I remember my mind being blown when I first found his channel. Three and a half years later, I understand him more, and I still admire him and his content.
Exurbia: sort 1 star review of your favourite books (etc). Me: checks 1 star reviews of exurbia book review and only find one 1-star review that was totally useless of a guy that didn’t even finish the book. Also before reviewing a book make sure to read the whole book before giving it a review. The prince of milk is amazing and when u finish it u feel like a god who can actually solve 10.000-piece puzzles. Also lovely jobly piece of work
"Im still not there yet" in my eyes you are. Your books and your stories have completely changed me as a person. You were the one who sparked my love for psychology, physics and philosophy and because of that I am pursuing a career in psychology and for getting as far as I can I have to thank you and your writing. So you may say you are not there yet but in my eyes you were there years ago
0:00 Intro (audio series about making art) 3:04 Personal anecdote about 20 000 leagues under the sea 3:44 I could one day write 5:55 Blueprint for Catastrotivity (no manual for making art) 7:27 A few rules for making stuff (not a manual) 7:37 Thou shalt not compromise (must be unique- make what you want) 8:09 Thou shalt go all in (find out if you're made for it or just like the idea of the end result. Love the process not the end result) 9:13 Thou shalt spend two years free of judgement (making whatever you want/experimenting for two years) 10:03 Thou shalt ignore all commandments (can't universalise the rules/process) 10:19 Recap
Right no see the thing is, it’s 1am and if I listen to this now I will probably not sleep because of the surge of creative energy. Now that may be a good thing but I think I have to wait till the morning to indulge myself
As a very amateur writer I just want to say I am in awe of fanfiction writers. They write not for gain, not for the world, not to create world but to expand it. It's honestly scary how some of the fanfiction writers have wrote things and build up on the character I can only dream of. You all rock.
As someone with ADHD, I thank you for this. I’ve grown up with the mindset of can’t do anything I can’t focus, but age 20 and Im just getting creative. Thank you
"And make every mistake thats possible to make, and despite a condescending dad or unhelpful teachers, do not listen. They have no idea whats in your head or what youre capable of" That hits a little too close to home
To think I was attempting to fill the gap in my soul with alcohol and pharmaceuticals, when I should have been writing instead! Many thanks for these videos man. I can tell these will be playing on repeat when the paths up the mountain become a little steep.
I haven't watched that movie, but I think that is still a valid review, they didn't like it because it was too sad for them, it was not what they were looking for in a movie and we can't judge them for only wanting to watch happy movies
@ It's not really a valid review, just states that it's sad. If you don't like horror movies you don't go about rating horror movies with 1 star, right?
3 роки тому
@@monteraggo2920 yeah, if you don't like horror you usually don't watch horror movies, if you don't like sad stories you usually don't watch sad movies, but if you do watch a type of movie you don't like you still have the right and freedom of speech to go and rate it low since it's not something you liked. You can't exclude the person's review just because they knew that they wouldn't like it before they watched it. If there were no 1 star reviews it would look like everyone enjoys the movie, which is not true. Tho they could've elaborated more on why they didn't like it, instead of just saying "it's too sad"
with the echo on your voice if feels like a god is giving me an art lesson. anyways, I'm on my way to create the best avant-garde dance club music. See ya on the top!
5:05 "Idealists who can't manage their own lifes and prefer living in a realm of making stuff up." Well look at me who started crying out of nowhere when she heard those lines.
I’m an artist for a living and I have felt literally everything he talked about! I also think it’s interesting to know that Exurb1a has felt like a bad writer at times because everything I’ve ever read or heard him say is brilliant 🤩 but I always say that if you hate what you’re making a lot of the time that means you are probably doing something right. You don’t get better if you love everything you make
OMG SPACE TURTLE IS BACK This is exactly what i needed right now. You have no idea how much your videos help me and change me as a person and if your ever see this, thank you so much, for everything. You're amazing. Ps : Marry me.
"and live, and live, and live, and it will be impossible not to be sad or happy about something, and then, it will be impossible not to express it" made me genuinely tear up. I`m so glad I found your channel, I absolutely love the way you write. Please keep doing what you do!
