Everything just feels DIFFERENT.

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  • Опубліковано 11 гру 2024

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  • @Kyl_n
    @Kyl_n 19 днів тому +3904

    old youtube is back, people are over the oversaturated shit. im so happy this and so many similar videos keep popping up on my algorithm. people just, talking and expressing thank you for this

    • @Ghjgfjjgv
      @Ghjgfjjgv 19 днів тому +72

      They pop in your algorithm because it’s what you click on and watch, not because it’s what’s popular, that’s how an algorithm works. These channels seem to have 1 video that gets crazy views then back down to reality

    • @Sergioisdead
      @Sergioisdead 19 днів тому +30

      We need back the golden era of talking about real life feels and gameplay in the background with commentary

    • @Sergioisdead
      @Sergioisdead 19 днів тому

      ​@@Ghjgfjjgvthis UA-camr gonna blow up tho watch

    • @shira2151
      @shira2151 18 днів тому +10

      Old UA-cam never left you just finally decided to change your own algorithm

    • @JustinLT212
      @JustinLT212 18 днів тому +15

      Idk if it’s back necessarily but we are all recommended here for a reason. That reason is the same as a lot this guy described in the video. I’m 25 now and I feel like time is very fleeting and moments you have to be there for but you can’t be everywhere aswell it’s a strange feeling. We are all massive nostalgia merchants but in reality we know deep down life was better 5/10 years ago. Simply things have changed a lot… a lot of stuff we can’t even really discuss in comments anymore. All in all let’s push for the good expressive and real videos that we used to have in UA-cam I agree. 👏🏼💯

  • @vellitical1532
    @vellitical1532 22 дні тому +9313

    a random obscure youtube video popping up in my algorithm has never hit me this hard, i literally teared up watching this. i’m 22 now and it feels like the best days of my life are long gone, i barely have any friends left and have no idea what to do in life.

    • @BHVKing
      @BHVKing 22 дні тому +721

      never felt a comment they way i feel this one brother same age here no idea what im supposed to be doing with my life everything feels pointless not even in a depressing way just overall lost

    • @timestampterry5415
      @timestampterry5415 22 дні тому +128

      You've got this brother

    • @UpTheWaahs02
      @UpTheWaahs02 22 дні тому +85

      Same here bro I'm same age aswell and can relate to what you just said

    • @vonbeedle554
      @vonbeedle554 22 дні тому +50

      younger than that and im even feeling that way

    • @RS-mu5cy
      @RS-mu5cy 22 дні тому +94

      Lets create group chat somewhere, we are all the same age and feel the same!!

  • @leonbrown1412
    @leonbrown1412 15 днів тому +1332

    23 here, 2012 black ops 2 was peak life. Graduated highschool in 2019. Lifes not been the same since. Lost friends, Loved ones, People i thought whod be with me forever. This video popping up on my feed on a random tuesday morning lit a fire under my ass. may god bless everyone in these comments. WERE ALL HOMIES WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING

    • @KagamiPie
      @KagamiPie 15 днів тому +17

      Its 23:20pm here and its popping of randomly in my feed and i feel this video so much. Im in the middle of my 30s and I'm so tired of everything, but Gaming and chill with my friends in teamspeak is my comfort zone when everything is pissing me of. I wish everyone whos reading this a nice time and a happy life.

    • @AnythingLounge
      @AnythingLounge 15 днів тому

      No one cares about ur age bud

    • @Healing_whizz
      @Healing_whizz 15 днів тому +31

      Bo2 was genuinely peak life for ‘98-‘02 kids tbh. I feel the completely same way

    • @BlackWolf99556
      @BlackWolf99556 14 днів тому +2

      Amen 🙏

    • @AlexReznov1913
      @AlexReznov1913 14 днів тому +2

      *_PART 2_*
      ua-cam.com/video/J5CIdU27L2A/v-deo.html

  • @1605x
    @1605x 7 днів тому +335

    It's scary how many people feel this exact way. Something isn't right, that's for sure.

    • @adamsteinken1185
      @adamsteinken1185 3 дні тому +12

      We are all in the same lobby of the best game, life

    • @kevinjaboy5104
      @kevinjaboy5104 2 дні тому +7

      THE GREAT DEPRESSION IS REAL

    • @BladeseedStudios
      @BladeseedStudios 2 дні тому +18

      It’s called over saturation of LED poor food lack of exercise and other healthy habits
      Nobody socializes all they do is sit on there phones people don’t really live life anymore and it’s sad

    • @danielpulse128
      @danielpulse128 2 дні тому +2

      @@BladeseedStudios I actually switched back to a flip phone over 3 years ago. Just living it up like it's the 90's. Still feel lonely and massively depressed but it's one less thing weighing me down.

    • @ScarGhost7
      @ScarGhost7 День тому

      ​@@BladeseedStudiosMaking contacts? Everyone I've met in the last 10 years was either really shitty, underhanded or completely uninterested.
      whether man or woman. And even if a relationship with a woman did develop, it was at some point exactly as described. There's something wrong with people. Maybe not with me either, but I believe that none of this happens by chance, but is intentional. Something is being done that we don't notice.

  • @ironwaffle8053
    @ironwaffle8053 18 днів тому +1900

    I used to feel exactly like you, until i got cancer, and now im sitting here, my time is right around the corner, and i just think about how amazing of a life i had, and i would literally do anything in this whole world to just breath without worrying about my family and myself, stressing and down that i wont be able to see them again, but these are just words and everyone reading this wont be able to understand, it just kinda clicks with you one day, and you really just appreciate what you have right here and right now, the breath ur taking, the friends you have, the family you love, wow, what a time to be a live, hold it together men, maybe lifes not working out for you right now, but there will be a time when you dont really have anyone and things are just different, and you look back and reminisce, but you forget youre still here alive, breathing, getting to enjoy this one and only experience, what id give to do it again

    • @versitiliy2199
      @versitiliy2199 17 днів тому +137

      God Bless you and the people around you, just keep living your doing everything you can, your human!

    • @leerichards730
      @leerichards730 17 днів тому +80

      All the best to you brother, appreciate you sharing this

    • @mobbng
      @mobbng 17 днів тому +76

      love you bro, keep fighting

    • @zesty291
      @zesty291 17 днів тому +26

      God Bless you

    • @kevingarcia-k9o
      @kevingarcia-k9o 17 днів тому +24

      keep ur head up bro

  • @alpolo007
    @alpolo007 21 день тому +591

    The 2000s were such a great time to be a kid.

    • @godsway8501
      @godsway8501 18 днів тому +9

      I miss it bro 🥲✌🏾😂💙✊🏾🤦🏾‍♂️

    • @MaleekRobinson-s6m
      @MaleekRobinson-s6m 17 днів тому +4

      Definitely :/

    • @gl40ty
      @gl40ty 13 днів тому +5

      03 here 😤

    • @bertgummer8125
      @bertgummer8125 9 днів тому +2

      I was 16 in the year 2000. I miss it all

    • @Steezus_Chrlst
      @Steezus_Chrlst 8 днів тому +1

      I’m 15 and I’m feeling like this. What the fuck is wrong with me.

  • @AngelDani7697
    @AngelDani7697 22 дні тому +3151

    lots of 27 year olds here... i'm one of them.
    The mid 20s seem to be a very confusing and draining time. Preying on our nostalgia and wishes to go back to a simple era in our lives.
    Let's not lose hope, let's rekindle those childlike feelings and memories, and create new ones.
    We only have one life. Let's try not to waste it too much. (Edit: beware of the comments, lots of spam from bots of different religions yapping zzzz that's easily the start of a comment war so, be safe

    • @javajav3004
      @javajav3004 22 дні тому +16

      truer words have never been spoken brother, thank you

    • @MalecMusic
      @MalecMusic 21 день тому +79

      27 year old here as well. So all of us are having our quarter life crisis at the same time huh?

    • @christopherwinget8988
      @christopherwinget8988 21 день тому +25

      @@MalecMusic im 27 as well, and im like fuck is this what being 27 feels like lol

    • @Vanesh-u1b
      @Vanesh-u1b 21 день тому +7

      24 and needed to hear this

    • @panduhgaming5473
      @panduhgaming5473 21 день тому +41

      also 27, i love you all. yall all my bros without even knowing it. this video came up on my feed for a reason. take care guys and god bless

  • @Owen941
    @Owen941 8 днів тому +35

    I tried to replace that euphoria as a child/teen with drugs & alcohol as a 20-24 year old. It only made things much worse than before. Trust me, I had some great times, memories, drinking w girls, my homies, getting faded w the boys, by myself. It was fun. But then it all stopped being fun when everyone around me was getting in shape, married, had a decent career field, idk. Everyone around me seems to be living and doesn’t need to get high or drunk to be happy. I start therapy next week. Do not try to find happiness in a partner, a friendship or job without having a healthy baseline level of happiness with yourself. Get healthy, practice mindfulness & discipline. It won’t always feel like sunshine and rainbows, but in time, being healthy & sober is better than not. Take it easy friends. Life is short & u only get 1. I know its scary, it’s unforgiving & unknowing. But you can make the best of each day, I promise. Also, comparison is the thief of joy. Do what brings you eternal peace

    • @noahonschoolwifi
      @noahonschoolwifi 6 годин тому

      thanks man I really appreciate this comment and it answered a few questions

  • @GunzyTech
    @GunzyTech 22 дні тому +2030

    29y/o here and I completely understand. This probably doesn't help, but since having my son 6 months ago I began feeling that "Feeling" again. I began to realize I will get to experience his generations version of "Bo2" with him, and I am incredibly excited for it.

    • @trixfusion6168
      @trixfusion6168 22 дні тому +114

      Glad to know our "bo2" days will live on😎

    • @jesterparadise8890
      @jesterparadise8890 21 день тому +153

      My mom has told me the exact same thing. i was talking to her about how I miss experiencing things for the first time, like you do when you're growing up and everythings so new. that's part of the thing that sucks life away, everythings so mundane because you're used to it, have done it all before. And she told me "You know when that comes back, when you have kids of your own and can show them everything for the first time". Thats exciting for you man, you get to show your own mini me the world, thats cool as fuck and i cant wait to have my own children

    • @JeffyPDiddy
      @JeffyPDiddy 21 день тому +45

      The biggest point of life biologically speaking is to procreate. We are designed to have children. Having children is part of the quintessential human experience.

    • @artemthuma8729
      @artemthuma8729 21 день тому +24

      About to have my first child next month and it feels so nice to read this. Life is good but man is it exciting to help my little one realize when they are in the good old days

    • @evanmnbishop
      @evanmnbishop 20 днів тому +15

      What scares me the most about a child is what if they feel the same way I do? I wasn’t asked to brought into this world and tbh there are many times where I wish I hadn’t been. I don’t want to put them on someone else only for my own selfish reasons. It’s a very difficult choice for me. Not only that but I feel like the world we live in today is worse than previous generations and if I have a kid I want them to live a better life than me. The future of this world is too uncertain for me at this moment

  • @HFP94
    @HFP94 19 днів тому +887

    I'm sitting here on a Friday evening and randomly found this video. I felt like you spoke about my life and what I'm going through. This hit me hard. Life is so strange now... Bless you all

    • @Cornbeef101
      @Cornbeef101 19 днів тому +6

      Absolute madness right ! Wow

    • @IAce1
      @IAce1 19 днів тому +6

      ayo me2 same friday evening

    • @lukecalderon1161
      @lukecalderon1161 19 днів тому +2

      Same! Good luck y’all.

