Steven, you’re a star my friend. Thanks for your honesty and openness, you’re always a help. As I’m not an alcoholic and don’t drink much at all I’m not sure why it is I like to listen to you. It’s because you’ve been through absolute hell, much more stress and grief than I’ve ever had, and if you can come through that as you are doing, then I can cope with my minor stresses, such as they are. I wish I could live near you and perhaps help you, with everyday life, but that isn’t practical of course. Just keep at it Steven, I’ll get onto your coffee page and sub. Best wishes pal.
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You should have reached 100 days. It will soon be a year. I have been sober for many years now. I get down or nervous or any other of negative emotions. It passes. At least I don't have to wake with a hangover. Congratulations.
Oh god I remember the feeling the morning after dealing with all the messages and missed calls from family, Thankyou for reminding me of the sheer hell of it all 😔😔
The feeling of missed calls, missed appointments, not opening mail, not opening the door. That complete detachment from the real world. It’s a freakin nightmare. The anxiety that just grows and grows and becomes an all consuming blood sucking demon. I never want to experience that darkness ever again!!!! Being able to jump in the shower, put on clean clothes, do hair and a bit of makeup feels so wonderful these days. I am able to go shopping and look people in eye as opposed to avoiding their gaze and feeling as if they can see right through to my dying soul. Having a clean home with bills paid and not afraid to open the door to people again is such a blessing. Alcohol rubs us of so much more than just money, it strips us to the bone and all we are left with is a memory of who we once were. I’ve been on this sober journey now for many years,but the last two years have been my best. I’m so grateful for the simple things in life. May we all rise above and beyond this nightmare and really live again. Good luck, much love and light. ❤❤
I wish my dad had sought help before he died, your daughter must be soooo proud of you ❤ sorry if you've already done this but would be great to hear about your struggles of giving up alcohol too. Another day of not thinking about alcohol today thanks to you
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I used to get up sometimes covered in vomit where I had thrown up in my sleep.,how close I had been to choking I don't know.i would have a banging headache,my kidneys used to ache and it felt like I had punched in the liver that's when I knew enough was enough. For a good 12 months after I stopped drinking I used to get a raging thirst at 8 o'clock every night which used to be the time I went out.
@stevencurry215 you have done amazing mate.and now with these videos you are turning what was a negative in your life to.a positive in the lives of others.
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Lost my wife 2007 staff nurse , my life with her a nightmare but devastated when i got up and found her dead , your helping others , she a geordie aswell very intelligent lady like you , good luck 👍👍 .
I tried to dry out without diazepam after a relapse and ended up in hospital with a hypertensive blood pressure crisis, a potentially fatal condition. That was five years ago but it might as well be five minutes ago, the seriousness of the situation stopped me drinking right there and then (26/2/2019).
@@mickg7299 Hi Mick I don’t know why the Drs are so reluctant to give out 5 days worth of Diazepam it worked for me and obviously if you had it then hospital emergency would have been avoided
@@stevencurry215 It was my own fault, I had and still have a repeat prescription but ran out, staggered round to the surgery to put a prescription in and the next thing I know I’m in the back of an ambulance. I don’t know why they changed prescribing guidelines, as you say a one off prescription to cover several days is not going to cause problems and could cut down on expensive emergency visits to A&E.
I’m not an alcoholic, I rarely drink at all these days, but really admire you for your honesty and hope your messages make some people, who might be at risk, to think very carefully. I wish you every success with your efforts, you’re a source of inspiration for many people struggling.
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Hi Steven, recently found your channel. I’ve never had a problem with alcohol addiction myself but I find your stories really interesting. Amazing to see how far you have come from this terrible disease well done mate👍🏻 Like I said I’ve never had an addiction but I could see the issues with drink and the problems it can cause anyone so I don’t drink at all now. It’s easy to fall into a trap with drink. I come from a family where drinking regularly was normal and encouraged. I didn’t want that in my life or around my kids. It’s the worst drug around and it’s totally legal and accepted socially, that’s why it’s so dangerous. Keep up the great work with the channel mate👍🏻
I remember at the height of my addiction, constant gagging in the morning. Dry gagging, it was so bad, my eyes used to be bloodshot because of the straining and retching.
