I've never had an addiction to chemical substances ... but am deeply concerned what is happening for so many in the world, and I've learned so much from you here. Thank you for creating this and sharing.
You're very articulate & did a great job sharing your insights. Rarely do people realize that internal strife can drive ANYONE to substance abuse; regardless of circumstance/upbringing, etc. I felt a connection between my story and yours for this reason. I'm happy you're doing well, we do recover!!!! 😀
Yeah exactly. Many people look down on addicts and don't realize literally anyone can become an addict. For some it's "willingly" and for some it's unintentional. And with unintentional I mean people who get legit prescription and by no fault take their pills as scheduled to then get their prescription stopped and realize they feel like shit without the prescription. Addiction is not only for depressed or traumatized people like most people seem to think.
I can reallly relate to what you said about sleep being so important. I worked the night shift for a year and a half a couple years ago and during that time most days I was unable to sleep for more than 3 hours. Even though I needed sleep so bad I kept waking up. I've always been somebody that needed a lot of sleep (like between 7 to 8 hours a night) and near the end it started to have a really negative impact on me. It's really inspiring to hear you talk about having such a healthy lifestyle now. Even working out 4 to 5 times a week, it really shows :) Much love from Belgium!
Hey Emma Thank you for your courage integrity and genuine heart. This vid is a gift to both you and others somewhere in the addiction process. I work in MH at times with people at different stages of the meth use cycle and your insight is really informative and useful for me. I've only done meth one time and it was so good, I decided that was a slippery slope. However I've also lots of experience with deliberate sleep deprivation so good to know some of that experience can inform future empathy and understanding. You''re doing such an amazing job...Enjoy the beauty x
Thank you for sharing. ♡ It's so sad. I have a friend who used to be an addict to this substance. I don't know what their situation regarding it now is, because they are so private.. I just know they misuse alcohol now. This helps me understand. Wishing you all the strength. There is hope!!
Your story is amazing. I love to see your vibrant happiness and love for life after coming back from this. I have looked into the eyes and desired to pull others from the depths of their addiction. It is difficult to witness first hand a seemingly lifeless body and a mind of someone you care about; their hollow eyes bereft of vitality - and usually so far gone that they don't even want to climb out of where they are, and they are incapable of reciprocating love and gratitude. Congrats to you for taking it to another level and pulling out of the dark places. You are an inspiration. Your spirit is unstoppable. You will achieve all those dreams you spoke of, the very things that inspired you to overcome. Your genuine care and capacity to show love and gratitude is readily apparent. You have infinite worth, your story is important, and your life has purpose. I love it.
From my own experience experience, and from graduate school and others I’ve known, it takes an average of 1-3 years for the brain to recover from Substance Use Disorders, in general. Studies say it’s at least 3 years for stimulants. That’s completely recovered, though! Personally, I noticed a big change around 6 months, to where I didn’t think about using all the time. After a year and a half I didn’t think about it every day. 3 years was like magic! I didn’t think of it anymore, in terms of obsession. I have to remind myself I still shouldn’t let myself be around people using, because I don’t want to go back! All your recovery isn’t erased if you have a lab, but if it turns into a relapse, you can start back where you were at, or even worse. All the fentanyl and iso showing up in everything is enough to say, “I’m good!” You’re so right about the sleep issues. That’s dopamine deficiency.. a lot of people don’t know dopamine is not just for pleasure is for motivation, so nobody would get out of bed without it. People are wrong that people with substance use disorders are selfish and want to be high all the time. People in severe addiction are actually dopamine deficient, so they have less dopamine than the average person who doesn’t use, and less than we all need. It’s no party! Thank you for educating people! ❤. Paranoia is not unusual. I even know people with schizophrenia type symptoms who used for a long time, but quit. Some of them got diagnosed with schizophrenia if they don’t tell medical providers about their history. I’m not sure if they would have the same diagnosis if they did, or not. If they are still using, they wouldn’t be diagnosed with a paranoid disorder, or schizophrenia. Most doctors wouldn’t diagnose anyone with the major mental illness for about a year after they’ve been in recovery.