    • @onsomezen
      @onsomezen 19 днів тому +1

      Keep moving forward my friends, god bless

    • @loganreynolds8749
      @loganreynolds8749 19 днів тому +3

      Same 7:30 pm on a Friday and now I’m sad bc I thought I was going to get an answer to a question that has no answer

  • @Slurhp
    @Slurhp 10 днів тому +60

    I’m 30 and life feels so empty. I long for these days as well. The amount of friends and people I’ve lost contact with over the years is a lot. It feels like somewhere along the way I lost a part of myself or something that I just can’t get back.

    • @Merczid
      @Merczid 20 годин тому

      Perhaps it is the parasympathetic response you are missing, mate. It seems to have been placed on the backburner in many of us, mainly due to overstimulation and unresolved emotions. I am finding back to what I remember living used to feel like, which appears to be a dominant parasympathetic state. Wish you the best!💪

  • @Twin-Nick
    @Twin-Nick День тому +6

    33 here. About to be 34 in May. Totally random video moved me so much that I cried. U took EXACTLY how I feel and put it into words. I spent the last 6 years trying to explain this. You did it in 11 minutes. Thank you so much.

  • @minimuca17
    @minimuca17 12 днів тому +238

    23 y/o here, based in Melbourne Australia. This is a straight up nail to the coffin on how I’m feeling in recent times. The fun and memories being made with all the games i played with friends, the late nights, the parties, going out and having fun. Having friends period. But as of recent times, hell I’d say even since covid, everything hasn’t felt the same. Don’t talk to 95% of friends I had in school anymore and it hurts cause these are people I grew up and made some of the best memories with. Now it’s mostly just me on my own doing my own thing working full time, going gym, not going out too often anymore etc etc.
    Nothings just that fun anymore, emotions are stagnate, every day blends together and the feeling of living is gone. I have no ambition to work towards any major life goals such as a career I want to be in. The only exception however is gym as I’ve been going for 2 years and have seen awesome results. But yet with small wins, I’m always overwhelmed but other negative feelings and thoughts. Needless to say to say I can definitely relate to this and glad I’m not alone in feeling these feelings too.

    • @pezoasweida7506
      @pezoasweida7506 12 днів тому +2

      Ayo keep it up G, sounds like you are winning to me. Gym and only 23 years old!
      You are gonna make friends that stay for your life cause those who arent anymore havent really ever been friends

    • @Andrew-bw6on
      @Andrew-bw6on 10 днів тому +4

      I’m 22 and this is my experience almost exactly! Crazy that you basically took the words right out of my life. Legit same feelings and situation.

    • @minimuca17
      @minimuca17 10 днів тому

      @@pezoasweida7506 it’s been one of the only good things to come out of it, but yet I still don’t feel fulfilled you know, like I need more..

    • @minimuca17
      @minimuca17 10 днів тому +3

      @@Andrew-bw6on Well there you go, just goes to show that we really aren’t alone in these feelings which honestly gives some solidarity but it’s a silent epidemic I reckon, things need to change by us and others.

    • @dovahking6514
      @dovahking6514 9 днів тому +2

      Same, I got a decent job but it's not my career path. They call these jobs 'golden handcuffs' cause they pay well but it's miserable. Not doing well in it but now I know what career I really want so idc what happens.
      This is the age to explore, create, and take risks. I'm gonna try everything I want while I'm still young. Follow your dreams, we're all gonna make it.

  • @Bricklless
    @Bricklless 18 днів тому +141

    “I think I’m in love with the innocence of that time period” Man this actually made me teary because that’s exactly how I feel now…

    • @eyezikandexploits
      @eyezikandexploits 17 днів тому +1

      It was the best life has ever been, no drug could even compare. Its tuff trying to find that rare feeling in a life of work, If i could just be 12 again for 1 day and play bo2. fuck man

  • @ItsGJ1
    @ItsGJ1 23 дні тому +1601

    I’m 27. I have felt this way for the entirety of my 20s, I never knew how to put it into words but you did so perfectly. I have tried everything to regain that feeling again. I loved fighting I went out and did a few mma fights and won an amateur title. I got to 230 pounds for weight lifting/bodybuilding and still looked cut like I always wanted seeing like the rock, my father and all these masculine figures growing up. I became a marine. I got into my first serious relationship and moved in with my current partner. I made my first 100k. Bought my dream car which was a 2002 mustang GT. I literally felt nothing while accomplishing all this in my 20s. I remember winning my amateur title or finishing the crucible on top the reaper getting handed my EGA feeling nothing, almost like it was a dream. As weird and stupid as it sounds, I felt more accomplishment engagement and drive in life, grinding Skyrim at 13 years old. Or trying to hit round 100 in zombies with friends. I kind of realized that I will never feel that feeling again that you explained and it put me at ease this year to finally tell myself that and move on. I have been able to enjoy video games again. I’m back in the gym and I want to chase another fight. Stick in there man, we are all going to make it, thanks for being vulnerable and giving us a chance to relate.

    • @PROMETHIUMPLAYZ
      @PROMETHIUMPLAYZ 22 дні тому +32

      yeah i dont believe your story for a minute.

    • @iMvon
      @iMvon 22 дні тому +266

      @@PROMETHIUMPLAYZ some people do stuff with their lives

    • @bigboss-qv7pe
      @bigboss-qv7pe 22 дні тому

      Doesn't take a genius to realize that you're pumped with hormones in your early stages of life to learn and experience as much. There's no way of getting it back, just accept it.

    • @PROMETHIUMPLAYZ
      @PROMETHIUMPLAYZ 22 дні тому +1

      @ no one asked you

    • @JayJohnson304
      @JayJohnson304 22 дні тому +65

      @@PROMETHIUMPLAYZcry about it 😂

  • @salaheddin3652
    @salaheddin3652 5 днів тому +11

    you speak from my soul. There has never been anyone in my life who has managed to touch my heart with words like you did. I couldn't stop crying and at the same time I'm happy that someone is finally making it clear to me that my thoughts and feelings come from somewhere else because that's normal and everyone has these thoughts at some point. yes, it's also called growing up and be a man…

  • @skaBABBLZ
    @skaBABBLZ 20 днів тому +822

    This is so many of us 90s and early 2000s kids man. I now understand what older guys would struggle with and why some turn to drugs alcohol and other vices and why some ultimately hit the quit button on life. Can’t even enjoy sports or games because you inherently know you’re watching and living someone’s success while you rot away We’re all gonna make it . Just can’t quit

    • @alexmcpartlin5170
      @alexmcpartlin5170 20 днів тому +98

      Bro I'm 21 and what you said about sports is so true. Football was my life growing up played it everyday and watched it everyday up until the age of 19 when I left school and the real world hit me. It just feels like when I watch it now Im looking at what I should have became. Not to mention the fact that Im a massive over thinker and I can't help but keep noticing the fact that the sport is literally 22 men kicking a piece of plastic filled with air while being watched by millions of others. Idk how to explain it but yeah it all just feels like a distraction from the fact were just slaves the world of work

    • @RizeUp8083
      @RizeUp8083 20 днів тому +9

      @@alexmcpartlin5170 the latter part is why I find it hard as a 25 year old man in this society this world to keep pushing, barely treading water for what? Might be easier just to sink at least you know definitively what will occur vs the likely of just punching in, punching out and that’s what you’re content with or maybe just maybe some salvation by the way of getting bailed out in life with some specific circumstances then maybe if that lines up you get the ideal life… I miss a time when things were innocent, and now post 18 life, I’m 25 and feel my second chance at finding that feeling has passed for whatever reason and this is it, sorry for the book

    • @alexmcpartlin5170
      @alexmcpartlin5170 20 днів тому +6

      @@RizeUp8083 yeah I agree with you. However I do genuinely think fixing our way of thinking it is still and option it’s more about how to do it than if you can do it. Life would be so much more free if we had 3 day weekends because I swear we work all week and then all of a sudden the weekend comes and goes in the blink of an eye. That extra day off would boost work ethic and mental health. I think a lot of our generations problems stem from the covid lockdowns and social media. Working Monday to Friday and then drinking on a Saturday with friends seems like the norm for me the last 2 years but I’m beginning to realise drinking is jut a way of escaping and everyone being happy on a Saturday night is so fake we’re all just masking the grey clouds over our heads. (Apologies for the paragraph but this comment section feels like a good place to talk to people 🤣🤣🤣)

    • @AlexReznov1913
      @AlexReznov1913 20 днів тому

      *_PART 2_*
      ua-cam.com/video/J5CIdU27L2A/v-deo.html

    • @IIIISai
      @IIIISai 19 днів тому

      ​@@alexmcpartlin5170u spittin

  • @51TomasLopez50
    @51TomasLopez50 23 дні тому +994

    Bruh I think this is a message from a high power speaking through you. I needed to hear that im not alone in this.

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  23 дні тому +147

      Sounds like you were meant to hear this fr. don't stop trying in whatever you want to achieve

    • @51TomasLopez50
      @51TomasLopez50 22 дні тому +10

      @@oncefaded you keep it up as well 💪🏻 thanks!

    • @drakehasbula5557
      @drakehasbula5557 22 дні тому +16

      WE ALL LIVE SAME LIFES I THINK CRAZY IM NOT THE ONLY ONE FEELING THIS AND NOSTALGIA I HAVE FOR CALL OF DUTY MW2 AND MW3 OR BO1 CRAZY MILION DOLLARS CANT BUY THE FEELINGS.

    • @AlexReznov1913
      @AlexReznov1913 22 дні тому

      *_PART 2_*
      ua-cam.com/video/J5CIdU27L2A/v-deo.html

    • @TheseBygones
      @TheseBygones 21 день тому

      ​@@oncefaded🙏

  • @lufcwhit
    @lufcwhit 15 днів тому +190

    this video found every person who watched for a reason. nostalgia is a dangerous feeling. growing up isn’t what we want but it’s inevitable, take it slow and live in the moment. maybe you need to grind that 9-5 to save some money and then go for your goals and put all of your time and effort into it. you will succeed.

    • @sadboyonline
      @sadboyonline 7 днів тому

      thanks man.

    • @ilyasx7k
      @ilyasx7k 5 днів тому +2

      i appreciate you saying something positive in all this i feel the same way as this guy

  • @pd7484
    @pd7484 5 днів тому +2

    "I dont wanna travel back in time, I just want to have a similar mindset as I did back then"... This quote hits hard.