Goddammit man, you made me realize a few things. 1. I have been doing catastrotivity in my way of art and maybe life in general, and I am definitely going to use the term to describe stuff I do. 2. It is truly inspiring, and yes, meaning is meaningless and that is how you get places. 3. The attitude of "I know what I'm doing, and I'm doing a thing called having no idea and just going with whatever the fuck happens" is a pretty good way of living life, especially if you don't give a fuck about what others think or say. 4. Man, the commandments kinda sound like stuff you could get from a book titled "The subtle art of not giving a fuck" by Mark Manson. Have you read it? If you have, that may explain it, if you haven't, go read it. It's not just some, probably, self-help book, but it's also just fun to read... Also it admits that self-help is bullshit and that the book itself is just there to tell you not how to be happy, but how to be miserable in the way that you want to be. Because there is no eternal happiness, because happiness is just a reward for being miserable correctly. 5. Holy crap man, I would love to meet you some day 6. A question about the commandments. Can I still ask help on how to actually get shit done the way I want? Because sometimes, you know what you want to try to make, but you have no idea how, and someone else may have made something with a material or a technique or some details that are really similar, and you wanna know how they did it physically.
I am a 60 plus year old and this is pure genius!! Spot on! I have sent this to every younger person in my life (including my 25 year old son Harry) as the best advice ever, and am taking the advice myself! ❤️
I've been writing a historical documentation of a culture I created for about thirteen years now, and the one thing I can say about it is that I'm happiest writing when no one is listening. Everyone had their own process, and this is a good introduction to finding yours, you can do this!
"You must love the process, not just the end result" This is why I have such a hard time with school in particular. If the process sucks and there's no short term tangible reward, I have a difficult time pushing forward in with that process. Work isn't an issue for me so far, because there is that tangible short term reward of a paycheck. I have no desire of self improvement for the sake of self improvement. External motivation is all that gets me to do productive things. I'm not even an artistic person. I'm a sports guy, yet that still applies the same way.
@Cash Money Not really, I put month of work into a story, 1 page per day thinking that it will motivate me, but it didn't. My motivation droughted like GObi desert after Russian experiment. I still am looking for a way to motivate myself into wrioting, I love the end product, have ideas bouncing in my head, I do not love the process. The same problem as Parker Crossland, work isn't a problem, self improvement for the sake of self improvement is. And this voice telling me, do not start next one, you will failled again and do not end it.
Recently I’ve been feeling this horrible emptiness, like all my activities are just filling time, one distraction to the next. I have a plan of what I want in the future, a house, a garden, what have you, but not of what I want to *do.* Your description of your own memories made me remember (coincidentally sparked by the same book) how I had always been a writer at heart, and I had only abandoned it recently, thinking I’d lost whatever “touch” I had. This random 4 am click may have gotten my life back on track. I do know what I want to do, when I’m not doubting myself and shutting doors.
Thanks for making me feel like an artist now. For me it's what you turned to hate, coding :) It started off as a course at University telling me how to do Java. I didn't particularly like it that much as it was way too broad and difficult in structure (without the right tools for me). However, half a year later I needed something to control something with my phone. Long story short, I sort of knew Java now so I gave it a go. Turns out, thinking what to create yourself is way more fun than having to make something for school or for someone else. No time limits, no compromises etc. Now I love programming, I feel like I can create anything I like, I can learn any language or framework as long as I enjoy it and spend time with it. I found my favorite language (Kotlin, which is based on Java but a lot more fun) and my favorite tools to program with (Jetbrains IDEs like IntelliJ, Rider, Pycharm, Android studio, yes the same guys that made Kotlin). Now I'm close to finishing my masters degree at University and I plan to work in the field (shouldn't be that hard nowadays). Anyways, while I certainly will get assignments to make money etc, I'll always work on my own projects on the side for fun and to let out my creativity. If others like what I do too, that's great and if I'll earn a bit with that, that's great too, but not really a concern :).
It's mad how many people one turtle reaches. I wish i could use words in some way never imagined before to thank this man. If you see this Exurb1a just know im greateful. Thanks for everything.
"Well I fucking believe in you" I seriously didn't think a random line from some dude I never actually met would affect me personally, but it did and I'm so thankful for it. Just those few words matter so much, and I've needed em for a little while now. Thank you.
I’m going to attempt to be as high as possible whilst dedicating an entire day to a pointillist painting and thanks in advance for believing in me Exurb1a
Immediately following @3:46 .. thank you for this line.. it’s wonderful.. Because “Little black squiggles on plant matter” is one of the BEST descriptions I’ve ever enjoyed.. 🥰 And they absolutely can “magically transport you elsewhere” … Thanks for this. Really struck a chord ..
“You have to go all in to find out if you are actually made for the craft or if you just like the sound of the end result.” I will stand by these words forever.
How to win every argument ever, actually: Support position a: "follow these commandments" Support position ~a: "ignore all commandments" Checkm8, rationalists.
