This is how I feel. When I'm hypomanic, I feel so alive and like a "real" person. I can actually get everything done, and I can manage work stuff plus parenting and general hygienic care. And the days flow and I feel absolutely amazing.
I always know when I’m manic (hypomania since I’m bipolar 2) now because I become obsessed over things. I stay up all night researching, planning, making lists. My spending becomes hard to control. My favorite one was when I started training for a marathon, only to train up to 7 miles just to become depressed and not run for like 3 months after that. 🙄
Girl....I found my birth parents on a hypomania trip and it ruined my entire life 😭😂😂😂 it's been a little over two years so I'm a little better about it......
Literally me, I started messaging people I hadn't seen for 8 years, tried to find my Birth Parents on Ancestry, got round to practising my theory, sold a lot of shit, didn't sleep for 4 days, and went for 20 mile walks every day, and fucking loved it. That lasted for 4 days. If you don't already, I found that going to the gym and having a routine has helped me immensely but I'm still a absent minded neanderthal.
I distinctly recall a time where I realized I was hypomanic (I wasn't diagnosed yet, I just knew I was on a different wave length) I was at work, and people were tired, and sipping coffee while I was talking a mile a minute at 7:30am. I tried to "calm myself down" and come down to everyone else's level.
I was once hypomanic for 3 months. It was really tough. Mania isn’t just happy. It’s euphoria and rage and sexuality all bundled into one and your thought process is altered. Really bad ideas seem like really good ideas and you know you’re destroying yourself and scaring those around you, but you can’t stop. Thank you for these videos.
I had mania i decided to be president now my Time was gold i felt likr every second of my time is very expensive i am happy like living in heaven i am smart the only one in the world i am strong to the point i am very aggressive i wanna make fight right away if someone disrespectful to me i wanted moved in and out od my house without realizing that i am walking cuz i am too busy thinking about my ideas like i wanna be on tv and people listen to me and learn from me and know me i can't even explain what it felt like its just crazy like drugs but natural
i recently had a manic episode and it wasn't my first one. felt euphoric and highly sexual. honestly it was fun but i understand it was an inappropriate episode. i feel great most of the time but i worry i'm becoming unhinged with great confidence. as of writing this, tomorrow i'm going to see my healthcare team and see what's really going on.
I always question whether I'm faking or "making up" my symptoms in my head for attention. Your videos are so validating thank you so much for the content!
I’ve been there too, but I suspect it’s also a symptom of bipolar disorder, schizophrenic patients also experience this, it’s called anosognosia and it always leds them to suspend their medication thinking they’ve overcome the illness, that they were misdiagnosed or that they’re being poisoned
I've thought like this for as long as I can remember, always downplaying my symptoms because I didn't want to appear like an attention seeker. I've not been diagnosed but I've been to therapy for a depressive state a couple years ago so I'm hesitant to say I'm bipolar but I can't tell if what I'm experiencing is just normal for everyone or real symptoms.
I hear people say this, that they doubt, but when I get manic/hypomaniac I feel as though I've taken way too much of an amphetamine or party drug. It's so far from reality it doesn't leave room for any doubt. I wonder if that means I'm bipolar one, definitely had one manic episode.
I’m coming down off a manic episode with psychotic features that landed me in inpatient. I’m still struggling to accept my diagnosis, but this video, as per usual, makes me feel like I’m less alone, and like this isn’t the end of the world.
Excellent Jada you are so not alone and your illness is treatable. The key is staying on top of it and not letting the symptoms get out of control. It often takes a while for people to accept their diagnosis. After you accept and stay under the care of a doctor and/or therapist, you can start to have some stability.
Jada A It’s not. I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar 1. It gets better if you do the meds and personally I have had some good experiences with therapy. Good luck. You can manage this.
Dr. Tracey Marks You’re absolutely right. Once I found a doctor, went to my appointments, and took my meds (though it can take awhile to find the right medication and dose), I did feel a lot more hope, and much more in control.
Jada A I am Bipolar 1 and had my first manic episode one year ago at age 38. Why so late ? Idk. I love my wife. 7 years married . Dated for total of 10 . We are buddies . We hang out often and prefer each other’s Company. She’s beautiful and each of my friends love her both male and female. . Why do I want to still get attention from co workers ? Other women? Not for sex but I at least seem To flirt enough to see “if they want me.” Something about that is what I like. It’s more than a simple “ you do it for attention.” I’m past that. I’m deeper than that. That is a factor. But my study of the Bible won’t let me do more. Some co workers ( who are alllllll women in a salon 11 total ) smack my butt or say sexual stuff to me. I get flattered but UGH I don’t want to do anything physical in return. For many reasons. One , in a guy so the second I do, I’m bad. Even they do this weekly. I avoid porn. I avoid sexual tone movies. I read scriptures that help. BUT my Biggest, latest Questions are “Was that me? ( making that decision/thoughts) was that my pills making me act wacky? Or was it my Bipolar? I want to sleep with my co worker so bad. I also know she’s going threw a divorce and is losing her house. She’s so venerable, it would be super mean to take advantage. The hardest part is that she looks like a curvy Mexican host from Telmundo! I kid you not . Why in the heck does she like me!? I’m kinda handsome but idk I swear it’s just satan messing with me . I hate meds . To all my bipolar people I love you are in my prayers
@@Catlily5 i am in mania and i slept for 6hrs in last 7days ...i went to doctor yesterday and started meds yesterday today i slept for 12hrs after 1 dose
When I go hypo I always wake up and there’s this energy in my chest. There like a ticker tape playing even with my eyes closed. Like the Dow Jones thingy. I start out with high energy and amazing ideas and I feel happy. This will last about 5 days and I come up with tons of ideas for things and research the ideas and start writing books etc. then the turn. It’s miserable. I haven’t been sleeping for days by this point and still cannot but I’m grumpy and often have a headache and now my thoughts turn horrible and self injurious and frustrating. I cannot sit still and always feel uncomfortable. I call it wearing a Sherry suit that’s a size too small. This can last weeks and is horrible. The drop from the good high to this is like an avalanche. Being depressed is easier for me. I’m tired and sleep 14 hours a day. I wish this horrible disease on no one
hmmm i have had this since I was a kid and the more I read into it/learn about it ... maybe I do have bipolar? I;ve notices since I was a kid I frequently cycle through stages of feeling super inspired/wanting to conquer the world/socialise with everyone and stages of feeling lost/feeling I have no future/don't want to see anyone.. maybe bipolar is the solution? and if it is then I can figure out how to level out the energy more long-term?....gosh that would be nice... living this way is so inconsistent and hurtful to my studies/search for a career .. :(
@@MeOnionz this is 3 months after your original post so you may not see this. I can relate very much to what you're saying. I was 64 years old when they finally diagnosed me as bipolar 2. I'm now 70. I've had it since I was a very young child. I had to endure feeling like an alien on this planet my whole life. My moods are stabilized now & life is good. No, I am not emotionally "flatlined" on meds. Like everyone, I have my ups & downs but they are no longer extreme. nothing notlike I was in the past.
@@denisebrown3179 good for you for figuring it out, what meds are you taking? I just started Wellbutrin for bipolar 2, and I am hoping it does not flat line me, I just don't want to sink so low in the depression phase
I go through a pretty similar thing. This is the comment driving me to do something about this. My mom blames my ups and downs on "teenage hormones," but it's way more extreme than it used to be. Thank you for making me not feel crazy
I recently sent my psychiatrist a long email accusing him of being a "Snake Oil" salesman. 😂 Luckily, he knew I was manic and saw the funny side of it.
Brave Starr 😂 I have depression; just flat-out depression (with meds and changes in my life and lifestyle, thank God I’m ok right now.) It’s always a good and HEALTHY sign when we can look at our “symptoms “ and poke fun at them. A sense of humor is key to getting thru this! BTW: Accusing him of being a “snake oil salesman “ isn’t that outrageous; tbh I think it’s hilarious!
I don't want to lose all my "mania" I just want to sleep better. Without it, life is boring - all flavor is gone, no excitement, no joy...blah. Like Sara Fee and Mr. Q commented below. I've always been a little hyper and that's just who I am. I've always felt like I was kissed by God because of my talents, will, determination, and drive. People like us achieve great things, create great art. BUT - YES - YES we do need a little help. Don't put out all the flame... Dr. Tracey Marks - I want to thank you. You are so on point.
I agree with your comment. I want to keep the mania because I like being manic as I can accomplish great things. Take care. Have you been diagnosed ADHD? Just curious.
@@keko1227 Make an appointment with a counselor. If they are experienced, they can be able to tell if you have bipolar with mania. Sometimes the ADHD mimics mania. Take care of yourself I'd like to hear back from you.
@@debbiemilam2204 don't know if I experience genuine mania or if it's just an extension of my adhd but I do have adhd and I get episodes of manic symptoms sometimes (not often enough to be bipolar but my psychologist confirmed that they seem manic in nature) and to me the difference is basically adhd is very aimless and curious but unmotivated unless an activity is highly rewarding, it feels distracted and confusing and like you have too many thoughts but it doesn't feel fast or tense or hyper except in the occasional burst of pent up energy but those are over fairly fast, mostly it just feels tired and foggy and vague (I have combined type, so inattentive and hyperactive). Mania feels like adrenaline, it feels like I'm vibrating at high speeds waiting to be released and I feel like I have to direct that energy at something all the time or I'll explode. Adhd I just let my thoughts wander until they stick on something that aligns with what I normally find interesting and that interest makes the activity rewarding and causes my brain to fixate on it, because my brain is constantly seeking those rewards, with mania the motivation doesn't come from the activity but is just a constant state of being and it prevents me from being idle or letting my thoughts wander like they usually do, I have to be fixated on something all the time so whatever presents itself as an opportunity regardless of whether or not I would normally be interested in it I latch onto.
Dr. Tracey Marks, you are a blessing to our community and I thank you for the peace and clarity you've brought to my life. Aside from arming me with necessary information, I finish your videos feeling more confident in myself. Your videos teach me that I am complex, unique and ever-changing and, above all, that I deserve to understand and treat myself better. Thank you!
@@DrTraceyMarks i have been suffering from bipolar 2 for 10 years but i have also been suffering from drug addiction for the past 15 years what do you recommend i have been once in a rehab center and 2 times to a mental clinic for 6 months do you think ill ever be able to be normal im loosing hope on life and most of the times i want to die
If a person could figure out how bottle up and sell what a mania feels like, before it goes horribly south, the person would be a zillionaire. That's why so many stop their medications to chase that dragon. Just beyond the hypomania, but before all the crazy goes full tilt.