  • @scpWyatt
    @scpWyatt 18 днів тому +714

    Hey man, I don’t know your specific circumstances, so I don’t think I can be as impactful with my words as I’d like to be, but as a 29 year old that’s gone through the ringer too, I’d like to give you some advice that might help you or someone else in this comment section.
    When you talked about living life on manual mode vs automatic mode, that really hits deep. The feeling of having to manually do everything when it used to feel so effortless and simple, even the things that you KNEW were natural to you and made you who you are just feel like cinderblock shoes.
    I have some good news and some bad news. You’re not a kid anymore, and you won’t ever be. That’s not meant to be rude, but on a purely chemical and physical level, there are some things and highs you won’t ever be able to hit again, literally impossible due to brain chemistry. This is considered normal.
    We also appear to be living in a slice of history that has no equal to it. In all of human history, no culture seems to have faced such an unprecedented set of circumstances as ours right now. This is NOT normal.
    The good news is that, either by divine comedy or cosmic luck, these two insanely huge soul-crushing and life-draining problems seem to have a single solution for the both of them.
    Master something.
    That’s it. Pick something and master it. We used to give kids hammers and tell them to master smithing. It’s going to be very hard, and it’s going to take a long time, but find something, stick with it (don’t drop it quickly just because you obviously suck at it at the beginning like everything else), and keep going until you master something. And I mean TRULY master it. I don’t need to give you examples because you know what a master looks like.
    You said you want to focus this channel more on talking about this issue and connecting with the people that are also struggling. Good! What’re all the elements that can help you achieve this? Master your tools and you’ll master your craft. Master social speaking. Master video editing. Master storytelling. Hell, master the art of mastering something. And I mean REALLY become a master at them, none of this mid tier garbage we see around us all the time these days. Master what you know you need to master to become the master of this field.
    I’m giving you this advice from one UA-camr to another: don’t let the failure of your very next video convince you you’ve got to change your path AGAIN. “Looks like that was a one-time pop off, just like all the rest, oh well.” They say you shouldn’t let failure define you, and that’s true. Failure should correct you. As they say, “a master has failed more times than a novice has even tried.” Mike Tyson just “failed” his recent boxing match again Jake Paul. But nobody cares, he’s still Mike Tyson. People love him even MORE now! He’s a master. A novice quits when he fails; a master fails only when he quits.
    Anyway, like I said, I don’t think this will help you in all aspects of life, but it was a mentally that helped me a lot a long while back.
    It’s easier said than done, obviously. But it’s also doable. It just needs to get done.

    • @Fhrxst
      @Fhrxst 18 днів тому +51

      this comment is highly underrated and needs to be pinned. Everything about what you said honestly touched my heart and soul. Seriously, don't give up on hope. You have so much to live for and become who you want to show to everyone else and yourself. As long as you know you're improving to become a better you, people will always acknowledge and know you are true to yourself. I call it "being your best, you."

    • @notadaytrader
      @notadaytrader 18 днів тому +22

      Worth the read.

    • @Despise7
      @Despise7 18 днів тому +14

      Dam what a comment 🫡

    • @nickb3194
      @nickb3194 18 днів тому +9

      i love you and this comment.

    • @bowskee
      @bowskee 18 днів тому +1

      not reading

  • @KingCrimsonn
    @KingCrimsonn 21 день тому +505

    Please, never hide or delete this video. I saved this in a private playlist , cause the whole speech you gave is very close to what I told my dad a few nights ago about me kinda feeling “empty , unsatisfied with life even though I’m starting to achieve more stuff”. As you also said , I miss the days and nights with the homies more than anything, and those minutes that felt like hours. I’ve recently started to notice how fast time is slipping away now that I’m over 20 and I’m working half year away from home and half year at home.
    A few weeks ago me and my cousin bought BO6 cause “it felt right , just like BO2 was” and told it to another friend of ours which we used to play with in 3man splitscreen back then. When we talked about those times , I swear we all kinda started speaking in a sad manner cause we all knew there was no coming back to those times.
    But I digress, please never delete this masterpiece, as this is an encapsulation of a lot of the same thoughts I share.
    Thanks 🙏🏽

    • @Jon14141
      @Jon14141 20 днів тому +6

      Indeed good luck with the future man

    • @Chickensea10
      @Chickensea10 20 днів тому

      Come join the finals! Titanfall still works as well
      Join the helldivers!
      STEAM AUTUMN SALE IS COMIMG SOON

    • @Yrnliftoff
      @Yrnliftoff 20 днів тому +8

      ^ please never hide this video…

    • @steezyxl1600
      @steezyxl1600 19 днів тому +4

      i made a playlist named “🐐” & just put this in there, i’ve never had a video hit harder. I’m glad to see this bc i agree 100%

    • @MLGB0Yz
      @MLGB0Yz 19 днів тому +4

      You need Jesus, that’s what’s missing

  • @user-tj9vv7sp2j
    @user-tj9vv7sp2j 20 днів тому +285

    A gem cannot be created without friction. There may be a reason we have to feel this way

  • @HiTecRedneck92
    @HiTecRedneck92 2 дні тому +5

    This is content.. I’m 32 and couldn’t agree more brother. Feels like I’m stuck in the mud, spinning my wheels.. Wasting so much time. Wasting time that could be happiness.. There IS more, we just have to find the road that leads us there. Thanks man, You gained a sub. Will be looking for more!

  • @TGG_
    @TGG_ 20 днів тому +467

    This video perfectly describes how I felt a few years ago. Feeling stuck, tired of my job/life & at a breaking point.
    No matter what, don't let the spark burn out man. I might sound crazy (and this is a massive oversimplification), but as long as you keep that spark burning & keep TRYING to move towards the future you want, you won't fail. Don't give up brother, keep learning and promise yourself you won't stop until you make it. All the best.

    • @Yrnliftoff
      @Yrnliftoff 20 днів тому +19

      Holy, even TGG is here.. wow

    • @AlexReznov1913
      @AlexReznov1913 20 днів тому

      *_PART 2_*
      ua-cam.com/video/J5CIdU27L2A/v-deo.html

    • @MiguelCabrera-gl9ki
      @MiguelCabrera-gl9ki 20 днів тому +5

      Man. Knowing tgg here gave me even more comfort I really got faith in this future community

    • @ykqfilmedit
      @ykqfilmedit 19 днів тому +4

      Holy hell. TGG... real ass comment

    • @bradleysumner1622
      @bradleysumner1622 19 днів тому +5

      Was watching your red dead streams and came across your comment on this as a fellow aussie thank you for expressing yourself man glad all of us no matter what walk of life we are all from we can come together to support each other no one is truly alone

  • @ftckasino
    @ftckasino 20 днів тому +87

    The best best emotion isn’t love its not even happiness.. its nostalgia. Anger it’s the worst emotion and you dont know real heartbreak until you think about something you cant get back. Nostalgia is something we all will experience.

    • @rainbow_af3171
      @rainbow_af3171 20 днів тому +1

      What is nostalgia when you don’t know what you went through when it was nostalgia you just didn’t know it yet till you lost it .

    • @jackdominguez207
      @jackdominguez207 20 днів тому

      @@rainbow_af3171you had an epiphany

    • @Joshsclips
      @Joshsclips 18 днів тому

      Certain people realize this and have successfully used it to create a platform for power in American politics... It was literally their entire slogan... vague nostalgia baiting by saying "make america great again"

  • @kennymorris6538
    @kennymorris6538 19 днів тому +126

    I’m 29. Mentally just wanna feel like 15-16. Was hit by a car recently. Lots of regrets and wanting to live in the nostalgia. Drained. Dealing with BPD and CPTSD. I just wanna feel happy again. Have hope. Never lose it. It’s the driving force behind all things. It’s what is making me type this message out in the hopes that someone reads it and feels inspired, even if it’s for a few seconds. Btw I loved your video. Thank you for sharing. You Aren’t Alone.

    • @VladimirKhadyrov
      @VladimirKhadyrov 19 днів тому +6

      29 here too, it gets better bro, I promise.
      Just hang in there, people believe in you, and if you feel like nobody does, I do.

    • @scorch-
      @scorch- 19 днів тому +1

      💚

    • @cainer1639
      @cainer1639 18 днів тому +1

      Jesus loves you so much remember who He is ❤️‍🔥✝️❤️He has a great plan for you remember who He is for He wants to heal your heart❤️‍🔥✝️❤️

    • @sebastianm.6669
      @sebastianm.6669 9 днів тому +1

      I think every emotion is valid.
      there's times to be happy, and times to be sad.
      it is an insult to life to simplify it by saying: life should always be lived with 1 feeling only.
      for every emotion there is a time and a place,
      if you feel despair, it is ok.

  • @wastingtime6211
    @wastingtime6211 21 годину тому +2

    26. That feeling you describe is fleeting but I still have it.
    Tldr i suffered a major injury leaving me in a lot of constant pain for most of 25. Gave me the opportunity to be more grateful for what I do have positively and define the priorities of what matters to me.
    Staying in the present, thinking deep on your current priorities and executing them, and being grateful for the people and things you still enjoy in front of you today helps ten fold.

  • @TooArchaic
    @TooArchaic 20 днів тому +201

    You took the words deep hidden within my heart. I’m 25 now. And man life fucking sucks no matter how much money I make or vacation. That spark we had chilling with the homies on mw2 & bo2 will forever be gone inside of me. I haven’t been as happy as that time period of my life being 13-16 I’ll never get it back. But now it’s just whatever it is now. Thanks for this video bro.

    • @Decln
      @Decln 20 днів тому

      so real (i’m 23)

    • @laaa210
      @laaa210 20 днів тому +9

      Nothing will matter if your not happy in yourself

    • @cosmos3128
      @cosmos3128 20 днів тому

      ​@@laaa210That's deep bro

    • @brudermusslos8490
      @brudermusslos8490 19 днів тому

      also 25y/o, livin life in the moment.. a few homies, coming home from 9-10h work and just to fall on my chair and play games and chill on discord. m2-bo2 was different era of time that won't come back - back at least we were there for the moment and the memories we have now. feel hugged bro

    • @cainer1639
      @cainer1639 18 днів тому

      Jesus loves you so much remember who He is ❤️‍🔥✝️❤️He has a great plan for you remember who He is for He wants to heal your heart❤️‍🔥✝️❤️

  • @Tonyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
    @Tonyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy 20 днів тому +269

    Very well put brother… 2009-2016 was such an iconic period of time. Obviously cod was at its absolute best, but also technology was just starting to progress to where we could enjoy it, but it didn’t dictate our lives. It was a time where you didn’t have to call your friends to make plans, you would just show up to their house on a bike and figure out what to do together. Comparison is the thief of joy, and without social media being as established back then, we were more focused on our own lives and the people around us. There wasn’t nearly as much noise back then as there is now. The days went by slower bc we were fully present for each moment.

    • @Cornbeef101
      @Cornbeef101 19 днів тому +27

      Read a few comments, this one hit home soo true social media killed everyone’s peace and replaced it with anxiety

    • @mylordtakemeaway
      @mylordtakemeaway 18 днів тому +2

      those who believe and whose hearts find comfort in the remembrance of Allah. Surely, in the remembrance of Allah, do hearts find comfort. [Allah's Quran 13:28]

    • @cainer1639
      @cainer1639 18 днів тому +2

      Jesus loves you so much remember who He is ❤️‍🔥✝️❤️He has a great plan for you remember who He is for He wants to heal your heart❤️‍🔥✝️❤️

    • @AlexReznov1913
      @AlexReznov1913 16 днів тому

      *_PART 2_*
      ua-cam.com/video/J5CIdU27L2A/v-deo.html

  • @mj-nl8so
    @mj-nl8so 15 днів тому +34

    the fact this just showed up randomly on my UA-cam homepage is insane. i've been feeling like this for so long but never knew how to articulate it and you did it perfectly. i have new people to game with but it''ll never be the same, it'll never feel the same again. the longing to be truly carefree like when we were younger is crushing. thank you for making this video.

