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O was into meth heavy but then got into depressants mainly opioids and that became mostly what I did with my life and. Now I'm on sublocade and have relapsed in the past but am not physically dependent anymore and can't get access if I wanted to do it's not even worth chasing but I can't sleep and naturally feel like I'm tweaked out and have tried stimulants and they just make me more focused and happy while I'm awake because I'm awake Anyways but am scared I will get heavy into stimulants again any answers how I can sleep better only have cannabis now but not trying to get high just good sleep

Tbh. I always tell my doctor I don't smoke (which is not true of course - I vape) and of course, I never told my regular doctor nor psychiatrist I was taking kratom... I think they would just kicked me out of their office.

Sending all the love! I discovered your channel just today and love you videos. I am so glad you do better these days! Keep goin! You got this! <3

Thank you for sharing the story. I'm was a daily user 25gpd and now I am in my day 11 of my CT. Withdrawal sucks! I still cannot sleep not ever after 11 days! If that isn't enough to people to realize how harming this drug is, I don't know what. And not even I cannot sleep, I feel like I have a flu combined with alcohol hangover! Stay strong! We don't need this shit! <3

I‘ll try to quit this time for sure. On K for 6 1/2 years straight. I tried to quit for a few times already but it was not really successful, I always tried Cold T. But since I have terrible OCD and other issues it was too much at once. The withdrawals were too strong and I relapsed after a few days. I‘m going to do it this time. I know depression is gonna hit me so hard, but it is time. That’s the worst part for me. Sure the restless legs are terrible as well and sleeping issues and so on, but that’s kind of manageable I’m comparison. I taper this time. Wish me luck.❤

i already stop 1 year and last week i relapsed but just use once that day.stop again.

4day can't sleep,been walking like a zombie even im tired,nonstop yawning,panic attack really make me want to give up.😢.i drink almost 10year.😢how to quit?

Im an 8 1/2 year Kratom user. I started tapering about 2 months ago. Was taking 12g four times a day. Tapered to 12g twice a day and withdrawals kicked in. I had panic and anxiety attacks from the taper. Was taken to ER twice over it and that’s when I found out it was the tapering. All blood work and EKGs were normal. Healthy report. But since I had already started and suffered the scare, I sped up the tapering. Went down to 4.8g twice a day then to 2.4g three times a day. This is an aggressive taper. Don’t recommend it because your body is suffering. All day anxiety. Some days panic attacks throughout the day. Cramping. Chest discomfort, anxious, tingling, restlessness arms and legs. But won’t stop the tapering. Waiting in my stem to jump from regular Kratom and also introduce Kava. Then make the jump. I don’t recommend CT if you were an over 8 year user. Your body will not respond favorably and make cause adverse consequences. Also don’t recommend an aggressive taper. The 1/2 g at a time over 6-12 month period should be the best way IF you can commit. Good luck to all on the road to recovery. If you thinking about, pray a lot. Get God in your life and take the first step today!

Thanks for sharing and its not okay to be stigmatised and treated with disdain by medical professionals

Brilliant video emma, hope youre well!

.After a good sleep in some food, couple of days. I mean, evem the next day i go to work get blood pumping im fineI don't feel that bad. Nothing compared to coning off opiates. But I never stay up more then three days. I hate that feeling . So I crash. Could have a 8 ball left don't care sleepy time 😂

I saw people very close to me using effectively to kick a bad opiate habit, a very tough one. better than methadone. no side effects, no craving. I realise these people's experience is not universal and we all need to be careful about both what we experiment with as much as what we advocate for, but still, it singlehanded saved my BFF's life. Also, addiction is complex, very very complex. it's very rarely just about the physiological consequences of substance abuse and more about what an individual lacks in their life, upbringing and coping skills. I saw "strongwilled" hardworking people becoming junkies overnight, and unemployed good for nothing professional freeloaders never really get addicted to anything, even after heavily indulging. Kratom CAN be addictive, even physically so, but first and foremost, the addiction starts with what you are running away from

I just recently stopped taking ADHD meds just randomly by choice because I was feeling worn out all the time. Not everyone takes this shit too far and ADHD meds were super helpful for me because I have ADHD so bad that I ended up homeless living above my means and impulsively spending money. All my stuff was auctioned off in a storage unit I could no longer pay for. All of this happened and I was sober as a nun... Drugs are not the end all be all... They just arent. It's how you react and handle them that matters. Someone else in this thread mentioned that ADHD people tend to become addicts more frequently than neurotypical people and I agree with that. So you can't exactly blame the meds because you have no idea if it was the meds or just YOU

I truly admire how deeply you are exposing yourself for the sake of helping others. Thank you Emma for what you are doing for this world.