My psychiatrist told me the TWO times I felt like a normal, energetic, social butterfly in my life that it could’ve been mania. But both instances only last for a night, not a week. This clears it up that it wasn’t mania at all, thank you
Sometimes it's just a bad guess, and sometimes it's the unhealed parts talking. People who are distracted from their pain might not even know it's their trauma - psychiatrists and psychologists are people, after all
I remember my first hypomanic episode and even though I felt so energized and motivated and brilliant, self esteem through the roof, I was also perplexed and distressed by my behavior because it was just this constant feeling of "I don't know why I'm doing these things but I can't stop". I couldn't stop talking and cleaning and making art and taking risks and I know a lot of people enjoy when they feel that way, but I just felt scared. I hope I never feel that way again, I've had smaller episodes since then and some weird times where I have a week or two where in the evenings I get the pressured speech and can't stop moving and doing things but the first episode was just the worst. I hope everyone here with bipolar gets the help they need!
See this makes me wonder about myself because when I am in a social setting after been isolated for a long time I start feeling like I have pressured speech but I also can’t pay attention to what they’re saying very well- so I probably come off as self absorbed. But it’s not like actual it’s just that I feel like a balloon with too much air in it. And then I got triggered by the topic that came up and plunged into a depression for an hour or two and had to watch kid cartoons to feel better. I don’t know why I get so intensely hyper sometimes but it’s directly related just to being in a social setting after feeling isolated so idk. Maybe it’s just adhd In the past smoking cigarettes or taking adderal helped it stop- but that’s what makes bipolar symptoms worse right? The brain is so weird
this is how my last manic episode felt, down to thinking “i don’t know why i’m doing these things but i can’t stop.” i did a lot of things that i feel really embarrassed by now, and it makes me scared for the next manic episode i will have. sure i had energy, sure i felt euphoric, but it did not feel good at all. i felt trapped in my own brain.
@@tyleraws it sucks explaining to ‘normal’ people that sometimes you just can’t control your behavior. Like yes I’m aware of right and wrong, but sometimes my instincts override my knowledge and I do the dumb shit anyway. Then there’s times you’re not even aware of your behavior. One day you stop to reflect and realize you’ve done nothing but ruin your life over the past few weeks.
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way. I've had more than one provider on my mental health team ask if I like the mania. I look at them like they're crazy and go "Why would I want to be out of control? Why would I want to hurt myself or others? No, not even for the bit of productivity that happens before the psychosis hits hard and I end up in hospital." I just can't underthe people that *like* this.
I am currently attending school to become a mental health professional and I must say that your videos are very educational and better than the lectures I am given at school! Thank you Dr. Marks, I aspire to be like you one day!!! Keep the educational videos flowing!!!
Dr. Marks, you REALLY know your field of medicine! I’m a sufferer if Bipolar 2, and you’ve helped me to learn some things. Your videos are very educational and informative. Keep up the good work
My psychiatrist explained _me_ to me when I went in, and I was floored that he wasn't secretly following me around and taking notes. Now I find Dr. Marks on youtube, and she just explained some things to me that I didn't even know I didn't know. I mean, obviously I know that psychiatrists aren't taking notes on my life, but the amount of "oh my god yes that is so me" I feel when she explains things is really crazy! It's like learning that I'm bipolar all over again! Now not only do I understand that I have a real, treatable condition, but I can more easily recognize what I'm going through when! She's going to make managing my life so easy all the sudden. Thank you Dr., you're helping me a lot by making these videos. :)
@@prashnigupta5662 I'm guessing that the doc missed the question. No, there are some highly effective treatments and it takes a lot of teamwork between the patient and doctor to ensure the optimal results. That said, that's about the extent in my expertise in the subject.
I love how you were throwing shade at the people who accuse you of having some “big pharma” agenda. I think you’re wonderful and you clearly care and have passion for helping others. I’m autistic and bipolar so I’m always trying to learn better ways to manage my life in conjunction with my bipolar medication. I very much appreciate all the videos that you put out, I think they’re very informative and you do such a wonderful job of explaining everything.
I really appreciate this. I have cptsd and was misdiagnosed with bipolar and nobody ever addressed my PTSD. My family did 80mph into a concrete wall without airbags when I was 13, and I've been in 3 other serious wrecks. My background is math and computer science, I had to download and read the dsm5. I knew I never had a manic episode, I've had drug induced breakdowns. Never had a manic episode for 23 years. Thank you so much for your clear, and helpful videos.
I totally remember the pressured speech from my manic episode all those years ago. I had thoughts practically bursting out of my brain, and I couldn't even finish one sentence before another one butted in. Yet, I thought I was so enlightened and smart.
Took me all my life to find out what was going on with me and I just broke down in tears when you explained the symptoms as they hit very close to home. Going to get an official diagnosis soon. Thank you so much for this video!
I have ADHD and Autism, but after my mom told my psychiatrist my history from a young age, I was also diagnosed with Bipolar 2 two years ago at the age of 25. on top of the ADHD and Autism Diagnosis. My mom said "I notice your moods are much more stable" granted this took a couple of months for her to say, but finally being diagnosed gave me an answer.
Thank you. My wife is currently in a psych hospital and has been admitted at least 5 times in the last 4 years with major depression but has been recently diagnosed with new symptoms and or diagnosis. This last time she literally was doing everything you explained in this video.
Thank you for this. I literally just got diagnosed with bipolar disorder yesterday and didn't have a true understand of what it was with out society's negative social connotation. Your videos have been extremely helpful
I have Bipolar Disorder, too, and I think it's just that it's foreign to most people. So, they're probably frightened of it because they don't understand it.
As someone who'll began a PhD in clinical psychology,I find Dr. Marks' video engaging. I hope to meet her in the near future. She's truly an inspiration!
Yess! I was about to ask the same. My hypomania is nothing but anxiety. When I was coming out of my depression and moving towards my mania I'd end up in a mixed state which turned into massive, 3 hour panic attacks. I want to know more about anxiety, intrusive thinking, and rushing thoughts.
As a soon to be 70 year old I'm just beginning to recognize a bipolar pattern of symptoms. The defining of the nuances is helpful. I've always thoroughly enjoyed my "hypomanic" episodes but now I feel trapped in a depression that's persisted for the last six months. I've never had any mental health treatment and live alone. It's hard for me to choose a path to treatment.
Thank you I got worried i was manic for a sec. I’ve been depressed for a long time I guess I just forgot what being happy and having self esteem felt like
It's funny because I had the same kind of experience but then a couple years later I did have a manic/hypomanic episode (jury is still out on whether or not there were psychotic symptoms), definitely a very different experience lol
@@mikeokk1673 have you talked to a psych about it they're usually very helpful, or looked at how other people with bipolar describe it if a psych isn't possible rn
@@butasimpleidiotwizard I have. He said he thought it was “ pretty likely” I was bipolar. Thing is I can’t get a diagnosis because it would take a really long time and they wanted to drug test me. Weed makes me feel stable. Without it I go back to self harm. So currently I don’t give a rats ass about a diagnosis.
I just discovered your videos and I am so grateful! I was recently diagnosed as BP2 and now understand more about why. Your videos have helped me see that this isn’t a scary diagnosis but putting a light at the end of my tunnel to look forward to!
6 outa 7. Mum was bipolar..although thought there’s something wrong in my head but never had the guts to go doctors (I’m 24 now) feel so low and manic at the same time, racing thoughts ect…but feel stupid or attention seeking if I go to see someone. Your voice is really reassuring lol. It’s encouraging me to talk to someone. Thanks!
One of my first episodes lasted over 2 years. Resulting in my divorce, losing my children, my home, communication with most of my family. Undiagnosed manic bipolar disorder can be devastating.
Me too! Mid 2005 to mid 2008 - then I went into a year and a half increasingly debilitating depression. Because of my behavior all these years my marriage of 30 years broke apart catastrophically. (My husband was a special a@@hole, too, willingly ignoring that I was sick, even later when I was recognized as disabled. Now it's been 10 years of rebuilding my mind, but finally getting there.
Yeah I have them everyday this is year 7. Just got diagnosed this year .. it's so scary .. I have them everyday but can't take meds because insurance never is up to par and I relapse harder when I run out of meds.. I just don't want to lose my amazing husband. It gets scary as time goes by because I don't mean to get frustrated and then irritated. I cried today because I don't want to get mad no more it is tearing my life apart
Thanks for clarifying this. My therapist and meds provider have both been a little resistant to the idea of my having ADHD, largely because I was a gifted kid, and keep bringing up bipolar as a more likely possibility. I've been having trouble understanding the differences when so many symptoms seem to be present in both. I also couldn't get clarification on the difference between being happy and choosing to go after big goals and mania. I have known people diagnosed with bipolar who have the kind of manic episodes you talk about here. That's not me. Not even hypo mania, now that I understand that. Thanks for the clarity which will help me have more productive conversations with my brain team.
I was diagnosed 3 years ago. I always kind of knew I was bipolar, but I let other people "talk me out" of that realization. I'm in the midst of launching a podcast, a lot of the content is around being bipolar. I realized, living it, and knowing it, are two VERY different things. I am trying to learn as much as possible to set myself up for success. I just stumbled on your about BP1 VS BP2, and I was instantly HOOKED. Thank you for putting this information out there for us, hearing someone speak is easier than reading medical jargon. I learned we can "predict" a manic/hypomanic episode, I didn't know that was a thing. In watching this video, I couldn't help but laugh at some parts, mainly because I see myself in these stories and scenarios. It's nice to be seen and understood. Thank you for this.
This was so helpful! I got diagnosed with bipolar one and was so confused because lately I feel like I only have hypomania. This was super helpful. Thank you!
Thank you so much for this video. I thought I might be bipolar and your detailed examples really helped me to see I don't actually have these symptoms.
Props to my best friend for just dealing with my hypomanic episodes where I would call him and rant/talk/rage/ramble about fucking everything for hours at a time Sometimes I dont think he listens but like he still lets me go on thanks man
So glad I found this channel. Tracey may have saved me from myself and has absolutely helped me understand so much more about my mental illness. Covid and an injury have taken a toll on my state of mind and I thought a med change was needed. My psych uses the shotgun approach to try to figure out where to go, but prescribes meds that I can't afford monthly. So i wean off my meds, big mistake, because the things that are bothering me are still there but now no help from my meds. So as of tonight I am going back on my Celexa & Depakote which is what I was taking together when i was in a good place about 5 years ago. I quit the Depakote because of hair loss. Anyways I'm rambling but wanted to let Tracey know how grateful I am for all these videos. I really miss the days when my bipolar served me well (before i knew I had it) always had projects going on,l avid learner, high achiever, extremely funny, artistic, but I did have some risky behaviors. I just need to get back to being interested in something that matters. I am struggling to find my future self. Wish me luck on getting back on the meds.