  • @strawbmilkies
    @strawbmilkies 3 дні тому +1

    the sunset feeling hit hard.
    i used to love watching the sunset, the way it changed the color of everything, the smell in the air changed, the noise the bugs made. now it just reminds me another day is ending and i’ll have to do the same again tomorrow.

  • @rm22.02
    @rm22.02 22 дні тому +298

    22 year old male here, relate to everything you just said. Unsure if the pandemic was partly to blame, or if it was growing up having more responsibilities to contend with…. Or both. But life ain’t the same and not in a nice way. I’ve never felt as lost, as empty and as directionless as I currently feel right now. I find myself questioning the system we live in and are governed by…. I believe it was designed to knock us to our knees and make us miserable. Working 50+ hour weeks is far from normal yet people glamorise that sh*t because ‘bills need paid’. But at the expense of f*cking what? Being a slave for 40+ years while the government are literally laughing at you and taxing you? I don’t think so. Something needs to change

    • @214arnas
      @214arnas 22 дні тому

      We're on the verge of a worldwide awakening, not to go super spiritual/religious, but anyone can feel from COVID something in the air just feels 'different', not just to do with video games, but this feeling of 'void' that so many people seem to be in, it's bleeding into all corners of reality here.
      Governments have no interest in us and they've made that really clear, We can blame having the 'wrong' people in charge etc. But it's at a point now where people are realising these individuals are not just making 'mistakes', they're, in some cases, committing crimes towards the human race which is beyond words.

    • @firstname3850
      @firstname3850 22 дні тому +50

      Put your trust in God, bro. This life isn’t the end.

    • @pingeee
      @pingeee 22 дні тому +48

      agreed man, fuck this system this shit is torture

    • @purplevincent4454
      @purplevincent4454 22 дні тому +24

      ​@@firstname3850when has god answered the prayers of humanity, ever. This is the best time to live on this planet, even if it ain't much.

    • @Bigboisully
      @Bigboisully 21 день тому +8

      also 22 year old male, my parents works 50 hour work weeks, there parents worked 50 hour work weeks, its nomral just depends how early you wanna retire and stop working. do it while your young cause you dont wanna be chasing a 401k at 40 years old with a whole family

  • @goblinsquirt
    @goblinsquirt 20 днів тому +44

    I’m almost 27. When you said “I’m just mid at everything” that hit me at my core. I feel every word you said in the video. I think about it all the time and it consumes me. I got my bachelors in civil engineering a few years ago and just haven’t been able to make it work. The few jobs I’ve had have sucked the life, soul and energy out of me just to keep me barely financially afloat. I live in Canada for reference. I’ve tried other personal business endeavours that haven’t been successful either. I’m about to start a new career path but I’m so scared to fail again it’s paralyzing. This lack of success, combined with a deep nostalgia for the past and its feelings of genuine joy and being present in every moment without overthinking, it really hurts and feels so heavy on my chest all the time. At least we’re all in this together. Maybe this is just what growing up is. I like to think otherwise, though.

  • @fourBangYT
    @fourBangYT 18 днів тому +94

    I work in the 911 system on an ambulance. I remember sitting outside the hospital in the ambulance bay at 1am smoking a cigarette after a child abuse call and just feeling numb. The feeling of feeling nothing and realizing the world just isn’t the same as it was anymore. I think it’s just growing up but at the same time it’s about maintaining connections with life. Appreciation of sunsets, talking to friends, enjoying a coffee in the morning in silence. You have to sometimes stop searching for something, searching for a feeling, something tangible. Sometimes you have to soak the world in and appreciate the things you have and moments you can just breathe. To me it’s not the things of being younger that gave me that feeling. To me it’s the wonder and love of the world. No matter how broken, no matter how little is right, sometimes it’s best to just soak in the world around you and smile through the shards of what’s left.

    • @RVM1N3
      @RVM1N3 15 днів тому

      Thank you for what you do. I hope you’re getting better.❤️‍🩹

  • @nathanjacobson4128
    @nathanjacobson4128 8 днів тому +2

    29, wife and three kids. Thanks for sharing from your heart…I feel so alone most days at work. I don’t hear these kind of things from people even though I know so many of us are going through them.
    I feel you on the “living to survive” thing.
    Thanks again for this. I love my games too….but I think I love them because of the interactions with people. I rarely play single player.
    Keep up the hard work man…and for real if you ever want to talk, I’m a good listener and sometimes I think that’s what we all need. Just someone to work things out with.
    I don’t know you, but in the truest sense, human to human, I love you brother.
    Peace

  • @Ahmed-jk7ff
    @Ahmed-jk7ff 21 день тому +85

    I’m 22, and I’ve felt this way for a couple of years. What helped me personally was shifting my mindset and realizing that great things take time. I started focusing on redefining my goals instead of chasing quick fixes like online business models or social media success. I came to understand that I had been conditioned to believe these things would bring me happiness and fulfillment, but in reality, it’s the small, everyday things-like access to fresh water and the comfort of stability-that truly matter.
    I’ve worked on managing my stress and anxiety to the point where I no longer have “bad days.” What used to feel like months of stagnation eventually became weeks, then days, and now it’s just fleeting moments that don’t define me. I’ve learned not to let those feelings trap me but instead to keep moving forward.
    I now believe the future is full of promise. By making small, consistent changes rather than trying to take big leaps, I’ve found more peace and direction. For example, being a millionaire at a young age used to be my main goal, but I’ve realized that financial success alone won’t make me whole. Shifting my mindset has allowed me to focus on building a meaningful life, one step at a time.

    • @Ahmed-jk7ff
      @Ahmed-jk7ff 21 день тому +9

      What you’re feeling might be depression, and while it’s not inherently a bad thing, it’s worth taking some time to reevaluate why you want the things you’re striving for. Sometimes, a fulfilling career or a meaningful relationship can be far more rewarding than chasing a million dollars or a flashy UA-cam lifestyle.
      I think you’re very introspective, which is a great strength, and you have the potential to succeed in anything you truly set your mind to. The fact that you’ve tried things and they didn’t work out doesn’t mean you’ve failed-it just means those things weren’t meant for you. Eventually, you’ll find what truly aligns with you and your purpose. Keep going, and trust the process.
      You’ll come to appreciate these moments of uncertainty and not having it all figured out. Growth and success take time, and that’s what makes them meaningful. If it were easy, it wouldn’t hold the same value or teach you the lessons that shape who you are. Trust the process, and remember that the journey is just as important as the destination.

    • @JustinRM20
      @JustinRM20 21 день тому +9

      This is the way. As nice as it may feel to reminisce and get nostalgic over the past, the only way is going forward. Great reply in a sea of despair and sadness.

    • @jerrysmith_9411
      @jerrysmith_9411 20 днів тому +1

      19, this is exactly how i feel. If you think you peaked in life x amount of years ago then that will be the truth. If you believe youre yet to peak the only direction is up.

    • @Ahmed-jk7ff
      @Ahmed-jk7ff 20 днів тому

      100%

    • @eltyo340
      @eltyo340 19 днів тому

      Your comment reminded me of this song:
      ua-cam.com/video/uA0uXmG3La8/v-deo.htmlsi=DwmXCYkYLMtqjfyD

  • @Quickfistazor
    @Quickfistazor 18 днів тому +67

    42 here, been feeling like that since I'm 25. Can't event find a way to enjoy a single day, I'm not depressed at all, just, can't find joy in anything since work sucks the life out of you.
    Thanks for sharing your thoughts, I can finally see that I'm not alone feeling like this.

    • @HoaxHoax-d5f
      @HoaxHoax-d5f 16 днів тому

      You, like I, need purpose and meaning. Work and gaming have no meaning.

    • @302efi
      @302efi 16 днів тому +1

      43 here.. I feel exactly the same way.

    • @EuropeanAmericanGenZ_1999
      @EuropeanAmericanGenZ_1999 15 днів тому +4

      @@HoaxHoax-d5f No, gaming did have extreme meaning as a kid and was relaxing and calm. Obviously it’s not the same as an adult because of bills and the realization of it being a waste of time, slowing you down from your real life goals and things in real life that use to when you were happier or still do give you immense amounts of euphoria, happiness and flutter in your chest like as a 10-12 year old at summer camp waking up before others at summer camp, going go the lockers to shower and feeling the mildew moisture on the grass, looking at the sun’s yellow and orange tint and how vivid, peaceful and happy if made you. Although video games don’t give the same extreme levels of mental euphoria or detailed memories they did as a kid when you did stuff in video games, they once did. It’s time we rediscover what made us happy as kids besides when we played video games. For me, that was soccer, baseball and running. I’m slowly building muscle again to redo those activities.

    • @Quickfistazor
      @Quickfistazor 8 днів тому

      @@HoaxHoax-d5f I haven't been gaming in the last 15 years..

    • @HoaxHoax-d5f
      @HoaxHoax-d5f 8 днів тому +1

      @@Quickfistazor
      I don't blame you. It's just constant remakes and unfinished releases tgey want to charge you 10 times the games value. That is why I only play what's free. Let everyone else pay fir it because they want to play dress up with a cartoon character. Formerly, I played fighters and shooter semipro 25 years ago, quake 3, unreal tournament, halo 1(back in the xb connect days before xbox live) soul calibur, marvel vs copcom series. Gaming ain't what it used to be. Just looks better.

  • @ForgivingHero
    @ForgivingHero 19 днів тому +87

    This is your magnum opus, this is your talent, this is your reason to live, spark something within thousands of people, maybe save thousands.

    • @vSplyontwitch
      @vSplyontwitch 19 днів тому

      this guy spitting ong

    • @Enyamasparw
      @Enyamasparw 19 днів тому

      Well put.

    • @Kenny-8
      @Kenny-8 18 днів тому

      Yeah man, just speak your truth. It is valuable.

  • @AgedFactual
    @AgedFactual 3 дні тому +7

    I love you bro. 😎 You’re just experienced, your honest, your kind, and respectful. If you need to talk, I’m here for you.

  • @thepunisherxxx6804
    @thepunisherxxx6804 22 дні тому +240

    I'm long settled in a career and still find enjoyment and excitement for video games like I did as a kid. You can keep that spark alive, you really need to practice being in the moment, and when its time for gaming, that's all you're focused on. That naturally happens as a kid but as an adult you have that background anxiety going, worrying about everything, which makes sense, its all on you to survive as you said, but you need to talk to yourself. You need to realize you don't have to be productive or surviving all day. Carve out intentional time and compartmentalize work from play. Approach life with more intent, in all things. Worry about things when they are in front of you impacting you directly and you can take action, don't torture yourself in your mind for thing that haven't even happened.
    I still love games, I still make efforts to keep my gaming group together and play regularly. Trying new games and giving each a genuine try (playing with intent) to learn the mechanics really pulled me in. I like the new COD, but to be fair it has been a lot of the same type of game for 2 decades. Maybe you just need a new type of game to ignite that spark. So many good games out there.
    Don't let life beat you down, don't lose your childhood spark, its such an important part of ourselves. If you genuinely liked games your whole life I don't think you grow out of that, but you might be in a rut. Good luck to you, hope you find happiness.