Damn, This really has given me alot of courage to pursue my dreams! I'm in the process of building up a small workshop and I always get a little angsty when spending money.. what would other people think of my choices etc etc. Thanks you so much
Thank you so much for doing this video series. It really means a lot, being in my early twenties and lost in life, but with an unfulfilled dream from childhood
Thank you for this video. I've been writing my soul out for a few years now. I've never heard anything quite as inspiring as this. It is what I have needed to hear all these years, and finally, someone delivered. So thank you from the bottom of my heart. I think I'm going to listen to this quite a few times yet.
I'm tearing up. For a long portion of my life it was always science all day everyday. Programming same as you. Then I found Camus, and ever since I tried in vain to to just do something with everything I was feeling afterwards. I wanted to write it all away and your video felt made for me, which in a world filled with billions is egotistical but I feel it all the same.
@@buddychumpalfriendhomiebud9242 There are many reasons such comments should be accepted, or at least not looked down upon, and yet you fail to even see one. I will not be so condescending as to try explaining anything to you unless you ask for it, but I will ask for you to explain to me how you think your reply in any way contributed more than the original comment.
Your voice is so calming and reassuring. I love listening and rewatching your videos while my body is surrounded with chaos, you give my head a space to think. I hope you keep adding to this podcast not only because I like hearing what you have to say, but because it makes me feel better being a human being.
This is exactly what I needed. I'm in the process of going through my second draft of the first book in a series I've wanted to write for years now, and I totally resonate with loving the process, not just the end result. I'm so thankful to have the opportunity to write and be decent at it, and I really hope to learn more through this series since I honestly love your work. Thank you for this.
during the middle of this video i picked up the digital pen again and started drawing. oh god if i could send pictures via youtube. i drew the most beautifull human face i have ever drawn in seconds. it is amazing what a few kind words from a stranger on the internet can do. thank you exurb1a, you are a blessing.
The ending was perfect, after watching your David Berman eulogy of sorts I feel compelled to thank you for the best content I feel I've ever watched on this site, it's extremely thought provoking and always leaves me happier and more confident in the nothing I truly understand and know :)
I've followed your journey for a while already and never regretted watching, listening to, or reading anything from you. You ring a bell in my soul I rarely hear or feel, and whenever you strike, the rust comes off and a clean sound fills me with energy. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart. I am actually not an artist I'm the strict sense but I'm a neuroscientist and science is a craft which demands the same set of rules you laid out so brilliantly. Right now I am in the process of creating real virtual magic, a virtual reality game which uses a brain computer interface to let you experience magic as though it were real. It is a project which realizes a dream I have had my entire life, and I finally have the technique to put it to life. I feel like you might enjoy the idea, so, in case you (or anyone else, for that matter!) read this, I'd be honored if you had a look at my teaser trailer here: ua-cam.com/video/DaAsFs0AOeo/v-deo.html
Whenever Im down or have no motivation left, I always come here or the main channel. Anyone of your videos are enough to get me Back on track. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
While listening to this for the first time I began to sob inexplicably somewhere near the end. And although i'm at a complete loss over the whys of the whole thing, or the exact emotions this video inspired within me, I think it's something I desperately needed. Thank you. You matter. You're work matters. And you're making a difference.
I remember when I first found your videos. They inspired me to try my hand at storytelling and art and literature when I was still very young and willing to try new things and things that I was rubbish at. There are many things in my life that I may have never found or tried if weren’t for you. Even if some of them didn’t turn out so great. So thank you.
I'm in tears right now. The way your words just reached into my soul and filed me with a courage and belief in myself that I have never once had before except maybe when I was I child and the world seemed like a place of endless possibilities and somewhere were you could just be whoever and what ever. Thank you, truly, for what you have done for me in these past 10 minutes
So first you give us all those fantastic videos to help us get through life and now you help us to get started with arts. You're amazing. Thanks for all the inspiration you gave me. It helped a lot. And just so you now; we believe in you too.
you’re an inspiration to us all exurb1a, I was just thinking about your videos and how much I enjoyed them so these 3 videos are a fantastic surprise and I will definitely watch all three of them in a row
Thanks for this, Turtleman. I've rewatched your "Thoughts about writing" a hundred times. I've been depressed but for the first time in a long time, I found joy in creating UA-cam videos.
I had to stop this video every 2 minutes because everything resonated so hard it made me so overwhelmed it's like everything you are saying is what i knew but never realised man self awareness is scary but i absolutely adore your videos
No one ever motivated me like you do I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for almost my whole life and most of days i just lay in my bed and suffer endlessly But your channel helped me wake up and actually try to live for once
I really love your work man, I find your enthusiasm infectious, and I really appreciate the way you paint pictures in my head with your vigour, it truly does help me to see the value of my own writing and how it may actually have an effect on someone despite my thinking it's maybe quite ordinary, thanks for this
Holy crap thank you, so when you said to look at 1 star reviews of your favorite movie or book, I searched my favorite book and went to look at reviews when I realized it was part of a series. I had no clue that it was apart of a series, so thank you for helping me find that out lol
Just stumbled on this and can't believe the timing of it - pretty much everything you said here is what I've been meditating on the last few months. I discovered pretty recently that my dream is to pursue music and I've given myself 2 years to just go all in and see if anything manifests by the end of it. I believe that creative input is what makes a life meaningful and not just another dispensable cog in the wheel. Thanks for the video. I'm 24 and am looking forward to these next 2 years. I'll go all in and keep you updated.
