I like all your videos. Very insightful. Just keep your head up and take a break if need, to walk outside or enjoy nature. Yea, I liked IOP too. The way you talk on these videos kind of sounds like a lead meeting but more in depth. Drugs- cunning, baffling, powerful. What really helped me was changing my diet to healthy food and being positive in my mind. Whenever I would have a negative thought I would change it to something positive. Something it's difficult to do that but I practiced for years. Positive affirmations helped me at times also. Even crystals have helped me and are often overlooked. Natural essential oils too. I like what you said about cherry picking, I do that too, maybe everyone is just trying to find something that works for them. I burn Palo Santo and Sage. I really can't be around too many humans either as they can bring me down or drain me. Well take care now. Healing is a long journey.
You are really helping so many people no matter what point in their use or recovery they are at right now. It isnt a straight line like everyone thinks, but that doesn't mean they dont deserve love and empathy throughout the way
I like watching your videos, they show a lot of insight. I’ve been struggling with myself lately because I have adhd and an anxiety disorder. My new hyper focus is drugs for some fucking reason. I don’t choose what my brain gets interested in :/. My mind doesn’t care if it’s stimulants, downers, greens, whatever. I just keep looking up documentaries, and hell have I watched a lot. For the record, I’ve only done alcohol in my entire life and I absolutely hate it. I’m scared of myself. I have never done good with impulsivity and I’ve finally managed to get into the career of my dreams. Next year I’m gonna go to college and it sounds good, but I also hate it at the same time. I’m excited for the new friends I’m gonna make, but I’m also worried it’s gonna be overwhelming. I like people, but I don’t like them that much. I like doing stuff I like, but I also get burnt out quickly. Just hate my mind. There’s a med shortage in my country so I don’t have my medication. I only take these natural pills that kinda help. I’m sorry for the rant. I like your videos. I feel like your commentary is very interesting and very natural. It’s like you were born for this haha. You kept my attention for most of the video 😊. I’m glad you are out if the situation you were in, seems like you are doing alright. :D I’ve never been in a situation like yours but I can empathize. There ‘failures’, are not really failures. I would define them more as setbacks. Recovery is a long road and even coming from someone that has no experience, it takes a lot of courage and respect to start that process. I’m glad you had the support you needed at the time. ❤
When you say all of your "failed attempts", I know what you mean, but you didn't fail. Each time showed you a different reason to try again. And finally, you tried that last time and it stuck. Which is an amazing thing. ❤ There are no failures, only hope and trying to live. And that can take a while to achieve. You are clearly highly intelligent, very self aware, and SO strong and brave.
My veins have repaired themselves over the past 40 years of taking breaks of cocaine IV use. I won't lie to you or myself that I don't want it ever again because that's a lie! I was using other addictions to take my mind away from the love I have for it. We all know that is always a disaster! And moderation hasn't been my style. I believe in Recovery that is the truth. And the freedom for our own choices is Heaven!
Damn internet these days... Getting creepier all the time... Wouldnt ya know it... I messed up again.... LAST night .... Been trying to quit for over a year. (This time...) Never can make it longer than about 7 weeks. But usually its 2 or 3. Just when i start to get out of the woods i have to start all over.. really sick of it. Part of the issue for me is this. I live in a place i am very very uncomfortable in, i have to work a full time 3rd shift manual labor factory job that i cannot take even a day off... Let alone say a month or two to get better, i live in a backwards crappy part of the country and have little resources, and i am very against the medical industry and do not trust them and frequent doctors as little as possible... So... Yep
I like all your videos. Very insightful. Just keep your head up and take a break if need, to walk outside or enjoy nature. Yea, I liked IOP too. The way you talk on these videos kind of sounds like a lead meeting but more in depth. Drugs- cunning, baffling, powerful. What really helped me was changing my diet to healthy food and being positive in my mind. Whenever I would have a negative thought I would change it to something positive. Something it's difficult to do that but I practiced for years. Positive affirmations helped me at times also. Even crystals have helped me and are often overlooked. Natural essential oils too. I like what you said about cherry picking, I do that too, maybe everyone is just trying to find something that works for them. I burn Palo Santo and Sage. I really can't be around too many humans either as they can bring me down or drain me. Well take care now. Healing is a long journey.
You have an immense amount of courage. To recover they way you have and to make these videos. You’re an excellent educator 🙏🏼
You are really helping so many people no matter what point in their use or recovery they are at right now. It isnt a straight line like everyone thinks, but that doesn't mean they dont deserve love and empathy throughout the way
Thank you so much ❤
I like watching your videos, they show a lot of insight. I’ve been struggling with myself lately because I have adhd and an anxiety disorder. My new hyper focus is drugs for some fucking reason. I don’t choose what my brain gets interested in :/. My mind doesn’t care if it’s stimulants, downers, greens, whatever. I just keep looking up documentaries, and hell have I watched a lot. For the record, I’ve only done alcohol in my entire life and I absolutely hate it. I’m scared of myself. I have never done good with impulsivity and I’ve finally managed to get into the career of my dreams. Next year I’m gonna go to college and it sounds good, but I also hate it at the same time. I’m excited for the new friends I’m gonna make, but I’m also worried it’s gonna be overwhelming. I like people, but I don’t like them that much. I like doing stuff I like, but I also get burnt out quickly. Just hate my mind. There’s a med shortage in my country so I don’t have my medication. I only take these natural pills that kinda help.
I’m sorry for the rant. I like your videos. I feel like your commentary is very interesting and very natural. It’s like you were born for this haha. You kept my attention for most of the video 😊. I’m glad you are out if the situation you were in, seems like you are doing alright. :D I’ve never been in a situation like yours but I can empathize. There ‘failures’, are not really failures. I would define them more as setbacks. Recovery is a long road and even coming from someone that has no experience, it takes a lot of courage and respect to start that process. I’m glad you had the support you needed at the time. ❤
When you say all of your "failed attempts", I know what you mean, but you didn't fail. Each time showed you a different reason to try again. And finally, you tried that last time and it stuck. Which is an amazing thing. ❤
There are no failures, only hope and trying to live. And that can take a while to achieve. You are clearly highly intelligent, very self aware, and SO strong and brave.
💜💜thank you :)
My veins have repaired themselves over the past 40 years of taking breaks of cocaine IV use. I won't lie to you or myself that I don't want it ever again because that's a lie! I was using other addictions to take my mind away from the love I have for it. We all know that is always a disaster! And moderation hasn't been my style. I believe in Recovery that is the truth. And the freedom for our own choices is Heaven!
low oxy in coca overdose brain probs for months .she said , but sounds...smart. not too much damage from that .
Damn internet these days... Getting creepier all the time... Wouldnt ya know it... I messed up again.... LAST night .... Been trying to quit for over a year. (This time...) Never can make it longer than about 7 weeks. But usually its 2 or 3. Just when i start to get out of the woods i have to start all over.. really sick of it.
Part of the issue for me is this. I live in a place i am very very uncomfortable in, i have to work a full time 3rd shift manual labor factory job that i cannot take even a day off... Let alone say a month or two to get better, i live in a backwards crappy part of the country and have little resources, and i am very against the medical industry and do not trust them and frequent doctors as little as possible... So... Yep