    • @BikeRaceAddict
      @BikeRaceAddict 22 дні тому +23

      Just wanted to say this is very eloquently written. Really enjoyed reading :)

    • @rustedbiscuits874
      @rustedbiscuits874 22 дні тому +15

      This is a great response and I think you are right

    • @F_VAN11
      @F_VAN11 22 дні тому +9

      This is the way

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  21 день тому +58

      the background anxiety and stress of "I should be doing something else" always settles in. You're right I should find time to purely focus on the game

    • @tito_macana
      @tito_macana 21 день тому

      Well said bro!!

  • @oaktreehill666
    @oaktreehill666 17 днів тому +10

    wow this really is the most relatable thing ive seen for a loooong while. i can really relate to the "living life in manual mode" thing, i feel like when you hit a certain age you mature in a way that just makes you think much more about stuff and things, just analyzing every little thing that happens and everything feels like its got a bad side to it. for example if i meet a new person then my brain will automatically startt analyzing if this person truly was being nice to me or if it was all an act to get something out of me. its these feelings and thoughts that i just cannot escape no matter what i do and its killing me. i feel like everything i do has to be a strategic move to gain something and it feels like everyone else is just trying to gain something too, which makes everything feel fake and non-genuine. it is what it is

  • @dylanm691
    @dylanm691 21 день тому +18

    i really think i understand this. its like a feeling of like hyper awareness of reality. like thinking back on when you were younger you were maybe conscious but there was a level of flow and thoughtlessness that seemed to carry you through your days. now its like every second of every day im thinking about the past future and present and how im gonna solve this unsolvable problem of life. everything feels like a chore as opposed to being an automatic decision that you would make out of pure curiosity/ joy.

  • @BoomZomber
    @BoomZomber День тому +1

    Thanks for getting that off your chest. I’ve been saying this for so long. I’m 30 last month and it just hit me, nothing will ever be the same. There is nothing to change. Just living to survive. Chasing a mindset where you don’t live on manual, where the hours feel like days, where everything is hew and exciting. There’s more to life than this. There are new memories and experiences to make. Don’t let pointless shit drag you down and pull you away from the time you have left for what you want.

  • @carti6752
    @carti6752 23 дні тому +148

    i genuinely believe in you and i hope you go far in life.

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  23 дні тому +33

      Appreciated bro i hope the best for you also

  • @SaintoraXBL
    @SaintoraXBL 22 дні тому +135

    just turned 20, haven’t done much in 4 years, everyday feels like a drag, I live for the happy moments I guess now, it’s all I have.

    • @BloxPixel
      @BloxPixel 21 день тому +23

      Same turned 21 like 4 days ago. I think the best thing we can do is be in the present moment and appreciate what we have, even if it sometimes feels like shit, life keeps going on even after our death so let's make every moment worth living

    • @isaiahwalking
      @isaiahwalking 21 день тому +22

      Same here dude (20 as well) everyday feels the same ever since i finished high school... working a job i hate and having to come home eat dinner and head to sleep waiting for something to change but it just won't.

    • @Vanesh-u1b
      @Vanesh-u1b 21 день тому

      As 24 year old you guys should not stress your self you have so much time to try and mask it out of the matrix slave system

    • @KRoyski
      @KRoyski 20 днів тому +6

      @@isaiahwalking Realest thing ever bro. Just remember we are only 20 and there is still so much to do and see

    • @laaa210
      @laaa210 20 днів тому +1

      @@isaiahwalkingwhy would somthing change when your doing the same thing?

  • @datboidego
    @datboidego 19 днів тому +152

    Most people get it wrong , it wasn’t the games or age. It was the era, the golden era of video games and technology. I was lucky to be born in the perfect time to experience real childhood playing with friends outside all day and as a teen becoming more connected with video games and entertainment.

    • @Halcyon1997
      @Halcyon1997 19 днів тому +2

      It's was all of it

    • @Valik-ez4cq
      @Valik-ez4cq 18 днів тому +13

      No, dont connect it to something. It was simply good childhood, not matter of year, As child you simply love everything and are curious, nothing to be bothered about and love to express yourself.

    • @WOWMelted
      @WOWMelted 18 днів тому +1

      Nope, you have it wrong. It was absolutely the age.

    • @cainer1639
      @cainer1639 18 днів тому +1

      Jesus loves you so much remember who He is ❤️‍🔥✝️❤️He has a great plan for you remember who He is for He wants to heal your heart❤️‍🔥✝️❤️

    • @alejandroc7357
      @alejandroc7357 18 днів тому +4

      @@Valik-ez4cqyea as we get older we are taught shame,guilt. We get repressed in our emotions to try to fit in or satisfy others. We numb ourselves to negative emotions and allow ourselves to stay stuck in toxic environments.

  • @FaT_ScRaN
    @FaT_ScRaN 4 дні тому +2

    You hit the nail on the head. Im 23 and haven’t felt that feeling you talked about for a long time. Life just feels kind of empty without it and it feels like my life isn’t going in any particular direction. I think sometimes, why was I put on this earth to do this. I work, eat, sleep repeat. Whereas back in the 2010’s this question wouldn’t have even crossed my mind when I was living my life in ‘automatic mode’. The nostalgia of those times always reminds me of a time when life was simple and when I looked at the world in a different and more innocent way. I now understand why everyone would tell me I shouldn’t wish to grow up .

  • @LOGVN
    @LOGVN 18 днів тому +20

    I have never once been brought to tears from a UA-cam video until now. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for posting this. The BO2 in the background... just perfection. Teleported me straight back to 2012.

  • @ricflair8867
    @ricflair8867 21 день тому +33

    Unfortunately brother this is what growing up feels like, life dulls a little bit more you see things more clearly, cherish those memories because if you could relive em at this age it wouldn't be the same, I'm 33 and I long for those days, pulling all nighters with my mates playing Sony, but life moves on and you have to move with it otherwise it'll leave you behind. Keep your chin up, there's still magical moments to be had in life.

    • @i2Shea
      @i2Shea 19 днів тому

      One of the best comments. Life moves on, buckle up, its going to be a bumpy ride, don't get left behind or you will slip more and more into this feeling!

  • @cross_fyre1005
    @cross_fyre1005 7 днів тому +5

    Most emotionally relatable video I’ve ever seen you’ve got a subscriber and another person caught in this *limbo* realizing they aren’t alone in this headspace I appreciate you for making a genuine video and laying it all out

    • @pnwDatsun
      @pnwDatsun 7 днів тому

      He definitely spoke words to plenty of souls

  • @jjt-l5c
    @jjt-l5c 19 днів тому +15

    28 and I’ve lost a lot of people. Follow your passions and the things that genuinely make you happy. Chase those feeling. I’ve been completely off social media besides UA-cam and Reddit. I live in a bubbles and it’s all the things I love and enjoy. With the people I love. I hope the best for you brother and anyone else going through life.

  • @imSIKWITIT
    @imSIKWITIT 22 дні тому +98

    27 years old here. I feel you and you are heard. I may not know you but Im cheering for you

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  22 дні тому +5

      I’m cheering for you also bro

  • @mfkill5sk8
    @mfkill5sk8 18 днів тому +66

    Man I hate to be that guy, but in my opinion this mentality is detrimental. Your feelings are valid because often times I feel them too. But you can’t get stuck on them. Life is evolving, progressing, and endlessly changing. To be stuck in the past is to not live in the present. Look back and smile on how you used to feel as a child. But smile even more for the things you have now, and for things to come. You have a job, a partner, a bed to sleep on, and I’m hoping a supportive family. Every time you wake up you choose how you want to feel. Whether you know it or not. The mentality you bring to a new day is everything. Hopefully things turn around for you mate, as the past will always be a memory.

    • @Sergioisdead
      @Sergioisdead 17 днів тому +6

      This needs more attention because it's actually true. It's okay to reflect on the past and talk about the good times, but I understand we have to adapt and evolve but being human is a difficult experience and not everyone can just snap out of it. But there is hope.

    • @DorianDavy
      @DorianDavy 14 днів тому +2

      He's more blessed than he can imagine. I agree that it doesn't detract from how he feels about his life but I think it's very much a mental issue stemming from an inability to go with the flow of life and then to adapt. This isn't me saying self-improvement stuff but it's just a fact of life deeply rooted in human history. Bruce Lee is wise here "Be water, my friend."

    • @Ethanmmmmmm
      @Ethanmmmmmm 9 днів тому

      Finally a positive comment 😂 this is my mindset every day and it helps. Social media has mentally flattened a whole generation

    • @leftvassis
      @leftvassis 9 днів тому +1

      I understand your opinion, but how? How can you get past it when life after school/university is just working all day, coming home (hopefully to a partner but most people live alone), barely having time to do some form of hobby for 1 hour and thats your day gone? The weekend is just there to give you time to catch up on the stuff you couldnt do during the week because of work. Friends? you ll be lucky if you see them twice a month. Vacation is a joke, 3 weeks through the whole year is not enough to relax, let alone explore new things or visit new places. It feels like every day is just a replay of the previous and you re alone in it.

    • @MarekkKonecny
      @MarekkKonecny 7 днів тому

      Did you pay attention ? He CANT and I understand him very well

  • @hazedcosmo8522
    @hazedcosmo8522 2 дні тому +1

    I’m 19 and I’ve been feeling like this since I started my second year at college.
    Thank you so much for bringing me this comfort.
    I thought this was just an American thing but to hear your accent, it lets me know whatever this is that we’re discussing, spreads everywhere and not isolated in one region. We all will get through this. In unity there’s numbers…numbers of people who you can relate to.
    Reading these comments has made me feel so much better.

  • @MGSBESTProductions
    @MGSBESTProductions 22 дні тому +53

    The feeling you feel and miss is called childhood/teen years that’s why it’s important to enjoy them while they’re there and foster this and preserve this for other children/teenagers because once its over there’s no going back.

    • @pingeee
      @pingeee 22 дні тому +10

      and thanks to my shitty overbearing parents i never even got to enjoy them fully and now my whole life is fucked up and i can never go back now

    • @Bigboisully
      @Bigboisully 21 день тому +9

      @@pingeee stop blaming your parents and take control of your life if your 18 your an adult get a job save up money and move the hell out you have 60+ years left in your life dont spend the rest of them living in the past

    • @Hærryß
      @Hærryß 21 день тому +9

      @@pingeeegrab life by the short and curly’s and ride that pony, its going buck, but don’t you dare let go.
      Don’t listen to people saying you just miss your childhood there are people in this comment section saying they feel the same even tho their still in it. It’s much more than that, it’s sometimes intrinsic about our society. You must over come it within yourself, forgive your parents to get over your childhood trauma, disillusion your self from the lies of our culture. Only when you step out side the cultural perimeters set upon us from birth, and forgive those who wronged you, can you truly enjoy life for what it is.

    • @foregoingsomeguy
      @foregoingsomeguy 21 день тому +1

      ​@Hærryß I needed to hear this, thank you brother

    • @pingeee
      @pingeee 21 день тому +2

      @@Bigboisully not happening in this economy.