Thank you for this. Going through a depression episode today, and this is exactly what I need to be reminded of. Hopefully when I get home, all this sadness and self hate can be put into some of my writings to make something beautiful.
MOM, THE DEPRESSED TURTLE SAID I SHOULD MAKE STUFF TO CURE MY DEPRESSION
“That’s nice, sweetie. Be back by nine.” *Mom resumes watching loud tellie teaching her how to make stuff she’ll never make*
@@TheEphemeralMammal oof.
@@TheEphemeralMammal So specific but damn
You're not depressed , you're just a libtard
@@LinhNguyen-my5my what
We’re about to overdose on 3 episodes of existential space turtle
Yes, yes we are
but I really need this
So true
4!! Now
It’d be a happy little accident to od on existential space 🐢
My names Harry and I do a lot of art and seeing this title scaird me
This vid isn't for us, he just made it for you
@@MrVictimoDomino Ikr
man, wait til you discover harry potter, you will lose your mind!
@@zuzkas99 especially when I Wingardium Leviosa yo ass
@@harrysheppard3745 I would like to join you in being worried for my life
"You must love the process, not just the end result"
Oh boy...
I literally just told my husband this
I wish I thought about this sooner. It's so easy to lie to yourself :/
I’m saving that quote
This is the first time I've heard a generalized "I believe in you" and felt like the person meant it.
same lol
Same
"Never heard language used like that before"
Thats was my first thought when I saw your channel
He said those words as I read this sentence
Absolutely sublime
LyleMaxene suruiz i couldn’t agree more
I remember my mind being blown when I first found his channel. Three and a half years later, I understand him more, and I still admire him and his content.
my thoughts exactly. i discovered his channel on the snake on the mountain video and i just had to do a viewing spree of his videos
Bollocks
He literally cannot post consistently because he is the god of creativity
God of catastrotivity*
good things come to those who wait
Good things takes time or whatever
Both as true art is chaos
@@sarwinr Only one thing comes to those who wait.
"You will be an artist after this"
Me, an art student: "oh good"
You're division to becoming to be 2 artists is happening soon
Exurb1a: “Pick a book or film you love, like adore but you’re going to sort by one star reviews”
Me: Picks the fifth science
Google: No 1 star reviews
Ollinnature genuinely one of my favourite books/ written pieces
haven't found any bad reviews either
have u looked up goodreads.com ?
The way he hasn’t posted in half a year and then drops 3 videos in ONE DAY like it’s nothing
Just to make sure.. you do know he has another channel where he posts a bit more regularly, Exurb1a
@@anima9450 "More regularly" is like every 2-3 months but yeah, I know, I was just making a joke xD
creativity seems like lightning hey, never strikes in the same way twice
4**
Exurbia: sort 1 star review of your favourite books (etc). Me: checks 1 star reviews of exurbia book review and only find one 1-star review that was totally useless of a guy that didn’t even finish the book. Also before reviewing a book make sure to read the whole book before giving it a review. The prince of milk is amazing and when u finish it u feel like a god who can actually solve 10.000-piece puzzles. Also lovely jobly piece of work
"Im still not there yet" in my eyes you are. Your books and your stories have completely changed me as a person. You were the one who sparked my love for psychology, physics and philosophy and because of that I am pursuing a career in psychology and for getting as far as I can I have to thank you and your writing. So you may say you are not there yet but in my eyes you were there years ago
How wonderful! I am very happy for you c:
I just want to say.. You've given me courage to dream. To choose to pursue something I want. Thank you, exurb1a
Who is exurb1a? You mean exurb2a.
@@wiseguy8828 bruh, you stole my joke
I'm just gonna leave a comment here, no need to write the same thing twice. Maybe just... Thank you, exurb2a.