Hey I just wanted to say that I'm very proud of you, for even trying, let alone overcoming your addiction. the only drugs I've had experience with is marijuana and psychedelics so I've never done any pills or other uppers and I just wanted to say that your beauty shows even through all of this you are stunning and it made me realize that even people who do drugs like this and then overcome it's almost a certain art the before and after of just how you appear to others and yourself it's a bigger rush than the meth. That happiness that I'm sure you experience every single day when you wake up and you realize that aren't focused on the next high anymore and now focused on yourself and your future, I'm so proud of you. You are a stunning young woman and you will go very far in life as long as you put your mind to it I appreciate you for posting this to inform others of the dangerous of methamphetamine because that drug, excuse my language, but it's so fucked. I know this message might sound a little weird from a stranger but I am not even 18 yet my brain isn't fully developed, but i don't need a fully developed brain to know you overcame one of the most difficult things and it's inspiring to me that even someone who was addicted to meth could overcome it and it makes me think any normal life challenge will be cake compared to something like that so I thank you and have a wonderful morning, evening, or goodnight. P.S. Half of these shitty comments are from people I'm sure who aren't informed neither tried the substance they have so right to speak on your accomplishment negatively. ❤❤❤
The tree police. I've never seen a cop in a tree in my whole life. I've seen most people get remotely back to normal after about a year clean. But not everyone most just never get clean. Glad you made it.
Congratulations, listening to your history with meth and you leaving it behind, makes me feel proud of you , be proud of yourself because that’s not an easy thing to just leave behind, be strong every day and keep going,
Thank you for sharing your very brave. I always wondered why long term uses do not have a natural turn off. I grow up in the 70- 80s when drugs flowed and a certain point my brain said I am destroying myself and stopped. Of course we are all different, and grow up in different environments which is a huge part.
Stimulants are really damaging especially compared to opiates. Seeing only from a physical side opiates don't damage the body but with stimulants it destroys from inside more. If you know some things about drugs you might probably not tell if someone has been an opiate addict but you might tell someone has been on stimulants with weird ticks, speaking and so on. Anyway good for being sober!
I was addicted to both meth and opiates and did them for many many years daily. For some reason letting go of meth was a walk in the park compared to opiates. The physical hold it had on me was deep seeded. Meth absolutely changed my personality though. I experienced drug induced psychosis and that messed me up pretty bad. Hard to say for me which is worse. They both ruined many many years of my life. I'm so thankful I was able to get clean 8 years ago and haven't looked back.
I'm lucky I got out when I did. I only used for a year and mostly only on weekends (due to how expensive it was and how little money I made), so I was never deep into it, but the makings for a sh!tty life were certainly developing. I had to forsake all of the friends I was hanging out with in order to quit. I don't claim that I was the cause, but I was the first of my friends to quit, and I like to think it inspired others to quit as well (maybe not immediately, but eventually). I see them on facebook, and it looks like they've all gone on to lead normal healthy lives, aside from one who died. He never got his life straightened out.
ure also lucky u didnt find a large bag of the shit in the street like i did. coz i think u wouldve gone through the entire lot in less than a year and carked it like the other guy.
Post Addiction Withdrawal Syndrome(PAWS)can last 2 years for many living with it. I was always drawn to Opiods, but speed(Methamphetamine, not crystal meth)was the first drug that I injected. I wish you all the best in life and sobriety!
@@THEWARDIARYCocaine and crack cocaine is basically same thing. It's just different route of administration (roa) and baking soda added.The difference between cocaine and crack is that the two substances are basically chemically identical except that crack cocaine has the hydrochloride salt removed; hydrochloride salt has no psychoactive effects
Length and strength of use as to whether you can fully recover. Strength probably more so. Will is important too, self-belief, in any recovery - faith and belief in miracles. I completely relate to so much that you say, including sleep. I never made the correlation between my stimulant use and my aversion to sleep until you've said it now. Both uppers and downers have been my choice though - perhaps mitigating natural highs and lows in my moods. Another thing, never truly connected the shadow people and 'blobs' (black orb) to my meth use, and subsequent lack of sleep, but that makes sense. I still believe what I saw was there and exists in another realm. Not delusional; I think it's very real. Altered states of mind because of sleep deprivation, substance use and misuse, allows us to see and experience things that are otherwise always around. Seem to have ADHD here too. I'm sure that's what influenced Josh Homme's use of meth for sixteen years. It only came out recently that he'd been using that for so long. Stimulants of any kind are making up for a lack in our chemistry and so it works for us.
Meth does more than just block dopamine reuptake. It changes the direction which dopamine flows and floods the synapses with dopamine. MDMA does something similar but with both dopamine and serotonin
Im so glad you are in position your in! Some lose everything from meth. And if you into meth psychosis you can end up hurting someone or even killing someone when normally you would never do anything like that. Meth is awful and it has destroyed several peoples lives i know and they truly are good people but meth took everything from them and hurt many people.
Thanks for sharing Emma. After day three I would see bugs. My wife Donna and I were all the way in it. Fent, meth, whatever. But we are on the other side of that now.