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I think supermarket offers on alcohol should be banned, my brother went from 8 cans of lager a night, to 18 cans a day for the same price, it's absolutely ruined him. Keep up the great work your doing Steve. I've been sending your videos to my brother, hopefully he'll stop one day, and get his life back on track.
I completely agree, when you dont drink anymore it really stands out that alcohol is every where. Really nice bottles etc, instead they should put the devastating effects of alcohol on bottles like they did with the cigarette packets.
I too remember when I was on a two month work break and spent all of it drunk. Always waking up not knowing what time of day it was, or even what day it was. Feeling terrible anxiety until I had that first "fix" of the day (or night - I never knew when I woke up). And then the next two nightmare daily routines, 1. Am I even able to head down to the local shop to get more alcohol? 2. Where can I dump all the cans and bottles from yesterday? That becomes a daily mission in itself.
Just breaking the routine is half the battle. Once I decided it was going to kill me….quitting wasn’t as hard. The more days go on, the more you can recover yourself once again!!
Hi Steve, such a sad life. You really were in the depths of despair!!, your honest life stories are helping many people. As they say, " You've got to have been there to know.". It appears that you've got a great life now!. Thanks for your contribution to the channel. Hope you're well
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Your videos help keep me off the booze as everything you say I can relate to and when I get a craving these memories remind me of the hell that will follow..keep them coming !
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Anyone who has a problem with alcohol, think about the people who care about you & are watching you destroy yourself. I watched my late partner kill himself with alcohol, he went from being a professional sportsman to being someone who struggled to dress himself with end stage liver disease in 4 years. He died from a major bleed in his lungs, he drowned in his own blood. Even being told his liver was shot didn't help his first action was to go to the pub for more alcohol. I sat & held his hand while they stuck in the drain to drain his ascites off, I cleaned him up when he threw up everywhere, washed him, fed him, dressed him, it was like having a 34 year old baby. I witnessed suicide attempts, put up with him lashing out verbally & physically but I still supported him because I loved the person he was when I met him before he turned into a monster. 10 years on from him dying I'm still affected from what I saw, nobody should have to see that especially from someone they loved.
Hi Natalie….what can I say…you are a beautiful person you loved and cared for your partner way beyond what is normally possible. Thank you for sharing this heartbreaking story of your past & present life, I am humbled at the way you have been able to share your thoughts & experiences here with me and thousands of others. We are blessed to have you here ❤️
My sympathy to you. Very rarely do you hear the opposite side of the story. The grief and hurt are horrendous. How true about the effects being long lasting, probably even a lifetime.
ahh yes going round all the different shops on rotation so no-one clocks on... you get so paranoid, anxious all the time, it's such an exhausting way to live. you know all the open/closing times for just about everywhere that sells alcohol and even if theres going to be booze on that train journey you're going on or if that hotel has any kind of mini bar you're staying in. Everything planned around it, even all the delivery places just in case, finances draining away. I was at my worst in London too, just down the road from you in pimlico - same scene there, all the pubs full of the same people day in day out, sure I would recognise people 4 years later if I went back. I didn't get to the rats stage thankfully but my oven and fridge were broken, I don't doubt it could have got there if I didn't leave London, it is not a good place when drinking or suffering any kind of mental health really.
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It's funny, i have the same problem with food. In the evenings i like to eat something after dinner, like sandwich, pot noodle, scone etc. But i dont need to eat it. I always want to not eat after dinner.. but it's like a comforting thing, exactly the same with alcohol, although alcohol has harder side effects. So if your subconscious is in control and you stray toward alcohol like i have in the past, you can see how powerful the the subversive nature of drinking is/can be. This is the start of how you form habits and then dependencies and we are all vulnerable to the 'comfort'
Hi Steven, you really are remarkable, your honesty is second to none and this video was hard hitting as it should be. You say about the diazapam, it really annoys me that they make these tablets and then they wont let you have them!! I had a really bad bone infection and was on very strong anti biotics (obviously no alcohol) I begged the doctor for stronger painkillers as l had had them with the previous infection and he said no as they are addictive, so what did l do to get rid of the pain (which was excruciating).... knocked back a glass of brandy, its madness!!! We are on day 13 now, thanks to you xx
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The other thing I used to notice is, people tend to treat us like we're stupid if they know we're drunk. Even though we still know what's going on and have our wits about us.