I very much hope so! Ohhh, that's lovely to read, all the very best of luck
@@Exurb1a thank you :')
"I discovered that little black squiggles on plant matter can magically teleport you elsewhere"
-Exurb1a 2020
It took me reading this to realize he meant _books_
jauxro i just realized it bc of ur comment
0:00 Intro (audio series about making art)
3:04 Personal anecdote about 20 000 leagues under the sea
3:44 I could one day write
5:55 Blueprint for Catastrotivity (no manual for making art)
7:27 A few rules for making stuff (not a manual)
7:37 Thou shalt not compromise (must be unique- make what you want)
8:09 Thou shalt go all in (find out if you're made for it or just like the idea of the end result. Love the process not the end result)
9:13 Thou shalt spend two years free of judgement (making whatever you want/experimenting for two years)
10:03 Thou shalt ignore all commandments (can't universalise the rules/process)
10:19 Recap
Thank you thank you
A hero.
Thank you sire
thanks
The voice of God himself has returned.
Snap. I came to the comments section to post: “You are God”.
Hail Lance, the God DreamWorks killed
@@inkchip7351 DreamWworks killed God? Dang.
This is the voice of god no cap
Right no see the thing is, it’s 1am and if I listen to this now I will probably not sleep because of the surge of creative energy. Now that may be a good thing but I think I have to wait till the morning to indulge myself
Did you?
how did it go?
@@blu-is-nice247 I stayed up till 5 lmao
Yes, more depressed turtle content thank you
Everyone calls him depression turtle, but really he's cynical but inspirational turtle. It just doesn't have the same ring to it
@@jonomoth2581 personally I prefer existentialism turtle
@@thekaryodysseys6360 yea
As a very amateur writer I just want to say I am in awe of fanfiction writers. They write not for gain, not for the world, not to create world but to expand it. It's honestly scary how some of the fanfiction writers have wrote things and build up on the character I can only dream of. You all rock.
“Sort by five star reviews”
Looks up The Golden Goblet, sorts by five stars
“This selected filter has no reviews”
Good to know no one liked that book
As someone with ADHD, I thank you for this. I’ve grown up with the mindset of can’t do anything I can’t focus, but age 20 and Im just getting creative. Thank you
"there will be days, weeks where nothing comes to you" this single line is so helpful. i thought i was just a shit writer. thank you man.
Maybe you are.
"And make every mistake thats possible to make, and despite a condescending dad or unhelpful teachers, do not listen. They have no idea whats in your head or what youre capable of"
That hits a little too close to home
To think I was attempting to fill the gap in my soul with alcohol and pharmaceuticals, when I should have been writing instead! Many thanks for these videos man. I can tell these will be playing on repeat when the paths up the mountain become a little steep.
Alcohol and writing are not mutually exclusive... 😂
"...idealists incapable of living their lives, who prefer to just live in the realm of making stuff up"
I hope my early 20s nervous breakdown ends.
Exurb1a: "i belive in you"
Me in tears: "YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THAT MEANS TO ME" 😭😭😭😭😭😭
_"Taste is subjective, there's no objectively good or bad art"_
White paint on a white canvas being called art makes me wonder about that.
A patently false statement.
Sorts "Her" by 1 star review:
"Sad movie, didn't like. too sad"
Not idiots, by any stretch :)
All right that is quite ridiculous in fairness, it was amazing
Watches a tragedy. Writes this review. What a lad
I haven't watched that movie, but I think that is still a valid review, they didn't like it because it was too sad for them, it was not what they were looking for in a movie and we can't judge them for only wanting to watch happy movies
@ It's not really a valid review, just states that it's sad. If you don't like horror movies you don't go about rating horror movies with 1 star, right?
@@monteraggo2920 yeah, if you don't like horror you usually don't watch horror movies, if you don't like sad stories you usually don't watch sad movies, but if you do watch a type of movie you don't like you still have the right and freedom of speech to go and rate it low since it's not something you liked. You can't exclude the person's review just because they knew that they wouldn't like it before they watched it. If there were no 1 star reviews it would look like everyone enjoys the movie, which is not true.
Tho they could've elaborated more on why they didn't like it, instead of just saying "it's too sad"
with the echo on your voice if feels like a god is giving me an art lesson. anyways, I'm on my way to create the best avant-garde dance club music. See ya on the top!
Can I listen to it?
we're seeing each other on the top
5:05 "Idealists who can't manage their own lifes and prefer living in a realm of making stuff up."
Well look at me who started crying out of nowhere when she heard those lines.
Ok, I'm glad it wasn't just me.
This is really nice to listen to with headphones at 8:52 in the pm whilst drawing, thank you Exurb1a
I’m an artist for a living and I have felt literally everything he talked about! I also think it’s interesting to know that Exurb1a has felt like a bad writer at times because everything I’ve ever read or heard him say is brilliant 🤩 but I always say that if you hate what you’re making a lot of the time that means you are probably doing something right. You don’t get better if you love everything you make
OMG SPACE TURTLE IS BACK
This is exactly what i needed right now.
