RESET ROUTINE | overcoming new Nurse anxiety, childhood insecurities

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  • @pinkypilot
    @pinkypilot 6 місяців тому +113

    By being transparent and addressing your issues is a huge step, Kai. You'll do great in your new job. Glad you and your girlfriend talked it out.

    • @becomingtawana8253
      @becomingtawana8253 6 місяців тому +2

      Yes! It really is.

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +15

      Ofc you give me the safe space here to even be vulnerable so thank you if anything ❤

  • @anitaz6759
    @anitaz6759 6 місяців тому +36

    It’s so rare seeing someone be so vulnerable with their upbringing and I’m glad that you’re the one to talk about it because it makes me feel so seen but having difficulties in our childhood can help us be stronger adults

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +5

      I share it because it made me the person I am today and I hope it can only remind you and I that it’s okay to not have the best upbringing because the moral is, it’s not about how we start but how we journey through ❤❤

  • @dr.trishferrer
    @dr.trishferrer 6 місяців тому +11

    One of the best, and most intimate parts about adulthood is unlearning everything you've been doing on autopilot for the benefit of becoming a more conscious, alive and available human! for yourself, and for everyone who has a relationship with you. You're doing it, Kai! I love seeing your growth! You are SO supported, and are so loved and seen by many. You got this! xx

  • @pepinity
    @pepinity 6 місяців тому +7

    it takes a lot of courage being that open on the internet and it actually super refreshing to see that all of us struggle with the same issues...i hope everything works out for your family, job and relationship! After every down comes also an up - and i can totally relate with trying to have everything figured out but life doesnt work that way and once you realize it, it gets way easier. Just let go from to time and everything's going to work out perfectly!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +3

      Yesss I think also a problem is to trying to make life perfect when that just can’t be achieved realistically. I need to accept life is life at the end of the day 🥹 and thank you for giving me such a safe space to even vulnerable with things like this too ❤️✨

  • @leratomogale8330
    @leratomogale8330 6 місяців тому +26

    Hey Kai...you make my day by posting everytime. I've been stressed lately because it's midterms in my country and I saw your video which made my day. Thank you and love you❤

  • @chrissy888
    @chrissy888 6 місяців тому +4

    You have a smile that can melt hearts and being honest to yourself is very mature. Your message to those going through tough times is spot on......stay the course and don't give up. Best of luck to you and your career.

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      This is so encouraging to read 🥹🥹 I’ll also keep smiling too now cuz of this as well!! Thank you for reminding me through ur message ❤

  • @mimi.888
    @mimi.888 6 місяців тому

    You probably won't see this but I really value your transparency and vulnerability it makes not only me but so many other people feel seen. It's really hard seeing everyone's perfect lives on social media you start to forget what REAL life looks like. Life is full of ups and downs, carefree moments and stress. I am really touched that you showed all of that in your video 😭🤍

  • @divinemaster829
    @divinemaster829 6 місяців тому +2

    Kai honey don't beat yourself up too much.. you're so young and can do anything you set your mind to- these problems are temporary! Life is uncertain so enjoy every moment you can with the people you love most. The fact that you know your attachment style is avoidant from having a rough childhood is a giant step in the right direction! Give yourself more credit, you're actively addressing the problem which shows you truly care and are a work in progress! Don't be like my ex, we were together six years and he dumped me through text- he's almost 40 and admitted he doesn't know if he could ever bring himself to love anyone in his life, and doesn't even talk to the rest of his family because of it. Just keep moving forward, you have a bright future ahead- it's up to you to pave the way and never give up!💪💖💯

  • @JoSedunary
    @JoSedunary 6 місяців тому +13

    Being a perfectionist is sometimes so exhausting Kai... you don't have to be perfect, you just have to be yourself... you will be awesome in your new job... just remember why you chose it in the first place, to help people.. and you will ! You have so much support and your colleagues are their to help and guide you. Speaking out like you have been doing is going to eventually help you to find that peaceful balance in your life... keep doing what you're doing - they say a problem shared is a problem halved... use your friends and followers to share the load.

