust anyone. You can always trust Him, because He is the same, yesterday, today and forever. His unchanging love is forever. ❤ I love you and you are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending love and hugs from Texas.
p.s. in Texas instead of saying bye guys, we mostly say, bye Y’all. Y’all is the Texan slang word for saying you all. 😅 you probably already know this though since your English is excellent. 💖😊💖
What a wonderful share and testimony Sarah… thank you so much sister!
And I smiled about the y’ all 😁
I have been in Texas and LOVED it there! The relaxed way of living and the way people treat foreigners made me feel so welcome. Happy to have you Texan woman here too 😍
FOLLOW YOUR MEAL PLAN!!!!!!!! - it is there for a reason. It is time to give up control
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Hugs. Stick with the food list. The time you will follow it is temporary - and necessary to make sure your life is not (temporary). I know this is a difficult time ...during an already very difficult time, but I hear a strength in you - it's there and it's there for a reason. Following it, keep to that path of FAITH that you can and will not only survive but THRIVE. One moment at a time, one day at a time. In that sense there is no difference between any of us. Humanity joins us in all of our flaws and perfections and everything in-between. Continue
to help yourself and to help others because in the end only the kindness matters and you're far from the end my dear. Hold hands with that strength within and look back. Look how far you've come, not how far you have yet to go. We ARE WITH YOU.
Thank you so much dear Nancy! 🙏🏻💜
get them to place a j tube and prescribe formulas and exact ammounts. Stick to that and, you will survive. You can add snacks and come off of the tube as you are stronger to work through your eating dissorder but it would be the easiest way to refeed and have the specific ammounts they want you to have. Is that possible?
She doesn't want a J Tube. The issue is that she doesn't want to gain weight at all. Wants to survive but won't do anything about it Now we are back to waiting for a hospital bed, just like groundhog day, and the cycle will continue.
@@dianestevens2659 no doubt she needed to stay in if she wanted to survive. they WERE bad but it would have saved her life.
It’s so good to see you, I was so horrifed to hear you fell with your chair i gasped. I pray for your full recover so you don’t need that chair anymore. Your a smart women keep trying to make the best food choices you possibly can. I hope you get your plan and back into the hospital soon. Thanks for the quote. ❤❤❤
Thank you Linzie! And welcome too. Happy you liked the quote 🙂😘
YOU NEED A PSYCHOLOGIST MORE THAN ANYTHING. WHILE RECOVERING U NEED A GOOD THERAPIST. OTHERWISE, IT WILL NOT WORK U WILL KEEP RUNNING AWAY.
Yes… but don’t have one dear…
@@liquefaith get one!!! why don't you have one? this must be covered by public health insucrance in the netherlands as in the rest of europe! and if not - please use the money from the go fund me!! psychological help is so so important when dealing with a mental illness!!
@@UU-mt4wv go fund money spent on hospice and aftercare dear. Psych that are covered dont help me now. They say I need to recover first physically before therapy is usefull 🥴
@@liquefaith I've never ever heard of psycholigists/psychotherapists not being covered bc one isn't physically recovered when it comes to a mental disorder........
Well, at least you will have that help once you're in hospital again :) if you can financially, there are cheaper online therapy options.
Angelique, I can see such life shining through your eyes, and it’s wonderful to see that! You are a very resilient person, so I know you can get through one day at a time, until the hospital will be available. You might be alone physically but we are all with you spiritually, and care about you. Pop on any time for a chat, it doesn’t always have to be an update. 🥝 ❤
So sweet! Thank you 💖
I hope you can heal and help others since you understand your disorder so well I really feel you could help so many others
Thank you Bria
Thank you for your honesty!❤
Welcome dear! 🙏🏻💜
Your posts are not long enough! I could listen to your sweet voice all day! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
May I suggest on your darkest days, look back at your posts and see how amazing you are❤....I have no medical qualifications, but I would say, if you want a treat , have it! Some extra sustenance spiritually and physically sounds good. Go well sweet Angel x x
Hi, good to see you again. I was wondering how things have been with you. I think of you often and say to myself if she's pushing through day by day then I can too. I look forward to more updates from you. Hang in there, you got this! We are all praying or sending positive vibes your way. We love you!❤ take care.💞
Angelique! 💜 So good to see you! I’ve been up almost 24 hours now. Longgg story. Chronic illness problems, which I already know you understand well 😩 I’m going to take in everything you’ve said, and after I’ve had some rest, I’ll be back with a more detailed response. I just want you to know that I’m thinking about you and sending you all the love.