There is a correlation between ADHD and addiction.I did not know that ADHD meds could lead to addiction.But if some meds increase dopamine with time and more dosage ,It makes sense that the threshold for feeling the effects of dopamine is increasingly moving forward over time. .

Thank you so much for creating this channel and sharing your experience!! You are helping more than you’ll ever know! Please keep it up, I love watching and I’m really excited to watch your journey and your recovery! I’m 8 years clean from opioids myself, so we both know it’s so important for us to share our stories and reach as many people as we can so they understand that they’re not alone and that we do recover!! I don’t know you personally but I’m proud of you! ❤

Proud of you girly ❤

Mentally ill people get rejected from society and that is the main reason they turn to drugs. And drugs are social construct to keep you in anestasia, untill the incompetent bastards decide what to do with you or you die. Don't blame them. They just protect their kids, by killing others. Be glad you are out. You are beautiful. Keep on fighting. Never look back.

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Day 7, for the second time. Weeee 😂😂😂😂

My best friend died of a meth induced heart attack four years ago. He was sober for years, went out once and used, dead!!. I never struggled either addiction until a few months after his death I started taking kratom. Felt great for about a year. Now I’ve spent the last two years of my life in chronic relapse. I’m always going through withdrawals, having to hide it from friends and family. They wonder why I’m sick so often lol.

You’re a strong woman….

I feel like for me at least the cravings stopped after I found a passion or something to do with myself in time when we are truly left with nothing but our own thoughts that’s when the cravings usually get unbearable

So proud of you ❤

Legend status achieved 🏆

Thanks for sharing and giving hope to those recovering from addiction

I have Depersonalisation and Derealisation since I was about 14 yrs old. When it first started happening I was very very scared because I had no idea what it was, I wanted to visit my Doctors to talk about it but I was afraid he would think I am going crazy and have me locked up and worse I didn't even know the right way of explaining it. The only thing I could convey if I was to get them to somewhat understand what I am feeling is imagine if you suddenly had Deja vu but it lasted for days, weeks or a couple of months at a time. It doesn't feel exactly like Deja Vu but it is as weird as that. Now I understand what is happening to me, I actually don't mind it at all and I have pinpointed its origins going back to 10-11yrs old when I was subjected to SA. It was my brain protecting myself by Disassociating myself with the things that happened. I used to blame myself for anything that went wrong in my life and there were a couple of people in my family who also like to throw blame at me. I got blamed and suspended from school because I refused to take part in P.E which started in me refusing to shower after P.E. I would also try and keep my coat on in class and answer teachers back when they humiliated me in front of the whole class for wearing a coat in lessons in summer. All these things were not my fault but I had nobody to tell my story to and I blamed everything on myself which destroyed my self esteem. Now I have a psychiatrist and my mom who know everything. Knowing that someone else knows brings much relief but I know millions of other people are going through even worse than I ever did and this is upsetting.

There are different new tapers that are being used these days where many drugs we can half at first and then go down over weeks to months in ever decreasing amounts until we stop completely however the new taper is where the last steps need to be a very small reduction in use until we stop. I went pretty much cold turkey for alcohol which was a long time ago and I suffered for it including all the painful withdrawals and I had the DTs. For Opiates I reduced gradually and went through a lot of pain and had severe agitation and just as bad insomnia for 11 days straight. I am now taking Gabapentin which is just as dangerous as Benzo's and Alcohol if stopped suddenly. I have a 12 month plan where I have already halved my dose and then halved again which haven't caused me any issues. The problem is from now on where I continue to reduce, I run into physical and psychological problems. Once I get to 300 mg per day and below I have to stretch out the amounts I reduce by. The last five reductions need to be by ever smaller amounts until I am using a syringe taken orally mixed up in water from a single 100 mg tablet. If I don't do this slowly and carefully I risk getting rapid heartbeat, burning and aching muscles and bones, insomnia and Delirium Tremens which is very dangerous. I will know the amount I can cope with by just reducing and staying with each reduction for at least a month and then reducing less again. I need to continue this until I finally can stop. I will get to 100 mg per day, 70mg per day 50mg per day, then eventually 10mg per day 8mg per day, until I am 5 mg per day and continue in this fashion. Remembering I started at 3600mg per day which was the maximum dose, so it takes a long time and I have to be very careful.