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you say you're not an expert - I disagree. you have so much to offer other medical / social so called"experts" with a load of knowledge but no experience of the issue. you made sergeant in the Met by your mid 20s which needs a great deal of intelligence and common sense to achieve. you really should be on some advisory panel. seriously 🙂
@@stevencurry215 you already are 🙂 but I really feel you could help health care professionals in some sort of consultative capacity. no idea how you'd go about that mind
Hi Steve, battled alcohol for a long time now, last 32 months have been very up and down long lengths of sobriety and unfortunately around 6 relapses which have been bad for 5-7 days on end, always getting more frequent and more intense, anyways I'm doing good, been to doctors for checks ups, bloods are OK, been for an ultrasound today and the lady said she can't see anything to worry about, can the ultrasound detect liver, gallbladder and pancreas issues?
Hey, I went for an ultrasound recently. If the technician is doing your liver they usually do the kidneys, gall bladder pancreas etc. I've been trying for 30 months and have still spent about 10pc of my time drunk. Still it's down from 85pc.
ultrasound can show an enlarged or shrunken liver along with enlarged ducts in the pancreas or pancreatic cysts it'll detect gallstones and kidney stones also
Since I’ve been alcohol free, I have to deal with all the guilt I put all my family through, I put drink before them most especially my beautiful 4 daughters, I dream about them all been small and crying and begging me to stop and I couldn’t do it not even for my daughters what sort of a mother does that ?? What I’d like to know is how did you Steve and all of you deal with living with the guilt ? The old me would just drink to mask the guilt . I’m tormented by this guilt , how do I deal with it ?? Thankyou and I’ve just bought you a coffee Steve x You are such an amazing person sharing with us your stories 😊
Hi Glenys, it's easy for me to say but don't let guilt take over, you have stopped drinking now so you should feel proud and not guilty. You won't be able to enjoy your drink free life always feeling guilty.
Glenys, I can relate to the guilt regarding not being there for our children. I also have four sons and only recently have been able to free myself of the guilt around lost time etc. My Grandfather used to say that “guilt is a useless emotion” and that we need to do whatever we can to free ourselves from it. You are sober now so you should be proud of that first and foremost. I found that speaking openly and honestly with my children about my guilt and sincerely apologising to them was the best approach. They are happy to have their mum back and I can make up for lost quality time with them now. Love and Light ❤
Hi Steven. Do you think one reason why you struggled with alcohol may have been the stress of the job? I am a funeral director with my own business and drink far to much of a weekend. It sometimes feels like a coping mechanism as I am surrounded by death 24/7although I am currently 3 weeks dry 👌
@@phil1274 Hi Phil I don’t think it was the job with me … I rarely got affected at work, my issues were a bad marriage and easy access to pubs / bars in central London Hope you are well Please share to others 👍
So was there room to get to the toilet? Were your legs dangling over some dark abyss while you were holding on for dear life to the throne? 🫤😧🧐 You also said there was only one small light in the house. Did you use your cell phone to navigate the deathtrap in your bathroom?