    • @selamawitkidane2924
      @selamawitkidane2924 6 місяців тому +1

      Real talk🙌❤

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +6

      Awww I love that quote you just mentioned.. “they say a problem shared is a problem halved” thanks for reminding me of this too 🥹🥹

  • @hanaillarapha
    @hanaillarapha 6 місяців тому +2

    hey kai! thanks for being so open and vulnerable in this video. The fact that you were anxious and at the same time willing to face your fears shows that ur a brave and a strong person, so dont ever think that you're less than you are.
    I also relate to you a lot, as a first yr nursing student and a rlly broke one financially and spiritually. Im also a pastor's kid lyk u and u know how hard growing up in this environment can be and having that insecurities for being diff and having a life situation thats diff from your friends. I see how growing up, its not js a wrestle with yourself but also God and why he allows the hardships in our life to come. But I guess, it's rlly to build us up and prepare us for a better future to come. So I wish you nothing but the best and pray for healing in your mind, relationships, and all the worries holding u down. God bless in ur new nursing job and keep up w/ the vlogs cus its been inspiring ppl lyk me 💙

  • @LIVEINPEACE2023
    @LIVEINPEACE2023 6 місяців тому +20

    Your speech was so awesome!! Good job of getting out of your comfort zone.🎤 ❤

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Oiiii😅 that was nerve wracking but I’m glad I did it for my best friend ❤ thank you 🎉🎉

  • @eunwooschingu
    @eunwooschingu 6 місяців тому +6

    Kai, honestly I love you so much and have been supporting you for like forever, and it really means so much that when i watch your videos, I know I'm not alone in my struggles, and it really helps knowing that everybody has these moments! You're doing well and you're going to get there, we all will! You're so real and keep going!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +2

      Yessss I’m so happy that you realize you’re NOT ALONE IN THIS LIFE!! I have so many flaws and things that are not the way I want but I also have to accept that I can do something about it too!! We’re in this together always❤

    • @eunwooschingu
      @eunwooschingu 6 місяців тому +1

      @@Hwaniiee Thank you Kai, I really needed this xxx

  • @Miss_Rae
    @Miss_Rae 6 місяців тому +72

    Hi Kai! I just passed my nclex! It was my 6th attempt! Thank you for being so relatable ❤

    • @hoonieluveu
      @hoonieluveu 6 місяців тому +3

      Congratulations

    • @Miss_Rae
      @Miss_Rae 6 місяців тому +4

      @@hoonieluveu thank you 🙏

    • @JayTee2985
      @JayTee2985 6 місяців тому

      Huge congrats 🎊🎈🎉🍾 ❤🎉🫶👏🔥🙌🥳

    • @selamawitkidane2924
      @selamawitkidane2924 6 місяців тому

      Congrats love 🎉❤

    • @ananllim.694
      @ananllim.694 6 місяців тому

      Congrats!

  • @stevehoffman9052
    @stevehoffman9052 6 місяців тому +1

    Your advice at the end makes me feel so much better with my own issues, especially financial issues. I actually feel less alone with my own anxieties, now, after seeing this video. Thanks.

  • @iwillhissatyou
    @iwillhissatyou 5 місяців тому

    you’re not alone Kai! i’m an anxious person too, even so that, at times in my life, it prevents me at from being able to function in society, like work and social events. i overthink a lot too. therapy has helped me greatly but this is just my blue print i feel like. but i’m making progress and its soooo refreshing to see people like you talking about this too and being open and vulnerable, genuinely thank you🤍🤍🤍

  • @SabriyahAbubakar
    @SabriyahAbubakar 6 місяців тому +13

    His vids always make me happy and they are so good and his shorts

  • @marleneb.gonzalez
    @marleneb.gonzalez 6 місяців тому +5

    Kai, thank you for being transparent and open with us. You're doing well, and everything will be fine in your first nursing job! 🤩✨️

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +2

      Ofc I love being an open book with you 🌸😊

  • @Ruby-Roo
    @Ruby-Roo 6 місяців тому +3

    First: Megatron is adorable and I hope Miss Spaghetti is being a nice big sister. Second, I can understand how anxious it feels to think everything is coming at you all at once. When it rains, it pours...right?? Transition times are weird for me too because I also hate feeling like things are out of my control. I think being vulnerable is a good thing, and the first step is always acknowledging that you want to fix the problem. It shows that you care enough to make things work. I appreciate that you're realistically showing what life can look like. It's a wild, complicated, confusing, and rewarding ride. Take it one day and one issue at a time. You didn't get this far to only get this far. You've got this, Kai! 💜💜

  • @1EmpressMia
    @1EmpressMia 6 місяців тому

    Hello Kai just found your channel yesterday. I love your vibe. As far as work goes, from an older nurse you gonna be fine. Be a sponge when you try training at the hospital. I’m confident you will do great. Take it easy on yourself. Hangout with the guys more it seems like thats your outlet which is great. Love & Light 💜

  • @danielao305
    @danielao305 6 місяців тому +2

    AW i want to hug you , everything is going to be ok it might seem big now but everything will fall into place. Change can be a little discomforting sometimes but ur gonna be ok. So proud of you!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Change is scary but it’s something I have to grow thru to grow ❤️ thanks for reminding me of this 🥹

  • @tamyraadams9910
    @tamyraadams9910 6 місяців тому +2

    Hi Kai! You are not alone. I just graduated with a B.S. in Biology and I am literally so afraid and anxious for the future. Thank you for your transparency.