This video is a bit dated but I just want to say thank you for your time Dr. Marks. You are so good at explaining things! I have ADHD (primarily inattentive) and you keep me engaged and I feel as if I have never wasted a moment by watching your videos; as I gain a better understanding of my own diagnosis and of others. I am currently in school to become a psychiatric nurse practitioner and these videos are a blessing. Thanks again!
These are excellent examples. Not only to help those that have bipolar, like myself, but to also show family and friends so that they may get a better understanding.
Really appreciate your sane, measured, open minded approach. It bothers me how many mental health professional have a bone to pick. It's good when someone's personal experiences motivate their career choice but they need to leave their prejudices at the office door( red flag for me when a therapist describes themselves as a victim of a narcissist). I'm type two with a seasonal component, so I have SAD and also have hypomanic summers. It starts with pleasantly cheerful and bursting with energy in June and by now I'm irritable and exhausted like too much coffee and not enough sleep. Early to bed in a darkened room really helps as do lights in the winter. The drugs I've tried haven't been helpful so far. I would like to hear your thoughts.
Thank you Michelle. You're doing exactly what we recommend with dark therapy to come down from hypomania (or even keep it at bay). I'm glad it's working for you. If you aren't already doing it, you could go a step further and use the blue light blocking glasses with the orange lenses. You can get the Uvex Skyper brand on amazon for $10 amzn.to/2VEAMJc (affiliate link 🙂) You would start using them in the early evening around 6pm. I talk a little more about dark therapy and other non-medication options in this video ua-cam.com/video/awPP5YrVGyY/v-deo.html
I somehow fumbled up on Dr. Marks channel and as I keep exploring on her video’s, everything seems to make sense. I feel the universe brought me here. She explains how i feel so well. I want to say i had a manic episode earlier this year, but I didn’t really what it is. My adrenaline and energy was at an all time high. I haven’t had that feeling since my high school football days. I had a multitude of ideas and everything made since to me. Everything felt right. My family and friends told me i was talking to fast but I told them they weren’t listening. I went to 3 different states in a week. Probably 7 different cities just traveling, not much sleep. I went 3-4 days without eating. I wasn’t even worried about sleeping or eating honestly. Just traveling. The crazy thing is after the episode whether it was mania or hypomania, I haven’t been the same since. I’ve been in a really deep deep deep deep deep deep depression. I feel so grateful to know that I’m not alone and there’s others who support others. I wish everyone peace, love, and happiness.
I was diagnosed Bipolar by many many different psychiatrists and each write in my file different diagnosis. Some put 1, some put 2. I mostly stay depressed and occasionally cycle into hypomania. The only time I ever experienced mania was when I was a teenager and was put on antidepressants. In 15 years of no antidepressants, I have had no more manic episodes and I still have confusion over my diagnosis from psychiatrists even though my mania was antidepressant induced.
I felt hypomanic when I was writing my dissertation. I felt like I was on top of the world, and like I was going to write the most amazing paper ever, lol. I would even wake up in the middle of the night, thinking I had overlooked a mistake, and when I would go to check, I would be right. I have not felt that way since it was defended. Ive felt very deflated since it ended.
I went through an extremely depressed state when I was 16 and 17 with intense depersonalization, then all of a sudden I literally felt like God, I could feel again, I loved everyone and I set out to be the best human to ever live, quoting myself here "God just started existing and he's in me", this was said at 4 a.m as I wrote down every person I met that I could remember and stated next to them that they are forgiven and that I love them. I stayed manic for months, barely getting any sleep, starting a relationship, setting out to become the best musician to ever live, the best philosopher, the best at everything once again, spent a fuckton on such useless things and I was so hyper about everything. Then I crashed and hit an immense depression bout that lasted months, covid gave me no additional episodes so I just stayed that way. I'm 19 now and yesterday I felt on top of the world again, worked on music for 3 hours straight and neglecting sleep, jumping out of bed to do squats and dance and text my friends telling them I love them. Now I'm just left confused. I was never diagnosed because I'm scared if I ever get a diagnosis I won't be admitted into inter-state projects for uni and I'm just now looking this stuff up. I can't help but be excited about this even though I know it's shit and today I've already upset so many friends with the way I acted
Thank you so much for this video. I have panic disorder and intrusive thoughts. An intrusive thought that comes up sometimes is the fear of developing/ having another mental illness/ disorder. i was afraid i was going manic because i started to sleep better and longer, been happier, and doing more things for myself, like getting my nails done or finally scheduling a tattoo appointment i’ve been wanting to do for awhile. i thought it was ABNORMAL because i’ve usually let my anxiety overtake me and hold me back from taking care of myself. lately, ive been taking care of myself more. Clearly this isn’t Bipolar disorder. It’s my anxiety thinking “what? i’m happy? that’s weird. somethings wrong.” this video (and my doctor of corse) helped me realize that. Thank you again.
I love how much emphasis you put on context of specific actions, for example, going to the gym 4 days in a row for hours is more normal for a 20 year old vs a 50 year old, etc. Most doctors don’t care about the context of the answers they get on questionairres and we end up with more diagnoses than we should.
mania is so painful. i remember i had a manic episode that lasted 3 weeks and it was so tiring that i asked my friend to kill me. i felt like an unstoppable runaway train
I'm studying Psychology from next month and I have found your videos extremely helpful for preparing myself. Your bipolar videos have also helped me understand my auntie who suffers from the disorder. Thank you, Dr. Marks.
Hi Dr. Marks, would you be able to do a video on brain damage/cognitive decline caused by bipolar? It's something I have read a lot about on the internet but haven't actually heard from a doctor. Sometimes I wonder how much evidence there really is to back it... Thank you.
Thank you so much doctor. No one has educated me more about my diagnosis than you have. I have had a lot of shame associated with what has happened during my manic episodes. Being more educated about myself helps me stay more connected with reality and makes it easier to come to terms with traumas that i have experienced in my life.
It’s amazing how you can describe examples of bipolar episodes without laughing (e.g. going to work naked) which is professional! Thank you for the insight :)
As someone who has been trying not to be ashamed of my diagnosis, reading these comments makes me feel seen. I also think to myself “wow all these people are going through a lot and I have so much compassion for them” but then realize that I relate strongly with all of you because I go through the same thing but I just feel shame about what I go through.
Does alcohol make these symptoms worse? I’m thinking my husband is bipolar, but he’s even worse drinking every evening. He only sleeps a couple hrs a night, and that’s even when he’s worked from sun up to late night. He’s argumentative, nonstop talking, won’t set down, can’t have a conversation, buying sprees, bad choices financially, he’s loud, he’s persistent, and more!
Dr. Tracey Marks hi can alcohol make ppl act hypo and crash and mixed moods and self harm and overdose or can it be eupd or all 3 or can alcohol trigger these illnesses or something cause I was getting symptoms mood swings just that I want a high back I miss my dancing instead I’m exhausted etc so it’s masking any type off up or it’s short lived compared too 10 hours a day at times for days then crash if the tiredness would leave me like exhaustion-sure id go up can feel it but instead I’m down
I really wish there were so many Dr. Marks all over the world so you can be our psychiatrists. You're are amazingly knowledgeable, explain things well, and really care to break down the diagnosis and the symptoms.
I suffer from bipolarism and was headed down a dark path. I worked on and off (always had good jobs) but would quit on a dime because of coworkers, depression, paranoia. One day I was awesome, people loved me, then the next I was a monster, didn't want to be around people. The moods started happening really quick, within hours even. I was like superman one moment, then the worst person who ever lived the next. It wasn't me. I had good days and terrible horrific strange days. Dark days. As it increased I stopped going out. Preferred dark rooms with closed blinds. I thought that my neighbors were plotting to kill me or do me some harm. I was withdrawing and snapping at family because in my mind, they were being unnecessarily difficult and was making fun of me. I went through terrible arguments with my wife. In a matter of minutes I was on top of the world and thought that nothing could stop me. Great ideas for business, movies, and career paths, but could never follow through with any of them. I had a solution for the world's problems and had started comparing myself to a god by thinking I was that great of an individual and had insight that no one else had. Fortunately, I had an intervention after many attempts and eventually saw the doctor. I was immediately diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder and was almost sent to a psyche ward. Instead they put me on powerful medication after a trial period, (couldn't work during that time) and then we finally found something that worked and the depression sort of faded away. Slowly but surely I began to feel "normal", able to converse consistently with people. Able to think clearly and could pace myself during conversations and just relax and keep some ideas to myself instead of broadcasting it for glory to make myself feel good about myself because the truth is, I hated no one more than I hated myself. Gloating was a way to give myself a value in this world. What I mostly enjoyed was the consistent thinking ability. I didn't let things bother me so easily. Was just overall happier and not overly anxious about anything. I started spending wisely when before I had started spending just wildly at any given time without any real thought. It was crazy now that I look back on it. My relationship also got much better with my wife and family. My sex drive was just through the roof before. Now with these meds there are swings. Sometimes its modest, (sex is no big deal, it has its place) then at other times it just flames out of control back to the same ole same ole, with fantasies and all sorts of wild risky unnatural thoughts regarding sex. This still brings on guilt but I'm able to manage. I hope that the meds can eventually help me keep these out of control sexual urges under control because I hate them. I was even thinking about getting chemically castrated. I'm tired of the hurt and consequences this dark life can have on others. Long story short, i'm back working and am able to be productive with a sound mind for the most part. The minute I forget to take the meds I start sinking fast. I can feel the effects of missing the meds. I start free falling. but with the meds I have never been this sound in mind since my teen years where symptoms had started to rise.
It’s so embarrassing, I get loud at times and or pressured speech- then I finally get that I’ve had awful delusions of persecution since childhood. These delusions aren’t typically more than months to years. But it’s a self fuffilling thing because the pressured speech, sharing too much, and crazy delusions aren’t understood as bipolor to others, and until seven years ago to me either. So I push people away because obviously I come across as weird and probably annoying. It’s been better since I now realize much of the past occurrences were definitely delusions. And since I now realize the importance of letting those who are close to me know that I have this illness, they are able to recognize when I need to self regulate and that I’m headed one way or the other. I figure it out also by now watching people’s body language and responses to my behavior. I call my doctor and adjust my antipsychotic medication.
I just want to thank you dr. Marks. I really like your breakdowns especially when it comes to telling the difference between ADHD and bipolar I really think I was misdiagnosed bipolar one because of my ADHD symptoms and behaviors. This video helps reinforce that because I don't think I have ever had a manic episode and don't seem to be hypomanic versus the ADHD episodes. I even share a lot of your videos to Facebook so that other people can tell the difference as well.
I'm so glad the videos have been helpful and reinforcing. That's what they are here for. And yes, I think mania gets mistaken for a lot things - anxiety, add, etc. But as you can see when you put all these symptoms together, it has a very characteristic look that is very different from anxiety and ADHD. Thanks so much for sharing the videos on FB. 🤗
It's both painful and relieving to know exactly my diagnosis and how accurate it is. I've only had one episode so far and I hope it was the only one in my life.