2. Never ever have I ever experience anything like this. It what the feeling I felt that scared me. I felt like all the joy, happiness, hope , etc ripped out of me. It felt like the desire to live just vanished. I'm lucky that someone watches from above and helped to turn on the light quickly. It would be nice if we could speak. I think would help ya, help me (help us). After that incident. It didn't stop there, it was horrible but I never saw the same thing again. I feel that God led me to this video for a reason too. 2 people from 2 different parts of the world experiencing the same thing. Yea. Anyways please reply and I hope ya have been well. Would it be ok for ya to chat through email or would ya rather another platform. Till now instill feel s lot of unease about it. Thanks for taking the time to read. God Bless
O was into meth heavy but then got into depressants mainly opioids and that became mostly what I did with my life and. Now I'm on sublocade and have relapsed in the past but am not physically dependent anymore and can't get access if I wanted to do it's not even worth chasing but I can't sleep and naturally feel like I'm tweaked out and have tried stimulants and they just make me more focused and happy while I'm awake because I'm awake Anyways but am scared I will get heavy into stimulants again any answers how I can sleep better only have cannabis now but not trying to get high just good sleep
I had a sad experience recently. I rarely drink coffee but it was late and I needed to drive so I stopped at a Starbucks to get a small coffee. There was a young woman there who asked for help. She was dirty but her clothes were clean. She wore a very nice white coat. She asked for money and if she could use my phone. I didn't have cash so I said "no" and I was worried she'd try to run off with my phone so I compromised, "tell me who to call and I'll put it on speaker phone." She called her mom. I overheard a heartbreaking story from her mom and how she stole jewelry, phones, clothes, money and credit cards for drugs. Her mom said, "we can't let you back in our lives because we couldn't pay our mortgage and almost lost our house because you stole from us." Her mom hung up the phone. She just got up and left. Never said thank you or anything, disappearing into the alley behind the supermarket. (I noticed you make a "smacking" sound when you talk like she did too)
I remember alot of the horrible things my ex said to me when we were high. He was incredibly volatile on drugs and argumentative. Even though I was using too he really damaged my self esteem by being so verbally abusive :-( meth is so evil
Some people are tuned in to the total destructive traits of the meth drug lifestyle. I’ve seen it I’ve done it. It the worst of worst. Seeing and hearing shit that isn’t there. How could any relationship last. Like you said, it’s evil and it’s hard to get over. But it’s possible. Because we’re human and God is with us and for us.
@@aricdarke3034 i heard and saw shit that wasnt there and did nothing about it, because im a lazy bum and believe in nothing. nothing is more powerful than god.
I did once and high is not even that good for the pain after and halucinations and lack of sleep hearth palpitations ect. It was not addicted for me I do not want to take it ever again this was the worst what I have taken also it puts me off for trying new drugs. Now I stick only with the basics and only from reliabe source.
This is really though and... can't stop to stare at your beautiful blue eyes and... I'm reading the pain that they've been trough... and some movements that means some SNC damage (that is going to be cool sooner, I don't want to be mean). Girl, how It feels to stare at your mirror everyday? How does It feel? How can you read your mind so deeply and say "I'm not going to do this again, I'm more!"? And If you could... are you brain still being gray matter? Or turned into gray-blue as your beautiful and wonderful eyes. Wish can be your mirror, looking directly at me as your image and can see your own aura, your magnetic aura, your painful but full of faith soul... Anyway, you're doing well and stay doing the right thing, you're clever as a book, a magic book one... and I bet It can turn your next pages more like a Medicine book and probably you wearing an doctor apron. 😄
My question is, how can one put back on all the weight they lost? I've been clean for over a year and I have put on a few pounds, but I am still underweight, and all I want is to gain about 20 to 30 pounds or so!
Calories in , calories out (CiCo) eat more calories than you spend. Might be that you have really high metabolism. Fat has 9 calories per gram. Protein and carbs have 4. So eat more fat if you van
It feels terrible, I never feel awake at all anymore, I haven't been able to sleep less than 10-12 hours a night for 10 years now. I've never gone back to feeling normal, normal was what i felt of meth and coke now I feel sluggish all the time, no energy, eyes are always heavy I never has any issue with memory loss I didn't do the longest runs but I would stay awake for a week doing shit then sleep 1 night and go another week without sleep for about 2 years straight, tbf I was also doing other shit on top of meth like a shit tonne of coke, all for essentially free.