Ascites with alcoholics is due to severe liver damage. The pressure in the portal vein is too high. This causes leakage of fluid into the peritoneum. Patients at this stage are usually malnourished, mentally impaired, jaundiced and severely unwell. Although the liver has fantastic regeneration capabilities, there is a point of no return. Unfortunately cirrhosis is not reversible. Steven must have been incredibly close to end stage liver disease. Death usually follows. The only hope is a liver transplant. Abstinence at that stage is not enough. The NHS doesn’t usually waste a liver transplant on an alcoholic-the chances of relapse is too high. The GPs have limited ability to help. The GP can arrange blood tests and an ultrasound scan. That will give you an idea of how bad the liver damage is. Treatment is offered by the drug and alcohol team. They basically just tell you to stop drinking. The GPs are asked not to prescribe diazepam. Although, in Steven's case it would probably have helped. The concern is not really the risk of addiction, it is the risk of death (alcohol consumption and diazepam in end stage liver failure has caused plenty of unintentional deaths). The CDAT (community drug and alcohol team) will sometimes prescribe diazepam type medications as part of a home detox. Vitamin Bs are often prescribed to reduce the risk of alcoholic dementia. Detox admissions are rarely offered nowadays in the UK. The NHS services to help alcoholics is very poor. I'm sorry it is like that. Families and friends try to help-but often don't know how to. Steven hit absolute rock bottom and was very close to death. That probably saved him. Only then did he really decide not to drink again. You have to be really ill for the hospitals to admit you. Massive ascites or vomiting up litres of blood usually does the trick. I think AA can help-but it is not for everyone. This channel is exceptional. Steven has a way of speaking that is raw and powerful. Please try and seek help. There are some amazing people out there who will help. Get in your mind that you have decided not to drink. You decide. You make the decision. You!!!
Excellent message today Steven, much appreciated. Very powerful. It's honest sincere messages like this one that makes your awesome channel my favorite. You look amazing mate ❤
@ hi Steve i ended up in a&e and they detoxed me from alcohol with Librium. I’ve been out of hospital for 4 days and haven’t had a drink . I was drinking 6 cans a day
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Steven, you’re a star my friend. Thanks for your honesty and openness, you’re always a help. As I’m not an alcoholic and don’t drink much at all I’m not sure why it is I like to listen to you. It’s because you’ve been through absolute hell, much more stress and grief than I’ve ever had, and if you can come through that as you are doing, then I can cope with my minor stresses, such as they are. I wish I could live near you and perhaps help you, with everyday life, but that isn’t practical of course. Just keep at it Steven, I’ll get onto your coffee page and sub. Best wishes pal.
Hi Steven I have recently found your channel. I'm 96 days sober from alcohol, I have found a great deal of relaitability in your videos.
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well done keep it up its not easy
You should have reached 100 days. It will soon be a year. I have been sober for many years now. I get down or nervous or any other of negative emotions. It passes. At least I don't have to wake with a hangover. Congratulations.
Oh god I remember the feeling the morning after dealing with all the messages and missed calls from family, Thankyou for reminding me of the sheer hell of it all 😔😔
The danger of alcohol is completely underrated. It’s a dangerous drug.
The feeling of missed calls, missed appointments, not opening mail, not opening the door. That complete detachment from the real world. It’s a freakin nightmare. The anxiety that just grows and grows and becomes an all consuming blood sucking demon. I never want to experience that darkness ever again!!!! Being able to jump in the shower, put on clean clothes, do hair and a bit of makeup feels so wonderful these days. I am able to go shopping and look people in eye as opposed to avoiding their gaze and feeling as if they can see right through to my dying soul. Having a clean home with bills paid and not afraid to open the door to people again is such a blessing. Alcohol rubs us of so much more than just money, it strips us to the bone and all we are left with is a memory of who we once were. I’ve been on this sober journey now for many years,but the last two years have been my best. I’m so grateful for the simple things in life. May we all rise above and beyond this nightmare and really live again. Good luck, much love and light. ❤❤
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@@MrLetmein2011A dreadful drug
@@magicalgirl1960I completely relate to what you you so succinctly and vividly said….it’s words like yours that keep me on the straight and narrow 💜😊
I wish my dad had sought help before he died, your daughter must be soooo proud of you ❤ sorry if you've already done this but would be great to hear about your struggles of giving up alcohol too. Another day of not thinking about alcohol today thanks to you
@@georgiahumphreys3881 hi Georgia I will do another video about my struggles over many years to give up alcohol
So pleased you are keeping sober 👍
@stevencurry215 that would be great and thankyou ♥️
Alcohol just consumes everything when it gets a hold. I can relate to a lot of this from when I was drinking.