Personally, I have had only one episode of mania since I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder four years ago, but many episodes of hypomania and depression. However, I have learned to control my condition and recognize when I need to see my doctor or therapist so I don't go off the deep end again.
I was diagnosed with clinical depression a while ago and have also been told my depression symptoms could be another thing. This really helped clear up what mania is and isn’t. Thank you very much!
I've had 2 episodes of mania, one little one at home and a big one in a hospital, but in all the rest of my life, with only slight exception, I've never had any of the rest of the bipolar symptoms. I wish I could talk to you. I've been to about 5 different shrinks but they were all a waste of time and money. Nobody seems to know what I'm talking about. I do not have symptoms of the disorder, yet I've had mania attacks
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in 2009. The highs of mania are unlike anything I've ever felt. I got rediagnosed with schizoeffective disorder in 2012 and got off of my medication in 2016 since I thought it was impeding my intellectual prowess. But it wasn't worth it. I felt like it was a trial by fire and I couldn't control my reality. 2017 was a very dangerous and hard year for me in terms of what I was eating (and I wasn't eating unhealthy necessarily rather I was eating too much of one item or another and it affected my health). I was into health and running a lot during these years. It wasn't until I restarted my Depakote that I realized what a godsend it was. My nightmares started to end there. Thank goodness for medication.
Yep thats me right now.. hypomanic so my bf says 🙄 i keep feeling "off" and ssuuppperrr sexual..also spent a ton of money on Gardening supplies b4 realizing what was going on😑
I get both as well! Ridiculous sexually and having 2-3 Amazon deliveries for weeks a a time. As I’m shopping on Amazon I find all these wonderful things that I didn’t even know that I needed so I got them all. Lmao
This is the first video I’ve watched where I’ve truly understood the difference between mania and hypomania versus just having a brief break from depression. Most people just reel off the same bullet list from Wikipedia and it didn’t help!
Thank you for this, I've been subscribed to your emails for a long time. Now, at nearly 24, I am finally beginning to understand what is going on with my brain.
I love the way you explain things and the examples you give. I have bipolar 2 and sometimes have a difficult time explaining hypomania to people. This was really helpful. Thank you!
I love listening to your videos. As a PMHNP student I find your videos so helpful. We do not have many lectures in my program and I learn so much from your videos!
I'm diagnosed with Bipolar and so your videos are really helping me to understand my diagnosis more and what I can do or what I should talk/ask about, thank you
I have to say during one of my manic episodes...I truly believed I won the lottery. Talk about being truly elated! Unfortunately, my other episodes weren't so immediately gratifying.
This is the story of my life, I have been suffering from depression for years. I have weeks where I'm down, empty, low energy, and thinking about death. Then weeks of pure bliss a burst of energy and ideas. I can accomplish a week's work in a day. It's an endless cycle I have gotten accustomed to.
Thanks for clearing this up. Most places that explain hypomania pretty much say that it’s just a really good mood. My anxiety disorder causes my mood to swing throughout the day most days and I was convinced I had bipolar because nobody could explain hypomania without being vague.
Notes: Bipolar disorders are defined by manic or hypomanic episodes. Depression is present in both - bipolar and unipolar depression. Abnormal and persistently elated/irritable mood + Abnormal and long-lasting energy + 3/4 (if irritable mood) out of 7 symptoms Occurs in a way that is noticeable and a departure from their usual baseline behaviour Mania is defined as a distinct period of abnormally and persistently elevated expansive or irritable mood along with abnormally and persistently increased energy or activity lasting at least 1 week and present for most of the day, nearly every day (or any duration if requiring hospitalization) Hypomania - constellation of multiple symptoms which last for 4 days and are less severe without impeding function in daily life (social, occupation and education) but still noticeable. 1. Inflated self-esteem or grandiosity 2. Decreased need for sleep and losing track of time 3. Pressured speech - to the point that they are uninterruptible, more noticeable to the person that they're talking to rather than 4. Flight of ideas -subjective experience that your racing thoughts outpace your ability to keep up with them - thoughts are disjointed and ''all over the place'' 5. Distractibility - attention to easily drawn to unimportant and irrelevant things 6a. Increased goal directed behaviour - work, social, sexual, school or 6b. Psychomotor agitation - purposeless non-goal directed activity (pacing, fidgeting, getting up to do things but not really doing anything), there is a subjective experience that you don't feel settled, similar to anxiety but not feeling nervous just feeling the need to move about 7. Excessive involvement in activities that have a high potential for painful consequences - buying sprees, sexual indiscretion, foolish business endeavors. May: i) cause severe problems in occupational life, social life, education etc impeding ADL or requires hospitalizations to keep them from harming themselves/ others ii) present with psychotic features - hallucination or delusions. A common delusion = ideas of reference, person will believe radio/TV/person is peaking about them, the things they hear are actually really there (not a hallucinationg) but the meaning they assign is unrealistic/impractical. Hypomania a) symptoms only last 4 days b) does not cause same problem with functioning - less severe c) symptoms still noticeable to others - some people actually enjoy it because its a relief from their depression - will still appear amped up (different from usual) to others and may cause disturbances d) no need to go to hospital and not getting in trouble with others e) importantly - no psychosis! if psychotic features = always mania If manic episode = dg always bipolar 1, even if future episodes are hypomanic, dg does not change. If hypomanic = bipolar 2, however if manic episode occurs dg would change to bipolar 1. Bipolar1/2 dg does not largely matter because medication treatment is the same. However course of illness and duration of depressed states differs Bipolar 1 = Can have recurrent back to back manic episodes with less frequent depressive episodes. Bipolar 2 = Hypomanic episodes with more frequent and longer depressive episodes
I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar 1 with mania and at first I’ve been really skeptical about my diagnosis but the more I learn about it the more I’m beginning to accept my diagnosis.
Everything you just described as mania, is something that I have been doing, including considering a career in politics as a lobbyist, because I feel abused by my local governments. Which needs fixed. I figure, why not put my mania to good use in the world, when "the sheep" of "normalcy" are putting up with the injustices being done to people in their own communities, whom actually need help. I was just diagnosed Bipolar 2, I believe. I actually may be Bipolar 1, based on how long my manic state actually lasts, I'd say 4-6 days on, 2-3 weird/down. Thank you for this insight!
Thank you so much for making your videos, Dr. Marks. I recently started some medication and was worried my change in mood was mania, and although I am not taking your videos as clinical advice, they did help reassure me and inform me what to look out for. Thanks again for what you do; I sincerely appreciate it.
Was diagnosed at 6 years old and again, separately, at 11 while under the care of a clinical psychiatrist in a group home. I was treated both for ADHD and Bi-polar disorder. Fast forward to age 29, I was tested and treated again for bi-polar disorder. I just realized from watching this video that bi-polar isn't always the stereotypical symptoms. I don't have extreme symptoms. They're just severe enough to cause negative outcomes financially, emotionally, and with relationships. I'm glad I am treated.
Whenever I’m getting manic I ALWAYS obsess over mental health in general I’ll watch hours and hours of videos and do research online and feel like I’m an expert in it
"Some people enjoy their hypomania because it's a relief from their depression." oh my gosh this HIT me. 💕
Yea and when u don’t want it to end and then your brain tells you to make the most of it and you simply 🤚go a bit over the top🤚
Yes!! Amen! Hit me like a ton of bricks!!! Thank you for this channel and for all of y'all!! 💘 ☮ 🙏 😇 👼
This is how I feel. When I'm hypomanic, I feel so alive and like a "real" person. I can actually get everything done, and I can manage work stuff plus parenting and general hygienic care. And the days flow and I feel absolutely amazing.
I completely enjoy the Hypermania. The depression is horrific
Saaaaame! I love being manic or hypomanic.
I always know when I’m manic (hypomania since I’m bipolar 2) now because I become obsessed over things. I stay up all night researching, planning, making lists. My spending becomes hard to control. My favorite one was when I started training for a marathon, only to train up to 7 miles just to become depressed and not run for like 3 months after that. 🙄
Elizabeth Manning 😘
Omg I can relate.
Girl....I found my birth parents on a hypomania trip and it ruined my entire life 😭😂😂😂 it's been a little over two years so I'm a little better about it......
Literally me, I started messaging people I hadn't seen for 8 years, tried to find my Birth Parents on Ancestry, got round to practising my theory, sold a lot of shit, didn't sleep for 4 days, and went for 20 mile walks every day, and fucking loved it. That lasted for 4 days. If you don't already, I found that going to the gym and having a routine has helped me immensely but I'm still a absent minded neanderthal.
I distinctly recall a time where I realized I was hypomanic (I wasn't diagnosed yet, I just knew I was on a different wave length) I was at work, and people were tired, and sipping coffee while I was talking a mile a minute at 7:30am. I tried to "calm myself down" and come down to everyone else's level.
I was once hypomanic for 3 months. It was really tough. Mania isn’t just happy. It’s euphoria and rage and sexuality all bundled into one and your thought process is altered. Really bad ideas seem like really good ideas and you know you’re destroying yourself and scaring those around you, but you can’t stop. Thank you for these videos.
I had mania i decided to be president now my Time was gold i felt likr every second of my time is very expensive i am happy like living in heaven i am smart the only one in the world i am strong to the point i am very aggressive i wanna make fight right away if someone disrespectful to me i wanted moved in and out od my house without realizing that i am walking cuz i am too busy thinking about my ideas like i wanna be on tv and people listen to me and learn from me and know me i can't even explain what it felt like its just crazy like drugs but natural
*dysphoria
i recently had a manic episode and it wasn't my first one. felt euphoric and highly sexual. honestly it was fun but i understand it was an inappropriate episode. i feel great most of the time but i worry i'm becoming unhinged with great confidence.
as of writing this, tomorrow i'm going to see my healthcare team and see what's really going on.
That sounds like dysphoric mania. It's common with type 1.
You can't stop unless you're on the proper medication, see a counselor or a psychiatrist please. I'd like to hear back from you.
I always question whether I'm faking or "making up" my symptoms in my head for attention. Your videos are so validating thank you so much for the content!
I relate so much man soooo much. Im so happy im not alone there
I’ve been there too, but I suspect it’s also a symptom of bipolar disorder, schizophrenic patients also experience this, it’s called anosognosia and it always leds them to suspend their medication thinking they’ve overcome the illness, that they were misdiagnosed or that they’re being poisoned
I've thought like this for as long as I can remember, always downplaying my symptoms because I didn't want to appear like an attention seeker. I've not been diagnosed but I've been to therapy for a depressive state a couple years ago so I'm hesitant to say I'm bipolar but I can't tell if what I'm experiencing is just normal for everyone or real symptoms.