There’s no doubt in my mind re: whether or not you want to get well. Whoever is doubting needs to quit. Of course you want to get well. I know this is what you desire most for yourself, 100%. But healing is not easy, recovery is not a linear process. And when you have an eating disorder, or OCD (both of us have this), you’re two different people. You’re light, and you’re shadow, all in one. Your light, rational side is who you really are. Your shadow, irrational, ill side is like an abusive partner, telling you to do all the things that are bad for you and being a total jerk. Someone who hasn’t experienced this for themselves won’t understand. Supporting you 1000%. I’m so happy you have the monitor in your arm for your hypos ❤️
Okay okay I’ll get some sleep now. Be back later. HUGE HUG FROM USA 💜💜💜
Brandi 💜
I’m back! :) I’ve had a think on all the things you’ve updated us on. I pretty much covered my main thoughts earlier ❤️ but want you to know that I’m hoping the best for you, re: time you’ll have to wait until you have a bed again. I’m believing that you will have another option, perhaps a better option (better hospital), that will present itself long before the hospital welcomes you back.
I’m so, so sorry you suffered more illness since you’ve been back, and that you fell 😢 Please take care, dear.
Angelique, this might be a little overwhelming for you, so I won’t bug you about it - I’ll say it just once, and leave everything else to you and what you’re comfortable with: you can talk with us all about any traumas, any fears, that you have, anytime. I think it’s great that you’re taking the time to reflect on a root cause of your suffering. You’re so self-aware, smart, and I have no doubt that you’ll pull through this :) :) :)
_The greater the testing, the greater the blessing_ 💕 Hang in there 💓💓💓
Thank you SO MUCH Brandi… you keep amazing me with your courage, insides and sensitivity… You are so brave yourself!! Rooting for you too sweetheart. With you in thoughts and prayers! 🙏🏻🙏🏻💜💜
@@liquefaithHey girl! I thank you so much, you’re too kind 🙏❤️ We got this!! ⭐️✨
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Lique, gentle hug of you, I'm here in Orlando, FL USA. Prayers for you. I know some thing of what you are living each day as I have diagnosis of rare inherited bone disease. Some days I just cry, feel I want to scream as I pray my bone disease won't grow worse in pain. Adjusted everything to my disease, I know about adjustments made to live life. Yes, I'm on restricted diet, a special diet the Mediterrainian Diet. However, having diagnosis of diabetes, important to know what you can eat & what isn't allowed.
Dear Kathryn, you are so brave! What a challenge to cope with… am thinking of you too! You are not alone dear 🙏🏻❤️
I’m glad that you have the cgm sensor! It’s a wonderful tool! I’m sorry that Rotterdam hospital fell through, but I’m glad that you’re still working on your health. I loved your quote!❤️
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Lots of 💕 and light 🤗
You are such a sweetheart Lique. ❤️You know I just want you to know your videos could never be too long! Don’t ever worry about that bcuz we love hearing from you!💗 I am SO praying for you to get into Rotterdam or the soonest good place that can take you. I pray so much for the Lord to keep your body going! He has been doing an incredible thing in you Lique. I wanted to share something with you. I’ve listened to you from your first video. I was reading this tonight and thought of you.
It’s 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7. “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” I see these all in you. The way you show love to us, & to people I hear you talk about even in the hospital who were hard to get along with. You showed love. How we love YOU Lique!!! I want you to know that the last part of those verses,
“always perseveres.”
is what is so incredible to have witnessed in your life since I saw your very first video months ago. Yes as you said you are still here!!💗💗And you will be! We are here with you and love you! Blessings to you whether it’s day or night over in the Netherlands.💗🙏🏻
Wow Heidi… what a beautiful comment… and what a huge compliment… The Bible verse about love is sooooo special too…
I don’t think I am able to embody that but God is doing His work. And I am more thankful to hear how you experience that 🥰
So thankful for your prayers and love and kindness. That means a lot to me Heidi! 💜❤️💖🙏🏻
Soooo schön dich zu sehen meine Liebe!Es ist einfach so ungerecht das gerade bei dir solche Fehler passieren!!
Aber du bist stark,du schaffst auch das!Pass gut auf dich auf!
Danke Dir herzlich Maritta! 💖
I am praying for you daily as I re-listen to your videos. I dream of you being able to get healthy enough to complete and release your book. I would love to know about nutrition from your perspective. We know you are brilliant Angelique. This severe eating disorder is so sad and I know you can overcome it with the right tools. I am so frustrated with the Netherlands that you have not been admitted yet.