I'm three weeks sober and two weeks in rehab and your videos gave me courage to get clean so thank you

I'm on day 3 5 years 60 grams a day The restless legs is from the dopamine and testosterone drop when going through the withdrawal and lasts till your levels get back to normal

*Ptp* *Ptp* *Ptp*

I worked with people suffering addiction, my nurse "mémoire" (I don't know the english word, I guess "University dissertation") was about "how the medical staff perceives people with addiction, and how people with addiction perceives themself". Anyway, what people struggling with addiction say about their feelings was that, to not be considered like others patient and feeling shame. And what people in way of recovery described, as you, is the small (but not so small in reality) to feel NORMAL (therefore, to be integrated fully into society). I will not go deeper because I'm affraid I cannot write a book here, so I will finish by telling you that your joy is one of many more that you'll soon feel. Congrats from other side of the ocean, where people wear berets and eats baguette. Keep motivated!

У меня тахикардия. Появилась после смерти бабушки. Примерно пять лет подряд была сильно выражена, сейчас почти не пью таблетки (бисопролол), так как пульс в основном в пределах нормы.

That’s super cool, I’m a year and a half sober and I agree! I’m also in a medical assisting program though and I’ve found that it’s not always that addicts aren’t taken seriously, it’s that drugs and alcohol have an effect on our health and cause issues either on their own or when in combination with medication and slow healing processes. So if anyone reads this please be honest about anything you use so that you don’t risk further health risks, doctors will find a way to treat you with your substances in mind, knowing that they cannot change your habits or addictions.

Leaving religion felt like ridding myself of a parasite. The moment i left the church my depression was cured 😊❤

Friendly reminder that you can live a wonderful happy life without religion 😊❤

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That's awesome

I am happy for you, keep motivated.

Blessings to you. Prayers for strength.

It truly is a proud feeling. Over 4 yrs clean and sober. It's hard. Very hard. The mental work is the worst. But it's beautiful to feel and see urself grow.

Hi Emma , thx for your openness . Also legal in the Netherlands, i agree with everything you said. I understand the naltraxone treatment however using the tablets for a long time keeps your reptile brain in charge , complete abstinence is the word. Take care !

I only experienced three times withdrawals and it was like you say horrible! On the expressway going to get Percocets I didn't dose that morning and then I found myself shaking and trembling in the car and yelling uncontrollably! It was terrifying! And at times I couldn't keep my eyes open I just could not keep them open I was so scared that I was going to crash! This only lasted maybe 40 minutes until I got home the dose. But if that withdrawal will last for days than I need to go to a rehab. Get away from all temptations and the controlled environment and I would refuse all medications! The point of being in what detox is to get the stuff out of your system as quick as possible I believe.

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Facial profiling reveals genetic anomalies. Having a nose ring reveals out of baseline foolishness.

Generally most people will deal with chronic boredom because of a lack of fleshed out long term goals. This is why writing out, reviewing, and planning for your goals on a daily basis can help. The biggest key is actually writing it out, too many people skip this and just "set a goal in their head" and then continue failing to achieve it over and over through life.

I'm always bored if I am sitting still so I just train until I get , hurt and then I have have to sit down.

I think the biggest game changer in my recovery from crystal was putting trust in a higher power (step 2 of the 12 steps). It gives meaning to the suffering endured post-addiction (including the boredom), and if you’re joining a religious institution, you have people that can hold you accountable and give you a sense of community. I’m not here to shove religion down peoples’ throats, but it makes a difference as an addict.

I have 4 years clean and I'm feeling the chronic boredom

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