I used to think this exact thing also
I hear people say this, that they doubt, but when I get manic/hypomaniac I feel as though I've taken way too much of an amphetamine or party drug. It's so far from reality it doesn't leave room for any doubt. I wonder if that means I'm bipolar one, definitely had one manic episode.
I’m coming down off a manic episode with psychotic features that landed me in inpatient. I’m still struggling to accept my diagnosis, but this video, as per usual, makes me feel like I’m less alone, and like this isn’t the end of the world.
Excellent Jada you are so not alone and your illness is treatable. The key is staying on top of it and not letting the symptoms get out of control. It often takes a while for people to accept their diagnosis. After you accept and stay under the care of a doctor and/or therapist, you can start to have some stability.
You are not alone. We fellow sufferers are here and fighting along side you
Jada A It’s not. I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar 1. It gets better if you do the meds and personally I have had some good experiences with therapy. Good luck. You can manage this.
Dr. Tracey Marks You’re absolutely right. Once I found a doctor, went to my appointments, and took my meds (though it can take awhile to find the right medication and dose), I did feel a lot more hope, and much more in control.
Jada A I am Bipolar 1 and had my first manic episode one year ago at age 38. Why so late ? Idk. I love my wife. 7 years married . Dated for total of 10 . We are buddies . We hang out often and prefer each other’s Company. She’s beautiful and each of my friends love her both male and female. . Why do I want to still get attention from co workers ? Other women? Not for sex but I at least seem To flirt enough to see “if they want me.” Something about that is what I like. It’s more than a simple “ you do it for attention.” I’m past that. I’m deeper than that. That is a factor. But my study of the Bible won’t let me do more. Some co workers ( who are alllllll women in a salon 11 total ) smack my butt or say sexual stuff to me. I get flattered but UGH I don’t want to do anything physical in return. For many reasons. One , in a guy so the second I do, I’m bad. Even they do this weekly. I avoid porn. I avoid sexual tone movies. I read scriptures that help. BUT my Biggest, latest Questions are
“Was that me? ( making that decision/thoughts) was that my pills making me act wacky? Or was it my Bipolar? I want to sleep with my co worker so bad. I also know she’s going threw a divorce and is losing her house. She’s so venerable, it would be super mean to take advantage. The hardest part is that she looks like a curvy Mexican host from Telmundo! I kid you not . Why in the heck does she like me!? I’m kinda handsome but idk I swear it’s just satan messing with me . I hate meds .
To all my bipolar people I love you are in my prayers
I feel my passions are sometimes mania, and it tares me apart. I don't know what normal or abnormal thinking is.
How much sleep do you miss doing them?
@@Catlily5 i am in mania and i slept for 6hrs in last 7days ...i went to doctor yesterday and started meds yesterday today i slept for 12hrs after 1 dose
@@sjb371 That is good you finally got sleep!
i'm in the exact same boat, i feel u so much :(
Same i feel like I can't trust anything
When I go hypo I always wake up and there’s this energy in my chest. There like a ticker tape playing even with my eyes closed. Like the Dow Jones thingy. I start out with high energy and amazing ideas and I feel happy. This will last about 5 days and I come up with tons of ideas for things and research the ideas and start writing books etc. then the turn. It’s miserable. I haven’t been sleeping for days by this point and still cannot but I’m grumpy and often have a headache and now my thoughts turn horrible and self injurious and frustrating. I cannot sit still and always feel uncomfortable. I call it wearing a Sherry suit that’s a size too small. This can last weeks and is horrible. The drop from the good high to this is like an avalanche. Being depressed is easier for me. I’m tired and sleep 14 hours a day. I wish this horrible disease on no one
Thanks for sharing your experience.
hmmm i have had this since I was a kid and the more I read into it/learn about it ... maybe I do have bipolar? I;ve notices since I was a kid I frequently cycle through stages of feeling super inspired/wanting to conquer the world/socialise with everyone and stages of feeling lost/feeling I have no future/don't want to see anyone.. maybe bipolar is the solution? and if it is then I can figure out how to level out the energy more long-term?....gosh that would be nice... living this way is so inconsistent and hurtful to my studies/search for a career .. :(
@@MeOnionz this is 3 months after your original post so you may not see this. I can relate very much to what you're saying. I was 64 years old when they finally diagnosed me as bipolar 2. I'm now 70. I've had it since I was a very young child. I had to endure feeling like an alien on this planet my whole life. My moods are stabilized now & life is good. No, I am not emotionally "flatlined" on meds. Like everyone, I have my ups & downs but they are no longer extreme. nothing notlike I was in the past.
@@denisebrown3179 good for you for figuring it out, what meds are you taking? I just started Wellbutrin for bipolar 2, and I am hoping it does not flat line me, I just don't want to sink so low in the depression phase
I go through a pretty similar thing. This is the comment driving me to do something about this. My mom blames my ups and downs on "teenage hormones," but it's way more extreme than it used to be. Thank you for making me not feel crazy
This psychologist is throwing shade left and right, and I'm loving it haha
I recently sent my psychiatrist a long email accusing him of being a "Snake Oil" salesman. 😂 Luckily, he knew I was manic and saw the funny side of it.
I love a clinician with a sense of humor lol
Brave Starr haha oh god a snake oil salesman?
Brave Starr 😂 I have depression; just flat-out depression (with meds and changes in my life and lifestyle, thank God I’m ok right now.) It’s always a good and HEALTHY sign when we can look at our “symptoms “ and poke fun at them. A sense of humor is key to getting thru this! BTW: Accusing him of being a “snake oil salesman “ isn’t that outrageous; tbh I think it’s hilarious!
Haha! Mine is cool like that too! 😄😊
You need to reflect first
I don't want to lose all my "mania" I just want to sleep better. Without it, life is boring - all flavor is gone, no excitement, no joy...blah. Like Sara Fee and Mr. Q commented below. I've always been a little hyper and that's just who I am. I've always felt like I was kissed by God because of my talents, will, determination, and drive. People like us achieve great things, create great art. BUT - YES - YES we do need a little help. Don't put out all the flame...
Dr. Tracey Marks - I want to thank you. You are so on point.
I agree with your comment. I want to keep the mania because I like being manic as I can accomplish great things. Take care. Have you been diagnosed ADHD? Just curious.
@@debbiemilam2204 No I haven’t. Not sure why not… I feel the shoe fits.
@@keko1227
Make an appointment with a counselor. If they are experienced, they can be able to tell if you have bipolar with mania. Sometimes the ADHD mimics mania. Take care of yourself I'd like to hear back from you.
@@debbiemilam2204 don't know if I experience genuine mania or if it's just an extension of my adhd but I do have adhd and I get episodes of manic symptoms sometimes (not often enough to be bipolar but my psychologist confirmed that they seem manic in nature) and to me the difference is basically adhd is very aimless and curious but unmotivated unless an activity is highly rewarding, it feels distracted and confusing and like you have too many thoughts but it doesn't feel fast or tense or hyper except in the occasional burst of pent up energy but those are over fairly fast, mostly it just feels tired and foggy and vague (I have combined type, so inattentive and hyperactive). Mania feels like adrenaline, it feels like I'm vibrating at high speeds waiting to be released and I feel like I have to direct that energy at something all the time or I'll explode. Adhd I just let my thoughts wander until they stick on something that aligns with what I normally find interesting and that interest makes the activity rewarding and causes my brain to fixate on it, because my brain is constantly seeking those rewards, with mania the motivation doesn't come from the activity but is just a constant state of being and it prevents me from being idle or letting my thoughts wander like they usually do, I have to be fixated on something all the time so whatever presents itself as an opportunity regardless of whether or not I would normally be interested in it I latch onto.
DO you drink coffee?? have ya tried working out when feeling ya knowww
full of energy
Caffeine onehellofa drug
Dr. Tracey Marks, you are a blessing to our community and I thank you for the peace and clarity you've brought to my life. Aside from arming me with necessary information, I finish your videos feeling more confident in myself. Your videos teach me that I am complex, unique and ever-changing and, above all, that I deserve to understand and treat myself better. Thank you!
So well said, thank you for verbalizing it so clearly!
Oh wow Jesse. That’s an awesome conclusion to reach. I love that. I’m so glad you found my channel🤗
Does anyone know where this doc is located? She's absolutely the BEST!!
@@DrTraceyMarks i have been suffering from bipolar 2 for 10 years but i have also been suffering from drug addiction for the past 15 years what do you recommend i have been once in a rehab center and 2 times to a mental clinic for 6 months do you think ill ever be able to be normal im loosing hope on life and most of the times i want to die
@@leahleeleoni9002 peachtree georgia!
She’s so well spoken and easy to follow. I love informative content like this
Was thinking the same she’s a great orator
Yes, I love that she doesn’t speak super quickly like some other people
If a person could figure out how bottle up and sell what a mania feels like, before it goes horribly south, the person would be a zillionaire.
That's why so many stop their medications to chase that dragon. Just beyond the hypomania, but before all the crazy goes full tilt.
You took the words right out of my mouth! Except I say the reward would be a Nobel prize.
Dr. Tracey Marks I have gone off meds before, and it was a long road back, which I am lucky to have made. I don’t recommend it!
amphetamines are basically mania in pill/powder form
I think that is a crack dealer. And you're right it's a kazillion dollar business. 😉
Sarah Dixon Yo! 🏆 💎🥇 👍🏻!!! I’m a recovering addict with Bipolar, and you nailed it!
My psychiatrist told me the TWO times I felt like a normal, energetic, social butterfly in my life that it could’ve been mania. But both instances only last for a night, not a week. This clears it up that it wasn’t mania at all, thank you
Sometimes it's just a bad guess, and sometimes it's the unhealed parts talking. People who are distracted from their pain might not even know it's their trauma - psychiatrists and psychologists are people, after all
For me Flight of Ideas was like a vhs or cassette tape stuck in fast forward and vomiting the tape everywhere.
That's a great description! Thanks for sharing this.
Yes!!!! So accurate
Thats an amazing way of describing it! : o
I remember my first hypomanic episode and even though I felt so energized and motivated and brilliant, self esteem through the roof, I was also perplexed and distressed by my behavior because it was just this constant feeling of "I don't know why I'm doing these things but I can't stop". I couldn't stop talking and cleaning and making art and taking risks and I know a lot of people enjoy when they feel that way, but I just felt scared. I hope I never feel that way again, I've had smaller episodes since then and some weird times where I have a week or two where in the evenings I get the pressured speech and can't stop moving and doing things but the first episode was just the worst. I hope everyone here with bipolar gets the help they need!