Thank you so much dear. That is really helpful… 🙏🏻❤️
❤ You are on the right track, although many problems seems to follow your fights ❤ I am so proud of you! Schocked by your fall out of the wheelchair, 😢😢😢 🤭 I myself have never struggled with eatingdisorder, ( only get my fat OFF my body…) Thank you for staying beside you and learn about your health/ diagnosis! I am much older than you, but want to , in a good way, be a friend/ supporter/ ‘ your older sis’. Praying for you ❤️🙏❤️🙋♀️ Really wish you better days, you deserve it FULLY! Grete ( from Norway)
Do sweet of you Grete, thank you! ❤️❤️
Love how your quotes help you grow!! You are not alone, we are with you all the way!?
Thank you Sylvia! 🙏🏻💜
So glad to see you again. I worry when you don’t upload but I also understand that sometimes you just haven’t got the energy or you just need your own space. And that’s ok just as long as you’re not shutting yourself away with your anorexia.
I get that you want to be eating different foods. But what I will say is that asking the community isn’t going to be helpful & that’s not a criticism, just my opinion.
If you want to change your menu plan then the best thing you can do is speak to a dietitian or whoever gave you the meal plan you have now.
Once you start changing things on your own it’s giving the anorexia fuel to take over.
So please Angelique don’t change ANYTHING until you’ve spoken to a professional, it will only set you back.
I hope I haven’t upset you by saying that. I just care & want to see you gain strength & have your rational voice over take the anorexic one.
I did laugh when you said you guys & then said that doesn’t sound right I think dears is better.
Here in England, at least this part of London we all say guys & dears sounds strange. It’s more associated with an elderly person.
Thought I’d give you something to laugh about 😂.
Funny how different phrases are so different in other parts of the world.
Anyway, thought I’d end this on a lighter not.
I’m glad you’ve recovered from your wheelchair accident.
Your body was strong enough to heal itself from that so take strength from that. The things your body is going through is very difficult yet you keep going & it’s showing just how strong it is and how it’s able to heal itself.
Take care & stay strong.
Sending love, ❤xx
Thank you so much for your honest response! Not offended at all. And I think it is wise advice. Will listen to it. And YES: you made me laugh now too! 😁 love back dear 😘💜
Bodies are intuitive in healthy people with no Eating Disorders but unfortunately,with my respect,in your case your intuition is unreliable
Follow your meal plan and have a chat with the Dietitian
Good Luck
Hugs 😊
Dietician not available outside hospital… but I take your advice seriously Elizabeth. Thank you 😘
@@liquefaith And you,my dear,are most welcome 🙏
Angelique, you are doing so much better than you are giving yourself credit for ❤️ Your brain can lash out against removing this numbness because it is trying to protect you from processing a life of past trauma. In that weird, twisted way your body is trying to be kind to you. And so, your instincts will not always be right, but they will **ALWAYS** be brave. ❤
That is such a beautiful way to put it! Thank you Anna 🙏🏻💖
Hi sweetheart!! 🌸 I am so happy you are recovering from your fall. I see in you , someone that is fighting to stay alive!!! Yes, you’ve had setbacks, but this is a battle, just don’t give up! I don’t have experience with Ed so I can’t give advice on that. I do appreciate everyone’s wisdom though, and advice because they’ve been through what you are going through and many have recovered. So great to hear all of these amazing stories. Listen to all, and discern for yourself your next steps. It sure sounds like wise advise to go with a meal plan, add what your body will allow to that plan, sounds sensible!!! I myself would listen to those who have gone through what you have and are survivors!!! I would try my best not to listen and take to heart the negative comments. Try to concentrate on those who love l, and want to support your recovery dear. I think most people on here care for you enough to take the time to try to help. Some people are just more straight forward, they are what my gram called straight shooters! They don’t sugar coat a thing, that’s ok too! She used to say do you want a nice man that’s not quite so qualified to do your surgery, fly your plane, and so on, or do you want someone that is highly qualified??? I hope I’d choose the the most qualified!!🥰 Much love to you sweetheart, you are in my prayers!🙏🏻❤️
That is such wise and sound advice. Thank you very much Kathy! 💜😘
Thankyou dear!!!🙏🏻❤️
That's exactly how a drug addict must fight!Day by day&bit by bit it's the only way you can survive&live a healthy,happy life!I wish you the power to go on fight for your life pls don't follow the past of anorexia nervosa i know it's soo hard but i promise it will be better!