You have no idea how much your videos help me and change me as a person and if your ever see this, thank you so much, for everything.
You're amazing.
Ps : Marry me.
DMT will show you that not only art, but everything is inside you. Literally the whole universe!
Gabriel Howell dunno bout that mate
And then the trip ends and you still have that ever-increasing pile of unwashed dishes.
No. You will only start falsely believing it.
The king is back
"now and this" is a forever bliss
"and live, and live, and live, and it will be impossible not to be sad or happy about something, and then, it will be impossible not to express it" made me genuinely tear up.
I`m so glad I found your channel, I absolutely love the way you write. Please keep doing what you do!
"Don't expect your friends to have sympathy for what you're doing", man I felt that.
Even better is that I don't have friends
Goddammit man, you made me realize a few things.
1. I have been doing catastrotivity in my way of art and maybe life in general, and I am definitely going to use the term to describe stuff I do.
2. It is truly inspiring, and yes, meaning is meaningless and that is how you get places.
3. The attitude of "I know what I'm doing, and I'm doing a thing called having no idea and just going with whatever the fuck happens" is a pretty good way of living life, especially if you don't give a fuck about what others think or say.
4. Man, the commandments kinda sound like stuff you could get from a book titled "The subtle art of not giving a fuck" by Mark Manson. Have you read it? If you have, that may explain it, if you haven't, go read it. It's not just some, probably, self-help book, but it's also just fun to read... Also it admits that self-help is bullshit and that the book itself is just there to tell you not how to be happy, but how to be miserable in the way that you want to be. Because there is no eternal happiness, because happiness is just a reward for being miserable correctly.
5. Holy crap man, I would love to meet you some day
6. A question about the commandments. Can I still ask help on how to actually get shit done the way I want? Because sometimes, you know what you want to try to make, but you have no idea how, and someone else may have made something with a material or a technique or some details that are really similar, and you wanna know how they did it physically.
I am a 60 plus year old and this is pure genius!! Spot on! I have sent this to every younger person in my life (including my 25 year old son Harry) as the best advice ever, and am taking the advice myself! ❤️
I've been writing a historical documentation of a culture I created for about thirteen years now, and the one thing I can say about it is that I'm happiest writing when no one is listening. Everyone had their own process, and this is a good introduction to finding yours, you can do this!
These videos have given me the confidence to finally get started with a project I have been putting off for years. Thank you!
"You must love the process, not just the end result"
This is why I have such a hard time with school in particular. If the process sucks and there's no short term tangible reward, I have a difficult time pushing forward in with that process. Work isn't an issue for me so far, because there is that tangible short term reward of a paycheck.
I have no desire of self improvement for the sake of self improvement. External motivation is all that gets me to do productive things. I'm not even an artistic person. I'm a sports guy, yet that still applies the same way.
@Cash Money Not really, I put month of work into a story, 1 page per day thinking that it will motivate me, but it didn't. My motivation droughted like GObi desert after Russian experiment. I still am looking for a way to motivate myself into wrioting, I love the end product, have ideas bouncing in my head, I do not love the process.
The same problem as Parker Crossland, work isn't a problem, self improvement for the sake of self improvement is. And this voice telling me, do not start next one, you will failled again and do not end it.
The last line actually made me cry, thank you.
Same
this video is such a gem! I've been on and off writing for such a long time, picking it up really made me happier. thank you so much for this.
Existential turtle telling me how to be creative is something I actually need.
No u cant just post 3 vids at the same time bruh I cannot deal with this
from 0 to 3 in just 1 second
finally a use for three monitors.
yes
Recently I’ve been feeling this horrible emptiness, like all my activities are just filling time, one distraction to the next. I have a plan of what I want in the future, a house, a garden, what have you, but not of what I want to *do.* Your description of your own memories made me remember (coincidentally sparked by the same book) how I had always been a writer at heart, and I had only abandoned it recently, thinking I’d lost whatever “touch” I had. This random 4 am click may have gotten my life back on track. I do know what I want to do, when I’m not doubting myself and shutting doors.
This is the first video on youtube that made me cry (positivity tears of course), thank you so much.
Thanks for making me feel like an artist now.
For me it's what you turned to hate, coding :)
It started off as a course at University telling me how to do Java. I didn't particularly like it that much as it was way too broad and difficult in structure (without the right tools for me). However, half a year later I needed something to control something with my phone. Long story short, I sort of knew Java now so I gave it a go. Turns out, thinking what to create yourself is way more fun than having to make something for school or for someone else. No time limits, no compromises etc. Now I love programming, I feel like I can create anything I like, I can learn any language or framework as long as I enjoy it and spend time with it. I found my favorite language (Kotlin, which is based on Java but a lot more fun) and my favorite tools to program with (Jetbrains IDEs like IntelliJ, Rider, Pycharm, Android studio, yes the same guys that made Kotlin). Now I'm close to finishing my masters degree at University and I plan to work in the field (shouldn't be that hard nowadays).