What do you mean you never got back to normal ? Is it that bad ? Pessimistic people like you make those who still do it chronically for years on end wonder if it is even worth stopping
insane for someone who takes something so aboslutely damaging to the body and brain would think they get to feel how they did before taking it. That's like drinking a sip of hydrochloric acid everyday and asking when your vocal chords will go back to normal after stopping.
@williamallen7836 because it's better than literally dying and spending all your money on meth? If it was all cool and you could just go back to normal after they wouldn't try to drill it into kids heads not to ever do meth now would they 🤦♂️
It does forever change the brain. Don’t think I’ll ever feel normal as in how I felt before the meth again. But finding the new normal. I hope you’re enjoying life and having peaceful moments when they come
Congrats, mephedrone was a bastard, uk party drug, 33 now but was on it from 18 to 21, constantly, scary reality, nobody should feel that good lol But it’s over now, opiods tho. Stuck on kratom, ended up on oxy, got off it 4 years ago, but still on decline from kratom thanks to help from a clinic. I live a great successful life, so there is no need for me to be on drugs.
The material successes in life often have very little bearing upon how we feel about ourselves. Drug seeking us driven by tge desire to escape emotional pain the vast majority of the time. Address your emotional well-being and it will drastically improve your journey of sobriety.
Can u please explain the thing with meth and sex. I was told it’s a different kind of sex they crave on meth. It’s about pleasuring them not who they are with. It’s animal type sex, 2 hour sessions. They feel no love towards them. That’s why people on meth cheat due to they just want sex and will have it with anyone when on meth. Can u explain it please?
@@sharonscott1776 yeah i didn’t personally experience this but I have seen and heard from a lot of people that did, often in the gay community. For some people it just creates this intense sex drive and they use the drug mainly for that reason. They stay up and have sex like crazy for a long time. That was never the reaction I had to it. Guess it really just depends on the person
I used meth for 25 years when I finally quit I slept for 2 weeks straight I've been clean 8 years I still can't function normal I can focus and concentrate so much better when I was using but I couldn't chase the bag anymore
stereotypes. know lots of them that aren't toothless and skinny. when i was using it me and my buddies would get fast food all say eat dont hang with junkies. 😁
Lol yep I am sure. I do have ADHD and fidget a lot, always have. But I made a conscious decision to leave behind any and all mind and mood altering substances 13 months. Also it is really damn obvious when I’m using. I fall off the face of the earth and turn into a zombie Skelton with concaved eyes
Good thing she isn't yours then.. she isn't for everyone and she isn't out here looking for criticism on her appearance. You're acting like a jackass. Gross.
I've never had an addiction to chemical substances ... but am deeply concerned what is happening for so many in the world, and I've learned so much from you here. Thank you for creating this and sharing.
As Winston Churchill said - if you are going through hell...keep going. You are doing well, keep going.
Unfortunately we fought the wrong enemy
You're very articulate & did a great job sharing your insights. Rarely do people realize that internal strife can drive ANYONE to substance abuse; regardless of circumstance/upbringing, etc.
I felt a connection between my story and yours for this reason. I'm happy you're doing well, we do recover!!!! 😀
Yeah exactly. Many people look down on addicts and don't realize literally anyone can become an addict.
For some it's "willingly" and for some it's unintentional. And with unintentional I mean people who get legit prescription and by no fault take their pills as scheduled to then get their prescription stopped and realize they feel like shit without the prescription. Addiction is not only for depressed or traumatized people like most people seem to think.
Glowing, well done my fellow human, it's a hard trail but you are trekking
I can reallly relate to what you said about sleep being so important. I worked the night shift for a year and a half a couple years ago and during that time most days I was unable to sleep for more than 3 hours. Even though I needed sleep so bad I kept waking up. I've always been somebody that needed a lot of sleep (like between 7 to 8 hours a night) and near the end it started to have a really negative impact on me.
It's really inspiring to hear you talk about having such a healthy lifestyle now. Even working out 4 to 5 times a week, it really shows :) Much love from Belgium!
keep going beautiful girl! ❤ sleep deprivation in itself on even one nights sleep of like two hours fucks me up the next day
Hey Emma Thank you for your courage integrity and genuine heart. This vid is a gift to both you and others somewhere in the addiction process. I work in MH at times with people at different stages of the meth use cycle and your insight is really informative and useful for me. I've only done meth one time and it was so good, I decided that was a slippery slope. However I've also lots of experience with deliberate sleep deprivation so good to know some of that experience can inform future empathy and understanding. You''re doing such an amazing job...Enjoy the beauty x
Time takes time. Proud of you.
Thank you for sharing. ♡ It's so sad. I have a friend who used to be an addict to this substance. I don't know what their situation regarding it now is, because they are so private.. I just know they misuse alcohol now. This helps me understand.