  • @carolinatapia7215
    @carolinatapia7215 6 місяців тому +2

    OMG you are so sweet and honest just keep trying to be better everyday and it will all work out and as far as your job you will do great 😊

  • @blueparadise9
    @blueparadise9 5 місяців тому

    This is just one step on your journey. I was the same when I was your age and now when I look back (I’m 70) I wish I was more confident then because I now know I was great!

  • @spotlight201
    @spotlight201 6 місяців тому +2

    Imposter Syndrome is something we all can relate to! You're not alone. Sharing your life with another person isn't easy and it takes time to grow together 😊. Glad you both are okay

  • @evelinvitoria3210
    @evelinvitoria3210 6 місяців тому +3

    Hi Kai!! I'm new here, but I saw some of your videos, which has motivated me to follow my dreams and never give up. So, despite all the anxiety and fear you are feeling, keep going, I'm sure you will always do your best, especially in the things you love to do. ❤❤🇧🇷

  • @denisejordan1094
    @denisejordan1094 6 місяців тому +3

    You are an awesome man! I think you do good under pressure, so I am saying that to say, you are actually preparing yourself for your nursing job.I think you don't give yourself enough credit, but you are counseling yourself through your everyday decisions. I hope I make sense because I struggle with just sharing my opinions. Good luck!❤

  • @gaiazenorini
    @gaiazenorini 6 місяців тому +1

    Hi Kai, I just wanted to say that I can really relate to what you have said about conflicts growing up, and I reacted the same way as you, I froze and just wanted those moments to end to feel safe again...I know you feel down right now and you have lots of thoughts that give you anxiety, but just the fact that you are self-aware and are able to address what needs to be fixed it's a great step, be proud of yourself. I know that the unknown is terrifying, but you just have to know that everything will work out fine and this is just a moment that shall pass, you're on the right path and you're not alone 🤍

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Yess the unknown is ferrying 😭😭🥲 but you’re right every moment is also a moment to pass!! I don’t wanna forget that either!! Thanks for reminding me of this. It truly gives me strength knowing how much of a encouraging space you give me ❤

    • @gaiazenorini
      @gaiazenorini 6 місяців тому

      @@Hwaniiee of course 🥹❤️

  • @brendanguyen1908
    @brendanguyen1908 6 місяців тому +1

    I always get excited when you post new videos. Thank you so much for your honesty!!! you're so relatable

  • @becomingtawana8253
    @becomingtawana8253 6 місяців тому +25

    I just wanted to say Thank you for sharing. I’ll let you in on a a little secret, I hope you read this message.
    Family/life trauma is NORMAL. Some people don’t even have it that bad and they would say trauma oh it’s bc my childhood and it could be the smallest things that would make them feel that way. Other people really struggle with childhood trauma and it affects their adult life. I say all that to say, it’s okay to feel the way you feel. We all have some type of trauma wether it’s a small amount (just feeling like the black sheep), large amount(bullying, abuse etc), or just can’t function trauma(financial hardship, abuse, etc). I can relate to some of these as well.
    What’s small or large trauma for me may not be as small or large trauma for the next person. It just depends how strong you are.
    You are a very strong individual and having trauma has made you soooo strong. You are doing such an amazing job in life working hard, working through trauma, and sharing everything with us. You have friends and family that loves you. You have a whole network of people here that support you. It’s hard to open up about the pass/ any trauma and you’re soooo open, that’s amazing! It helps you heal when you talk about it and fix problems. Even you you can’t fix it, you tried. That’s growth! That’s strength and courage!! Your helping others by doing this.
    Anyways, great video/wedding speech, I pray your future is brighter than it already is. ❤
    Your end message was powerful, Thanks. We all need to hear this….

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +6

      Thank you for sharing this with me. I totally and couldn’t agree with you more on sharing and just talking about hardships because it truly opens up conversations like you and I and also for people to know they’re not alone in their struggles. I truly hope this channel can become a place where we can come to feel support and comfort in our vulnerabilities🥹 you def give me safe space for that so I wanna return it❤

  • @juliebarker9359
    @juliebarker9359 6 місяців тому +1

    Kai you will be fine. I think it is normal for you to anxious starting a new job but this is what you have trained for and if you are not sure ask someone, plus you have protocols to fall back on to. You will not know if u like the job till you start it. I've been a nurse since the dinosaurs have been about. It took me several jobs till I found the job or area I loved . Take your time trust in your training you will be fine I'm sure. ❤️

  • @trellaine201
    @trellaine201 6 місяців тому +1

    Awww your such a nice guy with your whole life ahead. Things will be fine! As for anxiety you are not alone! Keep your head up. Everything will be fine. Day by day.