See this makes me wonder about myself because when I am in a social setting after been isolated for a long time I start feeling like I have pressured speech but I also can’t pay attention to what they’re saying very well- so I probably come off as self absorbed. But it’s not like actual it’s just that I feel like a balloon with too much air in it. And then I got triggered by the topic that came up and plunged into a depression for an hour or two and had to watch kid cartoons to feel better.
I don’t know why I get so intensely hyper sometimes but it’s directly related just to being in a social setting after feeling isolated so idk. Maybe it’s just adhd
In the past smoking cigarettes or taking adderal helped it stop- but that’s what makes bipolar symptoms worse right?
The brain is so weird
this is how my last manic episode felt, down to thinking “i don’t know why i’m doing these things but i can’t stop.” i did a lot of things that i feel really embarrassed by now, and it makes me scared for the next manic episode i will have. sure i had energy, sure i felt euphoric, but it did not feel good at all. i felt trapped in my own brain.
@@tyleraws it sucks explaining to ‘normal’ people that sometimes you just can’t control your behavior. Like yes I’m aware of right and wrong, but sometimes my instincts override my knowledge and I do the dumb shit anyway. Then there’s times you’re not even aware of your behavior. One day you stop to reflect and realize you’ve done nothing but ruin your life over the past few weeks.
This comment is exactly what led me to this channel. I’ve been trying to figure out wtf is going on with me.
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way. I've had more than one provider on my mental health team ask if I like the mania. I look at them like they're crazy and go "Why would I want to be out of control? Why would I want to hurt myself or others? No, not even for the bit of productivity that happens before the psychosis hits hard and I end up in hospital." I just can't underthe people that *like* this.
This woman's voice is so charming. It's somehow broken but beautiful at the same time.
I am currently attending school to become a mental health professional and I must say that your videos are very educational and better than the lectures I am given at school! Thank you Dr. Marks, I aspire to be like you one day!!! Keep the educational videos flowing!!!
Endia Turner agreed
Hypersexualit can do that video
Dr. Marks, you REALLY know your field of medicine! I’m a sufferer if Bipolar 2, and you’ve helped me to learn some things. Your videos are very educational and informative. Keep up the good work
Thanks a lot Jennifer. I really appreciate that. 🤗
My psychiatrist explained _me_ to me when I went in, and I was floored that he wasn't secretly following me around and taking notes. Now I find Dr. Marks on youtube, and she just explained some things to me that I didn't even know I didn't know. I mean, obviously I know that psychiatrists aren't taking notes on my life, but the amount of "oh my god yes that is so me" I feel when she explains things is really crazy! It's like learning that I'm bipolar all over again! Now not only do I understand that I have a real, treatable condition, but I can more easily recognize what I'm going through when! She's going to make managing my life so easy all the sudden.
Thank you Dr., you're helping me a lot by making these videos. :)
hello doctor....can this be cured?
@@prashnigupta5662 I'm guessing that the doc missed the question.
No, there are some highly effective treatments and it takes a lot of teamwork between the patient and doctor to ensure the optimal results. That said, that's about the extent in my expertise in the subject.
I love how you were throwing shade at the people who accuse you of having some “big pharma” agenda. I think you’re wonderful and you clearly care and have passion for helping others.
I’m autistic and bipolar so I’m always trying to learn better ways to manage my life in conjunction with my bipolar medication.
I very much appreciate all the videos that you put out, I think they’re very informative and you do such a wonderful job of explaining everything.
It's easy to find out the truth, CMS has Open Payments.
When im high, I comment way too much on u tube videos.
2:47 Kanye West just had his first campaign rally...👀 😫😔
Kanye West is Bipolar too?It's so hard to deal with a person with Bipolar Disorder , it's frustrating .I don't know what to do , it drive me nuts.
@@Josephine26323 yea Kanye is bipolar
Lol yeah I feel like she was referencing that
I was literally about to say that
Dont make fun of ppls mental health, ik kanye might not know u but pls dont joke about that lol.
I really appreciate this. I have cptsd and was misdiagnosed with bipolar and nobody ever addressed my PTSD. My family did 80mph into a concrete wall without airbags when I was 13, and I've been in 3 other serious wrecks. My background is math and computer science, I had to download and read the dsm5. I knew I never had a manic episode, I've had drug induced breakdowns. Never had a manic episode for 23 years. Thank you so much for your clear, and helpful videos.
I totally remember the pressured speech from my manic episode all those years ago. I had thoughts practically bursting out of my brain, and I couldn't even finish one sentence before another one butted in. Yet, I thought I was so enlightened and smart.
Took me all my life to find out what was going on with me and I just broke down in tears when you explained the symptoms as they hit very close to home. Going to get an official diagnosis soon. Thank you so much for this video!
I have ADHD and Autism, but after my mom told my psychiatrist my history from a young age, I was also diagnosed with Bipolar 2 two years ago at the age of 25. on top of the ADHD and Autism Diagnosis. My mom said "I notice your moods are much more stable" granted this took a couple of months for her to say, but finally being diagnosed gave me an answer.
This is the best channel I've watched about Psychology and Psychiatric Illnesses. Lots of love from 🇵🇭
Yep, for real. I always go straight to Dr Tracy Marks and see what she has to say whenever anything about mental health comes up
Thank you. My wife is currently in a psych hospital and has been admitted at least 5 times in the last 4 years with major depression but has been recently diagnosed with new symptoms and or diagnosis. This last time she literally was doing everything you explained in this video.
Thank you for this. I literally just got diagnosed with bipolar disorder yesterday and didn't have a true understand of what it was with out society's negative social connotation. Your videos have been extremely helpful
I’m so glad. Thanks for watching.
I have Bipolar Disorder, too, and I think it's just that it's foreign to most people. So, they're probably frightened of it because they don't understand it.
Same girl, same. Bipolar 2 diagnosis just a few days ago. Getting used to my new medicine, hoping it works
As someone who'll began a PhD in clinical psychology,I find Dr. Marks' video engaging. I hope to meet her in the near future. She's truly an inspiration!
Can you do a video on intrusive thoughts with anxiety
Yes I can. Thank you for the suggestion
Yess! I was about to ask the same. My hypomania is nothing but anxiety. When I was coming out of my depression and moving towards my mania I'd end up in a mixed state which turned into massive, 3 hour panic attacks. I want to know more about anxiety, intrusive thinking, and rushing thoughts.
@@KrissyChacon my mother has the same variant of manic episodes
Dr. Tracey Marks do you have this video I’m struggling to find it thanks
@@kbiswas3791 hi
I love the shade at 3:00! 🤣
As a soon to be 70 year old I'm just beginning to recognize a bipolar pattern of symptoms. The defining of the nuances is helpful. I've always thoroughly enjoyed my "hypomanic" episodes but now I feel trapped in a depression that's persisted for the last six months. I've never had any mental health treatment and live alone. It's hard for me to choose a path to treatment.
Thank you I got worried i was manic for a sec. I’ve been depressed for a long time I guess I just forgot what being happy and having self esteem felt like
Marty Sity.
It's funny because I had the same kind of experience but then a couple years later I did have a manic/hypomanic episode (jury is still out on whether or not there were psychotic symptoms), definitely a very different experience lol
@@butasimpleidiotwizard now I’m convinced I have bipolar 2 lol
@@mikeokk1673 have you talked to a psych about it they're usually very helpful, or looked at how other people with bipolar describe it if a psych isn't possible rn
@@butasimpleidiotwizard I have. He said he thought it was “ pretty likely” I was bipolar. Thing is I can’t get a diagnosis because it would take a really long time and they wanted to drug test me. Weed makes me feel stable. Without it I go back to self harm. So currently I don’t give a rats ass about a diagnosis.
I just discovered your videos and I am so grateful! I was recently diagnosed as BP2 and now understand more about why. Your videos have helped me see that this isn’t a scary diagnosis but putting a light at the end of my tunnel to look forward to!
6 outa 7. Mum was bipolar..although thought there’s something wrong in my head but never had the guts to go doctors (I’m 24 now) feel so low and manic at the same time, racing thoughts ect…but feel stupid or attention seeking if I go to see someone. Your voice is really reassuring lol. It’s encouraging me to talk to someone. Thanks!
I agree
One of my first episodes lasted over 2 years. Resulting in my divorce, losing my children, my home, communication with most of my family. Undiagnosed manic bipolar disorder can be devastating.
Thank you for sharing dealing with this now with a family member
Me too! Mid 2005 to mid 2008 - then I went into a year and a half increasingly debilitating depression. Because of my behavior all these years my marriage of 30 years broke apart catastrophically. (My husband was a special a@@hole, too, willingly ignoring that I was sick, even later when I was recognized as disabled. Now it's been 10 years of rebuilding my mind, but finally getting there.
Yeah I have them everyday this is year 7. Just got diagnosed this year .. it's so scary .. I have them everyday but can't take meds because insurance never is up to par and I relapse harder when I run out of meds.. I just don't want to lose my amazing husband. It gets scary as time goes by because I don't mean to get frustrated and then irritated. I cried today because I don't want to get mad no more it is tearing my life apart
Thanks for clarifying this. My therapist and meds provider have both been a little resistant to the idea of my having ADHD, largely because I was a gifted kid, and keep bringing up bipolar as a more likely possibility. I've been having trouble understanding the differences when so many symptoms seem to be present in both. I also couldn't get clarification on the difference between being happy and choosing to go after big goals and mania. I have known people diagnosed with bipolar who have the kind of manic episodes you talk about here. That's not me. Not even hypo mania, now that I understand that. Thanks for the clarity which will help me have more productive conversations with my brain team.
I was diagnosed 3 years ago. I always kind of knew I was bipolar, but I let other people "talk me out" of that realization. I'm in the midst of launching a podcast, a lot of the content is around being bipolar. I realized, living it, and knowing it, are two VERY different things. I am trying to learn as much as possible to set myself up for success. I just stumbled on your about BP1 VS BP2, and I was instantly HOOKED. Thank you for putting this information out there for us, hearing someone speak is easier than reading medical jargon. I learned we can "predict" a manic/hypomanic episode, I didn't know that was a thing. In watching this video, I couldn't help but laugh at some parts, mainly because I see myself in these stories and scenarios. It's nice to be seen and understood. Thank you for this.
2:45 she really did Kanye like that
I thought she meant trump. Kanye is only on Kanye's radar.
This was so helpful! I got diagnosed with bipolar one and was so confused because lately I feel like I only have hypomania. This was super helpful. Thank you!
Thank you so much for this video. I thought I might be bipolar and your detailed examples really helped me to see I don't actually have these symptoms.