  • @darkhandz
    @darkhandz 16 днів тому +33

    28 and so lost in life... guess is normal. Take every day as if it was the last one.
    Even lost, we can enjoy our journey

  • @shredandsmoke2769
    @shredandsmoke2769 20 днів тому +50

    another 27 year old here... eyes bloodshot from the stream of tears this one ripped out of me. I just want to say to everyone else that no matter how draining the days are, how hopeless everything seems, the lack of silver linings we seem to find....... giving up will render everything useless- so please don't do that. At the end of the day our memories are all we have to carry to our graves. We're all beyond grateful to have grown up in the time period that we did and experience the things we did and honestly to even have this video pop up on our recommended- it's something we all needed to hear- something all us strangers feel deep in our souls that should help us keep the ball rolling. I love you guys

    • @Franko-Gaming
      @Franko-Gaming 20 днів тому +3

      I lost my Mum when she Was 44. It changed me, I don't talk or laugh as much, I used to be the chatty 1 but some of the joy in life has been taken away. I'm happy with life and yet I have days where I feel like what's the point. My daughter keeps me sane tbh.

    • @beefynumber124
      @beefynumber124 3 дні тому +1

      I agree man I think the community is truly broken and it’s not the same like he said in the video, I hope everything gets better we can only pray together

  • @VimpGaming
    @VimpGaming 4 дні тому +1

    Bro I can't believe how this random video gets showed to me at the perfect time when I needed it the most. I'm 29 and literally feel the exact same way. I teared up reading a few of these comments. It's incredible the power of simple honesty and allowing yourself to be vulnerable. We're thought all our lives that sharing our feelings makes us weak.. but you sharing this gave me the courage to do the same so thank you.
    So much anger is bottled up inside of me about growing up. Empty pursuits, lack of significant connection to others and missing the simplicity of the old days. Sometimes I just feel like I want start over and disappear for a few months and explore the world. There is so much out there and so little time.
    Thanks for sharing. Much love and keep your head up

  • @redwansaaty9324
    @redwansaaty9324 10 днів тому +8

    I just saw an instagram reel abt this and I was deeply touched. we’ve all grown up and living now in the same circumstances sharing the same nostalgia. it’s crazy. it’s crazy how time flies too
    We all do get these introspective talks (that you’re expressing rn) with ourselves in our heads, and frankly, sometimes I just press record on voice memo and just put it all there
    What I realized is that back then when you’re young there’s just a straight, predetermined path free of worries set for u to follow along without you thinking twice abt it. Whereas in now, aka in adulthood, you’re the one that is responsible to forge your own path by yourself without external help, taking decisions not knowing wether theyre right or wrong, and if you don’t then you’re gonna really fall off, and you do it to survive because you have responsibilities.
    Man I remember how excited I used to feel about the idea of adulthood, dreaming of the freedom and opportunities it would bring. Now however, I find myself longing to relive those simpler days more than ever. I wonder how our lives will continue to unfold as time goes on

  • @Nuxzy_
    @Nuxzy_ 20 днів тому +12

    I’m 26 and this is one of the most relatable things I’ve watched, you did a really good job of putting it into words and I think a lot of people our age share the same perspective.

  • @swagmeiser
    @swagmeiser 22 дні тому +351

    You are beginning to see the three characteristics of reality. Impermanence, unsatisfactoriness, and non controlability

    • @Hærryß
      @Hærryß 21 день тому +6

      panta rhei. Memento mori.

    • @SWAGgrass
      @SWAGgrass 20 днів тому +16

      Theres like a mental shift that happens at certain points in age, I will definitely tell you I dont look at the same things the same way anymore but its not even about perception its that it literally does not look or feel the same in any aspect. This shift can either be good or bad depending on how you accept it

    • @eth7948
      @eth7948 20 днів тому

      how did you accept it? do you believe that’s 100 in your control (good/ bad)?

    • @eth7948
      @eth7948 20 днів тому

      100%

    • @d1ssolv3r
      @d1ssolv3r 20 днів тому +1

      @@eth7948 Not sure what you're trying to ask, but perhaps you want to look past acceptance. Why do you need to accept (or reject) anything?

  • @julianholder5420
    @julianholder5420 4 дні тому +1

    understand every part of what ur getting at man. it’s so weird that it’s like did we switch into a different world an get lost? type feelings

  • @malcolmashton7359
    @malcolmashton7359 21 день тому +18

    I'm 31 and felt similar a few years ago. For me, getting married to my wife and have two boys helped me truly live in the now. I happily play older games, childhood games, new games, I even have an old crt tv with a ps2 in my game room. And I learnt that although time passes, you can still be who you truly are. Embrace who you are, be proud. Be grateful that you where so happy before and be grateful for happy you can make yourself, be grateful for wisdom and knowledge. Most of all be grateful for living your own life, travelling down YOUR road.

  • @DaRoyofficial
    @DaRoyofficial 20 днів тому +8

    This is very relatable but it’s also something I’ve recently overcome. It sounds like you’re suffering from trapped emotions that you’re repressing that are keeping you in that energy. This will sound oversimplified but it’s this simple: stop fighting how you feel, feel it and watch it go. All that heaviness is from the literal emotional weight we carry around, once we let go, we natural rise. Hope this will help change your life

  • @onikrux
    @onikrux 21 день тому +21

    Just know that no matter how good or bad things may feel- you're gonna miss this time when it's over too.
    from 10's to 20's to 30's to 40's and so on. You're going to have more nostalgia for more things as they come and go. Other things will be so long forgotten and the pain runs deeper with every year.
    Fuck it man, live today.
    Be hard on yourself to see what comes of it.
    good luck bros, make sure you see tomorrow and don't live for yesterday.

  • @patthema5286
    @patthema5286 4 дні тому +1

    I’ve been thinking about this issue a lot recently, which came out of random. And then this video pops up in my feed. It’s good to know other people are going through the same thing. I’m only 20 but I miss being a kid and I miss being in high school and thinking about all the people that were part of my life back then are no longer in my life now and will never be just sucks. Things that were important to me back then aren’t now and it seems like not a lot of things are important to me anymore. I used to have so much energy and so much laughter in my life, but in college I don’t have that anymore. I can’t seem to make the same type of friends I made growing up. I don’t want new friends I just want my old friends back. I hate the thought that I will never be a kid again.

  • @jackm3720
    @jackm3720 22 дні тому +121

    I’m 26 now, for the past few years I genuinley understand now why a lot of guys bow out at this age. It’s so tough and hard to not feel hopeless when looking forward.

    • @xd3athclawx554
      @xd3athclawx554 21 день тому +27

      its an unfortunate truth of the monotony of life.
      If you are in a dark tunnel with a light at the end, and someone snuffs out that light; what is the point in moving forward in that tunnel anymore?

    • @laaa210
      @laaa210 20 днів тому +1

      @@xd3athclawx554because life isn’t mean to be easy. What’s the point in living if nothing is hard?

    • @SuperWubDub
      @SuperWubDub 20 днів тому +8

      @@xd3athclawx554 the real dark tunnel is death. Gets real dark in there. In life however, no matter how dark it gets, there can always be light. That 'can' is all you need.

    • @Jon14141
      @Jon14141 20 днів тому +1

      Good luck man

    • @wf86448
      @wf86448 20 днів тому

      This world is a demanding place. We all have struggles that are deeply personal to us. For me, I spent most of my younger years hopping from minimum wage jobs and doing drugs to escape the pressures of life. Deep down, there was a hole in my heart. What was I missing? Was it a wife? Money? A nicer car? A better job? These are questions we all grapple with.
      It was a cold night in March of 2023, when I finally opened my Bible. I had never had faith before, especially in something so acquainted and unseen. I had nothing worth living for, I was coming down off another alcohol bender, depressed as ever.
      I was determined to know if the Bible was the truth. As it says- Matthew 7:7- SEEK and you WILL find. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed. It was shortly after that something miraculous, something unexplainably wonderful happened, that I can only describe as the Holy Spirit. From someone once living for the world, I had seen the power of God, and there was change to come.
      A year has gone by. With prayer and belief (As Jesus said- if you have only a MUSTARD SEED of faith you will MOVE mountains) I have received the best job i’ve ever had by chance. I’m 100% sober, after 5 years of drinking/drugs daily, I am healthy again. But there is something far greater than any of these things- a relationship with God. There is hope for me, and hope you for you as well, if only you come to him.
      God is UNSEEN. You cannot see him with the naked eye, but he is watching, and listening in the spirit. You may read this and be skeptical now, but I assure you, have FAITH and approach him. With FAITH you will see the power of God. Yes, he is alive in this present moment. It all starts when you decide to approach him.

  • @danw5525
    @danw5525 18 днів тому +32

    I'm 37, spent 22-32 in the military, and life was good. Always doing something differnet kept life exciting.
    After leaving, however, I have been stuck in the exact same rut you seem to be in.
    I don't think it's age however, I believe if this was 20 years ago, my mental health would be absolutely fine, 90's and early 2000's was an optimistic time, everyone seemed to happy both young and old.
    Modernity is the problem.
    We (I believe) are the victims of a psychological war perpetrated against us by our governments, and it's relentless.

    • @nikitam857
      @nikitam857 17 днів тому +6

      Might really be the era we live in, with such an abundance of information on the internet we got so much to worry about that people back then didn't even think about and not to mention how disconnected we are due to all these shifts in our forms of interactions (from mostly physical to a huge portion of digital interaction)

    • @MrLandslide84
      @MrLandslide84 17 днів тому +2

      @@nikitam857 Yep. I only had to worry about what I could see years ago.

    • @iiBandage
      @iiBandage 17 днів тому

      @@nikitam857This. Where there is so many things you can be doing or knowing can be very overwhelming. Part of me wants to disconnect but part of me feels like I am missing out.

    • @lordkapsul
      @lordkapsul 12 днів тому

      I will be 35 soon, i agree, everything was much better long ago, man i miss those days.. people were way more happier

    • @tcrolius
      @tcrolius 10 днів тому

      I'm 36, did 6 active, got out and chased my standup dream for 7 years. Made a ton of new friends and had a blast. Then I lost everything, my apartment, my girlfriend, all of my possessions and was homeless for a while. Those friends all disappeared. Eating pizza out of the trash. All I'm saying is don't worry life can and will get worse. You'll laugh at yourself for making this ennui video when things were actually quite good.

  • @xcolmanrickx3027
    @xcolmanrickx3027 10 днів тому +5

    This popped up when i went on my 20-minute break at work, and I've been struggling to not shed a tear because every single thing you said was spot on with how i feel. Realistically speaking, im doing amazing in life, but at the same time, I've never been closer to my breaking point. Everyone i know and speak with will never understand these feelings and won't even attempt to understand, so venting to someone is impossible, instead all i can do is bottle up all these feelings and let them build up. Work just eats up your entire life, our prime time in which we should be living is spent working for someone that will never know who you are or care who you are. If you own your own business, then you might be better off, but then all the stress is even more with having to manage too much stuff all at once. This era is too focused on production and effect when we should be focused on living life enjoying what we have and being happy but instead we all have to work and work and work and work because if you dont work at 150% you are looked down on or struggle financially. People will think you're a bum or lazy but thats not the case.
    Idk im ranting too, but this video is saved forever, so i can watch it whenever my depression spikes.