Thank you dear! 👍🏻🙏🏻😘
It’s so, so good to hear from you, Lique. I’m no expert on anorexia and how the complexities of diet choices can be affected, so I can’t give advice on that, but I just wanted to send you love. You are honestly one of the most beautiful souls I have ever come across, and I think of you often. It’s an odd feeling to care so much and feel so invested in and proud of somebody who is essentially a stranger, but I really do feel that. I wholeheartedly believe you can do this. I’m unsure as to why anybody would question your will to stay here and your longing to thrive, it shines out of your every pore. Keep fighting, we are all behind you 💛
That is SO sweet of you! Really encouraging too. Thank you so much! 💜🙏🏻
Honey you should find a good mental health professional to help you find your way through this. Also, when you get in the hospital again let them treat you their way, not yours. Your way has gotten you to this point so it has not been a success. You look like you are running out of time to recover. You seem like such a kind person. Everyone here is rooting for your success.
Yes… 👍🏻😔
Hey its lovely to hear from you. For me while out of hospital I would be listening to my hunger ques even though I know they could be wrong at times. I had to be careful not to to eat too much or too little though so I had to set myself limits. I've recently heard of intuitive eating which might be worth checking out as I dont know much about it. I think it would be great to try/test out different foods as I was amazed with all the different flavours I had missed out on for ages. I've been in a bad mood recently also and it has been frustrating but I'm holding on to the hope of a better minute/ hour/day eventually! Take care xx
Intuitiv eating would be deadly for her at the moment! She really needs the stable calories and such. Also you need to be far into recovery for this, which dhe is not yet
@@Judoka26 thank you for giving more information on the intuitive eating as i was not fully aware of how it could work xx
Love you so much Angelique. Greatest Woman and Warrior I've ever known!!!! You explained everything!!! I have no doubts about you!!! You are so strong!!!
You are so sweet Keith! Thank you 🥰
@@liquefaith you helped me change when all my friends deserted me....I will always hold you close to me...I will always love you no matter what happens ❤️✊️
@@KeithWickliffe79 o dear… so happy to hear that… Am here for you too! Never hesitate to reach out. Big hug!! 💜
So happy to see a new update from you! I’m so glad that you got one of those arm sensors! They make life so much easier if you have diabetes!
As for the food plan, I do think that you probably aren’t to the point where you can trust your body because of the eating disorder but is it possible to talk to the nutritionist / dietician at the hospital that gave you the plan to discuss if they can help you add some variety to your plan to make it easier and more enjoyable to follow?
Love and prayers from Canada!
Hi dear! I dont get help from the hospital or dietician while I am home… find that hard. So have to figure out myself how to adjust. One day at the time… thanks for the tip though! 👍🏻😘
@@liquefaith I don’t see why you can’t make a few swaps in your plan yourself then. As long as the foods are suitable for your diabetic and intestinal issues. I would recommend keeping the same food category though, like swapping a protein item for another protein, starch for starch and fat for a fat item as long as you keep the calories the same. Do NOT, however, give in to any temptation to reduce calories as that is your ED trying to take over, but if they are healthy swaps of similar foods and calories stay the same then I think you can mix things up a bit and still keep the plan in place for the most part. I know that goes against what many people are saying but I think if done carefully, then some adjustments and swaps could be made some days without jeopardizing the plan.
Thank you for the update, I was thinking about you this week. Keep fighting for your life, it is hard to see the difference between what your Eating Disorder is telling you or your if your rational voice inside is telling you what to do. I forget what my non ED would do because my ED has been in charge for so long . I understand that. Keep posting, I look forward to hearing from you. Know that your loved❤ I hope you post again soon.
Thank you so much dear! 🙏🏻💜
Wishing positive thoughts, with happy and healthy days ahead for you!!❤
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Hello Beautiful Angel of the internet...I just got in from work and couldn't get to this fast enough. So happy to hear from you. I am so sorry that there are so many hiccups and OMG Please Keep Posting. I am so sorry about your fall and debacle with the hospital... Oh but I am so happy that we are seeing you and hearing from you. ❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️ Yes devastating events but My God look at the warrior...the determined fighter that is inside 🥰 Don't deviate from your hospital food plan. Your current overall health depends on it. 🤗 Looking forward to your next video ❤️🌹❤️🌹❤️ (Your videos ARE never ever too long 🤗❤️🤗)
You are SO SWEET! 🥰
Thank you… 😘
@@liquefaith thank you for sharing you...with all of us ❤️🌹❤️
Nice to see,you my sweet Girl
You are going through such a difficult time but will over come
Warm Hugs 🤗
So pleased to see you smile.☺
At 2 pm I have to put my beloved 12yr old Kally my calico to sleep. My dear niece passed Nov 3rd age 40. I'm here watching over you. Love and hugs from USA.