Anyways, while I certainly will get assignments to make money etc, I'll always work on my own projects on the side for fun and to let out my creativity. If others like what I do too, that's great and if I'll earn a bit with that, that's great too, but not really a concern :).
Exurb2a: You're an artist, Harry!
Harry Shepard: A what?
It's mad how many people one turtle reaches. I wish i could use words in some way never imagined before to thank this man. If you see this Exurb1a just know im greateful. Thanks for everything.
"Well I fucking believe in you" I seriously didn't think a random line from some dude I never actually met would affect me personally, but it did and I'm so thankful for it. Just those few words matter so much, and I've needed em for a little while now. Thank you.
I’m going to attempt to be as high as possible whilst dedicating an entire day to a pointillist painting and thanks in advance for believing in me Exurb1a
Sounds like a complete waste of a day.
I love you., you are like a teacher to us ❤
Immediately following @3:46 .. thank you for this line.. it’s wonderful..
Because
“Little black squiggles on plant matter” is one of the BEST descriptions I’ve ever enjoyed.. 🥰
And they absolutely can “magically transport you elsewhere” …
Thanks for this.
Really struck a chord ..
“You have to go all in to find out if you are actually made for the craft or if you just like the sound of the end result.” I will stand by these words forever.
" then forget all of it"
Instructioms unclear, forgets that statment then forgets to forget everything
The show I chose had 0 one star reviews. Beautiful
(It was Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood btw)
Thank you for this. You probably won’t see this but you’ve changed my life and helped so many others.
Thanks to those years of experimentation, Exurb1a is so good at putting writing together. He has so many quotables
How to win every argument ever, actually:
Support position a: "follow these commandments"
Support position ~a: "ignore all commandments"
Checkm8, rationalists.
Damn, This really has given me alot of courage to pursue my dreams! I'm in the process of building up a small workshop and I always get a little angsty when spending money.. what would other people think of my choices etc etc. Thanks you so much
You have no idea how much I adore your videos. Thank you so much, you're an amazing help.
Thank you so much for doing this video series. It really means a lot, being in my early twenties and lost in life, but with an unfulfilled dream from childhood
after watching this i looked over at my mom and went “im an artist harry”
Is this even allowed?
Thank you for this video. I've been writing my soul out for a few years now. I've never heard anything quite as inspiring as this. It is what I have needed to hear all these years, and finally, someone delivered. So thank you from the bottom of my heart. I think I'm going to listen to this quite a few times yet.
I'm tearing up. For a long portion of my life it was always science all day everyday. Programming same as you. Then I found Camus, and ever since I tried in vain to to just do something with everything I was feeling afterwards. I wanted to write it all away and your video felt made for me, which in a world filled with billions is egotistical but I feel it all the same.
There's no true artist
- depressed turtle 2020
BillyTheKid This contributes nothing to the video
@@buddychumpalfriendhomiebud9242 made me laugh so good enough, no?
Julia Steam I’m glad it made you laugh. However, I have seen this type of comment hundreds of times before and I think it isn’t that good.
@@buddychumpalfriendhomiebud9242 There are many reasons such comments should be accepted, or at least not looked down upon, and yet you fail to even see one. I will not be so condescending as to try explaining anything to you unless you ask for it, but I will ask for you to explain to me how you think your reply in any way contributed more than the original comment.
@@buddychumpalfriendhomiebud9242 Agreed, these sort of comments always piss me off.
Being a musician called Harry, I felt like this was just for me!🥺😂
Same! 😂😂
Your voice is so calming and reassuring. I love listening and rewatching your videos while my body is surrounded with chaos, you give my head a space to think. I hope you keep adding to this podcast not only because I like hearing what you have to say, but because it makes me feel better being a human being.
This is exactly what I needed. I'm in the process of going through my second draft of the first book in a series I've wanted to write for years now, and I totally resonate with loving the process, not just the end result. I'm so thankful to have the opportunity to write and be decent at it, and I really hope to learn more through this series since I honestly love your work. Thank you for this.
how can enyone be so wholesome while swearing?
will Exurbia notice me if i call him senpai?
no
No, I don't think he notices anyone beside his cat.
during the middle of this video i picked up the digital pen again and started drawing. oh god if i could send pictures via youtube. i drew the most beautifull human face i have ever drawn in seconds. it is amazing what a few kind words from a stranger on the internet can do. thank you exurb1a, you are a blessing.