Wishing you all the strength. There is hope!!
Your story is amazing. I love to see your vibrant happiness and love for life after coming back from this. I have looked into the eyes and desired to pull others from the depths of their addiction. It is difficult to witness first hand a seemingly lifeless body and a mind of someone you care about; their hollow eyes bereft of vitality - and usually so far gone that they don't even want to climb out of where they are, and they are incapable of reciprocating love and gratitude. Congrats to you for taking it to another level and pulling out of the dark places. You are an inspiration. Your spirit is unstoppable. You will achieve all those dreams you spoke of, the very things that inspired you to overcome. Your genuine care and capacity to show love and gratitude is readily apparent. You have infinite worth, your story is important, and your life has purpose. I love it.
too bad she lying about it all shes super fake.
From my own experience experience, and from graduate school and others I’ve known, it takes an average of 1-3 years for the brain to recover from Substance Use Disorders, in general. Studies say it’s at least 3 years for stimulants. That’s completely recovered, though! Personally, I noticed a big change around 6 months, to where I didn’t think about using all the time. After a year and a half I didn’t think about it every day. 3 years was like magic! I didn’t think of it anymore, in terms of obsession. I have to remind myself I still shouldn’t let myself be around people using, because I don’t want to go back! All your recovery isn’t erased if you have a lab, but if it turns into a relapse, you can start back where you were at, or even worse. All the fentanyl and iso showing up in everything is enough to say, “I’m good!” You’re so right about the sleep issues. That’s dopamine deficiency.. a lot of people don’t know dopamine is not just for pleasure is for motivation, so nobody would get out of bed without it. People are wrong that people with substance use disorders are selfish and want to be high all the time. People in severe addiction are actually dopamine deficient, so they have less dopamine than the average person who doesn’t use, and less than we all need. It’s no party! Thank you for educating people! ❤. Paranoia is not unusual. I even know people with schizophrenia type symptoms who used for a long time, but quit. Some of them got diagnosed with schizophrenia if they don’t tell medical providers about their history. I’m not sure if they would have the same diagnosis if they did, or not. If they are still using, they wouldn’t be diagnosed with a paranoid disorder, or schizophrenia. Most doctors wouldn’t diagnose anyone with the major mental illness for about a year after they’ve been in recovery.
Hey I just wanted to say that I'm very proud of you, for even trying, let alone overcoming your addiction. the only drugs I've had experience with is marijuana and psychedelics so I've never done any pills or other uppers and I just wanted to say that your beauty shows even through all of this you are stunning and it made me realize that even people who do drugs like this and then overcome it's almost a certain art the before and after of just how you appear to others and yourself it's a bigger rush than the meth. That happiness that I'm sure you experience every single day when you wake up and you realize that aren't focused on the next high anymore and now focused on yourself and your future, I'm so proud of you. You are a stunning young woman and you will go very far in life as long as you put your mind to it I appreciate you for posting this to inform others of the dangerous of methamphetamine because that drug, excuse my language, but it's so fucked. I know this message might sound a little weird from a stranger but I am not even 18 yet my brain isn't fully developed, but i don't need a fully developed brain to know you overcame one of the most difficult things and it's inspiring to me that even someone who was addicted to meth could overcome it and it makes me think any normal life challenge will be cake compared to something like that so I thank you and have a wonderful morning, evening, or goodnight. P.S. Half of these shitty comments are from people I'm sure who aren't informed neither tried the substance they have so right to speak on your accomplishment negatively. ❤❤❤
Thank you Emma, we're struggling with our son and you gave us some clarifying insights. Hold fast and congratulations. Hope to meet you some day.
The tree police. I've never seen a cop in a tree in my whole life. I've seen most people get remotely back to normal after about a year clean. But not everyone most just never get clean. Glad you made it.
"Most just never get clean" damn that hit hard. I am grateful for my sobriety today
I am happy for you for where you have reached mentally, i admire your honesty
Congratulations, listening to your history with meth and you leaving it behind, makes me feel proud of you , be proud of yourself because that’s not an easy thing to just leave behind, be strong every day and keep going,
Thank you for sharing your very brave. I always wondered why long term uses do not have a natural turn off. I grow up in the 70- 80s when drugs flowed and a certain point my brain said I am destroying myself and stopped. Of course we are all different, and grow up in different environments which is a huge part.
this testimony is so powerful 🙏
thanks for sharing your experience and your learnings Emma, very brave from you
Stimulants are really damaging especially compared to opiates. Seeing only from a physical side opiates don't damage the body but with stimulants it destroys from inside more.