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I used to get up sometimes covered in vomit where I had thrown up in my sleep.,how close I had been to choking I don't know.i would have a banging headache,my kidneys used to ache and it felt like I had punched in the liver that's when I knew enough was enough. For a good 12 months after I stopped drinking I used to get a raging thirst at 8 o'clock every night which used to be the time I went out.
@@paulcresswell2279 It’s a horrible dreadful illness …pleased you are off it 👍
@stevencurry215 you have done amazing mate.and now with these videos you are turning what was a negative in your life to.a positive in the lives of others.
Fantastic channel mate you are helping so many people keep y the fantastic work
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You are an utter inspiration. Nothing but respect to you. Thankyou ❤
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It can’t be overstated , everything and anything becomes overwhelming and impossible to deal with when you’re consumed by alcohol.
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Lost my wife 2007 staff nurse , my life with her a nightmare but devastated when i got up and found her dead , your helping others , she a geordie aswell very intelligent lady like you , good luck 👍👍 .
@@type42sheffSo sad to hear of your wife’s passing…
Thank you for your kind words ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss
Another cracking video Steve. I’ve sent this one to my mate who’s a copper, he drinks every day I think this will help him 👍🏼
Nice one..thanks for that 👍
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ThanksSteven, your description of the flat really brings me back.
@@johnking2271 Cheers John..the Alcohol takes over our life ..100%
I tried to dry out without diazepam after a relapse and ended up in hospital with a hypertensive blood pressure crisis, a potentially fatal condition. That was five years ago but it might as well be five minutes ago, the seriousness of the situation stopped me drinking right there and then (26/2/2019).
@@mickg7299 Hi Mick I don’t know why the Drs are so reluctant to give out 5 days worth of Diazepam it worked for me and obviously if you had it then hospital emergency would have been avoided
@@mickg7299 5 years brilliantl pls share to help spread the word 👍
Is that something that can happen with diazapam? I always thought it would lower blood pressure and depression breathing
@ It happened because I tried to dry out without diazepam.
@@stevencurry215 It was my own fault, I had and still have a repeat prescription but ran out, staggered round to the surgery to put a prescription in and the next thing I know I’m in the back of an ambulance.
I don’t know why they changed prescribing guidelines, as you say a one off prescription to cover several days is not going to cause problems and could cut down on expensive emergency visits to A&E.
I’m not an alcoholic, I rarely drink at all these days, but really admire you for your honesty and hope your messages make some people, who might be at risk, to think very carefully. I wish you every success with your efforts, you’re a source of inspiration for many people struggling.
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@ yes, I am subscribed already Steven, I think your posts are very important. Best of luck with your own efforts matey.
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*Every normal becomes worse." Exactly.
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I am fine. @@stevencurry215
Great message Steven, go to hospital before it’s too late, there needs to be more help, paid for by the drink companies.
@sarahlaver-holland9931 100% it is so difficult to get help
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This is so raw about been a alcoholic but you on the mend now and you seen the light
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Hi Steven, recently found your channel. I’ve never had a problem with alcohol addiction myself but I find your stories really interesting. Amazing to see how far you have come from this terrible disease well done mate👍🏻
Like I said I’ve never had an addiction but I could see the issues with drink and the problems it can cause anyone so I don’t drink at all now. It’s easy to fall into a trap with drink. I come from a family where drinking regularly was normal and encouraged. I didn’t want that in my life or around my kids. It’s the worst drug around and it’s totally legal and accepted socially, that’s why it’s so dangerous.
Keep up the great work with the channel mate👍🏻
I remember at the height of my addiction, constant gagging in the morning. Dry gagging, it was so bad, my eyes used to be bloodshot because of the straining and retching.