Props to my best friend for just dealing with my hypomanic episodes where I would call him and rant/talk/rage/ramble about fucking everything for hours at a time
Sometimes I dont think he listens but like he still lets me go on
thanks man
So glad I found this channel. Tracey may have saved me from myself and has absolutely helped me understand so much more about my mental illness. Covid and an injury have taken a toll on my state of mind and I thought a med change was needed. My psych uses the shotgun approach to try to figure out where to go, but prescribes meds that I can't afford monthly. So i wean off my meds, big mistake, because the things that are bothering me are still there but now no help from my meds. So as of tonight I am going back on my Celexa & Depakote which is what I was taking together when i was in a good place about 5 years ago. I quit the Depakote because of hair loss. Anyways I'm rambling but wanted to let Tracey know how grateful I am for all these videos.
I really miss the days when my bipolar served me well (before i knew I had it) always had projects going on,l avid learner, high achiever, extremely funny, artistic, but I did have some risky behaviors. I just need to get back to being interested in something that matters. I am struggling to find my future self. Wish me luck on getting back on the meds.
I have a bunch of comorbid mental/neuro/trauma stuff (but no bipolar) & I'm grateful you mentioned the ADHD & pressured Speech.
You described mania beautifully… it’s hard to know what it truly is unless you have been manic…❤
This video is a bit dated but I just want to say thank you for your time Dr. Marks. You are so good at explaining things! I have ADHD (primarily inattentive) and you keep me engaged and I feel as if I have never wasted a moment by watching your videos; as I gain a better understanding of my own diagnosis and of others. I am currently in school to become a psychiatric nurse practitioner and these videos are a blessing. Thanks again!
These are excellent examples. Not only to help those that have bipolar, like myself, but to also show family and friends so that they may get a better understanding.
Really appreciate your sane, measured, open minded approach. It bothers me how many mental health professional have a bone to pick. It's good when someone's personal experiences motivate their career choice but they need to leave their prejudices at the office door( red flag for me when a therapist describes themselves as a victim of a narcissist). I'm type two with a seasonal component, so I have SAD and also have hypomanic summers. It starts with pleasantly cheerful and bursting with energy in June and by now I'm irritable and exhausted like too much coffee and not enough sleep. Early to bed in a darkened room really helps as do lights in the winter. The drugs I've tried haven't been helpful so far. I would like to hear your thoughts.
Thank you Michelle. You're doing exactly what we recommend with dark therapy to come down from hypomania (or even keep it at bay). I'm glad it's working for you. If you aren't already doing it, you could go a step further and use the blue light blocking glasses with the orange lenses. You can get the Uvex Skyper brand on amazon for $10 amzn.to/2VEAMJc (affiliate link 🙂) You would start using them in the early evening around 6pm. I talk a little more about dark therapy and other non-medication options in this video ua-cam.com/video/awPP5YrVGyY/v-deo.html
I somehow fumbled up on Dr. Marks channel and as I keep exploring on her video’s, everything seems to make sense. I feel the universe brought me here. She explains how i feel so well. I want to say i had a manic episode earlier this year, but I didn’t really what it is. My adrenaline and energy was at an all time high. I haven’t had that feeling since my high school football days. I had a multitude of ideas and everything made since to me. Everything felt right. My family and friends told me i was talking to fast but I told them they weren’t listening. I went to 3 different states in a week. Probably 7 different cities just traveling, not much sleep. I went 3-4 days without eating. I wasn’t even worried about sleeping or eating honestly. Just traveling. The crazy thing is after the episode whether it was mania or hypomania, I haven’t been the same since. I’ve been in a really deep deep deep deep deep deep depression. I feel so grateful to know that I’m not alone and there’s others who support others. I wish everyone peace, love, and happiness.
I was diagnosed Bipolar by many many different psychiatrists and each write in my file different diagnosis. Some put 1, some put 2. I mostly stay depressed and occasionally cycle into hypomania. The only time I ever experienced mania was when I was a teenager and was put on antidepressants. In 15 years of no antidepressants, I have had no more manic episodes and I still have confusion over my diagnosis from psychiatrists even though my mania was antidepressant induced.
I felt hypomanic when I was writing my dissertation. I felt like I was on top of the world, and like I was going to write the most amazing paper ever, lol. I would even wake up in the middle of the night, thinking I had overlooked a mistake, and when I would go to check, I would be right. I have not felt that way since it was defended. Ive felt very deflated since it ended.
how did you do?
I went through an extremely depressed state when I was 16 and 17 with intense depersonalization, then all of a sudden I literally felt like God, I could feel again, I loved everyone and I set out to be the best human to ever live, quoting myself here "God just started existing and he's in me", this was said at 4 a.m as I wrote down every person I met that I could remember and stated next to them that they are forgiven and that I love them.
I stayed manic for months, barely getting any sleep, starting a relationship, setting out to become the best musician to ever live, the best philosopher, the best at everything once again, spent a fuckton on such useless things and I was so hyper about everything. Then I crashed and hit an immense depression bout that lasted months, covid gave me no additional episodes so I just stayed that way. I'm 19 now and yesterday I felt on top of the world again, worked on music for 3 hours straight and neglecting sleep, jumping out of bed to do squats and dance and text my friends telling them I love them. Now I'm just left confused. I was never diagnosed because I'm scared if I ever get a diagnosis I won't be admitted into inter-state projects for uni and I'm just now looking this stuff up. I can't help but be excited about this even though I know it's shit and today I've already upset so many friends with the way I acted
@@ariz8538 I finished it. Dr. Diaz now :)
@@dr.christopherdiaz4473 congrats sir !!
@@ariz8538 Thank you! Im currently in a depressive state, so that little bit of pleasantness meant more than you know :)
This was so incredibly informative. You really broke it down so I can understand my mom’s bipolar. Thank you.
Thank you so much for this video.
I have panic disorder and intrusive thoughts. An intrusive thought that comes up sometimes is the fear of developing/ having another mental illness/ disorder. i was afraid i was going manic because i started to sleep better and longer, been happier, and doing more things for myself, like getting my nails done or finally scheduling a tattoo appointment i’ve been wanting to do for awhile. i thought it was ABNORMAL because i’ve usually let my anxiety overtake me and hold me back from taking care of myself. lately, ive been taking care of myself more. Clearly this isn’t Bipolar disorder. It’s my anxiety thinking “what? i’m happy? that’s weird. somethings wrong.” this video (and my doctor of corse) helped me realize that. Thank you again.
Doc, just wanted to say..... your hair looks amazing.
I love how much emphasis you put on context of specific actions, for example, going to the gym 4 days in a row for hours is more normal for a 20 year old vs a 50 year old, etc. Most doctors don’t care about the context of the answers they get on questionairres and we end up with more diagnoses than we should.
mania is so painful. i remember i had a manic episode that lasted 3 weeks and it was so tiring that i asked my friend to kill me. i felt like an unstoppable runaway train
I’m in nursing school! And I can’t even begin to describe how helpful this is for my psychiatric final. Thank you so much
I'm studying Psychology from next month and I have found your videos extremely helpful for preparing myself.
Your bipolar videos have also helped me understand my auntie who suffers from the disorder.
Thank you, Dr. Marks.
You’re welcome Christopher. Good luck with your studies.
@@DrTraceyMarks Thank you, Dr Marks!
Hi Dr. Marks, would you be able to do a video on brain damage/cognitive decline caused by bipolar? It's something I have read a lot about on the internet but haven't actually heard from a doctor. Sometimes I wonder how much evidence there really is to back it... Thank you.
Thank you so much doctor. No one has educated me more about my diagnosis than you have. I have had a lot of shame associated with what has happened during my manic episodes. Being more educated about myself helps me stay more connected with reality and makes it easier to come to terms with traumas that i have experienced in my life.
It’s amazing how you can describe examples of bipolar episodes without laughing (e.g. going to work naked) which is professional! Thank you for the insight :)
You explain everything in such an easy to understand way. Thank you for sharing your expertise to the world.
As someone who has been trying not to be ashamed of my diagnosis, reading these comments makes me feel seen. I also think to myself “wow all these people are going through a lot and I have so much compassion for them” but then realize that I relate strongly with all of you because I go through the same thing but I just feel shame about what I go through.
Does alcohol make these symptoms worse? I’m thinking my husband is bipolar, but he’s even worse drinking every evening. He only sleeps a couple hrs a night, and that’s even when he’s worked from sun up to late night. He’s argumentative, nonstop talking, won’t set down, can’t have a conversation, buying sprees, bad choices financially, he’s loud, he’s persistent, and more!
Yes the alcohol can make things worse because it disinhibits and allows people to act more on their impulses.
Dr. Tracey Marks hi can alcohol make ppl act hypo and crash and mixed moods and self harm and overdose or can it be eupd or all 3 or can alcohol trigger these illnesses or something cause I was getting symptoms mood swings just that I want a high back I miss my dancing instead I’m exhausted etc so it’s masking any type off up or it’s short lived compared too 10 hours a day at times for days then crash if the tiredness would leave me like exhaustion-sure id go up can feel it but instead I’m down
Your husband sounds just like me when I’m manic!
Just gotta say I'm an instant fan. Found your videos today. So helpful. Thank you for being so clear, well-spoken, and realistic. Thank you thank you.
If you're running for Office despite having no experience whatsoever you may be a reality TV star
😄
Or Donald Trump
Because lawyers make the best politicians.🤣
It's like driving around a formula 1 race car with pedal cycle breaks. And so exhausting at the best of times.
Or Obama
I really wish there were so many Dr. Marks all over the world so you can be our psychiatrists. You're are amazingly knowledgeable, explain things well, and really care to break down the diagnosis and the symptoms.
I suffer from bipolarism and was headed down a dark path. I worked on and off (always had good jobs) but would quit on a dime because of coworkers, depression, paranoia. One day I was awesome, people loved me, then the next I was a monster, didn't want to be around people. The moods started happening really quick, within hours even. I was like superman one moment, then the worst person who ever lived the next. It wasn't me.
I had good days and terrible horrific strange days. Dark days. As it increased I stopped going out. Preferred dark rooms with closed blinds. I thought that my neighbors were plotting to kill me or do me some harm. I was withdrawing and snapping at family because in my mind, they were being unnecessarily difficult and was making fun of me. I went through terrible arguments with my wife. In a matter of minutes I was on top of the world and thought that nothing could stop me. Great ideas for business, movies, and career paths, but could never follow through with any of them. I had a solution for the world's problems and had started comparing myself to a god by thinking I was that great of an individual and had insight that no one else had.
Fortunately, I had an intervention after many attempts and eventually saw the doctor. I was immediately diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder and was almost sent to a psyche ward. Instead they put me on powerful medication after a trial period, (couldn't work during that time) and then we finally found something that worked and the depression sort of faded away. Slowly but surely I began to feel "normal", able to converse consistently with people. Able to think clearly and could pace myself during conversations and just relax and keep some ideas to myself instead of broadcasting it for glory to make myself feel good about myself because the truth is, I hated no one more than I hated myself. Gloating was a way to give myself a value in this world. What I mostly enjoyed was the consistent thinking ability. I didn't let things bother me so easily. Was just overall happier and not overly anxious about anything. I started spending wisely when before I had started spending just wildly at any given time without any real thought. It was crazy now that I look back on it. My relationship also got much better with my wife and family.