If you know some things about drugs you might probably not tell if someone has been an opiate addict but you might tell someone has been on stimulants with weird ticks, speaking and so on.
Anyway good for being sober!
I was addicted to both meth and opiates and did them for many many years daily. For some reason letting go of meth was a walk in the park compared to opiates. The physical hold it had on me was deep seeded. Meth absolutely changed my personality though. I experienced drug induced psychosis and that messed me up pretty bad. Hard to say for me which is worse. They both ruined many many years of my life. I'm so thankful I was able to get clean 8 years ago and haven't looked back.
I'm lucky I got out when I did. I only used for a year and mostly only on weekends (due to how expensive it was and how little money I made), so I was never deep into it, but the makings for a sh!tty life were certainly developing. I had to forsake all of the friends I was hanging out with in order to quit. I don't claim that I was the cause, but I was the first of my friends to quit, and I like to think it inspired others to quit as well (maybe not immediately, but eventually). I see them on facebook, and it looks like they've all gone on to lead normal healthy lives, aside from one who died. He never got his life straightened out.
ure also lucky u didnt find a large bag of the shit in the street like i did. coz i think u wouldve gone through the entire lot in less than a year and carked it like the other guy.
Post Addiction Withdrawal Syndrome(PAWS)can last 2 years for many living with it. I was always drawn to Opiods, but speed(Methamphetamine, not crystal meth)was the first drug that I injected. I wish you all the best in life and sobriety!
Crystal meth is just meth. You can melt those crystals down and you still have the meth you started with. They aren't different
Speed and Crystal Meth are two different drugs. There may be some chemical similarities, but the effects are different. Dramatically different.
@@metri0n No, meth and crystal meth are NOT same the same. That's like saying cocaine and crack cocaine is the same.
@@THEWARDIARYCocaine and crack cocaine is basically same thing. It's just different route of administration (roa) and baking soda added.The difference between cocaine and crack is that the two substances are basically chemically identical except that crack cocaine has the hydrochloride salt removed; hydrochloride salt has no psychoactive effects
@@THEWARDIARYAnd meth and crystal are both forms of methamphetamines. Other one is more potent and concentrated.
Length and strength of use as to whether you can fully recover. Strength probably more so. Will is important too, self-belief, in any recovery - faith and belief in miracles. I completely relate to so much that you say, including sleep. I never made the correlation between my stimulant use and my aversion to sleep until you've said it now. Both uppers and downers have been my choice though - perhaps mitigating natural highs and lows in my moods. Another thing, never truly connected the shadow people and 'blobs' (black orb) to my meth use, and subsequent lack of sleep, but that makes sense. I still believe what I saw was there and exists in another realm. Not delusional; I think it's very real. Altered states of mind because of sleep deprivation, substance use and misuse, allows us to see and experience things that are otherwise always around. Seem to have ADHD here too. I'm sure that's what influenced Josh Homme's use of meth for sixteen years. It only came out recently that he'd been using that for so long. Stimulants of any kind are making up for a lack in our chemistry and so it works for us.
Meth does more than just block dopamine reuptake. It changes the direction which dopamine flows and floods the synapses with dopamine. MDMA does something similar but with both dopamine and serotonin
MDMA has given me long term anhedonia, especially towards sex. My fantasy has become having sex on MDMA ever since I tried it
Thanks for this Emm ❤🎉
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND IM SO HAPPY YOU FOUND SOBRIETY FROM THAT HORRIBLE DRUG ME TOO I AM CLEAN NOW AND LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL
Im so glad you are in position your in! Some lose everything from meth. And if you into meth psychosis you can end up hurting someone or even killing someone when normally you would never do anything like that. Meth is awful and it has destroyed several peoples lives i know and they truly are good people but meth took everything from them and hurt many people.
Thanks for sharing Emma. After day three I would see bugs. My wife Donna and I were all the way in it. Fent, meth, whatever. But we are on the other side of that now.
Wow you’re really good at this! UA-cam and such
shes good at lying and is a somewhat attractive female so yes she will be a hit here on youtube.