Hi sally … you’ve been there ..total torture…bless you ❤️
@stevencurry215 and I still carried on drinking 😳😳
7 days for me now, thank you for your channel 🙏
You got this! 👍
Anxiety I remember that, great stuff mate 👍🏻
@@Bigmart56 Hi anxiety was my main problem a few years ago ..👍
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I think supermarket offers on alcohol should be banned, my brother went from 8 cans of lager a night, to 18 cans a day for the same price, it's absolutely ruined him. Keep up the great work your doing Steve. I've been sending your videos to my brother, hopefully he'll stop one day, and get his life back on track.
I completely agree, when you dont drink anymore it really stands out that alcohol is every where. Really nice bottles etc, instead they should put the devastating effects of alcohol on bottles like they did with the cigarette packets.
Thank you for sharing..I hope he can sort things out …crazy the price of cheap booze in the supermarket
I too remember when I was on a two month work break and spent all of it drunk. Always waking up not knowing what time of day it was, or even what day it was. Feeling terrible anxiety until I had that first "fix" of the day (or night - I never knew when I woke up). And then the next two nightmare daily routines, 1. Am I even able to head down to the local shop to get more alcohol? 2. Where can I dump all the cans and bottles from yesterday? That becomes a daily mission in itself.
@@marc11991199 Alcoholism is a full time job 👍
Keep up the good work Steven 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
@@SammyNdlovu1212 Thank you Sammy , your ongoing support has been wonderful..👍🙏❤️
Just breaking the routine is half the battle. Once I decided it was going to kill me….quitting wasn’t as hard. The more days go on, the more you can recover yourself once again!!
Well said …please share the channel to help others 👍
Hi Steve, such a sad life. You really were in the depths of despair!!, your honest life stories are helping many people. As they say, " You've got to have been there to know.". It appears that you've got a great life now!. Thanks for your contribution to the channel. Hope you're well
@@ChristopherHughes-u5j thanks Chris…All is good now thanks..hope you are doing well 👍
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I identity 100% with everything you say pal 👍
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Your videos help keep me off the booze as everything you say I can relate to and when I get a craving these memories remind me of the hell that will follow..keep them coming !
I'm so glad! I can help
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Anyone who has a problem with alcohol, think about the people who care about you & are watching you destroy yourself. I watched my late partner kill himself with alcohol, he went from being a professional sportsman to being someone who struggled to dress himself with end stage liver disease in 4 years. He died from a major bleed in his lungs, he drowned in his own blood. Even being told his liver was shot didn't help his first action was to go to the pub for more alcohol. I sat & held his hand while they stuck in the drain to drain his ascites off, I cleaned him up when he threw up everywhere, washed him, fed him, dressed him, it was like having a 34 year old baby. I witnessed suicide attempts, put up with him lashing out verbally & physically but I still supported him because I loved the person he was when I met him before he turned into a monster. 10 years on from him dying I'm still affected from what I saw, nobody should have to see that especially from someone they loved.
Hi Natalie….what can I say…you are a beautiful person you loved and cared for your partner way beyond what is normally possible. Thank you for sharing this heartbreaking story of your past & present life, I am humbled at the way you have been able to share your thoughts & experiences here with me and thousands of others. We are blessed to have you here ❤️
My sympathy to you. Very rarely do you hear the opposite side of the story. The grief and hurt are horrendous. How true about the effects being long lasting, probably even a lifetime.
ahh yes going round all the different shops on rotation so no-one clocks on... you get so paranoid, anxious all the time, it's such an exhausting way to live. you know all the open/closing times for just about everywhere that sells alcohol and even if theres going to be booze on that train journey you're going on or if that hotel has any kind of mini bar you're staying in. Everything planned around it, even all the delivery places just in case, finances draining away. I was at my worst in London too, just down the road from you in pimlico - same scene there, all the pubs full of the same people day in day out, sure I would recognise people 4 years later if I went back. I didn't get to the rats stage thankfully but my oven and fridge were broken, I don't doubt it could have got there if I didn't leave London, it is not a good place when drinking or suffering any kind of mental health really.