  • @dianemisener7849
    @dianemisener7849 2 місяці тому

    Kai, i think your doing great dealing with your anxiety. I hear you say im" trying to fix it". Kai, this is a journey your journey and process there is no time on quick fix remember that please, also embrace your journey and things that may seem small to you that you faced and overcome reward yourself because each step is a great step forward. We can't control circumstances around us but we can control how we react. Its easy to get discouraged i get that- one step forward one day however the next can feel 10 steps back. It is more of the process, what we learn, to understand and also the triggers that caused the anxiety. Now and then give yourself a pat on the back and say i am right where i need to be, rather you feel like it or not.Isaiah 28:10-13 great scripture over precept on precept. You can take this literally in your personal life step upon step on your journey. There's no shame to reach out for therapy and even medication to help with the process if it gets too overwhelming. Love your videos, keep shining and being true to yourself.

  • @Ely_503
    @Ely_503 6 місяців тому +1

    It’s true family and friends help us to survive, have fun and keep going 💕🌹

  • @mabs-tma
    @mabs-tma 6 місяців тому

    Wow, I can really relate... I'm also an overthinker and I can get very anxious when things get out of control... I'm starting a new job soon and it's freaking me out 😅 But, as you said, these changes are necessary for our growth 😉
    I hope you enjoy working as a nurse and that everything goes smoothly!
    Your honesty is very much appreciated! 🙏 And you have a lovely smile! 😊

  • @LyssieLysse
    @LyssieLysse 6 місяців тому +1

    That speech was SO good! It was from the heart and that’s all that matters 😊
    I can relate to having a lot of anxiety towards the future because I grew up in an environment where everyday was unpredictable. There were a lot of unknowns for me and I didn’t have the emotional support I needed from my parents so I learned to suppress in order to not be a burden. Fast forward to now and I’m still having a little trouble with suppressing, but I speak up more so I’m not up in the middle of the night with racing thoughts. I’m in a phase where I have to do what’s best for me, even if I let others down in order for my mental health to be better. I never had to do this and I’m scared since I won’t know the outcome of my actions, however, I know I’ll be fine with whatever happens. Definitely testing my faith with this chapter of my life 😁

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Wow first and foremost thank you for sharing your vulnerability and experience with me!! I truly pray that the outcome will be well worth this experience you’re going through! But just know you’re never alone and there are people also going thru the same so please don’t ever feel alone and isolated!! Much love from here to you!! 🥹💫

  • @forstrayIstay
    @forstrayIstay 6 місяців тому

    Thx so much for being so open with these topics! I only found u recently but u rlly helped me and inspired me to take care of myself better and with this video especially showed me and I think also lot of others that I'm not alone feeling like this

  • @ArmyMomNme
    @ArmyMomNme 2 місяці тому

    Communication n Awareness is the very first step towards acceptance of self n others too. So dont stop urself from talking ur issues. This is adulting n life doesnt stop here. So just live 1 day at a time, Kai.😊

  • @ayusmitasnai6032
    @ayusmitasnai6032 6 місяців тому

    Don’t worry, you will do great. The fact that, even after feeling anxious and low, you are not keeping yourself locked in the room..rather you are trying to live each and every moment of your life to the fullest! That shows how strong of a person you are! Life is full of ups and downs! But all we need to do, is try to enjoy it as much as possible, even in between the negativities! And you and your vlogs truly teach us how to do that!
    So, don’t worry, and keep living your life to the fullest! And keep smiling and eating a looot!
    P.S.: I love watching you eat! And I love your smile too!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Yessss thank you🥹🥹 I think if I locked myself in my room I’d only feel worse!! Hahah but I’m glad I have awesome family and friends to make life a little difficult 🥹🥹 and always happy I have you and the community here to come back ❤❤

  • @elasmoon581
    @elasmoon581 6 місяців тому +1

    The notification that make our day sweeter❤ sure u will do Amazing job as a nurse and you will overcome any stress or insecurities thanks for sharing some of your personal story that made u the warrior u re same for me thanks for our parents for fighting for us

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Thank you to our amazing parents who would do anything for us!! Sometimes I forget that I am so blessed to have my parents that are warriors too❤