The ending was perfect, after watching your David Berman eulogy of sorts I feel compelled to thank you for the best content I feel I've ever watched on this site, it's extremely thought provoking and always leaves me happier and more confident in the nothing I truly understand and know :)
I've followed your journey for a while already and never regretted watching, listening to, or reading anything from you. You ring a bell in my soul I rarely hear or feel, and whenever you strike, the rust comes off and a clean sound fills me with energy.
Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
I am actually not an artist I'm the strict sense but I'm a neuroscientist and science is a craft which demands the same set of rules you laid out so brilliantly. Right now I am in the process of creating real virtual magic, a virtual reality game which uses a brain computer interface to let you experience magic as though it were real. It is a project which realizes a dream I have had my entire life, and I finally have the technique to put it to life. I feel like you might enjoy the idea, so, in case you (or anyone else, for that matter!) read this, I'd be honored if you had a look at my teaser trailer here: ua-cam.com/video/DaAsFs0AOeo/v-deo.html
Have you seen his 'it's not magic' video? I feel like you really should watch it if you haven't it's utterly brilliant
Ey! Get out of the comment section and watch the damn video!
Whenever Im down or have no motivation left, I always come here or the main channel. Anyone of your videos are enough to get me Back on track.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
While listening to this for the first time I began to sob inexplicably somewhere near the end. And although i'm at a complete loss over the whys of the whole thing, or the exact emotions this video inspired within me, I think it's something I desperately needed. Thank you. You matter. You're work matters. And you're making a difference.
This whole series legit helped so god damn much when i got stuck with my art thank you space turtle
I remember when I first found your videos. They inspired me to try my hand at storytelling and art and literature when I was still very young and willing to try new things and things that I was rubbish at. There are many things in my life that I may have never found or tried if weren’t for you. Even if some of them didn’t turn out so great. So thank you.
Man this is exactly what i needed. Love you Exurb1a
this guy is incredible at the words thing
You are sincerely the most inspired and sincere artist I've ever seen. Keep up the hard work!
I'm in tears right now. The way your words just reached into my soul and filed me with a courage and belief in myself that I have never once had before except maybe when I was I child and the world seemed like a place of endless possibilities and somewhere were you could just be whoever and what ever. Thank you, truly, for what you have done for me in these past 10 minutes
So first you give us all those fantastic videos to help us get through life and now you help us to get started with arts.
You're amazing.
Thanks for all the inspiration you gave me. It helped a lot.
And just so you now; we believe in you too.
you’re an inspiration to us all exurb1a, I was just thinking about your videos and how much I enjoyed them so these 3 videos are a fantastic surprise and I will definitely watch all three of them in a row
Thanks for this, Turtleman. I've rewatched your "Thoughts about writing" a hundred times. I've been depressed but for the first time in a long time, I found joy in creating UA-cam videos.
I had to stop this video every 2 minutes because everything resonated so hard it made me so overwhelmed it's like everything you are saying is what i knew but never realised man self awareness is scary but i absolutely adore your videos
I'm so grateful that you're doing a creativity workshop series. I've needed this so thank you.
No one ever motivated me like you do
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for almost my whole life and most of days i just lay in my bed and suffer endlessly
But your channel helped me wake up and actually try to live for once
This is what I needed exactly rn exurbia thanks a lot!
In a bleak and really sad life, the Turtle man made me shed a tear of hope yet again, thank you, Turtle man!
there is something so hypnotic to your videos, I don't know what that is, but I love it
thanks for the confidence boost
I really love your work man, I find your enthusiasm infectious, and I really appreciate the way you paint pictures in my head with your vigour, it truly does help me to see the value of my own writing and how it may actually have an effect on someone despite my thinking it's maybe quite ordinary, thanks for this
Holy crap thank you, so when you said to look at 1 star reviews of your favorite movie or book, I searched my favorite book and went to look at reviews when I realized it was part of a series. I had no clue that it was apart of a series, so thank you for helping me find that out lol
Just stumbled on this and can't believe the timing of it - pretty much everything you said here is what I've been meditating on the last few months. I discovered pretty recently that my dream is to pursue music and I've given myself 2 years to just go all in and see if anything manifests by the end of it. I believe that creative input is what makes a life meaningful and not just another dispensable cog in the wheel. Thanks for the video. I'm 24 and am looking forward to these next 2 years. I'll go all in and keep you updated.
Thank you for this. Going through a depression episode today, and this is exactly what I need to be reminded of. Hopefully when I get home, all this sadness and self hate can be put into some of my writings to make something beautiful.
YOU ARE AMAZING, I already listened to this twice probably will do 8 more