Tennessee 🙏💜🙏
My sincere condolences dear Donna… 🙏🏻💜
Thank you for being here 😘
@@liquefaith
Than( you sweetness
No don't disappear. We all love you. Keep going girl, you are doing great. X
Thank you dear 🙏🏻💜
@@liquefaith thank you for all of your updates and courage in adversity. X
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I love the quotes,it's so wonderful to see you,thank you for being a Bright light in so many lives.
Dear , stick to your meal plan, please 🙏 try to eat what's on the list, it's the safest for you, on unrelated note, I'm just curious to know where have you learned your English, your English is incredible my dear :)))) I can't get enough of listening to you , please take care of yourself, you are so loved, so needed , xxxx
Thank you so much!
I just learned English at school, like everybody else 🙃 But I like languages and speak several. Just one of my interests 🙂
Praying for you, darling
Thank you Eleni 🙏🏻❤️
I really appreciate you sharing your struggles with us and I’m so happy you’re up and at em.
I am also going through some hard times but I’m trying to be positive like you 💜
So glad to hear!! 👍🏻💪🏻
We are in this together sweetheart 😘
I say go for it! It sounds like the quote could be life's way of guiding you. Hopefully, it will make eating slightly easier and living more enjoyable. Sending loads of love and heaps of hugs from New Zealand xxx
Thank you Millie 😘
Love to hear from you❤️ You are always in my prayers. Please keep hope 🙏 and remember you are loved ❤️
Thank you Carl! 😘
Im here for you! Good to see you smile!
Like they say, you can read a book about playing guitar, understand every fingering, every chord, every note BUT eventually, you actually have to pick up the guitar! Thats why this is hard, you cant think you way out of an ED, you have to feel it and walk it WITH others that have done it. So, I would listen to your ED team about what THEY think is best right now, cuz your minds not trustworthy yet! Much love and support- and good job for sticking this out! 👏
Get that! But I dont have any help the coming two months… so noone to tell me what or how to do it alone at home when not able to cook etc… 🙄
@@liquefaith Ik weet niet of je mijn vorige bericht nog had gezien en beantwoord. Maar mag je naaf Halseren als je BMI hoger is? Anders vind ik het heel raar dat ze je geeneens een kans geven.
@@marjol3in heb je laatste bericht gemist denk ik… maar met een hoger bmi zouden ze het weer opnieuw beoordelen. Dat bmi moet echter mega veel hoger zijn. Als ik daar zelf kon komen, dan zou ik ze helemaal
Niet meer nodig hebben wrs 🤪
@@liquefaith Nee, dan ben je inderdaad veel beter af zonder ze.
Ik kan die kliniek in elk geval niet aanraden. De therapie was prima, maar alles eromheen drama.
@@marjol3in 😔🙏🏻
It’s is certainly possible that liver/pancreas have been damaged from severe malnutrition from ED.
I agree! I think it would be great if she could speak with her doctor more about ways she can continue to renourish herself and maybe some of these issues would fix themselves. I am working to gain weight and when I was at my lowest my liver enzymes were way off. They have improved a bit over time .. and her blood sugar would start to level out too 🙏
Smooch, big hug! So good to hear from you today.
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I am so sorry to hear about the wheelchair accident and very glad you survived it. You are a tough cookie amazon. Power wheelchairs are wonderful technology, yet I think they can be very dangerous. Please forgive me if you already know all this, but be careful if you ever need to be on a dock over water, on a deck, on narrow ramps, wet ramps or even near the edge of a sidewalk. also people coming near the joystick while its on. I had some very scary close calls when I used one a few years ago.
Im praying the hospital has an unexpected vacancy for you soon.
Yes, I had some ‘almost gone wrong’ experiences with that too… will be even more careful now. Thankful I do have my wheelchair though! 🙏🏻😘
Lyith I'm praying for you love and hugs from Georgia ❤️ 🙏🙏🙏❤️
Thank you, love back! 😘
Keep the faith. I am praying for you
Thanks… 🙏🏻❤️
Keep up the good work! Your looking better already!! 👍🏼👼🏼
Hang in there you are very inspiring I will pray for you 🙏 ❤️ God bless you and keep you in faith 🙏 😊 ❤️
You can buy multivitamins with iodine. Get one which also contains selenium as you must take selenium to maintain balance in the thyroid. Nuts contain selenium but you may be intolerant