  • @devika.b.ssujanan7314
    @devika.b.ssujanan7314 6 місяців тому +2

    Hey Kai....
    I saw how anxious you were here 9:00 -10:30 talking about what's going on in your mind can't bring up exact words to express your feelings....and getting all upset if others get the way you feel right now..... the only thing i can say is BREATHE....... IT'S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY......The only thing that.matters is that you are trying and you know that you are trying......This too shall pass...
    I have been going through a depressive episode and thank god my doctor assured it was okay and mild enough to be treated without any medication.... your videos are helping me a lots rn...i don't know it has some kind of healing power....i re-watch every single vlogs of yours.......and it helps me to relax....
    Right now I'm trying to be greatful for everything i have..like right now i was in the shower and thought of the ice cold bath I'm getting after months of scorching summer here ....(Btw its been raining good for a week which is a great relief)... appreciating this bit made me feel like a good person.....im so happy that I'm getting better and you are healing....lots and lots and lots of love from India 🇮🇳
    Just a remainder for Kai...
    I once requested for a study with me video....hope you would consider....
    Bye❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
    .....

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      First thank you for being so vulnerable and transparent with your experience!! I think a lot of times I do get stuck in the moment and don’t realize what I’m going through will always pass… in time!! We just need to keep our head up and remind ourselves why we’re pushing thru this life🥹🥹❤

  • @melaaiia
    @melaaiia 6 місяців тому +1

    this video actually made me cry like 3 times im so proud of you😭😭

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Awwwww I’m glad it made some sort of impact on you 🥹🥹❤️

  • @torlinejackson4690
    @torlinejackson4690 6 місяців тому +1

    Hi Kai, you did well on the wedding speech I liked it a lot you had compassion and love in your speech that was very sweet of you. You are a good friend and you are surrounded by good friends you are not alone you’re going to be OK .❤❤❤👌👍

  • @StwRlight0
    @StwRlight0 6 місяців тому

    Hi kai ,
    I just wanted to remind you That you are doing great and Trying your best Time heals everything and Its ohky to feel overwhelmed and anxious ,I can relate to you on so many things as I myself feel a lot of anxiety and stuff
    But Remember Without change no caterpillar can turn into a butterfly ,So Keep going You got this Fighting✊
    Whenever you feel lonely remember you still got nature ,fav food,friends and ur cute self 🥹
    Sending u my fav emojis🎀🌷🕯💗🪐🪩🧚‍♀️🧁🐢💙

  • @PamishTopol-kv1rw
    @PamishTopol-kv1rw 6 місяців тому +4

    I got so thrilled. When i saw your notification ❤. Ur videos are masterpiece ❤❤.
    I hope you enjoy your job and do whatever that makes you really happy.....it's so great that you share your feelings with us❤❤

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      I love being transparent with you here ❤

  • @DJ-unome
    @DJ-unome 6 місяців тому +1

    I really enjoy your videos. Great job and hang in there.

  • @lisawilson1287
    @lisawilson1287 6 місяців тому

    Thank you for sharing Kai, you'll be fine,just do your best .Just know you may make mistakes in life, but that's how you learn to be an awesome nurse!! I used to have to go to the laundromat too,then I got a home of my own..you'll love having your own washer and dryer. Take care, Kai, you'll be okay!! Love ya always!!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      I’m waiting for that day I can stay at home for my laundry!! You inspire me for this laundry in unit😂😁 anyways thank you for always being so encouraging ❤

  • @youyouccr3696
    @youyouccr3696 6 місяців тому +1

    As an anxious person i understand really well what you were going through, anxiety and overthinking are horrible but as you said spend time with friends and family really helps and also watch your videos (my favorite thing to do ) 🥹 I just wanted to say Thank you again for sharing so much with us you're so sweet ❤ When i say you're my safe space i really mean it you're truly amazing and i love you so much ❤🥰

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      ohhhhhh 🥹🥹🥹 you give me a safe space to even talk about my insecurities and vulnerabilities so if anything THANK YOU!’ And I’m honored you love coming here to feel seen ❤❤❤

  • @brisworld1525
    @brisworld1525 6 місяців тому

    Hey Kai, sending all love to you!! I know things look tough right now but you will be okay, as you do have this great job opportunity. Despite the anxiety, you will eventually become a pro and things will become second nature to you. Being a nurse/doctor is hard but it is a great job. Feel better! I hope things work out in your relationship too, as maintaining relationships and a great performance at a new job is difficult. Take care!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      You’re right!! As time comes and experience builds I can develop confidence through this !! I really needed this encouragement so thank you ❤❤🌸

  • @camillemarot3113
    @camillemarot3113 6 місяців тому

    You're soooooo relatable!! This vlog was amazing! Made me laugh, made me feel seen and reminded me that I'm not alone and that I should also do things to keep myself grounded. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing your struggles and insecurities. 🫶🏻

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Ofccc!! This is the purpose of this channel!! So that we can do life together and remind each other that whatever hardships we go thru WERE NOT ALONE INTI! I’ll always support you and everyone here❤ you got this too!!