    • @pnwDatsun
      @pnwDatsun 7 днів тому

      bless your soul 🙌🏼🙏🏼

  • @anthonyc7116
    @anthonyc7116 4 дні тому +1

    I understand how you’re feeling and miss seeing life as I did as a kid too. Glad you shared this

  • @vandalboii
    @vandalboii 20 днів тому +10

    Being 27, having experienced everything you described is truly crazy. It really is wanting to be in the mental space you were in once and wanting things to be a little bit simpler

    • @Franko-Gaming
      @Franko-Gaming 20 днів тому

      Setting goals help. We need purpose set a gym goal or book a charity run brother. Set your mind on training for it and you'll have a feeling of accomplishment when you smash it

  • @drakehasbula5557
    @drakehasbula5557 22 дні тому +61

    IM 28 AND I FEEL WE ALL FEEL THE SAME THE GOLDEN ERA IS OVER ALL ITS DIFFERENT.. I MISS OLD DAYS MAN.

    • @CAdeNA_25
      @CAdeNA_25 19 днів тому +3

      You'll say the same shxt but worse when you are 38, 48, 58.....lol ENJOY HERE AND NOW!! 😆😆😁😁

  • @ExpertAssass1n
    @ExpertAssass1n 15 днів тому +7

    Nostalgia and memories are things we will chase our entire lives. Its like a drug, youll NEVER get as high as you did the first few times and its incredibly sad. We can never go back. I wish we just knew when we were "in a memory" instead of realizing how important that was down the line 😢❤

    • @hankhill-
      @hankhill- 10 днів тому

      Just like this one episode of rick and Morty where people were put to sleep into a machine or something and while they were sleeping they could only dream their best memory of their life. But this over and over again.. There it was really a drug

  • @jordanpinnock6029
    @jordanpinnock6029 8 днів тому +3

    I'm 29. I relate to you in a lot of ways, the old memories and carefree nights that seem like a lifetime ago. Once you hit a certain age everything starts to become clear, that cliche line adults always used to say about enjoying your youth, yet we couldn't wait to grow up... to get that freedom. Little did we know we already were. If I could say anything to you, I would say keep going, you can change your life bro. Doesn't have to be drastic massive changes but 1% improvements over a long enough period can compound. Also reach out to those old friends bro, I bet they're feeling the same. You earned a sub today

  • @davidmayo7516
    @davidmayo7516 23 дні тому +69

    i have no idea how i ran into this video with how little tractions and subs you have, but man you hit me in my heart. i dont hate my life by any means but i feel like im chasing the same thing. i have a beautiful wife and an amazing kid but i still feel like im chasing an emotion that feels unattainable. You somehow explained the unexplainable feelings i have in the most poetic way, this video helped me in a real way and i hope making this video helped you as much as it did me.

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  23 дні тому +18

      I feel like there is a lot of us feeling like this bro regardless of how our current situation is. So glad I could help you even if it was only through a short youtube vid

    • @Kirby96.115
      @Kirby96.115 21 день тому

      @@oncefaded Couldn’t agree more! This one hit deep and also nailed that fact that I’m not alone with these exact thoughts and feelings. Solid video man, it spoke to more of us than you could possibly imagine. Thanks for sharing

    • @eltyo340
      @eltyo340 19 днів тому

      John 4:13-14
      Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
      John 6:35
      Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.
      You were created for a purpose my friend. To live in deep and intimate relationship with your creator, your heavenly father. That is where you will find ultimate fulfillment.

    • @tb2high95
      @tb2high95 18 днів тому

      @@eltyo340how do we build a relationship

    • @eltyo340
      @eltyo340 12 днів тому

      @@tb2high95 Same as any other person, get to know them, talk to them. Start reading the gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke and John). Find others who have a genuine relationship with him.

  • @ErickGuzmanx
    @ErickGuzmanx 19 днів тому +5

    I realized i don’t miss my childhood but I miss my child like mindset. the imagination and the gratitude I had for simple things like sleepovers or the ice cream man. Nowadays I know I’m blessed but it’s harder to be grateful. It’s like none of these things matters but the hope you have. I pray I have that child like hope again, where I have deep faith that everything is going to turn out fine.

  • @givenspade
    @givenspade 23 дні тому +35

    This was meant to be in my feed tonight. I relate to every single thing you said. I'm almost 21, not in college, stuck working the same part-time job I've had since I was 15, struggling with personal relationships, and realizing most of the few remaining genuine friendships I've had since I was in middle/high school are fading, and my mindset had completely been ruined. Most days I feel like I have no future and even if I do grind towards getting a real job and making a career for myself, it seems like I'm struggling so hard just for things to get worse. Either way, thinking about all of this made me miss my mindset as a kid, playing bo2 with my friends for so many hours every day after school.
    Edit: I do really hope things work out for you. I didn't expect to click on such a small video, that I thought would be about cod and to end up watching every second of it. I made sure to subscribe wether it makes a difference or not.

    • @Kn9SweetyNiklas
      @Kn9SweetyNiklas 23 дні тому +2

      Im 22 and same.

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  23 дні тому +6

      Thanks for the words bro

    • @javajav3004
      @javajav3004 22 дні тому +1

      Its time to make a pivot brother

    • @jake100xx
      @jake100xx 21 день тому +1

      21 is still so young bro, keep your head up! Social groups are like a revolving door, find some peace in solitary. Not saying it gets easier, but try to take a little bit of pressure off yourself to succeed, the world is yours! Hang in there, you gotta make things happen for yourself, don't wait for life to throw you a bone. Wishing you the best dude!

    • @givenspade
      @givenspade 21 день тому +1

      @@jake100xx Thank you bro this genuinely means a lot, I definitely needed to hear this!

  • @iHandleNasdaq
    @iHandleNasdaq 4 дні тому +1

    I'm 20, and I've been feeling this way for years since covid. After 2020 nothings felt the same

  • @Phillip_Graves
    @Phillip_Graves 22 дні тому +55

    "Life isn't about always being happy. Its a lifelong journey of feeling, repentance, long-suffering, etc."

    • @Stand-back-up
      @Stand-back-up 21 день тому +5

      The state of happiness isn’t permanent. It comes and goes, and does everything else. There is a peace to this for me.

    • @oldchannelmc4u
      @oldchannelmc4u 20 днів тому +11

      So then what’s the point in being here? If long suffering, pain etc is going to hit you no matter what, then what’s the point? I’ve felt more pain than happiness and I’m 20 now. Every time I feel a high, it just comes crashing back down.

    • @jamesponce4980
      @jamesponce4980 20 днів тому

      @@oldchannelmc4u happiness shouldn’t be the goal brother. Contentment should be. Be grateful that you’re in this season of your life and have faith in God. Jesus Christ will help you if you believe, repent and give your life to him. I was in the same spot as you at 20 as well (I’m now 22) and sometimes still have those days where it feels like life is meaningless. But Jesus has helped in showing me that I’m where I need to be and that my life has a purpose and that is to glorify his name. Be content brother, happiness comes and goes just as sadness, anger, and pain come. They all flee in the end bro🫶🏻 keep pushing God bless

    • @Phillip_Graves
      @Phillip_Graves 20 днів тому +3

      @@oldchannelmc4u We are to serve God by loving a life of repentance which just means to find out what is sin and to turn away from it. And to trust in Him faithfully and live like him.

    • @oldchannelmc4u
      @oldchannelmc4u 20 днів тому +4

      @@Phillip_Graves so im living for someone else? Not even myself. is what you are saying? even more of a reason to not be here

  • @FlowersAndCrystals
    @FlowersAndCrystals 21 день тому +20

    20yo here, you Spoke exacly about what me and my 4-5 friends that are left also feel. We go to work 8-17 everyday and it doesnt matter what we try to do, nothing makes us happy like we once were when we were younger. I miss having time for myself and the people i love. Everyday is the same, only thing that changes is that it gets Worse every year. It probably doesnt help that im working in a jail and dont see the outside much. Its going to work when its dark and its coming home when its dark. None of my goals feel accomplishable although they arent set pretty high. You have my sub, you can do it.

  • @machineheartsuk
    @machineheartsuk 19 днів тому +4

    I don't pop my head up much on the internet these days, but just wanted to say I found this to be a very insightful video. I've had similar feelings come up in cycles throughout my life, I think it's a part of life that can't really be avoided but I have learned to listen to what my instincts are telling me when it happens. Thanks for sharing and being so sincere - being honest with yourself and accepting isn't always easy, but it will get you further than anything else.

  • @user-Echo00
    @user-Echo00 7 днів тому +1

    You ain't alone Man It's kinda like that Childhood Feeling that we have moved on From It's Just something that Happens to Us All. It's Hard to Recreate Those Times and The Energy that Was in the Room with Friends and Family . Always was Told to Enjoy Yourself while you're Young because it does Pass You in the blink of An Eye for me I feel like the Heart of those Times were the Best. Really miss High School years No Worries in the best of Shape and Flying High .

  • @Flubbb
    @Flubbb 21 день тому +43

    I think the emotions you're feeling is a direct reflection of the system were in. It was a different time back in 08 playing those old cods and a lot has changed in the world since. For better or worse.

    • @cameronreyno7175
      @cameronreyno7175 21 день тому +3

      The world is largely the same, but now you’re just more aware of it than you were as a child

    • @Vanesh-u1b
      @Vanesh-u1b 21 день тому +15

      Nah bro the world has changed before 2020 life was more simple now feels like the world is full of hate

    • @carsonhunt4642
      @carsonhunt4642 21 день тому +11

      @@Vanesh-u1bnah it’s not the hate, it’s the awakening to and realization that society is essentially meaningless. Innovation, creativity? Hopes and dreams are all out the window. Kids? Who cares right ? We just want money. Logical efficiency. Society is in a state of decline, or rather I call it a managed decline.
      I remember being a kid a seeing a new science center, even the local McDonalds was magical. Now it’s all boring efficient buildings, nothing welcoming, rather a get your food and get out. Everyone is a stranger. Ever been to a new developing city? Take notice of what’s being built, all just services to exist, no reason for living. Food, gas stations.. no opportunities at all. Rather yet we develop these in the lowest income areas solely for the cheap labor. The biggest sin of humanity in is the wasted talent

  • @MrArkLightz
    @MrArkLightz 21 день тому +6

    Thank you so much I really needed this as someone who really struggles to express themselves this is exactly how I feel, I can’t go on like this..

  • @eggzacklee
    @eggzacklee 23 дні тому +38

    I started feeling the same last night. Launched Black Ops 6 started playing but I wasn't getting the tingles I would when playing something way before when I was a kid. I tried to justify it that it's the game that is not making me feel like I'm enjoying but now I think it's my subconsciousness and loss of childlike innocence that makes everything more gray and serious no matter what I do to have fun.

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  23 дні тому +15

      I said exactly this in the video where I don’t think it’s so much the games we fell in love with but the time in our lives and the carelessness that made us able to enjoy everything more 🥲

    • @drakehasbula5557
      @drakehasbula5557 22 дні тому

      same fking same.