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It's funny, i have the same problem with food. In the evenings i like to eat something after dinner, like sandwich, pot noodle, scone etc. But i dont need to eat it. I always want to not eat after dinner.. but it's like a comforting thing, exactly the same with alcohol, although alcohol has harder side effects. So if your subconscious is in control and you stray toward alcohol like i have in the past, you can see how powerful the the subversive nature of drinking is/can be. This is the start of how you form habits and then dependencies and we are all vulnerable to the 'comfort'
@@danzolion8758 Well said very informative 👍
@stevencurry215 this is a very mature channel, I really like it 🙂
Hi Steven, you really are remarkable, your honesty is second to none and this video was hard hitting as it should be. You say about the diazapam, it really annoys me that they make these tablets and then they wont let you have them!! I had a really bad bone infection and was on very strong anti biotics (obviously no alcohol) I begged the doctor for stronger painkillers as l had had them with the previous infection and he said no as they are addictive, so what did l do to get rid of the pain (which was excruciating).... knocked back a glass of brandy, its madness!!! We are on day 13 now, thanks to you xx
Apologies for the late response Jackie ..yes the Drs are very reluctant to give meds ..sometimes I think it’s worth paying to go private 👍
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The other thing I used to notice is, people tend to treat us like we're stupid if they know we're drunk. Even though we still know what's going on and have our wits about us.
Agreed 👍 hope you are well 👍
Agree with all the other comments Steve, great and really important channel from someone who's been there and lived it!!
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Another great vid steve. Your such an inspiration mate. Keep going...god bless
Thank you Gary … hope you are well
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I was definitely at stage 2+ before I stopped.
@@lrdisco2005 Good man well done 👍
@stevencurry215 You are the reason I stopped drinking, never forget how many lives you are saving.
you say you're not an expert - I disagree. you have so much to offer other medical / social so called"experts" with a load of knowledge but no experience of the issue.
you made sergeant in the Met by your mid 20s which needs a great deal of intelligence and common sense to achieve. you really should be on some advisory panel. seriously 🙂
So true!
I agree with you 👏🏽👏🏽
@@duringthemeanwhilst Thank you .I would relish the opportunity to help and advise others…❤️
@@stevencurry215 you already are 🙂 but I really feel you could help health care professionals in some sort of consultative capacity. no idea how you'd go about that mind
Exactly, those of us that have survived alcoholism are the experts, knowledge gained through experience.
Hi Steve, battled alcohol for a long time now, last 32 months have been very up and down long lengths of sobriety and unfortunately around 6 relapses which have been bad for 5-7 days on end, always getting more frequent and more intense, anyways I'm doing good, been to doctors for checks ups, bloods are OK, been for an ultrasound today and the lady said she can't see anything to worry about, can the ultrasound detect liver, gallbladder and pancreas issues?
Hey, I went for an ultrasound recently. If the technician is doing your liver they usually do the kidneys, gall bladder pancreas etc. I've been trying for 30 months and have still spent about 10pc of my time drunk. Still it's down from 85pc.
And yes it can detect issues, although if your pancreas etc swells you will know about it as you'll probably be screaming in agony.
ultrasound can show an enlarged or shrunken liver along with enlarged ducts in the pancreas or pancreatic cysts it'll detect gallstones and kidney stones also
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Since I’ve been alcohol free, I have to deal with all the guilt I put all my family through, I put drink before them most especially my beautiful 4 daughters, I dream about them all been small and crying and begging me to stop and I couldn’t do it not even for my daughters what sort of a mother does that ??
What I’d like to know is how did you Steve and all of you deal with living with the guilt ? The old me would just drink to mask the guilt . I’m tormented by this guilt , how do I deal with it ??
Thankyou and I’ve just bought you a coffee Steve x
You are such an amazing person sharing with us your stories 😊
Hi Glenys, it's easy for me to say but don't let guilt take over, you have stopped drinking now so you should feel proud and not guilty. You won't be able to enjoy your drink free life always feeling guilty.