2. Never ever have I ever experience anything like this. It what the feeling I felt that scared me. I felt like all the joy, happiness, hope , etc ripped out of me. It felt like the desire to live just vanished. I'm lucky that someone watches from above and helped to turn on the light quickly. It would be nice if we could speak. I think would help ya, help me (help us). After that incident. It didn't stop there, it was horrible but I never saw the same thing again. I feel that God led me to this video for a reason too. 2 people from 2 different parts of the world experiencing the same thing. Yea. Anyways please reply and I hope ya have been well. Would it be ok for ya to chat through email or would ya rather another platform. Till now instill feel s lot of unease about it. Thanks for taking the time to read. God Bless
Thank you for sharing helpful information. Keep moving forward 👍
O was into meth heavy but then got into depressants mainly opioids and that became mostly what I did with my life and. Now I'm on sublocade and have relapsed in the past but am not physically dependent anymore and can't get access if I wanted to do it's not even worth chasing but I can't sleep and naturally feel like I'm tweaked out and have tried stimulants and they just make me more focused and happy while I'm awake because I'm awake Anyways but am scared I will get heavy into stimulants again any answers how I can sleep better only have cannabis now but not trying to get high just good sleep
God is with you, you are giving hope to many
I had a sad experience recently. I rarely drink coffee but it was late and I needed to drive so I stopped at a Starbucks to get a small coffee. There was a young woman there who asked for help. She was dirty but her clothes were clean. She wore a very nice white coat. She asked for money and if she could use my phone. I didn't have cash so I said "no" and I was worried she'd try to run off with my phone so I compromised, "tell me who to call and I'll put it on speaker phone." She called her mom. I overheard a heartbreaking story from her mom and how she stole jewelry, phones, clothes, money and credit cards for drugs. Her mom said, "we can't let you back in our lives because we couldn't pay our mortgage and almost lost our house because you stole from us." Her mom hung up the phone. She just got up and left. Never said thank you or anything, disappearing into the alley behind the supermarket.
(I noticed you make a "smacking" sound when you talk like she did too)
Do u remember the hurtful things u said to people while on meth? My ex was so awful to me and I wonder if he remembers what he said.
I remember alot of the horrible things my ex said to me when we were high. He was incredibly volatile on drugs and argumentative. Even though I was using too he really damaged my self esteem by being so verbally abusive :-( meth is so evil
Some people are tuned in to the total destructive traits of the meth drug lifestyle. I’ve seen it I’ve done it. It the worst of worst. Seeing and hearing shit that isn’t there. How could any relationship last. Like you said, it’s evil and it’s hard to get over. But it’s possible. Because we’re human and God is with us and for us.
@@aricdarke3034 i heard and saw shit that wasnt there and did nothing about it, because im a lazy bum and believe in nothing.
nothing is more powerful than god.
I did once and high is not even that good for the pain after and halucinations and lack of sleep hearth palpitations ect. It was not addicted for me I do not want to take it ever again this was the worst what I have taken also it puts me off for trying new drugs. Now I stick only with the basics and only from reliabe source.
Stay strong! 🖤🖤💯🖤🖤
This is really though and... can't stop to stare at your beautiful blue eyes and... I'm reading the pain that they've been trough... and some movements that means some SNC damage (that is going to be cool sooner, I don't want to be mean). Girl, how It feels to stare at your mirror everyday? How does It feel? How can you read your mind so deeply and say "I'm not going to do this again, I'm more!"? And If you could... are you brain still being gray matter? Or turned into gray-blue as your beautiful and wonderful eyes. Wish can be your mirror, looking directly at me as your image and can see your own aura, your magnetic aura, your painful but full of faith soul... Anyway, you're doing well and stay doing the right thing, you're clever as a book, a magic book one... and I bet It can turn your next pages more like a Medicine book and probably you wearing an doctor apron. 😄
Good for you! but do you miss listening to ICP??
what a girl proud of you, I will pray you never go back to that filthy drug.
Thank you
So sorry you were exposed to this. Stay better. 🙂
Thank you 🙏🏻💪🏻
Yo I actually kinda forgot my comedown I was angry for weeks after and I only did once for a three day bender
Ive heard its rough on peoples joints.
My question is, how can one put back on all the weight they lost? I've been clean for over a year and I have put on a few pounds, but I am still underweight, and all I want is to gain about 20 to 30 pounds or so!
Calories in , calories out (CiCo) eat more calories than you spend. Might be that you have really high metabolism. Fat has 9 calories per gram. Protein and carbs have 4. So eat more fat if you van
It feels terrible, I never feel awake at all anymore, I haven't been able to sleep less than 10-12 hours a night for 10 years now. I've never gone back to feeling normal, normal was what i felt of meth and coke now I feel sluggish all the time, no energy, eyes are always heavy
I never has any issue with memory loss I didn't do the longest runs but I would stay awake for a week doing shit then sleep 1 night and go another week without sleep for about 2 years straight, tbf I was also doing other shit on top of meth like a shit tonne of coke, all for essentially free.