  • @melaaiia
    @melaaiia 6 місяців тому

    Kai, you’re truly so incredible for being transparent with your issues and talking about them, I really admire you. Your videos always help me look at life from a different perspective so i just want to say that I’m so grateful to you for being here❤️❤️🫶

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Awwwww this was the best thing to rewd❤❤❤ I hope keep reminding both of us that life won’t be and can’t be perfect but that we can find joy in the people around us and also things that we can do ourselves to make a difference in our situations!! ❤❤

  • @sashadabeau8178
    @sashadabeau8178 6 місяців тому

    thank you for being vulnerable. i wish i could give you a hug

  • @janelloyd2897
    @janelloyd2897 6 місяців тому +1

    Kai, life can be sucky that's true but just think of ot like crossing a river having to step on uneven stones to reach the other side, it takes breathing, it takes patience, it takes time but eventually you get there. A beautiful life is not stumbled upon, it is built. It is chosen. It is nutured over time. Its made from heart not the head. And yes sometimes it's not easy but it's one that is worth it. You are stronger than you think. When you start your new job just take everyday as it comes. Ask if they assign a buddy to you so if you have questions you can go to that person. Don't try to fit in, let it happen naturally, you're a beautiful person and yes our upbringing marks our future sometimes in a not so good way. I've been there, just remember that if you can handle something, say yes I understand your point but I need time to process it and I will come back and discuss once I have had time to think. I hope that's OK eith you. This will difuse the situation and give you time to think. I know you will be a good nurse, remember sick people are anxious so give them your beautiful smile. Remember your humble roots and you will shine. Fighting ❤❤

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Wow I absolutely love the quote you said “a beautiful life is not stumbled upon” it takes works and and effort from our end to make it happen too!! ❤ thank you for reminding me of this 🥹🥹

  • @petergodstime2315
    @petergodstime2315 6 місяців тому

    For you to have the confidence of speaking out your insecurities shows you outgrown those past issues and ready to embrace your new self, so always understand you are unique in your own way keep it up 👍🤜

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Awwww I hope to keep growing too so that I can look back in only gratitude for the experiences I had!! Let’s do this life together and find comfort through our encouragements ❤️😇

  • @cheexiong1634
    @cheexiong1634 6 місяців тому

    ❤ you will be okay everything will go in the way it’s suppose to go for you❤

  • @liliamariana4634
    @liliamariana4634 6 місяців тому +1

    Always happy when you post a new video ❤❤❤

  • @jasminehalls4829
    @jasminehalls4829 6 місяців тому +2

    You need to ask the unit you joined to shadow a nurse there and they will guide you through a day on the job. I did 2 days (not paid ofc just volunteered) to get a feeling for my new job and it made me really understand what I needed to do for the 12 hrs to balance my shift out and help my team/know where everything was. I did some days 4 hrs here and there then two 12 hr shifts the week before starting! It completely soothes those nerves into silence!!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Thank you for this insight 🥹🥹 it’ll be very useful for me when I start!!

  • @zeybep3063
    @zeybep3063 6 місяців тому

    You made me get emotionall! The things you said makes too much sense to me so it was hearing my own problems from someone else, it was unexpectedly soothing. You will get thru this, me also, bc we cannot live like this! Lets cheer up🎉

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      NO WE CANT LIVE LIKE THIS❤😂 let’s fight our and live life to our greatest potential so we can retire our parents and become someone we can be proud of. We got this ❤️💫

  • @lauraventicinque532
    @lauraventicinque532 6 місяців тому

    I know you're nervous about starting to work as a nurse and meeting new people. You will have no problems making friends and getting along with co-workers, you are such a nice man.

  • @bromero6772
    @bromero6772 6 місяців тому

    Kai you’ll be great nurse,enjoy the process. You are doing well, anxiety can’t figth you¡¡ U are Kai the nurse 😊. X from Spain to a future crazy nurse❤

  • @김혜원-w1m
    @김혜원-w1m 6 місяців тому

    Always love your pure smile, Kai💙

  • @nalinimaharaj3859
    @nalinimaharaj3859 6 місяців тому

    First of all congrats on your appointment. Secondly try not to overthink and take every day as it comes to you and move on. I am sure you gonna see that you can balance everything and if you can't in the beginning that's ok, just pick yourself up and go again. Life is about ups and down, how we deal with it moulds us into the individuals we are....So keep smiling with that lovel face of yours and just go for it. You've got this👍👍.