My sex drive was just through the roof before. Now with these meds there are swings. Sometimes its modest, (sex is no big deal, it has its place) then at other times it just flames out of control back to the same ole same ole, with fantasies and all sorts of wild risky unnatural thoughts regarding sex. This still brings on guilt but I'm able to manage. I hope that the meds can eventually help me keep these out of control sexual urges under control because I hate them. I was even thinking about getting chemically castrated. I'm tired of the hurt and consequences this dark life can have on others. Long story short, i'm back working and am able to be productive with a sound mind for the most part. The minute I forget to take the meds I start sinking fast. I can feel the effects of missing the meds. I start free falling. but with the meds I have never been this sound in mind since my teen years where symptoms had started to rise.
I am just binge watching these videos and just wow I can’t speechless right now. Been diagnosed and in out of treatment since 8 it’s really a lot.
It’s so embarrassing, I get loud at times and or pressured speech- then I finally get that I’ve had awful delusions of persecution since childhood. These delusions aren’t typically more than months to years. But it’s a self fuffilling thing because the pressured speech, sharing too much, and crazy delusions aren’t understood as bipolor to others, and until seven years ago to me either. So I push people away because obviously I come across as weird and probably annoying. It’s been better since I now realize much of the past occurrences were definitely delusions. And since I now realize the importance of letting those who are close to me know that I have this illness, they are able to recognize when I need to self regulate and that I’m headed one way or the other. I figure it out also by now watching people’s body language and responses to my behavior. I call my doctor and adjust my antipsychotic medication.
I found out in 2016, at Tampa general, during a complicated revision surgery. It is a beginning
She is brilliant she make mental illness easy to understand
I just want to thank you dr. Marks. I really like your breakdowns especially when it comes to telling the difference between ADHD and bipolar I really think I was misdiagnosed bipolar one because of my ADHD symptoms and behaviors. This video helps reinforce that because I don't think I have ever had a manic episode and don't seem to be hypomanic versus the ADHD episodes. I even share a lot of your videos to Facebook so that other people can tell the difference as well.
I'm so glad the videos have been helpful and reinforcing. That's what they are here for. And yes, I think mania gets mistaken for a lot things - anxiety, add, etc. But as you can see when you put all these symptoms together, it has a very characteristic look that is very different from anxiety and ADHD. Thanks so much for sharing the videos on FB. 🤗
This is sooooo helpful. You gave such specific examples while some videos don't even give examples!
It's both painful and relieving to know exactly my diagnosis and how accurate it is. I've only had one episode so far and I hope it was the only one in my life.
Personally, I have had only one episode of mania since I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder four years ago, but many episodes of hypomania and depression. However, I have learned to control my condition and recognize when I need to see my doctor or therapist so I don't go off the deep end again.
@@cellogirl11rw55 same with me. I already know when to ask for help! I hope you're doing well! :)
I was diagnosed with clinical depression a while ago and have also been told my depression symptoms could be another thing. This really helped clear up what mania is and isn’t. Thank you very much!
I've had 2 episodes of mania, one little one at home and a big one in a hospital, but in all the rest of my life, with only slight exception, I've never had any of the rest of the bipolar symptoms. I wish I could talk to you. I've been to about 5 different shrinks but they were all a waste of time and money. Nobody seems to know what I'm talking about. I do not have symptoms of the disorder, yet I've had mania attacks
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in 2009. The highs of mania are unlike anything I've ever felt. I got rediagnosed with schizoeffective disorder in 2012 and got off of my medication in 2016 since I thought it was impeding my intellectual prowess. But it wasn't worth it. I felt like it was a trial by fire and I couldn't control my reality. 2017 was a very dangerous and hard year for me in terms of what I was eating (and I wasn't eating unhealthy necessarily rather I was eating too much of one item or another and it affected my health). I was into health and running a lot during these years. It wasn't until I restarted my Depakote that I realized what a godsend it was. My nightmares started to end there. Thank goodness for medication.
Yep thats me right now.. hypomanic so my bf says 🙄 i keep feeling "off" and ssuuppperrr sexual..also spent a ton of money on Gardening supplies b4 realizing what was going on😑
Gardening supplies 😂😂😭 me I have a shopping issue
I get both as well! Ridiculous sexually and having 2-3 Amazon deliveries for weeks a a time. As I’m shopping on Amazon I find all these wonderful things that I didn’t even know that I needed so I got them all. Lmao
i talked to a doctor about myself for the first time recently. i never knew i'd need these videos before. im so thankful for this
This is the first video I’ve watched where I’ve truly understood the difference between mania and hypomania versus just having a brief break from depression. Most people just reel off the same bullet list from Wikipedia and it didn’t help!
Thank you for this, I've been subscribed to your emails for a long time. Now, at nearly 24, I am finally beginning to understand what is going on with my brain.
I love the way you explain things and the examples you give. I have bipolar 2 and sometimes have a difficult time explaining hypomania to people. This was really helpful. Thank you!
I love listening to your videos. As a PMHNP student I find your videos so helpful. We do not have many lectures in my program and I learn so much from your videos!
I'm diagnosed with Bipolar and so your videos are really helping me to understand my diagnosis more and what I can do or what I should talk/ask about, thank you
All I know is that I get very social for a week and then the next week I neglect all of my family and friends and feel like I want to die
I have to say during one of my manic episodes...I truly believed I won the lottery. Talk about being truly elated! Unfortunately, my other episodes weren't so immediately gratifying.
I have the issue with ideas of reference when I’m manic. Same for flight of ideas and spending habits. Thank you for this resource!
"There is no room" for hope, when we cannot help ourselves!
This is the story of my life, I have been suffering from depression for years. I have weeks where I'm down, empty, low energy, and thinking about death. Then weeks of pure bliss a burst of energy and ideas. I can accomplish a week's work in a day. It's an endless cycle I have gotten accustomed to.
This is wild I thought I just had a little ptsd from living in the hood but I think I’m really bipolar
Thanks for clearing this up. Most places that explain hypomania pretty much say that it’s just a really good mood. My anxiety disorder causes my mood to swing throughout the day most days and I was convinced I had bipolar because nobody could explain hypomania without being vague.
I know right! So many people making videos and just reel off the same bullet list which doesn’t help
Notes:
Bipolar disorders are defined by manic or hypomanic episodes.
Depression is present in both - bipolar and unipolar depression.
Abnormal and persistently elated/irritable mood + Abnormal and long-lasting energy + 3/4 (if irritable mood) out of 7 symptoms
Occurs in a way that is noticeable and a departure from their usual baseline behaviour
Mania is defined as a distinct period of abnormally and persistently elevated expansive or irritable mood along with abnormally and persistently increased energy or activity lasting at least 1 week and present for most of the day, nearly every day (or any duration if requiring hospitalization)
Hypomania - constellation of multiple symptoms which last for 4 days and are less severe without impeding function in daily life (social, occupation and education) but still noticeable.
1. Inflated self-esteem or grandiosity
2. Decreased need for sleep and losing track of time
3. Pressured speech - to the point that they are uninterruptible, more noticeable to the person that they're talking to rather than
4. Flight of ideas -subjective experience that your racing thoughts outpace your ability to keep up with them - thoughts are disjointed and ''all over the place''
5. Distractibility - attention to easily drawn to unimportant and irrelevant things
6a. Increased goal directed behaviour - work, social, sexual, school or 6b. Psychomotor agitation - purposeless non-goal directed activity (pacing, fidgeting, getting up to do things but not really doing anything), there is a subjective experience that you don't feel settled, similar to anxiety but not feeling nervous just feeling the need to move about
7. Excessive involvement in activities that have a high potential for painful consequences - buying sprees, sexual indiscretion, foolish business endeavors.
May:
i) cause severe problems in occupational life, social life, education etc impeding ADL or requires hospitalizations to keep them from harming themselves/ others
ii) present with psychotic features - hallucination or delusions. A common delusion = ideas of reference, person will believe radio/TV/person is peaking about them, the things they hear are actually really there (not a hallucinationg) but the meaning they assign is unrealistic/impractical.
Hypomania
a) symptoms only last 4 days
b) does not cause same problem with functioning - less severe
c) symptoms still noticeable to others - some people actually enjoy it because its a relief from their depression - will still appear amped up (different from usual) to others and may cause disturbances
d) no need to go to hospital and not getting in trouble with others
e) importantly - no psychosis! if psychotic features = always mania
If manic episode = dg always bipolar 1, even if future episodes are hypomanic, dg does not change.
If hypomanic = bipolar 2, however if manic episode occurs dg would change to bipolar 1.
Bipolar1/2 dg does not largely matter because medication treatment is the same. However course of illness and duration of depressed states differs
Bipolar 1 = Can have recurrent back to back manic episodes with less frequent depressive episodes.
Bipolar 2 = Hypomanic episodes with more frequent and longer depressive episodes
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Excellent video! Simple, understandable, complete. Impressive... 👍👍
Thanks a lot!! 🤗
I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar 1 with mania and at first I’ve been really skeptical about my diagnosis but the more I learn about it the more I’m beginning to accept my diagnosis.
I'm not happy. I'm confused, and I don't know what to do!
Everything you just described as mania, is something that I have been doing, including considering a career in politics as a lobbyist, because I feel abused by my local governments. Which needs fixed. I figure, why not put my mania to good use in the world, when "the sheep" of "normalcy" are putting up with the injustices being done to people in their own communities, whom actually need help. I was just diagnosed Bipolar 2, I believe. I actually may be Bipolar 1, based on how long my manic state actually lasts, I'd say 4-6 days on, 2-3 weird/down. Thank you for this insight!
Thank you so much for making your videos, Dr. Marks. I recently started some medication and was worried my change in mood was mania, and although I am not taking your videos as clinical advice, they did help reassure me and inform me what to look out for. Thanks again for what you do; I sincerely appreciate it.
Was diagnosed at 6 years old and again, separately, at 11 while under the care of a clinical psychiatrist in a group home. I was treated both for ADHD and Bi-polar disorder. Fast forward to age 29, I was tested and treated again for bi-polar disorder. I just realized from watching this video that bi-polar isn't always the stereotypical symptoms. I don't have extreme symptoms. They're just severe enough to cause negative outcomes financially, emotionally, and with relationships. I'm glad I am treated.
Whenever I’m getting manic I ALWAYS obsess over mental health in general I’ll watch hours and hours of videos and do research online and feel like I’m an expert in it
Uh oh, im immediately self aware 😆