What do you mean you never got back to normal ? Is it that bad ? Pessimistic people like you make those who still do it chronically for years on end wonder if it is even worth stopping
Thank you ♡
i already stop 1 year and last week i relapsed but just use once that day.stop again.
I wonder if super high-dose long-term Adderall use is the same or at least similar
It's the same
Informative you talk about meth.I don't know about meth.Stimulants,i no longer have patiënce for them.(knock on wood!).
Been 2 years for me and Im nowhere near normal
insane for someone who takes something so aboslutely damaging to the body and brain would think they get to feel how they did before taking it. That's like drinking a sip of hydrochloric acid everyday and asking when your vocal chords will go back to normal after stopping.
If you can't get back to your baseline, what is being sober worth?
@williamallen7836 because it's better than literally dying and spending all your money on meth? If it was all cool and you could just go back to normal after they wouldn't try to drill it into kids heads not to ever do meth now would they 🤦♂️
It's been 21 years since I last did meth- I will never feel normal again.
It does forever change the brain. Don’t think I’ll ever feel normal as in how I felt before the meth again. But finding the new normal. I hope you’re enjoying life and having peaceful moments when they come
Im 7-8 months clean off of it.
Hell yes!!
One day at a time
Congrats, mephedrone was a bastard, uk party drug, 33 now but was on it from 18 to 21, constantly, scary reality, nobody should feel that good lol
But it’s over now, opiods tho. Stuck on kratom, ended up on oxy, got off it 4 years ago, but still on decline from kratom thanks to help from a clinic.
I live a great successful life, so there is no need for me to be on drugs.
The material successes in life often have very little bearing upon how we feel about ourselves. Drug seeking us driven by tge desire to escape emotional pain the vast majority of the time. Address your emotional well-being and it will drastically improve your journey of sobriety.
Can u please explain the thing with meth and sex. I was told it’s a different kind of sex they crave on meth. It’s about pleasuring them not who they are with. It’s animal type sex, 2 hour sessions. They feel no love towards them. That’s why people on meth cheat due to they just want sex and will have it with anyone when on meth. Can u explain it please?
@@sharonscott1776 yeah i didn’t personally experience this but I have seen and heard from a lot of people that did, often in the gay community. For some people it just creates this intense sex drive and they use the drug mainly for that reason. They stay up and have sex like crazy for a long time. That was never the reaction I had to it. Guess it really just depends on the person
@@womaninthewave thank you, congratulations on doing so well xx
Thankyou
3-4 days
I used meth for 25 years when I finally quit I slept for 2 weeks straight I've been clean 8 years I still can't function normal I can focus and concentrate so much better when I was using but I couldn't chase the bag anymore
Sounds like undiagnosed ADHD ?
Insane achievement. Congrtas! I wish You calm life now. Lucas from poland - 3 years sober after 10 years endless alcohol loop
Where you at I got a few bags come over
@@Antonchigurh69344lol
you just need a cheaper source! i pay 20 bucks for a ball
immune to it: just to mention that in my pocket stays one of the mos advanced computer systems ever made.
5 years.
💜💜
❤hi emma from Australia
On the second year
after a bottle of guiness stout and a cut of rump steak. thats when you feel normal again.
It took me 2 Years
You take sleep out of the equation,Your heading down a dark road
Very interesting insights! Btw you look great for a ex-Meth head, count your blessings.
stereotypes. know lots of them that aren't toothless and skinny. when i was using it me and my buddies would get fast food all say eat dont hang with junkies. 😁
Too get through it you need alcohol and time.
12:39 "IOP?"
Intensive out patient
methin' around
M*th = Math?
You are incredibly beautiful
Can anyone please explaine to me why 90% of girls which have some serious issues in life have nose ring? Whhhyyy?
Girl pleas the blood over your health and life
You have an animal nose piercing. Why?
Sure you're still not using...?
Are you aware of what ADHD is?
Lol yep I am sure. I do have ADHD and fidget a lot, always have. But I made a conscious decision to leave behind any and all mind and mood altering substances 13 months. Also it is really damn obvious when I’m using. I fall off the face of the earth and turn into a zombie Skelton with concaved eyes
@@womaninthewave only ppl with adhd can tell the diff between adhd fidgets and being twacked out on stimulants LMAO
I have Adhd
@@DJDJ-z5call good
Nose Rings, tattoos are so gross on a female.
WAT? Come on ... 🙄
This girl pours her heart out and that’s all you have to say?
Good thing she isn't yours then.. she isn't for everyone and she isn't out here looking for criticism on her appearance. You're acting like a jackass. Gross.
Being judgemental is so gross in a male.
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