  • @MarieGraceNino
    @MarieGraceNino 6 місяців тому

    Good luck on your new endeavor!!! ❤

  • @isamonteiro5965
    @isamonteiro5965 5 місяців тому

    The best choice you could have made... I believe that happiness lies in the simplest things, and I can see them in this video (family, animals, nature)... oh and food heheh
    I'm new here, I'll continue following and rooting for your happiness.❤

  • @jamesvelchez8154
    @jamesvelchez8154 6 місяців тому +1

    Thanks for the inspiration… keep it up!

  • @kpoplover_2378
    @kpoplover_2378 6 місяців тому +1

    Your vlogs = safe place❤️

  • @LorettaGonzalez-np8hd
    @LorettaGonzalez-np8hd 6 місяців тому +1

    I also have bad Anxiety.
    And stress it's been very hard for me 😢

  • @tonyworrall7379
    @tonyworrall7379 6 місяців тому

    The great outdoors always helps clear your mind. I spotted our Welsh flag over the fish Bar!

  • @kimberlyscott7365
    @kimberlyscott7365 6 місяців тому

    Awwwwww sweetie you are stronger than you know. You sound just like me but I always tell myself that I am strong living in New York city itself tells me you are strong. Every thing will work out for sure.

  • @SelenaMarrie
    @SelenaMarrie 6 місяців тому

    Hi, Bestie Kai…. I have high anxiety && mild depression… I know what you’re going through… I overthink && analyze everything as well… I hope you’re doing ok, hun… your videos are wholesome && keep going strong… We got this life together… ILYSM!! 🥰🤗

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Let’s do this life togehter !!!❤❤ love you bestie too hehe

  • @RinaGashi-un8yf
    @RinaGashi-un8yf 5 місяців тому

    Im a really anxious person too, i just finished highschool and im gonna start my first ever job in 10 days, and i dont know what to expect from my future. I Jorunal anytime i can, you should try it too, writting your thoughts can be very helpful❤

  • @kerryjung479
    @kerryjung479 6 місяців тому

    omg the anxiety shits be real hahaha. i've said this before but every time i watch your videos, i feel as tho i'm re-living my early twenties vicariously through you- only with a lot more self awareness and kindness to oneself. thanks for sharing. ps i love megatron.

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Yesss tmi but the anxiety shits smell the worst too!! Hahaha I’m glad you can live through me !! I hope to keep sharing with you too❤❤

  • @zhangrenhou
    @zhangrenhou 6 місяців тому +1

    Don't worry too much about starting a new routine at work. Soon, your new routine will become your regular routine, and you won't even remember worrying about it.

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      I’m waiting for that day ❤❤

    • @zhangrenhou
      @zhangrenhou 6 місяців тому +1

      Fighting!

  • @jeaunnajade
    @jeaunnajade 6 місяців тому

    you got this

  • @Hiperson498
    @Hiperson498 6 місяців тому

    bro those first 4 minutes made me cryyyyy how dare u i feel it so much 😭

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Awwww I’m glad I made an impact at all 🥹🥹

  • @sharonpearl5424
    @sharonpearl5424 6 місяців тому

    Don't think too hard. You're doing great.

  • @svuckvjhbpibu2198
    @svuckvjhbpibu2198 6 місяців тому

    i'm in the middle of the video and i wanna hug you so much, hope you won't have reasons to have anxiety as soon as possible

  • @lindamak9396
    @lindamak9396 6 місяців тому

    I feel the same with my parents. Currently working on what you're doing too.

  • @sanatanisaga_soirees
    @sanatanisaga_soirees 6 місяців тому +3

    my fav youtuber is here 🤌🏻
    I'm not even trying to watch the video later and I have exams back to back 😂
    What have you done to me!!!!!!!????

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      NO GO STUDY😂❤

  • @leelee47620
    @leelee47620 6 місяців тому

    Mom here, yes your over thinking, you will be great , tell yourself what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, everything that happens is God’s plan and he is always beside you

  • @maugee1572
    @maugee1572 6 місяців тому

    Hi Kai! I know you just got a job and congratulations! I think you’ll be ok.. you will have a lot of training and orientation. They wont throw you immediately to the ward and take care of you a patient. When you’re much stable, come to California and be a nurse here and you’ll be raking a lot of money. Im sure you’ll be ok with all the struggles you are in it. Be strong okay!❤

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Hahaha will def take the California advice once I’m a bit older!! ❤❤❤

  • @arundhatifit
    @arundhatifit 6 місяців тому

    Man I can relate to getting anxious once things change in routine, I need to have everything planned and know what's happening the next moment? Is this some condition? lol. And comparing myself with other kids who are much more financially stable who come from rich families, even now. That takes away so much from you. Still does. Thanks for sharing!
    You will kill in it your nursing job with that smile. :)