    • @SpeedyMckeezy
      @SpeedyMckeezy 22 дні тому +13

      I get that looming feeling that responsibilities give you that maybe you could be doing something more productive with your time, which totally ruins it

    • @DandyHippo
      @DandyHippo 22 дні тому +1

      Its both. Everything was new back then you cant come up with the wheel twice. I was last stoked about a video game 11 yrs ago. Also we should go out to sport not olay video games, they dont hit as hard as when you were a kid ​@@oncefaded

    • @DandyHippo
      @DandyHippo 22 дні тому +6

      Kids love games because they have limited power in their life, in the game you have all the power. If you still rather play games as an adult and not play the actual game of life because, well, to most its hard and sucks it understandable but we should come up with better games as adults like relationships and sports tbh

  • @jamesrameriaz1995
    @jamesrameriaz1995 3 дні тому +1

    25 yr old here and I just wanna say yes those good days are behind us now and I really feel like as we get older and start to have responsibilities we tend to reminisce on those times we didn’t have that and we didn’t have a care in the world, I’m sure our parents and grandparents etc. felt the same way times change and with that we do too I miss it. But I’m here to say this no matter what’s going on those late night bo2 sessions the gamers we met will always stick with us good memories and good times no one can take that from us , y’all stay strong and keep your heads up, I’m praying for you guys
    , Corpser Company

  • @mztheplug
    @mztheplug 21 день тому +16

    Damn. this video hit hard.
    im 24, and feel extremely drained too. like you said, everything has so much weight to it, everything has so many thoughts to it.
    i have like 2 friends and my gf. thinking of working until im 65 ish just kills my hapiness. i just wish i could go back to being young again.
    i was having so much fun in my younger years doing all kinds of stuff, playing bo2 and trickshotting with 40+ friends and just having a blast.
    but then i got taken away from my mom by the government (i live in the netherlands where if u skip school for too long you get put in a juvenile like place)
    till i was 18. so about 4 years were taken from me. then when i did come home again, everything felt weird, and it still does.
    i dont understand how people are genuinelly happy. ive been feeling drained since i was 14. people keep telling me ''talk to people'' or ''get some therapy''
    but nobody truly understands. atleast thats what i thought. this video and the comments helped me realize that there are plenty of people that feel the same way.
    and you have no clue how thankful i am for you making this video.
    Who ever you are, and where ever you are in life now. i hope you get back to feeling how you used to feel.
    stay strong king.

    • @damndanieI
      @damndanieI 20 днів тому

      Being kidnapped by the government in a first world country sounds crazy

  • @Gehab
    @Gehab 19 днів тому +5

    You’re speaking truth for so many people right now. I know exactly how rough this feels and I’m so sorry to hear what you’re going through right now man. A lot of life feels like it hinges on success. It’s so easy to get caught up on how things *should* be.
    I honestly think you stated the solution to this problem in your video, which is to just keep going, always moving on. It’s OK to feel sad and lost, but just like everything else, it’s not gonna last forever.
    One of the most important things I ever learned in my life is that you can never recreate the past, or how things used to feel. I believe the best thing to do is to accept things as they are, or were, even if they are bad.
    Nothing that ever happens to you will ever wholly define what the rest of your life is going to feel like. In 2019 I completely dropped the ball on a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, my UA-cam channel was blowing up like crazy and I stopped uploading for mental health reasons. By all accounts I failed. I travel less today, I make less money, I have a smaller reach, but I am feeling SO much more in control of my life than I ever did back then. I’m back in school now and the hours are long, but I feel that I’m able to cherish this time. Feeling good about life should not hinge on material success.
    Don’t try to change how you feel right now bro. It’s OK to be sad. I believe be able to move on one day, to something new.
    Idk if this will help, but I recommend everyone here to play the game “Outer Wilds”. If you’ve never heard of it, PLEASE don’t look anything up. It’s best played completely blind. This game helped me a lot during a difficult time in my life, and I love sharing that experience with other people.
    You got this bro! ❤️

  • @SJXVII
    @SJXVII 16 днів тому +4

    Man... I'm 20, so young, and since I was about 15 I've felt this way, idk why. Idk how or when it even happened, but all day everyday I've had these thoughts and your video just popped up and within the first 30 seconds I was already crying bc this is 100% how I am and feel right now, you said it best, my partner is all I'm thankful for, thanks for this video, this will help me find something to help my child like mindset come back.

  • @thetruthh101
    @thetruthh101 День тому +1

    Don’t worry bro. I’m going through this now. 26 as well. The only advice I can give is that this feeling that we feel now is a phase. We have to be grateful for the fun times that we had because a lot of people don’t get to experience what we did. Consider this point in your life as a building point. Jobs will always change. Try implementing new routines in your day like a morning or evening routine. Sticking to it will help you a lot. That’s the only advice I can give because I’m trying these things out myself.
    All my friends are gone as well but if I think about it. I was the one that was willing to go above and beyond to be part of their group. I was there for those Mf’s through thick and thin but the ONE time I need ONE friend. Mostly all of them left me. I’m talking specifically when my mother passed away from cancer 3 years ago. Not one of those pricks ever checked up on me except for one person. I still keep in contact with that person but our lives have grown a part to the point where we think totally different now and have different opinions on stuff. We just can’t hangout like we once did. Partly because I feel that I have no energy or need motivation to go out these days. A lot of it is on me but I’m trying. That’s all we can do bro is keep trying. Also, the more simple you can live the happier you will be. I really believe that.

  • @SavageHuntero2
    @SavageHuntero2 19 днів тому +18

    2:03 This part hit me so hard cuz I really did everything you did but I'm at this point where there's so many paths I can take I'm just too scared to take them (failure again) and I just don't know what to do to get to the point of being able to express my feelings again like I was when I was younger now I just constantly feel empty and not really sure what I want to do. Still, I know I'm not going to give up on this life even if it takes me to the end of it to figure out what I want to do with it.

    • @MUGUJUGU
      @MUGUJUGU 19 днів тому +3

      Have some peace in knowing that you're your biggest critic, no one else is thinking of you besides close family and friends, and even then, they're not thinking of you as much as you imagine they may be. Don't be afraid of failure, be more afraid of not changing anything, be afraid of the regrets you may have when you're older if you don't get out of your comfort zone. Trust me, stop caring about what others may think of you.

    • @thagangg
      @thagangg 17 днів тому +1

      🎯

    • @moreplugs
      @moreplugs 13 днів тому +1

      Failure is how you grow no reason to be scared of it and tbh it’s not real unless you quit go for it don’t be scared

    • @lilmaxout
      @lilmaxout 7 днів тому +1

      I felt that 💯

  • @waskoda7377
    @waskoda7377 19 днів тому +4

    how many people made a video like this to just delete it after just venting. Amazing Words and is super relatable for me. much love

  • @jacksonmanitoulinisland
    @jacksonmanitoulinisland 22 дні тому +20

    I've been depressed to varying degrees since I was about 16 years old, and i often play old games from my childhood to try to grab a piece of myself I've lost. I also relfect on the people who I loved and some of em I still love who aren't in my life anymore. I have no idea how to make friends anymore if i ever did, i end up overthinking every interaction lol

    • @adsadam1
      @adsadam1 22 дні тому +1

      Please try therapy, it will change your life. It did mine.

    • @Djctheman1
      @Djctheman1 22 дні тому +3

      same. i used to be able to hop in my friends party and make friends with all the randoms and even irl. but now since it’s been so long since i’ve had friends, i can’t even hold a convo. and even after a convo i end up overthinking it

    • @LeftBehind666
      @LeftBehind666 22 дні тому +5

      Literally same. Lifes been shit for over a decade 😂

    • @oncefaded
      @oncefaded  22 дні тому +8

      Like how were we so confident as kids? I over analyse every social situation. Therapy may help but even then - that’s analysing situations more also

    • @adsadam1
      @adsadam1 21 день тому

      @@oncefaded it's the opposite, stops your overthinking and analysis

  • @CoffeeSA96
    @CoffeeSA96 7 днів тому +1

    This is one of the most relatable videos ive ever seen on youtube. Ive been having these thoughts alot the past year. Ever since 2020 something has felt off

  • @trynarelax5921
    @trynarelax5921 18 днів тому +42

    “We weren’t even thinking about making memories back then, we were just doing it.” Now I know there is actually someone else out there in awareness.
    Where can I talk to you?

    • @cainer1639
      @cainer1639 18 днів тому +2

      Jesus loves you so much remember who He is ❤️‍🔥✝️❤️He has a great plan for you remember who He is for He wants to heal your heart❤️‍🔥✝️❤️

    • @n2da9
      @n2da9 18 днів тому

      Man it feels like in the movie “Us” how people are living as puppets forced to mirror the actions of their “tether”. People are just trying to fit in into society while maintaining who they are as people.

  • @coldmountain1997
    @coldmountain1997 19 днів тому +16

    I’m 27 and I have barely left my house or worked a full time job for over 7 years. I just smoke weed and play old video games and try to relive the past for ages and there’s just nothing there anymore. I am actually ruining my old memories by playing these games again in this state because it all blends together now it’s hard to even remember playing my first playthroughs of GTA SA with my brother at age 8. Then the early teens call of duty era on ps3 2009-2012 with all the amazing multiplayer games in between. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me but I’ve just about given up on the nostalgia and I’m accepting I might not ever be a functional human being and enjoy things again but living in the past has cost me a decade of waste and depression.

    • @megaham1552
      @megaham1552 19 днів тому

      Trying to find the motivation to try new things is hard but I'm sure it is sure worth it

    • @1lostplatoon
      @1lostplatoon 19 днів тому +3

      I feel im the same you thanks for writhing this.

    • @chaselegleiter2629
      @chaselegleiter2629 19 днів тому

      Find a hobby and set a goal and then try to capitalize off that hobby easier said then done but the best way to accomplish it is to really put your mind to it it can be literally anything bro if it’s interesting to you learn about that shit and learn everything about it

    • @SeanLives
      @SeanLives 19 днів тому +1

      Time to start playing the best video game of all.... Life

    • @de_semaj
      @de_semaj 9 днів тому

      Legit me brother, you aint alone my guy ❤

  • @LeonSBO
    @LeonSBO 20 днів тому +15

    This one hit me hard, like a reality check, have been feeling like this for ages and never found the right words to describe it, but this video just did it.

  • @AT.matter
    @AT.matter 4 дні тому +1

    Im about to turn 31 and i feel like this pretty much all the time. You put it into words so perfectly. Thank you brother. Im so sorry you feel this way too. I feel so lost

  • @Zupiii
    @Zupiii 23 дні тому +9

    I didn’t think to see myself sit down & listen to the 11 minutes of this.
    You have spoken my true mind. You took the words right out of my mouth.
    I don’t wish for this comment to be long, so I’ll mention this. Time with the boys, is something I am thankful for & glad to be in a position to be able to capture moments that can be cherished later on, hence.. my youtube channel. I am on the same page with you with everything said.
    23 years old & I am doing Night shifts coming up 5 years, this week. Life goes by too quick once you leave school. My mindset is constantly shifting to grasp this feeling that is unattainable but, is still consistent with fear of the future. I have more to say, but this is a fair summary.
    Thank you for expressing yourself, shows that there are people out there with similar thoughts. 💜