Thankyou x
Great message ❤️
Glenys, I can relate to the guilt regarding not being there for our children. I also have four sons and only recently have been able to free myself of the guilt around lost time etc. My Grandfather used to say that “guilt is a useless emotion” and that we need to do whatever we can to free ourselves from it. You are sober now so you should be proud of that first and foremost. I found that speaking openly and honestly with my children about my guilt and sincerely apologising to them was the best approach. They are happy to have their mum back and I can make up for lost quality time with them now. Love and Light ❤
Hi Steven. Do you think one reason why you struggled with alcohol may have been the stress of the job? I am a funeral director with my own business and drink far to much of a weekend. It sometimes feels like a coping mechanism as I am surrounded by death 24/7although I am currently 3 weeks dry 👌
@@phil1274 Hi Phil I don’t think it was the job with me … I rarely got affected at work, my issues were a bad marriage and easy access to pubs / bars in central London
Hope you are well
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So sorry for your situation x did anyone say you smelt ?
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No floor in the bathroom? 😮
@@XYtoTheDoubleG Completely collapsed…no heating ..etc
Really horrific way to live
So was there room to get to the toilet? Were your legs dangling over some dark abyss while you were holding on for dear life to the throne? 🫤😧🧐
You also said there was only one small light in the house. Did you use your cell phone to navigate the deathtrap in your bathroom?
Ascites with alcoholics is due to severe liver damage. The pressure in the portal vein is too high. This causes leakage of fluid into the peritoneum.
Patients at this stage are usually malnourished, mentally impaired, jaundiced and severely unwell. Although the liver has fantastic regeneration capabilities, there is a point of no return. Unfortunately cirrhosis is not reversible.
Steven must have been incredibly close to end stage liver disease. Death usually follows. The only hope is a liver transplant. Abstinence at that stage is not enough. The NHS doesn’t usually waste a liver transplant on an alcoholic-the chances of relapse is too high.
The GPs have limited ability to help. The GP can arrange blood tests and an ultrasound scan. That will give you an idea of how bad the liver damage is. Treatment is offered by the drug and alcohol team. They basically just tell you to stop drinking. The GPs are asked not to prescribe diazepam. Although, in Steven's case it would probably have helped. The concern is not really the risk of addiction, it is the risk of death (alcohol consumption and diazepam in end stage liver failure has caused plenty of unintentional deaths).
The CDAT (community drug and alcohol team) will sometimes prescribe diazepam type medications as part of a home detox. Vitamin Bs are often prescribed to reduce the risk of alcoholic dementia. Detox admissions are rarely offered nowadays in the UK. The NHS services to help alcoholics is very poor. I'm sorry it is like that. Families and friends try to help-but often don't know how to.
Steven hit absolute rock bottom and was very close to death. That probably saved him. Only then did he really decide not to drink again. You have to be really ill for the hospitals to admit you. Massive ascites or vomiting up litres of blood usually does the trick. I think AA can help-but it is not for everyone. This channel is exceptional. Steven has a way of speaking that is raw and powerful.
Please try and seek help. There are some amazing people out there who will help. Get in your mind that you have decided not to drink. You decide. You make the decision. You!!!
Amazing Post…Spot On !!❤️❤️
What's going on, man?
@@ShadesOClarity all good here…what you been up to ?
Excellent message today Steven, much appreciated. Very powerful. It's honest sincere messages like this one that makes your awesome channel my favorite. You look amazing mate ❤
Can anyone help me ?
Hi Philip .. firstly have you spoken to a Dr
How much are you drinking
@ hi Steve i ended up in a&e and they detoxed me from alcohol with Librium. I’ve been out of hospital for 4 days and haven’t had a drink . I was drinking 6 cans a day
Can I ask you Steve, what’s your stance of cannabis and/ marijuana usage?
@@WadaDada2025 Hi personally I think it should be legal in the UK ..as a police officer in central London in the 80s 90s Cannabis never caused major problems..Alcohol is the root cause of many crimes.
How do you feel about its use ?
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