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому +1

      Me tooooo hahaha I totally feel you m🥹😂 we’ll get through our anxieties togehter thoo !! FIGHTING

  • @anonymousn2134
    @anonymousn2134 6 місяців тому

    Keep going,face life challenges, you are just 25, and life throws different things at us, so be prepared to take it positively. dont worry, stand strong.
    use motivational interviewing with your patients -very useful for patient satisfaction in future along with clinical skills.
    Meditate,keep pursuing your physical fitness hobbies . Dont resort to alcohol ,as you are nurse ,Please go through recent evidence of alochol and long term effect on brain.
    No one is perfect,we grow with mistakes.
    I am like your sister.My Good wishes and blessings are with you.Keep smiling.

  • @colleenm9188
    @colleenm9188 6 місяців тому

    Great vlog! Watching you eat is always exciting. You eat with such gusto! Oh...cardio. I empathize. Please don't bring it up again. LOL. Your parents sacrificed so much for you, as did mine. The scariest part of this video was the speech. OMG! You were great. I want you to chill, and btw, you did all the right things to relieve your anxieties! Super. Thanks, again, for such an entertaining, interesting, and meaningful sharing of your life!

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Ofccc ahahaha and yes I do eat with such gusto 😂😂 and Im glad the speech went and approved by you!! 😂❤

  • @johncedarleaf224
    @johncedarleaf224 6 місяців тому

    Kai, you are one hell of a human being. All will be well. I’d love to sit down and have a drink and talk.

  • @CYDER-cv3yk
    @CYDER-cv3yk 6 місяців тому

    Believe you me u have friends in Africa you have and still inspire people all over the 🌎🌍

  • @clausbravo5475
    @clausbravo5475 6 місяців тому

    Kai ❤ I'm gonna be praying for you❤🙏🥰

  • @belezapetit527
    @belezapetit527 6 місяців тому

    As brazilian, we friends, always say to other friends "Tamo Junto" tamo junto, Kai!

  • @tanzanable
    @tanzanable 6 місяців тому

    Don't worry, be happy. What will be will be. I find that simplifying my life helps me to be centered and grounded. I pray a lot and read scripture. You are never alone. God is always there with you no matter what. Talk to Him! By staying close to God, there's nothing you can't handle.

  • @iwillhissatyou
    @iwillhissatyou 5 місяців тому

    you calling your cat megatron is hiliarious 😂😂

  • @belezapetit527
    @belezapetit527 6 місяців тому

    Hahahahahhaha maaan ur r so funny and fun u were giving motivation thoughts and then u were at the throne hahahahahhaha omg crazy boy wish u all the best

  • @anonymousn2134
    @anonymousn2134 6 місяців тому

    Try Ashwagandha for anxiety. its herb which calms nerves.No side effects as far as i know.

  • @xxsuggiexx
    @xxsuggiexx 6 місяців тому

    you got this Kai

  • @mai_unnie
    @mai_unnie 6 місяців тому

    Wedding speeches are hard to write. When my best friend got married she wanted me to say smth at her wedding so I was like "yeah sure no problem" at the end it wasn't too bad it was okay but like I was really nervous!!

  • @Amira__06
    @Amira__06 6 місяців тому

    To everyone in the world 🌎 I want to say that you can do everything ✨️ you want
    Sometimes, we can't control our lives , and we can't deal with the things that are happening, so chill and keep it cool, and you will be okay 😎
    God bless you guys 😉🫶

  • @JayTee2985
    @JayTee2985 6 місяців тому

    I think one of your anxieties is working on nights.
    It might be difficult at first, but your body will readjust. Coffee will definitely help. Gotta bring your own favorite coffee, cafeteria closes at night. Discuss with your unit manager to see if you can get on the waiting list for day shift position when one opens up on your unit.
    ❤❤❤

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Coffee will def be a must!! And yes I’ll have to get on days asap!! 😂❤

  • @celinaduguay6484
    @celinaduguay6484 6 місяців тому

    Your kitten is so cute!

  • @clarymatos4607
    @clarymatos4607 6 місяців тому

    Don’t worry about those things God is in control of everything and everything will be fine, just rest and enjoy

  • @judyaguigui82
    @judyaguigui82 6 місяців тому

    Praying for your well being, just take it one day at a time. ohma from Guam

    • @Hwaniiee
      @Hwaniiee  6 місяців тому

      Love from nyc to Guam ❤❤

  • @neethu_purple_Army
    @neethu_purple_Army 6 місяців тому

    You and your cat is so adorable 😻😻😻🥰🥰🥰

  • @Cute21129
    @Cute21129 6 місяців тому

    I love it. ❤❤❤